Late Night ASMR 2 - Suicidal Thoughts & Depression
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- Опубликовано: 11 сен 2024
- I hope you are doing well. Welcome to another, somewhat impromptu, Late Night ASMR video dedicated to those who are dealing with suicidal thoughts and depression. I ramble about a few things both related and unrelated to these video topics, while sharing some of my own personal experiences and advice on how I survived coping with these issues.
Always seek the help of a professional if you feel the thoughts or urges are too strong.
Remember: You're not alone. Keep battling. It can get better. And in time, you can heal and reach a better place on your own path in life.
All my best,
Paul
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What is ASMR?
ASMR stands for Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response and is the current (non-scientific) name given to the feeling characterized as a pleasurable tingling sensation felt in the head, scalp, back and other regions of the body in response to visual, auditory, tactile, olfactory, and/or cognitive stimuli, such as crinkling bags, hand movements, whispering and personal attention.
ASMR videos are not only meant to help induce ASMR or "tingles", but also help provide a relaxing, calming and soothing experience for the viewer while helping to relieve their anxiety, stress, insomnia, help those suffering with PTSD or depression, to serve as a study aid and more.
I remember hearing in another video a quote that has stuck with me for a while: "The very fact that you are watching this video means that some part of you, no matter how small, wants you to live. That part wants you to feel better, figure out what's wrong with you, and to live. Listen to that part."
Billy Russom thank you
This made me cry
My best friend told me something very similar when I told her how much I was tired of life
Think that's from mamamax
this comment. like just this. has helped me.
he was fully prepared to murder someone 74 different ways what
He had no Tarp.
True
Of course, he has up to 300 confirmed kills
graduated top of his class in the navy seals too
He had Margaret to help bury the body
Man resists eating last half of kitkat 1 hour
Sleight of Hand check (rolls nat 20) Sticks kitKat in sandwich
I have a secret. He gave it to me, sorry to burst your BuBbLe
Minute 30: every object starts vibrating and levitating around him as the kit Kat becomes more tempting and starts floating tword him
MaskedMan24 I see what you were going for
But it was poorly executed
@@Silkie_Dragon lies. Because he gave it to ME.
i haven’t eaten in 4 days. i’ve fought my parents about eating. for some reason i felt like i don’t deserve food. i have been disgusted by the thought of all food. during this video i had a sudden craving and got up and made myself a peanut butter and banana sandwich. thank you. i didn’t realize i was so hungry❤
Why you not eating bruv
@@ICEBLUNTS the person literally said why
Same I haven’t eaten in days
@@someoneunknown9717 i know how hard it can be. i promise you’re not guilty for eating. you body works so hard for you. i know i’m not one to talk but i promise from experience, it’s so much better to feed ur body. let’s hang out and we can eat peanut butter and banana sandwiches together ♥️
@@woopeoopepoopydoopyshoopy8537 thank you so much i just don’t even feel like eating and yes peanut butter banana sandwiches for the win.
POV sneaking into your therapists house at 2am for the 3rd time in a row
POV: you are a depressive sleep paralysis demon getting a snack after a mental breakdown
seems reasonable
Like 1333
I love the plausibility of your POV
PLZ WHAT
“you want one? no? okay”
me, literally sobbing: “i do, i do want a peanut butter banana sandwich”
omfg i’m dying from this 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Do you have insta, Taylor?
You too ?
I.. il take it.. no? O..ok then
@@milan5491 why would you wanna know that? Lmao
@@kidbasic2330 12 minutes ago. Shit, we are both in a state of limbo right now
I know I'm three years late commenting but this video pulled me out of a mental breakdown tonight. Thank you so much for doing this for all of us who struggle, it means so much.
This did the same for me I was close to the edge tonight thank you ER
Same
already had mine my mom do be abusive doe
@@CT-1255 same bro, same
No one cares people
even after 7 years this video still hits hard
love you @Ephmereal Rift
@@BloodyNose-Bleedr I’m sure he loves you too
Lol thanks man
ik this is unrelated, but whos the character in your pfp? i recognise them
@comfortfroggo6225 it's an old pfp but it's Izumi miyamura from hori-San to miyamura-kun
Almost 3 years later and my go-to video when I’m depressed. You’re the best with your dry humor and sounds. Very soothing and comforting
Big W for you bro 💪🏻🙏
P0ppppp
Teilo Turner wait really..?
