7 years of being free from the benzo prison!!
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Easy does it, just one day at a time. I never thought that I could live a normal life without the use of benzodiazepines. Then, after coming off them and living in the wreckage of what they did to my health, I wondered if I'd ever feel okay again. It certainly has not always been easy, but this new life post-benzos has been worth the pain of admission.
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Good God man. 6mg daily? Wow. Look, if you can do it, we should all be able to do it. I'm on .50 mg now and I'm tapering 10% a month and it's been a shit show. I'm down from 3mg daily. Been on it 6 years.
Proud of you 👏❤., I'm tapering off valium after 10 years and 10 mg. I'm down after 6months, to 4.5 mg. Bless you
Congratulations on 7 years of benzo freedom! My anniversary month is September as well. Sept 23 2022 was my 5 year anniversary. I'm so grateful to have come so far and to be healed. It was hard work!
That’s awesome! Thanks for sharing with us that healing happens and giving hope for people still in the throes of benzo damage. It’s certainly a horrendous thing to go through it and people need to hear that others have done it. 🙏🏻
I coming up on 5 yrs off of Klonipin. I wasn’t on no where near the amount you were on. You’re very lucky to be alive. I was on .5-1 mg for 10 yrs. I’m still not fully healed from this experience. It’s by far the worst thing I’ve ever been through. I’ve been through a lot of different things in my life, and nothing comes close to the amount of pain and torment benzodiazepine withdrawal does to people.
I agree, it was the hardest thing I’ve survived- bar none. One of the crazy things about these drugs too, is how some people take relatively small doses and still become badly damaged. You were also taking them a long time so that was most likely also a factor. Glad you’re off them though!
You're right. And .5 will mess a person up getting off of it.
Congratulations Dan, well done. I really look forward to your videos I feel that they are so very honest and helpful. I liked all the pictures that you shared. You seem to be back to a somewhat normal life. Good for you! I also notice how you take the time to answer people and give them encouragement. We are all in this together.
Thanks Peggy! I created this channel with the intention of fostering a place where we could support and encourage each other. Thanks for being a part of it and contributing!❤️🙏🏻
thank you so much for giving me hope!!! I am currently tapering off gabapentin and methadone and I have a long way to go but I feel like I am never going to be ok mentally ever again. It is also my daughter who I want to live a long healthy life for and it sucks I got myself into this mess. It's so reliving to know I am not alone, we are not alone because it's not really our fault, it's society's fault for medicating us instead of healing and helping us get better.
I can feel where you’re at and I empathize with you. We are absolutely not alone- you are not alone. We’re not meant to do this life alone. I’ve received incredible amounts of help to get to where I’m at today. I believe we all have the capacity to heal and come out the other side better than when we went in. It takes some willingness and dedication and patience, but my own healing is a testament to what is possible. Go easy on yourself and know you’ve got a safe place here.❤️🙏🏻
I’m getting a lot out of your videos, encouragement and hope. For me it was 25 years on, 4 years off and the journey continues. God bless you. You are making a difference.
Wow! Congratulations! I can’t imagine coming out of that after 25 years. Thank you for the kind words, it’s what makes me want to continue making these videos.
Congrats on the 7 years free!!! You speak so well, so articulate, and your message is so thoughtful, so right on! It's a testament to how far you have come with your healing! I'm just ahead of you, having had my 8 year anniversary last April from a similar dose of Klonipin as you, after having been on it for 18 years!. I went through the same hell, and honestly, I'm amazed that I made it though, even though I had a 18 month taper. Still in the final phases of healing, with having similar issues that you mention having as well, but living a full life. I encourage you in keeping on with your videos, you have a real presence and are so well spoken. This message needs to be told over and over again! Peace to you, my brother!
Thank you Robert! I deeply appreciate your words and I intend to keep making the videos as long as people find them helpful and encouraging. But, more over, congratulations on 8 years free from the benzo prison!! I’m in awe of people who can make it through a long taper and see it through to the end. That must have been a hell of a journey after 18 years on them. I’d love to hear your story someday. Glad that we both can be on the other side to let people know that healing is possible. Thanks again. 🙏🏻
Don't Give Up!!!
You' re One Day Closer To Being Healed!!!
Love It!!!!
Much love to everyone
Thanks again for a great community
Seven years seems like a lifetime, doesn’t it? So happy for you and your tremendous accomplishment. Your attitude is always so positive and encouraging. Thank you for sharing your pictures. You have always had a strong constitution…it comes through very strong. Knowing what you overcame has me in awe of your process. So well done and worth major celebration.
Another question on your journey…did you experience insomnia during your recovery? That is another huge obstacle for me.
Cheers, Dan! Much Love.
