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- Catching everyone up on the Alzheimers, my mom passing away and how I feel about it. Regular content to follow. Video not monetized.
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I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your feelings during a heartbreaking time.
My dad was getting dementia before he passed at 63. I feel kind of blessed that he didn’t get the full onslaught of Alzheimer’s. My grandfather also died from Alzheimer’s, but I didn’t know him very well he lived across the country.
Respect, brother. Lost my grandmother last year to Alzheimer's disease
Your mom was very fortunate to have a lovely person like you for a son.
My dad died of dementia five years ago. Your family has my deepest condolences.
My grandfather passed through complications with dementia. I watched my grandpa's memory erode away until He didn't really remember me anymore. Didn't remember the times he took care of me, the walks we took through the mall, the breakfasts we went to. And by the time I was able to appreciate the impact his love of learning had on me, He couldn't comprehend my sincere gratitude I felt.
He was the most brilliant man I ever knew, with an infectious laugh and a persistent gentle tone. He was, and still is, my hero. But I never got to tell him that. My father was distant and didn't have a lot in common with me. My grandfather was the role model that I needed. I don't think I can really express how much of my personality came from the time I spent with him. And as I have grown I am told how much I look like him and how alike we are.
It hurts, it hurts more than I can possibly describe. My brother is older than me and I can remember just sitting in the room while he talked about science and history with my grandpa. I didn't understand any of it. Now I feel horrible, I feel horrible that I am jealous that I never got to have the same conversations.
A lot of times it was scary. My grandmother would want to go to a casino so I stayed with my grandpa. Someone always had to be with him in case he woke up and didn't know that the house he was in was his. I was barely 14, I could still remember having to have my grandpa walk me to a bathroom just to take a shit. Yet I was there, making sure that this man wasn't afraid to sleep in his own bed. Not even a decade before he would babysit me making sure I wasn't in a similar position.
Some times I would be woken up in the middle of the night, my mom getting a phone call that he was wandering aimlessly through an apartment complex looking for his own door that was just a few hundred feet away. He finally passed when I was 18, I had maybe a semester's worth of classes to take before I would have graduated high school. I didn't have an emotional break. My brain just stopped. I was so thoroughly shut down mentally that I dropped out of school.
Looking back I still don't think I am completely past his death. I am sorry Jeff. I know we probably didn't have the same experience but I understand the pain.
Sorry for your loss, Jeff. I can empathize.
I lost my aunt, also to Alzheimer just over two weeks ago.
I recognize the emptiness.
Thanks for sharing.
My condolences, Jeff. Take all the time you need to recover from this.
Losing a person you love is hard. We just absolutely love you and we are here for you Jeff.
I work in healthcare, and done some work on a dementia unit. It's heartbreaking and scary. Love your family and treat them well.
Joss thank you for your work.
The Holiday family is in my thoughts. Take the time you need.
Sorry to hear about your mother's passing. Alzheimers is a scary disease, robbing you of who you are before you are nothing but a shell of your former self, a person completely dependent on others till finally those tangles and plagues finally kills you off.
Personally, if I ever get Alzheimer's, I would like to every last one of my relatives to just not visit me after I'm too far gone. It is better that way as I would not be remembering them anyways and they would not have to be caught in that limbo. Next time they'll see me is at my funeral.
You have such a way with words Jeff. Sending the love.
That's what I was thinking. The love expressed...just lost for words.
I’m so sorry Jeff, losing a loved one is so so difficult 💔
If you need to take a longer break it’s okay, we will understand.
Please take care of yourself.
Lots of love for you and your family. ❤️❤️❤️
Feel yourself hugged from a random dude from Germany. Take the time you need. We can wait, your feelings can't.
My Dad suddenly dropped dead on Dec 28 2017 at age 65. There were no signs or symptoms. The doctors told us he had a sudden cardiac arrest and was dead before he dropped to the floor because he never tried to catch himself falling. One minute is was alive, the next he was dead. Minutes before it happened he had just posted a picture on Facebook. The shock of everything that happened following his death still hasn't gone away yet. People will say "Time will make things better, time will heal your hurt". But the truth is, time makes it worse. I've been terribly depressed every since. Losing a parent is devastating. I pray for you Jeff during this difficult time for your family. Alzheimers is evil. My grandmother had dementia before she passed away and even though it was sad she couldn't remember the present, it was comforting hearing her talk endlessly about her childhood in Italy. Find the small things to comfort you.
