"If you live with OCD, it's likely that you wake up feeling guilty and spend your day investigating yourself for the crime...The OCD threatens you with severe punishment, the severest of all: the idea that your feelings signify who you are, that guilt means you are a criminal, and that fear means you will be annihilated. The OCD says that these feelings are problems and that you must fix them or suffer." - Jon Hershfield and Tom Corboy (OCD just wants one thing from us: that we view our intrusive thoughts as real problems and respond to them as if they are real problems.) It is not what we think, it's how we think!
I have severe obsessive thoughts man I’m crying listening to this , my life has been completely turned upside down and it’s nice listening to others with the same problem
i deeply hear you!!! i also have obsessive and intrusive thoughts so painfully...i have been finding some relief through listening to "the ocd stories" here on youtube, i recently listened to shannon shy, shala nicely, dr. steven phillipson's 2nd interview...there are sooo many good and encouraging, inspiring interviews on there. also i have been reading lots of books on people who are HEALING and LIVING THEIR LIVES with ocd to keep myself encouraged. also, facing core fears with therapeutic help seems to be some of the core of the ocd, for me. i just read "leaving the ocd circus"...i liked that one a lot. oh yeah, i also go to OCA (obsessive compulsive anonymous) and that is so helpful to be with those who deeply get the agony of this and who are FINDING THEIR WAY THROUGH! i have read and heard enough now and with some experiences of relief to know that things really and truly can get better. i sincerely hope you are finding the support that you need to live the good and decent life you deserve. sincerely, sasha
BBC should hire you. That was a top notch documentary ! Very grateful to have found your video. Im here to understand my recently diagnosed son. Thanks so much !
I love this film. I show it to my psychology students every year now. It's so important that they see beyond the diagnosis, and really get to understand what it's like to live with the distress of OCD day to day
This is really interesting & for me, very relatable, so much so, that my heart goes out to each person with OCD that took part in this documentary. As someone with severe OCD, I want everyone who doesn't understand to know & to appreciate, that I didn't "choose" to be this way, I just "am". I know it's something within my brain & it's seemingly weird power over me & over every thought that I have. I feel that if I don't do what my mind tells me to do, to protect myself in various ways, then something bad will happen to me or to someone I care about & love. I feel I must do what I have to do, even if it takes me forever, which it so often does & even if it gets me into trouble via poor time management. My OCD takes up so much of my day, my time & my energy. I really am quite sick of it & I want to make some serious & positive changes going forward, otherwise I know, that I won't live the best quality of life that I potentially could. My time management has been greatly affected because of my OCD & most of my nearest & dearest wouldn't have a clue what's going on & I've often thought, that not even those with OCD in my family would fully understand "my" form of OCD. It is a serious and repetitive ritual and if my train of thought is interrupted, I feel doubly or triply troubled and stressed & then, I can take even longer to get things done & my mood may also change from calm to irrational and I become overly sensitive and touchy. Interestingly however, when I must work, my OCD is @ it's lowest & weakest point, albeit, it's always present, akin to being on "standby". When I have structure in my life & when I have genuine/known responsibility, I do quite well, if not very well, but @ other times, I'm very up & down OCD wise. OCD although ritualistic, doesn't always have to be in 100% exact order for me, or indeed for everyone. OCD does vary from person to person, so too, their personal OCD patterns & rituals surrounding those patterns. No two people are exactly the same in this instance. I know I had some really stressful times growing up & I believe this may have been an early trigger factor, but I also think it's more so hereditary within my family, as I've observed a few other family members who've also got varying forms of OCD. IMPO, I think it's really sad, when others poke fun, make a mockery of, tease, taunt, etc;. IMPO, I think they do this, because they have wee to no idea, as to how serious OCD can be & is for it's personal sufferers. It's so easy to laugh off or laugh @, what we do not fully understand. What I can say is this. If anyone that doesn't have OCD, did suffer from OCD, then they'd never utter anything negative regarding OCD, because @ that moment, they'd know the exact feeling & they'd come to understand what living with OCD is like. I've lived with OCD most of my life, but with current treatment & some personal support & encouragement, I've already made some positive progress, but although it's early days yet, I still have a long ways to go. I do hope that through watching such documentaries & because of more discussion pertaining to OCD & general mental health issues, that more & more people with OCD, will come forward & talk about their personal experiences. Then hopefully, they'll go & talk with their GP & ask for help, because there is help/support out there, but all we have to do, is to make the first move and seek that help. Thanks for sharing this very valuable documentary with the world.
Very down-to-earth with the condition. Nicely done. I developed OCD when I was 5, and was diagnosed when I was 7 or 8, can't recall which. But I do know that having OCD as a child was pure hell to me. I referred to the OCD as the Numbers--- the Numbers would count in my head all the time: 1 2 3 4, 1 2 3 4, and so-on. I had an obsession with rhythm and balance--- equal measures of sound in both ears, and if I perceived one ear as not receiving enough of the sound, I would attempt to make the sound until balance was achieved. Things like clocks drove me crazy because they never stopped ticking and I would be turning my head constantly to keep the balance. And it drove me nuts. I also had a form of harm OCD--- thinking that if I do or don't do particular things, I'll be taken away by monsters or creatures, or I'll die, or my pets will die, or something like that. It kept me from saying certain words I perceived as "wrong" or I'd be punished (which really affected me during school because I'd refuse to read things out loud if I thought they were wrong--- and I would be punished by parents and teachers when I refused to say the words so it was a lose-lose situation), I had to run past the bathroom next to my bedroom and not look inside it because something would come and drag me down the toilet, I had to have my entire body and head under the covers when the cassette player stopped the tape because the monsters would come out if I didn't, and so-on. OCD even controlled how I drew my characters. I had a character who had three hair spikes but the OCD soon started to dominate how I drew him--- making me draw him with four hair spikes even though he was supposed to have three. This was really the most frustrating part for me. Up until then my art was the one part of my life I had full control of and now the Numbers were taking control of it. It calmed down some when I was 9, then kicked back up intensely for a brief time when I was 10. I felt like I had to shout everything I said, getting louder and louder. And of course my mom was not going to put up with that, and she told me to contain it. It was hard at first but I finally just realized that I could clamp my jaws shut and say absolutely nothing. My OCD was screaming at me and I ignored it. And the next day I no longer had the urge to shout. Music was also a huge factor in learning to can the OCD. I discovered during my calm period that if I listened to the radio 24-7 the thoughts would stop because I could not only focus on the music, but my rhythm obsession went away as well because I could hear the music instead of all the other little sounds around me. And soon after my last burst of shouty OCD, I started listening to a lot of the type of music I'm still into today, and it still helps contain the obsessive thoughts I get. They're just gone when I listen to music. I do still get OCD thoughts. Silly things, like if I drink the last bit of my drink I'll die, or if I pet my cat at the moment my cat will get sick and die. Sometimes it's more seriously intrusive, like the time when my OCD was trying to convince me that there was a creature looking at me from some direction and if I look in that direction indicated in a flash image, it would come for me. In these situations I either stand there and let it dissipate or do the exact opposite. I refuse to let my life be ruled by irrational fear that my OCD provides. And as a result, I've been free of controlling, debilitating OCD for ten years now. For which I'm grateful, very grateful.
