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I watch a lot of readings because as a reader I truly love to support other tarot content creators and get an outside perspective into my own journey. This is the first reading (pile 2 )where I genuinely believed spirit meant for me to hear this about this person. It's pretty blunt, direct, firm no nonesense. I needed that. ty forgot to say accurate and validating AF!❤🔥
Ok I’ll shut up I promise but the synchronicities in this reading are actually INSANE 🤯 and that’s coming from a listener for multiple years who’s been shook many times. Girl. You’re somethin’ else. 🤍
HOLY CANOLI ESO I'm a few minutes into Pile 1 and it described my situation EXACTLY down to exact word-for-word things I said just a few days ago. You're magical and I really needed to hear this so far. ILY and thank you. I really needed this. [Edit] This feels like a personal reading, I'm honestly shook lol Yeah I've been waiting for someone to give me closure and my family and friends have been giving a lot of questionable advice LOL
Pile 1, very accurate. I been alone since 2021 when I vowed to myself to never allow myself to be abused within a relationship again, after dealing with the cycle for about 10 years. I did alot of healing and raised my standards. Therapy and everything. I’ve surrendered and left the situation in Gods hands. If Spirit wants me in a relationship I’ll be in one with someone they choose in the timing they choose. The last two years have being quiet, but there has been a lot of healing, growth, self love, and increase of discernment. I no longer over give or self sacrifice. Im in my surrender and receiving era. I meet lots of guys but I know it my gut I haven’t met the one who has good intentions for me, yet. Yes I’m guarded and protective of myself, and it does get lonely sometimes but I’d rather be alone than be abused or settle for someone who will mistreat me. At the same time I know I’m still working through a lot of things and could improve certain things in my mindset
Pile number 3’was the most healing and profound reading I’ve had. I won’t go into a sob story but I just spent the last 8 months of my life pouring my energy into a person just like this. We’ve been having a slow burn breakup and I have the courage to build boundaries and no longer deal with this
Good for you! Good for you, setting boundaries with that mess. I am so proud of you. And trust me I know how painful it is. Just remember you deserve to be treated with kindness and respect. Let yourself get angry. Let yourself heal. Cultivate safety for yourself and you will triumph over this. I am so happy for you and proud of you.
As pile 2... I am bit terrified to accept that she may be my soulmate and that I keep getting more deeply attached every single day I am resisting it because it's impossible.. but August was the best month of my life .... healing from so many deep childhood wounds has brought peace in me and I know it's because of that energy... I wish I could describe how every single day i am shedding my skin and I am so much more relaxed and positive and so calm and so connected feels like that single energy is guiding me but my mind is determined to keep me away from it. Although deep down I know it's going to happen.
Pile 1: so accurate. It made me cry. I feel so alone and I basically try to accept the fact that I will be alone forever and I'm meant to be alone. I try to tell myself that I am happy being alone but truly I wish that someone would love me the way I love someone. Thank you
Pile 3. Thank you so much for this Eso, I’ve had several dreams where I’ve seen the face of my old school crush for some reason. And in each of those dreams he appeared in, there was a theme of “you’ve grown up” “you’re leaving this behind” “you’re graduating” I did have an ex that was exactly as you described. And I think her type of energy was within other people that were attracted to me (to a lesser extreme than her, but it was still the energy of “will say what they need to say in order to get a certain energy out of you”). I was so confused when I got this reading because I had broken up with my ex a long time ago, but my guides in the beginning kept telling me “just keep listening….” And NOW with all the dreams and this message do I finally understand. I even remember in the dream I was standing on a golden beach and said that I was sad that I was graduating. And I wasn’t sure if I could ever come back here. I’m so used to seeing people as “significant”, but their actions never match their words, they disrespect my boundaries, and will say what they need to say in order to get what they can from me. But no more. Ever since my ex, I’ve been learning and recognizing those energies. Even from my old high school crush that I haven’t spoken to in years that kind of energy was there. This was so surreal that my guides used your reading to relay a very deep message that’s been coming to me in dreams all this time. Like I said in another comment, your message came at exactly the right time. Truly thank you EDIT: Eso, your brutal and honest readings is what helped me leave a toxic manipulative relationship in the first place lol. It’s something I’ve always been grateful to you for. Not to mention the compassion and fiery passion you’ve always had helping me towards healing. Idk if you’ll see this comment or this edit, but I think it’s just a thing that makes you, you. And it’s helped me in so many ways!
Regardless if people identify with the pile they select. I just want to say you’re so wise beyond your years. Your analogy, outlook and advice with each pile can resonate so deeply to create a catalyst for the change we all need to see within ourselves. You’re a little oracle and a lightworker. Thank you for your vulnerability to live in your authenticity to touch the lives of people you may never meet, but truly do impact. ❤
I love taking notes during your readings and this one had me GAGGED. Pile 3 here and when you said: ‘what you see in this person is the essence of you’ it literally all felt like it fell into place. Your readings teach me so much Every. Single. Time. Keep doing what you’re doing. You inspire me ❤
Thanks so much Eso. Pile 3: I really needed to hear someone tear this person apart and call them out on their negative behaviours. I’ve been extremely confused recently and going through a lot of turmoil and heartache because of their hot and cold/fickle attitude. It tried to give them the benefit of the doubt, but they let me down and I’m not okay with giving second chances to people who neither deserve them or are trying to earn them. I felt so much better having decided to distance myself from them, but then became very distressed wondering if these were just problems we were meant to work through together. I didn’t want to pass up on the potential of them being my partner, but I don’t to waste my time and energy in someone who is keeping me stuck and dragging me down. I feel MUCH better about letting them go thanks to this reading, and after realising they’re so hard to get rid of because they’re energetically plaguing me. I’m very empathic and can find it hard to distinguish my own emotions from other people’s desires and feelings at times. I feel much more confident in standing by what felt true to ME in my heart and soul, before I started thinking about it all too much and getting muddled.
Pile 1 and this definitely sounds like me. Love definitely defies logic but I've always tried to have a logical approach to it, which has been my bad. I've also always felt like the stepping stone for other people on their way to finding their right person. Although it has been kinda frustrating, I'm surrendering to the universe. "What's meant for you will not miss you..." Thanks for that line! I needed to hear it 😊
Pile 2. I'm scorpio and he's a 25 yr old Aries. He walked away while I was pregnant, came back when the baby was born, but left months after for the pandemic. He got back with his high school gf and all these years later, I'm just always torn as I always wanted our family together, and I love him immensely. It is my time though to move on and find my north.