My Nanna was recently diagnosed, it's absolutely terrible. I'm so sorry for your loss, Jeff.
Sorry about your loss man, I lost my mum at aged 12 to cancer but it's shit to go through at any age. Although over time you start to forget the bad stuff and just remember the good bits.....
Sui Zomb I’m so sorry 😢
*hugs* Jeff, sorry for your loss :( x
Grief is a process and everybody goes through it in their own way. There is no correct way to grieve and dealing with Alzheimer’s leading up to your mothers passing...
Sorry for your loss.
Jeff, my suggestion is to go for a long drive and park and scream as loud as you can until the wall breaks.
This is basically what I had to do. Completely different diagnosis, but when my mom passed away I'd been bottling emotions for 8 years already, it took some time for the dam to break.
One moment your screaming, the next your crying in the back seat... 🙏🏾
Some people grieve their loss earlier than others, especially in long term illnesses...
Take time for yourself, grief counseling is wonderful.
Take care jeff, you are loved
Hope things start looking a little better for you.
Edit: I have not expirenced what you are expiriencing right now but that emotion your feeling is shock. I have felt the same thing the past few days. My dog lost his eye and we have been really trying to protect his other one. I experienced shock and am still on it but I know its gonna be alright. For you Jeff I hope you see lighter days. I really do. As someone who watches your content a lot and really appreciate all the medical advice in most your videos. I wish you luck man. Love from Washington Jeff.
The Music Corner Im sorry, that's so sad. It's awful when your pet is suffering because you can't explain things to it.
@@elronlushtail3666 So true. I regret certain things in the situation. But yes you are completely correct.
my condolences!
my grandpa also had it... he told us back then that the worst thing is when he realises that he is starting to forget stuff...
Geeze, that's heartbreaking.
As sad as it is for the family, having to live with it and know there is nothing you can do must be one of the scariest things.
My condolences.
I had to watch this happen to my wonderful grandfather. That is exactly why I feel like compassionate euthanasia should be allowed everywhere. It is ok to feel empty. It'll all come when it comes. We're all here for ya man.
When you've lost as many loved ones you have; by the time death comes for the people you love the most, you'll find yourself emotionally bankrupt. Don't be too hard on yourself. My condolences to you and your family.
I just lost my grandpop Jeff. 💔 My condolences to you and Mem and family.
I am sorry for your loss.
I am sorry for your loss.
It is hard to hear this from you, Jeff. I'm sorry for your loss.
Thank you for your strength to be open and share this.
It helps remind me that life is not trivial, and we shouldn't treat it as such.
See you soon.
I am truly sorry for what you've gone through, Mister Holiday...
I’m sorry Jeff, my grandpa has dementia and I feel your pain. Good thoughts going your way. (Prayers too but I know that’s not your thing)
My sincere condolations Jeff, wish you all the best.
Love, Dude, and thanks for sharing this with us!
I lost my father-in-law the same way. It seemed to linger and was horrible. Through it all, I learned why it is called "The Long Goodbye." Sorry to hear of your loss.
I’m so sorry Jeff. We are all here for you. You take all the time you need to grieve. ♥️♥️
I didn't know about this, I'm really sorry to hear it
Grief is an ebb and flow of emotions. Thank you for sharing your journey. Sincere Condolences Jeff. 💔
Sorry for your loss man, I watch all your videos but rarely comment, felt like i should this time
My sincere condolences. “Tearless grief bleeds inwardly.” Christian Bovee.
I am so sorry I went through this with my grandmother
I am sorry for everything you're going through. I wish you and yours the best moving forward.
My deepest condolences, Jeff. Sending healing energy your way♡
Jeff - I teach Disability Support & Aged Care in a community college, I have added this video to our course for all of our students to watch. Your very poignant and personal insight resonates very closely with me. My grandmother had Alzheimer's and it was terrible to helplessly watch her deteriorate into someone we no longer recognised. Thank you for sharing your feelings.
My condolences and I'm sorry for your lossyou have the support of the community and your followers
Wow, people a totally downvoted this.
Wish you the best jeff.
Your mom would be proud of you. I am a mom. My kids aren't much younger than you. I would be proud of them,I am proud of them.
I feel your pain Jeff. Stay strong, much love.
Many thanks for sharing, and keeping us updated. When my grandmother passed away from her own complications, yeah, I was heartbroken, but also relieved. My family and I were aware of her condition, and we stayed with her through her journey. Everything is going to be alright . . . . . we're all here for you.
