Jake was my highschool sweetheart, and my daughters father. I know he had dealt with the very heavy burden of your job requirements. He was also let down by a teammate in a monumental way. Since you knew Jake I'm sure you know how much he believed you were his brothers. Family. A brother broke the code. To face a betrayal as he did, broke him. Along with relationship issues with myself, and other women I won't name out of respect, he certainly had his fair share of demons.But, he was a phenomenal leader, and man. Always inspirational. You're right about the Navy pushing him aside, he never should have been able to leave that hospital. He wasn't going to be discharged, but he wanted it. He couldn't bring himself to do it anymore, and live with what he had done. There were so many factors. I love the impact he made on you, and the fact that you keep his letters still. I do too. I'd be interested in hearing more stories you have about him. Please. Thank you for speaking his name and keeping his memory alive. Gone, but never forgotten. ❤️ Thank you for your service -Brittany
Hello Brittany, Your beautiful, eloquent message moved me to tears. I can't imagine what you, your daughter, & Jake endured & continue to endure. I feel your pain & sadness. My father was in the Teams for 21 years (Class 39). There is an intensity about their lifestyle. It was difficult for my mother & my brother & I coming second as the Teams always comes first. The job requirements would create a toll on anyone & the lack of emotional & psychological support can push the mind to breaking point. I have sensed the pain of Team guys describe how they were betrayed & discarded. It is evident in the suicide rate of active duty Teammates. It sounds like your lives have taken a detour without your consent. I hope you can find moments to breathe deeply & not have to struggle to keep your nose above the water's surface. Being a wife or daughter of a Team guy is not easy. I am grateful to you, your daughter, & Jake's service & ultimate sacrifice. I admire your generous soul in your kindness & expression of appreciation in Chad & Jake's impact in his life. I wish you both a fulfilling life!
Sorry for your loss brother. I was an Infantryman with 2 combat tours. The military uses War Fighters as disposable tools. I’ve lost several brothers to alcoholism, drugs and suicide. One even laid his head on a train track until decapitation . It’s sad that we are trained and brainwashed to kill, then when we are finished, they just let us out into society to roam about like normal people. We aren’t normal and never will be. Some adjust, others don’t. War affects each man differently, but, it affects EVERY man. I struggle every day and it’s only with the help of an ALMIGHTY GOD that I can get through to the other side. May God bless and keep you brother.
Sorry for your loss. I am a Gulf War veteran with PTSD, 24 years US Army. I am here to tell you the truth. My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is the only reason I am here. I don't go to church. When the PTSD kicks in I call it "surfing a wave." I have surfed some big huge waves in the past and the Lord gets me through them all. Is it fun? No. But it is real. I am a PTSD Survivor because of my belief in the Lord ✝️ Good luck to you brother👍
I was randomly looking for something online and came across this video...about my own biological brother! Jake is remembered and missed every single day in our family. He left such a unfixable wound. Every now and then I forget he's gone and think to myself I really need to plan a trip to see him and then remember. None of us are the same without him. 💔
I deployed with Chadd and Jake as their comms guy at 8. I had a few interactions with Jake, but looking back there were signs that he might have been working through something. To be fair, I think a lot of guys were working through some stuff myself included. While I was still at the creek I heard about what happened and how, but I never heard about his battle with alcohol or his potential discharge. You never know what somebody is dealing with. The whole situation is sad but I hope this video and his story helps someone. Chadd, we talked for a bit at the bar right after that mistake you mentioned. I never heard how that all shook out for you, but I'm glad you got past it. You were always a solid dude to work with and one of the good ones.
Chadd looks pretty beefy / strong in that picture before the video starts, compared to now pretty thin. I only met one Navy Seal back around 2006 or 2007 or 08 not sure at community college in a history class. Teacher asked class who the Veterans were, we had several vets but one was a Seal. Dude was bright focused, good looking tall lean, always laughing smiles, had a beautiful girlfriend who came to class with him sometimes, his calves were very muscular, he walked with force. You can tell he was the real deal. I asked the guy if he ever wanted to have kids, he said hell no, never. That Dark side showed a little, later I figured it out, Navy Seals had been mourning those Seal Teams who died in the Helicopters I think Afghanistan. My grandfather was WW2 army veteran, he drank some but was mostly not addicted to anything. But my Uncle was Vietnam Marine Veteran and saw a lot of combat, he was a full blown alcoholic, I think the more action you experienced, the more drinking occurs with Veterans to numb the bad memories and pain. I am certain military combat service is not without its sacrifices and personal damages to all, its normal when you go through hellish stuff, its human to need medicine for it at points in your lives. Not anything to be ashamed about at all, it's just normal.
This type of situation is not uncommon in the intelligence community. I saw good peoples' clearances removed, and they were subsequently fired, for some very "iffy" reasons.
Chadd, thank you for sharing this. Jake was a friend and my roommate at BUD/S for many months. Jake was everything you described and more. Solid, solid man and the type to give his shirt off his back if he thought you needed it. I always regretted not keeping in better touch with Jake and when I heard the news it was a catalyst for me to seek a career in mental health field. I have since accepted an internship at a VA clinic. I think of him often when things get difficult and I need a reminder of my purpose. Too many service members are discarded and abandoned when things go awry for them and its wrong. Hearing your stories of his leadership and friendship put a smile on my face and a tear in my eye. Thank you
I had some family issues happen and my command abandoned me. I had to go a retention board to fight to stay in the Navy... I feel for Jake and his family..
agreed, even my daughter who did 4 years in the Navy has severe PTSD just from her time on the ship. I know to some who have been active duty they don't see it, but as a retired sailor and her father I have suggested to seek help with the VA for her issues. It is real, and effects everyone differently.
You are so very right about discarded souls. During my Graduate Internship (MSW) at VA Hospital, the most difficult part of my job was witnessing the effects of veterans being treated like discarded souls. I was always in awe of their fight, perserverence, & resiliency in their will to live. How some of the mental health professionals would take out their own psychological issues onto their patients. Many veterans just needed to be heard & valued with respect, dignity, & kindness. They have endured what most of us could not. I was blessed to witness the beauty & strength of their souls! It sounds like Jake's blessing to you was instilling in you a lifetime of purpose & passion to ensure that other veterans don't feel alone but emotionally supported through walking beside them. Thank you!
My brother was a SEAL T1 in the 90s. My entire family is proud of him. He to is going through somethings. It is hard to know how to deal with you guys because you all are too tough to talk sometimes. All I can do is pray for my brother and hope for the best. Thank you for your service and your stories.
I was the DAPA at SEAL Team TWO, I had a lot of compassion for the guys struggling with drug and alcohol issues, I always made sure to treat the guys like human beings and showed up to their treatment graduations when I wasn’t on travel. It meant the world to me to see the guys bounce back and continue operating, unfortunately we had a couple who couldnt pull through, its hard man, this video really hit me.
Sorry, what does DAPA stand for? To Chadd, thank you for your honesty, I shed a tear hearing you tell the story of Jake. Life is difficult but you can always show compassion and kindness to the next guy and ask how he is, that is what I’ll take from this video. I would love to hear more stories about him.
