Ashton i know you feel we deserve to know like you said, but you also derserve your privacy. Dont put your channel before yourself. I get how you want to help people by talking about it and being strong, but you also have to show people its okay to break. That is exactly what you did here. This not just a depressing rant, you are showing people that having weaknesses is okay. Yes you cut things out of the video but i have seen how strong you can be. You will get through this summer, no matter how long it feels.
I wish I could give you a hug right now. I know that getting comments like "you're so brave!" Isn't what you're looking for necessarily, but I really do look up to you for being able to share such a private part of yourself with us. I really hope no one says that you shouldn't be in a relationship because of this, because if you've been with Jack for 2 years then obviously it's okay with him that you don't feel comfortable doing certain things. I wanted to say something, because I had a lot going through my mind while watching it, but didn't really know how to phrase it so sorry if that was messy or didn't really make sense. I hope you have an amazing week, and remember that we're all here for you if you need it! ❤❤
like how you cant deal with sexual assault things, i cant deal with the military or anything to do with it. shit fucks people up, man, and im sorry you went through that
hey I know you probably won't read this but like,, I was just watching a bunch of those '10 signs of abuse' videos and shit like that and Being Depressed & then u uploaded at the exact moment I was like ok now what and just?? everything u said explained how I felt more eloquently than I ever could and just?? thank u?? like I was rambling on the gc and now I feel bad abt saying anything bc I feel like nothing I went through was that bad and hhhhjhhjhh idk how to Make The Words Do The Thing but,, thank u
honestly, thank you for uploading something on such a vulnerable issue. more people need to know about these issues and how they affect people. we love and support u no matter what
Ur so brave for talking about this and posting this. Im so happy u will be working on all of this in therapy:) sharing your experiences will always help others, and you really opened my eyes to how these things can effect people.
You may or may not see this but I just want you to know we appreciate everything you upload and that you don’t owe us anything. Please share what you are comfortable sharing, we love to hear it, but don’t feel obligated to share anything past what you want to share. Thank you so much for putting this video out there though. I know it will help a lot of people.
It's so important to let things like this out, my mother always told me that you have to open your wounds to heal them. I appreciate you telling us this. You're not alone Ashton. Lots of people love you and care for you and you are very brave for talking about this.
I just want to physically go through the video and hug you. You deserve everything good in your life and anything bad you absolutely do not deserve. You are one of the nicest, sweetest, kindest people I know. You said you might not read the comments, but if you see this one, you are amazing.
We are here for you no matter what. I know this is really hard for you and a simple RUclips comment can't fix things. But we are all here for you and want your happiness
I truly have no words. I feel like I would offend you by say it’s okay and that I’m sorry. Because I know I hate when people say that to me. Take your time Ashton. It could take the summer, months, years. But you will be okay. Sometimes you just need to put up depressing rant videos. You do so much for others, take time to get comfortable. ily ❤️
Ashton im so proud of you stay strong okay? Deal with things at your own pace you will be okay. From what i have seen you will get through it. Its okay to not to talk to everyone, its your own life, we dont need to know every detail. You are not a terrible person, you are wonderful and strong.
Although I may not have trauma,I’m in a similar situation. I hope that you can overcome this tough block in the road to help you and we are all here with you to support you no matter what. You may feel scared but remember that all of us are behind you supporting ❤️
Finding your channel has helped me so much in such a short amount of time because I can relate to you so much. I understand your pain and all I want to do is squeeze you.
I have religious OCD as a result of trauma. I have ptsd. You can heal. I had a full on phsychotic break last year but I finally came to terms with w what happened. I am not as fucked in my head about it now. Talking is so much easier than hiding or blocking. There are bad people. They don't need to be forgiven and God loves you no matter what. You can't compare yourself or your relationship to any other one. No one is entitled to an opinion about what is right for you. I get the not wanting to be depressing. You can get through whatever this was. Don't let your past hold you back from moving forward. Its ok to change and to grow.
