Bob you are an unsung hero. I love your videos. I'm still out here in the trenches brother hanging on for dear life. I hope I wake up healed one day, I will run through the streets screaming for joy.
Thanks Benzo, since I have been right where you are now and puled through it. It is the least I can do to help other Benzo Warriors understand withdrawal. I wish more that have healed would come forth to help as well. But it is such a horrendous thing to go through I can't blame those that move on after having healed. One day you will wake up 100% healed, and be like me. And yest I was literally jumping up and down that day as well. Hang in there Bro, you have the kind of temperament it takes to beat this I can tell.
@@neighborbob3043 I took klonopin for 12 years. Within the last month I've had the same piercing nerve pain that I wake up with that you described. Have also had a bit of tinnitus but that has gone away fortunately. I took klonopin at 1.5mg, then 1mg, then 0.5, then the last 5-6 years at 0.25. 12 years total. Do you think the nerve pain is my body's last calling for the drugs like you had or do you think I still have a long way to go? It's so hard to go through the pain when you don't know how much longer it will last.
@@jakestephens9992 it's honestly hard to tell, as we all are different and heal at a different rate. I did not understand how long it has been since the last Bezo you ever took? On average people seem to heal at about the two year mark, but you could heal sooner or later. I healed at a year and nine months and was so glad to have that nightmare over. I hope you heal soon Bro!
Neighbor Bob thanks for the video man. How long where you on the meds ? So the average of healing takes 2 years even for antidepressant? 14 months off still not 100% heal can’t wait for my healing to come and wake up heal
How are you at the moment, Mason? I suffer greatly from "weird brain feeling" (pre-seizure feeling? ), extreme exhaustion and derealization/depersonalization. Horrible. I'm 13 months into being off benzos.
@@jeffgalaska8269 Definitely better, but also different. Some symptoms vanished or became way less intense, whereas other symptoms flared up, such as cardiovascular symptoms (heart pounding intensely, and also pounding fast), anxiety/panic when the heart stuff starts, and I have monophobia, meaning being alone is a problem.
Sorry to hear that Susan. Although I have not made a vid in over four years. I have been helping many navigate Benzo withdrawal in the background. Feel free to shoot me an email at daddyniowa@gmail.com if you want. I have been talking to people on the Signal App for many years now worldwide.
That day "will" come in time............. everybody heals. I have been mentoring people since I healed on 9-1- of 2017. I have a FB Benzo page just called Neighbor Bob Also a SIGNAL APP group of people from all over the world. Email me if interested at daddyniowa@gmail.com. It's all free. : )
Thank you so much Bob!! I'm currently at 14 months and hearing you say you healed at about 17 or 18 months gave me hope! I'm at the point where I dread leaving the house, I had a panic attack in Walmart the other day while I was grocery shopping and it really bummed me out! Happened out of the blue too, so strange. Thanks so much for all your videos and the time spent making them, you are helping out so many people including me!
Question…when you were in the depths of all this, how did your wife handle it? I feel so bad for my husband. He’s a gem and an encourager and is loving me through this, BUT I can tell it’s taking a toll on him. Just curious how she went about dealing with the situation.
Thank you Bob. Your words are encouraging. I was on .5 mg of klonapin for 40yrs!!! I did a 5 month taper and have been off 18 months. I am building my life back up, with God’s help. I have some memory lapses, some days I don’t feel like leaving the house. I exercise and volunteer several hours a week. I just wish I had someone I could talk to who understood. It can be so very lonely. Thanks again for your video.
Good for you Brenda getting off that evil stuff! You would be surprised how much the brain can heal. You should try some infrared sauna, water fasting and heavy metal detox. All of those helped me a lot after my solvent brain injury in 1998. Take care and happy new year.Shoot me a line anytime at daddyniowa@gmail.com if you like.
Thank you so much for all of these videos! You have no idea how much they are helping me and others right now! Your very good at describing your story.
Thank you Bob for this, I can so relate to you during the my last attempt 5 years ago, went way too fast, along with 2 AD's at same time, hoping this taper with Ashton Manual will be better. Love the emotion you show here. Love your honesty also. Taking one hour at a time. Benzodiazepines have ruined 35+ years of my life. Again THANK YOU NEIGHBOR.... your info helps get us through this this nightmare. Can't wait for the LIGHT to come on! FAITH can make it HAPPEN!
Hi Neighbor Bob-Thanks for all of your work. Did you ever see a doctor to get diagnosed for the burning skin symptom that you experienced that you have mentioned in your videos? I was just diagnosed with small fiber neuropathy and erythromelalgia. I have horrible burning in my feet and hands...bright red skin...veins bulging. I am hoping that this burning pain ends up going away.
I take it you are on or were on Benzo's? Burning pain almost anywhere can be very common, and I knew that. So I never got tested. When I healed it all went away like it never happened. It was just burning from my Gaba receptors trying to heal and re-uptake.
Thank you Bob, you give people real hope. I'm going through a severe Benzo withdrawal myself. Grasping for a SURGE myself. Fighting to get through the day since my MD put me on Benzo's. I'm tapering off now after almost a year. It takes such a long time. As a chronic pain patient my pains got even worse. I'm really pissed over the fact that MD's prescribe Benzo's like it's nothing, while in fact it is the purest of poison there is. Morfine addiction is nothing compared to Benzo addiction. It's even worse than heroïne I read. Benzo's should be banned forever. Now I declared war on Benzo's. They create a gap in your brain's chemistry. I want my GABAa receptors to heal. I hope, I pray that I will wake up from this Benzo nightmare like you did. Really really do hope so. Thank you for giving people hope by telling your personal story Bob. God bless.
Bob, thanks for all you are doing. I don't check out others channels very often, but a few listeners of the Benzo Free Podcast told me about your videos. Your honesty and compassion is wonderful. Thank you so much. D
Thank you! I'm going through a really rough time in my withdrawal and I've been feeling desperate with all of this. My symptoms had been manageable but the past few months have been very rough so it was nice hearing "it very well maybe that you're almost done..." - even if it's not around the corner for me but this gave me some encouragement so THANK YOU!
Your very welcome Brother. I always say thart the only thing that will stop you from getting to the end and healing 100% like me is suicide. For me that was just not even an option. So I crawled through Benzo Hell day by day until I healed on Sept. 1st 2017. I'll never forget that day.
Bob im from lincoln nebraska and I've been on klonipin for over 10 years you have inspired me to quit I have stopped since October 7th im having bad withdrawals still.
Hi Matt, no telling how long youmay suffer. But if you hold fast and do not give up you can get by this and regain your life. We are like three hours from Lincoln. In fast one day soon we plan to drive over to the Natural bed store there and look at a new latex bed. Maybe drag it back on my trailer. : )
Somethings that worked for me when I went through hellish benzo withdrawal are: • Exercise (if you can tolerate it - cardio and anything that gets your heart rate up. This gets blood flowing to the brain and boosts BDNF - brain derived neurotrophic factor - which is responsible for neuro-regeneration. • Blackseed oil - I took a tablespoon a day. Also knows as Nigella Sativa. It has apparently been shown to help with upregulating GABA receptors. It’s also anti-anxiety. • Omega 3 fatty acid supplements - the brain is majority fat, and requires this to function properly. • Healthy, clean diet - veg, fruit, nuts and seeds, HEALTHY fats as in avocado, walnuts, make sure you’re getting these regularly and also sufficient iron and vitamin D (and other vitamins) to help neurotransmitter production to counter any mood issues from withdrawal. • A good support system and faith. I ignored horror stories online and saved and screenshot success stories only to keep my hope alive. I also experienced more than one surge and then sudden light-switch-like vanishing of certain symptoms before fully healing. ❤️
@@OurLadyOfThe603 that is torture if forced to go cold turkey, can't imagine. 5 years ago I tapered lorazepam what I thought was slow also tapering 2 AD's at same time. I went wayyy to fast, had the arching convolutions, no sleep, on and on everything imaginable.... death would have been a relief. In my case never succeeded. Then put on Clonazepam the past years, now I've started a very slow tapering, hoping it won't be as bad as last time. I am so thrilled for you truly I am. Know one knows unless they have went through it. Great job.... wish you continued improvement and success. Sincerely Mama
@@tygreen8831 not sure who your question was directed to, but for me it's been over 35 years most of that time was Ativan, Clonazepam 3 years, now tapering according to the Ashton Manual method and now tapering with diazepam the longest lasting benzo, to hopefully lesson withdrawals.
Thank you for your videos, Bob: they're so helpful! But, I have to say, your approach and demeanor definitely have a calming effect on the viewer, which is an added bonus. It's refreshing to know that there's a light at the end of this dark tunnel, and I appreciate your honesty tremendously. Thanks again
So happy you healed. It gives us hope. I still have a way to go and struggling so much. 🙏🙏🙏 for all of us ❤️ yes this withdrawal is just too much but we MUST hang in there
I watched a few of your vids at the beginning of this year. Seeing you now, you have more color, your hair has color again, there's a different person behind those eyes. You give me hope, thank you :)
Regarding surge business - I’m on month 48 in recovery from benzo usage for 16 years on that. Done the CT approach………..my surge was on month 28 or peak, since then a surge appears in an unpredictable time and strength at least 25 times since then…which follow a slight improvement only, are now 98 percent healed
@@sangeetalambh6389 Hey there, how are you doing?- I recovered at year 4+, CT, long-timer, still have a few linger weak continues progress symptoms, mostly behind the scene mode, otherwise feel great, I do remember your face profile so well now, long time no see,
@@anadaanurak9129 my frd I quit alc and nicoteen take clonazepam 2.5 and qutipen for sleep only 15 days then quit still ffeel ddisconnection of arm and legs did u feel that sym my frd ple ans 418 days sober now
Thank you Neighbor Bob! Someone needed too hear this! I hope you saved a life today! This is important for so many people to here! I’m happy you have healed! God bless you for this VIDEO!🙏💕🌈💕🌈💕🌈~~~~
Even if you throw up 5 to 10 minutes after eating, you still get critical nutritional value that will speed up the withdrawal process. Eating while detoxing is brutal but necessary. Water is extremely important too, but you gotta eat. I like peanut butter as it has a lot of protein fats carbs and is (not to be gross) easy to throw up.
Im suffering pretty badly. Im experiencing the effects of possible catatonia and i just became a dad to a new born. My emotions feel cut off.. irritated.. ringing in my ears... panics... tons of fears.. 6 months clean from 6 or 7 years of benzos. 1 mg for 2 years, 2 mg for 3 years and 4 mg for 4 mg for 4 years.
Just be prepared this could go on for sometime and it can be very draining and make one feel hopeless. But you can and will get well if you never give up and crawal through it. When you heal, all of that madness will go away like it did for me, and you will have your life back.
@@jimmygarcia7250 just keep watching all of the positive video's out there about healing. And do not watch the ones that are not uplifting and you will be fine.
SantiagoBella Garcia Congratulations on the birth of your newborn child! I am so sorry that you are going through this painful withdrawal in the mist of your child’s birth, just know one day you will heal 100%, your life will be truly amazing! Hold on to your newborn baby, snuggling up with little ones has a way of comforting us all! I will keep you in my daily prayers. God bless you and your family. 🙏 ❤️ ✌️
Thanks for your videos. I have been going through it for about 4 months now. I only took it for a few days but I have suffered like I took them for years. The only thing I didn't have was nerve pain. My initial reaction happened when my dr misdiagnosed me and put me on Zoloft. I stopped taking it after 2 times because I had a horrible reaction to it. Not long after I had my first ever panic attack and the ER gave me Xanax. No warning. Just take as needed. My life took a turn for the worst and I stopped the Xanax after 5 days due to it making everything 100x worse. I'm getting better but slowly. The only thing sticking around so far now, is dizzyness, anxiousness, and sometimes a bit of panic. I'm praying for the day it is ALL gone. ❤
Hey Bob have u heard of people just randomly one day healing completely after so long of not seeing any progress of relief and it just healing just like that!? I’m at 20 months off klonopin and lexapro and my gut is so painful I can tell it’s just trying to heal and grow and has been for soooo long now! I just hope they’re right when they say 2 years average for healing cuz I would be really close and I don’t have any windows it’s just constant hell it doesn’t take a break for me
@@neighborbob3043 I’ve heard of people just randomly healing without even feeling anytbing before so that’s possible for to me! I’m just trying to say I’m close
My gut has been getting so much tighter and shit and I haven’t done anything to aggravate it I’m smart enough to know! Everything just hurts more! Doesn’t matter what I eat even tho I cut out all the no no’s!
