I was 19 as well when my addiction started. This was back in 2007. Of course fentanyl was on the scene before 2007, but it was a microscopic problem compared to today's fentanyl epidemic. I started out getting prescribed opiates like vicodin and Lortab, and it eventually went up to Roxicet 30mg, which I was 100% addicted to, and were my drug of choice. Those happened to be the same pills that are being counterfeited and people are dying from today. I am positive that if I started my problem 10 years later, I would have been a goner. I eventually became a victim to the needle, but now I'm almost 7 years sober. Now I try to educate as many kids, teens, amd parents as possible.
Unfortunately I'm addicted to the fake M30's aka fentanyI. I swallow them as if they're the old Roxy's. My goal is to come clean this year. The W/D's are horrific. Anyway Happy New Year. Congratulations on your sobriety....
@Barbara Lee seek a center that'll let you switch to suboxone. That's what i did. Saved my life. The hardest part is induction- trying to find the right dose for a week or so, so that you wouldn't feel withdrawals. 2nd hardest thing is to change your habits. Detoxing far away from home really helped me because I couldn't resort to old habits. You can do it with minimal pain. It's more mental than anything.
@@sitizenkanemusic Thank you for the advice. My husband and I found a sub clinic I live in California. I have an appointment Wed 10am. I'm so ready 🥰. I've battled 2 separate Cancers. I beat both battles. These Lil pills are trying to kill me. I've got my gloves on again. Again thank you for your advice....
I don’t know how I ended up watching this video.. but it’s absolutely heartbreaking. I am praying for this family, and all others affected. Rest in peace Ryan.
Randomly came across this, but this is the definition of “ life’s not fair” to me. Rest easy Ryan, and hope the family heals and knows this message is being seen !
Life is never fair. Who told you that? Whenever I’ve bitched about life being unfair, I was told that the only ‘fair’ is the State Fair. Old news Sweets.
That is so shocking . No parent should ever have to go through this . How could this be sold at a pharmacy . Just so appalling . So incredibly sad . These poor poor parents
@@gabrielleandrew542 I seen a documentary where the cartels are making the pharmacies sell their pills or they burn down their stores in Mexico. They bought from a dozen stores and tested it and most of the pills had fentanyl in them.
A couple of days ago I saw a video of another fentanyl victim. I’m glad these videos are coming through on RUclips now. I hear and see the message and I see the grief of these parents of their young adult children just dying left and right from this poison. It’s heartbreaking. I’m so sorry for your loss. All these stories need to be told far and wide. People do not need to die of this poison. It’s tragic and heartbreaking 💔
I just want to tell you mame. Im so sorry for your loss, but you just helped save my life. I have been a 30 year heroin addict. I am back on methadone for the 11th time. Recently I have been struggling with those cravings. I have been praying on it like crazy. Just yesterday I was going to go and try to get high and I came accross these stories. May your son rest in peace In Jesus Name Amen..😪
I’m so proud of you & I’m so happy to hear that our stories have made an impact on you. You deserve to live the best life ever. Stay strong & I’ll be praying for your sobriety. Much ❤
as a 23 year old father this video gave me chills and the worst stomach pain butterflies ever. i never want to lose my child. especially finding his body…. this woman is so strong.
This was one of the most difficult stories for me to hear and I watch this channel all the time. I know the other families feel their loss deeply, too, but some people are more able to feel their pain and express it. My heartfelt sympathies to this mother. 💔. Someone will see this story and it will save their life!
@Donna Rowlands They shouldn't; however, not everyone deals with situations the same. You and I could experience the same traumatic situation and grieve properly or work through things. Someone else could experience that same situation and use drugs to numb pain and cope. People experiment, and it grabs a hold of them. We are all human and, therefore, should practice humility. Not making excuses for people using; just going by experience of what I see as a clinical practitioner in this field. It's a daily struggle for some.
People die here everyday, all day and everywhere in every way. Sometimes doing stupid @$$ shit like taking drugs of questionable origins! Heartbreaking? Ok. To whom? The dead idiots or their families that have to pick up the broken shards that an addict leaves behind? Doesn’t matter if it was intentional suicide or not! It decimates families bc addicts are self involved. They’ll steal from ya to get high. They’d sell yo @$$ if it could buy a coupla pills. But drug dealers don’t take mom’s as payment for drugs, do they? No need to bemoan folks that have taken themselves outta the equation here. I hurt and feel for their families. But, on some level, these folks have checked outta reality into delusional thinking and behavior. Death is the great equalizer. The grim reaper never says when he’s coming for ya, nope. You wake up dead. That’s how in death denial people are. I do it. Thinking that I’ll be here for Christmas 2022. That’s a couple weeks away. Why do I put myself there? It ain’t guaranteed.
@@alicelong3613 doesn't matter if they're close the borders or not. Drugs are still gonna come. Usa funds the cartel. All there equipment and guns are from the usa. Plus this guy is wyte and a citizen of the usa he can cross the border as he wishes. Doesn't matter if there closed or not. If wyte people didn't love drugs so much this wouldn't happen.
@@virgo7956That is true, but come on. Most these kids should be addicted to weed or alcohol if anything. If he came from an abusive household, didn’t have friends, or family, I’d be able to relate.
@@imnotimpressed420 sure he took the pill but I’m sure if he knew what he was truly taking, he wouldn’t be in this predicament. Teachnically the Mexican cartel’s fault. And don’t claim to be a saint , every teen has made bad choices. We can use this as a teaching tool to other kids but to sit here and blame him, when his family could be watching this , is just horrible and wicked .
I’m so sorry momma…. I know your hurting. Coming from an addict myself. I’ve been clean 3 years and fentanyl is why I got clean. It almost killed me multiple times. Towards the end of my addiction, dealers were selling “ fake Roxy 30s “ and it’s always amazed me how these people are perfectly OK with taking money from you with the small chance of never seeing you again… RIP man.. pray your family finds peace..
