"Grow Old" by Jesse Stewart | The CRAWLSPACE | March 17, 2017
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- Опубликовано: 5 июл 2022
- Recorded live in Vancouver, BC
Performed by @JesseStewartfilm
Directed by Brianne Nord-Stewart
Videography by Brianne Nord-Stewart & Riel McGuire
Edited by Brianne Nord-Stewart
Special thank you to Natalie Catherine & Mat Gilroy
LYRICS
Always seems the darkest in the daytime
Gloomy in the sunshine
Sitting by the waterline
Serving ourselves off paper plates
Always gets the coldest in the bright times
Sullen in the sunlight
Sitting by the waterline
Drinking up all our escape
I wanna do it again tomorrow
Sit alone with you and hold
Ourselves against some shadows
If you could only let yourself grow old
If you could only let yourself grow
If you could only let yourself grow
If you could only let yourself grow
Only only only only
Let yourself grow old
Well there's a thousand dreary moments
I would love to have again
Dreaming of all the stolen plans we made
But when?
When will we find the time?
Fighting against our minds
Smiling at the thought of escaping our own kind
And I wanna do it again tomorrow
Sit alone with you and hold
Ourselves against some shadows
If you could only let yourself grow old
Only let yourself grow
If you could only let yourself grow
If you could only let yourself grow
Only only only only
Let yourself grow old
Well I'll keep every picture
Taken, stolen or drawn
And I'll take down all the scripture
We wrote in my front lawn
But what will I write tomorrow?
What chords can we make sound new?
Whose energy will I borrow?
When you're out and gone and back to it
And I wanna do it again tomorrow
Sit alone with you and hold
Ourselves against some shadows
If you could only let yourself grow old
If you could only let yourself grow
If you could only let yourself grow
If you could only let yourself grow
Only only only only
Let yourself grow old
Well there are slivers in my hand
From our shanty by the project
That oak, that ash, that sand
Intrusions I now reject
So keep them in a vial and I'll wear it around my neck
Keep them in a vial and I'll wear it around my neck
We all kill, we all die
We are truth but all lie
We could stand but we fly
And I just wanna dig some holes so I can be with you
I just wanna dig some holes so I can be with you
Be just like you
Just like you
I wanna do it again tomorrow
Sit alone with you and hold
Ourselves against some shadows
If you could only let yourself grow old
Can we do it again tomorrow?
Sit alone with you and hold ourselves against some shadows
If you could only let yourself grow old
Well there's them thousand dreary moments
I would love to have again
Dreaming of all the stolen plans we made
But when? When will we find the time?
Fighting against our minds
Smiling at the thought of escaping our own kind
And I wanna do it again tomorrow 
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So happy to see new releases. I hope jesses friends and family come together to make a documentary about Jesse some day.
I would watch. I hope it happens.
@@kandythehauntedhippy fr i recently found jesse and can't find much about him online so a documentary about his life and career would be cool
Jesse was one of my best friends since I was 14. I've thought about writing a book about him to be honest. I'm currently writing one about our late legendary friend Chris Shroomfield, and will include a section of Jesse's own words about Chris
@@defbizkit nice bro, I’d love to read it
@K'eye Ren May he rest in peace. The most beautiful souls are too tortured by this nasty world. I hope he is in a better place.
listen to this song 14 times a week and still "Ode to hope, maybe" messes with my head. R.I.P. Jesse Stewart lost in time but forever in our minds.
Hell I relapsed and my drug or choice is meth. I had seven months clean now since early May been struggling... So min s about 14 times every four hours lbs
Ode to hope, maybe.
Much Love.
“I hope you more than like it, I hope it gives some people hope.” RIP mandolin man
I lost my son in November of 2018 to an overdose. The last day we spent together we did what he had done many times before, drank coffee and listened to music. Grow old is the last song my Matt shared with me. Hearing this version brings me to tears, both were lost way too young. I'm sending huge love and much love to all of Jesse's family and friends.
*huge hugs and much love
It's funny how important music becomes when you're cleaning up. It's a good manta if you'll only let yourself grow old. I'm so sorry about your son.
Thank you so much for sharing Carrie. I am very sorry for your loss. I am grateful that you have these memories and that the stars aligned for this video to make it to you. Jesse is but one of many in the community of travelling souls to die by overdose, but from the comments on the videos I have of his live performances, many used his music in their sobriety journey. Most often those journeys involve many relapses and many survivors left to grieve. Thank you for the comment. I hope a bunch of folks read it and perhaps it saves a life.
@@bnordstewartbeautifully said , Jesse's lyrics are so eloquent and timeless, and especially relevant to those in the thick of addiction, barley treading enough water.. but not wanting to give up reminders of faith And hope ... Rest in paradise Jesse!
Very sad. Sorry for your loss.