Wow thank you Bob I just watched with my husband, I am in pure hell and agony as you mentioned at 20 months out now , looking for any sign of healing still , barely holding on, I hope to see some big changes soon, love Yvonne
C/T failed, then tapered 12 months. Now I’m off the boat 2 years and 3 months, still have terrible insomnia, skin crawling, headache left, especially recent, suffering a lot
Yea we all heal at different rates. Maybe you are in your last surge like I was, then woke up cured the next day. Hang in there dear and never give up. And you can have your life back.
@@angeliesings I have been mentoring people worldwide getting off psych drugs since I healed. This Sunday will be my seventh year anniversary for healing. If you would like any further help, feel free to email me at daddyniowa@gmail.com From there, I give many my SIGNAL App contact info, where I help people for free. Bob
You are a real sweetheart! Thank-you for taking the time to help others. This is the beginning of my 8th mth, cold turkey, off Klonopin. I was on them for 20 yrs! You give me hope and make me smile! God Bless You!!!😊
I have gone through the worst wave at month 16-20 and I couldn’t for the life of me understand why I was just getting worse and worse. For the last 2-3 days there has been genuine improvement that feels different to the previous windows, my obsessive thoughts and burning brain really reduced. I have a number of symptoms and it’s still not right but I’m hoping this might be it, that it could be the last surge before I really start healing. Was your healing after the last wave instant or did things just gradually get better over days/weeks following that last wave until one day you were like everything is normal again? And is it usually around this 20-24 month mark that the last wave happens?
I can tell you I healed at about 29 months (including my taper), and I have seen the bulk heal in the two to three year range, and I have probably talked to a couple thousand people world wide in the past seven years since I healed mostly by Signal App. I went to bed the last day of Aug. 2017, worse than I had "ever" been, with just absolutely crazy symptoms. I woke up the next morning 100% healed. But, I have never heard of anyone else healing this way. For most, symptoms fall off slowly one symptom at a time until they are all gone. Hope this helps............. Feel free to email me anytime at daddyniowa@gmail.com with anymore questions if I can help, I charge absolutely nothing so the price is right! Lol! Take care............. Bob
@@neighborbob3043 wow thank you Bob! It gives me hope that the suffering won’t last forever. I genuinely can’t think you can put a human through anything worse. Mine is a combination of SSRI and a benzo on top once I landed myself in acute and the docs didn’t know what was happening - hopefully that doesn’t mean I won’t heal and it won’t be much longer before I’m better. That offer is really amazing of you, I may write to you in the future when I’m in a stable way even if it’s just to ask a few q’s. Hope you’re enjoying your new life after getting through your withdrawal🙂
It took a year to get fully heal. I can’t believe in like I always dreamed of. Before benzos I was a wreck benzos made it worse. I thought I must have mild autism , ptsd , ocd. I’ll drive and get so caught up on a anxiety storm and won’t know where I am. So I’m a year off will the hyper empathy leave
Almost 68 years young, been fantastic ever since the day I healed Sept. 1st 2017! Living on the bank of a 5,000 acre reservoir, living the life, and you?
Im glad there's this awareness out there but your scaring people into worst case scenarios. I've come off heavy opiate use, methadone and heavy alcohol use. Each person will have different reactions. I'm currently coming of Valium and have only had minor symptoms. Alcohol detox felt much worse. Good on you on winning your fight mate, stick with it. Anyone reading this comment keep in mind were all different, don't let other peoples experience scare you.
@@neighborbob3043 cheers mate the fights not completely over. I'm not saying I don't experience any withdrawal, it'd just minor. I just wanted people to know not to be scared and give some encouragement.
Search before a bigger tapering drop. Always. Im at the end now but it surged. And tinnitus is constant , head pressure and depressed mood...maybe thats it after that that I can drop off the last little bit.
www.healthrangerstore.com/products/clean-chlorella-powder-1lb-454g If I were you, I'd buy this and take like a heaping teaspoon a day of it. This one is powder form but you can buy tablets if you like. The iron supplements the Doctors give you are crap. Chlorella is loaded with iron, and a lot more nutrients. This is the best made. I have been taking it like 25 years now.
@@Jess_JusticeforRobMorrison How long did it take you? I've had the shooting nerve pain within the past month or so. I'm at about 9 months off, I'm hoping it's the body's last call for the medication or if it's going to last a lot longer.
I’m up late at night watching this, bawling my eyes out from nerve pain and unable to sleep more than 3-4 hours a night for the past 4 weeks. My abusive ex took my medicine when I got my dad to come rescue me...he attacked my dad, and kept my pills. I ran out of the house. 😖 Now here I am 4 weeks later... was supposed to have an appointment Saturday. But my dad can’t take me (he has the only car and will be out of state all weekend.) He asked his friends who have known me all their life, know what happened the day I left, and they’re like ‘nah sorry too far to drive.’ Neither my father nor I have the money for Uber. Which is the only way to get there , car. When my dad told me that tonight I broke down. I’m still breaking down. It’s activated my PTSD, I can barely sleep, I have so much fear and paranoia, and I’m feeling despair and just... complete emptiness mentally. I don’t know how you all did this. I admire you so much. Thank you for ‘talking’ to me with the video while I’m having a breakdown. ❤️
Ah Hannah, I have heard so very many sad stories a lot like yours unfortunately. How much of what drugs were you on for how long dear? I have two grown daughters Amy 33, and Emma 30. Amy has a lot of anxiety and depression. But she has never taken any psych med's thank goodness. Then I have a son Jake who is 27, and he only does recreational drugs! :.(... Feel free to e-mail me at daddyniowa@gmail.com if you need anything at all. I'd love to help give you some guidance through this if you like. I had had PTSD myself years ago but it is all better now. What part of the World do you live in if I may ask? I hope that you feel better soon, take care. You can get better and heal from all your feeling now given time and the right course of action. Never give up until that day comes, and you will have your mental health back dear.
I relate but the pills weren't taken by a abusive ex but a abusive gov funded health care system...no more home to come home to. I lost it to the healthcare system
Neighbor Bob - I am intrigued that you didn't experience withdrawal while water-fasting. You were in a ketogenic state whilst fasting, and this encourages elevated GABA and reduced glutamate activity in the central nervous system. I think eating a ketogenic (very low carb) diet and fasting can be an important part of healing addiction to GABAergic medication for many of us. I experience fewer withdrawal symptoms and feel healthier while fasting and eating a keto diet.
What is SI? I am not good with many abbreviations. : ) As far as burning brain, nerve and muscle pain and the like. There is nothing I have seen help, with the exception of Chiropractic and near infrared sauna provides some relief. If you are sill suffering. Feel free to drop me an Email at daddyniowa@gmail.com. Be sure and put like "Hi Bob" in the subject line since I get a lot of email. When people email me, I can give them my Signal App contact info. I coach people worldwide on there, and have been since I healed "for free".
@@jrman413 oh yea, Duh me! lol! My solvent brain injury 25 years ago make abbreviations hard to get at times. I don't know any of the over 2,000 people I have talked to, that did not have some degree of it. I tell them that that was the first thing I told myself was not an option. People do a lot of stupid things in life, myself included. But suicide is the last dumb thing they do. I help people with those feelings all the time. I always thought, why think about that, when Benzo withdrawal is "temporary" not anything that is terminal. I often think of what if I gave up hope the last day of August 2017, and the very next morning I was 100% healed, and have stayed that way ever since. Also I was mad as Hell at big pharma, and refused to go out like that, after what they did to me. : )
i need to start back on benzos . I was sent to rehab and did a rapid taper . i have ben off 73 days and have lost so much weight can’t gain because of the constant surge of glutamate . I am never calm 24/7. I thought my dr would reinstate me . This is worst than my withdrawals while tapering
If you have to re-instate, I'd go back to the least amount that you can feel stable at and stay there a couple of months. You can always try slower next time dear if you so desire.
www.drberg.com/adrenal-cortisol-regular This really helped me to relax from all the Cortisol and adrenal high and lows. You might try a bottle and see, good but no cheap.
Neighbor Bob even if your off. more than 30 days ,.’ everyone says you could have a paradoxical reaction’ i can’t even stand my lungs feel so stiff, i’m aging so fast , lost so much weight , eat like crazy . while i was on a slow taper before i was able to feel come and feel joy, i knew to taper slowly . was so tired was tapering for over 2 years
Hi Madelyn, sorry to hear that your not doing well. Feel free to email me at daddyniowa@gmail.com. From there I can give you my "SIGNAL" App contact which is free. I'd be glad to go over your Benzo history, and help with some recommendations to help you navigate your way through this. I charge nothing to help people. For the past six years now I have helped many people worldwide get through this. Take care......... Bob P.S. You will heal in time!
technically withdrawal lasts less than a week. Everything after that is nothing but healing. I would know. I went to rehab for 23 days to get off Ativan cold turkey with non-benzo anti-seizure meds. Was on Ativan 14 years. (2008-2021) I'm still healing after 1.7 years clean. Doing much better now. Working full time since a month after rehab. I've experienced hell!! Psychosis, semi-seizures, paralization, tinnitus as loud as a horn, insomnia, you name it. I couldn't walk for weeks. What a nightmare.
ruclips.net/video/UDnT-TXCOVY/видео.html Also look under the vid for more links of more what to do. Here is the protocol I use. www.nihadc.com/library/detox-for-life-class-2-addit-resources/54-4-dosing-with-chlorella/file.html?accept_license=1 Also this is the cleanest Chlorella on earth as it is grown indoors. It is Chlorella Pyrendosa ) The best for mercury detox, he also has a gallon of another Chlorella in tablets. But is is Chlorella Vulgaris, but it is more for nutritional purposes not detox. Agasin do not try any of this until you are healed from Benzo's then get all the mercury out of your mouth "before you take any of this. As it is not made to take when you have amalgams sitting in your mouth. As it will leach them out of your teeth and maybe kill you. When you get the teeth fixed be sure only to go to a Holistic dentist as a regular Dentist will take them out wrong and hurt you.
I started my taper at 40 mg's of Valium a night. Then cut half a 5 mg (or 2 1/2 mg's) like every fourth night. I used to think that was way to quick. But now after having talked to many that tapered "very " slow like over a year or two, and they still went through hell. Now I feel that it is not until the day that you take your very last Benzo. That it is you can really begin healing. So in retrospect I feel that I tapered about right for me. It still took me a full 21 months to regain my mental health, after having took my last Benzo. I wish you all the best in your journey to wellness.
Oh, I think I just understood better what you were asking. For me, it was no longer helping me. I still was sleeping terrible when on it for 13 years. Now that I have broke free from them and healed. I feel so much more alive again, and sleep much better as well. Unless a person is determined to get off them no matter what. They can choose to stay on them, but for me that was not an option. And I am so glad that today I am 100% drug free.
