It always seems like everyone else is always relaxed, at ease, peaceful, & confident while I was the only one who was always neurotic, lost, scared, & insecure.
I understand you. The only way I could build real confidence was knowing I can make it through even if I don't have ANY knowledge about things that others do. We can learn as we go, and adapt, and ask others for help.
You're actually less scared, neurotic, lost, and insecure than the vast majority of the population who are so scared, neurotic, lost, and insecure that they can't even admit it to themselves and so instead are completely wrapped up in the delusion of the character they have created to interact with the world. It takes huge courage to admit you are afraid, lost, insecure, etc. - far mor courage than most people have. Put a feather in your cap and call it macaroni! 🙂🙈🙉
That's very pessimistic. There is no "dead end" the road continues the way it has even before you were born. It's only when you are looking for something in particular that you miss everything all around you. There is no dead end, anywhere. Only people who are dead inside.
I found that this state turned into a freeness after a while. That it in turn allowed me to further explore the expansiveness of everything, to create in flow but not being tied to any type of outcome, simply out of the pleasure of experience. I began to walk through life with an aliveness.
Damn. I’ve still been punishing myself by trying to, pursue my spiritual path and thinking I’ve surrendered to my suffering.. but I’m actually still just pursuing perfection from a different angle .
I am always so touched by the people in these clips! So sincere, so humble, so vulnerable. It’s just lovely. To the 64 year old man who talked about the Nightfire feeling: I am 66 years old and have similar experiences. I wake up almost every night to process something that arises. Like you, it seems very particular to the night time. Also like you, there is no particular emotion associated with what’s being processed. It’s just energy. Mine is not fire, it’s more just a tightness that I can now see has been underneath every moment I’ve ever lived, in everything I’ve ever done. So I just lie with it, night after night, until eventually, I go back to sleep. It is mostly un-dramatic, no tears, no shaking, just a simple quiet being with, and settling more and more deeply into the energy. I would say the two major “results“ I notice are: 1) I become more aware all the Time of what a huge influence this energy has on my life, And 2) I notice a gradual, but substantial lessening of various rigidities in my life. I am less run by fear and anxiety. I am less ashamed of things that used to cripple me. I am less shy, less ashamed, Much more real, much more honest. Thank you for sharing your story in this lovely clip. May that Night fire, burn hot in you, And may your body continue to soften and heal. All the best…
Yet in her insights I almost hear the opposite. We let go of our conceptual, performative, and spiritual goals, and simply focus on the necessities of the body.
@@333_studios if we only listen to our bodily desires and instincts then then we no better than animals that does nothing but sleep eat have sex and die...
My advice to anyone suffering is to see how thoughts fabricate the ‘me’ story. Now see what’s left when the story is dropped. Do you feel the peace now? That’s the real you. Make that your practice.
It always feels like the one dropping the story is the one made by the story. There may be nothing to drop because the identity that needs to be dropped is the one trying to do the dropping. The belief that there is someone here that needs to let go only seems to reinforce the belief that there is someone here.
@@brushstroke3733 That’s a very good point. It may feel like that but on close inspection it can be seen that ‘doing’ seems to happen without a doer. Patterns can appear to linger for a while.
This body has multiple mental health conditions resulting in a lower lifespan of around 18-20 years less than the average. The ego death was such a painful physical release of traumatic emotions I had to go to the hospital. But the horrified neurotic person desperately trying to cure itself is gone, revealing an inner peace which sees there was never a body, there is only This. 🙂
After awakening do you find it necessary to go through all this emotional stuff? Since after awakening self if seen through and there's nothing to heal necessary. Or do we have no really choice of the process?
@@macaroon147 Yes, in the end there was never a separate individual “choosing”. The energetic release of emotions either happens or it doesn’t. In the story here there was a lot of generational trauma that needed to be resolved I guess. But no matter what happens, it’s all the same.
No, this body has a condition that has been documented that people with this condition live approximately 20 years less than the average lifespan of others. So if the average lifespan is 80 years old, on average our lifespan is 60.
I’ve been living through a hellish divorce and custody process for 4 years and now I pray that God just takes me home. That’s how terrifying things can get when we fall into the abyss. We become hopeless and empty.
Well actually there is nowhere else to go. There is no home in this sense. The divorce and everything is just as much home as wherever else you imagine you'll get to when you get home. But I can understand what you mean. You long for the divorce and the feelings that come with it to be over and gone probably, and that's fine but that's also what's happening and thats equally ok
3 year nightmare probate process right now. My mother married a man who had been working since before they were married to ensure that if anything happened to her (she died suspiciously after they were married for less than a year), everything she had for us would go to him. Long story short, I have felt a type of hopelessness. Legal stuff is so ugly, and people will use the wildest things against you just simply to win a buck, but it's even more terrifying when it involves your children. I'm so sorry that is happening to you. I went through something similar about 12 years ago with my son and came out the other side. A little scarred, but I believe my son will know it made me stronger. You are absolutely equipped to handle this and you will get through it with your babies on the other side. ❤
Hi Suzzane , I am listening to you for a month or so , Listening over and over some videos , Slowly am able to relate to what you are saying . Will go on listening , till all haze gets lifted , Accept my heart felt gratitude .
Thank you to the first questioner.. same experience of suddenly after 6 years thinking it’s obvious that “I am awarness and everything is awarness” to “omg, WTF is Awareness?! I have no idea!” And that go-to of my gurus “the one thing you know is that you exist” was like, “NO, I don’t know that! “ Then they use logic, if you don’t exist how could you be saying you don’t exist? Logic just doesn’t apply here.
Dear Susanne trying to explain to rock solid ego identifiers who have a vise grip on their concepts and truths that are standing in the way of the experience of non duality. I applaud your kind and valient effort.
So much of my suffering was this belief that there were people walking around that had all the answers and that I was missing something. I felt left out, I kept searching and felt ripped off. I only started to feel better once I started leaning on gratitude and God instead of resentment and victimhood. Once I had Faith that I was exactly where I was supposed to be and surrendered I started to notice how naturally I progressed, to want all the answers immediately is a huge sign of ignorance mixed with pride.