@@Dhdjdjsjdjsjk Sorry to hear that, that there is a need for such a role. But I guess the personel in these teams see things we simple laymen cannot conprehend.
Dude, every five years of my life I evaluate myself and realize what a dumbass I was five years ago. At first this was depressing, until I realized I was growing and improving as a human being. Jake clearly had a lot to do with your growth. Peace and love, brother.
If there is a man fitting R. Kipling's "If", quoted in Jake's correspondence, he sure is a US Navy SEAL. No doubt. I think you do the right thing sharing your stories, man. We are all honored to hear them. Thank you for your honesty.
I’m not an emotional guy but I was almost in tears by the end of this. You are an amazing story teller and I’m glad his story was told properly. Thank you for the videos.
Sad story Chad! Im a 54 year old and that drove the tears down my face.,.I wish someone could of helped him with the demons that plaged his warrior spirit!! May he rest in eternal peace!I know this was hard to share with us! But thank you! Most people don't realize the hell you go through...it needs to be understood!
Nobody supports anybody. Nobody is there for anybody. "Brother" is nothing more than an affectation; not a reality. We're all so wrapped up in our own egos, vanity, and pride that those who need support will never ask for it, and those who notice someone needing support will never give it.
Well told story shipmate. Iam a alcoholic, grace of God and a 12 step program, just under 33 years since last drink, it was so flipping hard to stop drinking, the demons were so strong. Bless Jake, and thank you for your service mad respect. Pops' navy Corpsman 1982-1986
Just got out of the hospital this past spring after years of drinking winding up in over two years of a gallon a day. Liver started failing and nearly lost my life. Clean today. Good to go.
The gates of hell shall not prevail against the church. The anointing of God breaks every yoke With God all things are possible.. Jesus said: without me you can do nothing
Chadd, Thank you for sharing this story about Jake. I was in the Navy as an FMF Corpsman and had a very good friend of mine kill himself. He was not in the military, but I loved him and miss him every day. He drank a lot and used drugs and I'll never understand why he did what he did and I wish I could have stopped him. All I can do is tell others about him and remember the good times that we had together. His name was David "LD" Brewington, from Spartanburg, SC. I also almost let alcohol get the best of me. I drank a lot during my service. Beer was my drink of choice and I'd have 9-12 beers daily for years, with zero breaks. I started having difficulty breathing and could feel my lungs gurgling, so I researched and found out that I had the early signs and symptoms of Alcohol Induced Congestive Heart Failure. It scared me, so I just quit. No 12 steps or any help. Just suffered on my own for a long time, but I was determined to live. It was definitely one of the hardest things that I ever did. That was 11 and a half years ago. I still miss beer, but I know that one is not enough and I'd be right back at 12 in short order, so I just don't touch alcohol at all. Thank you again for these videos man. Take care Scott
Thank you for this....I have a best friend who is an Army vet and he is a bad alcoholic. I try so hard to help him, and listen to him talk about the people he killed and his nightmares. The worst part is- I have been sober since 2014 and I was in worse shape than he is. I sometimes reach a point where I have to choose me or him because I want to drink so bad just being around him slurring and driving him around smelling the vodka. I swear I try my best but I made my own promises to god and people I love that I WILL NOT BREAK. Hard truth. I will always be there as long as he will talk I will listen. Chad, when you said "He was not a weak man, or a bad man I felt that. This guy would give his shirt or his last dollar, I know because I've known him since day care. I pray for him and he know's I'm always here but I'll be honest, every time I hear a shot late at night I wonder if it was him. It's piss poor how this country throws away it's war fighters. It saddens me beyond words, and then comes the anger. With all the money we waste on people who hate us, can't we spare some for the ones who fight for us?
Sir, if I may, That was an amazing moment of honor you shined over Jake and your fellow brothers and sisters everywhere. Thank you for sharing Jake with us I am honored to have the opportunity to follow your ways to the best of my abilities. You’re doing a fine job sir.
I'm a Toolmaker working 2nd in mostly empty giant factory. I am running a giant 1939 WWII tagged American holewizard radial drill right now listening to this. I about just lost it. Man what a heavy heart.
Chadd, thanks for sharing your’s and Jake’s story. Very powerful. My father was a sergeant and squad leader 1st Marine Division Korean War. I could get him to talk about things he found humorous, like running into General MacArthur, but he would never talk about combat. I remember reading about Col. Chesty Puller driving thru Camp LeJune when he noticed a Lt. and Private standing on the sidewalk with the Private continually saluting the Lt. Chesty pulled over and walked up to the couple. He spoke to the Lt. and said what goes on here old man. The Lt. said, Colonel this Private failed to salute me and as punishment I ordered him to salute me 100 times. Puller responded, quite right, but remember that as a superior officer you are required to return every salute, SO GET CRACKING!
Well said Chad I was a firefighter for seven years here in Rome I saw things that still bother me to this day and I had a friend I went to high school with he was a firefighter too we saw a lot of bad things together he was going through some family problems a killed himself his name was Terry and he was a stand up dude and a good friend it’s hard to grasp but we have to go forward man Thanks Eric.
Condolences on the loss of Jake. What hit me hard is when I looked up his name to read more about him as a person, and the thing that jumped out is when he passed away in 2012, he was only 26 years old. I have a 27 year old son. Not 36 or 46, but just 26. It brought home that we ask young men to do violence on our behalf and we fail them when they’re still so young. Best wishes from Cobb County, Georgia.
Great story man. The biggest challenge I've had since retiring from AD is dealing with managers instead of leaders. This is a stellar example of sacrificial leadership. BZ
Rest in Peace Jake. Kipling wrote that poem and it has helped me in many times of struggle. Keep growing Chadd. Your honesty and integrity are inspiring to us all.
Kinda feel your pain, and I appreciate you telling this story. I wasn’t a seal, so my experience may not relate, but I was a Marine who had a roommate kill himself. I never got along with him real well, but he was a decent Marine who had a serious alcohol problem, mostly due to a fucked up child hood. I think about this guy all the time. I really wish the MC was more willing/ able to help him.
Thank you Chadd. I had a friend, a close friend, take his own life several years ago. I am former Army but David wasn't so your thoughts and memories of a friend are near to my heart. Your comment about wishing you were the man then that you are today rings true with me every single day. I appreciate you and what you share with us.
Former sailor here, not a seal. Flight deck electrician, 2 west pacs during desert storm and shield. I just wanted to convey my deepest condolences to you Chadd. I'll keep you in my prayers brother. Love your channel
Well told Chadd, we all have regrets, but being who we are now, hopefully won't make the mistakes we made when we were younger. I totally get where you are coming from. Thanks for being honest and inspirational...
I have watched 100s of videos on here. By far this is the most honest, heart felt one I have ever watched. Sorry for your loss bro. I saw this exact type of behavior internally in SF. Sad. It is a culture thing for sure, and something that needs to be fixed. I respect your honesty and ability to tell such a story. Much to be learned here. SALUTE!
I read that poem “IF” to my children at least once a week …. In my opinion, one of the greatest poems ever !!! Thank you for all you have done and for what you are still doing !!
