yeah i noticed that when looking at my youtube history. i think that’s cool and also a good way to trick the algorithm into recommending this video to everyone
@@ShredderJT yeah i could download the episodes via anidl, extract and label the compressed frames with ffmpeg, upload the frames to a google drive folder, write a google script using youtube data api accessing the frames in my drive, and set the thumbnail to an incrementing frame number with an hourly trigger. but what would be the point of that? nobody would see the thumbnail enough to notice it's playing the series.
@@motchiman5423 you say random, yet you being here is the sum of many deliberate decisions. I chose to upload this video, I chose the thumbnail, and I chose the title to appeal to a certain audience. the algorithm browsed your RUclips watch history, your google search history, the websites you’ve visited, your geographic location, your predicted age and gender, then decided to push this video to you. Then you chose to click on the video. you have been brainwashed into believing that you have some abstract control over the media you consume. you will watch what Peter tells you to watch, and you will be satisfied.
Translation of the cat's speech. "well, you'll have to endure me. will speak "endurement" under guidance of no falling in love for the second time. i've already skipped the first one? the second. and how long your love lasts for? i can't catch the feeling. exhausted in the ordinariness, after realising a sense in you greater than life. it would be hard to carry two senses in S E L F"
i'd translate "смысл" as "meaning", not as "sense". btw, if it still only makes half sense, it's not a translation problem. the author of the text was just trying to make it sound smart and mysterious and ended up with something only partially decipherable. for one example, this is the first time i've ever seen the words "истас канно (istas kanno)", and so does the internet, so i'd like the author of the comment to elaborate on their choice of translating this phrase as "exhausted".
@@ryls. it does feel pseudo-intellectual. Speaking about "истас канно", there's a space for some reason. It should be "истасканно", which roughly means "frayed", "worn out", or, like here, exhausted.
10/14/24 12:26 AM I'm not sure why I'm writing this, but I just wanted to keep this journal of my life open at any time. I feel that my life is slowly becoming more and more involved with music, more specifically jazz music, so I've been trying to culture myself with different varieties of jazz. I found this channel and playlist and I was enamored with the thought of just listening to music. I've listened to music my whole life, and I enjoy it, but by listening to the music on this playlist I've been reminded of how important music is in my life. Thank you music, you truly are a wonderful and complex thing. I may come back!
I'm not sure if you're expecting a reply since this feels more like a personal note, but I just wanted to say that I relate! Like you, I've been wanting to get more into jazz, but I haven't dabbled much in it yet. Recently, though, I went to a cheap jazz performance at the last-minute in the middle of exam season when I really had no time to spare. Just being there - listening to the music and reminding myself of how lucky I am to have music in my life - gave me a much-needed moment of clarity amidst all the stress. It really made me appreciate the little things. Sometimes the small things really do make all the difference! Looking forward to diving more into jazz, too!
While I'm finding more time to listen to music, I have less opportunities to actually play and practice. Feels like the more music I find and upload, the farther I get from the music world, if that makes sense. Not that I upload much! Just feels weird to be a consumer, but can't find motivation for anything besides work. Actual zombie.
@@mai_dq i understand you, but wouldn’t it be easier if you had a person to help you finding songs? Like, you could have a little more time for yourself doing this
@@yuky_desu nah, I listen to and find music cos it’s fun. doesn’t take much time or effort; it’s other stuff that leaves me with no time. stuff being self-studying all the material in my engineering courses ! which is also the only time I have to listen to music, when I’m not at school or work
24/10/24 20:59 I've found this playlist while scrolling to distract myself from thinking. I've been doing so well this past week; i've practiced violin for 4 hours daily, a record. This is probably how much i have to play to come even remotely close to the possibility of getting to my preffered music-centered high school, but yesterday i felt incredibly tired after practice, and today, i couldn't play almost at all. My teacher doesn't believe i'll make it, my concertmaster doesn't either, should i give up? Violin has given me all of my treasured memories, it's the only thing connecting me to other people. But it's also given me heartbreak and endless amounts of stress. A boy who used to go to my class has been talking to me recently again, as he moved back from overseas (switched schools in the past). He is quite traumatized and has loads of problems, is offputting, but at the same time incredibly sweet to me. He used to have a crush on me in first grade, and with how he acts, he still might. I'm conflicted, he's nice, but i also fear he will bomb my house if i were to reject him. I went to a cat cafe today as well. It was nice!
I played the viola for 8 years or so, but I've never really cared about music in relation to my future. Definitely didn't have the time or dedication to practice every day, and lol, it was more of a social activity to dress up nice and talk with other Asian people (seriously) than a pursuit for a career in music. I mean, there were genuinely virtuosic musicians that I played with, but I'd only admire them rather than wishing to be them. You shouldn't give up based on what other people think or tell you, but ask yourself what you are playing for.
10/17/24 So I just finished our midterms in the exam. Thinking back, I never thought I would love school again . Growing up as a kid, I always hated the idea of going to school because it never felt like how I wanted it to be. Sure I learn there but I always had this pessimistic side of mine always perceiving things arround as a filler. For short I was taking my life granted. Now that I'm in college I'm trying to change the way I see life and enjoy every moment and treasure the things that come in my life. Right now I'm blessed with good friends and I think of them as a reason to look forward to the next morning.
Oct 16 2024: Autumn break is almost over, I haven't done my homework yet. Life has been very confusing nowadays, Im unsure of what to do next. 5 more months and then I'll have to decide what I wanna be, what I want to study, how I want to continue this journey and its overwhelming. Maybe its because im not as mature as people expect me to be and im not ready for this yet. I still reminisce about the old times, before covid when life was more simpler, before I learned the awful reality of our world. But even though it seems like life is hopeless, I know I cant give up, I cant stop here, not now. I want to live, I want to grow old and have a happy life, a peaceful and normal life. And for that I must strive forward, face the challenges and overcome them. For the future, and my dearest parents, please future me, keep going. You can do it
We're all in the same confusing, warped and barely floating boat of life. May you achieve what you look to gain and have some friends to share your success with. Goals take time, passion and some luck. You are the only person who is, no one else can be *you*. God bless, and peace ✌
I remember that period of life was surely melancholic, modern education have gave us freedom to choose whatever we desire to be, but yet we struggle because of those countless choices laid upon. Though if you choose to study and walk into the next step, even if it seems not, you can still undo your decision and take a detour. One or two years of divagation seems terrible at that age, but it's not critical as you might worry. After all, it's not about what you will study, what you will become, but what kind of person, life you will live. Blessings on your journey and hope you enjoy it.
There is something so endearing about the way people write comments about their life parcours. The vocabulary, the syntax, it almost feels like a casual poem while keeping the romance of it. The music complements perfectly the ambiance.
9/10/2024, 00:10:25 AM. I realized that life does get better. I started this year at a mental lowpoint, one of the worst in my life. Finding joy in new things just feels great, life feels great. I still think about the events that led me here, but I think about them less and less. I hope this year ends better, and that next year only continues being great. Time flies, and I love it.
to me, life just gets busier. to be honest, i can barely remember the last 8 years. mandatory: « life moves pretty fast. if you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it »
Minha namorada me recomendou ouvir essas músicas lindas e belas. Eu simplesmente amei ouvir, com toda certeza, essas foram as músicas mais relaxante. Elas são relaxantes, são suaves, leves... Cada nota nela vale a pena escutar... É perfeito. Isso me fez relaxar, me acalmou, me sentir flutar sem tirar os pés do chão, me senti leve, me senti uma criança num colo de mãe. Queria agradecer a minha namorada por me apresentar esse magnífico vídeo onde há tantas canções lindas de se ouvir. Imgaino eu e ela, num sítio, deitados numa rede enquanto ouvimos isso... Ou até mesmo nós dois abraçados trocando beijos enquanto ouvimos isso... Eu amo demais ela. Se ela fosse uma música, com certeza ela seria todas essas músicas, ouviria todos os dias para relaxar ouvindo. Muito obrigado, meu bem, por me recomendar esse belo vídeo com essas lindas canções. Eu te amo demais
I don't speak your language, but the translation conveys your words. Love is beautiful, and I hope you love her for many years to come. Saludos y mucho amor 🙏
10/18/24 12:05 AM I found this on my youtube recommendations while trying to escape reality from my school works by procrastinating. Apparently, this song shows up to suggest that I should put in the work I need to do as I am already at the state of cram. Currently listening to every beautiful music this video is providing tonight. Now I can suffer doing my works while listening to a good music. Thank you whoever you are that uploaded this, and I promise to myself that this'll be the last time I will suffer cramming without this music accompanying me every busy nights.
