i feel like i might have an ed, i count all the calories and cry and hate myself when I eat foods that i shouldn't, i feel like i should tell my mom but i don't want to embarrass her, i don't wanna disappoint her
Hey last year I was in the best shape of my life! I was counting calories exercising 5 days a week and watching what I ate I lost weight felt good all too get to my goal but i promise you there were days that I went over my calories and ate way too much and also felt bad but Ik that it wasn’t going to stop me it was just bumps in the road so what ever your goal is if it’s to lose weight or gain just know it’s ok if you mess up here and there, once quarantine hit and schools closed I’ve been bench eating again gained a couple pounds back but I’m going to be back at it just know the it’s a slow and steady journey i was losing only 1 pound a week it’s sounds like a little but trust me it works I think I think you should talk to your mom nothing wrong with it :)
@@jorges3824 thanks :), i actually started feeling like this after I started working out, i just became so obsessed with the calories and i get scared at the thought of gaining weight
@@pollitopio448 you’re probably new to this that’s why I was the exact same way I was always a fat kid growing up and would always try to diet but I lost weight way too quickly after a few years I learned about macros and the right way to diet but even then when I started my journey last year around August I would constantly be weigh my foods count every single thing even if it was just a small piece of candy or even gum I’d add it to my log but those were bumps in my road whenever I over ate I felt so guilty and thought I was going no where but a few months later I was in the best shape in my life I went from a chubby kid to a guy with abs but that’s when quarantine hit and now I’m back to binge eating and gained a bit of weight again but just know that it’s ok if you don’t count every calorie and Fs don’t starve yourself I feel like you should maybe learn more about dieting first before you actually try it and try talking to someone you trust that can help you with support I wouldn’t want you to try to diet by yourself if you say that the cause of your problem
@@iamnotreal0717 its okay its gonna be fine maybe go on a walk or watch something take your mind off that and when you want to make yourself vomit again distract yourself i dont really know what to say i really which i could help :(
i definitely have an eating disorder but i don't want to tell my mom cuz i'm scared that if i get help they'll make me gain weight i really don't want that
Losing weight has opened a lot of gates of me. I feel more confident now that I have that perfect body everyone aspires for. I see signs of physical exertion due to my low calorie intake but I am not ready to change my habits because I am afraid I'd gain weight again and I'd lose all my confidence. As a chubby child throughout my teenage, I have heard a lot of things but what actually triggered something for me was when I actually lost the weight and I started to receive compliments. I know I don't have an eating disorder, not yet at least. My mom closely monitors what I eat. And I've studied about ED to actually fall for it. But I can't stop the guilt from consuming me everytime I take a bite of ice cream or sip a sweet beverage. I just cannot not see how much fat I need to lose around my thighs and stomach and arms. I don't know what is it. It's something, I'm not sure what.
It's the mindset, nothing is wrong with your body but your mind is telling you there's still places to fix. I hope you learn to genuinely love yourself and enjoy good food without being guilty about it and remember you eat to live not to look what you think others might want you to look as. ❤️
To all the persons watching this and having an ED, I know it’s difficult, but I’m proud of you, really. You are worth more than your eating disorder. It’s totally fine to take a rest day. I might not understand what you’re going through, but if you need someone to talk to, I will help as much as I can. I promise to you that you will recover, not today, maybe not tomorrow, but one day, I promise. I care about you and I love you guys, stay safe and healthy, and please stay hydrated it’s important
don't, it can end up killing you, it sucks a lot but try to reach out to someone, even if it's on the internet, trust me you'll feel better if you do what your body needs you to live well, trust me I've been through this and am now in a recovery
@@emmaann5213 tysm for being so nice, I'm glad that you understand, and that you understand my current mindset. I bet that you are an awesome human being
im 12 years old i havent eaten in 3 days and today i tried to regain my apetite my mom got mad at me and told me that i am going to get super fat so i rlly want to purge but i hate vomiting thats wats restricting me but i wont eat for the 4 day
i think your mom needs a slap with reality, you will not get fat you will get better when you try the best to feel better(i might upset people so if i do i apologize for my wording.)
Don’t do that don’t listen to your trust me once u start it’s hard to stop and it doesn’t make u happy I been striving myself for years now and I still try to eat even tho I’m afraid to get fat but don’t listen to mother just eat healthy foods and just eat junk food once a week your like balancing I hope u get better tho
You all are so beautiful and perfect! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE talk to your parents! They love you and just want to help! Eating disorders just don't "go away" on their own, you are not alone but you can't fix this on your own either. PLEASE get help! You are worth it!!!
@@chelsearunyan I am so sorry that you're feeling so isolated. I pray that God touches you and surrounds you with people who care and can help. Please talk to teachers, mentors, any adult that cares about you.
I used do that (sometimes I still do). Apparently eating when your bored is more about the oral stimulation/fixation. You could try getting chewlery. You can get a pack of it relatively cheap online and it can help with keeping you from eating just cus you're bored
Yesterday my mom realized I wasn’t eating so, she made me eat a bowl of soup. I was about to cry because I was afraid of gaining weight. I ended up not eating the soup but now my mom wants to get me vitamins. Every time I eat I feel guilty I regret it when I eat because it hurts my stomach.
Once I tried water fasting and lose a lot of weight... And now if I eat anything even low calorie food makes me feel guilty for eating.... I love how I feel light and thin when im hungry. .. If I am full I feel so depressed and makes me feel fat ... Im scared of gaining weight.. I want to eat food without feeling guilty like I used to before 😔
@@eshal_chaudhry7296 when I started I did for a week then when I noticed fast weight loss I did that again and again but bcs I starved,now I have the worst urge to binge and slowly gaining all those weight back..
Let me tell you my story: when I was at high risk of developing an eating disorder, I informed my cousin about it, but the terrible part is that he practically laughed in my face. So, of course, I didn't find it amusing and would never find it humorous, but I still 'laughed' and joked about because I just wanted him to forget what I have told him, so ever since that occurred to me, I've never discussed it ever again.
i'm sorry, but your cousin is a piece of shit for doing that to you. i hope you have/find someone else that listen's to you and doesn't laugh at serious matters like an ed :(
everytime i eat i feel so guilty. i’ll starve myself for a whole day and tell my mum i’m not hungry but then at night i’ll binge. i really want to tell my parents about this but i’m scared they’ll not believe me and think i’m being ridiculous
Thank you for saying something, that's the first step to getting help. Please talk to a trusted adult that can help you and give support. You can also call the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline at 1-800-931-2237, Monday-Thursday 11 am-9 pm, Friday 11 am-5 pm ET, and their online chat option can be located here: www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline. For 24/7 support, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255 or text the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns), text TALK to 741741.
Please don't use this video for auto diagnosed, use it to inform yourself. Contact with your doctor if you think you have a eating disorder or similar.
I’ve had moments where I felt like fainting, I wear glasses but it doesn’t help with the lack of iron deficiency so I see blurry things, it’s scary. And I’ve hallucinated seeing double (even with my glasses).