Neighbor Bob actually both of your replies are very helpful to me. Thank you very much!! My medicine seems to still help me and I originally went on it for panic attacks that I had dealt with for 8 years before I even reached out for meds. I’m not sure yet what decision I would like to make but I have a grandchild on the way in February so I need to take that Into consideration. My daughter will need my help. So it’s things like that , that may hinder my decision. Thanks again 🙏🏻
Hope that my brother is going through a surge as well. Imagine having to work in an auto shop to pay off 200k in back taxes to save his property in that condition.
I live in Belgium.The most psychiatric doctors are going to fast building off this kind of drugs.Heather Asthon who have runned a withdrawal clinic in Newcastle is an example for the world.Benzos and neuroleptics kill your emotions.Congratulations for this man!!!
I hear you Nick, I’m down to 1.25 mgs now from 10 mgs Valium. So much electricity everyday shooting everywhere in my body. It’s living hell. My jump date is soon at 0.5, been dry cutting down at rate of 1/8th mg a week. It’s mentally and physically too much. I hope so much once I jump it’ll get better. 2020 I’m NEVER touching another Benzo ever. I lost my GF. Friends. Social Life. Got my two boys that are keeping me through this.
hey neighbor I'm sub'ing to your channel. trying to get of the benzos. ive tried multiple times over the past couple years. I've gotten down from 6mg of xanax down to .5 every few days due to my Dr not allowing me have it in my system due to another medication which is a horrible way to quit. thank you for all your info.
Thank you for making these videos. Although I have to say the more I watch the more I feel like im in no ready to face that hell. I do feel like the Diazepam has made things worse than they were before, so if its to get worse even more coming off, im not sure I will ever be ready. It interests me that you mentoned being scared of everything, because I feel really stupid for that - everything can seem scary, and if ive missed a dose - I already feel it much worse, ive got stuck on the kitchen floor all night long after not taking it, and felt like I was going to die. My legs stop working, and I just get so afraid of everything I see / hear / smell/ touch. Im not on a high dose, 20mg a day, but I do have to take more sometimes. I take it with zopiclone and mirtazapine, and im on thyroxine (and iron which I dont take as it makes me 1000 times worse). But right now, when I cant get to my own gate without my legs seizing up and collapsing, (not even sure what im scared of when I try to go out, there is no danger here), I feel like I never ever want to come off them because of how much ive learned about that hell, and also feel I never wanted to be put on them. So kind of stuck in between :( (I think the legislation changed since I started over 10 years ago, as now only 5mg / day can be prescribed for about 2 months max). Im also completely alone, I lost my entire family after an assault, where my attacker hung himself before the court case, and everyone deserted me. So I know Id have to do it totally alone.
Kewl, my wife is originally from Occidental Mindoror around Magsaysay so she speaks visaya. But she lived in Manila for many years and thats where I met her. We have a home in Alabang Muntinlupa Manila. I have heard that Davao is a great place!
By body isn't craving or wanting pills... just healing....I had a five month window (months 41 to 47 and thought it was over and now I'm in one of the worst waves ever...complicated by serious lung infection. I've woken up many times feeling like a million dollars only to be plunged into worsening waves over the last four years. I never took more than 40 mg a year until the last year when i took about 60 mg over the year. I think I took more during the taper..and it was for insomnia but caused GAD and panic disorder. I'm so screwed now...trying everything...losing hope. I'm old. My good days are glorious, my bad days are absolute hell. I;m one of the unlucky ones. I've started intermittent fasting a year ago but haven't gone more than 24 hours. No help. I keep saying these waves mean it's over as I get a window and every fricken time, another bad waves comes but now they are lasting longer than ever! I just don't know how to be positive anymore. I'm doubting I will actually heal. I don't think this is the first time I've commented on your videos. take care
I never had a wave just 24/7 terrible crazy for like 21 months. At least the times you have had a wave and felt really good for a time. Even though you are plunged back into terror in awhile. You get a glimpse of the normality that one day you will wake up with where it is over. My day was Sept. 1st 2017, just hang in there until the day that "you " heal Sis. Never give up until that day comes. I can tell you that it was totally worth it, since the day I healed from those Devil drugs. Take care.
The whole issue of benzo,s is horrendous and the suffering is beyond bearable l watched my gentle loving mother die from these horrid drugs it makes me feel l could scream forever
@@sweetmountainbaby please don,t do anything to hurt yourself the pain will leave just keep pushing threw a new life awaits you thankyou for your nice reply to me . Means alot
Wow, I always had feelings benzodiazepines did not take them away from me or paint me in any way! I forced to stop by a gov funded abusive healthcare system. They have me 5 years in a group home. I lost family members, friends and my home. Whatever a person decided I don't want anyone else to become a cash cow and lose everything then get out out homeless
I like went to bed the last day of August 2017 Benzo sick as hell. And woke up the very next morning after sleeping in like 97% cured. All that was left was a bit of Benzo belly. But I had like leaky gut before I started my taper. I healed like overnight it was an amazing feeling to this day!
Can you please tell me if you experienced weak spells like you were if you had low blood sugar, lasting for about 15 minutes. Shakes , and rubbery legs etc, full body weakness. I would also like to ask if it is possible to have withdrawal symptoms even from a slow taper that involved one year of tapering from diazepam I started at 30 mg a day and each week I reduced it by .5 mg sometimes it was every two weeks until I was comfortable it was over one year. And I’m having side effects that I thought I would never have or is it just in my mind, The reason I’m asking is because I followed the Ashton manual and I was put on diazepam at my request to help me get off of Paxil I quit taking the Paxil when I achieved a very low-dose then my doctor started me on the long lasting diazepam so that is my basic question the Ashton manual suggest that you won’t have any with drawl symptoms if you do it very slow it didn’t hit me until the eighth day then bang I was in full panic and having all these weird neurological symptoms thank you
The weak rubbery legs thing is a common withdrawal symptom and I had it the whole 21 months after my taper. I do not know anything about Paxil except that it is an SSRI. SSRI's work on Dopamine and Seratonin, and Benzo's work more on the nerve endings. So in all actuality they are two different type of drugs. I know that Dr. Ashton recommends switching to Valium from other Benzo's. But I did not know she recommended that for getting off Paxil or an SSRI? Some people can stop Benzo's cold turkey and have little problem. But many can go slow like you and I did and still experience like around two years of symptoms from the time they take their last one. Only time will tell which one of those you are. Are you off all Benzo's at this time or still tapering? After my last Benzo, it took me 21 months to heal. That whole time I had symptoms from hell nonstop. But as of like September 1st of 2017 I healed and am fine.
Neighbor Bob Thank you for your response, yes I’m off all Benzos, my symptoms are not every day, for example yesterday and today I have been symptom free, then out of no where I will get a nervous stomach and be sensitive to light noise shakes Shaking hands and legs I get a bloated stomach then it’s hard to breathe, then all of this sends me into panic mode then everything gets worse. Did you also feel tired, and have weak spells? Thank you again for your time. Today is 15 days off of the one year long taper.
@@Tom1.7 yes I was listless and tired all the time. Also so weak all the time. It felt like my legs could barely hold me up. But when I healed all that went away. Hang in there buddy~
20 months since my last taper worst benzo belly ever. Im dealing with it right now. Stabbing abdominal pain that surges every 30 minutes then dies down wht the hell is that
There are thousands of nerve endings in the gut. Benzo belly was the last thing to leave me when I healed. I mostly had the bloating and food allergies not the pain.
"Totally healed. No anxiety whatsoever now. I am back to my old calm laid back self. I can even drink a couple cups of black coffee in the morning now. Which I could never do since my 1998 brain injury. Lift is good, and yours will be to in time if you keep healing and never give up,
Neighbor Bob Thanks for your reply. I was actually wondering in your video when you said you got a surge of intense symptoms for like a week and then woke up one day and you were healed. Was one of those intense symptoms before you healed was anxiety?
Actually I surged for like about the last month and a half really bad. Everything ramped up including anxiety. I was thinking I can't take it anymore. But somehow I did, and I'm so glad now that I never gave up.
Man it’s 4:15 am another still going through tapering sleepless night. Is there anyway at all for the excruciating gut pain? I still have almost a year of tapering to go. Is there any relief at all. I’m pretty much on edge 24/7 the pain is so unbearable! I’ve already gone through over a year of this. 😭 should I free my poor husband of me? I don’t know where I could go but I feel like the worst burden I feel I ruined our lives by allowing myself to ever take one of these pills! I’m so scared that the stress will kill him. I don’t want to do that to him. I wish it would just take me so I don’t stress him out anymore. Oh man I’m talking crazy I see the sun rising maybe I should try getting some sleep.
Do you think the same for me will happen that I will heal too,? On zyprexa Antipsychotic 10 mg a day for 4 months off cold Turkey for 3 months. Severe withdrawls still in them will I heal or am I brain damaged permanently?
I was on Zyprexa as well and cold turkeyed. It was living hell for a few months and it actually brought me to the Benzo mess which is actully 5x worse than Zyprexa. The average recovery time for Zyprexa I heard was 4 months a doctor told me once. Had I have just stayed away from the Benzos I would be fully healed a long time ago from Zyprexa. I've heard it can take up to a year and you have to treat it like Benzo withdrawal. Stay away from all drugs if possible!
No not at all. Actually from the time most people take their last Benzo until they heal can be like two to three years. Mine was just 21 months. So I think I healed about normal.
Just checking in ! 3 months 11 days since last dose. Still in healing process but doing it. Looking forward, No looking back. Seems as though just remembering who i was before benzos i create that scenerio now and what is not the same i just move forward in a normal sense too be that way . normal being adjusts to normal healing !
3 months 11 days since last dose. Remembering who i was before as a so called normal being. i'm pressing on to be that person again...no quick or magic formulas..just simply normal being produces normal healing.
Now that I am healed from Benzo's CBD oil does have a calming effect on me. But that being said I never tried it in withdrawal. Some that have experience a benefit, but many say it makes them worse. I'd say try just a little a little and see which one you are. Also not all CBD oil is created equal, I know that a brand called HempWorx is very pure. They use the whole plant and are not using pesticides on them. Their 750 mg bottle is the most potent. They say to use like 20 drops under the tongue twice a day for maximum benefit. One of my daughters sells it, so I looked into that brand a lot myself.
Neighbor Bob I’m been dealing it with 22 months but last August I took Remron for a weeek and got hit with crazy intrusive thoughts. This September got hit with dp for the first time from taking exp antibiotics it went away felt 95% healed 2 days ago then boom dp again its crazy I ask myself is this withdrawal or what 😰😰🙏💔
Neighbor Bob I don’t now if I should say I’m 13 months or 22 cuz before I took the remron I felt alright I didn’t now nothing about withdrawal I was having some promblems but not that serious intall couple months after . I don’t feel horrible right now just weird and tired of all of this bs .
Bless you Buddy. I'm your neighbor from central Nebr. Great chronicle and description of everything. I can relate 100%. I was on Clonazepam for 16 years - 1.5 mg and Methadone, Hydrocodone, Neurontin, Flexeril and was cold turkeyed on March 1st, 2017. Oh, my God - I cannot tell you the hell I have been through. I still am going through withdrawal. The "Opioid Epidemic" I believe is what caused my doctor to do this to me. I was placed on pain killers in 1999 and about a month or two after a bunch of other junk and I would say about ten to fifteen others along this awful journey. Anyway - I am now back on Methadone - a very low dose which doesn't do much for my pain -- which is the real deal - I suffer damn near all the time... but the withdrawal along with the pain and then I made horrible decisions in the market which cost me over $100,000 -- talk about being down in the dumps. This is just pure hell and sometimes I would have to say torturous. I am very happy that you healed. I thought I was healed once but it came back -- now over 2 years off of these drugs with methadone exception. I am suffering big time with pain, derealization, depersonalization, emotionless, no motivation - you know. I do have a theory of why some people heal or have little withdrawal and some go through hell. It has to do with Epstein Barr Virus -- the higher the viral load the more suffering. You mentioned that you did a water fast and that would definitely help with the Epstein Barr - in fact it could lower it enough to not have any symptoms. I read the books by Anthony William "medical medium" you have to have an open mind but I do believe in his gift. Anyway - thought I would compliment you and thank you for doing this video. I hope all is well Bob and take care!!!