this may not help, but stress arises from not taking action. when you are actually working on something (assuming you aren't rushing to meet a deadline), the stress is replaced by the desire to complete what you are doing. therefore, the best way to escape reality to is to not procrastinate, as it will lead to reduced stress and allow your mind to stop thinking about living
11/1/24 apprehensive about going into debt for college. failed to make friends after moving last year and my connections with my old friends seem to be getting weaker, so im just waiting for senior year to be over with. i wish i could just blink and skip to graduation, but videos like these remind me to take a breath and be thankful for simply being alive. thank god i can still hear jazz and read introspective youtube comments (i need a job)
28/10/24 You remind me of someone. I'm gone and forgotten to them, yet it's almost funny how I've found them in something like this. The way you talk, your hobbies, and even your taste in music is almost exactly like them. It does make you wonder, how big of a role do you play in people's lives? Once you are gone, do you come back? In what shape? Is it really you that comes back, or simply someone bearing that name? In truth, I don’t think I'll ever know, and it no longer bothers me. To live is to keep going, and to be happy is to forget. Having checked both the Spotify and the google Doc, this channel is almost a 1:1 mirror of their speech, so in spite of everything I think I'll stick around just a bit longer. Thank you for the music :)
10/30/24 7:54 PM Came back to this playlist again. Just keep thinking about it. I'm finally getting back into music again. I played it my whole life in my dad's church on the worship team, but when I was outed as gay I stopped performing. But I also stopped playing for myself, in my room where no one could see, just to feel the music. Before the estrangement, guitar was everything to me; I listened to weird jazz guitarists my friends didn't know; I learned their riffs, and wanted to be a worship pastor when I grew up. For a long period after, looking at a guitar made me think of the times I'd been used. I didn't think of the joy it brought, but the pressure to perform, the pressure of everyone knowing me, the pressure not to fuck up in front of so many eyes. I couldn't touch an instrument and I stopped singing and life became gray. But life goes on. I moved out. And I brought my guitar with me. One day, I started writing songs and it was like reconnecting with an old friend. It was nice to write about what had been whispered to me, secret touches while everyone else had their eyes closed. Even better was the liberating feeling of going to open mic nights at bars and playing for eyes that had never seen what I was before. I'm thankful for the worship band experience, in spite of what happened. It gave me the knowledge to play with others. And I'm getting back into jazz. This account helped me with that lol; adding songs from these playlists to my library feels like I'm fourteen again, on the brink of discovering something beautiful.
10/22/2024 11:06 PM Weird how this video showed up on my feed today. In 6 days I will be sent to military service. I will be spending an entire year in the military. Despite my best efforts, this is the fate I've failed to avoid. I feel the need to be loved, I feel the need to be supported in this kind of situation, however, for some stupid reason when my close ones, my relatives or close friends, reach out, it just doesn't do the thing. I want to feel their feelings, but for now I just can't. Maybe some time later. I just want to do a time leap and skip throught the next 365 days. I want to be dissolved in time and after some of it passes I will rebuild my body and soul anew. Problem is, some of the particles will be lost forever, and I may never know how my life would've been have I taken a different path. I don't want to see it, i don't want to live through it. Recently, anger and rage have frequented my plain of emotions. Feelings everepresent in my teenage years, the ones I've hidden when I turned 18 return years later with a force of a battering ram. I walk along the street and see a person looking at me - I feel irritated, I walk behind a person who can't walk in a straight line - I feel irritated. I was not like this, at least for the past 5 years. Now I'm afraid I might hit someone in the face. Hope it will go away. Oh Lord. Someone or something. Please, grant me strength to endure, to persevere, to survive. Give me the power to be victorious. Thank you
hey, i hope this answer is not silly but i used to never be able to understand my feelings. especially the negative ones. i couldnt understand what was i truly mad, sad, frustrated o enraged about. something that helped me a lot, once it became an habit, was to write. write what you feel and what you think in that exact moment. without judgement. the important thing is to get out the feeling that is eating you alive. we all have things we cant express or tell to anyone, so let the paper be your catharsis. and once you´ve wrote, let a couple of days go by and read it. only then, think why you might have felt what you felt. again, with no judgement. its probable that all that anger is just a consequence of bottling up feelings for months or even years. i know that you are in a shitty situation right know, but maybe writing can be what keeps you some kind of company and a place where you can be you, and be transparent and honest. i hope this helps in some way and makes the next year less painfull and more bearable. i send you support and strength. (sorry if my english is not great, is not my first language and i lack of practice)
@@juanap6875 thanks for this sincere message. I used to write something about some of the vivid feelings I had a couple of years ago, but then I gave up since that seemed unnecessary. Maybe now it's time for me to listen to other people's words of advice. Can't promise I'll start writing about my feelings, but your message brings a tremendous feeling of relief and hope. Thank you for your support, you are a kind person.
@@juanap6875 thanks for this sincere response. For some reason my first reply to your message got deleted, so I'll just repeat the essence of it. Can't promise I'll start writing about my feelings, since I had done something similar a couple of years ago and abandoned the idea because it seemed unnecessary. But your message alone left me with the feeling of relief and hope. And that's just wonderful, thank you, kind person.
10/24/24 what a wonderful mix of music i've randomly stumbled across! i'm not really sure what to write here, but since everyone else is jotting down their day's experiences like a journal, i feel the need to join in-- it just looked fun. :) it's currently 4:00 A.M., and i've spent the day resting, mostly. life recently has been pretty busy, but it hasn't been a terrible kind of busy, like i'd grown used to; instead, i've been visiting friends, catching up on my work, and drawing more. almost 10 days ago (on 10/15) i turned 19, and to be honest, i still don't really feel like an adult, yet i don't feel like a child anymore. everything has changed so very much in the past few years for me personally, but i think every 19 year old feels similar to me in some way. i've found myself wishing often for my life before, and yet, with a strange cognitive dissonance that i can't quite rid myself of, i'm glad to be ahead of those years. it's sort of bittersweet, more than anything-- i miss being a child, running around with my brothers without a worry, yet i do not envy what she will have to endure when she turns 12, 14, 16, and so on. once again, i'm a bit unsure of how i should end this. i suppose, if anyone is reading this, i want to tell them to keep going. i know it's so, so hard, but if my short time on this earth has taught me anything, it's that there's always hope to be found, even if it's cliche to say as such. always look for small things to look forward to-- something as simple as looking forward to baking has been enough to keep me going. food, music, people, animals, plants-- there's so much beauty to be found in the mundane, and i will be the first to admit that i myself still find it difficult to remember this sometimes. but it's worth it to keep going, i promise. you are loved.
Currently have this blasting after finishing an hour-long documentary on Eva [I recall the name being "Making Sense of Evangelion, very good] and am bawling. It's so.. I don't even know how to say it, it just feels freeing and yet horrid, the best analogy I have for it right now and bear with me for this one, it feels like having a bullet going through my cranium, it's painful but also so much more, it's overwhelming but also mmmh.. interesting? And finding this just after is, well, just what I needed. Thank you, Eva.
