she’s so brave for speaking about her miscarriage. this gives this song such a special place in my heart. what a strong woman. so proud of you Ashley.🤍
Not just about the miscarriages though. She said in an interview how she's been open about her struggles with having kids, but that she recently received news that her body was now healthy enough to carry kids. So, it was about her struggle in the past and ending with some hope since she can now.
@@deercat9918 please educate yourself. A rainbow baby is a term used even by medical professionals for the name of a baby after a miscarriage. You sound very ignorant and rude.
@@cheyennebailey6211 I'm really sorry, from the bottom of my heart! Humans are often called angels when they resemble purity and as saviours after a hard time, that is why I wrote that. But I understand, sending you over strength and love!
@@FionaFioo It's fine. And I know humans are often called angels because they're pure. It just irritates mothers that have angel babies when people say something like that.
I've had 7 miscarriages and no answers. This song is just perfectly what we feel through it all. I have never overcome the mental trauma it all does but I have, within me, reserved an immense excitement about being reunited and seeing all seven of my babies one day again. I love Halsey and this song for what she represents for alot of us in this song.
@@kyralawson117 It may be the sound of her heartbeat to the baby since they can hear heartbeats and find comfort in the sound of their mother's heartbeat in utero.
I’ve never wanted kids myself, but Jesus Christ, I’ve never wanted someone to have a baby this bad. Children aren’t for me, but I still sob at this because you are so deserving of this miracle and I sincerely hope you get to have your own little one when the time is right❤️
You are very strong to recognize that kids aren’t for you. I know people that get told lots of nasty things for not wanting kids but it’s not something to be ashamed of. Maybe you’re more of a fun aunt or you’ll be a great grandma. Those are important roles too. It’s kind that you can still feel her emotion here and be compassionate.
I cried to this song so many times when I lost my first pregnancy. I just found out this morning that I have another shot at motherhood. Please stay with me little bean! I hope it's your turn to arrive
This song is so relatable for me. I lost my daughter at 5 months pregnant and I had to deliver her. Through all of the pain that I went through, somehow I still want her more. I’ve loved her for all of my life , & I’ll never stop loving her. ❤️
Nina Mirenda So sorry for your loss 💕 I lost my son @ 4 mos pregnant. And you are so right, we will never stop loving our angels. (If you’re still trying, I’ll be praying for you, that you get your rainbow 🌈)
Michaela Russic I am so sorry for your loss as well. I am going to be trying again soon. Thank you so much for that. I will keep you in mine as well. ❤️
I ignored that little feet line all my life. For me this song has always been a sad breakup song, i dearly wanted someone to come back in my life and they did, but at that time idk... I just cut all my ties. I still regret that decision to this day.
My favorite song of Halsey. It took me 4+ years to get pregnant only to have a miscarriage. But now I have my son. My greatest gift. He will be 2 in January. We share our birthday ❤
“they told me once, nothing grows when a house ain’t a home. is it true, honestly, when it’s all a part of me” The opening lyrics are so tragic tbh. She’s talking about herself. Her body would become the literal house of her child until the moment of birth. It’s as if she’s blaming herself for being too, perhaps broken, that she is unable to nurture and “grow” life. Her child would literally be a part of her as its existence comes from her own. I can’t imagine how she feels. This song makes me cry and touches me in a different way because it reminds me so much of my own mother. She grew up unloved and abused, told everyday there was something wrong with her. She moved out very early and got married at only 20yo to start her own family. She believed that by having children, she could finally be loved by someone that she loved. Because of her pcos and severe endometriosis which required 10+ surgeries in her teens alone, she tried for over 9 years to become pregnant before she finally had my older brother. Nine long years of all the emotions in this song and more, but above all was love. Love that was always there and always will be. I truly hope Halsey(Ashley) can one day know and experience the love of having a child, in whatever way it may come to her.
forever insFired this hit me so hard.. My mother also grew up in an abusive home and she has never recovered.. My mother also has bipolar and array of other mental health issues/health issues. It has taken away what could have become.. She mentally abused me (unintentionally, I believe) and I also developed bipolar because of it.. I was just writing about how unloved I feel and how one day, maybe I could have a child to share my love with. I dream about him/her every single day.. i am even trying to better myself so I can be a decent mother, maybe even a good one? ..I love Halsey and her music because I can relate to her on levels other people may not be able to as much.. Or care too, at least. This comment just made this song that much more special to me. Thank you for sharing. I really hope your mom is doing better now. Also, I apologize for the very long comment.
The line "a flower bud in concrete" also seems to convey the same line of thought that she feels uninhabitable for life which is a pretty common line of thinking among women who deal with infertility
I cant listen to this song without tears in my eyes. Most raw, emotional thing she ever did. It's so heartbreaking, like my soul shattered. Halsey I love you so much. One day your wish will come true. 🥺🥺🥺💖💖💖
Ashley, I k ow you'll never read this, but this song literally saved my life. After my miscarriage in my first pregnancy I was very close to ending my own life. I was a black hole of depression and my marriage was suffering because I was in despair from the loss of my baby. When my husband left for work after a heated argument about me laying in bed all day again I was very close to calling it quits with life, love, and loss. I was listening to your channel on Spotify and More came on. I cried, had a panic attack, then cried some more as I played this song on a loop and sang the lyrics through a cracked and broken voice. I flushed the pills, poured myself a glass of wine and continued listening to this song on a loop until I convinced myself that my dream of motherhood wasn't crushed and that I was worth that life I've always wanted. Thank you for sharing your soul. It was a beacon to me that I wasn't alone and that this life I now have as a mom to a wonderful baby girl was still ahead.