I don't drink but today rum is settling the furious thoughts that like to run around my head. Rest in peace Jesse, another tortured soul gone before their time.
“Most men live lives of quiet desperation and die with their song still inside them.”
This quote rings true for most men, when I hear his music I feel like he got his song out and blessed the world with it.
Dude. For real sooo true. Thanks man
Wow this is it for me and so many others
Wow what a beautiful quote. Do you mind telling me where it comes from?
You spoke the words I struggle to say. ❤
Wow.... That made me want to write some of my stuff
Jesse's music found me at a really young age via a random post on a forum. Changed who I was forever. In tears this morning thinking about this tune. Mans riding the rails in the sky but I'm so glad I was here to see it from the beginning. So grateful. I sure miss this man.
Jesse left a lot to this world. I used to watch him play his songs when I was like 12. He never got the musical recognition he deserved for his words. As these songs live through generations, I hope we realize this genius.
I feel it ..howmannyyyyyyy let themselves be so honest and invested in there music...tje passion an soul and the platform to speak to others about how u feel or been threw......its real ...its always.. as long as i can share an tell others
..its livin on even if im growin old
Literary genius.. I found his sound to late.. RIP kid..
Anyone who knows about good music knows about jesse stewart. I was hoping him and Sean christ would've made it with their music.
COLD BEER👍👏 Was the First time I heard of JESSE STEWART and That song has been BLASTED out In my Modified BMW MINI in Manchester UK. To Find This Track too...The world was GIFTED By JESSE STEWART's Rifts👏👏👍👏👏 RIP Legend😥😥😥😥😥
Jesse may be gone, but unlike most, he will live forever. Thank you Jesse for your music and passion. I hope your family and friends take solace in knowing that his music has helped so many people all over the world. Even struggling veterans in Atlanta Georgia.
Thank you for releasing the unreleased videos. These are a gift.
You're very welcome!
Rip
I’m on a Jesse binge. This guys music has SO much soul and passion. Downloaded his album. Cheers from California
This is real music.
R.i.p still creating real music for the other greats up there.
I going through a Jesse binge right now, just found his music last week...and I just found out he's passed away. This makes me sad...truly. rip Jesse
I’ve been on and off Jesse for three years now and everytime I fucking love him so much more
Been on a Jesse binge for awhile now. He was before his fkn rime
To whomever is posting in his name-
Thank you. Jesse said I hope you more than like it, I hope it gives some people hope...and I'm not sure hope is the word I choose for myself, but I do more than like it, I need it, to feel like there is some solidarity amongst humans struggling with these ideas.
I will be grateful for anything and everything you choose to share, thank you.
Glad you're enjoying it! His page is still up but not sure who manages it. I am the one who filmed these videos for my page.
@@bnordstewartlove this!
God this kills me. I love this person I have never met, so fucking much.
I kicked a six year heroin/fent addiction and now I’m fighting with boos. This man’s songs give me strength.
Don’t give up!!! I promise it’s worth the fight!!! Take healing plants 🍄, micro if you can’t do the deep dive. I have hope that I never had before. Love to you from a stranger who knows the depth of these bounds and believes in beauty of the process of resurfacing. Heal your inner child too. Tell them you will take care of them from now on. 💗🙌🏻💗
@@LakinKrystle
Thank you. 5-MEO was a big moment of healing the little guy that suffered so silently, so many years ago. I got his back and I need to keep doing that.
@@LakinKrystle you’re wonderful.
@@conservat1vepatr1ot Absolutely 💗 - We got this!!!!! Show them that even through the trenches, we got back up, gloriously!!! Love you!!!
Met you a few times, will never forget. RIP Jesse!
I remember listening to marauder and cold beer back In the day, only just heard of Jesse's passing, sad times indeed so much soul and not enough time to share It all with us... been blasting all his songs all night shift! Sharing his songs in a place where they will get the recognition they deserve now ❤
Not gonna lie I balled my eyes 😭 out half way through this song.
Perhaps listen on repeat whenever you gotta purge your soul
@@bnordstewart how were you related to Jesse?
Me to. Gutted.
Yo me too caught me off guard trying to see thru watery eyes
Worked as a CO for a short time after I had a rough patch riding the ambulance, was watching too many of the sad shit calls come and go, and needed a change. Met some guys and gals who struggled through addiction, some of them wanted help, some of them were deep in their game and didn't see the end coming at them at a hundred million miles an hour. It's a fucking struggle, man. I, we, help whenever possible. However possible. Sometimes it's not enough. In itself, it's never enough. It's gotta be from within, really.
If you're reading this and you're fighting your veins or pushing that ooze and need a way out... it's in you.
thank you for this comment. I hope many more see it
Oh my ode to you Jesse!!!!!!! Awwwww
my f******** heart 💜 and soul connects with you soooo much. Epic song only you can sing
I miss him 😢
He had so much more to give!
