@@alittleblessedlifeYes we are crying and hugging you Stephanie! 🥹 Timmy was such a sweetheart! I loved to hear him sing the old spiritual songs. Many of them my Mom and I used to sing in church when I was growing up! Never doubt that you could have done more for him because from what I saw you went above and beyond in taking care of him! 🙏🏽 You are an amazing young lady! Be Encouraged and Trust God to get through it all!!🫶🏽🤗😇
Congratulations on your weight loss! You are doing great! Your grieving is normal! Take all the time you need to heal from your terrible loss! It is a very sad time for you and I am sure it is difficult! One day at a time Stephanie you will get through this and Timmy will never be forgotten! His faith in God was amazing!😢💞
My heart breaks for you. I walked this road 13 yrs ago with the sudden loss of my husband. I just want to sit there with you and be there. I love the way you are so brave and real and that you carry on through the pain. One day at a time sweetheart, one day at a time. Bless you.
Don’t forget you get social security from your husband I think part of it plus u tube if not try a part time job it would be good for you get your mind off of things you will work it out
Oh honey, I am so sorry. I lost my husband in February and I know how you feel. My daughter and I cleaned and donated a lot of stuff and my reason for cleaning out so much was because of the pain of seeing his things. Some special items I kept, but a lot was cleaned out. Grieving, I think, is a process and it is very slow moving. But, certain songs, tv shows or things on the internet I will not watch because I’m not ready to handle them yet. I am praying for you ti continue to move forward with your life.
Don’t rush yourself on getting rid of anything that was Timmy’s. Give yourself time to grieve. You were a great wife to Timmy and I know he knew that. This is a great video, Stephanie. 🙏❤️
Hi Stephanie, Once Timmy got his wheelchair n he was spinning it around in the lot trying it out I feel life changed for you both.A new sense of freedom to vac. In FL.,your anniversary trip, lunches out, his big birthday bash ! you could see in his face how much he was enjoying his life with you. Hold on to those happy times !💕
Aw, Stephanie! My heart goes out to you so much. I cried along with you. It was so precious to see the footage of you and Timmy in 2022, so happy together. I know you miss him more than words. After my mom died, I kept her recliner for years. I would sit in it and that was one of my favorite places to pray. Mom did so much praying in that chair. I still have her purse and the stuff she had in it when she died in 2012. My Daddy died in 2000, and I still have his wallet and his banjo is one of my most cherished possessions. Thank God for the dear memories we have of our departed loved ones, and I am so thankful we don't sorrow as those who have no hope. We will see them again, my friend. One day, this life and all these tears will be left behind, and we will be gathered with them around God's throne. Until then, may He comfort your hurting heart.
I love the grwm videos! I understand the grief of losing a husband, I lost my husband after 29 years of marriage and even though God called him home 13 years ago, I still have those days of sadness. Sending love your way. God will see you through this time!
Hello honey. I'm so glad you started your second channel. Seeing you sitting on the couch and it being dark out, I truly understand how you do get real sad at night. I think this channel is going to help you through the grieving process. You don't have to edit anything out. You're able to say exactly how you feel. You can cry, laugh. Share memories. You don't have to keep any feelings to yourself. Scream, yell. Get out your anger and frustration over him leaving so early. We'll all be there for you honey. We may not have met in person but we are friends. I love you and I love Timmy. You're in my prayers and I pray God will ease your heart ache everyday. God Bless.
Three things I want to tell you....First, I love you and I'm praying for you daily....second, I love every video you make (including get ready with me vids).....three, it does my heart good that you are sharing your feelings because that is very important for those who grieve to know they are not alone, but most importantly it helps you with your grief. No one can tell you how to do it, we all just do it when forced to. Even tho it's sooooo hard (I know, I lost my son), to get it out will help you. I think this channel is such a good idea, it's like emotional therapy. I wish I could make a channel for Mother's who have lost adult children but I honestly don't think I could speak thru it. I get very overwhelmed. You are doing very well, with your grief, even when you don't think so. We do the best we can and when we can't do anything , we sit down and have a meltdown. I so appreciate you thinking of others like you do. What a loving heart you have. In your time and in your way, this will not have been for nothing. God Bless you and keep you 💜
Thinking of you Stephanie. Your doing great! Grief is in steps and not always in order. Sometimes we feel like we are spinning our wheels not getting anywhere. All your feelings are normal. You grieve at your own pace and you don't have a time limit. ❤ the video and this new channel. Prayers to you. Sincerely, Cathy.
Stephanie, Ive messaged you before. I am a widow as well. I was widowed at 45. I am now 60. Ive been through what you are going through, those early stages of grief. Please take good care of yourself. You mentioned your stomach and sinuses were bothering you. Remember you have been through a traumatic and extremely emotional loss. Mind and body are connected and as you are going through extreme emotional pain, and stress, your immune system can be lowered. Also the sense of smell is one of the strongest things that trigger past memories. I remember going into my Jeffs closet and for the first months, i could still smell him from his clothes, particularly his shirts....it made me miss him terribly. I still have his wallet, just as he left it. Im glad you made a second channel. So many of us probably can relate to you, as im sure im not the only widow that has messaged you. Everything you are feeling is normal. I promise it gets easier. Im not at all saying you will ever stop grieving Timmy, because you will not. But time has a way of softening the pain. There is hardly ever a day that has gone by since 9-16-08 that i haven't thought of my Jeff. Thats the day he passed away. The day i held his hand as he took his last breath. But you and i WILL be reunited with our husbands again, you know that. For now, i pray you find peace, take all the time you need to take care of yourself. Going to the gym is great. Although, i didnt. I should have. I still should. I enjoy both your channels and think you are awesome! Much love, Bonnie
Oh Stephanie, I’m glad for you to have this channel to connect with us on your daily journey. My husband lived through health issues for several years, and passed suddenly. I can relate to many comments you shared. I will not forget him, it can be so sad when we come across something that brings a memory forward, however the memories become easier to celebrate as time goes on. Take care, you are loved by so many and we will not forget our fond memories of Timmy.❤❤
Grief isn't linear, and I know from experience that emotions go up and down. Be gentle with yourself. That's great about your 80 pound weight loss! One breath, one moment, one step at a time.
