the concept of just "rolling" hits me so hard. everyday when i woke up in 8th grade i would just say "one more day" or "just til sunday" it was like torture, but you have to do anything just to not end it all. when miku said "just a little more" i almost started crying. the entire concept of just "rolling" til everything gets better, but it really doesnt instead it gets worse yet you still hope, you just have to keep going. its so bittersweet, and i just want to thank wowaka for this masterpiece. theres no other song thst describes the feeling of just having to keep going for the sake of it better than this song.
i resonate with this so hard... this was my exact thought process too and this song hits so hard because of it. it's kept me going basically since i've started school years ago ;>
As a guy who doesn’t cry often, this song always hits a sensitive spot because I used to listen to it when I was going through heavy stuff. Still thankful to be rolling.
I've read the comments, and people keep saying that the beat is happy but the song is depressing. Am I the only one who thinks the sound of the song sounds super melancholy and sad? Like I don't hear this beat being happy at all. It just sounds sad.
i mean... that's literally what upbeat means in a musical sense. but i'm being a little shit by focusing on technicalities and i completely agree with you lmao.
Gone too soon. Rolling Girl holds such a special place in so many of our hearts. She will always roll on in your memory wowaka, thank you for everything.
Trying my best to explain this: The boy in this video is supposed to represent depression. 1:22 "One more roll. Today too I will roll." Rolling is representing living. "I will live a bit more. I'll keep living today." "is it enough yet?" He's asking if she wants to pass already "Not Yet. Because the end is not visible." She wants to keep living until it's her time. "I will stop your breath... Now." She wants to get rid of him. She wants to get rid of her depression. The boy smiles, he knows she won't be able to do it, he's still there with her. 1:51 She's still there, she's still living. She keeps getting more bandages, it's meaning that she keeps getting hurt by going on. She gets hurt the more she keeps "rolling". "Rolling Girl's shell of her former self. It will not reach the color on the other side." She keeps rolling but she still can't see the colors = she can't find the happiness. 2:21 She's seen running. she running away from him. "Hey, I said whaever happens is fine." She tries telling herself, knowing it's not true causing the boy to catch her. 2:29 When he catches her he wanted to convince her it's time. "One more roll." She insists "You will roll me somehow" She will try to keep on living. 2:41 "Is it enough yet?" "A little more" she keeps insisting "Pretty soon something will probably be visible" She is sure soon she will finally be able to see the colors "I will stop your breath... Now." This time, the boy says it. he pulls her by her throat, she's too powerless to convince him this time. She can be seen crying as he does it, she thought it will be painful and she will regret it. But the boy hugs her, it's then she sees how fast it was and how it caused her to see the colors. "Is it enough yet?" The boy asks again "It's fine" She said, she said it because she finally saw that it will be easier than to keep rolling. "You will probably be tired soon, right?" You will be tired if you don't stop. "I will end your breath... Now." the boy says. The girl then closes her eyes which means she finally agreed, she finally gave up to depression. She's dead now, she stopped rolling. Thank you for listening. I hope you all are doing the best. Keep rollling. You will eventually reach the end and it will stop hurting.
There's a lot of ppl saying the "rolling" here, means the cutting of herself. But I think it might be her continuing on living. Like, she doesn't want to die, she can't see the end clearly yet. Not yet, at least. So she keeps on "rolling" as in, living, or in other words, not dying. It's not time yet. She's hesitant. The boy there is a symbol of her depression. In the end, she finds comfort in this 'friend'. That she has. She was slowly pushed into the end. Thus the ending of the song, it cuts off, she stops 'rolling' and offs herself. She's tired. I'm sorry I'm bad at expressing opinions but this is just sad-
I think the "rolling " signifying her emotions supposed to signify her emotions cause it gets more and more intense the music then just stops as her life since her depression caught up to her
Well....ammm according to some people and also the internet. Rolling means Self-harming...But I would like to think about this song as how you put it...
14 years ago dude. Literal chills. If you were like.. 8 years old.. or 10, 12, whatever.. or in highschool, at this point in time, you were living a good life. The internet was fucking amazing back then and it's sad to see how bad the experience of the internet has gotten. There was so much passion back then, it was like every space was someone's scrapbook of pure thoughts and niche communities finding their place.
Think the internet still had a lot of of its own problems just like it does today. Nonetheless I agree heavily cus I was a kid back then and it's prob nostalgia talking but it felt as if everyone didnt have a more restricted experience online compared to now. Ahhhh I miss the wild west times
Even if you aren't a vocaloid fan, you have to admit the power of the message of this song. Absolutely beautiful. Anyone who is going through, or has gone through depression knows how scary it is. The rolling I think means going through life trying your best but still getting hurt constantly. You tell yourself to keep trying, but there is another part of you that just wants it to end. It doesn't necessarily mean suicide, it just means giving in. Being alive but not living.
Every day, every hour feels like a roll of the dice. Am I going to feel better? Am I going to want to die again? It feels like an endless loop. Sometimes there's reasons for certain rolls, like forgetting to eat or take medicine, but others are just so unpredictable. I never know what kind of hour I'm going to have. Will I be able to sleep? To eat? Will I ever? Every moment feels like an eternity, and you just have to remind yourself that it's just another roll, that there are plenty more, and that a roll is just a roll. Even though it never feels like "just" a roll. It never feels like just a roll. But somehow, over time, you can almost catch a pace with the bad rolls. I have others help me roll all the time. Without them, I think, not only would I be unable to roll, but the rolling would be meaningless. If I knew that I could finally stop rolling without hurting anyone else, I would. In a heartbeat.
@@mattiebibb6383 i kept rolling for past two years, then it got better and i was fine. But now i have to roll again. I even tried to die but it was unsuccessful. However, i learned that it can't last forever. It's just a chapter of everyone's life. One is shorter one is longer than you could ever imagine but it constantly gets better, trust me. Keep rolling, don't give up :)
I've been rolling for about 8 or 9 years now from constant bullying and depression since I was around 8 or so. It sucks, contemplating suicide. My mind wants to give in, but my body keeps refusing, and I feel like I'll be in this state for a long time. Half of me wants to just die, the other half yearns for a better tomorrow. So I just keep rolling...
Nathan Cabiles- I know you were asking ArtsyLaVerne but I just couldn’t help wanting to answer the question. I myself am not American but I do live in America, maybe it’s because my parents are not exactly rich and from a different country that they pressure me to become the “smart one” or “breadwinner” of the family because I’m the only one getting a proper education. I think it all depends on the person your asking and what background. I don’t think American schools are more strict than other countries, in fact I think they could possibly be more laid back compared to others.
_username :0 oh thanks its ok,thanks for your answer well it is true your parents might push you to be smart because they want you to have a good education to become rich and happy in america because foreigners parents usually want that for their children,good luck in america bro : D
Thoughts Regarding Comments: A) It's possible to give in to depression without it necessarily being suicide. Holding/stopping one's breath needn't be physically literal. A full-on mental breakdown is plenty damaging and has permanent effects of its own. B) You don't need to be bullied to feel like you don't belong. Not understanding others and not being understood is enough to cause real problems. It's totally possible to feel alone even when surrounded by other people. C) I'm seeing comments with the typical narrative of: bullied -> depressed -> self-harm -> suicide. That's a really reductive and stereotypical conception of depression and anxiety. The truth is far more insidious. The idea of rolling along day after day after day and just picking up more bumps and bruises as life goes on rings more true. It's far less dramatic and far more frustrating. D) The damage caused by depression and anxiety is usually invisible to others. It is very, very easy to ACT normal in one's day to day dealings with people. E) Despite other interpretations, to me the end of the song is saying it's okay to stop trying so hard. Sometimes pushing yourself to roll on like nothing's wrong isn't worth hurting yourself more. Some days you just have to stop and give up and let the depression work itself out. It will take time until you feel like you're capable of rolling again.
Agreed with your E point. The feeling I got when reading the translation was “this isn’t sustainable” she can’t just keep on rolling ignoring her problems and saying I’m fine. She has to face them and solve them. The way I saw it, she’s trying to ignore her problems acting like they aren’t there hoping they will sort themselves out without actually facing them, and that, ignoring her problems (or rather not facing them), is what’s not sustainable. It’s hurting her to just say “I’m fine” and not acknowledge her situation, and that, I think, is the message of the song. It’s okay to not be okay, but not acknowledging that fact will end up hurting you. Edit: it's basically like if you were physically sick and you just ignored it. That sickness would end up killing you. Same thing. Not acknowledging her problems and choosing to ignore them is like ignoring a sickness. You can pretend it's not there, but it is, and while you pretend it does not affect you it's tearing you down bit by bit. Only by Acknowledging you are sick can you get healed; only by acknowledging she has problems and confronting and solving them can she stop their damage. Idk, that might be convoluted, but that’s the feeling I got.
i’m reading through the comments of people saying the beat is a happy bop but the meaning is sad. but i can’t hear the happy in the sound, i hear anxiety, panic,anger and sadness throughout it and the animation honestly is breathtaking as to the fact it can be interpreted in many ways always resulting in what we ourselves relate to. everything about this song is so familiar. i thank you for this.
Fr, the song doesn't sound happy. It sounds haunting af. If this is happy to you, seek help lmao. And if you know the slang meaning of roll (self harm) it's so much more anxiety inducing
If you look carefully: 1:41 - The boy was smiling when the girl choked him. It was the girl saying "I will stop your breath now." 2:05 - The way how he talked changed from normally to smiling to laughing as if he was provoking her. 3:06 - I think it was the boy saying "I will stop your breath now" this time. I know some may say that he might be her friend or boyfriend trying to be supportive, but I'm more convinced that he represents her depression. Based on these highlights, it seems like the boy was enjoying the fact that she was trying hard not to give up, after telling her to give up (just so he can laugh at her failure). For the ending, I personally think he stopped her from choking herself and hugged her and said "It's fine. You will probably be tired soon, right? I will stop your breath now" because he sympathies her when she finally gave up in the end. It is like how you would show respect or sorrow to your rival after you won and ended a long lasting war. This applies the same to the guy (or depression) as he was convincing her to give up for so long and he finally succeeded. Before she ends her life, he would comfort her at the last moment since she might even "be tired" from even choking herself. So, instead of her killing herself, she lets the boy kill her (representing the depression was killing her).
2:14 I love the little guitar riff(?) at this part. It sounds so hopeless, like something just jumped out of your reach. I think it represents how depressed and far away the Rolling Girl really feels...this part always gives me goosebumps.
I've known this song for many years, but I never really knew what the guy was supposed to represent until I read the comments. It does make sense that he is supposed to represent Miku's depression, but I really noticed something at 1:40. She tries to make him back off by choking him, but he just stands there and smiles... Honestly that gives me chills seeing that, like it's his way of saying that Miku doesn't really have a chance of true happiness at all.
Yeaaah, I also noticed at 2:01, it looks like that same dude is tormenting her in that scene as well. From what I can tell, Miku starts yelling at him to stop talking, before losing it and starts screaming at the top of her lungs. All the while, he just starts laughing at her anguish. It's kind of crazy how stuff like this can be missed the first time around.
There is a problem to this theory. At the end of the video where the same guy that is tormenting her was preventing her from suffocating to death by hugging her. You can also noticed that the up until the part where he is hugging her there was only black and white, so you can think of it as inside of her busyhead is hallucinating and warping her point of view in reality If there something wrong to my own theory feel free to reply to this
@@david-rr8pi I would not say you are wrong. For the majority of the song, it is shown pretty well that Miku is mentally unstable, and it is very possible that she is imagining the guy just being against her in general. The thing that just throws me off honestly, is the lyrics near the end. Notably the last line, translating to something like "Stop breathing now" or "I'll end your breath now" (It's always different in every video I've seen, really depends on who's translating). That part does makes me think the guy is going against Miku too, but it's all just speculation.
I heard... People who think about death a lot, will have to face it earlier then expected He sacrificed himself for his music and to transfer his message to us R.I.P Wowaka
Welp. Seems i die earlier than i ever expect.... All because of one stupid thing that happend in school. I am gonna say it. FUCK YOU 2016!!! YOU HAVE ONLY GIVEN ME PAIN. FUCK YOU. JUST FUCK YOU........ I FEEL WORTHLESS, BECAUSE OF A STUPID CHOICE OF 366 DAYS, FUCK IT, IT IS A LEAP YEAR. FUCK YOU 2016. just fuck you........ YOU WILL TWKE MY LIFE ONE DAY, BUT FUCK YOU !
Another sad comment passing through. I can't believe wowaka is really gone. I grew up VOCALOID and his songs were a big part of my life, they really got me through a lot - this song in particular. So many memories... I sang Rolling Girl in my native language at a recording studio for a workshop, I listened to Rolling Girl when I was going through extreme periods of depression and suicidal ideation, I vented my feelings of hopelessness in the comment sections of the old subbed video. It wasn't just this song, but when I heard he passed away, this was the one I came to. That's probably what most people did (it /was/ his most popular song), and this comment is probably going to be lost in the swarm of others like it, but I'm so sad - it's not that this piece of my childhood is /gone/, but it'll certainly never be the same, and it's heartbreaking how short his life was, even though he reached so many people's hearts. RIP.
I remember being on the school rooftop, blasting this song in my ears, ready to jump. I was tired or rolling. I couldn't see the colors, i was ready to stop. The thought of my bestfriend's reaction to my suicide was what kept me alive, it kept me rolling. Fast forward to 1 1/2 years later and that friend turned the whole grade against me. All of this was before I got diagnosed with BPD, which explained a lot of my clingy "toxic" behaviors. I have no one to roll for. I want to stop
Please don’t. I know it doesn’t seem like it, but things that happen in school really don’t matter. It’s such a small part of your life, so why end everything because of something so small? (Sorry if this is a bad explain)
even though school might be a big part of your life, keep rolling until it becomes small and insignificant compared to everything you'd have in your life at that point. keep going for your future self, because if you will pass away, the world will remain with a hole where you've been. you will be missed even if you don't think so
Its the anniversary of rolling girl. Its been like 10 years since its gotten published. And the song just hits so much harder now that wowakas gone. He made such beautiful stuff like damn. Its sad he had to leave so early. Rest in peace wowaka.
@@tweekbats DAMNIT this is my favorite Vocaloid song and I was into Vocaloids when the Anniversary was happenings and I had no god dam idea WTF IS WRONG WITH ME
after knowing about wowaka's death, this song immediately came to my head. maybe because this song helped me cope with my depression when i was 13. i'll honestly never forget him, after all, his songs introduced me to vocaloid. we'll never forget you, wowaka.
@@urinarytractinfection4508 Um. Tons of people use music to cope with mental illness. Me too, and I was diagnosed by a professional. Of course it doesn't dissolve your problems, but it can bring some comfort when the writer tells a story similar to yours.
小晴天_QYC Another interpretation of this song is that both the boy and the girl are in an abusive relationship where they "love" each other but also physically injure each other. 😭 Maybe this is why she chokes him? Because at the end, she tried to choke herself but the boy wrapped her in a hug.
@@kate5266 as explained by someone else rolling is slang for self harm meaning that she's harming herself and at the end it just cuts off abruptly insinuating that she took her own life
This a perfect example of how dangerous the human mind is to itself, despite being capable of so much.... sometimes we can't take it, despite how hard we try.... and we try to last one more roll of the dice until we can't ....
When I first started listening to this, I was around 13. Severe depression, undiagnosed autism, suicidal. Didn't think I'd make it past 15. I'm 17 now, I survived thanks to the younger me. Years of therapy, many pills later, I still have to take my depression meds, but I am overall far better. Still fighting every single day, following art as a passion and discovering new things everyday. I'll keep rolling!
