“I have looked upon all that the universe has to hold of horror, and even the skies of spring and the flowers of summer must ever afterward be poison to me." - HP Lovecraft
I got told this after I defended myself for being disrespected, there’s jokes and then there’s just plain disrespect and it’s sad to realize me and my friends aren’t gonna be friends for much longer because I’m maturing and they aren’t
16 y.o kid here. I didn’t leave my old self completely neither I fully accepted my new self, let alone achieving a goal of becoming the person I wanna be. I realized that I started to feel uncomfortable around people I’ve been friends with for ~ 5 years . It’s like I changed but they didn’t. At the same time I understand that nothing changed about me but my mindset. I’m the same guy for all the other people. Applying for university currently. I feel like I need to change my lifestyle and gladly I got such opportunity. I think that meeting new people , moving to a different place and finding new things to work on is gonna help. I just burnt out from the conditions I’ve been living in my whole life.
Really needed to hear this, I’m definitely in some crazy part of my life, not sure if it’s being burnout or just life being life perhaps depression, whatever it is, I’m far from the person I was and I guess, maybe, this is just another milestone of me realizing that change means losing not only my old self but the weighs with it. Anyways, you have a really nice voice man, really calming! Love the video a lot. Be safe, be kind and most importantly, be yourself!
I really appreciate this, and i’m glad that i could help you, you got this don’t worry just keep trying every day, and thank you for the compliment, take care as well ❤
If you hear this and you've been improving yourself, understand that your improvements are being noticed and they're working. People like to roll around in mud* with company, never alone. You'll be an example in their life of someone that shot up and maybe even inspiration if you handle yourself right. Great video bro ✔️💯
Everyone will only accept and love for you for your benefits and role so no matter what happen you must keep moving on and stop valuing the judgement of others because in that way their judgement of you will bring no harm and problem.
I got told that a few months ago, too. His reason? He told me I used to be more "silly" and would have joined in on some jokes or activities he was planning. I am too uptight/serious. But I do not blame me whatsoever. Yeah I am different now because I grew up. We aren't in highschool anymore. I have moved on. We still write each other from time to time and he has definitely peaked in highschool so far. I don't know if he wants to drag me down to his level so he can feel better about himself, or if he genuinely sees me as a traitor of some kind because I matured. I don't think it is jealousy because I'm not in the best position right now but I am in a far far better place than I was five years ago, when I, supposedly, was a better person, according to him. Moral of the story? Do not ever doubt yourself just because someone, who you were close to once, now sees you as lesser since they can't comprehend why you don't want to stay at rock bottom with them, where both of you were before. Good video btw 👍
people grow all the time, i appreciate what you said and it opened my eyes to a lot, people will mature naturally and if your friend can’t handle that then that’s his problem, all of life can’t be silly, we gotta be serious at some point in life, depends on who you are, if you want to even balance being funny and being serious, but i’ve reached a point where i don’t want to really joke anymore, i just want to move on in life, to be real with you
I really resonated with your video especially the parts about trying to find a cure to your depression and treating yourself as a plant like I had a major life changing event that happened about three months ago and it just put me into a bad cycle and season but I'm really glad I watched this video and I found your channel and I'm glad I'm not the only one trying to figure this stuff out and making sense of it all.
I love this channel so much, I've felt these exact feelings recently and made a video on a different channel. (this is the channel I use to listen to video essays at work lol), I find myself in you like a kindred spirit. Much love, may our journies be kind to us.
Just go out of your way to oppose every single ideal in life. To deny every way of life that gets presented to you and see the world at face value. Don’t even take me seriously. There’s nothing deep or tragic about this world. It’s just what it is, and everyone is a liar who thinks they know everything. Live life in service righteousness and learn the way you see as correct. And don’t test my patience if you see me.
