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Amazing way to honor your sweet angel. ❤️ May they rest in peace🕊️ may Allah bless you and your little angels. They will be watching over you and your girls. 💕💙❤️
What a lovely way to honor his life. Sending you all love from St. Louis, Missouri. You are such a kind, remarkable family. I hope that only blessings are showered on you from now on.
"We are still parents to 3 kids. Just 1 of them is not earthside." The strength in that sentence is remarkable. Your strength and faith and resilience is nothing short of Herculean. This grown-up rainbow baby is sending love from California, USA.
I am praying for your family I can’t imagine the pain you are experiencing. May Allah grant you all peace and healing and allow you to reunite with your baby in the highest heaven 🤲🏻🤲🏻
I suffered 2 miscarriages before I finally had my rainbow baby. I didn't talk about it, and only one of my friends and husband knew about it. The pain, as a mother, to lose a child even if they are just in the womb is so hard to even put into words. My heart breaks with you, and I pray for your healing from this loss. Take it slow, there is no rush in how to deal with grief. 💕
My husband and I just lost our first baby in December when I was 21 weeks pregnant after 6 years of infertility. The whole experience has been completely devastating to us. My deepest condolences to your family
I am so sorry for your loss. It is never easy to loose someone but a baby you are growing inside of you is terrible. I as a mother could never imagine that happening to me. You are blessed and will eventually get through this and continue and know you will see him again. Sending love and prayers.
I watched this recently and was so moved. I'm from the US and we see the Canadian health system as a gold standard. My deepest sympathy for you Ross. I was a labor and delivery nurse a d witnessed the joy and sorrows .Even in the midst of COVID, no one should be left to deliver their child and grieve alone.
I am so saddened to hear of your heart breaking loss 😔 Sending much love to you and baby Emaan. I’ve been through miscarriages too and it’s awful to go through. Sending you SO much love and many hugs mama ❤️❤️❤️
Marlena, you were one of the people who’s stories I listened to when this happened. I can’t thank you enough for being a light in this journey of grief and sharing your story. Sending you prayers for you and your family 🥺❤️
Same here sister , I know how you feel, Alhamdulillah the baby is in Jannah I lost my 4th last baby born with C.section died on the 13th day with sudden Menangites May Allah make it easy for you Inshallah in some years time youl look back and feel happy to say happily “ my child in Jannah I would rather he has made made it to Jannah
You guys have so much strength talking about the loss. I had an infant loss when my baby girl passed away right after birth. I could not talk about it without breaking down for so long. I can't imagine the pain you must be feeling. At the same time I find a lot of comfort that my baby is with Allah safe and sound. Maybe our kids are best friends in Jannah :) Duas for your family.
My miscarriage was also one of the most traumatic experiences of my life, I went into the ER because of severe abdominal pain and massive bleeding, i was treated so coldly by front staff. I remember the OBGYN doctor was really kind but the male nurse who was in the room during the D&C procedure said to me, "if you think this is painful imagine actual childbirth" i cried and cried, my partner was made to stand in the hall so i was alone. This was 9 years ago, the pain is still with me, a life i will never know. Going back for medical care since then gives me anxiety, still after all these years. I feel like i couldnt even talk about it, i feel so much empathy for your family. Thank you for talking about such a difficult topic
I’m so so sorry about what happened to you. This is really awful. Maybe I’ll be a gynaecologist in the future(God Willing) and I’ll make sure to be the most kind and respectful to people who have to go through stuff like this. May Allah(God) make it easy for you
Why are medical staff always so cold and mean? I guess that they are numb after everything that they have witnessed during their job but what that nurse said to you was completely out of order! I hope that you move on eventually and accept yourself. I am so sorry♥️
I had a miscarriage during my first pregnancy, I had the miscarriage a week after I found out I was pregnant so it wasn’t as traumatic for me, but I thought something was wrong with me, yet I talked to a few women and realized they’ve had miscarriages in the past too. It’s so common yet nobody talks about it. Thank you for sharing such a personal story with us and spreading awareness. May Allah grant you with your child in jannah❤️