The last song I listened to before the end of the decade... Made me cry, but was worth it just to listen to the song that helped change my life in so many ways. Edit: joke's on you guys, i changed my profile so now the replies don't correlate!! ୧(>∀
I only just started to get really into vocaloid when he passed away. This is beautiful art and pioneered the genre of vocaloid songs packed with such unbelievable power. I'm glad he produced such a legacy. Live on in spirit, Wowaka.
The saddest part is that Miku's so broken that she is embracing her depression at the end and finally stops breathing (commits suicide) rather than rolling again (inflicting self harm to calm herself down) every single time when she's tortured. She thinks depression is her only true comfort in a world where she's terribly abused mentally, physically and emotionally, which would free her from this world so she can finally rest in peace. RIP Wowaka. You're a true legend. This song is deep and gold and has helped me so much through my depression. I hope the "Rolling Girls" around the world deserve something better in their lives rather than breaking down. Thank you for making this song and introducing me to Vocaloid. Vocaloid playlist is the only one which I listen to because it's so catchy and sometimes so sad but relatable. I'm glad people still come here in this comment section even 10 years later, although recently it is to tell you how much we miss you. 😭😭😭😭😭😭
@Mochi and Turtles Wowaka was the legend who changed the whole Vocaloid industry by producing timeless songs like 'Rolling Girl'. He sadly passed away on April 5th, 2019 due to heart failure, that too, at the young age of 31. Why must fate be so harsh? :,(
It's really heartbreaking to really think about this Wowaka passed away a few years now and it hit the community HARD. I've never seen so much fanart for a specific artist being made so fast, so many people were touched from his songs given he composed songs about depression which in itself is a bold move to make on his part. After he released Unhappy Refrain he pretty much was going to wrap up with vocaloid given that the community wasn't giving him enough credit for HIS voice On the 10 year anniversary of Miku we got another vocaloid song from wowaka called Unknown Mother Goose from my understanding the song was about wowaka coming to terms with his vocaloid career I even heard he basically saw Miku as his mother in the music career, someone that with help you with what your looking for to do but eventually will have you rely on yourself To those out there who are hardcore vocaloid fans just remember that the producers make the songs don't forget to give most of your praise for a song to the person who wrote it in the first place wowaka wherever you are, whatever your doing I hope you can rest easy knowing that you made a difference in so many peoples lives and even still continue to so
So in Japan people that are about to commit suicide take their shoes off, and if you look closely when you get a full body drawing of Miku (On this) she's not wearing any shoes just her socks, and at the end she is hugging the personification of her depression showing that she has given up on her life. Thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope you have a wonderful day/night/afternoon/evening bye now!
No he did save her life. At 2:50 you can clearly see it's HER hands that was stopping her own breathing and he pulled her hands away from her neck(thus saving her from suicide) then he pulled her into a hug
@@nurfarhani8517 Yea idk why people say the man is depression and the fact that Miku was wearing shoes its just not noticeable cuz it blends with her socks
@@icecreammachine7636 well it makes sense, miku running away and him pulling her back. Strangling him but he smiles, probably means that her attempts do nothing. Embracing her to stop her, meaning that she finally gave in.
@@Dark_Zacian don't do it , please okay i know im a person through a screen and you dont know me at all , but i almost committed last night i was holding a knife to my stomach , then i thought to myself "i shouldn't do this , i have a girlfriend , great best friends , and myself" so i didn't do it , and i put the knife back , you know why? Because i felt like i mattered for once , i thought to myself "hey i should try and fix my anorexia and try to be a little happier" so im trying now , so please dont do it even if you think to yourself "hey this person cares about me" please just think about it okay? I hope your okay , and i care about you
Listened to this first when I was 12, I'm almost 22 now. I still relate so hard to this song ... it makes me so damn sad that nothing has changed in years.
Even if things haven’t changed, I’m so proud of you for living. It’s been hard for you and for you to be strong enough to live through everything makes me happy your here Your valid bb, if your struggling definitely get some help with that please :)
hey, whoever you are, i'm really proud of you. even if things haven't changed, you can still make it. you are very strong and you can make it. there is always a way to get through it. believe in yourself and take care of yourself, for there are people who love and care for you. please stay with us :[ **virtual hug**
hey, i'm tossing my thoughts to the sea of comments :) this song is special to me. i was in a very, very bad spot around 2019-2020, and i was in such a deep depressive state that i was just.. ready to go. i was done. i was into vocaloid then- music was my main source of comfort. and one day, i found rolling girl. it hit hard. my memory is poor now, but i'm sure there were days i cried while blasting it through my earbuds. i always interpreted "mou ikkai" (believe that's how it's pronounced, i dont speak japanese) as "one more time", and i think that was the most important part to me. i took it as "one more day", and that was one of the many things that pushed me through that time. coming back to this song, i'm so glad i'm here. i'm glad i'm here to hear it again and i'm glad i stayed. i kept rolling, and i'm so happy i did. i'm not fully better now- i have my rough days, and my dark moods, but i'm here and that is so important. i want to thank wowaka for making this song. it pushed me through my dark, dark early teenage years and i at least wanted to say thank you. and hey, if there's another kid out there like me- one more time. i promise you the clouds will break. they may break and come back, or only let a small bit of light through, but the sun will shine again one day. i promise. one more time. thank you, wowaka, and thank you to everyone who supported me. let's roll :)
Hey heyy.. wow.. I felt like I just found myself.. For so many times I have told myself one more day, just one more.. And step by step.. I have come a longg wayy but nowadays I feel like I need to start all over again. I need to find myself again. Day by day. Again. I have seen the days I said I am glad I am so glad I kept continuing. I kept continue living. I'm glad I stayed. But now I know I need to start again. And one more time.. One more rolling.. Day by day... I thank you for writing this, your experiences. Im glad to know that there is another person out there like me. It means a lot for me
Some people will never understand why we are into Vocaloid and other Japanese arts the way we do. Just by listening to Rolling Girl is a comfort for people because Miku explains exactly what the viewer feels while listening, implying that you aren't alone in your struggle. Thank you Wowaka. Thank you for the comfort I found in Vocaloid.
@@chillspidersinc9781 I'm really new to vocaloid but this comment isn't pointless. At least other people can agree on this. Please don't spoil the warmth people get from this comment. I suggest you delete yours please.
Rest in peace, wowaka. Thank you for being an inspiration and a blessing to all of us! Our hearts reach out to your friends and family. For us who are still here: May we strive to become even better. May we become the people that wowaka would have wanted us to be: People who would help others, and would love others! #wowakaさん
This was my very first Vocaloid song I've ever heard. I loved it but eventually forgot all about it until today. Now seeing that the artist of this masterpiece has passed away truly shows how fragile life can be. I'm sorry to hear of Wowaka's passing and I hope only the happiest of memories for the loved ones. Wowaka's talent will be in the hearts of many, I included.
Though my memories of that time are fuzzy, I know this was one of the first for me too. It broke my heart to hear such a sad song, but it really made me feel that I wasn't quite alone when I felt down. Its message is deeply etched into my heart.
this song along with others hurts a hell lot because it seriously reminds me of my eight grade year and how horribly depressed i was. i really like the song but it makes me want to bawl from the terrible memories it brings. it makes me glad that atleast im alive to still write it all out rn
I was banging my head to this before I attempted multiple times and I'll keep on banging my head to this until the end of my life. Rest in peace, Wowaka, your songs gave me strength to keep going
Miku was supposed to go to coachella in 2020, which was sadly cancelled due to the pandemic, and i believe this song was gonna be played, and i can just imagine all the other people dancing and having fun to this, when they dont understand a word, while all the miku stans are sobbing and twerking at the same time
I used to get mad when this was voted the most popular vocaloid song, simply because I hadn’t seen it and thought that the overcrowding to a song was dumb. But when I watched and listened, I realized that I was very, very wrong. This song deserved that popularity, it deserves every drop of it. This song helped me through the rest of middle school and the beginning of high school, and I have no idea where I’d be without it. Thank you, Wowaka, for this legendary song that shaped the youth of the 2000s, for helping so many people choose to live on like I did, for being the song writer everyone needed in your time. I’m crying as I write this, as I don’t believe it was really your time to depart us, but I’ll be damned if I won’t try to give you one hell of a send off. Thank you for being you, and being memorable. Rest in peace, Wowaka. Keep rolling, at least one more time.
Actually, I uses to hate this song too. All because most of the mv's contents of this song are people rolling down so I decided it held no meaning. But after I listened to this video which thankfully had subtitles I became addicted to it, mainly because it was so deep. I just wished I found the meaning sooner.
@@Silver-ws4cu hello! While I think you're right about it meaning both of those things, self harming and continuing to live pretty much go hand in hand. People self harm because they want to live and be happy, and that's the only way they know how at the moment. So, even if it's counterproductive and doesnt always work out, people keep going by hurting themselves.
もう一回 . . . もう一回 . . . One more time . . . One more time . . . RIP wowaka-chan. Your music will keep rolling even without you here. You are an inspiration and always will be.
@@aminahusodan2043 i believe the commenter does not fully understand the Japanese honorific system, thus the confusion. From what i know chan is for something someone finds cute, usually towards lovers or pets.
this week i returned home from the mental hospital after an attempt and this song has been oddly comforting. i remember listening to this song when i was in middle school and feeling depressed, im 20 now. some things never change it seems
I don’t think anyone is going to see this but here we go..this song has a special place in my heart. The amount of times I’ve listened to this…oh lord. Several depressive episodes later and I’m actually happy right now. I hope it will last for a bit longer because we all know that depression can return. You can do it, okay? I know you don’t have hope anymore, but if you have actually reached this point of happiness, it feels amazing. I’ve only felt this way for a few days but I’m trying to make the most out of it. :)
This morning, I couldn't bring myself to go to school yet again. I felt hopelessly empty, yet incredibly sad at the same time. It's been a year now that thing started going downhill. I was with my mom in her car. She had made a quick stop by the drug store to get me my anti-depressants as I had ran out the day before and I stayed in the car, waiting for her. I was listening to this song, when it happended. I heard a quiet knocking sound, and looked around to see what was causing it when I saw it; a blue tit. It was on the rear-view mirror, alterning between it and the side of the (closed window). It was on the driver's side, but I could still see it well. I was so shocked, I stayed watching it a few seconds before trying to take a photo of it with my mom's phone, (I was listening to rolling girl on it) but it flew off before I could. I wanted to take a photo because my mom loves birds, especially blue tits, they're her favourites. I was still dumbfounded, but started the music over anyway. Not even 10 seconds later, the blue tit comes back on the rear-view mirror; but on my side this time. It was so close!! So small, too! It could've fitted in the palm of my hand! This time, I could take a few (blurry) pictures, it sayed there a solid minute!! I believe this song blessed me. Sorry, just wanted to tell this to someone, it was so adorable! !
I lost hope a couple days ago. Met someone who changes that, my hope skyrocketed. I'm so glad that there are people who relate, even if slightly, in this comment section. I hope you're still doing okay.
Wowaka's music changed my life. Every time I was feeling sad or depressed I would listen to Rolling Girl. The first time I heard this song I thought "Wow this is a good song". But after learning the meaning behind it, I now think "Wow, no wonder this is one of the most recognizable vocaloid songs in history". After Rolling Girl I started listening to his other songs like World's End Dancehall, Two Faced Lovers, and Unhappy Refrain and fell in love with His songs instantly. His songs are absolutely incredible with amazing meanings behind them. But today I learned of his passing and as I am writing this I am crying. I will miss him dearly and I'm sure the community will to. May we all ways remember this incredible man and what he did for this community. Rest in peace Wowaka, I'm sure you'll be happy with PowaPowa-P and Samfree up there. May you rest in peace. (Also thank you for taking the time to read all of this.)
Rolling girl remaining in her dreams She only wants to stay, it seems All the noise slicing layers in her head Has her screaming away, has her screaming away "No problem", she tells herself today But what she says repeats in the grey, oh Fail again, failing again Fussing over mistakes she thinks would remain But then she starts all over again Just once more, just once more "I will roll again today I know for sure" Oh, that girl said what she said Playing every word and playing to pretend "Are you better now?" "No, I don′t know how" What's the point of living if pain′s never ending Please, just let me stop my breath Right now Rolling girl is taunted by her gaze She can't recall the hue she erased Voice's scream, blending all around her head Blending over again, blending over again "No problem", she breathes another lie The pain and guilt she feels amplifies, oh "You′ll be fine", is what they all say Even when they see me on my way towards my fate They′d watch me roll again Just once more, just once more "Rolling down a hill just like I did before" Oh, that girl said, what she said Repeating every word and hiding every meaning "Are you better now?" "No, I don't know how" Maybe someday you′ll see the progress I'm doing Please, just let me stop my breath Not now Just once more, just once more "I will roll again today I know for sure" Oh, that girl said, what she said Playing every word and playing to pretend "Just once more? No, no more" Take my hand and come with me It will be okay Please, just let me hold your breath for now
I just wanna point out how this song has a double meaning. On one hand, it could be a song about perseverance, while on the other it could be a song about depression. It's all about how it's framed. In the vids where various characters are rolling down a hill doing flips and stunts, they eventually stick the landing. In this one, it's implied that someone killed themself.
Hi to whoever finds this comment. I grew up loving Vocaloid and would listen to all of the songs, they would help me so much and man there are so many creative producers out there. Anyway, I would listen to all except this song. At the time this song came out I was dealing with massive depression and self harm, and I could really feel it in this song even though I knew none of the lyrics at the time. This song is truly powerful in conveying these topics even without words, so with that being said I couldn't listen to it. My depression and self harm got so bad to the point I went to a rehab center which really helped me and changed my life forever. I felt people were actually listening to me for once. Now 5 years after rehab I'm coming back to this song to listen to it fully for the first time and wow I have no words. I'm truly shocked at how far I've come so I'm just here to say to whoever reads this, there IS a light at the end of the tunnel. Depression doesn't have to be your friend, you don't have to keep rolling, and you don't have to constantly be tired of life. This is coming from someone who made it on the other side. I'm so proud of you for making it this far, you can do this! YOU are loved and cherished!! Ok sorry for the long comment but I feel really deeply with this song and I know there are many people out there who are struggling just like I used too. Thanks for reading :) Also rest in peace wowaka
i- b- thank you. i just feel unworthy, and my brain only sees a bad end. i feel like i should just end it, so i don’t waste anyones resources or time, because i know, i will end up dying of starvation because o flack of money in the end, since i know i am doing so bad, and i will end up failing the biggest test in life. i feel like a roadblock, and i wanna tear it down, so noone needs to get stopped. There might be light for you and others, and thats good. But there is no light for me. i am not worth doing anything for. I am waste, just waiting to be thrown out. I JUST WANNA BE GONE SO I DON’T FEEL BAD ABOUT ME STOPPING ANYONE. PLEASE UNDERSTAND ME OUTRAGE, I WANNA DIE, JUST KILL ME ALREADY. Yet still. Thank you, Wowaka.....
@Dark_Umbreon , I'm open to talk if you want, i have struggled with depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts before, and I don't judge :) Also, please be open to seeing a therapist as it really helps, trust me, I've been in therapy for 2 years now and I'm seriously getting better! If you are seriously considering suicide, please call your local emergency services and/or your country's suicide helpline.
Thank you so much for this message, I have been dealing with depression for a couple months and I always felt like I was alone. But I feel so much better knowing that there are people who are able to get through what I am experiencing.
