It's nice that you explain to the complainers of this post the reasons why you placed this up on RUclips and made it public. However, in my humble opinion, you do not owe ANYONE an explanation as to why you did this; again, it's nice that you give them one, but you do you and follow your heart and what YOU think your son would want. Again, this is just my humble opinion. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm a mother of a 23 year old son who has type one diabetes and I worry every single day for him. I cannot imagine the hole in your heart. God bless all of you, and may your son rest peacefully with the Angels and in His love.
I am very sorry for your loss, I lost my neighbor, brother, friend & family today. He was a big part of my life & I wish this feeling towards no one on earth. 💔
My grandma made this exact sound when she died. She had lung cancer. She too was a believer in the Lord so I will get to see her again. I'm so sorry for your loss. No parent should EVER have to bury their child
I’m incredibly sorry for your loss. I’m only 22 and do not know what it’s like to have a child. But I can’t imagine what you as well as your son had to go through. I truly hope he is in a better place in gods palace. He may be gone from your sight but he’ll never be gone in your heart. God bless.
I can't imagine how helpless you must've felt but he is in a better place now, thank you for making a positive out of this it shows what remarkable people you are. God bless.
so i googled death rattle because i saw it being mentioned in a comic and then i'm hit with this reality check, condolences to you and may your son look over you in heaven
I come from a town of meth and oxy addicts. I hate what the pharma companies have done to this country. I am so saddened to see this video. My heart will always go out to you.
Oh my God honey, I am more sorry than words can say. I'm a father of a 10 year old boy who looks a lot like yours and this video hit me like a ton of bricks. I don't normally act like this, but I've cried for a few minutes now over this. Again, I am so sorry for your and your husband's loss, and I wish u both the best.
My brother passed away from an overdose in my house last summer and I never knew what the term death rattle was until it was explained to me by an EMT that night he passed away he was 39 years old and my mother had to endure seeing him pass away right in my living room. I'm so sorry for the loss of your son it is very heartbreaking. God bless you and your family and you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Im so sorry for your loss.....no parent should have to bury their son. However cancer doesnt discriminate and youre using his condition to help others.....he will live on through many people. god bless yall....and your son Emerson rip.
god bless you for staying strong i have been clean of pain meds for 6 years now and had close call's myself...but i agree what you say that the fentayal played a part i had 2 close friends leave this world one had heart problems and they gave him that drug as soon as they took him off his normal pain meds he had a heart attack ,the other sadly slowly lost his mind taking fentayl and ended his own... stay strong stay positive theres always a light at the end of the tunnel with darkness comes light ..hope all is well and know that a guy in Newfoundland Canada is praying for you. my opinion is that they give that type of hard meds so that they can end their suffering faster that has been the cases here were iam from. ppl need to know that doctors shouldnt give out something that already has a problem with so many indivuals.sorry for my spelling . have a wonderful day.
I wouldn't have thought fentanyl would be the go to for agitation and distress. Used to work in a pharmacy here in Scotland and midazolam amps was the standard for palliative/hospice care. Poor kid to have suffered all of that at such a young age. Makes me take a look at how good i have it by comparison
My uncle was a heroin addict & that’s what ultimately killed him. Fentanyl is far more potent than morphine & it doesn’t require a needle. Pharmaceutical companies are only making the addiction epidemic worse.
This story breaks my heart. The nurses and doctors must have printed off their medical license from the Internet, because it’s very evident that they don’t know what they are doing! I am so sorry for you and your family, and mostly for your child having to go thru that. I hope you spoke with an attorney regarding the way his health problem was handled. Just because someone is already dying doesn’t give someone the right to walk up to them and kill them, then say “ well, they were gonna die anyway”. If that was the case, anyone could kill someone, and say that, because we are all dying from the day we enter this world. The reason I brought up that fictional example was to demonstrate that the coroner may have listed all of the contributing factors that played into his death, but he left out the ultimate cause, and that didn’t excuse the negligence of the nurses’ and doctors’ actions. Bet they wouldn’t have done that to their child, or even their friend’s child. My grandfather use to say that God has a special place in Hell for all of the crooked lawyers and doctors. And when I say that, the comment was meant only for the crooked, and excludes the nurses and doctors who do their job from the heart, and not from greed. I pray that you have peace in your hearts, and I know that you cherish every moment that you had with your son. God gave you a wonderful gift that will always be yours, and even though you may not be able to hold him now, take comfort in knowing that someday you will be reunited forever!! God Bless you and big hugs to you all.
I feel bad for this family,lve experienced the death rattal with my GrandMother And other people,the sad part of this very difficult time of the family,is the end result is always the Same!On the overdose of fentanyl lm not exactly sure of the reason for this to happen to this person,but lm very educated on this drug fentanyl,l forgot the correct spelling.l used fentanyl patches from pain management!Let me tell you what my experience was.No.1 when your suffering from extreme pain,there’s one thing you learn and that’s the overall feeling from any type of pain pills,shots etc.Fentanyl is a strange drug because a lot of time you take a powerful drug like this and you feel nothing and you no you took enough to feel it.So what happens is you end up taking more to feel it or when you take your next dose,you up the amount.This is where the problems start to happen,very easily and without any idea of noing you can over dose!bamb that fast!There is something that happens to people on regular pain medication,you begin to no more than the doctors or so you think you do!Pain meds are a very scary world.You see l no first handily lve been on pain meds since l was 25 from a bad motorcycle accident.lve had every pain med made and plenty of it.So what I’m trying to say,is a lot of times these deaths were not purposely done at all!