I’ll bet one of the things Timmy was most grateful for in his whole life was the home and care you provided for him. As tough as this life can be, all anyone can hope for is to be loved as much as he was. Sending strength & love ❤
I like the Aussie & Mega mousse with leave in conditioner. I find it at DG and CVS. I am so proud of you for your weight loss! 80 pounds, that’s amazing!!!❤
God is with you Stephanie and with Timmy. One day you'll be together again and what a joyous day that will be. Even after 10 years of losing my husband, I sti!l carry similar items in a drawer that use to make me cry but now it brings happy memories of what I had with my husband. Your so easy to follow and listen to. Ill be here to watch as long as your willing to share in these videos. Ask the Lord for peace in your heart, that's what got me thru. God bless you.
I lost my sweet husband two years ago.we had 57 yrs together. I know all the feelings you're going through . Just cry when you need to and time does ease but we will never be the same again..
You are not alone. I know many people praying for you, including myself. You have done many difficult things this week. Tomorrow is a new day with new prayers, new opportunities, but it is ok to not be ok sometimes. You keep that drawer and Timmy's chair. You will know in time what to keep and what to let go. Hope you are feeling better. Big, big hugs and continued prayers.
Bless your hurting heart, Stephanie. I know how you feel, I lost my sweetheart of 46 1/2 years five years ago in November! There is nothing you can do to rush it and we never know what sight, sound, smell, action will bring a torrent of grief to or hearts that as you well described it. It is like a pain of no other in your gut, like it almost bends you over with the pain! Time does help it to hurt less but it will never go away, you and Jesus will find you way to face it and get through it, not even a day at a time but sometimes only a second at a time!! Don’t try to rush through the grief! Your videos are a blessing and also away to help you heal!!❤❤
Life is too short, wear the shorts, don’t worry if your hair isn’t perfect. And honestly, most people aren’t noticing or judging anyway because we’re all preoccupied with our own lives💛
You are such a sweet lady. I'm keeping you in my prayers daily. My husband passed away April 28, 2020. I still have difficult days and nights at times. I decided to give myself grace and to accept that there is no time table for grief. I hope you too can give yourself some grace. Take your time to feel the emotions and eventually it will become easier. Sending you a great big hug. God bless you honey.
Stephanie, you are strong even though you may not feel like it now. I'll never get tired of hearing you talk of Timmy. You were an amazing wife and caregiver. All of your emotions are normal stages of grief. God is truly helping you. Just know you are loved by so many and we will continue to pray for you. A great big hug to you!
Stephanie. I believe you can apply for social security benefits since Timmy passed. It’s called survivor benefits. It may not be much, but you are entitled to it.
I agree. My brother's wife passed in December and he can get it. He also chose (I think)to wait a bit to get more till he is 60 or maybe can't get till he is 60. Not sure but either way he will get it.
@katinaharkins4605 No, I was able to get survivors benefits much earlier than age 60. I wouldn’t have known anything about it, but the kind funeral Director told me that I needed to apply.
The cologne story got me. After my hubby passed I couldn’t walk through the mens dept at Belk. Even being in an elevator with a man wearing Terry’s favorite cologne would make me cry. He also had a lazy boy chair that I still have. Let yourself grieve girl. You will be oh so much healthier for it. Still praying for your comfort and peace. God bless you
You are not alone. It can take years to part with things of our loved one that’s passed. Don’t ever feel you have to at any point. You’ll know when it’s time. Until then, cry for his absence and smile for all the years spent together. Sending you all the love, peace, and prayer. ❤
I love your videos. Stephanie, I lost my husband 11 years ago after being married for 50 years. I was his caregiver for over 10 years and when he passed, I was lost, I just couldn't figure out what to do with my time. I kept his pajamas on the bed for 6 months after he died. They still were not washed. I just wanted to have something that still had his smell on them. I finally washed and put them away but I just recently cleaned out his closet except for a few things I wanted to keep. Night time was the hardest for me too. It just takes time. One day at a time, one minute at a time. I had people say ," you should be doing better by now " well, until it happens to them, they don't fully understand how they will feel. They aren't being unkind, they just have not had that experience. I'm praying for your peace of mind and comfort.
Oh poor girl grief is so hard i lost my son and it has been so so hard you will get threw i promise and thank you for sharing you are helping alot of people love you hon stay safe from ky❤❤❤❤
Stephanie, don't feel obligated to get rid of anything of Timmy's. You will know when that time is to move forward. Take time to grieve and reminisce of the love you had between you. ❤
Stephanie Anything you post is a blessing to many and I think also a healing blessing to you. You and Timmy were blessed with many good times and wonderful memories and you made Timmy's tough times less of a struggle for him by simply loving him unconditionally. Unconditional love is the most wonderful gift a person can give. Hugs, love, and prayers Debbie
Love and prayers for you, sweet girl. I don't claim to know your grief, but I am dealing with my husband's recent stroke and your experience is helpful to me. Thank you for sharing with us.
Hi Stephanie,keeping busy really helps with grief.I think mornings & evenings are the hardest also.You are a joy & I love both of your channels!Take care!🌷💕🌷
Your honesty and openness about your grief and depression is helping so many of us who are experiencing many of the same emotions and grief, but have been suffering silently. Prayers and love to you.
Love any video you put together. (Really like the thrift store ones 😉) I've noticed that this year has been hard on many of the people I follow on YT (deaths, health issues, divorces, miscarriage,...) But we all can go to our Lord for comfort & ❤ as we grow from these items. I've been thru several in my 63 years (death of family - especially a horrible car accident taking my father, health issues,.. ) but God has seen me thru all and there will be joy in the end. Hope that last nights major storms passed by your place & you are safe. From your Paducah KY fan!
Stephanie I think this channel is great. It’ll help you and others. I lost my mom almost 3 years ago and it’s been so hard. It’s still hard. So I think it’s good that you have the opportunity to talk.