Hiya, it's only been 2 days I've already got a new thing to say to this public journal which is the comment section of the mai channel. So yesterday I kinda sorta declared my love to a girl, and she said that our friendship is dear to her, but not romantic. I speedran through the grief of it yesterday, got drunk, and even cried for once. Today is the morning after, and I've spilt all I could out in my sketchbook/journal, had a look at my situation and reflected a lot on what my plans are. Truth is, I don't have many, and that's good, that means I can experience so much. One video I'd recommend is Sisyphus 55's "getting over someone you love", as well as his entire channel. My life is more than this, it's fate. I'd like to leave you today on a quote from John Locke in Lost, "I needed that pain to get to where I am now." 12:06PM UTC+1, 03/11/24, Rally out
10/19/2024 6:08 PM I'm trying to get myself to create in a way thats more meaningful, whether it be within my art or forming connections with others. I feel a little more relaxed and ready to take on challenges while listening to music like this, so thank you for putting together this playlist ♥
it’s 3:39am on 9/24/24 and i just got this on my recommended… thank you. that’s all i got to say man. i’m glad people are using the algorithm for playlists like this and the frutiger aero ones. just blessed to have all this good music tbh
10/2/2024. 7:13 pm, Todays school schedule was very good im still happy i got recommended this video, i saw the weird title, the rei fan art and got intrested. Best decision of my life.
10/30/2024, 1:50 PM EST: I was here, today’s the day!! Dinner I’m cooking tonight for my family: 2 Flank Steaks coated in a raspberry marinade(for several hours) Homemade mashed potatoes & Asparagus(covered in Parmesan coating) Water, Wine, or a Blueberry beer as a drink. Tonight I’ll also be doing my annual watch of over the garden wall, if you haven’t seen it, please watch it. I want to those that love me happy, i want to make myself happy, I want a brighter tomorrow, and I’m hoping to achieve that sooner than later. It’s been a long road, but I’ll get there. To anyone watching this from the future: recent, or distant keep pushing forward, you’ve got this
10:14pm on 10/1/24 and was just recommended this video while stressing myself out over my near future plans well just thought id stop what i was doing (learning the language of the country i ideally want to study abroad) to say thank you
10/27/2024 my birthday is two days away!! i feel like ive wasted all my childhood already but i still have a few good years left. music is fantastic by the way!
2:26 on October 15, 2024 and I’m sitting in the library reading volume 5 of the 20th Century Boys Perfect Edition. I actually came here to practice painting on my iPad, but this story is just really good and my self control has never been the best 😅. Happened upon this playlist in RUclips recommended while I was reading. The typewriter song playing right now is a type of vibe I really love, especially sitting here in a calm and mostly empty building like this. I’m happy today.
@ I finished Pluto and really liked it a while back, but yeah Monster is one I started and need to get back to at some point. Finished 20thCB yesterday though, really enjoyed it.
thank you for enabling the comments. I have been listening to this playlist for several days by now, since 8/21 aproximately, this has been such a relief from some tough times. Thank you. I discovered new genres of music thanks to you. Greetings from Argentina!
10/6/2024, 11:38:34 AM. Turned 18 yesterday, I'm 18 years old now. Feels weird. I got a new car too. Growing up feels weird, getting to this point feels weird, doing the full 180 I had with everything in my life feels weird. I look back and part of me wishes I had spent that time differently and I was a different person. I wish I had done more favors for myself. I still enjoyed everything though, even if I was horrible so many things were bad. I'm a lot more lonely now, and everything's so somber now. I'm a lot less lonely now, and everything is so hectic. Life has been so much of a strange dichotomy of things and everything has gone by so quick when I look back on it. There's a lot of regret and there's a lot of missing those times. Here's a quote. "I cannot think of things done to me and things I have done. I have paid my respects and I must let them go. I must allow myself to breathe for the things I cannot change, but hopefully I can plant the seeds to counteract the bad I have seen and been." Love everyone.
10/9/2024, three years ago today I had appendix surgery on 3 hours notice, my first surgery, with so little time to cope. And today on the same day, I am notified to may need surgery to fix my meniscus tear, beautiful coincidence.
14/10/24 5:25 pm Life's beauiful. I love my college degree, I love my boyfriend and the people I've met here. I thought moving to the other side of the county for college all by my own except for my bf, who's also here with me, was going to be scary, but it's beautiful, it's full of surprises and little things that make me profoundly happy. I have been listening to a lot of jazz lately, composing my own music too. I've been really productive, both academically and artistically. That doesn't mean I would be unhappy if I wasn't doing great at college or in my personal art, no. But it's a little plus, you know? I've worked really hard to get here and I'm being greatly appreciated by my teachers and classmates. This has just started, we are just at the begining of future. Future seems so bright to me, I want to expand that brightness as much as I can. I am happy but not satisfied, I can always be better than I alredy am! - Crow
My youtube has gotten into the habit of recommending this video to me every day, which is very nice. It feels like no matter how unique my clicks on this website may be, I always end up back here. A little rest stop.
My close friends will never know how much i truly love them. Not just a stereotypical “loveyou” but a genuine strong friendship bond of human connection. Its not like theyre “fake” or something, we just live in different countries. I moved when I was 13 and I had to leave them behind We were like the quirky tween gang of kids that messed around, played outside and continued playing roblox in quarantine. When I moved, they all grew up, and so did I. Theyre all so pretty and grown up now, I just wish they werent so busy with school. Currently we’re all seniors in highschool, so the existensial dread of realising the gang won’t be together anymore is really catching up to me. We still see eachother from time to time, on vacations, and when we do, its so magical. I can recall the times I recently met up with them: Stomach hurting laughter that could be heard from the other side of the street and deep night time convos with empty soda cans. Once I go back home, though. It’s all gone. Im back to my usual life where days bleed into each other and I start forgetting the sweetness of socialising with my friends.
This video. ALONE. Made me dive DEEP into this youtube channel and everything else uploaded to it. There's google docs, encrypted video titles. There's lore about a lady who died in a car crash who was also a jazz artist. The "rip" video and it's follow-up that insert some really dark implications about the character and her lore. Just absolutely nuts how deep this channel goes. Earned my sub!
Thank you for this. I thought you had pre planned the vid and schedule it to release today. I like what you are doing with this video and your channel. Thx for being here on the platform and in my life. This may sound extreme to say so suddenly but I mean what I've typed here. Thank you for giving me and others this experience. Smile 😊
This is now my favorite video. Now and forever. This is the good side of RUclips. I hope I never forget this video. This might have saved my life. This is absolute cinema. Thank you. Live a long, happy life for yourself and others. You are now one of my favorite people. You deserve everything and more. Again, thank you.
One of my closest friends is Autistic, and one of his interests is Neon Genesis Evangelion, another is cats. Yeah, so I immediately sent him this solely for the thumbnail. Pretty cool though!
10/19/24 i love mai playlists n this was here so i clicked. i also love rei shes my favorite :) yesterday was a not so good day. but today will be better/ i feel it. i hope i can do good
11/26/24 20:13 Sense I have the confidence to comment on stuff finally, I jst wanna say I like to come back to this video a lot, usually when I'm strolling through a park or studying in a cafe, it really assists my anxiety and makes me dislocate when I really need to, preferably when i have no motivation to do anything or overwhelmed, thanks for youtube recommending me this everyday and you making this wonderful music shuffle. I would love to hear more tbh!!!! X3
Learning russian finally helped me with something, thanks random guy for uploading this awesome video, it will come handy when i need to read something.
@@Thanatos124 It's really just a set of words. They are not assembled into any meaningful text. Unless that picture has some unknown context of its own, of course. UPD: Okay, there is some context here and this text is taken from somewhere, but I don't know more than that. Something like russian 4chan, but source is blocked. Literal translations is: Well, you're gonna have to put up with me. I'll verbalise ‘patience’ under the guidance of not falling in love a second time. I missed the first one! The second. How long does your love last? I don't have time to feel it. Tired of the usual, after realising more meaning in you than life. It will be hard to carry two meanings in you
Looking at the sky .I can’t help but think about dreams that feel impossibly far-away like stars just out of reach. Sometimes, it seems like they’re meant to remain there, shimmering but unattainable . So close yet so far
10/31/2024, 12:26 AM. The Thumbnail displays Rei dressed as Ichigo from Tokyo Mew Mew 10/31/2024, 11:16 pm. The thumbnail shows Rei wearing an apron on top of her regular uniform, looking off to the side and smiling. (reply to this to remind me to periodically update it)
it's 10:55 AM on a Monday, I'm in EST. I'm incredibly stressed, I'm going into a trade for mechanics, I'm trying to sort things with my relationship out, I'm cutting off toxic people. Everything is getting better but my god it is so hard. I'll update anyone who's interested in the next comment I leave the next time they open up, and I guarantee I'll have much more to say. Until then, I guess we could consider ourselves friends if you decide to check in, friends, take care and stay safe. And remember now matter how hard things get, no matter how much they suck, you can find comfort in everything. As long as you understand that eventually, everything WILL be okay. You just need to have patience. Okay, okay, goodbye for real this time then haha! You make sure to wear a smile today okay? You look a lot better with it. But it's okay if you can't, I understand. And I won't blame you for the days where your smile fades, as long as you promise me you'll wake up tomorrow.