I am a nursing student and trying to learn what a death rattle sounds like. For many people it's too personal to post. Thank you for sharing and helping me learn so I know what to listen for when I treat my future patients!
Losing a child is the worst pain. I lost my daughter in 2003 and I have to make myself get up in the morning every day. God bless your family, and may your son rest in peace.
I read your comment & so I just want to send you a big hug & X,can't imagine how awful this must be for parents of children dieing no matter what the age or reason. I hope you are doing ok
It absolutely does help people to be prepared and reduce the shock/trauma of watching a loved one die if they have awareness of what to expect. You can’t get this out of a book or website. Brave parents with big hearts. Thank you for educating the public. 🙏🏼
I'm so Sorry for your loss of Emerson and that you weren't able to have him pass at home. My 12 year old Daughter Greycin passed away February 16th, 2018. Vanderbilt made it possible to transport her home. The day before she was transported home we had to meet with Hospice to prepare us for what could happen as Greycin passed (you can't completely prepare yourself for something like this though). The death rattle was one of the things that they said could happen. I was terrified. As if knowing that your about to lose your child wasn't bad enough you have to worry about what could happen in her final moments. They also said that it could drag out for a period of time. But in our case she never took another breath and it was very peaceful. We got to hold her and feel her last heartbeat. From one broken hearted mama to another...I send Prayers for You and Your Family.
Thank you for sharing your son's tragic story and for being so open, raw and transparent. I hope you and your family are able to find peace. Bless you all.
So so sorry for you loss my heart fe3 so sad i started to cry and saw few more video. Buy now he is not suffering and he is a angel watcher over you all and he live in your heart. Im a mom off 2 my daughter 5yr old and my son 3yr old i could only images how painful it is god bless
God bless your family and Emerson.. am a 45 yr old father sitting here crying my eyes out.. so sorry u ever had to experience this.. my heart goes out to your family
I was diagnosed with a pilocytic astrocytoma on my cerebellum and brain stem about 4 years ago while i was a freshman in highschool. Im so sorry that you all went through this and know you have the love and support of so many who will stand by your side during this time. I will never know how you feel but i do know a bit about how my diagnosis affected me and my family and it truly is a shame that families go through this experience. Thank you for spreading awareness and providing this video. It will drive people to help without a doubt. Much love ❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss. Somehow I came across this video and it shook me up to my core. Your son Emerson looks very very similar to my 10 year old son, Sean. I won't take our time together for granted. This makes me appreciate everything more. Thank You for sharing.
I heard those sounds when my last living Grandpa ( my Dad's Dad) was on his last. When I heard the death rattles, it sounded like a coffee maker making coffee. My grandpa passed Nov 3rd 2002. RIP, Grandpa.
God bless you. Watching this video and learning that this is your son makes me so sad for you. I looked up the term “death rattle” after reading recent medical studies that suggest that this sound may not be as painful as it appears to be. I like to think that your son went peacefully, and the fentanyl may have helped to ease him into the next life. My heart mourns for you, I just had to say it. Take care.
As a nurse ..when u walk into work and can hear this as u approach the room you already know the rest of the story.Suctioning is minimally effective and robs the patient of what oxygen they are getting .Sometimes its as much for the family .It makes them feel at least we are trying to clear the airway . Atropine drops for terminal secretions ...that's what nurse verbiage calls this pooling of fluids helps some .Its just sad to see n hear.I watched my mother do this at end stage cancer and the sound of the suction machine haunts me to this day...now as the nurse I have to do it.Oddly its one of the first things I ask where its kept when going to a new job.
This story brang me to tears. I'm so sorry for your loss. I had a brother who died at the age of 11 due to a tainted blood transfusion back in 1988. The blood was tainted with HIV/AIDS. He was very sick sick for a long time. He was battling leukemia at the time of the blood transfer. My parents have never been the same.
It’s incredibly noble of you to post this video of this painful moment in the lives of everyone in your family, and likely your community as well. Now, in addition to whatever your beliefs are about the afterlife, Emerson lives on as an educator. And although I never met your son, I’m honored to have learned from him, and thankful that you allowed me to do so. Thank you.
I know I’m going to get a lot of crap for asking this. I don’t want to offend you,or upset anyone. I just need to know,if this is the death rattle,that means he’s dying. Why is no one holding his hand or crying young his bed comforting him. I can see people in the background chatting and just acting normal. I am very sorry for your loss.
My husband was in bed with him, if you look closely, you can see his feet up against him. We didn't hold him because he was struggling for air and we were afraid to move him, but he could feel us. This was merely a 20 second snapshot, not what the entire day looked like. I was sitting in the background texting his hospice nurse that we wanted him taken to the hospital and was trying to arrange ambulance transport. When he died, the next day, I held him, and my husband held around me to hold him, too. He didn't leave this world alone. I showered him with praise as he left this world and told him I would be there to see him in Heaven as soon as I could.