I actually just yesterday finally opened up to my partner about my trauma because they asked (it was okay because I was beating around the bush and they said that they were comfortable with me talking about it). It does feel wonderful to finally get that all out and admit to myself that those things were traumatic, harmful, and impactful on me. It can be so hard to deal with and overcome those things, but we'll all stand with you and with each other
Ashton, I'm speechless! It sounds cliché, but it's incredibly brave of you to face the trauma you went through, instead of hiding from it.And from what I can tell, you will be exhausted due to therapy this summer, but the person you'll be afterwards is the one you're meant to be. Thank you for raising awareness for such a stigmatized topic!
Apparently being autistic means that trauma affects you more. That might be something to think about. For me I have moments where I feel were not particularly intense trauma which affect me greatly. I know that you might not believe me completely but you are so brave for posting this. Also when I cry it’s ugly and sobbing and everything and you did a great job in this. Also you never owe anyone any information about your mental health, remember that.
oh I didn’t know that hank you so much that could definitely explain some things !! this comment really helped thank you for sharing, I hope you’re doing okay and taking care of yourself 💖
Thanks, I’m glad I helped. Trauma is sh*t so I hope that you feel better from it soon. Not sure if it will help you but I thought I should say in case it does that my therapist often recommends wrapping yourself in a blanket in a room where the lighting isn’t too strong, with a stim toy or other comforting item, and try to make the space feel as safe as possible. It helped me a lot actually, especially before I had access to therapy.
Your only human Ashton, everyone feels, and breaks, and even feels unsure about themselves. Every life experience shapes who you are as a person, you cant change the past but what you do for yourself in the now can shape who you will be in the future. Its ok to be scared...to have emotions and feel about this traumatic past. Trying to do something for yourself when it comes to this and that moving forward will help you in the future to be who you want to be. I feel for you, and have had my own experiences...my brother...wasn't the best brother...& I will never tell my mother about the things he did...n the fact of how I have intimacy issues as well most certainly factors into that & its confusing and scary...but being brave, being strong, doesn't mean your not scared doing it, it means your trying to overcome that fear in your heart to better yourself.
There are issues that affect me, that I literally don't even have words for! They have such an impact on me, and maybe always will. Despite this I've found a fantastic partner who I've been with for nearly 7 years and hope I'll be with forever!! Our whole lives are a journey and there's no sat nav and no definite route plan. We all just try to find out best way through and if that's with someone else by our side, then that's cool! I'm wishing happy travels to Ashton, Jack and everyone else reading this. Thank you for talking about this... it helps open conversations for other people and, in my opinion, that can only be a good thing xxxxx
i have had this experience that i call “trauma” but i always feel like shit because i think it isn’t like, “extreme enough” like it’s not worth being called trauma but when i think about it it just fucks me up, i feel just sick when i just think about what i haven’t blocked out or repressed, i won’t go into detail but to this day it still makes me scared to walk home from school . (sorry this comment seems stupid but i have NEVER said anything about it and i felt like just expressing it somewhere where nobody that i know can see it)
i relate to this a lot. my trauma was and still is ongoing, and i feel a lot of what you do. thank you so much for posting this, it helped me feel like i'm not alone.
you know.... ive realised something. if i turn all my pain, into pure unrelentless rage, i am filled with so much energy i feel like im the one in power. and im the one who can defeat the threat. but.. sometimes im scared i can hurt someone really bad, and i myself become the bad person. thank you so much for making these videos. i feel like i have finally found a person who i can understand. even if were complete strangers. i feel so much guilt and shame for talking too. but if i dont talk, ill scream and yell. so.. im not sure but i think its better if i do something about the problem, instead of denial and rage. but sometimes i forget all this. im a different person. i feel so twisted and disgusting. because there are people who are not me here. i feel like i live in two worlds. its hard to translate that.
Hey ash, i know this video is a bit old, but I kind of wanted to comment. Since I first watched this video some stuff has changed. I personally experienced trauma that left me with an anxiety disorder, flashbacks and severe trust issues. I hope you are doing ok, I wish I had a therapist I could talk to about my trauma, and don’t feel bad if you feel you are making slow progress, because you are not, you are making YOUR progress, and that is so cool! I have only just come to terms with the fact I experienced trauma, and you are awesome for even TRYING to work through it!
