Jacob, stay strong I know you can beat everything if you set your mind to it! You're the strongest person that I know of. Love you, your dear friend, Blueice
If you like Interstellar then you would love Enter the Void, Triangle, Coherence and Primer. And you're like me, very introverted, I'm not a big fan of socializing either, I can only talk to people who are on a similar wave length as me..
The early bullying and being isolated in a room for 4+ years during your socially formative years is going to have 'some' adverse effect. But it has definitely made you strong.
I know people often promote things on the internet, but I'm being extremely genuine. Wherever you live there should be a peace organization called Soka Gakkai international. They're truly a great support of kind people who will only show compassion and can help in anyway
Your voice is sooo calming! If you do a podcast, make sure you can still monetize it so you're getting at least something, and RUclips is probably the best way to monetize.
I want to watch that movie! Good luck with SSI, I have it now and its a pain to get but helps a ton. For me I just brought a box of paper work from docs and such. I have dystonia from my meds...its like the Parkinson's symtoms but benadryl is what I take for it. I started Thorazine and love it compared to Saphris and all the others. My dx's are sczoaffective, ect ect. Your videos help a lot.
When I started with my medication I was probably sleeping about 14 hours per day. I'm with Duloxetin, I have depression and anxiety, I'm on therapy now, I don't suffer from esquizofrenia, but I feel kinda related with your symptoms, one step at time :) congrats (I'm sorry for my English) love Rick and Morty too :3
Hey brother my name is Nobu. You really inspire me and I know something that helps me. Say Nam myoho renge kyo when your bored or just doing nothing, it's the sound of the universe and it really helps. Repeat Nam myoho renge kyo for a minute or however long u want to bro. And think of things you want to be happy
I have depresion and maybe many more things,Long ago i tried med, but it failed,now when I wake up I almost do not remember anything and just start all new as bor again every day,it is horrible
So would you only recommend seroquel for really "hard" cases only? It seems kinda hard the sideeffects you're getting. Im taking quetiapin at the moment, which is basically the same?And trying to figure out the right dosage for me. I got diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder, but im not getting any hallucinations or anything like that. And im kinda afraid to keep taking them.
I've had different experiences with psychitrists, I usually don't like the pill pusher ones, because the stuff they put people on has different effects on people, some of them preach sobriety, but there they are pushing pills on everyone so they can make their money. I actually have an allergy to scheduled medications and my doctors told me with my body, you don't want me on that stuff because it locks up my jaw, and on top of it I become more depressed, and anxious, it even makes me want to go out and drink, not good, so I can see were people don't trust them, oddly enough though I've met a few that actually inspired me to study criminal law and psychology, for some reason it helped get my mind on track, it keeps me in a routine, I don't know what I want to do yet, but I do know that having an education helps me act more responsible for some reason, I have my crazy moments I've been in hospitals too, but usually if I try to avoid getting drunk, I'm pretty normal compared to some people I've met.
What about live commenting a movie you watch while your audience can stream along. As already recommended in a comment, Primer would be an interesting candidate. It is a wonderfully obscure movie. As a biopic My Left Foot might be interesting (for watching, less for commenting).
Sorry to hear about your Parkinsonism (?). If that is what you have. I had to get a good neurologist to work with my Psych to identify rx to transition into that reduced tremors. Still have tremors, but I can feed myself! Have you ever been to a neurologist?
I can't get my boyfriend/ex to take his medicine, which is seroquel. He has severe psychotic episodes that became dangerous towards me. Is there any way or anything I can do or say to get him motivated or understand he needs to take it and see a therapist. He hears awful stuff thinking it's me and it just got worst and worst. Breaks my heart cause we planned to get married and I had to leave. I want to be back w/him, but due to his physical actions I can't 'til he takes his medicine and he just won't. I am broken and ask for any advice
Im so scared of schizophrenia that I always thinking that I have that illness It started all with smoking weed had a badtrip everything felt unreal and shit but everything is good now but do you think that I can get schizophrenia because of being scared of it?
Its likely severe anxiety, weed can trigger it but its not permanent. The more you keep checking up on that feeling the longer it will take to go away, just chill and it will leave itself. Anxiety feeds on worrying thoughts.
Im surpised that "A Beautiful Mind," is not your favorite movie. The fact that you can decipher whats real and whats not lets me know your quite intelligent.
What happened to your girlfriend; is she not your girlfriend anymore? Good video, by the way, thanks for sharing your life experiences with us. Most of us are mentally sick as well and only got you for advice. Thank you.