I remember getting excited about this doc ages ago when I first saw the trailer. You've done a fantastic job with this! As someone with OCD I am happy there are people who are bringing awareness of the disorder to the world. There was nothing like this I knew of back in the late 90s when I first began suffering and had there been maybe I wouldn't have gone through so much before trying to get help. Great documentary!
Person at 16:30. That is depersonalization/ocd. I had derealization for 2 months-3 ish months and it was hell on hearth. It’s the one thing I would NEVER want to see my worst enemy go through. It was the most painful debilitating anxiety I have had in my 15 year old life. Imagine that the only thing you think about is if you are real and if anything you’re seeing is real. It got to the point where I questioned if pleasure from food was real or if I wasn’t existing at all. I prayed hard as frick, and I was healed gradually, and I am so grateful. Praise the Lord above.🙏🙏🙏 I also have GAD and OCD
this documentary has changed my life. I knew I had some sort of problem but never thought it could be O.C.D . thank you, I will be seeking help because of this film.
It really annoys me when people think its about just hand washing they know nothing about the intrusive thoughts checking things over and over again in your head saying things over and over again in your mind
No one in the world knows everything about everything. IMO the fact that some people bothered to find out SOMETHING about OCD is a good start, rather than the demon you think it is. Its really up to you to inform them further.
Thank you so much for making a documentary because I actually have OCD and people just think that it's about being clean and that's not true at all. Last year when I was 12 years old I was diagnosed with OCD, Tourette's syndrome, Asperger's syndrome, epilepsy, anxiety and depression. When I went to a hospital to do some blood test they thought that I was dangerous to myself and people around me so I was sent me to a mental hospital. The worst part about the mental hospital is that I'm deaf but everybody there was hearing and they had no idea how to sign so I had to have an interpreter which really sucked. My therapist has been working as a therapist for 27 years and she has never seen anybody that has such severe OCD as me ( That's how bad my OCD is)But I go to therapy 3 hours a day everyday and now my OCD is a little bit better but it is still extremely severe. I just wanted to thank you because people without OCD complain that they have OCD because they wash there hands after going to the bathroom or they like things to be organized which is not OCD at all but because of you many more people understand what OCD actually is and they know have an understanding about we're going through and I just want to thank you for that. 💙💗💚💖💜💝
Thankyou so much! I have recently found out I have OCD and am seeing a CBT therapist. Watching this film has been so liberating for me! Thankyou so much! It's so comforting to find out I'm not alone and there are others who understand and have been through the same thing as me. Hearing other people's stories just makes me feel like a person again and not isolated. This film has lifted a lot of the shame and embarrassment I felt from my OCD. I can't explain how awe-struck and impressed I am by you and the people in this video who have been so brave to tell their stories. I'm sure you've helped so many OCD sufferers. Thankyou.
Yes, we can't get out of our head, once when I sought help a nurse didn't understand, she told me to say to myself, this to shall pass, she was suggesting ways to stop worrying, I told her that's the point, I can't, I overthink everything, I have to go over and over in my head that it's o.k. to leave apt so I can pay bills or shop, even shopping sometimes can be depressing, but there are days where I feel safe and confident
This is absolutely an excellent film! I feel so sorry for everyone who has OCD. I have it too. It’s so hard and devastating. Thank you for making this film.
Thank you so much for this video. I identify so much with the stories. Thank God it is being aired so that people can understand how crippling it is to suffer with this horrible disorder. I have had ocd for over 40 years and it has ruined my life. All my love to everyone involved in the video.
Thank you for being bold and making this video. I struggle with OCD, ADHD and Schizophrenia. It is a constant ongoing battle. Thankfully, I have the right medication now that has minimized those thoughts, but it is still there. As you said, talking about it really helps so I knew I had to mention my condition. I want to help others in the future that are going through the same thing as me so it is good to hear that others feel the same way.
@@ASMR-XI-ZUI Everyone responds to meds differently. But I take Olanzipine 8.75 mg for Schizophrenia, Certraline 100 mg for the depression that the Olanzipine causes, and Guanficine 2 mg for ADHD and blood pressure. Very Important to see a licensed Psychiatrist or the like though. I see a nurse practitioner.
Claire, thank you so much for this documentary. It meant so much to see everyone included in this film and know that I'm not alone dealing with my form of OCD. It's been a struggle, between the good and bad days, and I'm so thankful to have come across your production. It's hard to deal with this by yourself, and knowing there is a community out there to offer help and support is a way to take your life back. Thanks again
Thank you for this film. It was a great work. I am from a spanish speaking country and I have suffered from OCD since I was a child. I almost came to tears listening the people suffering like I do. It is true OCD is a non-discrimitating illness, that affects people regardless of age, gender, culture or nationality.