I miss the new stuff on youtube that I didn't get to watch, and instead, I got you, saying the old stuff that the soon to be old you, is going to be embarassed about saying because of how obvious it is + the fact that it doesn't deserve a full 10 minute long video, where its just you emulating a Niko-style video for views potentially... Even if that is true though, which it might not necessarily be fully so, its still just... so jarring to see a video about the topic in such a medium... Its like Vtuber content really, in the sense that its repackaging the old, but into small portions, with much less of the persons personality being on display because youtube guidelines make sure we're the most sanitised versions of ourselves & that our preferences are never put on display, with the exception of the stuff you don't see in the highlight reels, but instead, in the reuploads, where streamers may express their dislike for some rando in chat cause they differ so much in opinions that its insane they even crossed paths, as the internet is known for all its echo chambers & the like. P.S. I have a fragile ego. Totally not something you need to know. But that's how mafia works nowadays, its all just people exploiting themselves by giving out their own info for free, because otherwise, they're not seen as "the real deal", which basically means; They're not seen as how they want to portray themselves, they're instead seen as normies, or cringe. I'd prefer it if people saw me as an outcast, but that an't quite the box I find myself in all of the time if I'm being real.
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"Comparison is a thief of joy"
-Theodore Roosevelt
this summarizes the video perfectly
This is a Christian value
“I have looked upon all that the universe has to hold of horror, and even the skies of spring and the flowers of summer must ever afterward be poison to me."
- HP Lovecraft
I got told this after I defended myself for being disrespected, there’s jokes and then there’s just plain disrespect and it’s sad to realize me and my friends aren’t gonna be friends for much longer because I’m maturing and they aren’t
you’re on the perfect track, let go of what’s not even beneficial for you
16 y.o kid here. I didn’t leave my old self completely neither I fully accepted my new self, let alone achieving a goal of becoming the person I wanna be. I realized that I started to feel uncomfortable around people I’ve been friends with for ~ 5 years . It’s like I changed but they didn’t. At the same time I understand that nothing changed about me but my mindset. I’m the same guy for all the other people. Applying for university currently. I feel like I need to change my lifestyle and gladly I got such opportunity. I think that meeting new people , moving to a different place and finding new things to work on is gonna help. I just burnt out from the conditions I’ve been living in my whole life.
i understand you, i’m going through a very similar situation, but you got this bro❤️
I like your voice it calms me down. Lots of wisdom I totally agree
thank you bro❤️
Really needed to hear this, I’m definitely in some crazy part of my life, not sure if it’s being burnout or just life being life perhaps depression, whatever it is, I’m far from the person I was and I guess, maybe, this is just another milestone of me realizing that change means losing not only my old self but the weighs with it.
Anyways, you have a really nice voice man, really calming! Love the video a lot. Be safe, be kind and most importantly, be yourself!
I really appreciate this, and i’m glad that i could help you, you got this don’t worry just keep trying every day, and thank you for the compliment, take care as well ❤
If you hear this and you've been improving yourself, understand that your improvements are being noticed and they're working. People like to roll around in mud* with company, never alone. You'll be an example in their life of someone that shot up and maybe even inspiration if you handle yourself right. Great video bro ✔️💯
thank you bro❤️💯
Everyone will only accept and love for you for your benefits and role so no matter what happen you must keep moving on and stop valuing the judgement of others because in that way their judgement of you will bring no harm and problem.
perfectly said, thank you for this
this reminded me of the song “thats no fun” steve lacy
when i read this comment i didn’t know the song yet, then i listened to it on spotify then it was way too similar to the video haha, good ear
I got told that a few months ago, too. His reason? He told me I used to be more "silly" and would have joined in on some jokes or activities he was planning. I am too uptight/serious.
But I do not blame me whatsoever. Yeah I am different now because I grew up. We aren't in highschool anymore. I have moved on.
We still write each other from time to time and he has definitely peaked in highschool so far. I don't know if he wants to drag me down to his level so he can feel better about himself, or if he genuinely sees me as a traitor of some kind because I matured. I don't think it is jealousy because I'm not in the best position right now but I am in a far far better place than I was five years ago, when I, supposedly, was a better person, according to him.
Moral of the story? Do not ever doubt yourself just because someone, who you were close to once, now sees you as lesser since they can't comprehend why you don't want to stay at rock bottom with them, where both of you were before.