Teilo Turner dont joke about that
80080800008u808800888u8080088890808080880888088888ui009u8u8u89uuuu89uu9uuuu8u8u8uu89uu8uuuuuuu8uu08uu8uu89uu8uu8uu8uu8uuu8uu88uuu8u8uuuu8uuu8u8u8uu9uuu0uuuu8uu8uu88uu9uu8uuuuu88u8u8uu80uuuuu8uuuuuu8uu8uu8uu888u8uuu89u888uuuu9uuu88u88u8u8uuuuuuuu8u8uu8u8uuuu9uuu0uu8u8u8u0u88uu888uuu8uuuu9u8u88uuuu8uuuu8uuu8uuu9uuu888uuuu8u8u8u8uu8u8u8u0uu8uu8uuuuuuuu8uu8uu8uu8uu0u8uuu8uu8u8uuu8uu8u888uu9898uuuuu8u8u8uu8u8u8u8u0u8uu9uuu8uu8uu988u8uuuuuu8uu9u88uu9u8uu88uuu9uuuu8uuu8u8uuu9uu8
I actually got up, went to a nearby store to get a kitkat, broke it in half and rewinded the video So i could be immersed in the kitkat sharing.
Yes I am a pretty sad person.
Omg 😂
That a whole feel
i walked to the kitchen to grab one, you’re not alone lmaooo
Thanks for the inspiration! It’s actually a good idea😂
I just pretended to eat a KitKat, same here bro...
Just chilling with uncle rifty at 3am being a couple of depressed boi's in the kitchen
yep just chillin with the pills behind my back
Ur at 666 likes and i don't wanna ruin it lmao
Maridian Comer Ur aT 666 LiKeE
Stfu
@@michaelkoppie8151 WTF man calm down
Michael Koppie fr bro just relax man letting shit get to your head like a jerk
"you seem kinda...kinda down"
Me sobbing into my blanket: oh no dude I'm good
literally
Relatable. And I thought phones made me more depressed. Not with people in them
this comment made me laugh i hope you’re doing better these days
@@StudMacher96people in them
@@growing.flowers pause
So THIS is what it feels like to have someone care about you... *mind blown*
Really no1 cares about you? Find that hard 2 believe
@Sad Kloud fuk ursef
@@robertparrinello1687 In this cruel world, it’s not hard to believe.
@@robertparrinello1687 K to the I to the L-L urself
@@robertparrinello1687 You really don’t know what depression is like some people don’t care about others and most depressed people feel alone. You will understand one day.
I love how he stands out from the rest of the YouTubing world. He’s unapologetically himself and he’s genuine. A lot of the topics he discusses really hits home and more than often fits my own situation. It’s a comforting feeling knowing that someone can relate to the same things that I too have felt.
When you hear a noise in the night.
"Who's there?! I have a belt, and I'm not afraid to hang myself!"
I miss frank so much
A dude has a gun on the night table if a person breaks in, not to protecc but to kill himself so he cant meet new people.
Please do, for the sake of humanity.
@oof organization i fucking know right.
😂😂😂
Today my biology teacher gave us an out-of-nowhere speech in the middle of a lesson about suicide. He told us how serious he was that if we had any thoughts or actions pertaining to self harm or suicide, we need to tell him. He said it urgently, like he could feel someone in the room was drowning. That person would've been me, but I don't think he picked up on that. Two years ago, a young man in the 11th grade committed suicide. It really impacted him. He really cared. I knew I'd never actually do it, I already have so many friends and family members who love me and depend on me. But you know... it's nice to know that someone who doesn't know me the best would care if I died, not because he would have lost a benefit or memories, but he just would've cared that a person he knew in the world would be gone.
Thanks, TLo.
(He's actually so cool he lets us call him that. His title is Mr. Lorenzen, but it feels so weird to call him that. He's too human for me to not call him the only thing I've called him for three years.)
Sounds like a great man
🩷🫂
What if the whole video was Rift saying "or this" and just pulling out random crap
I'd watch it Obama
I wish it was
That's what I thought it was gonna be
Best vid ever p
I would watch that lol
"i'm not gonna kill myself,i'm not gonna let this world win" made me cry.
i’m 4 years late, but you’re more of a dad to me than my actual dad.
i hope you’re doing well
I relate, never met my dad 😂😭
Well i mean, he is also actually a dad so it makes sense
i dont even have a dad
@@xiseyuu are you a n- never mind, i don't want to be mean.
In an hour and 15 minutes I felt like this man cared for me more than my dad has in all 16 years he’s known me.from the bottom of my heart,thank you
Edit:man,you guys are all so nice.made tear up
L😮L
From a stranger that You don't know a thing. I can hope for You to meet someone great that helps You through all that Bad things your dad has done :)
Same. And I'm 25
I hope you're doing well my friend.
Wish you all the best with your life. ❤
Shut yo ass femboy
I thought it was gonna be a whole 1 hour and 15 minute video of Rift saying "or this..."
I would pay money for that
That would have been great
Why is it that whenever you're sad, someone asking if everything is okay causes a break down. Even when rift asks across the internet
It's because you've bottled up your emotions so much and when you finally get a release it all comes out, especially with someone that cares.
