End Up Like Them

Hey ya'll! My amazing vocal coach Cierra Jordan (owner of ARISE with Cierra) put on a songwriting showcase and I got to be a part of it! It was super exciting and the first time I've ever performed my songs in front of an audience. I had gone back to college a few days before this showcase so it was a bit of a hectic week (I go to college three hours from home) but it was SO worth it. I'm not going to lie I went through some pretty intense emotions before this performance. It's a story for another day, but it's safe to say the moments leading up to this song were more difficult than I had anticipated. This year has already been full of a new kind of vulnerability I never thought I could reach. I am pretty private when it comes to difficult things, but I've found myself talking about hard things much more this past semester and year. I've prayed for a long time for God to give me the strength to be vulnerable and it seems it's happening! Anyway, thank you for watching if you are, I appreciate you. I hope you enjoy!
Lyrics:
Verse:
When I was thirteen I was up in room
Reading general science got to chapter two
My dad called us all downstairs
I didn’t know that I should be scared
He sat us down on the couch, he kept the tears from his eyes
He told us he’s moving out
And that’s when I realized
This was my worst nightmare
The shock ripped a hole through the air
Pre-chorus:
And I guess I thought it would get easier
I guess I thought that I could escape the pain
But no it’s not any easier
And college doesn’t make the hurt go away
Cause sometimes I still get mad
When I have to choose who’s house to go to
Sometimes it’s not that bad
But then I think about how two
Chorus
Kids my own age got married
Popped out three kids
So happy
But something wasn’t right from the beginning
And I can’t help but think about my ending
Cause I don’t wanna end up like them
I’ve already been cracked open
I’d rather stay single forever
Then go through that kind of disaster again
Verse 2:
There’s always someone who doesn’t talk to someone
I’m the someone who still talks to all them
And I can’t lie it gets exhausting
When you’re the rope tug-of-war is toxic
Year by year we all, started to shift
Some things got better
Most just insipid
It’s a different kind of struggle now
There’s no yelling, but I shut down
Bridge:
It’s been 2 years
It’s been five years
It’ll be 10 years
But I’m still right back there
I’m holding onto my revenge card
Cause I need to make sure the consequences are
Real or it means that it was alright
But the pain I’m holding is all mine
Yeah I’m holding onto to my revenge card
Cause their punishment is me falling apart
But I’m too scared to let it show
So I’m stuck with this heavy load
Extra measure
Ending:
Cause I refuse to end up like them
I’ll kick and scream before I let it happen
I don’t know how I could ever marry
But I’m scared of being lonely
I swear to God I’ll never end up like them
But that’s what everyone before me has said
Divorce is like a disease that’s in my genes
I just want to be free please let me be

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i found you from your must have been the wind video, my parents are getting a divorce, and the court date is February 14th...my mom moved out and lives in an apartment and my dad is moving out of my childhood home, when my mom decided to leave, she stayed in a hotel for a few days, and she asked me and my brother if we were going with her and my brother said "I'll go if you go..." I stood there crying feeling so much pressure but decided to go with my mom because I didn't want her to be alone, now we switch week on week off but it's still sad 2:34 - 2:41 is exactly how I feel. I hope everything goes well for you, I'll be here.❤

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I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Sometimes I feel like our culture doesn’t acknowledge the pain and difficulty that comes with divorce, but let me tell you…All of your feelings are real and as cheesy and overused as the word is…They’re valid. I hope you can find some peace in the storm you’re facing. For me that was/is Jesus. Among all of the change and heart ache, All the betrayal, all the confusion…He is constant through out it all. I don’t know much about your background, so this might sound familiar or maybe a little strange, but God is the one thing you can hold onto when the world around you refuses to stop shifting. Anyways, I know words can’t make any of this better, but I hope you feel a little less alone. You are loved so greatly and I am so appreciative that you took the time to leave a comment under my song. Thank you ❤️.

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@@R0SE04 you are so welcome and thank you so much i love your music its amazing and things have been getting better lately and i just got baptized yesterday, jesus is my savior and i accept him❤and im glad you do too, much love to you and im glad i found you❤

[@R0SE04]

@@SkyeCrafts-Official that makes me so so glad to hear! Thank you again for commenting!

[@SkyeCrafts-Official]

@@R0SE04 no problem❤