Back in the day dealers didn't kill their customers it's crazy.. Where's the money to be made when they're killing their customers after one purchase? .. Makes no sense to me.. This epidemic or even pandemic is bad.. And the government are doing nothing. All these young kids who are just experimenting like alot of teens do and they don't wake up.. Their whole entire future gone because of 1 pill. It's so scary. Talk to your kids.. Show them interviews like this and that as much as a few grains can kill. They probably think 1pill would be OK but it's not. Plus the dealers are saying the pills are one thing when it's a different drug altogether and it's not right.. You can't trust dealers. They should be charged with manslaughter or murder because they know they're deadly and lie about what they really are to these naive trusting kid's. I'm so sorry for your loss. x❤️💔🙏x
I'm in recovery. I got hooked on those blues. That's all I wanted. All day and all night. I craved for them in my sleep. The batch that I was taking were pressed. They were a different blue and was so so strong After 9 months that batch ran out and started getting them from a prescription. Those blue 30s from the pharmacy didn't touch me . I'm a month and a half clean. I have no idea how they are going to be cleaned from off our streets but something must happen !!, I thank God and my family for being here. I'm forever grateful 🙏 💛.
Lost one of my closest friends October 29th to a accidental Fentanyl overdose via fake Percocet. I am completely mind-blown that these occurrences are not on the news. This is a national crisis. So many beautiful souls are being lost to fentanyl. I am so sorry for your loss.
They've been in a news in the past. It's happened to a ton of celebrities (Mac Miller, Prince, Tom Petty, and several more) and they have definitely been in the news. Still, no real actions have been taken by our government to stop it. And I don't mean at the border. Most of it crosses through ports, land and sea, not being smuggled over the border by people entering illegally.
My friend has lost 5 family members from fentynal this year. Her daughter came to her brothers funeral, high on fentynal. She looked like a zombie. As soon as the funeral was over, we took her to the hospital to get help. She was 4 months pregnant and had no idea. She stopped using at that point but when she delivered, they found drugs in her system and lost her babies. She is currently in rehab, and her mom has the kids. It's a horrible drug. It shouldn't happen! I feel horrible for this family. I hope they find peace.
Sorry I cannot feel sorry for this person stupid taking drugs while she's pregnant that's a bunch of crap and look she lost her baby she was of sound mind and made a choice and resulted in the death of her child even going to a funeral because of something like this
@Rose Hernandez I never said I felt sorry for her. I feel sorry for my friend who has had to watch this. And I feel sorry for her babies. But you read this wrong, none of the babies dies. Grandma has them.
I live in Mexico and get meds from them all the time and bring them back to my family. I have never heard of this happening. But, I don't go to any random pharmacy, I do go to reputable ones. I've heard of the crappy pharmacies not giving you real product, but nothing with fentanyl.
My heart felt condolences to you and your husband, I know your Son was a precious soul my dear, so was my Damian, on December 18th 1994, my son passed he overdosed and he was only 21 years old, my only Son, God carries us through the most difficult and painful times. You will go on and be a Blessing to so many others because you have chosen to speak up. I went to college and learned how to help others going through hardships with addictions, my pain lessened as I reached out to others and Blessed others with Truth and resources, that has been my saving grace. I speak Blessings upon your lives in Jesus Name! Your testimony will help so many to know that we are not alone and there is hope😘
@@elizabethballesteros8910 I'm so very sorry for your loss. No mother or family should have to endure this kind of pain. Sending you prayers and big hugs. God Bless you!
My niece was shot up with fentanyl against her will and robbed. A year later in the same house, Same room, her best friend was drugged and robbed. No matter if they were perfect or not, not one deserves to die like that. I miss my niece so much. She had a sweet SPIRIT.. she just trusted the wrong people 😢🙏
@@philm5147 Excuse me? Their cases are being investigated. You know NOTHING of the circumstances. My niece had over 100,000 in her bank account left after her grandma died. They manipulated her, gaining her trust, etc. They in fact did this on purpose.. her belongings were stolen, including her wallet. I even prayed that they would be caught.. sure enough, one guy was caught with her card , laptop and jewelry!! So you need to shut up! Keep on trolling.
@@guyrabinowitz lol u r worried about a spelling of a word think about the message this woman is telling people who cares about the spelling of a word u must not have much to do lol
My God….. He was a spitting image of his father….😔😢I was also born in 2002 and grew up in a Border town in Texas. It breaks my heart to think that he never reached 20💔
I am the mother of a 40-year-old man named Andrew. He's always been and will continue to be my beloved "man cub." Today he is healthy and married to a lovely young woman with whom he has 2 children. He is hard working, responsible and the love of my life. The reason I write this, I suppose, is to express the fact that I have never taken this gift for granted. I know that when he was Ryan's age there were temptations, there were wrong decisions, followed by experiences and maturing. I wish Ryan and all our children could have had this opportunity. I will not forget Ryan's story; thank you for sharing.
Mexico is a dangerous place for many reasons. Too many people dabble in pills with terrible results. I am so sorry for your loss of such a sweet young man🙏🦋💙
It's shocking he could get hold of not only strong painkillers from the pharmacy, presumably without a prescription, but ones that were basically pure street drugs. I hope the pharmacy was reported at least...
I know at least from my experience, I wouldn't have a clue where to begin with finding drugs on the street. Thankfully! So if he hadn't got them at the pharmacy, maybe he'd still be here? Poor young guy.
So so sorry. I don't know what it will take for our kids of any she to realize that these are the days that no pill is safe to take unless it has been prescribed for them from a reputable doctor... Not a friend... No one
My heart breaks for this family, the last name Bagwell caught my attention (also my last name). I have been in recovery for 4 years now, narcotics were my DOC & I have lost soooo many friends & people I cared deeply about to the disease of addiction. It really scares me what the fentynal epidemic is doing to people & how easy it is for individuals to lace stuff or just completely lie about what something is..causing so much pain, destruction & death. Peace Be Still Ryan 🖤
Honestly, he took a pill he bought illegally we all know everything is not what it seems...I feel bad for the fam however why would he even buy something like that knowing your taking that risk 🤷🏼♀️
I'm so sorry mama. Thank you for sharing your story to help other mothers. I hope that you find comfort in some way to get you through these dark times.
THIS IS ABSOLUTELY HEARTBREAKING. HOW CAN A PHARMACY GET AWAY WITH SELLING MEDICATION THAT ISN'T EVEN MEDICATION AT ALL ? UNBELIEVABLE AND SO VERY WRONG. PRAYERS FOR YOUR FAMILY AND YOUR SON'S FRIENDS. WISH THERE WERE WORDS THAT COULD TAKE YOUR PAIN AWAY UNFORTUNATELY THERE AREN'T. BLESS YOUR SON & BLESS ALL OF YOU WHO KNEW N LOVED HIM.