Pile 4🙏✨ This resonated so much. I feel like I have no goals, no motivations, no passion and only living for the sake of living. You’re so right when you’re mentioned that I like to service others. It brings me a lot of fulfillment and joy when I’m able to help someone, but I’ve been feeling so tired and drained because idk how to address my problems right now. I’m such a control freak and it’s hard for me to delegate tasks to others when I know I can take care of them. I always come to you and Kino when I feel lost.💕🫶
Pile 1… all I can say is WOW… I have struggled with the idea of love and being in love for YEARS, not feeling like I’m worthy since I am over 30. There has recently been some emotional trauma I have been working through healing and in that journey I have realized I do want a loving relationship, I’m just trying to convince myself I’m still worthy. Sooo thank you for your amazing gift and sharing it with us all, you truly are out here bringing peace, encouragement, and comfort to so many 🧡
Pile 3; be so proud babe. You did an amazing job delicately and consciously treading the line of honesty. Grateful and so appreciate all the energy and love 💙 sending it back 10x
From Pile 1: This is very much me. But I'm also finally at the point of genuinely not wanting a romantic connection anymore. At 32 years old, I've never been in a relationship. Not even a play relationship from middle school. Despite wanting to be in one for a long time and actively searching and being rejected multiple times. I've now simply accepted that, while there are 8 billion people in the world, there isn't one for me. It's not a sad, hurt realization. I've just learned to enjoy my own company and love myself. I've been told to settle, just pick someone (as if it is guaranteed they will reciprocate, despite that never happening before 🙄), or "it'll come when you aren't looking for it." But the only peace I feel comes when I quiet everything external and sit in the knowing that I'm meant to be alone. Everything else hurts and makes me question why I'm "so great" and "so lovable " and yet so unwanted. 🫤
Pile 3; been dealing with a lot of darkness and depression lately. It’s felt like I’ve been stuck on a merry go round for ages, with no idea how to get off. This reading was everything I needed to hear and it was the wake up call I’ve been asking for. I’ve invested so much of myself into this abusive person who’s taken everything from me. I’ve wasted the entirety of my early 20s on trying to fix our relationship. I was supposed to go to college, start my career, get my own house; but I gave all of that up for them. Realizing that I’ve done nothing but build them up for years, while actively knocking myself down for their approval and love… sucks. But thank you. Thank you for not sugar coating this reading and thank you for being on my side. I don’t have anyone in my corner, so this reading means the world to me. Also I loved the Big Ed comparison lol; I’m a huge reality tv fan, so that comparison really resonated and put things into prospective for me. ♥️
Pile 2... Oof. So specific but so spot on. I'm not really interested in the person I was thinking of but the reading was exactly what I needed to hear. ❤ Shout out to the Santa Muerte deck, one of my faves.
Pile 3: damn Eso you put him on BLAST. I hadnt watched this video yet and saw him again this morning. Some little part of me was like "hmm, better consult that video..." and I am so glad I did. Thank you Eso for this reading, I really needed to hear it.
Coming from pile 2, he was a Cancer boy, I am a Libra man. To be honest, both of us bare a lot of responsibilities from family 😂 i am actually a single dad of a cat. We have been hanging out for like 9 months. I really love him tho, but i was going to leave him because i think he's better off without me. But he keeps coming back to my life, one way or another. Thank you Eso.
"I'm actually a single dad of a cat…" had me dying 😂 Love it. Never underestimate the responsibility one has raising a cat, I feel you on that one 😂 wishing you all the best! Thanks for marking me laugh
Pile 2. I’m 41, they’re 27. I feel like I’m too old for them, and have a hard time envisioning a future where I’m enough for them. I half-jokingly asked if we were dating and heard nothing for 2 months - no texts/calls, nothing. They showed up at my house 2 days ago and were really affectionate and gave me a gift, talked about doing some things together in the future... it was so unexpected, I really thought they were gone. I’m really trying to stay open to the idea that they might actually like me for me, and are willing to have something serious with me. Time will tell, but thank you for the messages.
Pile 3 was true to the last ‘t’. Even you apologizing for being hard on this person resonated because that is how I recognized why the pattern kept happening. Feeling sorry for them. Idk about the other pile 3s but it hit home and you articulated it so well. You are doing such a great job girl 🎉
Eso, listening to your readings feels like listening to the advice of a dear friend. You're energy is infectious and your voice is so soothing. You're so spontaneous and authentic and you always uplift my spirit. Thank you for doing this💜💜💜💜
Pile 2 - unfortunately this person is my child’s father. I feel so hopeless thinking I’ll never escape. Feels like he’s dragging me into hell with him.
Hi I know it’s been two months, but as someone who grew up with split parents from a very young age I want to assure you that eventually things will get better for you and your child. Your child will learn through experiences with both of you who they feel safe around. It took me until around 12/13. I don’t know the situation, but if you want to talk in the replies, I am here. Also I guess I’m assuming it’s negative, so if not I’m sorry lol I just want to help!
I am so blessed to exist on the same lifetime of EsoTarot's and be able to access her videos on RUclips. Thank you for being you and doing these readings, you're the best!
Pile #3 GIRL GO OFF!! everything you said made sense and It feels so liberating when someone else repeats something I've already thought of several times.
Pile 3 person here. I met him after my 30 year marriage ended. I was so naive. Couldn’t understand why he was so hot and cold. The minute I started talking to someone else, back in a flash. One thing I noticed after awhile is that negative/bad things would happen after I saw him. I think there was some sort of karma transfer. I know that sounds crazy but I don’t know how else to explain it. Also, first time watching you. Glad I clicked :)
Eso: "I'm so grateful to be reading to you all!" Me: "I'm grateful that there's someone like you to read to me!" Really, I am grateful for someone like you. You've helped me more than you think you know! I hope you have a great vacation!
Thank You for Pile 4. This unconditional love that I have for my daughter’s father is definitely affecting me. I began doing too much of the work and the draining is very real. Definitely felt exploited and taken advantage of. I compromised my boundaries time and time again. This reading helped me understand the energy in general I was attracting without putting the blame to an individual. I took a break from work this morning to receive this healing and I’m so happy I did. I hope this will allow more of a creative flow in my service rather than trudging forward for the sake of needing to take care of everything. Thank You ! I was noticing my progress slowing down and definitely distraught at night worrying about this person who runs over all my emotions. I’m able to detach after this reading and see the energy itself
Hi. I chose pile 3. Thank you so much for your words and interpretation and empathy. In that amount of time, you’ve shown me more support and empathy than the person that has been on my mind (definitely bread-crumby). I appreciate your sheer honesty and I know it’s exactly what I needed to hear. You also vocalized what my instincts have been screaming this entire time. Much love and peace to you!