It's because normally, people are scared to show their emotions and share their struggles with people, so everyone assumes everything is ok. When someone finally has a breakdown, people suddenly become concerned because they haven't seen you this way before. They don't know any better. It's hard for someone without depression to understand. That's why finding someone who you can trust and confide in is extremely important.
300th like
*me bawling*
Rift:you seem...down..
I only cry to music. I can't really cry otherwise unless I'm already crying. I think its because I've told myself not to cry because its considered as weakness even for a female. I'm not gonna share my story but one thing I can never let go is not seeking help or talking about it just because I was still in elementary. I lost most of my memories I only remember those that torment me or of those days. 7 years later I'm still not sure why I'm depressed but everytime I go back to seek answers it hurts me too much and cry. Last October I came close but I don't know why I didn't do it. This thing stole my adolescence and teenage years and now I have to face adulthood feeling the same way. I'm only here to try again once more and try to find a way out of this. And if I fail I'll try over and over I just don't know how much longer. I don't want anything I just want to be content and live in New England and have a good job, and help others, nothing else.
Rift has those skyrim pockets...
Most guys do
Hold up, gotta scroll through my hot bar for my shovel.
Riften
He have a whole Minecraft inventory
I remember watching this when it first came out and I was 17 years old. At the time I was contemplating suicide everyday. I can't tell you how much this video made me feel like I wasn't alone. Thank you for everything you do.
hope u are feeling better :)
I am you. 17 and contemplating an escape from this life
@@L4v4molly 19 and im still here after 6 years of suicidal thoughts. comes and goes, after some times i learned to understand when they were coming and how to get along with them. I'm not gonna say its gonna be alright but even tho u feel horrible rn and just want to end it all, time passes and those moments passes too. they'll come back but you're eventually gonna accept them and go on. Im slowly learning to live with myself and im not ready to cut my time yet, i know i will one day but thats me
@@elenapastorino5939 yeah. I guess it's just the ups and downs that I feel due to something.
Hey that’s me now lol. im so proud of you. stay strong we love you.
Rift, Paul, Corvus, thank you. As a 28 year old single dad who struggles with suicidal depression this helped me get out of a very dark place. For those of you who want to hate, Hell is real in our own aspects of reality.
Ray Smalley keep fighting brother❤️
You are loved
yes I also have suicidal depression but keep fighting for your life at least your life actually means something unlike mine
@@chaptermastervoridus5427 dont say that. Someone loves u
It's been 2 years since you commented this and we don't know each other but I really genuinely hope you are doing good, and if not I hope you will soon cause you deserve that no matter how much you think you don't
I stopped being sad when he said the 3rd “or this”
“Oh.... K I T K A T”
And then there's Margaret
two bros
talking suicide thoughts
in the kitchen
cause they’re depressed
And it is god damn beautiful
five feet apart cause they're not gay
@@forskinshredr now it’s five feet apart because they’re not gay AND SOCIAL DISTANCING
Two bro siting in a hot tub 5 feet apart cause there not gay
@@PunkyDPookie I thought it was six feet apart?
"Oh, it's you again" it's funny now after continuously finding myself coming back to this video for the past 7ish years. I know this video is definitely one of your older ones but it's just exactly what so many of us need, even still. Thank you, ER.
Rift the fact that you've come back and liked this comment has shown me that you're truly someone that cares
Your sense of humor is amazing.
You're a great actor.
You're the most in-touch-with-modern-culture middle-aged person I've ever seen.
Also, the longer your hair is, the younger you look.
*Pulls up a shovel*
Oh...
*pulls up rope*
um...
*pulls up a gasoline bucket*
_wAiT_
Your comment is brilliant, made me chuckle 👌 thank you for your lolz
@@ulfricironborn601 hey... psst... i know your secret and who you are... i hate them Imperial Milk Drinkers too ;)
Ah yes, things are starting to add up..
*gasoline* *bucket* sir that's what we call a "gas CAN"
Am I getting burned or buried be more consistent with your body disposal
*after the video*
Other half of kitkat: *chuckles* I'm in danger
yeah but
PRAISE THE SUN ☀️ \()/
The classic Simpson meme.
Aaah, it’s over, my sun is setting
i can’t believe I’ve only just found this video. this is truly beautiful. thank you for caring about us man. this video will be my new comfort video.
thank you, love you man.
Jesus Christ, Rift must have GTA pockets.
LOL
Or like the pockets that Link has in The Legend of Zelda
That part killed me, I couldn't stop laughing
With some games it's like "I CAN STICK 17 REFRIGERATORS IN MY POCKET BUT GOD FORBID I PUT A FISH IN A LETTER!"
Or Fallout 4 pockets, carrying around 300 pounds of junk
I was crying throughout the whole video. Idk why but the thought of someone talking to me so gently and just accepting that I'm sad made me cry my eyes off. Thankyou
im crying now, realizing that nobody understands how i feel... i cant take lifr anymore
@@ShelloJelloASMR really? Get a grip
@@robertparrinello1687 shut up
Nah
You've saved lives with this video, thank you.