Good video btw 👍
people grow all the time, i appreciate what you said and it opened my eyes to a lot, people will mature naturally and if your friend can’t handle that then that’s his problem, all of life can’t be silly, we gotta be serious at some point in life, depends on who you are, if you want to even balance being funny and being serious, but i’ve reached a point where i don’t want to really joke anymore, i just want to move on in life, to be real with you
Thank you for your words
you’re welcome🖤
I really resonated with your video especially the parts about trying to find a cure to your depression and treating yourself as a plant like I had a major life changing event that happened about three months ago and it just put me into a bad cycle and season but I'm really glad I watched this video and I found your channel and I'm glad I'm not the only one trying to figure this stuff out and making sense of it all.
i appreciate your support bro, you got this and stay strong ❤️
I hope you feel better bro
thank you bro, i wish the same for you as well❤️
"I miss the old you...but the NEW you I'll miss even more when an even newer one comes out..."
Yeah, you're welcome
🎯🎯
I love this channel so much, I've felt these exact feelings recently and made a video on a different channel. (this is the channel I use to listen to video essays at work lol), I find myself in you like a kindred spirit. Much love, may our journies be kind to us.
much love, i’m really glad you enjoyed❤️
People just told me i changed , no1 missed my old me
people always will change, it’s apart of life
Great video, man! This really helped me put my thoughts together
you’re welcome, and thank you 🙂
needed this, thank you man i appreciate it
you’re welcome bro
underrated asl man keep it up
thanks man i got you❤️
keep going man make more vids like this thank you for the wise words
you’re welcome bro❤️
actually needed this. thank you, man
you’re welcome, of course bro❤️
lowk made me tear up
it’s gonna be okay❤️
needed this tbh
i got you❤️
Thx for this vid im subbing🙂
you’re welcome bro
this helped a lot, thank you
you’re welcome ❤️
Subscription deserved ! Love it bro
thank you bro❤️
Great video man 👍🏻
thank you❤️
Inb4 this blows up
🙏🏽🙏🏽
Just go out of your way to oppose every single ideal in life. To deny every way of life that gets presented to you and see the world at face value. Don’t even take me seriously. There’s nothing deep or tragic about this world. It’s just what it is, and everyone is a liar who thinks they know everything. Live life in service righteousness and learn the way you see as correct. And don’t test my patience if you see me.
damn right, we got the same mindset
My mother said that to me 💀
thats sad of her to do, much love
i miss the old Kanye
dose that make me a bad person?
of course not
im surprised youre still around is a brutal one too
surprised i’m still around?
@@leroyknox when people tell you that
i was told that by a "friend"
@@user-ec4yw5hj3ri understand, real friends wouldn’t do that
I think you should at least hear them out for some constructive criticism before leaving them
thats true, i did the same
W vid
thanks bro❤️
I miss the old Kanye...
same dawg
Do you man this is your channel you can upload whatever you want
i got you bro❤
I miss the new stuff on youtube that I didn't get to watch, and instead, I got you, saying the old stuff that the soon to be old you, is going to be embarassed about saying because of how obvious it is + the fact that it doesn't deserve a full 10 minute long video, where its just you emulating a Niko-style video for views potentially... Even if that is true though, which it might not necessarily be fully so, its still just... so jarring to see a video about the topic in such a medium... Its like Vtuber content really, in the sense that its repackaging the old, but into small portions, with much less of the persons personality being on display because youtube guidelines make sure we're the most sanitised versions of ourselves & that our preferences are never put on display, with the exception of the stuff you don't see in the highlight reels, but instead, in the reuploads, where streamers may express their dislike for some rando in chat cause they differ so much in opinions that its insane they even crossed paths, as the internet is known for all its echo chambers & the like.
P.S. I have a fragile ego. Totally not something you need to know. But that's how mafia works nowadays, its all just people exploiting themselves by giving out their own info for free, because otherwise, they're not seen as "the real deal", which basically means; They're not seen as how they want to portray themselves, they're instead seen as normies, or cringe. I'd prefer it if people saw me as an outcast, but that an't quite the box I find myself in all of the time if I'm being real.
hope you find peace
i can relate to 99% of the video, just 1-2 slightly mini tini tiny touch data ist different but thats ok, keep it up bro see ya on bo6 ;)
see you on bo6 : )