They fact that she released a song about something like this couldn’t be easy for her. I have to applaud her for opening up about something so heartbreaking and emotional
I am not a woman and I'll never be able to feel this feeling but her lyrics and vocals just forced me to feel her heart so closely that I literally just broke down. I tear up every time I hear this song
Played this for my mom on Mother’s Day. It took her almost 10 years after being told she couldn’t have kids to get pregnant with me. This song hit her so hard, she said it was like Halsey picked the words right out of her head (this was before I told her about Halsey coming out about her miscarriage and endometriosis) Halsey and my mom actually have very similar stories. Endo runs in our family too, and my mom suffered many complications before finally giving birth, but we’re both here now, 25 years later. My mom one-hundred percent believes Halsey’s dream of motherhood will become reality, her journey’s just not over yet 🥰💜💜💜💜
my nan had similar struggles. she was my pop-pop's second wife, and they got married in '65 when she was 30 and pop-pop was 38. They struggled with fertility for 13 years until my dad was born in '78 to a 43 year old mother and a 51 year old father
Having endometriosis and fearing I may never be able to have children myself, this song speaks to me the most from the album. And the thing is, I really just want kids more and more... everyday. This is the first song I learned, the first one I cried to (apart from Without Me when it was released as a single). I can’t wait to see Halsey in June, it’ll be my first concert. I’d understand if this song may be too emotional to sing, but I’m really looking forward to hearing More live. Her vocals live are *chefs kiss* Plus, her singing this live will just double mine and everyone else’s emotions, I just know it.
Jade Taylor I have Endometriosis too and this made my heart so heavy. I thank her for being brave enough to share these beautiful words. It gave me chills and makes me cry when I listen to it. I’m so thankful for this song, and so thankful for Halsey. It’s nice to meet you too, Ashley 🖤✨
I saw some others talking about this song online saying she said she won’t be performing this song live. I’m not sure where she said it but yeah. Either way good luck with having children one day I hope you get blessed with them one day 💗
As a woman who miscarried back in May, I thought I was too traumatized and heartbroken to want to try again, but I've found this song and it makes me realize just how badly I still want a little one, and it gives me so much hope. I want to so badly try again after hearing this song on repeat.
My husband and I have lost two babies in the last two years and are now 5 months pregnant after years of struggling and praying. Never give up. Rainbows remind us that even after the darkest clouds and the fiercest winds there is still beauty and miracles can happen! 🤍
This song is so beautiful yet so hard to listen I'm praying for Halsey that one day she finally gets what she wants the most, she deserves the world 💗🙏
My friend experienced a miscarriage in November and I felt that this is such a touching and loving song to help comfort her at this time. Thank you Halsey! From the bottom of my heart I love you and am so grateful that you create art in a number of various forms to share with the world. It's a selfless act and I know its slim that you'll see this but I hope you know the impact you have on people is immense 💜 Stay strong, ur power is beyond measure!
Cortney Bitsoi I’m sorry your friend has to go thru this 💔 I know all too well the hurt she’s feeling. We lost our only son (so far) to a 2nd trimester MC in October of 2017. What a wonderful friend you are tho, for immediately thinking of your friend and wanting to comfort her with this song 💗
I want to send to my friend who just experienced a miscarriage after 8 years of infertility, but am scared it will be too triggering. Should I send it?
To any who has had a miscarriage, I am so sorry for your loss. I have never experienced this and I’m not of age to have a child so thank you comments for educating me and I express my condolences. ❤
I connect with this song a lot. I had a miscarriage last year when i was 6 months pregnant and it has been the hardest event of my life. Thanks Ash for sharing this to the world❤️
Breathin Ariana So sorry you had to go thru that, I also know the hurt of a late term MC all too well (mine was 2nd trimester, in 2017) How amazing it is that she can make music that touches our souls & that we can relate to. I hope (if you’re still trying) that you get your rainbow soon 🌈
I literally can’t listen to this song with out crying but hey im not mad about it cuz it’s a beautiful song🥺💗💗💖💖i hope for nothing but the best for her ily halsey💗💗💗
I don't understand why people cry to music. I mean yeah this is a really good song, but that's what it is. A song. One that relates with me.. but that's not the point..
This song got me through being told “never” I’d never have kids , I’d never carry , I’d never conceive .. and here right am 90 days from meeting my rainbow and my miracle. This song is so raw and beautiful.
I'm so happy that you're that strong to talk about something so personal in such a vulnerable way I can't listen to this song without tears in my eyes and a feeling of pride in my heart, I'm so proud of being a part of this and of being capable to see you growing as and artist and a human being you changed my live and I'll be always grateful for that ily
i used to painfully cry to this song, now im tearing up but im smiling uncontrollably thinkin about her very beautiful child, this gives me a sense of safety about the future when things dont look so bright (now) life surprises us with things even more than we even could ask for. things will be okay soon, and eventually we just gotta wait for the divine timing
I can’t have kids.. I always wanted them This song gives me some hope that if I keep my faith I can adopt one day and give a child a loving home and life I pray for my future family everyday and hope that soon I’ll get to meet them
I feel like that this song is to her future child. On the info on Spotify, she says that this is to a person who isn't in the world yet. Plus on her Instagram post with the list of her songs from the album, it shows the song "More" pointed to her stomach.
Someone who has lost 11 babies this cuts deep into my soul I hope she’s get to be a mum and proud of the awareness she has bought for people who have gone through the same thing to talk about it xox
As someone who is 9 months pregnant and welcoming my little girl into the world in 17 days, this broke my heart. I've never had to misfortune of experiencing a miscarriage and I pray I never do, but my heart breaks for every woman and couple who has. I can say that the moment I knew, I loved my baby with my whole heart. It doesn't matter how far along. I can't imagine losing that.