Yeah. My life is one of those he saved
@@eljaejaewalters5232 Honestly really glad for you, whatever you are doing keep it up man!
fr
Mine too,The pressure of trying to please everyone simply because I'm a Mum is crippling me.
@@mutoidliz2320momma strength never loses
I'm 23, I was 17 when this video came out. I see alot of other people my age saying the exact same thing but i gotta say ephemeral rift is the best for this one
i feel like i know paul so well after all these years that if i saw him in public i'd totally forget he'd have no clue who i was and probably go in for a hug lmao
Shandra Haggerty he's probably Kesha you if you tried to hug him
He’d probably tingle you with his tingle blaster
@Autumn Stark Fast forward
Семён Тиссен loop
Becky I think you mean Jerry Seinfeld
Or these, or this, this, this that, this, some of these, those. Goddamn, that was a brilliant bit.
+Flynn McTaggart I love how he incorporates humor into his videos. He needs to do it more.
+chrisguy135 XD
:D
Amother one. Another one. Another one.
Man that comment was smart, and loyal.
“What brings you here?” Fairly large amounts of sad
Based pfp
@@IdkIdk-nt6iq, based
I have severe depression and a lot of the time it’s hard to feel anything aside from just like, *emptiness* , but Uncle E never fails me make me crack a smile.
Stick in there bud
Stick it out mane. You got this
God has a plan for you
it’s been a year,i hope your doing great..your such a brave and strong person,keep going! i believe in you :)
“You need to talk. It’s good to talk.” That hit deep for me - not because I need to talk about what’s hurting me, but because I did need to talk about it (and I eventually learnt to). And it just...hit close to home.
Do you have instagram?
for some reason i dont get tingles from this but i still watch it because you seem like a really cool guy and just listening to what you say is relaxing enough
Hey, Potato Head !
this is the tHIRD TIME I'VE SEEN YOU
+Jordan Roberts well, Papers please is quite a popular game so you might have seen a different person by this name. Glory to arstotzka
When I read this, I realized it was hilarious if read in "Bob" from Bobs Burgers voice
+Jorji Costava Don't make me call the guards!
what the actual fuck was that intro? I'm not complaining, I liked it
I got diagnosed with autism last year and I’m still finding it difficult to accept my reality. Struggling with really dark thoughts most days, thank you for your comforting words.
I’m in the same boat as you. Last year I was also diagnosed with autism. I am also still struggling. And here we both are watching this video. You’re not alone, friend. I hope we will both find solace and confidence in the future. I take comfort in knowing that the diagnosis helps me better understand my own thoughts and processing. And I want to remind you that autism doesn’t “rule” every part of our lives. We have so much more in common with the people around us than we have differences. And life with autism can be so hard sometimes. So know that I understand and sit with you in that place. Sending lots of warmth.
Same life's also been really difficult. I'm turning 17 next year and I'm still having trouble growing up. I've never done well in school and if I did it was because I was cheating and it's really got me worried for my future. I have no idea what I'm doing and the only thing I like to do is play video games. I keep telling myself I need to force myself to study and do well in school but I never get around to doing anything. I feel terrible for my family because they expect so much from me and think I'm doing great but really I'm doing nothing at all. I will most likely be homeless and alone.
I too am in the sad autistics gang
@@Gamedox20 Hi friend. I just want to say you’re seen and understood. Please do not worry about school. Some people are academic and will go on to academic jobs, and society will make you believe that they’re more important. They’re not more important. You can find fulfilment in life with a job that is just as important but not academic. I know it’s so tough because these jobs often don’t pay well, but life can be lived so wonderfully in this way. I encourage you to treasure the free things in life, as well as playing video games. Work hard and be kind to others in your own quiet way. Spend time outdoors without distraction. It can be really quite beautiful. Don’t worry friend.
@@Gamedox20 What kind of games do you play? I play “Roblox" a game developing platform that has it’s own software people can use to create 3D worlds, models, environments, animations and etc.. I mostly play it because of the quick and easy access to the multitude of communication and experiences it has!
uncle rift,
thank you so much. i've dealt with severe mental illness for my whole life, and i began having suicidal ideations when i was ten. i've been recovering, and things are quite a bit better now. tomorrow i'll be one month clean of self harm. had a rough day today and almost relapsed, but instead i sat down, put in headphones, and made a peanut butter banana sammich. this video feels like a weight coming off my shoulders. thank you so much for all of your videos and your kindness.
hope ur doing well! ♡♡
Hey i know im late but i hope your doing better :)
i hope you’re still doing well :)
*S A M M I C H*
You’re a warm person
I wish you well my friend
He is so creative and good at acting that I don’t know if this is a roleplay or he is talking about real shit
I think this started out as a video and turned into him just genuinely speaking as himself
Check in the description, he has experienced it in his real life.