Thank you Chadd. Got out of the Marine Corps infantry in 2015, and every time I lose one of my brothers from that company feels like a sledge hammer to my stomach. Seems like they just keep dying too young, whether KIA, suicide, alcohol, or “unexplained” death. I feel your pain, brother. And Jesus Christ is now the only foundation that keeps me standing.
Brother, first time seeing your channel. And I bawled so hard. Just buried my best friend a little over a year ago. Seems like yesterday, he was put out of the ODA at 7th SFG, for the very same thing. God love you for what youve done and what your doing. Hope you have peace for the rest of your days. My buddy had seen and done some things he couldn't reconcile with. And the same thing happened to him. In the Military if your not 100% your treated like a piece of crap. It's like everything you did and all the sacrifices you'd made, mean nothing anymore. No better way to break a man's spirit. I have a good clue what your living with, I regret decisions to this day.
I’m a Navy vet (non SW). I want to commend you on your honesty- that took guts. Most of us need to be more honest with ourselves and others. It’s a tough life lesson. Thank you brother for sharing that. May God bless you and keep Jake and his family👊🏼 HM3
Chadd, Thank you for sharing this part of your life and honoring your C-Daddy and friend. It’s easy to understand your heavy heart with that situation. I am forever grateful to men like you who serve and give more than any of us who haven’t served will ever understand. I’m most grateful that you’ve answered the Lord’s call. Your are a blessing, my brother. Keep walking the walk or more accurately, running the run. All in His glory. May the Lord bless you!
Man Chad youve hit a nerve in my soul with your words brother that just moves my spirit, thanks for your dedication to lifting us up truly admire you brother god bless
Thank you chadd. It's 3:30 am in florida- I just got back inside from walking my dog on a bathroom break. I was looking for something to watch so i could go back to sleep. I am grateful to Jesus for putting this in front of me. Tears welled up, brother. If I can be worthy enough. We need more Jakes and chadds in this world who want to make others better.
@@dpimprovements9905 The thing that really touched me in the video was the amount of desire from folks like Jake and chadd to become excellent mentors to even correct the small things in others to the point that you lead from ahead but you also lead by walking beside them every step of the way. That to me is a calling. And it's amazing. Wanting nothing more than just the honor and valor of helping someone be their best. Hope that makes sense.
Thank you so much for your service to our country Chadd . I’m sorry for the loss of your mentor. I am so great full for who you are now and what your sharing with us .
As someone who never served in the military sometimes i feel like im not worthy of hearing guys like you tell stories like this so i just want to thank you for putting it out there like you did here. RIP Jake
Josh, never feel unworthy, as a Navy vet, i can tell you many of us serve out of duty and love of country. We serve to sustain the country no matter what fake news media may try to sell. Some of us are at liberty to go for it so you will know the facts then be proud not big headed, life is fast show goodness not evil.
Retired MCPO with 22 years service. This session resonates real close to home for me. I saw what the Navy did to sailors and turned them to drugs or alcohol. One of my best friends was abandoned by the Navy just as Jake was. Years of constant training, deployments and family separation took a toll on my friend and turned him to alcohol. He was just kicked to the curb after many years of faithful, professional and devoted service. Thanks for sharing.
Listening to that letter from Jake brought tears to my eyes. How Jake was treated is something that’s never discussed in public. That being how navy treats their own. There’s an old saying that I heard from many a big navy leadership “we eat our young “. I remember a day when someone in Jake’s situation wasn’t simply transferred to a non deploying unit under a trusted friend. Hearing that this happened to a SEAL has me quite concerned as a retired veteran.
There is so much I can relate with this video. I first wanna say sorry to hear about your mentor and thanks for sharing that story. Addiction is a strong demon, its one of those conundrums thats hard to solve. Secondly, I wanna throw out there that I like listening to your stories, not just yours, but a lot of SEAL’s, for some reason its like therapy and in some small way, I can relate with the struggles that you guys been through. I too have had trouble with addiction and have had my fair share of time spent in prison and only by the grace of God, I just passed my 15th year home outta prison, clean & sober. Im not saying the time of my sobriety for a “good job” or any other praise, I dont deserve any praise, Im simply doing what I should be doing in the first place, Im bringing that up to say, I can relate with what you said, about if you dont know what its like statement. Yes, for some reason a lot of people frown on different types of addiction and it makes that individual feel even more alone, and in most cases drives that person deeper into their hole. I can also relate with you on regret of not saying or trying to do something sooner as well, my father overdosed a couple years ago on fentanyl and I feel like I should of tried harder, or said something different but I have to trust that God knew my father wasn’t strong enough to get himself together and took him home. Anyway, I wanted to comment and share how I relate on this video, thanks man.
Just discovered your videos a few days ago man. I've watched your podcasts on Andy Stumpf and Nick Bare. You've motivated me to get back into working out and strengthening the mind. Thanks for sharing a very personal story. You are helping alot of people with the words you speak.
Thank you to all the beautiful service men and women that selflessly dedicated their own lives to keep peace and safety amongst all American civilians❤❤❤ What a sacrifice! I thank you all beautiful people
There is guys out here like me that have made mistakes young. I listen to guys like you so I don't get too high on my own BullSh**. There is so much inspiration here.
you told the story perfectly. mental health issues are complex with deep deep roots. high stress jobs can exacerbate those deep roots and you can't always see the pain people are in.
Excellent story very powerful. As a retired infantry marine I feel your pain on losing brothers and sisters it is hard to cope with from time to time the ghost never leave you.
Former Marine here Chadd. Crazy how we gain wisdom and understanding the older we get. When you are young and trying to make your own path and persona the world moves at tremendous speed and we all think we have the world by the ass but how wrong we can be. What sticks out to me is when you said “I wish I was the man I am today… back then”. Main I wish I had a buck every time I have said that to myself! Great message here my man and you have nothing to feel bad about here. The Navy does, but you do not! Good luck in the future my man and know Jake is smiling down on you right now. Semper Fi brother!
Thanks for sharing your story and sorry to hear about your friend. I was not a SEAL but I served 20 years in the Navy and I can totally relate to the idea of the Navy being a machine and them getting rid of you when you are no longer useful. I was going through some things related to my deployments and finally decided to ask for help. And the Navy was really good about getting me the help. However, it came at a cost. One day I was an LPO with a lot of responsibility and literally the next day I was weak and useless in their eyes. So, I was PCS'd out of the command and put on LIMDU orders and pretty much treated like a recruit out of boot camp. It was a hard pill for me to swallow and I struggled with it and ended up going to the psych ward a couple of times due to suicidal ideations. I really don't know how I made it through all of that without becoming an alcoholic or getting court martialed. Thankfully I never went through with ending my life. Having said all of that, I'm glad to see people like you share your stories. I think it shines a light on issues that no one wants to talk about but should. Anyway, thanks again and take care!
Yesterday I was speaking to someone about peer counseling…I stressed the fact you never say you understand unless you truly understand by being in that same scenario. That’s hard for people to realize. So many want to be saints to those suffering, when you’re truly only making things worse. I’m sorry for the loss of your friend, you may not of been able to help him, but you can help many more after him. He would look down and be proud that you called him friend and can now help others with your testimony.