Hi, Cp, Thanks for asking. Way too long a story for the comment thread. But, basically, after a lifetime of seeing myself as a no nonsense, stubbornly independent person, I foolishly followed a so-called spiritual teacher off a cliff in the belief that he knew “the way” where I didn’t. Not only caused great hardship for my family and myself, but for many other trusting people, as well. Deeply painful and indelible lessons, to be sure. If you’re interested in a longer explanation, I did an interview with Angelo Dilullo called “When Spirituality Goes VERY Wrong- the Mac Parker story.” It’s posted on his RUclips channel, “Simply Always Awake.” Certainly shows the dangers of abdicating one’s own authority, Spiritual or otherwise. 🔥🫥🌻
Hi, Cp, Hmmm… I have tried to respond to your request twice now, but my message has been deleted both times! Perhaps life is trying to protect you from an unhealthy influence? 🤨😁 Anyway, it’s too long a story for this comment section, but, basically, after a lifetime of seeing myself as a stubbornly independent person, I very unwisely followed a spiritual teacher off a cliff. This caused hardship and violation not only for myself and my family, but for many other trusting people who were likewise following me. Deeply painful and troubling, with lessons indelibly learned. There’s an interview online about the case, but perhaps my trying to reference that is what keeps getting these messages deleted, so I want try to do that again. Thanks for asking…
"Not knowing what this is" is the most resonating, honest and humbling explanation of what it feels like just being and this is how I would describe it and how I feel any time I am honest with myself. Many teachers use such glorious words to describe their experience that just confuses me so much, because for me it is so very simple, that I just can't trust myself that what I feel is really true. So I kept negating my experience in search for this big aha-moment that would show me what I am missing.
Unfortunately, expecting a "dramatic" event has kept many from realizing the simplicity of this as you say. For many, it is as subtle and unobtrusive as taking a walk through mist without realizing at the end of the walk that we are thoroughly drenched. No spectacular "enlightenment" needed.
Suzanne, when I am immersed in the fact that I am a person and that I exist, would it help me to be in the body, to feel it being there? Thank you, blessings.
The man of character lives at home without exercising his mind and performs actions without worry. The notions of right and wrong and the praise and blame of others do not disturb him. When within the four seas all people can enjoy themselves, that is happiness for him... Sorrowful in countenance, he looks like a baby who has lost his mother; appearing stupid he goes about like one who has lost his way. He has plenty of money to spend, but does not know where it comes from. He drinks and eats just enough and does not know where the food comes from. This is the demeanor of the man of character.
@32:30 I just want to hug this young lady…thats it…you are trying to understand mentally what can only be explained spiritually. See? It cant be figured out….in the billions of people on Earth no one can accurately describe what “it” is…and like you I have become consumed by it all. BUT you have to relax and let go trying to figure it out…observe life, trying to understand just frustrates and upsets us more. We are all “there” already, I believe for me Im just now feeling that peace on the inside, but I had to finally give in trying to figure it out. One we realize the answers only come once we stop trying to “win” in this world, or better yet stop trying to have our happiness contingent on external things, or people, or money, or love, or the past…and stay in the present moment we realize there is no “aha moment”…where things instantly be better, its more of a feeling of Im happy being alive type thing, at least for me. Trying to figure it out our lives on our own is why we suffer…at least thats been my experience. Love to you all❤, at the end of the day we are just little blips of love orbs, in different bodies all made of the same substance….Love.
@@celina.hayslett I could feel your frustration🙂 it really resonated with me. When this all started with me I would endlessly watch hours of videos, paid for some law of attraction courses, all kinds of stuff…audiobooks you name it I probably tried it lol. Something changed in me, I was listening to a Michael Singer podcast and when he explained how its not something you obtain by trying to find it…I realized I have become so absorbed by all of this Im not even really enjoying life anymore..ya know? I realize I want the answers SO BAD that Im creating the resistance..ya know. I believe in God, or source…however we are calling it…and it finally hit me…let life happen and stop trying to know something no one ever has figured out😂 I think our nature will be to search forever, but with me it became an unhealthy obsession. Dont let that happen to you❤️…im learning…slowly….that I have to get back outside and start really enjoying life again. Go for walks like Suzanne does🙂 anywho we all are going to get there. Try to take the pressure off…we will get pur answers at the exact moment we are supposed to🙂 Be well everyone
When I came to this understanding, I figured I might as well start drinking and smoking cigarettes again. I should probably take up using cannabis heavily again too. Why not? This isn't going anywhere anyway. 😅
Su, I'm sorry i don't have time to listen to your videos right now -- I'm crazy busy. But I wanted to let you know I appreciate you and that you do a fabulous job, and I'm sure one day when I have sume down time I'll catch yu again. God Bless! You have such beautiful eyes and a warm smile that automatically makes me smile in response. :) :)
@@brushstroke3733 lol, Yui know it. Story of my life. Hey Su-Metal, think I'm ever gonna convince Suzanne here to come play with me? So far good old Wendy Prevost is the only one willing 2. What's up with these NonDuality teachers, huh? They stuck in the Soup or Sumthing? I feel like we could offer em Moa. Sum1 I admire once pipered up and said: just when they think they have the answers, I change the questions. 😉🦊🍅🌻
You're speaking about Zen. I'm not sure you realize it, but that's what the core seems to be. No purpose. No goal. Doing nothing. Listening to the body. Looking within. Your silences. We're both in similar places. Your videos give me peace. Thank you.
In regards to second question about intense energy at night, not moving or resolving- i have experience with this and it was so confusing because i felt i am really willing to give space to anything needed. I was actively being with it,offering attention and nothing happened. *But i did found there is literally complex subconscious system preventing you to feel sth, even though you are consciously ready and know there is no gain in suppressing anything. So i had to give it time. I discovered the difference between a "me" being with emotion trying to heal it...and just being the body and allowing the uncomfortableness and allowing not knowing. You dont know untill you do. And sometimes i need a good therapist to help me that emotion flow through the body. I can than be with the enotion,but i just need help with not avoiding it. Its such an intelligent and complex system running in our psyche. So if it persist,maybe look for a good support,it helped me many times. But keep in mind time is also a factor here...usually these things uncover in layers we have to work through. Cheers 🙏
Lately I want to reduce my harm to animals, but really it's my own suffering when I see them harmed. I don't know if my actions will really make a difference, or if it matters...thoughts.