This video made me go talk to my sister and try to repair a deeply strained relationship. I know others may not see why this is here but I truly realize how important life is after watching this. I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your sons beautiul life with us.
That sound is heart breaking I swear I feel that the doc should be held somewhat responsible for Emerson passing ..as a doc your supposed to know exactly how much medication to give to a patient
I received Fentynal patches during my chemotherapy and they never told me if the patch " overheats" it dumps a huge dose at once. I almost died from an od because they never warned me. Bastards almost killed me from neglect.
Don't know you or your son or how I even got here but God bless you for sharing your son through his death. I agree with you, ALOT of people, including myself hear of the "death rattle" but have no clue what it is. I was told the same thing about my mother. I wish now I would of found your video earlier. It's terrible and heart breaking to watch but it is what really happens so thank you again. I'm very sorry for your loss. 🙏❤️
I’m sorry but I can’t stop watching your videos of Emerson I just watched the video of Emerson telling his dad that he loves him ..oh man my heart is torn 😢
Lungs full of fluids . Been there watching my mom and dad die :( when thier limbs go cold death is minutes to hour away. Being there is not the best thing . Imo .
I’m a nursing assistant and this would’ve broken my heart to watch. My father in law died from sepsis last June awful awful thing to die from. It’s too late by time it’s found out to be sepsis. Love and prayers to u all. Wales uk xxxx
Lol that's a lie, my dad has been septic at least twice if not more. Hospital saved him. He also has dementia and Parkinson's. He breathed like this and had to be on a ventilator high dose antibiotics for a week to two. Don't lie to people or fear monger. Fact is every single body is different when it comes to any illness.
I sat with my sister the last few hours before she passed away stroking her forehead listening to her breathing it broke my heart listening to the death rattle. My heart still breaks 4 years later missing her every day. R.I.P
To be absent from the body is to be present with our Lord. So hard to watch. God rest his soul , And may our loving Father wrap you in His grace and comfort. Please Lord , Bless his family.
My deepest sympathy for your loss, but take comfort that he ran straight into Jesus’ arms when he took his last breath, and he will be waiting patiently for you to join him in Heaven someday!!
I'm so sorry for your loss. Having medical stupidity possibly cause it makes it even worse. Fentanyl is a very dangerous drug. I was on it for about 7 years because of severe chronic pain, but it should only be used if you are already opiate tolerant ( it says that all over the instructions), which I was. But there are too many things that can speed up the release, and if you are NOT already very opiate tolerant it can kill you. Additionally, the so called opiate crisis is by and large a fentanyl crisis. I expect it to go out of use tbh, but that doesn't help you any. Again, I am so so sorry for your loss. I very much respect your decision to share your story as it might save someone else's life. Sending prayers and healing ❤💔❤
@@SamanthaCrane I can't imagine much worse than losing a young child. I don't actually have children myself, for medical reasons, but no one should outlive their children. Again, I am so so sorry. You will meet again in heaven, and I have no doubt that he watches you from above with great love.
I'm a med tech and certain patches can be cut it all depends on what kind it was and if he was already in the dying process it made it easier for him to transition.. As hard as that is to accept ...
I’m well aware that certain kinds can be cut, this one shouldn’t have ever been cut. It didn’t make his transition easier. If he had been “at death’s door” so to speak, then yes, it would have been something to accept and move on through. He was dying, but according to his oncologists, they expected him to live another six months to a year at least. He had no brain stem herniation and no signs of CVA, which causes death in brain tumors, typically.
Samantha Crane if I read correctly he had sepsis and that is hard to fight especially in children...I'm so sorry for your loss ...I know he suffered a lot ...our bodies can shut down fast with sepsis and being in the health care field I know the signs to look for I'm a CNA also...death can be months or it could be days ..cancer plus being septic our bodies can't function with that kind of illness..I just wanted to give you some insight on that
Thank you, I appreciate your thoughts. Sadly, we had been through sepsis once before with Emerson and he pulled through. Things were very different this time, and I'm still unsure whether it was officially sepsis that sealed his fate, or rather symptoms from his chemotherapy that had a similar effect on his body, along with the overdose. In my premed studies I have done a lot of research on this, and there really is no definitive answer. A myriad of medical issues were coalescing all at once, unfortunately for our sweet Emerson. Regardless, the outcome was still the same.
Samantha Crane you are in my prayers I know this is just devastating ..I've only worked with a child a few times as a CNA I just couldn't do it...knowing that cancer is a horrible disease and watching them go though chemo and being stuck with needles to live..its so heart breaking!
Samantha Crane ignore my obnoxious comment about he patch being cut as I’m still reading things you’ve posted! Please take comfort in the fact that by sharing Emerson’s story you have changed many many lives, some of which are filled with the same suffering that your son did. Please don’t ever take this video down ❤️
I am sorry for your loss, this seemed like it was very disturbing to you, it was disturbing to me at least. May he Rest In Peace. I hope your family lives well.
