The Road Out of Opiate Addiction-Josh Datant
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- Опубликовано: 12 янв 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Josh Datant, a musician fighting opiate addiction in Austin, Texas.
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Broke my heart when he explained how excited his son would get after his dad woke up from passing out😭
Such an innocent soul❤️
💔
Listening to this story led .e through a myriad of emotions....there is nothing anyone could possibly say in the comments to make him feel worse than he already feels...so I will lift him up in prayer and wish him the best.
No tears. No red eyes..C'mon now..but Prayer is always good 💯 😊.
Me too....🙏
Let's all lift him up in our joined Prayers & Love please.....
😘🙏❤️
Very kind words....
Besides the false sabt(Sunday),and teh wide spread of spiritism(yog, karma, ouiaj bord, reiki,hipnosis), last final decie wil be ,atht satn himslef wil come as Hrist, sayinghe changed teh day of rest! And this decie wil be poerful for al those who dont read teh Bible for themseles,as it wil be flowed by great miracles and healings,everywere he wil apear! But teh Bible dosnt live su without wraning to this and cleaerly says aht when Jesius coems " All eyes wil see Him" ,so everyone on earth, wilse satans fake only here and there! -read Mathew chaoter 24! Another direct warning to teh spirit f the anthirst is in 2 Joan 7" anyone who says atht Jesus doenst coem in flesh/body, is teh spirit of the anthirst"! And i would sugest you get abook caled " The great cintroversy" by Ellen White, is ana mazing book, wich depicts the war betwen good and evil,from Lucifers afl til teh very end,and in the last few chapters, is everything about what we live, and whats toc eom, pure undiluted truth, with valiuble insights! God bless you all!
@@dhalladay27Tia Power Im convinced we truly live the end times, and that is not much till we will hear about the sunday decret! As the Catolic church, ran the inquisition in the midle eve, so it will be în these last times, with al who will want to live only to a 100 % "stays writen", especilay the true sabat (4th comandmnt in the ten laws, Exodus 20:8)! I recomand you get a book caled The great controversy by Ellen White! It depicts the war betwen good and evil from Lucifers fall, till the very end, and in the last 100 pages youl find everything about the sunday decret, what we live, whats to come, pure undiluted truth, with amazing insights! Is a must read for everyone who is intrested that we live the end times, and how everything, is playing out! May God help us be sheeps and not goats in that day! God bless you and youre loved ones!
It takes so much courage to take this level of accountability and work to overcome the shame of past mistakes. I wish Josh and his family all the best! You can do this Josh!!
Thank you so much for saying that and the kind wishes. It means so much!
Our stories are sooo similar. I lost my oldest brother to a o.d. I battled addiction for the better part of a decade. My loving wife never gave up on me and here I am now going on 7 years clean. God bless!!
WAY TO GO!!! CONGRATULATIONS 🎉🎉🎉!!! I hope you are proud of yourself, as I know Many are!
I’m very happy for you.
Amen
Keep up the good work!
Besides the false sabt(Sunday),and teh wide spread of spiritism(yog, karma, ouiaj bord, reiki,hipnosis), last final decie wil be ,atht satn himslef wil come as Hrist, sayinghe changed teh day of rest! And this decie wil be poerful for al those who dont read teh Bible for themseles,as it wil be flowed by great miracles and healings,everywere he wil apear! But teh Bible dosnt live su without wraning to this and cleaerly says aht when Jesius coems " All eyes wil see Him" ,so everyone on earth, wilse satans fake only here and there! -read Mathew chaoter 24! Another direct warning to teh spirit f the anthirst is in 2 Joan 7" anyone who says atht Jesus doenst coem in flesh/body, is teh spirit of the anthirst"! And i would sugest you get abook caled " The great cintroversy" by Ellen White, is ana mazing book, wich depicts the war betwen good and evil,from Lucifers afl til teh very end,and in the last few chapters, is everything about what we live, and whats toc eom, pure undiluted truth, with valiuble insights! God bless you all!
Psychedelics saved me from years of uncontrollable depression, anxiety, smoking, and illicit pills addiction. Imagine carving heavy chains for over a decade and then all of a sudden that burden is gone. Believe it or not, in a couple of years they'll be all over for treatment of mental health related issues.
To be honest, mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on the planet and it is natural, they serve in many ways not only for mental related issues.
Can you help me with a reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. It is very hard to get a reliable source here in New Zealand. Really need!
Yes, Sporeville. I had the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD, and addiction... Mushrooms definitely made a huge difference to why I'm clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He's 59 & has many mental health issues plus probably CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD knows if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on Instagram?
My heart goes out to his son. He will need support for the trauma he has suffered at the hands of his father.
I kept asking myself throughout this video what about the poor child
@@user-fl7cg6wc1hI don’t think I can watch anymore cause of that. Fucking horrible
Right? Where is he and’s why can’t he see him? I thought he was with the grandmother?
This guy is too wrapped up in himself to understand the damage he has caused. He tells a lot of the stories like they're cute and poetic. Imagine taking your own son's insulin needles to shoot up and then nodding out over him when he has collapsed from malnutrition and lack of insulin. I suspect he is lying about being clean and thinking his claims of not being a deadbeat Dad for all of five minutes will garner him attention for his music career.@@user-fl7cg6wc1h
Tia Power Im convinced we truly live the end times, and that is not much till we will hear about the sunday decret! As the Catolic church, ran the inquisition in the midle eve, so it will be în these last times, with al who will want to live only to a 100 % "stays writen", especilay the true sabat (4th comandmnt in the ten laws, Exodus 20:8)! I recomand you get a book caled The great controversy by Ellen White! It depicts the war betwen good and evil from Lucifers fall, till the very end, and in the last 100 pages youl find everything about the sunday decret, what we live, whats to come, pure undiluted truth, with amazing insights! Is a must read for everyone who is intrested that we live the end times, and how everything, is playing out! May God help us be sheeps and not goats in that day! God bless you and youre loved ones!
I love how us drug addicts and alcoholics can always see the flaw in everything and everyone but can’t see how we come up short more than anyone else.
A lot of humans are that way, not just addicts, but addicts do tend to take the blaming of others to another level.
Yep! Everyone seems to have faults - yet he chose them to be in his life.
Honey..Most of us do when trying to jump into adulthood. We grab every book, maybe do some really questionable things. Unfortunatel, it's bleeding over until we the people are the adults l..Now what?
😂
you make a valid point. ouch.
Your descriptions of your son brought me to tears. I'm trying to be a better dad to my kids and this renewed my efforts
You can do it 😁💯✌️!! Sometimes, listening to anothers story, kicks us in the ass too😜😉.
Your worst parenting would be 1/8 of this guys best
@@stefs7141 How would you know that personally?? That's just not an encouraging comment and definitely wasn't necessary. No wonder addicts give up on themselves, if this is how their always looked down on from their fellow human race.
A lot of individuals, age doesn't matter, got caught up in the Oxycodone pain relief. They were actually being able to live a productive life again, which follows by raising their spirits.
Sure, the makers got sued, just like tobacco leaders that lied... But what does it do to the actual patient now??? Many sr's are back to being bed bound, unable to enjoy life again .
Sometimes, many addicts just need someone to believe in them. To let them know they are worthy too, but need to find a new way to live.
I sure wouldn't want their mental & physical persons and I haven't met or heard anyone say, they want to grow up to become an addict. Sticking themselves with needles everyday, by their choice.
Dr's just cutting them off completely & immediately. Their practices are more important than the patients . What would you suggest, after being served a No More Scripts, and told to buy them on the St corner.