Dear Chadd, i know exactly what you mean by that heaviness. I lost my sweetheart, because I made a big mistake that I cannot change anymore. There are days ( maybe today is the next one ) I just break down to the ground and try to break these mighty chains of heaviness. It can break my heart, because this feeling is mighty and at the moment I don't know if I can ever free my heart and soul from this heaviness, it is simply too strong. I've found some techniques to life with this heaviness but I also know my path in the darkness might continue for a long time before I see some sunlight again at the horizon. But I will not give up, I will not quit this life. There are reasons I`m still not dead, just trying to become a better person for my people and animals around me. Physically I have a very big goal to go for, there will be a mountain race in GB with around 40lbs ruck next year and I want to be the first to finish it. It will be hard but this is good and very welcome.
Damn Chadd, I am truly sorry for your loss man. Losing a brother a confidant is real real hard and I hope nobody has to go through that. That story of Jake was touching brotha, thank you for sharing it. Y’all over there take it easy.🇺🇸💪🏻🔱
Chadd, I can't find words strong enough to thank you for this video. It takes courage to put a message like this out, and I don't know that I've ever seen someone do it so gracefully. My grandfather used to read the same poem "If" by Rudyard Kipling to me before I joined the military myself. But just thank you for sending out a message like this. It truly impacted me and I'm confident it will help others as much as it has helped me to hear it.
Such a great yet sad story. I was in the same boat as Jake. I started using drugs and alcohol at 15 years old. I always knew I was gonna join the Army after I graduated HS, 6 days after I did I was in basic training. Got to Fort Stewart right in time to get deployed to Iraq in 2005. Iraq helped me change my life, our CO was just like Jake, we all loved him, same with our 1st Sergeant. After we got back from our deployment we were all loving life. Every Friday our entire company would play flag football, moral was super high. I decided drugs and alcohol were a thing if the past. Then our CO got caught cheating on his wife and was removed from command and placed in administration, I think they called it S1, but I can't quite remember. Then our 1st Sergeant went to an Infantry Company(we were tankers, he was 11b, we were all 19k). That's when things went downhill. Our new CO needed to prove a point or something, he was a total dbag. Our 1st Sergeant was even worse. Long story short, one day I quit caring about my military career and it led me right back down the addiction path. Obviously at the end of the day it is 100% my fault. I actually came forward to my gunner and told I had a drug and alcohol problem and I needed treatment. Instead my CO forced me to take a piss test and gave me an article 15 for using drugs. Then I really quit caring, and 3 months short of my 3 year 6 month contract I got kicked out. I had a gun to my head several times when I was in. I know the exact feeling of being discarded like trash in the military. The only ones who truly cared about me were my 2 closest buddies, one I still talk to every couple month. My other buddy took my spot on my tank after they went back to Ramadi in 2007, he ended up getting killed by a sniper when he was climbing out of the driver's hatch, that was tough news to here. It hurt watching my brothers go to Iraq while I stayed behind and cleaned floors, you feel like the worst person on planet earth.
Give your life purpose and meaning.. don't dwell too much on the past. I know very much so (from personal experience) that if I don't control my thoughts and where I go with my thoughts, I could make myself miserable.. all the what-if's and things I wish I had done differently can drive you nuts and drive you to suicide if you allow it to.
Great talk Chadd. I have a very close friend that suffered a similar fate at the hands of the army. However, he's still with us. Everyone close to him has done their best to help him, and he's doing good. When the army dropped him, it also caused him to lose a job in law enforcement too. It's all he's ever known. I can't imagine what's bouncing around in his head, that's why we've all done as much as we can to support our brother. Thanks Chadd.
I can't imagine how difficult it is for you to sit and talk about this. Even some of us non military people have lost a friend and wish we were the men we are now. Sorry for your loss and thank you for your service.
Thanks for that honest story. Two weeks out of the police academy my older brother Murdered my father. I was in the house. My training taught me how to enter the room correctly. This was the difference in me living and my brother being neutralized permanently. Because my father was wealthy, my entire family abandoned me and treated me horribly. Totally F'd up. Wanted to end it for a long time. But I had Christ ✝️. Your story really hit my heart. May Jake be in God's huddle. He's now the Lord's beautiful warrior !! Take care !! ⚔️⚔️⚔️
Jake was my highschool sweetheart, and my daughters father. I know he had dealt with the very heavy burden of your job requirements. He was also let down by a teammate in a monumental way. Since you knew Jake I'm sure you know how much he believed you were his brothers. Family. A brother broke the code. To face a betrayal as he did, broke him. Along with relationship issues with myself, and other women I won't name out of respect, he certainly had his fair share of demons.But, he was a phenomenal leader, and man. Always inspirational. You're right about the Navy pushing him aside, he never should have been able to leave that hospital. He wasn't going to be discharged, but he wanted it. He couldn't bring himself to do it anymore, and live with what he had done. There were so many factors. I love the impact he made on you, and the fact that you keep his letters still. I do too. I'd be interested in hearing more stories you have about him. Please. Thank you for speaking his name and keeping his memory alive. Gone, but never forgotten. ❤️
Thank you for your service
-Brittany
So sorry for yall's loss.
Prayers for you Maam. Powerful comment
Hello Brittany,
Your beautiful, eloquent message moved me to tears. I can't imagine what you, your daughter, & Jake endured & continue to endure. I feel your pain & sadness. My father was in the Teams for 21 years (Class 39). There is an intensity about their lifestyle. It was difficult for my mother & my brother & I coming second as the Teams always comes first. The job requirements would create a toll on anyone & the lack of emotional & psychological support can push the mind to breaking point. I have sensed the pain of Team guys describe how they were betrayed & discarded. It is evident in the suicide rate of active duty Teammates. It sounds like your lives have taken a detour without your consent. I hope you can find moments to breathe deeply & not have to struggle to keep your nose above the water's surface. Being a wife or daughter of a Team guy is not easy. I am grateful to you, your daughter, & Jake's service & ultimate sacrifice. I admire your generous soul in your kindness & expression of appreciation in Chad & Jake's impact in his life. I wish you both a fulfilling life!
Sorry for your loss.
It's truly sad and very unfortunate how the machine uses folks up and spits them out. May the almighty, bring you peace.
Sorry for your loss brother. I was an Infantryman with 2 combat tours. The military uses War Fighters as disposable tools. I’ve lost several brothers to alcoholism, drugs and suicide. One even laid his head on a train track until decapitation . It’s sad that we are trained and brainwashed to kill, then when we are finished, they just let us out into society to roam about like normal people. We aren’t normal and never will be. Some adjust, others don’t. War affects each man differently, but, it affects EVERY man. I struggle every day and it’s only with the help of an ALMIGHTY GOD that I can get through to the other side. May God bless and keep you brother.
Stay strong bro…sending you positive energy your way!
~Scot
You are normal bro!! Don’t ever say that. You just need your time and people who love you along with society need to be there for you and be patient.
I hear you. One day at a time
solid story chad,sorry for your friend.