Against your wishes to not give your son more medication, the nurses gave your son more medication. You can sue someone for that... medical personnel administered a drug that ultimately led to his death. That's either wrongful death, medical malpractice, or murder... unintentional or not
R.i.p little man so sorry for your loss deeply i am I don't see the need to put it on RUclips tho in my eyes it should be kept between you and your family members Again im sorry for your loss
When somebody is in hospice all that can be provided is care and comfort they're not allowed to do any life-saving attempts! No CPR they're not allowed to try to revive the patient! It's the law! I'm sorry that your son passed away and I'm very sorry for the rude comments that some of the people are leaving!
He was added to hospice so we could get more help for him and have home delivery of scheduled medications. When you have a child that has a terminal illness, as he had for almost all of his ten years, you can still get hospice along side standard treatment. Adults cannot get hospice along with life saving treatments, but children can. Unfortunately, home health care for special needs children in our state was very lacking and didn't provide enough service for his needs. Our oncology group told us we could put him on hospice and keep renewing it every six months as needed.
I used to be on Fentanyl for my CRPS. It's a chronic pain illness that makes your body feel as if it is on fire. Anyway, I accidentally overdosed on Fentanyl the exact same way and was brought back after flat-lining for 10 minutes. I was in a coma for 8 days and in full renal failure. The doc's were telling my parents I had minimal brain activity and would live my life as a vegetable on dialysis and they were encouraging them to just pull the plug. My sister, who is a nurse, said..hell no. Since my kidney's had failed my body was swollen up like a beached whale with all the i.v. lines and the drugs had no way to escape. She told the doc's to put me on dialysis and she knew I would fight. So they did and after two times in dialysis they got the Fentanyl out and I woke up. A month later my kidneys started regenerating on their own which was a miracle. Basically, I want to say I am so very sorry for your loss but I relate and think Fentanyl is evil and should be taken off the market. It is too dangerous to be used as a prescription for people.
Thanks for sharing. I am so sorry for your loss. FENTANYL IS HORRIBLE. THERE ARE SAFER MEDS. You are wise for sharing this and I thank you for sharing again because people are dying because of this cheap, stupid medication that must mainly be used because of the price. On its own in injection form in only lasts around an hour; it's a ridiculous drug. In a patch, it doesn't work properly. When people want to get off the patch they go through severe withdrawal, so there are better alternatives, especially when someone's going through so much hell they shouldn't have to worry about other stupid shit. Pardon my language I get so upset that we have to go through things like this and we can't even share our thoughts without being scrutinized. I value your decision to share this video. I can't understand why they don't use one of the many safer pain medications. I'm so sorry for your loss, I'm sure he was a beautiful boy. We have to fight for what matters ❤
Seems like they would have known that perforating one of those 72 hour patches would have caused the time release to be bypassed..That is unacceptable !!
That fetanyl is a terrible drug I believe the fetanyl played a huge part in his death if what happened the first time with him overdosing they shouldn't have given him anymore god bless ur son may he fly high
Once you hear the dealth rattle it's something you never forget.
It's nice that you explain to the complainers of this post the reasons why you placed this up on RUclips and made it public. However, in my humble opinion, you do not owe ANYONE an explanation as to why you did this; again, it's nice that you give them one, but you do you and follow your heart and what YOU think your son would want. Again, this is just my humble opinion. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm a mother of a 23 year old son who has type one diabetes and I worry every single day for him. I cannot imagine the hole in your heart. God bless all of you, and may your son rest peacefully with the Angels and in His love.
I am very sorry for your loss, I lost my neighbor, brother, friend & family today. He was a big part of my life & I wish this feeling towards no one on earth. 💔
My grandma made this exact sound when she died. She had lung cancer. She too was a believer in the Lord so I will get to see her again. I'm so sorry for your loss. No parent should EVER have to bury their child
I’m incredibly sorry for your loss. I’m only 22 and do not know what it’s like to have a child. But I can’t imagine what you as well as your son had to go through. I truly hope he is in a better place in gods palace. He may be gone from your sight but he’ll never be gone in your heart. God bless.
I can't imagine how helpless you must've felt but he is in a better place now, thank you for making a positive out of this it shows what remarkable people you are. God bless.
May that boy rest in peace. Our hearts go out to you guys, no one deserves a loss this heavy.
so i googled death rattle because i saw it being mentioned in a comic and then i'm hit with this reality check, condolences to you and may your son look over you in heaven
I come from a town of meth and oxy addicts. I hate what the pharma companies have done to this country. I am so saddened to see this video. My heart will always go out to you.
What a sad moment for this Young Man and his family , let's all just say a prayer for this Young Man and his family . God Bless y'all
Oh my God honey, I am more sorry than words can say. I'm a father of a 10 year old boy who looks a lot like yours and this video hit me like a ton of bricks. I don't normally act like this, but I've cried for a few minutes now over this. Again, I am so sorry for your and your husband's loss, and I wish u both the best.