1:55 my mom just yells at me and takes away my phone and stuff whenever I don’t eat and refuse to and all that,and my dad says that he is proud of me,or that I’m “being good at self discipline” and then my brother makes fun of me for being insecure…thank you god for such a supportive family 🤩🤩🤩
I'm genuinely crying right now. You guys are so beautiful and loved! You need to take care of yourselves!! I think all body types are beautiful!! (As long as you are keeping them healthy) I think the most beautiful thing in a person is when they can see beauty in everything. The tough thing with people like that (myself included) is it's hard to see it in yourself sometimes. I haven't had an eating disorder before, I don't think, but I have helped friends who have had them before. It was hard for me to see my beloved friends not taking care of themselves. I'm the type of person to text them every day reminding them to try and eat something, and I don't complain if it's only a small snack because I don't want to pressure them. So if you know someone who might have an ED please reach out to them and let them know you care for them. And if you have an ED please talk to someone you feel close with who can help. Sometimes being a little vulnerable can go a long way and you will soon realize how many loved ones are all around you who truly care. It takes little steps to get better. So don't expect for things to change right away it can take some time to start eating regularly again. But just know that I love you, and God loves you and you are beautiful! God made you just the way he wanted! I'm praying for all of you beautiful people!
I have a few of the behaviors they’ve listed in the notebook, but whenever i try to talk my parents with it, they just say, “You don’t have ED, you just don’t eat” 😐
i don’t wanna self diagnose, but i’m always told “you always waste food” or “you bearly eat”. and idk why. i can eat snacks, but when it comes to meals i can’t finish them. 😓
I don’t want to self-diagnose but ever since fifth grade i stopped packing foods and just skipped lunches. i would always just watch my friends eat and use my phone. never had i ever checked my weight, but in seventh grade i found out i was 45kg and i wanted to remain that way. i continued skipping breakfast and lunches for 3 years. i would not eat whenever me and my friends would go out and my excuses would always be “i am full,” and now i have to count my calories intake whenever i eat because i gained a lot of weight and it is unusual from my life style before. i came in Asian family and we always have to eat rice. i am also surrounded with people who have gained a lot of weight and had surgery due to it. i always been told i would be like them because of how much i eat before. i couldn’t skipped a day without checking my weight. i always hate myself for eating too much. and would drink 3 water bottles that contains 3000 ml to make up for it. when the starting of quarantine, i eat three times a day that i am not usually used to and had no control to it. i would eat a box of cake in one seat. too much sweets almost everyday. chips. weighted 50kg. now i am back with 45kg. i don’t think i have ed bc there’s still days i eat a lot. but i just wanna punch myself after that. the bad thing is, i feel like i influence the people who’s surround me with how i eat and it feels so wrong to see them that way.
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The embarrassment one is so real. Back in November I did a 5 day water fast without knowing that it would lead me to skipping meals, not eating over the weekends, restricting a lot, counting calories, only eating an apple at school and being overall obsessed with food. My friends and parents have tried telling me several times to eat more but never really tried to sit down with me because they either A didn’t think it was that serious or B just knew that I wouldn’t accept actually discussing it. About a month ago though, when my dad and I were on a walk, he brought it up and told me that I was only getting skinnier and skinnier by the day and that if I kept going, I would eventually "lose control" and that this was the way most anorexics fell into their disease. I don’t know what happened but him telling me that made me feel so mad like it felt like he had just deeply shamed me and it made me feel so bad about myself so I simply stopped talking to him throughout the entire walk although I knew he was right. One of my best friends and I were discussing weight loss the other day and she say with this judging tone "girl what you did wasn’t a diet like you just completely stopped eating no offense" and that made me feel so bad I stopped talking for like 10 minutes. She also tells people she knows when we eat together at school "yeah [my name] is only eating a carrot today she never eats" and I always try to laugh it off and deny it but it honestly makes me feel so ashamed like I’m sorry but I don’t want people knowing? She’s been so judgemental at least from my view and she keeps rolling her eyes when I don’t eat or she always mentions the time where we were eating out and I would not order anything and take a few fries from her meal to others… I don’t know but I just hate it and I wish she understood how terrible all these actions made me feel
I know how it feels, I can relate when your dad told you about anorexia, and i can also feel the anger, because my mom and aunt talk about that every time I'm with them. I always like to eat in my room, so I can feed my trashcan.
@@emojibrillo4950 and it’s so sad because I know they only want the best for me but they’re not helping me in the right way :/ my mom often goes "you’re crazy" when I tell her I’ve eaten enough after like one meal and a snack and it always stings in a way she wouldn’t understand. I’m too sensitive when it comes to food for someone to make any negative comments on my eating habits. Also I have this new friend whom I indirectly opened up to about my eating disorder (I basically told her that I don’t like eating a lot, that I count calories and that I didn’t eat for 5 days last year) and she mocked me for it and went "girl you’re not telling me you’re anorexic or smt?" And I regretted telling her at all
I once had a similar experience not long ago not about eating disorder but about the fact that I am quiet in the class. This one guy kept saying things as a joke to me that I didn't want him to say and It made me so mad I lost control. I'm not sure If it's really the same or not but if you're deeply insecure about something, you will perceive everything relevant to that as offense to you. Like I hate it when he joke around with me in front of others and I don't want it and when it's happening it just affected me so much I lost control. English isn't my first language so it's hard to put into words to explain this accurately
@@Davidsethb i almost couldn’t tell English wasn’t your first language you’re good!! And yeah I’m pretty sure that’s a thing and also the fact that I’m really protective of my ED makes it worse. Like when people tell me to eat more and stuff I get mad because I don’t want to feel "different" in a sense. I totally get your point.
i’m twelve years old and i wouldn’t say i had an eating disorder but my eating habits got so bad that one day i only ate a few pieces of my dinner. i used to not eat breakfast, throw out my lunch at school, then throw up what i ate for dinner. this was just a few weeks ago and i’m trying to hard to get better. i’ve started eating breakfast again, i still struggle at lunch, and i barely throw up after dinner. yes i’ve gained a few pounds in the process but it’s worth it. you deserve recovery.
Trigger warning purging: I use intermittent fasting as a cover up for my lack of eating. I don't eat until 6 or 7 PM. Then stop completely within 45 minutes. If I do eat, I wait 5 minutes and purge until I almost pass out. There are weeks when I don't eat any actual food but strictly liquid (water, chocolate milk, soup with no solid bits, coffee etc.) I've not won my battle with eating disorders yet. I'm trying my best every day. This is my story.
@@LLcreamsicle I did not see this until now. Truthfully, my relationship with food is like a roller coaster. There are days when I have a fully balanced out meal (of course not including items that don't align with my diet and food allergies etc.) Other days I don't eat solid foods. My relationship with food has gotten bad very recently again. I've restricted to a liquid diet 17 days ago and I've not eaten actual food since. I do not know if this will change in the long run. I can only focus just living one day at a time. I have more to say however, I don't want to bore you.
I’m 14 and I was put in hospital 2 years ago today, since than I’ve managed to nearly fully recover and I can tell you I wouldn’t trade anorexia for a single one of the memories I’ve made, relationships I’ve built with my friends and the things I’ve been able to do ❤ Anyone reading you are beautiful and make this world way better, care for ur health and the environment! There’s just so many things to do, people to meet also, reach ur inner child’s dreams❤❤:)
I just started my first year of college and I’m already scared of developing an ED. I feel like I don’t deserve to eat, which results in me just staying in my dorm when my friends go to get meals, and when I do go out, I get tiny portions of things low calorie and feel sick after.
Thank you for saying something, that's the first step to getting help. Please talk to a trusted adult that can help you and give support. You can also call the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline at 1-800-931-2237, Monday-Thursday 11 am-9 pm, Friday 11 am-5 pm ET, and their online chat option can be located here: www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline. For 24/7 support, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255 or text the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns), text TALK to 741741.