Pile 3: It completely resonated with my life situation. Someone very close to me is making me question every decision I make. Not feeling obliged and believing in myself is what I’ve started doing since six months and it is indeed making a difference. Also don’t feel sorry for calling them out! You’re helping people find the strength they might need❤
How do I get my boyfriend to talk to me I love with all my heart right now in pain with my heart cuz I got to get stuff put in but I want to get my boyfriend I'll talk to me
I have a question I love my boyfriend right now my chest hurts most I pray to God to fix it but I have a boyfriend that I love very much truly but it won't talk to me and I love him so much I don't like being a break right now what I mean by a break is I need to relax so get my arm from hurting but I mean that break like I want to get away from my love with all my heart I'm not breaking up with him but I asked her if you wanted to divorce let me know cuz I do love me
I love my boyfriend so much but I don't want to break up just wondering if you wanted to get if he's going to give me a divorce if he does I don't want it I want to be with them I love them so much. My heart I'm just in so much pain right now I want to tell my wife to relax what I meant relaxes in bed not relaxed breaking up because I do love him because I'm so much pain my left leg is killing my
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE CLARIFICATION RANT ON NPD IN PILE 3. I've literally worded it the exact same way you have to sooo many people and they just don't understand the difference between narcissistic tendencies and having a full blow personality disorder. I'm so glad someone actually understand 😂
That moment when you're like, "God I need a reading on so-and-so," & you get a notification that Eso uploaded a video. Pile 1 ♥omg you're on point. but you're always on point so why am i surprised. I'm definitely the energy where I felt like I was doing too much, and not letting life happen for me. So I started backing off, but kind of like not trusting it will happen for me. Because everyone around me is in this "perfect relationship" but me. And it's like, okay, what am I doing wrong? I'm stuck on the 1 connection mainly because I do feel at peace in his presence but also because I've had confirmation that he's it but it's just complicated. I definitely feel the universe is going to lead me to him no matter what though, even if I try to grind my edges or wonder why it's not happening for me sooner. It's gonna happen on its own I just have to release everything you've said. Release control. Because I had this dream recently, it told me to go to this place (where we met) after a certain time. To me the dream made no sense because I knew after this certain time, they're closed. I was going to be around the area that day anyway because I was running errands. Well, the way things unfolded and happened, life took control and forced me there anyway. And it was closed but it wasn't and I got to see something so special that felt like confirmation. But maybe, just maybe, I have to spell it out for him quite literally that I have feelings for him. I hinted it so many times. lmfao
You are so damn gifted and intuitive Madison ❤ pile#1 as if you’re living in my head …you nailed every little detail ! Thank you 🙏 Btw a very well deserved vacation , that you should enjoy and disconnect and it should be .. we can all wait till you’re back for a reading ❤ enjoy and thank you again for taking the time of your vacation to do a reading ❤
Group 2 here. Not a widow or a single mom but definitely dealing with coming to terms with my sexuality and having to face being newly queer at the tender age of 30🥲🥲
I really meant to listen to pile 3 rn. I've been through hardships for 5 years and this reading feels like an oxygen to me who's suffocating. I love you Madison, thank you❤
Pile 1 Not even 13 min in on pile one and holy shit 😅 you’re so flipping talented and connected to spirit. It’s crazy eso i love you thank you so much for all that you thank you
3:52:09 I literally began to cry! I LOVE that you clarified that if you do not know which direction to take yet, that you simply aren’t meant to know just yet. It makes me feel like it is still okay and I am not a failure or screwup. I’ve been feeling so hopeless and lost. I’m so glad that it’s ok to be where I am right now.
Pile 2 here: I feel like it was more about someone feeling like a soul family. This is what i straight up caught from the first spread. And the death is a death of some part of yourself. Family, kids and divorce is kind of too specific to me )
15 seconds in......spoke right to me........ sometimes I just don't have it in me to hear the things u have to say. Sometimes the illusion is easier and safer to deal with then the truth. U get so use to that negative narrative in ur head that it's almost painful to hear anything good about it self.
I got pile 1. This full moon was crazy and i was chillen w archangel michael and realized a mantra i really liked: you aren’t special; you’re loved!!!! Love is like gravity. It touches and affects everyone. There is really no avoiding it. No point in running from it and telling yourself you don’t deserve it. It will be there and touch you anyway even if you are not in a romantic relationship or something. You’re not built different! You are not immune to propaganda!!!! Lolz. You are not immune to gravity and love
Love doesn’t have to look traditional to work! Stop clutching those petals! Let go and let things unfold how they will and of course do our part as Spirit leads
Pile 3. The brutality was only conformation. You are doing anybpile 3's justice. For all those who picked the pile, the right people for you, you dont question. It is peaceful, clear and actions and words are consistent and match. We deserve better.
I listened to pile 4 and felt called to pile 1 and both were so accurate and there were ideas and concepts around my fears and behaviors that ive had inclinations about that you provided answers to!! Love your readings❤thank you for showing up for us Eso!!!
I love you girl. Been listening for a while and as someone who was raised by a narcissist and ended up in relationships with narcissists both romantically and platonically consistently over my 31 years of life please ABSOLUTELY share this message. People NEED to hear and know. They need to see the signs, and you described those signs perfectly. The more awareness is raised about this issue the more likely you are to save people from the merry-go-round of misery and bullshit. You could literally save someone’s life. You fucking got me at breadcrumbing.
I hope you’re having a magical vacation!!! ✨ and thank you so much for continuing to share your brilliant light with us, our lives are infinitely brighter with you in it!!! 🥹🙏🏼👸🏼🌟🫶🏼
Pile 3..thank you love for your honesty, empathy you show. I’m ready to transform and become a STAR 💫 and live my big dream 😊🥹🥹❤️ love you , appreciate you so much!
pile 1, yes i am a giver, and in this life i only gave and gave, i became empty inside to provide for family, they always wants my sacrifice to be happy, i did, but they acussed me every time when things go wrong. My husband married me for a child, how could i even be open for love which didn’t even exist in my life without taking a sacrifice from me! I have to earn love or validation from childhood, trust me it hurts. I have never feel peace in my life, all time i have to be ready for another sacrifice and then they said, you are the reason we feel shame and you are not a good daughter, sister or wife. Trust me i am done with myself, but i am fighting because universe wants me to fight for those people who needs help, cause i am a healer. Thanks for this reading.
Pile 3 made me cry. At first I thought maybe this isnt the pile for me because my partner isnt outright malicious but so much else resonated as far as feeling like I'm responsible for everything and always having to be the one to apologize even when I know Im not the only one in the wrong, feeling like I have to smooth things over, or like if I stick it out long enough he'll want to be better with me. He doesn't outright put me down, in fact quite the opposite at times, but when I try to talk about my feelings or confront an issue he dismisses it or wont accept any responsibility or makes some kind of excuse. This is my childs father and weve been together off and on for a long time I actually left him for over a year but then moved in with him states away from home in part because I was living with family who was just as damaging and now I feel stuck. Ive been trying to find help but keep getting blocked as far as therapist for myself and daughter and just really having a hard time as far as where to turn. I felt so guided to move here and yet now I dont know what to do, waiting for that unseen option to come into my awareness. So much else I could say but feel like its all over the place. One of the biggest things you said is that Im not responsible for his healing or emotional state, because I take on so much already. Its not fair for me to be the only one making an effort. Thank you for this, I love your passion and honesty. You're one of my first and favorite readers that always tells me what I need to hear ❤️
Pile 4, was.. Perfect.. And like, it got everything right. I'm a student, and yeah I've been focusing on work, and my fun was work. I also thought that hobbies were useless, I felt useless doing the simpler things. I was not able to play video games or watch movies because damn I felt useless. Just entered college, and my fun was just going to school, but just after a couple of days, my will to start work was getting drained, and I soon realized that in the weekends I was getting really depressed to the point of just doing nothing and just oversleeping. Without school, I really felt empty and lonely, because I didn't know what to do. And yesterday it was Friday, I have a 3 day weekend and as soon as I entered my dorm I started to feel depressed again and just did nothing. And suddenly, I do this unusual thing.. I watch my favorite childhood movie. And the depressed and empty feeling just vanished even if it felt not right and useless and like I continued watching the other movies and spent the night doing it. And it changed me, I was happy. I was just too rough on myself. Obbies are not useless at all of course. I feel so blind right now, you have no idea! And like, I'm also a pretty relationship-focused guy, I have been looking for a relationship for so long, and yeah, I guess it was because of my way of thinking, I mean it was obviously because of it that, that I was not able to find my person, even though I am a pretty open guy who just works his life out for people. I have so many other things to learn, and that made me realize so many things and yeah.. Thank you!
Pile 1, yes, I have fears of getting heartbroken. I do want to open up to one particular person. I hope it happens soon ❤😢😊 I isolate myself. I have no idea who I want 😮 I wanna move! 😊 I do have walls up
pile 3 💙 "loser/victim mentality" is what he is all about. everything i did was seen wrong and he spat on my joys and achievements. powerful confirmation, glad to hear! thanks for this, Eso, much love for your readings and passion!
