Fear of the future (something that doesn’t exist , only now and the past exist) is what causes this , ive came to the realization days ago and i come across this video . Life is wierd like that .
something I've realized after 21 years of me dealing with shit mentally and at home and finally moving out, is that the world is what you make of it, all the things you care about and love to do would have no meaning without you. Think about it, if you abandoned your home, your personal possessions, etc it will all stay the same changing as time moves on, but you have memories or personal attachments that give all those things purpose, Your life is something special, something to cherish and while problems may get in the way it's how we respond and react and perceive those problems that can make a world of a difference, I'm not saying it's easy but I kept going through the same loop feeling unhappy with myself my home life, and everything telling myself it doesn't matter. Eventually, to make a change it sometimes takes work and personally getting to know yourself and putting more positive thoughts about yourself and your life first even when it feels like life is crumbling, you gotta stay afloat, always keep goals for yourself and take life slowly enjoy it even the bad moments, YOU do matter and HAVE a meaning. Happiness doesn't come from anywhere but within.
Listening to this music helped me realize that I am the problem. I’m my own worst enemy. Everyone was willing to accept me as their own. It was me that wasn’t willing to be accepted, but that ends today.
Blisfull Ignorance is the key. Because once you realize too much there's no going back. Once you know some things you can only cope your way out of it. I tried to collect my thoughts for the past hour here. It really helped thanks.
I’m past the point of no return, people don’t understand nor do I expect Then to OP. Just coke and try to take care of yourself the best you can. Understand that there ARE psolld out there that see the absurdity of it all, rip the veil off and leave them all in a haze. I understand where you’re coming from as crazy
after reading too much philosophy and questioning free will, radical skepticism, the idea of existing when we have no real idea of what reality is. I Miss just living life and not thinking about these things but at the same time this is apart of the human experience that comes with being in tune in a world focused on nonsense.
I messed up.I shared it with a girl I love, and she's showing a strong front to me but im hoping she can go back and ignore it, and leave me with the guilt of it all
Yeah, that used to be my motto too, until I started wanting 30 bitches in a hot air balloon and my life started to get back on track slowly. Life is a little brighter with goals.
this is so perfect. everyday waking up to not feeling like reality is real... no purpose. alone. broken down to the point of not existing... this is the perfect mix for my daily life thank you. Edit- I just want to say. Thank you for everyone's concern. I just look at it as long as I wake up everyday, it's another opportunity to keep fighting. And I feel like that goes for everyone aswell. Keep your chin up and keep fighting despite what the world gives you. Again. Thanks for the concern everyone and I'm doing much better thank you ❤
Thank you so much for this comment my friend. For as long as you are of living flesh and breathe the same air we all breathe, you are living with purpose. I promise that in this life you will find your true reason for existing because your comment showed me that I found mine :)
@@xtc1993 @emerlands1177 thank you for the responses. I may not have a particular purpose in mind right now. the only thing holding me together is that I'm gods slave. but I'll find another purpose to live for in time! thank you both of you. and I wish you two the best. I'm happy I helped find your purpose :))
i just turned 16 and i think about my future often. I know im young and “ i have time “ but as i look around it seems like nobody has time for anything in this life. it’s to short and people don’t get to appreciate that this could be a ONE TIME THING that we may never get to experience again. Set high goals, have good morals and always love everybody because death is real and it’s really real just remember that.
This is like my go-to happy place. When something bad happens, when something's bothering me, when I feel I'm absolutely fucked... It's fine. Because nothing really matters anyway. I hate that I do this. I think it's weak, and I hate weakness. But it feels so damn good.
How is it week to accept the true nature of things?was the Buddha weak for going under that tree to meditate?You coming back here is just your body and your mind realizing when it needs to go home,because nothingness is home ,the void is where everything comes from ,stay safe
@@gesudinazaret9259 I consider it weak because instead of focusing on fixing my problems, on overcoming the challenges set before me, on defying mere circumstance to shape my own reality, I escape into this nothing means anything anyway mindset because it's so comfortable and convenient. It's a withdraw from facing my problems head-on, from being smart enough to come up with solutions, from having the willpower to try at all. It's just me cowering in nihilism. That said, I agree with you. My soul yearns for absolute zero like nothing else. But there's people I care about still here, and they matter to me, even when nothing matters anyway sometimes. I do appreciate your insight though, thank you.
@@redacted8008By your own logic, those problems you have mean absolutely nothing either. Nothing that exists actually matters at all. People who claim different are living in ignorant bliss.
@@redacted8008 Keep doing what you're doing, and you'll find you can embrace any challenge you want to. You simply don't attach to the outcome good or bad and simply let yourself experience your new perspectives on reality. Trust the process, and your self judgement will also cease. Keep up the good work :).
@@youtube_wisdomclips he makes brainrot content, which youtube absolutely loves. think of it like sssniperwolf- they wont do anything because he brings in the big bucks.
My past mistakes are consuming me, my sense of self worth. Is all just slipping away. I just want it to end, I just want to move forward but I feel like I’ll never win this mental battle. Im so tired.
i am in the army (mandatory), life continues in the outside world and i stay behind, it feels like prison. 197 days to “serve” remain. I hope i can make it
You will make it bro. I know how it feels, I’m a Navy vet got out recently. You got like half a year left, make it the experience you want it to be. Be it chill or be it partying, just try to look at it like you are willing to make the change for it. Like, you are in power.
recently i find myself drifing in these silent hill themed soundscapes. last year i was diagnosed with bpd, and began remenising my past experiences, challenges, connections with family, partners, risks i took. all my mistakes and chances make sense now. my family is all gone, i decided to part with career that i abandoned inside long time ago, and women i adored but refused to let their love engulf me are far away. im 37 and finally free, and i take this moment in life to be at peace, to take a step back and not force things for a while, just loose myself in this place inside my mind, full of silent memories, until im ready to let go and move further with myself.
