Stolen Innocence - Courtney Parker
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A few weeks ago I saw one of my friends crying, so I went and sat down with her and she told me she trusted me, then told me some horrific things from her past. It meant a lot to me that she could trust me with her deepest, darkest secrets. Her stories broke my heart and I couldn't let it slide, so I wrote this song for her, you know who you are. And to anyone else recovering from anything, stay strong, it gets better!
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Backing Music: Hometown Glory - Adele (Instrumental)
I feel like people don't understand how hard it is for suicidal people to actually tell someone
Alexa Kiernan this is so true no one understands anything about us
Yeah, same with self harming. My mom never did anything but tell me to stop and to say whenever I feel bad but it's not so simple...
ShadowGamer666 I'm sorry for you.
I'm in the same situation, I fake smile so others would be happy and not worry about me. I keep all my feelings inside and just tell them that I'm fine.
I used to cut, I know it is bad, but back then I didn't have so much suicidal thoughts. Cutting basically kept me alive the beginning. Now? My depression has gone far worse, and the suicidal thoughts are daily, everything just triggers me and I don't know if I can fight it for longer.
Some of the only times when I can "hide" those thoughts are when I starve myself. Some of the beat days in months? I was on a 90 hour fast.
My parents just say "dont cut" and ask why im ""sad"", they dont fucking understand how bad my depression is.
I guess I can relate to "I find it funny how a smile can hide a broken heart".
I told only two people they were both friends of mine and one of them judged me so i dont tell anyone anymore
Exactly.
This hits different when you’re a survivor
it hits different when you're still a survivor.
Exactly agreed the depth of it really hits your heart and memories
True🥺🥺💔
Definitely
It does
"No one can hear the screams of her internal cries." Thats how I feel everyday
Me too
Me also
Ok boomer
Same
He will Return don’t just don’t this is a series issue it’s not a joke
I can't stop listening to this even though it's extremely triggering and is bringing up bad memories
I feel that..
Same😔
Same
Same
I was a victim of sexual abuse by my father from the ages 4-12. "And now her thoughts are stained" Is so true. Like, I try so hard to have pure thoughts but I feel like that was taken from me- He's gone and still I feel like a disgusting person because of it.
that’s horrible,you are strong,healing may be hard but I trust that you try.I hope your father gets justly punished in jail for life
I understand how you feel trust me..
I'm a survivor too..
Wow that is terrible. I’m so sorry this happened to you.
My step-father says that he owns us and he smack's our butts and he creeps on cheating on my mom and she doesn't know and I want her to just break up with him and he hits us and I just want him gone but my mom is blinded by "love" I hate him. She once found out that he was cheating and almost. Broke up with him "almost" and he cheated on her "one" time man I saw you talking to like 20 other girls don't lie!!!
i feel you cuz the same thing happened to me..
Me talking to myself: I’m depressed
Other person: lol no your not your smiling
My cousin tells me this all the time and says "you never know who's really depressed anymore because everyone says it" but I've come to relise that 80% of the time those who want attention show off there cuts and scars and tell people but those who really are depressed cover there cuts and scars and say "I'm fine" and fake smile and never tell people exept those they really trust that there depressed and those are the people we need to help not those who are seeking for attention and know that cutting and telling people about it are the people we can help but there not going to get the help that they want
@@taylorg7854 Yeah, it's sad to think that some people do it for attention.. The only time i've showed my cuts and scars is when I was talking to a therapist, I did that instead of talking because I couldn't describe it.. My "friend" shows off her cuts for attention
@@rileyweatherspoon2380 she's lonely. That's a problem. I only told my mom and brothers. They helped. I stopped a month ago and I learned somthing. Don't hide what you have been through, because of you do then other people going through the same thing will feel even more alone. I've been through hell all my life. You don't go through something without out it having a purpose in the end. I'm still fighting my own battles and it's making me stronger and wiser. There is a reason for everything
They dont even know whats under that smile... no one does...
Yea i have to put in a fake smile every day and I'm sick and tired of being this way
This is actually based on sexual assult or rape. It really hits home and im always here if you need to talk x I've been through it too, and we are survivors x :(
Would you talk to me I think you would turn away from me ?
I really relate to this song
This song hit's hard because i was raped numerous time's
@@davewharton1818I'm so sorry that happened to you I was touched everywhere that's why I relate to the song
Oh I was was sexual assaulted or raped but I was abused in the other ways, I do relate to this song. Also because of my trama i ended up developing OSDD-1b and a shit ton of other mental disorders
"Whatever we wear
Wherever we go
Yes means Yes
and no means no"
But sadly not everybody will listen when you say no to them
check out this friend of mines mental health is everything & rarely mentioned her name is BrE FREE ruclips.net/video/Vsh01LhxF_E/видео.html
No, I think you mean "No means yes". Because no matter how many times I say now, they don't listen.
No is-
Pushing away
Avoidance
Saying no
Rejecting offers
Being tense
Crying
Or literally saying no
Yes is- Yes
-there is a difference between the two and its not hard to tell the difference
im probably an idiot but i think the songs "stolen innocence" and" her last words" are connected, listen to this first then listen to her last words and leave a like if you kinda hear the connection. I am still going to think I am THE idiot here. ;)
Frost Rose your not i also thought that
I thought that too!
Nico Chan ya I love both the songs
Nah...I see it tooo
I think that too.
To anyone who is a survivor who’s been SA, raped, sexually abused ect ect.
I hope you’re okay, I love you and js know that you’re very strong. ❤
Thank You So Much Dear, God Bless You💞💞
@@amitasemwal5322 np. ❤️
Wish that I can heal more
I was SA'd by my own cousin when I was four. I didn't understand before, I was a kid, I was practically a baby back then. When I got older, when I realized....
Thank you.
A smile has hide so many of my broken hearts and cuts. A smile can hide so much.
Fuck that shit there's a nigga trying to kill me
@@s.m.c2764 stfu bitch
Yeah
I was raped/molested for several years by my stepfather. I got pregnant by him and had my now 9 year old son. It started when I was 11 and ended at 15. I contemplated suicide many times. I couldn't do it. I love my son. I had to find a way to accept him. I am 25 now. It's been a long road.
thats strong of you, please always be strong
You have my eternal respect for everything you've pushed though.
How are you now?
Wish you are able to recover & rediscover your life ❣️
i'm sure you're an amazing mother i hope u and your son are doing well
you’re so strong i was also abused by my stepfather and i can relate a lot but seeing how far you have came gives me hope for myself i am so proud of you
Rape is such a disgusting and terrible thing out in this world. I hate it! I never thought It would ever happen to me. Never did I see it coming or expect it especially from someone who you trusted. I am a survivor. Although the person did not go through with it, he did attempt to do it and it was one of the most scariest thing I've been through. I managed to get away but the world is scary now a days and it does still traumatize me because around any man I am afraid and have trust issues. I hope to anyone who has it happened to them they will recover, but it is hard.
Nakia Ford yes I too have trust issues with men. I get them night terrors but God made sure I was safe. I was never rape but I was molested, and victim of sex joke:( worse thing is when the guy that hurts you try to pull your friend in but thankfully my friend knew what happened to me and told him to leave her alone and block him on fb.
Nakia Ford mine was a girl she went through with it and my fiancé was in tears holding me as I told him the story of what my ‘friend’ did she picked me the loner abused and bullied girl to do this crime to just to make her feel strong and because the guy she liked had a crush on me
Nakia Ford same thing happened to me but with my grandfather but I managed to tell someone before he raped me officially
Nakia Ford I tried to hang myself my bro saved me and hasn't left me alone since but when o. In the bathroom at night I cut myself for having 2 children at the age 15 because of my dad they are 2 now and are heathy so I am not suffering anymore bit still think of suicide I'm not crazy just sad
I agree I was raped when I was young
Anyone wanna be my friend, I feel alone,picked on at school,disrespected at home,and I wish I was never born. Someone help😖
Phantom Dope I'll be your friend! I'm probably a lot younger then you though
Phantom Dope I'll be your friend. I understand what you are going through. I know this can make you feel invisible and worthless but not everyone is a pile of crap. Someone out there actually loves you, believe or not. You might have been missing it the whole time. Open yourself up to more people and you can find that person easier. I love you. Not because I know you, and not because I'm another cliche help you comment. I love you because you exist on this planet and breather like me, eat like me, have feelings and opinions like me, you want and need like me. Because you have problems like me and you want someone to love you, too.