Move to the forest and live off the grid and from the land. Otherwise, you can try to eat only free range chicken and eggs, elk and deer meat, maybe somemgrass fed beef and bison. Jalal meats (Islamic animals slaughtered humanely, with reverence, by a human rather than a machine.) All of us who live "on the grid" contribute to animal pain in many ways we don't think of. Things we buy that have nothing to do with animals directly are transported on roads that cross and break animals' natural migration tracks. The cities we live in prevent rainwater from percolating through the ground back into ground water. The runoff causes erosion and damage and depletes plants and fresh water sources from their water sources. Light and sound pollution from street lights, buildings, road, rail, air, and ocean traffic makes navigation difficult for animals and causes them to be in heightened states of anxiety. These are just a few examples of things we rarely consider. In short, don't worry about it. When we become more conscious and aware, we'll all create a more equitable world together. Until then, just accept your role to empty the ocean of suffering one teaspoon at a time.
Seems like it is your conscious getting to you. Man's cruelty to the "lesser" beings of this realm is the reason why man also treats his fellow man like garbage as well. It all comes back around. Break your ties with systems of cruelty and domination. Align yourself (your heart, mind, body, soul) with the principles of freedom, in which one could NEVER dream of taking part in the destruction of life and the destruction of the freedom of other living souls. Not only does it make a difference, it makes a _profound_ difference. EVERYTHING is accounted for.
This is necessary stage but not a final state, you will spiral back to utilization of mind and earthly activities, but this time in a healthy way. You have realized what singularity is like, but this reality doesn't operate on singular principle. We have not come here to be afraid of muddying our hands but to dive deep into the good, bad, weird, ugly, beautiful, weak, powerful. That's the completion of a cycle of realizations. A lover of movement is a champion of restriction. Without it we have no direction. We're not forced to have a direction, we can be a bulb of light that disperses light in all directions. But we've been given a choice to choose where to focus, who to be, what to create a direction to go.
Its like swimming against the river...when we slow down...look in...quest...reflect= ur way back 2 urself .. out the artificial play...the mentalenergetic Matrix.
In the end...we only speak 2 ourselves= a bit hard 2 swallow...that we just halluzinate or dream it all up...we try 2 find reasons 4 it and that itself...creates all the knots...why we think or not or whatever= a dreamriddle play in the dream or mind and its energeticness. This problem arises only in the daydream....the nights r non like that.
Plz be happy and enjoy yourself. Too many attachments . Your like me long life of ego suffering. You already know there's no ego it's an illusion. There's no you. Just this . Keep looking when there's noone to look. Find enlightment when there's no I to find it. Traps of the ego . Be happy young lady.
For the 64 year old man with the energy in his chest: the label that some people would put on that experience is Chakra five Kundalini. It represents the energy of chi (life force expressing itself as mental, emotional, or physical energies), most likely in reaction to the threatening circumstances you experienced in your youth. Chakras three and five are Chakras of action and force. Charkra three is about force turned outwards towards the world. Chakra five is that same energy turned inwards as spritual self control (for lack of a better description). I suspect that that was a way of processing your early life chaos in a way that was emotionally non- threatening. You exude natural warmth, and don't have the energies of someone who is overly gripprd by fear or anxiety. At it's best, chakra three has that confident and courageous (stereotypically masculine) quality that so many people would like to have. At it's worst, it can be needlessly combative and confrontational - destructive, solely as a means of externalizing fear in order to try and control it. That happens, typically, in the stage of growth shifting from chakra two to three. Of course all of these are mental concepts of our energies and the chakra system is nothing more than that, except that it seems to describe experiences people have had, and serves as a kind of physical and energetic model of spiritual growth and development on the path to (dare I say it) enlightenment. Non duality being an end experiencing in that. People's paths in that larger picture are so diverse and individualized that I couldn't even speculate as to where you might be in that regards or what the significance of any of this has for your life, if any. These are just some perspectives from the broader eastern religious literature that might have some descriptive correlation to what you've experienced.
The mind is semaphore code embedded in memory. It does not actually exist nor is it an instrument of True knowing. Dont believe a single thing that appears in imagination thats it. Use it to remember where the mangos and water are.
Being aware in the body I believe is important in nonduality. Otherwise I see a risk of becoming like a detached intellect with the idea of "being nobody" without actual spiritual realization and the body becoming numbed out hiding even more suffering. The mind, body and the external world need to melt into each other as I see it, into an experienced oneness and not just an intellectual idea.
Having unrealistic expectations kinda destroys everything in the long term. I like yoga and sports so much, without force and expectations. I give the body all the time in the world and let what happens happen. And if it comes to a standstill, then so be it.
Still listening, and only about 20 minutes in, but this is one of the best talks I've heard you give in a while, everything you're saying resonates and I've had the same experiences and can testify to the truth of it. I've only been able to reach these transcendent states and become still through a combination of cannabis gummies and relaxation techniques that I've been formulating for over 3 years now. I struggle with depression and anxiety, overthinking and situational depression as well as what some would call "complex post-traumatic stress disorder." I actually can't reach a place of stillness or quiet the mind and drop into the body without the help of some kind of substance. I don't really view this as sustainable, but my question is how many others use similar methods and have you had any experience with psychedelics or entheogens and plant medicines on your journey? I have often wondered about this because no one in the non-dual/awakening community ever seems to mention it.
Hey PO, I have no personal experience or knowledge about psychedelics or other drug use as tools in this process. However, since you asked, I do know that there is a woman named Michaela who has a website I believe called the psychedelic mom. I do know her personally, and find her to be a wise and insightful person. And this is her jam, so if you’re looking for information about this specifically, she may be a good place to start. Again, I have no experience or expertise that makes me qualified to make any recommendation, pro or con about psychedelics. But I can offer this lead, if that is helpful. Best of luck to you, However, you choose to proceed… 🙏🏼
I resonate with your refreshingly honest description of your feelings as they describe myself.😂 Bless you. Excellent quality cannabis aids significantly with my ..frankly..ability to relax deeper and feel in a more significant way. Thank you!
I smoke a lot of weed. My mind used to race and go into hedonism mode when high. But "post enlightentment" I find everything so peaceful. Sometimes my ego completely fades and simply taking a walk outside is like heaven, not blissful, just so.. serene. In those moments the sun on the skin is the only thing I could ever ask for. Still is, really :)
My brain is so fried from frequent cannabis use that it's hindered my intelligent thinking and short term memory. Also mightve given me the ability to zone out easier, like having no thoughts and my vision going blurry. These seem like bad side effects but honestly being dumber has helped in dropping the sense of self. Sort of like a self induced lobotomy lol.