There's a whole bigger picture surrounding addiction. I do hope you do some research and learn to be a little kinder. We are all in this together. ❤️✌️Without each other, we are nothing.
“your grandson will say that to you..”
Facts..
If he's Blessed 🙏✌️. With what is in that crap now 😲👀😭. ANY Crap!
Not a Fact, if He gets the help He* needs-> and breaks the Generational curse by staying clean, and being the Dad He's been** wanting to be. I pray God, Universe and benevolent helpers on the other side, to send blessing after blessing, grace- God's undeserved favor and protection of his Son, his Son's health(as well as His/Dad's)and all of their needs. I pray for their salvation and that His love for music is turned into the desire to worship God, thanking The Lord for the gift of being able to play guitar, write and sing, etc. 🎶❤️🔥🗣️ Amen.
Bam!
Well, no one stole his 'wah-wah'. Josh is still so self-absorbed, he mentioned his son so minimally, almost forgot he had a brother,, cried on a dime - for himself. At the end I think he was looking for an opportunity to sing his song for Mark. Even playing this same-ol'-mememe at 2x speed, this self absorbed droning is not my tune. Bless his sweet son, his enduring mother, and that wonderful cop who gave a sht. Josh, "Keep coming back".
Facts indeed
Such a brave soul to tell such a struggling story. I am so proud of you and all you've done in your life.
I am currently inpatient medical unit for a 25 year addiction of opiate and heroin. Hardest thing I've ever done. 12 days sober today.
keep pushin sister! u got this
Thank you
I agree it is very brave to be forthcoming with your shame and guilt behind your actions while you were in active addiction..your transparency will pay dividends during your recovery. Good luck to the both of you in your journey. One day at a time..some days one minute at a time ..consistency and discipline are our best friend
It’s not brave. He craves attention and you don’t get a trophy for acting how you should WITHOUT being under the influence. I kicked without anything. Should I get a pat on the back for being an idiot for ever touching the poison ? No.
straight out!! same here, he needs 2 MAN TF UP and DROP it TOTALLY @@MoM-do7js
Let's get one thing straight...the drug dealer didn't put your child in a dangerous situation. You did. I'm not throwing shade. I'm just stating a fact. Through my addiction I did a ton of stupid shit and once I was in recovery I had to own that stupid shit. It's part of the healing process. You have my support. You are owning alot here. Saying some very tough things and acknowledging. Our reality as addicts is not a pretty one but it does get better. It can get better.
its his story who the f are you to judge
Someone who was obviously in His shoes and named facts!
Yeah,think its well intended,but is some heavy handed,two fisted,program talk. The rigidity in that attitude is judgemental, and probably something he needs to be because of his own program, harm reduction. To be flexible or was judgemental is probably only way for@craigrock8444 to maintain sobriety. So,maybe some slack....but your right..he doesn't always know what he's talking about.
Exactly. Let’s stop not addressing the white elephant in the room over and over again of parental neglect. Until that monster of a problem is dealt with these videos are basically for entertainment value - not to effect societal change.
Except he's testifying about his life,does not mean he understands everyone or has full proof answers for everyone else.
I can see why some comments suggest Josh is still using, but it takes time to heal the parasympathetic-sympathetic nervous system after using opiates for so many years. Then the anxiety of retelling a life of family trauma is hard on the body.
This channel attracts a good number of recovering ppl and those still using who are often harder on others than they are on themselves, or as hard.
Grateful to read comments from those who have empathy for ppl who bare their soul on this channel as honestly as they are able, where they are in their path to healing.
Thank you for this. More people should read a psychology book educate themselves . Or or or.... They could listen to a RUclips video or 2 about abuse/trauma and how it effects the brain nervous system and how similar yet even worse when a child , a toddler is abused sexualiy and otherwise as well as neglected for any length of time but say from 3 - 12yrs old and mentally abused well beyond teen years...this person lives a life of active addiction because it's the only way to escape the nightmares and emotional pain... Then the judges chime in and say how dare you be so sick and selfish and how dare you not be the recipient of father or mother of the year.. His honesty here, especially about his son and how he didn't take proper care of him and so on,.... He's not proud, this is brutal honesty. I have a lot of respect for the courage, humility and vulnerability it takes to tell it. Clean and sober or not, telling our story is part of the healing, it's necessary. Thanks for your comment and your awareness.
I also take subutex which I should have clarified
As a parent….this made me physically ill. Hearing him talk about his son going into diabetic shock, the look in his eyes, in the and choosing to not “return” the drugs I had to actually get out of bed and vomit. Not only because of that behavior but because I cannot even imagine the shame he carries. That’s fueling the addiction now. You have to face this Josh. Addiction is a disgusting, disgraceful disease and it all starts in childhood. Break. This. Fucking. Cycle.
@katethewholenesshomeembody6024.... Really??? Made you physically ill, to the point of vomitting?!?!😜 I find that hard to believe 😉😅. However, it's your story. If that's all it takes for you to be physically ill, you must stay inside most of your life, because I've heard much worse stories about children than this ..
Everyone just must be, the PERFECT parents!!
Ignore BS like this @Josh Datant
Same here, no children tho. His poor son what an awful story. That kid should've been taken way before that too.
It was definitely extremely hard to listen to. It was insanely selfish of him to take that kid from his mom's when she was fighting to keep him and having him running around for drugs with him, couch surfing, and not feeding his diabetic child or giving him the insulin he needs, and continue to get high and not get him help as he was literally slowly dying because his needles were "stolen", which I bet meant sold being that he had needles for his drugs so that he didn't get dope-sick though. I'm in recovery and to put it into perspective for those that don't know, a 10 pack of insulin syringes is about $2.50, give or take a little depending on where you live, It would not have required him to sell back barely anything from his stash. without using words he said his kids life was worth $2.50 🤢. And he is definitely NOT sober now. He's got the "just woke up,but still exhausted" voice that is the theme song of opiates. And now he has a baby with another addict. That's terrifying. And heartbreaking for those kids. Idk why he is under the impression that his kids aren't better off with his mom. He says that when he signed the papers at the hospital that it wasn't what his son needed but he was doing what he needed, but it's the opposite, that's probably the best decision he ever made for that kid.
The person i worry for in this whole story is his son. The cycle has to stop.
I hope his son gets extensive therapy. Poor kid was dealt a rough deck of cards.
Just leave the kid with the mom for Christ sake. Just torturing the boy for nothing
@@DING1o1 Er... Did you listen to the whole thing? It might not be saying all that much but the kid is definitely better with him than the mother.
He meant HIS mother - not the drug addicted mother of the boy
This one actually brought me to tears. His son sounded so sweet and he just loved his daddy no matter what was going on around him.
5 minutes in I dunno if this guy says he’s sober or not but I’m a a former addict … my opinion he’s still on opiates and prob meth too… he’s speedy but he’s got the “I’m so tired” voice that anyone who’s done heroin knows… anyways I wish this guy hope. Do it for your kid man!
This
Yeah something is off
There are certain tells that are universal. He reminds me of my ex a lot. It's uncanny. He died a year ago. When he would relapse, it would take .01 seconds of hearing his voice to know and my stomach would just turn inside-out. Oh and the sentimentality is so extra with opiate users. It can be genuine, but it's also in service of the disease. I really hope he can get the help he needs. This disease is so brutal.