I remember when Merina came by you. She has that great pic of you too. I hope you feel better soon. I love all of your videos. That care OF YOURSELF!!! ! 🙏❤️ 8:05
No you're definitely not alone. I lost my Daddy when I was 11. It was a complete shock and so heartbreaking. I slept on his pillow and when Mama washed his pillow case, she would spray the clean pillow case with the cologne he wore all the time. To this day, whenever I smell Stetson cologne, it brings back so many memories of my sweet Daddy. He's been in Heaven 33 years and sometimes, it still feels like yesterday. It's a different ache and grief from losing a spouse, but the triggers are the same - smells, music, certain places. Praying for you ❤
Hey Stephanie, I’ve been using Living proof restore repair leave-in, it’s works pretty good. I’ve got wavy/curly/frizzy. Also been using silk scrunchies and hair towels. The frizzy is under control even extremely humid😅 I hear you sister! I’m wearing my shorts! I think it’s fun when you and your friend or your mom go out together. Those two will join in the video. You showing and doing little interviews with random people in these videos is such a fresh idea. I like it. This was a very good video Stephanie. I believe this channel is just the thing for you. Take care and remember, We love ya, but Jesus loves you more 😊 You’ll know when it’s time to let something go and then there will be things y’all keep forever.🦋
Praying you feel better soon. I love watching your videos you are such a bright star in the you tube world. I was so excited that you started a second channel. I feel like you are a friend that I have known my whole life.
I’m so happy and proud and encouraged by your weight loss journey! Keep it up but….never give up a chance to enjoy something you like !!!!You’re a winner in my book. Your ending broke my heart and I felt your pain and sorrow. I know you must be able to feel our hugs and prayers and that makes me smile. I love both channels and I’ll always be here. Thank God for Marina’s quick action!! ❤ Love from NC 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
I am a person who is comforted or reminded of something due to scent as well. I can relate to how you feel in so many ways. I still have my dads clothes tree with his jackets on it as well as his slippers and random things. He passed 2 year's ago. I still remember seeing him on the step of his home where i now live with my son,was the last time I saw him before he passed away 2 weeks after from covid. Grief has no end date sadly and its at the moment's i feel parts of him are slipping away i smell his cologne or hug his jacket. Comfort in the little things.❤
Those memories That you have Timmy will always be with you. The Lord will give you the strength. And I know it's Hard, but Timmy would not want you sad. You're always in my prayers. Love you, Stephanie.❤❤❤ Your friend cathy
Thanks for this video Stephanie. Thank you for being so open and transparent. I’m still praying for you. God is holding you in the palm of his hand.❤ remy and rosie❤️❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
My father died at age 58, a traumatic, tragic death. He was a very beloved small town family doctor. I still keep a pajama shirt of his in my drawer, even though it was 40 years ago. This doesn’t begin to compare to the loss of your dear Timmy, but I understand your desire to hold on to his belongings, a small part of him, especially his cologne. The Lord is close to the broken hearted, I pray He wold wrap his loving arms around you and give you His peace, and joy. Your channels are helping others so much, and your witness for the Lord may lead people to be born again. The song, “Thank You,” by Ray Boltz captures the idea that in Heaven, someone may say thank you, and Timmy for leading them to the Lord!
Watching your video tonight. I have been where you're at with your grieving. I have been a widow for 4 years now. Certain things trigger the grief for me. Your fortunate to have the videos of your Timmy.I really looked forward to Timmy singing at the end . I enjoy watching both your channels. God bless you.
I still have the same issue after 5 1/2 years. But, it helps to talk about him with my family. I know he is with God and that really gives me great comfort.
You were a awesome caretaker and wife to Timmy and I’m sure he had no complaints. I love this channel Stephanie and it is helping me to cope with losing my sister. I lost her 30 years ago but sometimes it feels like yesterday and all I do is cry. Listening to Timmy singing reminds me that I will see her again and my tears become tears of joy!🙌❤
Oh, Steph, you are such a beautiful person. Your grief is so beautiful because your life for Timmy was true. Take your time parting with items. There will be a time and you will know it's time to move it out of the house. I'm so sorry you have to go through this 💔 but you are strong and such a beautiful person you will survive. I love watching all your videos. Getting ready or thrifting, even seeing the small towns. I just love the videos with family. Love you, girl, be happy and spread your joy with others and bringsmilesto others.😊❤
Stephanie, I can so identify with your feelings. There were some things I wanted to hold onto and others I couldn’t bear to look at after my husband passed. And the smells….He always liked to smell good too. He always said jokingly, “If you’re not handsome, you need to smell good “. Gentle hugs to you ❤❤❤
I’ve truly enjoyed this video! I’m so pleased to see you keeping busy with friends and family. I know how hard the nights are, but they will get better. I even wore my husband’s cologne for awhile after he passed away. It will be ten years in January that my husband has been gone. You ride those waves of grief honey they will help you cope. One day at a time sweet,Jesus…one day at a time. Grief is a emotional roller coaster! You’ve got this…yes you do by the grace of God. 🙏❤️
Stephanie, when my husband died, I didn't have an outlet to share my grief except my Facebook page and I hesitated to put how I felt there. I'm so glad you're opening up on your new channel. The hardest part for me was how quiet it was, and not hearing his voice. I would sit in the living room, and I could hear him yelling from the den, hey honey, what's for dinner? I yelled back and said hey honey, if you walk in here, we can discuss it. Lol. I miss him being here to travel with me, but the main thing I miss is the day to day companionship. Tuesday was our date day and we always went to Goodwill, shopping and ate out. I really miss that. I had to take him off life support in ICU. That was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. when I got home and I was all alone, I walked in his closet and looked at all of his clothes. I pounded the wall and asked him., why did you have to leave me? I wasn't ready to be alone. Get rid of the chair. It will help you! After my husband died, I decided to sell the house a year later. I think moving away from that house has helped me tremendously. This house is where he had a fall, after a stroke, that would later take his life. I can feel your grieving deep in my heart. I am glad your family is close by to give you support. Hugs and much love, Devonne
I needed this video today. I'm watching it at 1:00am on Thursday July 20th. It's been exactly 1 year since I lost my Mom. Listening to your journey gives me comfort. I wish we didn't have to go through this. It just makes me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you for creating this channel and be assured that you're truly helping others. God Bless. 💜
No you are not alone, it's been 3 years since I lost my husband, and I can here a song and I'll just sit and cry, that helps me though Sending you blessings and hugs.❤😊
Stephanie. Thank you for taking me along with you and your friend on your farmers market trip. I also enjoyed watching you how you put your makeup on I got some great tips. Oh Stephanie I love your hair longer it is just gorgeous. I keep you in my prayers. Have a great weekend my friend.