Weed also naturally induces a state of complacency. Not giving a fuck about anything pretty much. No goals. The lazy bum stereotype of stoners is ironically the "goal" for a lot of seekers haha. No cares in the world, fine with just eating and sleeping 😂
You are on point. Thank you. I started a deep Korean Zen practice. Omg challenging. No place to hide! No bullshit identities. No more false “I”. Many Asian people are in need of greater internal relations. Not fake boobs, and eye surgeries. And instagram likes.
Going out the old programm into that is unknown or even, free or back 2 the origin state = surely a sort of discomfort 4 the body mind personal programm or imprint...when there been a long time attachement= like a death of a dream...where u thought u been a certain image in ur awareness field= a bit dying bevor the movie ends.
"I know im not my thoughts" is a false statement. I am not my body(Jonas) is the truth. The soul(percieving, feeling, thinking) wich is the real you is contained in the body(life) and this causes a lot of discourse. You 'percieve' life and all it has to offer, you 'feel' the actions of others and you may 'think' to yourself what a hellish place life is. In the end though you leave body(life) so i guess it's all good.
i also think there is nothing with distractions addcitions at all too because i said the exactly something this is exactly how i feel as well i always love embrace being distraction addctied to technologies i embrace it for what it is and i agree some say that don't be hursh on ourselves and i also think it's ok to express how we truly feel with madness, sadness and happiness i know everybody in the majority think that fear is a bad unhealthy thing because i competely disagree with that because i think there is nothing wrong if some of us have fear i think it's ok to have fear i see it as a good natural thin to me i just love embrace it for what it is i also competely agree we are not wrong for feeling the way that we do because that's exactly how i feel too
Hello Suzanne ❤️🙏🕊️ Can I reach you by email or something to ask about possibly attending the retreat via zoom and / or a private session? Not sure how your zoom meetings etc work. Thank you ☺️ Alycia
Hmmm… I just tried to write a response with Suzanne’s website, but apparently this comment section spits out everything that lists a website? Anyway, she does have a website which is listed above. Info there about one on one sessions, which I highly recommend. And also how to follow the retreat on zoom. All that information is above. Good luck!
wow. I have been reading a book about the eightfold path and I hear sooooo much of the Buddha's teachings in what you say. If you're familiar with Buddhism, are there any teachings of the buddha you don't agree with - necessarily? In the sense that they haven't turned out to seem true in your personal experience?
I think you will find that all non dual traditions (which includes Buddhism) point to the same. Time and place changes the language but they all speak of impermanence and inter-being which point to the reality of non self.
I think,and its just my opinion,that this non dual idea that we are 'that and not this' is only half the storey.We (maybe) in reality are both.One, eternally unchanging beyond circumstance and conditioning AND an individual soul/ego on an eternal wheel of becoming until that disolves. Good health amounts to living and expierencing both realities.We can BE while we are in the process of BEcoming someone more agreeable on the relative level.It seems to me that trying to go through life as a detached pair of eyes simply witnessing everything while being uninvolved with the show is a rediculous perspective to aspire to and not what it means to be human at all.🤔JMO✌️
What if I have come out of your body multiple times and merged back into source consciousness, so I am aware that the sense of the separate self, or “the doer” is an illusion. However I have yet to actually embody that in everyday life. Can I just quit trying to make things happen since none of this is real anyway or do I have to keep pretending like I’m real?
It always seems like everyone else is always relaxed, at ease, peaceful, & confident while I was the only one who was always neurotic, lost, scared, & insecure.
Now how do we combat that?
I completely understand and identify just as you lay out. Thank you
I understand you. The only way I could build real confidence was knowing I can make it through even if I don't have ANY knowledge about things that others do. We can learn as we go, and adapt, and ask others for help.
I hope it helps to know we are all looking at you and thinking the same thing.
You're actually less scared, neurotic, lost, and insecure than the vast majority of the population who are so scared, neurotic, lost, and insecure that they can't even admit it to themselves and so instead are completely wrapped up in the delusion of the character they have created to interact with the world. It takes huge courage to admit you are afraid, lost, insecure, etc. - far mor courage than most people have. Put a feather in your cap and call it macaroni! 🙂🙈🙉
When you realize every road is a dead end enjoy the scenery
I feel this
If you can, when you can. Often, all you can do (as the projection of mind) is to be miserable about going nowhere.
It's the inevitable road of all living.
That's very pessimistic. There is no "dead end" the road continues the way it has even before you were born. It's only when you are looking for something in particular that you miss everything all around you. There is no dead end, anywhere. Only people who are dead inside.
@@redsol3629 How do you know? Have you experienced death before?
I found that this state turned into a freeness after a while. That it in turn allowed me to further explore the expansiveness of everything, to create in flow but not being tied to any type of outcome, simply out of the pleasure of experience. I began to walk through life with an aliveness.
Damn. I’ve still been punishing myself by trying to, pursue my spiritual path and thinking I’ve surrendered to my suffering.. but I’m actually still just pursuing perfection from a different angle .
I love how listening to Sanity..someone speaking from clarity..the welcome quiet pauses and how to myself,refreshing it feels.
I am always so touched by the people in these clips!
So sincere, so humble, so vulnerable. It’s just lovely.
To the 64 year old man who talked about the Nightfire feeling:
I am 66 years old and have similar experiences.
I wake up almost every night to process something that arises. Like you, it seems very particular to the night time. Also like you, there is no particular emotion associated with what’s being processed.
It’s just energy. Mine is not fire, it’s more just a tightness that I can now see has been underneath every moment I’ve ever lived, in everything I’ve ever done. So I just lie with it, night after night, until eventually, I go back to sleep. It is mostly un-dramatic, no tears, no shaking, just a simple quiet being with, and settling more and more deeply into the energy.
I would say the two major “results“ I notice are:
1) I become more aware all the Time of what a huge influence this energy has on my life, And 2) I notice a gradual, but substantial lessening of various rigidities in my life. I am less run by fear and anxiety.
I am less ashamed of things that used to cripple me.