Hello Claire. I would like to tell you a huge thank you for your documentary. It's one of the most important and interesting that I'have ever watched, as it shows real people suffering OCD, with their own testimony, that give a very soft and human light on OCD. This kind of light is very important for people suffering OCD, as they need softness and reinsurrance. The home-made way you did it (and very professionnal in the same time) get people wathing a real proximity with interviewed people. Your documentery brings much more human warmth than other documentaries and videos, and that's people suffering OCD need. I make a lot of researches on the Internet about OCD, especially in french language, unfortunatly there are much less contents in french. I'm happy to speak a bit english, that allows me to discover your video :) I actually try to find ways to express OCD, and your work is very inspiring. A huge thank you! Léo
Thats what kills me about ocd. You know what you're doing makes no sense, but you still have to follow the ritual. For me personally its checking, having stuff to be in odd numbers......we could go on and on and on😏😏😏
It's like you want to be in control of yourself but you can't but you helplessly to things that help relieve the anxiety for a short time. You are afraid of the things you can't control in yourself and in your life. (I have a bump on my head that causes me great anxiety) the dr says it's fine, but I don't. I feel that I'm going to die from it. The anxiety from it is like one moment I'm at a 1 skyrocket up to 9 in seconds. The dread of death is paralyzing. You actually think you are going to die. And the guilt is overwhelming even though I have nothing to feel guilty about. So I go through my life to figure out what have I done wrong to make myself feel so guilty. I end up feeling very unsafe and not in control of my own self or life. It's horrible.
I don't think I have OCD. My problem is I am always trying to avoid any problems that need attention. I worry, panic, get very depressed and lose all desire to live anymore. I wish everyone who is suffering in any way, that they find relief, help and peace.
It may be that you have left so many problems to be fixed, due to big panic and anxiety, that they have built up so much that the problems have accumulated to one massive lump. If so, if you could try to deal with one problem at a time, say for a week, doing a part of it each day - but picking one day off so your whole week is not about the problem, then you may be able to clear them gradually. I realise some will be as urgent as another, and there will be more problems in the future, because unfortunately that's life, so when that happens it IS worth calling companies or other relevant people and telling them as it is - you have problems, you need more time. If you are in the UK, the CAB help in many areas, not just talking, but actually taking on some of peoples problems, especially financial, a doctor may help or refer you to a relevant person if they are more personal and emotional. And lastly, to get yourself into resolving problems, be in control - make your own problem up, and what I mean by that is to invent a simple one that you can fix quickly such as if you don't know the longest word in the English dictionary, make that your own problem, and investigate the same day online, and when you've found out, the problem is fixed. It may sound bizarre but it gets you into the mood for fixing what is surrounding you already. I hope this helps, its so nice you give your best wishes too. Maybe solving other people's problems is your real personal forte? Good luck with anything and everything. Bruce.
Excellent channel and excellent documentary. Thanks so much for creating this film. I myself have OCPD and there are some overlapping symptoms. I'm looking for collaborators on mental health video projects if you're at all interested in exploring the idea. Thanks again.
Brilliant! I had OCD growing up (mostly from age 12 to around 20). This was in the 80's & 90's, when I found it really hard to talk about it, and there was no real way (that I knew of) to hear about other people who suffered from it. It's sad to hear all these stories, but at the same time fantastic to see all the brave (mostly young) people sharing their stories. You're all great! This is especially valuable now, during the covid era, when the mix if isolation & viruses probably can make people sink deeper into OCD.
I remember our Skype call. Really good film! A big shout out I feel should also be mentioned to those who spent time worrying about their Skype call and doing the interview who weren't lucky enough to be included in the film, including me :) x
Hi Alex, thank you for your feedback. I totally agree, I am very thankful to everyone who contributed towards the film and spoke with me. I apologise that I couldn't include everyone within the film. Thank you for agreeing to the Skype chat :) Claire x
Thank you so much for producing this documentary! I hope this serious condition can finally get some accurate awareness because of the courage that you had to produce it. I am really curious as to how many people who have OCD were considerably healthier after watching it? It is almost like the societies view and misrepresentation of the condition are in part responsible for many of the symptoms. I have an adult daughter with OCD. She is very high functioning, however I think she just does a very courageous job of covering it up. When the time is right I will share this with her and I trust this film will be incredibly healing for her.
Ann Whelan I’m the messiest person ever and it annoys me when ppl say I’m so ocd just because they color coded chairs. The truth is that it takes at least an hour a day. Compulsions r bad but intrusive thoughts makes me wanna kill myself sometime. Graphic horrible images passes by and I even resorted to choking my self and a bit of self harm. I also tried to drown myself sometimes too. My thoughts make me putt knives to my wrist and think of suicide. I’m happy but not at the same time. OCD is miserable
My fellow OCD sufferers. I have had it for 40 years. I understand you. The living hell. The unending mental torture. The life destruction. I understand you. Unfortunately life teaches us that in some ways we cannot understand others unless we suffer from their disabilities or mental issues. It is not understood except by doctors or other sufferers . Let us support and empathize with each other. The road through Earthly hell is a path many of us have walked. Our mental strength and determination exceeds those of mere mortals. Mere mortals.
Thanks for making a documentary on OCD I have OCD for more than 8 years and watching videos on RUclips related to OCD gives me a new hope that one day I could live a normal OCD free life.
Would recommend The Man Who Couldn't Stop, David Adam, for this kind of thing. I have an extreme form, which is recognizable, and involves the way I cross roads, walk on roads, become abusive etc. I could deal with most of my compulsions, but also have to negotiate the reactions in the good old Thames Valley area. Personally prefer the abuse to the condescending attitudes of "well meaning" people who have "discovered" mental health and feel "enlightened." Anyway, excellent doc on the subject
I hate my OCD I call the intrusive thoughts Cartmen (south park) and it gets worse when people I care about get sick or many people die and I think "it's my fault I'm doing something wrong so many people are dying and I have to find out what I Am doing wrong" yeah sounds ridiculous I hate that it's hard to tell myself no it's not my fault this is life
For me, my environment must be calm and I must be in control, otherwise it feels as though my world and my life's out of total control. Only other OCD sufferers will completely understand what I'm saying here. It really is that personal & can only be tapped into by shared experiences.