Sending love and hugs, Stephanie.💗 Do whatever gives you the most comfort and peace. Every person grieves differently. I'm keeping you and your family in my prayers. I know God will heal your heart.
Stephanie, I just love any of the videos you put out! I just want to reach out and give you a big hug, but just know you are in my thoughts and prayers sweet friend. Take care of yourself!
I’m glad to have found your channel. My husband passed 2 years ago and so many of the things you share are so familiar to me. The scents, the chair, how the personal items in his drawer.. all the bittersweet reminders you just can’t let go of are just part of the grieving process. I’m so sorry you have to go through this but I know you’ll touch many through sharing your experience. 🙏🏻💐
Oh Stephanie I feel your pain through the screen 😢 You never mind about Timmy’s chair honey. Your heart will tell you what to do when it’s time. God bless you ❤
Stephanie, you are in my prayers, I have watched you videos from the start. Thank you so much for making real life videos. I loved hearing Timmy sing at the end of your videos, the songs he sang were the songs I grew up in church hearing, and some I still sing in church today, Timmy’s setting around the thrown singing for Jesus, I pray comfort and peace for you, glad you have RUclips friends like Merina, I love her channel too, God bless you in this new channel.
Stephanie I enjoyed the getting ready with you and yall going to the farmers market the popcorn looked so good take care keeping you in my prayers ❤God Bless 🙏
This video was perfection. From the realistic grwm to the fun at the farmer's market, promoting local business, I'm sure Tyrel and the other's really appreciate it. The comical little cat chase. And the struggle, along with the clip and song of you and Timmy. You are doing something really special here. Although I'm sure pouring your grief into this creativity maybe draining at times it will surely bless you as you bless others. My heart is right there with you, Stephanie. My hubbies' been gone 4 years. It took slow motion time to slowly weed out his belongings and certain things will never go, wallet, favorite sweater, Nascar t-shirts, a special trophy, those kind of things, they are just too precious to me.
Understand your grief all too well. This weekend marks 2yrs since my youngest daughter gain her Angel wings. She died from breast cancer…I still have her slippers from where she slipped her feet out of them for the last time. I inherited her cat which has been such a comfort to me and I also wore her perfume. There is no right or wrong way to grieve and no time frame. Music is a big trigger for me and I would imagine for you too. Thank you for sharing your heart with us it comforts me🙏🩷
I came to your channel and subscribed because of Merina the two of you done a collaboration and been here every since and subscribed to your new channel to.Thank God he blessed you like that to be able to pay off Timmy funeral and his tombstone, really enjoy your videos
You are definitely not alone Stephanie. Grief is a life long journey. It's also a rough road. Thank you for being brave enough to share your journey. Knowing other people are going through the same feelings and emotions makes you feel a little less alone. Bless you sweet girl! 🤗🙏
Don’t worry about not moving his things out. It takes time and make sure you are ready. It is all hard with grief. You are doing the best you possibly can. I think you are very brave. He was lucky to have your love.
I just finished watching this video and wanted to comment again. You were a wonderful wife Stephanie. Timmy could not have asked for better. Sleep was something you needed to be able to take care of Timmy. After my dad passed away my mom said that the evenings were the most difficult for her. Take your time grieving, keep or give away whatever you need to, whatever feels right for you. I so appreciate you willingness to share your grief process, doing so is a blessing to anyone who listens. Hugs from Michigan🩷🙏
You are not alone sweet Stephanie. Many of us are hugging you in our hearts. You are loved and prayed for.
I appreciate that. Thank you
@@alittleblessedlifeYes we are crying and hugging you Stephanie! 🥹 Timmy was such a sweetheart! I loved to hear him sing the old spiritual songs. Many of them my Mom and I used to sing in church when I was growing up! Never doubt that you could have done more for him because from what I saw you went above and beyond in taking care of him! 🙏🏽 You are an amazing young lady! Be Encouraged and Trust God to get through it all!!🫶🏽🤗😇
Congratulations on your weight loss! You are doing great! Your grieving is normal! Take all the time you need to heal from your terrible loss! It is a very sad time for you and I am sure it is difficult! One day at a time Stephanie you will get through this and Timmy will never be forgotten! His faith in God was amazing!😢💞
My heart breaks for you. I walked this road 13 yrs ago with the sudden loss of my husband. I just want to sit there with you and be there. I love the way you are so brave and real and that you carry on through the pain. One day at a time sweetheart, one day at a time. Bless you.
Barb I am sorry for your loss
Thank you! I'm sorry you've went through this heartache as well.
Don’t forget you get social security from your husband I think part of it plus u tube if not try a part time job it would be good for you get your mind off of things you will work it out
PS: it took my mom 2-3 years to finally feel able to let go of dad's stuff. So don't feel bad. 😢 We all go thru grief in different ways & time frame.
Merina is a doll I love her the kiddos and tater boy ❤️ and I think your both beautiful souls in gods army 💖
Thank you! She's a great friend.
@@alittleblessedlife I can only imagine she is a doll and I love her 😍
Amen and Amen I love Merina with all my heart She is a Gem
Oh honey, I am so sorry. I lost my husband in February and I know how you feel. My daughter and I cleaned and donated a lot of stuff and my reason for cleaning out so much was because of the pain of seeing his things. Some special items I kept, but a lot was cleaned out. Grieving, I think, is a process and it is very slow moving. But, certain songs, tv shows or things on the internet I will not watch because I’m not ready to handle them yet. I am praying for you ti continue to move forward with your life.
I appreciate you sharing the more intimate moments of your grief. You are not alone. Sending you peace.
Don’t rush yourself on getting rid of anything that was Timmy’s. Give yourself time to grieve. You were a great wife to Timmy and I know he knew that. This is a great video, Stephanie. 🙏❤️
Hi Stephanie, Once Timmy got his wheelchair n he was spinning it around in the lot trying it out I feel life changed for you both.A new sense of freedom to vac. In FL.,your anniversary trip, lunches out, his big birthday bash ! you could see in his face how much he was enjoying his life with you. Hold on to those happy times !💕
Give yourself time! It has been 25 years since my husband died and I still have grief from time to time!