I am less shy, less ashamed, Much more real, much more honest.
Thank you for sharing your story in this lovely clip.
May that Night fire, burn hot in you, And may your body continue to soften and heal.
All the best…
They're all playing their part in the $"retreat"$ fraud.
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Suffering makes us realize that we have to evolve beyond our material desires...
Yet in her insights I almost hear the opposite. We let go of our conceptual, performative, and spiritual goals, and simply focus on the necessities of the body.
@@333_studios if we only listen to our bodily desires and instincts then then we no better than animals that does nothing but sleep eat have sex and die...
@@333_studios it’s about learning to listen to the basic communications of the body. Typically, we are often suffering because we are not listening.
Wowww 😮yes!
Just watching this makes my pain feel validated. And it encourages me to keep going.
My advice to anyone suffering is to see how thoughts fabricate the ‘me’ story. Now see what’s left when the story is dropped. Do you feel the peace now? That’s the real you. Make that your practice.
It feels scary to give it up, like falling into nothingness
It always feels like the one dropping the story is the one made by the story. There may be nothing to drop because the identity that needs to be dropped is the one trying to do the dropping. The belief that there is someone here that needs to let go only seems to reinforce the belief that there is someone here.
@@brushstroke3733 That’s a very good point. It may feel like that but on close inspection it can be seen that ‘doing’ seems to happen without a doer. Patterns can appear to linger for a while.
I think you guys are depressed.
Ah gosh this comment was all I needed. See the "me" then drop and see what's left. Just being, just this
smile and laugh cos every day is one day closer to freedom and end of suffering.
Psychological and spiritual honesty, spoken with integrity and a relaxed human pace. Very nice.
This body has multiple mental health conditions resulting in a lower lifespan of around 18-20 years less than the average. The ego death was such a painful physical release of traumatic emotions I had to go to the hospital. But the horrified neurotic person desperately trying to cure itself is gone, revealing an inner peace which sees there was never a body, there is only This. 🙂
After awakening do you find it necessary to go through all this emotional stuff? Since after awakening self if seen through and there's nothing to heal necessary. Or do we have no really choice of the process?
@@macaroon147 Yes, in the end there was never a separate individual “choosing”. The energetic release of emotions either happens or it doesn’t. In the story here there was a lot of generational trauma that needed to be resolved I guess. But no matter what happens, it’s all the same.
You really believe your lifespan has lost 20 years of time?
No, this body has a condition that has been documented that people with this condition live approximately 20 years less than the average lifespan of others. So if the average lifespan is 80 years old, on average our lifespan is 60.
I’ve been living through a hellish divorce and custody process for 4 years and now I pray that God just takes me home. That’s how terrifying things can get when we fall into the abyss. We become hopeless and empty.
Divorce will prepare you perfectly for the desolate fullness. Not that there is any hope 😂
Hold on.
Well actually there is nowhere else to go. There is no home in this sense. The divorce and everything is just as much home as wherever else you imagine you'll get to when you get home. But I can understand what you mean. You long for the divorce and the feelings that come with it to be over and gone probably, and that's fine but that's also what's happening and thats equally ok
It is ok you feel the way you feel.
3 year nightmare probate process right now. My mother married a man who had been working since before they were married to ensure that if anything happened to her (she died suspiciously after they were married for less than a year), everything she had for us would go to him. Long story short, I have felt a type of hopelessness. Legal stuff is so ugly, and people will use the wildest things against you just simply to win a buck, but it's even more terrifying when it involves your children. I'm so sorry that is happening to you. I went through something similar about 12 years ago with my son and came out the other side. A little scarred, but I believe my son will know it made me stronger.
You are absolutely equipped to handle this and you will get through it with your babies on the other side. ❤
Hi Suzzane , I am listening to you for a month or so , Listening over and over some videos , Slowly am able to relate to what you are saying . Will go on listening , till all haze gets lifted , Accept my heart felt gratitude .
Wish you well Suzanne. Deep peace and rest arises with your videos. Thank you. 🙏🥹
thats would mean u been suffering before watching as well...lol
So much rawness and beauty!! Shine on you crazy diamonds!! You are great teachers. I learned so much here. Thank you!
Someone's not paying attention.
Seems like pushing a boulder up a hill at times and I can only relate to the emotion in this vid, thanks for uploading it xo believe xo
Thank you to the first questioner.. same experience of suddenly after 6 years thinking it’s obvious that “I am awarness and everything is awarness” to “omg, WTF is Awareness?! I have no idea!” And that go-to of my gurus “the one thing you know is that you exist” was like, “NO, I don’t know that! “ Then they use logic, if you don’t exist how could you be saying you don’t exist? Logic just doesn’t apply here.
Enjoyment in finally being able to express my truth .
Beautiful Suzanne ❤
Love your prolonged moments of silent stillness...💗🍃
Dear Susanne trying to explain to rock solid ego identifiers who have a vise grip on their concepts and truths that are standing in the way of the experience of non duality. I applaud your kind and valient effort.
My guess is those folk are not watching her videos!
Thanks for the support.
Thanks so much Elizabeth ♡
I'm only 15 mins in, but something resonates so deeply and truly, I just wanted to share and there's just this feeling of gratitude for the resonance.
Very soothing to listen, I can relate to this alot also, thank you.
Thank you for you beautiful message about the body! It is good to see your face! Much love
Fabulous, thank you
That was fascinating, inspiring vulnerability!
Wish that I knew honest people like this 💖
I would bet that you will!
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great channel | great content | very helpful
Thank you sweet Suzanne, hearing you speak about yoga and your experience with the body has touched me deeply.
I really resonated with the tatooed girl. Thank you both for sharing! :)
I always relate so much to the things you talk about and really enjoy listening to you. Thanks 🙏😌
Thanks!
Thank you ♡
I am so glad to just sit and be here with you, truly I am grateful for the sense of connection and comfort I feel when hearing you speak.
Absolutely! ❤ well said, as always. Im sure this will help alot of people.
The intense burning in the center of the chest at 54:24 could be GERD, that is, heartburn.
This video was just what I needed.
" everything that prevented me from doing that before had to come to light"
So much of my suffering was this belief that there were people walking around that had all the answers and that I was missing something. I felt left out, I kept searching and felt ripped off. I only started to feel better once I started leaning on gratitude and God instead of resentment and victimhood. Once I had Faith that I was exactly where I was supposed to be and surrendered I started to notice how naturally I progressed, to want all the answers immediately is a huge sign of ignorance mixed with pride.