First and foremost, I’m sorry for your loss. We lost our son at 25 weeks. He fought for 10 hours before gaining his wings. Everything you both said is what we’ve said these last 6 months. Till this day I still get, “ oh but you still have other children” or “you can try again”. It has to be the most frustrating part of my grieving process. Any chance I get, I educated them on what should and shouldn’t be said. Some days are hard, some are harder. Without my husband.. I don’t think I would still be here. We included him in everything. I never stop talking about him or his story. He is and will always be a part of our family. We are here for you 💙
In my younger years I lost two babies. Such a loss is so very difficult especially when there's really no one to talk to about it. I had to soldier on anyway. Now that I'm 70 I find myself still think about them as if I had the chance to hold them in my arms. I know exactly what you are going through and my heart and prayers are with you both. ❤️❤️
I’m so very sorry for your loss. When Will was talking about the loss of his father and how the pain differed it was like it had struck something deep inside of me. I’m only a teenager so I don’t have children but I have furry child(ren).I adopted my cat Rizzo as a kitten almost 5 years ago right before I started 7th grade. We took him to the vet last month for weight loss and was told that there was a growth on his liver that was most likely cancerous and we’d have to put him down. It absolutely gutted me because he was my baby and he was supposed to be with me for at least 10 more years and navigate adulthood with me. We put him down three weeks ago today. I felt that loss even deeper than I had ever felt the loss of my grandfather in 2020. I felt like there was something wrong with me for feeling his loss deeper than that of my own grandfather and saying that your child’s (furry in this case for me) loss is ok to feel deeper than that of a parent or grandparent made me feel so much relief. When you guys talked about how having other children does not takeaway the pain of losing this specific child I related again. I adopted another kitten a week ago yesterday to help myself heal and have that companionship but the feelings of happiness and love he brings doesn’t replace the feelings of loss and sorrow I will always feel about Rizzo. So thank you guys again for just having these explanations that let me know that this guilt over how I’ve been grieving was not needed and that how I am grieving is ok just meant so much to me. I wish you all the best in grieving your loss and know you are loved ♥️.
This is so sad. I'm sorry for your loss. My pets are my children too as well as my child. Loss is loss whether they are furry or not. I'm glad your pet had you as a pet parent.... you sound like you love your pet so much. I hope it does get easier for you and time heals 💕🙏🥺
@@Jerseybaby19 I did my best for him and just wish he could have been around longer. The kitten I adopted has helped me heal tremendously but it’ll never fully heal especially because of the way and how quickly he basically declined will forever be etched into me. I know he loved me and I loved him dearly so that’s what counts at the end of the day.
What a blessing to have a husband that is as emotionally invested in the pregnancy and loss as the mother is, and is so supportive and understanding of the physical effects on his wife. Praying for healing for you both. ♥️
I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost a baby last year, and you are correct, it’s not talked about enough. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. Your family is in my prayers. ❤️
It feels weird to like a video that is so emotionally loaded. Please understand the likes as love and encouragement and support for you while you grieve and integrate these events into your lives. Thank you for sharing about Emaan with us.
I never knew until much later that my mom had a miscarriage between me and my older sister. She didn’t talk about it for many years due to the trauma. I didn’t know until I was about 13-14 and even tho I never knew this sibling, I felt a loss and grief I didn’t except. All the love and prayers to both of you and your daughters.
my mother too had to deal with all 4 of her miscarriages mentally, alone, due to my father being emotionally distant. she was blessed with 10 children after her first 3 miscarriages, and the 1 more miscarriage after her last son, my youngest brother. you guys are so very strong to come on this platform and talk openly about how hard it is. much love to you both, and to your 3 children❤
I’m so sorry for the loss of your baby 💔🥺 we lost our daughter, at 39 weeks in 2020 and not a single day goes by that we do t think of her and miss her. Sending you guys a big hug! Never stop talking about your baby, it helps 💛
"As Muslims, we live a life of purpose and we go through life with tests and Allah test those he loves the most". Everything you said about faith ❣️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️❣️❣️❣️❣️. May Allah comfort you, grant you ease and shower you with his blessings from now on.