Yes big-time, alcohol and weed are gaba receptor antagonists. They will work to still depress your receptors just like the Benzo did thus you will not heal. Right after I took my last Benzo, for a few weeks I was knocking down about a fifth of single male Scotch a day. In retrospect that was a huge mistake. I stopped and started healing, that took 21 months.
As long as it did not give you added anxiety before you took Benzo's I do not see why not. For me I can have one cup in the morning now since I am healed without much problem. If you do drink coffee later, I suggest you buy organic. As coffee typically is grown with high pesticide levels.
Question to all 12 months of benzo last week in a bad car accident The hospital gave me oxy and morphine and not knowing gave me a ambien My question is how bad has this effect my recovery
Gary, we are all different so it is hard to say. But in general Oxy and morphine are not Benzo's and neither is Ambien (zolpidem) it's a sedative/hypnotic. As such they do not work on the same Gaba receptors as do Benzo's. So, if I were you I would just take it easy and hope for the best.
Neighbor Bob thank you that is big help That is a huge help Pks review NDA treatment for benzos etc would like your opinion just looking over my hospital report they did give me 2 mg of Ativan one night again I hope that did not set me back
Benzo's can give you terrible withdrawal symptoms. Some are lucky, but many are not. They crush your neuro transmitters and it takes a long time for them to heal. Benzo's also mess up ones hormones big-time.
@@teresaj7796 yes that is what a taper is. Dr. Heather Ashton recommends that you get switched over to Valium/Diazapam before you start your taper. She has charts in her site telling you the equivalent to whatever Benzo you are taking to Valium. Valium is the longest lasting Benzo, and comes in a lot smaller tablets to taper easier. I originally took 2 mg's of Klonopin. That changed over to Valium was 40 mg's. I took the 5 mg tablets and broke one in half and waited like two weeks then kept going like that.
Hi Mary the surge does not happen during the titration. Through that eight months I only had chronic insomnia. After I took my last Benzo, that is when all the madness began. Like the DP/DR severe anxiety, fear of everything, muscle weakness and a lot more. This all last 21 months with no window's for me. During like the last month all of my symptoms ramped up what seemed like about 75% and stayed there. Until I woke up Sept. 1st 2017 literally healed overnight. I went to bed the night before with horrible mad symptoms, and literally woke up cured the following morning.
Not totally, but it is down a whole lot to a manageable level now where I hardly notice it. But I had a 27 years solvent exposure at work that retired me with a mild brain injury in 1998. Before that I had no Tinnitus. I can tell you that the last month and a half before I healed from the Benzo's it was as bad as it ever was. Like a million screaming symbols at night. So glad that is gone now! : )
Neighbor Bob mine started a year ago in anti depressant withdrawal. I’m 10 months off of them now. It’s really horrific. Super loud. I don’t know if it will go away. I hope to god
I'm sure that it will go away, with any other symptoms that you have been dealing with. Once your body is done healing from the SSRI's your health will return like mine did so in the meantime just don't get discouraged. Anytime it ramps up bad it may well be almost ready to run it's course on you and give you peace. I know the madness of terrible Tinnitus and it is almost enough to drive one nuts! So just hang in there!
Bob I am mid taper 2.5 Ativan, I was down to 0.88 but made a big mistake and had to reinstate. I smoked some cannabis thinking it would help me but I had a bad trip/reaction which gave me dp/dr. Ontop of the insane depression and anxiety everything got worse and I had to go back up. Right now I feel I am so deep. I dont stabilise have a long taper ahead of me and then the healing. How Am I supposed to survive this? I feel burnt up.
Yea sounds like you screwed up with the weed. Alcohol and weed work on the same nerve receptors I do believe. So many people during a withdraw try one or the other. For me at the very beginning of my withdrawal I tried about a fifth of Scotch a day and hardly had any Benzo withdrawal symptoms (but I had a lot of drunk symptoms) LOL! Then I found that I was only trading being drug dependent for alcohol dependency or being a drunk. When one is withdrawing from Benzo's they need to not take anything else, and just eat healthy. Yes you do have a long road ahead of you, but if you are as determined to get off the Benzo's as much as I was you will make it! : )
@@neighborbob3043 I don't know bob, I have been tapering since March, one little slip up and I am deeper in the hole. I don't know I have years of this left in me my brain feels like it's eating itself up. All my symptoms are mental, severe depression, racing/intrusive thoughts, anxiety. I just don't know. Before all this I was already a bit depressed and prone to anxiety. So I am worried getting off benzo's is not going to be a cure all. Isn't there anything you can do mid taper to ease up the mental stuff. It is becoming an issue of life and death very soon.
@@theheart6044 I had all the things you mentioned terrible and then some. Nothing seems to ease it. The very best you can do is be very careful of what you eat. I ate no sugar, caffeine, grains, GMO's, MSG or processed foods at all. www.thrivetalk.com/vitamin-deficiencies-depression/ During my taper and for the last decade I have taken this liquid mineral supplement about a capful a day makes a bottle last a month. www.amazon.com/VITAL-EARTH-MINERALS-FULVIC-HUMIC-BLEND/dp/B00A1MNXGU/ref=sr_1_3_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1544203294&sr=8-3&keywords=vital+earth+minerals+fulvic-humic+mineral+blend Your right about a long road ahead but you can get there if you hang in there. For myself I feel like 100% better than I did even since my Doctor first put me on the Klonopin back in 2,000. I sleep better now and feel much better in general than when I was on it.
Neighbor Bob all kinds. Around time for my cycle about 2 weeks before i start i am in severe abdominal pain and vaginal pain its so bad i will be bed ridden some days and get headaches . Also i have fatigue depression back aches scalp is always sore to the touch like ive been hit in the head . Ill break out into sweats feel clammy and i just have this overall feeling of being unwell like every single day i feel like i have a hangover a
@@ms_jadah if you have not already done it. I'd suggest you get a good Naturopathic Doctor. Who can check all of your body's hormone, mineral, and vitamin levels. Benzo's are known to cause depletions in many key minerals and other things necessary for the body to function properly.
@@ms_jadah I always tell people that have strange symptoms. That if you did not have them before you started tapering. That they are probably caused by the Benzo's and will just fade away when they heal. Hopefully that is very soon for you dear.
Bob you are an unsung hero. I love your videos. I'm still out here in the trenches brother hanging on for dear life. I hope I wake up healed one day, I will run through the streets screaming for joy.
Thanks Benzo, since I have been right where you are now and puled through it. It is the least I can do to help other Benzo Warriors understand withdrawal. I wish more that have healed would come forth to help as well. But it is such a horrendous thing to go through I can't blame those that move on after having healed.
One day you will wake up 100% healed, and be like me. And yest I was literally jumping up and down that day as well. Hang in there Bro, you have the kind of temperament it takes to beat this I can tell.
@@neighborbob3043 I took klonopin for 12 years. Within the last month I've had the same piercing nerve pain that I wake up with that you described. Have also had a bit of tinnitus but that has gone away fortunately. I took klonopin at 1.5mg, then 1mg, then 0.5, then the last 5-6 years at 0.25. 12 years total. Do you think the nerve pain is my body's last calling for the drugs like you had or do you think I still have a long way to go? It's so hard to go through the pain when you don't know how much longer it will last.
@@jakestephens9992 it's honestly hard to tell, as we all are different and heal at a different rate. I did not understand how long it has been since the last Bezo you ever took? On average people seem to heal at about the two year mark, but you could heal sooner or later. I healed at a year and nine months and was so glad to have that nightmare over. I hope you heal soon Bro!
Neighbor Bob thanks for the video man. How long where you on the meds ? So the average of healing takes 2 years even for antidepressant? 14 months off still not 100% heal can’t wait for my healing to come and wake up heal
How’re you now?
I teared up when you describe waking up and all of your symptoms were gone. I’m really hoping that I’m on the last legs of this.
I hope so to Mason. Your day of healing is coming Bro! And such a peaceful one at that. : )
How are you at the moment, Mason?
I suffer greatly from "weird brain feeling" (pre-seizure feeling? ), extreme exhaustion and derealization/depersonalization. Horrible. I'm 13 months into being off benzos.
@@iWillWakeYouUp do you feel BETTER now or the same?
@@jeffgalaska8269 Definitely better, but also different. Some symptoms vanished or became way less intense, whereas other symptoms flared up, such as cardiovascular symptoms (heart pounding intensely, and also pounding fast), anxiety/panic when the heart stuff starts, and I have monophobia, meaning being alone is a problem.
iWillWakeYouUp are u healed? Has the weird seizure feeling and dp/dr gone?
Thank you for this video as I’m walking through hell still at 2.5 years.
Sorry to hear that Susan. Although I have not made a vid in over four years. I have been helping many navigate Benzo withdrawal in the background. Feel free to shoot me an email at daddyniowa@gmail.com if you want. I have been talking to people on the Signal App for many years now worldwide.
Been doing this hell for 64 months since finishing my tapers in 2019,.. holding on for this day!!
That day "will" come in time............. everybody heals. I have been mentoring people since I healed on 9-1- of 2017. I have a FB Benzo page just called Neighbor Bob Also a SIGNAL APP group of people from all over the world. Email me if interested at daddyniowa@gmail.com. It's all free. : )
I applaud you for the lives you are trying to save well done!!!!!!
Thanks Martin!
Thank you so much Bob!! I'm currently at 14 months and hearing you say you healed at about 17 or 18 months gave me hope! I'm at the point where I dread leaving the house, I had a panic attack in Walmart the other day while I was grocery shopping and it really bummed me out! Happened out of the blue too, so strange. Thanks so much for all your videos and the time spent making them, you are helping out so many people including me!
How are you now?
Thank you for sharing Neighbor Bob. Calm, lovely, supportive, just what we need in this journey through hell. Big hug to you.
Thanks Queen, I wish you the very best in your Benzo healing journey!
You’re video just popped up. Thank you for sharing
Question…when you were in the depths of all this, how did your wife handle it? I feel so bad for my husband. He’s a gem and an encourager and is loving me through this, BUT I can tell it’s taking a toll on him. Just curious how she went about dealing with the situation.
How are you? @@juliehatton1961
Thank you Bob. Your words are encouraging. I was on .5 mg of klonapin for 40yrs!!! I did a 5 month taper and have been off 18 months. I am building my life back up, with God’s help. I have some memory lapses, some days I don’t feel like leaving the house. I exercise and volunteer several hours a week. I just wish I had someone I could talk to who understood. It can be so very lonely. Thanks again for your video.
Good for you Brenda getting off that evil stuff! You would be surprised how much the brain can heal. You should try some infrared sauna, water fasting and heavy metal detox. All of those helped me a lot after my solvent brain injury in 1998. Take care and happy new year.Shoot me a line anytime at daddyniowa@gmail.com if you like.
Thank you so much for all of these videos! You have no idea how much they are helping me and others right now! Your very good at describing your story.
Are you all better now Summer I hope?
Thank you Bob for this, I can so relate to you during the my last attempt 5 years ago, went way too fast, along with 2 AD's at same time, hoping this taper with Ashton Manual will be better. Love the emotion you show here. Love your honesty also. Taking one hour at a time. Benzodiazepines have ruined 35+ years of my life. Again THANK YOU NEIGHBOR.... your info helps get us through this this nightmare. Can't wait for the LIGHT to come on! FAITH can make it HAPPEN!