I can relate so much... also mid thirties, also feeling this desire to escape into silent hill themed soundscapes. It's the only place I can find solace.
I’m starting to lose what I once had as a child, which is happiness; as in genuine happiness you’d feel from each day. The distant feeling of wanting comfort from somebody else rather than yourself is what makes me unhappy. I would love to just, enjoy my own accompany, to love what I am myself, rather than proving to other people what I am, becoming someone different for others pleasures. I’m done with it, yet I never commit to changing, it’s almost like a never ending cycle, one in a billion chance I’ll have to actually changing… But with all of that said, I know deep down in my heart that someday, I will come to terms with myself. I don’t show affection towards people I really love, because I’m afraid of witnessing that childhood happiness, it’s like a 50/50 emotion, I would love to feel that deep love for oneself, but I’m afraid of not changing, not becoming what I’m expecting myself to become, I’m afraid that I’ll grow something entirely different to that of what I expect, which in the end, makes me so conflicted on whether or not I would like to, or need to change. All these pros and cons to acting on them out wager the concept as a whole, because all I see it, is it being a guess, not a choice; it frightens me to see that I’m thinking too much, rather than acting on pursuing what I thinks best, which would just take me back to square one. I’m just, unwell, and I wish I had a proper answer to my question; which in the end, I’ll never get… Hate it, I genuinely hate it, hate hate hate. Ugh, writing all of this without rewriting it is, different. Spending hours and hours writing a whole paragraph, trying to perfect it for someone who genuinely can’t do much but react, is underwhelming, because it’s a complete recycle of the issue I’m addressing. Regardless, writing my struggles freely shows how fluent I can communicate with people, and I guess that’s something I’ve learned today, and I wish this helped someone else! Much love: Ryan
Wow I listened to this so much last year, during a weird time in my life. Rediscovering this while going through another, brings back so many memories.
why cant i facilitate my own happiness ? why am i so sensitive to outside influence ? why do i let the smallest of gestures or the absense of, affect me so ? why do i keep putting myself up on a platter ready for anyone to spit on ready to be played if i know, inside and out, that i will hurt myself in any kind of pursuit and have done so, and not only a handful of times then why does my heart never listen ? why am i like this
Not sure if you’ll see this message, but just wanted to say thank you for the video; the sound and visuals are honestly so immersive and the quote in the description is so thought-provoking. I shared this with my friend and we both enjoyed it. Thanks again, wishing you well.
today, I went thru my usual irritation and anxiety over the same things. because of this, everyday feels the same. but right now, i feel suddenly easy. maybe it's just this comforting hoodie i'm wearing. maybe its just the water i drank earlier or maybe because i got into something interesting since months. it's been a while since i've felt calm for such an extended period and I'm grateful for this video.
I wanna sit somewhere That is far away from fair Because the lights there flicker The birds there weep The sun there never shines The clouds there, are free The land makes all horrors arise The wind brings an uneasy chill up the spine I wanna sit there Somewhere that is far away from fair Maybe i stop crying there And not brace myself to look okay
worst bars ive ever read, shit dosent even rhyme or have structure or logic beind it. bro just threw random sentences together @ImJugg you must be dyslexic
There are a number of things I've learned in the past two months of my life, as anxiety latched onto my brain and thoughts, dragging me into a downward spiral of hopelessness, despair and arguably mild state of depression. My way of fighting back is through logical (and philosophical) thinking, observing things from a distance, in order to distance myself from things I don't actually want. - Firstly, whatever you fear the most, the more you think about it, the more the grip tightens, and the more the fear itself grows. If you're plagued by intrusive, ego-dystonic thoughts, it's because you give these thoughts power and value. They are things you don't want to think about, but you still do, and for what reason? - Secondly, the mind and your heart (or soul) are two separate entities within your fleshy human shell. Your thoughts that appear in your mind do not define who you are. There's no such things as good thoughts or bad thoughts, because thoughts are just thoughts. What matters are your morals and values. Whenever you think of something that you know is bad for you, ask yourself, "Is this important for me to think about right now?" - Thirdly, and finally, the title speaks the truth. It's a matter of perspective. Optimistic nihilism is something I've dabbled into. Nothing really matters, but we still live through life anyway. Because, no matter what we're going through, there still is something that we care about. Whether it's the roof above our heads, our family, our pets, if we have any, our household appliances, our computers and phones, that we use daily, our friends, be it real or online. Even when life doesn't matter, there are things we still value and care about. In my opinion, these things are the small rays of hope that make us go forward. Whatever it is that you're going through, only you can make the decision to give yourself hope about something. Only you can loosen the grip of anxiety, doubt, guilt, or whatever it may be that is keeping you stuck in a cycle of rumination. You have more control over your mind than you realize. When you master your mind, you'll realize that you matter. "If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present." - Lao Tzu
Really beautiful words. Honestly, you just got me out of a cycle of trying to beat a level in a game over and over without any results. I'm very thankful ❤
If nothing matters than everything does, how remarkable that in a world of pure coincidence such amazingly beautiful and terrible things happen to us all
this song is LITERALLY ME LMAO. I feel so lost nowadays man, I have no real sense of direction. But while I work through the muck I take pride in knowing that I am doing it alone and for myself
Damn these playlist titles hit you very hard and make you stop to think for a moment this is very haunting in my mind for some reason yes I do agree nothing really does matter we just try to make it matter we technically don't have to go to work tomorrow but we do. I see reality just the same as a Lucid dream it's nothing more than a mental image reflected in your head.
Losing that 1 special person in you're life will change you forever. Losing the 3 most prescious people of both of your lifes will ruin you. I dont even know who i am anymore. Life can be so brutal, people can be so cruel. I just we had a time machine
When it's 4 am , video editing feels like a complete different thing to do... tbh everything feels different at that time listening to this, it's like taking a break from the world to rly think about what else exists that you might not know off, like travelling through an empty space while being able to visualize or see different universes, or even feeling lost in the universes, in time and space, it's one of those feelings that peaks your interests, can't explain it exactly. Nothing really matters, enjoy life, keep going, you are temporary here. At least try to have as much fun as possible. Thank you for uploading this !