@@jacobvertiz1108 (11:43 PM EST 10/3/2024) good afternoon!! lovely to meet you, my dear friend jacob. you can call me cheryl from now on, or cherry, that's the nickname my friends gave me haha! I'm doing quite okay, it's still decently rough but i'm getting into physical drawing as of recent. It's going well if you were to ask me. Though aside from that, my relationship is going well, and now we're just making silly little future plans. i appreciate you taking the time to come and have a little conversation. I love talking to people. But I do think that's about all I have to say personally, so that does lead me to ask... ...what about you? How have you been holding up? Has life been treating you okay?
I'm trying to change my life but it's so hard right now because I'm still in high school and can't do much- so I both fear and envy you, hah! Jokes aside, how did you deal with toxic people being in your life during high school where you couldn't really "get away" from them? Oh, and also I'd love to hear more about your story!
@@thunder2275 hello thunder!! its very lovely to meet you, i'm cheryl. and i know this isn't something you asked about directly but i do suggest finding a way to turn that envy to inspiration. trust me, i've had many hardships. scars physical and mental from those around me for practically my entire life. if i can survive, you can too. no limits. as for how i dealt with those people, to be frank im not entirely sure. sometimes i dealt with them by being meaner or a bit more rude to steer them away from me, which i regret because i ended up hurting some people unintentionally. i hope they're okay. if you want my advice, even if deep down it does truly affect you, id suggest doing your best to not care about it at least externally. im not saying to ignore it, i know that never works. but face it in more of a "so what?" kind of way. don't be aggressive though if that makes sense, try to remain neutral in tone. "i dont like your shirt/shoes/pants/looks" so what? there's no standards to meet, you're not here to impress anyone but yourself. style is subjective, beauty is too. if they don't like your hobbies that's just too bad, because you're gonna keep on doing it. it's important to remember that other people don't define you. your scars don't define you. your hobbies and enjoyments don't define you. NOBODY/NOTHING defines you except YOU. be confident with how you are, but don't be egotistical if that makes sense. the kind of confidence where you're cool and you know it, but you don't need reassurance about it or need to gloat about it, just confident enough to not be affected by others. that's not to say be independent, though, humans are social creatures after all. you're allowed to be "weak" or feel emotion, but it's important to not let others dictate those emotions. i can tell you're a very bright and smart kid, you're probably gonna go places. don't let others stomp out the clear light that you've got shining. but also make sure to take care of yourself and take breaks okay? if you end up trying too hard, you'll end up making that light of yours burn and fizzle out much quicker. Keep the fire fed, but don't overload it. no matter your doubts, take confidence with each and every step, never stop to second guess, so that when everyone sees you at your best they'll be nothing short of impressed. raise yourself up to raise those around you. be an inspiration. be kind. be warm. be open-minded. be patient. but most importantly? be you. it's cool if you don't take anything here i've said to heart, cause i know everyone is all different with how they are and how they work. I also know that you probably know yourself better than I, or anyone does. but do know i will be here wishing you nothing the best. as for telling my life story, to be frank that's quite a LOT. so I think maybe if you're willing to spare some patience, I'll take a few days to collect my thoughts and words properly all into one coherent message. i hope i was able to help, and it's been wonderful meeting you. if you have any questions, or need any clarification, any curiosities please feel free to ask. we've all got at least 50 years on our lives, i can spare a few moments of patience to have a little conversation any time. take care. if not care for yourself, care for yourself for the others that care about you. they're worried about you after all.
i have no idea what i stumbled into, but I like it here! Between the changing titles, the style of music, and the people reflecting on their own lives - it creates a weirdly comforting atmosphere. It feels like a save point in a video game in a way.
10/30/2024, 2:16:34 AM started out as free low quality counseling but i disabled the comments about a month ago. then youtube pushed the video and now i am too lazy to reply to everyone
10/16/24 my peak is everyday. i tire myself from all the work i do but it just makes me better for it. my physique is at its current peak and itll jsut get better, my japanese speaking and reading level is great and getting better, my career is getting closer. thanks God.
so fun fact.. the title of this video changes daily!
woah
I did just notice that
oh
yeah i noticed that when looking at my youtube history. i think that’s cool and also a good way to trick the algorithm into recommending this video to everyone
looks like more often then that? or i just happened to open it at the exact same time in PST
not only the titlle changes daily, but the thumbnail also changes. Amazing!
i could write a script for that too but I don't have enough evangelion thumbnails to choose from
Wunderbar, amirite?
@@mai_dq The one you got now is really cute.
@@mai_dq make it play the series at like 2 frames per hour or however fast it updates the title
@@ShredderJT yeah i could download the episodes via anidl, extract and label the compressed frames with ffmpeg, upload the frames to a google drive folder, write a google script using youtube data api accessing the frames in my drive, and set the thumbnail to an incrementing frame number with an hourly trigger.
but what would be the point of that? nobody would see the thumbnail enough to notice it's playing the series.
Best random click of my life
x2
@@shajarmacas1675 x3
X3
@@motchiman5423 you say random, yet you being here is the sum of many deliberate decisions. I chose to upload this video, I chose the thumbnail, and I chose the title to appeal to a certain audience. the algorithm browsed your RUclips watch history, your google search history, the websites you’ve visited, your geographic location, your predicted age and gender, then decided to push this video to you. Then you chose to click on the video. you have been brainwashed into believing that you have some abstract control over the media you consume. you will watch what Peter tells you to watch, and you will be satisfied.
Me too
i fw the description. i like these videos that are just music but basically an art project in a way
that description will keep me up at night with how impeccable the writing was.
its like the writing and music takes you on a journey
Translation of the cat's speech.
"well, you'll have to endure me.
will speak "endurement" under
guidance of no falling in love for the
second time. i've already skipped
the first one? the second.
and how long your love lasts for? i
can't catch the feeling. exhausted
in the ordinariness, after
realising a sense in you greater than life. it would be hard
to carry two senses in
S E L F"
Saved
horoshaya rabota, tovarish
horoshaya rabota, tovarish, tak derzhat
i'd translate "смысл" as "meaning", not as "sense".
btw, if it still only makes half sense, it's not a translation problem. the author of the text was just trying to make it sound smart and mysterious and ended up with something only partially decipherable. for one example, this is the first time i've ever seen the words "истас канно (istas kanno)", and so does the internet, so i'd like the author of the comment to elaborate on their choice of translating this phrase as "exhausted".
@@ryls. it does feel pseudo-intellectual. Speaking about "истас канно", there's a space for some reason. It should be "истасканно", which roughly means "frayed", "worn out", or, like here, exhausted.
10/14/24 12:26 AM
I'm not sure why I'm writing this, but I just wanted to keep this journal of my life open at any time. I feel that my life is slowly becoming more and more involved with music, more specifically jazz music, so I've been trying to culture myself with different varieties of jazz. I found this channel and playlist and I was enamored with the thought of just listening to music. I've listened to music my whole life, and I enjoy it, but by listening to the music on this playlist I've been reminded of how important music is in my life. Thank you music, you truly are a wonderful and complex thing. I may come back!
I'm not sure if you're expecting a reply since this feels more like a personal note, but I just wanted to say that I relate! Like you, I've been wanting to get more into jazz, but I haven't dabbled much in it yet.
