Idk if you filmed most of the shots yourself, but if you did…WOW!!! Very creative addition. Also, thank you for sharing part of your story. I would definitely keep watching if you make more videos
You are so raw, and so genuine, and your sadness about that sibling is so touching. I wish you and everyone that escapes this brainwashing cult nothing but positivity and joy for their futures 💫
Thanks for watching durring the Premier! Thank you Jennifer Brown, Flinker Mary, Lulu K, Jessica Bruinekool and Christina Gladding! It was fun talking in the chat during the Premier of the video! Im glade I got to watch it with you guys. Also a special thanks to Lulu K for watching with me even though you had a birthday party at the same time! You guys are so fun to chat with!
@Amanda Rae (I don’t know why this didn’t highlight your name) in his description for the video you can correct him on the word “ans” it is suppose to be “and” lol. I correct my brother alot also lol 😂
This is awesome. Everybody always talks about what its like for a woman but rarely do you hear a mans perspective. I watched your escape on the show, youve come a long way. Blessings from California
Always look forward to watching your videos! :) It would be very interesting to have a video of you comparing your experiences in The Order to one of your sisters!
I'm so glad your showing your openness about the world you grew up in cause for someone like me n outsider looking in I'm glad you can share things like this.
You are amazing & I've waited so long to hear your voice!! I watched EP and am so happy that you were able to leave! Amanda is amazing & I follow her too! Whatever you need advice or perspective feel free to reach out.. You are living a whole different life than you were taught & it would be MY honor to help you navigate any questions you may have! Very proud of you Eskel!
Great video thanks for sharing. It’s told in a way where we can really understand the isolation and control and how it impacted your life. It’s great that you have siblings out there with you now that you know you can trust and will always have your back.
Thanks for sharing your story. You have a kind & loving heart. Love how close you and your siblings are. I bet it makes it easy to cope having siblings around to lean on. ❤️
Our world is so sad right now. It's like everyone only cares about themselves. I know that everyone isn't like this, but there is so much hate and divide. Heartbreaking right now 💔. Thank you for sharing this with us Eskel. 🙏❤
Eskel, Thank you for sharing your story, please don't stop. I feel by talking about it, it will help you in the long run. I subscribed along time ago, and had about given up hope that you would ad more videos, so glad you are. I also subscribed to your sis and her videos are so great. Take care and don't stop now that you have begun.
Very interesting, thank you. When I was 15 my father saw a very long fairly private thing (not his fault) and even now as an older woman I still remember how I felt at that time.
Wow Eskel. I would write letters to me. My mother found my letter and was so horrible to me afterwards. I know now that I didn't even write anything bad!
One big thing is living a healthy lifestyle, in the order I always prioritized other things over a healthy lifestyle. Since I’ve left I have been able to do so much better and I am loving it! There is a lot that goes into it with physical exercises and good daily habits being the key, but I definitely want to do a video about it! Hopefully soon!:)
@@EskelsCultExpirience I am so glad you’re free to choose that lifestyle. I am glad you, Amanda and others are speaking out. It is sad the leaders have added to the Bible in a way that are leading so many astray. A personal relationship with Jesus is the only way to Heaven according to the Bible. Riding on their earthly father’s coat tail is a myth I pray many come to question. Just like Amanda keeps saying, question everything until it makes sense. I had a near death experience. I know Jesus is real. No one should miss out on that due to the lies of the leaders.
How many of your siblings have left the order since you left! I have to admit I had never heard of the order until I started watching escaping polygamy
Well actually none of my direct siblings have left after me. I have been the last one to leave so far, but a lot of them are still young so it’s definitely hard for them right now.
@@EskelsCultExpirience my dad's family is all from Bountiful/woods cross and I didn't know about the order until escaping polygamy. I lived all over northern Utah I never knew about it. 🤷 Actually the cemetery Amanda talks about and where Rachel Robinson is laid to rest my great grandparents and my grandfather is also buried there.