Yes Girl Pop off on those podcasts!! Omg that cracked me up so much and the accents!!! Perfect perfect 🤣🤣🤭🧡 I had pile 1 and it's been perfect to hear, exactly whats been on my mind for ages 🙌 though I'm still cofused i suppose thats the point that i need to idk start getting to know myself even more? Its frustrating but I'll keep doing my thing, baby steps. The songs were on point they do love talking to me through music 🙏🫡🔥 Love your work lovely keep it up, at your own pace of course and enjoy your vacation!
Pile 2 AND 3. Nailed where I've been (pile 3) and ideally, where I am going (pile 2.) Thank you! Thank you! I've been working SO hard on myself and learning a lot about and healing in the aftermath of a bad relationship. You are amazing!
I chose Pile 1, The Carrot Tarts Tarot with the Amethyst Gemstone commencing at 4:39 and a duration of 1 hour 4 minutes and 35 seconds.. It resonated feeling like I won a free personal as always (well almost always and here almost is a lot A Lot like A LOT)!
Finally finished adhd. I so relate. Wow just wow i wish everyone could hear the 2 piles i listened to. Walking into work blown out of the water amd embracing the path life has for me. So grateful
Pile 4 thank you for helping me see exactly what is happening inside my self. I’m a Gemini ♊️ you nailed it and I’m an artist so you got creativity and child like innocence as something to reconnect with. Also I have been overwhelmed by doing to much. Yes I don’t like people to help with my business because I’m so emotionally attached to it. Your awesome! Thank you 🙏 ❤ U.
At first I was drawn to pile 3, yes I lost someone I was with almost 6 years last early last year (passed away) I thought I was meant to be with. Even though I found some heartbreaking things he was going behind my back (leaving me with big trust issues) I still was open to still wanting love. Started dating & was hit with yet more disappointment so now I’m focusing on myself. Funny you mentioned Aries & cancer, the last person I was with was Aries with cancer rising. And he did get me to go back to church which helped get a lot of confidence back. Again I thought we had a future but found he lied about his past. Pile 4 was my second choice….Wow. I was a pediatric nurse over 30 years & yes I would go above & beyond, get irritated all the time why coworkers didn’t reciprocate what I did, meaning I see someone struggling & just jump in and help. Always Hey can you come in extra…. Never really had time for any social life because my days off were filled with housework, cooking, yard work etc…. Always the “dutiful” one & many times getting fed up not just at work but at home. My job took its toll on me physically, currently on disability & feeling a bit lost not having my job but now taking more time for myself & actually going back to church & exploring other spirituality. Now my biggest issue is saying NO & putting my foot down with my children (particularly one). I can’t financially help as much as I used to plus just tired of being walked on, yes I heard that sense of entitlement statement. So I watched pile 1 after watching #4 and yes I’ve been lopsided relationships where I’m the one giving & the other taking, not a 50/50 relationship where I’ve had step up & do it all & letting go of the relationship. Usually what ends it, lies & cheating. So yes big walls & trust issues. I’ve had to be independent. So with everything that has gone down past 19 months I’m taking a step back not accepting anything less than my ideal person. Starting to get in tune with me
Pile 3: OMG!!!! all these years i was trying to find out how to explain this to a third person, everytime i messed up and told some bullshit. But you just explained so accurately and few things you really did open my eyes. I surely need to get a closure from this person. As you said what i see in this person is the essence of me, that hit me realllyyyyy harddddd!!!! I really thought universe is giving me hints to stay with this person. BUT NOOOOO !!!! Its just he is coming back to meeee, Thank you so much for this reading.
Pile 3 😮😮😮😮😮 no reader ( and I listen daily for over a couple of years) ever described him like this …I’m in awe….but ur right on many angles… He is truly an energy vampire …..
Super Thanks Eso! I appreciate all you do for this community and by providing guidance, clarity, and peace with every one of your readings. You are an amazing tarot reader and beautiful soul 🤍
You go girl you know what your talking about! Never apologize. Very rarely they are diagnosed because they don't self reflect. People have to learn big time about Narcissitic Personality Disorder, it will change the world! Pile 3. I studied on this topic. Revolutionary education. Love ya.
For pile 3 you don’t need to apologize for speaking it like it is. Screw complaints if you get them about that. It needs to be spoken and even if it’s hard for people to hear, we have to face the truth that can sometimes even feel confusing about people like this.
Thank you so much for being here!! This reading turned out to be so interesting, I hope y'all enjoy watching as much as I enjoyed channeling 💕 sending big hugs and forehead kisses your way hehe xoxoxo
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🕐Timestamps🕓
Intro: 0:00
Reading Breakdown: 0:45
Pile Selection: 2:39
Pile 1 (Amethyst Gem): 4:39
Pile 2 (Dalmatian Jasper): 1:09:14
Pile 3 (Rainbow Merkaba):1:57:31
Pile 4: (Fire Quartz): 3:04:07
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I watch a lot of readings because as a reader I truly love to support other tarot content creators and get an outside perspective into my own journey. This is the first reading (pile 2 )where I genuinely believed spirit meant for me to hear this about this person. It's pretty blunt, direct, firm no nonesense. I needed that. ty forgot to say accurate and validating AF!❤🔥
AND I CAME RUNNING!!!!
You win first place 🥇 😎💗
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me too😂
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no cap
Every time Madison posts a love reading, a baby tarot reader gets their wings ❤
I love this omfg 🥹💗
we love YOU omfg 😘 have a great vacay, queen!
also I’m less than 10 mins in to my reading (pile 1) and I already have tears in my eyes so 🥲 tysm
Ok I’ll shut up I promise but the synchronicities in this reading are actually INSANE 🤯 and that’s coming from a listener for multiple years who’s been shook many times. Girl. You’re somethin’ else. 🤍
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Pile 3, here: thank you so much for expressing something I was having a hard time putting to words! I really love your readings.
And she literally did it with that degree in psychology and her own experience and described the terms of engagement 100% perfectly and accurately.
HOLY CANOLI ESO I'm a few minutes into Pile 1 and it described my situation EXACTLY down to exact word-for-word things I said just a few days ago. You're magical and I really needed to hear this so far. ILY and thank you. I really needed this.
[Edit] This feels like a personal reading, I'm honestly shook lol Yeah I've been waiting for someone to give me closure and my family and friends have been giving a lot of questionable advice LOL
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Pile 1, very accurate. I been alone since 2021 when I vowed to myself to never allow myself to be abused within a relationship again, after dealing with the cycle for about 10 years. I did alot of healing and raised my standards. Therapy and everything. I’ve surrendered and left the situation in Gods hands. If Spirit wants me in a relationship I’ll be in one with someone they choose in the timing they choose. The last two years have being quiet, but there has been a lot of healing, growth, self love, and increase of discernment. I no longer over give or self sacrifice. Im in my surrender and receiving era. I meet lots of guys but I know it my gut I haven’t met the one who has good intentions for me, yet. Yes I’m guarded and protective of myself, and it does get lonely sometimes but I’d rather be alone than be abused or settle for someone who will mistreat me. At the same time I know I’m still working through a lot of things and could improve certain things in my mindset
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Cool freaking beans, I love this!!!❤😲
Pile number 3’was the most healing and profound reading I’ve had. I won’t go into a sob story but I just spent the last 8 months of my life pouring my energy into a person just like this. We’ve been having a slow burn breakup and I have the courage to build boundaries and no longer deal with this
Same. I just came on here to let ESO know how important that was and especially how needed that exact delivery was. Thank you 🙏
run and don’t look back! Mines been 8 years and 4 kids later and I’m stuck. Don’t get stuck!!!