One of the greatest live performances I've ever seen in my life.😢
Hurts me every time I hear 'ode to hope, maybe"....
This song hits hard. I agree with him. I hope it gives people hope. Hang In there. Recovery is hard. But using is sooo much harder.
I absolutely love this guy.
The emotions that he imparted into the music lives on..and I appreciate you Jesse.
One of my favorites from jesse ❤✊🏽💯🤗
Guy is absolute 🔥!
When amazing talent and amazing potential meet deep rooted demons and hurt. Love his music
So thankful I got to see him live before he passed
Listening to this again after a while. This helped me so much when my brother was going through his addiction. Woke up every day expecting to hear that he had passed away. He's now 3 years clean... So grateful that he decided to let himself grow old.
I too listen to this song praying that my daughter rids herself of the gorilla on her back. I am happy for you, proud of your brother. Still praying for my girl. Thanks for sharing
This is the first I heard he died man. That hurts, alot.
I can’t express how much I needed to here this today. I hadn’t noticed new tracks had been added. I have almost 9 years sober. Whoever I struggle I listen to Jesse. This was just what I needed to keep going
Today.
I also have about the same amount of clean time. From opiates and meth and booze. What a life to lead. Glad I escaped. and You too! Hope all is well.
@@jamisgood21 all is well…. I escaped heroin, cocaine, crack whatever else I could fit into my day. I am currently drinking too much…. Life is a slippery slope. Alcohol was never an addiction for me. But I just said I am doing something too much so I will make a point to slow it down a bit.
For now, enjoying Jesse a bit will put me back in line.
Just for today, my brother
@@lomcc3782 be sober for just today brother. ❤️
Love yourselves 💜and each other peeps
It's rare that I find somebody that I only want to hear live. Its just too good
As someone who has suffered from similar problems to Jesse during my life (and i know you're reading this somewhere Jesse)
I didn't just love it. It did give me hope. You accomplished what you set out to achieve with this song, and thank you for helping to me actually recover the hope that i had lost entirely for a good decade.
Bless you Jesse Stewart. Not perfect, but perfectly human. Just like all of us.
I'll never stop listening to your music, and you'll live forever through that. Your legacy is secure. Rest Easy.
I don’t think you spend much time reading RUclips comments in hell.
If you could have only let yourself grow old, jesse. Im still angry it took you. You took you.
Thank you for all this great content on your channel. I never knew this man but his passion for his music and expressing his pain and love speaks to my soul. Sometimes I wonder how he would feel knowing how many people his music has touched and helped. Rest peaceful young man. Gone but never forgotten.
Oh thank you! I love music and I'm grateful to have been able to film some videos for the musicians I met.
Rest easy brother, we miss you
His music saved my life. I was lucky enough to talk to him a few times. I will always consider him a kindred spirit
Wow, you lucky duck. I woulda loved just to have talked to him once, let alone a few times. He seems, in this vid, almost melancholy at the end, asking for a towel...."fkn greaseball over here," looking at the floor like he's ashamed. Damn Jesse. I wish somebody would've told you you have nothing to be ashamed of. Except being human.
Still love this song!!😢
This man was so under-appreciated it's very sad. A musical genius in my opinion
This guy was insanely talented but also clearly had a ton of demons. Wherever he is I hope he's better off there
“When people don't express themselves, they die one piece at a time.”
Love you jesse.
I started tearing up as soon as he started singing.
Thank you Jesse. I'll cherish this song for the rest of my life.
Play everything fast in paradise
Jesse, i really hope before you passed away that you realised you helped so so so many people thoought your music was more then really good!! you have helped so many people with your music! rest easy you fucking legend
Iv talked to him & he is so genuine & very nice ..he even signed my hat :)
can't get enough of this, wow.
When I hear Jesse play and sing, its like being hugged by love and all of the best moments of my life. Even with jesse gone, the music still brings comfort up to the surface and a part of my soul feels like it can breath; even if only for a few minutes. 💜 thank you for sharing this video and I feel grateful to have been privileged to hear Jesse's music.
Damn, I used to listen to Jesse all the time for a long time. Took a break and for some reason I thought about checking see if he had anything new recently to find out he passed away ): Drugs have never been safe but this Fent is another beast. The risk just isn't worth the high anymore. Stay safe out there!
I miss singing my heart out to this and Another last chance all the time when I was using meth and I have been clean for two years so this song is just super relatable and I have so much personal attachments to this song I love u so much Jesse Stewart and I will listen to you till I die.
This rendition is heart wrenching to watch and listen to. It's so beautiful and visceral and has me in tears. What a loss..