From my experience, I know that I am who I am because of my trauma. Of course I know it does shape a part of me. I am not necessarily religious, but I do believe in Jesus. I'm considered a Christian. I learned AND REMEMBERED to take the small things and do them. And over time, you will have accomplished a lot. Don't make excuses (not saying that you are), do your best, and don't assume people are out to get you or anything. Those three things helped me in life, as I have had a panic attack so bad yesterday, I needed to go to the ER. I was SO overloaded with thoughts that I couldn't move too well, and I started having involuntary convulsions. I believe these to be seizures, but I'm not so sure. I am close to getting my insurance covered so that I can face my fears. It's not going to be easy. Nobody ever said it WOULD be. LOL. Something that I know that will help me is to Let go, and Let God. Of course it may not work for you, but it definitely helps me. I have no doubts at all... well maybe a little bit, but I have faith that it works. You need to set your fears aside and focus on life day by day... and face your fears. Yes, I know it's scary. Yes, it may take a lifetime. But that's kind of the point, life can be easy and short as long as you are happy, or it can be long and miserable... It can also be long and happy. The choice is entirely up to you. I believe in you too. Feel free to comment me or email me if you are ever having trouble. Take Care.
I have PTSD from bullying the sad thind is the person that really effected it all still gose to my school i see him in the halks and i loose my breath because i feel like im re living it all when i see him
Its so easy to say 'ill get over it' but actually doing it is so difficult, ive never experienced trauma but i know people who have and it happened such a long time ago but it still really affects them. Ashton your so brave and we all really support you, your such an amazing person. One day in the future you will be able to overcome what happened, when you do and until you do well all be here to support. We all love you 💕
I respect you for being able to finally open up to us even if its not completely, its improvement and I think this topic shouls be more widely spoken about and I hope you know this will help others to open up about their experiences.
Thank you for telling us about this. I know that it is very difficult to open up about these things, especially this, and you're doing it. You're great. Ps: I hate crying as well. It makes you're face feel all weird
im so proud of you for opening yourself up and being vulnerable like this. i have a lot of trauma too, so i understand how hard it can be. it feels like this part of you that you have to bottle up and hide away and make sure no one ever finds. my parents (mostly my mom) have been verbally and emotionally abusive towards me for as long as i can remember. im 19 years old and still live with them both out of necessity and... sympathy i guess? my mom is physically disabled so i feel like i need to help her. and i feel guilty for thinking that shes abusive cuz shes not always mean and i feel like im being ungreatful. i have self dx’d myself with c-ptsd. i cant get professionally diagnosed rn bc the therapist i was going to was biased towards my mom bc she knew her and my mom sat in on almost every session. i know since im a legal adult i have the right to not allow her in there, but she payed for my therapy and am too scared of what might happen if i say no to her, because of this i stopped getting therapy bc what was the point if i couldnt talk about the real problem? so im glad that it sounds like you have a good counselor and are able to go through therapy for ur trauma. i know it will be hard to go through with it, so i wish you all the best. we all have ur back 💛
Ashton I'm beyond proud of you and I hope your ok and you can talk everything out at your therapist meeting stay strong I'm here for you gotta admit I was crying to during this video I need tissues :-)
One of my very close friends went through some trauma and I'm struggling to support them and I want to be able to to make their life easier and to be a good friend but I don't know how to go about supporting them, do you have any specific things that help you that your boyfriend or friends do to help support you?
Ashton, I appreciate what you talk about and I wish I could give you hug. I know this is hard for you, and you are okay to talk about it all you want, and if you do or don't want to that Decision is for you. The brain is interesting in how it works. Trauma changes the brain like anything else, it reworks the brain nobody's brain will be the same, and that's completely ok. (I'm really sorry if this doesn't sound right I'm really tired as i got home from school a bit ago and I don't feel well)
I can relate to this and I still can’t talk about my traumas to close people let alone on RUclips. I was diagnosed with PTSD recently among other things.