My brother passed away from an overdose in my house last summer and I never knew what the term death rattle was until it was explained to me by an EMT that night he passed away he was 39 years old and my mother had to endure seeing him pass away right in my living room. I'm so sorry for the loss of your son it is very heartbreaking. God bless you and your family and you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Im so sorry about your loss. This video always makes me cry cos when my grandma passed away she was making the same sound.
Prayers! I hope he's okay
Im so sorry for your loss.....no parent should have to bury their son. However cancer doesnt discriminate and youre using his condition to help others.....he will live on through many people. god bless yall....and your son Emerson rip.
god bless you for staying strong i have been clean of pain meds for 6 years now and had close call's myself...but i agree what you say that the fentayal played a part i had 2 close friends leave this world one had heart problems and they gave him that drug as soon as they took him off his normal pain meds he had a heart attack ,the other sadly slowly lost his mind taking fentayl and ended his own... stay strong stay positive theres always a light at the end of the tunnel with darkness comes light ..hope all is well and know that a guy in Newfoundland Canada is praying for you. my opinion is that they give that type of hard meds so that they can end their suffering faster that has been the cases here were iam from. ppl need to know that doctors shouldnt give out something that already has a problem with so many indivuals.sorry for my spelling . have a wonderful day.
RIP Emerson. My heart goes out to the family and his close friends.
Rest in peace buddy, no more suffering❤
So heartbreaking. Rest In Peace young man.
So sorry to hear about your son
Rest In Peace buddy, warrior 🔱
The 409 people who hated with the thumbs down button are monsters he is beautiful
I wouldn't have thought fentanyl would be the go to for agitation and distress. Used to work in a pharmacy here in Scotland and midazolam amps was the standard for palliative/hospice care. Poor kid to have suffered all of that at such a young age. Makes me take a look at how good i have it by comparison
That was heartbreaking so sorry for your loss 😪😪😪
Rest in peace little guy.
I'll pray
My uncle was a heroin addict & that’s what ultimately killed him. Fentanyl is far more potent than morphine & it doesn’t require a needle. Pharmaceutical companies are only making the addiction epidemic worse.
Rest little one you just got another prayer
RIP so sorry
He is free now.
This story breaks my heart. The nurses and doctors must have printed off their medical license from the Internet, because it’s very evident that they don’t know what they are doing! I am so sorry for you and your family, and mostly for your child having to go thru that. I hope you spoke with an attorney regarding the way his health problem was handled. Just because someone is already dying doesn’t give someone the right to walk up to them and kill them, then say “ well, they were gonna die anyway”. If that was the case, anyone could kill someone, and say that, because we are all dying from the day we enter this world.
The reason I brought up that fictional example was to demonstrate that the coroner may have listed all of the contributing factors that played into his death, but he left out the ultimate cause, and that didn’t excuse the negligence of the nurses’ and doctors’ actions. Bet they wouldn’t have done that to their child, or even their friend’s child. My grandfather use to say that God has a special place in Hell for all of the crooked lawyers and doctors.
And when I say that, the comment was meant only for the crooked, and excludes the nurses and doctors who do their job from the heart, and not from greed.
I pray that you have peace in your hearts, and I know that you cherish every moment that you had with your son. God gave you a wonderful gift that will always be yours, and even though you may not be able to hold him now, take comfort in knowing that someday you will be reunited forever!!
God Bless you and big hugs to you all.
I feel bad for this family,lve experienced the death rattal with my GrandMother And other people,the sad part of this very difficult time of the family,is the end result is always the Same!On the overdose of fentanyl lm not exactly sure of the reason for this to happen to this person,but lm very educated on this drug fentanyl,l forgot the correct spelling.l used fentanyl patches from pain management!Let me tell you what my experience was.No.1 when your suffering from extreme pain,there’s one thing you learn and that’s the overall feeling from any type of pain pills,shots etc.Fentanyl is a strange drug because a lot of time you take a powerful drug like this and you feel nothing and you no you took enough to feel it.So what happens is you end up taking more to feel it or when you take your next dose,you up the amount.This is where the problems start to happen,very easily and without any idea of noing you can over dose!bamb that fast!There is something that happens to people on regular pain medication,you begin to no more than the doctors or so you think you do!Pain meds are a very scary world.You see l no first handily lve been on pain meds since l was 25 from a bad motorcycle accident.lve had every pain med made and plenty of it.So what I’m trying to say,is a lot of times these deaths were not purposely done at all!
R.I.P
I feel like I’m intruding on this young mans privacy. RIP sir, I’m very sorry.
I am a nursing student and trying to learn what a death rattle sounds like. For many people it's too personal to post. Thank you for sharing and helping me learn so I know what to listen for when I treat my future patients!
Losing a child is the worst pain. I lost my daughter in 2003 and I have to make myself get up in the morning every day. God bless your family, and may your son rest in peace.
I read your comment & so I just want to send you a big hug & X,can't imagine how awful this must be for parents of children dieing no matter what the age or reason.
I hope you are doing ok
My condolences.