Mine is 7 years 😵💫 sheesh
Good for you! Good for you, setting boundaries with that mess. I am so proud of you. And trust me I know how painful it is. Just remember you deserve to be treated with kindness and respect. Let yourself get angry. Let yourself heal. Cultivate safety for yourself and you will triumph over this. I am so happy for you and proud of you.
9 months for me :( i wish u love and the peace u deserve
Pile 2,so spot on.i do not comment usually,but this reading,every word of it just resonates so well for me.thank you.
Thank you for addressing the whole NPD and narcissism aspect. It warms my heart when a fellow intuitive reader blends psychology in readings. 🪄✨💖💗
As pile 2... I am bit terrified to accept that she may be my soulmate and that I keep getting more deeply attached every single day I am resisting it because it's impossible.. but August was the best month of my life .... healing from so many deep childhood wounds has brought peace in me and I know it's because of that energy... I wish I could describe how every single day i am shedding my skin and I am so much more relaxed and positive and so calm and so connected feels like that single energy is guiding me but my mind is determined to keep me away from it. Although deep down I know it's going to happen.
Pile 1: so accurate. It made me cry. I feel so alone and I basically try to accept the fact that I will be alone forever and I'm meant to be alone. I try to tell myself that I am happy being alone but truly I wish that someone would love me the way I love someone. Thank you
same 😔
I will
"if nobody wants you, you're free" - far by sza
this is getting me through being along tbh 🫶
Pile 2 😍✨ Single, divorced mom of 3 here. I've been feeling like I would love a life partner but I'm also scared shitless lol Thank you!
Pile 3. Thank you so much for this Eso, I’ve had several dreams where I’ve seen the face of my old school crush for some reason. And in each of those dreams he appeared in, there was a theme of “you’ve grown up” “you’re leaving this behind” “you’re graduating”
I did have an ex that was exactly as you described. And I think her type of energy was within other people that were attracted to me (to a lesser extreme than her, but it was still the energy of “will say what they need to say in order to get a certain energy out of you”).
I was so confused when I got this reading because I had broken up with my ex a long time ago, but my guides in the beginning kept telling me “just keep listening….” And NOW with all the dreams and this message do I finally understand. I even remember in the dream I was standing on a golden beach and said that I was sad that I was graduating. And I wasn’t sure if I could ever come back here.
I’m so used to seeing people as “significant”, but their actions never match their words, they disrespect my boundaries, and will say what they need to say in order to get what they can from me. But no more. Ever since my ex, I’ve been learning and recognizing those energies. Even from my old high school crush that I haven’t spoken to in years that kind of energy was there.
This was so surreal that my guides used your reading to relay a very deep message that’s been coming to me in dreams all this time. Like I said in another comment, your message came at exactly the right time. Truly thank you
EDIT: Eso, your brutal and honest readings is what helped me leave a toxic manipulative relationship in the first place lol. It’s something I’ve always been grateful to you for. Not to mention the compassion and fiery passion you’ve always had helping me towards healing. Idk if you’ll see this comment or this edit, but I think it’s just a thing that makes you, you. And it’s helped me in so many ways!
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Your comment has me in tears. Wishing you well ❤❤❤
Regardless if people identify with the pile they select. I just want to say you’re so wise beyond your years. Your analogy, outlook and advice with each pile can resonate so deeply to create a catalyst for the change we all need to see within ourselves. You’re a little oracle and a lightworker. Thank you for your vulnerability to live in your authenticity to touch the lives of people you may never meet, but truly do impact. ❤
Pile 4: “No matter what you do you’re gonna be excellent at it.” That got me good.
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I love taking notes during your readings and this one had me GAGGED. Pile 3 here and when you said: ‘what you see in this person is the essence of you’ it literally all felt like it fell into place. Your readings teach me so much Every. Single. Time. Keep doing what you’re doing. You inspire me ❤
Thanks so much Eso.
Pile 3: I really needed to hear someone tear this person apart and call them out on their negative behaviours. I’ve been extremely confused recently and going through a lot of turmoil and heartache because of their hot and cold/fickle attitude. It tried to give them the benefit of the doubt, but they let me down and I’m not okay with giving second chances to people who neither deserve them or are trying to earn them. I felt so much better having decided to distance myself from them, but then became very distressed wondering if these were just problems we were meant to work through together. I didn’t want to pass up on the potential of them being my partner, but I don’t to waste my time and energy in someone who is keeping me stuck and dragging me down. I feel MUCH better about letting them go thanks to this reading, and after realising they’re so hard to get rid of because they’re energetically plaguing me. I’m very empathic and can find it hard to distinguish my own emotions from other people’s desires and feelings at times. I feel much more confident in standing by what felt true to ME in my heart and soul, before I started thinking about it all too much and getting muddled.
Esssssso This topic is Perfect for the retrogradeee and who LITERALLLY keeps coming bacckk!! ❤️❤️❤️😱✨🥺🫶🏻🌷
Pile 1 and this definitely sounds like me. Love definitely defies logic but I've always tried to have a logical approach to it, which has been my bad.
I've also always felt like the stepping stone for other people on their way to finding their right person. Although it has been kinda frustrating, I'm surrendering to the universe.
"What's meant for you will not miss you..."
Thanks for that line! I needed to hear it 😊
Pile 2. I'm scorpio and he's a 25 yr old Aries. He walked away while I was pregnant, came back when the baby was born, but left months after for the pandemic. He got back with his high school gf and all these years later, I'm just always torn as I always wanted our family together, and I love him immensely. It is my time though to move on and find my north.
Pile 4🙏✨ This resonated so much. I feel like I have no goals, no motivations, no passion and only living for the sake of living. You’re so right when you’re mentioned that I like to service others. It brings me a lot of fulfillment and joy when I’m able to help someone, but I’ve been feeling so tired and drained because idk how to address my problems right now. I’m such a control freak and it’s hard for me to delegate tasks to others when I know I can take care of them. I always come to you and Kino when I feel lost.💕🫶
Pile 1… all I can say is WOW… I have struggled with the idea of love and being in love for YEARS, not feeling like I’m worthy since I am over 30. There has recently been some emotional trauma I have been working through healing and in that journey I have realized I do want a loving relationship, I’m just trying to convince myself I’m still worthy. Sooo thank you for your amazing gift and sharing it with us all, you truly are out here bringing peace, encouragement, and comfort to so many 🧡
Pile 3; be so proud babe. You did an amazing job delicately and consciously treading the line of honesty. Grateful and so appreciate all the energy and love 💙 sending it back 10x
From Pile 1: This is very much me. But I'm also finally at the point of genuinely not wanting a romantic connection anymore. At 32 years old, I've never been in a relationship. Not even a play relationship from middle school. Despite wanting to be in one for a long time and actively searching and being rejected multiple times. I've now simply accepted that, while there are 8 billion people in the world, there isn't one for me. It's not a sad, hurt realization. I've just learned to enjoy my own company and love myself. I've been told to settle, just pick someone (as if it is guaranteed they will reciprocate, despite that never happening before 🙄), or "it'll come when you aren't looking for it." But the only peace I feel comes when I quiet everything external and sit in the knowing that I'm meant to be alone. Everything else hurts and makes me question why I'm "so great" and "so lovable " and yet so unwanted. 🫤
Omg I’m 32 years old too and I feel the same! I chose pile one too
Pile 3; been dealing with a lot of darkness and depression lately. It’s felt like I’ve been stuck on a merry go round for ages, with no idea how to get off. This reading was everything I needed to hear and it was the wake up call I’ve been asking for. I’ve invested so much of myself into this abusive person who’s taken everything from me. I’ve wasted the entirety of my early 20s on trying to fix our relationship. I was supposed to go to college, start my career, get my own house; but I gave all of that up for them. Realizing that I’ve done nothing but build them up for years, while actively knocking myself down for their approval and love… sucks. But thank you. Thank you for not sugar coating this reading and thank you for being on my side. I don’t have anyone in my corner, so this reading means the world to me.