~Anh
Phantom Dope I will be your friend
Well if you need someone to talk to know that I am here
Phantom Dope me!!! Talk to me I’m going through that too
Hey, you!
I just want to say I'm proud of you, just for reading this comment because that means you're still here! No matter all the shit you went through and all the shit people have put you through, you're still strong, you're still beautiful and you're still here.
Keep it going, you're doing great! If anyone needs to talk I'm here
Amanda B no problem! I hope you're okay😊
Aaron Lovelady Omg thank you so much😭💙
Ida Blomqvist Of course! How are you?
Aaron Lovelady Sad...😔 you??
Ida Blomqvist not good at all, it's okay though. How is your day going?
Every rapist, molester and sex offender should be forced to listen to this so they understand just what they have done
mhm
they wouldn't care
I think they should listen to Monsters by Yellow Pain too
@Sledgehammer Maniac Cosplays ummm are you ok if you need to talk I'll help the best I can I'm sorry that happened to you but I hope you're better now
@Sledgehammer Maniac Cosplays that's great I'm so glad your ok I'm really happy for you
This song makes me sob each time. Is it okay if I get this off my chest?
When I was 10 I was molested by my father, but before that he had been grooming me for a while. Till this day I don't know if he was high or not. I could never tell the difference anyways. Both my parents did drugs up until about two and a half years ago. My father stopped cause he's in prison. My mom cause she turned to drinking. Which wasn't any better in my opinion. She sometimes gets violent. And she likes to drive while shes drunk too. Lemme' tell ya, there's nothing more terrifying than sitting in the passenger seat of a car while my mom is drunk, especially when she yelling and trying to hit you while the car is driving. Even when she isn't drunk, she says some pretty hurtful shit. Her favorite thing to call me is my fathers name. She says I'll be just like him once i'm older. And that's one of the things that messes with me the most. It terrifies me. Not the hair pulling, smacks, pinches, or kicks. Not even being called every curse in the book. Its her calling me Bobby. (My fathers name) It's gotten so bad now that I started to cut about a year and a half ago. Its helped, but I'm running out of room on my thigh and I don't plan on moving to my arms. (Texas y'all, I need my tank-tops) I'm 16 now. And I've been dealing with this since I could remember. I'm so tired of everything. There's nowhere to turn for me, my whole family are drug addicts and drunks, and I'll never take a chance with CPS or foster-care. I've had to many old friends in system to trust it. I'm currently a sophomore in high school, so I still gotta couple of years left. But I'm slipping further and further into the darkness. I don't know if I'll manage to make it to 18 or not. I don't have friends to talk to. My social anxiety is really bad. So I never talk at school. So I guess No talking = No friends? I don't even know. I've had this bottled up for so long. This is the first time I'm admitting it fully, and its in a youtube comment section... oh well. At least I got it out. Thanks for reading this far.
Edit: I'm still kickin, sorry for any worry I may of caused...
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Socially Awkward Weeb I’m here if you wanna talk it must have been awful for you I’m so sorry but like I said I’m here if you wanna talk
You poor soul if you need to talk just tell me please I really want to help
hey if you want to talk im here. if theres a way we can talk privately, im totally here for you no matter what. ive delt with some of the struggles you are dealing with, im here for you:)
Talk to me on Snapchat @food_girl121
your so caring for your friends. my friends just ignore the fact im suicidal and they clearly dont care.
Josie Randall I'm so sorry to hear about that, I was once in the same situation as you they didn't care while only one I guess? They literally said even meaner things to me, but for some reasons I changed and I started to discover happiness. I used to be close minded and scared of everything including people. No one deserves being treated like you do now, it'll all be over soon believe me. I know you are strong enough, we may not be close but do remember that there are people who truly loves you.
Im sorry about this :( Alot of us have been there- but just stand strong. Youll never appreciate the light if you dont have darkness I suppose,- If you ever want to talk, I have skype and stuff! Hope you feel better soon
They are obviously not the people who deserves who u are as a person.. find the people who cherish who u are and care for u.. I care.. let your inner beauty burst and show them how beautiful u really are.. ❤️
Josie Randall I know how you feel and I'm 12
I have no friends
Hello.
I am Known by many people.
They show me many different ways.
From scars to burns, speaking, singing.
They call me many different names.
Hate, Illness, Sadness, Madness, War.
Some want to keep me, others do not.
My name is depression.
+Cheer4life 2021 Wow. That was powerful. And true. Depression IS incurable. But what's the biggest reason? You're right, it's because no-one is looking for it. Those who suffer from it, or who have suffered from it in the past, understand this. But they can't look for a cure either because they're battling something so powerful pretty much alone. People who have never suffered from it DON'T understand this because it's, as you said, pretty much invisible to them. I can't really say anything else because you've pretty much described all of depression in that paragraph. I didn't really need to write this. I suppose I just feel better now, knowing I've gotten it off my chest. It sounds brutal but I'm glad you didn't sugar-coat it. It shows that depression is much more than sadness. It's something that destroys until you feel like you have no way out. Until you feel like you wished you did something about it sooner, or tried, at least. It kills. Depression is, well, something "easy" to get in to but so, so, SO hard to get out of. And the part that makes depression worse...is that some people don't even have that chance. Some people "press the delete button" because they feel like that monster is never going to give up...so they feel like THEY may as well give up. Well, all I have to say now is R.I.P to people who have given in to depression. But all those still fighting...keep going. Things get better. It's easier said than done, I know. But I've been where you are. And I know it gets better.
+Cheer4life 2021 There is a cure to depression. It's called a real smile :). All you need to do is look in a mirror and tell yourself "I am beautiful. I am my own person. I can fight and get through any thing. I am strong." Don't be afraid to say it either because that is all true. I have felt depression before. I have even once had the thought of suicide... But I looked in the mirror and said " I am stronger than this. I will get through this!" And the best thing is, I have, yes of course I still feel the tiniest bit of depression inside of me. He will never go away. But you can ignore him! Sometimes all I want to do is give up, but I can't bring myself to say it. Just be strong and smile. Smile like you've never felt pain!
+Cheer4life 2021 holy crap, that was so beautiful and heart breaking all at the same time, did you write that?
+Panda Pops Yes, however, it's really difficult for some people to believe that they're strong enough, like me. I guess it depends on what they have been through.
+Panda Pops But does that always work for others? People who can't reach or even bottom line see the light? Where darkness has taken them hold and swallowed them whole? It doesn't work... Not anymore... Depression has taken too many so far down, that most just... Give up there. Depression is easy to hide with lies, but it cannot be battled with a lying smile and a few confident words.
Life said to death, "why do people love me, but hate you?"
Death replied, "because I am an ugly truth, and you are a beautiful lie"
Danger Tacco damn that’s deep...but so true...
Me from day one: *it's part of life*
Death is savage
I saw that quote on a RUclips video one time it really touches a deep glad you be spreading the word
@@MsJulietheWiseone 🥰
Feels like happiness doesn't really exist in my life anymore.
Olive Grove need to the find the one who feels that void. I was the same and my girlfriend of 5 years has changed me and I'm happier than ever
I know how you feel, but even though you have this burden do not let it destroy you
Ikr 😢😢😢
Olive Grove mines too Ive been trying to make other Friends but i keep on being called loser,ugly,stupid,and usless and thats true i shouldn't be here with an awfle race
Olive Grove same I feel alone and I can never be happy again
It took me until now to realize this wasn’t about bullying-
Yea most of mine is
It’s whatever u make of it
Wait, what?
Edit: Nevermind, now I hear it
Sexual Abuse?