I lost my son in a car accident 😔
It absolutely does help people to be prepared and reduce the shock/trauma of watching a loved one die if they have awareness of what to expect. You can’t get this out of a book or website. Brave parents with big hearts. Thank you for educating the public. 🙏🏼
You are totally right. If I ever saw this kind of stuff without being prepared beforehand, it’d destroy me
The death rattle is a haunting experience. I remember hearing it from my deceased grandmother, I'll never forget it.
I'm so Sorry for your loss of Emerson and that you weren't able to have him pass at home. My 12 year old Daughter Greycin passed away February 16th, 2018. Vanderbilt made it possible to transport her home. The day before she was transported home we had to meet with Hospice to prepare us for what could happen as Greycin passed (you can't completely prepare yourself for something like this though). The death rattle was one of the things that they said could happen. I was terrified. As if knowing that your about to lose your child wasn't bad enough you have to worry about what could happen in her final moments. They also said that it could drag out for a period of time. But in our case she never took another breath and it was very peaceful. We got to hold her and feel her last heartbeat.
From one broken hearted mama to another...I send Prayers for You and Your Family.
I'm so sorry for your loss
I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your daughter. This breaks my heart
Traci O , i saw your videos, That is so sad.
Thats my birthday turning 17 in a few months I'm so sorry sorry for your loss.
Traci O I cannot even begin to tell you how sorry I am for the loss of your sweet angel. My heart aches tremendously for you.
That was heartbreaking to watch. No family deserves to experience something like that. You have my best wishes and may your son's soul rest in peace.
What a beautiful name, Emerson . I like it very much. Wishing you all the best . From Germany
Thank you for sharing your son's tragic story and for being so open, raw and transparent. I hope you and your family are able to find peace. Bless you all.
So so sorry for you loss my heart fe3 so sad i started to cry and saw few more video. Buy now he is not suffering and he is a angel watcher over you all and he live in your heart. Im a mom off 2 my daughter 5yr old and my son 3yr old i could only images how painful it is god bless
God bless your family and Emerson.. am a 45 yr old father sitting here crying my eyes out.. so sorry u ever had to experience this.. my heart goes out to your family
I’m very sorry this happened to you young man. RIP Emerson.
I assume Emerson was under hospice care during his last few weeks on earth? It’s so tragic to see a child go thru this. Thanks for sharing.
I was diagnosed with a pilocytic astrocytoma on my cerebellum and brain stem about 4 years ago while i was a freshman in highschool. Im so sorry that you all went through this and know you have the love and support of so many who will stand by your side during this time. I will never know how you feel but i do know a bit about how my diagnosis affected me and my family and it truly is a shame that families go through this experience. Thank you for spreading awareness and providing this video. It will drive people to help without a doubt. Much love ❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss. Somehow I came across this video and it shook me up to my core. Your son Emerson looks very very similar to my 10 year old son, Sean. I won't take our time together for granted. This makes me appreciate everything more. Thank You for sharing.
I heard those sounds when my last living Grandpa ( my Dad's Dad) was on his last. When I heard the death rattles, it sounded like a coffee maker making coffee. My grandpa passed Nov 3rd 2002. RIP, Grandpa.
God bless you. Watching this video and learning that this is your son makes me so sad for you. I looked up the term “death rattle” after reading recent medical studies that suggest that this sound may not be as painful as it appears to be. I like to think that your son went peacefully, and the fentanyl may have helped to ease him into the next life. My heart mourns for you, I just had to say it. Take care.
As a nurse ..when u walk into work and can hear this as u approach the room you already know the rest of the story.Suctioning is minimally effective and robs the patient of what oxygen they are getting .Sometimes its as much for the family .It makes them feel at least we are trying to clear the airway . Atropine drops for terminal secretions ...that's what nurse verbiage calls this pooling of fluids helps some .Its just sad to see n hear.I watched my mother do this at end stage cancer and the sound of the suction machine haunts me to this day...now as the nurse I have to do it.Oddly its one of the first things I ask where its kept when going to a new job.
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Susan M God bless you with strength for serving others with compassion in this time of sadness and mourning. Thank you.
I'm so sorry for your loss ,he will always be in your hearts😞
God bless you guys. I am so sorry. You’re the strongest people in the world. 🇺🇸
This story brang me to tears. I'm so sorry for your loss. I had a brother who died at the age of 11 due to a tainted blood transfusion back in 1988. The blood was tainted with HIV/AIDS. He was very sick sick for a long time. He was battling leukemia at the time of the blood transfer. My parents have never been the same.
It’s incredibly noble of you to post this video of this painful moment in the lives of everyone in your family, and likely your community as well. Now, in addition to whatever your beliefs are about the afterlife, Emerson lives on as an educator. And although I never met your son, I’m honored to have learned from him, and thankful that you allowed me to do so. Thank you.
I know I’m going to get a lot of crap for asking this.
I don’t want to offend you,or upset anyone.
I just need to know,if this is the death rattle,that means he’s dying. Why is no one holding his hand or crying young his bed comforting him.
I can see people in the background chatting and just acting normal.
I am very sorry for your loss.