A good friend of me said something I can’t forget. You loved and wanted this child, but Allah wanted and loved this child more 🥺 He had bigger and better plans for Emaan. «They plan, And Allah plans. And surely Allah is the Best of planners» ❤️ Sending a lot of love. And as a nurse myself, it hurts to hear how they met you guys. In this field sympathy, and empathy is the most important qualities we HAVE to have. But sometimes it is hard for some of my colleauges to look behold the diagnose, and actually see the human being there. Volunarable and hurt. Thanks for the reminding, may Allah give you shifa 🤲
I am so sorry for your loss and the experience of dealing alone. (As an ER nurse in the US it was one of the hardest things to have a patient suffering and dying without a loved one. But this was the first year of COVID not now). I watch you as a Christian and was tying to learn about others and their beliefs. I do always feel such peace and love while watching you and how you speak about your community and to each other. May you find shalom sharing your story.
I’m deeply sorry for your families loss 😢 I had a miscarriage 3 years ago , it’s one of the most painful things you can go through. I still grieve my baby. Your right though their is some sweetness in all of this , knowing your baby is in heaven and that you will be reunited one day , and what a sweet reunion it will be. Sending all my love to your family ♥️
Though I've never had a miscarriage, I lost my infant Son, Hunter, when he was just 4 days old. I am thinking of your family as that was the absolute hardest part of my life. I miss my baby boy and just want to hold him even for only a moment and this was 20 years ago now.
May your pain be eased some time! As someone who hasn’t kids I can not imagine what you guys are going through as a family. It’s so beautiful that you honour your baby this incredible way! It’s so important to talk about it, so thank you, that you’re brave enough to be so open about this topic, especially at a time where you’re still processing what actually happened.
In the US, many states have passed or are attempting to pass laws that may require mothers who lose a child in pregnancy prove they did not do anything to cause their baby to die. The incredible pain of the loss may be compounded by accusations and by legal authorities investigating a mother in her time of deepest pain. This is exactly why your voices, dear friends, are so incredibly important. I thank you for having the courage and compassion to share your pain and your hearts. Know we honor your family and your sadness. We are grateful for your openness in this time of greatest sorrow. Our hearts are with yours.
I’m so so sorry for your loss. I am 24 weeks pregnant now with my first child. A son we’ve named Everett. But, because of his severe heart condition, he will pass soon after he is born. There’s nothing we can do but hold him and show him all the love we can possibly give to him for the brief moments that he is here. My heart and prayers are with you both and your families now. I know this is not easy. It’s beyond hard losing a baby. God Bless you both❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss. I know your baby is interceding from heaven for you. As a Catholic, I believe that Joseph and Mary are our spiritual parents, and I'm sure that they are wrapping their arms around your baby and your family as well. May God be close to you in this sorrow.
I am so sorry for your families loss and I want to thank you for sharing your story. I still struggle with the grief of losing my son, he would be 7 next month. I am thankful to hear people speaking out about their truth in this tragic situation. Love to you all 💜 Edited to add, I donated what I was able to in the name of my baby boy, Ciaran Azmodel 💜
I've been crying for the entirety of the video. i am so sorry for your loss. So sorry for your traumatic experience with losing your child and for how you were treated by hospital staff during an already traumatic time. I hope you get to heal from this
So so sorry for your loss. ❤️ We suffered a miscarriage around the same time, subhanAllah. I pray Allah SWT gives your hearts ease and answers all of your duas in the best way for you. 🤲🌸
I wish to tell you that I am very much Christian but have found your gentleness and kindness to be a breath of fresh air, I have followed you through this journey and have waited for this update. I am so very sorry for your loss and see how the way you have had to go through it is unbelievable- and once again you tell your story with grace. I pray that you find the peace that passes all understanding and the Lord blesses you not with a replacement child but with one that brings joy to your beautiful family. May you walk with the load a little lighter knowing that there are many out here are praying for you. God bless you.
