I am compelled to sit here as I finish watching this video, a 6ft 1in linebacker-built guy who has been watching Kendall since her “Why I Quit Bath & Body Works” video some years ago, with my eyes completely wet with tears- boogers and all. Whether she knows it or not, Kendall and the crew have been keeping me company on many, many long car rides, airplane rides, study nights, gym sessions, and pretty much any time I felt alone and needed something to fill the silence, for going on over five years. Being such a dedicated listener, I have literally felt so connected to these people whose voices and personalities I have learned to find comfort in. These voices have become like family to me, and with all of it being said, the amount of sadness I feel for someone who is so undeserving of this is heavy, to say the least. Kendall, I know that while nothing anyone can say will make it any easier, I hope you know the magnitude of lives you have touched in your time as a personality on this platform. I’m sure you have read dozens of comments all saying the same, but as an OG fan who has been with the Mile Higher Fam from day number one, I want to extend to you and Josh my well-thoughts and positive energies as you pass through this chapter in your life. You are both remarkable people who have made me laugh through some of my darkest times, and your voices have lifted my spirits, truly, in the days and moments where I didn’t quite feel myself. I send you and Josh so much love and support from my little speck in California during this time. And thank you for being a friend and support system when I didn’t have anyone else around. You’ve touched a life, and many others, I’m sure, with what you do every day on this platform. Much love to you. ❤️
And nobody knew kendall had her little rainbow baby in there already, just ready to be loved by that whole unit. Its crazy to me just how much positivity and true friendship they have in their lives. I can't wait to get a little older and find a unit like this one.
My heart sank and I got goosebumps seeing this title. We may only know you through a screen but no one can deny the fact you and josh have the kindest, gentle and most nurturing souls. Im sorry to hear you’s have gone through this. So much love to you xx
Kendall, my heart goes out to you and Josh. As an OB nurse and ultrasound technician for 25+ years, I've seen many early losses, most of which are followed by a happy healthy pregnancy soon after. My prayers you will be one of these successes and you will enjoy a happy healthy pregnancy. 💜
Absolutely- I always tell my patients to honor your body, it’s doing it’s best to protect you and put your safety first. It knows what to do when something is amiss, and it lets nature work it’s course. Be kind and gentle to yourself!
I just have to ask this bc in both my experiences the technician who told me there was no heartbeat both told me w the coldest emotionless tone like they were saying were having Arby's for lunch (the second one was 7 months pregnant herself so really don't understand how she could be so emotionless) I'm not sure if it's my sensitivity to it but I just have so much resentment about it. I couldn't imagine at least sounding understanding when telling a mother her baby didn't make it
@@alyssahamlett It's the hardest part of too many of my days. I'm sorry your experience was made worse by insensitivity. I try my best to be supportive and reassuring to the patient that this is not their fault. It's always difficult to know how to comfort someone whose dreams you've just shattered. 💔
Though I previously watched when this first came out, I watched again when it autoplayed after Kendall's birth story. What a difference a year makes... for anyone going through something, please keep that in mind. All my love 💓
Kendal. Please read!! I had a miscarriage the week of my wedding back in September, I didn’t think I would be able to get pregnant at all because of issues my mom went thru so I, like you started sooner than planned. I was BEYOND NERVOUS, scared all the time, worried myself sick thru that pregnancy. Going thru the process of miscarrying was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. My wedding being days away was really the only thing that kept me going. I am 8 weeks pregnant with my second pregnancy in 2 days. DONT GIVE UP. it’s been a real mental barrier to get past, not worrying this time around but it feels better to not sit with the worry like the first time. Just live and it’ll happen again, I promise. If you got pregnant that quick, it’ll happen! Sending good vibes to you and the whole crew! 💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛
As a therapist who has worked with several women who have struggled with grief after miscarriage I want to thank you for addressing this on your platform. Just as you mentioned, hearing the stories of others can be such a huge support and reduce the shame and guilt that comes with this. You’re stronger than you know. You and Josh are going to create a beautiful family and be fantastic parents. Sending love and positive vibes 💖
Yes! So many women have dealt with loss and it still seems to be an uncomfortable taboo subject and it should not be… My stillborn son is still my son even if he didnt make it out of the womb. He still was alive and growing. We need to link arms and be sure to share our stories to help others heal.
I literally started crying within the first 5 minutes of Kendall starting her story and I've never even been pregnant. It's crazy how much of a bond women share just by having similar experiences. Thank you for sharing this very personal story with us, and I wish you and Josh nothing but happiness and a healthy pregnancy when it's your time.
when janelle almost started crying… my heart broke… im so happy yall decided to try again for a baby. you deserve all the love in the world. i love you.
I literally said “aww, oh no” when I read the title. I’m so sorry Kendall. I hope you’re able to process and heal well. Wishing you and Josh all the best 💛
Janelle crying and telling Kendall how good of a mom she’ll be had me balling. You guys are so lucky to have each other and I admire your relationship so much.
I’m shocked to read this. I miscarried two days ago. I’m so sorry for your loss, and I’ll give this video a thumbs up…but I think it’ll be too difficult for me to watch it right now. You’re so strong for putting this out there. Hopefully in a few months I can build up the courage to come back to hear your full story and I pray that it’ll some how help me with mine.
I am so very sorry for your loss. I can't tell you what makes it better but for me, talking about it to someone did. Writing out my experience and seeing it on paper truly helped...but really, telling a friend helped me most...because she too went through it. We cried together. I am so sorry for your loss
My daughter died at 20 weeks gestation and I gave birth to her. The midwife offered an autopsy to find out why and I refused because I was so scared it might have implicated me in some way. I super sorry for your loss. It's so heartbreaking that these things happen. I'm always happy to talk about my experience and listen to others. Here if I can help.
I don’t usually comment on videos but I had to comment on this. I recently experienced a pregnancy loss myself, I got pregnant on my first try like you and also felt invincible. I quickly realized that pregnancy loss is NOT talked about, and it needs to be. Like you said, AT LEAST one in four women have a miscarriage, likely more that just don’t realize. And yet it is so stigmatized and we are made to think it is our fault. THANK YOU for speaking about this, seriously. You are so strong.
Periods, Pregnancy loss, sex and so forth all need to be talked about more. I hate that for you and I hope you can fully recover from it. Miscarriages are horrible for people. I promise you aren't alone. Millions suffer miscarriages.
I want to take a minute to say that Janelle is such an amazing and supportive person. You can tell how much she loves Kendall by the way Janelle was hurting. When she told Kendall that she knew she would be a mom, I lost it. I'm so sorry this happened, Kendall. There are no words for this kind of pain. But seeing the way you are supported and loved by those around you will help in your healing. My heart breaks for you and Josh and those who love you. Janelle, I wish I had a friend/family member like you. You have such a beautiful heart. Sending you all so much love.
My dear Kendall…I want to say “I know how you feel” I have had two healthy pregnancies resulting in two beautiful baby girls…and then I had two miscarriages that I felt like I had to suffer alone. Because I had had two babies I felt like I was not validated to feel the loss of the next two. “You have two kids, you should feel blessed” it made me keep it to myself and not tell anyone it happened. It’s so sad women feel this way. We need to open up the conversation. It should not what the situation, what the number of pregnancies, a loss is a loss no matter what. You are not alone. Much love
This was one of the first comments I read. I had the exact opposite situation in that I had 2 recurrent miscarriages before having my 2 boys. I also felt an incredible sense of shame and worthlessness. That was a little over a decade ago now and I wish youtube was around for the sense of support cause I also felt so alone in that no one in real life had shared the same experience. I hope you get your rainbow baby. 🌈
A few People tried to say that to me after our stillborn son. We had 2 older boys and it hurt them to hear that. They felt their brother mattered just as much as they did. We healed and we miss him. But we had to ignore the ignorant comments. Depending on the person, Either we were making too big a deal or we weren’t broken up enough…. Some people are critical and cant be pleased because they are miserable and maybe even dealt with secret loss they dont talk about. Those lost babies mattered and they are your children!!! They just arent in your arms right now. We miss ours but we dont cripple ourselves with grief. We miss him ar holidays and his still birthday…. We were blessed with 2 more babies but they do NOT replace our son and our miscarriage! We still sometimes feel there is a hole. I dont think that will completely go away. Dont listen to hurtful words. Hurt people hurt people!
Miscarriages are still traumatic and painful regardless it’s a loss of a child. It’s valid. BUT if you wanna look on the bright side, at least you do still have your two beautiful babies! ❤️
Watching this was hard. We lost our son on my birthday from a traumatic birth and it was the hardest thing we'd ever been through. He was our rainbow baby after having a miscarriage. No matter where you are in your pregnancy, a loss is always heartbreaking. We now have our 1 year old son and he is our double rainbow baby. And now y'all have Holly and I'm so so happy for y'all!!❤️
I had a feeling something like this had happened, I’ve suffered loss too and it’s really hard for people to understand who haven’t been through it. I want you to know we are all here for you. I’m sending you all my love 💖
I’m sorry you had to experience such a loss… I did as well- twice. And Kendall is so right about the pregnancy hormones being REAL on top of the grief. I believe people can feel empathetic towards those who have lost a baby, but unless you have been unfortunate enough to go through it? It’s SOOOO hard to explain it in a way for people to get it. I’m just so proud of her for sharing her story. Her and Josh are going to make AMAZING parents one day. That rainbow baby is going to be so so so loved 🥺♥️✨
Kendall I am so sorry that you went through this. I don't understand or like the stigma of 'waiting until 12 weeks to tell people your pregnant. We need the support of our people. I went through. a miscarriage alone and it was horrible. I can so relate to when you initially felt shame and blamed yourself. I was training for a marathon and very hard on my body when I had my miscarriage and blamed myself 100%. I'm sending you so much love your way and I know you and Josh will be holding a sweet baby in your arms earthside soon
I 100% understand why the wait tho, bc we told our parents before the so called danger zone was over, and we miscarried, and the same night we did, my mother-in-law was in the hospital bc of a broken wrist..and I wish we didn't tell them before bc she was DO heart broken bc of it, that she couldn't be there for us even tho she was in the same hospital..but that wasn't the real problem, the REAL problem was that she felt guilty for MONTHS, and complained about it to us, when I just wanted to forget and move on..so it's not always the best solution to tell right away. Luckily we now have a healty 2 year old and I feel like she totally forgot our miscarriage, but I never did, and never will. But the point is, sometimes the ppl closest to you will feel worse than you when it happens, but will totally forget it even happened when you still cry about it, very often.