@@Dark_ZacianHey, shhhhh. Breathe. Don't think of yourself that way. There is a lot of life to discover, including who you are. Your hidden sides, your dark self, whom is just misunderstood and wants to be forgiven. Your whole self, and the world around you. What makes you happy, makes _you_ happy. There is also mysteries and curiosity around the world we live in. Don't forget to meditate your emotions? Meditate them, and accept them regardless of negative or positive emotions. They're here to guide, you, as an individual. You are strong, worthy, and more emotionally powerful than you might think. There also so many people that can help you now, mental health and self care is now way more accepting than back then. _Go off, and start your own path sweetie. Let's see what you can discover from the world._
I'm just wake up and can't believe from what I saw in Twitter. There are lots of tweets about wowaka being passed away. (Damn, even after this I'm still can't believe that) I'm just proud about being in this community. Rest in peace, Wowaka. Many of your fans will miss you. 😭😭
@@laurenpettit7593 I used to think that the boy was her friend and that he saved her from ending it all and she finally found compassion from someone - boy, was I WAY OFF.
I used to think the boy was symbolic for bullies, since she was always running from him and trying to protect herself from him and sometimes bullies are what push people to commit, I guess it can still mean that for different people but the true meaning still stands
A rolling girl: She is in a constant state of unhappiness, and catches herself dreaming often of a world where she’s finally successful but most importantly content. But those are unfortunately just unreachable dreams for our rolling girl; she keeps “rolling” or pushing through life, for the hope that things will get better. She is convinced that no matter how much she wants to give up on this life, she’s not ready to go. And the truth is, our rolling girl isn’t ready to go. She has so many things she wants to do in life, so many people to meet, so many memories to make…but depression doesn’t stop for the dreams of a young girl. Depression doesn’t loosen his firm grip on her heart, he wields it tightly, cracking it, everytime she dared to think “no, I will go on. Because things will get better.”. With every stab he takes at her heart, her strife’s lasting wound grows deeper and deeper. Every time she insists, having no one but to convince but herself, “no. I must go on. Things will get better” she grows more and more tired as she utters this sentence. Every time she utters this sentence to herself, it seems to lose some meaning and credibility, until there is practically none left. Each time she assures herself things will get better she believes it even less. She finds herself in the same position countless times. After depression grimly attacked her very being and left her even more wounded than the last time he did, she became more and more weak, leaving her more vulnerable to depression himself. You see, he has just one goal, to crack her heart to where it is utterly broken and simply cannot beat anymore. He has to leave her so wounded that she starts seeing white specks dancing across her vision, as he holds her hand with a big smirk on his face as she leaves this world. Not because death took her from this world before she was ready to go, but because she willingly gave herself to him because she felt it was her only option with her heart in the hospital. Rolling girl can’t let that happen! It’s her name; she has to keep going no matter how unhappy she has! She has to keep believing things *will* get better! She has to fight depression and not let him have the satisfaction of being the one to take her out of this world instead of death. She insists to depression that she’s not ready to go…so she runs away from him. She wants to get rid of her depression so badly, she just wants to get rid of the parasite in her heart, trying to suck the life out of her. He just stands there, smirking at her all the way while she attempts to run, knowing she can’t do it. Knowing she can’t get rid of him; she can’t run away from this parasite. At this point, her world’s become so colorless and meaningless. Her heart cracks more with every second, threatening to break at any moment, depression refusing to let go of her any time soon. Rolling girl is so fucking tired. She’s tired of continuesly fighting against this man, only for him to come back stronger. She’s sick of telling herself that despite depression’s horrific win streak in the war, he wouldn’t win the war he waged against her. She was sick of telling herself everyday that there was hope despite the fact he emerged from every battle stronger, her weaker. She was sick of depression repeatingly insisting that her time was up, that she was ready to go, when she was anything but! But it sure did feel like her time was… NO! She couldn’t think like that! She had to keep fighting! …But that’s easier said than done. The one thing she kept telling herself, that things would get better, kept getting proven wrong in front of her eyes countless times. That was her only defense against the monstrous man who called himself her depression. And as much as she hated to admit it, that man was more comforting than any friend she had ever had. Rolling girl can’t find the strength to repeat her signature affirmation as she crumbles in the arms of her depression. The affirmation she’s been repeating for years, has become so meaningless and devoid of any credibility…A voice keeps screaming inside her to push that demon of a man aside and be a soldier and not surrender to his little war. But that voice is becoming less and less loud. One day, when her heart was about to break, and her wounds were so severe they were about to send her into the afterlife, depression violently grabbed her by the throat, ignoring her persistent cries. He knows she most likely is too weak to oppose what he’s going to do next. Our rolling girl has become utterly powerless in depression’s grip. She’s not ready to go, she’s not ready to go! Our rolling girl believes without a doubt that leaving this world will be utterly painful and a decision she’d regret as soon as she felt her soul exiting her body. But than, depression does the unthinkable and pulls her into a tight embrace. And our rolling girl does the even more unthinkable… She doesn’t have enough strength to get out, and doesn’t physically object, just stares at his chest with red, dull eyes. Eyes that have seen herself crumble a million times to this man’s endless tyranny. If she doesn’t get out of his arms fast enough, he’ll assume she’s too tired of this world and too wounded to go on and take her out. She needs to get out. But how can she do that when she’s nothing but an absolute shell of her former self and nothing but a weak soldier with a million wounds? How can she do that when her affirmation seems to be nothing more than a bold faced lie? I won’t tell you how this story ends; because this is where all rolling girls have differing endings. Some leave depression’s arms and challenge him to another battle they will lose, while some leave his arms and finally find happiness. But some sadly take off their shoes and engulf themselves in their worst enemy, as he delivers their last hug in his tight embrace, feeling accomplished and satisfied with his opponents’ surrender. “Wait, so, do people around rolling girl ever truly understand the struggles of rolling girls and their never ending battle of their positive affirmations and their demonic depression?” I’m a rolling girl, I would know. It’s not a pretty answer. But I’m a rolling girl, so I have to keep speaking positive affirmations into my mind, so I’ll end my little analysis of our fight against our hope and that horrible man’s injections of despair here. (This was a vent writing and god damn I wrote a lot-)
Omg this is the best comment I read on this video and really hit me hard because I am also a “rolling girl” but I just wanna thank you for writing this it really explained this topic so well and deserves to be seen by everyone | (• ◡•)|
That was a beautiful description and personal explanation. I'm sorry you were dealt these cards in life, I understand how you're feeling (at least somewhat, everyone's experience us different). I'd like you to know that yours not alone. I and many others, feel with you.
I have a friend who's been suffering from depression for + years. Thank you, for now I can finally understand how she feels. If there's a way I could help her I'd love to know, because just seeing her suffering every day makes me feel pain, I want her suffering to end, but not her life.
every time I listen to this I really just want to break down and cry. Rest now Wowaka. You have all moved us with your powerful lyrics and amazing music.
“You will roll me somehow” that line just breaks my heart. I don’t even know how to describe it. After everything this girl has been through, failure after failure, constantly being belittled, and just being hounded at by anxiety at every turn. Even after all that, she decides to keep moving forward. She will push on no matter what the consequences are. Even if things get worse, even if every cell in her body is aching and screaming at her to stop, somehow someway she’s going to try again. It’s a feeling I, hell all of us, can relate to. We just gotta keep rolling no matter what and if the result ends in failure and suicide then so be it.
So basically Miku's character is a girl in highschool going through depression and who feels like a failure. The meaning behind "rolling" i believe is because shes barely getting by, instead of walking confidently to her dream shes rolling downhill to depression. So the boy isnt actually real, his uniform doesnt match hers or the other students, he is actually a manifestation of her depression. He keeps asking her "is it enough/are you done?" Signaling that he wants her to give up but she keeps saying "no 1 more time!" As she isnt ready to give up on her dreams or life but as time goes on she gets weaker and more injured because of her "rolling". Eventually she gives into the guy/her depression and allows him to "stop her breath" meaning suicide. In the last scene you see them hugging but Miku isnt wearing shoes, which in Japan its very common to take off your shoes before jumping off buildings so that someone knows you were there. In the end the rolling girl stopped rolling.
3rd grade me (2018) was in such a tough circle, for years ive been "rolling" To keep track of things but my life in my school was nothing more than i can call my hell hole, always crying myself to sleep due to the sheer pressure they all gave me, my classmates were nothing but assholes even until today. I'm in the 8th grade, ive lost yet another friend whos now moving to a different school in the province, ive been meaning to create a song for her because i know one day ill remember her face but never her voice again. Miku has been apart of me ever since 2015, being born in the year where miku was released was so prideful about because i was so happy to find people who strongly relate to the songs people composed of Miku and there was no such thing for me to call Miku my hero, Thanks to her, i prevented suicide, i changed people's lives despite not being the best, but i somehow made the best outcome for them to be happier, i'm now turning 15 this year with my friends who i love dearly, those who i have changed and now i wanna make a better life for them and myself 3:20 of this song showed how much love ive placed my heart into this song knowing ill never meet Wowaka ever, but ill remember him through his songs.
it's 2019, I know, don't @ me too hard guys. I just wanted to come back here to say I discovered this song in my 7th grade career. all throughout middle school, and I really do mean *all* throughout, I struggled with severe depression, anxiety, self-harm, and thoughts of suicide for multiple reasons. one of the main reasons, though, was the thought that i couldn't fit in anywhere at school. I was picked out of a crowd just to be physically abused and made fun of on the daily. and thanks to some other problems going on at home, I legitimately thought there was no way to fix myself, and considered killing myself multiple times. But despite my worthless attempts to break away from my love of otaku culture due to bullying, this song somehow managed to help me cope with most of it. just knowing that there was someone out there who was so aware of the problems I faced every day to write a song about it using the voice of the future herself, made everything a little more bearable. I listened to this catchy tune whenever I felt like swallowing those pills, and I'm thankful that after all these years, in its 240p quality glory, it's still here for me to listen to again, and remember how far I've come in life. Thank you, wowaka. And thank you, Miku Hatsune. Edit, 5/1/2019: Hello anyone who reads this. It’s me again. Just wanted to come back and say I’ve made a full recovery from my depression and have finally found a way to cope with my anxiety disorder. I’m finally in a school where I can be myself and I’ve never felt happier and more at home in my entire life. Thank you to everyone who liked this comment, it really means a lot to me for reading my story💕✨💕✨
2:21 "Hey, I said whatever happens is fine" 3:00 - 3:10 Damn the lyric really makes me sad somehow:'( R.I.P. Wowaka, Your song introduced me to Vocaloid.
The beginning of the song starts with a screen turning on, and ends with it turning off. But if you loop the song, it turns on again. The struggle begins again. She rolls one more time. And it hurts, and it's painful, but is it not a better ending to keep going? If you loop the song, she keeps rolling. So for a better ending, leave the song on loop.
I want to thank Wowaka for writing this song. In 8th grade I really was at my lowest. I had no friends and I was in a really bad depressive episode that seemed endless. But there was music; there was this song. And when I listened to it, i felt like I was understood, that I was not alone, that someone somewhere else was fighting the same battle as me. And the very first time I sang this song loud; I felt like I was finally able to express everything that was hurting me back then. And it was amazing because the lyrics are in Japanese, and none that I knew spoke that language, so for the first time in years, I was able to say it loud, and to know I was not alone, and I was not afraid of hurting people around me by saying how I felt. I can't imagine my life without this song, it means so much to me, because this song was my voice when I wasn't able to say how I was feeling.
I uh... I know Wowaka is dead but... I wanted to get this off my chest. I only JUST now got the meaning of the song, or at least I think I do and it's because... I can relate to it in a regard only now. I'm currently dating the love of my life. Honestly. Since she's come into my world, I've felt nothing but joy around her. I absolutely love EVERYTHING about her. I love her Green eyes and the way they shine in the light. I love the way she looks when I tell her how pretty she looks. I love her smile, though I rarely get to see it with her tendency to hide her face when she smiles. I love the way her hair flows just past her shoulders. I love how she's genuinely interested in me as a person. I still cry in happiness when I think to the first time I decided I was going to marry her. She egged me on and told me something scientifically inaccurate in relation to Biotechnology, something I went to school for. I spent nearly an hour explaining how Gene Expression worked and how it related to lifestyle. I realized at the end what I was doing and began to apologize. She... she stopped me and told me she already knew what I was talking about from our previous conversations. She just wanted me to talk about it so she could hear my voice and she liked it when I was passionate about things. I... I cried. Never in my life had I ever found someone who actually liked to hear me. It'd always been that people thought I was making them out to be stupid or I was just annoying and talked too much. Never in my life had I ever had someone actually WANT me to talk about what I was passionate about. Even now, I'm still crying thinking about it. But... that was the moment I told myself that I'd found the one. The only friction that's arisen in our relationship is that she has Schizophrenia. And Miku in this? This is her when she doesn't take her meds. My GF went off them for a bit and she is having to take them to get back to normal. It's been about three weeks and I've spent a total of maybe an hour with her. Without them, she hears things far more often, has frequent night terrors, is really antisocial, and is frequently depressed to the point of not eating for multiple days. It scares me because I CAN'T help her, at least not for her emotional state. Any attempt I could make at talking to her, of helping get her mind off of things only makes her feel like I'm suffocating her. And I want to thank Wowaka for this song, even if I only got it after his death... because it's helping me hold together as I watch her suffer that way, when those meds kick back in, and I'm not a source of pain for her, I can be there, making her smile and laugh, and to tell her how much of an amazing woman she is, how she's the most gorgeous woman on the planet and how I would sacrifice my life for her at the drop of a hat if it meant saving her. This song is helping me better be there for her each time she takes a roll, that way I can hold her in my arms and tell her that everything is okay and that I'll be there for her no matter what.
RONRII GAARU wa itsu made mo todokanai yumemite Sawagu atama no naka wo kakimawashite, kakimawashite. "Mondai nai." to tsubuyaite, kotoba wa ushinawareta? Mou shippai, mou shippai. Machigai sagashi ni owareba, mata, mawaru no! Mou ikkai, mou ikkai. "Watashi wa kyou mo korogarimasu." to, Shoujo wa iu shoujo wa iu Kotoba ni imi wo kanade nagara! "Mou ii kai?" "Mada desu yo, madamada saki wa mienai no de. Iki wo tomeru no, ima." ROORINGAARU no nare no hate todokanai, mukou no iro Kasanaru koe to koe wo mazeawasete, mazeawasete. "Mondai nai." to tsubuyaita kotoba wa ushinawareta. Dou nattatte ii n datte sa, Machigai datte okoshichaou to sasou, sakamichi. Mou ikkai, mou ikkai. Watashi wo douka korogashite to Shoujo wa iu shoujo wa iu Mukuchi ni imi wo kasane nagara! "Mou ii kai?" "Mou sukoshi, mou sugu nanika mieru darou to. Iki wo tomeru no, ima." Mou ikkai, mou ikkai. "Watashi wa kyou mo korogarimasu." to, Shoujo wa iu shoujo wa iu Kotoba ni emi wo kanade nagara! "Mou ii kai? Mou ii yo. Sorosoro kimi mo tsukaretarou, ne." Iki wo yameru no, ima.
I feel like this song is a little more optimistic than everyone seems to think don't get me wrong, every interpretation is valid, but to me personally the boy is not her depression, he is just a person in her life trying to help it's not him strangling her, it's actually herself (you can see this because the color of her sleeves is black and his are white), and the boy is stopping her by pulling her in a hug the whole song Miku is pushing him away because of the mental illness she's facing, saying that she's fine and "rolling" - probably a metaphor for not actually living, but merely existing everyday. when the boy finally catches her, he tells her that she can stop rolling, because he's here to hold her.