tbh, the loss of my baby is a strugle i still deal with everyday. everyday i need to distract myself. mostly with work and drugs. it's like my body denied me any chance of happiness. there was never any choice for me. my body decided it wouldn't hold a baby and i regret everyday that I didn't know i was pregnant until it was too late. i would of taken better care of myself. seeing a baby and all the people on my feed with babies or annoucing pregnancies just makes me even more upset. this is a good song that is passed around the miscarriage communities i'm in. the fact that someone can take our pain and put it into a beautiful ballad is so helpful. bless ashley
@@sh-wa-na8255 hi, I might bot relate to you personally, but just know, it gets better. It’s completely understandable that you’re using external sources to console yourself, but don’t risk your health, it’s not what your child would’ve wanted ☺️ more power to you though, stay strong, and remember, it DOES get better
I just went through a pregnancy loss 3 weeks ago…. I have listened to this song repeatedly. It makes me cry, but miscarriage is so isolating, and hearing her sing and speak about it gave me some peace. Maybe that sounds stupid but it’s how I feel
"and when you decide it's your time to arrive, i've loved you for all of my life" halsey i am so SO happy for you, congratulations! can't wait for you to sing this in the future to your kid
This caught me SO off guard, me and my fiance have been trying to conceive and we've lost 2 babies to ectopic and had 2 emergency surgeries... we just found out were pregnant and it's too early to know if its healthy and in the uterus safely... I had no idea this song was going to hit SO CLOSE to home. I'm balling inside Raleys as I shop. But I LOVE IT!! 💗💗💗
Halsey. You touched my soul, my heart, my womb. Never give up hope. I buried 2 babies, had 8 miscarriages before we had our son. Hes 5 now n this song made me look at him in a new, more blessed, light. God/,Love please bless you....when you time comes...you will be blessed with a bundle of joy...aggravation, craziness, happiness, etc. Your child will hear this song n know how cherished he/she is. (I see you with a daughter 🥰💗☯️💗🥰)
Now she announced she's expecting...All in it's own timing. 🖤 I'm so happy for her! I suffered a miscarriage at the beginning of covid last year and my heart hurts with this song...I have faith my day will come one day too. 🥺🖤
I can't get a hold of myself when she sings the chorus, my heart is just... AAHH. I can't even describe the fact that I feel so much love when I hear this song... she is just so talented, she really knows how to pull on everybody's heartstrings.
I absolutely believe Ashley will have her lil one as she says..."when its your time to arrive." He or she may not arrive as easily as other children are able to but in the end that is how it was supposed to be. I truly believe it will be a reality for her.
Hasley makes me feel less alone in pregnancy loss. Every time I listen to this song, I think about how, with my first and only pregnancy, I had to TFMR my son at 17 weeks and three days. I think about him daily, and sometimes, listening to this song gives me hope. The loss of a child is never easy. I hope one day I will become a mother to a living child.❤
This song hits home all too well. I lost my first pregnancy in November of last year. I never got to see my baby until the miscarriage and it killed me. I'm now pregnant with my rainbow baby and everyday I struggle with anxiety of losing this baby too. Its not something you ever get over or truly recover from.
I can't relate to this song, but your voice and the fact I know how hard is this subject for you makes me cry.. I just want you to find happiness and peace, I wish you the best Halsey. your music was a refuge when I had hard times and it still is, I want to give you back all you've done for me... I really really love you and I'm so thankful you exist. Ashley I'll always support you no matter what 💗
i don't think so. i just think its about her efforts and failings to conceive and try for a baby. or knowing its going to be difficult so immortalising love in a song for her future baby
When I was little my dad left me, everyone said he would never come back and gave up but I still miss him deeply and this song makes me think of him,thank you for sharing this song 🥰
Oh my God!!! And now she's going to be a mom!!!!! I am so happy for her. She wanted to have a child so much. I just can't find words to describe my happiness She will be an amazing mother!!!! Congrats Queen ❤️
They told me once, nothing grows When a house ain't a home Is it true, honestly When it's all a part of me? A couple years of waiting rooms Finding God, and lose Him too Wanna scream, but what's the use? Lyin' awake, and I stare at the door I just can't take it no more They told me it's useless, there's no hope in store But somehow I just want you more I want you more Somehow, I just want you more I want you more Somehow, I just want you more Wooden floors and little feet A flower bud in concrete Feelin' so incomplete Wonder will we ever meet? And would you know it right away How hard I tried to see your face? A little screen, a photograph, mine to take I sit and I stare at your clothes in the drawer I cry and my knuckles get sore 'Cause I still believe it won't be like before And now, somehow, I just want you more I want you more Somehow, I just want you more I want you more Somehow, I just want you more And when you decide it's your time to arrive I've loved you for all of my life And nothing could stop me from giving a try I've loved you for all of my life Loved you more Somehow, I still love you more Love you more Somehow, I still love you more (Loved you more) (Somehow, I still love you more) (Love you more) (Somehow, I still love you more)
Sitting here alone after leaving my doctors appointment. Tired after trying for so long to have a baby in my arms. This song makes me think of what could be.. I have never had a miscarriage so this song hits different for me. I can’t even get pregnant to begin with.. Even though I don’t have a baby in my arms yet, he/she still hold a special place in my heart. And always will. “Somehow I still love you more.”
this song hits different when you know who she wrote it to. even tho i'm very very young i want to be a mom too and i can't wait for the moment i can hold them in my arms. she went through so much shit already :(( i wish her all the best. damn i feel so much more connected to her, i love her so much :((💕
I miscarried my first and only pregnancy on April 26, 2023. My due date was today, November 30, 2023: I’m here to honor a life that never got live through this beautiful song. RIP Baby Westwood 😢
Its like, at the end when the song is muffled, I feel as if its the baby thats listening to her through her womb and feeling loved. Its him/her coming to life and even before its born, learning about the endless love about to come.
I have endometriosis and have been trying for a year and a half. We had a positive last October, but it ended being a chemical pregnancy 🎗 this is so heartbreaking 💛
Miscarriages are SO common & i had no idea until i miscarried with my first child... it was the hardest thing i have ever been through. I know how hard it is to talk out about it, i started talking about it & it got other people messaging me telling me their stories that’s how i realized how common it was. 1 in 4 women miscarry. I’m so glad that Halsey decided to put this song on the album i know it couldn’t of been an easy decision. I hope more women feel less alone when they lose their sweet little baby. I also hope & pray that Ashley will be blessed with a beautiful healthy baby soon ❤️
I don't really like small kids or babies, but I would never wish for anyone to have to feel the pain of losing their child before they even got to know them, I haven't experienced anything like it but it must be soul crushing. Halsey, I hope you have a lovely baby someday soon and they are going to feel so loved when they hear this.
she’s so brave for speaking about her miscarriage. this gives this song such a special place in my heart. what a strong woman. so proud of you Ashley.🤍
Noëmie wha?
@@samsanice This song is about her 2 miscarriages... it's sad but it's the truth and through this song she speaks that truth.
Wakanda she actually had 3
Not just about the miscarriages though. She said in an interview how she's been open about her struggles with having kids, but that she recently received news that her body was now healthy enough to carry kids. So, it was about her struggle in the past and ending with some hope since she can now.