My husband was in bed with him, if you look closely, you can see his feet up against him. We didn't hold him because he was struggling for air and we were afraid to move him, but he could feel us. This was merely a 20 second snapshot, not what the entire day looked like. I was sitting in the background texting his hospice nurse that we wanted him taken to the hospital and was trying to arrange ambulance transport. When he died, the next day, I held him, and my husband held around me to hold him, too. He didn't leave this world alone. I showered him with praise as he left this world and told him I would be there to see him in Heaven as soon as I could.
Samantha Crane
Awwww I’m sorry I asked,it just really up set me.
It looked like he was just alone.
RIP little man. X
RIP Emerson... Love from Serbia.
This video made me go talk to my sister and try to repair a deeply strained relationship. I know others may not see why this is here but I truly realize how important life is after watching this. I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your sons beautiul life with us.
That sound is heart breaking I swear I feel that the doc should be held somewhat responsible for Emerson passing ..as a doc your supposed to know exactly how much medication to give to a patient
I received Fentynal patches during my chemotherapy and they never told me if the patch " overheats" it dumps a huge dose at once. I almost died from an od because they never warned me. Bastards almost killed me from neglect.
I’m so sorry your child was treated this way while you were so helpless :(
Don't know you or your son or how I even got here but God bless you for sharing your son through his death. I agree with you, ALOT of people, including myself hear of the "death rattle" but have no clue what it is. I was told the same thing about my mother. I wish now I would of found your video earlier. It's terrible and heart breaking to watch but it is what really happens so thank you again. I'm very sorry for your loss. 🙏❤️
I’m sorry but I can’t stop watching your videos of Emerson I just watched the video of Emerson telling his dad that he loves him ..oh man my heart is torn 😢
I am so sorry for the loss of your son
Im so sorry for your pain.
Sorry for you and your family's loss and that Emerson suffered
I'm so sorry for your loss. He looks like a very sweet boy.
Lungs full of fluids . Been there watching my mom and dad die :( when thier limbs go cold death is minutes to hour away. Being there is not the best thing . Imo .
I’m a nursing assistant and this would’ve broken my heart to watch. My father in law died from sepsis last June awful awful thing to die from. It’s too late by time it’s found out to be sepsis. Love and prayers to u all. Wales uk xxxx
Lol that's a lie, my dad has been septic at least twice if not more. Hospital saved him. He also has dementia and Parkinson's. He breathed like this and had to be on a ventilator high dose antibiotics for a week to two.
Don't lie to people or fear monger. Fact is every single body is different when it comes to any illness.
I sat with my sister the last few hours before she passed away stroking her forehead listening to her breathing it broke my heart listening to the death rattle. My heart still breaks 4 years later missing her every day. R.I.P
Sorry for your loss but also relieved for your son and happy he will feel no more pain and is with God. X
Condolences to you and your family, may he rest in peace.
a parent should never ever have to bury a child.
To be absent from the body is to be present with our Lord. So hard to watch. God rest his soul , And may our loving Father wrap you in His grace and comfort. Please Lord , Bless his family.
My deepest sympathy for your loss, but take comfort that he ran straight into Jesus’ arms when he took his last breath, and he will be waiting patiently for you to join him in Heaven someday!!
I know this was a year ago but my deepest condolences for your loss❤
Losing your child would be devastating I’m so sorry for your tremendous loss. Hoping you’ve found some peace in these years
He was a strong kid, he was fighting many things and still kept going. God bless him, his family and his friend.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Having medical stupidity possibly cause it makes it even worse.
Fentanyl is a very dangerous drug. I was on it for about 7 years because of severe chronic pain, but it should only be used if you are already opiate tolerant ( it says that all over the instructions), which I was. But there are too many things that can speed up the release, and if you are NOT already very opiate tolerant it can kill you.
Additionally, the so called opiate crisis is by and large a fentanyl crisis. I expect it to go out of use tbh, but that doesn't help you any.
Again, I am so so sorry for your loss. I very much respect your decision to share your story as it might save someone else's life.
Sending prayers and healing ❤💔❤
Demelo F thank you
@@SamanthaCrane I can't imagine much worse than losing a young child. I don't actually have children myself, for medical reasons, but no one should outlive their children.
Again, I am so so sorry. You will meet again in heaven, and I have no doubt that he watches you from above with great love.
What a bunch of horrible hospice nurses. How in the world could they not know to NEVER cut fentanyl patches. So sad
Omg😭I'm so sorry for your loss. Emerson looked like my 16-year-old son, which hurts even more 😢
I would want my son or daughter to go on. I could not let my child live like this. This is heart wrenching...
I'm a med tech and certain patches can be cut it all depends on what kind it was and if he was already in the dying process it made it easier for him to transition.. As hard as that is to accept ...
I’m well aware that certain kinds can be cut, this one shouldn’t have ever been cut. It didn’t make his transition easier. If he had been “at death’s door” so to speak, then yes, it would have been something to accept and move on through. He was dying, but according to his oncologists, they expected him to live another six months to a year at least. He had no brain stem herniation and no signs of CVA, which causes death in brain tumors, typically.