Yeah, I totally agree with you but all of this can also make sense if you think about it if he was depression. It’s true the Miku is choking herself, but it’s only because she succumbed to her own depression because he was picking and laughing at her. 2:03 is where we can see him talk to her. Tell her if she’s done trying to roll, telling her that if it’s enough yet.. on 2:09 we can see him starting to laugh at her as she tries to scream at him to leave her alone.. It’s really a small detail that’s really hard to see because everything starts to get distorted. But anyways, on 2:49. At the part where she starts to strangle herself. I take this as her saying “You won depression, you won.. And now will end myself.” She was so broken that her own depression was her only comfort. So her own depression gives her a hug before her last moments of living as he starts to end her before she could to herself. In the other past moments in the video. We can see her saying “I will end your breath… Now.” Around 1:37 as she puts her hands around his throat. But he smiles at that.. That’s also another small miss-able detail. All of that can be put as her trying to kill her depression while he smiles back. Back to the end of the video, instead of her ending herself. It was him who ended her. The last lines of the song was “I will end your breath… Now.” which was him who said that because he was basically mimicking what Miku said before. After the last lines, Miku starts closing her eyes, losing to her own depression. She stopped rolling all together..
@@feelingblueish4027 like I said, all interpretations are valid, but I choose to believe in optimistic view. Simply because it's better for my mental health, and because this is my comfort song.
@@feelingblueish4027 I am in no way smart but I do have an argument to that. During the last line of the song you can tell it wasn't him who said it because he had his mouth closed, but for the few lines before that his mouth was open. Again, I don't claim to be smarter than you in any way and I could very well be wrong but I just wanted to make that small detail known.
i love this song so much, it never gets old. the message of it and how it is portrayed here is realistic. "one more roll" is a way of trying to convince yourself that your almost there, even though you feel yourself losing hope. last week, i had to go home early from school because i almost fainted twice and genuinely felt so drained i couldnt keep my head up at all. that morning, i woke up feeling like shit but i told myself "im almost there, its almost winter break. just a little more". i realized im a human, and humans have limits. i had forced myself to believe i could surpass those limits and just "get over it." depression is a serious thing and so is overworking yourself. always remember to take care of yourself and value how you feel mentally because if you dont soon those mental feelings could become physical. self care is important and its okay to take mental health days
This song was created more than a decade ago, but I've yet to find a better representation of depression and suicidality. In a severe depressive state, you look at other people and/or the possibility of recovery and it seems impossible - that you'll never reach that normalcy no matter how hard you try. You can barely hear anything over the thoughts making so much noise [sawagu, to clamor/make noise] in your head. You tell others there's no problem, but the words are empty reassurances. Even if you could tell them how you're feeling, there's nothing they could do about it. You keep looking for what you're doing wrong, but in the end there's nothing for it but to try again tomorrow [roll again]. You tell yourself that over and over, every day. Something of note is the difference between もう一回 [mou ikkai] and もう良いかい？[mou ii kai?], "one more time" vs. "are you ready?/you good?". To the latter Miku replies no, she can't see anything ahead of her yet, so she's just going to hold her breath for now. A big part of mental illness is riding out the lows and still having to wait in stasis for the day when for no particular reason, things start to get better. The part about colors being out of reach hits so hard. Something I think people struggle to grasp about depression is that it's not just a mood, but a lens through which the entire world is interpreted. I remember during a particularly bad summer asking a couple people if there was a drought going on that I hadn't noticed because even on a sunny day, the grass looked so... washed out. Colors seemed desaturated, like vibrant color had been sucked out of the world. It literally messes with your sensory processing. Notice that during "overlapping voices" Miku is talking to the boy, who represents her mental illness. Trying to talk herself out of things her brain tells her to be true that she knows she shouldn't believe, but seem so real. Early in the song she tries to strangle him while he smiles, knowing she won't win. She uses "darou" (expressing uncertainty) while talking about how she'll be able to see something soon - again, trying to convince herself. In the end, the boy asks her, "you must be getting tired, right? Stop breathing now." Particularly poignant here is the difference between tomeru (stop, temporary inflection - holding one's breath) and yameru (stop, finality - to stop breathing). She gives up.
The intro is my favorite. The melody is super unique. And one night, my mom said I could listen to whatever song I’d like to while going to bed. I went to my laptop and played this song. Once I actually realized what this ment, this was stuck in my head. The next night, I listened to it again. I actually had some tears fall from my eyes and my mom came in and asked me “Are you okay, Kensley? Whay are you crying?” I was addicted to this song. I have a mean little brother. Everytime he made me sad, and/or mad, I would jump onto my laptop, grab some headphones, listen to this song, and I would get emotional. Thank you to Wowaka for the beautiful song. I will remember you. Rest In Peace.
Very late to the scene, but I think I should give my thanks. This song is the reason I *used* to like vocaloid. Of course, I have moved on from that stage of my life, but this song is extremely nostalgic to me, I remember getting home and jumping on my PC to listen to this song. When I heard Wowaka died, which I should’ve heard way sooner, this song came back to me. RIP Wowaka. Thank you.
It's only been a few minutes and I just realised that Wowaka has in fact passed away, one of the most popular songs in his record, you will be missed, keep rolling, Wowaka. Rest In Peace, roll in the heavens above.
Its been years since I listened to this, but after the recent passing of Wowaka, I needed to hear it again. Thanks for everything you've done and rest in peace
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miku is going to be at Coachella. I am coming back to this after like 5 years
Oof, sad i'm in asia
c a s h e w s i s h e r e
Same here
c a s h e w s i s h e r e me too
bchar MEEEE
@@casshews same here
Only 6 years later I realize how depressing this song actually is...
YOUR PFP-
Now you have 900 likes... correct...
Soviet Doki really I knew from the start
Yep bc when i first watched this i was like 8/9 ;-;
Yesss I'm the 1,000th like ;-;
You're probably tired too, Wowaka.
Rest now.
Jensi Oquendo ok
Jensi Oquendo ok
We're all tired
Edit: thank you so much everyone
Yeah this isn't the time bit I'm the 666th like sorry
This made me cry lol
the concept of just "rolling" hits me so hard. everyday when i woke up in 8th grade i would just say "one more day" or "just til sunday" it was like torture, but you have to do anything just to not end it all. when miku said "just a little more" i almost started crying. the entire concept of just "rolling" til everything gets better, but it really doesnt instead it gets worse yet you still hope, you just have to keep going. its so bittersweet, and i just want to thank wowaka for this masterpiece. theres no other song thst describes the feeling of just having to keep going for the sake of it better than this song.
💔💔💔💔
R u okay .?
It gains a double meaning when you learn rolling is old internet slang for self harm.
i resonate with this so hard... this was my exact thought process too and this song hits so hard because of it. it's kept me going basically since i've started school years ago ;>
Fr tho!
Another song that has a similar meaning I think is Those Who Carried On by GHOST
it's a bit more happy than this one
keep rolling wowaka, good night sweet prince
We will all miss him
Goodnight
LAST NIGHT, GOOD NIGHT THE SONG WHO INSPIRED HIM TO MAKE VOCALOID MUSIC IF I'M NOT MISTAKEN
hmm more like sweet honey Miku Hatsune
Oyasumi nasai Wowaka-sama
RIP Wowaka. You made everyone’s childhood memorable.
nostxlgia nice pfp
@@nekokomaeda8957 mha
Sniff sniff
*i smell peppermint boi profile pic*
Sorry just have to point out your profile picture...TODOROKI!
@XAVIER MORALES your welcome😂
R.I.P Wowaka. Nov. 4, 1987 - April 4, 2019. you will be missed.
Not being rude.. but he died April 5th. It’s very tragic that he died. Yes, he Will be missed by many.
Far too young
April 5th*
Pqincc No he died April 5th
Ashton Scripts may be due to different time zones
As a guy who doesn’t cry often, this song always hits a sensitive spot because I used to listen to it when I was going through heavy stuff. Still thankful to be rolling.
I didn’t cry bc i understand it
Same...
glad we're all rolling bud
@@that_objectguy Bro that's the most edgy corny youtube comment I seen in a while hahahaha
@@that_objectguyGood job kiddo
I've read the comments, and people keep saying that the beat is happy but the song is depressing. Am I the only one who thinks the sound of the song sounds super melancholy and sad? Like I don't hear this beat being happy at all. It just sounds sad.
Same
me too. it reminds me of a train. it sounds super overwhelming and nonstop
Dude same it sounds hella overwhelming
I personally think the song sounds strong. Not sad but a song of perseverance.
Me too, it might just be all the songs that i’ve listened to that are like this, but to me it kind of sounds like a loud cry for help, y’know?
3:00
"It's fine" sounds like 'morirò' which in italian means "I'll die"
Oh my g o d-
gui on mania ciaooo
Omagah
O_o
oh fuck
came here to mourn the loss of Wowaka. This will forever my favorite song by him, and I miss him deeply.
WAIT WHAT
@@Heavy_Buddy ikr im also late...just found out today...
I did. 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
Same 😭
@@LIVIDBITE, that's good.
I feel like this song is a perfect example that fast tempo does not always mean the song is happy and upbeat
i mean... that's literally what upbeat means in a musical sense.
but i'm being a little shit by focusing on technicalities and i completely agree with you lmao.
Have you ever listened to Maxwell's Silver Hammer? I'd say that's the perfect example lol
@@cosmodusty I can't find any source that claims upbeat can ever just mean fast.
how the hell can you hear happy and upbeat shizz when i hear pain😍🔫
Breakcore fanatics: *sweats nervously*
The meaning of “one more roll.” symbolizes that she tried many times before giving up. Same thing as saying “One more day.”
Roll with the punches. One more roll.
one more circle of misery
It's about 💊
Me when doing gacha stuff "One More ROLL!" and got nothing good.
daying girl 💀 /j
Gone too soon. Rolling Girl holds such a special place in so many of our hearts. She will always roll on in your memory wowaka, thank you for everything.
Wait what happend i dont know
@@alexischaparro7198 April 5, 2019, VOCALOID creator and producer wowaka died of heart failure.
@@toxicfrancium oh 😭😭😭 thats really sad😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 thanks for telling me tho
@@alexischaparro7198 Yeah, of course. It hit all of us really hard.
これはとても怖い
R.I.P Wowaka. Just heard the news of your passing minutes ago.
He lives on through his music
KoeSeer I can’t wowakaway from the pain 😔
@@BruhSoundEffect ffs xD
@@BruhSoundEffect Username checks out
Don't sad let's yaranaika
8 years later, it still hurts and is just as relatable. R.I.P. Wowka, thank you for this painfully relatable serenade. Bawling rn
wowaka died?
@@senoritarat966 yup. May he rest in peace
してないよ〜
勘違いしてるのはあなたでは？全員がこう思ってる〜なんて俺言ったっけ？
はっきり数値として民度があるわけじゃないんだから、みんなもお前と同じような主観で否定してるだけだろ
これって何も特別なことじゃないし、全員がそう思ってると思ってコメントしてないなら反対意見ぐらい受け入れろよ。知らんで終わらすならただの子供
Trying my best to explain this:
The boy in this video is supposed to represent depression.
1:22 "One more roll. Today too I will roll." Rolling is representing living. "I will live a bit more. I'll keep living today."
"is it enough yet?" He's asking if she wants to pass already "Not Yet. Because the end is not visible." She wants to keep living until it's her time.
"I will stop your breath... Now." She wants to get rid of him. She wants to get rid of her depression. The boy smiles, he knows she won't be able to do it, he's still there with her.
1:51 She's still there, she's still living. She keeps getting more bandages, it's meaning that she keeps getting hurt by going on. She gets hurt the more she keeps "rolling".
"Rolling Girl's shell of her former self. It will not reach the color on the other side." She keeps rolling but she still can't see the colors = she can't find the happiness.
2:21 She's seen running. she running away from him. "Hey, I said whaever happens is fine." She tries telling herself, knowing it's not true causing the boy to catch her. 2:29
When he catches her he wanted to convince her it's time. "One more roll." She insists "You will roll me somehow" She will try to keep on living.
2:41 "Is it enough yet?" "A little more" she keeps insisting "Pretty soon something will probably be visible" She is sure soon she will finally be able to see the colors
"I will stop your breath... Now." This time, the boy says it. he pulls her by her throat, she's too powerless to convince him this time. She can be seen crying as he does it, she thought it will be painful and she will regret it. But the boy hugs her, it's then she sees how fast it was and how it caused her to see the colors. "Is it enough yet?" The boy asks again "It's fine" She said, she said it because she finally saw that it will be easier than to keep rolling. "You will probably be tired soon, right?" You will be tired if you don't stop. "I will end your breath... Now." the boy says. The girl then closes her eyes which means she finally agreed, she finally gave up to depression. She's dead now, she stopped rolling.
Thank you for listening. I hope you all are doing the best. Keep rollling. You will eventually reach the end and it will stop hurting.
Damn, that was deep 😭
@@NoName-rv1fc sad truth
I literally cry everytime I listen to this song-
@@synkimiko730 Same
Oh god
There's a lot of ppl saying the "rolling" here, means the cutting of herself. But I think it might be her continuing on living. Like, she doesn't want to die, she can't see the end clearly yet. Not yet, at least. So she keeps on "rolling" as in, living, or in other words, not dying. It's not time yet. She's hesitant. The boy there is a symbol of her depression. In the end, she finds comfort in this 'friend'. That she has. She was slowly pushed into the end. Thus the ending of the song, it cuts off, she stops 'rolling' and offs herself. She's tired.
I'm sorry I'm bad at expressing opinions but this is just sad-
Ok this is an awesome way to put it, I’d portray it as this because cutting seems as if it would be too specific.
I think the "rolling " signifying her emotions supposed to signify her emotions cause it gets more and more intense the music then just stops as her life since her depression caught up to her
holy shit i didnt realize that- i knew what the song was saying but i wasnt sure what the exact words were saying
Well....ammm according to some people and also the internet. Rolling means Self-harming...But I would like to think about this song as how you put it...
That’s exactly what I thought the meaning of “rolling” was too omg
Today is Wowakas birthday. He would've been 34 today. Happy birthday to the greatest vocaloid artist in history
He passed away 3 years ago due to heart failure,RIP Wowaka
Fuck thats horrible
I’m not crying
how am i only finding out about his now ;-;
Rest in peace .
14 years ago dude.
Literal chills.
If you were like.. 8 years old.. or 10, 12, whatever.. or in highschool, at this point in time, you were living a good life. The internet was fucking amazing back then and it's sad to see how bad the experience of the internet has gotten. There was so much passion back then, it was like every space was someone's scrapbook of pure thoughts and niche communities finding their place.
I was born a year after this song was published...
The internet must've been pretty great back then
Shit man, I was 16 then.
Think the internet still had a lot of of its own problems just like it does today. Nonetheless I agree heavily cus I was a kid back then and it's prob nostalgia talking but it felt as if everyone didnt have a more restricted experience online compared to now. Ahhhh I miss the wild west times
Nostalgia goggles
I was about 3
Me in 2015: Just let the girl roll dammit she wants to roll ;(((
Me in 2020: OH NO WAIT,,,,
when you finally read the whole lyrics
Lol
5 years really makes a difference
_For the song to sound creepy, put on .75x_
I'm not an Otaku I swear! Perfect for memorising the romaji but don’t know how to speak japanese
Even if you aren't a vocaloid fan, you have to admit the power of the message of this song. Absolutely beautiful. Anyone who is going through, or has gone through depression knows how scary it is. The rolling I think means going through life trying your best but still getting hurt constantly. You tell yourself to keep trying, but there is another part of you that just wants it to end. It doesn't necessarily mean suicide, it just means giving in. Being alive but not living.