There is a really great film about the devastation of Alzheimer’s - for those suffering and those watching others being afflicted called Away From Her. I recommend it for sure.
I lost my maternal grandmother to alzheimers in 1998, I had very similar feelings to you, I had been grieving for years before she died, when she finally passed I just had emptiness.
You're not alone.
This is how I was with my G-ma in 2005. I condolence you.
we're here for you jeff ,saying sorry for your loss doesnt begin to cover it but hope you get your release at some point if it helps
I'm sending you my Condolences and well wishes Jeff.
Keep your head up!
My heart goes out to you. My boss (who I adored) lost his mother to that horrible disease, and I joined him on the charity walk for it. I am sad you are in so much pain.
There's nothing wrong if your grief is delayed or not what you think. As you said, you have been going through this for some time. You're burnt out. You do what you have to do but be patient with yourself. Your family is there for you and so is your fanbase. Take care.
Sending much love your way Jeff. I’m so sorry for your loss. Take your time to grieve, please don’t feel you have to rush yourself.
We all love you and you’re in our thoughts. Best wishes to you.
There's something particularly brutal about a disease that steals your loved one from you more than once.
Words cannot express my sympathy for you and your family. I'm so sorry you had to go through this. Take all the time you need to. RUclips isn't going anywhere (well. I mean... Maybe it is, everything is a shitshow right now).
Brother we all support and love you. I know the loss of a mother is hard as I lost mine 4 years ago. My grandfather has alzheimers currently and they have pulled him off his medication as it is no longer helping. They have said that we only have about 6 months left before he wont remember who we are currently. If ya need someone to talk to that understands brother dont hesitate to reach out. Much love.
Wow, Jeff. I am so sorry for the loss of your Mom, Alzheimer's is THE WORST disease, more so for the family members I think. Its amazing how similar your story is to my grandfather. He has Alzheimer's for 15 years, fell and broke his hip and passed within the week.
I feel for you Jeff. My grandmother suffers from Alzheimer's as well, and it's been really hard to see her go downhill for years. She constantly talks to herself in the mirror and thought we went to school together. I remember she used to also have periods of months where she believed my aunt was someone who had kidnapped my aunt and was replacing her. I wish you luck in this difficult time and send my condolences.
My husbands grandmother who basically raised him died from Alzheimer’s as well. It’s a horrible, horrible disease. It totally erases the person you loved. So sorry for your loss hugs to you and yours.
My great grandmother passed from Alzheimer's, and I think you might be right. She fell and was hospitalized, and at that point I had little to no relationship with her, but she never really got back up. She passed around the time of my birthday and her funeral was almost held the day of my 15th birthday. I'm so sorry that you have gone through this and hope that it can only go up from this point on.
Jeff thank you for sharing this. I'm walking this road right now and I needed to hear every single thing you said. Thank you, thank you. My heart and thoughts are with you and your family at this time.
sorry for your loss.. i lost a family member late last year. it's hard and i'm sending all my love
So sorry for your loss mate. Can’t agree more with you on this video. Lost both my father and my grandfather to Alzheimers and it was so fucking sad to see them forget everything.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Alzheimer's and dementia are so painful to deal with. The times they forget who you are, who they are, are heartbreaking. I'm sorry you had to go through the pain of losing someone so utterly before they die.
Thanks for stopping the quacks that can cause serious damage to others, including vascular dementia.
That numbness will fade and that release will come when it's time. You won't know what will trigger it but one day it'll just hit you. Right now you needed the numbness to deal with the practicalities. Such is the brilliance of the human mind.
We all handle loss differently; all losses are different things to different people. However you handle it is your way of coping. Don’t feel like you should be doing anything differently.
My mom passed away after spending over a decade with vascular dementia. That muted feeling you talk about is how I felt, too. There was only one time I was emotionally able to have that cathartic breakdown. You talking about all this is going to help someone else going through this, too. Thank you for using your words. I don't know you, but feel a lot of love toward you right now. Take care of you.
Jeff, my deepest condolences on your loss. I lost an aunt that had Alzheimer's a few years back and watching her go through that was not easy to watch. Stay strong.
So very sorry, Jeff. My grandmother has late stage Alzheimer’s and it started with mid age dementia. I mourned my grandmothers “death” about 7 years ago as she’s not been herself ever since.