Rift: "What brings ya here?"
Me: I was gonna rob ya of ya toasta
Dancing.Duggo_MP4, you are so funny...
I think that’s the most I’ve laughed at a RUclips comment
Aurelius Yeah thank you man this actually made me laugh when I’m actually kinda sad
I needed this comment, made my night. Thanks dude.
Gimme he dam toasta
My cousin committed suicide a while ago, and I just miss him so much. Thank you for being there to say all the things he couldn’t hear, so that other people don’t go through the pain of suicidal thoughts, or the grief and guilt of suicide deaths.
I'm really sorry to hear that loss. How have you been doing these days?
💛
Im so sorry for your loss
the second this vid ended he had the other half of that kitkat
legends say he ate it at 6:49
And the other half of that sandwich
The fact that over a year later I'm still coming here at night to watch this video either shows how amazing he is at his videos or how depressed I am. Idk.
Donovan Todd still?
@@manbug9368 don't know about this guy, but I do
Both? Because yeah me too
Or both
I know everyone takes the piss. But from one that actually suffers from depression, this is really nice to hear from a from a guy who actually cares and gives a shit. Cheers er.
I can relate. Most of the people like ER help better then a "professional"
@@jaytheartman610 Most professionals are only able to be called that because of a degree. It takes a whole different level to be able to actually help someone
It's been six years and he's still liking and responding to comments. That's dedication
Man, his wife must get some REALLY good roleplay
Jesus
*raises eyebrow*
+Thomas B. Howard stop imagining that Tom for your own health.
Thomas B. Howard *Raises both eyebrows*
+Cultureghost (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
"HONEY WHERE ARE THE GARDENING TOOLS?" "shh it's for the Internet"
mack lol😂
NO ONE HAS EVER SPLIT A KIT-KAT BAR WITH ME BEFORE I'M CRYING.
You deserve all of the other half of kitkats in the world
@colorful I know this is sounds mean at first and totally not trying to be and I know it’s kinda off topic but what your experiencing right now is called the Mandela effect. Kit Kat Dosent have a dash in the name unlike many people believe/“saw” it’s pretty cool look it up ❤️
(But most importantly hey go eat a god dang Kit Kat bar and I hope your doing better or at least I hope you have a wonderful day today, I wish you/anyone else the best)
@@Evathebrave you just made me go back in the video to check..
*HOW COULD YOU REVEAL THIS CRUEL TRUTH*
Fart
ill split one with you
Currently late. Midnight, should be resting but I can't. I'm depressed and today has been an exceptionally hard day. This made me genuinely laugh and smile for the first time in a while. I feel more relaxed and kind of want to make myself a peanut butter and banana sammich now, heheh. I needed this video and am grateful I clicked on it. Thank you, ER. I love your videos.
i lost it at the handcuffs
You know what I love with my peanut butter and banana sandwiches? A side of suicide talk.
Tasty.
Tathym McBride scrumptious!
"Peter Pan bein naughty!"
@@annabellamiller1594 FBI WHERES PETER PAN!
@@username172 HE'S IN THE KITCHEN GETTING SPREAD BY PAUL 😆
@@annabellamiller1594 as long as hes not kidnapping children thats fine
I really actually fucking love you rift. you've gotten me through the day. thank. you.
lonely valentine's?
+Fat scout no just an extensional crisis really 😕
Elham Ali kk
+Elham Ali Extensional crisis? Your peepee is flaccid? Oh, existential. Same thing.
This actually really helped my grandma literally died like 2 hours ago so I needed this
I'm sorry to hear that. I wish you the best.
I'm sorry for your loss 💜 she is watching over you always. Think and keep hold of those good memories you had with her. Time will make it easier to cope 💜 hugs
Hope u feel better
Sorry mans. I hope you're ok.
hope you're feeling better now
I know its weird for an ASMR artist but I think you need to take the funny moments from your videos and make a compilation.
Woah same name :0
+Preston Bugg Omg please do
+PrestonPotter Well this is cute
Update 2022: I'm incredibly better now, managed to turn my life around, and for the first time in years, life is smiling at me! I really appreciate all of you guys for the support ❤️
A little bit late to the party, but man I gotta say, your video helped me a lot. I'm only 19, the only one with a job in my house, I provide for my parents the rent, food, utilities and such. Before this quarantine here in Brazil I already was considering ending it all, I put all my data, passwords, bank balances and such in a spreadsheet, with instructions to what to do with my belongings and who to call for my own funeral.
Now, with all this going on, it's a struggle to get up, or even play some games.
Your video gave me that motivation, that was long gone in my life, to just keep fighting and don't end my own life.
I'm truly thankful to you man!
Hope you’re doing well mate, lockdown isn’t easy...