Every day, every hour feels like a roll of the dice. Am I going to feel better? Am I going to want to die again? It feels like an endless loop. Sometimes there's reasons for certain rolls, like forgetting to eat or take medicine, but others are just so unpredictable. I never know what kind of hour I'm going to have. Will I be able to sleep? To eat? Will I ever? Every moment feels like an eternity, and you just have to remind yourself that it's just another roll, that there are plenty more, and that a roll is just a roll. Even though it never feels like "just" a roll. It never feels like just a roll.
But somehow, over time, you can almost catch a pace with the bad rolls. I have others help me roll all the time. Without them, I think, not only would I be unable to roll, but the rolling would be meaningless.
If I knew that I could finally stop rolling without hurting anyone else, I would. In a heartbeat.
@@mattiebibb6383 i kept rolling for past two years, then it got better and i was fine. But now i have to roll again. I even tried to die but it was unsuccessful. However, i learned that it can't last forever. It's just a chapter of everyone's life. One is shorter one is longer than you could ever imagine but it constantly gets better, trust me. Keep rolling, don't give up :)
I've been rolling for about 8 or 9 years now from constant bullying and depression since I was around 8 or so. It sucks, contemplating suicide. My mind wants to give in, but my body keeps refusing, and I feel like I'll be in this state for a long time. Half of me wants to just die, the other half yearns for a better tomorrow. So I just keep rolling...
It's like Limbo but for living? Like you feel dead inside constantly but you know you are alive so you just keep going for better or for worse
to everyone that has commented on this thread, i hope yall are doing better
This song got me through some of the worsts of high school. Thank you, so much, Wowaka.
ArtsyLaVerne if you are american is it hard there? Is it hard to learn or is it the students and the bullys?
Im not from america.
Nathan Cabiles- I know you were asking ArtsyLaVerne but I just couldn’t help wanting to answer the question. I myself am not American but I do live in America, maybe it’s because my parents are not exactly rich and from a different country that they pressure me to become the “smart one” or “breadwinner” of the family because I’m the only one getting a proper education. I think it all depends on the person your asking and what background. I don’t think American schools are more strict than other countries, in fact I think they could possibly be more laid back compared to others.
_username :0 oh thanks its ok,thanks for your answer well it is true your parents might push you to be smart because they want you to have a good education to become rich and happy in america because foreigners parents usually want that for their children,good luck in america bro : D
1 month ago eh?
me too!!!!
"one more time?"
"not yet, we still can't see what's ahead" I feel like this is the only sort of light in this song
Thoughts Regarding Comments:
A) It's possible to give in to depression without it necessarily being suicide. Holding/stopping one's breath needn't be physically literal. A full-on mental breakdown is plenty damaging and has permanent effects of its own.
B) You don't need to be bullied to feel like you don't belong. Not understanding others and not being understood is enough to cause real problems. It's totally possible to feel alone even when surrounded by other people.
C) I'm seeing comments with the typical narrative of: bullied -> depressed -> self-harm -> suicide. That's a really reductive and stereotypical conception of depression and anxiety. The truth is far more insidious. The idea of rolling along day after day after day and just picking up more bumps and bruises as life goes on rings more true. It's far less dramatic and far more frustrating.
D) The damage caused by depression and anxiety is usually invisible to others. It is very, very easy to ACT normal in one's day to day dealings with people.
E) Despite other interpretations, to me the end of the song is saying it's okay to stop trying so hard. Sometimes pushing yourself to roll on like nothing's wrong isn't worth hurting yourself more. Some days you just have to stop and give up and let the depression work itself out. It will take time until you feel like you're capable of rolling again.
Thank you for this!
I like this
I really like this interpretation, it makes a lot of sense too, especially as someone with anxiety
I agree. Only thing I’d like to point out, though, is that she isn’t wearing shoes at the end of the song and is limp.
Agreed with your E point. The feeling I got when reading the translation was “this isn’t sustainable” she can’t just keep on rolling ignoring her problems and saying I’m fine. She has to face them and solve them. The way I saw it, she’s trying to ignore her problems acting like they aren’t there hoping they will sort themselves out without actually facing them, and that, ignoring her problems (or rather not facing them), is what’s not sustainable. It’s hurting her to just say “I’m fine” and not acknowledge her situation, and that, I think, is the message of the song. It’s okay to not be okay, but not acknowledging that fact will end up hurting you.
Edit: it's basically like if you were physically sick and you just ignored it. That sickness would end up killing you. Same thing. Not acknowledging her problems and choosing to ignore them is like ignoring a sickness. You can pretend it's not there, but it is, and while you pretend it does not affect you it's tearing you down bit by bit. Only by Acknowledging you are sick can you get healed; only by acknowledging she has problems and confronting and solving them can she stop their damage.
Idk, that might be convoluted, but that’s the feeling I got.
i’m reading through the comments of people saying the beat is a happy bop but the meaning is sad. but i can’t hear the happy in the sound, i hear anxiety, panic,anger and sadness throughout it and the animation honestly is breathtaking as to the fact it can be interpreted in many ways always resulting in what we ourselves relate to. everything about this song is so familiar. i thank you for this.
The sound is choking. I feel nothing but an overwhelming sense of anxiety.
I fucking love this.
For me it's mostly both
But I can hear emotional most of the time
I don't see any comments saying it. Ppl saying that the beat is sad are more
Fr, the song doesn't sound happy. It sounds haunting af. If this is happy to you, seek help lmao. And if you know the slang meaning of roll (self harm) it's so much more anxiety inducing
Yeah, this is not an upbeat song. This is the audio equivalent to uncontrollable hatred and sorrow. Idk what everyone else is hearing.
If you look carefully:
1:41 - The boy was smiling when the girl choked him. It was the girl saying "I will stop your breath now."
2:05 - The way how he talked changed from normally to smiling to laughing as if he was provoking her.
3:06 - I think it was the boy saying "I will stop your breath now" this time.
I know some may say that he might be her friend or boyfriend trying to be supportive, but I'm more convinced that he represents her depression.
Based on these highlights, it seems like the boy was enjoying the fact that she was trying hard not to give up, after telling her to give up (just so he can laugh at her failure).
For the ending, I personally think he stopped her from choking herself and hugged her and said "It's fine. You will probably be tired soon, right? I will stop your breath now" because he sympathies her when she finally gave up in the end. It is like how you would show respect or sorrow to your rival after you won and ended a long lasting war. This applies the same to the guy (or depression) as he was convincing her to give up for so long and he finally succeeded. Before she ends her life, he would comfort her at the last moment since she might even "be tired" from even choking herself. So, instead of her killing herself, she lets the boy kill her (representing the depression was killing her).
Amazing
That was really sad
This is the first time I’ve cried while reading comments
This wouldn’t have made me think so deep, if it wasn’t for my own depression.
I have wanted to kill myself before.
This makes me wanna cry.
I don't know what part are you talking about
2:14 I love the little guitar riff(?) at this part. It sounds so hopeless, like something just jumped out of your reach. I think it represents how depressed and far away the Rolling Girl really feels...this part always gives me goosebumps.
I've known this song for many years, but I never really knew what the guy was supposed to represent until I read the comments. It does make sense that he is supposed to represent Miku's depression, but I really noticed something at 1:40. She tries to make him back off by choking him, but he just stands there and smiles... Honestly that gives me chills seeing that, like it's his way of saying that Miku doesn't really have a chance of true happiness at all.
She does the same at 2:50 but couldn't hold him back
Yeaaah, I also noticed at 2:01, it looks like that same dude is tormenting her in that scene as well. From what I can tell, Miku starts yelling at him to stop talking, before losing it and starts screaming at the top of her lungs. All the while, he just starts laughing at her anguish.
It's kind of crazy how stuff like this can be missed the first time around.
@@ThatDaftGuy omg you're right
There is a problem to this theory. At the end of the video where the same guy that is tormenting her was preventing her from suffocating to death by hugging her. You can also noticed that the up until the part where he is hugging her there was only black and white, so you can think of it as inside of her busyhead is hallucinating and warping her point of view in reality
If there something wrong to my own theory feel free to reply to this
@@david-rr8pi I would not say you are wrong. For the majority of the song, it is shown pretty well that Miku is mentally unstable, and it is very possible that she is imagining the guy just being against her in general. The thing that just throws me off honestly, is the lyrics near the end. Notably the last line, translating to something like "Stop breathing now" or "I'll end your breath now" (It's always different in every video I've seen, really depends on who's translating). That part does makes me think the guy is going against Miku too, but it's all just speculation.
I heard... People who think about death a lot, will have to face it earlier then expected
He sacrificed himself for his music and to transfer his message to us
R.I.P Wowaka
Didnt he die from heart problems..?
whoops...
Welp.
Seems i die earlier than i ever expect....
All because of one stupid thing that happend in school.
I am gonna say it.
FUCK YOU 2016!!!
YOU HAVE ONLY GIVEN ME PAIN.
FUCK YOU.
JUST FUCK YOU........
I FEEL WORTHLESS, BECAUSE OF A STUPID CHOICE OF 366 DAYS,
FUCK IT, IT IS A LEAP YEAR.
FUCK YOU 2016.
just fuck you........
YOU WILL TWKE MY LIFE ONE DAY, BUT FUCK YOU !
@@Dark_Zacian don't say that even if you suffer pain you should get some help and even if the year has been bad just have hope :)
Hentai Cake same
Another sad comment passing through.
I can't believe wowaka is really gone. I grew up VOCALOID and his songs were a big part of my life, they really got me through a lot - this song in particular. So many memories...
I sang Rolling Girl in my native language at a recording studio for a workshop, I listened to Rolling Girl when I was going through extreme periods of depression and suicidal ideation, I vented my feelings of hopelessness in the comment sections of the old subbed video.
It wasn't just this song, but when I heard he passed away, this was the one I came to. That's probably what most people did (it /was/ his most popular song), and this comment is probably going to be lost in the swarm of others like it, but I'm so sad - it's not that this piece of my childhood is /gone/, but it'll certainly never be the same, and it's heartbreaking how short his life was, even though he reached so many people's hearts.
RIP.
Awww, I hope your doing better
Don't worry... You're not alone! I'm going through some seriously hard times... I really hope that you are doing better...
I just love sad songs. Btw what happened to the author?
Are YOU PEARL
WAIT WHAT DO YOU MEAN WOWAKA IS GONE I GREW UP WITH THEM
I remember being on the school rooftop, blasting this song in my ears, ready to jump. I was tired or rolling. I couldn't see the colors, i was ready to stop. The thought of my bestfriend's reaction to my suicide was what kept me alive, it kept me rolling. Fast forward to 1 1/2 years later and that friend turned the whole grade against me. All of this was before I got diagnosed with BPD, which explained a lot of my clingy "toxic" behaviors. I have no one to roll for. I want to stop
Same... i do that too but think of my cat's reaction and my friends reaction
Please don’t. I know it doesn’t seem like it, but things that happen in school really don’t matter. It’s such a small part of your life, so why end everything because of something so small? (Sorry if this is a bad explain)
even though school might be a big part of your life, keep rolling until it becomes small and insignificant compared to everything you'd have in your life at that point. keep going for your future self, because if you will pass away, the world will remain with a hole where you've been. you will be missed even if you don't think so
I hope you're still rolling bro. It gets better. There's resources out there
Its the anniversary of rolling girl.
Its been like 10 years since its gotten published. And the song just hits so much harder now that wowakas gone. He made such beautiful stuff like damn. Its sad he had to leave so early.
Rest in peace wowaka.
feb 14th (valentines day) is the day rolling girl got released. For anyone wondering or seeing this a whole different day
valentine
NO, WHY WAS I NOT THERE ON VALETINES
@@tweekbats DAMNIT this is my favorite Vocaloid song and I was into Vocaloids when the Anniversary was happenings and I had no god dam idea WTF IS WRONG WITH ME
@@tweekbats if you said "keep on rolling wowaka" and did you know that roll is a slang for self -harm? Just asking
@@irisgabriela3633 Oh god thanks for letting me know-- Im sorry-
Rip Wowaka. Rest in piece❤
Brilliant Baka peace?
Brilliant Baka? You got a... quite a name there?
He will live on through his music:(
Holden Kids
Same. Rest In Peace, and thank you for creating such wonderful songs, Wowaka.
after knowing about wowaka's death, this song immediately came to my head. maybe because this song helped me cope with my depression when i was 13. i'll honestly never forget him, after all, his songs introduced me to vocaloid.
we'll never forget you, wowaka.
Same here, I never realized.
If a vocaloid assisted you to "cope" You never had depression in the first place
Tbh Making edits is a basic asf thing
everyone has different ways to cope.
@@urinarytractinfection4508 Um. Tons of people use music to cope with mental illness. Me too, and I was diagnosed by a professional. Of course it doesn't dissolve your problems, but it can bring some comfort when the writer tells a story similar to yours.
@@lavitorroja2632 I have a feeling your professional religiously goes on Tumblr
9 year old me : Why is she choking him THE HELL
15 year old me: OHHHHHH THE BOI REPRESENTS HER DEPRESSION oh I know why
小晴天_QYC Another interpretation of this song is that both the boy and the girl are in an abusive relationship where they "love" each other but also physically injure each other. 😭 Maybe this is why she chokes him? Because at the end, she tried to choke herself but the boy wrapped her in a hug.
@@kate5266 as explained by someone else rolling is slang for self harm meaning that she's harming herself and at the end it just cuts off abruptly insinuating that she took her own life
@@sonyerra9553 Oh yeah :(
9 year old you *SHOULD NOT BE CURSING*
@Selina SenthilKumar Wow thank you Selina very cool
me in 2012: it's a love song
me in 2020: WAIT A MINUTE
saaaame
Same but with two faced lovers
wait you only realized that now
@@nemu4677 yes ._.
The man is a metaphor for depression.
You can clearly miku's not wearing shoes at the end. RIP.
This a perfect example of how dangerous the human mind is to itself, despite being capable of so much.... sometimes we can't take it, despite how hard we try.... and we try to last one more roll of the dice until we can't ....
So should I sell mine to the black market?
@@radioactiveboi842 By all means XD
@@CharuzuAutomatonArtificer time to buyer then who will need a brain full of hent@i
Deep. But True. 😢
@@radioactiveboi842 🤨
When I first started listening to this, I was around 13. Severe depression, undiagnosed autism, suicidal. Didn't think I'd make it past 15.
I'm 17 now, I survived thanks to the younger me. Years of therapy, many pills later, I still have to take my depression meds, but I am overall far better. Still fighting every single day, following art as a passion and discovering new things everyday.
I'll keep rolling!
my little brother: whYy is she sCraTching heR hair so muCh doEs she hAve buG in hAiR
LMAO
This is why you can't show kina stuff they just ruin it xD
This kid: Sometimes my genius... is almost enfrighting
i legit have lice and scratching my head rn
@@crusty2076 oh leader pretty weird place to meet you, I was pretty depressed. So came to listen this song
The last song I listened to before the end of the decade... Made me cry, but was worth it just to listen to the song that helped change my life in so many ways.
Edit: joke's on you guys, i changed my profile so now the replies don't correlate!! ୧(>∀
This despair
I thought you died
Hi junko!
I don’t know if I like that Junko is saying this.....