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When you have autistic spectrum disorder life is completely different in struggles than everyone you know. Continual job loss and ostracism from people. Masking last last for so long especially as a man. It’s harder and harder to mask the older you get. I have major hopes and dreams but can’t keep my finances up. So I’m hear just listening wishing I could find a good steady job and not disappoint the people in my life more than I do. I can say I’ll find steady work but actions speak louder than words. I’ll probably not be a “good fit” for my next job either
Me too, funnily enough I still haven’t played any of the Silent Hill games, but I will eventually. I’ve been listening to the ambient music from them for years now, it puts my mind at ease in a way few other things can.
You will love it, bro. I recommend playing through it with no help, no spoilers, no online anything, with the lights off while you're home alone. I played thru the series a few years back like that and I've got to say it's one of the most terrifying and surreal games I've played, but not just because of the monsters, because of the storyline themselves. Sh2 is easily my favorite but all sh1-4 are amazing. The games felt so familiar, and deeply comforting, mainly because if you ever had some sort of depression or episode, the games translate that beautifully. They really nailed the physiological deterioration that one feels when there is no hope left, that feeling of living a life that feels clouded, messy, and dark. Ironically silent hill (especially 2) gave me comfort during those dark times. And sh2 ending, man I can't get through the ending without becoming a hysterical mess even to this day. It's so beautifully tragic, but the themes of the game motivate you to stop running from the traumatic events that have happened in your past, to face them and accept what happened; to learn from what you can and to realize that you CAN move on, and you deserve to move on. To live for a better tomorrow, and live to be a better person.
@@xAustishx oh ive had those believe it or not, I was bullied in hi school and it culminated in them partially urinating in a beer bottle and me drinking it (the whole class was in on it). Funnily enough the main guy feels so bad about it now he wants to be friends and buy me a drink afer all these years. But f that, I dont know what ill do once I see him.
I'm not military military, but I'm in Air Force Auxiliary. First 10 min of this list feels like looking at the tan tents at sunset while everyone wrapping up and getting ready to sleep. A perfect sunset with a slight breeze. (The temper desert tents the military uses for rest/storage.)
I cannot justify why i should become a better person for myself. Who i am now, what i say, how i act, what beliefs i am allowed to share is based only on being better for others. If i fail to find someone in the future, someone who will give me the courage i need to be better and i find myself alone, then there is no reason to keep the filter, the one that hides my spite and rage and hatred, and let it out, without concern to whom i may hurt in the process.
I have been trying to find something clever to say here but my words are escaping me. I guess what I had in mind, was to say thank you for making this. It helped me realize something I've been lacking for a while, and that's direction. After I was forced out of my home a couple months ago, I have been living in the middle of nowhere, working a nothing job, trying to piece together what I have left of my psyche, my will to keep going. And I suppose at one point the only thing keeping me here was my inability to commit to the act. There was one other reason that I felt had left me behind, but my long distance boyfriend. Every day he would say good morning, and as pointless as that may seem it helped me immensely. I live alone now, and the only people I have to talk to are my coworkers. Unfortunately I am an introvert and with some of my trauma I've experienced I often don't trust people anyway. I suppose I'm a cynic in that way or whatever you want to call me. My point was, just him saying good morning relieved a mounting tension in my mind, the fact someone wanted to speak to me touched me in a way that not many things will do. When I was forced from my home I never had the chance to say goodbye, or even explain what was happening before it happened, and I thought for a long time he'd just forget me, pass me up for someone else because... well, I can't name a good reason why you'd try dating someone two thousand miles away with no hope of ever seeing each other again... But he hoped. He held out for me when nobody else would. It gave me hope. Something in short supply for me as of late. It made me realize some things do matter. I matter. A lot more than I let myself believe. But I had no direction to take this hope, something to put it towards. The world is a bleak place, but listening to this while I put my thoughts together made me feel as if I could maybe make something of my life now. A direction to start walking in, if you will. I'll chose to keep waking up each morning, and pressing on because maybe with time, I'll be back on a path I was meant to be on. TL:DR - Thanks.
The shared collective unconscious of man truly is captivating yet horrifying at the same time. Maybe we really all are James' running through an ominous fog, chasing an entity that can very well spell our demise should we dare to unearth it. Regardless, we all out here running together, so chin up fam🖤
This state cannot be described in words. Each of us experiences many such "states", but this is the most indescribable. Just disappear completely, after all nothing really matters anyways...
I wish I could just have my mental health back, I don’t care about money, nice things, dating, I just want some peace of mind that I have been searching for for the last 8 years. I feel like I’m trapped in my mind and I don’t know if I can keep on living an entire lifetime like this
Life has been a little rough lately, there are moments of pure joy but then things come crashing back down around me again. But the title of this is almost optimistic, because the bad things do not matter as much as the good. Whats the difference either way? Almost a relief really. Im here so I may as well make the most of it.
The thumbnail reminds me of the sketch I made to get that feeling of being alone and watched, while also being in a world where whenever you're depressed, you could actually find some clues from the world to find that answer.
I dont know how to express it... I tried to use that way of thinking, i tried to not care about anything anymore, but things just keep crumbling down... Everything just gets gradually worse and worse and there's nothing I can do about it... It's so frustrating. My life is slipping through my fingers and I'm completely powerless... I'm so tired... I just want to give up, i can't handle this any longer, i feel like shit and nothing is ever going to get better... Thanks for the song though man
listened to this while reading at lunch today at high school. the funny thing is that my friends came up to me and asked if I was ok. when I said I was just to focused on my book to talk one of them said I looked dead and completely unaware of my surroundings and then just laughed turning and walking away. it was weird because I was aware of what was going on around me but I didn't really hear anything, nor was I really focusing on the words in my book. my mind was completely else where, somewhere I don't even now.
we fight all our lives for money and success just to keep fighting for money and success. so we can raise our kids to fight for money and success so they can raise their kids to-.… for what? to go to darkness in the end? and not take any of it with you? not my family. my friends. my money. my memories. my thoughts. the pain is for nothing.