Does the LDS Church consider or think of The Order as a cult? What did they think (outside "the great divide" 🤣 of the older prophets) of it all or say about it all? I've noticed alot of ppl who leave FLDS & The Order kinda end up LDS or not religious at all. Just curious if they considered it a cult!?
I can't speak for the Church as a whole, but I'm a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and I see the FLDS and Order organizations as off-track and definintly problematic. It's interesting to me to see how they started with truth and split themselves off when something they were uncomfortable with was revealed. It's gone downhill since then from what I can see with abuse at the highest levels, lawlessness, and the disintegration of their families. Makes me sad. It's hard to define anything as a cult because there's so many different definitions of a cult, but from my personal definition of a cult the FLDS and Order organizations seem to fit it.
So you went from one cult to another ? The LDS cult also tells their members what to do , how to think , what to eat etc. If it was a true religion it would never change. They made a lot of changes. And a true religion that changes is a false religion. And truth that changes is a lie. Do you want to live a lie ?
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Idk if you filmed most of the shots yourself, but if you did…WOW!!! Very creative addition. Also, thank you for sharing part of your story. I would definitely keep watching if you make more videos
You are so raw, and so genuine, and your sadness about that sibling is so touching. I wish you and everyone that escapes this brainwashing cult nothing but positivity and joy for their futures 💫
Thanks for watching durring the Premier! Thank you Jennifer Brown, Flinker Mary, Lulu K, Jessica Bruinekool and Christina Gladding! It was fun talking in the chat during the Premier of the video! Im glade I got to watch it with you guys. Also a special thanks to Lulu K for watching with me even though you had a birthday party at the same time! You guys are so fun to chat with!
I'm "glade" too lol love you lil bro ❤️❤️❤️
No problem eskel finishing up the video now , I had a wonderful birthday dinner. Keep up the great work you have my full support.
Caught your pun Amanda lol
@@TheAmandaRaeGrant haha thanks Amanda I would not be able to spell anything right if it wasn’t for you correcting me all the time!:)
@Amanda Rae
(I don’t know why this didn’t highlight your name) in his description for the video you can correct him on the word “ans” it is suppose to be “and” lol. I correct my brother alot also lol 😂
Amanda is always saying you're super creative and now I can see why. I love this video and the creativity behind the editing!
I'm so proud of you. A true life is Freedom to all.
This is awesome. Everybody always talks about what its like for a woman but rarely do you hear a mans perspective. I watched your escape on the show, youve come a long way. Blessings from California
Always look forward to watching your videos! :) It would be very interesting to have a video of you comparing your experiences in The Order to one of your sisters!
Yes I love this idea, I’m going to run it by my sisters and she if any of them would like to do it with me!
I'm so glad your showing your openness about the world you grew up in cause for someone like me n outsider looking in I'm glad you can share things like this.
Your heartache was breaking. I totally get it.
Your relationship with your siblings melts my heart ❤️
You are amazing & I've waited so long to hear your voice!! I watched EP and am so happy that you were able to leave! Amanda is amazing & I follow her too! Whatever you need advice or perspective feel free to reach out.. You are living a whole different life than you were taught & it would be MY honor to help you navigate any questions you may have! Very proud of you Eskel!
Well done Eskel! Looking forward to see more videos. You're very brave to tell your story.
Siblings fight it’s just natural, everyone is an individual 💞💞
Great video thanks for sharing. It’s told in a way where we can really understand the isolation and control and how it impacted your life. It’s great that you have siblings out there with you now that you know you can trust and will always have your back.
I missed the premier, but I adore you! I'm so glad your out and giving your experience!! 💜💚💙❤️
Thanks for sharing your story. You have a kind & loving heart. Love how close you and your siblings are. I bet it makes it easy to cope having siblings around to lean on. ❤️
Eskel you are TO talented with videography ! The filming with the editing with the music! Perfect! I love it & keep going!
Our world is so sad right now. It's like everyone only cares about themselves. I know that everyone isn't like this, but there is so much hate and divide. Heartbreaking right now 💔. Thank you for sharing this with us Eskel. 🙏❤
Thank you for sharing your story. Love watching your videos.