Junko Enoshima aside from the fact that your profile says junko, i’m happy that things have gotten better. :)
i've cried an unimaginable amount of tears while listening to this song
Did you convert your house into a swimming pool?
real
Same
Guess what I’m doing now hahah
so real, this is an amazing song when everything is fucked and you need a good cry. fuck, not many songs bring me to tears but this one sure does. 🥲
I only just started to get really into vocaloid when he passed away. This is beautiful art and pioneered the genre of vocaloid songs packed with such unbelievable power. I'm glad he produced such a legacy. Live on in spirit, Wowaka.
The saddest part is that Miku's so broken that she is embracing her depression at the end and finally stops breathing (commits suicide) rather than rolling again (inflicting self harm to calm herself down) every single time when she's tortured. She thinks depression is her only true comfort in a world where she's terribly abused mentally, physically and emotionally, which would free her from this world so she can finally rest in peace.
RIP Wowaka. You're a true legend. This song is deep and gold and has helped me so much through my depression. I hope the "Rolling Girls" around the world deserve something better in their lives rather than breaking down.
Thank you for making this song and introducing me to Vocaloid. Vocaloid playlist is the only one which I listen to because it's so catchy and sometimes so sad but relatable. I'm glad people still come here in this comment section even 10 years later, although recently it is to tell you how much we miss you. 😭😭😭😭😭😭
I miss wowaka too....
Yet i am at the point where i have given up my suicide thought to think of murdering people i hate...
@@Dark_Zacian oh wow
@Mochi and Turtles Wowaka was the legend who changed the whole Vocaloid industry by producing timeless songs like 'Rolling Girl'. He sadly passed away on April 5th, 2019 due to heart failure, that too, at the young age of 31. Why must fate be so harsh? :,(
@Mochi and Turtles he died of heart failure ;-;
I wanna like your comment but I don't wanna ruin the 420 XD
It's really heartbreaking to really think about this
Wowaka passed away a few years now and it hit the community HARD. I've never seen so much fanart for a specific artist being made so fast, so many people were touched from his songs given he composed songs about depression which in itself is a bold move to make on his part. After he released Unhappy Refrain he pretty much was going to wrap up with vocaloid given that the community wasn't giving him enough credit for HIS voice
On the 10 year anniversary of Miku we got another vocaloid song from wowaka called Unknown Mother Goose from my understanding the song was about wowaka coming to terms with his vocaloid career I even heard he basically saw Miku as his mother in the music career, someone that with help you with what your looking for to do but eventually will have you rely on yourself
To those out there who are hardcore vocaloid fans just remember that the producers make the songs don't forget to give most of your praise for a song to the person who wrote it in the first place wowaka wherever you are, whatever your doing I hope you can rest easy knowing that you made a difference in so many peoples lives and even still continue to so
Thank you for writing this
@(insert a good profile name) yes.
🥺
I AIN'T READING ALLAT🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥‼️‼️‼️‼️
@@SnowyO9_too sad to bad
So in Japan people that are about to commit suicide take their shoes off, and if you look closely when you get a full body drawing of Miku (On this) she's not wearing any shoes just her socks, and at the end she is hugging the personification of her depression showing that she has given up on her life. Thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope you have a wonderful day/night/afternoon/evening bye now!
Bruh Indonesia no use shoes and sock lol
@@yogacapek lol
No he did save her life. At 2:50 you can clearly see it's HER hands that was stopping her own breathing and he pulled her hands away from her neck(thus saving her from suicide) then he pulled her into a hug
@@nurfarhani8517 Yea idk why people say the man is depression and the fact that Miku was wearing shoes its just not noticeable cuz it blends with her socks
@@icecreammachine7636 well it makes sense, miku running away and him pulling her back. Strangling him but he smiles, probably means that her attempts do nothing. Embracing her to stop her, meaning that she finally gave in.
i miss wowaka :(
i know hes been gone since 2019
but i still miss him
his style of music makes me feel good for some reason
Just reading the comments made me cry of how many people still wishes others the best, this gave me a little more faith in humanity.
just let me die.....
@@Dark_Zacian don't do it , please okay i know im a person through a screen and you dont know me at all , but i almost committed last night i was holding a knife to my stomach , then i thought to myself "i shouldn't do this , i have a girlfriend , great best friends , and myself" so i didn't do it , and i put the knife back , you know why? Because i felt like i mattered for once , i thought to myself "hey i should try and fix my anorexia and try to be a little happier" so im trying now , so please dont do it even if you think to yourself "hey this person cares about me" please just think about it okay? I hope your okay , and i care about you
@@АЛИСА-ю3в4б I hope you're still doing ok... you matter too and I want to thank you for saying that, even if it wasn't to me
@@ingeaten your welcome , and im doing a little better :)
@@АЛИСА-ю3в4б I'm glad to hear that. I hope things will stay good in your life :)
Listened to this first when I was 12, I'm almost 22 now. I still relate so hard to this song ... it makes me so damn sad that nothing has changed in years.
Even if things haven’t changed, I’m so proud of you for living. It’s been hard for you and for you to be strong enough to live through everything makes me happy your here
Your valid bb, if your struggling definitely get some help with that please :)
Hey... Dont feel like that ... You've made it so far !.. Please.. continue living..You will make it out..I'm sure!
hey, whoever you are, i'm really proud of you. even if things haven't changed, you can still make it. you are very strong and you can make it. there is always a way to get through it. believe in yourself and take care of yourself, for there are people who love and care for you. please stay with us :[ **virtual hug**
bruh why did you make me feel old to T^T
10 years... holy shit how life has changed
Right??!?
Ok boomer
Yep, life has gone into ashes
pig face bruh
@pig face Stfu bitch
hey, i'm tossing my thoughts to the sea of comments :)
this song is special to me. i was in a very, very bad spot around 2019-2020, and i was in such a deep depressive state that i was just.. ready to go. i was done.
i was into vocaloid then- music was my main source of comfort. and one day, i found rolling girl.
it hit hard. my memory is poor now, but i'm sure there were days i cried while blasting it through my earbuds.
i always interpreted "mou ikkai" (believe that's how it's pronounced, i dont speak japanese) as "one more time", and i think that was the most important part to me. i took it as "one more day", and that was one of the many things that pushed me through that time.
coming back to this song, i'm so glad i'm here. i'm glad i'm here to hear it again and i'm glad i stayed. i kept rolling, and i'm so happy i did. i'm not fully better now- i have my rough days, and my dark moods, but i'm here and that is so important.
i want to thank wowaka for making this song. it pushed me through my dark, dark early teenage years and i at least wanted to say thank you. and hey, if there's another kid out there like me-
one more time.
i promise you the clouds will break. they may break and come back, or only let a small bit of light through, but the sun will shine again one day. i promise.
one more time.
thank you, wowaka, and thank you to everyone who supported me.
let's roll :)
Rolling thought life, but the steeps are worth passing,
I'm happy to hear that you made it through the darker times
Hey heyy.. wow.. I felt like I just found myself.. For so many times I have told myself one more day, just one more.. And step by step.. I have come a longg wayy but nowadays I feel like I need to start all over again. I need to find myself again. Day by day. Again. I have seen the days I said I am glad I am so glad I kept continuing. I kept continue living. I'm glad I stayed. But now I know I need to start again. And one more time.. One more rolling.. Day by day... I thank you for writing this, your experiences. Im glad to know that there is another person out there like me. It means a lot for me
@@selindoga roll on, my friend!
This is exactly what happened to me
this is me rn lol this song is a comfort
Some people will never understand why we are into Vocaloid and other Japanese arts the way we do. Just by listening to Rolling Girl is a comfort for people because Miku explains exactly what the viewer feels while listening, implying that you aren't alone in your struggle. Thank you Wowaka. Thank you for the comfort I found in Vocaloid.
@@chillspidersinc9781 Yeah?
@@chillspidersinc9781 Okay?
Owo
@@chillspidersinc9781 I'm really new to vocaloid but this comment isn't pointless. At least other people can agree on this. Please don't spoil the warmth people get from this comment. I suggest you delete yours please.
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Rest in peace, wowaka. Thank you for being an inspiration and a blessing to all of us! Our hearts reach out to your friends and family.
For us who are still here: May we strive to become even better. May we become the people that wowaka would have wanted us to be: People who would help others, and would love others! #wowakaさん
This was my very first Vocaloid song I've ever heard. I loved it but eventually forgot all about it until today. Now seeing that the artist of this masterpiece has passed away truly shows how fragile life can be. I'm sorry to hear of Wowaka's passing and I hope only the happiest of memories for the loved ones. Wowaka's talent will be in the hearts of many, I included.
Though my memories of that time are fuzzy, I know this was one of the first for me too. It broke my heart to hear such a sad song, but it really made me feel that I wasn't quite alone when I felt down. Its message is deeply etched into my heart.
I think this was my first Volcaloid song too or I think it was 愛して愛して愛して
this song along with others hurts a hell lot because it seriously reminds me of my eight grade year and how horribly depressed i was. i really like the song but it makes me want to bawl from the terrible memories it brings. it makes me glad that atleast im alive to still write it all out rn
8 year old me: W O A H THIS IS DARK
13 year old me: *literally jams to it every second*
ღliz uwuღ me 8: woah this is dark. Me now 15: haha
*while crying*
you poor troubled children, i remember when i was like that
@@catboychemicals6630 ah, the good old days...
17 y/o me: **jams harder**
Miku: I am severely depressed. I need help.
fans waving glow-sticks: y'all hear sumn? 👁👄👁
also miku: not a real person
😂😂
Ur pfp is...
HANAKO KUUUUUUN!
I get the joke but
Fr tho thats not hatsune miku
I mean it is her voice but
Its a different artist
They are only using vocaloid
but in the animation its miku i think?-
@@genxtq. i think its her?
I showed my mom and she’s Japanese and she’s like: *SILENCE*
Oof
If i showed this to my mom (with subtitle we are arabic in this house) idk even know why i will get screamed at 👁👄👁
@@thisgirlislazy9471 انتي عربية:0؟؟
damn if i showed my Australian mum she would just ask why am i showing her Japanese sh!t smh
@@miauthe1 Hma
I was banging my head to this before I attempted multiple times and I'll keep on banging my head to this until the end of my life. Rest in peace, Wowaka, your songs gave me strength to keep going
Miku was supposed to go to coachella in 2020, which was sadly cancelled due to the pandemic, and i believe this song was gonna be played, and i can just imagine all the other people dancing and having fun to this, when they dont understand a word, while all the miku stans are sobbing and twerking at the same time
**TWERKS IN DEPRESSION**
*sad twerking*
That's so harmonious I love it
Lol
*Twerks while rolling*
I used to get mad when this was voted the most popular vocaloid song, simply because I hadn’t seen it and thought that the overcrowding to a song was dumb. But when I watched and listened, I realized that I was very, very wrong. This song deserved that popularity, it deserves every drop of it. This song helped me through the rest of middle school and the beginning of high school, and I have no idea where I’d be without it. Thank you, Wowaka, for this legendary song that shaped the youth of the 2000s, for helping so many people choose to live on like I did, for being the song writer everyone needed in your time. I’m crying as I write this, as I don’t believe it was really your time to depart us, but I’ll be damned if I won’t try to give you one hell of a send off. Thank you for being you, and being memorable. Rest in peace, Wowaka. Keep rolling, at least one more time.
Rolling is a slang term of self harm. So you say "keep self harming"?
@@kochamciebubu3659 I think rolling is like a double meaning in this song where it means to keep going (to keep on rolling) but also means self harm.
Actually, I uses to hate this song too. All because most of the mv's contents of this song are people rolling down so I decided it held no meaning. But after I listened to this video which thankfully had subtitles I became addicted to it, mainly because it was so deep. I just wished I found the meaning sooner.
@@Silver-ws4cu hello! While I think you're right about it meaning both of those things, self harming and continuing to live pretty much go hand in hand. People self harm because they want to live and be happy, and that's the only way they know how at the moment. So, even if it's counterproductive and doesnt always work out, people keep going by hurting themselves.
420th li-
What the Frick am I doing?
もう一回 . . .
もう一回 . . .
One more time . . .
One more time . . .
RIP wowaka-chan. Your music will keep rolling even without you here. You are an inspiration and always will be.
ごめんなさいワウカ
Wowaka is a girl?
aminah usodan no
@@arisu5250 why this comment (not yours) said "wowaka-chan"? Is "-chan" means girl?
@@aminahusodan2043 i believe the commenter does not fully understand the Japanese honorific system, thus the confusion.
From what i know chan is for something someone finds cute, usually towards lovers or pets.
I wish you the best, rolling girls.
Thank you, I wish you the best as well
@@xxcanthinkofanamexx1688 thank you
Thank you.
Thx
rest in peace, wowaka
thank you for making a huge impact on my super young vocaloid fan self with this very song.
He will live on through his music
thank u wowaka,i'm crying writing this
but thank u
Rest in peace Wowaka-san, this song is my first vocaloid song, until now this song is still my favorite song.
I honestly feel something in my chest reading how many people had the exact same experience as I ~
Does wowaka CREATE this song or
He create miku? If he create miku and died, i would surely i will die.
@@blackgutspowderfan Yes, Wowaka is the one who made this song
this week i returned home from the mental hospital after an attempt and this song has been oddly comforting. i remember listening to this song when i was in middle school and feeling depressed, im 20 now. some things never change it seems
I hope you're okay now. Please keep going,life sucks sometimes but I believe in you💗
I don’t think anyone is going to see this but here we go..this song has a special place in my heart. The amount of times I’ve listened to this…oh lord. Several depressive episodes later and I’m actually happy right now. I hope it will last for a bit longer because we all know that depression can return.
You can do it, okay? I know you don’t have hope anymore, but if you have actually reached this point of happiness, it feels amazing.
I’ve only felt this way for a few days but I’m trying to make the most out of it. :)
I'm glad you're getting some good rolls in!! I hope you keep your momentum :)
currently listening to this while wanting to give up again. But seeing this meant a lot. Ty Jay.
This morning, I couldn't bring myself to go to school yet again.
I felt hopelessly empty, yet incredibly sad at the same time. It's been a year now that thing started going downhill.
I was with my mom in her car. She had made a quick stop by the drug store to get me my anti-depressants as I had ran out the day before and I stayed in the car, waiting for her.
I was listening to this song, when it happended. I heard a quiet knocking sound, and looked around to see what was causing it when I saw it; a blue tit.
It was on the rear-view mirror, alterning between it and the side of the (closed window). It was on the driver's side, but I could still see it well. I was so shocked, I stayed watching it a few seconds before trying to take a photo of it with my mom's phone, (I was listening to rolling girl on it) but it flew off before I could. I wanted to take a photo because my mom loves birds, especially blue tits, they're her favourites. I was still dumbfounded, but started the music over anyway. Not even 10 seconds later, the blue tit comes back on the rear-view mirror; but on my side this time. It was so close!! So small, too! It could've fitted in the palm of my hand! This time, I could take a few (blurry) pictures, it sayed there a solid minute!!
I believe this song blessed me. Sorry, just wanted to tell this to someone, it was so adorable! !
I lost hope a couple days ago. Met someone who changes that, my hope skyrocketed. I'm so glad that there are people who relate, even if slightly, in this comment section. I hope you're still doing okay.