Thank you for saying something, that's the first step to getting help. Please talk to a trusted adult that can help you and give support. You can also call the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline at 1-800-931-2237, Monday-Thursday 11 am-9 pm, Friday 11 am-5 pm ET, and their online chat option can be located here: www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline. For 24/7 support, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255 or text the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns), text TALK to 741741.
Excess exercise? Tf! I've been working out for last 1.5 hours. I thought this would help me cure this disorder but turns out , the disorder is making me do this
A year ago i was diagnosed with schizophrenia and anorexia. Stress and eating problems was controlling me . Hallucinations being a cherry on top of that . Now I am fine and cook myself healthy meals, sleep well and has made improvements due to meds and self care.
I don’t know if I have an eating disorder or not but ever since I lost weight, any weight that I gain back makes me really upset. It could be just a pound from the lunch I ate, but I feel fat she ugly and I can’t stand it. I always feel so terrible after eating and skinny hungry that I really don’t want to eat but at the same time I know I should and it’s tearing me up inside.
I think my sister has this and I don’t know what to do because I care so much about her but my mom doesn’t really seem like she is supportive and she wouldn’t bring her to the doctor and would yell
If u really wanna lose weight i suggest u to be on a cal deficit (1300-1500 cal deficit max) n don’t eat too much saturated fat (30% max) and artificial sugar (30 grams max).
It’s sad whenever they go over the list of signs and me remembering I used to do every single one daily. It is crazy that a ed can happen so fast. I remember after trying my first time (bulimia) and then seeing my weight go down on the scale. I couldn’t get enough I had drove myself into finding out I had diabetes “T1” which I hadn’t known I had. Thanks to me puking everything I ate I eventually passed out from diabetic ketoacidosis which helped me figure out I had diabetes but it didn’t help me get away from my demon that caused me to figure out I was a diabetic. I eventually got enough sense to tell my mom and I thank her all the time for not being mad and instead getting me help. I am now 3 years Ed free and doing great. I hope my story helps others get the help they need.
I’m watching this to try spot if my friend has one. She’s been skipping meals for ages and I’m really worried about her. I hope she’s ok but I want to see how many boxes I think she ticks before worrying too much.
Whenever I eat too much I felt guilty, I also count my calories intake cause I don’t wanna gain weight, rn I’m underweight and I don’t wanna self diagnose myself but I think I have ED 😭
I was pretty confident about myself until my mom pointed out that I'm fat... I stopped eating and then she said " you're perfect the way you look , don't starve yourself" and then I said " you pointed it out " and she said " you're not a child to take that to heart" ... But it was too late to explain or listen... I love the feeling when I starve myself even if I don't see any result.... Thanks my lovely mumma
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Me a skinny athletic boy in the sixth grade, 5’1 and only 76 pounds: Watches David Laid’s transformation video, does not think anything of it A year later: Sees it again Me for some reason: Time to gain 3 pounds a week
i've come up on a year since my eating got bad. i could go weeks without eating if i don't force myself. the longest i've gone is closer to 2 weeks. i only eat once every however many days because i know if i don't force at least a couple strawberries, i will ruin my body more than i already have. i didn't even mean for it to get this bad. i cant talk to anyone about it because i can't tell them the true reason why im not eating. but even now, it's gotten so bad that i just have no appetite, even when my stomach makes noises. the moment i eat i feel the biggest need to throw up. i get so nauseous, and sometimes i will. i just need it out of my body. what the heck am i supposed to do
The wrestling one is the reason I clicked on this video. My coach once told me that I should not be at 140lbs and with my height and hip size, I should be 125. This stuck with me, and I haven't eaten the same since. I never felt bad about being at 140 lbs until he told me that, and it hurts to hear, especially growing up as a chubby girl.
I'm not sure if I have ed or not but anyways here's my experience for the past 5 months. Right now I weighted 36.45kg. I KNOW I'm underweight, I KNOW I need to gain weight but for some reason I'm afraid to. Ever since I started staving myself, I just can't stop and keep updating my weight goal for exp: "wow I reached my goal! But I feel like I should lose 1 more kg in case"... Everytime I eat I would feel guilty then start crying. I am only 12 and ed are usually for teenagers so I'm not sure 😕😭
this made me cry.. honey i PROMISE u don’t need to lose any weight, please please talk to anyone u feel close with about what’s happening. and even though food might be scary u NEED it ! food is fuel that keeps u alive and well.
I go to McDonald’s, kfc and then feel guilty and promise myself I’ll cook a healthy meal, then feel too tired to cook and then go back to kfc and then tell myself it’s the last time but it’s a cycle. I know what to do tho, it’s linked to what I watch on RUclips as I’ve been watching Chris Farley a lot and he makes it seem okay to eat loads of crap but watching goggins puts me back in the right mindset
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look through the DSM diagnostic criteria for anorexia, bulimia, arfid, and ednos. it will tell you what symptoms must be present to diagnose these disorders.
I think I may have an ED but not to sure. Some days I’ll eat but only junk food,then a day later look at myself in the mirror and realize how ‘fat’ I am and feel guilty about.Even though according to others,I’m skinny. Other days I won’t be hungry at all.I crave ice 24/7 and eat ice 24/7.It’s addicting yet I get told not to so I don’t ‘harm my teeth’. I rarely eat with my family and when I do,I immediately run to my room to be by myself. I’ll feel very hungry but ignore it and not eat until 1-3 hours later. Are any of these any signs? I may not have one but I’m just double checking because I’ve been starting to worry myself.
It's kind of sad that im experiencing this at TWELVE. Its just that everybody around me seemed skinnier than me, they had a healthy relationship with food, I didnt. I wish I can love food but then keep binging, and i starved myself alot months ago and i got stomach flu 2 times. I didnt like the feeling of being full, I didnt like my clothes high waist when im full, kept the feeling of starving because i thought it was burning fat. I drank ice water cause some people said it increases metabolism, I took a bath in ice cold water even though its really cold in the morning cause they said cold showers boost metabolism, believing that if my sweat dries out on my body the fat will go in again, eating little to the point im not full, sucking in stomach and putting it on top of a pillow when full because it was big, mirror checking, working out to the point my body hurts. Im so tired but i hate how i look and i just wanted to be skinny, i also started basing if i should like things or not because of my looks. I wish i didnt eat alot : (
My friend noticed. She went through my search history because I was searching up the calories, carbs, etc inside of different foods daily, and what the normal amount of food someone my age should be eating, my BMI, how to lose weight, and some other stuff. She asked if I had anorexia, but I’m not going to self diagnose. I just said no.
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Some people think you can’t have an eating disorder when you’re “skinny”. I’m a person who was already born really skinny, and let me tell you, it’s terrible. I get bodyshamed by EVERYONE. They think just because I’m skinny it’s not body shaming. I have trouble eating and that makes everything worse. I always feel like I’m going to throw up or just fall on the ground.
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i don't know if i have an eating disorder. it's more of disorded eating. i unintentionally binge and eat so much then i feel so guilty afterwards (not often). then i try to skip meals and exercise to make up for it but it's so hard and all i feel is shame. i don't know what to do. it's not fair. i'm only 13.