Thanks Jaclyn, and yes, 7 years does seem like a long time because so much has happened. Thank you for the kind words. And yes, I have struggled with insomnia on and off through the years. I used to take Trazadone when I first came off Klonopin so I could sleep for a few hours. Then, I used valerian, and melatonin on and off for a few years. Now, I use a little magnesium and chamomile and that does the trick for me without feeling groggy the next day.
Morning Jaclyn how are you doing? I haven't heard from you in a while. I just wanted to remind you that you are Awesome
Jaclyn I was just thinking about you and hope you are doing well.
Much Love Bob
Congrats... seeing you thrive is much motivation... stay strong...
Thanks Michael!
Your channel is growing Dan! I’ll try to think of some topics for you to cover I know you covered the basics of benzos, if you run out of benzos ideas it would be cool hearing about your suboxone detox and what vyvance addiction was like, or story videos are awesome too like how you got into addiction or something
This channel has grown in large part because of you, Marc! So thank you. Those are great ideas, keep ‘em coming. I’ll keep making the content that’s most helpful. I’ve been thinking about you this past week and sending you positive vibes. How’s your new job going?
Thank you for your videos! I'm so glad you made it to the other side. :) I had electrical feeling vibrations in my ankle yesterday and used your suggested imagery of my body being a house and a person working on that area. It is a helpful tool!
Thanks Kristin! Visualization is a powerful tool. I’ve used it for a long time. Glad you’ve found it helpful too!
iT IS SO GOOD TO HEAR AND SEE YOU ARE HEALING!!! You sound very normal... I too had the ocular migraines... I had colored jagged lines BUT I only took about 3 years to completely heal.
Glad to hear that you healed! 🙏🏻
@@philosophicalfishing Thank you so very much..yes..I ah evenbetter than before I took a benzo...I am so fascinated by yourstory....Very moving!!! I just did an interview 3 days ago on this channel... ruclips.net/video/595-neD7Zrc/видео.html
@@Q1776Q awesome! I’ll give it a listen!
Your kind sir, so thank you for helping us out ❤❤❤
Thanks. And congratulations
THankyou so much it helps so much right now. I am not going to give up even if I cant see it for myself yet I can see the changes you made. Pictures you posted at the end are really inspirational especially when I am detached from myself but I can still see the amazing transformation you made. You ROCK
Thank you Bob! We’re all in this together. We are probably the one’s who can help each other the most because we understand how terribly hard this journey can be. I know it was helpful for me early on to see people come back and show others that they’d healed and recovery from the damage is possible.
@@philosophicalfishing I am in the jungle of it 3 months clean. Some days I feel good other days I can barely do anything but play video games if I am lucky. Mind is looping like crazy. I need to get some more Amanita Muscaria. I cry when I see your pictures at the end sounds weak but the funny thing I am actually strong in order to tackle this. I can see myself in those pictures. You are doing a great service keep it up. I enjoy the real talk but it is more positive with coping strategies as well. You should consider doing coaching or other things as well. You Rock Brotha!!
Thanks Bob- you are strong as hell to go through this! Never doubt that for a second. Also, I cry often. Haha. I’m a pretty big softie in many ways, but that’s okay. That’s just me.
Also, I have thought about doing some coaching on the side but more in the spiritual aspect. Thanks for the comment!
@@philosophicalfishing Thankyou so much it is great to hear that from someone bc inside I often feel like I am weak but I know I am not. Coming up on 4 months cant believe it. Was also a C/T has been pretty brutal but no drugs/alcohol nothing. Thanks again
Thank you!🙏🏻
Prayers i am tapering lexapro it is hell
The rain is actually soothing lol
Lol, hell yeah. Maybe I’ll start adding some smooth jazz in the background of the next videos. 😂
@@philosophicalfishing dude great idea!
The symptons are so varied and seemingly endless. Glad u found peace. And yes, skin problems.
Keep making the videos man 😊
Everyone’s experience is different. Maybe I’m one of the lucky ones - though I’m still in it…
I was prescribed 3mg per day of Ativan. I very quickly realized it was an issue - after less than a week. I told my psych I wanted to taper immediately. Tried going cold Turkey after 4 weeks of daily use - YEAH DONT DO THAT!
I still am ready to take .50mg of Ativan whenever I need it - again I’m still very new and into it but can say that Benzos did save me during my crisis… I have researched and tried various supplements and feel like the supplements have finally started to kick in.
Congratulations on your 7 years free Dan my friend.... some dude...im 7 months 😆 can't wait for 7 years.... il be here with ya.... thank you for your help and support.... the good guy. Many respect.
Thanks Thomas! Congratulations on 7 months- that’s no easy feat by any means.