I just cried throughout this whole video, crying for you and your loss of baby Emaan, crying for the loss of my sisters baby and the pain and suffering she endured after her loss, both emotionally and physically (they had to clean all her insides again, as the baby remains were still in there after surgery, causing her pain), she also contracted meningitis and sepsis and needed a spinal tap and all other issues before she even could come to terms with her loss and what she was feeling. She also had infections and was on antibiotics for months. I am so, sooo sorry and also so very emotional right now watching your honest and beautifully spoken words portraying your journey through the emotional turmoil you went through along with your little girls, who experienced an immense heartbreak so early in their lives. May you all be granted sabrun jameel and a sukoon to get through this difficult time and always remember that baby Emaan is waiting for you at the doors of heaven to take you with her through those gates. I love you both for the sake of Allah and pray He grants you more strength and a beautiful patience. I love how openly you have shared your experiences of a taboo subject that most people don’t want to talk about or don’t know how to talk about, because they can’t find the words. May your journey and your future be bright and beautiful and forever happy 😊😘😍
We have lost our baby number 3 at 12weeks a year ago, only who goes through that can understand. At the moment I am 28weeks pregnant but have been so scared and always worrying it might happen again.. so we didn’t buy anything yet for baby. My prayers are with you guys and may Allah(swt) give you peace from Him in the thought that you will be reunited with baby Emaan inshaAllah. Much love
My heart is with you and you are in my prayers. In 2020 I had a late miscarriage. It was my first pregnancy. The baby had passed 3 weeks before I started miscarrying at home suddenly. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through. It tested my faith and my marriage, and just destroyed me. Alhamdullilah things slept got better. As I write this comment I’m nursing my little rainbow baby. He’s helped me grow and heal a lot. But it’s not easy. My second pregnancy was so scary. Keep talking about and don’t be afraid to ask for help. You guys are wonderful parents and I wish you nothing but joy
33 years ago, I experienced my first miscarriage. It was my first child and I was shattered.I can relate so well to what you said, Sana, about feeling your body had betrayed you. Waking up one morning with a child inside you, and a mere 24 hours later waking up empty, bereft. 2 years ago, my daughter miscarried her first pregnancy, my first grandchild, and the pain was no less. Sending you love and duaas.
I'm glad you guys really did take the time for yourself and the family. So heartbreaking seeing someone talk about such a dear loss. Emaan will be so proud looking down at you 4 and give all the love and protection. Waiting patiently untill you guys be reunited again. Also thank you for sharing this story in the way you do, really breaking down on all the parts most people don't. Both mother and father's side are as important to talk about when experiencing a traumatic event like this. For me, I was only so young having a miscarriage, I never even reflected on that part of my life, just pushed it away and went back to school where no one ever supported me besides my mum gladly. That part will always hurt in my heart. I'm just rambling whilst watching. All the love to you all ❤️
My heart shattered when I saw Sana crying like I can't even imagine going through something like this (I'm still 17 but still). Thank you for sharing your story, ik it wasn't easy. Emaan will be waiting for you in heaven to play with your daughters and you guys too. Stay strong and my well wishes are always with you❤
My grandparents had 5 children. One died a couple weeks before his first birthday. For decades after this baby died, my grandparents always said they had 5 children but one wasn't with them. Emaan is always your child. She's simply in a different place. I found your channel about a week ago. Thank you.
I'm at a loss for words, all I can say is my heart is truly breaking for you. It's such an important topic to be talking about as it happens to so many people. But also I appreciate how you are sharing both of your experiences. Most times people sort of forget the father, because he didn't carry the baby. I'm sending all my love to all 5 of you ♥️
I absolutely love you videos i have had two miscarriages with no living babies and your strength is amazing makes me want to keep pushing on we may not have the same religion but you inspire me thank you for doing what you do.
