I'm also an avid cook and fixing to get back in the job market after a surgery!!! I really enjoy cooking but as a recovering addict a kitchen can be a very dangerous place because anyone that works in kitchens knows the amount of drugs is insane and acceptable as long as you can do your job!!! Ugh
If you haven't read his books - highly advisable. He also wrote fiction inspired from his time in mob kitchens - Bone in the Throat and Gone Bamboo, I believe. He was a 44 year old failed writer, junkie and kitchen lifer when he wrote Kitchen Confidential with anger... Changed his life. He still couldn't hold on though. Peace
Hey brother if your reading this, keep up the good work man! Love ya storys aye takes the edge away from being stressed, especially the lsd ones, even if you dont have a massive following fkn love it bro!
Cafe waitress here. Totally my jam. Down to 5g kratom, preparing for the jump....yet again. Ugh. When will it let me go? Or is the power in me. It's circular I think. Anyway, love your stories. I recently realized I may have been suffering from autism all along. Thought it was bipolar. Digging deep into this, trying to figure myself out. Hate fluorescent lighting with a fkn passion. I miss Appalachia. Glad you are there. Hope family is thriving. Get over to Chattanooga, please. ❤
Yeah, the kratom seems to get a deep psychological hold. I keep making it thru the initial physical discomfort and it's the mental space that pulls me back. Easy for me to rationalize that it's not that bad - and slip back in. Really tired of it and ready to commit to making it through. Really just 5ish days of physical wd but the mental space and craving seems to take a little while. Going to write a little note to myself to read when I wake up - to remind myself I'll make it thru and it takes a little while to stop lying to myself. Peace.
24:10 congratulations brother i am 4 days off of subs. Tomorrow will be 5 after spending my summer tapering And the last 2 months intermittent fasting & light exercise really helped me kick it You can do it 💪 yall We got this
That's great - hang in there. I personally have found day 8ish thru 12ish to be hard. The exhaustion starts to take a toll. Just take it easy. Then there's another wave of mental discomfort around 30 days in. Just me. Proud of you - hang in there. I smile at myself in the mirror when I remember I don't HAVE to take sub. Peace
I've been off buprenorphine for almost ten months. Been on and off with kratom after oral surgery. Feel like the paws from the bupe is just now receding and ready to be done dabbling with the kratom. I personally had to go to a 30 day inpatient to get off subs. I didn't trust myself to detox from subs at home. Some people can - but it's a marathon. Hang in there. Peace.
@@kevo8137 Thanks man. I still remember that experience pretty clearly - blessing and a curse to remember those things. Sometimes I beat myself up for having blown it so royally in many aspects of life - but have to remember to be grateful for how fortunate I am. I've heard a lot of positive things regarding the buprenorphine time release implant. Sounds like it's a bit easier to get off if and when that time comes. Take care.
@@outtosea25damn WISH i could go to a 30-45 day program . (For methadone ) down to 45 . Been on ten years this round . Off dope for 7 . A program would be great but damn i could never afford one
Keep the videos coming man!!
Hey thanks - will do.
I'm also an avid cook and fixing to get back in the job market after a surgery!!! I really enjoy cooking but as a recovering addict a kitchen can be a very dangerous place because anyone that works in kitchens knows the amount of drugs is insane and acceptable as long as you can do your job!!! Ugh
Rip Bourdain. No reservations and parts unknown are still one if the few things i enjoy watching on tv.
If you haven't read his books - highly advisable. He also wrote fiction inspired from his time in mob kitchens - Bone in the Throat and Gone Bamboo, I believe. He was a 44 year old failed writer, junkie and kitchen lifer when he wrote Kitchen Confidential with anger... Changed his life. He still couldn't hold on though. Peace
@@outtosea25 yeah Ive read kitchen confidential, I'll have to get to the library and see if I can read the others. Thanks for the suggestions.
@@sepdawg33 Yeah man. I just read Medium Raw and now about done with Nasty Bits.
Hey brother if your reading this, keep up the good work man! Love ya storys aye takes the edge away from being stressed, especially the lsd ones, even if you dont have a massive following fkn love it bro!
You are a very talented orator!
Thanks man.
Cafe waitress here. Totally my jam. Down to 5g kratom, preparing for the jump....yet again. Ugh. When will it let me go? Or is the power in me. It's circular I think. Anyway, love your stories. I recently realized I may have been suffering from autism all along. Thought it was bipolar. Digging deep into this, trying to figure myself out. Hate fluorescent lighting with a fkn passion. I miss Appalachia. Glad you are there. Hope family is thriving. Get over to Chattanooga, please. ❤
Yeah, the kratom seems to get a deep psychological hold. I keep making it thru the initial physical discomfort and it's the mental space that pulls me back. Easy for me to rationalize that it's not that bad - and slip back in. Really tired of it and ready to commit to making it through. Really just 5ish days of physical wd but the mental space and craving seems to take a little while. Going to write a little note to myself to read when I wake up - to remind myself I'll make it thru and it takes a little while to stop lying to myself. Peace.
24:10 congratulations brother i am 4 days off of subs. Tomorrow will be 5 after spending my summer tapering
And the last 2 months intermittent fasting & light exercise really helped me kick it
You can do it 💪 yall
We got this
That's great - hang in there. I personally have found day 8ish thru 12ish to be hard. The exhaustion starts to take a toll. Just take it easy. Then there's another wave of mental discomfort around 30 days in. Just me. Proud of you - hang in there. I smile at myself in the mirror when I remember I don't HAVE to take sub. Peace
How's the subs going? Switching to brixadi soon and nervous
I've been off buprenorphine for almost ten months. Been on and off with kratom after oral surgery. Feel like the paws from the bupe is just now receding and ready to be done dabbling with the kratom. I personally had to go to a 30 day inpatient to get off subs. I didn't trust myself to detox from subs at home. Some people can - but it's a marathon. Hang in there. Peace.
@outtosea25 Thank you brother. I absolutely loved your puddle story
@@kevo8137 Thanks man. I still remember that experience pretty clearly - blessing and a curse to remember those things. Sometimes I beat myself up for having blown it so royally in many aspects of life - but have to remember to be grateful for how fortunate I am. I've heard a lot of positive things regarding the buprenorphine time release implant. Sounds like it's a bit easier to get off if and when that time comes. Take care.
@@outtosea25damn WISH i could go to a 30-45 day program . (For methadone ) down to 45 . Been on ten years this round . Off dope for 7 . A program would be great but damn i could never afford one
Alcohol will do it to you too man.. 3 months sober from alcohol now after 18 years of hard drinking.
Yeah man - alcohol is just as bad as hard drugs. Seen it do a lot of damage, killed my Dad. Peace