I was reading some of the comments on here. Yeah I don’t really think that we should be shaming these parents. They’ve already lost their child. They’re trying to help families so they don’t lose their child. I don’t see what more they can do. At this point I don’t see how anyone could shame a parent who’s already lost a child! Just like they said, not my child. After watching these, I’m gonna have my daughter watch some of them and I really think this is going to help and I appreciate this and how brave and strong these parents are to even do it in the first place Thank you.
R.I.P. Ryan I am so sorry for your families loss. I do believe that your son is proud of you turning his tragic loss into sharing the dangers of this drug. It’s unreal the people who buy drugs in Mexico can get it instead of anything! My nephew lost his life from one pill he bought from a dealer. This is an epidemic. 😢
I'm an opiate addict, going on 5 years of sobriety. This could have been me. It was pills, Norco and Oxy. I never got to the point of buying them off the street, but I was thisclose. As a mother myself, I am heartbroken to hear these parents share their stories. I am an open book when it comes to addiction. It's nothing to be ashamed of. I am currently a sponsor in NA, and I will always share my story.
I was born on April 3rd and my older brother was poisoned with fentanyl this summer and died. My mother found him too. This story hit home. I'm so sorry for your loss. Keep going. Give God the glory even in the worst of times. There are hills and valleys. ♥
This is so tragic 😢. My deepest condolences and most heartfelt prayers for the peace and comfort of Holy Spirit for the family and friends. I'm so glad y'all are posting these clips. The public desperately needs to be educated in how this is happening.
He should’ve never passed away, this makes my heart hurt for your family, a great son doing his best and still growing. My prayers go out to you and your family may Ryan rest in paradise watching over the ones he loves. 🕊️
@@nonyabinnis9111 It's harsh but I really agree. This was bound to happen when he was jumping country lines to buy booze and pills. At only 19 too? The way he told his mom of his plans so casually makes me think that this behavior was acceptable in their household. My mom would kill me herself I told her I was going to Mexico for beer and pills. My parents aren't perfect, but thank goodness I was raised to not make such crazy choices.
R.I.P🤍🙏🏾🕊️ my prayers and condolences to his family, friends, love ones, and ALL who knows and loves him. I pray that they know that their love ones are no longer in pain and RESTING IN HEAVEN WITH GOD AND JESUS CHRIST AMEN🤍🙏🏾.
Thank you for finding the strength to share this incredibly tragic and painful loss of your dear son! This information needs to get out to the public. May god bless you and get you through this loss.
I prayed for you and your family. We lost our 28-year-old son in 2013. There is NO LOSS more profound than the loss of a child, none. Know that the comfort, peace and healing our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ can provide you is unexplainable. Give your heartache to the Lord. Knowing our son is healed and made whole in heaven awaiting our reunion is what helps me to live. Live your life with the joy knowing this is not our home. The time we spend on earth is a grain of sand compared to the beach being forever in heaven. Find joy.
So very sorry for your loss. I hope the families of these innocents continue to tell their story and I hope there is a listener somewhere whose life it will save. May God strengthen, comfort and keep you during your time of sadness.
Thank you for the courage to share this tragic story we are hearing more and more this all the time may your family be blessed during this most difficult time and your son rest in peace
I know this video is from one year ago, but I still want to give my deepest condolences to this family. I cannot imagine the pain of losing a child. By the grace of God, I still have my 3 boys. May Ryan rest in peace. I just know how proud of you he must be. Sending you so much love & healing light. 💕✨⭐️
Ryan's mother's detailed sharing of the loss of her son to these maniacal drug pushers, is so honest and raw. How painful to have lost a son or daughter absolutely needlessly because we can't get a handle on eliminating this deadly and evil Fentanyl.
Very sorry for your loss. I lost my son too when he was 27. He committed suicide and was using drugs at the time. It is a hard thing to do. You have so much courage going live with your story. God bless you and may our sons RIP. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.
Thank you for sharing this. Ryan's life mattered. Telling others about taking pills that are not perscribed may save a life. So sorry for your loss. I'm praying for you peace and comfort.
This is the first time ive heard of a pharmacy selling Percocet that had no actual Percocet but 5 times the lethal dose of fentanyl! Thank you for these videos, they are so important. Condolences to the family 🙏
We did an investigation with hidden cameras at the border near the same location. Here's a link to that story - ruclips.net/video/TNSFvH1BdfA/видео.html
ALL OF THESE STORIES SHOULD BE SHOWN IN ELEMENTARY, JUNIOR HIGH, AND HIGH SCHOOLS!!! ❤❤❤ I use these families' stories from Texas Documentaries to educate my two teenage nephews 🙏🙏. You're all doing such amazing work here!
Thank you for sharing your Precious Son's story with us. You and your Family and Friend's are in my thoughts and Prayers. I'm so very sorry for your loos. God bless. 🥺💔🙏
This is a tragic story and it reminds me of my son’s experimentation with drugs when he was in his 20’s, and he told me he had some scary experiences, and survived. Just cautioning your children is not enough in these cases. God help this mom pull through!
wow that was hard to watch. but i must say as some1 who has struggled w fent, makes me think how bad that sucks and i dont want to touch that stuff ever again
That poor poor Mum😢 My heart goes out to all the loving respectful undeserving families that have to suffer this...will it ever end? Such a waste and terrible for them😢
All these poor mothers ... and fathers and siblings, grandparents, too. All these young people who are not mature enough to see and avoid the dangers, the lies ... So many lifes throne away because this world is out of control. The the greed provokes all this.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine the pain you are suffering through. Thank you for being brave to tell your story and bring more awareness to this deadly drug.
I'm spending my Xmas watching these stories and remembering these ppl. Rest In Peace young man. We'll see you soon. Edit: I've lost a handful of friends this year to this poison. I feel your pain and I'm thinking about all of you. ❤️
Thank you for having these videos as an outreach to educate the public on the dangers of fentanyl being concealed in what people believe are everyday pills over the counter or prescribed.
