Know You Better

YALL...I've been dying to upload this song it just took me forever to get around to it. In case you didn't see my other video from this showcase this event was put on by Cierra Jordan (ARISE with Cierra) who is my fantastic vocal coach. The showcase was songwriting-themed so of course I had to do it! Even if it meant driving three hours home from college one day after classes started :D
I'm so thankful for Cierra because without her I wouldn't have been able to share any of these songs for multiple reasons. 1. Because she set this showcase up for her students and 2. Because something happened the day of the showcase that's never happened to me before, but shook me up quite a bit. I'm not exactly sure what caused it, because it didn't feel like it was the showcase, but I think it must've been some kind of response to the prospect of being as vulnerable as I was in the other song I performed (End Up Like Them) and the stress of starting school back up. Anyway, I was chilling in my room and got a bit upset, and then it just snowballed to the point where I couldn't get control of my emotions. I was sobbing like someone just died and my hands, legs, and face started getting super tingly/numb. I crawled over to my guitar to try and play a bar chord and I couldn't because my hands felt so strange which sent me further into the panic. All I could do was pray, and warn Cierra I may not be able to perform but that I would try my best and show up. My mom helped tremendously to calm me down, her presence was enough to keep whatever was wrong at bay. Cierra also saved me by coming on stage with me for Know You Better (which is actually the first song). I knew if I was alone on stage those feelings would come back, and I was not about to freak out on stage in front of everyone. Anyway...Thanks for reading my little story time about the first (and God-willing last) anxiety attack I've had. I appreciate you watching and I hope you enjoy!
Lyrics:
Chorus
I just wanna know, know
Know you better
Even if we don’t, don’t
End up together
I just wanna know x2
Verse:
I’ve had a crush
Once or twice
But I’ve never been in love
Even once in my life
And I don’t really want to
Want you
Until I know that I want to
Want you
Chorus
I just wanna know, know
Know you better
Even if we don’t, don’t
End up together
I just wanna know x2
Verse 2:
I can’t get enough
When you walk by
But it doesn’t happen much
So I don’t know if I should try
Cause I don’t really want to
Want you
Until I know that I want to
Want you
Chorus
I just wanna know, know
Know you better
Even if we don’t, don’t
End up together
I just wanna know x2
Bridge:
But I’m scared
Of what you’re gonna think of me
And I’m aware
Knowing you well could end badly
It’s been years
Of waiting for a fantasy
I’m Not Prepared
Cause I don’t know my destiny
But I just so desperately
Wanna know if you’re the one for me
Chorus
I just wanna know, know
Know you better
Even if we don’t, don’t
End up together
I just wanna know x2