Literally Someone yes the song is about sexual assault. I’m pretty sure it’s about rape specifically if you really listen to the liyrics
“Did you like it when you herd her screaming out in pain” the most painful hard hitting line
i listened to this song nonstop when i was in 6th/7th grade, in the midst of being emotionally and sexually abused on a consistent basis by someone who i thought was my best friend. i didn’t fully understand what all of the lyrics meant bc i was so little and naive but all i knew was that it gave me comfort. i’m a junior in college now and finally finding this song again healed that little girl inside of me. looking back at all of the horrors that i had to live through, i’m glad i chose to stay around. whoever is feeling suicidal, please just breathe honey. you’re going to be alright, i promise
Maybe it's not right to post this here but I gotta tell someone. My father abused me in every way for seven years and I finally went to the police just a few weeks ago and now he's dead. I don't know what or how to feel. Great song, really helping atm
I understand how you feel I wish my parents were dead they made my sister commited suicide and I almost did but my dad came in and he cut the rope but then he beat me and molest me
How did he die.. if you don't mind me asking?
@@nyjaeneeceblackwelljones2040 I'm......sorry..
@@nyjaeneeceblackwelljones2040 I’m sorry for what they’ve done to you and too you’re sister but death is too kind for people like them....they’ll face a punishment for what they’ve done; I swear on my life and soul too that eternally. Hades has a special place for them and their going to regret everything they’ve done too you both, I promise you that. Just know that, you’re sister is proud of you and she loves you more than anything; she rests in an eternal paradise....far away from people like you’re parents. She smiles on you and she’ll be the one too deliver the justice you both desire and deserve🙏❤️
This song means more then you think...
I feel like you're telling my story...
I feel connected to this song....
And I know I'm not the only one going through this.
Thank you..
Chao Maitai Yeah I get that
same
same
same
My eyes have seen another world, her music fixed my dulled heart. And I thank her for that
Don't worry. Males can go through this too.. I was abused by my father and sexually abused by my brother. Not like anybody cares, though. Of course they don't... I'm only a male after all. Who would care about the emotions of me....
omg, i care wHAT THE FUKKKK
@death.wishhh
That's my instagram account. If you need to talk, if you feel lonely, if you have a whole lot of bullshit going on in your life and you feel tired and need to let it all out, if your dark, depressive or suicidal thoughts become overwhelming, if you need support and someone who will listen to you, if you need love, send me a private message. I'll be there, and i'll answer: that's a promise. Please don't hesitate: you will never bother or annoy me. There's no such thing as "a small problem", if you feel a weight in your heart and need to talk it out, it's valid. Please don't stay alone: talk. And I'll listen and do my best to help. I love you.
Me, I care. Now you get up and keep fighting because you will make it out. This is coming from a suicidal 12-year-old. Stay strong
update: now that i’m much older, this wasn’t the best choice of words. though I hope you’ve healed at least a little bit friend 🩵🩵
I don’t care if you’re a guy and a girl this stuff is horrible and it should never EVER happen to anyone, period.
I care
Zane Mounce I care. I am sorry you had to go through that:( may God help you find a way out of the despair and sorrows. May you find happiness and love
Tears still stream down my face listening to this....
Nope because I am so numb
Dear dad; I'm sorry for not being the girly daughter like you wanted
Dear mom; I'm sorry for not being the talented daughter like you wanted
Dead sister; I'm sorry for not being the sister to look up to like you wanted
Dear ex best friend: I'm sorry for not being as outgoing like you wanted
Dear new best friend: sorry for not being as tough like you wanted
Dear friends: I'm sorry for not being a strong person like you wanted
Dear teachers: I'm sorry for not being as smart as you wanted
Dear other students: I'm sorry for not being as normal as you wanted
Dear crush: I'm sorry for not being as pretty as you wanted
Dear everyone: I'm sorry for being human
You don't need to be girly, talented,outgoing,tough,strong,smart or normal. As cheesy as it sounds you just need to be a perfect version of you and I bet that's something you're good at.
Excuse me?
You copied that poem thing from the comments from the song "Human"
Busted
I didnt copy it, I asked perission to use it from someone else, not that person. I asked the person who actually wrote it.
you are perfect the way you are and if they don't accept that then they are in for a surprise when you prove them all wrong and show your true beautiful colors.
A Cute Freak Actually no, you copy-pasted it. I made a typo saying "dead sister" instead of "dear sister", and guess what your comment says. Yeah, definitely busted
Hi. I decided to share my story.
So, this started at the beginning of 6th grade. I was happy. Everything was going alright and the thoughts of self harm and suicide never crossed my mind once. That's when I met my best friend. She was so caring, kind, and genuinely amazing. My home life started getting hard. My parents began yelling at me for no reason, doing drugs, picked a favorite sibling that they'd dedicate all of their time and money to, etc. It was hard, but I talked to my best friend about it and honestly that was the only thing keeping me sane. That's when I broke up with "boyfriend" and not too long later got a new one. He was okay, but he had a older sister to hated me and would threaten me. I told my best friend. Well, guess what? My best friend was telling all of her other friends how I was such a freak. I began cutting. At first, it wasn't much. But then I got addicted. There were multiple scars on my wrists and there wasn't a day I hadn't done it. I just pulled on a jacket, and thought nothing about the consequences. I was messing around with a friend, and one of my sleeves just happened to get pulled off by accident. They stood in shock for a moment, and then ran off to go tell a counselor. I was called to the counselors office and then I was forced to show her. After I confirmed it, she called my parents and they came and picked me up. I was taken to a psychiatric ward and I was in there for about 2 weeks. After that, I was doing better again. I still had thoughts every so often, but I was doing well. That's when I started to go downhill again. All of my classes got changed and I'm no longer in any classes with my friends. They were my last hope. I went back to my old ways, and I still haven't been caught. I just feel so hopeless. I'm ready to give up. In fact, I might. There's no reason for me to be here anyways.
ThatSassyPotatoRock! you have things to live for! i understand what your going through and i wanna help you. if you wanna talk my instagram is @stephers_annn and my snapchat is @steph.cheer101 you can message me and talk💓💓
Stephers Ann Alright, I'll add you on snapchat.
Stephers Ann uhm, there. I added you. My name on there is aparsley69, so don't be alarmed if someone by that name added you out of the blue.
Hey! How you doing now? Hope you're fine.... Hun you have to lige for yourself... You have been through hell and one day when you'll out of this hell hole you'll see the world, a beautiful beautiful world..... You deserve to see that beautiful world for yourself...... That's your reason to live... For yourself... Because one day believe me things will go different and you'll be happy.......
Sixth grade? That's insulting high, my first traumatic event happened when I was 3 and first suicidal thought in 3rd grade (the main way I deal with my trauma is joking about it sorry)
"Did u like it when u heard her screaming out in pain" damn that really hit me bc my step father used to duct tape my mouth shut and my feet together also hands, I'm still not the same I was once happy. I wish I had some one who went through the same I could talk to😭😭
curly head I wish I could say that you can talk to be but to be honest nothing to that extent has ever happened to me (thank god)
curly head i cant take you serious with your pfp that you got😂
curly head what did he do when he duct taped you.....
curly head and I'm so sorry
xChubbi this is serious, not funny
When I was younger my cousin touched me inapropriatly. He didn't go all the way so I wasn't too worried about it. I told my friend and my mom found out. I go to counsling and I tell myself it doesn't bother me, and I thought I didn't. But whenever I hear his name I feel like crying. Hehe sorry for ranting
its went all the way with me since I was 6 so I understand
Don't feel sorry what has happened is important, don't keep it inside or apologize! I should be sorry for you going through that
Me too.. he didnt mean anything by it but.. it felt weird and gross, I can barely remember what he did to my body
I was raped so I know what that is like going through that is like BTW I'm 14 13 when it happened to me over 7 months ago
@@wolverine455 I'm sorry love that sounds terrible :( my cousin touched me when I was around 6 or 7, he is a year older
how could you take this girl and make her feel secure and then go grab your mates and make her feel impure
that hit me on a whole nother level
same
Same with me but then at the part; did you like it when you heard her screaming out in pain?
omg no joke people can be so fucking evil
Aisha Ramsey Those were the lyrics that made my jaw drop and made me feel so sorry for all the people out there who have been abused :(
well thank you for feeling sorry it legit always makes me feel better to know at least some one cares thank you
I know this is just my story,,,and no one will probably read this nor care about the words in it, but I wanted to put it out there because I want you to know that some have it better than others.
I was born into a family of children. There's my older sister Shannon, my older brother Micheal, me, and my younger sister Kate. Me? My name is Natalie. Life was good for a while, but it went downhill quickly.