And yes, about the second pregnancy I told my closest friends (and obviously husband), but we decided to keep it a secret from our families, until the scariest part was over..bc our families just made the recovery worse for us tbh. Thankfully I didn't show until lile 6th or 7th month, so it was really easy to keep it from them, even longer than we needed to, bc we were even more scared the second time than the first, mostly bc it took us exactly 2 years to get pregnant again..so not everyone wants the same support. I didn't need anyone else than my husband, but I just wanted to tell my friends, so they could understand why I couldn't/didn't feel like going out as often as I did before, since before I was out a lot, even if it was a bar or a cafe or anything like that, even to the movies. I just wanted to be alone/with my husband a lot more, which is why I told my friends, but not our families.
But it is different for everyone, and everyone should seriously do as they feel, even if it is telling before "the safe time" or not. It is totally up to you. But not everyone wants all the support before it, bc it might be worse after, if the worst happens. But tbh, you don't know how it goes before it happens the first time, so if you know you have a good support system, go for it, for real. And if it goes bad, you can always ask for outsider help (doctors etc)
You're not alone!!!! I had no idea I was pregnant, in a very toxic abusive relationship and turned to drinking as an escape . I had my miscarriage alone, never told anyone till I had the courage to leave. I barely drink to this day and it has been 5 years... 1 in 4 is a heartbreakingly common number, I send my good vibes out to all mommas out there! We are all valid, we all have a story. Love to all the others out here who have experienced any child loss, it's nothing someone should ever have to do...
@@KelseyKaotic after my mother-in-law got out of the hospital, after I miscarried, she told me that her roommate had 5 miscarriages before having a child, imagine how scared I was trying again after that. But at least I knew that it was super common, but goddamn..didn't have to scare me like that tho 😅 that night was hell for me, not only was I broken mentally, but it hurt more than anything ever physically too, and the doctors in my town didn't take me seriously thanks to my past stupid alcohol and drug use..so after 4 tries of getting help, we finally went to a hospital next town where they finally helped me thru the pain and suffering, like everyone should be helped.
Kendall, there is absolutely no way Josh or the rest of your family and friends could possibly love you any less. I have seen the way that man looks at you, and the way your friends look at you, and you are so beyond loved and admired by all of them. You are not only an inspiration to your loved ones, but also to all of your followers out there. You are a beautiful person inside and out, and the work that you do helps so many people who have gone through horrible traumas. You deserve love, and you deserve your rainbow baby. I hope and pray that this happens for you and Josh. Much love, girl ❤❤❤
The way she is so motherly teaching us about her lose is just so heart warming. She is so strong and to know what its like having anxiety then to have hormones come into play is just so hard to even imagine. I love you and am sending positive thoughts your way!❤️
As a mother who has lost 3 children, it is definitely not easy. It's totally traumatic, and ground shaking. But if it offers you and solace, whether you knew about it for 2 seconds, 2 days, or 2 months, your feelings are validated and you are still a mother. Your baby also never felt anything other then love, and warmth. I am now pregnant with my 4th child. My husband and I have finally heard our first heartbeat, there is hope, even in times where it feels that there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Take time for yourself, your body, and your heart to heal. So much love to you and Josh. You're brave for sharing your story with us.
So sorry for your losses. I just wanted to send you words of encouragement as baby #4 and the eldest of my siblings. My heart goes out to you and I wish you a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby 💖
@@IzzyHasADHD Thank you so much. I appreciate your kind words. I am feeling more hopeful then ever this time around. I will be 12 weeks on Thursday. Just taking it a day at a time. Thank you again. This has really made my heart happy. ❤
@@pamelapiper5900 wishing you all the best mama! I’ll be praying for you! Your comment is so true, I only knew for a few weeks but the dream was there so strong from the second I knew! You’re so strong to keep trying! All the love and light in the world to you 💫♥️
This news was so hard to hear. I have been following Kendall and Josh for years and they’ve proven time and time again to be the most generous, kind hearted, and thoughtful people! And for Kendall to have the strength to share this experience online in order to help out others demonstrates just how kind and beautiful her soul is. I’m sending so much love your way, and I’m truly so sorry this happened to you!❤️
Around the 58:00 mark, that was such a beautiful thing to say about Kendall! It made me tear up. Not everyone is naturally motherly just because you are a woman but we all know how special and comforting a mother’s love is. There’s nothing like a mother! No shade to any Father’s because they can be great in their own special way too but a motherly person is so important in a person’s life. Technically, you don’t even have to physically be a mom to have the ability to mother. The way that Kendall and Josh care for all their animals you can just tell they will be wonderful parents and I’m so excited we get to see it, virtually.
I am so sorry you had to experience this, Kendall. Last week I went through my third miscarriage. The first was nearing the end of the first trimester at 11 weeks, the second was a very early chemical pregnancy at 5 weeks, but this last one made it to 18 weeks gestation so I actually delivered her, saw her, and held her. (She had a chromosomal abnormality we were aware of.) These have been the most devastating experiences of my life. We still hope for a healthy baby someday, but right now I am absolutely terrified to try again. I wish for this to be a one-time experience you never go through again, and you get your babies sooner rather than later. Thank you so much for talking about this, because people really need to hear they are not alone in this.
Im so sorry to hear bout your babies I have also been through 3 miscarriages and I truly understand the fear but it is worth to keep trying after 3 losses I have ow have 5 and a half month old son and he was worth the pain im not going to lie trying again is TERRIFYING you will be scared and it will be at the back of your mind the whole pregnancy but I hope beyond hope that you get to experience holding your own little bundle in your arms sending so much love I truly understand the pain please know you aren't alone x
Kendall, somehow when you were talking about this previously I had an awful feeling this is what you had gone through. I'm tearing up writing this because I can't even imagine your pain. Sending you so so much love!
When you said Shameful I literally cried, I always felt crazy for feeling that way but I couldn't help it. The fact of being a women and my body not doing what it's suppose to do as a women has broken me to my core. Every days gets a little easier Kendall, I promise that better days are a head, stay strong friend.
In 1999 my mom lost my sister. She felt the same shame, the same feelings of being unworthy, she said she didn't feel like a woman anymore, and she didn't feel like a mother anymore, even though she already had me and my brother. Shortly after, she shaved her head, and kept it like a pixie cut for a decade. But you get to love this baby forever. Forever and ever. Love you soooo much Kendall 💜💜💜💜
My aunt sadly could never carry to term and had several miscarriage and had to get both fallopian tubes removed. Now she has adopted two beautiful children and is happier than ever. As difficult as it is there is always a bright side! So sorry for your loss, thanking for shedding light on this!
I watched my best friend of 15 years have a miscarriage on FaceTime. She called me screaming and crying because she didn’t know what was happening to her. It was absolutely devastating and a moment I will never forget. A couple months later she received the best news that she was pregnant again and carried her son full term and he was born a heathy beautiful baby. I hope you see this Kendall and know that you’re not alone and you WILL have your beautiful rainbow baby. Keeping you and josh in my thoughts. I can’t wait to hear you announce that you are pregnant one day but do it when you are ready!! Speaking a beautiful baby into existence for you and josh❤️
I’ve had two miscarriages prior to my daughter who just turned a year this month. The pain is tremendous. Still think of my two angels when i see my daughter. I’m personally a firm believer in telling people you love early because i want that baby to be remembered, to be loved because they matter too. No matter what happens. You do whatever you feel is right for you. Sending you so much love Kendall.
58:57 Oh how right Janelle was!! I bet no one had a clue it would happen so fast!!!🥰 Although it still hurts to see yall so hurt, I'm incredibly happy the rainbow baby has helped heal that so soon!!!!Sending lots of love ~From Nashville 💋
My heart is already breaking. I'm worried about watching this in my current mental state. But if it is what I think it is, I've been there. Autoimmune is so awful with reproduction. I've lost 2, including my son's twin. Many healing vibes your way.
Can I just say how Janelle is looking at Kendall as she’s telling her story is the most amazing thing. You can tell how much love and admiration she has for her cousin & it’s so sweet!
You’re going to be pregnant SO soon! I can see it, it’s happening! ❤️ you lost the body of the first baby but the soul will come right back to become your next ❤️ you’re going to be the most amazing mother
I hate that this happened to you and Josh but I’m sending my love to you all. I’m in the 3rd trimester of my first baby and I can honestly say this has been the scariest thing I’ve been through. You are so strong and such an incredible woman. You and Josh will be amazing parents one day. Love you guys so much❤️
Sending you and josh positive vibes. Pregnancy loss is never easy and it isn’t talked about enough. It can make you feel so alone. I lost a baby as well and there’s really no right thing anyone can say to make you feel better so the best advice I can give you is you are allowed to feel however you want to feel about this. There is no right or wrong way to grieve and whatever you are feeling is okay. Giving you a big virtual hug 💜
I know how hard it is! But don’t give up. I had a very early miscarriage last October , got pregnant November and had my baby in July!❤️ he’s 4 months!