Sorry for your loss. I am a Gulf War veteran with PTSD, 24 years US Army. I am here to tell you the truth. My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is the only reason I am here. I don't go to church. When the PTSD kicks in I call it "surfing a wave." I have surfed some big huge waves in the past and the Lord gets me through them all. Is it fun? No. But it is real. I am a PTSD Survivor because of my belief in the Lord ✝️ Good luck to you brother👍
I was randomly looking for something online and came across this video...about my own biological brother! Jake is remembered and missed every single day in our family. He left such a unfixable wound. Every now and then I forget he's gone and think to myself I really need to plan a trip to see him and then remember. None of us are the same without him. 💔
Wait. Youre Jakes brother… never mind… SISTER! Final answer! ? 🫡❤️
Wow
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The poem is titled "IF" by Rudyard Kipling
I deployed with Chadd and Jake as their comms guy at 8. I had a few interactions with Jake, but looking back there were signs that he might have been working through something. To be fair, I think a lot of guys were working through some stuff myself included. While I was still at the creek I heard about what happened and how, but I never heard about his battle with alcohol or his potential discharge. You never know what somebody is dealing with. The whole situation is sad but I hope this video and his story helps someone.
Chadd, we talked for a bit at the bar right after that mistake you mentioned. I never heard how that all shook out for you, but I'm glad you got past it. You were always a solid dude to work with and one of the good ones.
Chadd looks pretty beefy / strong in that picture before the video starts, compared to now pretty thin. I only met one Navy Seal back around 2006 or 2007 or 08 not sure at community college in a history class. Teacher asked class who the Veterans were, we had several vets but one was a Seal. Dude was bright focused, good looking tall lean, always laughing smiles, had a beautiful girlfriend who came to class with him sometimes, his calves were very muscular, he walked with force. You can tell he was the real deal. I asked the guy if he ever wanted to have kids, he said hell no, never. That Dark side showed a little, later I figured it out, Navy Seals had been mourning those Seal Teams who died in the Helicopters I think Afghanistan. My grandfather was WW2 army veteran, he drank some but was mostly not addicted to anything. But my Uncle was Vietnam Marine Veteran and saw a lot of combat, he was a full blown alcoholic, I think the more action you experienced, the more drinking occurs with Veterans to numb the bad memories and pain. I am certain military combat service is not without its sacrifices and personal damages to all, its normal when you go through hellish stuff, its human to need medicine for it at points in your lives. Not anything to be ashamed about at all, it's just normal.
Thank you for your service, sir.
This type of situation is not uncommon in the intelligence community. I saw good peoples' clearances removed, and they were subsequently fired, for some very "iffy" reasons.
Thank you for your service.
Chadd, thank you for sharing this. Jake was a friend and my roommate at BUD/S for many months. Jake was everything you described and more. Solid, solid man and the type to give his shirt off his back if he thought you needed it.
I always regretted not keeping in better touch with Jake and when I heard the news it was a catalyst for me to seek a career in mental health field. I have since accepted an internship at a VA clinic. I think of him often when things get difficult and I need a reminder of my purpose. Too many service members are discarded and abandoned when things go awry for them and its wrong. Hearing your stories of his leadership and friendship put a smile on my face and a tear in my eye. Thank you
This is where we the brothers and saints need to step up!
I had some family issues happen and my command abandoned me. I had to go a retention board to fight to stay in the Navy... I feel for Jake and his family..
agreed, even my daughter who did 4 years in the Navy has severe PTSD just from her time on the ship. I know to some who have been active duty they don't see it, but as a retired sailor and her father I have suggested to seek help with the VA for her issues. It is real, and effects everyone differently.
You are so very right about discarded souls. During my Graduate Internship (MSW) at VA Hospital, the most difficult part of my job was witnessing the effects of veterans being treated like discarded souls. I was always in awe of their fight, perserverence, & resiliency in their will to live. How some of the mental health professionals would take out their own psychological issues onto their patients. Many veterans just needed to be heard & valued with respect, dignity, & kindness. They have endured what most of us could not. I was blessed to witness the beauty & strength of their souls! It sounds like Jake's blessing to you was instilling in you a lifetime of purpose & passion to ensure that other veterans don't feel alone but emotionally supported through walking beside them. Thank you!
@@w55808 You got that right. All of it. Much respect.
My brother was a SEAL T1 in the 90s. My entire family is proud of him. He to is going through somethings. It is hard to know how to deal with you guys because you all are too tough to talk sometimes. All I can do is pray for my brother and hope for the best. Thank you for your service and your stories.
My father was an Army Ranger in Vietnam and took his life 30 years later. Best man I have ever met. Rest In Peace to these men who sacrificed so much.
I was the DAPA at SEAL Team TWO, I had a lot of compassion for the guys struggling with drug and alcohol issues, I always made sure to treat the guys like human beings and showed up to their treatment graduations when I wasn’t on travel. It meant the world to me to see the guys bounce back and continue operating, unfortunately we had a couple who couldnt pull through, its hard man, this video really hit me.
Sorry, what does DAPA stand for? To Chadd, thank you for your honesty, I shed a tear hearing you tell the story of Jake. Life is difficult but you can always show compassion and kindness to the next guy and ask how he is, that is what I’ll take from this video. I would love to hear more stories about him.
@@Automobilianameans drug and alcohol prevention, the alcohol in the teams is really bad having a dapa is a must.
@@Dhdjdjsjdjsjk Sorry to hear that, that there is a need for such a role. But I guess the personel in these teams see things we simple laymen cannot conprehend.
Dude, every five years of my life I evaluate myself and realize what a dumbass I was five years ago. At first this was depressing, until I realized I was growing and improving as a human being. Jake clearly had a lot to do with your growth. Peace and love, brother.
If there is a man fitting R. Kipling's "If", quoted in Jake's correspondence, he sure is a US Navy SEAL.
No doubt.
I think you do the right thing sharing your stories, man.
We are all honored to hear them.
Thank you for your honesty.
Brother, I’m just gonna say it - you should preach. DOL
I’m not an emotional guy but I was almost in tears by the end of this. You are an amazing story teller and I’m glad his story was told properly. Thank you for the videos.
Sad story Chad! Im a 54 year old and that drove the tears down my face.,.I wish someone could of helped him with the demons that plaged his warrior spirit!! May he rest in eternal peace!I know this was hard to share with us! But thank you! Most people don't realize the hell you go through...it needs to be understood!
As a Vietnam Vet, I can relate to this--much respect to what you guys do. be strong! and thank you for your service.
I was one of Jake’s OIC’s back in 2010. Lots of respect for that young man and thanks for sharing his story.
Nobody supports anybody. Nobody is there for anybody. "Brother" is nothing more than an affectation; not a reality. We're all so wrapped up in our own egos, vanity, and pride that those who need support will never ask for it, and those who notice someone needing support will never give it.
Well told story shipmate. Iam a alcoholic, grace of God and a 12 step program, just under 33 years since last drink, it was so flipping hard to stop drinking, the demons were so strong. Bless Jake, and thank you for your service mad respect. Pops' navy Corpsman 1982-1986
Well done shipmate…..I’m not in the Program but have family that is. That’s a commitment to be proud of! Bless you and yours…. 🙏
Just got out of the hospital this past spring after years of drinking winding up in over two years of a gallon a day. Liver started failing and nearly lost my life. Clean today. Good to go.