Yeah he's definitely not fully clean- the hunch and the overall guilt ridden and anxious body posture/movements are a dead giveaway. IF he is clean then he must be experiencing some pretty extreme mental anguish for his body to be moving like that
He doesn't sound "sober" he might be clean but he sounds like he still thinks like an someone who is addicted. I wish him nothing but the best
It doesn’t feel like he is being honest. Hard to believe he is clean.
Tough fucking crowd this morning.
A year is not nothing, but sobriety is at it's infancy....
Takes X amount of steps to walk into the woods. Same amount to walk out.
Keep one foot in front of the other and the gratitude, humility, amends, accountability, and finally forgiveness and love will come.
Check back in a year or two please. It'll be awesome to see your growth after the wreckage is cleared.
I think people are being tough for a few reasons.
1. I don’t believe he’s clean for a second. If you’re an addict there are giveaways
2. He doesn’t take that much accountability
3. He let his crazy bitch of an ex wife hurt his kid when he knew she was bad news
💯💯💯
Mark this was the saddest interview I ever saw you do. Tears came down my face. It's unimaginable what his little boy went through. He deserves to be adopted into a loving family.
My feelings exactly. 😔
No, he deserves a Dad that stays sober and fully recovers. I hope he and his wife work on full recovery. He is in a tough business that is fraught with drugs but there are many clean musicians too. In hope he connects with some of them.
Yeah kid your mom got drunk for the.same. reasons you get high. When u see her as a human then you'll be an adult
The 'little boy' talking is rather too old to be adopted! He, and his son, have been through so much. But hearing his story gives me more compassion than I thought I had.
@@gryffinberner dad needs serious psychotherapy I mean cleaned from top to the bottom. THEN he can figure out what kindof father he needs to be.
I wanna be clear about something. I take full responsibility for what happened. I was wrong. I was a drug addict. I still am. I take buprenorphine. I probably took too much for this interview as I was very nervous. I see my son regularly and I’m actively trying to better my life and my children’s. I don’t always make the right choices but I’m human. I’m flawed. I make mistakes and for them I’m sorry.
❤️
We love you Josh!
@@Laurahasvision thank you!
You're a very honest and self aware person. It was a hard story to hear but it was real. Please continue trying your best! You can do this!
@@carolvega1982 Thank you so much for saying so. It's nice when people aren't judgmental. I truly appreciate it. It's not an easy story to tell but it's my story and I have to live with it.
He's not done yet 😔. He continues to blame everyone except himself. He needs to own his own responsibility and then maybe he'll heal. Others were always at blame.
@@mr.grabuge5206 A Narcissist is my thought. However, crocodile tears 🤷🏼♀️👀. Josh needs a bigger mirror.
Yes! Exactly why I said I want to see a 2nd interview in 20 yr right after he rewatches this one. He had a bad childhood but at least it wasn't as bad as his son
I’m on the fence with this man , seems like he is still on something? I do wish him the best though but his son will live with his trauma for the rest of his life , I’m curious why his mother let him take his son back , I know he is honest here but something just doesn’t sit well! Good luck Josh .. very hard listen 😢
You're right he looks like he's on something or about to go get something. In any case, one year sober is absolutely nothing.
@@maxsiehier It's something to be proud of....if he was telling the truth.
The way you talked about your first high gave me goosebumbs.. EXACTLY how I felt. "I know I'am in trouble, this feeling is too good".. So many other things I can relate to.. We could be good friends. I like your fibe.. I'am from The Netherlands and almost 6 years clean from dope and coke.. You can do it Josh!!!!
Congratulations I’m on my 61/2 year mark hello from Oregon USA
@@catherinepraus8635 Welll done Cathy 😎😃
I think we all want to be your friend Josh❤ You are loved and love. Bless
Congratulations. Keep your head up
Anyone who has gone through addiction and come out the other side and also has the Pink Floyd wish you were here album art as their profile pic is a automatic awesome person in my book!
The Officer who picked you up after everything went as dark as it could get: This man has more than just earned a medal for that. He was your guardian angel in this darkest of times. Please, sir, don't screw it up. And don't just try. Do it. Get it together. For the life of your son. And don't think I look down upon you or I hate you for anything you did. I just pray for you to take up responsibility. I wish you all the best. And I hope that you, Mark, will be able to give us an update at some point. Godspeed.
@bert EXACTLY....
Yes totally. This was God’s/the universe’s way of intervening and giving him another chance. Please dude, your soul wants to break free from the ailments you have caused your body. Get clean and prosper!!
How many times this happens and no one knows about it. How many people would change the negative perception they have of the police if they knew there are cops like that everywhere.
@@JosedeJezeuso oh really? Says who, you? You're comment is an utter joke. Take your ignorant bs somewhere else.
@@jaromeymeckstroth2252 Exactly my thoughts. This is why whenever I meet a good cop, I always say thank you for the service. Just as my granddad told me about good and bad cops back in 1939. I am German, You know. And my grandfather had to pay dearly for not doing the dirty work. But he survived. And ended up with the allies!
People have no idea how hard struggling with addiction is, and how it literally warps your brain into thinking you need to use or die. I have family members who suffer from addiction and I’ve seen them struggle and seen how miserable they are and how bad they want to get better but literally can’t.
It’s men like Josh, who open up and are vulnerable and honest about their history that allow other addicts to realize and learn that they are not alone, that there is help, and that recovery is possible. No one can say or do anything that will make him feel any worse than he has already felt about his past, and I hope and pray he has found forgiveness in himself for his past. All we can do is hope and pray for a better future for ourselves and our loved ones. I hope for a better future for everyone who feels the need to make someone feel worse after opening up and being vulnerable. It’s those with the most negative things to say who are usually struggling the most. Thank you Josh for your vulnerability and your honesty. You are a strong man, and thank you for your honesty about being a father. Thank you for sharing your story, and I hope others can relate to it and recover from their own struggles and addictions.
OMG! Thank you so much for saying that. It truly means so much. It is very hard indeed when you haven't experienced it first hand and have very little knowledge about addiction. I get a lot of judgement and hate but I take it in stride.
Absolute chaos. Addiction takes people some crazy places. But at least he's relatively honest about his neglecting his kid and even to himself about the reason. A lot of people don't acknowledge all that.
I love how gut level honest you are about your experiences. Addiction thrives in secrecy. Light kills it.
I’m so disturbed and heart broken for that young boy that was dragged around and neglected to the point of near death by selfish parents, that never should have been parents. The thought of another young boy being raised by addicts (this guy is clearly not clean) is beyond irresponsible. The cycle continues… more broken kids that grow into broken adults.
And to think, why he would want his kid to be exposed to that environment. Seems suspect….. like there’s a part of this story that he’s purposely leaving out.
Despite your judgements you’re wrong. Today I try as hard as I can to be the best that I can. As does my wife. My wife is a much better person than I and helps me far more than any person should.
@@thepincushion1835 yep - the $1200 check he gets for his son’s disability/autism.
He was getting some kind of disability payments. Maybe that was one motive to keep the little one around? Hope both of his parents recover someday ❤ and their kids are able to break the cycle ❤
You Sir have major problems.. As far as your CHILD"kid"goes he's better off with your mother than you. You are on something now. If you can't straighten up then allow him to be adopted by someone will LOVE him and protect him. I don't feel pity for you you should be ashamed. You need a long stint in a rehab and sober living. Get right. The best thing for that Child is to not be around you. Period. I'm so mad I can't think straight you care more about chasing your high than giving a damn about yourself much less that precious child.
Scary how interesting he believes he is and that’s the root of his problems
Truth!
