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I watched it as soon as it came to streaming, and I loved it! (I just didn't have the spoons to go see it in the theater.) I interpreted it slightly differently than you, but it was wonderful, and I was sobbing by the end.
People are mad because it's not subtle enough, but why do queer and especially trans films have to be subtle? Cis hetero romances don't have to be subtle. People really get so mad when our movies are loud and proud about queerness, lmao.
Honestly. There has been a few instances of finding out that characters are part of the LGBTQ+ from youtubers. It usually catches me by susprise. They praise it for being subtle but it is probably missed by a lot of people
One of my favorite parts of the movie is how as it got to the end, his asthma got progressively worse through the movie, which implies that he already is buried and living this life is slowly suffocating him
yeah that's why he had the breakdown when he was screaming that he's dying. he (they) has finally realized their transness and knows that not coming out of the closet will kill them. it's a great scene because it depicts so vividly how it feels to be suffocating in not being able to transition.
This movie had me UGLY crying. As a trans woman who didn't come out until their 40s because of so much fear, doubt and societal expectations, this hit REAL close to home.
You read a more positive ending than I did. The scene where Owen breaks down at work is so powerful because no matter how much he screams and cries for help, no one even looks up. Then after the scene in the bathroom, he walks out and apologizes to everyone and still, no one cares. It was a brutal representation of someone so scared of change that they die in the closet.
Yea, that ending was very sad. Even though Owen saw that no one cared and saw the glaring truth of the situation after cutting himself(herself?) open. Owen still came out at the end to fight for the life that only brought death
From the halfway point when she gets captured all the way up to the end, I couldn't stop crying. But then the ending....... so undoubtedly sad and tragic, but also made me angry. Not at the main character and her self doubt and fear, but angry at the world, at society, at my family, at my partner, at all the bigots and their stupid conservative religions and belief systems, and everything in this world that's held me back and tried forcing me back into the closet...... just really pissed off at this whole world that tries to suffocate and murder us while forcing us to fit into this depressing charade of a life, and every moment we're prevented from transitioning, we're dying. And they want to continue doing this to trans kids. All because they're AFRAID!!!!
It felt really sad to me too. Seeing her apologize over and over again too kept doing that call back where Maddy/Tara told her originally to "stop apologizing". It was like a reminder of how she could have saved herself if she followed her and that she missed that shot. Twice. This ending could have been prevented, on so many levels.
I watched this a few days ago with my dad and brother. My brother, who is a cishet blossoming film bro, told us he thought it was well made but that there was no deeper meaning. It's disillusioning and sad for me that in a way this film's messaging itself isn't clear for people who have never taken any time to think about or witness queer experiences (my brother has never been involved with my transition and we've rarely talked about it, my dad who has been involved meanwhile said he thought the movie was very sad and impactful with its existential angst even tho I don't know that he picked up on the trans specific themes). It's shocking to me sometimes how the experiences, themes, media, etc that are so integral to my life are so unimaginable for cishet folks, especially when they don't consume any queer media Anyways moral is we *need* more movies like this, I loved it and think I'll love it more with each rewatch :))
How in the world does anyone say this movie has no deeper meaning? Bro was literally sucked into a TV show to represent media escapism. That's the most on the nose metaphor I've ever seen
@@spongecakes1986 Because some cis-het people refuse to believe we are valid. Therefore anything made that resonates with us,.... and does not with them... has to just be a bad film. As Brie Larson said about movie reviewers and " A wrinkle in Time." " I don't need a white 40 year old man telling me what didn't work about "A wrinkle in Time" It wasn't made for him." This is our " A wrinkle in Time". I am glad that it exists, I simply wish it had been a Little more clear for our cis het deniers.
yeah this movie was great. i was expecting it to be a lot more scarier than it was, but it ended up being scary in a more gut wrenching way which really made the message more powerful. not to mention it’s very aesthetically pleasing. it’s definitely going to be a movie that sticks with me for a while
I’m an older trans woman who couldn’t transition because there’s was no way to get it. Being different made it nearly impossible to be stable financially so there was no way to pay the high out of pocket for it. Plus not knowing all the aspects of transitioning was a deterrent. I started my transition at 57 in 2017. I’m now fully transitioned and passable but how I look was only a small part of fixing myself from the horrible ways I felt about myself from years of social and family rejection.
Sorry it's been tough. I Hope trans people in the future will have an easier Path to happiness, and I Hope your own happiness remains with you, strong and stable. Happy Pride!
It was nice seeing a movie that was made FOR queer people. Cishet people don’t really get the movie cuz this isn’t what their lives are like. I love that despite it being a trans focused movie, it’s something that anyone in the queer community can relate to ❤
Thank you for sharing… I came out at 46 . I was born 1966 and was abused for my femininity even though my parents knew I was intersex ( CAMAB ) . I/we ( yes we are a DID system) suffered through dysphoria. Gotta say , this got me right in the feels.
From Powerpuff Girls to Totally Spies to Little Mermaid, there were so many shows I was forced to put on that boy's mask and not enjoy the shows. But I watched and enjoyed them all. My 'friends' didn't need to know. I love movies like this that teach everyone that choosing yourself is always the better choice.
I used to play barbies with my best friend who was a girl. at first our parents thought it was cute and made jokes about us eventually dating but as I got older they made it weirder with the dating bits and also shamed me for playing girl stuff with her so I just played hockey and video games with the boys. I didn't realize this kinda stuff until years later when I liked dressing up female sims characters and my gf loves that she can watch fashion reality shows with her boyfriend instead of me being "eww its for girls".
i saw this film 3 times in theaters and cried every single time, as a queer, gender confused person i've never quite seen myself in a film like this and it kinda broke me
I'm sending this to my beautiful trans daughter who is afraid of coming out to her dad. Love you, my Willow! Thank you so much Samantha for being such a beautiful and loving woman.
One of the parts that really sells the idea for me is actually really explicit and again portrays being trans so well When Owen first approached Maddy he goes and leans against a pink vending machine saying "Body" and "Totally natural". To me that's symbolising that even if you're unaware of your own transness, it's always been there and it's been a natural part of yourself
omg first luxeria and now you too! i am loving that love & pies is not only hosting a pride month event in-game but specifically reaching out to trans youtubers to promote their game!
The ending of the movie so perfectly captures what it’s like to be in the closet later in life, feeling like you are always dying and feeling like you need to apologize constantly to everyone for your existence. It’s hard not to be overly bleak about the ending, though Isabelle’s* seeing the glow still alive inside her does show that there IS still time, it’s never too late. She doesn’t have to live this tortured existence. I left feeling very melancholy, though I also left hoping for the best for her going forward. *Okay, Owen, but I’m calling her Isabelle since that is clearly where her heart is
Vox did a great video on them. They mentioned that no film studio in history has ever had fans and its own niche until a24. Now alot of studios are following in their footsteps, like the studio NEON.
Ugh. The representation in media is so important. I wish there were more examples of asexual and aromantic people in media. I feel like I missed out on this experience due to the lack of aspec representation.