Mom and Dad fought a lot, making the entire household toxic. They got a divorce and we live with mom now. Shes sweet, but she always has to work so we pretty much have to fend for ourselves. I miss Dad. We see him sometimes but very rarely,,,I find him to be a lot more open and happier and carefree than mom.
Micheal was once a pretty nice guy, a great brother. But he started hanging out with a bad group of people. He started to smoke, he went out and partied a lot, often coming home drunk. He did drugs on occasion. When he would come home high or drunk, mom was usually at work, so we took it upon ourselves to stay out of his way. He got very angry when he was high or drunk. A lot of the time he yelled at Shannon, and it hurt me to listen to their arguments from my room across the hall. He hasn't been drunk or high for a month though. I Hope it lasts.
Shannons story is by the far the saddest. She was the most beautiful girl I had met. She was my best friend. But since she was so beautiful it came at a price. Her boyfriend abused her, but she was too afraid to leave the relationship in fear he would attack her. So she put up with him. She got bullied a lot at school. And then there was him. He was a thirty year old man, Shannons teacher, actually. He sexually harassed Shannon, probably in a drunk or high state of mind, but still he ruined her. She decided to hang herself. I miss her a lot.
Kate is the second most beautiful girl. I try to protect her so she will not suffer how Shannon did. A lot of older men have attempted to sexually harass her but since she is only one year younger than me and we are in the same school i always protect her. She has a happy life. She is in love. She is cheerful always. I hope she stays this way.
Me? I am always going to be depressed, anxious, paranoid, and angry. But I'm slowly becoming happier. I have a boyfriend I love a lot. I have a family I care for. I know this is just another story lost in the sea of comments. But i hope you know every one is fighting their own battle.
mxsticaura you might've not thought that someone would read this but your story is yes sad but beautiful because you are coping even though you have been through a lot so I hope your life stays great
💙💙💙
Aww baby girl
We all are fighting
Your story seriously touched me, a specially the part when your sister hung herself because my best friend is suicidal and I’m so afraid that she’ll kill herself. But also the bullying part and the last part because I am bullied myself and I know how much pain it causes, if you want someone to share your feelings with, I am here for you. If you want to message me on Discord my username is Introverted weirdo.
H.O.P.E
Hold on, pain ends 🖤🧡💜
If you were my friend... I wouldnt be wanting to die right now
There are people here for you. You can pull through. Please don't give up... I don't know who you are or what you do, but I can truly say you deserve to live. No one deserves to die for no reason. I believe in you... Please, PLEASE keep fighting. I believe in you!
Draw_The_ World I'm in the same situation
I'm not going to tell you what most people would say like don't give up etc. I'm just going to say I don't know what you've been through I don't know you at all. But I will say this. Every human being is here for a purpose. You might not know that purpose yet but I purpose yet but you'll find out sooner or later. If you need someone to talk to please let me know. I'll be there for you promise. I won't judge you for who you are or anything promise. - Rose
it's not easy...to go through that...i know from personal experience...
Draw_The_ World Snapchat is Rebecca Schow
I started crying right when the music started
I really love this song. It gives a big effect on me. Anyways ill let whoevers reading this stop wasting their time, but remember your beautiful no matter what💖💖💗💝💘❤❣💕
I just so relate...
Yeah it's gonna be venting don't read it if you want...
But I totally relate...
I had a friend... She was seriously everything to me, she was the sunshine that helped me survive life at a time I was beaten up at school, having serious conflits with my family and having no friend. She was from the internet, 'duh it's not a real friend' you'll say, but that's not so easy. We grew up without losing touch. I was always afraid she didn't really cared about me, I was afraid she would leave me because I wasn't great enough, because I was always bringing bad news when she asked me what's up. But we were both anxious, and we succeeded to help each other through it, we were closer and closer. I considered her so high that sometimes I neglicted my friends over her. We even met, and everything was fine even though she always refused to call me her 'bestfriend' because she considered the thought stupid. But I accepted that, I trusted her more and more and she made me who I am, I trusted her when she said she wouldn't leave me, that I wasn't bother.
I got so emotionally close to her that I felt in love. At least I thought I did so. The more I was thinking about it, the worse it got, so one day I decided to confess even though I wasn't even sure that was love.
She rejected me, but told me we could remain friend. I got over that feeling, but her messages were more rare. Yet, when we saw back, every time, it was pretty friendly, like we used to do. But then she one day vanished. Like, totally. I knew she had eyes' issues, and got hella worried about it. I developped heart problems about it, I was so bullied, helpless and sad that I tried to commit suicide. I failed. I tried to keep on, thinking of the time she would come back.
1 month, 3months, 6months, 9months, one year and half and she still wasn't here, nothing was updated. So I really started to ask myself if she really cared about me. We told ourselves that if she became blind, we'd still call, or send each other vocal messages, but over a year, none were send. Even though in the beginning I told myself that probably wasn't her first priority, I started to wonder after so long. I then decided to start long research, a found a way to contact her father.
And that's where I started to broke myself up.
She was PERFECTLY fine, still able to use a computer, she has ignored my messages all this time, even when they were full of hope to just get a last message.
I then asked him if he could just warn her about this and if she could at least say why, and he probably did.
But she never came to say anything.
She has simply ignored it again.
I kept dreaming of it almost every night, 'til one night I got so pissed up that I wrote her one last message. One last message to make her understand what she has done, and what I've been through, and to have one last answer to why she did this. I hoped she would see it, but didn't really think she would.
I dreamt about it, during two days, these two days I was checking if she has answered. Then one day (2nd) I realized something was strange.
I looked deeper just to understand she has come back to block me on all her accounts. She did everything to prevent me getting any near her again.
That was not so long ago, not even a few weeks.
I lost the possibility to trust a friend, I introverted, and with other revelations, I started to hate humanity. I started to hate myself as well, I lost the control over my OCs. Those so dear OCs I loved so much and helped me vent worse humans' feelings and instincts without harming anyone. But now they've been devored whole by their own demons. I used to always have an inside World in me, where were a black figure that was the representation of my worse feelings, and white figure which was happiness, me, and my OCs. I used to try to refer to it instead of talking to anybody about my problems, but now the white figure has disappeared, and the black one took control over my OCs that were the only white side I could find in me.
That's stupid uh...
But all those loss made me a dead body, a somebody hoping to find any white in this world but knowing there is only black, a hopeless dreamer that will wonder in her now lonely world, hoping to see a white sparkle again; but also trying to protect from it in fear...
Sogeki No Shira I'm so sorry that happened to you,I hope you'll feel better and find an amazing friend to help you through thick and thin. Best wishes.
Sogeki No Shira I am so sorry someone has done this to you, but please remember not everyone is like that. Please.
Sogeki No Shira i relate
I can be your friend...because I don't have any and it seriously sucks to have no-one there for me...
Sogeki No Shira everything will be alright. cheer up 👌😌
It's so sad how a smile can hide everything. All my peers and teachers need is a 'I'm fine.' While my friends need a 'I'm fine!' And a smile to show. In my primary but now my friends only really give me a wave and sometimes I wonder if they'd miss me if I suicided and I've been tempted to, but my aunts coming down today so maybe next time when someone passes a mean comment about me always crying, I wish they knew the abuse they cause because they're breaking me and I can't take it anymore.
Special Sparkles i can relate
Special Sparkles u didn't kill your self did u plz tell me u didn't I can't deal with it my best friend did and I've been affected bye it forever
I'm miku...and I can relate
Special Sparkles every day I feel your pain
Special Sparkles and you are certainly special so please sparkle
Bless Your Innocent Heart, I Was Molested By My Dad Ages 7-8 And Then Raped Ages 10-12. It Was So Horrible, And I Finally Came Out About It In February Like About 3 Months And He's In Jail Now. But Then I Attempted Suicide And Went To The Hospital For 2 Days And Then Transferred To A Mental Hospital For 3 Days. Now I'm Just Recovering But I Know It Just Sucks And Nothing Can Be Done About The Memories. I've Turned To Marijuana And Alcohol To Just Say "Fuck It". But I Will Always Remember My Sick Twisted Father. I'm Only 15
Happened to me too
Maria Williams I understand how you feel but marijuana will only get rid of your depression temporarily only to give you worse depression. Your doctor might be able to give you antidepressants
Maria Williams ik that feeling so well i have almost been raped 3 times and my life just keeps getting worse. Im also 15 i have cut but now there is only one thing im continuing to live for and hes my only reason to stay in this cold cold world but i still pretend im ok when im really not
Maria Williams I was molested and raped when I was 6 I understand how scary it is
Maria Williams wow.....I'm wordless
Thank you parker, you've touched us all mentally. To everyone, be yourself because there is no need to be someone else YOU are beautiful
I relate to this song. I remember the day it happened and I remember my boyfriend beating the man who did it up.