You’re a very thoughtful man. Even in the darkest of times, you wanted to remain organized and thought everything through. I hope you prosper, my dude
@@maxlove8894 hey mate hope you’re doing well! Understand it’s tough in Brazil atm, stay strong, people really do care.
@@jamesperrin5327 I do not live in Brazil but thanks for the comment
@@maxlove8894 sorry bro @‘d the wrong guy
"Is everything alright?"
*Me, standing in his kitchen at 2 AM butt naked, crying out of every hole in my body:* "yep"
This comment is making me feel thing I don’t wanna feel.
I have several questions
Relatable
Aight, on my way to smack you
this video just invoked a deep memory of my dad making me hot chocolate and toast in the small hours of the morning after i’d had a nightmare. thank u for this.
What a sweet memory.. ❤
When he gave me the chocolate I burst out into tears. No one has cared for me lately and this really hit me in the feels.
Me too
@@user-nz9oy8to4rhope ur doing better after 9 months
Hug to all my Rift friends, you are loved
Hi.... I was watching this and I cried. I was saying yes a lot. And I appreciate hearing that encouragement to talk. My family isn't the type to talk about stuff like this. My mom doesn't like to hear it... she told me it was hard for her and I wish desperately that I had someone who could listen and help me. I'm going through a stressful time that's really got me in a depressed state . It's a drowning feeling and I keep feeling like I should just
bluegirlv9 ask her to take you to therapy so you can talk about it or talk to close family members or friends
bluegirlv9 hey friend, I run a depression support chat on kik that's aimed to help anyone who needs it and give advice to hard situations. If you think you need help or need to talk about anything serious, it's sort of what I do. My kik is @arcane9 if you decide to join, feel free to message me
How you doing?
@@brendanhensler6871 Hensler hey, brendan, i hope you doing well. Many people who's writing some suicidal thought under this video don't writing back :(
Heaven's Gate member lots of people commit suicide everyday so wouldn’t be surprised if someone committed somewhere in this comment section
I actually had no idea your name was Paul. For some reason, I always thought it was James.
He looks more like a Paul.
How random
+Carl Luc Campbell You look like a Alfie.
Hi james
+Josef “Locksmith” Fritzl Why Fritzl? Do you even know who he is?
Ive been watching you for years and years now, honestly lost track.
In all those years, I have seen this video suggested countless times.. but I have never before clicked on it.
In 20 hours, its my 26th birthday. I have been out of a job for five years now. I have lost a ton of things once very important to me, and to be honest I had more or less given up.
But tonight, scrolling my feed this video made its way to me again, and for the first time I finally clicked it. Life has a weird way of bringing you what you need when you need it.
I know this video is over 8 years old, but thank you Rift. Thank you for keeping me company as I lay here in the dark, in this moment. Thank you for giving me hope again.
Happy early 26th birthday, Dont give up.
@@Omppuzzz Ill try my best not to, thank you.
This video has such a nice comforting vibe to it. Feels like if my dad actually knew how to talk to me but this is just nice idk man..
lmao same..
this lmao
@@yourekidding.2491 LMAO I didn't even know this comment was noticed at all. Idc abt comment likes but it's kind of funny. Hi
Did hE JUST PUT THAT WHOLE KIT KAT SECTION IN HIS MOUTH AT ONCE 😂
Savannah Howard what that mouth do
Mr. Chunky Peanut butter dgrrge
Savannah Howard do you have a small mouth or something? Only those with large mouths who can take a full half of a kit Kat bar in their mouths will survive the reckoning
Savannah Howard is there any other way to eat kit kats?
I didn’t know one could ‘eat a KitKat in portions’
I’m only 15 minutes in and I feel like I’m talking to the father I never had
Rekt
@@PeterGriffin0012 wat
@@amnutter5220 You rekt yourself with saying you never had a father
@@PeterGriffin0012 uh...ok lol. That’s not really a “rek” though. Life happens
I can be your fa... nvm
funny how I keep coming back here. I can’t thank you enough for making this video, it’s kept me grounded one too many times.
Life is beautiful. I hope you can get the help you might need and see it like that
@@SalemPhiladelphia thank you. I hope so too.
This is everything I wish my dad would say to me. This actually makes me feel so cared for.
I’m so sorry if anyone is hurting out in this RUclips comments void. It hurts so bad, but life will go on from that pain.
This actually helped me dissociate from my issues right now, and even calmed down my tics.
This is the dad I want to be.
I thought he was going to break the kit Kat the wrong way and I was here to get rid of anxiety and that gave me so much anxiety
HippyHoneyBees can you explain me why breaking a kit kat “the wrong way” gives you serious anxiety? Is this a joke or is it real? How could that give you anxiety? Just asking
Ed Sled probably bullshit
omg me too
It’s called OCD and yes, breaking a kit kat “the wrong way” can give people (severe) anxiety. I have OCD, I get it. While it would bother me a bit, it’s not one of the things that truly gets my OCD going.