Me too, then recently I discovered I overlap a lot of habits that bulimics have, obviously I'm not diagnosed and I'm aware I do not meet all the criteria however I think I have OSFED which is disordered eating - which you might too
I hate eating. it's the worst feeling, chewing, getting hungry, getting a full stomach, feeling the texture and smell of food... im terrified of it. every time i look at food i wanna throw up.
I only eat 1 thing a day, and I always feel so sick when I do. I always feel like throwing up right after I eat. Sometimes I don’t even eat all and I still feel like throwing up. I literally don’t even have the energy to do anything anymore. Every time I stand up, I feel dizzy and start getting a headache. But I force myself to exercise even with barley any energy. I really hate the way I look, and I don’t even see food the same anymore. When I look at it I feel disgusted. I used to overeat a lot especially when I was bored. But now I rlly can’t even eat a full meal without wanting to vomit, I just drink a lot of water. But sometimes I can’t even even swallow the water. Idk what to do anymore.
Thank you for saying something, that's the first step to getting help. Please talk to a trusted adult that can help you and give support. You can also call the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline at 1-800-931-2237, Monday-Thursday 11 am-9 pm, Friday 11 am-5 pm ET, and their online chat option can be located here: www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline. For 24/7 support, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255 or text the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns), text TALK to 741741.
It's a terrible thing, but whenever I'm mad at someone or mad at myself, I just don't eat so I can prove a point. What that point is? I have no idea. I just wanna forget what happened and focus on not eating, and it's slowly developing to not eating just because:(
im worried about my best friend she says she doesnt want food bc she doesnt want to get fat and i dont think shes trying to get attention i think shes is venting and my other friend doesnt notice it and im really scared for her
I'm a fourteen-year old boy, I'm almost 5'4, but I weigh about 102 lbs, and am still drastically losing weight. I know this is a terrible thing to do, I know all the dangers to anorexia and bulimia, but I think I've just lost myself and my mind, I cant stop eating and feeling guilty afterwards, and then taking 2 and a half hour long brisks, I cant stop looking at calories and nutritious facts and keeping track of foods and weights on a daily basis, and beating myself up over bloated stomachs and pressuring myself to lose the calories and weight immediately. All of this is just taking a toll on the life I have daily, and I wish I could have the feeling of just eating normally once again, I want to stop so badly but I just cant, and I dont want to console my parents in it either because I'm afraid of their reaction and I dont want to worry them.
i miss eating without feeling guilty afterwards :’)
I don't
I don’t eat so I don’t feel guilty
@@user-iw9bf5bj1j Dang.
Guilt is only useful if it impacts change, if it doesn't it's useless, and is a victim mindset. Be blessed.:)
Moderation is the key.
i tried doing “water fasting” but now i can’t eat regularly because i like the emptiness feeling
Same 😅
how long did you water fasting?
@@mara2124_ like a week i think?
@@deku3575 ok thank you! I hope you’re doing better❤️
mara2124 _ you are thinking about doing it aren't you? That's why you asked.
starving myself is just addicting.
yea i got so addicted
now I can’t even eat one spoon of anything. what have I done to myself
Oddly, yes... :(
Same. I can go all day without eating and be perfectly fine :(
😭😭
I can’t eat any food without counting the calories. I feel bad when I eat food with sugar
Yes that me I don't really like easter much because of the lost of chocolate x
Same😔
I have the same problem
Yeahhh. And I feel so guilty everytime I eat sugary food. And I also think sugar is my comfort food. Or maybe I just need a reason to beat myself up
@@saumyapandey7253 same
i feel like i might have an ed, i count all the calories and cry and hate myself when I eat foods that i shouldn't, i feel like i should tell my mom but i don't want to embarrass her, i don't wanna disappoint her
Hey last year I was in the best shape of my life! I was counting calories exercising 5 days a week and watching what I ate I lost weight felt good all too get to my goal but i promise you there were days that I went over my calories and ate way too much and also felt bad but Ik that it wasn’t going to stop me it was just bumps in the road so what ever your goal is if it’s to lose weight or gain just know it’s ok if you mess up here and there, once quarantine hit and schools closed I’ve been bench eating again gained a couple pounds back but I’m going to be back at it just know the it’s a slow and steady journey i was losing only 1 pound a week it’s sounds like a little but trust me it works I think I think you should talk to your mom nothing wrong with it :)
@@jorges3824 thanks :), i actually started feeling like this after I started working out, i just became so obsessed with the calories and i get scared at the thought of gaining weight
@@pollitopio448 you’re probably new to this that’s why I was the exact same way I was always a fat kid growing up and would always try to diet but I lost weight way too quickly after a few years I learned about macros and the right way to diet but even then when I started my journey last year around August I would constantly be weigh my foods count every single thing even if it was just a small piece of candy or even gum I’d add it to my log but those were bumps in my road whenever I over ate I felt so guilty and thought I was going no where but a few months later I was in the best shape in my life I went from a chubby kid to a guy with abs but that’s when quarantine hit and now I’m back to binge eating and gained a bit of weight again but just know that it’s ok if you don’t count every calorie and Fs don’t starve yourself I feel like you should maybe learn more about dieting first before you actually try it and try talking to someone you trust that can help you with support I wouldn’t want you to try to diet by yourself if you say that the cause of your problem
same :(
I took a bite from a sandwich and now I'm crying
I wasn't supposed to eat anything
I just ate and I know I shouldn't but I feel so guilty right now
me too
I just made myself vomit and I can’t stop crying
@@iamnotreal0717 its okay its gonna be fine maybe go on a walk or watch something take your mind off that and when you want to make yourself vomit again distract yourself i dont really know what to say i really which i could help :(
@@V_555_ thx this kinda helped
Ya I feel like throwing up but my mom would hare and yell at me
I don't want to self diagnose myself but I need help.
Yeah same...
Same...
This
Please seek help if u need it. I know it is hard but you deserve it.
same
i definitely have an eating disorder but i don't want to tell my mom cuz i'm scared that if i get help they'll make me gain weight i really don't want that
Same
Same I'm not tryna gain anymore pounds
same even tho i want to but i jst cant
Hi there! I am in a similar position. Please please tell your mother please be heathy! :) you got this sweetheart
yes they make you gain weight so i dont want anyone of my family finding out abt my ED
Losing weight has opened a lot of gates of me. I feel more confident now that I have that perfect body everyone aspires for. I see signs of physical exertion due to my low calorie intake but I am not ready to change my habits because I am afraid I'd gain weight again and I'd lose all my confidence. As a chubby child throughout my teenage, I have heard a lot of things but what actually triggered something for me was when I actually lost the weight and I started to receive compliments. I know I don't have an eating disorder, not yet at least. My mom closely monitors what I eat. And I've studied about ED to actually fall for it. But I can't stop the guilt from consuming me everytime I take a bite of ice cream or sip a sweet beverage. I just cannot not see how much fat I need to lose around my thighs and stomach and arms. I don't know what is it. It's something, I'm not sure what.