" Do you like boys or girls" " I dunno... I like TV?" Is one of the best lines in the film,... and I am hyper-sexual. Ok,... I am just a Latina,...but that means hyper-sexual in my book. lol...
22:17 This movie hit hard. I am so afraid that if I come out (I am a trans man) while living at home, my family will tell me who I am supposed to be, and erase me.
I'm so sorry that you have to worry about that. Hopefully it won't be too long before you can escape and create your own safe home, where you can openly be the amazing man that you already are inside.
as someone who didn't come out until my late twenties after literally hitting the edge of what I could survive, this is painfully relatable. I am so grateful that I have a partner that allowed me the safety to deconstruct so much trauma and be myself, to support me in the face of being perceived by an often very mean world. I am alive and thriving because I made this leap of faith in coming out and starting medical transition, and it hurts so much to see others trapped where I've been.
This movie left me with a sense of yearning. A strong feeling of yearning for connection on a level I can't comprehend. No other movie has had this effect on me where I came out of it wanting to feel close to someone else in our experiences in a very specific way. And so I applaud it for giving me such a powerful and unique experience.
24:16 "There is still time" is really moving for me. I'm now in my thirties and still trying to figure out so much in my life. I feel so lost and confused at an age so many other people already got their stuff figured out. I have dreams that seem so far away but I still have time to achieve them. I still have time to write a book, I still have time to find a partner who will accept me, and most importantly I still have time to find my own inner happiness.
I went to see it the day it came out because phoebe bridges is in it and I love her, but it is genuinely one of my favorite movies and I loved the part where he cuts his chest open, as well as the soup party bit (iykyk) it is a wonderful movie and I definitely recomend.
I haven’t seen the movie but the message has resonated with me. I’m biologically male but I don’t feel male. I don’t know exactly who I am yet and it’s hard finding out who I am with a homophobic and trans phobic family. But I express myself through the media I engage with and this film is the first film I’ve heard about that resonates with me in this way.❤ also new sub
I’m somebody going through the same situation as Owen, no I don’t mean stuck inside a TV lol. But, I realised I was trans almost 6 years ago and still not coming out. I constantly feel empty, even though it’s pride month I feel like that.I keep telling myself just forget and try to be a Ci’s man, but I know I’m a trans women, but I guess burying your sadness is all part of being a man. I wish I realised it sooner, I was fine before I realised though, I was very stereotypically masculine and still am., which hurts most because it makes my identity make even less sense, but I did watch feminine shows like Hannah Montana and Pretty Little Liars. I still love feminine media, I watched the Twilight films unironically, and cried while the other half of my brain realising how bad they are. I try to tell myself it’s fine to be a guy who likes feminine media, but a part of me wishes she grew up watching these with her mates. It’s so fucked, my brain is a mess and I hate that the only way to fix it to be a minority that gets discriminated against constantly on social media and in public. Being a man is easy, it’s honestly a cheat code in life, I don’t have to worry about perverts, being harassed or looking pretty for a male perspective, but I’m never happy. I have so much love or respect for the people who are brave enough say fuck you to all of that and be determined enough to be themselves. I hope I can be like that one day. My parents and friends know I’m trans, but I didn’t feel like they were fully supportive even though they were accepting, especially from my Dad. They said they would still love me no matter what, but the difficulty for them to wrap their head around what I was going through turned me away alongside my difficulty to commit. The hour long conversations of me trying to explain myself felt uncomfortable. I know they’ll come around to it, but the fear and paranoia of being judged by them is horrible and I don’t want to upset them by changing. They all said they felt like they were losing me, and I know transitioning isn’t easy for anyone but I don’t want to hurt them or potentially lose them when I love them so much. It feels selfish, but it’s not healthy to hurt myself mentally for other people’s happiness. If you’ve read all this thank you. Honestly, the only reason I’m commenting this giant comment is because I know this is a safe place, and there’s multiple people who have felt like this. Samantha’s videos help me a lot, what started as me finding out what trans is, became oh shit this is me from the first video of her’s I watched. Anyways, happy pride month. 🏳️🌈
Unrelated to the video but you kinda really look like Janel Parrish to me 😭 (which is a good thing because she’s a great actress and she was badass in Pretty Little Liars which you are too!)
I saw this film over a month ago and it still feels like I have a hole in my chest. Everytime I think of “there is still time” written in chalk I want to cry. I cannot stop thinking about TV Glow it truly is life changing 😭
I’m not trans. I’m a cis gay man. But I can really relate to the feeling of being connected to a tv character. Specifically the character of Justin from Queer As Folk. I came out around the same age. Dated an older guy like he did. Had a lot of the same experiences. That show came out at a crucial part of my life and meant a lot to me. I can’t even watch it now because the nostalgia rushes over me. It’s like watching my life.
For those that don't know: the Ace community wears a black ring on their middle finger on their right hand, and the Aro community wears a white ring on their middle finger on their right hand. 💞
I was gonna tell my friend I was aroace like a year ago but then backed off (they’re queer so I wasn’t scared of his reaction but still we were in our homophobic school) and they messaged me and were like what were you gonna say? I just sent a picture of the black ring middle finger right hand and white ring middle finger left hand and he figured it out from there
I Just Watched I Saw The TV Glow, And I Absolutely Loved The Symbolism And Finally A Story That Involves A Perspective On Being Transgender. I'm A Transgender Woman, and I think I Myself And Everyone Can Relate To Identity and Finding Yourself And The Struggle For Acceptance From Others and Yourself ❤
The first TV character I identified with was Doctor Who. Definitely Tom Baker (4th), but also Sylvester McCoy (7th). My still-favorite story arc is "The Five Doctors", and especially how his separate regenerations all annoyed each other, each considering the others to be complete weirdos.
this was the scariest movie i have ever seen, even though i have came out, i haven't done any deeper thinking or accepting myself like i had thought. so this movie still hurt me a lot. the end hurt so bad. i was so mad immediately after i watched it. i was called out, there was no hiding now. didn't help i couldn't even talk about the movie with anyone, it probably wouldn't have even mattered because i feel like no one would get it. it hurts me that no one can understand what i go through. now i feel the pressure, i dont want my story to end like this. this movie was a real wake up call, i have already wasted so much time.
I went to see this in theatres because of you and omg i sobbed. I loved this so much. A24 just finally released their blu ray for the US and i ordered it
As a later-life transitioner, this hit home really hard. In part because I was right about that age at the time this film was portrayed, and because it mirrored a lot of what I felt my entire life. As a kid having a fantasy you always wanted then being told you can have it but you need to do something drastic (in Owen's case, running away from home). For some kids they do it but for Owen and myself the logical part of it brain wins out and we stuff those thoughts away because they're "just a fantasy". Then he gets older having ignored that side of himself for years and it comes up again. This time it's more real, there's more context, it's more plausibly true. Unfortunately to achieve it requires more drastic steps. It requires you to kill your existing life (for Owen this is a quite literal thing) and still have faith without direct evidence that it'll work out in the end. So despite wanting it so bad again the logical mind wins out you push it away bury the feelings and push on with life. True acceptance didn't come until much much later when living that life your current life wasn't mentally and physically possible anymore. Again the parallels to my life are kinda shocking, and in some ways really sad.