I am new to your channel and haven't watched many of your videos, so please forgive me if my initial assumptions about you or this community are wrong. I do like your vibe and what you are doing, so as a fellow "crazy" person, I will pitch my two cents... John Nash, Albert Einstein, Wolfgang Mozart, any genius in general. They all view the world in a unique way that "normal" people don't comprehend. Try and differentiate between "genius" and managed "insanity". Your brain is wired differently from what society wants it to be. Do you ever feel smarter than your psychiatrist? Maybe wayyyyyyyy smarter? Do you ever feel dumber after taking the medication they seem to force you to take? Not to mention those lovely side effects! The psychiatric system has diagnosed you with an "illness" and has convinced you that you are "broken". It is trying to force you back into their box. Perhaps it is society that is insane and people like you who are sane. Don't force yourself (or let them force you) into a paradigm that you are not wired to match. Create your own paradigm. You seem to have embraced the scientific method based on your shirt. Be a true scientist and explore the other side of the coin western science disregards. In my experience, the truth is between the poles. Avoid extremes in whatever form they manifest. There is a vast swath of existence that our traditional senses leave out. It is estimated that 96% (Google it) of the universe is unknown to modern science. Just look at the electromagnetic spectrum and the tiny piece of it considered "visible light". Our perception is not only limited by what we can see. There is infrasound and ultrasound, dark matter and dark energy, as well as many other dimensions and planes of existence described in ancient texts since the dawn of recorded human history. Similar concepts are also described by string theorists, quantum physicists and other leading edge scientists over the last century and up to today. Check out "The Kybalion" by Three Initiates if you haven't already. I personally read the "Ramayana" and "Mahabharata" back to back right after. I've also looked into the lives and experiences of Ben Franklin, Albert Einstein, Krishna, the Buddha, Socrates, Mozart, Steve Jobs and many other geniuses from both modern and ancient times. There are fascinating correlations between what they've experienced and the "symptoms" of mental "Illness". The psychiatric medication system tries to convince you that you are broken and calm the ocean of your brain with chemicals to force you back into being "normal". Instead, learn to surf and see where the waves take you. Medication is an easy bandaid solution, but true mastery of your mind is a long, tough and often trippy journey that is fully worth the effort. However, medication may help you focus at the beginning of your path, much like how LSD can help a "normal" person "wake up". It helped me. I am off it now and have been off it for a while. However, as I was titrating off, I established a meditation based spiritual practice (to focus my formerly disorganised mind), healthy diet (including some meat) and plenty of physical excercise. The main obstacle is staying grounded to this reality. I am by no means perfect myself, but with dedication, meditation and spiritual discipline, I have become a decent mental surfer/alchemist. Sure I still get swamped now and again, but I get back up on my board and catch the next wave. Life is not supposed to be routine and "normal". It is a wavy colourful tapestry comprised of endless spectrums of experience. Don't try to be "normal". BE YOU.
You said in your video that you don't like talking about yourself, to for example a psychiatrist, because you think it's boring. Could it also have to do with paranoia? That you don't like it if people around you (in daily life, not YT) know too much about you? By the way, I didn't think you were rambling ;)
Hey honestly if you clicked with that psychiatrist you should go back. Yeah I can relate that it can be really weird, but as a whole it has to be doing more good than bad.
When i came to this video,it had 212 likes and 0 dislikes,it made me jealous and i changed the score to 212-1,feeling great now,Didn't care for the guy though.
I loved to watch your videos so much, but now, your new format is really bothering me. The matter is, that your sound is not synchronous to your lips, and that makes it totally unwatchable to me. Please, fix it, because I really want to start watching your uploads again.
Jacob, stay strong I know you can beat everything if you set your mind to it! You're the strongest person that I know of. Love you, your dear friend, Blueice
Dyhna Venne negative bitch
You should do ASMR videos where you talk about things. You have the perfect setup for it, both microphone and voice. Calming dim lights too.
Yeah I fell asleep listening to his voice
Rick and morty is the shit haha, love the videos man! Keep it up
If you like Interstellar then you would love Enter the Void, Triangle, Coherence and Primer. And you're like me, very introverted, I'm not a big fan of socializing either, I can only talk to people who are on a similar wave length as me..
Your videos are so calming. You have a beautiful voice..
I hope you have/had a decent day 🐏
Callum Yeboi And I hope you have a magnificent day.
ayy hope you have a good day too spike
What a beautiful human.
The early bullying and being isolated in a room for 4+ years during your socially formative years is going to have 'some' adverse effect. But it has definitely made you strong.
Hey ♡ I love hearing you talk and I hope your day is nice :)
I know people often promote things on the internet, but I'm being extremely genuine. Wherever you live there should be a peace organization called Soka Gakkai international. They're truly a great support of kind people who will only show compassion and can help in anyway
FUCK YEA INTERSTELLAR. Nice to see your videos again.