The intrusive thoughts are debilitating. I thought it was to do with cleaning. I can't get on with life if things are not clean and organised but I can't keep things tidy and that cripples me. I feel I don't deserve anything good unless I get organised and tidy up. Racing thoughts and not wanting to come in contact with people. Everything looks dirty. Even though people say they can't see the dirt. Is this a form of ocd?
I think my OCD has got worse since living away from home. I find silly things like having ppl over as a huge stress and I panic. I'll be fretting about dust particles..for example. Sounds really pathetic doesn't it. There are many aspects of my daily life I try to normalise best I can. I've a fear of corners. Example.. Down the side of a sofa or corner of the bed. The thought make me feel sick.i have this thing in my mind if my hand goes down the corner then itl get stuck and touch dirt, crumbs... crumbs or sand like particles in bed is weird.i have to cover all seat corners do I can't see them. I can't even sit in a corner. On the sand or particles thing.. I will check the bed every night. And it's immaculate.. This is something I used to make my parents do since I was a kid. Check the bed for sand and particles. If I'm wearing socks in bed, and I need to go downstairs I have to wear slippers to. Then I don't get particles in my socks. I'll rub my feet together over the edge of the bed to ensure no particles are attached to my socks before I get in the bed.
I managed to get the whole spectrum of ocd...germs, cleaning, intrusive thought...the biggest being that I had an urge to jump out of a moving vehicle. Ah also the fear of something happening to my children when they were young. I was diagnosed at 28...of course after a severe breakdown. They say it’s been there way before 28, most likely in my childhood. Ten years after this diagnosis I was diagnosed with bi polar 1. It’s a struggle people can’t understand unless they live it. My psychiatrist has helped me immensely but it’s still always there hovering..waiting to drive me around the bend. #Survivor
Hearing what all these people think OCD is made me so sad. It’s one of the most debilitating psychological disorder is known to man next to schizophrenia and severe autism. When you combine OCD with all of the other disabilities and disorders that people tend to have, it can become one of the most majorly debilitating parts of your diagnosis. OCD takes over your whole life. Things you never even thought had anything to do with. It turned out to be completely because of it. One of the guys in the video said everybody has it. That’s just straight nonsense. Because he thinks that means you’re a clean freak. That’s when I started to cry.
I hate OCD...I bet I can find someone to teach me guitar in half a day, how much is that...20 bucks a lesson 30 dollars...who is talking about mental health
sometimes if something hit my skin, example i rubbed my skin accidentally in a wall or something i want to rubbed it back again, like swipping on my smartphone's screen downward i fell i need to do it upward too to balance, and sometimes i do things twice because i feel unsafe if i dont. but im not really that irritated on some little mess or bacteria is that a OCD?
I have serve ocd about asbestos I hate ocd its ruined my life the way to get better is stop all compulsion s easy said done I hate ocd .people don't get it unless u have it .anyone got to recovery on this video anyone was the secret to get to recovery
This was published on an exceptional date: 4 + 2017 = 5, if February the 2nd month is included it equals 7. Perfect, unless those numbers are added 2gether. Get it?
@@samuelsnell9474 yeah you will always have this but it can be completely manageable after recovery. It will comeback at stressful moments in life but you can recover faster and faster each time
I wanted to see on the comments about sexual ocd and how it makes you doubt ypur integrity. You don't want to have sexual thpights abpig all people and things though you know they are not urges pr real and you repeat them to make sure you're not aroused by them and you' are not but you need to check over and over again.
I hate my OCD, it has debilitated me, and no one understands. Thank you for making this
Joseph Koester ugh yesss and when that man said everyone has it I was like ahhhhh
Same here
I'm struggling to the point of almost wanting to kill myself, not because I want to die, but because I just want my mind to STOP!
"If you live with OCD, it's likely that you wake up feeling guilty and spend your day investigating yourself for the crime...The OCD threatens you with severe punishment, the severest of all: the idea that your feelings signify who you are, that guilt means you are a criminal, and that fear means you will be annihilated. The OCD says that these feelings are problems and that you must fix them or suffer."
- Jon Hershfield and Tom Corboy
(OCD just wants one thing from us: that we view our intrusive thoughts as real problems and respond to them as if they are real problems.)
It is not what we think, it's how we think!
A really enlightening documentary. I came away thinking that OCD sufferers are some of the most mentally tough people on the planet.
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when that lad @ 0:49 with the glasses said "so everyone's got it I think" you can see the Kill Bill Sirens go off in her head
Swear to god, I wanted to punch him a little. 😂
I have severe obsessive thoughts man I’m crying listening to this , my life has been completely turned upside down and it’s nice listening to others with the same problem
i deeply hear you!!! i also have obsessive and intrusive thoughts so painfully...i have been finding some relief through listening to "the ocd stories" here on youtube, i recently listened to shannon shy, shala nicely, dr. steven phillipson's 2nd interview...there are sooo many good and encouraging, inspiring interviews on there. also i have been reading lots of books on people who are HEALING and LIVING THEIR LIVES with ocd to keep myself encouraged. also, facing core fears with therapeutic help seems to be some of the core of the ocd, for me. i just read "leaving the ocd circus"...i liked that one a lot. oh yeah, i also go to OCA (obsessive compulsive anonymous) and that is so helpful to be with those who deeply get the agony of this and who are FINDING THEIR WAY THROUGH! i have read and heard enough now and with some experiences of relief to know that things really and truly can get better. i sincerely hope you are finding the support that you need to live the good and decent life you deserve. sincerely, sasha
I have serve ocd are u in recovery
Are u in recovery if not stop all compulsion s u get better mental and physical ones
Me too. ❤
BBC should hire you. That was a top notch documentary ! Very grateful to have found your video. Im here to understand my recently diagnosed son. Thanks so much !