HippyHoneyBees ikr he was about to piss me off
I hate how when i try to tell my friends how i feel, they just reply with "oof" or "same"🥲
It's pretty annoying when they say " oh I understand"
That's what happens when all your friends are npcs
What do you want them to say?
@@noodletongs2664It can totally put people on the spot when you talk about emotions when you typically dont, but it's best for friends to simply show genuine support at times like those. just being told that someone cares about you and wants to hear about it and empathize can realize and address your emotions in a way not possible by yourself. Not a professional because I'm a RUclips commenter, but that's my experience.
i can’t even tell them cause i think i annoy them and they can just feel uncomfortable:(
My word sir you do a very good job of putting a smile on someone’s face
I try my best! :D
@@EphemeralRift 6 years on and he is still going! I love this man
@@Daniel2687XB same tho
Barbra Streisand on vinyl... the ultimate weapon.
I know right? 5 minutes of her would kill me dead.
+AbbeyRoad52 I would also be killed dead until I died from death
I know what to use if someone breaks into my house.
+Fiona Hardie I have a gun, 2 combat knives, and a throwing knife ._.
+TheMrCoolness _ and no bad vinyls? You're hardly safe
i'm 29 and been struggling with suicidal thoughts and depression for a couple of years now. the last 2 days have been especially hard. this video was really helpful and inspirational. at least i feel a little better now. thank you ER
I'm here too, so can't help much. But i like experiencing life, and I'll never have enough time to experience all that i want.
So why would i cut my life even shorter?
I’m sorry you’ve been having an extremely rough time with life…you deserve to truly be happy & feel safe! Do you mind if I can ask, what’s been bringing you down? I understand if it’s too personal, I won’t cross boundaries.
However I hope you’re having a great day!
How do you keep on?
I personally just keep looking at the positives and doing what I love no matter what others think of it. No matter how weird or impossible it may seem, it’s still all I want to do for the rest of my life. And I always know whenever I want to, there’s an escape button to talk to family and friends
Dat beginning though, don't need this this this this this this this this this this this this or this, XD
The this this and this thing starts at 2:00 well the funny part of it
Arcticx369 f
Arcticx369 thanks for making me laugh 😂
I’m only 16 and I’m forgetting basic details about my life constantly. My therapist says it’s because I don’t care enough about the real world. She may be right. All I do is try to escape it. I can’t even have convos anymore because I’m forgetting how to speak. I feel like I’ll never be able to connect. I have panic attacks every time I even contemplate bringing down my walls. I’ll pretend that I didn’t even need to try here and you actually care, regardless. Thank you.
Hey, I read this and immediately flashed back to when I was your age 5 years ago. I went through the exact same thing, and to this day it comes and goes but one thing is for sure- it gets better. The fact you have a therapist in the first place is great, that’s the first step. There is a place for you and it may take time but you will get there, and there are always people who care. I do! Please know you are not alone, focus on self growth and improvement as much as you can to help distract yourself. I really do wish you the best and just know that your older self is looking on you now telling you it’s all going to be okay. That’s what I do with my 16 year old self.
I'm right there with you man, hang tight, we'll get through it together
Are you on an antidepressant? Lexapro gave me horrible short term memory. Or it could be depression brain fog. Hope things improve for you.
Man I wish he was my dad lol
He is your dad
+Potato Hey, Potato😌
I'm your dad
I wish I had a dad
+Jason Leonardo son
Mr Rift,i wanted to thank you for the effort you put in this video.Recently i have not been feeling mentaly stable and sadness as well as loneliness are overwhelming my life and the darkest of thoughts have gone through my mind.I really thank you for everything and to everyone,life is a battlefield, you have to cope with all the difficulties!Much love :)
+Ovimpendingdoom I hope things turn around for you sooner than later. Thanks for watching and take care of yourself! :)
I started laughing hysterically when he said "sammich" please help me
i come back to this video at every low point in my life, it eases me. it also reminds me that ive been at a worse point than currently.
HUGE thanks for not putting any ads! Real hero deserves respect!🔥🔥
Kyllä!!!
Depression is scary and confusing, like a dark dark dream. I’m really tired. 😭 Thanks for this... always there to cheer me up.
Couldnt imagine the number of people youve saved with this video. There is a special place in heaven for you, man.
Reading comments like yours i kinds feel a little more saved
You've helped so many people man, please listen to your own video and don't do it. Don't know what's coming on the 22nd but this just seems like career suicide so you don't have a reason to come back or to change your mind. It probably won't go away at all Paul but coming back is better than throwing everything away, you're an influence and a help to so many people around the world.
What is happening seems like a mental breakdown or something. In his newest vid where he plays a girl character he says something about sleeping with Ephermal Rifts wife.