I cannot express how sorry I am for you guys. The pain in both of your faces made my heart break. The most lovely couple I've ever come across, I wish you nothing but love. You'll never ever forget something like this but I hope in time you will heal. You'll always have your precious baby with you ❤
I am so very sorry y’all. My first baby- a little girl was born sleeping in 2/24/1995. She was 27 weeks five days gestation when her cord knot cinched and she was deprived of oxygen. Hardest thing to walk through in my life. Thank you for sharing. This club sucks! We need to talk about the loss we suffer. PrYers for your family!!
Only a parent can decide when they become a parent. I'm like y'all, I loved my children from the first moment regardless if it was the heartbeat or a missed period. I went to the ER in massive pain and the staff was like oh by the way your body is aborting (this is not the term the doctor should have used) the baby come back when you start bleeding. My husband and I were DEVISATED and they didn't even give us a moment, they wanted me dressed and out of their way immediately. I can't imagine going through that without my husband. Our son did survive so I only know a fraction of the pain that your going through. I know several parents that even though their child has gone to heaven they still do something on the children's birthday (one friend uses the due date as her baby girl's birthday) what they do is different for every parent. Grief is so personal but I think it's great that your both talking about it!
I'm so sorry for your loss. I've seen and personally experienced how hard the loss of a baby is. I've never experienced it as a parent, but I have experienced it as a sister. I'm the second oldest of 8, and at the anatomy scan of the 7th baby, they found a lot of fluid surrounding his heart, lungs, and brain. They had surgery to place shunts in his sides to drain some of the fluid. When he was born, he was immediately placed into the NICU. After 7 days, his organs were failing and his little body gave up. It was so incredibly hard. Not only did I have to deal with my own grief, but I had to help explain what happened to my younger siblings and comfort them through their grief while my parents were dealing with their own grief. He would be 6 years old now, and is talked about all of the time in our house. Even my youngest brother, Silas, who was born just days shy of a year after Joseph passed away, talks about his big brother all the time and how he wishes he could have met him.
Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'oon. May his soul rest in peace. May Allah give you the strength to bear this pain. Indeed Allah does not burden a soul beyond it can bear. And indeed with every difficulty, is ease. Lots of prayers for you.
Thank you for sharing your story. Someone very close to me has 2 children, and had 7 miscarriages after the 2 healthy pregnancies. Very grateful for the insight 🙏
The Messenger of Allah (صلى الله عليه وسلم) said, “By the One in Whose hands is my soul, the miscarried fetus will drag his mother to paradise by his [umbilical] cord if she was patient [with the miscarriage], hoping to be rewarded.” [Ahmad] 💙
Thank you for sharing so many things came up for me. 1st sending love. I had a my 1st miscarriage yrs ago. Our 1st baby. I started to lose the baby at church, which created many thoughts and emotions. We went to hospital and were told we would lose the baby, sent home to do it there. My husband left me on the couch to go play hockey, you are blessed to have a man that respects and values so much. I did end up in hospital the next day where surgery was done. There was no supports in place to help me understand the emotions and had depression for a period of time. Since then I had several miscarriages and have new doctors and support. I wanted family, and eventually had 2 beautiful children. Thank you lord.
I am so sorry for all you have been through, and for all you continue to go through. The trauma of losing a child is one I wouldnt wish on my worst enemy, and yet you have shown such bravery telling your story and wanting to use it to help others. You truly are an inspiration, although I am sure it doesnt feel like it right now. I will keep your whole family in my prayers, in my thoughts, and in my heart.