how are you now
It's the mindset, nothing is wrong with your body but your mind is telling you there's still places to fix. I hope you learn to genuinely love yourself and enjoy good food without being guilty about it and remember you eat to live not to look what you think others might want you to look as. ❤️
Orthorexia is an eating disorder that is characterized by excessive thoughts and actions centered around being healthy and physically fit
I think you need to understand aim for eating healthy not skinny
@@anticlimacticorangejuice6118 oh i get it now
To all the persons watching this and having an ED, I know it’s difficult, but I’m proud of you, really. You are worth more than your eating disorder. It’s totally fine to take a rest day. I might not understand what you’re going through, but if you need someone to talk to, I will help as much as I can. I promise to you that you will recover, not today, maybe not tomorrow, but one day, I promise. I care about you and I love you guys, stay safe and healthy, and please stay hydrated it’s important
Me tryna find ways to hide everything if you know what I mean
don't, it can end up killing you, it sucks a lot but try to reach out to someone, even if it's on the internet, trust me you'll feel better if you do what your body needs you to live well, trust me I've been through this and am now in a recovery
@@emmaann5213 tysm for being so nice, I'm glad that you understand, and that you understand my current mindset. I bet that you are an awesome human being
I feel sick everyday with headaches and drowsiness I'm so scared to eat Because I don't like my body and gaining more weight scares me
@@fijifish9643 oml saaaammmme!! I have a bunch of granola bars wrapped in tissue in the bathroom trash and the wrapped ones hiding in a box in my room
omg same bestie
im 12 years old i havent eaten in 3 days and today i tried to regain my apetite my mom got mad at me and told me that i am going to get super fat so i rlly want to purge but i hate vomiting thats wats restricting me but i wont eat for the 4 day
Please don’t do that to yourself, you’re body needs nutrients to keep going don’t listen to your mom
im 13 and i feel the same way, i feel like purging but im genuinely way too afraid to try it. i feel your pain and you're not alone, im here for you
i think your mom needs a slap with reality, you will not get fat you will get better when you try the best to feel better(i might upset people so if i do i apologize for my wording.)
You are made in the image of God no matter what anyone thinks. God loves you so much come to him please❤️
Don’t do that don’t listen to your trust me once u start it’s hard to stop and it doesn’t make u happy I been striving myself for years now and I still try to eat even tho I’m afraid to get fat but don’t listen to mother just eat healthy foods and just eat junk food once a week your like balancing I hope u get better tho
You all are so beautiful and perfect! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE talk to your parents! They love you and just want to help! Eating disorders just don't "go away" on their own, you are not alone but you can't fix this on your own either. PLEASE get help! You are worth it!!!
What if your parents are the reason you have it?
What if your parents are no here?😢 what if you don’t have much friends that you rarely see or talk too?😔
@@chelsearunyan I am so sorry that you're feeling so isolated. I pray that God touches you and surrounds you with people who care and can help. Please talk to teachers, mentors, any adult that cares about you.
Yup quarantine fucked me up now I’m eating every 20 minutes whenever I’m bored 😭😂
Same
I used do that (sometimes I still do). Apparently eating when your bored is more about the oral stimulation/fixation. You could try getting chewlery. You can get a pack of it relatively cheap online and it can help with keeping you from eating just cus you're bored
Your pretty much Goku
@@Ejaz100 I wish 😏
@@jorges3824 the sussines you have created is untouched
Yesterday my mom realized I wasn’t eating so, she made me eat a bowl of soup. I was about to cry because I was afraid of gaining weight. I ended up not eating the soup but now my mom wants to get me vitamins. Every time I eat I feel guilty I regret it when I eat because it hurts my stomach.
… im the same way i don’t what happened to me but recently I just can’t eat
When i try to eat food i cant eat all of it and i just feel like crying becuase i have no idea why i cant eat
Because I've been starving myself for so long everytime I eat food my body automatically rejects the food and I feel like throwing up
LITERALLY
Ive been experiencing this lately, do u know what ed this is?
Honestly same it began to feel like a chore for me
@@alexanderdullisear5716 omg same even my appetite has decreased a lot i can’t eat a lot anymore bc my body is accustomed to small portions
I swear I relate to gaining weight and binge eating so much. It’s how I deal with my stress, and afterwards i carry so much guilt
Who else here because they think they have an eating disorder?
Me
Yo
Me 😔✋
Me. I just feel terrible and sorry for my body because I’m hurting it.
Yup, Iv already been diagnosed with bulimia but I kinda don’t wanna stop, it’s addictive
Once I tried water fasting and lose a lot of weight... And now if I eat anything even low calorie food makes me feel guilty for eating.... I love how I feel light and thin when im hungry. .. If I am full I feel so depressed and makes me feel fat ... Im scared of gaining weight.. I want to eat food without feeling guilty like I used to before 😔
how long did you do water fasting for?
same for me, as a result i went from 110kg to 75kg in 5 or 6 months
@@eshal_chaudhry7296 when I started I did for a week then when I noticed fast weight loss I did that again and again but bcs I starved,now I have the worst urge to binge and slowly gaining all those weight back..
@@chifawx oh I see, I hope you'll be better soon
@@niaaluv_ thanks❤️ i hope u get better too
Let me tell you my story: when I was at high risk of developing an eating disorder, I informed my cousin about it, but the terrible part is that he practically laughed in my face. So, of course, I didn't find it amusing and would never find it humorous, but I still 'laughed' and joked about because I just wanted him to forget what I have told him, so ever since that occurred to me, I've never discussed it ever again.
i'm sorry, but your cousin is a piece of shit for doing that to you. i hope you have/find someone else that listen's to you and doesn't laugh at serious matters like an ed :(
everytime i eat i feel so guilty. i’ll starve myself for a whole day and tell my mum i’m not hungry but then at night i’ll binge. i really want to tell my parents about this but i’m scared they’ll not believe me and think i’m being ridiculous
Thank you for saying something, that's the first step to getting help. Please talk to a trusted adult that can help you and give support. You can also call the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline at 1-800-931-2237, Monday-Thursday 11 am-9 pm, Friday 11 am-5 pm ET, and their online chat option can be located here: www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline. For 24/7 support, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255 or text the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns), text TALK to 741741.
God I pray you give strength and guidance to everyone watching this. You are all beautiful!
Please don't use this video for auto diagnosed, use it to inform yourself. Contact with your doctor if you think you have a eating disorder or similar.
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At this point, I can't eat without making myself throw up afterward.
How are you doing now?
Same
@@nanamahalo5019 I'm okay. I've found out a lot of things we're wrong mentally. I'm fighting it, but healing non the less
@@Oscarrdeltaa so proud of you! ❤️
same
I’ve had moments where I felt like fainting, I wear glasses but it doesn’t help with the lack of iron deficiency so I see blurry things, it’s scary. And I’ve hallucinated seeing double (even with my glasses).
I know someone who has a severe eating disorder and I am positive it is one of these. This video will help alot, thank you psych club
1:55 my mom just yells at me and takes away my phone and stuff whenever I don’t eat and refuse to and all that,and my dad says that he is proud of me,or that I’m “being good at self discipline” and then my brother makes fun of me for being insecure…thank you god for such a supportive family 🤩🤩🤩
No way- :(
I'm genuinely crying right now. You guys are so beautiful and loved! You need to take care of yourselves!! I think all body types are beautiful!! (As long as you are keeping them healthy) I think the most beautiful thing in a person is when they can see beauty in everything. The tough thing with people like that (myself included) is it's hard to see it in yourself sometimes. I haven't had an eating disorder before, I don't think, but I have helped friends who have had them before. It was hard for me to see my beloved friends not taking care of themselves. I'm the type of person to text them every day reminding them to try and eat something, and I don't complain if it's only a small snack because I don't want to pressure them. So if you know someone who might have an ED please reach out to them and let them know you care for them. And if you have an ED please talk to someone you feel close with who can help. Sometimes being a little vulnerable can go a long way and you will soon realize how many loved ones are all around you who truly care. It takes little steps to get better. So don't expect for things to change right away it can take some time to start eating regularly again. But just know that I love you, and God loves you and you are beautiful! God made you just the way he wanted! I'm praying for all of you beautiful people!