I just see a jobless guy under the guise of artist. Despite the fact that hes literally made nothing anyone has heard
Tripping is not really bad but find a good mycologist Who will teach you the right things you need to know
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Germany. Really need
Yes, dr.sporessss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
The shroom experience stands as my most remarkable journey, an awe-inspiring encounter that left an indelible mark of amazement.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporessss
I wish this guy wasn’t on drugs when he did this interview.
its interesting to think that in some years we may get an interview of his sons point of view.
He’s autistic and doesn’t function well enough to do an interview so I doubt it
Wow! That’s actually crazy to think about💔
Josh hasn't come to terms with his addiction. Although he says otherwise he I'd still embroiled in the throes of a chaotic life which leads to ultimate destruction. All the best to this young man and his long journey ahead.
Sobriety and recovery aren't the same things.
@@ChefKotodamahow are they different?
@@saccharinedreamz Sobriety is the continued state of not indulging in your addiction, and recovery is the process of healing a person physically and emotionally from the disease of addiction.
@@saccharinedreamzin my opinion I think recovery is the attempt to get sober like let’s say an addict is put into rehab. Those first couple days are recovery till the actually the individual decides to be sober
@@saccharinedreamz you can be sober but not be truly committed to recovery long-term. You can abstain from using but unless you get down into the nitty gritty of what made you use, why you’re so hurt inside, etc., and truly commit, you may not really be recovering, just trying to cut out using.
It took courage to be that honest. We all have failings, if we’re honest. Glad to see you haven’t given up.
But for some reason it's So hard to be Honest for majority of people
Shame is hard to face..
As the grandmother of a young child with Type One Diabetes, what his son endured due to his parents’ neglect is heartbreaking. My daughter and I frequently say, “As challenging as T1D is with two functioning parents managing the child’s care, just imagine the damage inflicted on kids with T1D and dysfunctional parents, especially those with addiction issues.” 😞
I just hope I can right my wrongs
@@Joshdatantby staying clean you can try ❤
Man.... I'd love to know who that officer was that seems to have been the last catalyst for change. This is an incredible story... thank you Mark (again) for yet another life altering interview.
Besides the false sabt(Sunday),and teh wide spread of spiritism(yog, karma, ouiaj bord, reiki,hipnosis), last final decie wil be ,atht satn himslef wil come as Hrist, sayinghe changed teh day of rest! And this decie wil be poerful for al those who dont read teh Bible for themseles,as it wil be flowed by great miracles and healings,everywere he wil apear! But teh Bible dosnt live su without wraning to this and cleaerly says aht when Jesius coems " All eyes wil see Him" ,so everyone on earth, wilse satans fake only here and there! -read Mathew chaoter 24! Another direct warning to teh spirit f the anthirst is in 2 Joan 7" anyone who says atht Jesus doenst coem in flesh/body, is teh spirit of the anthirst"! And i would sugest you get abook caled " The great cintroversy" by Ellen White, is ana mazing book, wich depicts the war betwen good and evil,from Lucifers afl til teh very end,and in the last few chapters, is everything about what we live, and whats toc eom, pure undiluted truth, with valiuble insights! God bless you all!
I am so sad for his son. This poor child did not ask to be born into trauma and will be affected by his father's neglect and abusive behavior for the rest of his life. It makes me really angry. The poor little boy never had a chance. It breaks my heart when children suffer due to the dysfunctional behavior of their parents. They didn't ask to be born into this hurt and pain.
Agree, it’s utterly gross but kids are almost always born to folks like this. And then they dare use the word love 🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️
Their addicts when their conceiving these children why their not thinking what damage their about to do to this child. They think this will save them to get them to change but it doesn’t for the most part. I blame the drug not the person. Drugs change people it affects their minds I know I’ve been there.. until they can see what drugs are doing to them they will never get help. It’s hard and hard to explain to a person that doesn’t understand addiction. I never understood myself until it happened to me and all the things I said before I remembered and was like omg I didn’t know what I was talking about. It’s a hard thing to get out of why I try telling kids to never start because you will always be an addict until you die rather u never do them again. I think people deserve trophies for getting off drugs it’s just that hard!
@@BlondeRockChick Drugs indeed affect brains but this dude went to “jail” or whatever for 6 months, joined the church band, got inspired to get out and focus on his music. Then went right back to abusing his son. Nope, I don’t blame the drugs, I absolutely blame the person. In this case anyway. And now he has another kid that he will 99.9% screw up because he has zero understanding of what love entails.
@@OL_BK11 true that 👍🏼 He’s still trying to run his own life and that’s what got him in all his trouble to begin with. He’s psychotic and appears high on something or just really nervous? God forbid he couldn’t date for a year 😂.
Best type of person for your channel, just story after story, interesting, intelligent, depth and just keeps talking, almost like a ‘purge’….. keep the flame burning Mark. Human stories NEED to be told. In a world where every narrative is controlled, you are a Superman, bring real people, with real stories we can all relate to, all across the world. I remember you saying you favorite interview is the one that just talks without you needing to say anything, this guy is absolute ‘Gold’
Thing is…HE AIN’t Clean!! Anyone w that tone of voice (lazy vocal chords..) is on opiates. PERIOD.
Thank you for the compliment
@@aarons_picks3783 I’m on my maintenance prescription
Josh,
I ended up a divorced mother, one son. I have such a deep love for my son. I also had the responsibility of making sure he had his medical needs met on the daily. I was so anxious listening to the part about your son and what sounded like the threshold of a diabetic coma. I'm sorry to say, you would have a LOT to prove to me that you would ever be around your son again. And I am all for forgiveness and working things out with family and in-laws, so I don't say this lightly.
Whatever second chances in life you are being granted right now...please be respectful of yourself and others. Your "grace period"is more than used up. Focus on doing the right thing in life. Good luck to you.
Did you not listen to the story? The mother kidnapped the son and he was found by LE emecated and in a diabetic coma. At that specific time, he was sober.
He relapsed later.
If you think his story is unique or rare, well you're living in some fantasy world. Good luck Tinkerbell
@@slgogo594how does a mother kidnap her own son? He’s full of shit
E.F. Callas Dear brother al I know îs Gods Laws are unbreakabke, if they wouldve been some sort of way în changing it,Jesues would nit have to come and die,for us to have chance to repentance! And 4th comandnt of The law talks about The real Sabath being Saturday, sunday îs The first day of The week,! Sunday was implemnted as a day for christians to worship,when a pqgqn empwror, Constantin The great ,made a merge betwen his idolatry to The sun,therefore sunday, with christianity for a biger mass to rule over! Lather it was adopted by The Vatican qs own sign of power,(The popes claiming they have godly autority on earth bigest blasphemy)therefore Sunday or Deis Solis în latin became The day most of The xhristins worship! But I belive we truly,live în The Last times of The earth,s-o its very posibile to hear about The sunday decret,being given by Vatican and backed by The USA prety soon! The Vatican îs The first beast risen from sees(those are nations,this first beast with 7 heads and 10 horns one whom had a wound but healed îs Vatican and papacy,The wounded horn,was when Napoleons general took The pope and Abolished Catolic rulment în 1798,but as we can obviously see healed,and grows goong to al nations,trying to form The New world order,and The second beast wich rose from earth with 2 horns of a lamb,being USA,as USA îs The only superpower who got big,without without conquer, was byilt by mostly protestants în less thqn 150 years,and has at its constituțional base, The capitalitic right of free speech, and free worship of anykind! That will no longer be The case ,this second beast will give all its autority to The first beast, thqt means,it will fully back any law or decret given by Vatican! It May seem incredible or unreal but The Bible doesnt lie! The claim under they will give The inquisition decret for al those who dont rest on Sunday îs that, its because of them thqt ql wars,famens and climate change,come upon The earth! The Bible states thqt right before Jesuse second coming,Satn himself will come and portray as Hrist,this decive will be powerfull, as it wil be folowed by mqny miraculos and healings,werever it will apear,! But The Bible doesnt live us without warning to this either;Bible clearly states that when Jesus comes "all eyes will see him" Mathew 24:26,27 / 2Tesalonicens2:3,4 8,9,10 ! So Jesuse second coming wil be seen worldwide, wile Satns forge only here and there! God bless you qnd youre loved ones!