I would love to shake your boyfriends hand ^-^
+Andrew Aguilar haha yeah, I love him :D
I agree with you
And that's what u call a beautiful girl and awesome boyfriend XD
Can I get ur bf to beat up my uncle?
*This hits me really hard..*
I used to get bullied a lot, so I started cutting and I got stuck with depression.
Now I have mental health but I have battled through my anorexia.
I mean fucking think of it, that bully never bullied again and said sorry, but does 'sorry' fix
Crying every night? Does ''sorry' fix a cutting addiction?
Does ' sorry' fix a broken heart?
Does 'sorry' fix anxiety?
Does 'sorry' fix the scars on my arms? Does 'sorry' fix the fact that I was so innocent to you broke my heart?
Was it really worth breaking such a pure innocent heart, a girl who thought she was on top of the world, until you broke me.
Look here you can paraliyse people just taunting them with sweet nightmares and dreams.
I had plans to, you know; I had plans on a piece of paper till you screwed me.
and guess what? The worst part is that he wasn't clarified as a bully. (; he was clarified sickly _ innocent._
Jessie Poland I hope one day you can recover 💕 you’re so strong regardless if you believe me or not. Just know I appreciate you and you deserve to smile again (:
That sounds exactly like my story 😥
That's almost sounds like me...
that's like what happened to me omfg
*This one too hit me hard*
Throw a plate on the floor
Say sorry to it
Did it go back to the way it use to be?
My best friend committed suicide less then two weeks ago. He was like a brother to me. He was the popular guy, the type of guy who didn't seem like he'd ever commit suicide. He always told me to be strong huge irony he wasn't. I miss him. I have suffered from depression and anxiety for about four years and he was there for all of them and now he's gone. I don't really know how to be strong when my strength was him. I miss my big brother , my best friend, the dork who'd mess up my hair, sorry I'm telling you guys this in the comments but I don't really have anywhere to put it. No one else cared but him I wish he could see this or at least hear me cry at night telling me I'll be fine. I wish....
Bambi Gonzalez
I wish I could give you a hug rn because I'm deeply sorry
Look I don't why he did it but always remember that he cared about you and he would never want you to see you sad so please for his sake stay strong and if you ever need someone to talk to
I'm always here
I don't know who you are but I'm always here for you
Just keep it together
Bambi Gonzalez hi I hope you remember that you are strong and you can continue to live a brilliant life for him xx anyone who you need to be there will help and I hope that you can live through this to a better day xx
I'm so sorry for your loss, I hope you feel better soon *hugs* a couple of years ago I lost my father to a heart disease, he died right in front of me, I saw his soul leave his eyes as he died. I'm telling you this because I know what you are going through, just know that it was not your fault, and that the pain will stop soon, and the amazing memories will be left with you 😊 have an amazing day
thanks
Thank You so much!
I needed to find a song like this. I could never openly tell anyone what happened to me many times of my life. This is healing to me.. Thank you Courtney
I said I was ok.
Broken has 'ok' written in it
Ginny Cullen Greenleaf
I always say I’m fine and I found out when you write it upside down I says save me😢
Courtney Dunne no it doesn't
Woah this comment got me..
you suffer from depression ? go on my channel and watch the last video called " depression " , i wrote a song about depression and its dedicated to anyone who suffers from it. im always here , you can contact me ´, my email address and Instagram account is in the info box.
*BR* OK *EN*
While i was hearing this song, i imagined myself to be the friend that she wrote this for
I just try to forget, and push it behind me, put on a smile and try to fit in. I hide my tears behind laughter and I hide my pained screams behind jokes.
I know how it feels.To need always to hide your pain under a mask
That's how it is at my school. Every one thinks I'm the smartest and funniest and happiest, but I'm not.
I never was, I never will be.
Wow. I listened to this at age eleven. I remember thinking to myself, “I cannot imagine.” ... in the blink of an eye, two months later, that became my reality. I was the girl who was raped. It was no longer just a song. It’s a horror you’d never know. Yet, it can happen to anyone. Images I’ll never erase. They are swirling through my head right now as I type this. It took me five years to even say those words, I was raped. I’m here now. I’m alive now. I’m strong. I survived. It took me half of my adolescence to begin my fight but I would not trade it. My story; age eleven, a hotel room, my boyfriend’s friend. HIS friends. Voices of bystanders unaware outside of the door. It was soon after my best friend’s twelfth birthday party. A party where we listened to Justin Bieber and blushed at the indiscretion in his music videos. I couldn’t even sing the bad words. Stolen Innocence. A truth I hope those that read this will never grasp. I stand with survivors.
Same here
I'm sorry that had happened to you
I’m so sorry, you are so strong, as a fellow survivor, just know that it wasn’t your fault (I say because it’s true but not believing it myself
Dear reader,
You are beautiful, on the inside and out. You need to stay strong life may have you down, but honey you need to keep your head up and stay strong. It may not seem like it right now but a lot of people care about you, and love you. It may not seem like it now but I promise one person in this world loves you. I am here for you and willing to talk just stay strong. I will help you through this. Stay strong honey,
I am here for you!💙
Thank you :)
coolanimals102 AJ Your welcome I'm sorry if people were being mean to you. But remember not to give in and stay strong. You are beautiful, in the inside and out. Stay strong.
Hippie Girl Thank you gby (god bless you)
+coolanimals102 AJ Glad to help if you need additional help or advice I'm available ☺️
Hippie Girl thank you
I can relate to this song so much. like in so many ways. and no one sees.
im sorry you feel that way i feel the same way so i know how you feel and i know it hurts idk about you but i feel alone and i just want to be for gotten and i want to comit suicide
+Savannah Balentine I feel the same way. I feel like all my friendships are fake and nobody really cares about me. stay strong tho. I'm sorry you feel that way. I know how you feel. stay strong. I know you can. 😘
Me to i feel like my so called "freinds" really care about me maybe i shouldn't be here nobody would miss me anyway they might my happy im gone :( i want to die so bad Mary Gaede
I want to die too. but I don't think I have the "courage" to do it myself. I just am so depressed and I don't want to be here anymore. +Savannah Balentine
Me to and i dont think i would be able to either so i just stay away from people and hurt myself again and again and they dont know they just think i am crazy Mary Gaede
I can relate to this song in more than 100 ways
omg so true, same here
No not like in a funny way
Jessica Ducat I'm not stupid. I feel like this song was dedicated to me.
Jessica Ducat SAME!
it's scary
I know my Mother and father are the ones who gave me life but I don't know how to tell them I don't want it...
I'll be here for you
The worst pain
Is going outside and putting on a fake smile that everyone believes
Everyone thinks I'm perfect and that I have a great life but they r all wrong
I'm just sooooo lost right now
I hide so many things
Sometimes I just wish I could have someone hug me alllllll day long
Sofia Cruz-Montes this happened to me and I'm only thirteen and itbwas only a few months ago and it's so hard for me and everyone knows because he told everyone and every time someone passes me a comment I die inside
Its not that hard when you have been putting on a fake smile for 5 years
Sofia Cruz-Montes :(
Sofia Cruz-Montes wow i can relate tbh
To: Those who are afraid to tell there parents
From: DarlingAngels
You have to tell your parents.
because the only person that you are harming is yourself from the very abusive and sexual event. If your friend is having issues with that then try to talk it out with them and help them until they have the courage to tell their parents. YOU have a voice. YOU can make a change. YOU can do anything. Boys, girls and Guys, women, and this will go to parents too; If you see your child/friend/sister/brother/BF/GF cutting, crying, throwing objects and screaming or maybe even screaming in their sleep, make sure to be their Guardian. Most parents in this world need parenting 101 and should stop acting like some teenagers because you know that you can grow young ,but you can be wise to your children. We love you all❤
Love ~ DarlingAngels
RebalWolves & DarlingAngels I just did last year. I'm never going to forget what my mom said to me when I told her she was talking people outside WHILE it was happening. 😔😔
Omg It's Tara We hope that you are alright sweety. if you need any help with copping with the issue you may come back to this comment box.