I don't usually watch the sesh on RUclips so I've only just caught wind of this and I needed to come over here and talk about it. I am so sorry this had to happen to you, Kendall. When I was 16 or 17 I had an accidental pregnancy and didn't even know I was pregnant until I started miscarrying that day. So that feeling of love, joy and loss and agony all happening in such a small window of time is terrifyingly too familiar to me and I never told anyone but my boyfriend. It's hard, it's horrifying and it's probably one of the worst feelings anyone with a uterus can experience, emotionally, physically, etc. Even I had those same feelings running through my head of the past events leading up to the loss and trying to figure out what I did wrong to cause it. I never even wanted a baby back then, and I still don't. But I'll never forget that yearning and that melting love you feel when you realize what was inside of you. This episode was hard for me to listen to but it was also empowering hearing my experience through you word for word. You are absolutely loved, Kendall. You are so loved and one day your baby will be back, the time just wasn't right quite yet. You and Josh will make wonderful parents (when you decide you're comfortable to try again, move at your own pace.) Just know that this too will pass and you have our love and support the whole way. Nobody will judge you here. Never forget you're loved, never be scared to break down for a bit, we're here for you. And we understand (especially I and many other people with uteruses).
i just wanted to say i appreciate u saying ‘people with uteruses.’ i’m not trans but i want to commend you for using those terms. people like you are the reason people feel more free now. have a good day
@@sarahdrummond5334 Thank you!! I'm a trans man and want to be a parent one day using my biological components and pregnancy can feel extremely exclusionary, even when people don't mean to be so I love the term and hope it's used more in the coming years!
Thank you for sharing your story and for talking about such a “taboo” subject. You have no idea how many women you may be helping just by talking about it. I have also experienced a miscarriage, two actually and talking about it and hearing other peoples stories helped me sooo much ! 2020 was a rough year as it is but it’s definitely not a year id want to go back to. Unfortunately, I had a miscarriage on Mother’s Day as well as Christmas Eve which were just such significant dates you wouldn’t want to feel “alone” . Although I had such a great support system, I felt alone since I was the first in my family to experience a miscarriage. I felt as if my body betrayed me, but I learned that my body is incredible. Even tho I had two losses I never lost hope that I’d be a mother, I always knew eventually I’d be a mom. I was incredibly blessed to have my rainbow baby on Halloween 2021, which just so happened to be her due date! (I know so weird that everything happened on a holiday) . I will be honest after having two losses prior to this pregnancy it was hard. I felt robbed of my happiness and excitement at first because I didn’t want get my hopes up. However, I learned to celebrate every week, every milestone, every change in my body. You truly realize how amazing your body is and how much a miracle you and your baby are just to be born. I really hope when you are ready you are blessed to have your rainbow baby, I know it’ll happen 🤍
I saw the title and literally said out loud "oh no, I'm so sorry." Props to you for speaking about it to all of us, that takes some major courage and I know it'll help a lot of other people, too. Love you guys.
Janelle and Syd are such sweethearts, I was literally weeping everytime they said something. I think Seshies feel your maternal nature, Kendall. Your voice and your wisdom make my heart feel warm. You're going to be a wonderful mother.
Hearing Jenelle talk about how great of a mother Kendall will be and how she was born to be a mother was heartbreaking..because I can see that in Kendall and I don’t even know her. But flash forward to all these months later and seeing Holly come across Kendall and Josh’s instagrams, really warms my heart even more..I’m so so happy for y’all and I think y’all are amazing 🥹
this one took me a little while to get through due to the nature of the conversation but I just got to the part where kendall said she got a “taste of motherhood in a weird way” and that is SO TRUE. arguably one of the hardest parts of my miscarriage was just that, that I only got a brief taste of what it’s like to be a mother. my heart is with you guys ❤️❤️
Kendall, may you have peace for the present and hope for the future. I am so sorry for your loss. This isn’t the end of your journey, but merely the beginning. We all love you and are so excited for you and Josh’s future and to come along for the ride if you choose to share it with us ❤️
“It’s all gone” hit me so hard. I want to say I’m sorry but I feel like those words aren’t even enough. I truly can’t fathom what this has been like for you and Josh. I just choose to believe there’s a plan for you and you will be a mother! I’m sending you all the love and positivity. Thank you so much for sharing this story with everyone and being so vulnerable.
I’m so sorry you are going through such a horrible ordeal. The promise of a new baby brings us to the highest heights, which only makes the disappointment of a loss even more painful. Sending you love and healing you beautiful soul 💕💕
This is why it's so important to have a plan for your animals in case of an emergency my mom is literally in the process of buying a trailer to convert into an area to take the animals if there is an emergency and we need to evacuate
Oh Kendall, I broke into tears seeing this title. I was diagnosed with endometriosis at 31 last summer and I know your pain. Please know you are not alone and I am crying for you and keeping you near and dear to my heart.
I have endo too... I'm not looking to get pregnant but I know how devastating it is to get the diagnosis. I had to abandon all hope of getting pregnant and now I need to take bc continuously to make sure I never ever get pregnant cuz it could kill me
@@Senseriffic I am so, so sorry Daria. It is incredibly painful emotionally to have to deal with and it makes me feel better to know that I'm not alone in this battle. It hurts me so much because my partner is an only child and he recently lost his father. To think that I probably won't ever be able to give him a child destroys me and I fear it will tear us apart and he won't be able to love me anymore like Kendall said. One of my friends also has endo and she recently lost a baby. It's all so unfair. Thank you for sharing your story
Kendall!!! I am so sorry for your loss and I am so proud of you for posting your story. You have already helped people so much and yet you continue to share your own experiences to help people even more. You are so loved Kendall and appreciated. You and Josh are going to be an amazing family. Thank you for being so brave to share ❤️ xoxo so much love to you & Josh & all the fur babies ❤️
i’m so so sorry to you and josh. i lost a baby around two years ago and it still hurts. it’s truly unlike anything i’ve ever experienced and i know myself and so many other people in your comments will be able to relate to your experience. i know it feels like such a devastating and isolating experience but just know you are NOT alone. also the “going over every tiny detail of things that you did” is so so relatable. there’s nothing that you did or could’ve done. your intrusive thoughts are not your reality. you are so strong and i *know* you will be such a wonderful mother when your time comes 💗💗
just a hopeful note to some of your comments: after my loss, when i was cleared a month later we began to try again and did get pregnant the month after right away! and now have an awesome kick ass son who is two years old. it CAN happen for you and it will.
I'm so glad to be seeing other people talking about miscarriage, I got hit by a car and had my second miscarriage in July. It's depressing but it feels better to know that I'm not alone in loss, it needs to be talked about more
Kendall, I’m so sorry for your loss but really appreciate you sharing your story! My husband and I had the same experience earlier today year. We got pregnancy on our first try and were shocked, and then lost the baby a week later and it was the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. I didn’t feel like I could talk about it but feel better knowing I’m not alone. My husband and I kept trying and we are pregnant again and just cleared our “safe zone”, and look forward to telling our friends and family over the holidays! It does get better, and thank you so much for opening up to us!! ❤️❤️❤️
It's been 6 years since my miscarriage. I just started taking a bath again this year. I didn't hold a baby for over a year and a half after and now 6 years later I can finally sit in a bathtub without going into a full on anxiety attack. My heart goes out to you Kendall! You are an incredible woman, and you are absolutely not alone. Lots of love and healing.
i’m glad you’re able to talk about this with us kendall. ❤️ i’m actually doing a research paper right now about the effects of miscarriage on individuals and their partners and the one factor that keeps coming up is the support of their partner, friends, and family. hopefully there is further research to be able to help treat and cope with the grief that comes with miscarriage and help doctors help their patients. ily guys.
Kendall is so amazing and brave for sharing her story. I’m 30 and know I want to have a kid at some point but it’s so anxiety-inducing knowing I’m only getting older, dealing with pressure from my family (since I am the oldest kid), and all of the issues that come along when it comes to just trying to get pregnant alone.
So many have the same story and everything will fall into place at the right time for you. I know it sounds weird, but in ways you aren't expecting, all the pieces will fall into place 💟
My mum got (accidentally) pregnant with me when she was 40. Gave birth to me when she was 41. My grandma got pregnant with my mum when she was 40 as well. I’m 28 now and if I ever have children, I know I want it to be in my late 30s or 40s. My point is, there is still time!
I realize I’m late to the game on this one but this could have been me telling the story verbatim. It’s exactly how my loss went. I always say the same thing. You have to go through one of the worst events of your life with hormones that make it hurt so much more. I’m so happy you have your rainbow now ❤
Kendall, I know you don’t really know who we are, but just know that every single one of us is supporting you as if we’d known you our entire lives. ❤️ You are such an inspiration and I’m so proud of you for sharing this despite how hard it is. Coming from a 17 year old girl, thank you for being such an inspiration for me and other girls and women who need a sister figure like you ❤️
I’m so sorry Kendall and josh I seriously am sending you guys so much love!! I can’t imagine how heartbroken you were I’m happy to hear you had loved ones around you!! ♥️🥺 sending you a massive hug !!!
I'm so sorry for your loss...I went through fertility treatments, had 2 healthy babies at 34 and 36. My husband had a vasectomy and guess what??? 3 years later we "accidentally" got pregnant on our own! And yes, the baby was my husband's thanks to a malfunctioning vasectomy. I miscarried that baby at 10 weeks via a "missed miscarriage". But, keep the faith. Anything is possible. You will be very anxious next go- round, but it will happen for you! ❤ Much love to you and Josh!
Kendall, I experienced a loss in 2017 which truly broke my heart, but I listened to this episode while I put my 5 month old daughter to sleep and I just want to let you know that you are so worthy of becoming that mom you want to be. You will be so cherished in time by your angel on earth. ❤️ Thank you ladies for bringing me peace, comfort, and entertainment during my struggle with postpartum depression and anxiety. Love you all
Kendall and Josh are such parental figures and I always feel so safe watching their content. I often fall asleep to it because I find it so soothing. I am so glad they have each other during this difficult time. Love you guys so much thanks for being such an amazing couple 💕
My heart goes out to you, Kendall. As someone who has been through pregnancy loss and infertility, it's a loss that is so hard to put into words. You are so strong and courageous for sharing your story. After my miscarriage and three years of infertility, I now have a beautiful and healthy five year old son. Don't lose hope! Thinking of you, mama 💛
sooo happy you got your rainbow baby. my worst fear is infertility, I can’t imagine how hard it must be. congratulations on your miracle 🎉 i know we’re strangers but i’m genuinely so happy for you
@@dryskinqueen Awww thank you! I am thankful everyday 💖 I hope infertility is never apart of your journey, but if it is just remember you are never alone!