Jeff im so sorry you had to go through that, and i understand first hand what that numbness feels like, just know that we're all here for you and your family and all of us love you
I'm so sorry for your loss. I've had family members pass from terminal diseases & the sense of guilt from the sense relief that they are finally gone & are no longer in pain are so confusing. That stage of feeling blank, when you think you should be sobbing & screaming & it's not there... & all people can say is I'm sorry for your loss.
Lots of love Jeff. So much love hun ❤️❤️❤️
I really appreciate you talking about this Jeff. So much of this resonates with my story as I'm currently watching my mother die of late stage alchohalism and my grandmother of Alzheimers. I never though that I would be having to say goodbye to these people in my early 20s. All that while dealing with my own progressive disease. Death is all around us and we're just trying to find the best way to cope. And honestly I think you and I are doing pretty good. I feel for you being afraid of losing yourself to a disease. I'm 20 and am quickly losing my mobility while my brain stays sharp. But life goes on. We keep going because of the little things. And that just has to be enough. You have my condolences friend. Things will get easier.
It is very hard watching a loved one deteriorate from such a terrible illness. Both of my grandparents died that way. My gramps in October 2017.
I also worked in aged care for about 5 years and I was in the dementia wing. I have done several deathbed overnight watches because their families didn't want them to die alone.
I'm glad you have been able to tell others about your experience of watching a loved one slowly leave us and forget us.
I am sorry for you loss Jeff. My uncle died of vascular dementia complications and I have an aunt who is currently in a care home with dementia. it’s terrible to see someone just forget everything and seeing that person you knew go. Such a horrible illness Alzheimer’s /dementia
My great grandmother died from Alzheimer's complications. I'm so sorry for your loss. Its such a fucking nightmare of a disease and I wish it on no one, not even my worst enemy.
The last thing she said to me, the Christmas before she died was "I know we're related but I dont know how" I was 17 and this woman basically raised me because my mom worked all the time.
Jeff I’m so sorry for your loss and I totally understand how you’re feeling right now. All of my grandparents except for one has had dementia. My grandmother on my mom’s side died 2 years back from dementia. How you described that you felt robbed and empty was exactly how I felt when she died. I didn’t feel a thing at that point when she died. I honestly felt robbed as well as guilty because I thought I should have felt more pain or just anything in general. I felt totally numb until at least a year later when it just suddenly hit me and I started randomly crying. My grandfather on my father’s side is basically a husk of his former self at this point. I don’t think he knows who he even is anymore and he just stays in an old veterans’ home. It’s truly heart breaking to see him in that state, but there is nothing we can do about it. Now my grandfather on my mom’s side is living with us and he also has dementia. He still remembers who we are and things from the past, but he has pretty much no short term memory at all. Everything just kind of goes over his head and he repeats a lot of the same things everyday. It’s very hard for my family and I’m sure it’s hard for many others. Remember you’re not alone and I hope everyone in a situation similar stays strong!! Much love to everyone!! 💕
Your description of the processes of losing your mom and your feelings are exactly how I felt when my mom was terminal and passed away. My grandfather passed 2 months later from Alzheimer's. It's so scary. I'm sorry you went through this too. How you're feeling is normal. The numb will melt away slowly.
I'm sorry for your loss. Lots of love, to you, Memory, the babes, and all your family. Stay strong, you're a bright star and may your light shine for eons
I understand that wall of emotion. Grandma has been diagnosed with AML, life measuresd in months. Watching her slowly falling apart. Yet I cried more over this video than my situation. I love her, and it's definitely taxing on my spirit. We do what we must.
Best to your family.
Thank you for sharing this Jeff. I relate, lost my mom who had parkinsons related schizophrenia at the end. I watched her fade into a ghost for 4 years. At the end she didn't know me, and really I no longer knew her. I was numb when I got the call. I'd already let her go.
I understand what you're going through. Watching a disease like this slowly take away a family member over the course of several years, having them pass on is almost a blessing. My Deepest Sympathies
I'm so sorry, Jeff. My grandpa passed away from Alzheimer's too. I't broke me to see this man that had been so strong and active, just looking so empty inside. I also felt empty, I just couldn't bring myself to believe he was gone. And part of me feels it was because part of him was gone long before he passed and I had been mourning him long before he passed. I know you are not religious but I'll pray for you, just think of it as someone who empathizes so fucking much with you and wishes good things for you.
I'm sorry for your loss. We also had an Alzheimer's death on my side and my husband's grandpa is currently suffering from it, as well.