Sometimes I feel trapped. It's like my soul would be way bigger and now it's cramped down into the confined space of my body. All these things on earth...the whole society and my whole life seems meaningless and pointless if i look at the bigger picture and the cosmos. I would be fine with just existing in nothingness.
In this point of my life where I've felt the most lost and lonely, I think this video really speaks to me in a lot of ways I don't really understand. It's oddly comforting to read this comment section and feel a little bit at home with everyone sharing thoughts and feelings that I'm currently having, if that makes any sense.
This sound, I never seen Silent Hills Games but the ambient tracks put me to sleep. I can't explain it but it gives me a haunting image of my memories again it's very haunting. I can see I'm addicted to nostalgia to the point where I get disturbed and fall asleep at night.
Walking through an old neighborhood that I used to walk with my childhood friends. Our subdivisions are nearly touching we would make our way through another to get into town. Splitting between town and the subdivisions is a river with train track along and across it. The tracks where fenced in. We would walk down miles and miles using it like a shortcut. I went out there alone the other day. All my friends moved away gone out of state. No longer talk to them. I sat by the river and listened to the current softy drift by at a constant speed. The sun begin to descend again. Alone I reach the end of the road that turns to gravel before the train tracks. I lay across the tracks horizontally. Time goes by. Faintly I hear the horn blowing. I see it’s guiding like bend around the tree line before it faces me. I close my eyes. Right before I am met, I open my eyes in my bed.
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That feeling like life has slipped through your fingers. Like the future is behind you. Like it's always been behind you
woah what the hell. this is a sign.
S1 true detective is so good
Wow........
Fear of the future (something that doesn’t exist , only now and the past exist) is what causes this , ive came to the realization days ago and i come across this video . Life is wierd like that .
this goes hard
Damn, can someone open the gate for that man already
does it really matter?
@@lasersummit7895 How did you find offensive in a joke…
Loser.
@the.seagull.35 I rlly needed scripture rn thanks for reminding me ❤️🩹
Let me in, let me in!
Open the noor
something I've realized after 21 years of me dealing with shit mentally and at home and finally moving out, is that the world is what you make of it, all the things you care about and love to do would have no meaning without you. Think about it, if you abandoned your home, your personal possessions, etc it will all stay the same changing as time moves on, but you have memories or personal attachments that give all those things purpose, Your life is something special, something to cherish and while problems may get in the way it's how we respond and react and perceive those problems that can make a world of a difference, I'm not saying it's easy but I kept going through the same loop feeling unhappy with myself my home life, and everything telling myself it doesn't matter. Eventually, to make a change it sometimes takes work and personally getting to know yourself and putting more positive thoughts about yourself and your life first even when it feels like life is crumbling, you gotta stay afloat, always keep goals for yourself and take life slowly enjoy it even the bad moments, YOU do matter and HAVE a meaning. Happiness doesn't come from anywhere but within.
Beautiful
Yeah, sadly i had the same insight, but after destroying my life. Gg
Beautiful message! It's very satisfying to see that I have much more worth that I give myself credit for!
@@marsship921 You can always rebuild! Never give up!
@@marsship921what have you done? Probably you can still change a lot of stuff
Get in the Silent Hill, James.
Could mary really be in this town?
Put on the pyramid helmet, James.
Me when the hill is silent
Why James?
Where is James?
Who is James?
"Mary? I thought you were Maria.."
People who enjoy ambient and atmospheric music go into the very interesting personality category
I thought the same, I think we all can agree that it gives us this comforting nostalgic feeling
I think for a lot of people, this kind of sound blocks out problems that are going on in their world. Mine included.
-_-
Try out the silent Hill ambiance category, it hits
@@thejuceisloose I really enjoy the forest ost from Silent hill. Cry of fear soundtrack is also one of my favourites ever
Staring too long into the abyss.
Getting lost in it
The obese stares back at you
@@margoth5101 spoken like a big mac
@@margoth5101Will you blink?
This is like purgatory. All the lost souls in the comments, screaming in silence. We are here. We shall all fade, just as our qualms.
Beautifully accurate
The Abyss was staring at me first
Listening to this music helped me realize that I am the problem. I’m my own worst enemy. Everyone was willing to accept me as their own. It was me that wasn’t willing to be accepted, but that ends today.
Blisfull Ignorance is the key. Because once you realize too much there's no going back. Once you know some things you can only cope your way out of it.
I tried to collect my thoughts for the past hour here. It really helped thanks.
you dont know what kind of language are you speaking. are you?
I’m past the point of no return, people don’t understand nor do I expect
Then to OP. Just coke and try to take care of yourself the best you can. Understand that there ARE psolld out there that see the absurdity of it all, rip the veil off and leave them all in a haze. I understand where you’re coming from as crazy
@@xycrophreneI don’t expect you to understand. You are not capable of it.
after reading too much philosophy and questioning free will, radical skepticism, the idea of existing when we have no real idea of what reality is. I Miss just living life and not thinking about these things but at the same time this is apart of the human experience that comes with being in tune in a world focused on nonsense.
I messed up.I shared it with a girl I love, and she's showing a strong front to me but im hoping she can go back and ignore it, and leave me with the guilt of it all
I stumbled across this video and it gave me the strangest feeling of peace.
Bro no way, Le Castle Vania commented on a Silent Hill 2 video?
when i realized that this world was nothing but an illusion, i couldn't understand what other humans were experiencing
Ohhh, so true. Never realized it until you pointed it out like this. 😔
I wish I never knew it was fun at first..