I love this film. I show it to my psychology students every year now. It's so important that they see beyond the diagnosis, and really get to understand what it's like to live with the distress of OCD day to day
This is really interesting & for me, very relatable, so much so, that my heart goes out to each person with OCD that took part in this documentary.
As someone with severe OCD, I want everyone who doesn't understand to know & to appreciate, that I didn't "choose" to be this way, I just "am".
I know it's something within my brain & it's seemingly weird power over me & over every thought that I have.
I feel that if I don't do what my mind tells me to do, to protect myself in various ways, then something bad will happen to me or to someone I care about & love. I feel I must do what I have to do, even if it takes me forever, which it so often does & even if it gets me into trouble via poor time management.
My OCD takes up so much of my day, my time & my energy.
I really am quite sick of it & I want to make some serious & positive changes going forward, otherwise I know, that I won't live the best quality of life that I potentially could.
My time management has been greatly affected because of my OCD & most of my nearest & dearest wouldn't have a clue what's going on & I've often thought, that not even those with OCD in my family would fully understand "my" form of OCD.
It is a serious and repetitive ritual and if my train of thought is interrupted, I feel doubly or triply troubled and stressed & then, I can take even longer to get things done & my mood may also change from calm to irrational and I become overly sensitive and touchy.
Interestingly however, when I must work, my OCD is @ it's lowest & weakest point, albeit, it's always present, akin to being on "standby".
When I have structure in my life & when I have genuine/known responsibility, I do quite well, if not very well, but @ other times, I'm very up & down OCD wise.
OCD although ritualistic, doesn't always have to be in 100% exact order for me, or indeed for everyone.
OCD does vary from person to person, so too, their personal OCD patterns & rituals surrounding those patterns. No two people are exactly the same in this instance.
I know I had some really stressful times growing up & I believe this may have been an early trigger factor, but I also think it's more so hereditary within my family, as I've observed a few other family members who've also got varying forms of OCD.
IMPO, I think it's really sad, when others poke fun, make a mockery of, tease, taunt, etc;.
IMPO, I think they do this, because they have wee to no idea, as to how serious OCD can be & is for it's personal sufferers. It's so easy to laugh off or laugh @, what we do not fully understand.
What I can say is this. If anyone that doesn't have OCD, did suffer from OCD, then they'd never utter anything negative regarding OCD, because @ that moment, they'd know the exact feeling & they'd come to understand what living with OCD is like.
I've lived with OCD most of my life, but with current treatment & some personal support & encouragement, I've already made some positive progress, but although it's early days yet, I still have a long ways to go.
I do hope that through watching such documentaries & because of more discussion pertaining to OCD & general mental health issues, that more & more people with OCD, will come forward & talk about their personal experiences. Then hopefully, they'll go & talk with their GP & ask for help, because there is help/support out there, but all we have to do, is to make the first move and seek that help.
Thanks for sharing this very valuable documentary with the world.
I have ocd and its constantly checking something until you feel satisfied you don't need to check again that is OCD.
Very down-to-earth with the condition. Nicely done.
I developed OCD when I was 5, and was diagnosed when I was 7 or 8, can't recall which. But I do know that having OCD as a child was pure hell to me. I referred to the OCD as the Numbers--- the Numbers would count in my head all the time: 1 2 3 4, 1 2 3 4, and so-on. I had an obsession with rhythm and balance--- equal measures of sound in both ears, and if I perceived one ear as not receiving enough of the sound, I would attempt to make the sound until balance was achieved. Things like clocks drove me crazy because they never stopped ticking and I would be turning my head constantly to keep the balance.
And it drove me nuts.
I also had a form of harm OCD--- thinking that if I do or don't do particular things, I'll be taken away by monsters or creatures, or I'll die, or my pets will die, or something like that. It kept me from saying certain words I perceived as "wrong" or I'd be punished (which really affected me during school because I'd refuse to read things out loud if I thought they were wrong--- and I would be punished by parents and teachers when I refused to say the words so it was a lose-lose situation), I had to run past the bathroom next to my bedroom and not look inside it because something would come and drag me down the toilet, I had to have my entire body and head under the covers when the cassette player stopped the tape because the monsters would come out if I didn't, and so-on.
OCD even controlled how I drew my characters. I had a character who had three hair spikes but the OCD soon started to dominate how I drew him--- making me draw him with four hair spikes even though he was supposed to have three. This was really the most frustrating part for me. Up until then my art was the one part of my life I had full control of and now the Numbers were taking control of it.
It calmed down some when I was 9, then kicked back up intensely for a brief time when I was 10. I felt like I had to shout everything I said, getting louder and louder. And of course my mom was not going to put up with that, and she told me to contain it. It was hard at first but I finally just realized that I could clamp my jaws shut and say absolutely nothing. My OCD was screaming at me and I ignored it. And the next day I no longer had the urge to shout.
Music was also a huge factor in learning to can the OCD. I discovered during my calm period that if I listened to the radio 24-7 the thoughts would stop because I could not only focus on the music, but my rhythm obsession went away as well because I could hear the music instead of all the other little sounds around me. And soon after my last burst of shouty OCD, I started listening to a lot of the type of music I'm still into today, and it still helps contain the obsessive thoughts I get. They're just gone when I listen to music.
I do still get OCD thoughts. Silly things, like if I drink the last bit of my drink I'll die, or if I pet my cat at the moment my cat will get sick and die. Sometimes it's more seriously intrusive, like the time when my OCD was trying to convince me that there was a creature looking at me from some direction and if I look in that direction indicated in a flash image, it would come for me. In these situations I either stand there and let it dissipate or do the exact opposite. I refuse to let my life be ruled by irrational fear that my OCD provides. And as a result, I've been free of controlling, debilitating OCD for ten years now. For which I'm grateful, very grateful.
are you fine now?