Aw, Stephanie! My heart goes out to you so much. I cried along with you. It was so precious to see the footage of you and Timmy in 2022, so happy together. I know you miss him more than words. After my mom died, I kept her recliner for years. I would sit in it and that was one of my favorite places to pray. Mom did so much praying in that chair. I still have her purse and the stuff she had in it when she died in 2012. My Daddy died in 2000, and I still have his wallet and his banjo is one of my most cherished possessions. Thank God for the dear memories we have of our departed loved ones, and I am so thankful we don't sorrow as those who have no hope. We will see them again, my friend. One day, this life and all these tears will be left behind, and we will be gathered with them around God's throne. Until then, may He comfort your hurting heart.
I love the grwm videos! I understand the grief of losing a husband, I lost my husband after 29 years of marriage and even though God called him home 13 years ago, I still have those days of sadness. Sending love your way. God will see you through this time!
Lynda I am so sorry for your loss
So hard , it takes a long time with some people, be good to yourself will pray for you.
Hello honey. I'm so glad you started your second channel. Seeing you sitting on the couch and it being dark out, I truly understand how you do get real sad at night. I think this channel is going to help you through the grieving process. You don't have to edit anything out. You're able to say exactly how you feel. You can cry, laugh. Share memories. You don't have to keep any feelings to yourself. Scream, yell. Get out your anger and frustration over him leaving so early. We'll all be there for you honey. We may not have met in person but we are friends. I love you and I love Timmy. You're in my prayers and I pray God will ease your heart ache everyday. God Bless.
Three things I want to tell you....First, I love you and I'm praying for you daily....second, I love every video you make (including get ready with me vids).....three, it does my heart good that you are sharing your feelings because that is very important for those who grieve to know they are not alone, but most importantly it helps you with your grief. No one can tell you how to do it, we all just do it when forced to. Even tho it's sooooo hard (I know, I lost my son), to get it out will help you. I think this channel is such a good idea, it's like emotional therapy. I wish I could make a channel for Mother's who have lost adult children but I honestly don't think I could speak thru it. I get very overwhelmed. You are doing very well, with your grief, even when you don't think so. We do the best we can and when we can't do anything , we sit down and have a meltdown. I so appreciate you thinking of others like you do. What a loving heart you have. In your time and in your way, this will not have been for nothing. God Bless you and keep you 💜
Thinking of you Stephanie. Your doing great! Grief is in steps and not always in order. Sometimes we feel like we are spinning our wheels not getting anywhere. All your feelings are normal. You grieve at your own pace and you don't have a time limit. ❤ the video and this new channel. Prayers to you. Sincerely, Cathy.
Stephanie, my heart breaks for you. God will see you through this journey that seems unbearable now.
You have such a kind loving heart. The world needs more Stephanie's. Loved the ending with sweet Timmy❤❤❤
Stephanie, Ive messaged you before. I am a widow as well. I was widowed at 45. I am now 60. Ive been through what you are going through, those early stages of grief. Please take good care of yourself. You mentioned your stomach and sinuses were bothering you. Remember you have been through a traumatic and extremely emotional loss. Mind and body are connected and as you are going through extreme emotional pain, and stress, your immune system can be lowered. Also the sense of smell is one of the strongest things that trigger past memories. I remember going into my Jeffs closet and for the first months, i could still smell him from his clothes, particularly his shirts....it made me miss him terribly. I still have his wallet, just as he left it. Im glad you made a second channel. So many of us probably can relate to you, as im sure im not the only widow that has messaged you.
Everything you are feeling is normal. I promise it gets easier. Im not at all saying you will ever stop grieving Timmy, because you will not. But time has a way of softening the pain. There is hardly ever a day that has gone by since 9-16-08 that i haven't thought of my Jeff. Thats the day he passed away. The day i held his hand as he took his last breath. But you and i WILL be reunited with our husbands again, you know that. For now, i pray you find peace, take all the time you need to take care of yourself. Going to the gym is great. Although, i didnt. I should have. I still should. I enjoy both your channels and think you are awesome! Much love, Bonnie
Oh Stephanie, I’m glad for you to have this channel to connect with us on your daily journey. My husband lived through health issues for several years, and passed suddenly. I can relate to many comments you shared. I will not forget him, it can be so sad when we come across something that brings a memory forward, however the memories become easier to celebrate as time goes on. Take care, you are loved by so many and we will not forget our fond memories of Timmy.❤❤
Grief isn't linear, and I know from experience that emotions go up and down. Be gentle with yourself.
That's great about your 80 pound weight loss!
One breath, one moment, one step at a time.
I’ll bet one of the things Timmy was most grateful for in his whole life was the home and care you provided for him. As tough as this life can be, all anyone can hope for is to be loved as much as he was. Sending strength & love ❤
Yes! He told me all the time how thankful he was and how much he appreciated me.
I like the Aussie & Mega mousse with leave in conditioner. I find it at DG and CVS. I am so proud of you for your weight loss! 80 pounds, that’s amazing!!!❤
I agree on the Aussie mouse with the leave in conditioner! That is good stuff for sure.
You take your time sweetheart, let the Lord guide you on your decisions. God bless you.
God is with you Stephanie and with Timmy. One day you'll be together again and what a joyous day that will be. Even after 10 years of losing my husband, I sti!l carry similar items in a drawer that use to make me cry but now it brings happy memories of what I had with my husband. Your so easy to follow and listen to. Ill be here to watch as long as your willing to share in these videos. Ask the Lord for peace in your heart, that's what got me thru. God bless you.
We are ALWAYS here for you, Stephanie, and always praying for you. ❤
I lost my sweet husband two years ago.we had 57 yrs together. I know all the feelings you're going through . Just cry when you need to and time does ease but we will never be the same again..
I'm sorry for your loss, Karen.
Stephanie I love anything you do. What ever content you put out I will love.❤
Thank you, Kathleen
I certainly will, too. We love you, dear friend 🙏 ❤
You are not alone. I know many people praying for you, including myself. You have done many difficult things this week. Tomorrow is a new day with new prayers, new opportunities, but it is ok to not be ok sometimes. You keep that drawer and Timmy's chair. You will know in time what to keep and what to let go. Hope you are feeling better. Big, big hugs and continued prayers.