Its like why know soo much when you can't even get use out of it
@@TakedaUchujinTrue. Sad existence.
This song is basically the theme of the current state of my life. Thank you for this
are you ok?
@@eva-ov8sp No, but thanks for asking.
@@odysseus4244 same
real.
same
"Nothing really matters anyway "... my everyday's line , what a luck..
Yeah, that used to be my motto too, until I started wanting 30 bitches in a hot air balloon and my life started to get back on track slowly. Life is a little brighter with goals.
Everyone trying to leave silent hill, and then there is all of u, comong back to hear it
Interesting choice with the bird calls, making the 'nothing mattters' have a subtly cheerful, natural aspect to it as well
Wow es cierto. No me había dado cuenta. ❤
this is so perfect. everyday waking up to not feeling like reality is real... no purpose. alone. broken down to the point of not existing... this is the perfect mix for my daily life thank you.
Edit- I just want to say. Thank you for everyone's concern. I just look at it as long as I wake up everyday, it's another opportunity to keep fighting. And I feel like that goes for everyone aswell. Keep your chin up and keep fighting despite what the world gives you. Again. Thanks for the concern everyone and I'm doing much better thank you ❤
I really feel like you lately, sometimes it's hard to get the good side out of our daily routine. Anyway, I hope you're doing well :)
Thank you so much for this comment my friend. For as long as you are of living flesh and breathe the same air we all breathe, you are living with purpose. I promise that in this life you will find your true reason for existing because your comment showed me that I found mine :)
@@xtc1993
@emerlands1177
thank you for the responses. I may not have a particular purpose in mind right now. the only thing holding me together is that I'm gods slave. but I'll find another purpose to live for in time! thank you both of you. and I wish you two the best. I'm happy I helped find your purpose :))
stop watching porn and doing the things accompanied by it it helps to make you feel better in your skin, you ll be able to take it from there.
IKR. hang in there bud.
i just turned 16 and i think about my future often. I know im young and “ i have time “ but as i look around it seems like nobody has time for anything in this life. it’s to short and people don’t get to appreciate that this could be a ONE TIME THING that we may never get to experience again. Set high goals, have good morals and always love everybody because death is real and it’s really real just remember that.
My fav part is when Leon Kennedy said “it’s silent hill time” and made all the Hills silent
truly one of the moments of all time 💀
@@iplaydoom_computergoboom clown
"wheres everyone going? bowling?"
Uhhhhh ackshually Leon's from the Super Mario franchise
he silented all over those hills huh
This is like my go-to happy place.
When something bad happens, when something's bothering me, when I feel I'm absolutely fucked...
It's fine. Because nothing really matters anyway.
I hate that I do this. I think it's weak, and I hate weakness. But it feels so damn good.
How is it week to accept the true nature of things?was the Buddha weak for going under that tree to meditate?You coming back here is just your body and your mind realizing when it needs to go home,because nothingness is home ,the void is where everything comes from ,stay safe
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I consider it weak because instead of focusing on fixing my problems, on overcoming the challenges set before me, on defying mere circumstance to shape my own reality, I escape into this nothing means anything anyway mindset because it's so comfortable and convenient. It's a withdraw from facing my problems head-on, from being smart enough to come up with solutions, from having the willpower to try at all. It's just me cowering in nihilism.
That said, I agree with you. My soul yearns for absolute zero like nothing else. But there's people I care about still here, and they matter to me, even when nothing matters anyway sometimes. I do appreciate your insight though, thank you.
@@redacted8008By your own logic, those problems you have mean absolutely nothing either. Nothing that exists actually matters at all. People who claim different are living in ignorant bliss.
@@Alone.-gf7zv Yes, that was my point. And yes, I still think it's a weak take.
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Keep doing what you're doing, and you'll find you can embrace any challenge you want to. You simply don't attach to the outcome good or bad and simply let yourself experience your new perspectives on reality. Trust the process, and your self judgement will also cease. Keep up the good work :).
I need more playlists like these in my life
how r u not terminated yet
@@youtube_wisdomclips he makes brainrot content, which youtube absolutely loves. think of it like sssniperwolf- they wont do anything because he brings in the big bucks.
bro how r u here
its literally one song stretched out to an hour
@@Ben_19M its a bot bruh
I feel comfortable here
My past mistakes are consuming me, my sense of self worth. Is all just slipping away. I just want it to end, I just want to move forward but I feel like I’ll never win this mental battle. Im so tired.
i am in the army (mandatory), life continues in the outside world and i stay behind, it feels like prison. 197 days to “serve” remain. I hope i can make it
You will make it bro. I know how it feels, I’m a Navy vet got out recently. You got like half a year left, make it the experience you want it to be. Be it chill or be it partying, just try to look at it like you are willing to make the change for it. Like, you are in power.
I pray for your safe return.
1 month less bro, you can do it
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Hate to tell you bud but it doesn’t get any better in civilian life. Same old shit all the way till the end. Make the most of your time in the army.
nothing really matters anyways so nothing should stop him from climbing over that gate
Always glad to see other people share your same lonely-feeling thoughts.
there is some kind of peace to be find in Surrendering to the nihilistic chaos of life...
Ambient music truly taps into something fundamental in us, it takes that one second to stop and listen and a whole world opens up.
True ❤
recently i find myself drifing in these silent hill themed soundscapes. last year i was diagnosed with bpd, and began remenising my past experiences, challenges, connections with family, partners, risks i took. all my mistakes and chances make sense now. my family is all gone, i decided to part with career that i abandoned inside long time ago, and women i adored but refused to let their love engulf me are far away. im 37 and finally free, and i take this moment in life to be at peace, to take a step back and not force things for a while, just loose myself in this place inside my mind, full of silent memories, until im ready to let go and move further with myself.