Wowaka's music changed my life. Every time I was feeling sad or depressed I would listen to Rolling Girl. The first time I heard this song I thought "Wow this is a good song". But after learning the meaning behind it, I now think "Wow, no wonder this is one of the most recognizable vocaloid songs in history". After Rolling Girl I started listening to his other songs like World's End Dancehall, Two Faced Lovers, and Unhappy Refrain and fell in love with His songs instantly. His songs are absolutely incredible with amazing meanings behind them. But today I learned of his passing and as I am writing this I am crying. I will miss him dearly and I'm sure the community will to. May we all ways remember this incredible man and what he did for this community. Rest in peace Wowaka, I'm sure you'll be happy with PowaPowa-P and Samfree up there. May you rest in peace. (Also thank you for taking the time to read all of this.)
Have you seen his pmmm song
@@Hetsu.. Yes, I have. I think it's a very beautiful song and I'm so happy Wowaka had the chance to create a song for my favorite anime. ^^
Lost ones weeping tho
@@baalsack1407 Yeah I forgot about Lost Ones Weeping, which is weird because I really relate to it though.
You're rude. You tell him to self harm? Rolling is a slang term for self harm.
Rolling girl remaining in her dreams
She only wants to stay, it seems
All the noise slicing layers in her head
Has her screaming away, has her screaming away
"No problem", she tells herself today
But what she says repeats in the grey, oh
Fail again, failing again
Fussing over mistakes she thinks would remain
But then she starts all over again
Just once more, just once more
"I will roll again today I know for sure"
Oh, that girl said what she said
Playing every word and playing to pretend
"Are you better now?"
"No, I don′t know how"
What's the point of living if pain′s never ending
Please, just let me stop my breath
Right now
Rolling girl is taunted by her gaze
She can't recall the hue she erased
Voice's scream, blending all around her head
Blending over again, blending over again
"No problem", she breathes another lie
The pain and guilt she feels amplifies, oh
"You′ll be fine", is what they all say
Even when they see me on my way towards my fate
They′d watch me roll again
Just once more, just once more
"Rolling down a hill just like I did before"
Oh, that girl said, what she said
Repeating every word and hiding every meaning
"Are you better now?"
"No, I don't know how"
Maybe someday you′ll see the progress I'm doing
Please, just let me stop my breath
Not now
Just once more, just once more
"I will roll again today I know for sure"
Oh, that girl said, what she said
Playing every word and playing to pretend
"Just once more? No, no more"
Take my hand and come with me
It will be okay
Please, just let me hold your breath for now
i wish we could bookmark comments bcz i would bookmatk this, i prefer this translation of the video
you should make a variation of this song with these lyrics
I want to but I'm poor and dumb 💀
Brooo thanks for ruining my day 😭😭😭 but that was so good im almost crying
@@classiestsodaever It already exists. These lyrics are by Lollia, from her cover of this song.
I just wanna point out how this song has a double meaning.
On one hand, it could be a song about perseverance, while on the other it could be a song about depression.
It's all about how it's framed.
In the vids where various characters are rolling down a hill doing flips and stunts, they eventually stick the landing.
In this one, it's implied that someone killed themself.
This is a really deep comment and i felt that.
In other videos with this music, they roll down a hill. Honestly if i made this type of video it'll be just my oc rolling down the stairs bc why not
Hi to whoever finds this comment.
I grew up loving Vocaloid and would listen to all of the songs, they would help me so much and man there are so many creative producers out there. Anyway, I would listen to all except this song. At the time this song came out I was dealing with massive depression and self harm, and I could really feel it in this song even though I knew none of the lyrics at the time. This song is truly powerful in conveying these topics even without words, so with that being said I couldn't listen to it. My depression and self harm got so bad to the point I went to a rehab center which really helped me and changed my life forever. I felt people were actually listening to me for once. Now 5 years after rehab I'm coming back to this song to listen to it fully for the first time and wow I have no words. I'm truly shocked at how far I've come so I'm just here to say to whoever reads this, there IS a light at the end of the tunnel. Depression doesn't have to be your friend, you don't have to keep rolling, and you don't have to constantly be tired of life. This is coming from someone who made it on the other side. I'm so proud of you for making it this far, you can do this! YOU are loved and cherished!! Ok sorry for the long comment but I feel really deeply with this song and I know there are many people out there who are struggling just like I used too. Thanks for reading :)
Also rest in peace wowaka
i-
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thank you.
i just feel unworthy, and my brain only sees a bad end.
i feel like i should just end it, so i don’t waste anyones resources or time, because i know, i will end up dying of starvation because o flack of money in the end, since i know i am doing so bad, and i will end up failing the biggest test in life.
i feel like a roadblock, and i wanna tear it down, so noone needs to get stopped.
There might be light for you and others, and thats good.
But there is no light for me.
i am not worth doing anything for.
I am waste, just waiting to be thrown out.
I JUST WANNA BE GONE SO I DON’T FEEL BAD ABOUT ME STOPPING ANYONE.
PLEASE UNDERSTAND ME OUTRAGE, I WANNA DIE,
JUST KILL ME ALREADY.
Yet still.
Thank you, Wowaka.....
@Dark_Umbreon , I'm open to talk if you want, i have struggled with depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts before, and I don't judge :)
Also, please be open to seeing a therapist as it really helps, trust me, I've been in therapy for 2 years now and I'm seriously getting better!
If you are seriously considering suicide, please call your local emergency services and/or your country's suicide helpline.
Thank you so much for this message, I have been dealing with depression for a couple months and I always felt like I was alone. But I feel so much better knowing that there are people who are able to get through what I am experiencing.
Omg I forgot I wrote this message, thanks to everyone who commented I hope you are all having a good day
@@Dark_ZacianHey, shhhhh. Breathe. Don't think of yourself that way. There is a lot of life to discover, including who you are. Your hidden sides, your dark self, whom is just misunderstood and wants to be forgiven. Your whole self, and the world around you. What makes you happy, makes _you_ happy. There is also mysteries and curiosity around the world we live in. Don't forget to meditate your emotions? Meditate them, and accept them regardless of negative or positive emotions. They're here to guide, you, as an individual. You are strong, worthy, and more emotionally powerful than you might think. There also so many people that can help you now, mental health and self care is now way more accepting than back then. _Go off, and start your own path sweetie. Let's see what you can discover from the world._
I'm just wake up and can't believe from what I saw in Twitter. There are lots of tweets about wowaka being passed away.
(Damn, even after this I'm still can't believe that)
I'm just proud about being in this community. Rest in peace, Wowaka. Many of your fans will miss you. 😭😭
It's been 5 years since wowaka passed. i hope he knows how much his music has made an impact on all of us around the world.
I can't believe I shipped the boy and Miku when I was younger- I didn't understand the song back then at all.
I don’t think any of us really did haha
@@laurenpettit7593 I used to think that the boy was her friend and that he saved her from ending it all and she finally found compassion from someone - boy, was I WAY OFF.
I used to think the boy was symbolic for bullies, since she was always running from him and trying to protect herself from him and sometimes bullies are what push people to commit, I guess it can still mean that for different people but the true meaning still stands
Depression x Miku, best couple ever.
Same oof
A rolling girl: She is in a constant state of unhappiness, and catches herself dreaming often of a world where she’s finally successful but most importantly content. But those are unfortunately just unreachable dreams for our rolling girl; she keeps “rolling” or pushing through life, for the hope that things will get better. She is convinced that no matter how much she wants to give up on this life, she’s not ready to go. And the truth is, our rolling girl isn’t ready to go. She has so many things she wants to do in life, so many people to meet, so many memories to make…but depression doesn’t stop for the dreams of a young girl. Depression doesn’t loosen his firm grip on her heart, he wields it tightly, cracking it, everytime she dared to think “no, I will go on. Because things will get better.”. With every stab he takes at her heart, her strife’s lasting wound grows deeper and deeper. Every time she insists, having no one but to convince but herself, “no. I must go on. Things will get better” she grows more and more tired as she utters this sentence. Every time she utters this sentence to herself, it seems to lose some meaning and credibility, until there is practically none left. Each time she assures herself things will get better she believes it even less. She finds herself in the same position countless times. After depression grimly attacked her very being and left her even more wounded than the last time he did, she became more and more weak, leaving her more vulnerable to depression himself. You see, he has just one goal, to crack her heart to where it is utterly broken and simply cannot beat anymore. He has to leave her so wounded that she starts seeing white specks dancing across her vision, as he holds her hand with a big smirk on his face as she leaves this world. Not because death took her from this world before she was ready to go, but because she willingly gave herself to him because she felt it was her only option with her heart in the hospital.
Rolling girl can’t let that happen!
It’s her name; she has to keep going no matter how unhappy she has! She has to keep believing things *will* get better! She has to fight depression and not let him have the satisfaction of being the one to take her out of this world instead of death. She insists to depression that she’s not ready to go…so she runs away from him. She wants to get rid of her depression so badly, she just wants to get rid of the parasite in her heart, trying to suck the life out of her. He just stands there, smirking at her all the way while she attempts to run, knowing she can’t do it. Knowing she can’t get rid of him; she can’t run away from this parasite. At this point, her world’s become so colorless and meaningless. Her heart cracks more with every second, threatening to break at any moment, depression refusing to let go of her any time soon.
Rolling girl is so fucking tired. She’s tired of continuesly fighting against this man, only for him to come back stronger. She’s sick of telling herself that despite depression’s horrific win streak in the war, he wouldn’t win the war he waged against her. She was sick of telling herself everyday that there was hope despite the fact he emerged from every battle stronger, her weaker. She was sick of depression repeatingly insisting that her time was up, that she was ready to go, when she was anything but!
But it sure did feel like her time was…
NO! She couldn’t think like that! She had to keep fighting!
…But that’s easier said than done. The one thing she kept telling herself, that things would get better, kept getting proven wrong in front of her eyes countless times. That was her only defense against the monstrous man who called himself her depression. And as much as she hated to admit it, that man was more comforting than any friend she had ever had.
Rolling girl can’t find the strength to repeat her signature affirmation as she crumbles in the arms of her depression. The affirmation she’s been repeating for years, has become so meaningless and devoid of any credibility…A voice keeps screaming inside her to push that demon of a man aside and be a soldier and not surrender to his little war.
But that voice is becoming less and less loud.
One day, when her heart was about to break, and her wounds were so severe they were about to send her into the afterlife, depression violently grabbed her by the throat, ignoring her persistent cries. He knows she most likely is too weak to oppose what he’s going to do next. Our rolling girl has become utterly powerless in depression’s grip. She’s not ready to go, she’s not ready to go! Our rolling girl believes without a doubt that leaving this world will be utterly painful and a decision she’d regret as soon as she felt her soul exiting her body. But than, depression does the unthinkable and pulls her into a tight embrace.
And our rolling girl does the even more unthinkable…
She doesn’t have enough strength to get out, and doesn’t physically object, just stares at his chest with red, dull eyes. Eyes that have seen herself crumble a million times to this man’s endless tyranny.
If she doesn’t get out of his arms fast enough, he’ll assume she’s too tired of this world and too wounded to go on and take her out.
She needs to get out.
But how can she do that when she’s nothing but an absolute shell of her former self and nothing but a weak soldier with a million wounds? How can she do that when her affirmation seems to be nothing more than a bold faced lie?
I won’t tell you how this story ends; because this is where all rolling girls have differing endings. Some leave depression’s arms and challenge him to another battle they will lose, while some leave his arms and finally find happiness. But some sadly take off their shoes and engulf themselves in their worst enemy, as he delivers their last hug in his tight embrace, feeling accomplished and satisfied with his opponents’ surrender.
“Wait, so, do people around rolling girl ever truly understand the struggles of rolling girls and their never ending battle of their positive affirmations and their demonic depression?”
I’m a rolling girl, I would know.
It’s not a pretty answer. But I’m a rolling girl, so I have to keep speaking positive affirmations into my mind, so I’ll end my little analysis of our fight against our hope and that horrible man’s injections of despair here.
(This was a vent writing and god damn I wrote a lot-)
Omg this is the best comment I read on this video and really hit me hard because I am also a “rolling girl” but I just wanna thank you for writing this it really explained this topic so well and deserves to be seen by everyone | (• ◡•)|
I loved this so much, I love you.
That was a beautiful description and personal explanation. I'm sorry you were dealt these cards in life, I understand how you're feeling (at least somewhat, everyone's experience us different). I'd like you to know that yours not alone. I and many others, feel with you.
@@leaf7884 tysm :^) i've gotten much better from where i was at that point but i still have a long way to go
I have a friend who's been suffering from depression for + years. Thank you, for now I can finally understand how she feels. If there's a way I could help her I'd love to know, because just seeing her suffering every day makes me feel pain, I want her suffering to end, but not her life.
«She tried to kill her depression, but the depression ended up killing her»......
Jesus christ lol, that should be in scripted on my grave
@@zykaro9057 nooo, I hope you're doing fine. Keep fighting! Trust me, the light feels great, after wandering in darkness.
R.I.P Wowaka... 😔😔😥😥😔😔
@@hatsunemikuchannel2023 🙏🙏
I think it's more like she tried to run away from him searching for hope but he ended up catching her and ended her suffering
every time I listen to this I really just want to break down and cry. Rest now Wowaka. You have all moved us with your powerful lyrics and amazing music.
“You will roll me somehow” that line just breaks my heart. I don’t even know how to describe it. After everything this girl has been through, failure after failure, constantly being belittled, and just being hounded at by anxiety at every turn. Even after all that, she decides to keep moving forward. She will push on no matter what the consequences are. Even if things get worse, even if every cell in her body is aching and screaming at her to stop, somehow someway she’s going to try again. It’s a feeling I, hell all of us, can relate to. We just gotta keep rolling no matter what and if the result ends in failure and suicide then so be it.
Oh wow
THIS WAS MADE 10 YEARS AGO AND HALF OF THE COMMENTS ARE ABOUT WOWAKA
But srsly tho, rip 😭
R.I.P - 101
Wowaka in skyrim.
Just a comment to cheer you up.
It's so sad even though i might be late, but still
What happend?
「 La Yumeko 」 Wowaka (the producer of this song) passed away in 2019
9 y/o me: this is so weird wtf
11 y/o me: wait I kinda like it
16 y/o me: OH THE BOY IS HER DEPRESSION ohhh MOU IKKAI MO-
I'm 9 and like the song knowing its dark and it will always be apart of me but what do you except ddlc I'd my favorite game
@@michelledolbeck4230 this is 100% something i would say when i was 9 and fnaf was my favorite game
@Kokichi Oma Same. I was 13-14 when I started looking at vocaloid and I thought I was young but?..
im vibing it with 12, bro, why didnt i discovered vocaloid when i was younger
@@miranpadilla3395 lmao same
I just realized. Many japanese writers/ singers had passed away.
Rest in peace Wowaka🕊😔
wowaka passed away due to heart failure in 2019
RIP 🙏🕊️
So basically Miku's character is a girl in highschool going through depression and who feels like a failure. The meaning behind "rolling" i believe is because shes barely getting by, instead of walking confidently to her dream shes rolling downhill to depression.
So the boy isnt actually real, his uniform doesnt match hers or the other students, he is actually a manifestation of her depression. He keeps asking her "is it enough/are you done?" Signaling that he wants her to give up but she keeps saying "no 1 more time!" As she isnt ready to give up on her dreams or life but as time goes on she gets weaker and more injured because of her "rolling". Eventually she gives into the guy/her depression and allows him to "stop her breath" meaning suicide. In the last scene you see them hugging but Miku isnt wearing shoes, which in Japan its very common to take off your shoes before jumping off buildings so that someone knows you were there. In the end the rolling girl stopped rolling.