First, I am sorry for your loss. This is why we need drug law reform. Had your son has access to actual oxycodone he never would have bought something that was that unregulated. People will use drugs regardless. We need to make it safer not just tell them not too
@myfoxsbabycakes2789we worry about our licenses as we should. People want to pop pain pills instead of trying lifestyle changes to manage pain. There are alternatives such as massage therapy, yoga, acupuncture, etc. So DO NOT LECTURE we health care providers when patients seek opioids constantly, sell them and use them as they want and not prescribed. We have the right to make a living. You don’t like it then STOP seeking opioids.
@@ittibittinurse 💯 percent true! Another reason health insurance costs are so high too! Many people think a pill will fix their depression. I’m here to say a lack of pressure in your life is what’s causing that and 9/10 it’s physical pressure. Eating right and exercising consistently is the opposite of depression. But it’s easier for the person and more profitable for the company to have you think it’s something you don’t have control of, but rather the fact you haven’t taken their “magic pill”. It’s the modern day Trojan horse, don’t be fooled!
I was 19 as well when my addiction started. This was back in 2007. Of course fentanyl was on the scene before 2007, but it was a microscopic problem compared to today's fentanyl epidemic. I started out getting prescribed opiates like vicodin and Lortab, and it eventually went up to Roxicet 30mg, which I was 100% addicted to, and were my drug of choice. Those happened to be the same pills that are being counterfeited and people are dying from today.
I am positive that if I started my problem 10 years later, I would have been a goner.
I eventually became a victim to the needle, but now I'm almost 7 years sober.
Now I try to educate as many kids, teens, amd parents as possible.
I’m so proud of you Gary!!! Keep living life to the fullest ❤
@@sandrabagwell2701 thank you Sandra! I love your comment!
Unfortunately I'm addicted to the fake M30's aka fentanyI. I swallow them as if they're the old Roxy's. My goal is to come clean this year. The W/D's are horrific. Anyway Happy New Year. Congratulations on your sobriety....
@Barbara Lee seek a center that'll let you switch to suboxone. That's what i did. Saved my life. The hardest part is induction- trying to find the right dose for a week or so, so that you wouldn't feel withdrawals. 2nd hardest thing is to change your habits. Detoxing far away from home really helped me because I couldn't resort to old habits. You can do it with minimal pain. It's more mental than anything.
@@sitizenkanemusic Thank you for the advice. My husband and I found a sub clinic I live in California. I have an appointment Wed 10am. I'm so ready 🥰. I've battled 2 separate Cancers. I beat both battles. These Lil pills are trying to kill me. I've got my gloves on again. Again thank you for your advice....
It just takes one. They don’t even have to have an addiction to end up with a bad pill. My heart breaks. What a beautiful young man.
Yes the tiniest amount touched, inhaled or ingested into the body of someone who has no opioids in their system can be lethal.
If you're seeking it out, it's addiction.
I have been thru rough times losing my close ones and never had I ever thought of taking pills
Wow I would have never thought buying from a pharmacy even though it's in another country
I've survived several overdoses, now I'm 60 and happy to be alive. if only i could help these young live, so heartbreaking
Happy ur here with us all , make Jesus ur lord and savior. If u haven’t already. Much love too you ❤
I don’t know how I ended up watching this video.. but it’s absolutely heartbreaking. I am praying for this family, and all others affected. Rest in peace Ryan.
No it isn't. Kid was dumb and it was his fault
Feel bad for him mom, not him.
He doesn’t look like an average user that’s why I clicked
Same...broken hearted for his family.
This sucks so bad
Randomly came across this, but this is the definition of “ life’s not fair” to me. Rest easy Ryan, and hope the family heals and knows this message is being seen !
Life is never fair. Who told you that? Whenever I’ve bitched about life being unfair, I was told that the only ‘fair’ is the State Fair. Old news Sweets.
@@williamwilson6499 exactly.
Life's not fair even though he chose to buy a drug at a Mexican pharmacy and take it? 😂 No sympathy.
@@jmfia2391 You and @William Wilson are acting like jealous children. You aren't good people.
@@jmfia2391 Yes, you've made it very clear that you're a real tough guy w no sympathy. Got it. 👍🏽
This lady's testimony is heartwrenching. Every word she spoke was so honest and filled with the pain of unbearable loss. God bless your family.
So brave, reliving the worst day of her life. So sorry, only 19. A parent's nightmare.
That is so shocking . No parent should ever have to go through this . How could this be sold at a pharmacy . Just so appalling . So incredibly sad . These poor poor parents
@@gabrielleandrew542 I seen a documentary where the cartels are making the pharmacies sell their pills or they burn down their stores in Mexico. They bought from a dozen stores and tested it and most of the pills had fentanyl in them.
@@gabrielleandrew542 you can get anything in Mexico at the pharmacies they’re not regulated like the US
@@bre.172 I knew they had stuff we don't have here but how are they allowed to sell fake Percocets? What kind of pharmacy is that lol
@@bre.172 Is it like an illegal pharmacy? I don't get it
A couple of days ago I saw a video of another fentanyl victim. I’m glad these videos are coming through on RUclips now. I hear and see the message and I see the grief of these parents of their young adult children just dying left and right from this poison. It’s heartbreaking. I’m so sorry for your loss. All these stories need to be told far and wide. People do not need to die of this poison. It’s tragic and heartbreaking 💔
Drugs and the covid vaccines.
All poisons.
Real easy to stop is to never take it.
@@beer1403
That's a good answer for us that have never done it.
But for those who have
They will tell you otherwise.
But your comment is right.
I’m actually surprised these videos are allowed to be posted!
Won’t be long before someone complains it’s “RACIST” against Mexico!
@@beer1403 does you mom know you have her phone?
I just want to tell you mame. Im so sorry for your loss, but you just helped save my life. I have been a 30 year heroin addict. I am back on methadone for the 11th time. Recently I have been struggling with those cravings. I have been praying on it like crazy. Just yesterday I was going to go and try to get high and I came accross these stories. May your son rest in peace In Jesus Name Amen..😪
I’m so proud of you & I’m so happy to hear that our stories have made an impact on you. You deserve to live the best life ever. Stay strong & I’ll be praying for your sobriety. Much ❤
Can I ask what a craving feels like ? Like the physical sensation?
I'm praying the Lord breaks those chains of addiction and bind them up in the name of Jesus🙏✝️
I’ve been in recovery for 16 years…..be strong….you can do this
You can make it! You are strong and you have such a wonderful life ahead of you! Jesus is with you every step!