Also I loved the Big Ed comparison lol; I’m a huge reality tv fan, so that comparison really resonated and put things into prospective for me. ♥️
Pile 2... Oof. So specific but so spot on. I'm not really interested in the person I was thinking of but the reading was exactly what I needed to hear. ❤ Shout out to the Santa Muerte deck, one of my faves.
Pile 3: damn Eso you put him on BLAST. I hadnt watched this video yet and saw him again this morning. Some little part of me was like "hmm, better consult that video..." and I am so glad I did. Thank you Eso for this reading, I really needed to hear it.
Coming from pile 2, he was a Cancer boy, I am a Libra man. To be honest, both of us bare a lot of responsibilities from family 😂 i am actually a single dad of a cat. We have been hanging out for like 9 months. I really love him tho, but i was going to leave him because i think he's better off without me. But he keeps coming back to my life, one way or another.
Thank you Eso.
"I'm actually a single dad of a cat…" had me dying 😂 Love it. Never underestimate the responsibility one has raising a cat, I feel you on that one 😂 wishing you all the best! Thanks for marking me laugh
Pile 3 here. Thank you for how passionate your words were. I appreciate them and needed them 🩷🩷🌟✨🌟
In this together 💞😭💯
Pile 2. I’m 41, they’re 27. I feel like I’m too old for them, and have a hard time envisioning a future where I’m enough for them. I half-jokingly asked if we were dating and heard nothing for 2 months - no texts/calls, nothing. They showed up at my house 2 days ago and were really affectionate and gave me a gift, talked about doing some things together in the future... it was so unexpected, I really thought they were gone. I’m really trying to stay open to the idea that they might actually like me for me, and are willing to have something serious with me. Time will tell, but thank you for the messages.
Wow, same age and the same feelings on my side ❤ - sending you a big hug 😊
Pile 3 was true to the last ‘t’. Even you apologizing for being hard on this person resonated because that is how I recognized why the pattern kept happening. Feeling sorry for them. Idk about the other pile 3s but it hit home and you articulated it so well. You are doing such a great job girl 🎉
Eso, listening to your readings feels like listening to the advice of a dear friend. You're energy is infectious and your voice is so soothing. You're so spontaneous and authentic and you always uplift my spirit. Thank you for doing this💜💜💜💜
well put ❣️I agree ....
Pile 2 - unfortunately this person is my child’s father. I feel so hopeless thinking I’ll never escape. Feels like he’s dragging me into hell with him.
Hi I know it’s been two months, but as someone who grew up with split parents from a very young age I want to assure you that eventually things will get better for you and your child. Your child will learn through experiences with both of you who they feel safe around. It took me until around 12/13. I don’t know the situation, but if you want to talk in the replies, I am here. Also I guess I’m assuming it’s negative, so if not I’m sorry lol I just want to help!
I am so blessed to exist on the same lifetime of EsoTarot's and be able to access her videos on RUclips. Thank you for being you and doing these readings, you're the best!
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That’s so sweet 🥹💞
Pile #3 GIRL GO OFF!! everything you said made sense and It feels so liberating when someone else repeats something I've already thought of several times.
Pile 3 person here. I met him after my 30 year marriage ended. I was so naive. Couldn’t understand why he was so hot and cold. The minute I started talking to someone else, back in a flash. One thing I noticed after awhile is that negative/bad things would happen after I saw him. I think there was some sort of karma transfer. I know that sounds crazy but I don’t know how else to explain it. Also, first time watching you. Glad I clicked :)
Eso: "I'm so grateful to be reading to you all!"
Me: "I'm grateful that there's someone like you to read to me!"
Really, I am grateful for someone like you. You've helped me more than you think you know! I hope you have a great vacation!
Pile 2. Ending the old relationship was a huge relief. So different is automatically good, not bad, for me.
Thank You for Pile 4. This unconditional love that I have for my daughter’s father is definitely affecting me. I began doing too much of the work and the draining is very real. Definitely felt exploited and taken advantage of. I compromised my boundaries time and time again. This reading helped me understand the energy in general I was attracting without putting the blame to an individual. I took a break from work this morning to receive this healing and I’m so happy I did. I hope this will allow more of a creative flow in my service rather than trudging forward for the sake of needing to take care of everything. Thank You ! I was noticing my progress slowing down and definitely distraught at night worrying about this person who runs over all my emotions. I’m able to detach after this reading and see the energy itself
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Hi. I chose pile 3. Thank you so much for your words and interpretation and empathy. In that amount of time, you’ve shown me more support and empathy than the person that has been on my mind (definitely bread-crumby).
I appreciate your sheer honesty and I know it’s exactly what I needed to hear. You also vocalized what my instincts have been screaming this entire time. Much love and peace to you!
Pile 3: It completely resonated with my life situation. Someone very close to me is making me question every decision I make. Not feeling obliged and believing in myself is what I’ve started doing since six months and it is indeed making a difference.
Also don’t feel sorry for calling them out! You’re helping people find the strength they might need❤
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How do I get my boyfriend to talk to me I love with all my heart right now in pain with my heart cuz I got to get stuff put in but I want to get my boyfriend I'll talk to me
I have a question I love my boyfriend right now my chest hurts most I pray to God to fix it but I have a boyfriend that I love very much truly but it won't talk to me and I love him so much I don't like being a break right now what I mean by a break is I need to relax so get my arm from hurting but I mean that break like I want to get away from my love with all my heart I'm not breaking up with him but I asked her if you wanted to divorce let me know cuz I do love me
I love my boyfriend so much but I don't want to break up just wondering if you wanted to get if he's going to give me a divorce if he does I don't want it I want to be with them I love them so much. My heart I'm just in so much pain right now I want to tell my wife to relax what I meant relaxes in bed not relaxed breaking up because I do love him because I'm so much pain my left leg is killing my
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THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE CLARIFICATION RANT ON NPD IN PILE 3. I've literally worded it the exact same way you have to sooo many people and they just don't understand the difference between narcissistic tendencies and having a full blow personality disorder. I'm so glad someone actually understand 😂
That moment when you're like, "God I need a reading on so-and-so," & you get a notification that Eso uploaded a video.
Pile 1 ♥omg you're on point. but you're always on point so why am i surprised.