Rolling also means “ Self harm” in some ways
T^T
In Japan, the term rolling also can mean screwing something up
Well shit, I thought the boy was a good friend that supported her
This is the best interpretation
I ACTUALLY CANNOT BELIEVE THAT THEY TOOK DOWN THE OG VIDEO
I'm shocked too, I thought I was doing something wrong when I couldn't find it anymore o_O
THOSE PHUCKS
Oh lord same, thank god there's! this
what's different in the og video and this one?
Natonious I really want to know too
its the 5th of april in japan. it's been an entire year and its still absolutely unbelievable that hes gone.
youre still living in our hearts, wowaka.
goodbye, Wowaka.
Making 2/3 of my favorite vocaloid songs.
Rolling girl and two sided lovers (two faced lovers in english)
3rd grade me (2018) was in such a tough circle, for years ive been "rolling" To keep track of things but my life in my school was nothing more than i can call my hell hole, always crying myself to sleep due to the sheer pressure they all gave me, my classmates were nothing but assholes even until today.
I'm in the 8th grade, ive lost yet another friend whos now moving to a different school in the province, ive been meaning to create a song for her because i know one day ill remember her face but never her voice again.
Miku has been apart of me ever since 2015, being born in the year where miku was released was so prideful about because i was so happy to find people who strongly relate to the songs people composed of Miku and there was no such thing for me to call Miku my hero,
Thanks to her, i prevented suicide, i changed people's lives despite not being the best, but i somehow made the best outcome for them to be happier, i'm now turning 15 this year with my friends who i love dearly, those who i have changed and now i wanna make a better life for them and myself
3:20 of this song showed how much love ive placed my heart into this song knowing ill never meet Wowaka ever, but ill remember him through his songs.
I wish you well
it's 2019, I know, don't @ me too hard guys.
I just wanted to come back here to say I discovered this song in my 7th grade career. all throughout middle school, and I really do mean *all* throughout, I struggled with severe depression, anxiety, self-harm, and thoughts of suicide for multiple reasons. one of the main reasons, though, was the thought that i couldn't fit in anywhere at school. I was picked out of a crowd just to be physically abused and made fun of on the daily. and thanks to some other problems going on at home, I legitimately thought there was no way to fix myself, and considered killing myself multiple times.
But despite my worthless attempts to break away from my love of otaku culture due to bullying, this song somehow managed to help me cope with most of it. just knowing that there was someone out there who was so aware of the problems I faced every day to write a song about it using the voice of the future herself, made everything a little more bearable. I listened to this catchy tune whenever I felt like swallowing those pills, and I'm thankful that after all these years, in its 240p quality glory, it's still here for me to listen to again, and remember how far I've come in life. Thank you, wowaka. And thank you, Miku Hatsune.
Edit, 5/1/2019: Hello anyone who reads this. It’s me again.
Just wanted to come back and say I’ve made a full recovery from my depression and have finally found a way to cope with my anxiety disorder. I’m finally in a school where I can be myself and I’ve never felt happier and more at home in my entire life. Thank you to everyone who liked this comment, it really means a lot to me for reading my story💕✨💕✨
I'm so glad and proud of you for being alive 💕
@@MariaSanchez-cr2tg wow, thank you so much. that means a lot to me. i'm happy you're alive too
Well I’m happy you here
edit: im so proud of you for recovering that great and i hope you live a great life
Ur story made me cry but I’m happy your here❤️💜
Alyson Frazier I’m happy you’re here too❤️
2:21 "Hey, I said whatever happens is fine"
3:00 - 3:10 Damn the lyric really makes me sad somehow:'(
R.I.P. Wowaka, Your song introduced me to Vocaloid.
The beginning of the song starts with a screen turning on, and ends with it turning off. But if you loop the song, it turns on again. The struggle begins again. She rolls one more time. And it hurts, and it's painful, but is it not a better ending to keep going? If you loop the song, she keeps rolling.
So for a better ending, leave the song on loop.
thats what ive been doing
no. It's just endless pain.
Same as Disappearance of Hatsune Miku, but more literal
Well i think its better to not do that, cause endless pains worse than death
if anything thats just worse
I want to thank Wowaka for writing this song.
In 8th grade I really was at my lowest. I had no friends and I was in a really bad depressive episode that seemed endless.
But there was music; there was this song. And when I listened to it, i felt like I was understood, that I was not alone, that someone somewhere else was fighting the same battle as me.
And the very first time I sang this song loud; I felt like I was finally able to express everything that was hurting me back then. And it was amazing because the lyrics are in Japanese, and none that I knew spoke that language, so for the first time in years, I was able to say it loud, and to know I was not alone, and I was not afraid of hurting people around me by saying how I felt.
I can't imagine my life without this song, it means so much to me, because this song was my voice when I wasn't able to say how I was feeling.
I uh... I know Wowaka is dead but... I wanted to get this off my chest.
I only JUST now got the meaning of the song, or at least I think I do and it's because... I can relate to it in a regard only now.
I'm currently dating the love of my life. Honestly. Since she's come into my world, I've felt nothing but joy around her. I absolutely love EVERYTHING about her. I love her Green eyes and the way they shine in the light. I love the way she looks when I tell her how pretty she looks. I love her smile, though I rarely get to see it with her tendency to hide her face when she smiles. I love the way her hair flows just past her shoulders. I love how she's genuinely interested in me as a person. I still cry in happiness when I think to the first time I decided I was going to marry her. She egged me on and told me something scientifically inaccurate in relation to Biotechnology, something I went to school for. I spent nearly an hour explaining how Gene Expression worked and how it related to lifestyle. I realized at the end what I was doing and began to apologize. She... she stopped me and told me she already knew what I was talking about from our previous conversations. She just wanted me to talk about it so she could hear my voice and she liked it when I was passionate about things.
I... I cried. Never in my life had I ever found someone who actually liked to hear me. It'd always been that people thought I was making them out to be stupid or I was just annoying and talked too much. Never in my life had I ever had someone actually WANT me to talk about what I was passionate about. Even now, I'm still crying thinking about it. But... that was the moment I told myself that I'd found the one.
The only friction that's arisen in our relationship is that she has Schizophrenia.
And Miku in this? This is her when she doesn't take her meds.
My GF went off them for a bit and she is having to take them to get back to normal. It's been about three weeks and I've spent a total of maybe an hour with her. Without them, she hears things far more often, has frequent night terrors, is really antisocial, and is frequently depressed to the point of not eating for multiple days. It scares me because I CAN'T help her, at least not for her emotional state. Any attempt I could make at talking to her, of helping get her mind off of things only makes her feel like I'm suffocating her.
And I want to thank Wowaka for this song, even if I only got it after his death... because it's helping me hold together as I watch her suffer that way, when those meds kick back in, and I'm not a source of pain for her, I can be there, making her smile and laugh, and to tell her how much of an amazing woman she is, how she's the most gorgeous woman on the planet and how I would sacrifice my life for her at the drop of a hat if it meant saving her.
This song is helping me better be there for her each time she takes a roll, that way I can hold her in my arms and tell her that everything is okay and that I'll be there for her no matter what.
That's so inspiring. I wish the best for you and your girlfriend
I am so sorry about what you are both going through. I can only imagine what it's like, but you have my best wishes. I hope things get better.
I hope things get better for you guys. I am sending lots of love to you both. :°)
You’re the best! Please I wish for your girlfriend to get better!
i started tearing up a bit cuz i was thinking about how one day i (hopefully) will have that with someone...
RONRII GAARU wa itsu made mo todokanai yumemite
Sawagu atama no naka wo kakimawashite, kakimawashite.
"Mondai nai." to tsubuyaite, kotoba wa ushinawareta?
Mou shippai, mou shippai.
Machigai sagashi ni owareba, mata, mawaru no!
Mou ikkai, mou ikkai.
"Watashi wa kyou mo korogarimasu." to,
Shoujo wa iu shoujo wa iu
Kotoba ni imi wo kanade nagara!
"Mou ii kai?"
"Mada desu yo, madamada saki wa mienai no de. Iki wo tomeru no, ima."
ROORINGAARU no nare no hate todokanai, mukou no iro
Kasanaru koe to koe wo mazeawasete, mazeawasete.
"Mondai nai." to tsubuyaita kotoba wa ushinawareta.
Dou nattatte ii n datte sa,
Machigai datte okoshichaou to sasou, sakamichi.
Mou ikkai, mou ikkai.
Watashi wo douka korogashite to
Shoujo wa iu shoujo wa iu
Mukuchi ni imi wo kasane nagara!
"Mou ii kai?"
"Mou sukoshi, mou sugu nanika mieru darou to. Iki wo tomeru no, ima."
Mou ikkai, mou ikkai.
"Watashi wa kyou mo korogarimasu." to,
Shoujo wa iu shoujo wa iu
Kotoba ni emi wo kanade nagara!
"Mou ii kai? Mou ii yo. Sorosoro kimi mo tsukaretarou, ne."
Iki wo yameru no, ima.
@@Zigeuninja read katakana :) ローリンガール=rooringaaru :)
@@invoke_l5339 the lyric is lonely girl (idk why i felt the need to say this even tho u commented a month ago sorry )
ありがとう！ I can’t believe you took all the time to write the romaji, tysm!!
Thx for the lyrics
Nice profile picture of naib from identity v :v
I feel like this song is a little more optimistic than everyone seems to think
don't get me wrong, every interpretation is valid, but to me personally the boy is not her depression, he is just a person in her life trying to help
it's not him strangling her, it's actually herself (you can see this because the color of her sleeves is black and his are white), and the boy is stopping her by pulling her in a hug
the whole song Miku is pushing him away because of the mental illness she's facing, saying that she's fine and "rolling" - probably a metaphor for not actually living, but merely existing everyday. when the boy finally catches her, he tells her that she can stop rolling, because he's here to hold her.
Yeah, I totally agree with you but all of this can also make sense if you think about it if he was depression. It’s true the Miku is choking herself, but it’s only because she succumbed to her own depression because he was picking and laughing at her. 2:03 is where we can see him talk to her. Tell her if she’s done trying to roll, telling her that if it’s enough yet.. on 2:09 we can see him starting to laugh at her as she tries to scream at him to leave her alone.. It’s really a small detail that’s really hard to see because everything starts to get distorted. But anyways, on 2:49. At the part where she starts to strangle herself. I take this as her saying “You won depression, you won.. And now will end myself.” She was so broken that her own depression was her only comfort. So her own depression gives her a hug before her last moments of living as he starts to end her before she could to herself. In the other past moments in the video. We can see her saying “I will end your breath… Now.” Around 1:37 as she puts her hands around his throat. But he smiles at that.. That’s also another small miss-able detail. All of that can be put as her trying to kill her depression while he smiles back. Back to the end of the video, instead of her ending herself. It was him who ended her. The last lines of the song was “I will end your breath… Now.” which was him who said that because he was basically mimicking what Miku said before. After the last lines, Miku starts closing her eyes, losing to her own depression. She stopped rolling all together..
@@feelingblueish4027 like I said, all interpretations are valid, but I choose to believe in optimistic view. Simply because it's better for my mental health, and because this is my comfort song.
Thats exacly what i thought!
@@feelingblueish4027 I am in no way smart but I do have an argument to that. During the last line of the song you can tell it wasn't him who said it because he had his mouth closed, but for the few lines before that his mouth was open. Again, I don't claim to be smarter than you in any way and I could very well be wrong but I just wanted to make that small detail known.
@@underlevelednoah that is true ut the girls mouth wasnt moving either whenever that line came up
i love this song so much, it never gets old. the message of it and how it is portrayed here is realistic. "one more roll" is a way of trying to convince yourself that your almost there, even though you feel yourself losing hope. last week, i had to go home early from school because i almost fainted twice and genuinely felt so drained i couldnt keep my head up at all. that morning, i woke up feeling like shit but i told myself "im almost there, its almost winter break. just a little more". i realized im a human, and humans have limits. i had forced myself to believe i could surpass those limits and just "get over it." depression is a serious thing and so is overworking yourself. always remember to take care of yourself and value how you feel mentally because if you dont soon those mental feelings could become physical. self care is important and its okay to take mental health days
This song was created more than a decade ago, but I've yet to find a better representation of depression and suicidality.
In a severe depressive state, you look at other people and/or the possibility of recovery and it seems impossible - that you'll never reach that normalcy no matter how hard you try. You can barely hear anything over the thoughts making so much noise [sawagu, to clamor/make noise] in your head.
You tell others there's no problem, but the words are empty reassurances. Even if you could tell them how you're feeling, there's nothing they could do about it. You keep looking for what you're doing wrong, but in the end there's nothing for it but to try again tomorrow [roll again]. You tell yourself that over and over, every day.
Something of note is the difference between もう一回 [mou ikkai] and もう良いかい？[mou ii kai?], "one more time" vs. "are you ready?/you good?". To the latter Miku replies no, she can't see anything ahead of her yet, so she's just going to hold her breath for now. A big part of mental illness is riding out the lows and still having to wait in stasis for the day when for no particular reason, things start to get better.
The part about colors being out of reach hits so hard. Something I think people struggle to grasp about depression is that it's not just a mood, but a lens through which the entire world is interpreted. I remember during a particularly bad summer asking a couple people if there was a drought going on that I hadn't noticed because even on a sunny day, the grass looked so... washed out. Colors seemed desaturated, like vibrant color had been sucked out of the world. It literally messes with your sensory processing.
Notice that during "overlapping voices" Miku is talking to the boy, who represents her mental illness. Trying to talk herself out of things her brain tells her to be true that she knows she shouldn't believe, but seem so real. Early in the song she tries to strangle him while he smiles, knowing she won't win.
She uses "darou" (expressing uncertainty) while talking about how she'll be able to see something soon - again, trying to convince herself.
In the end, the boy asks her, "you must be getting tired, right? Stop breathing now." Particularly poignant here is the difference between tomeru (stop, temporary inflection - holding one's breath) and yameru (stop, finality - to stop breathing). She gives up.
Thank you for this
The intro is my favorite. The melody is super unique. And one night, my mom said I could listen to whatever song I’d like to while going to bed. I went to my laptop and played this song. Once I actually realized what this ment, this was stuck in my head. The next night, I listened to it again. I actually had some tears fall from my eyes and my mom came in and asked me “Are you okay, Kensley? Whay are you crying?” I was addicted to this song. I have a mean little brother. Everytime he made me sad, and/or mad, I would jump onto my laptop, grab some headphones, listen to this song, and I would get emotional.
Thank you to Wowaka for the beautiful song. I will remember you. Rest In Peace.
Very late to the scene, but I think I should give my thanks.
This song is the reason I *used* to like vocaloid. Of course, I have moved on from that stage of my life, but this song is extremely nostalgic to me, I remember getting home and jumping on my PC to listen to this song. When I heard Wowaka died, which I should’ve heard way sooner, this song came back to me.
RIP Wowaka.
Thank you.
Same. 10 years went by fast...I’m going to the Miku Expo this year mainly for the tribute to Wowaka and this song.
Same. My mom said that liking kpop and vocaloid would be a phase but i know at 9yrs old Wowaka will ALWAYS have a special part in my heart.
It's still impressive that a 240p video looks really good
I feel like the video being 240p only adds to the aesthetic of it.
I didn't even notice it
It helps its animated for sure. God how did I even watch things back then for real XD
It's only been a few minutes and I just realised that Wowaka has in fact passed away, one of the most popular songs in his record, you will be missed, keep rolling, Wowaka.
Rest In Peace, roll in the heavens above.
Its been years since I listened to this, but after the recent passing of Wowaka, I needed to hear it again.
Thanks for everything you've done and rest in peace