I can relate so much... also mid thirties, also feeling this desire to escape into silent hill themed soundscapes. It's the only place I can find solace.
I’m starting to lose what I once had as a child, which is happiness; as in genuine happiness you’d feel from each day. The distant feeling of wanting comfort from somebody else rather than yourself is what makes me unhappy. I would love to just, enjoy my own accompany, to love what I am myself, rather than proving to other people what I am, becoming someone different for others pleasures. I’m done with it, yet I never commit to changing, it’s almost like a never ending cycle, one in a billion chance I’ll have to actually changing… But with all of that said, I know deep down in my heart that someday, I will come to terms with myself.
I don’t show affection towards people I really love, because I’m afraid of witnessing that childhood happiness, it’s like a 50/50 emotion, I would love to feel that deep love for oneself, but I’m afraid of not changing, not becoming what I’m expecting myself to become, I’m afraid that I’ll grow something entirely different to that of what I expect, which in the end, makes me so conflicted on whether or not I would like to, or need to change. All these pros and cons to acting on them out wager the concept as a whole, because all I see it, is it being a guess, not a choice; it frightens me to see that I’m thinking too much, rather than acting on pursuing what I thinks best, which would just take me back to square one.
I’m just, unwell, and I wish I had a proper answer to my question; which in the end, I’ll never get… Hate it, I genuinely hate it, hate hate hate. Ugh, writing all of this without rewriting it is, different. Spending hours and hours writing a whole paragraph, trying to perfect it for someone who genuinely can’t do much but react, is underwhelming, because it’s a complete recycle of the issue I’m addressing.
Regardless, writing my struggles freely shows how fluent I can communicate with people, and I guess that’s something I’ve learned today, and I wish this helped someone else! Much love: Ryan
Glad you could share this, being able to write what's on your mind is important I think, even if you don't get an answer.
Wow I listened to this so much last year, during a weird time in my life. Rediscovering this while going through another, brings back so many memories.
why cant i facilitate my own happiness ? why am i so sensitive to outside influence ? why do i let the smallest of gestures or the absense of, affect me so ?
why do i keep putting myself up on a platter
ready for anyone to spit on
ready to be played
if i know, inside and out, that i will hurt myself in any kind of pursuit
and have done so, and not only a handful of times
then why does my heart never listen ?
why am i like this
Not sure if you’ll see this message, but just wanted to say thank you for the video; the sound and visuals are honestly so immersive and the quote in the description is so thought-provoking. I shared this with my friend and we both enjoyed it. Thanks again, wishing you well.
today, I went thru my usual irritation and anxiety over the same things. because of this, everyday feels the same. but right now, i feel suddenly easy. maybe it's just this comforting hoodie i'm wearing. maybe its just the water i drank earlier or maybe because i got into something interesting since months.
it's been a while since i've felt calm for such an extended period and I'm grateful for this video.
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Wut is da hoodie limited edition Dior X Nike or wut?
I feel like this video everyday without really noticing
My life is like silent hill empty, vague and full of traumas and nightmares.
Yes
I wanna sit somewhere
That is far away from fair
Because the lights there flicker
The birds there weep
The sun there never shines
The clouds there, are free
The land makes all horrors arise
The wind brings an uneasy chill up the spine
I wanna sit there
Somewhere that is far away from fair
Maybe i stop crying there
And not brace myself to look okay
yooo, thats mothafuckin bars!! you need to hit the studio bro!
worst bars ive ever read, shit dosent even rhyme or have structure or logic beind it. bro just threw random sentences together @ImJugg you must be dyslexic
rest easy, brother
yeah
There are a number of things I've learned in the past two months of my life, as anxiety latched onto my brain and thoughts, dragging me into a downward spiral of hopelessness, despair and arguably mild state of depression. My way of fighting back is through logical (and philosophical) thinking, observing things from a distance, in order to distance myself from things I don't actually want.
- Firstly, whatever you fear the most, the more you think about it, the more the grip tightens, and the more the fear itself grows. If you're plagued by intrusive, ego-dystonic thoughts, it's because you give these thoughts power and value. They are things you don't want to think about, but you still do, and for what reason?
- Secondly, the mind and your heart (or soul) are two separate entities within your fleshy human shell. Your thoughts that appear in your mind do not define who you are. There's no such things as good thoughts or bad thoughts, because thoughts are just thoughts. What matters are your morals and values. Whenever you think of something that you know is bad for you, ask yourself, "Is this important for me to think about right now?"
- Thirdly, and finally, the title speaks the truth. It's a matter of perspective. Optimistic nihilism is something I've dabbled into. Nothing really matters, but we still live through life anyway. Because, no matter what we're going through, there still is something that we care about. Whether it's the roof above our heads, our family, our pets, if we have any, our household appliances, our computers and phones, that we use daily, our friends, be it real or online. Even when life doesn't matter, there are things we still value and care about. In my opinion, these things are the small rays of hope that make us go forward.
Whatever it is that you're going through, only you can make the decision to give yourself hope about something. Only you can loosen the grip of anxiety, doubt, guilt, or whatever it may be that is keeping you stuck in a cycle of rumination. You have more control over your mind than you realize. When you master your mind, you'll realize that you matter.
"If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present." - Lao Tzu
Really beautiful words. Honestly, you just got me out of a cycle of trying to beat a level in a game over and over without any results. I'm very thankful ❤
Have you tried forgiving your mother?
damn
Perfectly said, I agree with everything you commented.
Beautiful ❤
It’s a gift to be able to share it in such a way. Thank you
"Nothing is real everything is an illusion" I believe we are here for human experience that's it...
If nothing matters than everything does, how remarkable that in a world of pure coincidence such amazingly beautiful and terrible things happen to us all
change is on the other side of fear
I need more playlists like these in my life
be prepared for a good wait. few playlists are this good
@@TheTruthAboutSolipsism usually playlists have more than one track
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look at @nobodyplaylists. you can find it here.