I love how Jaelle talks Kendall through this, it was very easy to listen to despite the heaviness. And I am overjoyed and proud that you guys are discussing such a hard subject for so many. You covered so much that I think help others. I havent been pregnant but I have medical issues and the past few months I had to come to terms with some things involving my health. Even THAT is really hard! I feel for the women who have went through a pregnancy loss
I feel this so much right now. I found out the other day I lost my baby, there was no heartbeat at my last appointment. It's some of the worst pain I've ever experienced, both mental and physical. I'm so glad you have such an awesome support system. ❤️
So happy Holly is here for you. Your dream of both becoming parents has come true. So sorry you went through this, but so happy for your happy ending to your story. Looking forward to your next baby.
I wish they taught us how fucking hard motherhood is in school. It’s so important and is almost always overlooked from an education standpoint. All my health teachers would briefly mention miscarriages being a possibility but never how absolutely gut wrenching and life changing they can be. Lots of love Kendall and Josh, all the best to you guys.
This is such a weird coincidence but 4 weeks ago I suffered an ectopic pregnancy and had a near death experience from it so I completely get how you are feeling you are not alone Thank you so much for this episode and opening up 💕I’m so sorry for your loss I love you Kendall you’re my favorite
I’m so sorry. I wrote this comment earlier to them, but thought I would share with you since you specifically went through ectopic pregnancy as well. My heart is with you. I had a feeling this is what it was after watching last weeks video. I am sorry. Thank you for sharing - I know it can be scary. I know the pain of loss - I used to make RUclips videos but after having an ectopic pregnancy loss that lead to an emergency surgery from internal bleeding and losing both of my tubes - thus destroying my dreams of conceiving…I had to stop. I couldn’t keep pretending everything was ok. I would love to do IVF but it’s not something I can afford. I have felt shame that my body couldn’t do what it needs to and only way to make it possible would be financially crippling. I went through severe depression (to the point of hospitalization) it truly destroyed me and my family - I lost my marriage. Everything. Pregnancy loss affects so much of our lives. I am glad that Josh is by your side, no matter what. He will love you no matter what happens. Thank you for being able to come on and share. It’s definitely a vulnerable and brave thing to do. The video of my loss is still up if you would like to watch it - not that it fixes anything but maybe it will help to know you are not alone (that goes for anyone reading this) Praying for peace and healing. ♥️ By the way - I did use your code to get a modern fertility test and did it over the summer just to see where I was at since I am now 37 and my fertile years are slipping away. It was insightful for sure. While painful - there is no shame in miscarriage. You did nothing wrong. I am glad you have people in your life that support you.
I am currently 6 months pregnant with my rainbow baby. The way you described Josh is exactly how I can describe my significant other during last time and this time. I am so glad you have him to support you. Mine truly helped carry me through the hard days. But you are not alone. Your doctor is right. There was a reason your body went through this. Listening to you just gave me all the feels because I have been right where you are. But I can now say I am carrying my healthy baby girl. Please continue to hold on to hope!! 💜
My heart dropped when I saw the tittle. I’ve been watching Kendall for years and years since before she was doing true crime and I’ve followed her journey ever since (including the podcasts). I’ve always really related to her as someone with a compromised immune system and chronic illnesses (type 1 diabetes and endometriosis). I can’t even imagine the loss that’s been suffered, sending so so so much love. ❤️
So very sorry Kendall, and so sorry to hear you say you felt shameful following your loss - you absolutely must not feel any shame whatsoever, it was completely out of your control with nothing you could have done to prevent it. Being a Mummy is very tough, it's wonderful but very challenging - I have a 5 year-old, then had a loss with an ectopic pregnancy and now have a 6 month old and it is really difficult not to feel guilt/shame/unworthiness and so forth over so so many things and it does begin in pregnancy. You are so brave to speak so openly about what you've been through, sending lots of love xxx
Talking about this is truly going to help so many people. My great grandmother had a miscarriage and no one knew until after she died. The destigmatizing of this topic helps so many people.
I know this feeling all too well… 9years into trying and still waiting for that joyful day. Good vibes and prayers your way that your process ends in joy and the way you’ve always imagined!! You guys deserve the best! ❤️
I lost my first and only baby at 12 almost 13 weeks almost two years ago now. I’m so sorry to anyone who has to go through that. It’s something so personal I’d never claim to know how you feel because everyone’s so different. But it’s heartbreaking all the same… sending so much love to anyone who needs it ❤️
Kendall & Josh, you are both a POWER couple. Such strong individuals. Everything you are feeling is valid & I find it EXTREMELY admirable for you to open up about your loss. Regardless of what life throws at you both, you are very loved and have a great support system. Not only from your family and friends, but also your fans. Stay strong, Kendall & Josh.
The whole smoke detector thing makes me feel so much better about my story 😂 I just bought my own house in July and on the second night here my smoke detectors went off 6 times in the middle of the night! I got so scared I called the fire department and they came and they said “ma’am your smoke detectors are from 2008 they need to be replaced.” Glad everyone is safe!
I’m so sorry for your loss Kendall & Josh. You have so much support and love that surrounds you. Love you girl. I cried for my friend who has had 3 miscarriages and I cry for you. No matter how much you know someone, a miscarriage is so heartbreaking and not easy. You are a strong women and are not broken. You did nothing wrong and this is not your fault.
I was so worried that it would be this. I’m so so sorry for your loss, I have yet to watch the video, but just know that no matter what, you will always be a mommy to that baby. You are a mother, regardless of where that little baby is in the universe.
Kendall I'm here sobbing, I've been watching you for years and I think you really are a light in a world of dark.. do not lose your spirit.. you are FOREVER loved
Hi Kendall. I don't comment much but you have been the number one role model in my life since I was 14 years old, and I have now just turned 19. Through all the hard times, I would ALWAYS go straight to your channel or your podcasts to cheer myself up or just to distract myself. I have always admired how hard you work, how respectful you are and how everything you do is done in love and for the better of others, and yet you still make time for your own mental health. Its honestly so amazing and as I grow into adulthood I aspire to be like you. Thank you for always doing your best and keeping up with content despite how hard things must have been for you in your personal life. I wish you all the best in the future. And I know you will be the best mum ever.
I’ve just started listening to your podcast. I work 3rd shift and it makes my nights go by faster listening to y’all. Kendall all I can say is thank you for putting your story out there. I am also 1 in 4 and have suffered pregnancy loss. I now have 2 beautiful little girls who I am thankful for. Thank you again for sharing your story. ❤️
I also went thru this this year- I didn’t even know I was pregnant until it happened. It was also on my birthday so it was really hard to go thru. Thank you for posting this. I definitely was triggered and I may or may not be crying in a coffee bean right now, but I appreciate this video so much. I still feel some type of way talking about it… but it does feel better having someone to talk to about it.
I knew you was pregnant and I'm so sorry for your loss. I've had 3 losses. My first at 16 weeks (a little girl) the other 2 were early on. I'm lucky to have my son who will be 5 in January. Prayers for you and Josh
Sending you so much love and hugs!!! My third pregnancy ended in a miscarriage.. I remember the hurt, the heartbreak, the hormones and the feelings of being alone although I wasn’t. We had our rainbow baby the following year. You all will be amazing parents one day soon and I can’t wait to share that excitement!!!! 💗💗💗
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We love you guys, thanks so much for your support and kind words ❤️
love you so so much
Sending our love and support. I’ve been watching since the start and although I may just be a name on a screen we all care about you guys so much.
❤️❤️❤️ we love you
You are not alone💕I completely get your pain right now
Kendall and Josh Im so sorry for your loss 😞
I am compelled to sit here as I finish watching this video, a 6ft 1in linebacker-built guy who has been watching Kendall since her “Why I Quit Bath & Body Works” video some years ago, with my eyes completely wet with tears- boogers and all. Whether she knows it or not, Kendall and the crew have been keeping me company on many, many long car rides, airplane rides, study nights, gym sessions, and pretty much any time I felt alone and needed something to fill the silence, for going on over five years. Being such a dedicated listener, I have literally felt so connected to these people whose voices and personalities I have learned to find comfort in. These voices have become like family to me, and with all of it being said, the amount of sadness I feel for someone who is so undeserving of this is heavy, to say the least. Kendall, I know that while nothing anyone can say will make it any easier, I hope you know the magnitude of lives you have touched in your time as a personality on this platform. I’m sure you have read dozens of comments all saying the same, but as an OG fan who has been with the Mile Higher Fam from day number one, I want to extend to you and Josh my well-thoughts and positive energies as you pass through this chapter in your life. You are both remarkable people who have made me laugh through some of my darkest times, and your voices have lifted my spirits, truly, in the days and moments where I didn’t quite feel myself. I send you and Josh so much love and support from my little speck in California during this time. And thank you for being a friend and support system when I didn’t have anyone else around. You’ve touched a life, and many others, I’m sure, with what you do every day on this platform. Much love to you. ❤️
Wish there were more guys like you! What a sweetheart.... :)
💕 The same here - they are "family" or maybe even better than them, lol 💕
@@gingersmith1634 DITTO❤️
This made me cry! This was such a sweet message. And you put into words beautifully what I'm sure so many of us feel. 💛
I couldn't of said it any better, you both are in my prayers. ❤️
From New Brunswick, Canada
Watching this again and knowing they now have sweet Holly makes me so happy for Kendall and Josh
Literally! I loved that they ended up getting pregnant again shortly after and it was a success! So happy
And nobody knew kendall had her little rainbow baby in there already, just ready to be loved by that whole unit. Its crazy to me just how much positivity and true friendship they have in their lives. I can't wait to get a little older and find a unit like this one.