Besides the false sabt(Sunday),and teh wide spread of spiritism(yog, karma, ouiaj bord, reiki,hipnosis), last final decie wil be ,atht satn himslef wil come as Hrist, sayinghe changed teh day of rest! And this decie wil be poerful for al those who dont read teh Bible for themseles,as it wil be flowed by great miracles and healings,everywere he wil apear! But teh Bible dosnt live su without wraning to this and cleaerly says aht when Jesius coems " All eyes wil see Him" ,so everyone on earth, wilse satans fake only here and there! -read Mathew chaoter 24! Another direct warning to teh spirit f the anthirst is in 2 Joan 7" anyone who says atht Jesus doenst coem in flesh/body, is teh spirit of the anthirst"! And i would sugest you get abook caled " The great cintroversy" by Ellen White, is ana mazing book, wich depicts the war betwen good and evil,from Lucifers afl til teh very end,and in the last few chapters, is everything about what we live, and whats toc eom, pure undiluted truth, with valiuble insights! God bless you all!
Amen.
I am not use to Mark interviewing a story with a decent ending. So I was feeling upset for the child while listening.
There are rooms, houses and buildings full of ppl that get clean from hard drugs. It can be done with enough determination no matter who or what your situation is. Bravo!!! Was heartbroken for your child,
I would feel sorry for a dog that had to be in that environment...
Keep coming back, it works if you work it!!!
Thank you for being honest and open not to mention fair in your comment
And this is why addicts can't be left to care for their children, it's not safe.
Addicts can't even take care of themselves.
I lost my son 4 nightmare years ago. Josh, please don't miss anymore time with yours. We are never guaranteed life .
So very sorry your Brother left this world far too soon
Keep well
So the dude got off opiates and is now on SPEED?!
From a recovering addict on methadone I gotta say I really enjoyed this one and wish this guy the best he's a good dude.
This guy is a dead beat dad. Simple as that.
I definitely was
@@Joshdatant where is your music man? There is nothing on your RUclips channel. What's the name of your band?
Edit: My comment was not for Josh but for the OP at the beginning of this thread.
And how will God judge you when you try to get through the pearly gates? We are all sinners. We've all been through storms and come out the other side. Forgiveness is the first step to healing your own pain.
@@scooterpush LOL if you think there's a God. If anyone could provide just one bit of proof I would be all in. But the truth is that's what you believe, not what you know.
@lmm.5619 open your eyes if you want to see proof
Josh thank you. I never got to meet my mom, my dad sold to her and she lost herself in her addiction. I see her addiction destroy our family daily. we haven't felt whole since but this video gave me a sense of understanding I never thought id have. ps. my fiancee lost his life to opioids in 2021; it is 4 am I've been up all night thinking about us and here you look just like him. Thank you for this. I finally feel like there's some closure I have been longing for.
So sorry for your loss these kind of wounds you never really get over you just learn how to live it much love and light your way❤
Wow...! That's huge for you. So sorry that you have these challenges and sorry you lost your Mom. {{{{{virtual Hugs}}}}} from a mom far away. ♥
I’m sorry if this sounds cliche but keep staying strong. I’m sorry for your recent loss and I hope you find the happiness you deserve.
Not sure why you would bring another child into this world....what you put your son thru all those years is absolutely heartbreaking. You were all that he had. He should be your focus....your only focus!! Not getting involved in a romantic relationship....and certainly not fathering another child.
@@nkk3997wow! What an insensitive, heartless, dehumanizing comment.
Go peddle your your bible thumping bs somewhere else
Getting into a relationship in the first year or two of sobriety is a way to throw away chances of healing and staying sober. That's why it's so important to listen to the basic suggestions in the program and your sponsor. What do people in early sobriety have to offer someone in terms of a healthy partnership? They say nothing changes if nothing changes and it's true. Spend time with family. Focus on yourself and on your family and make those living amends as much as possible. Do yoga. Meet other men who have long term sobriety. Do service work in your home group. Stay in the center.
So true. I used to get mad when the leaders would say you need at least 5 years clean. But they were correct. Most addicts are also sec and/or relationship addicts.
Beautifully said. But he STILL doesn’t want to listen. He’ll fall again
Hes constantly looking for a mommy to save him
This is the first SWU video I e watched start to finish even though it was around 5am and I needed more sleep. I had to hear the end of the story. There were so many details about the past and so little about how he got clean…how he is staying clean etc…are the twitches a permanent effect of the drug use and how do they impact his ability to play guitar? Would love to see a follow up on him. Worry what will happen if this marriage fails - I hope it doesn’t and that he finds peace and the ability to truly forgive himself.
As the interview time left wound down, I felt like it was a story that I didn't want to end watching. I feel also that still more time could be given to how he got and stays clean and wondering also about Josh's twitches as I've never done these harder drugs to know though I have seen and learned watching many of Mark's interviews.. I hope this is not a story that goes flat or worse back to the life and addiction Josh told us about... As you have compassionately said, I hope too that Josh finds peace and can be that "Phoenix rising from the ashes" for the sake of his older, precious son and baby son. I hope to god we get a follow up and that it's good and beautiful.
Me too . I first seen how long it was and I was like man I’ll never watch all this but I did!! It was a great interview.. I’m glad I did!
The twitches are a nervous tick. I’ve had them a long time
Just finished watching Josh’s video. I’m incredibly proud of him for being a year sober. People are assuming he’s still strung out because of the twitches. Please don’t be so judgmental. It’s very probable he’s completely sober and the drugs were a way to calm them down and not vice versa. I’m hoping he gets another year sober, and another year sober, and a lifetime of sobriety. May his son and wife be his priorities, they both deserve the decent human being he’s brought to life. He deserves the best for himself. May he find his continuance of growing and learning to respect himself and his sobriety.
Hey man. Just curious as to if you're actually sober now? Subbed you, you seem like an interesting guy@@Joshdatant
My heart breaks for his autistic son.
The question is! is his story true or fabricated.? I took the liberty in finding him on Facebook, I was surprise to see that he did a podcast weeks before this video on SWU. and he looks very well and articulate like this one here. So, therefore I'm some what confuse on his honesty on weather he is real, genuine? He's Facebook is Josh Villarreal. Tell me what you think! is he real or just an attention seeker liar?
Thank you..I was walking in the forest while hearing this story…it’s amazing how honest and naked he is able to tell his story- he must obviously have acknowledged and realised a lot of the things he has gone through- I believe in him and his future and there is so much hope in the life he is living now. Let all his mistakes be transformed into wisdom and poetry.
Perfect setting to be listening! Wow...