You should be in a relationship Ash no matter what jack will help you as much as possible get you to a place where you’re better off being in I think and he loves you 💗 so much Ashton and I know I like you a lot and I repeat things all the time too...upset or sad or whatever or not but I know someone who is also transgender and his anxiety is so that he is silly almost all the time to relieve the all of the social anxiety & tension he has and to calm his severe social anxiety down but I was like 😢 I am not going to hurt you, you do not have to worry about me taking advantage of you and you don’t have to be that way in front of me & I am not going to do anything inappropriate to you and trust me he was like awwwww ok! 👌 and I also added to top that off...if you are always silly and I am genuinely upset(not entirely mind you trying to make this all about me however)...what if I was upset and if you were always acting silly then it is very hard to come out as upset with the other person acting so silly he was like ok 👍🏻 so now when I am upset & he sees it taking place he will come & discuss what made me upset in a very calm and compassionate manner and it feels way better he has seen me upset and he cried & I have calmed him down also people go through a whole lot being lgbt 🏳️🌈 etc. and it isn’t always an easy thing to handle 🥺 but telling people how you are feeling is way better than holding it in Ashton and you definitely deserve Jack and you deserve to be with him and you have the right to openly share your feelings freely without feeling like you are going to be judged and criticized you are loved and yes you are allowed to cry 😢 in your videos or be overjoyed & share where ever your emotions lead you even if you start the video with a feeling of a very positive outlook/outcome and then you are like uh oh 😧 and have a scary outlook or upsetting flashbacks that shouldn’t be cut or edited out of these videos they are your life and the reality that whatever you say no bodies life is perfect and everyone should respect that because nobodies life if is always 100% perfect!💖
...for example there was a video where you were talking about something and you mentioned build a wall then you mentioned that you had flashbacks to the election so you froze and then went on talking about whatever the subject was you are allowed to share any feelings you have about anything you are feeling 🙂 at the moment and your feelings at the moment should not be dismissed by others.
If this is such a big problem for you, I don't think it's fair for your boyfriend to have to deal with all of your issues. Clearly they must be affecting your relationship somehow, and it isn't right for you to hold him back from finding a normal non-ill person to be with. It is really quite selfish in fact.
Why, if you don't like it don't watch it. Also, I don't think they would have been together for 2 years if Jack didn't want to help him deal with it or if it was making it a bad relationship. Ashton, I think your awesome, keep going!
Harriet Grainger Music maybe they do love each other like a lot, but as a person who has been through some rough stuff i can tell you that eventually you just rely in your partner and that makes everything harder for both parts. So yeah, maybe that won't happen to them, maybe jack is holding himself back for ash or maybe ash is holding jack back, we'll never know and we shouldn't.
You should be more careful about the things you say on here. What you are saying here is not helpful at all, it is very easy for mentally ill people to feel isolated and undeserving of other people. That can lead to suicide, try to be aware of this...
lastbreathsigh then don’t watch. He has no reason to talk about his life for you. As a real life pal of Ashton this affects him daily and he doesn’t have to tell you what happened if he doesn’t want to. Also this is his channel so he can talk about whatever the fuck he wants to. He can be depressing for 15 minutes if he wants to, he can be manic for 15 minutes, this is his channel and he doesn’t have to cater it towards you for your entertainment of his trauma.
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Also: "courage cannot erase our fear courage is when we face our fear"
Ashton i know you feel we deserve to know like you said, but you also derserve your privacy. Dont put your channel before yourself. I get how you want to help people by talking about it and being strong, but you also have to show people its okay to break. That is exactly what you did here. This not just a depressing rant, you are showing people that having weaknesses is okay. Yes you cut things out of the video but i have seen how strong you can be. You will get through this summer, no matter how long it feels.
I wish I could give you a hug right now. I know that getting comments like "you're so brave!" Isn't what you're looking for necessarily, but I really do look up to you for being able to share such a private part of yourself with us. I really hope no one says that you shouldn't be in a relationship because of this, because if you've been with Jack for 2 years then obviously it's okay with him that you don't feel comfortable doing certain things. I wanted to say something, because I had a lot going through my mind while watching it, but didn't really know how to phrase it so sorry if that was messy or didn't really make sense. I hope you have an amazing week, and remember that we're all here for you if you need it! ❤❤
i relate. not with the specific trauma stuff, but abuse and guilt n shit. thank you.