Thanks Sam, I will try to see this if it is on in the UK. You asked for if we received boys don't do that comments, too often in my childhood, looking back 45 years this happened over all sorts of things, baking, sewing, crochet, hair and beauty so I never even asked about ballet or dance. It didn't change my core essence, I was diagnosed with gender disphoria and started cross sex hrt almost 34 years ago. It enabled me to become more me. Conversely some years later when I announced I want to learn how to ride a bike and get a Harley, I was told 'but girls don't ride motorcycles'. You only have one life, so live it. Hugs to all in this somewhat difficult Pride month for Trans youth in the UK.
This was my favorite trans film. I’ll also never recover from the disorientation lol. I love the dream language and the beautiful warning message at the end in the most existentially dreadful horrific way
I know this movie must be so cathartic to trans people, and in a way I find it interesting because it wasnt the transness where i connected with this movie, since im not trans, but i was still sobbing at the thought of owen being so terrified to live his (her? :3) true self and letting his life go by until he just exploded at that birthday party, screaming for help while the whole world around him went silent and unreacting. I am struggling with a lot of things in my life and I'm terrified every day that it'll be like this forever. I know I could change it somehow but I'm so scared and paralysed. Anyway, the reason I found it interesting is because I bet many transphobes have no issue relating to someonw being scared to take a risk/change something in order to be happy, but as soon as it's about transness somehow all empathy/sympathy goes out the window. lmao anyway. 10/10 movie ♥
I'm obsessed with this movie, just watched it 2 days in a row 😂 I am absolutely devastated that I will never be able to watch the pink opaque bc it's not a real show 😅.Also the nods to twin peaks filled my heart with joy. I didn't even really pick up on the commentary about trans-ness but now that you mention it, yeah that tracks
I loved Buffy The Vampire Slayer (which The Pink Opaque is modeled after, confirmed by the cameo from Amber Benson). My girlfriend said, "That's a show for girls!" (She was always policing my gender. We're not together anymore.)
i just recently found out i was FTM and your videos and content are so comforting to me. and i so badly wanna see it saw the tv glow. i hope one day i can feel more comfortable and confident in who i am bc ive been denying it for years.
I get wanting the explicit trans narratives for the recognition but I think metaphor and allegory are much more powerful in explaining to people who are really willing to listen. It poeticizes the feelings that grow out of transness and allow them to be understood. I was in a deep depression a few years ago coming to terms with being trans and I just kept thinking of myself as Kafka's Metamorphosis that I had read back in school. It's not about transness but self perception and a feeling of uselessness, of being a burden, of being a freak. For me it was a trans story because I identified with it through being trans. Trans stories should be the reverse of that in my opinion.
I feel like the perfect horror movie to depict how the brain and body are seperate with trans folk would be a trans take on Frankenstein, but with more of a psychological focus. Idk, might just be me but I just see too many similarities of Frankenstein's creation to what the trans experience is like to judge someone off from their physical being along with a couple of other things.
Yes! Completely agreed! I'm in the middle of writing a research paper on this exact thing, I'm glad other people see the connection between transness and Frankenstein's creature. I'd love to write a book or something exploring this concept, but I lack the necessary writing talent to do it justice. One day, maybe
I saw the title of this video and immediately went to watch the movie. It was better than I could ever think. I also loved the sapphic themes throughout as well as the trans ones. I just know the girlies in the pink opaque show were gfs.
Samantha… I really wanna go see this movie because I am really struggling with my transness. I’ve always felt this sense of imposter syndrome-like I’m not able to admit my own being because I don’t deserve to, but I think that you (not only in this video) have really helped me to accept it more readily. It’s a really long and hard process, like you said, but I want to take the journey. ❤
Just FYI The Pink Opaque is based off of a lot of shows for pre-teen/teens in the 90's. "Are you Afraid of the Dark" "Pete and Pete" "Eerie Indiana' "The Secret World of Alex Mack". Yes a lot of them were weird but in a good way. I don't think the children of today could stomach those shows much less understand how much it affected kids growing up in the 90's.
I am trans, watching this movie I didn't necessarily find it trans specific. The plot could also apply to a fem gay man, a non-binary person, a gender queer/fluid person, someone interested in female drag. The writer left the main character 's identity undisclosed so that anyone could relate their experience to his. You saw him as a trans woman, so obviously the writer did an awesome job with their character development choices 😊
Took a whole pandemic to get me to accept myself. The relationship Owen had with The Pink Opaque was very similar to my relationship with The Powerpuff Girls in the early 00s. Literally had constant bullying and harassment happened during a period of time because "thats not a show for boys" and was a heavy contributor to repressing many things at that age.
I’ve cried more than once after watching that movie. I know exactly how Owen felt. The suffocation and the screaming at the end. I’ve been there. That life can change That you're not stuck in vain We're not the same, we're different There is still time.
This movie broke me in SUCH a good way. Seeing such a visceral visual of my internal thoughts was so incredibly healing, because finally someone understood. 10/10, no notes
Comments from a Cis Het man. I saw the ending as a tragic moment. It felt to me that this is what happens to someone who wasn't brave enough to transition. F people saying shows are 'For Girls', I spend most of my time reacting to Charmed. I HIGHLY recommend Jane Schoenbrun's last feature. Not directly trans themed, but light trans subtext. I think it's brilliant.
I don’t think it ever explicitly says so, but yeah. It starts out in a 90s-analogous world, with tons of allusions to shows like Twin Peaks, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Pete and Pete, X-Files. Are You Afraid of the Dark, etc
The first time I ever felt truly seen in a piece of media was when I watched this Disney Channel movie called The Swap when I was like 16, and I became infatuated with that movie particularly the character of Jack. Basically the movie is about these two high schoolers who are both grieving the loss of a parent. Ellie (Played by Peyton List) is grieving her dad abandoning her, and Jack (Played by Jacob Bertrand) is grieving the loss of his mother. They’re also both struggling to deal with the different ways boys and girls are gendered in society and the pain that can come with that. So one day they both say they wish they had the other person’s life and some disney magic happens and they switch bodies. Basically the rest of the movie is them learning to deal with the loss of their parent and their personal problems while living as the other person. I’ll preface the rest of this by saying I am not trans. But I’m a gay man, and at the time I watched this I was a gay teenage. That being said the character Ellie felt the most real and personal to me, particularly when she switches into Jack’s body. When she switches with Jack, she goes from being this star gymnast living with her mom to being a hockey player living with these two hyper masculine boys (Jacks Brothers) and their dad who’s the head hockey coach. And the thing about Jack’s actor, Jacob, is that he plays Ellie in Jack’s body so closely to what I experienced as a kid that when I saw it I almost cried. Ellie as a character is the exact opposite of masculine, and she’s even kind of afraid of masculinity, so seeing her in this male, pretty masculine, body felt like my experience as a gay feminine boy. Jacob portrays the new Jack as very understandingly feminine where as the joke is that he’s now afraid of anything “Boy” related, but he’s also very sweet and kind to the people in his life who he once didn’t like, and the femininity never felt like the punchline. Like it just felt so natural to the character, and I remember thinking when I watched it “If I didn’t know this was a body swap movie, I would have just assumed this character is a gay boy.” And after I finished the movie, I had a thought like that was the first time I’d ever felt like I saw myself correctly portrayed in a movie.