So well said❤
beautiful comment. ⭐️✨
😂😂😂😂 fake
E.F. Callas Dear brother al I know îs Gods Laws are unbreakabke, if they wouldve been some sort of way în changing it,Jesues would nit have to come and die,for us to have chance to repentance! And 4th comandnt of The law talks about The real Sabath being Saturday, sunday îs The first day of The week,! Sunday was implemnted as a day for christians to worship,when a pqgqn empwror, Constantin The great ,made a merge betwen his idolatry to The sun,therefore sunday, with christianity for a biger mass to rule over! Lather it was adopted by The Vatican qs own sign of power,(The popes claiming they have godly autority on earth bigest blasphemy)therefore Sunday or Deis Solis în latin became The day most of The xhristins worship! But I belive we truly,live în The Last times of The earth,s-o its very posibile to hear about The sunday decret,being given by Vatican and backed by The USA prety soon! The Vatican îs The first beast risen from sees(those are nations,this first beast with 7 heads and 10 horns one whom had a wound but healed îs Vatican and papacy,The wounded horn,was when Napoleons general took The pope and Abolished Catolic rulment în 1798,but as we can obviously see healed,and grows goong to al nations,trying to form The New world order,and The second beast wich rose from earth with 2 horns of a lamb,being USA,as USA îs The only superpower who got big,without without conquer, was byilt by mostly protestants în less thqn 150 years,and has at its constituțional base, The capitalitic right of free speech, and free worship of anykind! That will no longer be The case ,this second beast will give all its autority to The first beast, thqt means,it will fully back any law or decret given by Vatican! It May seem incredible or unreal but The Bible doesnt lie! The claim under they will give The inquisition decret for al those who dont rest on Sunday îs that, its because of them thqt ql wars,famens and climate change,come upon The earth! The Bible states thqt right before Jesuse second coming,Satn himself will come and portray as Hrist,this decive will be powerfull, as it wil be folowed by mqny miraculos and healings,werever it will apear,! But The Bible doesnt live us without warning to this either;Bible clearly states that when Jesus comes "all eyes will see him" Mathew 24:26,27 / 2Tesalonicens2:3,4 8,9,10 ! So Jesuse second coming wil be seen worldwide, wile Satns forge only here and there! God bless you qnd youre loved ones!
I just finished the entire interview. Although my heart breaks for dude, he 100000000% created all of the messes in his life. I’d also like to add, I feel with all of my heart that he’s co-dependent on people and the second he and his wife have some serious issues, he’s def goin back to drugs. He has no self love. Even now. It’s obvious.
And what's worse is that he now has two children.
I'm honestly kinda tired of watching a SWU interview and halfway through realizing I'm being captivated by the self absorbed fantasies of a narcissist.
every artist ever is a narcissist.
@@chixw7856 No. Before artists put their name on their art, they didn't. I think this began to occur in the Renaissance. Before that, art was mostly devoted to someone else, like a holy figure. And the artist was basically unknown. Working a job as an artist, which includes carpentry and other crafts. Art means: skill as a result of learning or practice, practical skill, to fit together. There are still iconographers and carpenters and even writers and poets who treat their craft as a service rather than a self indulgence. Today art is nihilistic and ironic, fancy shock value, stories about me me me. It's more of our individualistic culture than the problem of art itself. I'm sure many artists throughout time were narcissistic and especially today as well, but not all. And especially, please don't give them credit for all the beauty in the world lol. Art has saved me from narcissists, even.
But that's all part of the concept of SWU, I believe. We don't necessarily have to find these poor souls sympathetic. All part of the human condition.
Thank you. Half these ppl are delusional in their own fantasies i dont understand it. Do they think of the story theyre going to tell before they come on the interview? Im confused at all this
If he’s sober, he probably needs to see a neurologist with all the twitches and constant movements
😂
Yeah, he's not off the meth is he.
He's not sober
He could have ADHD
@@alyssamary7132lol wtf do you think ADHD is.. there are a hundred thousand people with ADHD making youtube videos about how they cope. Show me one with them twitching like they are on meth.
So ignorant yet still so willing to throw your garbage comment into the conversation.. why.
Great interview- just know this don’t muck about for much longer hurting your children , yourself and others around you. I was a child that was abandoned by my family due to alcohol and various other demons - I’m 56 now and still in therapy 20 years later trying to deal with it. I still see my parents as I have a big heart ❤last time I was there it was just to clean their toilet but they still acted like I was invisible. It takes me two weeks after I have seen them to feel normal as I usually feel very depressed in their company. I hope you read this. You may get high but your lows will always out way your highs - your stories were full of chaos, drama and regret. Don’t think for one second that you can escape with the next high the tsunami of pain you bring to others lives including your own. You wear a high like a badge of honour but see it for what it is - a badge of pain and suffering to all who come upon it.
E.F. Callas Dear brother al I know îs Gods Laws are unbreakabke, if they wouldve been some sort of way în changing it,Jesues would nit have to come and die,for us to have chance to repentance! And 4th comandnt of The law talks about The real Sabath being Saturday, sunday îs The first day of The week,! Sunday was implemnted as a day for christians to worship,when a pqgqn empwror, Constantin The great ,made a merge betwen his idolatry to The sun,therefore sunday, with christianity for a biger mass to rule over! Lather it was adopted by The Vatican qs own sign of power,(The popes claiming they have godly autority on earth bigest blasphemy)therefore Sunday or Deis Solis în latin became The day most of The xhristins worship! But I belive we truly,live în The Last times of The earth,s-o its very posibile to hear about The sunday decret,being given by Vatican and backed by The USA prety soon! The Vatican îs The first beast risen from sees(those are nations,this first beast with 7 heads and 10 horns one whom had a wound but healed îs Vatican and papacy,The wounded horn,was when Napoleons general took The pope and Abolished Catolic rulment în 1798,but as we can obviously see healed,and grows goong to al nations,trying to form The New world order,and The second beast wich rose from earth with 2 horns of a lamb,being USA,as USA îs The only superpower who got big,without without conquer, was byilt by mostly protestants în less thqn 150 years,and has at its constituțional base, The capitalitic right of free speech, and free worship of anykind! That will no longer be The case ,this second beast will give all its autority to The first beast, thqt means,it will fully back any law or decret given by Vatican! It May seem incredible or unreal but The Bible doesnt lie! The claim under they will give The inquisition decret for al those who dont rest on Sunday îs that, its because of them thqt ql wars,famens and climate change,come upon The earth! The Bible states thqt right before Jesuse second coming,Satn himself will come and portray as Hrist,this decive will be powerfull, as it wil be folowed by mqny miraculos and healings,werever it will apear,! But The Bible doesnt live us without warning to this either;Bible clearly states that when Jesus comes "all eyes will see him" Mathew 24:26,27 / 2Tesalonicens2:3,4 8,9,10 ! So Jesuse second coming wil be seen worldwide, wile Satns forge only here and there! God bless you qnd youre loved ones!
Extremely well said.
@@the.deadpoet Besides the false sabt(Sunday),and teh wide spread of spiritism(yog, karma, ouiaj bord, reiki,hipnosis), last final decie wil be ,atht satn himslef wil come as Hrist, sayinghe changed teh day of rest! And this decie wil be poerful for al those who dont read teh Bible for themseles,as it wil be flowed by great miracles and healings,everywere he wil apear! But teh Bible dosnt live su without wraning to this and cleaerly says aht when Jesius coems " All eyes wil see Him" ,so everyone on earth, wilse satans fake only here and there! -read Mathew chaoter 24! Another direct warning to teh spirit f the anthirst is in 2 Joan 7" anyone who says atht Jesus doenst coem in flesh/body, is teh spirit of the anthirst"! And i would sugest you get abook caled " The great cintroversy" by Ellen White, is ana mazing book, wich depicts the war betwen good and evil,from Lucifers afl til teh very end,and in the last few chapters, is everything about what we live, and whats toc eom, pure undiluted truth, with valiuble insights! God bless you all!