@@philosophicalfishing thanks Dan... im watching your video just now .its really good and seeing your pictures to.... Great man.... I had the flu over a week ago and its messed me up quit a bit.... feel like I'm back in acute at the beginning.... did you have a flu through this? Not benzo flu thats different lol 😆 the end of your video touches the Hart to man.
I never got really sick until I had Covid this past February and then it affected me pretty bad. I was down for at least 3-4 days and felt anxious and depressed for at least a month or 2 afterwards.
@@philosophicalfishing its just crazy to me the amount of common normal things that can effect this and set it back....hopefully will pass soon.... thank you Dan.
It can drive you crazy wondering what the hell “normal” even was like prior to getting on benzos.
You are amazing!! Thank you for the videos I am no almost 15 months call turkey 12 years 3 mg colada pin 3 mg Lunesta should tell the antipsychotics on antidepressants call Turkey all his bitches life has sucked immensely I’ve lost my family let alone in my mind in my feelings did your feelings of joy ever come back or did you always feel empty and just down walking around like you didn’t wanna exist on Earth
Damn, sounds like you’ve been through the ringer with these meds too. After I came off the meds I did have a long period where I couldn’t feel anything- just went completely blank. I would take these long walks in nature and I couldn’t feel a thing, no joy, no sadness, nothing at all; which to me is worse than feeling sadness. But the good news is my emotions came back and eventually evened out somewhat. It took a long time and I’ve always been more on the emotional side so for me it’s a lot of progress in that area.❤️
Hey Dan amigo how's things with you ma man? I hope alls well..... hey man something weird has happened to me when I woke up today...... I've been getting symptoms so bad for the past 2 months with them just getting worse instead of better.... Monday and tuesday I felt the symptoms get a little better but Wednesday and Thursday it was so bad I couldn't get out of bed so I kinda gave in trying to sleep and was up till 8.15 in the morning.... I woke up at half 2 in the afternoon and every fuckin symptom apart from some jaw tension has completely gone... no anxiety..fatigue... nothing.... im in shock of the feeling of feeling normal.... I haven't felt this in so long I feel like I can't except it or something...... what the hell is happening here man?
Funny you should ask that… Im just finishing working on a video about windows and waves that I’ll try to put up either later tonight or tomorrow. It’s totally normal what you’re going through.
@@philosophicalfishing I feel normal... I can feel my skin and everything... no fear..nothing... my jaw still moving around but its nothing.... I've felt at times through this that I was getting better but looking back after it I could see I was still real bad messed up but this is different.... I've been out all day and night and not long home with my kid.....(its 11.30pm here in Glasgow)and its been awsum.... I feel like I can do anything without panicking.... this is amazing .
I'm struggling with guilt ...I feel like.im not a good parent right now..I try so hard to not feel this way it's so hard when you feel like crap to get up and take care of my son .do you have any videos on parenting during benzo withdrawal?.I'm struggling really bad I dont know what to do anymore ...can u maybe do a video on this topic ?
I know how that feels- that’s such a terrible feeling. I had heavy guilt too from the way I was when I was on benzos/drugs/booze, and then trying to parent better while in benzo damage is so hard. That’s a great idea for a video, I’ll do that when I get back home after the holidays. Thanks for the suggestion.
@@philosophicalfishing your welcome ...happy holidays
Congratulations!
Thanks!
Congratulations!! What tools do you use to get through anxiety now?
Meditation, music, deep breathing, prayer, nature, polyvagal nerve exercises, working out, bike riding.
@@philosophicalfishing it’s something about those things that just replenish the soul.
Yes! I think so too, from my experience.
6mg. Wow man. That's enough to tranquilize an elephant. Well done you and you look really good. Do you go to the gym now? I have to say not only do you look the polar opposite from your old picture, mentally you seem so much better, wiser and stronger. And from what you say I an tell that is true. Yesterday I probably had my first day where I thought I will eventually heal. I'm 16 months out so not even 18 yet. At 2 years I hope to see some improvement. ❤
Hey! Yes, I’m very lucky to be alive today, and yes, I am pretty zealous about making sure I’m at the gym, working out at home, biking, jump roping, or doing something daily. Even on vacation I’ll get a pass to a local gym to make sure I’m getting exercise. Maybe I’m a little bit of a perfectionist about it, but I know it’s helped me immensely, so I’m pragmatic and I do what works.
Glad you’re seeing some healing! That’s fantastic. Just keep going- it will continue to get better and better!