I have a few of the behaviors they’ve listed in the notebook, but whenever i try to talk my parents with it, they just say, “You don’t have ED, you just don’t eat” 😐
The emptiness in my stomach after not eating for a while is so satisfying and i just can’t stop
i don’t wanna self diagnose, but i’m always told “you always waste food” or “you bearly eat”. and idk why. i can eat snacks, but when it comes to meals i can’t finish them. 😓
I don’t want to self-diagnose but ever since fifth grade i stopped packing foods and just skipped lunches. i would always just watch my friends eat and use my phone. never had i ever checked my weight, but in seventh grade i found out i was 45kg and i wanted to remain that way. i continued skipping breakfast and lunches for 3 years. i would not eat whenever me and my friends would go out and my excuses would always be “i am full,” and now i have to count my calories intake whenever i eat because i gained a lot of weight and it is unusual from my life style before.
i came in Asian family and we always have to eat rice. i am also surrounded with people who have gained a lot of weight and had surgery due to it. i always been told i would be like them because of how much i eat before. i couldn’t skipped a day without checking my weight. i always hate myself for eating too much. and would drink 3 water bottles that contains 3000 ml to make up for it.
when the starting of quarantine, i eat three times a day that i am not usually used to and had no control to it. i would eat a box of cake in one seat. too much sweets almost everyday. chips. weighted 50kg.
now i am back with 45kg.
i don’t think i have ed bc there’s still days i eat a lot. but i just wanna punch myself after that. the bad thing is, i feel like i influence the people who’s surround me with how i eat and it feels so wrong to see them that way.
Thank you for sharing your experience with us! If you are in the U.S. and need support call 1-800-273-TALK (8255 or text the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns), text TALK to 741741.
I would do the same thing and I still do I don’t eat breakfast and lunch but for dinner I would eat very little
since the 3rd quarantine my eating disorder is got even worse -
The embarrassment one is so real. Back in November I did a 5 day water fast without knowing that it would lead me to skipping meals, not eating over the weekends, restricting a lot, counting calories, only eating an apple at school and being overall obsessed with food.
My friends and parents have tried telling me several times to eat more but never really tried to sit down with me because they either A didn’t think it was that serious or B just knew that I wouldn’t accept actually discussing it.
About a month ago though, when my dad and I were on a walk, he brought it up and told me that I was only getting skinnier and skinnier by the day and that if I kept going, I would eventually "lose control" and that this was the way most anorexics fell into their disease. I don’t know what happened but him telling me that made me feel so mad like it felt like he had just deeply shamed me and it made me feel so bad about myself so I simply stopped talking to him throughout the entire walk although I knew he was right.
One of my best friends and I were discussing weight loss the other day and she say with this judging tone "girl what you did wasn’t a diet like you just completely stopped eating no offense" and that made me feel so bad I stopped talking for like 10 minutes. She also tells people she knows when we eat together at school "yeah [my name] is only eating a carrot today she never eats" and I always try to laugh it off and deny it but it honestly makes me feel so ashamed like I’m sorry but I don’t want people knowing? She’s been so judgemental at least from my view and she keeps rolling her eyes when I don’t eat or she always mentions the time where we were eating out and I would not order anything and take a few fries from her meal to others… I don’t know but I just hate it and I wish she understood how terrible all these actions made me feel
I know how it feels, I can relate when your dad told you about anorexia, and i can also feel the anger, because my mom and aunt talk about that every time I'm with them.
I always like to eat in my room, so I can feed my trashcan.
@@emojibrillo4950 and it’s so sad because I know they only want the best for me but they’re not helping me in the right way :/ my mom often goes "you’re crazy" when I tell her I’ve eaten enough after like one meal and a snack and it always stings in a way she wouldn’t understand. I’m too sensitive when it comes to food for someone to make any negative comments on my eating habits.
Also I have this new friend whom I indirectly opened up to about my eating disorder (I basically told her that I don’t like eating a lot, that I count calories and that I didn’t eat for 5 days last year) and she mocked me for it and went "girl you’re not telling me you’re anorexic or smt?" And I regretted telling her at all
I once had a similar experience not long ago not about eating disorder but about the fact that I am quiet in the class. This one guy kept saying things as a joke to me that I didn't want him to say and It made me so mad I lost control. I'm not sure If it's really the same or not but if you're deeply insecure about something, you will perceive everything relevant to that as offense to you. Like I hate it when he joke around with me in front of others and I don't want it and when it's happening it just affected me so much I lost control. English isn't my first language so it's hard to put into words to explain this accurately
You should search "The spotlight effect" it's basically covers up everything
@@Davidsethb i almost couldn’t tell English wasn’t your first language you’re good!! And yeah I’m pretty sure that’s a thing and also the fact that I’m really protective of my ED makes it worse. Like when people tell me to eat more and stuff I get mad because I don’t want to feel "different" in a sense. I totally get your point.
As soon as I’ve eaten a whole meal I feel like throwing up I feel angry because I’ve eaten and every night I want to eat less the next day
same
Same here
same
Same here
i’m twelve years old and i wouldn’t say i had an eating disorder but my eating habits got so bad that one day i only ate a few pieces of my dinner. i used to not eat breakfast, throw out my lunch at school, then throw up what i ate for dinner. this was just a few weeks ago and i’m trying to hard to get better. i’ve started eating breakfast again, i still struggle at lunch, and i barely throw up after dinner. yes i’ve gained a few pounds in the process but it’s worth it. you deserve recovery.
Trigger warning purging: I use intermittent fasting as a cover up for my lack of eating. I don't eat until 6 or 7 PM. Then stop completely within 45 minutes. If I do eat, I wait 5 minutes and purge until I almost pass out. There are weeks when I don't eat any actual food but strictly liquid (water, chocolate milk, soup with no solid bits, coffee etc.) I've not won my battle with eating disorders yet. I'm trying my best every day. This is my story.
I’m going through the exact same thing right now
That's extremely restrictive...you are depriving your body on the very things it needs to live you must stop.Be blessed.
How are you now? Are you okay?
@@LLcreamsicle I did not see this until now. Truthfully, my relationship with food is like a roller coaster. There are days when I have a fully balanced out meal (of course not including items that don't align with my diet and food allergies etc.) Other days I don't eat solid foods. My relationship with food has gotten bad very recently again. I've restricted to a liquid diet 17 days ago and I've not eaten actual food since. I do not know if this will change in the long run. I can only focus just living one day at a time. I have more to say however, I don't want to bore you.
I’m 14 and I was put in hospital 2 years ago today, since than I’ve managed to nearly fully recover and I can tell you I wouldn’t trade anorexia for a single one of the memories I’ve made, relationships I’ve built with my friends and the things I’ve been able to do ❤ Anyone reading you are beautiful and make this world way better, care for ur health and the environment! There’s just so many things to do, people to meet also, reach ur inner child’s dreams❤❤:)
I just started my first year of college and I’m already scared of developing an ED. I feel like I don’t deserve to eat, which results in me just staying in my dorm when my friends go to get meals, and when I do go out, I get tiny portions of things low calorie and feel sick after.