I’m glad the love of his now wife was enough for him to get sober. Sad I can’t say the same thing for the unconditional love his autistic, diabetic son gave him. Love conquers all only when it comes from a romantic partner I suppose.
You just shared your story-carrying the message… Thank you for making daily amends. Blessings and peace. ♥️
I couldn't listen this one out. There's something that sounds so familiar to me and I find so appaling: the name dropping (producer Strokes). I heard such stories a hundred times from wannabe musicians. When I see his internet presence, it is one ex-addict podcast after the other. It looks like a carreer. I wish him all the best, but I don't think this path is gonna bring him the recognition he looks for.
As a musician, I agree. I don't think this guy is entirely legit and I am also skeptical as to whether he is actually clean. I do think he has some intelligence and talent that he should put to better use.
Thanks for the feedback
He needs JESUS ❣️
♥️✝️♥️
God is Love .
Praying for him .
💥 Mark . Thanks for all you do for so many
of these lost souls .
Love listening . Blessings . Pamela 💞
He also has been remarried with another Baby. Now he will have a new story about how he destroyed the lives of another mother and child. And how he should have learned but just didn't. And how much he likes the Strokes. This dude is a wrecking Ball. Extremely Dangerous. The system is broken.
@@jackamoak gee I sure hope you’re wrong. It’s definitely not at all what you think. Both my kids are here and in very good health not to mention happy.
Josh you are incredibly intelligent, charming, a beautiful soul, and you are so passionate about music, please do not give up, stay sober and learn to love yourself cuz you deserve it. Your life has been hard but you proved you can turn things around! Be there for your kids, I root for you all! ❤
What a wonderful message
Thank you for your love and your words
Yes! Thank you
Everybody who is judging and persecuting this man for his truth and transparency. Every other parent addict that you express empathy for on this channel has these same stories. The only difference is they don’t share them. Don’t loose your empathy because he decided to lay it all out on the table where others don’t. Your honesty is commendable. As long as you’re living your story can be one of a miraculous recovery rather than a father who failed his son. Fight for yourself, for your peace of mind. The man you can be can have pride that outweighs his shame. Good luck my friend.
Thank you so much for saying that. At least there’s a little love here
"It was an inconvenience to my high." Such a raw truth and profound statement.
Thank you for seeing that. It’s not easy to acknowledge
@@Joshdatant As an addict in recovery myself, that statement really resonated with me.
Thank you for sharing your story.
Addiction, mental health problems, and employment problems all intertwined.
Your inner world has been such a terrible battle ground.
I wish you some peace.
Thank you
What a great interview. It made me feel so many different emotions. So happy for you Josh! Stay strong ❤
Besides the false sabt(Sunday),and teh wide spread of spiritism(yog, karma, ouiaj bord, reiki,hipnosis), last final decie wil be ,atht satn himslef wil come as Hrist, sayinghe changed teh day of rest! And this decie wil be poerful for al those who dont read teh Bible for themseles,as it wil be flowed by great miracles and healings,everywere he wil apear! But teh Bible dosnt live su without wraning to this and cleaerly says aht when Jesius coems " All eyes wil see Him" ,so everyone on earth, wilse satans fake only here and there! -read Mathew chaoter 24! Another direct warning to teh spirit f the anthirst is in 2 Joan 7" anyone who says atht Jesus doenst coem in flesh/body, is teh spirit of the anthirst"! And i would sugest you get abook caled " The great cintroversy" by Ellen White, is ana mazing book, wich depicts the war betwen good and evil,from Lucifers afl til teh very end,and in the last few chapters, is everything about what we live, and whats toc eom, pure undiluted truth, with valiuble insights! God bless you all!
"Love conquers all" Love is all! Josh, I am certain your brother is with you, watches over you and is smiling on your successes.
Thanks for sharing, Josh. Love DOES conquer all❤
Incredible honesty, he didn’t try to camouflage his misdeeds one bit. These interviews are amazing and should be translated into other languages. This is probably the longest one I have watched so far. 🇦🇺
Hell of a story. Gotta watch till the end ❤ Never Hold Back. Thank you Mark
It's been a long time since I've become this emotional watching these videos.
The poor , Autistic child with diabetes first almost dying because his mother were dragging him around ikke a freaking rag doll.
Then his father is supposed to rescue him but treats him exactly the same almost killed him again!
Like WTF, why?
The child could've been with the grandmother!
Can anyone plese explain why he wanted the kid with him because I don't understand.
Even the drug dealers told him he had to place the kid somewhere else!
That says alot!
I'm sorry for saying this but to me this is pure egoism to drag a poor child around living in active addiction on heroin and meth.
Thank higher Powers he finally gave his son to his mother.
I wonder if an Autistic child ever gets over such trauma.
They're so much more vulnerable than regular people.
The most important thing is stability and they get such horrible anxiety from unstable sorroundings.
I can only imagine the poor little kid being terrified because his farher is knocked out on drugs and he can't wake him up.
My heart broke listen to this.
There was a $1200 check attached to the kid.
I agree with you. His child will be affected by his father's neglect and abusive behavior for the rest of his life. It makes me really angry. The poor little boy never had a chance.
@kimthompson
Yes, I heard therexwas a check.
However it soundet luke he had it quite good economically.
Wasn't he running a shop and a recording studio or label?
And he was dealing?
@kimthompson
Yes, I heard therexwas a check.
However it soundet luke he had it quite good economically.
Wasn't he running a shop and a recording studio or label?
And he was dealing?
Agree, this guy should be in jail for child abuse. Absolutely atrocious. The kid will 99.9% be fucked psychologically and also physically due to developing/growing under such poor conditions. To consciously treat an innocent kid that way is truly psychopathic.
That was one of the hardest stories to watch. Wishing you all the best
This guy isn't clean-
Same Thing I said. I'm a Registered Nurse that worked in a Medical Floor/Detox
Incredible story. Thank you for sharing. I wish you & your family all the very best.
A brutally honest and painful testimony…
Hey mark. I got heavily addicted to opiates at the young age of 19 after my brother ended his life 2 years prior. I am now recovering and removing my neck and face tattoos and changing my life around working in a kitchen. Got 5 years to go to remove them. Would love to do an interview and share my story
@softwhiteunderbelly
There are many like you but don’t have the balls to admit there truth! You’ve got some guts. Thank you for being so open friend and I wish you the best❤
Thank you. The kind words are appreciated
Incredible Journey, Josh! You can help so many people, keep telling your story!
Wishing the best in your recovery for the rest of your life. My son is struggling and hope one day he finds his way - ty.
I wish him success in his career, staying clean and having a great family life.
This had me in tears at work thats also why i never try to fight with my siblings life is crazy you never know when it’s your time i wish him the best in life and to heal mentally and physically
One of my biggest regrets in life is saying what I said to my brother. Those were my last words to him and now he’s gone. It’s awful and it’s makes me think about saying things out of anger now
Thank you Mark for this. When I saw the title I thought I would judge n when I heard him relapse over and over again I thought I would judge but by the end, when he stopped twitching like an addict and told the story about his now wife coming to save him I found myself genuinely rooting for him and sympathize for him. JOSH I only wish you the best of luck for your career and for your family!
Excellent story. This is why i love this channel.
