Complete respect for sharing your story. I also suffer from Depression, I realised that I always had it with varying levels of severity. But things became severe when my Mother died some 16 years ago. I started having what I call dark thoughts and developed a sleeping problem which got more and more severe. After losing my job because of these problems I was eventually diagnosed which Depression about 10 years ago. Back then there was some sort of Mental health care on the NHS, but now it has almost disappeared. The only help I get now is from a mental health charity called MIND and that service has been reduced over the last couple of years! That's why I use retro computing as a hobby, its help remind me of happier times.
Hey John. It's more common than people realise. The more we share, the more it's talked about and hopefully the more people get help sooner rather than later. Thanks for sharing pal 👍
simon I want to thank you so much for making this video and for caring enough to do it!I'm going to re group and try harder..most of my family is gone..but I have a fantastic mother who has always been there for me...she is getting older now and has had some health issues which scared me to death...but she is OK now...I love collecting retro games and hardware it is a passion I have had since 1982...and I love your videos!! thanks again simon!😊 ..
Hi Mike. You really don't need to thank me. Unless you've been affected by it, it can be hard to understand. The reality is though it's unfortunately a very real thing. Part of your brain tells you lies, but you believe them and you can't help it. That's where I needed help to get those thoughts under control and start picking them apart. You need to remember that you do matter, and that you can get through it. I'm proof of that. There's a Speccy out there that needs your help 😁. Make sure you have counselling and then get yourself on eBay. I'll be your first subscriber ❤️. It worked for me anyway 😊
Thanks for sharing your story. My depression goes back at least 15 years when too many problems converged at once and overwhelmed me. It didn'y help that I also had (undiagnosed at the time) Aspergers. It crept up very slowly - looking back I lived almost in a dream state with constant thoughts about mortality. I'm glad that you got the help and support that you needed. Instead of help, my family told me that there was something wrong with me and that I was not normal. I was criticised for not getting well 'on schedule' because my illness was so dreadfully inconvenient to others. I even had doctors actually laugh in my face when I told them my suspicions that I was on the autistic spectrum. I ended up losing my partner, my children, my career and my home. I did eventually end up finding some sympathetic help from a handful of kind people, but largely the NHS failed me and the damage is done. I ended up paying for counselling privately when I was on income support, as nothing was offered to me. After years of fighting the glacial beauracracy of the system I got my diagnosis, but far too late to save my family. Like you I'm a 52 year old child of the 70s. All I have these days is the comfort of happier times which won't come again. But I do get a taste of it by watching channels like yours.
I really appreciate your comment and I hope the video helped even if just to make you feel less alone. The problem is, in my opinion, that unless you've experienced it, it can be very hard for people to empathise and understand.
Thank you for sharing this - I think it's so important to do something one loves and finds rewarding, which is why it's awesome that the support you got to surmount your personal challenges means that you can share what you love to do and build a community of nearly a thousand (and I'm sure many more in the future!) like-minded people who, like me, love a bit of retro tinkering - cheers!
Hats off to you. Being 50 myself, I've see the effects of mental health in my own family. Hard times but with the help from others there is a light at the end of the tunnel as you said. oh and 948 subscribers isn't too bad at all. I have 1 subscriber and that's my daughter 😊 Goes with the 1 video I have up. 1 for 1 as they say. Take care and see you on the next video.
Good job love the videos and thanks for the advice. 53 myself and love the retro scene even thinking about picking up a soldering iron myself because of you. Barry
Much respect sir. When I created my channel it wasn't at a high point and it was nice to have something to put energy towards that gave me a positive feeling. We do indeed love to see what you're doing. Keep up the good work.
That's really kind, thank you. It's important to me that we support each other where we can. Depression can be very isolating, and the more it's in the open, hopefully the more can get help 🤞
Awesome story 😁👏. You have another subscriber today my friend. I didn't suffer from depression but a bit of a midlife crisis. I too got back into retro computing over the last couple of years and love my collection and carrying out upgrades and fixes etc.
Thanks Martin. I hope you enjoy seeing this Spectrum I'm building get finished. I'm getting nervous now 😂 What goodies have you got in your collection?
@@RetroComputingReboot I recently built a harlequin 2d spectrum and it worked first time 🤩😄😄. I'm super proud of that. I have an Amiga 500 and 600. 500 mini. Zx spectrum 48k rubber keyboard. 128k toast rack. +3 and +2B. Also an Atari STE 4mb.
@@RetroComputingReboot oh sorry and an Amstrad CPC 6128, I bloody love that machine ❤️. Ditched the 3 inch drive those for a gotek. Still have the 3 inch floppy 💾 on the +3 those. Just because I love and had that machine as a kid.