That movie had me in tears, as a pre-evrything trans man who lives in a country where medical transition is VERY hard to achieve. Moments like that make me feel like it's not over yet and that I have to keep on fighting.
As someone already on HRT and still struggling with a similar dad and my willingness to take the last leap of faith into my true self I will definitely see this movie.
This movie had me SOBBING, my parents walked in while I was watching they end (I am still closeted) and I told them I just watched Inside Out 2 despite it not being on digital yet. LMFAO 😭💀
This movie hit me to my core when I saw it. I'm still feeling it. It was so good. I watched it with my partners and pointed out all the points that mapped to my experience discovering myself before I came out a few years ago.
I think it's better that Owen's identity has been left unconfirmed. I very much related to Owen as a gay man. I was always being told by my parents to not do things they found to be for girls or wear certain colors or clothes. I feel the story of the main characters applies to queer community as a whole as we have 2 versions of ourselves - one created to meet the expectations and norms of the society and the true one which takes a lot of work and courage to discover and live proudly with. I think it was suggested that Maddy's character is trans, though. After coming back for Owen (supermarket scene) Maddy's appearance is more masculine and they keep repeating Maddy is not their real name anymore.
I've had similar sentiments with the film. I love that's there's a more up front reflection of "the horrors of coming-of-age" and beyond [what staying in the closet can do to you] - but it could of been more explicit in the origin of the pain. I would of been satisfied if they made the dress scene more than just a flashback. - - Mild spoilers - - My one gripe with the plot was the bench scene where he said if someone were to open his chest where his heart should be, it would be empty, my ace roomie and I thought it would be some ace representation but it was instead in reference to escapism. Also I unfortunately can't confidently recommend this movie to anyone with major struggles around dissociative/derealization because inviting your bestie to be buried alive to escape to a new reality? Not the best "caterpillar emerging from their cocoon" metaphor for liberation I would of chosen but it is a horror film.
Trans masc pretty sure my pink opaque was Pokemon. I first didnt like pokemon because i had seen my brother watching it so when i was really young i thought i couldnt watch or like pokemon. I later grew up and started to hypefixate on pokemon back in seventh grade because it was the only showni liked that was on tv before i left for school in the morning and it was also around the same time i started learning about the community and labels. But i later would be so hyperfixated on pokemon that i would binge watch the entire show (all the seasons and movies) and its still a lil hyperfixation i visit every now and again but i havent gone back to it the way i did when i first started liking the show
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Can you please drag blaire white dedicating a whole video ??
Watched it a few days ago. It's one of the better things i've seen in recent months.
I watched it as soon as it came to streaming, and I loved it! (I just didn't have the spoons to go see it in the theater.)
I interpreted it slightly differently than you, but it was wonderful, and I was sobbing by the end.
@@ReginaTrans_ Blaire White is the voice of reason and sanity.
@@davefoss6201she openly hates on her own community and her own tranness. That doesn't give sanity, it gives a major inferiority complex
People are mad because it's not subtle enough, but why do queer and especially trans films have to be subtle? Cis hetero romances don't have to be subtle. People really get so mad when our movies are loud and proud about queerness, lmao.
The issue also is if it's too subtle they just straight up deny its queer at all. We can't win.
@@stxrstruck6755yeah, that sucks, and I AM not even queer myself (that I know of).
@@stxrstruck6755 which is of course what people complaining want. They want it to be able to deny the fact that it is queer undeniably
Honestly. There has been a few instances of finding out that characters are part of the LGBTQ+ from youtubers. It usually catches me by susprise. They praise it for being subtle but it is probably missed by a lot of people
it was subtle to me , i had to look up director interviews to know wtf it was about lol
One of my favorite parts of the movie is how as it got to the end, his asthma got progressively worse through the movie, which implies that he already is buried and living this life is slowly suffocating him
Omg that makes me want to cry
Omggg that makes so much sense!!!
yeah that's why he had the breakdown when he was screaming that he's dying.
he (they) has finally realized their transness and knows that not coming out of the closet will kill them.
it's a great scene because it depicts so vividly how it feels to be suffocating in not being able to transition.
This literally had me jaw dropped, especially at the ending during the birthday party
This movie had me UGLY crying. As a trans woman who didn't come out until their 40s because of so much fear, doubt and societal expectations, this hit REAL close to home.
glad you made it ❤
@@trustedroot Thank you so much!
You read a more positive ending than I did.
The scene where Owen breaks down at work is so powerful because no matter how much he screams and cries for help, no one even looks up.
Then after the scene in the bathroom, he walks out and apologizes to everyone and still, no one cares.
It was a brutal representation of someone so scared of change that they die in the closet.
Yea, that ending was very sad. Even though Owen saw that no one cared and saw the glaring truth of the situation after cutting himself(herself?) open. Owen still came out at the end to fight for the life that only brought death
From the halfway point when she gets captured all the way up to the end, I couldn't stop crying.
But then the ending....... so undoubtedly sad and tragic, but also made me angry. Not at the main character and her self doubt and fear, but angry at the world, at society, at my family, at my partner, at all the bigots and their stupid conservative religions and belief systems, and everything in this world that's held me back and tried forcing me back into the closet...... just really pissed off at this whole world that tries to suffocate and murder us while forcing us to fit into this depressing charade of a life, and every moment we're prevented from transitioning, we're dying.
And they want to continue doing this to trans kids.
All because they're AFRAID!!!!
@@ebonyatropus7367 Well said.
Never let them forget it.
@@ebonyatropus7367Fear is the frantically beating heart of conservatism.
It felt really sad to me too. Seeing her apologize over and over again too kept doing that call back where Maddy/Tara told her originally to "stop apologizing". It was like a reminder of how she could have saved herself if she followed her and that she missed that shot. Twice. This ending could have been prevented, on so many levels.
I watched this a few days ago with my dad and brother. My brother, who is a cishet blossoming film bro, told us he thought it was well made but that there was no deeper meaning. It's disillusioning and sad for me that in a way this film's messaging itself isn't clear for people who have never taken any time to think about or witness queer experiences (my brother has never been involved with my transition and we've rarely talked about it, my dad who has been involved meanwhile said he thought the movie was very sad and impactful with its existential angst even tho I don't know that he picked up on the trans specific themes). It's shocking to me sometimes how the experiences, themes, media, etc that are so integral to my life are so unimaginable for cishet folks, especially when they don't consume any queer media
Anyways moral is we *need* more movies like this, I loved it and think I'll love it more with each rewatch :))
How in the world does anyone say this movie has no deeper meaning? Bro was literally sucked into a TV show to represent media escapism. That's the most on the nose metaphor I've ever seen
@@spongecakes1986 Because some cis-het people refuse to believe we are valid. Therefore anything made that resonates with us,.... and does not with them... has to just be a bad film.