Man! I love her even more now I learned something new didn't know she had miscarriages
okay but imagine her future child one day listening to this song and feeling so wanted and loved
stop I'm gonna cry 😭😭😭😭😭
Bruh she can't have kids
I licked a cat 😐😐😐😐
Honeymoon Globe I ate a chicken
Honeymoon Globe I ate the cat
"And when you decide, it's your time to arrive, I've loved you for all of my life."
When you realize the meaning, it's so sweet. 🥺💗
I hope she has a baby someday, and that baby will know how much she loved them. She even did it before they arrived. ♡
I hope she has a baby someday, and that baby will know how much she loved them. She even did it before they arrived. ♡
this line breaks my heart every time
What’s the meaning?
@@wesly2089 she had a miscarriage, so she's saying those lines to her future baby.
Anyone back here to listen and cry to this song now that she’s pregnant? Her rainbow baby is so loved 🥰😭
As a mommy who had experienced miscarriage myself I am so happy for her that now she have a rainbow baby.
by millions and the haven’t made their entrance yet 🥰
Stop calling her child gay :/
@@deercat9918 I'm not. A "rainbow baby" is what a lot of babies are called that are born following miscarriages. Like the rainbow after a storm.
@@deercat9918 please educate yourself. A rainbow baby is a term used even by medical professionals for the name of a baby after a miscarriage. You sound very ignorant and rude.
Coming back to this after her pregnancy photo... Literally crying, I hope her child will listen to this in the future :'(
IM SCREAMING IM SO HAPPY FOR HER
@@roschmaa.3454 I know I can't stop crying as well so so so happy, may God give her the best throughout the journey
As someone that has suffered a stillborn, please don't refer to her baby as an angel thank you.
@@cheyennebailey6211 I'm really sorry, from the bottom of my heart! Humans are often called angels when they resemble purity and as saviours after a hard time, that is why I wrote that. But I understand, sending you over strength and love!
@@FionaFioo It's fine. And I know humans are often called angels because they're pure. It just irritates mothers that have angel babies when people say something like that.
Can't listen to this song without crying even though I can't relate to what she's feeling at all, everything in this song pulls on your heartstrings.
What is she talking about
Elio Abou Jaoudeh she’s talking about her trouble carrying a pregnancy to term, to put bluntly, her miscarriages. She’s singing to her future baby.
I know Right😢😭💘💔
Vee LouC I need her
I’ve been on the TTC journey for almost two years and this just made me completely bawl! A co-worker told me about it today
I've had 7 miscarriages and no answers. This song is just perfectly what we feel through it all. I have never overcome the mental trauma it all does but I have, within me, reserved an immense excitement about being reunited and seeing all seven of my babies one day again. I love Halsey and this song for what she represents for alot of us in this song.
im so proud of you, so much. never lose hope. lots of love.
Lots of love and well wishes to you and yours.
Adopt. There are kids who need you.
You are so strong ❤️❤️❤️ I couldn’t imagine loosing one baby let alone 7 of them
You are soo strong..never lose hope...lots of love..♥️♥️♥️
The fact that the effect on the backing vocals at 2:17 make it sound like a sonogram with the baby’s heartbeat in the back 💔💔
No...i didnt even realise that.Sobbing.
It's is
this song is so beautiful.. gosh I love her.
It's not a babies heart beat is over double the speed of an adults it sounds like a train
@@kyralawson117 It may be the sound of her heartbeat to the baby since they can hear heartbeats and find comfort in the sound of their mother's heartbeat in utero.
This hits different now like she’s actually pregnant guys 🥺
Ikkkkk🥺❤️❤️
so happy for her 😭
Literally came to listen to it after I saw the announcement
😭😭
I came to listen because of her announcement 🥺
Coming here to cry happy tears now that Halsey finally has Ender. ; ___ ;
Me🧡🧡🧡🧡🍰
SameT - T
I’ve never wanted kids myself, but Jesus Christ, I’ve never wanted someone to have a baby this bad. Children aren’t for me, but I still sob at this because you are so deserving of this miracle and I sincerely hope you get to have your own little one when the time is right❤️
Please don't use name in vain.
@@petermyles8096 WTF Jesus Christ! Holy shit.
Amen. 💜
You are very strong to recognize that kids aren’t for you. I know people that get told lots of nasty things for not wanting kids but it’s not something to be ashamed of. Maybe you’re more of a fun aunt or you’ll be a great grandma. Those are important roles too. It’s kind that you can still feel her emotion here and be compassionate.
@@petermyles8096 God dangit Peter not again
I feel like it's her most personal song, it hits different
It is about her miscarriages and wanting a child. You can't get much more personal then that. I Love her
It actually is. Look for her spotify story about it 😅
She said it is
“And when you decide, it’s your time to arrive, I’ve loved you for all of my life”
And now she’s having her little rainbow baby🥺🌈
ikr so cute God knows what he was planing
Does anyone know the gender?
🥺🌈❤💕💕
Sheeeeeesh
@@Blake1720 a boy named ender
it’s finally here,her dream is finally here
halsey is pregnant
i’m so proud of her
i’m so so proud of her
please I'm crying harder now
:)
Same :>
Ikr I'm proud of her too
I cried to this song so many times when I lost my first pregnancy. I just found out this morning that I have another shot at motherhood. Please stay with me little bean! I hope it's your turn to arrive
I have a sister who had troubles with pregnancies. After years she’s finally having a third bean of her own!!! I’ll have hope for you!!!!
Sending you positive vibes! Hope this is your rainbow baby 🤞
What happened? Hope it ended good
@@ashhmariie I'm four months along and he's a healthy little one so far!
@@cassimihokovich3514 I'm happy for you. 🥰🥰
This song is so relatable for me. I lost my daughter at 5 months pregnant and I had to deliver her. Through all of the pain that I went through, somehow I still want her more. I’ve loved her for all of my life , & I’ll never stop loving her. ❤️
Nina Mirenda So sorry for your loss 💕 I lost my son @ 4 mos pregnant. And you are so right, we will never stop loving our angels.
(If you’re still trying, I’ll be praying for you, that you get your rainbow 🌈)
Michaela Russic I am so sorry for your loss as well. I am going to be trying again soon. Thank you so much for that. I will keep you in mine as well. ❤️
Nina Mirenda Thank you 💕
Hugs all around mamas. I lost my girl at 7 months. It's rough. Even 14 years later.