like how you cant deal with sexual assault things, i cant deal with the military or anything to do with it. shit fucks people up, man, and im sorry you went through that
hey I know you probably won't read this but like,, I was just watching a bunch of those '10 signs of abuse' videos and shit like that and Being Depressed & then u uploaded at the exact moment I was like ok now what and just?? everything u said explained how I felt more eloquently than I ever could and just?? thank u?? like I was rambling on the gc and now I feel bad abt saying anything bc I feel like nothing I went through was that bad and hhhhjhhjhh idk how to Make The Words Do The Thing but,, thank u
i have never talked to anyone about my trauma because i'm ashamed, even though i know i shouldn't be
sanXfelix I feel that
it means alot to know that there are other people that go nonverbal when they face trama, I have ptsd, depression, anxiety and it has been hard
honestly, thank you for uploading something on such a vulnerable issue. more people need to know about these issues and how they affect people. we love and support u no matter what
Ur so brave for talking about this and posting this. Im so happy u will be working on all of this in therapy:) sharing your experiences will always help others, and you really opened my eyes to how these things can effect people.
You may or may not see this but I just want you to know we appreciate everything you upload and that you don’t owe us anything. Please share what you are comfortable sharing, we love to hear it, but don’t feel obligated to share anything past what you want to share. Thank you so much for putting this video out there though. I know it will help a lot of people.
I can relate to you in this video so much
We're here for you no matter what
It's so important to let things like this out, my mother always told me that you have to open your wounds to heal them. I appreciate you telling us this. You're not alone Ashton. Lots of people love you and care for you and you are very brave for talking about this.
thank you, Ashton
I just want to physically go through the video and hug you. You deserve everything good in your life and anything bad you absolutely do not deserve. You are one of the nicest, sweetest, kindest people I know. You said you might not read the comments, but if you see this one, you are amazing.
We are here for you no matter what. I know this is really hard for you and a simple RUclips comment can't fix things. But we are all here for you and want your happiness
I truly have no words. I feel like I would offend you by say it’s okay and that I’m sorry. Because I know I hate when people say that to me. Take your time Ashton. It could take the summer, months, years. But you will be okay. Sometimes you just need to put up depressing rant videos. You do so much for others, take time to get comfortable. ily ❤️
Ashton im so proud of you stay strong okay? Deal with things at your own pace you will be okay. From what i have seen you will get through it. Its okay to not to talk to everyone, its your own life, we dont need to know every detail. You are not a terrible person, you are wonderful and strong.
Although I may not have trauma,I’m in a similar situation. I hope that you can overcome this tough block in the road to help you and we are all here with you to support you no matter what. You may feel scared but remember that all of us are behind you supporting ❤️
Finding your channel has helped me so much in such a short amount of time because I can relate to you so much. I understand your pain and all I want to do is squeeze you.
I have religious OCD as a result of trauma. I have ptsd. You can heal. I had a full on phsychotic break last year but I finally came to terms with w what happened. I am not as fucked in my head about it now. Talking is so much easier than hiding or blocking. There are bad people. They don't need to be forgiven and God loves you no matter what. You can't compare yourself or your relationship to any other one. No one is entitled to an opinion about what is right for you. I get the not wanting to be depressing. You can get through whatever this was. Don't let your past hold you back from moving forward. Its ok to change and to grow.
I actually just yesterday finally opened up to my partner about my trauma because they asked (it was okay because I was beating around the bush and they said that they were comfortable with me talking about it). It does feel wonderful to finally get that all out and admit to myself that those things were traumatic, harmful, and impactful on me.
It can be so hard to deal with and overcome those things, but we'll all stand with you and with each other
Ashton, I'm speechless! It sounds cliché, but it's incredibly brave of you to face the trauma you went through, instead of hiding from it.And from what I can tell, you will be exhausted due to therapy this summer, but the person you'll be afterwards is the one you're meant to be. Thank you for raising awareness for such a stigmatized topic!
Apparently being autistic means that trauma affects you more. That might be something to think about. For me I have moments where I feel were not particularly intense trauma which affect me greatly. I know that you might not believe me completely but you are so brave for posting this. Also when I cry it’s ugly and sobbing and everything and you did a great job in this. Also you never owe anyone any information about your mental health, remember that.
oh I didn’t know that hank you so much that could definitely explain some things !! this comment really helped thank you for sharing, I hope you’re doing okay and taking care of yourself 💖
Thanks, I’m glad I helped. Trauma is sh*t so I hope that you feel better from it soon. Not sure if it will help you but I thought I should say in case it does that my therapist often recommends wrapping yourself in a blanket in a room where the lighting isn’t too strong, with a stim toy or other comforting item, and try to make the space feel as safe as possible. It helped me a lot actually, especially before I had access to therapy.