❤❤
as a 23 year old father this video gave me chills and the worst stomach pain butterflies ever. i never want to lose my child. especially finding his body…. this woman is so strong.
This was one of the most difficult stories for me to hear and I watch this channel all the time. I know the other families feel their loss deeply, too, but some people are more able to feel their pain and express it. My heartfelt sympathies to this mother. 💔. Someone will see this story and it will save their life!
People should not be losing their lives like this. Heartbreaking.
So close the border
@Donna Rowlands
They shouldn't; however, not everyone deals with situations the same. You and I could experience the same traumatic situation and grieve properly or work through things. Someone else could experience that same situation and use drugs to numb pain and cope. People experiment, and it grabs a hold of them. We are all human and, therefore, should practice humility. Not making excuses for people using; just going by experience of what I see as a clinical practitioner in this field. It's a daily struggle for some.
People die here everyday, all day and everywhere in every way. Sometimes doing stupid @$$ shit like taking drugs of questionable origins! Heartbreaking? Ok. To whom? The dead idiots or their families that have to pick up the broken shards that an addict leaves behind? Doesn’t matter if it was intentional suicide or not! It decimates families bc addicts are self involved. They’ll steal from ya to get high. They’d sell yo @$$ if it could buy a coupla pills. But drug dealers don’t take mom’s as payment for drugs, do they? No need to bemoan folks that have taken themselves outta the equation here. I hurt and feel for their families. But, on some level, these folks have checked outta reality into delusional thinking and behavior. Death is the great equalizer. The grim reaper never says when he’s coming for ya, nope. You wake up dead. That’s how in death denial people are. I do it. Thinking that I’ll be here for Christmas 2022. That’s a couple weeks away. Why do I put myself there? It ain’t guaranteed.
@@alicelong3613 doesn't matter if they're close the borders or not. Drugs are still gonna come. Usa funds the cartel. All there equipment and guns are from the usa. Plus this guy is wyte and a citizen of the usa he can cross the border as he wishes. Doesn't matter if there closed or not. If wyte people didn't love drugs so much this wouldn't happen.
@@virgo7956That is true, but come on. Most these kids should be addicted to weed or alcohol if anything.
If he came from an abusive household, didn’t have friends, or family, I’d be able to relate.
Dear Bagwell Family,
My deepest condolences on the passing of Ryan. I’m so sorry. May the Lord be with you.
It was the kids fault
@@imnotimpressed420 sure he took the pill but I’m sure if he knew what he was truly taking, he wouldn’t be in this predicament. Teachnically the Mexican cartel’s fault.
And don’t claim to be a saint , every teen has made bad choices.
We can use this as a teaching tool to other kids but to sit here and blame him, when his family could be watching this , is just horrible and wicked .
@@imnotimpressed420 ya sure not the pharmacy who sold it?
@@stephlon6757 you can't talk logic to those idiots!
Rest in pee
I’m so sorry momma…. I know your hurting. Coming from an addict myself. I’ve been clean 3 years and fentanyl is why I got clean. It almost killed me multiple times. Towards the end of my addiction, dealers were selling “ fake Roxy 30s “ and it’s always amazed me how these people are perfectly OK with taking money from you with the small chance of never seeing you again… RIP man.. pray your family finds peace..
Congratulations on being sober for 3 years! I’m proud of you!❤
Back in the day dealers didn't kill their customers it's crazy.. Where's the money to be made when they're killing their customers after one purchase? .. Makes no sense to me.. This epidemic or even pandemic is bad.. And the government are doing nothing. All these young kids who are just experimenting like alot of teens do and they don't wake up.. Their whole entire future gone because of 1 pill. It's so scary. Talk to your kids.. Show them interviews like this and that as much as a few grains can kill. They probably think 1pill would be OK but it's not. Plus the dealers are saying the pills are one thing when it's a different drug altogether and it's not right.. You can't trust dealers. They should be charged with manslaughter or murder because they know they're deadly and lie about what they really are to these naive trusting kid's. I'm so sorry for your loss. x❤️💔🙏x
I'm praying for you and your family. I'm coming up on 2 years sober from a 30 year addiction.
I'm in recovery. I got hooked on those blues. That's all I wanted. All day and all night. I craved for them in my sleep. The batch that I was taking were pressed. They were a different blue and was so so strong
After 9 months that batch ran out and started getting them from a prescription. Those blue 30s from the pharmacy didn't touch me . I'm a month and a half clean. I have no idea how they are going to be cleaned from off our streets but something must happen !!, I thank God and my family for being here. I'm forever grateful 🙏 💛.
Congratulations and you will remain clean because you are stronger than that addiction
Lost one of my closest friends October 29th to a accidental Fentanyl overdose via fake Percocet. I am completely mind-blown that these occurrences are not on the news. This is a national crisis. So many beautiful souls are being lost to fentanyl. I am so sorry for your loss.
Msm isn't on our side anymore
All the media cares about is destroying us. They are brainwashing our families and making them unlovable / insufferable and completely ridiculous
It can’t be in the news cause the news only cares about pushing an agenda
They've been in a news in the past. It's happened to a ton of celebrities (Mac Miller, Prince, Tom Petty, and several more) and they have definitely been in the news. Still, no real actions have been taken by our government to stop it. And I don't mean at the border. Most of it crosses through ports, land and sea, not being smuggled over the border by people entering illegally.
Why the hell are people taking percocet for fun?
My friend has lost 5 family members from fentynal this year. Her daughter came to her brothers funeral, high on fentynal. She looked like a zombie. As soon as the funeral was over, we took her to the hospital to get help. She was 4 months pregnant and had no idea. She stopped using at that point but when she delivered, they found drugs in her system and lost her babies. She is currently in rehab, and her mom has the kids. It's a horrible drug. It shouldn't happen! I feel horrible for this family. I hope they find peace.
Sorry I cannot feel sorry for this person stupid taking drugs while she's pregnant that's a bunch of crap and look she lost her baby she was of sound mind and made a choice and resulted in the death of her child even going to a funeral because of something like this
@Rose Hernandez I never said I felt sorry for her. I feel sorry for my friend who has had to watch this. And I feel sorry for her babies. But you read this wrong, none of the babies dies. Grandma has them.
@@rosehernandez475 you do not read and comprehend so well do you?