I'm definitely the energy where I felt like I was doing too much, and not letting life happen for me. So I started backing off, but kind of like not trusting it will happen for me. Because everyone around me is in this "perfect relationship" but me. And it's like, okay, what am I doing wrong? I'm stuck on the 1 connection mainly because I do feel at peace in his presence but also because I've had confirmation that he's it but it's just complicated. I definitely feel the universe is going to lead me to him no matter what though, even if I try to grind my edges or wonder why it's not happening for me sooner. It's gonna happen on its own I just have to release everything you've said. Release control. Because I had this dream recently, it told me to go to this place (where we met) after a certain time. To me the dream made no sense because I knew after this certain time, they're closed. I was going to be around the area that day anyway because I was running errands. Well, the way things unfolded and happened, life took control and forced me there anyway. And it was closed but it wasn't and I got to see something so special that felt like confirmation. But maybe, just maybe, I have to spell it out for him quite literally that I have feelings for him. I hinted it so many times. lmfao
You are so damn gifted and intuitive Madison ❤ pile#1 as if you’re living in my head …you nailed every little detail ! Thank you 🙏
Btw a very well deserved vacation , that you should enjoy and disconnect and it should be .. we can all wait till you’re back for a reading ❤ enjoy and thank you again for taking the time of your vacation to do a reading ❤
Group 2 here. Not a widow or a single mom but definitely dealing with coming to terms with my sexuality and having to face being newly queer at the tender age of 30🥲🥲
I really meant to listen to pile 3 rn. I've been through hardships for 5 years and this reading feels like an oxygen to me who's suffocating. I love you Madison, thank you❤
Pile 1 Not even 13 min in on pile one and holy shit 😅 you’re so flipping talented and connected to spirit. It’s crazy eso i love you thank you so much for all that you thank you
3:52:09 I literally began to cry! I LOVE that you clarified that if you do not know which direction to take yet, that you simply aren’t meant to know just yet. It makes me feel like it is still okay and I am not a failure or screwup. I’ve been feeling so hopeless and lost. I’m so glad that it’s ok to be where I am right now.
Im drunk my der eso, not sure how helpful is that while watching your vids. I love you, tho
Cute
Love that for you
dont get me wrong im in japan so its 1:16 am hahaahah @@EsoTarot
Watching it sober now hahaha@@EsoTarot
2nd view! 1st comment (as viewer). 11th like, before choosing a pile.
Thank you.
Blessings.
Pile 2 here: I feel like it was more about someone feeling like a soul family. This is what i straight up caught from the first spread. And the death is a death of some part of yourself.
Family, kids and divorce is kind of too specific to me )
Let me know if you wants me or not cuz if I do move on he's hurting me right now so much😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
15 seconds in......spoke right to me........ sometimes I just don't have it in me to hear the things u have to say. Sometimes the illusion is easier and safer to deal with then the truth. U get so use to that negative narrative in ur head that it's almost painful to hear anything good about it self.
Just the notification and I had to stop what I was doing to be here instantly.....
I'm literally five minutes into the reading and tell me how she literally read my journal entry from yesterday!
Can u do why he dosent come yet?😢 or maybe is it energatically?
seeing 55:55 during this
I got pile 1. This full moon was crazy and i was chillen w archangel michael and realized a mantra i really liked: you aren’t special; you’re loved!!!! Love is like gravity. It touches and affects everyone. There is really no avoiding it. No point in running from it and telling yourself you don’t deserve it. It will be there and touch you anyway even if you are not in a romantic relationship or something. You’re not built different! You are not immune to propaganda!!!! Lolz. You are not immune to gravity and love
I love this!
Love doesn’t have to look traditional to work! Stop clutching those petals! Let go and let things unfold how they will and of course do our part as Spirit leads
Pile 3. The brutality was only conformation. You are doing anybpile 3's justice. For all those who picked the pile, the right people for you, you dont question. It is peaceful, clear and actions and words are consistent and match. We deserve better.
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2❤❤❤ I am a widow and bc of this, a single parent :( lost my husband 2 yrs ago and I'm just starting to wish and wonder if I could be loved again.
I listened to pile 4 and felt called to pile 1 and both were so accurate and there were ideas and concepts around my fears and behaviors that ive had inclinations about that you provided answers to!! Love your readings❤thank you for showing up for us Eso!!!
Yay 🎉
Pile 3️⃣ and 4️⃣, I can’t chose so I’ll listen to both 🤞🏼🙂
I love you girl. Been listening for a while and as someone who was raised by a narcissist and ended up in relationships with narcissists both romantically and platonically consistently over my 31 years of life please ABSOLUTELY share this message. People NEED to hear and know. They need to see the signs, and you described those signs perfectly. The more awareness is raised about this issue the more likely you are to save people from the merry-go-round of misery and bullshit. You could literally save someone’s life. You fucking got me at breadcrumbing.
Pile 1 - about five minutes in and i have goosebumps. Thank you for your beautiful messages. ❤
I hope you’re having a magical vacation!!! ✨ and thank you so much for continuing to share your brilliant light with us, our lives are infinitely brighter with you in it!!! 🥹🙏🏼👸🏼🌟🫶🏼
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Thank you 🥺💗
This guy needs to stay away from me so the real one can come in 😤🥴😂
Ok but can we just appreciate her picking fresh flowers for this reading❤❤❤
Pile 3..thank you love for your honesty, empathy you show. I’m ready to transform and become a STAR 💫 and live my big dream 😊🥹🥹❤️ love you , appreciate you so much!
pile 1, yes i am a giver, and in this life i only gave and gave, i became empty inside to provide for family, they always wants my sacrifice to be happy, i did, but they acussed me every time when things go wrong. My husband married me for a child, how could i even be open for love which didn’t even exist in my life without taking a sacrifice from me! I have to earn love or validation from childhood, trust me it hurts. I have never feel peace in my life, all time i have to be ready for another sacrifice and then they said, you are the reason we feel shame and you are not a good daughter, sister or wife. Trust me i am done with myself, but i am fighting because universe wants me to fight for those people who needs help, cause i am a healer. Thanks for this reading.
Pile 3...please don't ever apologize for going full Mama Wolf, bc we NEEDS IT!