Not having a good year.... but Jesse your songs still hit. Raises my spirits when I sing along
Homie, mee too. We can make it better I hope and prey life lets up and you start to shine Hun. Much love
I love Jessie's music I've been listening for years thru ups and downs his music always spoke to me
I met jesse in some small town in northern california in 2015ish and I can honestly say the the world lost a amazing musician and an even more amazing person. RIP jesse
This is one of my favorite songs from the underappriciated legend, so sad he left us this early.. Rest in peace Jesse our hearts carry the memorie.
I only recently 'discovered' Jesse's music and have been listening to the tunes, and lovin' it, from all the way down here in Queensland, Australia.
Rest easy.
BIG THANKS TO GOD. I Had The chance to see this guy live. Was the best night ever.
Hunter S. Thompson
“We are all alone, born alone, die alone, and-in spite of True Romance magazines-we shall all someday look back on our lives and see that, in spite of our company, we were alone the whole way. I do not say lonely-at least, not all the time-but essentially, and finally, alone. This is what makes your self-respect so important, and I don't see how you can respect yourself if you must look in the hearts and minds of others for your happiness.”
Thanks for the hope Jesse. I hate that you are not here
If this doesn't make you feel something in your "soul" you are lost. You are lost but by so many they have found.
“Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.”
― Anais Nin
❤
Great dude 🤘🏻
These numbers can't be right it was at 2.7k views when I found this a week ago and I've listened at least a hundred times while driving. Lol so fcking good! RIP Jesse
Tell you friends? Share share share?
@@bnordstewart already have 👍
1010 am sunday sept 10 balling my eyes out drunk already listening to this king rip jesse your music helps me so much wish i could have met you maybe oneday in another life rest easy!!!
Hits hard this one does.
One of those songs that punches you in the gut.this isnt a song,its a soul manifest.rest in peace jesse, thanks for this tune ❤ means a lot
So sorry you're not with us anymore, you, beautiful soul. Rest in peace, Jesse ❤️
Makes me happy seeing jessie still being remembered thanks for this
5:11 "i hope people more than like it, i hope it give some people hope" it did, it and all that you did gave hope to many. It's undeniable, looking at these comments.
I just learned right now that Jesse passed away. I love his music man. I'm so sorry to hear that. Rest in power my brother...
Rip buddy, thank you for all the beautiful tunes
"I hope you more than like it. I hope it gives some people hope"
Goddamnit. Ive been listening to your music for nearly a decade and this week when the cold set in all I could think about was you. You got a grown ass man crying over here. Ive been clean for some years now I wish you could have done the same. Maybe Ill catch you on my last train outta here
Bro I’m there too. But I got over a week clean right now. Love you bro. I would be devastated if you were lost.
Thanks man
What a voice !!❤
Makes me think of all those friends I've lost to early. May you never grow old. Rest in power jessee.
Hits home ❤ an Ode to Hope
Its crazy that in such a short life, Jesse Stewart was able to influence the world so much with nothing but a mandolin and a camera. A completely unique genius. What a fascinating life that he lived. I would Find a documentary fascinating. May he rest in peace
Love this so much!
Facts ! Love it bro 👊 🔥
Love you jesse. So much emotion.
Mark Twain
“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.”
― Mark Twain
Genuine. Real life. Awesome.
damn this version is amazing, made my day finding this, RIP jesse
Wow. Tears came less than minute in 😊
Love-Love this song! Definitely gives me hope, and inspires my own music. Thank you Jesse Stewart for your beautiful music!
So good !!!!!!
It gave me hope jesse so much so I kicked my habits and this was always in my playlist. From marauder to cold beer and back to the delousing session gunna miss you brother even though I have personally knew you I feel as we all got to know a little about you from your music. Rip dude I will continue to spread your music to people who will appreciate it as much as I do
"Thanks. I hope you more than like it, I hope it gives some people hope"
Fuck man I like seeing your videos of him cuz we get to see a small peice of what he is behind the music and im just now finding these and there literaly tearing my heart to shreds like I can't even rn I hope where ever he is hes happier ther then he was while he was here and hearing that this song was about a fuckin downer and thats what took him out is crushing I hope to see him in the other realm or world or whatever and just talk to him frfr
Thank you man frfr
The 1oak
Dirtytrrd
I feel the exact same way
Yeah I know intimately how heroin and fentanyl, hell any opioids including methadone and Suboxone are absolutely torture and hell to kick. I'm battling my addiction to fentanyl.... I guess I understand now how selfish I really am. I never understood what my ex girlfriend was saying when she said that I was selfish.... Because I shared anything I had I would give people my Last dollar and the shirt off my back to someone else. Selfish because I didn't think or care about what my addiction was doing to the people that actually care about me.
Killing it man
F'n Amazing.
Jesse 🖤🖤🖤
RIP Jesse
"an ode to hope... maybe..." Rip dude
R.I.P Jesse. We remember you bro.
Rip mate, one of the best 👌
Steady waves of goosebumps whole song long.