As Brie Larson said about movie reviewers and " A wrinkle in Time." " I don't need a white 40 year old man telling me what didn't work about "A wrinkle in Time" It wasn't made for him."
This is our " A wrinkle in Time".
I am glad that it exists, I simply wish it had been a Little more clear for our cis het deniers.
“blossoming film bro” got me 😭
I read a review that described it as "a subtle trans allegory." And I'm thinking, "That was as subtle as getting beaten over the head with a 2x4!"
@@electronics-girl it is subtle... If you're cis and don't pay attention to trans people
yeah this movie was great. i was expecting it to be a lot more scarier than it was, but it ended up being scary in a more gut wrenching way which really made the message more powerful. not to mention it’s very aesthetically pleasing. it’s definitely going to be a movie that sticks with me for a while
jane remover ok taste also yeah i agree with this so much my chest felt very heavy while watching
I’m an older trans woman who couldn’t transition because there’s was no way to get it. Being different made it nearly impossible to be stable financially so there was no way to pay the high out of pocket for it. Plus not knowing all the aspects of transitioning was a deterrent. I started my transition at 57 in 2017. I’m now fully transitioned and passable but how I look was only a small part of fixing myself from the horrible ways I felt about myself from years of social and family rejection.
Sorry it's been tough. I Hope trans people in the future will have an easier Path to happiness, and I Hope your own happiness remains with you, strong and stable. Happy Pride!
You are loved.
But real women have a vag..
What you are experiencing is dysphoria.
It was nice seeing a movie that was made FOR queer people. Cishet people don’t really get the movie cuz this isn’t what their lives are like.
I love that despite it being a trans focused movie, it’s something that anyone in the queer community can relate to ❤
Happy Pride Month I'm a trans woman and Sailor Moon was my pink opaque growing up I still love Sailor Moon to this day❤
Omg I love us calling things our "pink opaque," we need to keep doing that
Same
@@sp0Oky2004 fr
Happy Pride!
Sailor Moon was my first anime and I loved it (but I think I loved samurai pizza cats even more..... I looooove cats lol)
SAMANTHA you out here getting invited to MOVIE PREMIERES 🎞 YOU GO GIRL 💅🏼
Thank you for sharing…
I came out at 46 . I was born 1966 and was abused for my femininity even though my parents knew I was intersex ( CAMAB ) . I/we ( yes we are a DID system) suffered through dysphoria.
Gotta say , this got me right in the feels.
That's wonderful! You are an inspiration to younger people like me and I hope you're living your best life now.
Sailor Moon was my "isn't this a show for girls?" Same with Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Gilmore Girls, and probably more I can't recall.
Xena. Charmed. Etc.
From Powerpuff Girls to Totally Spies to Little Mermaid, there were so many shows I was forced to put on that boy's mask and not enjoy the shows. But I watched and enjoyed them all. My 'friends' didn't need to know. I love movies like this that teach everyone that choosing yourself is always the better choice.
I used to play barbies with my best friend who was a girl. at first our parents thought it was cute and made jokes about us eventually dating but as I got older they made it weirder with the dating bits and also shamed me for playing girl stuff with her so I just played hockey and video games with the boys.
I didn't realize this kinda stuff until years later when I liked dressing up female sims characters and my gf loves that she can watch fashion reality shows with her boyfriend instead of me being "eww its for girls".
i'm 40 and didn't fully discover myself until just a few years ago. it's never too late.
i saw this film 3 times in theaters and cried every single time, as a queer, gender confused person i've never quite seen myself in a film like this and it kinda broke me
I'm sending this to my beautiful trans daughter who is afraid of coming out to her dad. Love you, my Willow! Thank you so much Samantha for being such a beautiful and loving woman.
No way my name is Willow too!
Please replay (reply!) with how it goes. (edited)
as long as she has you behind her she’ll be safe. stand by her no matter what her father says. you’re a good parent.
This is so sweet 🥹🥹🥹
@@SalikinoWillow! My name is my name too!
One of the parts that really sells the idea for me is actually really explicit and again portrays being trans so well
When Owen first approached Maddy he goes and leans against a pink vending machine saying "Body" and "Totally natural".
To me that's symbolising that even if you're unaware of your own transness, it's always been there and it's been a natural part of yourself
to everyone watching who isn't currently living their lives exactly how you want to, as this movie reminds all of us, THERE IS STILL TIME!! ❤❤❤❤❤
omg first luxeria and now you too! i am loving that love & pies is not only hosting a pride month event in-game but specifically reaching out to trans youtubers to promote their game!
They sponsored a Jammidodger video, as well.
The ending of the movie so perfectly captures what it’s like to be in the closet later in life, feeling like you are always dying and feeling like you need to apologize constantly to everyone for your existence. It’s hard not to be overly bleak about the ending, though Isabelle’s* seeing the glow still alive inside her does show that there IS still time, it’s never too late. She doesn’t have to live this tortured existence. I left feeling very melancholy, though I also left hoping for the best for her going forward.
*Okay, Owen, but I’m calling her Isabelle since that is clearly where her heart is
I’m a trans masc🏳️⚧️ happy pride month
I’m bisexual 🏳️🌈 Happy Pride Month
Same here. Pride 24/7
Omg hii😽😽
Happy Pride Month
YAY SAME TRANS MAN 🫶🏽🫶🏽🏳️⚧️🌈
A24s track record is absolutely insane. Probably the only studio or company I would consider myself a fan of.
Vox did a great video on them. They mentioned that no film studio in history has ever had fans and its own niche until a24. Now alot of studios are following in their footsteps, like the studio NEON.
What about civil war it seemed kinda tame in a liberal way (I’m a leftist btw)
@@arbitarious civil war fucking sucked
but im pretty sure that Garland made it milquetoast to gather a big audience.
What about idea first they did very good with gameboys
@@transsexual_computer_faery lol that’s what I figured
Ugh. The representation in media is so important. I wish there were more examples of asexual and aromantic people in media. I feel like I missed out on this experience due to the lack of aspec representation.
" Do you like boys or girls" " I dunno... I like TV?" Is one of the best lines in the film,... and I am hyper-sexual. Ok,... I am just a Latina,...but that means hyper-sexual in my book. lol...
Eh, asexual people still have desires that fit into the binary...
... Some want cake, some want garlic bread, and some want both!
For real. Movies sort of give the idea that if someone can't offer romance or sex, then they have nothing at all to offer.
22:17 This movie hit hard. I am so afraid that if I come out (I am a trans man) while living at home, my family will tell me who I am supposed to be, and erase me.