Thank you for this beautiful reading 💗
Pile 3 made me cry. At first I thought maybe this isnt the pile for me because my partner isnt outright malicious but so much else resonated as far as feeling like I'm responsible for everything and always having to be the one to apologize even when I know Im not the only one in the wrong, feeling like I have to smooth things over, or like if I stick it out long enough he'll want to be better with me. He doesn't outright put me down, in fact quite the opposite at times, but when I try to talk about my feelings or confront an issue he dismisses it or wont accept any responsibility or makes some kind of excuse. This is my childs father and weve been together off and on for a long time I actually left him for over a year but then moved in with him states away from home in part because I was living with family who was just as damaging and now I feel stuck. Ive been trying to find help but keep getting blocked as far as therapist for myself and daughter and just really having a hard time as far as where to turn. I felt so guided to move here and yet now I dont know what to do, waiting for that unseen option to come into my awareness. So much else I could say but feel like its all over the place. One of the biggest things you said is that Im not responsible for his healing or emotional state, because I take on so much already. Its not fair for me to be the only one making an effort. Thank you for this, I love your passion and honesty. You're one of my first and favorite readers that always tells me what I need to hear ❤️
HAVE A WONDERFUL VAYCAY & KEEP SLAYING MADISON / ESO !!!! THE TIMING OF THIS 😭 Pile 1 & /maybe/ Pile 4, will edit/comment later !! 🥺💕✨
I’m confused between these two as well
Thank you so much for this reading choosing pile 2 is the clarity ; inspiration & encouragement u wanted to hear xx
Pile 4, was.. Perfect.. And like, it got everything right. I'm a student, and yeah I've been focusing on work, and my fun was work. I also thought that hobbies were useless, I felt useless doing the simpler things. I was not able to play video games or watch movies because damn I felt useless. Just entered college, and my fun was just going to school, but just after a couple of days, my will to start work was getting drained, and I soon realized that in the weekends I was getting really depressed to the point of just doing nothing and just oversleeping. Without school, I really felt empty and lonely, because I didn't know what to do. And yesterday it was Friday, I have a 3 day weekend and as soon as I entered my dorm I started to feel depressed again and just did nothing. And suddenly, I do this unusual thing.. I watch my favorite childhood movie. And the depressed and empty feeling just vanished even if it felt not right and useless and like I continued watching the other movies and spent the night doing it. And it changed me, I was happy. I was just too rough on myself. Obbies are not useless at all of course. I feel so blind right now, you have no idea! And like, I'm also a pretty relationship-focused guy, I have been looking for a relationship for so long, and yeah, I guess it was because of my way of thinking, I mean it was obviously because of it that, that I was not able to find my person, even though I am a pretty open guy who just works his life out for people. I have so many other things to learn, and that made me realize so many things and yeah.. Thank you!
Pile 1, yes, I have fears of getting heartbroken. I do want to open up to one particular person. I hope it happens soon ❤😢😊 I isolate myself. I have no idea who I want 😮 I wanna move! 😊
I do have walls up
I feel you about those podcast... its all surface level and many people buy into that, and It affected my self-confidence.
pile 3 💙 "loser/victim mentality" is what he is all about. everything i did was seen wrong and he spat on my joys and achievements. powerful confirmation, glad to hear! thanks for this, Eso, much love for your readings and passion!
thank you for those messages in pile 2. I appreciate it more than you think. I really needed to hear that.
Feeling so validated by this reading yes he is a narcissist. I liked the part about reflecting back your light I never thought of it like that.
👑Qween has posted!!!🏃🏻♀️❤️
Yes Girl Pop off on those podcasts!! Omg that cracked me up so much and the accents!!! Perfect perfect 🤣🤣🤭🧡 I had pile 1 and it's been perfect to hear, exactly whats been on my mind for ages 🙌 though I'm still cofused i suppose thats the point that i need to idk start getting to know myself even more? Its frustrating but I'll keep doing my thing, baby steps. The songs were on point they do love talking to me through music 🙏🫡🔥 Love your work lovely keep it up, at your own pace of course and enjoy your vacation!
Pile 2 AND 3. Nailed where I've been (pile 3) and ideally, where I am going (pile 2.) Thank you! Thank you! I've been working SO hard on myself and learning a lot about and healing in the aftermath of a bad relationship. You are amazing!
I chose Pile 1, The Carrot Tarts Tarot with the Amethyst Gemstone commencing at 4:39 and a duration of 1 hour 4 minutes and 35 seconds.. It resonated feeling like I won a free personal as always (well almost always and here almost is a lot A Lot like A LOT)!
Finally finished adhd. I so relate. Wow just wow i wish everyone could hear the 2 piles i listened to. Walking into work blown out of the water amd embracing the path life has for me. So grateful
Pile 4 thank you for helping me see exactly what is happening inside my self. I’m a Gemini ♊️ you nailed it and I’m an artist so you got creativity and child like innocence as something to reconnect with. Also I have been overwhelmed by doing to much. Yes I don’t like people to help with my business because I’m so emotionally attached to it. Your awesome! Thank you 🙏 ❤ U.
Pile 2: you saw right through me 😊 thank you for the messages!
At first I was drawn to pile 3, yes I lost someone I was with almost 6 years last early last year (passed away) I thought I was meant to be with. Even though I found some heartbreaking things he was going behind my back (leaving me with big trust issues) I still was open to still wanting love. Started dating & was hit with yet more disappointment so now I’m focusing on myself. Funny you mentioned Aries & cancer, the last person I was with was Aries with cancer rising. And he did get me to go back to church which helped get a lot of confidence back. Again I thought we had a future but found he lied about his past.
Pile 4 was my second choice….Wow. I was a pediatric nurse over 30 years & yes I would go above & beyond, get irritated all the time why coworkers didn’t reciprocate what I did, meaning I see someone struggling & just jump in and help. Always Hey can you come in extra…. Never really had time for any social life because my days off were filled with housework, cooking, yard work etc…. Always the “dutiful” one & many times getting fed up not just at work but at home. My job took its toll on me physically, currently on disability & feeling a bit lost not having my job but now taking more time for myself & actually going back to church & exploring other spirituality. Now my biggest issue is saying NO & putting my foot down with my children (particularly one). I can’t financially help as much as I used to plus just tired of being walked on, yes I heard that sense of entitlement statement.
So I watched pile 1 after watching #4 and yes I’ve been lopsided relationships where I’m the one giving & the other taking, not a 50/50 relationship where I’ve had step up & do it all & letting go of the relationship. Usually what ends it, lies & cheating. So yes big walls & trust issues. I’ve had to be independent. So with everything that has gone down past 19 months I’m taking a step back not accepting anything less than my ideal person. Starting to get in tune with me
Pile 1 (so far)
Fear is false evidence appearing real. This is definitely what I need to hear, again and again.
Pile 3: OMG!!!! all these years i was trying to find out how to explain this to a third person, everytime i messed up and told some bullshit. But you just explained so accurately and few things you really did open my eyes. I surely need to get a closure from this person. As you said what i see in this person is the essence of me, that hit me realllyyyyy harddddd!!!! I really thought universe is giving me hints to stay with this person. BUT NOOOOO !!!! Its just he is coming back to meeee, Thank you so much for this reading.
2/ i’m a sucker for tru love, never had it work out before…
i’ve had my heart ❤️🩹trashed around like it was garbage 🗑
hahaha totally trying to live like an enlightened sage 😅
Pile 3 😮😮😮😮😮 no reader ( and I listen daily for over a couple of years) ever described him like this …I’m in awe….but ur right on many angles…
He is truly an energy vampire …..
Super Thanks Eso! I appreciate all you do for this community and by providing guidance, clarity, and peace with every one of your readings. You are an amazing tarot reader and beautiful soul 🤍
Pile 3: This was the message I needed to affirm my no/low contact relationship with a parent. Thank you for sharing ❤
Pile 1, thank you so much it resonated a lot ❤ i just asked my guides abt this and your video came up im so grateful
don't apologize cause it's spot on!! it is about my narcissistic stalker ex lol and he deserves all the "mean" words
SAME
Pile 3 is Breadwinner by Kacey Musgraves vibes wholeheartedly.
You go girl you know what your talking about! Never apologize. Very rarely they are diagnosed because they don't self reflect. People have to learn big time about Narcissitic Personality Disorder, it will change the world! Pile 3. I studied on this topic. Revolutionary education. Love ya.
For pile 3 you don’t need to apologize for speaking it like it is. Screw complaints if you get them about that. It needs to be spoken and even if it’s hard for people to hear, we have to face the truth that can sometimes even feel confusing about people like this.
My man with talk to me I miss talking to him so much
Pile 3. 🎯Thank you soooo much.