I remember getting excited about this doc ages ago when I first saw the trailer. You've done a fantastic job with this! As someone with OCD I am happy there are people who are bringing awareness of the disorder to the world. There was nothing like this I knew of back in the late 90s when I first began suffering and had there been maybe I wouldn't have gone through so much before trying to get help. Great documentary!
Thank you so much for your really positive feedback Michael really appreciate it :) Claire x
Person at 16:30. That is depersonalization/ocd. I had derealization for 2 months-3 ish months and it was hell on hearth. It’s the one thing I would NEVER want to see my worst enemy go through. It was the most painful debilitating anxiety I have had in my 15 year old life. Imagine that the only thing you think about is if you are real and if anything you’re seeing is real. It got to the point where I questioned if pleasure from food was real or if I wasn’t existing at all. I prayed hard as frick, and I was healed gradually, and I am so grateful. Praise the Lord above.🙏🙏🙏 I also have GAD and OCD
this documentary has changed my life. I knew I had some sort of problem but never thought it could be O.C.D .
thank you, I will be seeking help because of this film.
It really annoys me when people think its about just hand washing they know nothing about the intrusive thoughts checking things over and over again in your head saying things over and over again in your mind
No one in the world knows everything about everything. IMO the fact that some people bothered to find out SOMETHING about OCD is a good start, rather than the demon you think it is. Its really up to you to inform them further.
Thank you so much for making a documentary because I actually have OCD and people just think that it's about being clean and that's not true at all. Last year when I was 12 years old I was diagnosed with OCD, Tourette's syndrome, Asperger's syndrome, epilepsy, anxiety and depression. When I went to a hospital to do some blood test they thought that I was dangerous to myself and people around me so I was sent me to a mental hospital. The worst part about the mental hospital is that I'm deaf but everybody there was hearing and they had no idea how to sign so I had to have an interpreter which really sucked. My therapist has been working as a therapist for 27 years and she has never seen anybody that has such severe OCD as me ( That's how bad my OCD is)But I go to therapy 3 hours a day everyday and now my OCD is a little bit better but it is still extremely severe. I just wanted to thank you because people without OCD complain that they have OCD because they wash there hands after going to the bathroom or they like things to be organized which is not OCD at all but because of you many more people understand what OCD actually is and they know have an understanding about we're going through and I just want to thank you for that. 💙💗💚💖💜💝
Thankyou so much! I have recently found out I have OCD and am seeing a CBT therapist. Watching this film has been so liberating for me! Thankyou so much! It's so comforting to find out I'm not alone and there are others who understand and have been through the same thing as me. Hearing other people's stories just makes me feel like a person again and not isolated. This film has lifted a lot of the shame and embarrassment I felt from my OCD. I can't explain how awe-struck and impressed I am by you and the people in this video who have been so brave to tell their stories. I'm sure you've helped so many OCD sufferers. Thankyou.
Yes, we can't get out of our head, once when I sought help a nurse didn't understand, she told me to say to myself, this to shall pass, she was suggesting ways to stop worrying, I told her that's the point, I can't, I overthink everything, I have to go over and over in my head that it's o.k. to leave apt so I can pay bills or shop, even shopping sometimes can be depressing, but there are days where I feel safe and confident
This is absolutely an excellent film! I feel so sorry for everyone who has OCD. I have it too. It’s so hard and devastating. Thank you for making this film.
Thank you so much for this. Once, I thought I was alone with 'this'.
Thank you so much for this video. I identify so much with the stories. Thank God it is being aired so that people can understand how crippling it is to suffer with this horrible disorder. I have had ocd for over 40 years and it has ruined my life. All my love to everyone involved in the video.
Thank you for being bold and making this video. I struggle with OCD, ADHD and Schizophrenia. It is a constant ongoing battle. Thankfully, I have the right medication now that has minimized those thoughts, but it is still there. As you said, talking about it really helps so I knew I had to mention my condition. I want to help others in the future that are going through the same thing as me so it is good to hear that others feel the same way.
Hello I too was diagnosed with OCD at 10. Schizophrenia at 21. What medicine do u take? Does it help?
@@ASMR-XI-ZUI Everyone responds to meds differently. But I take Olanzipine 8.75 mg for Schizophrenia, Certraline 100 mg for the depression that the Olanzipine causes, and Guanficine 2 mg for ADHD and blood pressure. Very Important to see a licensed Psychiatrist or the like though. I see a nurse practitioner.
Claire, thank you so much for this documentary. It meant so much to see everyone included in this film and know that I'm not alone dealing with my form of OCD. It's been a struggle, between the good and bad days, and I'm so thankful to have come across your production. It's hard to deal with this by yourself, and knowing there is a community out there to offer help and support is a way to take your life back. Thanks again
This is amazing. So comforting to see other people going through what I go through and that OCD doesn't always look like obsessive counting etc.
Thank you for this film. It was a great work. I am from a spanish speaking country and I have suffered from OCD since I was a child. I almost came to tears listening the people suffering like I do. It is true OCD is a non-discrimitating illness, that affects people regardless of age, gender, culture or nationality.
Hello Claire. I would like to tell you a huge thank you for your documentary. It's one of the most important and interesting that I'have ever watched, as it shows real people suffering OCD, with their own testimony, that give a very soft and human light on OCD. This kind of light is very important for people suffering OCD, as they need softness and reinsurrance. The home-made way you did it (and very professionnal in the same time) get people wathing a real proximity with interviewed people. Your documentery brings much more human warmth than other documentaries and videos, and that's people suffering OCD need. I make a lot of researches on the Internet about OCD, especially in french language, unfortunatly there are much less contents in french. I'm happy to speak a bit english, that allows me to discover your video :) I actually try to find ways to express OCD, and your work is very inspiring. A huge thank you! Léo
Thank you SO much for this!!! Thank you for opening up yourself and helping to end the stigma and misconceptions of this illness!