Thank you for saying something, that's the first step to getting help. Please talk to a trusted adult that can help you and give support. You can also call the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline at 1-800-931-2237, Monday-Thursday 11 am-9 pm, Friday 11 am-5 pm ET, and their online chat option can be located here: www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline. For 24/7 support, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255 or text the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns), text TALK to 741741.
it truly says something that i'm watching this to see signs in myself
Thank you for saying something, that's the first step to getting help. Please talk to a trusted adult that can help you and give support. You can also call the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline at 1-800-931-2237, Monday-Thursday 11 am-9 pm, Friday 11 am-5 pm ET, and their online chat option can be located here: www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline. For 24/7 support, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255 or text the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns), text TALK to 741741.
I ask my mom to make me food and then eat like 3 or 4 bites of it
I currently have three bowls of ramen noodles I didn’t eat in my room
Excess exercise?
Tf! I've been working out for last 1.5 hours.
I thought this would help me cure this disorder but turns out , the disorder is making me do this
I struggled eating I hated eating idc what people think about me. I hate it I want to eat but I struggle to eat a meal a day I get so full so quick.
That’s meee
I feel the same way!!!!!
M too
I'm looking at my self whenever i eat sugary foods and always overthink that I'm too fat and let my self starve allday to avoid gaining weight
every body is beautifull
We agree!
A year ago i was diagnosed with schizophrenia and anorexia. Stress and eating problems was controlling me . Hallucinations being a cherry on top of that .
Now I am fine and cook myself healthy meals, sleep well and has made improvements due to meds and self care.
I binge eat and then starve myself. Its like an infinite loop 😞
I starved myself for a whole day and finally, an hour after eating, someone told me I should watch my weight. I want to throw up.
I don’t know if I have an eating disorder or not but ever since I lost weight, any weight that I gain back makes me really upset. It could be just a pound from the lunch I ate, but I feel fat she ugly and I can’t stand it. I always feel so terrible after eating and skinny hungry that I really don’t want to eat but at the same time I know I should and it’s tearing me up inside.
As someone who battled Anorexia and who was in a psychiatric hospital. It does get better.
I’m scared to go to a psychiatric hospital but I feel like that’s where things are headed
I think my sister has this and I don’t know what to do because I care so much about her but my mom doesn’t really seem like she is supportive and she wouldn’t bring her to the doctor and would yell
try talking to your sister! don’t wait until it gets really bad
Reading these comments make me feel like I’m not alone
If u really wanna lose weight i suggest u to be on a cal deficit (1300-1500 cal deficit max) n don’t eat too much saturated fat (30% max) and artificial sugar (30 grams max).
It's hard feeling like im actually worth something
I hope you've gotten better. Take care, friend.
It’s sad whenever they go over the list of signs and me remembering I used to do every single one daily. It is crazy that a ed can happen so fast. I remember after trying my first time (bulimia) and then seeing my weight go down on the scale. I couldn’t get enough I had drove myself into finding out I had diabetes “T1” which I hadn’t known I had. Thanks to me puking everything I ate I eventually passed out from diabetic ketoacidosis which helped me figure out I had diabetes but it didn’t help me get away from my demon that caused me to figure out I was a diabetic. I eventually got enough sense to tell my mom and I thank her all the time for not being mad and instead getting me help. I am now 3 years Ed free and doing great. I hope my story helps others get the help they need.
Thank you for sharing your lived experience. By sharing what you’ve gone through, others know that they aren’t alone and that recovery is possible.
I’m watching this to try spot if my friend has one. She’s been skipping meals for ages and I’m really worried about her. I hope she’s ok but I want to see how many boxes I think she ticks before worrying too much.
One morning I thought about skipping breakfast for once, but now skipping meals is an addiction
Whenever I eat too much I felt guilty, I also count my calories intake cause I don’t wanna gain weight, rn I’m underweight and I don’t wanna self diagnose myself but I think I have ED 😭
I used to starve myself and throw up alot. Now, instead of doing that, i eat fruits, vegetables, and drink alot of water!
yup. i knew it.
feeling hungry is what keeps me going...
0:13 This is kinda off topic but the woman on the left looks like Dolores from Encanto!
I got obsessed with not treating myself as i thought this was strengthening my ability to discipline myself. But now I dont feel like eating much.
Everybody fat shames me because i have binge eating disorder
you are beautiful never forget these words.
I was pretty confident about myself until my mom pointed out that I'm fat... I stopped eating and then she said " you're perfect the way you look , don't starve yourself" and then I said " you pointed it out " and she said " you're not a child to take that to heart" ... But it was too late to explain or listen... I love the feeling when I starve myself even if I don't see any result.... Thanks my lovely mumma
Thank you for saying something, that's the first step to getting help. Please talk to a trusted adult that can help you and give support. You can also call the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline at 1-800-931-2237, Monday-Thursday 11 am-9 pm, Friday 11 am-5 pm ET, and their online chat option can be located here: www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline. For 24/7 support, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255 or text the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns), text TALK to 741741.
im tired of having zero representation and being invalidated. that’s probably why it took my forever to find out i had a binge Ed.
I was really hungry and hadn’t eaten for 7 hours, and after 3 pieces of bread I was full.
Me a skinny athletic boy in the sixth grade, 5’1 and only 76 pounds: Watches David Laid’s transformation video, does not think anything of it
A year later: Sees it again
Me for some reason: Time to gain 3 pounds a week
Kinda love that it's the people with an ED watching this
What is the difference between a “feeding” and an “eating” disorder? If nothing, perhaps consider choosing one or the other term.
i've come up on a year since my eating got bad. i could go weeks without eating if i don't force myself. the longest i've gone is closer to 2 weeks. i only eat once every however many days because i know if i don't force at least a couple strawberries, i will ruin my body more than i already have. i didn't even mean for it to get this bad. i cant talk to anyone about it because i can't tell them the true reason why im not eating. but even now, it's gotten so bad that i just have no appetite, even when my stomach makes noises. the moment i eat i feel the biggest need to throw up. i get so nauseous, and sometimes i will. i just need it out of my body. what the heck am i supposed to do
I just can’t eat, I get 3 bites and I’m done
same :/
same ..
The wrestling one is the reason I clicked on this video. My coach once told me that I should not be at 140lbs and with my height and hip size, I should be 125. This stuck with me, and I haven't eaten the same since. I never felt bad about being at 140 lbs until he told me that, and it hurts to hear, especially growing up as a chubby girl.
I'm not sure if I have ed or not but anyways here's my experience for the past 5 months.
Right now I weighted 36.45kg. I KNOW I'm underweight, I KNOW I need to gain weight but for some reason I'm afraid to. Ever since I started staving myself, I just can't stop and keep updating my weight goal for exp: "wow I reached my goal! But I feel like I should lose 1 more kg in case"... Everytime I eat I would feel guilty then start crying. I am only 12 and ed are usually for teenagers so I'm not sure 😕😭
this made me cry.. honey i PROMISE u don’t need to lose any weight, please please talk to anyone u feel close with about what’s happening. and even though food might be scary u NEED it ! food is fuel that keeps u alive and well.
i’m watching these videos to see what i can do for my parents not to notice
I have a bad eating disorder ... idk what to do
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Cheak with a therapist maybe , or go to a doc and tell your parents , hope it helps ?? ❤️❤️
I go to McDonald’s, kfc and then feel guilty and promise myself I’ll cook a healthy meal, then feel too tired to cook and then go back to kfc and then tell myself it’s the last time but it’s a cycle. I know what to do tho, it’s linked to what I watch on RUclips as I’ve been watching Chris Farley a lot and he makes it seem okay to eat loads of crap but watching goggins puts me back in the right mindset
Thank you for saying something, that's the first step to getting help. Please talk to a trusted adult that can help you and give support. You can also call the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline at 1-800-931-2237, Monday-Thursday 11 am-9 pm, Friday 11 am-5 pm ET, and their online chat option can be located here: www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline. For 24/7 support, call or text 988, the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns).