I'll tell her just so scared
what if it was ur parent my stepdad I told after 3 years its over now but hard as hell to tell
Mariana The Galaxy Guardian I agree with you completely
To everyone here, if you've gone through something traumatic, whether it be light bullying, heavier bullying, any kind of sexual trauma, etc. *it is not your fault.* I don't understand how it feels to be in the position of someone who is going through sexual abuse or anything but my older sister was molested as a little kid and, although it was hard for her to tell our mom and find help, she eventually got through it. You might have to go through a bunch of counselors to find the right one, you might have to take a little while to tell someone about what happened, but even if it takes years, you will eventually get better. Think of it this way; what ever happened to you, is the fault of the person who did it. Not you. They are the damaged one. They are the bad one. You're just a bird who injured their wing, but soon you can fly again.
Indeed. When I was a young boy about 10 or 11 roughly I was raped by my aunts husband. I blocked it out of memory pretending like it never happened. I didn't finally start admitting what had happened until I ended up in a psychiatric hospital back in December.
I was raped by my step-brother when i was 8 i still have nightmares from it like it was yesterday :'( :'(
Sarah-Louizse Freeman I really hope you get better. Hopefully youre okay now.
Ok this has happened my brother did something and fir about 5 years it had gone on and then my house burnt down and it stopes he'd is the same to my lil cusin and my dad loathe it and just about a month ago I told every thing that happend it too 7 years for me to tell why would he do that he was my step brother and my dad said I would never see him again and he is actually going to devotes my step mom beacuase of what happend and te fact that she told me if I ever told anyone she wold beat me she was very abusive
Thank you I feel sorry for everyone who has been raped or sexually abuse
I support all kids who have been there n I love u all cause I know what it is like cause u feel like nothing matters but everything does matter your beautiful a d don't ever think about taking your life cause of something that a low life dog has done
They deserve to rot him hell
"Where are you going Mommy?"
"........we're going shopping......."
"Is Daddy going with you?"
"Yes, my baby"
"When will you come back?"
"........soon, I promise........"
"Can you get me something?"
"What do you want?"
"A flower!"
"For who????"
For you, cause moms day is coming, hehe!"
"..........oh.......ok then.....I'll get you a flower....... "
"Then we can go to the beach and have fun!"
"...................yeah.................."
"And then you can tuck me into bed and-"
"Hey.......look......I think.......uncle......wants to see you............"
"UNCLE!?!?!?!?!?!?"
"UNCLE, Uncle, uncle..........."
"I'm so sorry......... I dont want to go......."
"Please, stay good for me.................................ok......................?"
**flatline**
A few years later.....
"Hey, Uncle?"
"Huh? What is it my boy?"
"When is mommy and daddy coming back?"
"...............what?.............."
"They said they were going shopping, and this is the longest that they've been gone for in a long time"
"Oh......."
"Do you know where they went?"
"Well.........you see.........they're in a better place"
"........But what place is better than with me..........?"
"A beautiful place........."
"What place is that????"
"Well my dear boy, that place is heaven"
"Oh, is that where they are?"
"Yes, my boy......"
"Do you know how to get there?"
"WHAT?!?!- I mean't, umm....... no......"
"Oh........ok"
"Why do you want to go there?"
"Because..... it's been so long since I've hugged mommy and daddy......."
"........hey........ are you hungry..........?"
"Yeah, I'm starving!"
"Well let's cook dinner then, ok?"
"Ok!"
"What do you want?"
"I want mommys favorite, porkchops!"
"..........ok then.........*
I still wonder where they are.......
And what they're doing......
But I believe theyll come back to me!
It has to! Mommy never lies
bruh 😭😭😭😭
Bruh that’s so sad
@Cylexen his mom and dad must have got into a car crash on their way to the store.
wait what happened?
I'm crying in thw back of my car reading this.
I'm so sorry. ❤
all i can do is sit here and cry because i can relate and sadly i have realized that people hide behind a mask of lies and you and everyone else think that they're not capable of doing such a thing but when it happens.... it changes something inside you forever and there is no going back. you"re just left with the flashbacks and the pain of the event.
I relate....the worst part was that it was my uncle, I was around the ages of 7, 8 and 9 at the time he was 13-14. And up until a month ago I had to live with him, I told people during summer, I know a little late, but I was scared and was talking to someone and it just slipped out. But no one really cared seeing that they did nothing.
Lucy Heartfilia I understand, A very close family member of mine raped me when I was just a kid, but trust me if you have a close friend or a trustable family member you need to go pour out your feelings and if they don't try to anything then you need to take it into your own hands, and if your still lost remember that there's people that even though they might not know personally are right hear for you.
Dragonlady Crumley
So much ahead Not enough people to care
*If one day you realize this*
*don't hurt yourself talk to someone you trust*
*if there's no one, talk to yourself*
*self confidence, and relying on your own opinions*
*will have more benefits in the future*
*then you have realized before..*
Thanks for reading this in the comments *Anyone* who realizes this
BE YOU, NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT YOU ARE, YOU ARE IMPORTANT
Sorry I've made my decision
I can’t tell anyone I trust.. my mom will just think I’m pathetic and the cats dying doesn’t matter.
@@neptuneuwu2862 Try to acknowledge the good things about yourself if you already know the bad ones you're halfway there even if you think there's nothing good about yourself you can still make it, so there is. Talk to at least one person you don't have to tell that person your problems you merely need to familiarize once you do take pride in being able to talk to that person. It doesn't matter what you think about yourself because somewhere down there there's something good about you wheter it has manifasted itself yet or not. You just need to focus on the good things no matter how minor, and try to improve them.
I hate how people use girls like that and take advantage of them just cuz they can, and then there's victim blaming which makes me sick and I just hate the world rn
Edit: y’all can chill now. I was 15 years old and this song hits too close to home. I know it’s not only girls. And don’t tell me “bOyS hAvE iT wOrSe” because it’s still 97% of women. Thanks for trying to “educate” me but I still stand by exactly what I said.
yea but some people use males the same way
It’s not just girls
It is not just girls who go through this boys and men can go through this
Boys and men can have it worse than girls do remember we are equal and we are not toys whether we are Boys or girls
I agree, but you’re generalizing like it happens only to girls, and that’s not true.
*Katelyn Nichole Davis,*
stated _Stolen Innocence_ was one of her favourite songs, after listening to the lyrics of this song and the song _"Her Last Words"_, i understand better the inner turmoil and pain she must have been going through. Sadly she took her own life with a rope around her neck and livestreamed it on the internet. In one of her diary entries she even used the term _"greeting death"_ like the lyrics of this song and her final word was *goodbye*. Clearly she felt the lyrics of these songs understood her better than the people around her who caused her so much pain though mental and physical torture in her short 12 years on this earth. Sad someone didn't help her sooner, she was practically screaming for help. *RIP Katelyn.*
What
and for what?Just for your own selfish benefit....
That one tho...
this song was wrote for someone I know
Really gets into the feels
RihannaQueen 1234 that’s when I cried
I saw this comment as soon as that verse came on
Was she raped?
this is how i feel all the time
This is about rape...
i am so sorry
Omg... I am to...
yes it's about rape
Oh my goodness. That would kill me inside if I felt like that all the time.. I'm so sorry. I hope it gets better throughout the days..! Good luck and Stay Strong!!
“Yes I’m fine”
I: insure
M:misunderstood
F:fake smiles
I:isn’t happy
N:never okay
E: everything is hard
I hope your doing okay Danny devito
Feel better Danny we love ya
Did you mean insecure?
Emo
@@desraccoonlord793 ok, I'm depressed (Diagnosed) And this pissed me off. On a song about sexual Assult, you call him emo for being Sad?
Are you alright
yes she rep(lies)
my life
Relatable...
:(
😲
so true...