@@nubbletv3822 Amen
The gates of hell shall not prevail against the church.
The anointing of God breaks every yoke
With God all things are possible..
Jesus said: without me you can do nothing
@@mitchnidey2453 this is true. And being lost is a real issue
Chadd,
Thank you for sharing this story about Jake. I was in the Navy as an FMF Corpsman and had a very good friend of mine kill himself. He was not in the military, but I loved him and miss him every day. He drank a lot and used drugs and I'll never understand why he did what he did and I wish I could have stopped him. All I can do is tell others about him and remember the good times that we had together. His name was David "LD" Brewington, from Spartanburg, SC.
I also almost let alcohol get the best of me. I drank a lot during my service. Beer was my drink of choice and I'd have 9-12 beers daily for years, with zero breaks. I started having difficulty breathing and could feel my lungs gurgling, so I researched and found out that I had the early signs and symptoms of Alcohol Induced Congestive Heart Failure. It scared me, so I just quit. No 12 steps or any help. Just suffered on my own for a long time, but I was determined to live. It was definitely one of the hardest things that I ever did. That was 11 and a half years ago. I still miss beer, but I know that one is not enough and I'd be right back at 12 in short order, so I just don't touch alcohol at all.
Thank you again for these videos man.
Take care
Scott
Thank you for this....I have a best friend who is an Army vet and he is a bad alcoholic. I try so hard to help him, and listen to him talk about the people he killed and his nightmares. The worst part is- I have been sober since 2014 and I was in worse shape than he is. I sometimes reach a point where I have to choose me or him because I want to drink so bad just being around him slurring and driving him around smelling the vodka. I swear I try my best but I made my own promises to god and people I love that I WILL NOT BREAK. Hard truth. I will always be there as long as he will talk I will listen. Chad, when you said "He was not a weak man, or a bad man I felt that. This guy would give his shirt or his last dollar, I know because I've known him since day care. I pray for him and he know's I'm always here but I'll be honest, every time I hear a shot late at night I wonder if it was him. It's piss poor how this country throws away it's war fighters. It saddens me beyond words, and then comes the anger. With all the money we waste on people who hate us, can't we spare some for the ones who fight for us?
Man! The fact that he took punishment with you! What a mentor! That hit me hard!
Agree times a thousand. The difference between knowing the path and walking the path. What a stand up guy.
It's a poem by Rudyard Kipling. Called 'if'
Sir, if I may,
That was an amazing moment of honor you shined over Jake and your fellow brothers and sisters everywhere.
Thank you for sharing Jake with us
I am honored to have the opportunity to follow your ways to the best of my abilities.
You’re doing a fine job sir.
I'm a Toolmaker working 2nd in mostly empty giant factory. I am running a giant 1939 WWII tagged American holewizard radial drill right now listening to this. I about just lost it. Man what a heavy heart.
Chadd, thanks for sharing your’s and Jake’s story. Very powerful. My father was a sergeant and squad leader 1st Marine Division Korean War. I could get him to talk about things he found humorous, like running into General MacArthur, but he would never talk about combat. I remember reading about Col. Chesty Puller driving thru Camp LeJune when he noticed a Lt. and Private standing on the sidewalk with the Private continually saluting the Lt. Chesty pulled over and walked up to the couple. He spoke to the Lt. and said what goes on here old man. The Lt. said, Colonel this Private failed to salute me and as punishment I ordered him to salute me 100 times. Puller responded, quite right, but remember that as a superior officer you are required to return every salute, SO GET CRACKING!
Let the punishment fit the crime.
Goodnight Chesty....... Wherever you are.
God bless you Chadd. I have to believe Jake is looking down on you from heaven and smiling. Love you Brother.
God Bless America and you & your family...I'm so sorry for your loss and I Love you too Brother
Well said Chad I was a firefighter for seven years here in Rome I saw things that still bother me to this day and I had a friend I went to high school with he was a firefighter too we saw a lot of bad things together he was going through some family problems a killed himself his name was Terry and he was a stand up dude and a good friend it’s hard to grasp but we have to go forward man Thanks Eric.
Condolences on the loss of Jake. What hit me hard is when I looked up his name to read more about him as a person, and the thing that jumped out is when he passed away in 2012, he was only 26 years old. I have a 27 year old son.
Not 36 or 46, but just 26. It brought home that we ask young men to do violence on our behalf and we fail them when they’re still so young.
Best wishes from Cobb County, Georgia.
Great story man. The biggest challenge I've had since retiring from AD is dealing with managers instead of leaders. This is a stellar example of sacrificial leadership. BZ
Same. ☝🏻
I worked for a federal law enforcement agency after the military and I can tell you it's the same. Lots of managers/administrators, very few leaders
Rest in Peace Jake. Kipling wrote that poem and it has helped me in many times of struggle. Keep growing Chadd. Your honesty and integrity are inspiring to us all.
Kinda feel your pain, and I appreciate you telling this story. I wasn’t a seal, so my experience may not relate, but I was a Marine who had a roommate kill himself. I never got along with him real well, but he was a decent Marine who had a serious alcohol problem, mostly due to a fucked up child hood. I think about this guy all the time. I really wish the MC was more willing/ able to help him.
Thank you Chadd. I had a friend, a close friend, take his own life several years ago. I am former Army but David wasn't so your thoughts and memories of a friend are near to my heart. Your comment about wishing you were the man then that you are today rings true with me every single day. I appreciate you and what you share with us.
Former sailor here, not a seal. Flight deck electrician, 2 west pacs during desert storm and shield. I just wanted to convey my deepest condolences to you Chadd. I'll keep you in my prayers brother. Love your channel
Well told Chadd, we all have regrets, but being who we are now, hopefully won't make the mistakes we made when we were younger. I totally get where you are coming from. Thanks for being honest and inspirational...
I've been writting "IF" inside my annual journal on Jan 1 every year for the past 10 years. Great poem. Thank you for sharing your message Chadd.
I have watched 100s of videos on here. By far this is the most honest, heart felt one I have ever watched. Sorry for your loss bro. I saw this exact type of behavior internally in SF. Sad. It is a culture thing for sure, and something that needs to be fixed. I respect your honesty and ability to tell such a story. Much to be learned here. SALUTE!
God Bless Jake’s memory, prayers for you ❤
I read that poem “IF” to my children at least once a week …. In my opinion, one of the greatest poems ever !!! Thank you for all you have done and for what you are still doing !!
Thank you Chadd. Got out of the Marine Corps infantry in 2015, and every time I lose one of my brothers from that company feels like a sledge hammer to my stomach. Seems like they just keep dying too young, whether KIA, suicide, alcohol, or “unexplained” death. I feel your pain, brother. And Jesus Christ is now the only foundation that keeps me standing.
Brother, first time seeing your channel. And I bawled so hard. Just buried my best friend a little over a year ago. Seems like yesterday, he was put out of the ODA at 7th SFG, for the very same thing. God love you for what youve done and what your doing. Hope you have peace for the rest of your days. My buddy had seen and done some things he couldn't reconcile with. And the same thing happened to him. In the Military if your not 100% your treated like a piece of crap. It's like everything you did and all the sacrifices you'd made, mean nothing anymore. No better way to break a man's spirit. I have a good clue what your living with, I regret decisions to this day.