Your voice is sooo calming! If you do a podcast, make sure you can still monetize it so you're getting at least something, and RUclips is probably the best way to monetize.
I want to watch that movie!
Good luck with SSI, I have it now and its a pain to get but helps a ton. For me I just brought a box of paper work from docs and such. I have dystonia from my meds...its like the Parkinson's symtoms but benadryl is what I take for it.
I started Thorazine and love it compared to Saphris and all the others.
My dx's are sczoaffective, ect ect.
Your videos help a lot.
When I started with my medication I was probably sleeping about 14 hours per day. I'm with Duloxetin, I have depression and anxiety, I'm on therapy now, I don't suffer from esquizofrenia, but I feel kinda related with your symptoms, one step at time :) congrats (I'm sorry for my English) love Rick and Morty too :3
I really enjoy watching your videos :).a big hug from Portugal ;)
I love you, and your voice is soothing. WE LOVE YOU.
I watched one of your streams for the first time the other day and I enjoyed it. You should definitely keep it up :-)
Hey brother my name is Nobu. You really inspire me and I know something that helps me. Say Nam myoho renge kyo when your bored or just doing nothing, it's the sound of the universe and it really helps. Repeat Nam myoho renge kyo for a minute or however long u want to bro. And think of things you want to be happy
Jacob has 8 shirts now! Yay!
i missed u
I love your videos Jacob they’re really interesting 😊💜❤️
You are such a beautiful boy glad you are doing better !
I love The Theory of Everything!! Such a good movie
I have hallutinations in the Dark
Hey!! You're so cute and Ive been absolutely melting bingeing your videos about something I can relate to so well & I hope you feel alright!
I have depresion and maybe many more things,Long ago i tried med, but it failed,now when I wake up I almost do not remember anything and just start all new as bor again every day,it is horrible
So would you only recommend seroquel for really "hard" cases only? It seems kinda hard the sideeffects you're getting. Im taking quetiapin at the moment, which is basically the same?And trying to figure out the right dosage for me. I got diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder, but im not getting any hallucinations or anything like that. And im kinda afraid to keep taking them.
they're the same just different brand names.
Hahaha I love the quote of your shirt ! :D
Yeah, isn't it awesome? Fits him so well!
I've had different experiences with psychitrists, I usually don't like the pill pusher ones, because the stuff they put people on has different effects on people, some of them preach sobriety, but there they are pushing pills on everyone so they can make their money. I actually have an allergy to scheduled medications and my doctors told me with my body, you don't want me on that stuff because it locks up my jaw, and on top of it I become more depressed, and anxious, it even makes me want to go out and drink, not good, so I can see were people don't trust them, oddly enough though I've met a few that actually inspired me to study criminal law and psychology, for some reason it helped get my mind on track, it keeps me in a routine, I don't know what I want to do yet, but I do know that having an education helps me act more responsible for some reason, I have my crazy moments I've been in hospitals too, but usually if I try to avoid getting drunk, I'm pretty normal compared to some people I've met.
Hey man! Just discovered your channel and you know what? You gotta make a livestream. You just have to! Watching you from Russia.
What about live commenting a movie you watch while your audience can stream along. As already recommended in a comment, Primer would be an interesting candidate. It is a wonderfully obscure movie. As a biopic My Left Foot might be interesting (for watching, less for commenting).
Sorry to hear about your Parkinsonism (?). If that is what you have. I had to get a good neurologist to work with my Psych to identify rx to transition into that reduced tremors. Still have tremors, but I can feed myself! Have you ever been to a neurologist?
I can't get my boyfriend/ex to take his medicine, which is seroquel. He has severe psychotic episodes that became dangerous towards me. Is there any way or anything I can do or say to get him motivated or understand he needs to take it and see a therapist. He hears awful stuff thinking it's me and it just got worst and worst. Breaks my heart cause we planned to get married and I had to leave. I want to be back w/him, but due to his physical actions I can't 'til he takes his medicine and he just won't. I am broken and ask for any advice
you would like 'The Imitation Game'
Im so scared of schizophrenia that I always thinking that I have that illness
It started all with smoking weed had a badtrip everything felt unreal and shit but everything is good now but do you think that I can get schizophrenia because of being scared of it?
Josephkoehler Jk no
Its likely severe anxiety, weed can trigger it but its not permanent. The more you keep checking up on that feeling the longer it will take to go away, just chill and it will leave itself.
Anxiety feeds on worrying thoughts.