That is awful, I feel sorry for your friend. Where I live is like that, entire families gone. Crazy times
@@rosehernandez475 Agreed. These white kids need to stop doing drugs
I’m so glad I listened bc I sometimes buy meds from Mexico. I don’t think I’ll do that ever again 😢 ugh. This poor baby
Don’t buy the ones at Los callejones or swapmeet either. ❌
@@VictoriaAB lol
He was 19. A young man sure, but hardly a baby
Do not buy anything from Mexico!! I do not trust them at all
I live in Mexico and get meds from them all the time and bring them back to my family. I have never heard of this happening. But, I don't go to any random pharmacy, I do go to reputable ones. I've heard of the crappy pharmacies not giving you real product, but nothing with fentanyl.
My heart felt condolences to you and your husband, I know your Son was a precious soul my dear, so was my Damian, on December 18th 1994, my son passed he overdosed and he was only 21 years old, my only Son, God carries us through the most difficult and painful times. You will go on and be a Blessing to so many others because you have chosen to speak up. I went to college and learned how to help others going through hardships with addictions, my pain lessened as I reached out to others and Blessed others with Truth and resources, that has been my saving grace. I speak Blessings upon your lives in Jesus Name! Your testimony will help so many to know that we are not alone and there is hope😘
So sorry for your loss Elizabeth may God bless you for using your loss to help others❤
@@veebee9942 thank you for your heart felt empathy my dear, we both definitely understand the grief process. God Bless You Always😘🙏
@@elizabethballesteros8910 Thank you and the same to you, one day at a time ❤️
@@elizabethballesteros8910 I'm so very sorry for your loss. No mother or family should have to endure this kind of pain. Sending you prayers and big hugs. God Bless you!
@@sandrabagwell thank you so much for your caring heart.
So sorry for what happened. It is the worst thing on earth, to lose a child 😢
My niece was shot up with fentanyl against her will and robbed. A year later in the same house, Same room, her best friend was drugged and robbed. No matter if they were perfect or not, not one deserves to die like that. I miss my niece so much. She had a sweet SPIRIT.. she just trusted the wrong people 😢🙏
Yeah right 🤣🤣🤣 They was tweakin
@@philm5147 Excuse me? Their cases are being investigated. You know NOTHING of the circumstances. My niece had over 100,000 in her bank account left after her grandma died. They manipulated her, gaining her trust, etc. They in fact did this on purpose.. her belongings were stolen, including her wallet. I even prayed that they would be caught.. sure enough, one guy was caught with her card , laptop and jewelry!! So you need to shut up! Keep on trolling.
@@philm5147 you laugh!? Hmm. There for the grace of God go you and everyone you love
@@windycity70 your mext
@@philm5147 oh good thing women never get roofied! How convenient that all drugs are always used 100% consensually! Fucking idiot
Thank you for covering this!!! Even pharmacy’s are at risk!! Once upon a time you could trust the pharmacist… so sorry for your loss!!
Who taught you to pluralize a word using an apostrophe?
@@guyrabinowitz lol u r worried about a spelling of a word think about the message this woman is telling people who cares about the spelling of a word u must not have much to do lol
@@sharonrusso1191 There's never a wrong time to correct an error.
Pharmacies in Mexico are very different then US Pharmacies. This doesn't happen in the US.
@@guyrabinowitz lol well said have a good one
Tell everyone about the danger of fentanyl. I know I am. I’m so sorry and sad this happened to you. 💔
My son was also born in 2002. I am so sorry you lost your son Ryan.
My God….. He was a spitting image of his father….😔😢I was also born in 2002 and grew up in a Border town in Texas. It breaks my heart to think that he never reached 20💔
I am the mother of a 40-year-old man named Andrew. He's always been and will continue to be my beloved "man cub." Today he is healthy and married to a lovely young woman with whom he has 2 children. He is hard working, responsible and the love of my life.
The reason I write this, I suppose, is to express the fact that I have never taken this gift for granted. I know that when he was Ryan's age there were temptations, there were wrong decisions, followed by experiences and maturing. I wish Ryan and all our children could have had this opportunity.
I will not forget Ryan's story; thank you for sharing.
Mexico is a dangerous place for many reasons. Too many people dabble in pills with terrible results. I am so sorry for your loss of such a sweet young man🙏🦋💙
USA is just as dangerous
It’s only dangerous if you’re going there to do drugs
@@shay3697 BS. Lots of corrupt police, military, cartel...everywhere and no mercy for Americans.
It's shocking he could get hold of not only strong painkillers from the pharmacy, presumably without a prescription, but ones that were basically pure street drugs. I hope the pharmacy was reported at least...
I know at least from my experience, I wouldn't have a clue where to begin with finding drugs on the street. Thankfully! So if he hadn't got them at the pharmacy, maybe he'd still be here? Poor young guy.
I’m so sorry for your loss. As a Mother I can’t ever imagine losing a child this way 😢
My heart ❤️ goes to all the mothers who lost their much loved children . It’s so tragic.😢😢This is our century plague☠️which needs to be eradicated
So so sorry. I don't know what it will take for our kids of any she to realize that these are the days that no pill is safe to take unless it has been prescribed for them from a reputable doctor... Not a friend... No one
My heart breaks for this family, the last name Bagwell caught my attention (also my last name). I have been in recovery for 4 years now, narcotics were my DOC & I have lost soooo many friends & people I cared deeply about to the disease of addiction. It really scares me what the fentynal epidemic is doing to people & how easy it is for individuals to lace stuff or just completely lie about what something is..causing so much pain, destruction & death. Peace Be Still Ryan 🖤
Honestly, he took a pill he bought illegally we all know everything is not what it seems...I feel bad for the fam however why would he even buy something like that knowing your taking that risk 🤷🏼♀️
@rvoit Yeah, as hard as it sounds I don't think this was innocent mistake.
Go to Mexico and buy weed and pills, what do you expect. No accident.
I like how you said drugs are my drug of choice lol
@@christophermccall4299 As opposed to alcohol which is legal.
These video's are extremely insightful and well produced.
I'm so sorry mama. Thank you for sharing your story to help other mothers. I hope that you find comfort in some way to get you through these dark times.