Thats what kills me about ocd. You know what you're doing makes no sense, but you still have to follow the ritual. For me personally its checking, having stuff to be in odd numbers......we could go on and on and on😏😏😏
Im very proud of you and how the documentary turned out! It's making me want to follow through with making a documentary of my own!
please do!
Thanks for doing this documentary it helps many of us with OCD.
I have type O. Sick of people minimising it. I have compulsive behaviours, but rarely and they come on during times of stress. :(
Wow! Thank you so much for this dokumentarisk! Such a wonderful overview and insight to what OCD can be for different people.🙏🌸
It's like you want to be in control of yourself but you can't but you helplessly to things that help relieve the anxiety for a short time. You are afraid of the things you can't control in yourself and in your life. (I have a bump on my head that causes me great anxiety) the dr says it's fine, but I don't. I feel that I'm going to die from it. The anxiety from it is like one moment I'm at a 1 skyrocket up to 9 in seconds. The dread of death is paralyzing. You actually think you are going to die. And the guilt is overwhelming even though I have nothing to feel guilty about. So I go through my life to figure out what have I done wrong to make myself feel so guilty. I end up feeling very unsafe and not in control of my own self or life. It's horrible.
Absolutely, Clara, me too: fear of death. OCD is a life destroyer and paradoxically you feel you want to die to escape the constant hell.
@@gilessmedley619 isn't that weird? You are afraid of dying so you want to die..a paradox.. oy.. I feel that and I think it's so stupid.
I don't think I have OCD. My problem is I am always trying to avoid any problems that need attention. I worry, panic, get very depressed and lose all desire to live anymore.
I wish everyone who is suffering in any way, that they find relief, help and peace.
It may be that you have left so many problems to be fixed, due to big panic and anxiety, that they have built up so much that the problems have accumulated to one massive lump. If so, if you could try to deal with one problem at a time, say for a week, doing a part of it each day - but picking one day off so your whole week is not about the problem, then you may be able to clear them gradually. I realise some will be as urgent as another, and there will be more problems in the future, because unfortunately that's life, so when that happens it IS worth calling companies or other relevant people and telling them as it is - you have problems, you need more time. If you are in the UK, the CAB help in many areas, not just talking, but actually taking on some of peoples problems, especially financial, a doctor may help or refer you to a relevant person if they are more personal and emotional. And lastly, to get yourself into resolving problems, be in control - make your own problem up, and what I mean by that is to invent a simple one that you can fix quickly such as if you don't know the longest word in the English dictionary, make that your own problem, and investigate the same day online, and when you've found out, the problem is fixed. It may sound bizarre but it gets you into the mood for fixing what is surrounding you already. I hope this helps, its so nice you give your best wishes too. Maybe solving other people's problems is your real personal forte? Good luck with anything and everything. Bruce.
Cameron, realize it's been 3 years but want to say It seems you have a type of o.c.d. bless you and wish you well
Excellent channel and excellent documentary. Thanks so much for creating this film. I myself have OCPD and there are some overlapping symptoms. I'm looking for collaborators on mental health video projects if you're at all interested in exploring the idea. Thanks again.
Brilliant! I had OCD growing up (mostly from age 12 to around 20). This was in the 80's & 90's, when I found it really hard to talk about it, and there was no real way (that I knew of) to hear about other people who suffered from it.
It's sad to hear all these stories, but at the same time fantastic to see all the brave (mostly young) people sharing their stories. You're all great!
This is especially valuable now, during the covid era, when the mix if isolation & viruses probably can make people sink deeper into OCD.
Fantastic, well produced film. Definitely puts OCD in perspective. Thank you.
Well done on making such fantastic film. Emily's story broke my heart and I am so happy she is doing much better. Helen xx
I remember our Skype call. Really good film! A big shout out I feel should also be mentioned to those who spent time worrying about their Skype call and doing the interview who weren't lucky enough to be included in the film, including me :) x
Hi Alex, thank you for your feedback. I totally agree, I am very thankful to everyone who contributed towards the film and spoke with me. I apologise that I couldn't include everyone within the film. Thank you for agreeing to the Skype chat :) Claire x
No worries at all. Really good film and best of luck for the future. x
Thank you really appreciate it. x
Excellent documentary, especially emphasizing the different types of OCD affecting different people.
Thank you so much for producing this documentary! I hope this serious condition can finally get some accurate awareness because of the courage that you had to produce it. I am really curious as to how many people who have OCD were considerably healthier after watching it? It is almost like the societies view and misrepresentation of the condition are in part responsible for many of the symptoms. I have an adult daughter with OCD. She is very high functioning, however I think she just does a very courageous job of covering it up. When the time is right I will share this with her and I trust this film will be incredibly healing for her.
Ann Whelan I’m the messiest person ever and it annoys me when ppl say I’m so ocd just because they color coded chairs. The truth is that it takes at least an hour a day. Compulsions r bad but intrusive thoughts makes me wanna kill myself sometime. Graphic horrible images passes by and I even resorted to choking my self and a bit of self harm. I also tried to drown myself sometimes too. My thoughts make me putt knives to my wrist and think of suicide. I’m happy but not at the same time. OCD is miserable
Mental rituals until it "feels right" Exactly!
I get it ☺.
Thank you for making this! :)
My fellow OCD sufferers. I have had it for 40 years. I understand you. The living hell. The unending mental torture. The life destruction. I understand you. Unfortunately life teaches us that in some ways we cannot understand others unless we suffer from their disabilities or mental issues. It is not understood except by doctors or other sufferers . Let us support and empathize with each other. The road through Earthly hell is a path many of us have walked. Our mental strength and determination exceeds those of mere mortals. Mere mortals.
This is phenomenal... thank you xxx
Thanks for making a documentary on OCD I have OCD for more than 8 years and watching videos on RUclips related to OCD gives me a new hope that one day I could live a normal OCD free life.
Great job, Claire! Congratulations! :-)
awesome! I remember when we first chatted about this. watching it now!
The best documentary on OCD I've ever seen. Thank you so so much for this!