Sparkksy thanks
Im surpised that "A Beautiful Mind," is not your favorite movie. The fact that you can decipher whats real and whats not lets me know your quite intelligent.
Can you make a video of positive or enjoyable hallusinations and delusions if any.
Interstellar is my favorite movie too!!
My brother plays the shit out of factario. tempted to play but then I'd literally do nothing else
Rick & Morty!!!
Please make more videos
You need to get caught up Game of Thrones is awesome!! 😂😂😂
What happened to your girlfriend; is she not your girlfriend anymore? Good video, by the way, thanks for sharing your life experiences with us. Most of us are mentally sick as well and only got you for advice. Thank you.
jacob - im almost positive u wl get ur SSDI.:)
Have you ever thought about getting.into lifting ?
It will definitely help you with your parkinson symptoms.
Sub'd
I am new to your channel and haven't watched many of your videos, so please forgive me if my initial assumptions about you or this community are wrong. I do like your vibe and what you are doing, so as a fellow "crazy" person, I will pitch my two cents...
John Nash, Albert Einstein, Wolfgang Mozart, any genius in general. They all view the world in a unique way that "normal" people don't comprehend. Try and differentiate between "genius" and managed "insanity". Your brain is wired differently from what society wants it to be. Do you ever feel smarter than your psychiatrist? Maybe wayyyyyyyy smarter? Do you ever feel dumber after taking the medication they seem to force you to take? Not to mention those lovely side effects!
The psychiatric system has diagnosed you with an "illness" and has convinced you that you are "broken". It is trying to force you back into their box. Perhaps it is society that is insane and people like you who are sane. Don't force yourself (or let them force you) into a paradigm that you are not wired to match. Create your own paradigm. You seem to have embraced the scientific method based on your shirt. Be a true scientist and explore the other side of the coin western science disregards. In my experience, the truth is between the poles. Avoid extremes in whatever form they manifest.
There is a vast swath of existence that our traditional senses leave out. It is estimated that 96% (Google it) of the universe is unknown to modern science. Just look at the electromagnetic spectrum and the tiny piece of it considered "visible light". Our perception is not only limited by what we can see. There is infrasound and ultrasound, dark matter and dark energy, as well as many other dimensions and planes of existence described in ancient texts since the dawn of recorded human history. Similar concepts are also described by string theorists, quantum physicists and other leading edge scientists over the last century and up to today.
Check out "The Kybalion" by Three Initiates if you haven't already. I personally read the "Ramayana" and "Mahabharata" back to back right after. I've also looked into the lives and experiences of Ben Franklin, Albert Einstein, Krishna, the Buddha, Socrates, Mozart, Steve Jobs and many other geniuses from both modern and ancient times. There are fascinating correlations between what they've experienced and the "symptoms" of mental "Illness". The psychiatric medication system tries to convince you that you are broken and calm the ocean of your brain with chemicals to force you back into being "normal". Instead, learn to surf and see where the waves take you. Medication is an easy bandaid solution, but true mastery of your mind is a long, tough and often trippy journey that is fully worth the effort.
However, medication may help you focus at the beginning of your path, much like how LSD can help a "normal" person "wake up". It helped me. I am off it now and have been off it for a while. However, as I was titrating off, I established a meditation based spiritual practice (to focus my formerly disorganised mind), healthy diet (including some meat) and plenty of physical excercise. The main obstacle is staying grounded to this reality. I am by no means perfect myself, but with dedication, meditation and spiritual discipline, I have become a decent mental surfer/alchemist. Sure I still get swamped now and again, but I get back up on my board and catch the next wave. Life is not supposed to be routine and "normal". It is a wavy colourful tapestry comprised of endless spectrums of experience. Don't try to be "normal". BE YOU.
I watch Rick & Morty too. 😗✌💞
Your voice reminds me a little of Jared Leto's.
❤️ love you
Question,do you watch anime? 😊
You should do ASMR videos
Your speech has speed up.
i would just like to say hi. you're my new crush btw
You said in your video that you don't like talking about yourself, to for example a psychiatrist, because you think it's boring. Could it also have to do with paranoia? That you don't like it if people around you (in daily life, not YT) know too much about you? By the way, I didn't think you were rambling ;)
Hey honestly if you clicked with that psychiatrist you should go back. Yeah I can relate that it can be really weird, but as a whole it has to be doing more good than bad.
When i came to this video,it had 212 likes and 0 dislikes,it made me jealous and i changed the score to 212-1,feeling great now,Didn't care for the guy though.
I loved to watch your videos so much, but now, your new format is really bothering me. The matter is, that your sound is not synchronous to your lips, and that makes it totally unwatchable to me. Please, fix it, because I really want to start watching your uploads again.