Recently, though, I went to a cheap jazz performance at the last-minute in the middle of exam season when I really had no time to spare. Just being there - listening to the music and reminding myself of how lucky I am to have music in my life - gave me a much-needed moment of clarity amidst all the stress. It really made me appreciate the little things. Sometimes the small things really do make all the difference! Looking forward to diving more into jazz, too!
Hey! Just here to remember you to come back hear this perfection of a playlist
While I'm finding more time to listen to music, I have less opportunities to actually play and practice. Feels like the more music I find and upload, the farther I get from the music world, if that makes sense. Not that I upload much! Just feels weird to be a consumer, but can't find motivation for anything besides work. Actual zombie.
@@mai_dq i understand you, but wouldn’t it be easier if you had a person to help you finding songs? Like, you could have a little more time for yourself doing this
@@yuky_desu nah, I listen to and find music cos it’s fun. doesn’t take much time or effort; it’s other stuff that leaves me with no time. stuff being self-studying all the material in my engineering courses ! which is also the only time I have to listen to music, when I’m not at school or work
10/16/2024, 1:36:35 AM
sorry for venting (trigger warning)
well, that’s about it. see ya.
Dropping in for my 2-3 week checkback. Hope it's going well
October 16th, 3:43:02am
10/24/24 7:26 PM
Too controversial
10/27/2024 3:43:47
Thank you
27/10/24. 22:27 UTC -3.
Your venting triggered me :(
Sorry for your loss.....of words.....
24/10/24 20:59
I've found this playlist while scrolling to distract myself from thinking.
I've been doing so well this past week; i've practiced violin for 4 hours daily, a record. This is probably how much i have to play to come even remotely close to the possibility of getting to my preffered music-centered high school, but yesterday i felt incredibly tired after practice, and today, i couldn't play almost at all. My teacher doesn't believe i'll make it, my concertmaster doesn't either, should i give up? Violin has given me all of my treasured memories, it's the only thing connecting me to other people. But it's also given me heartbreak and endless amounts of stress.
A boy who used to go to my class has been talking to me recently again, as he moved back from overseas (switched schools in the past). He is quite traumatized and has loads of problems, is offputting, but at the same time incredibly sweet to me. He used to have a crush on me in first grade, and with how he acts, he still might. I'm conflicted, he's nice, but i also fear he will bomb my house if i were to reject him.
I went to a cat cafe today as well. It was nice!
I played the viola for 8 years or so, but I've never really cared about music in relation to my future. Definitely didn't have the time or dedication to practice every day, and lol, it was more of a social activity to dress up nice and talk with other Asian people (seriously) than a pursuit for a career in music. I mean, there were genuinely virtuosic musicians that I played with, but I'd only admire them rather than wishing to be them. You shouldn't give up based on what other people think or tell you, but ask yourself what you are playing for.
Hey, you're doing great. Just keep on going. You will make it. Go live a great life, Hedvigleia!
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let's fucking go
How are you 😺
Yay!
Hiii
HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
10/17/24
So I just finished our midterms in the exam. Thinking back, I never thought I would love school again . Growing up as a kid, I always hated the idea of going to school because it never felt like how I wanted it to be. Sure I learn there but I always had this pessimistic side of mine always perceiving things arround as a filler. For short I was taking my life granted. Now that I'm in college I'm trying to change the way I see life and enjoy every moment and treasure the things that come in my life. Right now I'm blessed with good friends and I think of them as a reason to look forward to the next morning.
Woah I also just did my midterm today
I'm only in middle school but I'll try this mindset. Thank you for writing your comment, have a nice day!
Oct 16 2024: Autumn break is almost over, I haven't done my homework yet. Life has been very confusing nowadays, Im unsure of what to do next. 5 more months and then I'll have to decide what I wanna be, what I want to study, how I want to continue this journey and its overwhelming. Maybe its because im not as mature as people expect me to be and im not ready for this yet.
I still reminisce about the old times, before covid when life was more simpler, before I learned the awful reality of our world.
But even though it seems like life is hopeless, I know I cant give up, I cant stop here, not now. I want to live, I want to grow old and have a happy life, a peaceful and normal life. And for that I must strive forward, face the challenges and overcome them. For the future, and my dearest parents, please future me, keep going. You can do it
keep going. You got this. No one has it figured out, we just try and learn.
We're all in the same confusing, warped and barely floating boat of life. May you achieve what you look to gain and have some friends to share your success with. Goals take time, passion and some luck. You are the only person who is, no one else can be *you*. God bless, and peace ✌
I remember that period of life was surely melancholic, modern education have gave us freedom to choose whatever we desire to be, but yet we struggle because of those countless choices laid upon. Though if you choose to study and walk into the next step, even if it seems not, you can still undo your decision and take a detour. One or two years of divagation seems terrible at that age, but it's not critical as you might worry. After all, it's not about what you will study, what you will become, but what kind of person, life you will live. Blessings on your journey and hope you enjoy it.
There is something so endearing about the way people write comments about their life parcours. The vocabulary, the syntax, it almost feels like a casual poem while keeping the romance of it. The music complements perfectly the ambiance.
9/10/2024, 00:10:25 AM.
I realized that life does get better.
I started this year at a mental lowpoint, one of the worst in my life.
Finding joy in new things just feels great, life feels great.
I still think about the events that led me here, but I think about them less and less.
I hope this year ends better, and that next year only continues being great.
Time flies, and I love it.
how could one find joy in this life
by being alive
@@majiwarusentosen it's all suffering at the end of the day
to me, life just gets busier. to be honest, i can barely remember the last 8 years. mandatory:
« life moves pretty fast. if you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it »
Minha namorada me recomendou ouvir essas músicas lindas e belas.
Eu simplesmente amei ouvir, com toda certeza, essas foram as músicas mais relaxante. Elas são relaxantes, são suaves, leves... Cada nota nela vale a pena escutar... É perfeito.
Isso me fez relaxar, me acalmou, me sentir flutar sem tirar os pés do chão, me senti leve, me senti uma criança num colo de mãe.
Queria agradecer a minha namorada por me apresentar esse magnífico vídeo onde há tantas canções lindas de se ouvir. Imgaino eu e ela, num sítio, deitados numa rede enquanto ouvimos isso... Ou até mesmo nós dois abraçados trocando beijos enquanto ouvimos isso... Eu amo demais ela. Se ela fosse uma música, com certeza ela seria todas essas músicas, ouviria todos os dias para relaxar ouvindo. Muito obrigado, meu bem, por me recomendar esse belo vídeo com essas lindas canções. Eu te amo demais
I don't speak your language, but the translation conveys your words. Love is beautiful, and I hope you love her for many years to come. Saludos y mucho amor 🙏
10/18/24 12:05 AM
I found this on my youtube recommendations while trying to escape reality from my school works by procrastinating. Apparently, this song shows up to suggest that I should put in the work I need to do as I am already at the state of cram. Currently listening to every beautiful music this video is providing tonight. Now I can suffer doing my works while listening to a good music. Thank you whoever you are that uploaded this, and I promise to myself that this'll be the last time I will suffer cramming without this music accompanying me every busy nights.
this may not help, but stress arises from not taking action. when you are actually working on something (assuming you aren't rushing to meet a deadline), the stress is replaced by the desire to complete what you are doing. therefore, the best way to escape reality to is to not procrastinate, as it will lead to reduced stress and allow your mind to stop thinking about living
11/1/24
apprehensive about going into debt for college. failed to make friends after moving last year and my connections with my old friends seem to be getting weaker, so im just waiting for senior year to be over with. i wish i could just blink and skip to graduation, but videos like these remind me to take a breath and be thankful for simply being alive. thank god i can still hear jazz and read introspective youtube comments (i need a job)
28/10/24
You remind me of someone. I'm gone and forgotten to them, yet it's almost funny how I've found them in something like this. The way you talk, your hobbies, and even your taste in music is almost exactly like them. It does make you wonder, how big of a role do you play in people's lives? Once you are gone, do you come back? In what shape? Is it really you that comes back, or simply someone bearing that name? In truth, I don’t think I'll ever know, and it no longer bothers me. To live is to keep going, and to be happy is to forget. Having checked both the Spotify and the google Doc, this channel is almost a 1:1 mirror of their speech, so in spite of everything I think I'll stick around just a bit longer.