I’m a Navy vet (non SW). I want to commend you on your honesty- that took guts. Most of us need to be more honest with ourselves and others. It’s a tough life lesson. Thank you brother for sharing that. May God bless you and keep Jake and his family👊🏼 HM3
Chadd, Thank you for sharing this part of your life and honoring your C-Daddy and friend. It’s easy to understand your heavy heart with that situation. I am forever grateful to men like you who serve and give more than any of us who haven’t served will ever understand. I’m most grateful that you’ve answered the Lord’s call. Your are a blessing, my brother. Keep walking the walk or more accurately, running the run. All in His glory. May the Lord bless you!
Thank you for letting us in a chapter of your life. Thank you for protecting our families sir. My three bonus boys serve.
Man Chad youve hit a nerve in my soul with your words brother that just moves my spirit, thanks for your dedication to lifting us up truly admire you brother god bless
Thank you chadd. It's 3:30 am in florida- I just got back inside from walking my dog on a bathroom break. I was looking for something to watch so i could go back to sleep. I am grateful to Jesus for putting this in front of me. Tears welled up, brother. If I can be worthy enough. We need more Jakes and chadds in this world who want to make others better.
What do you mean when you say "if I can be worthy enough" ?
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The thing that really touched me in the video was the amount of desire from folks like Jake and chadd to become excellent mentors to even correct the small things in others to the point that you lead from ahead but you also lead by walking beside them every step of the way. That to me is a calling. And it's amazing. Wanting nothing more than just the honor and valor of helping someone be their best. Hope that makes sense.
Nothing but respect for you.
Every day is Memorial Day for guys like us.
"Just a check in the box" is the TRUTH!!!!!
Thank you so much for your service to our country Chadd . I’m sorry for the loss of your mentor. I am so great full for who you are now and what your sharing with us .
The more videos I watch of Chadd, and get to know him through those videos, the more I like and relate with him... Love how he keeps it honest!!!
As someone who never served in the military sometimes i feel like im not worthy of hearing guys like you tell stories like this so i just want to thank you for putting it out there like you did here. RIP Jake
Josh, never feel unworthy, as a Navy vet, i can tell you many of us serve out of duty and love of country. We serve to sustain the country no matter what fake news media may try to sell. Some of us are at liberty to go for it so you will know the facts then be proud not big headed, life is fast show goodness not evil.
@@richd5749 amen shipmate! I’m here for anyone that needs an ear!
Retired MCPO with 22 years service. This session resonates real close to home for me. I saw what the Navy did to sailors and turned them to drugs or alcohol. One of my best friends was abandoned by the Navy just as Jake was. Years of constant training, deployments and family separation took a toll on my friend and turned him to alcohol. He was just kicked to the curb after many years of faithful, professional and devoted service. Thanks for sharing.
That story was very heavy Chadd. Those stories need to be told. Thank you telling us his story. Rest easy Jake
Amen.
Rest in peace, Jake. Thank you, folks, for everything you do, endure, and carry. Much love to all, God is good❤❤
It’s important to tell stories like this so that the future generations don’t make the same mistakes
Awesome story brother Wright
I can only imagine what you and other SEAL's carry around inside of you. God bless you brother.
Beautiful tribute to your teammate, mentor, and friend.
Dude, you're a good man. You really put yourself out there.
Chadd, that was beautiful, honest, soul felt. He hear’s you, I believe❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing your story. God bless you and may Jake, Rest In Peace.
Listening to that letter from Jake brought tears to my eyes. How Jake was treated is something that’s never discussed in public. That being how navy treats their own. There’s an old saying that I heard from many a big navy leadership “we eat our young “. I remember a day when someone in Jake’s situation wasn’t simply transferred to a non deploying unit under a trusted friend. Hearing that this happened to a SEAL has me quite concerned as a retired veteran.
Thanks for sharing. Definitely my favorite story of yours. Jake Hubman , what an angel, God rest his soul.
All I can say is Thanks for your Sacrifices .Much Respect
There is so much I can relate with this video.
I first wanna say sorry to hear about your mentor and thanks for sharing that story. Addiction is a strong demon, its one of those conundrums thats hard to solve.
Secondly, I wanna throw out there that I like listening to your stories, not just yours, but a lot of SEAL’s, for some reason its like therapy and in some small way, I can relate with the struggles that you guys been through.
I too have had trouble with addiction and have had my fair share of time spent in prison and only by the grace of God, I just passed my 15th year home outta prison, clean & sober. Im not saying the time of my sobriety for a “good job” or any other praise, I dont deserve any praise, Im simply doing what I should be doing in the first place, Im bringing that up to say, I can relate with what you said, about if you dont know what its like statement. Yes, for some reason a lot of people frown on different types of addiction and it makes that individual feel even more alone, and in most cases drives that person deeper into their hole. I can also relate with you on regret of not saying or trying to do something sooner as well, my father overdosed a couple years ago on fentanyl and I feel like I should of tried harder, or said something different but I have to trust that God knew my father wasn’t strong enough to get himself together and took him home.
Anyway, I wanted to comment and share how I relate on this video, thanks man.
Good on you bro 🇺🇸
Thank you for your service Jake, Rest in peace
Thank you and Jake for your commitment and service 🙏
Gave me chills when you said he ran with you on your punishment!😳💪🙌🔥LEADERSHIP
Just discovered your videos a few days ago man. I've watched your podcasts on Andy Stumpf and Nick Bare. You've motivated me to get back into working out and strengthening the mind. Thanks for sharing a very personal story. You are helping alot of people with the words you speak.
Thank you to all the beautiful service men and women that selflessly dedicated their own lives to keep peace and safety amongst all American civilians❤❤❤
What a sacrifice! I thank you all beautiful people
thank you sir. Excellent content!
There is guys out here like me that have made mistakes young. I listen to guys like you so I don't get too high on my own BullSh**. There is so much inspiration here.
you told the story perfectly. mental health issues are complex with deep deep roots. high stress jobs can exacerbate those deep roots and you can't always see the pain people are in.
Rest in peace Jake. Thank you for Your service 🙏
Well told and I could feel the pain you have. Sorry you lost a friend. Stay well and stay strong.
Sorry for your lose, Jake did a awesome job making you a wonderful man. Very heartbreaking 💔 story🙏
Love hearing your stories about your experiences, great stuff👍🏻👍🏻🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
Does Don Shipley know this Chad?
Thanks for sharing your story with us all. Can imagine how hard it is
Thats just disgusting how no one truly had the guts to go clean out his locker at first besides you… truly you a hero I’m sorry for your loss.
Excellent story very powerful. As a retired infantry marine I feel your pain on losing brothers and sisters it is hard to cope with from time to time the ghost never leave you.
That was hard to hear. My brother-in-law was a service member who also took his life. I’m very sorry to hear this.