I'm so sorry that you have to worry about that. Hopefully it won't be too long before you can escape and create your own safe home, where you can openly be the amazing man that you already are inside.
You are experiencing dysphoria.
Men, real men have a pen-is.
You're searching for Jesus, only He can deliver you.
Dysphoria is real.
as someone who didn't come out until my late twenties after literally hitting the edge of what I could survive, this is painfully relatable. I am so grateful that I have a partner that allowed me the safety to deconstruct so much trauma and be myself, to support me in the face of being perceived by an often very mean world. I am alive and thriving because I made this leap of faith in coming out and starting medical transition, and it hurts so much to see others trapped where I've been.
The ponytail looks so good on you😭💕💕 giving 2000s spy
This movie left me with a sense of yearning. A strong feeling of yearning for connection on a level I can't comprehend. No other movie has had this effect on me where I came out of it wanting to feel close to someone else in our experiences in a very specific way. And so I applaud it for giving me such a powerful and unique experience.
Me: “Wake up, babe! Queen Mother Samantha posted!”
Man who’s unsure how I got into his house: 👁️ 👄 👁️
YukkoEX moment
@@KarmicID chaotic evil :3
😂😂
Fr how did you get into my home stranger? My door was locked 😅
24:16 "There is still time" is really moving for me. I'm now in my thirties and still trying to figure out so much in my life. I feel so lost and confused at an age so many other people already got their stuff figured out. I have dreams that seem so far away but I still have time to achieve them. I still have time to write a book, I still have time to find a partner who will accept me, and most importantly I still have time to find my own inner happiness.
I went to see it the day it came out because phoebe bridges is in it and I love her, but it is genuinely one of my favorite movies and I loved the part where he cuts his chest open, as well as the soup party bit (iykyk) it is a wonderful movie and I definitely recomend.
also isabels friend was named tara and was played by snail mail
I haven’t seen the movie but the message has resonated with me. I’m biologically male but I don’t feel male. I don’t know exactly who I am yet and it’s hard finding out who I am with a homophobic and trans phobic family. But I express myself through the media I engage with and this film is the first film I’ve heard about that resonates with me in this way.❤ also new sub
I’m somebody going through the same situation as Owen, no I don’t mean stuck inside a TV lol. But, I realised I was trans almost 6 years ago and still not coming out. I constantly feel empty, even though it’s pride month I feel like that.I keep telling myself just forget and try to be a Ci’s man, but I know I’m a trans women, but I guess burying your sadness is all part of being a man. I wish I realised it sooner, I was fine before I realised though, I was very stereotypically masculine and still am., which hurts most because it makes my identity make even less sense, but I did watch feminine shows like Hannah Montana and Pretty Little Liars. I still love feminine media, I watched the Twilight films unironically, and cried while the other half of my brain realising how bad they are. I try to tell myself it’s fine to be a guy who likes feminine media, but a part of me wishes she grew up watching these with her mates. It’s so fucked, my brain is a mess and I hate that the only way to fix it to be a minority that gets discriminated against constantly on social media and in public. Being a man is easy, it’s honestly a cheat code in life, I don’t have to worry about perverts, being harassed or looking pretty for a male perspective, but I’m never happy. I have so much love or respect for the people who are brave enough say fuck you to all of that and be determined enough to be themselves. I hope I can be like that one day.
My parents and friends know I’m trans, but I didn’t feel like they were fully supportive even though they were accepting, especially from my Dad. They said they would still love me no matter what, but the difficulty for them to wrap their head around what I was going through turned me away alongside my difficulty to commit. The hour long conversations of me trying to explain myself felt uncomfortable. I know they’ll come around to it, but the fear and paranoia of being judged by them is horrible and I don’t want to upset them by changing. They all said they felt like they were losing me, and I know transitioning isn’t easy for anyone but I don’t want to hurt them or potentially lose them when I love them so much. It feels selfish, but it’s not healthy to hurt myself mentally for other people’s happiness.
If you’ve read all this thank you. Honestly, the only reason I’m commenting this giant comment is because I know this is a safe place, and there’s multiple people who have felt like this. Samantha’s videos help me a lot, what started as me finding out what trans is, became oh shit this is me from the first video of her’s I watched. Anyways, happy pride month. 🏳️🌈
Unrelated to the video but you kinda really look like Janel Parrish to me 😭 (which is a good thing because she’s a great actress and she was badass in Pretty Little Liars which you are too!)
I was gonna say Ariana, but I didn't even notice she looked like her as qell.
I also love Janel Parrish and Pretty Little Liars.
16:14 She is so adorable and beautiful. Her eyes are so pretty
I saw this film over a month ago and it still feels like I have a hole in my chest. Everytime I think of “there is still time” written in chalk I want to cry. I cannot stop thinking about TV Glow it truly is life changing 😭
I’m not trans. I’m a cis gay man. But I can really relate to the feeling of being connected to a tv character. Specifically the character of Justin from Queer As Folk. I came out around the same age. Dated an older guy like he did. Had a lot of the same experiences. That show came out at a crucial part of my life and meant a lot to me. I can’t even watch it now because the nostalgia rushes over me. It’s like watching my life.
For those that don't know: the Ace community wears a black ring on their middle finger on their right hand, and the Aro community wears a white ring on their middle finger on their right hand. 💞
That's so cool! I didn't know that.
I knew about the black ring, I love that Aro folk their version too 🤍🖤
Okay as an aroace person that’s sick :0
I was gonna tell my friend I was aroace like a year ago but then backed off (they’re queer so I wasn’t scared of his reaction but still we were in our homophobic school) and they messaged me and were like what were you gonna say? I just sent a picture of the black ring middle finger right hand and white ring middle finger left hand and he figured it out from there
Mine is a rose gold band with black stones because I'm still awfully femme. 😂
I need to get started on my transition, but I want to be self sufficient first and that is going to take a lot of work before I am ready to do it
I Just Watched I Saw The TV Glow, And I Absolutely Loved The Symbolism And Finally A Story That Involves A Perspective On Being Transgender. I'm A Transgender Woman, and I think I Myself And Everyone Can Relate To Identity and Finding Yourself And The Struggle For Acceptance From Others and Yourself ❤
I’m a straight white cis male and I literally can relate to this. Great topic for a movie.
Sounds also a little like Videodrome from 1983; especially when you mentioned them getting sucked into the TV.
i think i recall someone else comparing it to videodrome. i havent seen that movie in a super long time so idk.
really gave off videodrome meets mysterious skin with hints of david lynch
@@valdezsaihttam5871Long Live The New Flesh!!!