@@BellaGothIsDead I love their playlists but they don't give off the same vibe this one does.
this song is LITERALLY ME LMAO. I feel so lost nowadays man, I have no real sense of direction. But while I work through the muck I take pride in knowing that I am doing it alone and for myself
what do you do for work
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most of us are lost. Humans hate change, but sometimes it can be refreshing once you get past the hurdles that inhibit it.
we'll be alright
Damn these playlist titles hit you very hard and make you stop to think for a moment this is very haunting in my mind for some reason yes I do agree nothing really does matter we just try to make it matter we technically don't have to go to work tomorrow but we do. I see reality just the same as a Lucid dream it's nothing more than a mental image reflected in your head.
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Losing that 1 special person in you're life will change you forever. Losing the 3 most prescious people of both of your lifes will ruin you. I dont even know who i am anymore. Life can be so brutal, people can be so cruel. I just we had a time machine
When it's 4 am , video editing feels like a complete different thing to do... tbh everything feels different at that time listening to this, it's like taking a break from the world to rly think about what else exists that you might not know off, like travelling through an empty space while being able to visualize or see different universes, or even feeling lost in the universes, in time and space, it's one of those feelings that peaks your interests, can't explain it exactly. Nothing really matters, enjoy life, keep going, you are temporary here. At least try to have as much fun as possible. Thank you for uploading this !
this is so nice.. I want to cry
“Remember this, when a person tries to force themselves to quit doing something, they literally create a battle within their own mind. This battle strips their soul of energy and future progress. If you’re trying to quit nicotine, I can show you how to free yourself. No one quits because they ‘Want’ to quit. People only quit because their Mind is Ready.”
This is powerful💥
how do you make your mind get ready then, is it only a matter of time?
@@emanuelfmds7992 I teach a method that accelerates the quitting process by an unbelievable magnitude. I wish you very well my friend and I'll be here if you need anything. ruclips.net/video/qkaAP9rSAuI/видео.html
@@emanuelfmds7992 just make ur mind ready duh
When you have autistic spectrum disorder life is completely different in struggles than everyone you know. Continual job loss and ostracism from people. Masking last last for so long especially as a man. It’s harder and harder to mask the older you get. I have major hopes and dreams but can’t keep my finances up. So I’m hear just listening wishing I could find a good steady job and not disappoint the people in my life more than I do. I can say I’ll find steady work but actions speak louder than words. I’ll probably not be a “good fit” for my next job either
i love it when games feel philosophical.
im still waiting to lay SH2 but i feel that ill really like it.
Me too, funnily enough I still haven’t played any of the Silent Hill games, but I will eventually.
I’ve been listening to the ambient music from them for years now, it puts my mind at ease in a way few other things can.
You will love it, bro. I recommend playing through it with no help, no spoilers, no online anything, with the lights off while you're home alone. I played thru the series a few years back like that and I've got to say it's one of the most terrifying and surreal games I've played, but not just because of the monsters, because of the storyline themselves. Sh2 is easily my favorite but all sh1-4 are amazing. The games felt so familiar, and deeply comforting, mainly because if you ever had some sort of depression or episode, the games translate that beautifully. They really nailed the physiological deterioration that one feels when there is no hope left, that feeling of living a life that feels clouded, messy, and dark.
Ironically silent hill (especially 2) gave me comfort during those dark times. And sh2 ending, man I can't get through the ending without becoming a hysterical mess even to this day. It's so beautifully tragic, but the themes of the game motivate you to stop running from the traumatic events that have happened in your past, to face them and accept what happened; to learn from what you can and to realize that you CAN move on, and you deserve to move on. To live for a better tomorrow, and live to be a better person.
beautifully said my friend
@@xAustishx oh ive had those believe it or not, I was bullied in hi school and it culminated in them partially urinating in a beer bottle and me drinking it (the whole class was in on it). Funnily enough the main guy feels so bad about it now he wants to be friends and buy me a drink afer all these years. But f that, I dont know what ill do once I see him.
im actually checking the internet for a ps2 again because the ps4 version has weird screen issues @@xAustishx
love the thumbnail on this video
this is hauntingly beautiful keep it up
well said.
I'm not military military, but I'm in Air Force Auxiliary. First 10 min of this list feels like looking at the tan tents at sunset while everyone wrapping up and getting ready to sleep. A perfect sunset with a slight breeze. (The temper desert tents the military uses for rest/storage.)
I want to cry
The title along with the description and the soundtrack came recommended at the perfect moment.
I cannot justify why i should become a better person for myself. Who i am now, what i say, how i act, what beliefs i am allowed to share is based only on being better for others. If i fail to find someone in the future, someone who will give me the courage i need to be better and i find myself alone, then there is no reason to keep the filter, the one that hides my spite and rage and hatred, and let it out, without concern to whom i may hurt in the process.
Hate that I have to reset my psyche with stuff like this before I truly get batshit insane.
Not until you're dead it doesn't. And even then you'll be another memory on the wall
I have been trying to find something clever to say here but my words are escaping me. I guess what I had in mind, was to say thank you for making this. It helped me realize something I've been lacking for a while, and that's direction. After I was forced out of my home a couple months ago, I have been living in the middle of nowhere, working a nothing job, trying to piece together what I have left of my psyche, my will to keep going. And I suppose at one point the only thing keeping me here was my inability to commit to the act. There was one other reason that I felt had left me behind, but my long distance boyfriend. Every day he would say good morning, and as pointless as that may seem it helped me immensely. I live alone now, and the only people I have to talk to are my coworkers. Unfortunately I am an introvert and with some of my trauma I've experienced I often don't trust people anyway. I suppose I'm a cynic in that way or whatever you want to call me. My point was, just him saying good morning relieved a mounting tension in my mind, the fact someone wanted to speak to me touched me in a way that not many things will do. When I was forced from my home I never had the chance to say goodbye, or even explain what was happening before it happened, and I thought for a long time he'd just forget me, pass me up for someone else because... well, I can't name a good reason why you'd try dating someone two thousand miles away with no hope of ever seeing each other again... But he hoped. He held out for me when nobody else would. It gave me hope. Something in short supply for me as of late. It made me realize some things do matter. I matter. A lot more than I let myself believe. But I had no direction to take this hope, something to put it towards. The world is a bleak place, but listening to this while I put my thoughts together made me feel as if I could maybe make something of my life now. A direction to start walking in, if you will. I'll chose to keep waking up each morning, and pressing on because maybe with time, I'll be back on a path I was meant to be on.