So what I think is happening is that his wife possibly cheated on him and he’s been going on a mental decline even before it happened so now he is on his last pegs and he might be ending his life on the 22nd (hopefully not)
Why the 22nd I don't get it
I used to have these thoughts all the time. My own father tried to kill me at gunpoint when I was 14, and I've dreamt about it most every night since then. I'm nearly 37 now, and the dreams don't let up. I am in treatment for CPTSD, but sometimes a soft, comforting voice is all that helps. It seems to speak to the young girl inside me who was afraid to even talk after that. I went to school the next morning and was glazed over...but the show must go on, right? It keeps going on, but even now I still have that video playing in my head.
I hope you're ok in life that's terrible what your father tried to do I never had parents but I'd rather none than that I'm very sorry but I hope you're doing better
The world is a stage darling and the stage is a world of entertainment - Alaster hazbin hotel
@@Bea-the-one-and-only why
dear god why did you quote hazbin hotel
@@butterytomatoes747 im so confused too
@@butterytomatoes747 also just noticed your pfp my fellow samurai
Bone app the teeth
Cale Yeckley sometimes I forget bon appetit is a real word
Étant donné que je suis Français ( bonjour, au passage ) je peut dire que ça s'orthographie "bon appétit"
Hi. I am French and I can tell you that you must write it like that : "bon appétit" ( bad for my sorry English :) )
HartRaton It was a joke.
Not this again
bone alpine the sheet
6:02
"and i got some bread"
picks up bread
"yep"
puts down bread
Bimbo bread. Sara Lee is the bimbo!
He just had to make sure it was in fact bread
@@LeroOfTheKodiak bojack
Picks up bread
He was flexing his superiority over you with his bread
This is the video that introduced me to ASMR. What, like 6-7 years ago? I was suffering, alone, fighting demons. Your content has been more beneficial to me than any doctor, any pill, any therapy I’ve tried. Thank you endlessly. I’m still depressed, still suicidal years later, but I would have never stopped myself from spiraling that day if it wasn’t for this video. Learning about ASMR and how it could help me has saved me over and over again for the past 6 years. Thank you so much for being the only person I had in these times. A perfectly random stranger. The internet is an amazing thing.
THIS! Literally the same as you, hope you feel better this year.
@@Kei-ni7lzI hope you and LLLLyrics are doing okay.❤
omg that intro killed me xD
that pun tho jfc
+No Name you are a pedantic jerk.
+Ryan Armstrong You've been taught well.
Or this
+Jackson T. OR THIS
"With these; this; this; this; this; *maragaret appears*;*click click click click click click click*; this; and this."
I don’t want a family. I want to be on my own and start from scratch
I know this is an old comment, but I feel the exact same way.
I just want peace of mind.
Yeah me too
You all not alone thats me af too
I get this. I know my family loves me, but they do not know how to deal with depression for the life of them! I wish I could just be alone, just for a bit
Seán Richards exactly the dilemma come here only !! We know and appreciate that they love us most than anyone will but at the same time we need our own life , in our own ways and with our privacy . A world with No rules and freedom (and of course not to that extent that we get into trouble) .
Dear EP, thank you for video. You have saved many lives from just this singular one.
I struggle now and again to control my mind especially in terrible situations or stress inducing times.
Life is not simple to take away, you do not just erase yourself from this world. When you leave you rip yourself out of the life of everyone who knows you, you steal your opportunities and goals away from yourself, you steal the chance of it ever getting better.
But sometimes you can lose sight of those things, sometimes it seems so much simpler to simply “disappear”
Your videos help me so much to calm down and regain control of myself. Even if they may make me sleep, its still better to be able to wake up the next day and start some what fresh again.
All this to say. A life is important, and they significant. You are doing a big job successfully and I thank you for being there in a bad time for me, as well as everyone else.
Thanking you is the very little I can do but at this very moment its all I can do.
Thank you
Perfectly said.
As an 18 year old with nothing to look forward to, I want to say thanks for keeping me not so lonely at 4 am.
hows it going
You got your whole life you idiot
@@robertparrinello1687 why do you keep replying rude things to people? almost everyone in this comment section is depressed stop blaming people for their illness.
@@robertparrinello1687 stop shaming people they are different people with their own problems that may not seem like much to you but are a lot for them and thats okay so stop being small minded
@@robertparrinello1687
You are unworthy of happiness
I CANT SLEEP WHEN HES TALKING ABOUT BIMBO BREAD OMG 😂
Savannah Howard that bimbo bread lmao 😂😂
The Korn song you were thinking of might be "Falling Away From Me," maybe? It has a lyric that goes:
"I flirt with suicide, sometimes kill the pain."
As well as:
"You flirt with suicide
Sometimes, that's okay."
LeeTheLoser 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻
This feels like an intimate conversation and i love it.