Thanks. Your video helped me. I, like you, was going along just fine until life decided to throw something unexpected at me. Retro Computing does help one get to one's happy place. Good luck, mate.
@@Woodenflutes Thank you for taking the time to comment. You've just made my day by doing that. You're not alone, and there are people out there do care. Feel free to drop me an email any time, even if it's just pictures of your retro stuff 😊
😂😂I am also checking my subscriber count a million times a day and even in the middle of the night! I love watching the number go up. I love getting comments on my videos. It feels like I'm making new friends all around the world. I've now got a new purpose in life. It's to help other people grow their channels, and to encourage them in their efforts so they don't feel alone. Keep going!
Thanks for this. I work in mental health & have my own first hand experiences. Are you going to Kickstart Commodore Amiga Uk Expo - KS02? If so, I'll see you there!
Thanks for sharing. As a none native English speaker, i need to ask what G.P. is short for, you used it when explaining who you talked to, around 3.50 into the video. How long did you think about making a video about kicking the taboo of a mental sickness, great courage from your side, and probably a fine way to help the healing process.
GP is short for General Practitioner (doctor). I decided to make the video this morning following a comment on one of my videos. It made me realise I need to do my bit to help those that suffer like what I did. Thank you for your support though. The more it's recognised, the more people can be helped 👍
@@RetroComputingReboot And the better we get to be able to help those in need, since it is extremely hard to understand what you and others go thru, when fighting depression, or another issue you can't put a bandaid on, when I haven't felt it on my own body. Stay safe.
Complete respect for sharing your story. I also suffer from Depression, I realised that I always had it with varying levels of severity. But things became severe when my Mother died some 16 years ago. I started having what I call dark thoughts and developed a sleeping problem which got more and more severe. After losing my job because of these problems I was eventually diagnosed which Depression about 10 years ago. Back then there was some sort of Mental health care on the NHS, but now it has almost disappeared. The only help I get now is from a mental health charity called MIND and that service has been reduced over the last couple of years! That's why I use retro computing as a hobby, its help remind me of happier times.
Hey John. It's more common than people realise. The more we share, the more it's talked about and hopefully the more people get help sooner rather than later.
Thanks for sharing pal 👍
Thank you for sharing this story. It will do more good for people than I think you realize.
simon I want to thank you so much for making this video and for caring enough to do it!I'm going to re group and try harder..most of my family is gone..but I have a fantastic mother who has always been there for me...she is getting older now and has had some health issues which scared me to death...but she is OK now...I love collecting retro games and hardware it is a passion I have had since 1982...and I love your videos!! thanks again simon!😊
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Hi Mike. You really don't need to thank me. Unless you've been affected by it, it can be hard to understand. The reality is though it's unfortunately a very real thing. Part of your brain tells you lies, but you believe them and you can't help it. That's where I needed help to get those thoughts under control and start picking them apart.
You need to remember that you do matter, and that you can get through it. I'm proof of that. There's a Speccy out there that needs your help 😁. Make sure you have counselling and then get yourself on eBay. I'll be your first subscriber ❤️. It worked for me anyway 😊
Thanks for sharing your story. My depression goes back at least 15 years when too many problems converged at once and overwhelmed me. It didn'y help that I also had (undiagnosed at the time) Aspergers. It crept up very slowly - looking back I lived almost in a dream state with constant thoughts about mortality.
I'm glad that you got the help and support that you needed. Instead of help, my family told me that there was something wrong with me and that I was not normal. I was criticised for not getting well 'on schedule' because my illness was so dreadfully inconvenient to others. I even had doctors actually laugh in my face when I told them my suspicions that I was on the autistic spectrum. I ended up losing my partner, my children, my career and my home.
I did eventually end up finding some sympathetic help from a handful of kind people, but largely the NHS failed me and the damage is done. I ended up paying for counselling privately when I was on income support, as nothing was offered to me. After years of fighting the glacial beauracracy of the system I got my diagnosis, but far too late to save my family.
Like you I'm a 52 year old child of the 70s. All I have these days is the comfort of happier times which won't come again. But I do get a taste of it by watching channels like yours.
I really appreciate your comment and I hope the video helped even if just to make you feel less alone.
The problem is, in my opinion, that unless you've experienced it, it can be very hard for people to empathise and understand.
Thank you for sharing this - I think it's so important to do something one loves and finds rewarding, which is why it's awesome that the support you got to surmount your personal challenges means that you can share what you love to do and build a community of nearly a thousand (and I'm sure many more in the future!) like-minded people who, like me, love a bit of retro tinkering - cheers!
Thanks James 😊
You've hit the nail on the head many times here. I can relate. Thank you for sharing your story.