My heart sank and I got goosebumps seeing this title. We may only know you through a screen but no one can deny the fact you and josh have the kindest, gentle and most nurturing souls. Im sorry to hear you’s have gone through this. So much love to you xx
Kendall, my heart goes out to you and Josh. As an OB nurse and ultrasound technician for 25+ years, I've seen many early losses, most of which are followed by a happy healthy pregnancy soon after. My prayers you will be one of these successes and you will enjoy a happy healthy pregnancy. 💜
Absolutely- I always tell my patients to honor your body, it’s doing it’s best to protect you and put your safety first. It knows what to do when something is amiss, and it lets nature work it’s course. Be kind and gentle to yourself!
I just have to ask this bc in both my experiences the technician who told me there was no heartbeat both told me w the coldest emotionless tone like they were saying were having Arby's for lunch (the second one was 7 months pregnant herself so really don't understand how she could be so emotionless) I'm not sure if it's my sensitivity to it but I just have so much resentment about it. I couldn't imagine at least sounding understanding when telling a mother her baby didn't make it
@@alyssahamlett It's the hardest part of too many of my days. I'm sorry your experience was made worse by insensitivity. I try my best to be supportive and reassuring to the patient that this is not their fault. It's always difficult to know how to comfort someone whose dreams you've just shattered. 💔
You are right!
Though I previously watched when this first came out, I watched again when it autoplayed after Kendall's birth story. What a difference a year makes... for anyone going through something, please keep that in mind. All my love 💓
Kendal. Please read!! I had a miscarriage the week of my wedding back in September, I didn’t think I would be able to get pregnant at all because of issues my mom went thru so I, like you started sooner than planned. I was BEYOND NERVOUS, scared all the time, worried myself sick thru that pregnancy. Going thru the process of miscarrying was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. My wedding being days away was really the only thing that kept me going. I am 8 weeks pregnant with my second pregnancy in 2 days. DONT GIVE UP. it’s been a real mental barrier to get past, not worrying this time around but it feels better to not sit with the worry like the first time. Just live and it’ll happen again, I promise. If you got pregnant that quick, it’ll happen! Sending good vibes to you and the whole crew! 💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛
Ah how are you now? Was you able to have your sweet miracle baby? (If I may ask?)
As a therapist who has worked with several women who have struggled with grief after miscarriage I want to thank you for addressing this on your platform. Just as you mentioned, hearing the stories of others can be such a huge support and reduce the shame and guilt that comes with this. You’re stronger than you know. You and Josh are going to create a beautiful family and be fantastic parents. Sending love and positive vibes 💖
Yes! So many women have dealt with loss and it still seems to be an uncomfortable taboo subject and it should not be…
My stillborn son is still my son even if he didnt make it out of the womb. He still was alive and growing.
We need to link arms and be sure to share our stories to help others heal.
My heart dropped reading the title, sending all my love and hugs to whomever needs it 🤍🤍
I literally started crying within the first 5 minutes of Kendall starting her story and I've never even been pregnant. It's crazy how much of a bond women share just by having similar experiences. Thank you for sharing this very personal story with us, and I wish you and Josh nothing but happiness and a healthy pregnancy when it's your time.
when janelle almost started crying… my heart broke… im so happy yall decided to try again for a baby. you deserve all the love in the world. i love you.
And now they have baby Holly ❤️
I literally said “aww, oh no” when I read the title. I’m so sorry Kendall. I hope you’re able to process and heal well. Wishing you and Josh all the best 💛
Same it’s so heartbreaking
Janelle crying and telling Kendall how good of a mom she’ll be had me balling. You guys are so lucky to have each other and I admire your relationship so much.
Same! I didn't have the same kind of support so I'm so thrilled Kendall does!
Beautiful friendship 🎀
I was bawling too 😢😢😢😢
@@kellyconway5863they’re family , love
I’m shocked to read this. I miscarried two days ago. I’m so sorry for your loss, and I’ll give this video a thumbs up…but I think it’ll be too difficult for me to watch it right now. You’re so strong for putting this out there. Hopefully in a few months I can build up the courage to come back to hear your full story and I pray that it’ll some how help me with mine.
my son was stillborn 9 years ago, my heart breaks for you! God bless you!!
I am so very sorry for your loss. I can't tell you what makes it better but for me, talking about it to someone did. Writing out my experience and seeing it on paper truly helped...but really, telling a friend helped me most...because she too went through it. We cried together.
I am so sorry for your loss
I'm late but I'm so sorry for your loss 💖💖💖💖
I hope you're doing ok :)
I'm sorry for your loss. 10 month check in... I hope you are doing okay 🖤
My daughter died at 20 weeks gestation and I gave birth to her. The midwife offered an autopsy to find out why and I refused because I was so scared it might have implicated me in some way. I super sorry for your loss. It's so heartbreaking that these things happen. I'm always happy to talk about my experience and listen to others. Here if I can help.
🥺❤️ sending a hug 🫂 from Germany to you and Kendall.
Sorry mama ❤️
I don’t usually comment on videos but I had to comment on this. I recently experienced a pregnancy loss myself, I got pregnant on my first try like you and also felt invincible. I quickly realized that pregnancy loss is NOT talked about, and it needs to be. Like you said, AT LEAST one in four women have a miscarriage, likely more that just don’t realize. And yet it is so stigmatized and we are made to think it is our fault. THANK YOU for speaking about this, seriously. You are so strong.
So sorry for your loss, Alexis. Thank you for sharing ♥️♥️
Periods, Pregnancy loss, sex and so forth all need to be talked about more. I hate that for you and I hope you can fully recover from it. Miscarriages are horrible for people. I promise you aren't alone. Millions suffer miscarriages.
1 in 4 PREGNANCIES 😞 it’s devastating. I also conceived first try and miscarried. It was gut wrenching.
So sorry to all the mamas with angel babies. 🥺🙏
@@katherineann8149 I’m so sorry! It happens more often than we realize
I want to take a minute to say that Janelle is such an amazing and supportive person. You can tell how much she loves Kendall by the way Janelle was hurting. When she told Kendall that she knew she would be a mom, I lost it. I'm so sorry this happened, Kendall. There are no words for this kind of pain. But seeing the way you are supported and loved by those around you will help in your healing. My heart breaks for you and Josh and those who love you. Janelle, I wish I had a friend/family member like you. You have such a beautiful heart. Sending you all so much love.
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My dear Kendall…I want to say “I know how you feel” I have had two healthy pregnancies resulting in two beautiful baby girls…and then I had two miscarriages that I felt like I had to suffer alone. Because I had had two babies I felt like I was not validated to feel the loss of the next two. “You have two kids, you should feel blessed” it made me keep it to myself and not tell anyone it happened. It’s so sad women feel this way. We need to open up the conversation. It should not what the situation, what the number of pregnancies, a loss is a loss no matter what. You are not alone. Much love
This was one of the first comments I read. I had the exact opposite situation in that I had 2 recurrent miscarriages before having my 2 boys. I also felt an incredible sense of shame and worthlessness. That was a little over a decade ago now and I wish youtube was around for the sense of support cause I also felt so alone in that no one in real life had shared the same experience. I hope you get your rainbow baby. 🌈
A few People tried to say that to me after our stillborn son. We had 2 older boys and it hurt them to hear that. They felt their brother mattered just as much as they did.
We healed and we miss him. But we had to ignore the ignorant comments. Depending on the person, Either we were making too big a deal or we weren’t broken up enough….
Some people are critical and cant be pleased because they are miserable and maybe even dealt with secret loss they dont talk about.
Those lost babies mattered and they are your children!!! They just arent in your arms right now.
We miss ours but we dont cripple ourselves with grief. We miss him ar holidays and his still birthday….
We were blessed with 2 more babies but they do NOT replace our son and our miscarriage! We still sometimes feel there is a hole. I dont think that will completely go away.
Dont listen to hurtful words. Hurt people hurt people!
Miscarriages are still traumatic and painful regardless it’s a loss of a child. It’s valid. BUT if you wanna look on the bright side, at least you do still have your two beautiful babies! ❤️
Watching this was hard. We lost our son on my birthday from a traumatic birth and it was the hardest thing we'd ever been through. He was our rainbow baby after having a miscarriage. No matter where you are in your pregnancy, a loss is always heartbreaking. We now have our 1 year old son and he is our double rainbow baby.
And now y'all have Holly and I'm so so happy for y'all!!❤️
I had a feeling something like this had happened, I’ve suffered loss too and it’s really hard for people to understand who haven’t been through it. I want you to know we are all here for you. I’m sending you all my love 💖
I did as well but was hoping it wasn’t true. It reminded me of Colleen Balinger earlier this year. Nobody deserves it.
I thought so too but I was hoping I was wrong 🥺🥺🥺 lots of love to anyone going through loss ❤️❤️
I’m sorry you had to experience such a loss… I did as well- twice. And Kendall is so right about the pregnancy hormones being REAL on top of the grief. I believe people can feel empathetic towards those who have lost a baby, but unless you have been unfortunate enough to go through it? It’s SOOOO hard to explain it in a way for people to get it. I’m just so proud of her for sharing her story. Her and Josh are going to make AMAZING parents one day. That rainbow baby is going to be so so so loved 🥺♥️✨
I had the same feeling. I feel like once you've experienced this grief it's easier to see it on other people.
That is what I thought when she said last time that she will talk about when she is ready 😥
Kendall I am so sorry that you went through this. I don't understand or like the stigma of 'waiting until 12 weeks to tell people your pregnant. We need the support of our people. I went through. a miscarriage alone and it was horrible. I can so relate to when you initially felt shame and blamed yourself. I was training for a marathon and very hard on my body when I had my miscarriage and blamed myself 100%. I'm sending you so much love your way and I know you and Josh will be holding a sweet baby in your arms earthside soon
I 100% understand why the wait tho, bc we told our parents before the so called danger zone was over, and we miscarried, and the same night we did, my mother-in-law was in the hospital bc of a broken wrist..and I wish we didn't tell them before bc she was DO heart broken bc of it, that she couldn't be there for us even tho she was in the same hospital..but that wasn't the real problem, the REAL problem was that she felt guilty for MONTHS, and complained about it to us, when I just wanted to forget and move on..so it's not always the best solution to tell right away. Luckily we now have a healty 2 year old and I feel like she totally forgot our miscarriage, but I never did, and never will.