Well said. Can I quote you?
Tell me about it…
I literally spent four years in prison for believing that someone else knew better.
That’s how extreme this can get!
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Now that’s a warning and then some!
Please elaborate!
Hi, Cp,
Thanks for asking.
Way too long a story for the comment thread.
But, basically, after a lifetime of seeing myself as a no nonsense, stubbornly independent person, I foolishly followed a so-called spiritual teacher off a cliff in the belief that he knew “the way” where I didn’t. Not only caused great hardship for my family and myself, but for many other trusting people, as well. Deeply painful and indelible lessons, to be sure.
If you’re interested in a longer explanation, I did an interview with Angelo Dilullo called “When
Spirituality Goes VERY Wrong- the Mac Parker story.” It’s posted on his RUclips channel, “Simply Always Awake.”
Certainly shows the dangers of abdicating one’s own authority, Spiritual or otherwise.
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Hi, Cp,
Hmmm…
I have tried to respond to your request twice now, but my message has been deleted both times!
Perhaps life is trying to protect you from an unhealthy influence?
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Anyway, it’s too long a story for this comment section, but, basically, after a lifetime of seeing myself as a stubbornly independent person, I very unwisely followed a spiritual teacher off a cliff.
This caused hardship and violation not only for myself and my family, but for many other trusting people who were likewise following me.
Deeply painful and troubling, with lessons indelibly learned.
There’s an interview online about the case, but perhaps my trying to reference that is what keeps getting these messages deleted, so I want try to do that again.
Thanks for asking…
You can try looking up the interview, When Spirituality Goes Very Wrong, if you want to hear more…
I like you all!
39:19 Thats how i feel doing side jobs while my main job is still not ready to start this year.👷♀️
Thanks for sharing . 🙏
Thank you! ♡
"Not knowing what this is" is the most resonating, honest and humbling explanation of what it feels like just being and this is how I would describe it and how I feel any time I am honest with myself. Many teachers use such glorious words to describe their experience that just confuses me so much, because for me it is so very simple, that I just can't trust myself that what I feel is really true. So I kept negating my experience in search for this big aha-moment that would show me what I am missing.
Unfortunately, expecting a "dramatic" event has kept many from realizing the simplicity of this as you say. For many, it is as subtle and unobtrusive as taking a walk through mist without realizing at the end of the walk that we are thoroughly drenched. No spectacular "enlightenment" needed.
Suzanne, when I am immersed in the fact that I am a person and that I exist, would it help me to be in the body, to feel it being there? Thank you, blessings.
Thank you
The man of character lives at home without exercising his mind and performs actions without worry.
The notions of right and wrong and the praise and blame of others do not disturb him.
When within the four seas all people can enjoy themselves, that is happiness for him...
Sorrowful in countenance, he looks like a baby who has lost his mother;
appearing stupid he goes about like one who has lost his way.
He has plenty of money to spend, but does not know where it comes from.
He drinks and eats just enough and does not know where the food comes from.
This is the demeanor of the man of character.
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@32:30 I just want to hug this young lady…thats it…you are trying to understand mentally what can only be explained spiritually. See? It cant be figured out….in the billions of people on Earth no one can accurately describe what “it” is…and like you I have become consumed by it all. BUT you have to relax and let go trying to figure it out…observe life, trying to understand just frustrates and upsets us more. We are all “there” already, I believe for me Im just now feeling that peace on the inside, but I had to finally give in trying to figure it out. One we realize the answers only come once we stop trying to “win” in this world, or better yet stop trying to have our happiness contingent on external things, or people, or money, or love, or the past…and stay in the present moment we realize there is no “aha moment”…where things instantly be better, its more of a feeling of Im happy being alive type thing, at least for me. Trying to figure it out our lives on our own is why we suffer…at least thats been my experience. Love to you all❤, at the end of the day we are just little blips of love orbs, in different bodies all made of the same substance….Love.
Hi. I’m that lady and I appreciate the hug, friend. ❤
@@celina.hayslett I could feel your frustration🙂 it really resonated with me. When this all started with me I would endlessly watch hours of videos, paid for some law of attraction courses, all kinds of stuff…audiobooks you name it I probably tried it lol. Something changed in me, I was listening to a Michael Singer podcast and when he explained how its not something you obtain by trying to find it…I realized I have become so absorbed by all of this Im not even really enjoying life anymore..ya know? I realize I want the answers SO BAD that Im creating the resistance..ya know. I believe in God, or source…however we are calling it…and it finally hit me…let life happen and stop trying to know something no one ever has figured out😂 I think our nature will be to search forever, but with me it became an unhealthy obsession. Dont let that happen to you❤️…im learning…slowly….that I have to get back outside and start really enjoying life again. Go for walks like Suzanne does🙂 anywho we all are going to get there. Try to take the pressure off…we will get pur answers at the exact moment we are supposed to🙂 Be well everyone
That was very helpful to me as well. Thank you @@celina.hayslett
Yes much love
When I came to this understanding, I figured I might as well start drinking and smoking cigarettes again. I should probably take up using cannabis heavily again too. Why not? This isn't going anywhere anyway. 😅
Very good Suzanne. To trust is to become one with the surreptitious, snow-covered mountains of the Law. 🙏
Thank you so much ! ❤🧡💛💚💙💜
Thank you divine being 💗🍃🙏
Su, I'm sorry i don't have time to listen to your videos right now -- I'm crazy busy. But I wanted to let you know I appreciate you and that you do a fabulous job, and I'm sure one day when I have sume down time I'll catch yu again. God Bless! You have such beautiful eyes and a warm smile that automatically makes me smile in response. :) :)
Busy? With what? Being occupied?
@@brushstroke3733 lol, Yui know it. Story of my life.
Hey Su-Metal, think I'm ever gonna convince Suzanne here to come play with me? So far good old Wendy Prevost is the only one willing 2. What's up with these NonDuality teachers, huh? They stuck in the Soup or Sumthing? I feel like we could offer em Moa. Sum1 I admire once pipered up and said: just when they think they have the answers, I change the questions.
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Thank you❤❤
You're speaking about Zen. I'm not sure you realize it, but that's what the core seems to be.