Thank you for the music :)
10/30/24 7:54 PM
Came back to this playlist again. Just keep thinking about it. I'm finally getting back into music again. I played it my whole life in my dad's church on the worship team, but when I was outed as gay I stopped performing. But I also stopped playing for myself, in my room where no one could see, just to feel the music. Before the estrangement, guitar was everything to me; I listened to weird jazz guitarists my friends didn't know; I learned their riffs, and wanted to be a worship pastor when I grew up. For a long period after, looking at a guitar made me think of the times I'd been used. I didn't think of the joy it brought, but the pressure to perform, the pressure of everyone knowing me, the pressure not to fuck up in front of so many eyes. I couldn't touch an instrument and I stopped singing and life became gray.
But life goes on. I moved out. And I brought my guitar with me. One day, I started writing songs and it was like reconnecting with an old friend. It was nice to write about what had been whispered to me, secret touches while everyone else had their eyes closed. Even better was the liberating feeling of going to open mic nights at bars and playing for eyes that had never seen what I was before.
I'm thankful for the worship band experience, in spite of what happened. It gave me the knowledge to play with others. And I'm getting back into jazz. This account helped me with that lol; adding songs from these playlists to my library feels like I'm fourteen again, on the brink of discovering something beautiful.
It is October 19th 2024 when i am commenting this. Good Night.
10/22/2024 11:06 PM
Weird how this video showed up on my feed today.
In 6 days I will be sent to military service. I will be spending an entire year in the military. Despite my best efforts, this is the fate I've failed to avoid. I feel the need to be loved, I feel the need to be supported in this kind of situation, however, for some stupid reason when my close ones, my relatives or close friends, reach out, it just doesn't do the thing. I want to feel their feelings, but for now I just can't. Maybe some time later.
I just want to do a time leap and skip throught the next 365 days. I want to be dissolved in time and after some of it passes I will rebuild my body and soul anew. Problem is, some of the particles will be lost forever, and I may never know how my life would've been have I taken a different path. I don't want to see it, i don't want to live through it.
Recently, anger and rage have frequented my plain of emotions. Feelings everepresent in my teenage years, the ones I've hidden when I turned 18 return years later with a force of a battering ram. I walk along the street and see a person looking at me - I feel irritated, I walk behind a person who can't walk in a straight line - I feel irritated. I was not like this, at least for the past 5 years. Now I'm afraid I might hit someone in the face. Hope it will go away.
Oh Lord. Someone or something. Please, grant me strength to endure, to persevere, to survive. Give me the power to be victorious.
Thank you
hey, i hope this answer is not silly but i used to never be able to understand my feelings. especially the negative ones. i couldnt understand what was i truly mad, sad, frustrated o enraged about.
something that helped me a lot, once it became an habit, was to write. write what you feel and what you think in that exact moment. without judgement. the important thing is to get out the feeling that is eating you alive. we all have things we cant express or tell to anyone, so let the paper be your catharsis. and once you´ve wrote, let a couple of days go by and read it. only then, think why you might have felt what you felt. again, with no judgement. its probable that all that anger is just a consequence of bottling up feelings for months or even years.
i know that you are in a shitty situation right know, but maybe writing can be what keeps you some kind of company and a place where you can be you, and be transparent and honest.
i hope this helps in some way and makes the next year less painfull and more bearable. i send you support and strength.
(sorry if my english is not great, is not my first language and i lack of practice)
@@juanap6875 thanks for this sincere message. I used to write something about some of the vivid feelings I had a couple of years ago, but then I gave up since that seemed unnecessary. Maybe now it's time for me to listen to other people's words of advice. Can't promise I'll start writing about my feelings, but your message brings a tremendous feeling of relief and hope.
Thank you for your support, you are a kind person.
@@juanap6875 thanks for this sincere response. For some reason my first reply to your message got deleted, so I'll just repeat the essence of it.
Can't promise I'll start writing about my feelings, since I had done something similar a couple of years ago and abandoned the idea because it seemed unnecessary. But your message alone left me with the feeling of relief and hope. And that's just wonderful, thank you, kind person.
you can do it, feelings are feelings that come and go, but you stay. you can pass thru this, you are gonna be good, you can do it.
10/24/24
what a wonderful mix of music i've randomly stumbled across! i'm not really sure what to write here, but since everyone else is jotting down their day's experiences like a journal, i feel the need to join in-- it just looked fun. :) it's currently 4:00 A.M., and i've spent the day resting, mostly. life recently has been pretty busy, but it hasn't been a terrible kind of busy, like i'd grown used to; instead, i've been visiting friends, catching up on my work, and drawing more.
almost 10 days ago (on 10/15) i turned 19, and to be honest, i still don't really feel like an adult, yet i don't feel like a child anymore. everything has changed so very much in the past few years for me personally, but i think every 19 year old feels similar to me in some way.
i've found myself wishing often for my life before, and yet, with a strange cognitive dissonance that i can't quite rid myself of, i'm glad to be ahead of those years. it's sort of bittersweet, more than anything-- i miss being a child, running around with my brothers without a worry, yet i do not envy what she will have to endure when she turns 12, 14, 16, and so on.
once again, i'm a bit unsure of how i should end this. i suppose, if anyone is reading this, i want to tell them to keep going. i know it's so, so hard, but if my short time on this earth has taught me anything, it's that there's always hope to be found, even if it's cliche to say as such. always look for small things to look forward to-- something as simple as looking forward to baking has been enough to keep me going. food, music, people, animals, plants-- there's so much beauty to be found in the mundane, and i will be the first to admit that i myself still find it difficult to remember this sometimes. but it's worth it to keep going, i promise. you are loved.
Currently have this blasting after finishing an hour-long documentary on Eva [I recall the name being "Making Sense of Evangelion, very good] and am bawling. It's so.. I don't even know how to say it, it just feels freeing and yet horrid, the best analogy I have for it right now and bear with me for this one, it feels like having a bullet going through my cranium, it's painful but also so much more, it's overwhelming but also mmmh.. interesting? And finding this just after is, well, just what I needed. Thank you, Eva.
and as a time marker for myself and others 1:27PM UTC+1, 31/10/24.
Hiya, it's only been 2 days I've already got a new thing to say to this public journal which is the comment section of the mai channel. So yesterday I kinda sorta declared my love to a girl, and she said that our friendship is dear to her, but not romantic. I speedran through the grief of it yesterday, got drunk, and even cried for once. Today is the morning after, and I've spilt all I could out in my sketchbook/journal, had a look at my situation and reflected a lot on what my plans are. Truth is, I don't have many, and that's good, that means I can experience so much. One video I'd recommend is Sisyphus 55's "getting over someone you love", as well as his entire channel. My life is more than this, it's fate. I'd like to leave you today on a quote from John Locke in Lost, "I needed that pain to get to where I am now."
12:06PM UTC+1, 03/11/24,
Rally out
Это прекрасный плейлист навивающий очень теплое чувство спокойствия, я правда очень рад что нашел его в такой период моей жизни, спасибо автор
Ты открыл для себя не просто плейлист.
@@kakulachka ага
10/19/2024 6:08 PM
I'm trying to get myself to create in a way thats more meaningful, whether it be within my art or forming connections with others. I feel a little more relaxed and ready to take on challenges while listening to music like this, so thank you for putting together this playlist ♥
it’s 3:39am on 9/24/24 and i just got this on my recommended… thank you. that’s all i got to say man. i’m glad people are using the algorithm for playlists like this and the frutiger aero ones. just blessed to have all this good music tbh
i saw this on my music rec. i had this gut feeling that if i did not click i would never see it again. now that i read the comments... boy am i glad.
10/2/2024. 7:13 pm, Todays school schedule was very good im still happy i got recommended this video, i saw the weird title, the rei fan art and got intrested. Best decision of my life.