I can't eat without purging
my parents, instead of helping me, say “you’re developing an eating disorder!!” in a tone that makes it sound like theyre accusing me of a crime.
Can you have eating disorder without having so much though about weight or physical appearance? I'm confused rn
You can when just hate food
look through the DSM diagnostic criteria for anorexia, bulimia, arfid, and ednos. it will tell you what symptoms must be present to diagnose these disorders.
I think I may have an ED but not to sure.
Some days I’ll eat but only junk food,then a day later look at myself in the mirror and realize how ‘fat’ I am and feel guilty about.Even though according to others,I’m skinny.
Other days I won’t be hungry at all.I crave ice 24/7 and eat ice 24/7.It’s addicting yet I get told not to so I don’t ‘harm my teeth’.
I rarely eat with my family and when I do,I immediately run to my room to be by myself.
I’ll feel very hungry but ignore it and not eat until 1-3 hours later.
Are any of these any signs?
I may not have one but I’m just double checking because I’ve been starting to worry myself.
I just don't get hungry am not even fat..it's just I just don't get hungry at all... Idk why ....can someone tell me?
I get hungry but I can’t eat my food. Literally I hate foods😢
yesterday i skipped dinner and i was really hungry and now i woke up not even hungry at all but i know that i have to at least eat breakfast so i did
go to a doctor
@@bitchesbebonkers413 no
it could be the heat, if it's hot outside? this happens to me every summer.
It's kind of sad that im experiencing this at TWELVE.
Its just that everybody around me seemed skinnier than me, they had a healthy relationship with food, I didnt.
I wish I can love food but then keep binging, and i starved myself alot months ago and i got stomach flu 2 times.
I didnt like the feeling of being full, I didnt like my clothes high waist when im full, kept the feeling of starving because i thought it was burning fat.
I drank ice water cause some people said it increases metabolism, I took a bath in ice cold water even though its really cold in the morning cause they said cold showers boost metabolism, believing that if my sweat dries out on my body the fat will go in again, eating little to the point im not full, sucking in stomach and putting it on top of a pillow when full because it was big, mirror checking, working out to the point my body hurts. Im so tired but i hate how i look and i just wanted to be skinny, i also started basing if i should like things or not because of my looks.
I wish i didnt eat alot : (
I want it
What?
What do you mean?
My friend noticed. She went through my search history because I was searching up the calories, carbs, etc inside of different foods daily, and what the normal amount of food someone my age should be eating, my BMI, how to lose weight, and some other stuff. She asked if I had anorexia, but I’m not going to self diagnose. I just said no.
I am starting to form one 😙✌️🤪
The hunger is addicting. I feel almost euphoric when I know I’m getting what I deserve, because I feel like I don’t deserve anything.
Thank you for taking the first step and expressing your struggle. We want you to know you are not alone in how you feel. We hope you will check out the links to the resources in the description box for where to learn more and where to get treatment and support.
I'm trying to eat right now... it tastes like horrible medicine... because it is. Horrible medicine.
Some people think you can’t have an eating disorder when you’re “skinny”. I’m a person who was already born really skinny, and let me tell you, it’s terrible. I get bodyshamed by EVERYONE. They think just because I’m skinny it’s not body shaming. I have trouble eating and that makes everything worse. I always feel like I’m going to throw up or just fall on the ground.
Thank you for saying something, that's the first step to getting help. Please talk to a trusted adult that can help you and give support. You can also call the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline at 1-800-931-2237, Monday-Thursday 11 am-9 pm, Friday 11 am-5 pm ET, and their online chat option can be located here: www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline. For 24/7 support, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255 or text the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns), text TALK to 741741.
why are they're hands in THE FOOD!
Because in some cultures they use their hands to eat
i don't know if i have an eating disorder. it's more of disorded eating. i unintentionally binge and eat so much then i feel so guilty afterwards (not often). then i try to skip meals and exercise to make up for it but it's so hard and all i feel is shame. i don't know what to do.
it's not fair. i'm only 13.
Me too, then recently I discovered I overlap a lot of habits that bulimics have, obviously I'm not diagnosed and I'm aware I do not meet all the criteria however I think I have OSFED which is disordered eating - which you might too
@@Broccolilia i'm glad you can relate but at the same time i'm so sorry. relationships with food are hard.
@@iilovelucy2 It's okay - and you too. We live in a messed up world
I just want to be skinny.
i cant stop eating at all, i'm addicted to food, i eat alot of sweet food and then I feel so bad and I wanna make myself throw up then, but I dont
oh shit
I hate eating. it's the worst feeling, chewing, getting hungry, getting a full stomach, feeling the texture and smell of food... im terrified of it. every time i look at food i wanna throw up.
I only eat 1 thing a day, and I always feel so sick when I do. I always feel like throwing up right after I eat. Sometimes I don’t even eat all and I still feel like throwing up. I literally don’t even have the energy to do anything anymore. Every time I stand up, I feel dizzy and start getting a headache. But I force myself to exercise even with barley any energy. I really hate the way I look, and I don’t even see food the same anymore. When I look at it I feel disgusted. I used to overeat a lot especially when I was bored. But now I rlly can’t even eat a full meal without wanting to vomit, I just drink a lot of water. But sometimes I can’t even even swallow the water. Idk what to do anymore.
Why did I cry watching this..
Thank you for saying something, that's the first step to getting help. Please talk to a trusted adult that can help you and give support. You can also call the National Eating Disorder Association Hotline at 1-800-931-2237, Monday-Thursday 11 am-9 pm, Friday 11 am-5 pm ET, and their online chat option can be located here: www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline. For 24/7 support, call 1-800-273-TALK (8255 or text the Crisis Text Line (they can be reached for any kinds of mental health concerns), text TALK to 741741.
It's a terrible thing, but whenever I'm mad at someone or mad at myself, I just don't eat so I can prove a point. What that point is? I have no idea. I just wanna forget what happened and focus on not eating, and it's slowly developing to not eating just because:(
im worried about my best friend she says she doesnt want food bc she doesnt want to get fat and i dont think shes trying to get attention i think shes is venting and my other friend doesnt notice it and im really scared for her
I'm a fourteen-year old boy, I'm almost 5'4, but I weigh about 102 lbs, and am still drastically losing weight. I know this is a terrible thing to do, I know all the dangers to anorexia and bulimia, but I think I've just lost myself and my mind, I cant stop eating and feeling guilty afterwards, and then taking 2 and a half hour long brisks, I cant stop looking at calories and nutritious facts and keeping track of foods and weights on a daily basis, and beating myself up over bloated stomachs and pressuring myself to lose the calories and weight immediately.
All of this is just taking a toll on the life I have daily, and I wish I could have the feeling of just eating normally once again, I want to stop so badly but I just cant, and I dont want to console my parents in it either because I'm afraid of their reaction and I dont want to worry them.
I tried to contact but they don’t understand, family make it more difficult!!