Dark Luna I’m so sorry for your loss. Yes it is. I lost my daughter 2 years ago and there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about her.
As someone who struggled for 4 years to have a baby, this song hits me in ways I never knew a song could.
God bless u
reading this comment while listening to the song made me break down in tears. praying for you beautiful stranger 💜
Aww
This song hits harder knowing she's pregnant now
I'm crying
My 'tough guy' eyes are leaking.
I
Congratulations 🎊🎉🍾🎈
I ignored that little feet line all my life. For me this song has always been a sad breakup song, i dearly wanted someone to come back in my life and they did, but at that time idk... I just cut all my ties. I still regret that decision to this day.
My favorite song of Halsey. It took me 4+ years to get pregnant only to have a miscarriage. But now I have my son. My greatest gift. He will be 2 in January. We share our birthday ❤
The best birthday gift you could have ever received 🥹 Keep going mama! Sending lots of love 💗💞
I hope he had a great birthday
She gave birth. She is now a. Momma. I am so happy for you Halsey.
“they told me once, nothing grows when a house ain’t a home. is it true, honestly, when it’s all a part of me”
The opening lyrics are so tragic tbh. She’s talking about herself. Her body would become the literal house of her child until the moment of birth. It’s as if she’s blaming herself for being too, perhaps broken, that she is unable to nurture and “grow” life. Her child would literally be a part of her as its existence comes from her own. I can’t imagine how she feels.
This song makes me cry and touches me in a different way because it reminds me so much of my own mother. She grew up unloved and abused, told everyday there was something wrong with her. She moved out very early and got married at only 20yo to start her own family. She believed that by having children, she could finally be loved by someone that she loved. Because of her pcos and severe endometriosis which required 10+ surgeries in her teens alone, she tried for over 9 years to become pregnant before she finally had my older brother. Nine long years of all the emotions in this song and more, but above all was love. Love that was always there and always will be.
I truly hope Halsey(Ashley) can one day know and experience the love of having a child, in whatever way it may come to her.
forever insFired this hit me so hard.. My mother also grew up in an abusive home and she has never recovered.. My mother also has bipolar and array of other mental health issues/health issues. It has taken away what could have become.. She mentally abused me (unintentionally, I believe) and I also developed bipolar because of it.. I was just writing about how unloved I feel and how one day, maybe I could have a child to share my love with. I dream about him/her every single day.. i am even trying to better myself so I can be a decent mother, maybe even a good one? ..I love Halsey and her music because I can relate to her on levels other people may not be able to as much.. Or care too, at least. This comment just made this song that much more special to me. Thank you for sharing. I really hope your mom is doing better now. Also, I apologize for the very long comment.
The line "a flower bud in concrete" also seems to convey the same line of thought that she feels uninhabitable for life which is a pretty common line of thinking among women who deal with infertility
SHE'S PREGNANT IM SO HAPPY FOR HER WE HAVE GOT BABY ASH
SHE MADE IT SHE IS HAVING A BNABABY
I cant listen to this song without tears in my eyes. Most raw, emotional thing she ever did. It's so heartbreaking, like my soul shattered. Halsey I love you so much. One day your wish will come true. 🥺🥺🥺💖💖💖
I feel the same way this song is so emotional I cry every time I listen
So true bro
Same I cry every time knowing she has to go through this :(
Same
And it did halsey. Little ender, your rainbow baby. 💜
the line "i've loved you for all of my life" always breaks me
skznprcnk I’m very confused, explain?
Ashley, I k ow you'll never read this, but this song literally saved my life. After my miscarriage in my first pregnancy I was very close to ending my own life. I was a black hole of depression and my marriage was suffering because I was in despair from the loss of my baby. When my husband left for work after a heated argument about me laying in bed all day again I was very close to calling it quits with life, love, and loss. I was listening to your channel on Spotify and More came on. I cried, had a panic attack, then cried some more as I played this song on a loop and sang the lyrics through a cracked and broken voice. I flushed the pills, poured myself a glass of wine and continued listening to this song on a loop until I convinced myself that my dream of motherhood wasn't crushed and that I was worth that life I've always wanted. Thank you for sharing your soul. It was a beacon to me that I wasn't alone and that this life I now have as a mom to a wonderful baby girl was still ahead.
I'm praying for your long lost child
Who’s here finding out HALSEY IS PREGNANT NOW!!!! This makes the song even more beautiful I’m beyond happy for her 😍😍😍🥺
They fact that she released a song about something like this couldn’t be easy for her. I have to applaud her for opening up about something so heartbreaking and emotional
Halsey is illuminati
Proof : ruclips.net/video/Gge6DxlSkI0/видео.html
Tima TV oh will you just stop go do it on another song but not this. Just stop
If you’re gonna comment spam like that, do it on a different song, thats so heartless. This is a really emotional song and thats not ok.
One of the best song she's ever written. She used her raw talent for this. I'm sure this amazing piece of art is relatable to so much people.
I am not a woman and I'll never be able to feel this feeling but her lyrics and vocals just forced me to feel her heart so closely that I literally just broke down. I tear up every time I hear this song
😢I know right
Same bro💔💔💔 I feel so bad for her as a man myself this is heartbreaking 😭😭
Honestly I get the man doesn't carry the baby but I would be so depressed if my girlfriend miscarried ;-;
Edit: because I said it weirdly lol
@Ariel Olmeda yess I hope her baby is born healthy 💓
Played this for my mom on Mother’s Day. It took her almost 10 years after being told she couldn’t have kids to get pregnant with me. This song hit her so hard, she said it was like Halsey picked the words right out of her head (this was before I told her about Halsey coming out about her miscarriage and endometriosis) Halsey and my mom actually have very similar stories. Endo runs in our family too, and my mom suffered many complications before finally giving birth, but we’re both here now, 25 years later. My mom one-hundred percent believes Halsey’s dream of motherhood will become reality, her journey’s just not over yet
🥰💜💜💜💜
i'm crying with this!! so happy for you and you're mom and you know what?? you're mom was right!!!❤❤😭😭
tell your mom that she was right:')
This aged so well
my nan had similar struggles. she was my pop-pop's second wife, and they got married in '65 when she was 30 and pop-pop was 38. They struggled with fertility for 13 years until my dad was born in '78 to a 43 year old mother and a 51 year old father
Soo happy for you and your mom ❤️❤️ Your mom's wish came tru ❤️
This song also shows that especially when we can’t have something we want it even more, but now she is finally pregnant!!! I am so happy for her! 🎉
Imagine growing up and realising your mom wrote this for you. 🥺 the love her baby will have will be unworldly 🥺😭❤️
Having endometriosis and fearing I may never be able to have children myself, this song speaks to me the most from the album. And the thing is, I really just want kids more and more... everyday. This is the first song I learned, the first one I cried to (apart from Without Me when it was released as a single). I can’t wait to see Halsey in June, it’ll be my first concert. I’d understand if this song may be too emotional to sing, but I’m really looking forward to hearing More live. Her vocals live are *chefs kiss* Plus, her singing this live will just double mine and everyone else’s emotions, I just know it.