You both are in my prayers, it's more than difficult when there's no defined way of how to handle a tragedy such as yours. I know it must be terrifying every second when the thoughts don't stop. I know that feeling, I want to let you know I have so much gratitude for how tremendously strong you both are for sharing your story. I think in the way you explained this covered so much importance that gets overlooked. When you mentioned the Lack of empathy you experienced during this trauma from medical I can relate from my experience. We were judged, talked about etc.. I know how hard this was, and still is.. Myself along w you believe Allah works in mysterious ways, and he has a plan for all of us. Even during our darkest times and all we can do is ponder why. I want to send you and your family all the love in the world, and let you know you have my support as well as others
I just found your channel and stumbled across this video … one of our daughters was stillborn almost 3 years ago and I can relate to what people say to you after. “Be grateful”, “it probably happened for a reason”… the worst thing was “she probably left because there was something really wrong with her and she was saving you from a life of hardship.” - I wouldn’t care, I’d take her being here and the hardship over the hole in our lives without her in a second if I had a choice!! People are insensitive. Re policies … my daughter died BECAUSE of the policies … dont get me started … I’m so sorry for your loss of Eman and Congratulations on your beautiful boy Yusuf and blessings to your family xx
I’m so sorry for your loss, Emaan will always be with you ❤️ take time to heal, take time to yourselves, grieve how you need to grieve. I went through 2 losses before having my son and I still cry over my other two babies. I’m so sorry for your traumatic experience as well, what the tech and OB office did is horrible as well as the hospital. I hope you both find your peace and find comfort in each other and your daughters as well ❤️
I’m sorry for the immeasurable loss your family is going through and how you were treated. No person should experience any of that. But thank you for talking about it. Thank you for sharing your experience and taking a step toward ending the stigma. Much love to you all.
My heart and prayers go to you from a mom who's had miscarriages and trying to memorialize 2 children I lost in August. Hang tough, stay strong. Biggest virtual hugs to you both.
I am so sorry for your loss, my heart breaks for you 😢💔 and the fact that the hospital made you go through all of it alone is just so infuriating! I hope you’re on your way to healing, physically and mentally. You are honoring your sweet baby in a wonderful way. Bless you all❤️
As I was listening to your story, it was like listening to mine...from the circumstances of a missed miscarriage, to the compounded trauma caused by COVID restrictions, to the medical complications afterwards. I'm so sorry for your loss, and for the trauma and hurt your family has experienced. I've enjoyed watching your videos and learning about your culture and religion, and I wish you the best.
Thank you for making this video. Today marks 1 month since I lost my son at 24 weeks. I’ve been suffering in silence trying to be strong for everyone else and I feel like coming across this video was a sign that I’m going to be okay. It was the most traumatic experience in my entire life and I can relate to this video so much even as a non Muslim. Thank you for validating my feelings. I hope that you are blessed again in the future and I pray for your strength!
I am so sorry you had to go through this. I have also been through a traumatic missed miscarriage in the spring of 2021. I understand your pain 💜 I had hemorrhages and many visits to the hospital, as well my body did not want to release my baby. I wasn't aware that miscarriage was so common until I had one. I learned then that the majority of the females in my family have had at least 1; my mum had 2 in between my younger sister and I. It should definitely not be a taboo subject.
My mum miscarried twins last year on the 15th of Feb, although she was early on in her pregnancy it was still very heart breaking and honestly I'm happy to know that we didn't go through this alone. I'm so sorry for your loss, may Allah grant your family peace with the loss of your baby Emaan :)
I am sooo sorry for your loss. You guys are such good people. On the water wells. I knew someone that built wells in Southeast Asia mostly Cambodia. She spent several years there, had left and came back. When she came back what she discovered was that the locals dismantled ALL of the wells and either sold them or repurposed the materials. Evidently, they didn't want the clean drinking water. I don't know if there is any way at all that you can vet a community out before installing the wells to make sure they won't do the same. Perhaps you can check with the contractor that can certify that they will actually vet them out. I'd hate for you to visit the wells someday and find that they are no longer there.
That is so sad that you guys lost the baby. I haven’t been on social media for a while so I had no idea. You guys will one day see Emman in Heaven. I’ll be praying for you guys❤️
Thank you so much for sharing. When I went through my miscarriage it was early trimester. Like you guys said there’s no one talking. My gp service and the nurses had advised my husband not to talk about it. So I was left to my own devices. Like any other parent you never forget about your loss pregnancy. There was one kind nurse who came to me and spoke with me. I had asked her what the hospital did with the embryo/ child. And she said that they dispose of them. But she wrote in my notes to bury it in the ground rather than being binned or burned. Only just because My religion (Islam). That was the last I heard of the baby. Even to this day I don’t think my husband is aware of the burial. I soon fell pregnant again (in medical terms a rainbow baby) but the pregnancy made me drift away from everyone including my husband, only just I didn’t get the support I needed at the time. Now because of the experience I’m very apprehensive about who I talk/ trust unfortunately. I wish I could but this is my reality.