I'm so very sorry for your loss. My grandfather had Alzheimers, but died from renal failure. It was really hard watching him slowly slip away. It's a horrible disease. Again, my condolences to you and your family. ❤
Jeff, I’m so truly and immensely sorry for your loss and you and your family are in my thoughts 💔
I'm so sorry. My grandmother had severe dementia and while I can't fully understand what it is to deal specifically with terminal Alzheimer's I do know what it's like to have someone you love slowly forget you and saw what it did to my mom and her brothers and sisters. Sending you a massive hug.
I’m so sorry for your loss, and I completely understand how you feel. It’s difficult to have that sort of visceral reaction to death when you’ve been preparing for it, to some extent. And yes, the harsh reality is that Alzheimer completely obliterates someone’s memories, personality traits, it devolves them into what is essentially a vegetative state, and as much as we’d like to think that deep down they’re still our loved one, they’re not. However, I hope you can find some sort of comfort in knowing that despite her condition, you were able to love and care for your mother, unconditionally, as she once did for you when you were a child. I hate to quote the Bible, as I’m far from religious myself, but I’d like you to think of this verse: “love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends”. I wish you and your family the best during these hard times, and thank you for sharing your story with us
So, so sorry, Jeff. Many good thoughts to you and your family. My grandfather passed from complications due to dementia and Parkinson's. It's so, so hard. Alzheimers and other brain-eroding diseases are horrible. Much love to you, Memory, and the kiddo.
Jeff, I'm so sorry about your mom. Your right about Alzheimer's, it is a bitch of a disease. I've worked at a nursing home for over 30 years and seen what it does to a person and their family. Some family members never visit, some come daily and some blame staff or lack of care for any decline. They're all just trying to cope with the long drawn out loss of their family member. I feel honoured to look after those with dementia and try to help them feel loved and needed. A smile or a word from some one with advanced dementia is so special, it helps me get through my long shift. Loosing my parents was so hard for me, both passed away suddenly in their sleep, it took awhile to even feel human again, to feel again. Hugs for you and your family.
Lost my mother to Cancer 5 years ago on 24 July. Best wishes to you and all your family during this time.
So this really *killed* my mood.
(Nah, for real, stay strong. We love you man)
I'm so sorry for your loss, Jeff. I had to go through Alzheimer's with both of my grandparents and it's never easy. Stay strong and think positive.
I'm so sorry for your loss Jeff! My Husband's mother is battling Alzheimer disease, and our aunt just came over gushing that she was "back". Her memory has momentarily returned with her medication, but we know it's temporary. It will break my heart if she forgets her sons and her grandbabies. It's an awful disease, and I will be praying for your family!
My heart goes out to you, Jeff. My mom is one bad fall away from not being here--I'm hugging her an extra time tomorrow, for you.
I'm so sorry for your loss jeff. My grandmother passed away last month from breast cancer. We knew it was coming too. I was a blubbering mess at first. Now I feel empty. It still doesn't feel real. Sending you and your family all my love.
Sorry for your loss man. My grandad died from vascular dementia. Not the same as Alzheimer’s but kind of the same principal and it sucks big time.
Jeff I am sooo sorry for your loss. My grandmother lived with us for the last year and a half of her life. She also passed from Alzheimer’s. To watch this lovely sophisticated lady slip away mentally but still be there physically was difficult. There are so many emotions tangled together love, denial and anger. It’s okay to feel all these. Hold on to the good memories with your mom. Create new memories with Memory and your little one.
Love to you and your family.
I’m so sorry to hear this.... my nana suffers from Alzheimer’s and is currently in hospice. You’re a strong, beautiful spirit with so much light to share with the world. I hope you’ll be able to smile soon. May your momma Rest In Peace, she lives through you and your beautiful soul. 😔
I am so sorry for your loss Jeff. I had this experience with my Dad, who didn't recognise me for about 4 years before he passed. A year after my Dad died, my husband died, six months after that my Mum died. She had had a stroke three years before and I had been caring for her. I feel for you I really do. Much love to you and your family. xxxxx
I’m sorry for your loss man. I really am. This video got me thinking about how the love of my life is truly at risk of getting Alzheimers. It terrifies me to think about her getting such a devastating disease. I wish you all the best Jeff. Much love from Pennsylvania !
I’m so sorry for your loss Jeff. I know how you feel. I’ve lost people to Alzheimers as well, and I’ve lost my mother too. Nobody deserves to see someone in Alzheimers, much less someone as great as you.