For me, I realized I did want more social interaction, but every time you take steps in that direction it causes that distortion in self perception, dissociation and depression. Made me feel like I was doing something wrong but was told it’s supposed to happen. It’s like a cycle of extroversion than introversion and recalibration
@@DestroyerMariko It’s still ongoing but a lot better, I recognize when I’m in one state or another (or another, or another) and stick to that states plan. If I’m instantly dissociating at a social event there’s something I’m not addressing or I’m so overwhelmed I should go home anyway, so I do, and do hobbies until tides change. Like I’m at the mercy of two weather systems the rain and the rain in my head
I know this is a month old, but is there any way you might could talk more about what you mentioned at 5:57 with the whole DID thing if you're comfortable with it? The reason I ask is because I have schizoid myself, but also you literally described EXACTLY the way I feel with the exact words I've used. I was actually diagnosed with schizoid because I went in thinking it was DID or OSDD. But I still felt there was something off, some kind of weird personality, emotion, mood thing that's just...off that I can't really explain.
For me, I realized I did want more social interaction, but every time you take steps in that direction it causes that distortion in self perception, dissociation and depression. Made me feel like I was doing something wrong but was told it’s supposed to happen. It’s like a cycle of extroversion than introversion and recalibration
How do you manage it? Or is it still an ongoing project?
@@DestroyerMariko It’s still ongoing but a lot better, I recognize when I’m in one state or another (or another, or another) and stick to that states plan. If I’m instantly dissociating at a social event there’s something I’m not addressing or I’m so overwhelmed I should go home anyway, so I do, and do hobbies until tides change. Like I’m at the mercy of two weather systems the rain and the rain in my head
Hmm interesting! Thanks for the input
@@DestroyerMariko no prob hope you have an easy weekend with it
I know this is a month old, but is there any way you might could talk more about what you mentioned at 5:57 with the whole DID thing if you're comfortable with it? The reason I ask is because I have schizoid myself, but also you literally described EXACTLY the way I feel with the exact words I've used.
I was actually diagnosed with schizoid because I went in thinking it was DID or OSDD. But I still felt there was something off, some kind of weird personality, emotion, mood thing that's just...off that I can't really explain.