This was so spot on for me. Excellent documentary, thank you. 🙏🏻
Excellent documentary much of which I could relate to. Thank you for pointing out that hand washing is NOT the definition of OCD.
Would recommend The Man Who Couldn't Stop, David Adam, for this kind of thing. I have an extreme form, which is recognizable, and involves the way I cross roads, walk on roads, become abusive etc. I could deal with most of my compulsions, but also have to negotiate the reactions in the good old Thames Valley area. Personally prefer the abuse to the condescending attitudes of "well meaning" people who have "discovered" mental health and feel "enlightened." Anyway, excellent doc on the subject
I hate my OCD I call the intrusive thoughts Cartmen (south park) and it gets worse when people I care about get sick or many people die and I think "it's my fault I'm doing something wrong so many people are dying and I have to find out what I Am doing wrong" yeah sounds ridiculous I hate that it's hard to tell myself no it's not my fault this is life
studying mental health and this has been very educating, good job!
Excellent job Claire👍& thank you so much for this documentary .
oh my god - the public are astoundingly ignorant
For me, my environment must be calm and I must be in control, otherwise it feels as though my world and my life's out of total control.
Only other OCD sufferers will completely understand what I'm saying here.
It really is that personal & can only be tapped into by shared experiences.
I agree when the person said 'beyond repair'
Thank you ❤️
Apologies for hogging the comments but wanted to add that procrastination is a big part of o.c.d.
The intrusive thoughts are debilitating. I thought it was to do with cleaning. I can't get on with life if things are not clean and organised but I can't keep things tidy and that cripples me. I feel I don't deserve anything good unless I get organised and tidy up. Racing thoughts and not wanting to come in contact with people. Everything looks dirty. Even though people say they can't see the dirt. Is this a form of ocd?
I think my OCD has got worse since living away from home. I find silly things like having ppl over as a huge stress and I panic. I'll be fretting about dust particles..for example. Sounds really pathetic doesn't it. There are many aspects of my daily life I try to normalise best I can. I've a fear of corners. Example.. Down the side of a sofa or corner of the bed. The thought make me feel sick.i have this thing in my mind if my hand goes down the corner then itl get stuck and touch dirt, crumbs... crumbs or sand like particles in bed is weird.i have to cover all seat corners do I can't see them. I can't even sit in a corner. On the sand or particles thing.. I will check the bed every night. And it's immaculate.. This is something I used to make my parents do since I was a kid. Check the bed for sand and particles. If I'm wearing socks in bed, and I need to go downstairs I have to wear slippers to. Then I don't get particles in my socks. I'll rub my feet together over the edge of the bed to ensure no particles are attached to my socks before I get in the bed.
I do this with crumbs n corners too. Makes my knuckles sore when I do it repeatedly.
Ugh this is so true mine has nothing to do with germs or neatness ! Tapping the wall 6 times so you don’t die is not something everyone has 😂
I managed to get the whole spectrum of ocd...germs, cleaning, intrusive thought...the biggest being that I had an urge to jump out of a moving vehicle. Ah also the fear of something happening to my children when they were young. I was diagnosed at 28...of course after a severe breakdown. They say it’s been there way before 28, most likely in my childhood. Ten years after this diagnosis I was diagnosed with bi polar 1. It’s a struggle people can’t understand unless they live it. My psychiatrist has helped me immensely but it’s still always there hovering..waiting to drive me around the bend. #Survivor
Not everyone is organized with ocd. I know cause i have it. Got other stuff with ocd, but darn it i missed the organizational one😄😄😄
been livin with ocd for 12 years now ...
Hearing what all these people think OCD is made me so sad. It’s one of the most debilitating psychological disorder is known to man next to schizophrenia and severe autism. When you combine OCD with all of the other disabilities and disorders that people tend to have, it can become one of the most majorly debilitating parts of your diagnosis. OCD takes over your whole life. Things you never even thought had anything to do with. It turned out to be completely because of it. One of the guys in the video said everybody has it. That’s just straight nonsense. Because he thinks that means you’re a clean freak. That’s when I started to cry.
I’m repeating what she’s saying rn ;-;,;,
That one girl mentioned she has to rub door going in? Yes, I tap the last 2 steps when going down
I hate OCD...I bet I can find someone to teach me guitar in half a day, how much is that...20 bucks a lesson 30 dollars...who is talking about mental health
sometimes if something hit my skin, example i rubbed my skin accidentally in a wall or something i want to rubbed it back again, like swipping on my smartphone's screen downward i fell i need to do it upward too to balance, and sometimes i do things twice because i feel unsafe if i dont. but im not really that irritated on some little mess or bacteria is that a OCD?
There are tests online
I have ocd, mixed thoughts and acts.
I have serve ocd about asbestos I hate ocd its ruined my life the way to get better is stop all compulsion s easy said done I hate ocd .people don't get it unless u have it .anyone got to recovery on this video anyone was the secret to get to recovery
I have turettic ocd and its really annoying.
Plz watch " Lonely Man With Extreme OCD "
This was published on an exceptional date: 4 + 2017 = 5, if February the 2nd month is included it equals 7.
Perfect, unless those numbers are added 2gether. Get it?
It doesnt feel right...that is completely me, even with medication and therapy, damn it😏😏😏
Can OCD be cured? I'm really sad and scared abiut this.
A KL Don’t be scared. If you think you have ocd see a cognitive behavioral therapist. Cbd oil or edibles really help me combined with therapy.
@@jordancookie7864 thank you .
No ocd no cure only recovery
@@samuelsnell9474 yeah you will always have this but it can be completely manageable after recovery. It will comeback at stressful moments in life but you can recover faster and faster each time
@@jagmannenarbrand8373 how u beat it , can u come of meds
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13:28 so true
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I just wish this could be a bigger thing to people
I wanted to see on the comments about sexual ocd and how it makes you doubt ypur integrity. You don't want to have sexual thpights abpig all people and things though you know they are not urges pr real and you repeat them to make sure you're not aroused by them and you' are not but you need to check over and over again.