I feel you, brother! I never knew who I was. Now I know, I'm just a neurodiverse guy. Growing up I didn't have a sport or a hobby, so I didn't know who I belonged to. Later I discovered skateboarding, finally I thought I know who I am, a skater. Later I started to study, from now on I identified myself as a chemist. During my PhD I identified myself as a scientist. When I started working, the next crisis came, who am I? A scientist, a skater or what? Today I have understood that I was never all that, those were or still are my special interests. Of course they are part of me, but today I see it more as a hobby. I'm just an anxious, autistic ADHDer who has spent his whole life trying to understand who he is. Today I try to identify myself more through my behavior, I'm nice, I like to help others and I always try to stand up for the disadvantaged or take action against unfairness. And when I think about it, I've always been like that. You don't have to be someone. Just be yourself and do what you enjoy! And most importantly, start accepting and loving yourself! Your inner child knows who you are :)
I feel you, brother! I never knew who I was. Now I know, I'm just a neurodiverse guy. Growing up I didn't have a sport or a hobby, so I didn't know who I belonged to. Later I discovered skateboarding, finally I thought I know who I am, a skater. Later I started to study, from now on I identified myself as a chemist. During my PhD I identified myself as a scientist. When I started working, the next crisis came, who am I? A scientist, a skater or what? Today I have understood that I was never all that, those were or still are my special interests. Of course they are part of me, but today I see it more as a hobby. I'm just an anxious, autistic ADHDer who has spent his whole life trying to understand who he is. Today I try to identify myself more through my behavior, I'm nice, I like to help others and I always try to stand up for the disadvantaged or take action against unfairness. And when I think about it, I've always been like that. You don't have to be someone. Just be yourself and do what you enjoy! And most importantly, start accepting and loving yourself! Your inner child knows who you are :)