No purpose. No goal. Doing nothing. Listening to the body. Looking within.
Your silences.
We're both in similar places. Your videos give me peace. Thank you.
All paths up the mountain end in the same place.
@@brushstroke3733 that must be how I got here. I'm not a non-dual ist. i don't even meditate. I puff weed and pay attention to my feltsense.
Thanks for clarity...
In regards to second question about intense energy at night, not moving or resolving- i have experience with this and it was so confusing because i felt i am really willing to give space to anything needed. I was actively being with it,offering attention and nothing happened. *But i did found there is literally complex subconscious system preventing you to feel sth, even though you are consciously ready and know there is no gain in suppressing anything. So i had to give it time. I discovered the difference between a "me" being with emotion trying to heal it...and just being the body and allowing the uncomfortableness and allowing not knowing. You dont know untill you do. And sometimes i need a good therapist to help me that emotion flow through the body. I can than be with the enotion,but i just need help with not avoiding it. Its such an intelligent and complex system running in our psyche. So if it persist,maybe look for a good support,it helped me many times. But keep in mind time is also a factor here...usually these things uncover in layers we have to work through. Cheers 🙏
Lately I want to reduce my harm to animals, but really it's my own suffering when I see them harmed. I don't know if my actions will really make a difference, or if it matters...thoughts.
Move to the forest and live off the grid and from the land. Otherwise, you can try to eat only free range chicken and eggs, elk and deer meat, maybe somemgrass fed beef and bison. Jalal meats (Islamic animals slaughtered humanely, with reverence, by a human rather than a machine.)
All of us who live "on the grid" contribute to animal pain in many ways we don't think of. Things we buy that have nothing to do with animals directly are transported on roads that cross and break animals' natural migration tracks. The cities we live in prevent rainwater from percolating through the ground back into ground water. The runoff causes erosion and damage and depletes plants and fresh water sources from their water sources. Light and sound pollution from street lights, buildings, road, rail, air, and ocean traffic makes navigation difficult for animals and causes them to be in heightened states of anxiety. These are just a few examples of things we rarely consider.
In short, don't worry about it. When we become more conscious and aware, we'll all create a more equitable world together. Until then, just accept your role to empty the ocean of suffering one teaspoon at a time.
@@brushstroke3733thank you very much for your detailed and thoughtful response. your last sentence kind of blows my mind, ha.
Seems like it is your conscious getting to you. Man's cruelty to the "lesser" beings of this realm is the reason why man also treats his fellow man like garbage as well. It all comes back around. Break your ties with systems of cruelty and domination. Align yourself (your heart, mind, body, soul) with the principles of freedom, in which one could NEVER dream of taking part in the destruction of life and the destruction of the freedom of other living souls. Not only does it make a difference, it makes a _profound_ difference. EVERYTHING is accounted for.
This is necessary stage but not a final state, you will spiral back to utilization of mind and earthly activities, but this time in a healthy way. You have realized what singularity is like, but this reality doesn't operate on singular principle. We have not come here to be afraid of muddying our hands but to dive deep into the good, bad, weird, ugly, beautiful, weak, powerful. That's the completion of a cycle of realizations. A lover of movement is a champion of restriction. Without it we have no direction. We're not forced to have a direction, we can be a bulb of light that disperses light in all directions. But we've been given a choice to choose where to focus, who to be, what to create a direction to go.
There are only a handful of people who you can rely on being soothing in this world of collective madness
thanks for sharing these conversations with us
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Love this. Mine too it seems. ❤
God's our companion through all of this
Its like swimming against the river...when we slow down...look in...quest...reflect= ur way back 2 urself .. out the artificial play...the mentalenergetic Matrix.
In the end...we only speak 2 ourselves= a bit hard 2 swallow...that we just halluzinate or dream it all up...we try 2 find reasons 4 it and that itself...creates all the knots...why we think or not or whatever= a dreamriddle play in the dream or mind and its energeticness.
This problem arises only in the daydream....the nights r non like that.
We begin ❤❤
Plz be happy and enjoy yourself. Too many attachments . Your like me long life of ego suffering. You already know there's no ego it's an illusion. There's no you. Just this . Keep looking when there's noone to look. Find enlightment when there's no I to find it. Traps of the ego . Be happy young lady.
For the 64 year old man with the energy in his chest: the label that some people would put on that experience is Chakra five Kundalini. It represents the energy of chi (life force expressing itself as mental, emotional, or physical energies), most likely in reaction to the threatening circumstances you experienced in your youth. Chakras three and five are Chakras of action and force. Charkra three is about force turned outwards towards the world. Chakra five is that same energy turned inwards as spritual self control (for lack of a better description). I suspect that that was a way of processing your early life chaos in a way that was emotionally non- threatening. You exude natural warmth, and don't have the energies of someone who is overly gripprd by fear or anxiety.
At it's best, chakra three has that confident and courageous (stereotypically masculine) quality that so many people would like to have. At it's worst, it can be needlessly combative and confrontational - destructive, solely as a means of externalizing fear in order to try and control it. That happens, typically, in the stage of growth shifting from chakra two to three.
Of course all of these are mental concepts of our energies and the chakra system is nothing more than that, except that it seems to describe experiences people have had, and serves as a kind of physical and energetic model of spiritual growth and development on the path to (dare I say it) enlightenment. Non duality being an end experiencing in that.
People's paths in that larger picture are so diverse and individualized that I couldn't even speculate as to where you might be in that regards or what the significance of any of this has for your life, if any. These are just some perspectives from the broader eastern religious literature that might have some descriptive correlation to what you've experienced.
It's like bungee jump. She's talking about 'Me' falling apart. Look at the huge inside. There's no outside.
The mind is semaphore code embedded in memory. It does not actually exist nor is it an instrument of True knowing. Dont believe a single thing that appears in imagination thats it. Use it to remember where the mangos and water are.
God bless you ✝️⚡️🕊
❤❤thanks
“out of emptiness, arises compassion”
Being aware in the body I believe is important in nonduality. Otherwise I see a risk of becoming like a detached intellect with the idea of "being nobody" without actual spiritual realization and the body becoming numbed out hiding even more suffering. The mind, body and the external world need to melt into each other as I see it, into an experienced oneness and not just an intellectual idea.