Thanks Mama! : )
Hi Neighbor Bob-Thanks for all of your work. Did you ever see a doctor to get diagnosed for the burning skin symptom that you experienced that you have mentioned in your videos? I was just diagnosed with small fiber neuropathy and erythromelalgia. I have horrible burning in my feet and hands...bright red skin...veins bulging. I am hoping that this burning pain ends up going away.
I take it you are on or were on Benzo's? Burning pain almost anywhere can be very common, and I knew that. So I never got tested. When I healed it all went away like it never happened. It was just burning from my Gaba receptors trying to heal and re-uptake.
Thanks Bob for giving me hope, hugs from Belgium.
Thank you Bob, you give people real hope. I'm going through a severe Benzo withdrawal myself. Grasping for a SURGE myself. Fighting to get through the day since my MD put me on Benzo's. I'm tapering off now after almost a year. It takes such a long time. As a chronic pain patient my pains got even worse. I'm really pissed over the fact that MD's prescribe Benzo's like it's nothing, while in fact it is the purest of poison there is. Morfine addiction is nothing compared to Benzo addiction. It's even worse than heroïne I read. Benzo's should be banned forever. Now I declared war on Benzo's. They create a gap in your brain's chemistry. I want my GABAa receptors to heal. I hope, I pray that I will wake up from this Benzo nightmare like you did. Really really do hope so. Thank you for giving people hope by telling your personal story Bob. God bless.
You are so sweet thank you. Currently tapering Clonazepam, you have wonderfully encouraging uploads!!
Your videos are the best as in the videos ... you don’t skip a beat and it’s the entire process. Ty
Bob, thanks for all you are doing. I don't check out others channels very often, but a few listeners of the Benzo Free Podcast told me about your videos. Your honesty and compassion is wonderful. Thank you so much. D
Thank you! I'm going through a really rough time in my withdrawal and I've been feeling desperate with all of this. My symptoms had been manageable but the past few months have been very rough so it was nice hearing "it very well maybe that you're almost done..." - even if it's not around the corner for me but this gave me some encouragement so THANK YOU!
Your very welcome Brother. I always say thart the only thing that will stop you from getting to the end and healing 100% like me is suicide. For me that was just not even an option. So I crawled through Benzo Hell day by day until I healed on Sept. 1st 2017. I'll never forget that day.
Bob, your'e a real soldier.. a commander, or a general at least. Im encouraged big time. Before your videos i had no clue what i was going through.
I wish you the best in regaining your health once again!
Bob im from lincoln nebraska and I've been on klonipin for over 10 years you have inspired me to quit I have stopped since October 7th im having bad withdrawals still.
Hi Matt, no telling how long youmay suffer. But if you hold fast and do not give up you can get by this and regain your life.
We are like three hours from Lincoln. In fast one day soon we plan to drive over to the Natural bed store there and look at a new latex bed. Maybe drag it back on my trailer. : )
hey there Bob, I'm so happy for you that you have recovered.
Thanks Michelle, me too! : )
Great video, Bob...youre vids are inspiring to those of us going through the hell. Thank you man!
My pleasure Brother!
Somethings that worked for me when I went through hellish benzo withdrawal are:
• Exercise (if you can tolerate it - cardio and anything that gets your heart rate up. This gets blood flowing to the brain and boosts BDNF - brain derived neurotrophic factor - which is responsible for neuro-regeneration.
• Blackseed oil - I took a tablespoon a day. Also knows as Nigella Sativa. It has apparently been shown to help with upregulating GABA receptors. It’s also anti-anxiety.
• Omega 3 fatty acid supplements - the brain is majority fat, and requires this to function properly.
• Healthy, clean diet - veg, fruit, nuts and seeds, HEALTHY fats as in avocado, walnuts, make sure you’re getting these regularly and also sufficient iron and vitamin D (and other vitamins) to help neurotransmitter production to counter any mood issues from withdrawal.
• A good support system and faith. I ignored horror stories online and saved and screenshot success stories only to keep my hope alive. I also experienced more than one surge and then sudden light-switch-like vanishing of certain symptoms before fully healing.
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All great points, thanks for sharing Jinan!
Are done tappering now?
Jinan how r u now my friend
@@sangeetalambh6389 I am 100% healed and back to my old self. Don't give up hope, I had a horrific withdrawal!
@@JinanMC thank u my frd
Thank you. I am two years off of it cold turkey of X. Healing up pretty good but I’ve got still some issues.
Not so sure cold turkey best, but you maybe different. Glad your progressing...
mama baehr I was not afforded the privilege of a slow taper. I was cut off cold turkey. But I’m doing good. Healing up.
@@OurLadyOfThe603 that is torture if forced to go cold turkey, can't imagine. 5 years ago I tapered lorazepam what I thought was slow also tapering 2 AD's at same time. I went wayyy to fast, had the arching convolutions, no sleep, on and on everything imaginable.... death would have been a relief. In my case never succeeded. Then put on Clonazepam the past years, now I've started a very slow tapering, hoping it won't be as bad as last time.
I am so thrilled for you truly I am. Know one knows unless they have went through it. Great job.... wish you continued improvement and success. Sincerely Mama
How long was you taking benzos total?
@@tygreen8831 not sure who your question was directed to, but for me it's been over 35 years most of that time was Ativan, Clonazepam 3 years, now tapering according to the Ashton Manual method and now tapering with diazepam the longest lasting benzo, to hopefully lesson withdrawals.
Thank you for your videos, Bob: they're so helpful! But, I have to say, your approach and demeanor definitely have a calming effect on the viewer, which is an added bonus. It's refreshing to know that there's a light at the end of this dark tunnel, and I appreciate your honesty tremendously. Thanks again
Your very welcome dear, glad they helped!
So happy you healed. It gives us hope. I still have a way to go and struggling so much. 🙏🙏🙏 for all of us ❤️ yes this withdrawal is just too much but we MUST hang in there
Every day you suffer. Is a day closer to the day you heal!
I watched a few of your vids at the beginning of this year. Seeing you now, you have more color, your hair has color again, there's a different person behind those eyes. You give me hope, thank you :)
Your very welcome Grega, yes I feel a lot better now, and tomorrow is day three of my first ever dry fast.
Regarding surge business - I’m on month 48 in recovery from benzo usage for 16 years on that. Done the CT approach………..my surge was on month 28 or peak, since then a surge appears in an unpredictable time and strength at least 25 times since then…which follow a slight improvement only, are now 98 percent healed
Anada howw r u now my friend
@@sangeetalambh6389 Hey there, how are you doing?- I recovered at year 4+, CT, long-timer, still have a few linger weak continues progress symptoms, mostly behind the scene mode, otherwise feel great, I do remember your face profile so well now, long time no see,
@@anadaanurak9129 my frd I quit alc and nicoteen take clonazepam 2.5 and qutipen for sleep only 15 days then quit still ffeel ddisconnection of arm and legs did u feel that sym my frd ple ans 418 days sober now
@@sangeetalambh6389 I thought you were off completely, recall your words, healed in a flick of a light switch, back on?
@@anadaanurak9129 I m.completely off frd
Thank you Neighbor Bob! Someone needed too hear this! I hope you saved a life today! This is important for so many people to here! I’m happy you have healed! God bless you for this VIDEO!🙏💕🌈💕🌈💕🌈~~~~
Your very welcome Linda and I'm glad that it helped you. : )
Water fasting is key ! Please promote that in each vid
What is water fasting thank you?
I water fasted for 11 days 2 years out. Great decision
But you can't live on water only ?
Even if you throw up 5 to 10 minutes after eating, you still get critical nutritional value that will speed up the withdrawal process. Eating while detoxing is brutal but necessary. Water is extremely important too, but you gotta eat. I like peanut butter as it has a lot of protein fats carbs and is (not to be gross) easy to throw up.
fancy josh so what are you saying josh?
Did you ever get brain/head sensations? Like dizziness, brain tingling, headaches and head pressure?
Unfortunately, I got all those and a lot more. : (
he is totally awesome!!
Im suffering pretty badly. Im experiencing the effects of possible catatonia and i just became a dad to a new born. My emotions feel cut off.. irritated.. ringing in my ears... panics... tons of fears..
6 months clean from 6 or 7 years of benzos. 1 mg for 2 years, 2 mg for 3 years and 4 mg for 4 mg for 4 years.
Just be prepared this could go on for sometime and it can be very draining and make one feel hopeless. But you can and will get well if you never give up and crawal through it. When you heal, all of that madness will go away like it did for me, and you will have your life back.
Thanks for giving me hope, bob. Thank you so much.
@@jimmygarcia7250 just keep watching all of the positive video's out there about healing. And do not watch the ones that are not uplifting and you will be fine.
SantiagoBella Garcia Congratulations on the birth of your newborn child! I am so sorry that you are going through this painful withdrawal in the mist of your child’s birth, just know one day you will heal 100%, your life will be truly amazing! Hold on to your newborn baby, snuggling up with little ones has a way of comforting us all!
I will keep you in my daily prayers. God bless you and your family. 🙏 ❤️ ✌️
Thanks for your videos. I have been going through it for about 4 months now. I only took it for a few days but I have suffered like I took them for years. The only thing I didn't have was nerve pain. My initial reaction happened when my dr misdiagnosed me and put me on Zoloft. I stopped taking it after 2 times because I had a horrible reaction to it. Not long after I had my first ever panic attack and the ER gave me Xanax. No warning. Just take as needed. My life took a turn for the worst and I stopped the Xanax after 5 days due to it making everything 100x worse. I'm getting better but slowly. The only thing sticking around so far now, is dizzyness, anxiousness, and sometimes a bit of panic. I'm praying for the day it is ALL gone. ❤
Hey Bob have u heard of people just randomly one day healing completely after so long of not seeing any progress of relief and it just healing just like that!? I’m at 20 months off klonopin and lexapro and my gut is so painful I can tell it’s just trying to heal and grow and has been for soooo long now! I just hope they’re right when they say 2 years average for healing cuz I would be really close and I don’t have any windows it’s just constant hell it doesn’t take a break for me
I healed overnight, and I think tht my friend Eric is surging really bad now and about ready to heal. But most heal on a slower basis.
@@neighborbob3043 I haven’t had any relief it just feels like it’s all coming together at once to unveil it all at once in my case
@@evjogkg344 well your right in the time that many heal. So it is possible that your just surging before all the madness stops. Lets hope so!
@@neighborbob3043 I’ve heard of people just randomly healing without even feeling anytbing before so that’s possible for to me! I’m just trying to say I’m close
My gut has been getting so much tighter and shit and I haven’t done anything to aggravate it I’m smart enough to know! Everything just hurts more! Doesn’t matter what I eat even tho I cut out all the no no’s!
Wow thank you Bob I just watched with my husband, I am in pure hell and agony as you mentioned at 20 months out now , looking for any sign of healing still , barely holding on, I hope to see some big changes soon, love Yvonne
Thanks Yvonne, my surge was so bad that it made me want to give up. But hang on as it is worth it when you heal dear.
How are you now Yvonne?
C/T failed, then tapered 12 months. Now I’m off the boat 2 years and 3 months, still have terrible insomnia, skin crawling, headache left, especially recent, suffering a lot
Yea we all heal at different rates. Maybe you are in your last surge like I was, then woke up cured the next day. Hang in there dear and never give up. And you can have your life back.
I wake up rather fine every one or two days and the next day it sucks again.
Every wave has been a fight for my life and most people don't get it, not even doctors. I'm 20 months into my CT
Hang in there dear, it gets better in time!
Thank you Bob
@@angeliesings I have been mentoring people worldwide getting off psych drugs since I healed. This Sunday will be my seventh year anniversary for healing. If you would like any further help, feel free to email me at daddyniowa@gmail.com From there, I give many my SIGNAL App contact info, where I help people for free. Bob
You are a real sweetheart! Thank-you for taking the time to help others. This is the beginning of my 8th mth, cold turkey, off Klonopin. I was on them for 20 yrs! You give me hope and make me smile! God Bless You!!!😊
Thank you so much for the info, it is Cathartic just hearing you say that.