Thanks Jim. I really appreciate the comment. All the best
This was incredibly brave and selfless. Well done. Good things can happen to good people.
Thanks Lee. You wouldn't know it, but your videos were a big help in motivating me and getting me through it. Thank you too for what you do 😊
@@RetroComputingReboot I'm Humbled Simon. Keep up the good work.
Hats off to you. Being 50 myself, I've see the effects of mental health in my own family. Hard times but with the help from others there is a light at the end of the tunnel as you said.
oh and 948 subscribers isn't too bad at all. I have 1 subscriber and that's my daughter 😊 Goes with the 1 video I have up. 1 for 1 as they say.
Take care and see you on the next video.
Thanks Colin 👍
Thanks for sharing your personal experience and story. It will help others. Glad the channel, yes this great channel, is helping. Cheers!!
Thanks for that 👍
If it helps one person through what I went though then that's all that matters
Good job love the videos and thanks for the advice. 53 myself and love the retro scene even thinking about picking up a soldering iron myself because of you. Barry
Barry, that is awesome pal. You've just made my day 😊
Much respect sir. When I created my channel it wasn't at a high point and it was nice to have something to put energy towards that gave me a positive feeling. We do indeed love to see what you're doing. Keep up the good work.
That's really kind, thank you.
It's important to me that we support each other where we can. Depression can be very isolating, and the more it's in the open, hopefully the more can get help 🤞
Being there doing that
One day after the other.
Kudos to you for sharing.
Thanks Artur. Take each day as it comes. Remember, you aren't alone, and there's tons of people out there that do care
Thank you for sharing. I love your channel.
Thank you. I really appreciate that
Awesome story 😁👏. You have another subscriber today my friend. I didn't suffer from depression but a bit of a midlife crisis. I too got back into retro computing over the last couple of years and love my collection and carrying out upgrades and fixes etc.
Thanks Martin. I hope you enjoy seeing this Spectrum I'm building get finished. I'm getting nervous now 😂
What goodies have you got in your collection?
@@RetroComputingReboot I recently built a harlequin 2d spectrum and it worked first time 🤩😄😄. I'm super proud of that. I have an Amiga 500 and 600. 500 mini. Zx spectrum 48k rubber keyboard. 128k toast rack. +3 and +2B. Also an Atari STE 4mb.
@Retroguyuk75 That's a pretty good collection right there 😁
@@RetroComputingReboot oh sorry and an Amstrad CPC 6128, I bloody love that machine ❤️. Ditched the 3 inch drive those for a gotek. Still have the 3 inch floppy 💾 on the +3 those. Just because I love and had that machine as a kid.
@Retroguyuk75 I think you're right with the +3. I'd want to keep it stock, and then have a second one with a Gotek 😂
Thanks. Your video helped me. I, like you, was going along just fine until life decided to throw something unexpected at me. Retro Computing does help one get to one's happy place. Good luck, mate.
@@Woodenflutes Thank you for taking the time to comment. You've just made my day by doing that.
You're not alone, and there are people out there do care.
Feel free to drop me an email any time, even if it's just pictures of your retro stuff 😊
Would love to email if I could just figure out how to contact/DM you! Haha!
@Woodenflutes 😂 There's an email in my channel description
Respect for doing this video, I hope you can leave the tunnel, at least most of the time.
Thanks for that. I'm doing much better now. I just hope it inspires others that see it
Thank you we love your chanel all the best tony sharon
@tonyhardman8316 Thanks guys 👍
😂😂I am also checking my subscriber count a million times a day and even in the middle of the night! I love watching the number go up. I love getting comments on my videos. It feels like I'm making new friends all around the world. I've now got a new purpose in life. It's to help other people grow their channels, and to encourage them in their efforts so they don't feel alone. Keep going!
@@WildHare-fb7ry Thank you. I really appreciate that
Thanks for this. I work in mental health & have my own first hand experiences. Are you going to Kickstart Commodore Amiga Uk Expo - KS02? If so, I'll see you there!
Thanks for sharing. As a none native English speaker, i need to ask what G.P. is short for, you used it when explaining who you talked to, around 3.50 into the video.
How long did you think about making a video about kicking the taboo of a mental sickness, great courage from your side, and probably a fine way to help the healing process.
GP is short for General Practitioner (doctor). I decided to make the video this morning following a comment on one of my videos. It made me realise I need to do my bit to help those that suffer like what I did.
Thank you for your support though. The more it's recognised, the more people can be helped 👍
@@RetroComputingReboot And the better we get to be able to help those in need, since it is extremely hard to understand what you and others go thru, when fighting depression, or another issue you can't put a bandaid on, when I haven't felt it on my own body. Stay safe.
@leojrgensen2819 Thanks Leo