Samantha Crane if I read correctly he had sepsis and that is hard to fight especially in children...I'm so sorry for your loss ...I know he suffered a lot ...our bodies can shut down fast with sepsis and being in the health care field I know the signs to look for I'm a CNA also...death can be months or it could be days ..cancer plus being septic our bodies can't function with that kind of illness..I just wanted to give you some insight on that
Thank you, I appreciate your thoughts. Sadly, we had been through sepsis once before with Emerson and he pulled through. Things were very different this time, and I'm still unsure whether it was officially sepsis that sealed his fate, or rather symptoms from his chemotherapy that had a similar effect on his body, along with the overdose. In my premed studies I have done a lot of research on this, and there really is no definitive answer. A myriad of medical issues were coalescing all at once, unfortunately for our sweet Emerson. Regardless, the outcome was still the same.
Samantha Crane you are in my prayers I know this is just devastating ..I've only worked with a child a few times as a CNA I just couldn't do it...knowing that cancer is a horrible disease and watching them go though chemo and being stuck with needles to live..its so heart breaking!
Samantha Crane ignore my obnoxious comment about he patch being cut as I’m still reading things you’ve posted!
Please take comfort in the fact that by sharing Emerson’s story you have changed many many lives, some of which are filled with the same suffering that your son did. Please don’t ever take this video down ❤️
I do not feel right about showing this very private moment on YT.....no judgement, just not sure
My heart is broken for your loss. What a beautiful boy.RIP angel.
I am sorry for your loss, this seemed like it was very disturbing to you, it was disturbing to me at least. May he Rest In Peace. I hope your family lives well.
Against your wishes to not give your son more medication, the nurses gave your son more medication. You can sue someone for that... medical personnel administered a drug that ultimately led to his death. That's either wrongful death, medical malpractice, or murder... unintentional or not
R.i.p little man so sorry for your loss deeply i am
I don't see the need to put it on RUclips tho in my eyes it should be kept between you and your family members
Again im sorry for your loss
When somebody is in hospice all that can be provided is care and comfort they're not allowed to do any life-saving attempts! No CPR they're not allowed to try to revive the patient! It's the law! I'm sorry that your son passed away and I'm very sorry for the rude comments that some of the people are leaving!
Melissa bussone I'm surprised he was still receiving chemotherapy at that time, because like you stated patients are usually on comfort care only.
He was added to hospice so we could get more help for him and have home delivery of scheduled medications. When you have a child that has a terminal illness, as he had for almost all of his ten years, you can still get hospice along side standard treatment. Adults cannot get hospice along with life saving treatments, but children can. Unfortunately, home health care for special needs children in our state was very lacking and didn't provide enough service for his needs. Our oncology group told us we could put him on hospice and keep renewing it every six months as needed.
I used to be on Fentanyl for my CRPS. It's a chronic pain illness that makes your body feel as if it is on fire. Anyway, I accidentally overdosed on Fentanyl the exact same way and was brought back after flat-lining for 10 minutes. I was in a coma for 8 days and in full renal failure. The doc's were telling my parents I had minimal brain activity and would live my life as a vegetable on dialysis and they were encouraging them to just pull the plug. My sister, who is a nurse, said..hell no. Since my kidney's had failed my body was swollen up like a beached whale with all the i.v. lines and the drugs had no way to escape. She told the doc's to put me on dialysis and she knew I would fight. So they did and after two times in dialysis they got the Fentanyl out and I woke up. A month later my kidneys started regenerating on their own which was a miracle. Basically, I want to say I am so very sorry for your loss but I relate and think Fentanyl is evil and should be taken off the market. It is too dangerous to be used as a prescription for people.
So sorry, this just seems so unfair, he was just a boy.😢😔
💜 still think of you often Emerson Rest In Peace little man
Samantha Crane Prayers and hugs to you. You have such AMAZING strength, I wish I just a piece of it. God bless you.
Thanks for sharing. I am so sorry for your loss. FENTANYL IS HORRIBLE. THERE ARE SAFER MEDS. You are wise for sharing this and I thank you for sharing again because people are dying because of this cheap, stupid medication that must mainly be used because of the price. On its own in injection form in only lasts around an hour; it's a ridiculous drug. In a patch, it doesn't work properly. When people want to get off the patch they go through severe withdrawal, so there are better alternatives, especially when someone's going through so much hell they shouldn't have to worry about other stupid shit. Pardon my language I get so upset that we have to go through things like this and we can't even share our thoughts without being scrutinized. I value your decision to share this video. I can't understand why they don't use one of the many safer pain medications. I'm so sorry for your loss, I'm sure he was a beautiful boy. We have to fight for what matters ❤
"Jesus came to him before his death"
Praise our holy Father
Amen
Vega Mason Amen!
I read your description honey 💕 Much love to you xoxo God Bless
Seems like they would have known that perforating one of those 72 hour patches would have caused the time release to be bypassed..That is unacceptable !!
Im really sorry ma’am.
God bless his soul, and you and your family 😔
So sorry for your loss
Thank you for sharing
It’s hard but brave
That fetanyl is a terrible drug I believe the fetanyl played a huge part in his death if what happened the first time with him overdosing they shouldn't have given him anymore god bless ur son may he fly high
Why would you post this on RUclips???
Sorry, I just read the description, may God rest his innocent soul 😢