Rest In Peace Ryan. Please watch over your mom and dad🙏🏽
THIS IS ABSOLUTELY HEARTBREAKING. HOW CAN A PHARMACY GET AWAY WITH SELLING MEDICATION THAT ISN'T EVEN MEDICATION AT ALL ? UNBELIEVABLE AND SO VERY WRONG. PRAYERS FOR YOUR FAMILY AND YOUR SON'S FRIENDS. WISH THERE WERE WORDS THAT COULD TAKE YOUR PAIN AWAY UNFORTUNATELY THERE AREN'T. BLESS YOUR SON & BLESS ALL OF YOU WHO KNEW N LOVED HIM.
Pray for and think of all of those who lost their lives 🙏🏻 Amen
I'm so so sorry for your loss, I have no words to ease the pain. I believe his spirit is eternal and you will see him again someday.
I was reading some of the comments on here. Yeah I don’t really think that we should be shaming these parents. They’ve already lost their child. They’re trying to help families so they don’t lose their child. I don’t see what more they can do. At this point I don’t see how anyone could shame a parent who’s already lost a child! Just like they said, not my child. After watching these, I’m gonna have my daughter watch some of them and I really think this is going to help and I appreciate this and how brave and strong these parents are to even do it in the first place Thank you.
Tanya, thank you so very much ❤ God bless you!
R.I.P. Ryan I am so sorry for your families loss. I do believe that your son is proud of you turning his tragic loss into sharing the dangers of this drug. It’s unreal the people who buy drugs in Mexico can get it instead of anything! My nephew lost his life from one pill he bought from a dealer. This is an epidemic. 😢
Rest in pee
🙏💛🙏
I’m so sorry for your loss. God bless you ❤
This has happened to so many people and its so unfair, sick, whatever u want to call it.
I'm an opiate addict, going on 5 years of sobriety. This could have been me. It was pills, Norco and Oxy. I never got to the point of buying them off the street, but I was thisclose. As a mother myself, I am heartbroken to hear these parents share their stories. I am an open book when it comes to addiction. It's nothing to be ashamed of. I am currently a sponsor in NA, and I will always share my story.
Heather, I’m so proud of you! Live your best life! God Bless you ❤
I think the same thing everytime I hear these heartbreaking stories and thank God I wasn't one too ❤️
I was born on April 3rd and my older brother was poisoned with fentanyl this summer and died. My mother found him too. This story hit home. I'm so sorry for your loss. Keep going. Give God the glory even in the worst of times. There are hills and valleys. ♥
Ghey are better off gone.
This is so tragic 😢. My deepest condolences and most heartfelt prayers for the peace and comfort of Holy Spirit for the family and friends. I'm so glad y'all are posting these clips. The public desperately needs to be educated in how this is happening.
Wow, thanks for sharing. I have bought stuff from Mexico, thinking it was safe. This is a reality check.
Lol
This videos are so sad and eye opening for people our age (early 20s) my heart goes out for that lady.
Such sorrow in this dear ladies eyes. You just feel her grief! I’m so very sorry for your loss!
He should’ve never passed away, this makes my heart hurt for your family, a great son doing his best and still growing. My prayers go out to you and your family may Ryan rest in paradise watching over the ones he loves. 🕊️
I think you mean, he should of never taken drugs
@@nonyabinnis9111 Everyone dies. Make sure your coffin is comfy.... Or they are gonna burn your body while you enter into hell....
@kramnull8962 y
You must be a messenger for God, hu? Well, I'm sure he will be happy that you are spreading his word. God bless 🙌
@@nonyabinnis9111 It's harsh but I really agree. This was bound to happen when he was jumping country lines to buy booze and pills. At only 19 too? The way he told his mom of his plans so casually makes me think that this behavior was acceptable in their household. My mom would kill me herself I told her I was going to Mexico for beer and pills. My parents aren't perfect, but thank goodness I was raised to not make such crazy choices.
R.I.P🤍🙏🏾🕊️ my prayers and condolences to his family, friends, love ones, and ALL who knows and loves him. I pray that they know that their love ones are no longer in pain and RESTING IN HEAVEN WITH GOD AND JESUS CHRIST AMEN🤍🙏🏾.
I am sorry for your loss. Thank you for telling your story.
I am so very sorry for your loss. He looks like such a sweet Son. This is heartbreaking 💔
I'm so sorry for all the families going through this
My heart breaks for you! Thanks for having the courage to tell Ryan's story. Sending you prayers and peace.
Rest in pee ryan
This is absolutely tragic! I can't even imagine loosing a child.
Thank you for finding the strength to share this incredibly tragic and painful loss of your dear son! This information needs to get out to the public. May god bless you and get you through this loss.
I feel so sorry for your loss he looks a wonderful boy ❤️
I am so sorry. My deepest sympathy. 🙏🙏🙏💚
It is sad to see how widespread the Fentanyl problem has become. I hope all of these videos go viral. They need to be seen.
Not buying drugs from fake Mexican pharmacies would help.
I’m so sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy. Much love from Australia.💕
So sorry for your loss,truly. I lost my baby brother at 26 in very similar circumstances. My prayers are with you
I’m so very sorry for the loss of your brother. He didn’t deserve to die. Prayers & hugs❤
There are just no words to express my sorrow for your loss. God bless his soul.
Watching this is so heart wrenching. A mother’s worst nightmare. All young people should watch this to be inspired not to do drugs!! ☹️
i was tearing up the whole time, im so sorry for your loss❤️
I am so very sorry for the loss of your precious son 💙 😢 💔. Hugs from Matthew's mom 💙 😢 💔
The way she described his features in death. That shit is so bad. Seeing a loved one warped like that is nightmare fuel. 💔
Imagine your brother text you and says I have a headache but we can hang out tomorrow and then that night he dies and tomorrow comes without him 💔
This is heartbreaking. I am so sorry for your loss. I wish you long life.
I am so sorry for your loss. I pray that you and your family find peace and comfort. God bless you all 🙏❤️
I prayed for you and your family. We lost our 28-year-old son in 2013. There is NO LOSS more profound than the loss of a child, none. Know that the comfort, peace and healing our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ can provide you is unexplainable. Give your heartache to the Lord. Knowing our son is healed and made whole in heaven awaiting our reunion is what helps me to live. Live your life with the joy knowing this is not our home. The time we spend on earth is a grain of sand compared to the beach being forever in heaven. Find joy.