Thank you so much Ashton for talking about this.
Your only human Ashton, everyone feels, and breaks, and even feels unsure about themselves. Every life experience shapes who you are as a person, you cant change the past but what you do for yourself in the now can shape who you will be in the future. Its ok to be scared...to have emotions and feel about this traumatic past. Trying to do something for yourself when it comes to this and that moving forward will help you in the future to be who you want to be. I feel for you, and have had my own experiences...my brother...wasn't the best brother...& I will never tell my mother about the things he did...n the fact of how I have intimacy issues as well most certainly factors into that & its confusing and scary...but being brave, being strong, doesn't mean your not scared doing it, it means your trying to overcome that fear in your heart to better yourself.
There are issues that affect me, that I literally don't even have words for! They have such an impact on me, and maybe always will. Despite this I've found a fantastic partner who I've been with for nearly 7 years and hope I'll be with forever!! Our whole lives are a journey and there's no sat nav and no definite route plan.
We all just try to find out best way through and if that's with someone else by our side, then that's cool!
I'm wishing happy travels to Ashton, Jack and everyone else reading this.
Thank you for talking about this... it helps open conversations for other people and, in my opinion, that can only be a good thing xxxxx
I honestly can't say I know what you're going through, but I hope from the bottom of my heart that you feel better soon
You’re very brave for posting this. I am so proud of you.
i have had this experience that i call “trauma” but i always feel like shit because i think it isn’t like, “extreme enough” like it’s not worth being called trauma but when i think about it it just fucks me up, i feel just sick when i just think about what i haven’t blocked out or repressed, i won’t go into detail but to this day it still makes me scared to walk home from school . (sorry this comment seems stupid but i have NEVER said anything about it and i felt like just expressing it somewhere where nobody that i know can see it)
i relate to this a lot. my trauma was and still is ongoing, and i feel a lot of what you do. thank you so much for posting this, it helped me feel like i'm not alone.
Me too, I felt your pain and also experienced trauma as well.
I hope you get better soon and I understand what you are going through not completely because I have different trauma but feel better soon owo
I believe we have a similar trauma and I completely understand the guilt and shame
you know.... ive realised something. if i turn all my pain, into pure unrelentless rage, i am filled with so much energy i feel like im the one in power. and im the one who can defeat the threat.
but.. sometimes im scared i can hurt someone really bad, and i myself become the bad person.
thank you so much for making these videos. i feel like i have finally found a person who i can understand. even if were complete strangers. i feel so much guilt and shame for talking too. but if i dont talk, ill scream and yell. so.. im not sure but i think its better if i do something about the problem, instead of denial and rage.
but sometimes i forget all this. im a different person. i feel so twisted and disgusting. because there are people who are not me here. i feel like i live in two worlds. its hard to translate that.
Hey ash, i know this video is a bit old, but I kind of wanted to comment. Since I first watched this video some stuff has changed. I personally experienced trauma that left me with an anxiety disorder, flashbacks and severe trust issues. I hope you are doing ok, I wish I had a therapist I could talk to about my trauma, and don’t feel bad if you feel you are making slow progress, because you are not, you are making YOUR progress, and that is so cool! I have only just come to terms with the fact I experienced trauma, and you are awesome for even TRYING to work through it!