TL:DR - Thanks.
today was rough... but that's ok because in the end "nothing really matters anyways"
The shared collective unconscious of man truly is captivating yet horrifying at the same time. Maybe we really all are James' running through an ominous fog, chasing an entity that can very well spell our demise should we dare to unearth it.
Regardless, we all out here running together, so chin up fam🖤
This state cannot be described in words. Each of us experiences many such "states", but this is the most indescribable. Just disappear completely, after all nothing really matters anyways...
you did it again !! (making insanely amazing pieces of art)
It is really still working . Thank you so much.
all that matters are emotions, it's all we are. So feel as much as possible, be kind and make the best if it while you still can
I wish I could just have my mental health back, I don’t care about money, nice things, dating, I just want some peace of mind that I have been searching for for the last 8 years. I feel like I’m trapped in my mind and I don’t know if I can keep on living an entire lifetime like this
...And it is you who lives it; living has meaning only if you mean to live.
Ive felt like this for this whole life.
Life has been a little rough lately, there are moments of pure joy but then things come crashing back down around me again. But the title of this is almost optimistic, because the bad things do not matter as much as the good. Whats the difference either way? Almost a relief really. Im here so I may as well make the most of it.
I feel like we're all in this place. I pray things get better
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The thumbnail reminds me of the sketch I made to get that feeling of being alone and watched, while also being in a world where whenever you're depressed, you could actually find some clues from the world to find that answer.
Not only feeling but also the middle of every wave, sin, cos, music, 369 is nothing.. it can and any become anything
I wish you all the best, there’s so much great stuff out there! You will all be happy, if you aren’t now!
when will i ever be happy
I love Nature
are you from poland beka?
feel this
I dont know why but this song is just... I don't even know how to explain is just Perfect of definition Nostalgia or lost
This counters my tinnitus quite well. Thank you ❤
I dont know how to express it... I tried to use that way of thinking, i tried to not care about anything anymore, but things just keep crumbling down... Everything just gets gradually worse and worse and there's nothing I can do about it... It's so frustrating. My life is slipping through my fingers and I'm completely powerless...
I'm so tired... I just want to give up, i can't handle this any longer, i feel like shit and nothing is ever going to get better...
Thanks for the song though man
Bro do you wanna talk ?
I can identify with everything you said. We have to tie a knot and hold on.. And
even that is hard..
Will you open the gate...or will you gaze....and if so for how long will you gaze upon eternity.
I love it when you smile
absolutely beautiful
imagine dying peacfully to this kind of music
listened to this while reading at lunch today at high school. the funny thing is that my friends came up to me and asked if I was ok. when I said I was just to focused on my book to talk one of them said I looked dead and completely unaware of my surroundings and then just laughed turning and walking away. it was weird because I was aware of what was going on around me but I didn't really hear anything, nor was I really focusing on the words in my book. my mind was completely else where, somewhere I don't even now.
we fight all our lives for money and success just to keep fighting for money and success. so we can raise our kids to fight for money and success so they can raise their kids to-.… for what? to go to darkness in the end? and not take any of it with you?
not my family. my friends. my money. my memories. my thoughts.
the pain is for nothing.
I'm sleeping to it. Thanks dude, love this
Dont give up, keep going, thats not all you have, keep pushing
That felt good i needed it, and I coincided this video at the right time. I will heal
Life was slowly falling apart before she came into my life.
nothing matters, but everything matters
or some paradoxical bs idk. good luck, try and have fun, find someone to love.
Sometimes I feel trapped. It's like my soul would be way bigger and now it's cramped down into the confined space of my body. All these things on earth...the whole society and my whole life seems meaningless and pointless if i look at the bigger picture and the cosmos. I would be fine with just existing in nothingness.
In this point of my life where I've felt the most lost and lonely, I think this video really speaks to me in a lot of ways I don't really understand. It's oddly comforting to read this comment section and feel a little bit at home with everyone sharing thoughts and feelings that I'm currently having, if that makes any sense.
I've listened to this already 4 times, surreal experience, one of my favorite ambients of all time probably.
i'm again here
And again.
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Again.
why so beautiful?
am I the abyss? or did I gaze into it?
Surf the Kali Yuga
Yes?Maybe?I don’t know?Can you repeat the question?
This sound, I never seen Silent Hills Games but the ambient tracks put me to sleep. I can't explain it but it gives me a haunting image of my memories again it's very haunting. I can see I'm addicted to nostalgia to the point where I get disturbed and fall asleep at night.
Walking through an old neighborhood that I used to walk with my childhood friends. Our subdivisions are nearly touching we would make our way through another to get into town. Splitting between town and the subdivisions is a river with train track along and across it. The tracks where fenced in. We would walk down miles and miles using it like a shortcut. I went out there alone the other day. All my friends moved away gone out of state. No longer talk to them. I sat by the river and listened to the current softy drift by at a constant speed. The sun begin to descend again. Alone I reach the end of the road that turns to gravel before the train tracks. I lay across the tracks horizontally. Time goes by. Faintly I hear the horn blowing. I see it’s guiding like bend around the tree line before it faces me. I close my eyes. Right before I am met, I open my eyes in my bed.