But the point is, sometimes the ppl closest to you will feel worse than you when it happens, but will totally forget it even happened when you still cry about it, very often.
And yes, about the second pregnancy I told my closest friends (and obviously husband), but we decided to keep it a secret from our families, until the scariest part was over..bc our families just made the recovery worse for us tbh. Thankfully I didn't show until lile 6th or 7th month, so it was really easy to keep it from them, even longer than we needed to, bc we were even more scared the second time than the first, mostly bc it took us exactly 2 years to get pregnant again..so not everyone wants the same support. I didn't need anyone else than my husband, but I just wanted to tell my friends, so they could understand why I couldn't/didn't feel like going out as often as I did before, since before I was out a lot, even if it was a bar or a cafe or anything like that, even to the movies. I just wanted to be alone/with my husband a lot more, which is why I told my friends, but not our families.
But it is different for everyone, and everyone should seriously do as they feel, even if it is telling before "the safe time" or not. It is totally up to you.
But not everyone wants all the support before it, bc it might be worse after, if the worst happens. But tbh, you don't know how it goes before it happens the first time, so if you know you have a good support system, go for it, for real. And if it goes bad, you can always ask for outsider help (doctors etc)
You're not alone!!!! I had no idea I was pregnant, in a very toxic abusive relationship and turned to drinking as an escape . I had my miscarriage alone, never told anyone till I had the courage to leave. I barely drink to this day and it has been 5 years... 1 in 4 is a heartbreakingly common number, I send my good vibes out to all mommas out there! We are all valid, we all have a story. Love to all the others out here who have experienced any child loss, it's nothing someone should ever have to do...
@@KelseyKaotic after my mother-in-law got out of the hospital, after I miscarried, she told me that her roommate had 5 miscarriages before having a child, imagine how scared I was trying again after that. But at least I knew that it was super common, but goddamn..didn't have to scare me like that tho 😅 that night was hell for me, not only was I broken mentally, but it hurt more than anything ever physically too, and the doctors in my town didn't take me seriously thanks to my past stupid alcohol and drug use..so after 4 tries of getting help, we finally went to a hospital next town where they finally helped me thru the pain and suffering, like everyone should be helped.
Kendall, there is absolutely no way Josh or the rest of your family and friends could possibly love you any less. I have seen the way that man looks at you, and the way your friends look at you, and you are so beyond loved and admired by all of them. You are not only an inspiration to your loved ones, but also to all of your followers out there. You are a beautiful person inside and out, and the work that you do helps so many people who have gone through horrible traumas. You deserve love, and you deserve your rainbow baby. I hope and pray that this happens for you and Josh. Much love, girl ❤❤❤
The way she is so motherly teaching us about her lose is just so heart warming. She is so strong and to know what its like having anxiety then to have hormones come into play is just so hard to even imagine. I love you and am sending positive thoughts your way!❤️
As a mother who has lost 3 children, it is definitely not easy. It's totally traumatic, and ground shaking. But if it offers you and solace, whether you knew about it for 2 seconds, 2 days, or 2 months, your feelings are validated and you are still a mother. Your baby also never felt anything other then love, and warmth. I am now pregnant with my 4th child. My husband and I have finally heard our first heartbeat, there is hope, even in times where it feels that there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Take time for yourself, your body, and your heart to heal. So much love to you and Josh. You're brave for sharing your story with us.
I’m so sorry for your losses and I wish you a happy healthy pregnancy ♥️
@@nicotinedietcoke Thank you so much ❤
So sorry for your losses. I just wanted to send you words of encouragement as baby #4 and the eldest of my siblings. My heart goes out to you and I wish you a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby 💖
@@IzzyHasADHD Thank you so much. I appreciate your kind words. I am feeling more hopeful then ever this time around. I will be 12 weeks on Thursday. Just taking it a day at a time. Thank you again. This has really made my heart happy. ❤
@@pamelapiper5900 wishing you all the best mama! I’ll be praying for you! Your comment is so true, I only knew for a few weeks but the dream was there so strong from the second I knew! You’re so strong to keep trying! All the love and light in the world to you 💫♥️
This news was so hard to hear. I have been following Kendall and Josh for years and they’ve proven time and time again to be the most generous, kind hearted, and thoughtful people! And for Kendall to have the strength to share this experience online in order to help out others demonstrates just how kind and beautiful her soul is. I’m sending so much love your way, and I’m truly so sorry this happened to you!❤️
I completely agree ♡
Around the 58:00 mark, that was such a beautiful thing to say about Kendall! It made me tear up. Not everyone is naturally motherly just because you are a woman but we all know how special and comforting a mother’s love is. There’s nothing like a mother! No shade to any Father’s because they can be great in their own special way too but a motherly person is so important in a person’s life. Technically, you don’t even have to physically be a mom to have the ability to mother. The way that Kendall and Josh care for all their animals you can just tell they will be wonderful parents and I’m so excited we get to see it, virtually.
I am so sorry you had to experience this, Kendall. Last week I went through my third miscarriage. The first was nearing the end of the first trimester at 11 weeks, the second was a very early chemical pregnancy at 5 weeks, but this last one made it to 18 weeks gestation so I actually delivered her, saw her, and held her. (She had a chromosomal abnormality we were aware of.) These have been the most devastating experiences of my life. We still hope for a healthy baby someday, but right now I am absolutely terrified to try again. I wish for this to be a one-time experience you never go through again, and you get your babies sooner rather than later. Thank you so much for talking about this, because people really need to hear they are not alone in this.
All of you wonderful women are amazing for sharing your experiences. Bless you all.
Im so sorry to hear bout your babies I have also been through 3 miscarriages and I truly understand the fear but it is worth to keep trying after 3 losses I have ow have 5 and a half month old son and he was worth the pain im not going to lie trying again is TERRIFYING you will be scared and it will be at the back of your mind the whole pregnancy but I hope beyond hope that you get to experience holding your own little bundle in your arms sending so much love I truly understand the pain please know you aren't alone x
Kendall, somehow when you were talking about this previously I had an awful feeling this is what you had gone through. I'm tearing up writing this because I can't even imagine your pain. Sending you so so much love!
When you said Shameful I literally cried, I always felt crazy for feeling that way but I couldn't help it. The fact of being a women and my body not doing what it's suppose to do as a women has broken me to my core. Every days gets a little easier Kendall, I promise that better days are a head, stay strong friend.
In 1999 my mom lost my sister. She felt the same shame, the same feelings of being unworthy, she said she didn't feel like a woman anymore, and she didn't feel like a mother anymore, even though she already had me and my brother. Shortly after, she shaved her head, and kept it like a pixie cut for a decade. But you get to love this baby forever. Forever and ever. Love you soooo much Kendall 💜💜💜💜
My aunt sadly could never carry to term and had several miscarriage and had to get both fallopian tubes removed. Now she has adopted two beautiful children and is happier than ever. As difficult as it is there is always a bright side! So sorry for your loss, thanking for shedding light on this!
I watched my best friend of 15 years have a miscarriage on FaceTime. She called me screaming and crying because she didn’t know what was happening to her. It was absolutely devastating and a moment I will never forget. A couple months later she received the best news that she was pregnant again and carried her son full term and he was born a heathy beautiful baby. I hope you see this Kendall and know that you’re not alone and you WILL have your beautiful rainbow baby. Keeping you and josh in my thoughts. I can’t wait to hear you announce that you are pregnant one day but do it when you are ready!! Speaking a beautiful baby into existence for you and josh❤️
Such a beautiful message🥰
I’ve had two miscarriages prior to my daughter who just turned a year this month. The pain is tremendous. Still think of my two angels when i see my daughter. I’m personally a firm believer in telling people you love early because i want that baby to be remembered, to be loved because they matter too. No matter what happens. You do whatever you feel is right for you. Sending you so much love Kendall.
58:57 Oh how right Janelle was!! I bet no one had a clue it would happen so fast!!!🥰 Although it still hurts to see yall so hurt, I'm incredibly happy the rainbow baby has helped heal that so soon!!!!Sending lots of love ~From Nashville 💋
The fact that she you still had a baby by the next Halloween makes me feel so happy for you
My heart is already breaking. I'm worried about watching this in my current mental state. But if it is what I think it is, I've been there. Autoimmune is so awful with reproduction. I've lost 2, including my son's twin. Many healing vibes your way.
Ugh. I’m sorry 😞
I’m so sorry
You are loved, i’m so sorry 🧡
sending you love!! 💗
Can I just say how Janelle is looking at Kendall as she’s telling her story is the most amazing thing. You can tell how much love and admiration she has for her cousin & it’s so sweet!
I totally agree. They have a very special relationship, and closer than many siblings. Very lucky girls!!
You really can. 🥺
You’re going to be pregnant SO soon! I can see it, it’s happening! ❤️ you lost the body of the first baby but the soul will come right back to become your next ❤️ you’re going to be the most amazing mother
This comment aged so well 🥺
I hate that this happened to you and Josh but I’m sending my love to you all. I’m in the 3rd trimester of my first baby and I can honestly say this has been the scariest thing I’ve been through. You are so strong and such an incredible woman. You and Josh will be amazing parents one day. Love you guys so much❤️
Sending you and josh positive vibes. Pregnancy loss is never easy and it isn’t talked about enough. It can make you feel so alone. I lost a baby as well and there’s really no right thing anyone can say to make you feel better so the best advice I can give you is you are allowed to feel however you want to feel about this. There is no right or wrong way to grieve and whatever you are feeling is okay. Giving you a big virtual hug 💜
Yes!! Feel the feelings you need to to be able to move forward. 💜
I know how hard it is! But don’t give up. I had a very early miscarriage last October , got pregnant November and had my baby in July!❤️ he’s 4 months!