Absolute TRAGEDY!!! NO WORDS !!! So Sorry for your Terrible Loss for you, his dad, family, friends… 😢😢
So very sorry for your loss. I hope the families of these innocents continue to tell their story and I hope there is a listener somewhere whose life it will save. May God strengthen, comfort and keep you during your time of sadness.
Thank you for the courage to share this tragic story we are hearing more and more this all the time may your family be blessed during this most difficult time and your son rest in peace
a 19 year old seeking out "Percocet" in Mexico is insane. The age of consequences. ... rip RB
I know this video is from one year ago, but I still want to give my deepest condolences to this family. I cannot imagine the pain of losing a child. By the grace of God, I still have my 3 boys. May Ryan rest in peace. I just know how proud of you he must be. Sending you so much love & healing light. 💕✨⭐️
I am so sorry to hear this. I am sorry for your loss. May God help you find peace.
Ryan's mother's detailed sharing of the loss of her son to these maniacal drug pushers, is so honest and raw. How painful to have lost a son or daughter absolutely needlessly because we can't get a handle on eliminating this deadly and evil Fentanyl.
Wings to fly ~ God Bless Ryan, rest in peace ~
Very sorry for your loss. I lost my son too when he was 27. He committed suicide and was using drugs at the time. It is a hard thing to do. You have so much courage going live with your story. God bless you and may our sons RIP. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.
Sorry 🙏
Karen, so sorry for your loss. Only mothers going through this understand our pain. Prayers & big hugs to you! God Bless you!❤
Keep these videos coming. Parents need to understand what this is and not ignore it or play dumb. God bless this lady! Strong she’s very strong!
Teens need to see this
Sorry to his family and his friends, RIP beautiful young one! ❤
Thank you for sharing this. Ryan's life mattered. Telling others about taking pills that are not perscribed may save a life. So sorry for your loss. I'm praying for you peace and comfort.
I'm glad these videos are coming out to save lives I'm sorry for this mother's loss rip Young Man
This is the first time ive heard of a pharmacy selling Percocet that had no actual Percocet but 5 times the lethal dose of fentanyl! Thank you for these videos, they are so important. Condolences to the family 🙏
We did an investigation with hidden cameras at the border near the same location. Here's a link to that story - ruclips.net/video/TNSFvH1BdfA/видео.html
My heart well & truly goes out to you & your family. Grief takes a very very very long time...& changes everything..
I'm so sorry - thank you for sharing your tragic loss. I pray this helps others.
ALL OF THESE STORIES SHOULD BE SHOWN IN ELEMENTARY, JUNIOR HIGH, AND HIGH SCHOOLS!!! ❤❤❤ I use these families' stories from Texas Documentaries to educate my two teenage nephews 🙏🙏. You're all doing such amazing work here!
Thanks for sharing.
@@TexasPictures Of course. 😀 You're so welcome. ❤️❤️
this is tragic and unfair. rest in peace ryan.
Mr and Mrs Bagwell, I'm so sorry about the pain, from the loss of Ryan. May God extend his mercy and peace for your family. Be blessed!
This is what happened to my bf it was so traumatizing I’m so sorry
Thank you for sharing your Precious Son's story with us. You and your Family and Friend's are in my thoughts and Prayers. I'm so very sorry for your loos. God bless. 🥺💔🙏
This is a tragic story and it reminds me of my son’s experimentation with drugs when he was in his 20’s, and he told me he had some scary experiences, and survived. Just cautioning your children is not enough in these cases. God help this mom pull through!
wow that was hard to watch. but i must say as some1 who has struggled w fent, makes me think how bad that sucks and i dont want to touch that stuff ever again
I’m proud of you for saying that. Stay strong! God bless you ❤
@@sandrabagwell2701 thank you! I do have a youtube page and talk a little about my addiction in some videos
I’ll check it out! Stay strong! ❤
Praying for your family and friends 🙏 😢 💔
That poor poor Mum😢
My heart goes out to all the loving respectful undeserving families that have to suffer this...will it ever end? Such a waste and terrible for them😢
I was prescribed Percocet once. Took one and about 5 mins later my pain disappeared. But I also realized that this is dangerous s**t.
All these poor mothers ... and fathers and siblings, grandparents, too. All these young people who are not mature enough to see and avoid the dangers, the lies ...
So many lifes throne away because this world is out of control. The the greed provokes all this.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine the pain you are suffering through. Thank you for being brave to tell your story and bring more awareness to this deadly drug.
May Ryan rest in peace, and may his family find comfort, much love from one RGV resident to another.
Lol
Shout out edinburg tx my second home fashoo
I'm spending my Xmas watching these stories and remembering these ppl. Rest In Peace young man. We'll see you soon.
Edit: I've lost a handful of friends this year to this poison. I feel your pain and I'm thinking about all of you. ❤️
Give the gift of a reagent kit this year. It’s a stocking stuffer that saves lives at the steep cost of 15$
That's very kind of you
Thank you for having these videos as an outreach to educate the public on the dangers of fentanyl being concealed in what people believe are everyday pills over the counter or prescribed.
First, I am sorry for your loss. This is why we need drug law reform. Had your son has access to actual oxycodone he never would have bought something that was that unregulated. People will use drugs regardless. We need to make it safer not just tell them not too
@myfoxsbabycakes2789we worry about our licenses as we should. People want to pop pain pills instead of trying lifestyle changes to manage pain. There are alternatives such as massage therapy, yoga, acupuncture, etc. So DO NOT LECTURE we health care providers when patients seek opioids constantly, sell them and use them as they want and not prescribed. We have the right to make a living. You don’t like it then STOP seeking opioids.
@@ittibittinurse 💯 percent true! Another reason health insurance costs are so high too! Many people think a pill will fix their depression. I’m here to say a lack of pressure in your life is what’s causing that and 9/10 it’s physical pressure. Eating right and exercising consistently is the opposite of depression. But it’s easier for the person and more profitable for the company to have you think it’s something you don’t have control of, but rather the fact you haven’t taken their “magic pill”. It’s the modern day Trojan horse, don’t be fooled!
The answer is NOT more prescriptions.
@@ghostmanscores1666 100% agree, addiction doesn’t get solved by introducing another addiction.
You don't take oxycodone to sleep
Tremendous emotional pain! Indescribable!
Rest in peace too many friends of mine died just like this right before my eyes for the dead I shed a tear