Sending love and hugs your way!!! I know it has to be hard without Timmy. He's your guardian angel and will always watch over you!!!
Bless your hurting heart, Stephanie. I know how you feel, I lost my sweetheart of 46 1/2 years five years ago in November! There is nothing you can do to rush it and we never know what sight, sound, smell, action will bring a torrent of grief to or hearts that as you well described it. It is like a pain of no other in your gut, like it almost bends you over with the pain!
Time does help it to hurt less but it will never go away, you and Jesus will find you way to face it and get through it, not even a day at a time but sometimes only a second at a time!! Don’t try to rush through the grief! Your videos are a blessing and also away to help you heal!!❤❤
Stephanie, just do whatever you have to do when you feel like you can. Time will help, it really will. Hugs ♥️
I recently read, grief is love with no where to go. Your journey continues. Hang in there girl. Ur neighbor in TN
Life is too short, wear the shorts, don’t worry if your hair isn’t perfect. And honestly, most people aren’t noticing or judging anyway because we’re all preoccupied with our own lives💛
You are such a sweet lady. I'm keeping you in my prayers daily.
My husband passed away April 28, 2020. I still have difficult days and nights at times. I decided to give myself grace and to accept that there is no time table for grief.
I hope you too can give yourself some grace. Take your time to feel the emotions and eventually it will become easier.
Sending you a great big hug. God bless you honey.
Stephanie, you are strong even though you may not feel like it now. I'll never get tired of hearing you talk of Timmy. You were an amazing wife and caregiver. All of your emotions are normal stages of grief. God is truly helping you. Just know you are loved by so many and we will continue to pray for you. A great big hug to you!
Keep sharing keep remembering keep loving Timmy. It takes time to grieve. I’m still praying for you.
Stephanie. I believe you can apply for social security benefits since Timmy passed. It’s called survivor benefits. It may not be much, but you are entitled to it.
I'm glad you told her about that because I was going to. She really needs to apply
I agree. My brother's wife passed in December and he can get it. He also chose (I think)to wait a bit to get more till he is 60 or maybe can't get till he is 60. Not sure but either way he will get it.
@@cherylbook885 your right if you're right if he waits awhile longer he will get more but if she needs it now get it. She can start the process
@katinaharkins4605 they must've changed the age cause you used to be able to get it at 55 if I'm not mistaken
@katinaharkins4605 No, I was able to get survivors benefits much earlier than age 60.
I wouldn’t have known anything about it, but the kind funeral Director told me that I needed to apply.
The cologne story got me. After my hubby passed I couldn’t walk through the mens dept at Belk. Even being in an elevator with a man wearing Terry’s favorite cologne would make me cry. He also had a lazy boy chair that I still have. Let yourself grieve girl. You will be oh so much healthier for it. Still praying for your comfort and peace. God bless you
You are not alone. It can take years to part with things of our loved one that’s passed. Don’t ever feel you have to at any point. You’ll know when it’s time. Until then, cry for his absence and smile for all the years spent together. Sending you all the love, peace, and prayer. ❤
I love your videos. Stephanie, I lost my husband 11 years ago after being married for 50 years. I was his caregiver for over 10 years and when he passed, I was lost, I just couldn't figure out what to do with my time. I kept his pajamas on the bed for 6 months after he died. They still were not washed. I just wanted to have something that still had his smell on them. I finally washed and put them away but I just recently cleaned out his closet except for a few things I wanted to keep. Night time was the hardest for me too. It just takes time. One day at a time, one minute at a time. I had people say ," you should be doing better by now " well, until it happens to them, they don't fully understand how they will feel. They aren't being unkind, they just have not had that experience. I'm praying for your peace of mind and comfort.
Grief has its own timeline for each person, and it ebbs and flows. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I lost my son 2 years ago and a big piece of my soul went with him. Sending you strength and healing..
Oh poor girl grief is so hard i lost my son and it has been so so hard you will get threw i promise and thank you for sharing you are helping alot of people love you hon stay safe from ky❤❤❤❤
bonnie I am so sorry about your son, I can't imagine that pain God Bless You
Stephanie, don't feel obligated to get rid of anything of Timmy's. You will know when that time is to move forward. Take time to grieve and reminisce of the love you had between you. ❤
Stephanie
Anything you post is a blessing to many and I think also a healing blessing to you.
You and Timmy were blessed with many good times and wonderful memories and you made Timmy's tough times less of a struggle for him by simply loving him unconditionally. Unconditional love is the most wonderful gift a person can give.
Hugs, love, and prayers
Debbie
I lost my husband 31 years ago, and it's something you never ever really get over but life does go on, and we can have a good life!
That’s how I found your channel through Merina mentioning you. It’s so lovely when RUclipsrs recommend other creators.
Your fur babies adore you! X
Love and prayers for you, sweet girl. I don't claim to know your grief, but I am dealing with my husband's recent stroke and your experience is helpful to me. Thank you for sharing with us.
Hi Stephanie,keeping busy really helps with grief.I think mornings & evenings are the hardest also.You are a joy & I love both of your channels!Take care!🌷💕🌷
Thank you, Linda
Your honesty and openness about your grief and depression is helping so many of us who are experiencing many of the same emotions and grief, but have been suffering silently. Prayers and love to you.
Thank you! I hope it's helping someone out there. Much love to you as well.
Love any video you put together. (Really like the thrift store ones 😉)
I've noticed that this year has been hard on many of the people I follow on YT (deaths, health issues, divorces, miscarriage,...) But we all can go to our Lord for comfort & ❤ as we grow from these items. I've been thru several in my 63 years (death of family - especially a horrible car accident taking my father, health issues,.. ) but God has seen me thru all and there will be joy in the end.
Hope that last nights major storms passed by your place & you are safe.
From your Paducah KY fan!
Stephanie I think this channel is great. It’ll help you and others. I lost my mom almost 3 years ago and it’s been so hard. It’s still hard. So I think it’s good that you have the opportunity to talk.
Thank you. I'm so sorry for the loss of your mom.