Here I am listening to this in tears. No one understands what it's like to be raped and for the ones who have I'm so sorry you don't deserve that. I was never raped but I know the pain of it to be forced...I'm sorry to all that have been through that...I have my depression problems and I was peer pressured into sex not the same as raped but I know what it's like to be used ...- stay strong
If you didn't want to one hundred percent have sex then it's rape
Simple
+Oliver Davey not really. Pressuring someone into wouldn't be rape. If they tie the person down of force them down and do it to them when the person is 100 percent not wanting to do it then its rape. The person may feel like they have been raped and they may be raped mentally but by law they were not raped if they agreed to it in any way, shape or form. But i am sorry for you.
+Vanessa Earhart that explains the situation I went through. I wasn't raped but I felt like I was because he used me and basically hurt me while doing it and it was a really terrible and long story but I know exactly what you mean because that was my situation. and for the ones who've been raped.. I could barely get through this... they're so strong to be able to go through that..
I never had a father figure so I would call my uncle dad, to fill up the emptiness I felt. Then he used me. I consented, but was only 12. I don't believe I was raped. I do believe im a skank from it tho.
melissa johnson
youre not a skank. he used you, just because you gave consent doesnt mean youre a skank because he didnt have the right to do that because its ilegal so youre not a skank, trust me
Let me share a story. It's not mine, it's my best friend's.
When he was six years old, he was molested by a stranger in an empty bathroom. When he was nine, he was forced to shoot someone. Forced, as in it was his life or the life of a stranger. He tried to hide this for years. When I met him, I saw through his facade. He told me about all this. And then, four days ago, on June 24, 2015, two men broke into his house whilst he was alone. He tried to hide and call the police, but they heard his phone dialing. They grabbed him, smashed his phone, and continued taking things while one had a gun pointed at him at all times. One of the robbers left, but the other did not. The other stayed, and raped him. Then my friend killed the burglar in self-defense. He now sees a counselor. He can't say, "I love you" out loud. He won't let anyone touch him right now. He's hurting and broken, but getting better. He's never cut himself. He hasn't attempted suicide, though he's thought about it. He hasn't hurt anyone else. He is the strongest person I've ever met.
Everyone has strength within, but strength isn't always enough. He was lucky enough to have someone there to support him. No matter what, it get's better.
he probably wouldn't open up to you at all. He has really bad trust issues now.
I hope he gets better.He deserved a better life.
I know he did.
The Devil's Angel did?
Yea. He deserved a better life. This one can get better for him, but he'll never have the life he deserves.
Depression is such an interesting concept, people fake having it, people hide having it, some people want it, and others try desperately to get rid of it.
"You arent less of a person for having depression" is something my bf tells me all the time. And the same goes for everyone else who is struggling with it.
Dont think for a second that you have no reason to be depressed, it's ok to feel that way, because you arent less of a person.
Everything will be ok, sorry if you find it cringey for me saying this but truit's true, and I've dealt with mental disorders most if my life.
I know how it feels to look in the mirror and feel disgusted or to feel remorse at what you see.
Edit:sorry if I'm really cringey I swear I sound like I'm 8 years old but I'm not
Its nto cringey.. It made sense more than the other comments here
"Did you like it when you heard her screaming out in pain"
"I bet the thought of it is driving her insane "
Yeah.. Few years and i learned to accept things that was thrown at me..
And i cant get any of *that* event out of my mind
"She was so innocent until that event "
I was around 3...😟😕 when it started and i was around 14 when it stopped (but now that monster is back in town and im always paranoid and. . .
(Im just going to stop with my problems now)
If I may ask, how old are you now? Are you strong enough to defend yourself if that monster ever tries something at you again? Last thing, is there anything a random stranger from the internet could do for you?
That evil monster will burn in hell im so sorry I hope your doing well you are so strong xoxo
@The Anon on the Internet don't compare what happened to you with what happened to others.
@@wookiientertainment8812 yes, strangers are all i have. because i dont have my bestfriend now. she is happier without me
Mine happened when I was 4, stopped when I was 12. "How could you take this girl, and make her feel secure, then go grab your mates and make her feel impure", Hits so hard. He was my dad. I loved him. I didn't understand what he was doing to me and once I did I was so conflicted. But I think even at four I knew what he was doing wasn't right deep down.
i love her voice, i really do, to me, its amazing, and the lyrics are the best, and i can relate to this
i like her voice too like its not great but its not terrible
that is cool that you said that.
I can relate to this too
sometimes it feels like this song is about someone I know.....
like how does it remind you off
this song is my life
Wolfie Productions SAME
Wolfie Productions same. This explains exactly what happened to me..... 😔
me too omg
Crazy AlpacaLady same!
From someone who was almost r4ped this song hurts so bad... Today is the one year anniversary of it happening..
The more I listen to this,the more I remember how much I can relate to this...
hi
Saaame
The song is clearly about rape. It's about rape breaks you.
Growing up listening to this and only realising now it's about rape 🙁
I knew it was when i was 12 and that was about months ago im 13 now xD
Little Fitz why tf would you grow up listening to this lmao
Ikr
Honey Mew didn't actually mean growing up I've been listening to it for the past few years
oh I was thinking about abuse
this song makes my whole body clench cuz it's so like me.
I can't stop fucking crying
are you ok un?
+Shyla Jennings ya I just get ereally emotional when i listen to certain songs
+Shyla Jennings thank you tho
Chris i understand getting emotional to music and np at all
I can't hide my feelings when i telling to my friend what my darkest secret.... well im only happy when im at school but... when my friends changes their mood i feel alone like im tired of being tired rn Im just a tree who want to get soo many friends and stayed with me but sometimes they leave... And I only want is a fresh air to clear my minds and water to clear my dull eye or a paper bag who can cover ur real emotion.
Asuna Lokosangre hey if u need someone to talk to u can talk to me
I tell myself " Why am I here if I don't have anything to live for " Oh yeah. Because I don't.
look people who are reading this I hope u stay strong and don't cut and keep living ur beautiful life and Ik I shouldn't be saying this cuz I can't take my own advice tbh today was a shitty day cuz my boyfriend broke up with me saying he was cheating and he hopes I keep suffering and cutting and my mom and step dad were fighting and I haven't talked or eaten or even smiled all day today but reading ur guys comments hurt so just stay strong I love u and other people love u too it's a sad life yes but it will get better so put that blade down and Ik u think that's ur only friend and true escape from the world but it ain't u are beautiful inside and out boys and girls all ages so don't hurt urself and end up like me with cuts all over ur stomach and arms and thighs plz be strong and don't give up for me cuz I truly love u and so does ur family it may not seem like it but it's true I promise you I love u all
if u need help getting better and stop cutting I am here for u my Snapchat is cookieloveya2
I may not respond quickly but I will respond i can become ur friend and we can get through this together i don't mind having guy friends or girlfriends I am everyone's friend bot or girl I will not let u down so if u need help I'm here may God bless you and your family
LOVE YOU ALL❤💞💙💖😊
just text me hi when I accept ur friend request and I will reply and just tell me that u seen my comment on yt and I will let u explain ur problem and I'll be there
ice cream pop look right, you can be right high up in the world, or you can be on the shit side, the place where cutting, suicide, depression... things like that. Sadly most of us here got the shitter side, and it's hard it really is so hard, but we're all here for each other, we all have each other, and fuck it... we all love each other. I'd love to talk to you, but I won't bother you. I just wanna say keep helping people because you're doing a great thing
Aaron Lovelady u are a really nice person I can tell but I can not make a complete judgment without knowing u first and u will not be bothering me I have time for everyone and I would love to talk to u too and thank u I try to help people cuz when no one was there to talk to me I really wanted someone but if u need to talk don't worry u won't bother me I'm here for everyone thanks a lot
ice cream pop thank you so so much. You really are amazing, I know it's true. Keep going, trust me
Aaron Lovelady thank u and same to u u are an amazing person and I hope u have a wonderful life❤😊
ice cream pop awh thank you that actually made my day😊
"You'll know who you are"
I feel like it's meant for me
same...
@The Anon on the Internet are you okay ?
Too
To all all survivors, you still being here means that you've won even if it doesn't feel that way
I was brutally raped when I was 5.. I hate it so much..
I was raped from age 8 to 9 before I was placed in fostercare. this song hits home in so many ways.