I don't usually watch the sesh on RUclips so I've only just caught wind of this and I needed to come over here and talk about it.
I am so sorry this had to happen to you, Kendall.
When I was 16 or 17 I had an accidental pregnancy and didn't even know I was pregnant until I started miscarrying that day. So that feeling of love, joy and loss and agony all happening in such a small window of time is terrifyingly too familiar to me and I never told anyone but my boyfriend.
It's hard, it's horrifying and it's probably one of the worst feelings anyone with a uterus can experience, emotionally, physically, etc.
Even I had those same feelings running through my head of the past events leading up to the loss and trying to figure out what I did wrong to cause it.
I never even wanted a baby back then, and I still don't. But I'll never forget that yearning and that melting love you feel when you realize what was inside of you.
This episode was hard for me to listen to but it was also empowering hearing my experience through you word for word. You are absolutely loved, Kendall. You are so loved and one day your baby will be back, the time just wasn't right quite yet. You and Josh will make wonderful parents (when you decide you're comfortable to try again, move at your own pace.)
Just know that this too will pass and you have our love and support the whole way. Nobody will judge you here.
Never forget you're loved, never be scared to break down for a bit, we're here for you. And we understand (especially I and many other people with uteruses).
i just wanted to say i appreciate u saying ‘people with uteruses.’ i’m not trans but i want to commend you for using those terms. people like you are the reason people feel more free now. have a good day
@@sarahdrummond5334 Thank you!! I'm a trans man and want to be a parent one day using my biological components and pregnancy can feel extremely exclusionary, even when people don't mean to be so I love the term and hope it's used more in the coming years!
Thank you for sharing your story and for talking about such a “taboo” subject. You have no idea how many women you may be helping just by talking about it. I have also experienced a miscarriage, two actually and talking about it and hearing other peoples stories helped me sooo much ! 2020 was a rough year as it is but it’s definitely not a year id want to go back to. Unfortunately, I had a miscarriage on Mother’s Day as well as Christmas Eve which were just such significant dates you wouldn’t want to feel “alone” . Although I had such a great support system, I felt alone since I was the first in my family to experience a miscarriage. I felt as if my body betrayed me, but I learned that my body is incredible. Even tho I had two losses I never lost hope that I’d be a mother, I always knew eventually I’d be a mom. I was incredibly blessed to have my rainbow baby on Halloween 2021, which just so happened to be her due date! (I know so weird that everything happened on a holiday) . I will be honest after having two losses prior to this pregnancy it was hard. I felt robbed of my happiness and excitement at first because I didn’t want get my hopes up. However, I learned to celebrate every week, every milestone, every change in my body. You truly realize how amazing your body is and how much a miracle you and your baby are just to be born. I really hope when you are ready you are blessed to have your rainbow baby, I know it’ll happen 🤍
I saw the title and literally said out loud "oh no, I'm so sorry." Props to you for speaking about it to all of us, that takes some major courage and I know it'll help a lot of other people, too. Love you guys.
Janelle and Syd are such sweethearts, I was literally weeping everytime they said something. I think Seshies feel your maternal nature, Kendall. Your voice and your wisdom make my heart feel warm. You're going to be a wonderful mother.
Hearing Jenelle talk about how great of a mother Kendall will be and how she was born to be a mother was heartbreaking..because I can see that in Kendall and I don’t even know her. But flash forward to all these months later and seeing Holly come across Kendall and Josh’s instagrams, really warms my heart even more..I’m so so happy for y’all and I think y’all are amazing 🥹
this one took me a little while to get through due to the nature of the conversation but I just got to the part where kendall said she got a “taste of motherhood in a weird way” and that is SO TRUE. arguably one of the hardest parts of my miscarriage was just that, that I only got a brief taste of what it’s like to be a mother. my heart is with you guys ❤️❤️
Kendall, may you have peace for the present and hope for the future. I am so sorry for your loss. This isn’t the end of your journey, but merely the beginning. We all love you and are so excited for you and Josh’s future and to come along for the ride if you choose to share it with us ❤️
“It’s all gone” hit me so hard. I want to say I’m sorry but I feel like those words aren’t even enough. I truly can’t fathom what this has been like for you and Josh. I just choose to believe there’s a plan for you and you will be a mother! I’m sending you all the love and positivity. Thank you so much for sharing this story with everyone and being so vulnerable.
I’m so sorry you are going through such a horrible ordeal. The promise of a new baby brings us to the highest heights, which only makes the disappointment of a loss even more painful. Sending you love and healing you beautiful soul 💕💕
This is why it's so important to have a plan for your animals in case of an emergency my mom is literally in the process of buying a trailer to convert into an area to take the animals if there is an emergency and we need to evacuate
Oh Kendall, I broke into tears seeing this title. I was diagnosed with endometriosis at 31 last summer and I know your pain. Please know you are not alone and I am crying for you and keeping you near and dear to my heart.
I have endo too... I'm not looking to get pregnant but I know how devastating it is to get the diagnosis. I had to abandon all hope of getting pregnant and now I need to take bc continuously to make sure I never ever get pregnant cuz it could kill me
@@Senseriffic I am so, so sorry Daria. It is incredibly painful emotionally to have to deal with and it makes me feel better to know that I'm not alone in this battle. It hurts me so much because my partner is an only child and he recently lost his father. To think that I probably won't ever be able to give him a child destroys me and I fear it will tear us apart and he won't be able to love me anymore like Kendall said. One of my friends also has endo and she recently lost a baby. It's all so unfair. Thank you for sharing your story
I'm so so sorry, Kendall. Just know your rainbow baby will mean that much more to you. I love yall. *huge hugs*
I know this is an old video, but I’m crying for you and Josh. Love & hugs to you all. ❤
Kendall!!! I am so sorry for your loss and I am so proud of you for posting your story. You have already helped people so much and yet you continue to share your own experiences to help people even more. You are so loved Kendall and appreciated. You and Josh are going to be an amazing family. Thank you for being so brave to share ❤️ xoxo so much love to you & Josh & all the fur babies ❤️
i’m so so sorry to you and josh. i lost a baby around two years ago and it still hurts. it’s truly unlike anything i’ve ever experienced and i know myself and so many other people in your comments will be able to relate to your experience. i know it feels like such a devastating and isolating experience but just know you are NOT alone. also the “going over every tiny detail of things that you did” is so so relatable. there’s nothing that you did or could’ve done. your intrusive thoughts are not your reality. you are so strong and i *know* you will be such a wonderful mother when your time comes 💗💗
just a hopeful note to some of your comments: after my loss, when i was cleared a month later we began to try again and did get pregnant the month after right away! and now have an awesome kick ass son who is two years old. it CAN happen for you and it will.
I'm so glad to be seeing other people talking about miscarriage, I got hit by a car and had my second miscarriage in July. It's depressing but it feels better to know that I'm not alone in loss, it needs to be talked about more
Kendall, I’m so sorry for your loss but really appreciate you sharing your story! My husband and I had the same experience earlier today year. We got pregnancy on our first try and were shocked, and then lost the baby a week later and it was the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. I didn’t feel like I could talk about it but feel better knowing I’m not alone. My husband and I kept trying and we are pregnant again and just cleared our “safe zone”, and look forward to telling our friends and family over the holidays! It does get better, and thank you so much for opening up to us!! ❤️❤️❤️
It's been 6 years since my miscarriage. I just started taking a bath again this year. I didn't hold a baby for over a year and a half after and now 6 years later I can finally sit in a bathtub without going into a full on anxiety attack. My heart goes out to you Kendall! You are an incredible woman, and you are absolutely not alone. Lots of love and healing.
So glad you’re comfortable sharing and just know that we love you and love supporting you!
Sending positive vibes to you and Josh! Pregnancy loss is so hard. So emotional. I’m glad you have the support you do.
i’m glad you’re able to talk about this with us kendall. ❤️ i’m actually doing a research paper right now about the effects of miscarriage on individuals and their partners and the one factor that keeps coming up is the support of their partner, friends, and family. hopefully there is further research to be able to help treat and cope with the grief that comes with miscarriage and help doctors help their patients. ily guys.
Kendall is so amazing and brave for sharing her story. I’m 30 and know I want to have a kid at some point but it’s so anxiety-inducing knowing I’m only getting older, dealing with pressure from my family (since I am the oldest kid), and all of the issues that come along when it comes to just trying to get pregnant alone.
So many have the same story and everything will fall into place at the right time for you. I know it sounds weird, but in ways you aren't expecting, all the pieces will fall into place 💟
I know loads of people who had healthy children in their late 30s and in their 40s. Please don’t pressure yourself x
My mum got (accidentally) pregnant with me when she was 40. Gave birth to me when she was 41. My grandma got pregnant with my mum when she was 40 as well. I’m 28 now and if I ever have children, I know I want it to be in my late 30s or 40s. My point is, there is still time!
I realize I’m late to the game on this one but this could have been me telling the story verbatim. It’s exactly how my loss went. I always say the same thing. You have to go through one of the worst events of your life with hormones that make it hurt so much more. I’m so happy you have your rainbow now ❤
rewatching this while experiencing my own loss. thanks for sharing this so i don’t feel so alone ❤
Kendall, I know you don’t really know who we are, but just know that every single one of us is supporting you as if we’d known you our entire lives. ❤️ You are such an inspiration and I’m so proud of you for sharing this despite how hard it is. Coming from a 17 year old girl, thank you for being such an inspiration for me and other girls and women who need a sister figure like you ❤️
I’m so sorry Kendall and josh I seriously am sending you guys so much love!! I can’t imagine how heartbroken you were I’m happy to hear you had loved ones around you!! ♥️🥺 sending you a massive hug !!!
I'm so sorry for your loss...I went through fertility treatments, had 2 healthy babies at 34 and 36. My husband had a vasectomy and guess what??? 3 years later we "accidentally" got pregnant on our own! And yes, the baby was my husband's thanks to a malfunctioning vasectomy. I miscarried that baby at 10 weeks via a "missed miscarriage". But, keep the faith. Anything is possible. You will be very anxious next go- round, but it will happen for you! ❤ Much love to you and Josh!