I remember when Merina came by you. She has that great pic of you too. I hope you feel better soon. I love all of your videos. That care OF YOURSELF!!! ! 🙏❤️ 8:05
Thank you, Darlene
No you're definitely not alone. I lost my Daddy when I was 11. It was a complete shock and so heartbreaking. I slept on his pillow and when Mama washed his pillow case, she would spray the clean pillow case with the cologne he wore all the time. To this day, whenever I smell Stetson cologne, it brings back so many memories of my sweet Daddy. He's been in Heaven 33 years and sometimes, it still feels like yesterday. It's a different ache and grief from losing a spouse, but the triggers are the same - smells, music, certain places. Praying for you ❤
Grieving is hard. Huge hug.❤️
You are not alone Shephanie. Give yourself time to heal. God is watching over you. Trust in Him to see you through. God Bless You!!❤
Hey Stephanie, I’ve been using Living proof restore repair leave-in, it’s works pretty good. I’ve got wavy/curly/frizzy. Also been using silk scrunchies and hair towels. The frizzy is under control even extremely humid😅
I hear you sister! I’m wearing my shorts!
I think it’s fun when you and your friend or your mom go out together. Those two will join in the video.
You showing and doing little interviews with random people in these videos is such a fresh idea. I like it.
This was a very good video Stephanie. I believe this channel is just the thing for you.
Take care and remember, We love ya, but Jesus loves you more 😊
You’ll know when it’s time to let something go and then there will be things y’all keep forever.🦋
My motto is "its none of my business what people think of me" I really don't care and that is so freeing. Wear those shorts girl, you rock!!!🎉
Praying you feel better soon. I love watching your videos you are such a bright star in the you tube world. I was so excited that you started a second channel. I feel like you are a friend that I have known my whole life.
You're so sweet. Thank you, Crystal.
I’m so happy and proud and encouraged by your weight loss journey! Keep it up but….never give up a chance to enjoy something you like !!!!You’re a winner in my book.
Your ending broke my heart and I felt your pain and sorrow. I know you must be able to feel our hugs and prayers and that makes me smile.
I love both channels and I’ll always be here.
Thank God for Marina’s quick action!! ❤
Love from NC
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I am a person who is comforted or reminded of something due to scent as well. I can relate to how you feel in so many ways. I still have my dads clothes tree with his jackets on it as well as his slippers and random things. He passed 2 year's ago. I still remember seeing him on the step of his home where i now live with my son,was the last time I saw him before he passed away 2 weeks after from covid. Grief has no end date sadly and its at the moment's i feel parts of him are slipping away i smell his cologne or hug his jacket. Comfort in the little things.❤
Those memories That you have Timmy will always be with you. The Lord will give you the strength. And I know it's Hard, but Timmy would not want you sad. You're always in my prayers.
Love you, Stephanie.❤❤❤ Your friend cathy
Thank you for sharing. I’m grieving too and listening to you say things I don’t share much helps me. So thanks 🥹
I'm glad it helps you and I'm sorry you're going through this as well.
You are one of the most likable and truthful people on RUclips. Congratulations on your 80 pounds weight loss. ❤
That's very sweet. Thank you
Thanks for this video Stephanie. Thank you for being so open and transparent. I’m still praying for you. God is holding you in the palm of his hand.❤ remy and rosie❤️❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
My father died at age 58, a traumatic, tragic death. He was a very beloved small town family doctor. I still keep a pajama shirt of his in my drawer, even though it was 40 years ago. This doesn’t begin to compare to the loss of your dear Timmy, but I understand your desire to hold on to his belongings, a small part of him, especially his cologne. The Lord is close to the broken hearted, I pray He wold wrap his loving arms around you and give you His peace, and joy. Your channels are helping others so much, and your witness for the Lord may lead people to be born again.
The song, “Thank You,” by Ray Boltz captures the idea that in Heaven, someone may say thank you, and Timmy for leading them to the Lord!
Thank you!
Watching your video tonight. I have been where you're at with your grieving. I have been a widow for 4 years now. Certain things trigger the grief for me. Your fortunate to have the videos of your Timmy.I really looked forward to Timmy singing at the end . I enjoy watching both your channels. God bless you.
I still have the same issue after 5 1/2 years. But, it helps to talk about him with my family. I know he is with God and that really gives me great comfort.
Hugs & Love for you sweet Stephanie. My uncle passed in 2021, my Aunt has yet to touch his desk. Take your time sweet lady. One step at a time.
Hi Stephanie. I enjoy the get ready with me. I also like going to the farmers market😊
You were a awesome caretaker and wife to Timmy and I’m sure he had no complaints. I love this channel Stephanie and it is helping me to cope with losing my sister. I lost her 30 years ago but sometimes it feels like yesterday and all I do is cry. Listening to Timmy singing reminds me that I will see her again and my tears become tears of joy!🙌❤
From Maria-love the mix of things on the vlog. You always have great vlogs. You do what comes naturally to you and you can’t go wrong. God bless!!
Oh, Steph, you are such a beautiful person. Your grief is so beautiful because your life for Timmy was true. Take your time parting with items. There will be a time and you will know it's time to move it out of the house. I'm so sorry you have to go through this 💔 but you are strong and such a beautiful person you will survive. I love watching all your videos. Getting ready or thrifting, even seeing the small towns. I just love the videos with family. Love you, girl, be happy and spread your joy with others and bringsmilesto others.😊❤
I just ordered some of that popcorn! That vendor was so personable and nice! ♡
Yes, he was. I hope you enjoy it!
Stephanie, I can so identify with your feelings. There were some things I wanted to hold onto and others I couldn’t bear to look at after my husband passed. And the smells….He always liked to smell good too. He always said jokingly, “If you’re not handsome, you need to smell good “. Gentle hugs to you ❤❤❤
So good to see you Stephanie. Praying for you hon.