From my experience, I know that I am who I am because of my trauma. Of course I know it does shape a part of me. I am not necessarily religious, but I do believe in Jesus. I'm considered a Christian. I learned AND REMEMBERED to take the small things and do them. And over time, you will have accomplished a lot. Don't make excuses (not saying that you are), do your best, and don't assume people are out to get you or anything. Those three things helped me in life, as I have had a panic attack so bad yesterday, I needed to go to the ER. I was SO overloaded with thoughts that I couldn't move too well, and I started having involuntary convulsions. I believe these to be seizures, but I'm not so sure. I am close to getting my insurance covered so that I can face my fears. It's not going to be easy. Nobody ever said it WOULD be. LOL. Something that I know that will help me is to Let go, and Let God. Of course it may not work for you, but it definitely helps me. I have no doubts at all... well maybe a little bit, but I have faith that it works. You need to set your fears aside and focus on life day by day... and face your fears. Yes, I know it's scary. Yes, it may take a lifetime. But that's kind of the point, life can be easy and short as long as you are happy, or it can be long and miserable... It can also be long and happy. The choice is entirely up to you. I believe in you too. Feel free to comment me or email me if you are ever having trouble. Take Care.
Checking back in on this. How did your therapy last summer go?
I have PTSD from bullying the sad thind is the person that really effected it all still gose to my school i see him in the halks and i loose my breath because i feel like im re living it all when i see him
Its so easy to say 'ill get over it' but actually doing it is so difficult, ive never experienced trauma but i know people who have and it happened such a long time ago but it still really affects them.
Ashton your so brave and we all really support you, your such an amazing person. One day in the future you will be able to overcome what happened, when you do and until you do well all be here to support. We all love you 💕
I respect you for being able to finally open up to us even if its not completely, its improvement and I think this topic shouls be more widely spoken about and I hope you know this will help others to open up about their experiences.
Thank you for telling us about this. I know that it is very difficult to open up about these things, especially this, and you're doing it.
You're great.
Ps: I hate crying as well. It makes you're face feel all weird
I can really relate to this I love you Ashton, we’re always here for you❤️❤️❤️
im so proud of you for opening yourself up and being vulnerable like this. i have a lot of trauma too, so i understand how hard it can be. it feels like this part of you that you have to bottle up and hide away and make sure no one ever finds. my parents (mostly my mom) have been verbally and emotionally abusive towards me for as long as i can remember. im 19 years old and still live with them both out of necessity and... sympathy i guess? my mom is physically disabled so i feel like i need to help her. and i feel guilty for thinking that shes abusive cuz shes not always mean and i feel like im being ungreatful. i have self dx’d myself with c-ptsd. i cant get professionally diagnosed rn bc the therapist i was going to was biased towards my mom bc she knew her and my mom sat in on almost every session. i know since im a legal adult i have the right to not allow her in there, but she payed for my therapy and am too scared of what might happen if i say no to her, because of this i stopped getting therapy bc what was the point if i couldnt talk about the real problem? so im glad that it sounds like you have a good counselor and are able to go through therapy for ur trauma. i know it will be hard to go through with it, so i wish you all the best. we all have ur back 💛
therapy can do amazing things, with professional help you will overcome this in your own pace
Thank you for posting this. It's good to know that there are people who I can stand with in solidarity. ❤
I so get this. Im diagnosed with PTSD and its so horrible trying to explain what happened or to think about it.
Ashton I'm beyond proud of you and I hope your ok and you can talk everything out at your therapist meeting stay strong I'm here for you gotta admit I was crying to during this video I need tissues :-)
One of my very close friends went through some trauma and I'm struggling to support them and I want to be able to to make their life easier and to be a good friend but I don't know how to go about supporting them, do you have any specific things that help you that your boyfriend or friends do to help support you?
Ashton, I appreciate what you talk about and I wish I could give you hug. I know this is hard for you, and you are okay to talk about it all you want, and if you do or don't want to that Decision is for you. The brain is interesting in how it works. Trauma changes the brain like anything else, it reworks the brain nobody's brain will be the same, and that's completely ok.
(I'm really sorry if this doesn't sound right I'm really tired as i got home from school a bit ago and I don't feel well)
We love you everything will get better
You're doing the right thing!
i hope your therapy helps you. and i wish you the best in all your en-devours.
#WeTransAreTheBest we are with you!
Ashton I love you. And I really relate to a lot you where saying in this video....❤️❤️ you’re not alone.
Thank you.
Hugs xxx you're a lovely guy....sendinging you love xx
I can relate to this and I still can’t talk about my traumas to close people let alone on RUclips. I was diagnosed with PTSD recently among other things.