I have gone through the worst wave at month 16-20 and I couldn’t for the life of me understand why I was just getting worse and worse. For the last 2-3 days there has been genuine improvement that feels different to the previous windows, my obsessive thoughts and burning brain really reduced. I have a number of symptoms and it’s still not right but I’m hoping this might be it, that it could be the last surge before I really start healing.
Was your healing after the last wave instant or did things just gradually get better over days/weeks following that last wave until one day you were like everything is normal again? And is it usually around this 20-24 month mark that the last wave happens?
I can tell you I healed at about 29 months (including my taper), and I have seen the bulk heal in the two to three year range, and I have probably talked to a couple thousand people world wide in the past seven years since I healed mostly by Signal App.
I went to bed the last day of Aug. 2017, worse than I had "ever" been, with just absolutely crazy symptoms. I woke up the next morning 100% healed. But, I have never heard of anyone else healing this way. For most, symptoms fall off slowly one symptom at a time until they are all gone. Hope this helps............. Feel free to email me anytime at daddyniowa@gmail.com with anymore questions if I can help, I charge absolutely nothing so the price is right! Lol! Take care............. Bob
@@neighborbob3043 wow thank you Bob! It gives me hope that the suffering won’t last forever. I genuinely can’t think you can put a human through anything worse. Mine is a combination of SSRI and a benzo on top once I landed myself in acute and the docs didn’t know what was happening - hopefully that doesn’t mean I won’t heal and it won’t be much longer before I’m better. That offer is really amazing of you, I may write to you in the future when I’m in a stable way even if it’s just to ask a few q’s. Hope you’re enjoying your new life after getting through your withdrawal🙂
It took a year to get fully heal. I can’t believe in like I always dreamed of. Before benzos I was a wreck benzos made it worse. I thought I must have mild autism , ptsd , ocd. I’ll drive and get so caught up on a anxiety storm and won’t know where I am. So I’m a year off will the hyper empathy leave
Congrats!
How are you doing today?
Almost 68 years young, been fantastic ever since the day I healed Sept. 1st 2017! Living on the bank of a 5,000 acre reservoir, living the life, and you?
Im glad there's this awareness out there but your scaring people into worst case scenarios. I've come off heavy opiate use, methadone and heavy alcohol use. Each person will have different reactions. I'm currently coming of Valium and have only had minor symptoms. Alcohol detox felt much worse. Good on you on winning your fight mate, stick with it. Anyone reading this comment keep in mind were all different, don't let other peoples experience scare you.
Justin, I have always said that a select few can stop Benzo's with no problem. But for many that's not the case. I'm glad your doing well.
@@neighborbob3043 cheers mate the fights not completely over. I'm not saying I don't experience any withdrawal, it'd just minor. I just wanted people to know not to be scared and give some encouragement.
Justin how r u now
Search before a bigger tapering drop. Always. Im at the end now but it surged. And tinnitus is constant , head pressure and depressed mood...maybe thats it after that that I can drop off the last little bit.
Im having iron problems they are sending me to a hematologist iron is 27 just took a shower was dizzy couldnt hardly stand up
www.healthrangerstore.com/products/clean-chlorella-powder-1lb-454g If I were you, I'd buy this and take like a heaping teaspoon a day of it. This one is powder form but you can buy tablets if you like. The iron supplements the Doctors give you are crap. Chlorella is loaded with iron, and a lot more nutrients. This is the best made. I have been taking it like 25 years now.
Thanks for doing this . Right now I have to shut it off though , it’s too much . I am not doing so good .
@@Jess_JusticeforRobMorrison How long did it take you? I've had the shooting nerve pain within the past month or so. I'm at about 9 months off, I'm hoping it's the body's last call for the medication or if it's going to last a lot longer.
Btw I took klonopin at 1.5mg-1mg-0.5mg-0.25mg for 12 years
I’m up late at night watching this, bawling my eyes out from nerve pain and unable to sleep more than 3-4 hours a night for the past 4 weeks. My abusive ex took my medicine when I got my dad to come rescue me...he attacked my dad, and kept my pills. I ran out of the house. 😖
Now here I am 4 weeks later... was supposed to have an appointment Saturday. But my dad can’t take me (he has the only car and will be out of state all weekend.) He asked his friends who have known me all their life, know what happened the day I left, and they’re like ‘nah sorry too far to drive.’
Neither my father nor I have the money for Uber. Which is the only way to get there , car. When my dad told me that tonight I broke down. I’m still breaking down. It’s activated my PTSD, I can barely sleep, I have so much fear and paranoia, and I’m feeling despair and just... complete emptiness mentally.
I don’t know how you all did this. I admire you so much. Thank you for ‘talking’ to me with the video while I’m having a breakdown. ❤️
Ah Hannah, I have heard so very many sad stories a lot like yours unfortunately. How much of what drugs were you on for how long dear? I have two grown daughters Amy 33, and Emma 30. Amy has a lot of anxiety and depression. But she has never taken any psych med's thank goodness. Then I have a son Jake who is 27, and he only does recreational drugs! :.(...
Feel free to e-mail me at daddyniowa@gmail.com if you need anything at all. I'd love to help give you some guidance through this if you like. I had had PTSD myself years ago but it is all better now. What part of the World do you live in if I may ask? I hope that you feel better soon, take care. You can get better and heal from all your feeling now given time and the right course of action. Never give up until that day comes, and you will have your mental health back dear.
I relate but the pills weren't taken by a abusive ex but a abusive gov funded health care system...no more home to come home to. I lost it to the healthcare system
Neighbor Bob - I am intrigued that you didn't experience withdrawal while water-fasting. You were in a ketogenic state whilst fasting, and this encourages elevated GABA and reduced glutamate activity in the central nervous system. I think eating a ketogenic (very low carb) diet and fasting can be an important part of healing addiction to GABAergic medication for many of us. I experience fewer withdrawal symptoms and feel healthier while fasting and eating a keto diet.
How about burning brain and SI?
What is SI? I am not good with many abbreviations. : ) As far as burning brain, nerve and muscle pain and the like. There is nothing I have seen help, with the exception of Chiropractic and near infrared sauna provides some relief. If you are sill suffering. Feel free to drop me an Email at daddyniowa@gmail.com. Be sure and put like "Hi Bob" in the subject line since I get a lot of email. When people email me, I can give them my Signal App contact info. I coach people worldwide on there, and have been since I healed "for free".
@@neighborbob3043 SI suicidal ideation
@@jrman413 oh yea, Duh me! lol! My solvent brain injury 25 years ago make abbreviations hard to get at times. I don't know any of the over 2,000 people I have talked to, that did not have some degree of it. I tell them that that was the first thing I told myself was not an option. People do a lot of stupid things in life, myself included. But suicide is the last dumb thing they do. I help people with those feelings all the time. I always thought, why think about that, when Benzo withdrawal is "temporary" not anything that is terminal. I often think of what if I gave up hope the last day of August 2017, and the very next morning I was 100% healed, and have stayed that way ever since. Also I was mad as Hell at big pharma, and refused to go out like that, after what they did to me. : )
i need to start back on benzos . I was sent to rehab and did a rapid taper . i have ben off 73 days and have lost so much weight can’t gain because of the constant surge of glutamate . I am never calm 24/7. I thought my dr would reinstate me . This is worst than my withdrawals while tapering
If you have to re-instate, I'd go back to the least amount that you can feel stable at and stay there a couple of months. You can always try slower next time dear if you so desire.
www.drberg.com/adrenal-cortisol-regular This really helped me to relax from all the Cortisol and adrenal high and lows. You might try a bottle and see, good but no cheap.
Neighbor Bob even if your off. more than 30 days ,.’ everyone says you could have a paradoxical reaction’ i can’t even stand my lungs feel so stiff, i’m aging so fast , lost so much weight , eat like crazy . while i was on a slow taper before i was able to feel come and feel joy, i knew to taper slowly . was so tired was tapering for over 2 years
How did you keep your sanity during the process?
I just did not let those Benzo's define who I was. I longed to get my sanity and piece of mind back and I did. And you will too in time dear. : )
Mom Of Two I spent a lot of time in a rocking chair. It helped with the shakes.
I cant take it anymore. It just getting worse and worse. I cant be positibe about this feelings..I have so much existencial dread 😢😢😢😢
Hi Madelyn, sorry to hear that your not doing well. Feel free to email me at daddyniowa@gmail.com. From there I can give you my "SIGNAL" App contact which is free. I'd be glad to go over your Benzo history, and help with some recommendations to help you navigate your way through this. I charge nothing to help people.
For the past six years now I have helped many people worldwide get through this. Take care......... Bob P.S. You will heal in time!
How are you now?
technically withdrawal lasts less than a week. Everything after that is nothing but healing.
I would know. I went to rehab for 23 days to get off Ativan cold turkey with non-benzo anti-seizure meds. Was on Ativan 14 years. (2008-2021) I'm still healing after 1.7 years clean. Doing much better now. Working full time since a month after rehab.
I've experienced hell!! Psychosis, semi-seizures, paralization, tinnitus as loud as a horn, insomnia, you name it. I couldn't walk for weeks. What a nightmare.
Hello bob !
How I can detox myself from heavy metal detox I need help . Thank you my friend . God bless you !
ruclips.net/video/UDnT-TXCOVY/видео.html Also look under the vid for more links of more what to do. Here is the protocol I use. www.nihadc.com/library/detox-for-life-class-2-addit-resources/54-4-dosing-with-chlorella/file.html?accept_license=1 Also this is the cleanest Chlorella on earth as it is grown indoors. It is Chlorella Pyrendosa ) The best for mercury detox, he also has a gallon of another Chlorella in tablets. But is is Chlorella Vulgaris, but it is more for nutritional purposes not detox.
Agasin do not try any of this until you are healed from Benzo's then get all the mercury out of your mouth "before you take any of this. As it is not made to take when you have amalgams sitting in your mouth. As it will leach them out of your teeth and maybe kill you. When you get the teeth fixed be sure only to go to a Holistic dentist as a regular Dentist will take them out wrong and hurt you.
I mean if tapering so slowly is still a horrible hell then don’t you think if it’s helping us we should stay on it?
I started my taper at 40 mg's of Valium a night. Then cut half a 5 mg (or 2 1/2 mg's) like every fourth night. I used to think that was way to quick. But now after having talked to many that tapered "very " slow like over a year or two, and they still went through hell. Now I feel that it is not until the day that you take your very last Benzo. That it is you can really begin healing. So in retrospect I feel that I tapered about right for me. It still took me a full 21 months to regain my mental health, after having took my last Benzo. I wish you all the best in your journey to wellness.
Oh, I think I just understood better what you were asking. For me, it was no longer helping me. I still was sleeping terrible when on it for 13 years. Now that I have broke free from them and healed. I feel so much more alive again, and sleep much better as well.
Unless a person is determined to get off them no matter what. They can choose to stay on them, but for me that was not an option. And I am so glad that today I am 100% drug free.
Neighbor Bob actually both of your replies are very helpful to me. Thank you very much!! My medicine seems to still help me and I originally went on it for panic attacks that I had dealt with for 8 years before I even reached out for meds. I’m not sure yet what decision I would like to make but I have a grandchild on the way in February so I need to take that Into consideration. My daughter will need my help. So it’s things like that , that may hinder my decision. Thanks again 🙏🏻
Hope that my brother is going through a surge as well. Imagine having to work in an auto shop to pay off 200k in back taxes to save his property in that condition.
Wow, he is a lot tougher than I was in my withdrawal. I wish him and you all the best.
I live in Belgium.The most psychiatric doctors are going to fast building off this kind of drugs.Heather Asthon who have runned a withdrawal clinic in Newcastle is an example for the world.Benzos and neuroleptics kill your emotions.Congratulations for this man!!!