I’ve truly enjoyed this video! I’m so pleased to see you keeping busy with friends and family. I know how hard the nights are, but they will get better. I even wore my husband’s cologne for awhile after he passed away. It will be ten years in January that my husband has been gone. You ride those waves of grief honey they will help you cope. One day at a time sweet,Jesus…one day at a time. Grief is a emotional roller coaster! You’ve got this…yes you do by the grace of God. 🙏❤️
Hi Stephanie loved the video. You are always in my prayers.🙏❤️
Stephanie, when my husband died, I didn't have an outlet to share my grief except my Facebook page and I hesitated to put how I felt there. I'm so glad you're opening up on your new channel. The hardest part for me was how quiet it was, and not hearing his voice. I would sit in the living room, and I could hear him yelling from the den, hey honey, what's for dinner? I yelled back and said hey honey, if you walk in here, we can discuss it. Lol. I miss him being here to travel with me, but the main thing I miss is the day to day companionship. Tuesday was our date day and we always went to Goodwill, shopping and ate out. I really miss that.
I had to take him off life support in ICU. That was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. when I got home and I was all alone, I walked in his closet and looked at all of his clothes. I pounded the wall and asked him., why did you have to leave me? I wasn't ready to be alone.
Get rid of the chair. It will help you! After my husband died, I decided to sell the house a year later. I think moving away from that house has helped me tremendously. This house is where he had a fall, after a stroke, that would later take his life.
I can feel your grieving deep in my heart. I am glad your family is close by to give you support. Hugs and much love, Devonne
I needed this video today. I'm watching it at 1:00am on Thursday July 20th. It's been exactly 1 year since I lost my Mom. Listening to your journey gives me comfort. I wish we didn't have to go through this. It just makes me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you for creating this channel and be assured that you're truly helping others. God Bless. 💜
Thank you, Kim. I'm sorry also, that we're both going through this. You aren't alone. God bless you too.
No you are not alone, it's been 3 years since I lost my husband, and I can here a song and I'll just sit and cry, that helps me though Sending you blessings and hugs.❤😊
Stephanie. Thank you for taking me along with you and your friend on your farmers market trip. I also enjoyed watching you how you put your makeup on I got some great tips. Oh Stephanie I love your hair longer it is just gorgeous. I keep you in my prayers. Have a great weekend my friend.
Thank you so much!
Sending love and hugs, Stephanie.💗 Do whatever gives you the most comfort and peace. Every person grieves differently. I'm keeping you and your family in my prayers. I know God will heal your heart.
Stephanie, I just love any of the videos you put out! I just want to reach out and give you a big hug, but just know you are in my thoughts and prayers sweet friend. Take care of yourself!
I’m glad to have found your channel. My husband passed 2 years ago and so many of the things you share are so familiar to me. The scents, the chair, how the personal items in his drawer.. all the bittersweet reminders you just can’t let go of are just part of the grieving process. I’m so sorry you have to go through this but I know you’ll touch many through sharing your experience. 🙏🏻💐
Hi Stephanie. I love any kind of video you put out. 😁. I just love both of your channels. ❤️❤️❤️
thank you!!!
Oh Stephanie I feel your pain through the screen 😢
You never mind about Timmy’s chair honey. Your heart will tell you what to do when it’s time. God bless you ❤
I love farmers markets! Grwm i never watch but i really enjoy yours. Honestly I'd watch anything you post. I so like the way you do videos.
I am hugging and crying with you. You are loved. We will be here listening as long as you need. Big squeeze and hug for you sweetheart
I love the Thrive stick eyeshadow and the Mascara is great!
I really want to try the mascara
Stephanie, you are in my prayers, I have watched you videos from the start. Thank you so much for making real life videos. I loved hearing Timmy sing at the end of your videos, the songs he sang were the songs I grew up in church hearing, and some I still sing in church today, Timmy’s setting around the thrown singing for Jesus, I pray comfort and peace for you, glad you have RUclips friends like Merina, I love her channel too, God bless you in this new channel.
Stephanie I enjoyed the getting ready with you and yall going to the farmers market the popcorn looked so good take care keeping you in my prayers ❤God Bless 🙏
Don’t give up! God will see you through! I love you Stephanie
Thank you, Tammy. Love you
Love your get ready with me videos!
thank you
This video was perfection. From the realistic grwm to the fun at the farmer's market, promoting local business, I'm sure Tyrel and the other's really appreciate it. The comical little cat chase. And the struggle, along with the clip and song of you and Timmy. You are doing something really special here. Although I'm sure pouring your grief into this creativity maybe draining at times it will surely bless you as you bless others. My heart is right there with you, Stephanie. My hubbies' been gone 4 years. It took slow motion time to slowly weed out his belongings and certain things will never go, wallet, favorite sweater, Nascar t-shirts, a special trophy, those kind of things, they are just too precious to me.
Just so happy to watch your videos… both of them. The lord will guide you through this season.
Understand your grief all too well. This weekend marks 2yrs since my youngest daughter gain her Angel wings. She died from breast cancer…I still have her slippers from where she slipped her feet out of them for the last time. I inherited her cat which has been such a comfort to me and I also wore her perfume. There is no right or wrong way to grieve and no time frame. Music is a big trigger for me and I would imagine for you too. Thank you for sharing your heart with us it comforts me🙏🩷
I came to your channel and subscribed because of Merina the two of you done a collaboration and been here every since and subscribed to your new channel to.Thank God he blessed you like that to be able to pay off Timmy funeral and his tombstone, really enjoy your videos
You are definitely not alone Stephanie. Grief is a life long journey. It's also a rough road. Thank you for being brave enough to share your journey. Knowing other people are going through the same feelings and emotions makes you feel a little less alone. Bless you sweet girl! 🤗🙏
Thank you Stephanie! God bless you! Love both of your channel
Thank you so much!
Don’t worry about not moving his things out. It takes time and make sure you are ready. It is all hard with grief. You are doing the best you possibly can. I think you are very brave. He was lucky to have your love.
Love a chatty grwm💛✨️
Me too! Well said! The conversation is a natural flow that I could listen to forever.
I just finished watching this video and wanted to comment again. You were a wonderful wife Stephanie. Timmy could not have asked for better. Sleep was something you needed to be able to take care of Timmy. After my dad passed away my mom said that the evenings were the most difficult for her. Take your time grieving, keep or give away whatever you need to, whatever feels right for you. I so appreciate you willingness to share your grief process, doing so is a blessing to anyone who listens. Hugs from Michigan🩷🙏
Thank you, Sheryl