You should be very proud of yourself. You had to actually fight for your freedom.
What a kind, sweet, gentle soul you have.💖
awww thanks :)
Eskel, Thank you for sharing your story, please don't stop. I feel by talking about it, it will help you in the long run. I subscribed along time ago, and had about given up hope that you would ad more videos, so glad you are. I also subscribed to your sis and her videos are so great. Take care and don't stop now that you have begun.
Hugs from a Texas grandma. So glad you know you. My your future be bright 🌞.
Very interesting, thank you. When I was 15 my father saw a very long fairly private thing (not his fault) and even now as an older woman I still remember how I felt at that time.
Thanks for sharing. I know it must be hard but you made it look very easy to speak on camera.
Nice editing too man!
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Hello glad to see you’re doing a live.
You should talk to Sam from Growing Up Polygamy, (I think that’s what it’s called). Compare stories.
I am glad you left and more freedom spiritual.. god bless you..
Thanks for sharing your story.
It's sounds like your dad was gaslighting you. It's horrible you were betrayed. I hope you have someone that you really trust to confide in.
Wow Eskel. I would write letters to me. My mother found my letter and was so horrible to me afterwards. I know now that I didn't even write anything bad!
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WOW YOU INTRO IS FANCY, I AM IMPRESSED, I AM GOING TO START A RUclips CHANNEL ABOUT HISTORY, OLD BUILDINGS, GHOSTS, etc..
What is the best thing that’s happened to you since leaving the order?
One big thing is living a healthy lifestyle, in the order I always prioritized other things over a healthy lifestyle. Since I’ve left I have been able to do so much better and I am loving it! There is a lot that goes into it with physical exercises and good daily habits being the key, but I definitely want to do a video about it! Hopefully soon!:)
@@EskelsCultExpirience I am so glad you’re free to choose that lifestyle. I am glad you, Amanda and others are speaking out. It is sad the leaders have added to the Bible in a way that are leading so many astray. A personal relationship with Jesus is the only way to Heaven according to the Bible. Riding on their earthly father’s coat tail is a myth I pray many come to question. Just like Amanda keeps saying, question everything until it makes sense.
I had a near death experience. I know Jesus is real. No one should miss out on that due to the lies of the leaders.
Just an idea maybe you could do different series of what you share ie the order lds and my life now ect like in different genres
How many of your siblings have left the order since you left! I have to admit I had never heard of the order until I started watching escaping polygamy
Well actually none of my direct siblings have left after me. I have been the last one to leave so far, but a lot of them are still young so it’s definitely hard for them right now.
Ya the order is definitely small, so not to many people know about the group
@@EskelsCultExpirience my dad's family is all from Bountiful/woods cross and I didn't know about the order until escaping polygamy. I lived all over northern Utah I never knew about it. 🤷 Actually the cemetery Amanda talks about and where Rachel Robinson is laid to rest my great grandparents and my grandfather is also buried there.
Does the LDS Church consider or think of The Order as a cult? What did they think (outside "the great divide" 🤣 of the older prophets) of it all or say about it all? I've noticed alot of ppl who leave FLDS & The Order kinda end up LDS or not religious at all. Just curious if they considered it a cult!?
I can't speak for the Church as a whole, but I'm a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and I see the FLDS and Order organizations as off-track and definintly problematic. It's interesting to me to see how they started with truth and split themselves off when something they were uncomfortable with was revealed. It's gone downhill since then from what I can see with abuse at the highest levels, lawlessness, and the disintegration of their families. Makes me sad. It's hard to define anything as a cult because there's so many different definitions of a cult, but from my personal definition of a cult the FLDS and Order organizations seem to fit it.
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So you went from one cult to another ? The LDS cult also tells their members what to do , how to think , what to eat etc. If it was a true religion it would never change. They made a lot of changes. And a true religion that changes is a false religion. And truth that changes is a lie. Do you want to live a lie ?