The first TV character I identified with was Doctor Who. Definitely Tom Baker (4th), but also Sylvester McCoy (7th). My still-favorite story arc is "The Five Doctors", and especially how his separate regenerations all annoyed each other, each considering the others to be complete weirdos.
this was the scariest movie i have ever seen, even though i have came out, i haven't done any deeper thinking or accepting myself like i had thought. so this movie still hurt me a lot. the end hurt so bad. i was so mad immediately after i watched it. i was called out, there was no hiding now. didn't help i couldn't even talk about the movie with anyone, it probably wouldn't have even mattered because i feel like no one would get it. it hurts me that no one can understand what i go through. now i feel the pressure, i dont want my story to end like this. this movie was a real wake up call, i have already wasted so much time.
samantha pls make more makeup vids! i need ur beauty wisdom
I went to see this in theatres because of you and omg i sobbed. I loved this so much. A24 just finally released their blu ray for the US and i ordered it
As a later-life transitioner, this hit home really hard. In part because I was right about that age at the time this film was portrayed, and because it mirrored a lot of what I felt my entire life. As a kid having a fantasy you always wanted then being told you can have it but you need to do something drastic (in Owen's case, running away from home). For some kids they do it but for Owen and myself the logical part of it brain wins out and we stuff those thoughts away because they're "just a fantasy". Then he gets older having ignored that side of himself for years and it comes up again. This time it's more real, there's more context, it's more plausibly true. Unfortunately to achieve it requires more drastic steps. It requires you to kill your existing life (for Owen this is a quite literal thing) and still have faith without direct evidence that it'll work out in the end. So despite wanting it so bad again the logical mind wins out you push it away bury the feelings and push on with life. True acceptance didn't come until much much later when living that life your current life wasn't mentally and physically possible anymore. Again the parallels to my life are kinda shocking, and in some ways really sad.
Sam giving off Arianna Grande vibes today. 👌 Beautiful! 👏👏👏
I'm trans fem 🏳️⚧️ HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!!!
Same 🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️ Happy Pride!
@@IAmJustAPers0n11 YAYYY SLAYYY!!
@@elliehope266 you too girl!
happy pride! 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
HAPPY PRIDE MONTH 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈❤️
And the part when you addressed those of us who couldn't come out until later....... made me cry, because that's exactly me 😢
Thanks Sam, I will try to see this if it is on in the UK.
You asked for if we received boys don't do that comments, too often in my childhood, looking back 45 years this happened over all sorts of things, baking, sewing, crochet, hair and beauty so I never even asked about ballet or dance.
It didn't change my core essence, I was diagnosed with gender disphoria and started cross sex hrt almost 34 years ago. It enabled me to become more me.
Conversely some years later when I announced I want to learn how to ride a bike and get a Harley, I was told 'but girls don't ride motorcycles'.
You only have one life, so live it.
Hugs to all in this somewhat difficult Pride month for Trans youth in the UK.
Such a nice and wholesome video! Thanx, Samantha!
This was my favorite trans film. I’ll also never recover from the disorientation lol. I love the dream language and the beautiful warning message at the end in the most existentially dreadful horrific way
I know this movie must be so cathartic to trans people, and in a way I find it interesting because it wasnt the transness where i connected with this movie, since im not trans, but i was still sobbing at the thought of owen being so terrified to live his (her? :3) true self and letting his life go by until he just exploded at that birthday party, screaming for help while the whole world around him went silent and unreacting. I am struggling with a lot of things in my life and I'm terrified every day that it'll be like this forever. I know I could change it somehow but I'm so scared and paralysed.
Anyway, the reason I found it interesting is because I bet many transphobes have no issue relating to someonw being scared to take a risk/change something in order to be happy, but as soon as it's about transness somehow all empathy/sympathy goes out the window. lmao anyway.
10/10 movie ♥
I'm obsessed with this movie, just watched it 2 days in a row 😂 I am absolutely devastated that I will never be able to watch the pink opaque bc it's not a real show 😅.Also the nods to twin peaks filled my heart with joy. I didn't even really pick up on the commentary about trans-ness but now that you mention it, yeah that tracks
I loved Buffy The Vampire Slayer (which The Pink Opaque is modeled after, confirmed by the cameo from Amber Benson). My girlfriend said, "That's a show for girls!" (She was always policing my gender. We're not together anymore.)
i just recently found out i was FTM and your videos and content are so comforting to me. and i so badly wanna see it saw the tv glow. i hope one day i can feel more comfortable and confident in who i am bc ive been denying it for years.
Oof... got an ad during her ad... ad-ception'd
I get wanting the explicit trans narratives for the recognition but I think metaphor and allegory are much more powerful in explaining to people who are really willing to listen. It poeticizes the feelings that grow out of transness and allow them to be understood.
I was in a deep depression a few years ago coming to terms with being trans and I just kept thinking of myself as Kafka's Metamorphosis that I had read back in school. It's not about transness but self perception and a feeling of uselessness, of being a burden, of being a freak. For me it was a trans story because I identified with it through being trans. Trans stories should be the reverse of that in my opinion.
Holy shit I love Samantha's hair and makeup in this video 🩷
I feel like the perfect horror movie to depict how the brain and body are seperate with trans folk would be a trans take on Frankenstein, but with more of a psychological focus. Idk, might just be me but I just see too many similarities of Frankenstein's creation to what the trans experience is like to judge someone off from their physical being along with a couple of other things.
Yes! Completely agreed! I'm in the middle of writing a research paper on this exact thing, I'm glad other people see the connection between transness and Frankenstein's creature.
I'd love to write a book or something exploring this concept, but I lack the necessary writing talent to do it justice. One day, maybe
Basically Frankiestein from monster high lol
I saw the title of this video and immediately went to watch the movie. It was better than I could ever think. I also loved the sapphic themes throughout as well as the trans ones. I just know the girlies in the pink opaque show were gfs.
Samantha… I really wanna go see this movie because I am really struggling with my transness. I’ve always felt this sense of imposter syndrome-like I’m not able to admit my own being because I don’t deserve to, but I think that you (not only in this video) have really helped me to accept it more readily. It’s a really long and hard process, like you said, but I want to take the journey. ❤
I remember reading “Are You There, God? It’s me, Margaret” at a perfectly appropriate age (10 or 11), and indeed got told it was a “girls’ book.”
I hadn’t heard of this movie before, but this will definitely go on my to watch list. Thank you for making a video about it.
omg I haven't thought about Donny Darko in aaages
~cellar door~
I cried watching this video. This message is beautiful
I LOVE YOUR MAKEUP! AND YOUR HAIR?! AMAZING!
Just FYI The Pink Opaque is based off of a lot of shows for pre-teen/teens in the 90's. "Are you Afraid of the Dark" "Pete and Pete" "Eerie Indiana' "The Secret World of Alex Mack". Yes a lot of them were weird but in a good way. I don't think the children of today could stomach those shows much less understand how much it affected kids growing up in the 90's.
I am trans, watching this movie I didn't necessarily find it trans specific. The plot could also apply to a fem gay man, a non-binary person, a gender queer/fluid person, someone interested in female drag.
The writer left the main character 's identity undisclosed so that anyone could relate their experience to his.
You saw him as a trans woman, so obviously the writer did an awesome job with their character development choices 😊
Thanks for turning me onto this... Im a huge A24 freak and this context and exploration sounds delightful.