Jade Taylor I have Endometriosis too and this made my heart so heavy. I thank her for being brave enough to share these beautiful words. It gave me chills and makes me cry when I listen to it. I’m so thankful for this song, and so thankful for Halsey. It’s nice to meet you too, Ashley 🖤✨
MewTheWild your girlfriend is lucky to have a man like you.
I saw some others talking about this song online saying she said she won’t be performing this song live. I’m not sure where she said it but yeah. Either way good luck with having children one day I hope you get blessed with them one day 💗
Jade Taylor This is so off topic, but do you watch Jenna and Julien? If you don’t, I’m so sorry for asking 😂
@@marshall5799 she said it in the interview with Zane, she said she would probably only be able to once she has someone to sing it to
*I’ve loved you for all of my life*
Jashawn Winfield 👼🏻
October 4, 2017 💙
Mommy & Daddy love you forever & miss you endlessly, Our Angel.
🌧 ☔️
@DreamHaunter The NightWing - Animation & More Thank you 🖤
A year later after the song was released, Halsey announced that she is expecting her first child, congratulations
As a woman who miscarried back in May, I thought I was too traumatized and heartbroken to want to try again, but I've found this song and it makes me realize just how badly I still want a little one, and it gives me so much hope. I want to so badly try again after hearing this song on repeat.
My husband and I have lost two babies in the last two years and are now 5 months pregnant after years of struggling and praying. Never give up. Rainbows remind us that even after the darkest clouds and the fiercest winds there is still beauty and miracles can happen! 🤍
This song is so beautiful yet so hard to listen
I'm praying for Halsey that one day she finally gets what she wants the most, she deserves the world 💗🙏
My friend experienced a miscarriage in November and I felt that this is such a touching and loving song to help comfort her at this time.
Thank you Halsey! From the bottom of my heart I love you and am so grateful that you create art in a number of various forms to share with the world. It's a selfless act and I know its slim that you'll see this but I hope you know the impact you have on people is immense 💜 Stay strong, ur power is beyond measure!
Cortney Bitsoi I’m sorry your friend has to go thru this 💔 I know all too well the hurt she’s feeling. We lost our only son (so far) to a 2nd trimester MC in October of 2017. What a wonderful friend you are tho, for immediately thinking of your friend and wanting to comfort her with this song 💗
I want to send to my friend who just experienced a miscarriage after 8 years of infertility, but am scared it will be too triggering. Should I send it?
The fact that this is about her infertility issues and her miscarriage makes me so sad. I love you Ashley. ❤️
Her THREE miscarriages
@@aubreemcclennen92 really? She had three??
@@gyu2994 yes
To any who has had a miscarriage, I am so sorry for your loss. I have never experienced this and I’m not of age to have a child so thank you comments for educating me and I express my condolences. ❤
Congratulations Momma🥺 I'm so proud of you sweetheart, enjoy that little baby♥️🎉💋
Hey
she is absolutly brilliant
YES! 🙌
She is talented as fuck. Wow.
@@mikep9312 tell that too 2k people
I connect with this song a lot. I had a miscarriage last year when i was 6 months pregnant and it has been the hardest event of my life. Thanks Ash for sharing this to the world❤️
Breathin Ariana So sorry you had to go thru that, I also know the hurt of a late term MC all too well (mine was 2nd trimester, in 2017)
How amazing it is that she can make music that touches our souls & that we can relate to.
I hope (if you’re still trying) that you get your rainbow soon 🌈
@@michaelaxx8149
I hope both of you get your rainbows. May our hurt spread love and awareness where it's darkest. You are not alone.
I literally can’t listen to this song with out crying but hey im not mad about it cuz it’s a beautiful song🥺💗💗💖💖i hope for nothing but the best for her ily halsey💗💗💗
ruclips.net/video/mkiUHsSd9tI/видео.html
same🥺
I literally was gonna say the same thing 😭
I love how her voice sounds.
I don't understand why people cry to music. I mean yeah this is a really good song, but that's what it is. A song. One that relates with me.. but that's not the point..
This song got me through being told “never” I’d never have kids , I’d never carry , I’d never conceive .. and here right am 90 days from meeting my rainbow and my miracle.
This song is so raw and beautiful.
this made me really happy!!! your baby will feel so loved... I wish you the best. lots of love.
Hope you and your baby stay healthy and happy, congrats and good luck! 🌈 ❤️
@@folkloriangirl thank you so much ❤️
@@anniedangerface thanks 💕
Omg, this made me cry! I’m so happy for you and congratulations!! Lots of love and good wishes to you!!
Who's here after her instagram post announcing her pregnancy 😭
IM SO FREAKING HAPPY FOR HER!!!❤️😭
HALSEY DESERVES THE WORLD!
Mee.🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧
Already born 😭
k but imagine being her future child
and listening to this song
knowing how l o v e d you are
like wow
thats incredible
💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
I just love that
this aged well😭
the amazing thing is.. she pregnant💕💕💕‼
Now it will happen 🥺🥺soon
I'm so happy that you're that strong to talk about something so personal in such a vulnerable way
I can't listen to this song without tears in my eyes and a feeling of pride in my heart, I'm so proud of being a part of this and of being capable to see you growing as and artist and a human being
you changed my live and I'll be always grateful for that
ily
She’s so strong
Her voice is beautiful and the words are like the icing on the cake
i used to painfully cry to this song, now im tearing up but im smiling uncontrollably thinkin about her very beautiful child, this gives me a sense of safety about the future when things dont look so bright (now) life surprises us with things even more than we even could ask for. things will be okay soon, and eventually we just gotta wait for the divine timing
I can’t have kids..