Mark I really appreciate your patience with the long-form interviews. I think it's important for both the person sharing their story to be heard and to speak their truth, and in this case, to really express the remorse over selfish choices and powerlessness over the past. And understanding where they've come from should help us to accept and come alongside of these people as they move towards the future and live a better life. Sad to see so many suffering in so many different ways in these stories, and each one matters in the big picture
I agree with you 100% and I am so grateful to mark for allowing me to share my story
Thank you for your vulnerability. This is a great testimony of where a bad lifestyle choice can take someone. My heart aches for your child and the ways you abandoned, neglected and weren't there for him. I also know the shame, condemnation and guilt you live with. We all make mistakes in life. That's a reality, no matter what anyone says on here. However, many people choose to stay silent and live with the shame of that, whether it was done to us or we do it to someone else. You didn't do that! You shared your experience, strength, desperation, and hope.
Hey thank you so much for being positive and kind. It’s truly appreciated. It’s so easy to be cruel and rude but on the rare occasions people are understanding I am truly grateful
Josh my heart breaks for your son and you. Drugs will strip you bare and take your soul until there is nothing left. However there’s still hope for you.
Keep writing!! You can inspire a generation of young people by sharing you’re story. You are evidently talented, erudite, intelligent and soulful. The image we see in the mirror is often not who we really are-but the madness distorts everything as you know.
It’s also not too late to have a loving and fulfilling relationship with your beautiful boy. To admit he was an inconvenience to your high must hurt man. Healing can only happen when the truth is acknowledged.
Change will happen if you desire it-your lad is not better off without you. He will need your presence in his life and you can help guide him from the pitfalls that inevitably await. The bond you have can never be broken.
You got a great energy too and creativity is clearly a part of your DNA. I appreciate the honesty of this moving testimony and there’s still hope for you. Count the blessings, your son is safe with your mother and you still have time. A lot of children get lost in the care system and there’s no chance of redemption or reconciliation-you have that opportunity still!!
I believe you can get it together and still make a difference in this topsy turvy world. I’m so sorry for your brother. I too lost a brother to the madness and I’m determined not to take the same route. There’s many other chapters to be written in the book of your life.
Try to walk the narrow path. All the self sabotaging, self destruction and self medication is just trying to quench the unquenchable void. Keep talking, try to keep clear of substance abuse and keep on keeping on!!
Please do an update with Mark.
God bless you, your son and those you love.
🙏❤️.x
This is probably one of the best story I’ve heard. Hit pretty close to home. Stay strong Josh and give yourself grace. The best of luck to you.
Thank you so much for saying this. It means a lot and I really appreciate it. It’s hard to not feel shame and guilt at times but those feelings also cause relapses so I try to give myself some grace.
Man this one was heavy. Such a good. People can learn so much from this. I hope he stays on the right path.
Hey. What an amazing interview and moment.
Josh, thank you so much for sharing so bravely your story. Seeing and hearing you telling it all so honestly, all the pain and hardship, you obviously have a huge strength and goodness in you.
I’m honestly happy to hear that you’re standing strong today! Know that I will carry a bit of you with me from now on.
Wish you all the best Josh. Stand strong.
Mark, as always, kudos and thank you for your amazing & priceless work! (Hope we’ll hear again from Josh someday EDIT/ (please in a good way.... please))
Cheers
Hi Josh! Watch SWU a lot. Happy to hear your doing well! What a story. Keep on with your purpose.
Allison LLL
Josh, your "story" is enthralling, though of course, heart breaking and not so easy to hear. You are clearly a beautiful man and now the loving support of your wife. I hope to goodness you are able to forever stay clean and wish you encouragement and success in your life with your music and most importantly your relationship with your son - and your Mother.
Is there someplace online we can hear your music, your songs?
Mark, I hope with Josh's willingness we can see a follow up with Josh. I am moved to tears as surely many of us are, reminded also of the failures and regrets in our own lives. I sincerely wish you all the best and as you said, love spreading into all the corners. Thank you for sharing!
One of my favorite interviews! Josh, you've got this! Stay strong!
Thank you!
Lmao This dude is here for one thing: self-promotion. What a joke 😂
Edit: Found out he has his own website and has done multiple interviews...all promoting this big recovery story. He posts his music on the website as well. How convenient?! Sorry. Not buying it. Dude is here to make money, not help people.
Hey, if it keeps him sober and helps recovery, it is good.
I get the same feeling from him. I don’t buy it and don’t feel he’s truthful
@gryffinberner Self promotion isn't keeping him sober. What are you talking about? His music and wife are what kept him sober, assuming his addiction was even that bad. Now he's using his "addiction" story to profit and promote his music. I'm not buying this dude's story one bit.
@@lizcabrera9900He isn't. This is a textbook narcissistic sociopath we're watching. He changes so many details in his story. Can't even keep his lies straight.
He's in love with himself hes teying to plug hus shit music because its irrelevant hence why he's never had full time employment in it
This guy Josh is so intelligent, so bright and so honest. Its a real pleasure watching him and I feel honest compassion for him. Its all in his power to break the circle.
Thank you so much!
start where you are and dont look back! sharing this so fully was so brave. respect!
Amazing content on your channel. Better content in my opinion than any streaming platform because it's real and the people telling the story are the actual people that went through it.
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I appreciate what you do. I was a meth addicted pain pill addicted and alcoholic for my whole life. I recently found my break through. I got hired back at my old job. I always perused HVAC for a career. I finally am making it but I still struggle in so many ways. Watching your interviews truly admires me. I see we all have a purpose no matter what. I really appreciate your hard work Mark I feel like if we met we could have a powerful impact 😊
Congratulations on your progress and achievements. ❤️👍
It’s hard brother but you can do it. A day sober is a victory!! Keep your faith in God and believe in yourself. Drugs are the devil they wanna keep you down and addicted to them till you lose it all then they take your life. They aren’t worth it. You matter your important you r loved. You deserve a good life and keep fighting the good fight it will all work out!!
Wow. What a wild ride. Good on you for turning it around and being clean. Putting that first will always steer you right. Congratulations and good luck!
Yeah.. this is the interview that needs to be heard..I know so many..myself kinda included. The young folks neeeeeeeed to be apart of the Convo now.
This story illustrates how horrible and deep addiction really is. His child was dying yet the drugs came first. I hope that child gets the help and love he needs to grow and thrive and not fall into this cycle himself when he gets older. It’s really difficult not to judge someone like this but I just hope he gets the help he needs as well because no shame and blame anyone else can throw at him will compare to what he has to come to terms with doing himself. Sigh.
We can analyze and fear for you & your loved ones, but Josh, admitting these failures to the world took a "whole lotta" courage! If you can do this, you can keep fighting the good fight. "Godspeed, Little [Men]!"
This interview made me feel many things.
I’m so sorry for your son; the parts where he wasn’t even getting his basic medical needs met in particular, and how he would be so happy to see you when you’d wake up after getting high. Heartbreaking.
I appreciate that the path which opiates took you down was a terrible one in and of itself, but those who are disabled rely on those around them to be their advocates when they can’t make their own voices heard. I hope I don’t sound too sanctimonious when I say this, but, you should be eternally grateful that he’s still alive after all he was put through.
I am so grateful and everyday I try hard to make amends. As I type this I’m watching my son play video games while the other sits next to him.
And this interviews exemplifies well why this is the best YT channel. Incredible tale
I hope this guy is OK. I am an addiction therapist in Dallas. This story is, unfortunately, not so unique. I show these videos to my clients. They are robustly powerful. Reach out if you need help.
Thank you so much for the kind worse and support. It means a lot