Thank you for sharing so openly ♡ It is not an easy thing to do, but in talking we will change the future for those coming after us! We have had 4 losses, 1 of which was a missed miscarriage - it is definitely an incredibly heartwrenching experience. Sending hugs ♡ I would highly recommend checking out Project Robby - Amanda is amazing and can give you a keepsake for Emaan - she also does grief coaching and I can 100% say that working with her changed my life after our losses
Its absolutely the biggest loss in life I have ever experienced and the most traumatic. I don't think anyone who hasn't experienced this can understand the loss you feel in your soul.... its a deep ache that you can feel physically. I wish you all the luck and the best in life... I'm so glad you have faith to help you through 🙏💗 I'm so sorry. Edit- my miscarriage was extremely traumatic and the nurses just didn't care either. It's disgusting. They shouldn't be in the health care field when their attitudes are so dismissive. I heammoraged and almost died because the nurse wouldn't listen to me. I won't tell you what else they did because it is so vile. They make it so much harder. I'm in tears for you. I couldn't imagine going through all that as far on in my pregnancy as you were. Awful.
My husband and I suffer from infertility and are finally pregnant with our miracle baby via IVF. Both my sister and sister in law lost babies at 27 weeks. I completely agree with you. Our community just does not talk about loss and infertility enough. It took a lot for me to finally start going to therapy. Going through my fertility journey was gut wrenching and watching my sister and sister in law go through what they went through was horrific. We need that help! Thank you for speaking out ❤️❤️. May Allah swt bring you solace during these trying times and raise your ranks in Jannah ❤️.
My heart breaks for your loss and I'm so sorry for the way you both were treated at the hospital. I've donated in memory of your baby and also in memory of the babies my sister has lost. I'm honored to get be a part of it.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss and wanted to thank you for sharing. I had two miscarriages before my oldest was born 22 years ago. Both were ectopic pregnancies and both required surgery. I still remember them as if they happened yesterday and I still cry. My HCG levels remained high up to six weeks after each and my emotions were all over the board. I was mad at God, at myself, at my husband, and at the poor babies. I got upset when people apologized and upset when they didn't. I live in Alberta and I can honestly say the nurses were good but I had issues with a few ER doctors and one tech with the first one. I won't go into all the details, but I woke up in intense pain and my husband rushed me to the ER. They triaged in on time and pushed me to the top of the last. The doctor on duty basically told me that because I wasn't bleeding and it was my first pregnancy, to go home, use a hot compress and take some Tylenol because it was either muscular or a bladder infection. It was the nurse who, after the doctor left, said she would make sure my file was left open and that I should go in if I started spotting or the pain got worse. Three hours later I went home and the pain had stopped. I started spotting at 7 am, got into ER and waited 10 hours before I was told I had an ectopic and needed surgery. During that time the spotting turned into heavy bleeding, the pain came back, and I had two ultrasounds. I had three ER doctors looking in on me before an OB could come in because we were short at the time. It was the Ultrasound tech who, very ignorantly, told me I had no baby and my uterus was filled with blood so "it" had died and I could go back to my room. He left me in the wheelchair by myself before a nurse came and got me. During this while time my husband was by my side. I knew he was worried so I never told him how heavy I was bleeding, how much pain I was in or what the tech had said. It wasn't until the first OB came in at three that afternoon and said she suspected a miscarriage that he knew what was happening. I knew about three hours in but I tried to focus on him. At 5 pm the specialist came in, told us what an ectopic pregnancy was, that my fallopian tube had ruptured and that I needed surgery immediately. The nurses were amazing. I was put on the maternity ward, in a private room. My second day after surgery, I was eating breakfast and I started to cry and couldn't stop. A nurse came in and held me for twenty minutes, told me about her loss and said I would heal but it would take time. She also said it was okay to cry or not too cry and to be angry. When I told her I was angry with God, she told me that was okay because he was all forgiving and felt what I felt. Needless to say, I recovered but it was a long recovery. I went through the same thing almost a year later but this time I caught it early enough to only need laparoscopic surgery. 13 months after my last surgery I gave birth to my, now, 22 year old son, 14 months later my daughter and SIX years later my youngest son. When you mentioned 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage that didn't surprise me at all. At the time I had my first one the statistics were 1 in 250, 000 were ectopic but after a woman has her first ectopic the stats become 1 in 25. I don't think people know how common miscarriages are or understand what happens. I said I wouldn't go into details but apparently I did. Sorry, this was so long. Again, I offer my sympathy and a thank you to you both. I have been following you since COVID began and I am a huge fan. I am sending good thoughts and many prayers and a promise that it will get better.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost a baby in 2013. I had a very hard time afterwards too. I'm glad you are sharing this because I know it will help others going through it. My thoughts and prayers are with your family as you go through this.