Thanks Erwin!
Been off of it for 7 weeks. This shit is so hard I can’t even work, I’m starting to think I need it to be normal...
Apply for SSD now, just in case you cannot work for a long time.
I hear you Nick, I’m down to 1.25 mgs now from 10 mgs Valium. So much electricity everyday shooting everywhere in my body. It’s living hell. My jump date is soon at 0.5, been dry cutting down at rate of 1/8th mg a week. It’s mentally and physically too much. I hope so much once I jump it’ll get better. 2020 I’m NEVER touching another Benzo ever. I lost my GF. Friends. Social Life. Got my two boys that are keeping me through this.
How are you now Nick? 4 months later??
Did you getchest pain
Not myself, but people can and do get pain almost everywhere at times.
Thank You 🙏
Your welcome John!
Hi Bob...hw r u doing?
Fine dear and you? We are just living the dream. Retired off the bank of a large lake in Missouri.
@@neighborbob3043 dats great...stay blesed☘️
hey neighbor I'm sub'ing to your channel. trying to get of the benzos. ive tried multiple times over the past couple years. I've gotten down from 6mg of xanax down to .5 every few days due to my Dr not allowing me have it in my system due to another medication which is a horrible way to quit. thank you for all your info.
the tinnitus, derealization and no sleep is the worst. Ive been wondering whats been causing those problems now i realize its probably the benzos
also thank you so much for this video its good to hear im not alone
Of course ITS THE BENZOS!!!!! I’ve have those symptoms for over a Year after Stopping Klonopin???
@@michelebergman4336 they sure are.
@@SplinteredX those three are all classic Benzo withdrawal symptoms.
Thank you for making these videos. Although I have to say the more I watch the more I feel like im in no ready to face that hell. I do feel like the Diazepam has made things worse than they were before, so if its to get worse even more coming off, im not sure I will ever be ready. It interests me that you mentoned being scared of everything, because I feel really stupid for that - everything can seem scary, and if ive missed a dose - I already feel it much worse, ive got stuck on the kitchen floor all night long after not taking it, and felt like I was going to die. My legs stop working, and I just get so afraid of everything I see / hear / smell/ touch. Im not on a high dose, 20mg a day, but I do have to take more sometimes. I take it with zopiclone and mirtazapine, and im on thyroxine (and iron which I dont take as it makes me 1000 times worse). But right now, when I cant get to my own gate without my legs seizing up and collapsing, (not even sure what im scared of when I try to go out, there is no danger here), I feel like I never ever want to come off them because of how much ive learned about that hell, and also feel I never wanted to be put on them. So kind of stuck in between :( (I think the legislation changed since I started over 10 years ago, as now only 5mg / day can be prescribed for about 2 months max). Im also completely alone, I lost my entire family after an assault, where my attacker hung himself before the court case, and everyone deserted me. So I know Id have to do it totally alone.
Just would like to say that my wife is also from the Philippines, Davao City ❤️
Kewl, my wife is originally from Occidental Mindoror around Magsaysay so she speaks visaya. But she lived in Manila for many years and thats where I met her. We have a home in Alabang Muntinlupa Manila. I have heard that Davao is a great place!
Pray to God. Verily God Has Power over all things.
So true!
By body isn't craving or wanting pills... just healing....I had a five month window (months 41 to 47 and thought it was over and now I'm in one of the worst waves ever...complicated by serious lung infection. I've woken up many times feeling like a million dollars only to be plunged into worsening waves over the last four years. I never took more than 40 mg a year until the last year when i took about 60 mg over the year. I think I took more during the taper..and it was for insomnia but caused GAD and panic disorder. I'm so screwed now...trying everything...losing hope. I'm old. My good days are glorious, my bad days are absolute hell. I;m one of the unlucky ones. I've started intermittent fasting a year ago but haven't gone more than 24 hours. No help. I keep saying these waves mean it's over as I get a window and every fricken time, another bad waves comes but now they are lasting longer than ever! I just don't know how to be positive anymore. I'm doubting I will actually heal. I don't think this is the first time I've commented on your videos. take care
I never had a wave just 24/7 terrible crazy for like 21 months. At least the times you have had a wave and felt really good for a time. Even though you are plunged back into terror in awhile. You get a glimpse of the normality that one day you will wake up with where it is over. My day was Sept. 1st 2017, just hang in there until the day that "you " heal Sis. Never give up until that day comes. I can tell you that it was totally worth it, since the day I healed from those Devil drugs. Take care.
@@neighborbob3043 thanks for the reply
Would fixing your gut and taking supplements help symptoms?
Fixing your gut could be beneficial. But most all supplements unfortunately cause worse symptoms for most people.
The whole issue of benzo,s is horrendous and the suffering is beyond bearable l watched my gentle loving mother die from these horrid drugs it makes me feel l could scream forever
martin duffy please except my sincere condolences, I’m afraid I’m going to hurt myself I’m in so much pain from my wd
@@sweetmountainbaby you have to keep yourself distracted. It is so hard. You can do it
@@sweetmountainbaby please don,t do anything to hurt yourself the pain will leave just keep pushing threw a new life awaits you thankyou for your nice reply to me . Means alot
Wow, I always had feelings benzodiazepines did not take them away from me or paint me in any way! I forced to stop by a gov funded abusive healthcare system. They have me 5 years in a group home. I lost family members, friends and my home. Whatever a person decided I don't want anyone else to become a cash cow and lose everything then get out out homeless
I’m at month 16 I think I’m dealing with this. Been so down lately.
Hang in there, every day your healing. One day closer to the day you regain your health!
How are you now?
Hi bob did you ever get itching hot skin towards the end to im at 26 weeks benzo free now and it came back havnt had it for a long time
No John I never got that one. But I can tell you that is a common symptom from others I have spoke to. Hope you feel better soon buddy.
@@neighborbob3043 sorry bob i meant 26 months
What was the specific day like when you felt “healed”... was it definitive, like, wow, I’m healed now, or what was that like?
I like went to bed the last day of August 2017 Benzo sick as hell. And woke up the very next morning after sleeping in like 97% cured. All that was left was a bit of Benzo belly. But I had like leaky gut before I started my taper. I healed like overnight it was an amazing feeling to this day!
Neighbor Bob That’s amazing Bob, wow, thank you for sharing.
Can you please tell me if you experienced weak spells like you were if you had low blood sugar, lasting for about 15 minutes. Shakes , and rubbery legs etc, full body weakness. I would also like to ask if it is possible to have withdrawal symptoms even from a slow taper that involved one year of tapering from diazepam I started at 30 mg a day and each week I reduced it by .5 mg sometimes it was every two weeks until I was comfortable it was over one year. And I’m having side effects that I thought I would never have or is it just in my mind, The reason I’m asking is because I followed the Ashton manual and I was put on diazepam at my request to help me get off of Paxil I quit taking the Paxil when I achieved a very low-dose then my doctor started me on the long lasting diazepam so that is my basic question the Ashton manual suggest that you won’t have any with drawl symptoms if you do it very slow it didn’t hit me until the eighth day then bang I was in full panic and having all these weird neurological symptoms thank you
The weak rubbery legs thing is a common withdrawal symptom and I had it the whole 21 months after my taper. I do not know anything about Paxil except that it is an SSRI. SSRI's work on Dopamine and Seratonin, and Benzo's work more on the nerve endings. So in all actuality they are two different type of drugs. I know that Dr. Ashton recommends switching to Valium from other Benzo's. But I did not know she recommended that for getting off Paxil or an SSRI?
Some people can stop Benzo's cold turkey and have little problem. But many can go slow like you and I did and still experience like around two years of symptoms from the time they take their last one. Only time will tell which one of those you are. Are you off all Benzo's at this time or still tapering? After my last Benzo, it took me 21 months to heal. That whole time I had symptoms from hell nonstop. But as of like September 1st of 2017 I healed and am fine.
Neighbor Bob Thank you for your response, yes I’m off all Benzos, my symptoms are not every day, for example yesterday and today I have been symptom free, then out of no where I will get a nervous stomach and be sensitive to light noise shakes Shaking hands and legs I get a bloated stomach then
it’s hard to breathe, then all of this sends me into panic mode then everything gets worse. Did you also feel tired, and have weak spells? Thank you again for your time. Today is 15 days off of the one year long taper.
@@Tom1.7 yes I was listless and tired all the time. Also so weak all the time. It felt like my legs could barely hold me up. But when I healed all that went away. Hang in there buddy~
20 months since my last taper worst benzo belly ever. Im dealing with it right now. Stabbing abdominal pain that surges every 30 minutes then dies down wht the hell is that
There are thousands of nerve endings in the gut. Benzo belly was the last thing to leave me when I healed. I mostly had the bloating and food allergies not the pain.
So so so so very difficult.
Is Holy Basil ok to take.
That would depend on your body. You might try a little and see if it makes you feel better or worse.
Nice video!
When you said you had a surge of symptoms that got bad before you healed was anxiety one of them?
"Totally healed. No anxiety whatsoever now. I am back to my old calm laid back self. I can even drink a couple cups of black coffee in the morning now. Which I could never do since my 1998 brain injury. Lift is good, and yours will be to in time if you keep healing and never give up,
Neighbor Bob Thanks for your reply.
I was actually wondering in your video when you said you got a surge of intense symptoms for like a week and then woke up one day and you were healed. Was one of those intense symptoms before you healed was anxiety?
Actually I surged for like about the last month and a half really bad. Everything ramped up including anxiety. I was thinking I can't take it anymore. But somehow I did, and I'm so glad now that I never gave up.
Neighbor Bob During that month and half were all the same symptoms intensed everyday or was it like some symptoms this day, others the next?
@@prayforhealing1729 unfortunately for me they were all nonstop. I thought I had went nuts. So scary it was for me.
Man it’s 4:15 am another still going through tapering sleepless night. Is there anyway at all for the excruciating gut pain? I still have almost a year of tapering to go. Is there any relief at all. I’m pretty much on edge 24/7 the pain is so unbearable! I’ve already gone through over a year of this. 😭 should I free my poor husband of me? I don’t know where I could go but I feel like the worst burden I feel I ruined our lives by allowing myself to ever take one of these pills! I’m so scared that the stress will kill him. I don’t want to do that to him. I wish it would just take me so I don’t stress him out anymore. Oh man I’m talking crazy I see the sun rising maybe I should try getting some sleep.
Do you think the same for me will happen that I will heal too,? On zyprexa Antipsychotic 10 mg a day for 4 months off cold Turkey for 3 months. Severe withdrawls still in them will I heal or am I brain damaged permanently?
Hi Stephanie, I know little about that drug sorry.
I was on Zyprexa as well and cold turkeyed. It was living hell for a few months and it actually brought me to the Benzo mess which is actully 5x worse than Zyprexa. The average recovery time for Zyprexa I heard was 4 months a doctor told me once. Had I have just stayed away from the Benzos I would be fully healed a long time ago from Zyprexa. I've heard it can take up to a year and you have to treat it like Benzo withdrawal. Stay away from all drugs if possible!
Hello Bob, Do you think that your solvent brain injury was a cause for extensive and extended healing time ?
No not at all. Actually from the time most people take their last Benzo until they heal can be like two to three years. Mine was just 21 months. So I think I healed about normal.
@@neighborbob3043 Thanks for the info... gonna do it, Lord willing !! over and out of my mind !
Just checking in ! 3 months 11 days since last dose. Still in healing process but doing it. Looking forward, No looking back. Seems as though just remembering who i was before benzos i create that scenerio now and what is not the same i just move forward in a normal sense too be that way . normal being adjusts to normal healing !
3 months 11 days since last dose. Remembering who i was before as a so called normal being. i'm pressing on to be that person again...no quick or magic formulas..just simply normal being produces normal healing.