I’m here for u boyo💞
I appreciate you❤
Thank you Aston you are so strong and brave for talking about this! thank you i relate to everything in this video and you deserve recovery
Don't cry please don't cry
I love your voice 😍 I could fall asleep to you reading a book
Any update on this? How did the summer sessions go?
Hiii
❤️❤️❤️❤️
You're still you
I just love trauma. It's great. The best.
nya~
Do your parents know about it?
Can you reply hi
hello!
You should be in a relationship Ash no matter what jack will help you as much as possible get you to a place where you’re better off being in I think and he loves you 💗 so much Ashton and I know I like you a lot and I repeat things all the time too...upset or sad or whatever or not but I know someone who is also transgender and his anxiety is so that he is silly almost all the time to relieve the all of the social anxiety & tension he has and to calm his severe social anxiety down but I was like 😢 I am not going to hurt you, you do not have to worry about me taking advantage of you and you don’t have to be that way in front of me & I am not going to do anything inappropriate to you and trust me he was like awwwww ok! 👌 and I also added to top that off...if you are always silly and I am genuinely upset(not entirely mind you trying to make this all about me however)...what if I was upset and if you were always acting silly then it is very hard to come out as upset with the other person acting so silly he was like ok 👍🏻 so now when I am upset & he sees it taking place he will come & discuss what made me upset in a very calm and compassionate manner and it feels way better he has seen me upset and he cried & I have calmed him down also people go through a whole lot being lgbt 🏳️🌈 etc. and it isn’t always an easy thing to handle 🥺 but telling people how you are feeling is way better than holding it in Ashton and you definitely deserve Jack and you deserve to be with him and you have the right to openly share your feelings freely without feeling like you are going to be judged and criticized you are loved and yes you are allowed to cry 😢 in your videos or be overjoyed & share where ever your emotions lead you even if you start the video with a feeling of a very positive outlook/outcome and then you are like uh oh 😧 and have a scary outlook or upsetting flashbacks that shouldn’t be cut or edited out of these videos they are your life and the reality that whatever you say no bodies life is perfect and everyone should respect that because nobodies life if is always 100% perfect!💖
...for example there was a video where you were talking about something and you mentioned build a wall then you mentioned that you had flashbacks to the election so you froze and then went on talking about whatever the subject was you are allowed to share any feelings you have about anything you are feeling 🙂 at the moment and your feelings at the moment should not be dismissed by others.
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If this is such a big problem for you, I don't think it's fair for your boyfriend to have to deal with all of your issues. Clearly they must be affecting your relationship somehow, and it isn't right for you to hold him back from finding a normal non-ill person to be with. It is really quite selfish in fact.
Can you just like... fuck off
Let's be honest, this person is right. Yeah, maybe that's not the best way of saying it but its something that needs to be said
Why, if you don't like it don't watch it. Also, I don't think they would have been together for 2 years if Jack didn't want to help him deal with it or if it was making it a bad relationship. Ashton, I think your awesome, keep going!
Harriet Grainger Music maybe they do love each other like a lot, but as a person who has been through some rough stuff i can tell you that eventually you just rely in your partner and that makes everything harder for both parts. So yeah, maybe that won't happen to them, maybe jack is holding himself back for ash or maybe ash is holding jack back, we'll never know and we shouldn't.
You should be more careful about the things you say on here. What you are saying here is not helpful at all, it is very easy for mentally ill people to feel isolated and undeserving of other people. That can lead to suicide, try to be aware of this...
nice clickbait title... that was a waste of time. At least say what the trains is from
lastbreathsigh he literally talks about his trauma so stfu
Taylor Klauk he literally doesn't,it's just 15 minutes of being depressing with no reasons given
lastbreathsigh i mean you re not forced to watch, maybe just shut the fuck up he s talking abt how he s feeling and how trauma affects him
lastbreathsigh then don’t watch. He has no reason to talk about his life for you. As a real life pal of Ashton this affects him daily and he doesn’t have to tell you what happened if he doesn’t want to. Also this is his channel so he can talk about whatever the fuck he wants to. He can be depressing for 15 minutes if he wants to, he can be manic for 15 minutes, this is his channel and he doesn’t have to cater it towards you for your entertainment of his trauma.
Seriously mate? Hes not obligated to go in to detale, he dosnt owe you a story.