10/30/2024, 1:50 PM EST: I was here, today’s the day!!
Dinner I’m cooking tonight for my family:
2 Flank Steaks coated in a raspberry marinade(for several hours)
Homemade mashed potatoes & Asparagus(covered in Parmesan coating)
Water, Wine, or a Blueberry beer as a drink.
Tonight I’ll also be doing my annual watch of over the garden wall, if you haven’t seen it, please watch it.
I want to those that love me happy, i want to make myself happy, I want a brighter tomorrow, and I’m hoping to achieve that sooner than later. It’s been a long road, but I’ll get there.
To anyone watching this from the future: recent, or distant keep pushing forward, you’ve got this
One day after you!! Happy Halloween!
@yeojingirly Happy Halloween!! 😊🎃 👻
10:14pm on 10/1/24 and was just recommended this video while stressing myself out over my near future plans
well just thought id stop what i was doing (learning the language of the country i ideally want to study abroad) to say thank you
10/27/2024
my birthday is two days away!! i feel like ive wasted all my childhood already but i still have a few good years left.
music is fantastic by the way!
Its cool that the title just changes every singular day
brah it changes way more than that
every few minutes
it just changed
2:26 on October 15, 2024 and I’m sitting in the library reading volume 5 of the 20th Century Boys Perfect Edition. I actually came here to practice painting on my iPad, but this story is just really good and my self control has never been the best 😅. Happened upon this playlist in RUclips recommended while I was reading. The typewriter song playing right now is a type of vibe I really love, especially sitting here in a calm and mostly empty building like this.
I’m happy today.
Naoki Urasawa is great, but I have a hard time finishing his series. In the middle of Pluto and Monster, dunno when I'll pick them up again.
@ I finished Pluto and really liked it a while back, but yeah Monster is one I started and need to get back to at some point. Finished 20thCB yesterday though, really enjoyed it.
thank you for enabling the comments. I have been listening to this playlist for several days by now, since 8/21 aproximately, this has been such a relief from some tough times. Thank you. I discovered new genres of music thanks to you. Greetings from Argentina!
Glad to find this, i'll leave my mark here to return later.
10/6/2024, 11:38:34 AM.
Turned 18 yesterday, I'm 18 years old now. Feels weird.
I got a new car too.
Growing up feels weird, getting to this point feels weird, doing the full 180 I had with everything in my life feels weird.
I look back and part of me wishes I had spent that time differently and I was a different person.
I wish I had done more favors for myself. I still enjoyed everything though, even if I was horrible so many things were bad.
I'm a lot more lonely now, and everything's so somber now.
I'm a lot less lonely now, and everything is so hectic.
Life has been so much of a strange dichotomy of things and everything has gone by so quick when I look back on it.
There's a lot of regret and there's a lot of missing those times.
Here's a quote.
"I cannot think of things done to me and things I have done. I have paid my respects and I must let them go. I must allow myself to breathe for the things I cannot change, but hopefully I can plant the seeds to counteract the bad I have seen and been."
Love everyone.
Congratulations!
For what it is worth, I feel very similarly- almost to an eerie extent. I hope you are doing well.
type shi
Thank you for the wonderful music.
Truly unique. I'm glad to leave my mark here. I hope you all have wonderful lives.
This is really cool. Thanks youtuber for bring me here❤
10/9/2024, three years ago today I had appendix surgery on 3 hours notice, my first surgery, with so little time to cope. And today on the same day, I am notified to may need surgery to fix my meniscus tear, beautiful coincidence.
actually bless you, this playlist is the exact thing i was looking for when i found it and it did not dissapoint
i love the typing instructions song .. been stuck in my head
This video was calling to me to listen. Thank god for that "pasta"
10.26.2024, 11:55:27 AM
Lucky for being able to find and listen to this playlist, quite chill
14/10/24 5:25 pm
Life's beauiful.
I love my college degree, I love my boyfriend and the people I've met here. I thought moving to the other side of the county for college all by my own except for my bf, who's also here with me, was going to be scary, but it's beautiful, it's full of surprises and little things that make me profoundly happy.
I have been listening to a lot of jazz lately, composing my own music too. I've been really productive, both academically and artistically. That doesn't mean I would be unhappy if I wasn't doing great at college or in my personal art, no. But it's a little plus, you know?
I've worked really hard to get here and I'm being greatly appreciated by my teachers and classmates.
This has just started, we are just at the begining of future.
Future seems so bright to me, I want to expand that brightness as much as I can.
I am happy but not satisfied, I can always be better than I alredy am!
- Crow
oh wow. ive been crying all night and this just popped up in my feed. its a really nice coincidence :p
what happened?
Thank you. I appreciate this. Im going through a lot!! gosh!!
im lucky to be here listening to this, thank you for providing the playlist
My youtube has gotten into the habit of recommending this video to me every day, which is very nice.
It feels like no matter how unique my clicks on this website may be, I always end up back here. A little rest stop.
Its always the hidden gems like this that make browsing youtube worth it.
My close friends will never know how much i truly love them. Not just a stereotypical “loveyou” but a genuine strong friendship bond of human connection.
Its not like theyre “fake” or something, we just live in different countries.
I moved when I was 13 and I had to leave them behind
We were like the quirky tween gang of kids that messed around, played outside and continued playing roblox in quarantine.
When I moved, they all grew up, and so did I. Theyre all so pretty and grown up now, I just wish they werent so busy with school.
Currently we’re all seniors in highschool, so the existensial dread of realising the gang won’t be together anymore is really catching up to me.
We still see eachother from time to time, on vacations, and when we do, its so magical.
I can recall the times I recently met up with them:
Stomach hurting laughter that could be heard from the other side of the street and deep night time convos with empty soda cans.
Once I go back home, though. It’s all gone. Im back to my usual life where days bleed into each other and I start forgetting the sweetness of socialising with my friends.
that is quite the, description. what a lovely story
I didn't know I needed a song about typing - thanks you so much for that :D
Your work is amazing, thank you for it!
Well it certainly isn't 8:46 pm no more, but it is October 16 when this video found me again. Twas poppin everybody :]
This video. ALONE. Made me dive DEEP into this youtube channel and everything else uploaded to it. There's google docs, encrypted video titles. There's lore about a lady who died in a car crash who was also a jazz artist. The "rip" video and it's follow-up that insert some really dark implications about the character and her lore. Just absolutely nuts how deep this channel goes.
Earned my sub!
4:55am 10/10/2024 was just scrolling and got this recommended this for some reason made me happy❤
Idk what is this but im glad to be here.
I'm in school rn going through the WORST cramps yall 💔💔 this music helping get thru it tho glad it was recommended to me
Thank you for this. I thought you had pre planned the vid and schedule it to release today. I like what you are doing with this video and your channel. Thx for being here on the platform and in my life.
This may sound extreme to say so suddenly but I mean what I've typed here. Thank you for giving me and others this experience. Smile 😊
Me at work, casually finding this in my feed. Perfect timing as i am bored.
Wow!! What a interesting video!! Changes everyday! Love it!!
Thank you. I play this every morning when I wake up
really?
This is now my favorite video. Now and forever. This is the good side of RUclips. I hope I never forget this video. This might have saved my life. This is absolute cinema. Thank you. Live a long, happy life for yourself and others. You are now one of my favorite people. You deserve everything and more. Again, thank you.
One of my closest friends is Autistic, and one of his interests is Neon Genesis Evangelion, another is cats. Yeah, so I immediately sent him this solely for the thumbnail. Pretty cool though!
i love this video so much
10/19/24 i love mai playlists n this was here so i clicked. i also love rei shes my favorite :) yesterday was a not so good day. but today will be better/ i feel it. i hope i can do good
crazy, i needed a playlist for hw, i refreshed youtube, its 10/30, 3:09pm thanks
thank you for this playlist!