Kendall, I experienced a loss in 2017 which truly broke my heart, but I listened to this episode while I put my 5 month old daughter to sleep and I just want to let you know that you are so worthy of becoming that mom you want to be. You will be so cherished in time by your angel on earth. ❤️ Thank you ladies for bringing me peace, comfort, and entertainment during my struggle with postpartum depression and anxiety. Love you all
Congratulations on your bundle of love. And staying strong!
Kendall and Josh are such parental figures and I always feel so safe watching their content. I often fall asleep to it because I find it so soothing. I am so glad they have each other during this difficult time. Love you guys so much thanks for being such an amazing couple 💕
The clip of you sitting with the cats had me howling 😂😂
My heart goes out to you, Kendall. As someone who has been through pregnancy loss and infertility, it's a loss that is so hard to put into words. You are so strong and courageous for sharing your story.
After my miscarriage and three years of infertility, I now have a beautiful and healthy five year old son. Don't lose hope!
Thinking of you, mama 💛
I needed this comment. My current journey..
sooo happy you got your rainbow baby. my worst fear is infertility, I can’t imagine how hard it must be. congratulations on your miracle 🎉 i know we’re strangers but i’m genuinely so happy for you
@@loniarrizon-tovar2776 I am sending you all the baby dust! 💖
@@dryskinqueen Awww thank you! I am thankful everyday 💖 I hope infertility is never apart of your journey, but if it is just remember you are never alone!
@@elementsofjaime I'm absorbing all the baby dust!!! Yess. Thank you for your vibes 🙏😚
I love how Jaelle talks Kendall through this, it was very easy to listen to despite the heaviness. And I am overjoyed and proud that you guys are discussing such a hard subject for so many. You covered so much that I think help others. I havent been pregnant but I have medical issues and the past few months I had to come to terms with some things involving my health. Even THAT is really hard! I feel for the women who have went through a pregnancy loss
Holding Sacred space with you Kendall . So sorry for your loss . Sending alot of love ❤
I feel this so much right now. I found out the other day I lost my baby, there was no heartbeat at my last appointment. It's some of the worst pain I've ever experienced, both mental and physical. I'm so glad you have such an awesome support system. ❤️
So happy Holly is here for you. Your dream of both becoming parents has come true. So sorry you went through this, but so happy for your happy ending to your story. Looking forward to your next baby.
I wish they taught us how fucking hard motherhood is in school. It’s so important and is almost always overlooked from an education standpoint. All my health teachers would briefly mention miscarriages being a possibility but never how absolutely gut wrenching and life changing they can be. Lots of love Kendall and Josh, all the best to you guys.
Or the fact of how common they are !
Exactly moms are still disregarded and we have the hardest jobs
This is such a weird coincidence but
4 weeks ago I suffered an ectopic pregnancy and had a near death experience from it so I completely get how you are feeling you are not alone
Thank you so much for this episode and opening up 💕I’m so sorry for your loss I love you Kendall you’re my favorite
i’m so sorry for your loss, i know ectopic pregnancies are so hard & especially the toll they take on a mothers body. wishing you well 💖
Ectopic pregnancies are so scary. Glad you're still here and so sorry for your recent loss. ❤️
Sending love & healing 💕
So sorry for your loss. Best of vibes to you!!
I’m so sorry. I wrote this comment earlier to them, but thought I would share with you since you specifically went through ectopic pregnancy as well. My heart is with you.
I had a feeling this is what it was after watching last weeks video.
I am sorry. Thank you for sharing - I know it can be scary.
I know the pain of loss - I used to make RUclips videos but after having an ectopic pregnancy loss that lead to an emergency surgery from internal bleeding and losing both of my tubes - thus destroying my dreams of conceiving…I had to stop. I couldn’t keep pretending everything was ok.
I would love to do IVF but it’s not something I can afford. I have felt shame that my body couldn’t do what it needs to and only way to make it possible would be financially crippling.
I went through severe depression (to the point of hospitalization) it truly destroyed me and my family - I lost my marriage. Everything.
Pregnancy loss affects so much of our lives.
I am glad that Josh is by your side, no matter what. He will love you no matter what happens.
Thank you for being able to come on and share. It’s definitely a vulnerable and brave thing to do.
The video of my loss is still up if you would like to watch it - not that it fixes anything but maybe it will help to know you are not alone (that goes for anyone reading this)
Praying for peace and healing. ♥️
By the way - I did use your code to get a modern fertility test and did it over the summer just to see where I was at since I am now 37 and my fertile years are slipping away. It was insightful for sure.
While painful - there is no shame in miscarriage. You did nothing wrong. I am glad you have people in your life that support you.
Having spirits or ghosts around is actually very comforting to me. I've had them around me for as long as I can remember. 😊
I am currently 6 months pregnant with my rainbow baby. The way you described Josh is exactly how I can describe my significant other during last time and this time. I am so glad you have him to support you. Mine truly helped carry me through the hard days. But you are not alone. Your doctor is right. There was a reason your body went through this. Listening to you just gave me all the feels because I have been right where you are. But I can now say I am carrying my healthy baby girl. Please continue to hold on to hope!! 💜
My heart dropped when I saw the tittle. I’ve been watching Kendall for years and years since before she was doing true crime and I’ve followed her journey ever since (including the podcasts). I’ve always really related to her as someone with a compromised immune system and chronic illnesses (type 1 diabetes and endometriosis). I can’t even imagine the loss that’s been suffered, sending so so so much love. ❤️
kendall you are so incredibly strong… your baby will come back to you when the time is right. sending BIG hugs ♥️♥️♥️
So very sorry Kendall, and so sorry to hear you say you felt shameful following your loss - you absolutely must not feel any shame whatsoever, it was completely out of your control with nothing you could have done to prevent it. Being a Mummy is very tough, it's wonderful but very challenging - I have a 5 year-old, then had a loss with an ectopic pregnancy and now have a 6 month old and it is really difficult not to feel guilt/shame/unworthiness and so forth over so so many things and it does begin in pregnancy. You are so brave to speak so openly about what you've been through, sending lots of love xxx
Talking about this is truly going to help so many people. My great grandmother had a miscarriage and no one knew until after she died. The destigmatizing of this topic helps so many people.
I know this feeling all too well… 9years into trying and still waiting for that joyful day. Good vibes and prayers your way that your process ends in joy and the way you’ve always imagined!! You guys deserve the best! ❤️
I hope you have luck so soon with a baby!! ❤
Good luck on your journey 💕💕💕
I lost my first and only baby at 12 almost 13 weeks almost two years ago now. I’m so sorry to anyone who has to go through that. It’s something so personal I’d never claim to know how you feel because everyone’s so different. But it’s heartbreaking all the same… sending so much love to anyone who needs it ❤️
Kendall & Josh, you are both a POWER couple. Such strong individuals. Everything you are feeling is valid & I find it EXTREMELY admirable for you to open up about your loss. Regardless of what life throws at you both, you are very loved and have a great support system. Not only from your family and friends, but also your fans. Stay strong, Kendall & Josh.
The whole smoke detector thing makes me feel so much better about my story 😂 I just bought my own house in July and on the second night here my smoke detectors went off 6 times in the middle of the night! I got so scared I called the fire department and they came and they said “ma’am your smoke detectors are from 2008 they need to be replaced.” Glad everyone is safe!
I’m so sorry for your loss Kendall & Josh. You have so much support and love that surrounds you. Love you girl.
I cried for my friend who has had 3 miscarriages and I cry for you. No matter how much you know someone, a miscarriage is so heartbreaking and not easy. You are a strong women and are not broken. You did nothing wrong and this is not your fault.
A year later and we are celebrating the life of Holly💕💕
Kendall we don’t deserve you…You are incredibly courageous for sharing this with you community. Send you and Josh all of the love ❤️
I was so worried that it would be this. I’m so so sorry for your loss, I have yet to watch the video, but just know that no matter what, you will always be a mommy to that baby. You are a mother, regardless of where that little baby is in the universe.
Kendall I'm here sobbing, I've been watching you for years and I think you really are a light in a world of dark.. do not lose your spirit.. you are FOREVER loved
Hi Kendall. I don't comment much but you have been the number one role model in my life since I was 14 years old, and I have now just turned 19. Through all the hard times, I would ALWAYS go straight to your channel or your podcasts to cheer myself up or just to distract myself. I have always admired how hard you work, how respectful you are and how everything you do is done in love and for the better of others, and yet you still make time for your own mental health. Its honestly so amazing and as I grow into adulthood I aspire to be like you. Thank you for always doing your best and keeping up with content despite how hard things must have been for you in your personal life. I wish you all the best in the future. And I know you will be the best mum ever.
I’ve just started listening to your podcast. I work 3rd shift and it makes my nights go by faster listening to y’all. Kendall all I can say is thank you for putting your story out there. I am also 1 in 4 and have suffered pregnancy loss. I now have 2 beautiful little girls who I am thankful for. Thank you again for sharing your story. ❤️
I also went thru this this year- I didn’t even know I was pregnant until it happened. It was also on my birthday so it was really hard to go thru. Thank you for posting this. I definitely was triggered and I may or may not be crying in a coffee bean right now, but I appreciate this video so much. I still feel some type of way talking about it… but it does feel better having someone to talk to about it.
I knew you was pregnant and I'm so sorry for your loss. I've had 3 losses. My first at 16 weeks (a little girl) the other 2 were early on. I'm lucky to have my son who will be 5 in January. Prayers for you and Josh
Both of my mothers have suffered pregnancy loss. It is so common. Much love to all.
Sending you so much love and hugs!!! My third pregnancy ended in a miscarriage.. I remember the hurt, the heartbreak, the hormones and the feelings of being alone although I wasn’t. We had our rainbow baby the following year. You all will be amazing parents one day soon and I can’t wait to share that excitement!!!! 💗💗💗