I always wanted them
This song gives me some hope that if I keep my faith I can adopt one day and give a child a loving home and life
I pray for my future family everyday and hope that soon I’ll get to meet them
I feel like that this song is to her future child. On the info on Spotify, she says that this is to a person who isn't in the world yet. Plus on her Instagram post with the list of her songs from the album, it shows the song "More" pointed to her stomach.
Ashvee Memes it’s about her miscarriage and her struggle with fertility.
Stephanie Santiago it’s about both.
Someone who has lost 11 babies this cuts deep into my soul I hope she’s get to be a mum and proud of the awareness she has bought for people who have gone through the same thing to talk about it xox
As someone who is 9 months pregnant and welcoming my little girl into the world in 17 days, this broke my heart. I've never had to misfortune of experiencing a miscarriage and I pray I never do, but my heart breaks for every woman and couple who has. I can say that the moment I knew, I loved my baby with my whole heart. It doesn't matter how far along. I can't imagine losing that.
tbh, the loss of my baby is a strugle i still deal with everyday. everyday i need to distract myself. mostly with work and drugs. it's like my body denied me any chance of happiness. there was never any choice for me. my body decided it wouldn't hold a baby and i regret everyday that I didn't know i was pregnant until it was too late. i would of taken better care of myself. seeing a baby and all the people on my feed with babies or annoucing pregnancies just makes me even more upset. this is a good song that is passed around the miscarriage communities i'm in. the fact that someone can take our pain and put it into a beautiful ballad is so helpful. bless ashley
hope your baby is healthy
Rachel Hamilton I hope your baby girl is doing amazing and you too mama!
@@sh-wa-na8255
IM SO SORRY FOR YOU AND PLEASE DONT TAKE D R U G S!
@@sh-wa-na8255 hi, I might bot relate to you personally, but just know, it gets better. It’s completely understandable that you’re using external sources to console yourself, but don’t risk your health, it’s not what your child would’ve wanted ☺️ more power to you though, stay strong, and remember, it DOES get better
I just went through a pregnancy loss 3 weeks ago…. I have listened to this song repeatedly. It makes me cry, but miscarriage is so isolating, and hearing her sing and speak about it gave me some peace. Maybe that sounds stupid but it’s how I feel
It doesn't sound stupid at all. I lost my baby a few months ago and I find comfort in this song too
she had her baby 💞💞💞💞!! ive had this on repeat for her, i hope shes having the happiest, purest time with her new best friend
I'm a woman with Cerebral Palsey who can't have children. The first time I heard this song I cried. It really spoke to me. Thank you Halsey (Ashley).
This is officially the saddest song of 2020 and we’re not even a month in
She's pregnant now!! No more sadness!!!!
@@peachycrossing5806 yes I found out yesterday😭 I’m so happy
now its 2021 no more sad songs
well u also know how 2020 went
This song is circulating all the online infertility support groups. Sums up exactly how we feel. Thank you for this. 💗💙
Who’s here after she announced her pregnancy? I’m so happy for her 😭
"and when you decide it's your time to arrive, i've loved you for all of my life"
halsey i am so SO happy for you, congratulations! can't wait for you to sing this in the future to your kid
This caught me SO off guard, me and my fiance have been trying to conceive and we've lost 2 babies to ectopic and had 2 emergency surgeries... we just found out were pregnant and it's too early to know if its healthy and in the uterus safely... I had no idea this song was going to hit SO CLOSE to home. I'm balling inside Raleys as I shop. But I LOVE IT!! 💗💗💗
Katlyn Beatham ❤️
Sending you so many positive vibes for a safe, healthy pregnancy!
much love and I hope all goes well
I hope you're doing well now, how's everything?
⬆️ I hope everything is going well 💕
IF THIS ALBUM DOESN'T WIN EVERY AWARD IM SUING THE UNIVERSE
Aren’t we all?
Im with you on that
Count me in lol
Halsey. You touched my soul, my heart, my womb. Never give up hope. I buried 2 babies, had 8 miscarriages before we had our son. Hes 5 now n this song made me look at him in a new, more blessed, light. God/,Love please bless you....when you time comes...you will be blessed with a bundle of joy...aggravation, craziness, happiness, etc. Your child will hear this song n know how cherished he/she is. (I see you with a daughter 🥰💗☯️💗🥰)
Maghen Shaw I am so sry I hope your little one has great health and Ashley can have of her own
She is here guys
Ender Ridley Aydin 🥺
Have a great life Ender you have all of our blessings.....
Now she announced she's expecting...All in it's own timing. 🖤 I'm so happy for her!
I suffered a miscarriage at the beginning of covid last year and my heart hurts with this song...I have faith my day will come one day too. 🥺🖤
I can't get a hold of myself when she sings the chorus, my heart is just... AAHH. I can't even describe the fact that I feel so much love when I hear this song... she is just so talented, she really knows how to pull on everybody's heartstrings.
_If you listen closely it sounds like a lullyby..._
Halsey is illuminati
Proof : ruclips.net/video/Gge6DxlSkI0/видео.html
In the end, I hear a heartbeat too💔
The lyrics are for her miscarried baby, so I think it was meabt to be a lullaby.
Yeah she confirmed this in her interview with Zane Lowe
Entertain My Hype the end sounds like a certain test you get while pregnant (i forgot what it’s called)
I absolutely believe Ashley will have her lil one as she says..."when its your time to arrive." He or she may not arrive as easily as other children are able to but in the end that is how it was supposed to be. I truly believe it will be a reality for her.