@@philosophicalfishing Thankyou. Interesting and that was a small bit what I was like before taking the pill. Mainly for looking better because I was young, but it always made me feel better and stronger. Even while on the benzos I stopped and dont really know why. I hope to be able to be able to work out to a smaller level one day, and not really to look good at all but to FEEL good. And if I look it then that's an added bonus. Also I can't believe what you said about ocular migraines, I showed one of my family members this segment as I haven't had one since, and this just adds to the fact that benzos were "making me unwell". Its hard to pinpoint what the drug did vs Pre drug related issues. All I know is this is teaching me to live a healthier lifestyle and I'm going to be the healthiest/most grounded person I've ever been.
I’m so mixed up with this panic attack Benzos stuff it seems my doc is ok giving me .5 mil Ativan for me it’s the muscle tension nothing I can do and it’s like a burning nerve thing I can’t sleep
Have u ever felt that one side of your brain not working?..if were then how long?
I just felt like my brain would generally stop working and I couldn’t think. I would stop talking and just kinda sit and stare for awhile.
@@philosophicalfishing how long one sided brain locked of yours..mine is left...still not filling well in cognitive
@@ManishKumar-xr3gt I feel like it started getting much better around the 9 month mark
I can’t believe they had you on klonopin and Valium as well two benzodiazepines 😳
Right! Such a dangerous level of drugs.
Hey Dan hope your keeping well bud and your weekend is going well.... I know you are 7 years clean but when did you declare yourself healed? Even though you have benzo belly and some other things still.
Hey Thomas, hope you’re doing well. You’re right about the benzo belly and a few other more minor lingering symptoms. Im definitely not 💯 healed, but I consider myself to have gone through an enormous amount of healing and really, miraculous healing to be sure. I guess I probably started saying I was 70-80% healed around year 3 or 4 somewhere and at that point I’d just gotten so used to my other symptoms that I tried my best to ignore them(and still do). I think when the anxiety let up enough for me to pursue more things in life I wanted to do I felt like I was significantly healed.
@@philosophicalfishing im not bad thank you Dan.. I had a great window over this weekend but can feel the wave comming back...seem to have 2 days where I'm starting to feel better but gone after 4 days... thanks for reply and I think if the anxiety and depression was gone the other symptoms even though they are real anoing and painful would be a hell of alot easier to deal with.. . I know everybody different in this and heal different but its still good to hear what happened with you and timelines....I think if this anxiety and blackness would go then I could deal with the other symptoms.
Hello Dan how's tricks? Have you found anything at all that takes this benzo belly bloating away? There's times ma stomach feels like it's gona burst man....it looks pure stupid...im only a 30 inch waist and skinny as fuck but this is a joke.... I've tried baggy t-shirts and jumpers but nothing hides it..... do you take anything for it? Cheers amigo.
I wish I’d found anything that takes it away, it sucks! The only things that gives me any help with it is a little liquid magnesium before bed helps relax things and keep things moving along nicely. But otherwise, nothing seems to help as I believe it’s nerve damage that takes forever to heal, at least for me.
@@philosophicalfishing thank you Dan.... magnesium.... I've never tried that....stomach swells more after eating... its amazing how big it gets... seems to get worse with the good foods... salads and fruit... I eat a curry and its not as bad..... this eating thing is driving me crazy ... getting sick of watching what I'm eating .... it actually doesn't matter what I eat to be honest....for benzo belly and the other symptoms.... keep on trucking I suppose... take it easy buddy.
Hey Dan, does your benzo belly seen to feel not as bad when you lay down vs being upright? 4 years off of Ativan and still suffering with it most of the time. No matter what I eat, everyday. Had a 10 day window a few weeks ago and it was glorious, like no stomach problems at all.
@@eddobrzenski5726 hey Ed, yes it definitely feels better when I’m sitting or laying down. Almost feels like it’s gone, until I stand up and then I’ve got a horrible pot belly and it’s uncomfortable. Still my worst and most time honored lingering symptom.
I was on 3 mg of Klonopin for about 14 years and now tapering.. I'm down to 2.5 mgs in 5 weeks and I'm in hell. How long was your taper?
My taper was 9 days in a treatment center. I do not recommend that.
I did that and almost died
Same here, my friend. It was absolutely brutal.
I'm home by myself and not having good thoughts. I'm scared
@@CF-Warrior are you tapering with the help of a doctor?
What happened to the video? Says no stream?
Uh oh, is it not working? I received a notice that there may be a copyright violation but I thought it was resolved.
@@philosophicalfishing Look forward to it being resolved. I saw some were able to view it…just thought I would check in.
@@jaclynpeters3892 I appreciate you letting me know. I've checked to see if there's any copyright violations but as of now there aren't any. I'll keep checking it periodically to see whats going on. Thanks again, Jaclyn!
@@philosophicalfishing You’re quite welcome! Looking forward to it!