Former Marine here Chadd. Crazy how we gain wisdom and understanding the older we get. When you are young and trying to make your own path and persona the world moves at tremendous speed and we all think we have the world by the ass but how wrong we can be. What sticks out to me is when you said “I wish I was the man I am today… back then”. Main I wish I had a buck every time I have said that to myself! Great message here my man and you have nothing to feel bad about here. The Navy does, but you do not! Good luck in the future my man and know Jake is smiling down on you right now. Semper Fi brother!
Don't ever forget your friends. A moving story on many levels. Chadd as you know already we never know what life is going to be ahead for us.
I cried my eyes out for this man that I have never met. Everybody let him down, everybody. He was a SEAL. The best of the best.
Yeah, when Chad said the team guys just acted like he wasnt there. Wow, too tragic.
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Hell of a mentor there! Thanks 🙏 for sharing! Lives on through you now.
Thanks for sharing your story and sorry to hear about your friend. I was not a SEAL but I served 20 years in the Navy and I can totally relate to the idea of the Navy being a machine and them getting rid of you when you are no longer useful. I was going through some things related to my deployments and finally decided to ask for help. And the Navy was really good about getting me the help. However, it came at a cost. One day I was an LPO with a lot of responsibility and literally the next day I was weak and useless in their eyes. So, I was PCS'd out of the command and put on LIMDU orders and pretty much treated like a recruit out of boot camp. It was a hard pill for me to swallow and I struggled with it and ended up going to the psych ward a couple of times due to suicidal ideations. I really don't know how I made it through all of that without becoming an alcoholic or getting court martialed. Thankfully I never went through with ending my life. Having said all of that, I'm glad to see people like you share your stories. I think it shines a light on issues that no one wants to talk about but should. Anyway, thanks again and take care!
HI man, i see you received the same commentary with the same number...wtf?? I just erease my commentary due that.
Yesterday I was speaking to someone about peer counseling…I stressed the fact you never say you understand unless you truly understand by being in that same scenario. That’s hard for people to realize. So many want to be saints to those suffering, when you’re truly only making things worse. I’m sorry for the loss of your friend, you may not of been able to help him, but you can help many more after him. He would look down and be proud that you called him friend and can now help others with your testimony.
Dear Chadd, i know exactly what you mean by that heaviness. I lost my sweetheart, because I made a big mistake that I cannot change anymore. There are days ( maybe today is the next one ) I just break down to the ground and try to break these mighty chains of heaviness. It can break my heart, because this feeling is mighty and at the moment I don't know if I can ever free my heart and soul from this heaviness, it is simply too strong. I've found some techniques to life with this heaviness but I also know my path in the darkness might continue for a long time before I see some sunlight again at the horizon. But I will not give up, I will not quit this life. There are reasons I`m still not dead, just trying to become a better person for my people and animals around me. Physically I have a very big goal to go for, there will be a mountain race in GB with around 40lbs ruck next year and I want to be the first to finish it. It will be hard but this is good and very welcome.
Damn Chadd, I am truly sorry for your loss man. Losing a brother a confidant is real real hard and I hope nobody has to go through that. That story of Jake was touching brotha, thank you for sharing it. Y’all over there take it easy.🇺🇸💪🏻🔱
Sometimes you do not know the true value of a moment, until it is a memory!! What a heart felt story,,,both of you ,,are incredible!!!!
Sir,,(Chad) ,,I would travel to meet you an have an opportunity to listen to life threw your vision,,again sorry for the loss of A SEAL/ MENTOR.
You an David Goggins would be one no doubt heck of a sit down conversation!!!!!
I can tell this was a very hard story to tell
‘If’, is a fantastic word. I’m sorry for your loss.
Chadd, I can't find words strong enough to thank you for this video. It takes courage to put a message like this out, and I don't know that I've ever seen someone do it so gracefully. My grandfather used to read the same poem "If" by Rudyard Kipling to me before I joined the military myself. But just thank you for sending out a message like this. It truly impacted me and I'm confident it will help others as much as it has helped me to hear it.
Growing older doesn’t cultivate wisdom. Learning from your and others mistakes while growing older is where we develop our wisdom. RIP Jake.
Such a great yet sad story. I was in the same boat as Jake. I started using drugs and alcohol at 15 years old. I always knew I was gonna join the Army after I graduated HS, 6 days after I did I was in basic training. Got to Fort Stewart right in time to get deployed to Iraq in 2005. Iraq helped me change my life, our CO was just like Jake, we all loved him, same with our 1st Sergeant. After we got back from our deployment we were all loving life. Every Friday our entire company would play flag football, moral was super high. I decided drugs and alcohol were a thing if the past. Then our CO got caught cheating on his wife and was removed from command and placed in administration, I think they called it S1, but I can't quite remember. Then our 1st Sergeant went to an Infantry Company(we were tankers, he was 11b, we were all 19k). That's when things went downhill. Our new CO needed to prove a point or something, he was a total dbag. Our 1st Sergeant was even worse. Long story short, one day I quit caring about my military career and it led me right back down the addiction path. Obviously at the end of the day it is 100% my fault. I actually came forward to my gunner and told I had a drug and alcohol problem and I needed treatment. Instead my CO forced me to take a piss test and gave me an article 15 for using drugs. Then I really quit caring, and 3 months short of my 3 year 6 month contract I got kicked out. I had a gun to my head several times when I was in. I know the exact feeling of being discarded like trash in the military. The only ones who truly cared about me were my 2 closest buddies, one I still talk to every couple month. My other buddy took my spot on my tank after they went back to Ramadi in 2007, he ended up getting killed by a sniper when he was climbing out of the driver's hatch, that was tough news to here. It hurt watching my brothers go to Iraq while I stayed behind and cleaned floors, you feel like the worst person on planet earth.
You've Got A LOT MORE LIFE to LIVE!!
Give your life purpose and meaning.. don't dwell too much on the past. I know very much so (from personal experience) that if I don't control my thoughts and where I go with my thoughts, I could make myself miserable.. all the what-if's and things I wish I had done differently can drive you nuts and drive you to suicide if you allow it to.
Great talk Chadd. I have a very close friend that suffered a similar fate at the hands of the army. However, he's still with us. Everyone close to him has done their best to help him, and he's doing good. When the army dropped him, it also caused him to lose a job in law enforcement too. It's all he's ever known. I can't imagine what's bouncing around in his head, that's why we've all done as much as we can to support our brother. Thanks Chadd.
"Don't be afraid to make mastakes" I Love You Brother. I am Pleased to Hear Your Brother ate His Own Lunch He Made. Men make Men.
I can't imagine how difficult it is for you to sit and talk about this. Even some of us non military people have lost a friend and wish we were the men we are now. Sorry for your loss and thank you for your service.
Thanks for that honest story. Two weeks out of the police academy my older brother Murdered my father. I was in the house. My training taught me how to enter the room correctly. This was the difference in me living and my brother being neutralized permanently. Because my father was wealthy, my entire family abandoned me and treated me horribly. Totally F'd up. Wanted to end it for a long time. But I had Christ ✝️. Your story really hit my heart. May Jake be in God's huddle. He's now the Lord's beautiful warrior !! Take care !! ⚔️⚔️⚔️