@@johnmeier1750 I wish you all the best!
What about cbd oil for the anxiety? Anyone? I have done 7 month with nothing. Any thoughts?
Now that I am healed from Benzo's CBD oil does have a calming effect on me. But that being said I never tried it in withdrawal. Some that have experience a benefit, but many say it makes them worse. I'd say try just a little a little and see which one you are.
Also not all CBD oil is created equal, I know that a brand called HempWorx is very pure. They use the whole plant and are not using pesticides on them. Their 750 mg bottle is the most potent. They say to use like 20 drops under the tongue twice a day for maximum benefit. One of my daughters sells it, so I looked into that brand a lot myself.
@@neighborbob3043 thanks for the quick response.
Hi Bob. I have sent you an email... thanks for your help.
@@leecampbell742 I just checked my e-mail and did not see one from you. My e-mail is daddyniowa@gmail.com
Are you fully healed I was looking at ur dr dp and you were saying you still feel it is it gone everything is gone ???
Yes, since Sept of 2017 it is ALL gone..............I feel great now!
Neighbor Bob I’m been dealing it with 22 months but last August I took Remron for a weeek and got hit with crazy intrusive thoughts. This September got hit with dp for the first time from taking exp antibiotics it went away felt 95% healed 2 days ago then boom dp again its crazy I ask myself is this withdrawal or what 😰😰🙏💔
Neighbor Bob I don’t now if I should say I’m 13 months or 22 cuz before I took the remron I felt alright I didn’t now nothing about withdrawal I was having some promblems but not that serious intall couple months after . I don’t feel horrible right now just weird and tired of all of this bs .
Yea it is............I had terrible DP/DR all the way through my 21 month withdrawal. Hang in there!
Neighbor Bob ye got crazyy intrusive thoughts mostly then dr do here and there god bless you man I’m let everyone I healed if I do 😡
I just don't have the support...dont what to eat don't or feel like go anywhere.
I felt the same things in my withdrawal. Just realize that every day of hell you go through. Put's you one day closer to the day you wake up well. : )
hi neighbor bob im a beginner of tapering off Ativan and clorazapam benzos im so scared
So was I when I was going through it Natasha. It's hard but you can make it! I wish you all the best dear.
Bless you Buddy. I'm your neighbor from central Nebr. Great chronicle and description of everything. I can relate 100%. I was on Clonazepam for 16 years - 1.5 mg and Methadone, Hydrocodone, Neurontin, Flexeril and was cold turkeyed on March 1st, 2017. Oh, my God - I cannot tell you the hell I have been through. I still am going through withdrawal. The "Opioid Epidemic" I believe is what caused my doctor to do this to me. I was placed on pain killers in 1999 and about a month or two after a bunch of other junk and I would say about ten to fifteen others along this awful journey. Anyway - I am now back on Methadone - a very low dose which doesn't do much for my pain -- which is the real deal - I suffer damn near all the time... but the withdrawal along with the pain and then I made horrible decisions in the market which cost me over $100,000 -- talk about being down in the dumps. This is just pure hell and sometimes I would have to say torturous. I am very happy that you healed. I thought I was healed once but it came back -- now over 2 years off of these drugs with methadone exception. I am suffering big time with pain, derealization, depersonalization, emotionless, no motivation - you know. I do have a theory of why some people heal or have little withdrawal and some go through hell. It has to do with Epstein Barr Virus -- the higher the viral load the more suffering. You mentioned that you did a water fast and that would definitely help with the Epstein Barr - in fact it could lower it enough to not have any symptoms. I read the books by Anthony William "medical medium" you have to have an open mind but I do believe in his gift. Anyway - thought I would compliment you and thank you for doing this video. I hope all is well Bob and take care!!!
I hope that your 100% healed soon Bro, and thanks for the kind words!
I was in Xanax for 3 years, Does alcohol slow down the recovery process ?
Yes big-time, alcohol and weed are gaba receptor antagonists. They will work to still depress your receptors just like the Benzo did thus you will not heal. Right after I took my last Benzo, for a few weeks I was knocking down about a fifth of single male Scotch a day. In retrospect that was a huge mistake. I stopped and started healing, that took 21 months.
Wow, yeah I’ve been off for 3 weeks and I’ve been drinking 4-8 oz of vodka per day but I’m going to stop. I hope I can heal quick
Hi Bob, thanks for all your videos. I love them. How is your sleep? Has it returned to normal?
Yes it is great now. Doing a vid about that soon.
Once fully healed from protracted benzo withdrawal is coffee something that some/most people can drink again ?
As long as it did not give you added anxiety before you took Benzo's I do not see why not. For me I can have one cup in the morning now since I am healed without much problem.
If you do drink coffee later, I suggest you buy organic. As coffee typically is grown with high pesticide levels.
Question to all 12 months of benzo last week in a bad car accident The hospital gave me oxy and morphine and not knowing gave me a ambien My question is how bad has this effect my recovery
Gary, we are all different so it is hard to say. But in general Oxy and morphine are not Benzo's and neither is Ambien (zolpidem) it's a sedative/hypnotic. As such they do not work on the same Gaba receptors as do Benzo's. So, if I were you I would just take it easy and hope for the best.
Neighbor Bob thank you that is big help That is a huge help Pks review NDA treatment for benzos etc would like your opinion just looking over my hospital report they did give me 2 mg of Ativan one night again I hope that did not set me back
@@garysimone4977 the Ativan may have set you back some, only time will tell. I do not know anything about NDA treatment I'm afraid.
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Strange I feel great as I tex the day has done a 180 an I over. The hump ??? Time will tell Thanks for staying in touch
Why do you have withdrawal when taping off benoz ....also have high stress hormones
Benzo's can give you terrible withdrawal symptoms. Some are lucky, but many are not. They crush your neuro transmitters and it takes a long time for them to heal. Benzo's also mess up ones hormones big-time.
@@neighborbob3043 when you are taping off benoz you are still take some of the benoz
@@teresaj7796 yes that is what a taper is. Dr. Heather Ashton recommends that you get switched over to Valium/Diazapam before you start your taper. She has charts in her site telling you the equivalent to whatever Benzo you are taking to Valium. Valium is the longest lasting Benzo, and comes in a lot smaller tablets to taper easier. I originally took 2 mg's of Klonopin. That changed over to Valium was 40 mg's. I took the 5 mg tablets and broke one in half and waited like two weeks then kept going like that.
@@neighborbob3043 that what I doing not that big mg cut. I have this thing with my arm its like something running through my veins in my arms
I appreciate you so much...1 more question I am not able to cook...so i don't eat..I don't know what to eat
Any suggestions
At what point during titration does this SURGE happen?
Hi Mary the surge does not happen during the titration. Through that eight months I only had chronic insomnia. After I took my last Benzo, that is when all the madness began. Like the DP/DR severe anxiety, fear of everything, muscle weakness and a lot more. This all last 21 months with no window's for me. During like the last month all of my symptoms ramped up what seemed like about 75% and stayed there. Until I woke up Sept. 1st 2017 literally healed overnight. I went to bed the night before with horrible mad symptoms, and literally woke up cured the following morning.
Did your tinnitus go away ?
Not totally, but it is down a whole lot to a manageable level now where I hardly notice it. But I had a 27 years solvent exposure at work that retired me with a mild brain injury in 1998. Before that I had no Tinnitus.
I can tell you that the last month and a half before I healed from the Benzo's it was as bad as it ever was. Like a million screaming symbols at night. So glad that is gone now! : )
Neighbor Bob mine started a year ago in anti depressant withdrawal. I’m 10 months off of them now. It’s really horrific. Super loud. I don’t know if it will go away. I hope to god
I'm sure that it will go away, with any other symptoms that you have been dealing with. Once your body is done healing from the SSRI's your health will return like mine did so in the meantime just don't get discouraged.
Anytime it ramps up bad it may well be almost ready to run it's course on you and give you peace. I know the madness of terrible Tinnitus and it is almost enough to drive one nuts! So just hang in there!
Neighbor Bob do you have an email I can contact you at?
Sure buddy, it's daddyniowa@gmail.com
Bob I am mid taper 2.5 Ativan, I was down to 0.88 but made a big mistake and had to reinstate. I smoked some cannabis thinking it would help me but I had a bad trip/reaction which gave me dp/dr. Ontop of the insane depression and anxiety everything got worse and I had to go back up. Right now I feel I am so deep. I dont stabilise have a long taper ahead of me and then the healing. How Am I supposed to survive this? I feel burnt up.
Yea sounds like you screwed up with the weed. Alcohol and weed work on the same nerve receptors I do believe. So many people during a withdraw try one or the other. For me at the very beginning of my withdrawal I tried about a fifth of Scotch a day and hardly had any Benzo withdrawal symptoms (but I had a lot of drunk symptoms) LOL! Then I found that I was only trading being drug dependent for alcohol dependency or being a drunk.
When one is withdrawing from Benzo's they need to not take anything else, and just eat healthy. Yes you do have a long road ahead of you, but if you are as determined to get off the Benzo's as much as I was you will make it! : )
@@neighborbob3043 I don't know bob, I have been tapering since March, one little slip up and I am deeper in the hole. I don't know I have years of this left in me my brain feels like it's eating itself up. All my symptoms are mental, severe depression, racing/intrusive thoughts, anxiety. I just don't know. Before all this I was already a bit depressed and prone to anxiety. So I am worried getting off benzo's is not going to be a cure all. Isn't there anything you can do mid taper to ease up the mental stuff. It is becoming an issue of life and death very soon.
@@theheart6044 I had all the things you mentioned terrible and then some. Nothing seems to ease it. The very best you can do is be very careful of what you eat. I ate no sugar, caffeine, grains, GMO's, MSG or processed foods at all. www.thrivetalk.com/vitamin-deficiencies-depression/ During my taper and for the last decade I have taken this liquid mineral supplement about a capful a day makes a bottle last a month. www.amazon.com/VITAL-EARTH-MINERALS-FULVIC-HUMIC-BLEND/dp/B00A1MNXGU/ref=sr_1_3_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1544203294&sr=8-3&keywords=vital+earth+minerals+fulvic-humic+mineral+blend
Your right about a long road ahead but you can get there if you hang in there. For myself I feel like 100% better than I did even since my Doctor first put me on the Klonopin back in 2,000. I sleep better now and feel much better in general than when I was on it.
Glad you made it's hard
That it was Teresa, but it's doable if you stick to it.
Hi mate, can sleeping pills (zopiclone 7.5mg) half a pill around 2am and second half at 4 or 5am help with withdrawal night wakings.??
sorrenable don’t take sleep aids, insomnia will only last about 6 months, sleep aids will interfere with your brains healing
What if I’m 2 years off and I’m still having symptoms and so so tired :(
Benzo's reek havoc on one's hormones. What symptoms are remaining if I may ask?
Neighbor Bob all kinds. Around time for my cycle about 2 weeks before i start i am in severe abdominal pain and vaginal pain its so bad i will be bed ridden some days and get headaches . Also i have fatigue depression back aches scalp is always sore to the touch like ive been hit in the head . Ill break out into sweats feel clammy and i just have this overall feeling of being unwell like every single day i feel like i have a hangover a
@@ms_jadah if you have not already done it. I'd suggest you get a good Naturopathic Doctor. Who can check all of your body's hormone, mineral, and vitamin levels. Benzo's are known to cause depletions in many key minerals and other things necessary for the body to function properly.
Neighbor Bob well i have had my blood drawn a few times and all the vitamin and hormone levels come back excellent. I just don’t understand .
@@ms_jadah I always tell people that have strange symptoms. That if you did not have them before you started tapering. That they are probably caused by the Benzo's and will just fade away when they heal. Hopefully that is very soon for you dear.