Amber Papst I'm so sorry to hear that!😞I've never been raped but I am bullied constantly. And this song reminds me that they never see how much it hurts me. How much their words cut my skin. I have scars on my arm and leg from self harm. This song makes me cry some days when the pain from it is strong. I'm glad you were taken from that horrendous situation and I hope you didn't let it affect your future!!
Zack Perfitt
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Amber Papst I feel sorry for you
I'm sorry. I hope things are getting better for you.
I cut and I only told my best friend and I said jk I didn't because I didn't trust her but I stopped because my school found out and I got help 😊😊 but sometimes I still think about suicide 😟😟😟
Floam Time don’t think of that❤️❤️ your probably amazing like everyone in some unique ways❤️❤️❤️
Floam Time Don'ttt!
Floam Time stay strong please x
Foam time i am 12 and i have went thought hell and ive tryed suicide many time but now i realize who's there for me and even though I don't know you or what ur going through i believe that u can make it through anything and if u ever need anyone to talk to im here
Floam Time I shared my feelings once. That’s when everything got worse....
the 1 k who dislikes this is heartless
These songs i can relate to
Thunder Paw no kidding!
Thunder Paw or maybe they just don't like the song, which is okay.
My friend shown me this just now.... I’ve been crying for about a hour and I realize that how the worlds ruined me and this song is beautiful. Thank you Kat...
"Who trusted me enough to tell me her deepest, darkest, secrets..."
Courtney: **writes a song about it**
Edit: I'm sorry. This sounded really insensitive.
yeah the thing is that she didn't tell her name u dumb
i have eyes. I know there wasn't a name. ;-;
I’m sure she probably asked her friend if she could write something and dedicate it to her
DAMN U THIS SONG HAS A MAENING HTO THE REST OF US SO JUST FUCK OFF!
@@user-ya8ri3hs7o well its a stupid joke and it was kinda messed up
My sister cut herself and died...
Listen
Your skins not paper,Don’t cut it.
Your face isn’t a mask
Don’t cover it
Your size isn’t a book don’t judge it
Life isn’t a movie
Don’t end it!
Your head isn’t a target don’t shoot it!
Life is short
DONT WASTE IT!
I miss u sister💕😭 +Don’t cut ppl ur important!!
I'm sorry about ur sister 😢
Im so sorry
im sorry about your sister I bet she was a great person
It kind of..........too late
@@katiemundine7437 hey please don't do anything rash I might know your story but ik how you feel but it really does get better
i cant believe how people can just dislike a strong powerful song, this song got me tearing up about memories.
Can't believe I was listening to this in middle school now I'm nearly 21 and I'm back hearing it again, the flood of memories I hurt for my childhood self.
1 year, 5 guys, and 1 me... This song hits so deep, it hurts but yet relates so much. Even tho ive got ptsd from my trauma, i refuse to let it get over me. And whoever is reading this rn, I believe you can find the strength in yourself to fight and carry on. Its hard i know but i believe in you and you've got this. Good luck and I'm cheering you on!
Everyone has their stories to tell. Some are bad. Some are worse. Some make you want to scream and cry and hide yourself away. Some even make you think the world would be a better place if you were not to be. But you are not alone. No one is ever alone. There will always be someone somewhere who understands you, even if it's not immediately visable. I am here if anyone ever needs to tell their story, and I have stories of my own. Sometimes, all we need is for someone to listen.
+Michaelis Hearts Hey.. i don't know if im suffering from depression, or not. i don't cut i just feel empty 24/7 bullied before and still am. at the end of school, i go home lock myself in my room and cry. i watch videos and try not to think about it.. my parents fighting and my dad loosing his job. my friends always calling me out on my imperfectons. but whenever someone asks if im okay or whats up i just say nothing, or fine. it feels good to let this out to someone.. and i hope someone is there facing what i am too.
thanks again, Michaelis Hearts.
+Rachel Rondeau --> I know exactly how you feel. Been there, done that. Everyone told me it was depression, tried to drug me, run mental tests, tell me i was sick and say they would "fix me". My school is a small one and I only have 14 kids in my entire grade. We're not like normal classes. We're weird and different and totally and completely out there. My family by blood doesnt accept me for who I am, but I came to realize that family doesn't always mean someone related to you. My classmates are my friends, my family, the closest people to me. There's no drama, no 'who's better than who', and no 'who's slut of the week' (been called that too. Not fun.). They always have my back. My advice to you is to listen to music you identify with. Read lots-- immerse yourself in faraway lands. Try to see the good in life. When it rains, don't just see gray. Hear the thunder, see the lightning, feel the raindrops on your skin, listen to nature's unique symphony. Hold on to those you love.
+Rachel Rondeau. There will always be someone out there who loves you, even if you can't see it. The world isn't against you, dear. Be who you want to be. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I got bullied relentlessly at my last school. I hated myself. I hated the world. Everything was dark and gray and I was alone. I cut myself. Wanted to die most nights. I shut everyone out. But you know what? One day, I let one person in, and she changed everything. I love her more than life, not because she complemented my bright colors, but because she saw the dark ones and called them beautiful to. Wherever you are, near or far, you are beautiful too, and you are not alone. I have a Wattpad account under this username, and on it I have a book of poetry called The Lives We Touch. I encourage you to check it out as I've found poetry helps me immensely. Stay strong for me, okay? Even if we're strangers, we're in this together. XD
Michaelis Hearts Thank you man, i promise i will
+Michaelis Hearts I was molested as a child. Then bullied for the rest of my life. My two dogs died. My hamster died. I have no more friends. Ive lost my will to love but I refuse to give up.
This is my favorite song. Literally I've listened to thousands of songs but this one song is my absolute favorite.
FINKERMASH!! I just want to say that you are an amazing friend for writing this. You deserve the 96k ans much more!! bless u!!
The "Are you alright? Yes she replys" gets me every time for some reason
I am a victim. and I only just came out about it. after one year. in 14,,,
i still havent idk how
I'm never going to come out with it, I'm 14
Your a survivor
@@littlemisskiller7164 same
It’s been 4-5 years and I finally came out to my boyfriend about it, and I don’t regret it.
dude...this is deep
This song... made me cry... a lot... I love it when people write songs with meaning, so thank you for adding to the minority. Your piano skills and voice are beautiful and, despite knowing that I don’t know who this is for, nor do I even know you, thank you, thank you, thank you. Songs like this always touch my heart and I just, I love when a song has real emotion in it and tells a story. Sorry for such a long comment that you probably won’t even read. Just, thank you.
This song fits my friend at school, she felt so depressed and angry that she took out all her anger on me, and still bullies me to try to make herself look good. She trusted me so much as to tell me pretty much her whole personal life story, up 'till when she started bullying me. The reason why she felt angry was because I kept talking to my other friends more, and she felt jealous because she had only a few friends.
for some reason I feel like that song was also written about me, about everyone whos happened to.. 😩💔 we're strong..
I got raped by my uncle before 4th grade, it was happening for years. he would lock me in rooms, threaten me, make me feel like the bad guy.. I would feel so dirty and disgusting. I would cry myself to sleep.. Now, I'm in 7th grade.. today, my brother tried to rape me, but it's also not the first time either.. My brothers tried before.. I've been depressed since 4th grade. I've self-harmed a lot over the uears. recently, I went to a mental institution for 5 days for self-harm. tbh, it did not help. I got put on medicine, it makes me tired, but I always stay up at night over thinking. I havent been eating a lot and I'm self-harming again. I got diagnosed with major depression and ptsd too... I don't know what to do.. I'm sorry about ranting..
Brooklyn Cherry this is Rose on my friends phone and I know how you feel I never told my mom because I just wanted her to be happy and she was this happed like 1-3 months ago I'm so sorry
Sydney Canup I'll be ok.. I hope you are okay. Thank you for sharing that with me. If you ever want to talk you can dm me on Instagram @brookee.elizabeth
im here if u needa talk my snapchats tialynch21 or my face book is just tia lynch.
i whent though self harm i cannot say why or what beacause of privacy resons on this
thank you all. i told my parents about everything that's been going on with me. they are trying to help me the best they can including making sure my brother don't do anything. the only thing they are not for sure if they can help me with is going to trial for my uncle doing that to me. they are trying to get me out of it though.
Are you ok?This is so unfair they deserve to die in jail!!Girl are you fine now?
7 years and your music still rings in my ears, and i thank you for getting me through til the better days.