Having unrealistic expectations kinda destroys everything in the long term. I like yoga and sports so much, without force and expectations. I give the body all the time in the world and let what happens happen. And if it comes to a standstill, then so be it.
Still listening, and only about 20 minutes in, but this is one of the best talks I've heard you give in a while, everything you're saying resonates and I've had the same experiences and can testify to the truth of it.
I've only been able to reach these transcendent states and become still through a combination of cannabis gummies and relaxation techniques that I've been formulating for over 3 years now.
I struggle with depression and anxiety, overthinking and situational depression as well as what some would call "complex post-traumatic stress disorder."
I actually can't reach a place of stillness or quiet the mind and drop into the body without the help of some kind of substance.
I don't really view this as sustainable, but my question is how many others use similar methods and have you had any experience with psychedelics or entheogens and plant medicines on your journey?
I have often wondered about this because no one in the non-dual/awakening community ever seems to mention it.
Hey PO,
I have no personal experience or knowledge about psychedelics or other drug use as tools in this process.
However, since you asked, I do know that there is a woman named Michaela who has a website I believe called the psychedelic mom.
I do know her personally, and find her to be a wise and insightful person. And this is her jam, so if you’re looking for information about this specifically, she may be a good place to start.
Again, I have no experience or expertise that makes me qualified to make any recommendation, pro or con about psychedelics. But I can offer this lead, if that is helpful.
Best of luck to you, However, you choose to proceed…
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I resonate with your refreshingly honest description of your feelings as they describe myself.😂 Bless you. Excellent quality cannabis aids significantly with my ..frankly..ability to relax deeper and feel in a more significant way. Thank you!
I smoke a lot of weed. My mind used to race and go into hedonism mode when high. But "post enlightentment" I find everything so peaceful. Sometimes my ego completely fades and simply taking a walk outside is like heaven, not blissful, just so.. serene. In those moments the sun on the skin is the only thing I could ever ask for. Still is, really :)
My brain is so fried from frequent cannabis use that it's hindered my intelligent thinking and short term memory. Also mightve given me the ability to zone out easier, like having no thoughts and my vision going blurry. These seem like bad side effects but honestly being dumber has helped in dropping the sense of self. Sort of like a self induced lobotomy lol.
Weed also naturally induces a state of complacency. Not giving a fuck about anything pretty much. No goals. The lazy bum stereotype of stoners is ironically the "goal" for a lot of seekers haha. No cares in the world, fine with just eating and sleeping 😂
"became restricted and constricting" beautiful talent with language, I think :)
You are on point. Thank you. I started a deep Korean Zen practice. Omg challenging. No place to hide! No bullshit identities. No more false “I”. Many Asian people are in need of greater internal relations. Not fake boobs, and eye surgeries. And instagram likes.
I'd be very interested to hear your thoughts on solipsism
ressonated here.
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Your apartment decorations look like they're straight out of a SIMS game! FANTASTIC!!!😜😜😜🏅🙏
nice video.
Knock knock.....who's there
Nobody
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Going out the old programm into that is unknown or even, free or back 2 the origin state = surely a sort of discomfort 4 the body mind personal programm or imprint...when there been a long time attachement= like a death of a dream...where u thought u been a certain image in ur awareness field= a bit dying bevor the movie ends.
👍. Critical title.
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"I know im not my thoughts" is a false statement.
I am not my body(Jonas) is the truth.
The soul(percieving, feeling, thinking) wich is the real you is contained in the body(life) and this causes a lot of discourse. You 'percieve' life and all it has to offer, you 'feel' the actions of others and you may 'think' to yourself what a hellish place life is.
In the end though you leave body(life) so i guess it's all good.
which school of esoteric thought are your realizations grounded on, is it vedanta?
the body is the way
i also think there is nothing with distractions addcitions at all too because i said the exactly something this is exactly how i feel as well i always love embrace being distraction addctied to technologies i embrace it for what it is and i agree some say that don't be hursh on ourselves and i also think it's ok to express how we truly feel with madness, sadness and happiness i know everybody in the majority think that fear is a bad unhealthy thing because i competely disagree with that because i think there is nothing wrong if some of us have fear i think it's ok to have fear i see it as a good natural thin to me i just love embrace it for what it is i also competely agree we are not wrong for feeling the way that we do because that's exactly how i feel too
Hello Suzanne ❤️🙏🕊️
Can I reach you by email or something to ask about possibly attending the retreat via zoom and / or a private session? Not sure how your zoom meetings etc work. Thank you ☺️
Alycia
Hmmm…
I just tried to write a response with Suzanne’s website, but apparently this comment section spits out everything that lists a website?
Anyway, she does have a website which is listed above. Info there about one on one sessions, which I highly recommend. And also how to follow the retreat on zoom. All that information is above.
Good luck!
I always thought that everyone was happy and easy and me no
wow. I have been reading a book about the eightfold path and I hear sooooo much of the Buddha's teachings in what you say. If you're familiar with Buddhism, are there any teachings of the buddha you don't agree with - necessarily? In the sense that they haven't turned out to seem true in your personal experience?
I think you will find that all non dual traditions (which includes Buddhism) point to the same. Time and place changes the language but they all speak of impermanence and inter-being which point to the reality of non self.
I think,and its just my opinion,that this non dual idea that we are 'that and not this' is only half the storey.We (maybe) in reality are both.One, eternally unchanging beyond circumstance and conditioning AND an individual soul/ego on an eternal wheel of becoming until that disolves. Good health amounts to living and expierencing both realities.We can BE while we are in the process of BEcoming someone more agreeable on the relative level.It seems to me that trying to go through life as a detached pair of eyes simply witnessing everything while being uninvolved with the show is a rediculous perspective to aspire to and not what it means to be human at all.🤔JMO✌️
What sign are you? ❤
What does thee tattoo say?
What if I have come out of your body multiple times and merged back into source consciousness, so I am aware that the sense of the separate self, or “the doer” is an illusion. However I have yet to actually embody that in everyday life. Can I just quit trying to make things happen since none of this is real anyway or do I have to keep pretending like I’m real?
Going to retreat, what should I bring??
"My Body is my best buddy!" (Jk Sui) 😂 #bodyfical_intelligence
The headline of this video says it all 😂
4.30....'no one knows anything'.....So what does it take 1hour+ explain