Happy pride month! 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️ I recently came out as trans and I'm going to my first trans youth meeting next week!
Trans is a dysphoria.
Took a whole pandemic to get me to accept myself. The relationship Owen had with The Pink Opaque was very similar to my relationship with The Powerpuff Girls in the early 00s. Literally had constant bullying and harassment happened during a period of time because "thats not a show for boys" and was a heavy contributor to repressing many things at that age.
omg my first thought after watching this movie was that it was giving Donnie Darko as well!!
I’ve cried more than once after watching that movie. I know exactly how Owen felt. The suffocation and the screaming at the end. I’ve been there.
That life can change
That you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different
There is still time.
Omg my boy mumble mouth is in a spooky film and it's got trans vibes. I'm game for realz
This movie broke me in SUCH a good way. Seeing such a visceral visual of my internal thoughts was so incredibly healing, because finally someone understood. 10/10, no notes
Really really needed this Sam, thanks
Couldn't take my eyes off you the entire video, you look so stunning ❤️✨
Your hair looks so good!!!!!!!!
This is a beautiful analysis
Concise comment!
I'm so moved by this movie and your analysis is wonderful. Now can you get my friends to watch it already 😂!
Comments from a Cis Het man.
I saw the ending as a tragic moment. It felt to me that this is what happens to someone who wasn't brave enough to transition.
F people saying shows are 'For Girls', I spend most of my time reacting to Charmed.
I HIGHLY recommend Jane Schoenbrun's last feature. Not directly trans themed, but light trans subtext. I think it's brilliant.
Much love to your channel! ❤ It's helped me feel more comfortable being my genderfluid self!
Happy Pride month everyone! 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
"Maddy leaves VHS tapes..." - is the movie set in the past? Like 80s/90s?
I don’t think it ever explicitly says so, but yeah. It starts out in a 90s-analogous world, with tons of allusions to shows like Twin Peaks, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Pete and Pete, X-Files. Are You Afraid of the Dark, etc
It’s set in the mid 90s
It says explicitly '1994/96' (I don't exactly remember) and then 'two years later,' then '8 years later,' and then '20 years later' so yeah-ish
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Your hair looks amazing. Slay
The first time I ever felt truly seen in a piece of media was when I watched this Disney Channel movie called The Swap when I was like 16, and I became infatuated with that movie particularly the character of Jack. Basically the movie is about these two high schoolers who are both grieving the loss of a parent. Ellie (Played by Peyton List) is grieving her dad abandoning her, and Jack (Played by Jacob Bertrand) is grieving the loss of his mother. They’re also both struggling to deal with the different ways boys and girls are gendered in society and the pain that can come with that. So one day they both say they wish they had the other person’s life and some disney magic happens and they switch bodies. Basically the rest of the movie is them learning to deal with the loss of their parent and their personal problems while living as the other person.
I’ll preface the rest of this by saying I am not trans. But I’m a gay man, and at the time I watched this I was a gay teenage. That being said the character Ellie felt the most real and personal to me, particularly when she switches into Jack’s body. When she switches with Jack, she goes from being this star gymnast living with her mom to being a hockey player living with these two hyper masculine boys (Jacks Brothers) and their dad who’s the head hockey coach. And the thing about Jack’s actor, Jacob, is that he plays Ellie in Jack’s body so closely to what I experienced as a kid that when I saw it I almost cried. Ellie as a character is the exact opposite of masculine, and she’s even kind of afraid of masculinity, so seeing her in this male, pretty masculine, body felt like my experience as a gay feminine boy. Jacob portrays the new Jack as very understandingly feminine where as the joke is that he’s now afraid of anything “Boy” related, but he’s also very sweet and kind to the people in his life who he once didn’t like, and the femininity never felt like the punchline. Like it just felt so natural to the character, and I remember thinking when I watched it “If I didn’t know this was a body swap movie, I would have just assumed this character is a gay boy.” And after I finished the movie, I had a thought like that was the first time I’d ever felt like I saw myself correctly portrayed in a movie.
My pattens wouldn’t let me watch Rainbow Bright. Yes I’m that old. Yeah I’m that old lady. GET OFF MY LAWN YOU DAMN KIDS! 👵
That movie had me in tears, as a pre-evrything trans man who lives in a country where medical transition is VERY hard to achieve. Moments like that make me feel like it's not over yet and that I have to keep on fighting.
As someone already on HRT and still struggling with a similar dad and my willingness to take the last leap of faith into my true self I will definitely see this movie.
This movie had me SOBBING, my parents walked in while I was watching they end (I am still closeted) and I told them I just watched Inside Out 2 despite it not being on digital yet. LMFAO 😭💀
Yo after seeing your video I watched the movie and that shit is spooky. It is definitely art tho damn.
This movie hit me to my core when I saw it. I'm still feeling it. It was so good. I watched it with my partners and pointed out all the points that mapped to my experience discovering myself before I came out a few years ago.
I just got a pink opaque ghost tattoo this week 👻
Ooh this film sounds good! I'm gonna have to watch this vid later Ms. Samantha, I don't want any spoilers ❤
I think it's better that Owen's identity has been left unconfirmed. I very much related to Owen as a gay man. I was always being told by my parents to not do things they found to be for girls or wear certain colors or clothes. I feel the story of the main characters applies to queer community as a whole as we have 2 versions of ourselves - one created to meet the expectations and norms of the society and the true one which takes a lot of work and courage to discover and live proudly with.
I think it was suggested that Maddy's character is trans, though. After coming back for Owen (supermarket scene) Maddy's appearance is more masculine and they keep repeating Maddy is not their real name anymore.
A24 is my favorite studio, I love everything they do
I've had similar sentiments with the film. I love that's there's a more up front reflection of "the horrors of coming-of-age" and beyond [what staying in the closet can do to you] - but it could of been more explicit in the origin of the pain. I would of been satisfied if they made the dress scene more than just a flashback.
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My one gripe with the plot was the bench scene where he said if someone were to open his chest where his heart should be, it would be empty, my ace roomie and I thought it would be some ace representation but it was instead in reference to escapism. Also I unfortunately can't confidently recommend this movie to anyone with major struggles around dissociative/derealization because inviting your bestie to be buried alive to escape to a new reality? Not the best "caterpillar emerging from their cocoon" metaphor for liberation I would of chosen but it is a horror film.
Trans masc pretty sure my pink opaque was Pokemon. I first didnt like pokemon because i had seen my brother watching it so when i was really young i thought i couldnt watch or like pokemon. I later grew up and started to hypefixate on pokemon back in seventh grade because it was the only showni liked that was on tv before i left for school in the morning and it was also around the same time i started learning about the community and labels. But i later would be so hyperfixated on pokemon that i would binge watch the entire show (all the seasons and movies) and its still a lil hyperfixation i visit every now and again but i havent gone back to it the way i did when i first started liking the show
sounds very relatable, thanks for the recommendation