11/26/24 20:13
Sense I have the confidence to comment on stuff finally, I jst wanna say I like to come back to this video a lot, usually when I'm strolling through a park or studying in a cafe, it really assists my anxiety and makes me dislocate when I really need to, preferably when i have no motivation to do anything or overwhelmed, thanks for youtube recommending me this everyday and you making this wonderful music shuffle. I would love to hear more tbh!!!! X3
Melodias agradáveis. Thank you. I liked that.
falante de português avistado
I bit late but I’m here!
Listening this every week since August 7th ❤
Perfect song perfect time
Learning russian finally helped me with something, thanks random guy for uploading this awesome video, it will come handy when i need to read something.
What's it say❓❓
@@Thanatos124 we shouldnt ever know
@@Thanatos124 It's really just a set of words. They are not assembled into any meaningful text. Unless that picture has some unknown context of its own, of course.
UPD: Okay, there is some context here and this text is taken from somewhere, but I don't know more than that. Something like russian 4chan, but source is blocked. Literal translations is:
Well, you're gonna have to put up with me. I'll verbalise ‘patience’ under the guidance of not falling in love a second time. I missed the first one! The second. How long does your love last? I don't have time to feel it. Tired of the usual, after realising more meaning in you than life. It will be hard to carry two meanings in you
im Russian, this text very hard to translate. many native speakers will not understand the meaning😊@@Thanatos124
This popped up on this date and time in my recommendations. Wow!
perfect welding playlist
this literally popped up in my feed just now, amazing
perfect playlist to find by pure chance while learning to draw at 4am
26:24 i have been looking for this song for like 4 years thank you So much for adding it here
i hope everyone gets love too
Randomly found this video. 11/1/2024 9:51
It seems...beautiful. Like I'm at peace listening to this. I feel great. I feel amazing
Incredible algo manipulation, I got this recommended on my feed less than 3 hours after the last title change
Your playlists give me life
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HAPPY BIRTDAY TO ME
O vídeo muda diariamente...:(
Oo happy birthday!
@@Coral_Ochi6091 😼👊
so calm... so peaceful... I love It!
it feels nice to hear.
Thank you 4 da music
damn, found this randomly.
Unique video! 10/10
Looking at the sky .I can’t help but think about dreams that feel impossibly far-away like stars just out of reach. Sometimes, it seems like they’re meant to remain there, shimmering but unattainable .
So close yet so far
so glad this popped up on my recommended, im also so glad i tapped on it
this goated‼‼‼
10/31/2024, 12:26 AM. The Thumbnail displays Rei dressed as Ichigo from Tokyo Mew Mew
10/31/2024, 11:16 pm. The thumbnail shows Rei wearing an apron on top of her regular uniform, looking off to the side and smiling.
(reply to this to remind me to periodically update it)
10/14/2024 9:15PM
Doing accounting homework, thanks for the music to relax to while doing it
comments have been opened for 24h.
maybe longer if no death threats
4 am have lab in 4 hrs lfg
i want to cry
no cuts in weeks
but if you delete your replies this whole thread will looked somewhat unhinged
So relaxing.😊😊
it's 10:55 AM on a Monday, I'm in EST.
I'm incredibly stressed, I'm going into a trade for mechanics, I'm trying to sort things with my relationship out, I'm cutting off toxic people. Everything is getting better but my god it is so hard. I'll update anyone who's interested in the next comment I leave the next time they open up, and I guarantee I'll have much more to say.
Until then, I guess we could consider ourselves friends if you decide to check in, friends, take care and stay safe. And remember now matter how hard things get, no matter how much they suck, you can find comfort in everything. As long as you understand that eventually, everything WILL be okay. You just need to have patience.
Okay, okay, goodbye for real this time then haha! You make sure to wear a smile today okay? You look a lot better with it. But it's okay if you can't, I understand. And I won't blame you for the days where your smile fades, as long as you promise me you'll wake up tomorrow.
I am your friend now, so I am checking in. how’s it going?
@@jacobvertiz1108 (11:43 PM EST 10/3/2024) good afternoon!! lovely to meet you, my dear friend jacob. you can call me cheryl from now on, or cherry, that's the nickname my friends gave me haha! I'm doing quite okay, it's still decently rough but i'm getting into physical drawing as of recent. It's going well if you were to ask me.
Though aside from that, my relationship is going well, and now we're just making silly little future plans.
i appreciate you taking the time to come and have a little conversation. I love talking to people. But I do think that's about all I have to say personally, so that does lead me to ask...
...what about you? How have you been holding up? Has life been treating you okay?
I'm trying to change my life but it's so hard right now because I'm still in high school and can't do much- so I both fear and envy you, hah! Jokes aside, how did you deal with toxic people being in your life during high school where you couldn't really "get away" from them? Oh, and also I'd love to hear more about your story!
@@thunder2275 hello thunder!! its very lovely to meet you, i'm cheryl. and i know this isn't something you asked about directly but i do suggest finding a way to turn that envy to inspiration. trust me, i've had many hardships. scars physical and mental from those around me for practically my entire life. if i can survive, you can too. no limits.
as for how i dealt with those people, to be frank im not entirely sure. sometimes i dealt with them by being meaner or a bit more rude to steer them away from me, which i regret because i ended up hurting some people unintentionally. i hope they're okay. if you want my advice, even if deep down it does truly affect you, id suggest doing your best to not care about it at least externally. im not saying to ignore it, i know that never works. but face it in more of a "so what?" kind of way. don't be aggressive though if that makes sense, try to remain neutral in tone. "i dont like your shirt/shoes/pants/looks" so what? there's no standards to meet, you're not here to impress anyone but yourself. style is subjective, beauty is too. if they don't like your hobbies that's just too bad, because you're gonna keep on doing it.
it's important to remember that other people don't define you. your scars don't define you. your hobbies and enjoyments don't define you.
NOBODY/NOTHING defines you except YOU.
be confident with how you are, but don't be egotistical if that makes sense. the kind of confidence where you're cool and you know it, but you don't need reassurance about it or need to gloat about it, just confident enough to not be affected by others.
that's not to say be independent, though, humans are social creatures after all. you're allowed to be "weak" or feel emotion, but it's important to not let others dictate those emotions.
i can tell you're a very bright and smart kid, you're probably gonna go places. don't let others stomp out the clear light that you've got shining. but also make sure to take care of yourself and take breaks okay? if you end up trying too hard, you'll end up making that light of yours burn and fizzle out much quicker. Keep the fire fed, but don't overload it.
no matter your doubts, take confidence with each and every step, never stop to second guess, so that when everyone sees you at your best they'll be nothing short of impressed. raise yourself up to raise those around you. be an inspiration. be kind. be warm. be open-minded. be patient.
but most importantly?
be you.
it's cool if you don't take anything here i've said to heart, cause i know everyone is all different with how they are and how they work. I also know that you probably know yourself better than I, or anyone does. but do know i will be here wishing you nothing the best.
as for telling my life story, to be frank that's quite a LOT. so I think maybe if you're willing to spare some patience, I'll take a few days to collect my thoughts and words properly all into one coherent message.
i hope i was able to help, and it's been wonderful meeting you. if you have any questions, or need any clarification, any curiosities please feel free to ask. we've all got at least 50 years on our lives, i can spare a few moments of patience to have a little conversation any time.
take care. if not care for yourself, care for yourself for the others that care about you. they're worried about you after all.
10/24/24.....12:05 am
Help the algorithm timing is beautiful i hope this was a sign of some sort bc my god its beautiful 🥰
wtf today is the day
i have no idea what i stumbled into, but I like it here! Between the changing titles, the style of music, and the people reflecting on their own lives - it creates a weirdly comforting atmosphere. It feels like a save point in a video game in a way.
10/30/2024, 2:16:34 AM
started out as free low quality counseling but i disabled the comments about a month ago. then youtube pushed the video and now i am too lazy to reply to everyone
Wise cat
10/16/24
my peak is everyday. i tire myself from all the work i do but it just makes me better for it. my physique is at its current peak and itll jsut get better, my japanese speaking and reading level is great and getting better, my career is getting closer. thanks God.
How curious, today its my birthday, anyway good luck to everyone
Happy birthday bro!