I'm here after her pregnancy news and I am so happy that this story can finally have the happy ending it deserves 🌈💕🥺
Hasley makes me feel less alone in pregnancy loss. Every time I listen to this song, I think about how, with my first and only pregnancy, I had to TFMR my son at 17 weeks and three days. I think about him daily, and sometimes, listening to this song gives me hope. The loss of a child is never easy. I hope one day I will become a mother to a living child.❤
This song hits home all too well. I lost my first pregnancy in November of last year. I never got to see my baby until the miscarriage and it killed me. I'm now pregnant with my rainbow baby and everyday I struggle with anxiety of losing this baby too. Its not something you ever get over or truly recover from.
How’s your baby now? I just hope it’s healthy.
I can't relate to this song, but your voice and the fact I know how hard is this subject for you makes me cry.. I just want you to find happiness and peace, I wish you the best Halsey. your music was a refuge when I had hard times and it still is, I want to give you back all you've done for me... I really really love you and I'm so thankful you exist.
Ashley I'll always support you no matter what 💗
The fact that it's about her miscarriage :")))) it breaks my heart
Feel so bad for her
i don't think so. i just think its about her efforts and failings to conceive and try for a baby. or knowing its going to be difficult so immortalising love in a song for her future baby
@@georgia1986 well I mean again if we call it in a simple way it's about her miscarriage?
*miscarriages, she has had 3 of them... very sad since she wants a child.
Banshee Queen wait what? When did she say she had three?
When I was little my dad left me, everyone said he would never come back and gave up but I still miss him deeply and this song makes me think of him,thank you for sharing this song 🥰
Oh my God!!! And now she's going to be a mom!!!!! I am so happy for her. She wanted to have a child so much. I just can't find words to describe my happiness
She will be an amazing mother!!!! Congrats Queen ❤️
*"Wanna scream, but.. what's the use?"*
Isn't she brilliant?
They told me once, nothing grows
When a house ain't a home
Is it true, honestly
When it's all a part of me?
A couple years of waiting rooms
Finding God, and lose Him too
Wanna scream, but what's the use?
Lyin' awake, and I stare at the door
I just can't take it no more
They told me it's useless, there's no hope in store But somehow I just want you more
I want you more
Somehow, I just want you more
I want you more
Somehow, I just want you more
Wooden floors and little feet
A flower bud in concrete
Feelin' so incomplete
Wonder will we ever meet?
And would you know it right away
How hard I tried to see your face?
A little screen, a photograph, mine to take
I sit and I stare at your clothes in the drawer
I cry and my knuckles get sore
'Cause I still believe it won't be like before
And now, somehow, I just want you more
I want you more
Somehow, I just want you more
I want you more
Somehow, I just want you more
And when you decide it's your time to arrive
I've loved you for all of my life
And nothing could stop me from giving a try
I've loved you for all of my life
Loved you more
Somehow, I still love you more
Love you more
Somehow, I still love you more
(Loved you more)
(Somehow, I still love you more)
(Love you more)
(Somehow, I still love you more)
Thanks
Sitting here alone after leaving my doctors appointment. Tired after trying for so long to have a baby in my arms. This song makes me think of what could be..
I have never had a miscarriage so this song hits different for me. I can’t even get pregnant to begin with..
Even though I don’t have a baby in my arms yet, he/she still hold a special place in my heart. And always will. “Somehow I still love you more.”
I can wait till Ender is old enough to understand this song and how much his mom fought for him!!
"when you decide its your time to arrive ive loved you for all of my life" hits so hard 😭😭😭😭😭
God I really didnt expect to be so early- or so emotional- why does your music always hit so harddddd
Halsey is illuminati
Proof : ruclips.net/video/Gge6DxlSkI0/видео.html
This is my favourite song by her. Even though I’m 13 and don’t even want to have kids, I have to admit that this song pulls at my heart strings
2:18 is what he/she is gunna hear in the womb...how beautiful 🥺
no because when she sang that "I've loved you for all of my life", I burst out crying like whyyyy is that line so heartbreaking but comforting.
Seeing how heartbroken Halsey was, knowing that she is now expecting is so sweet. Congrats Halsey!
I just realized that the one person who inspired this heartbreaking masterpiece is going to hear it... I've never been happier.
this song hits different when you know who she wrote it to. even tho i'm very very young i want to be a mom too and i can't wait for the moment i can hold them in my arms. she went through so much shit already :(( i wish her all the best. damn i feel so much more connected to her, i love her so much :((💕
listening this after Ya’aburnee and Darling hits different 🖤
Her baby arrived!!! 🌈❤️ Halsey is now a mother ❤️❤️
is anyone here after seeing she gave birth to ender? that baby is so loved. i am so happy for halsey
im so happy!! ive been crying since i found out 😭😭
I miscarried my first and only pregnancy on April 26, 2023. My due date was today, November 30, 2023: I’m here to honor a life that never got live through this beautiful song. RIP Baby Westwood 😢
such a beautiful and heartbreaking song. I can’t wait for the day halsey can sing this song to her little miracle. ✨
The muffled at the end is almost pov of her future baby hearing her sing
I don't usually cry to music whatsover, so the fact that this made me genuinely bawl my eyes out says something about how powerful and sad it is
i'm so proud of halsey. you did it. you're a mom. sending you all my love and light
Its like, at the end when the song is muffled, I feel as if its the baby thats listening to her through her womb and feeling loved. Its him/her coming to life and even before its born, learning about the endless love about to come.
Hoor Anum it’s meant to be heard as what the song would sound like in the womb
I have endometriosis and have been trying for a year and a half. We had a positive last October, but it ended being a chemical pregnancy 🎗 this is so heartbreaking 💛
Miscarriages are SO common & i had no idea until i miscarried with my first child... it was the hardest thing i have ever been through. I know how hard it is to talk out about it, i started talking about it & it got other people messaging me telling me their stories that’s how i realized how common it was. 1 in 4 women miscarry. I’m so glad that Halsey decided to put this song on the album i know it couldn’t of been an easy decision. I hope more women feel less alone when they lose their sweet little baby. I also hope & pray that Ashley will be blessed with a beautiful healthy baby soon ❤️
And here we are a year later she surprises us with a pregnancy! I'm so happy for you halsey! ❤❤❤❤
I don't really like small kids or babies, but I would never wish for anyone to have to feel the pain of losing their child before they even got to know them, I haven't experienced anything like it but it must be soul crushing. Halsey, I hope you have a lovely baby someday soon and they are going to feel so loved when they hear this.