Truly sorry for your loss, sending lots of love from the uk. Thank you for sharing something so personal and raising awareness. You are truly amazing. Your baby will always be with you xxxx
First of all thank you so much for your courage in sharing your story and I’m so sorry for your loss 😓Nobody deserves such a terrible tragedy in their lives. I’ve never experienced a miscarriage myself so I can’t even begin to imagine how terrible it could be to lose a child. And I just can’t understand why some people hurt a family that’s going through such a difficult time with their words.☹️ PS: I have one small remark. Please don’t compare somebody else’s trauma with your personal experience labeling theirs as “less painful”. This just invalidates their emotions 🥺 Acknowledging the fact that for a woman who’s gone through multiple miscarriages, each one of them can result in PTSD and be just as traumatic for them as your experience was/is for you, is healing for everybody ❤️🩹
I discovered your channel recently and I found you all so happy and fierce. I had no idea what was hidden behind these smiles. May Allah ease your pain and give patience to your children. I can feel their pain. I have lost 5 brothers and it's never easy to comprehend and deal with this kind of loss. May Allah help you in this trial.
I am so sorry for your loss. “Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un” (“Verily we belong to Allah, and truly to Him shall we return”). May Allah give you Sabr and strength. Sending lots of prayers and love your way ❤️ 😘.
Hi. I have been following you all for a while but this is the first time have seen this video. I went through the same thing 30 years ago and have 2 growing up sons now. But it had taken me some time to get over what happened and i never forget what happened. There was never somewhere to go and talk about it. It was my family and friends that helped me a lot. Lots of love to you both and in my prayers xx
Thank you for summoning the strength and courage to share Emaan’s story with us. I am so so sorry for your family’s loss. We have had four losses ourselves and every single one broke us in ways I can’t even begin to explain. But Alhumdulillah, each loss also brought us closer to Allah SWT and I have hope knowing that my babies are playing in Jannah and that InshaAllah we will be reunited with them soon. May Allah SWT bless you both for taking this wonderful initiative and I pray that you and your sweet girls find your beautiful smiles again soon InshaAllah. ♥️
This is really awful. I am so sorry for your loss. May Allah make it easy for you to cope with this experience and give you guys shif’a, Sum Ameen. Allah cares and values about your patience(sabr). It is really helpful that you guys as Muslims are talking about miscarriage. My mom went through a miscarriage too and randomly brought it up. I was sooo shocked, and I could see the pain in her face when talking about it even though it happened over a decade ago. May Allah bless you and take care of your family. ❤️
Sending your family so much love. I am so sorry that those medical professionals failed you, no doubt that caused even more trauma. Wishing you a better recovery than you've had so far 💓
As-salamu alaykum. May Allah make this time easy for you. I myself went through a miscarriage in August this year, and apart from the emotional trauma, which is immense in itself, it was the physical trauma too to deal with. (I also had one last year, but this one had more impact on as I was further along). I too had to bear the news that my baby had dies in my stomach, then waited , went into labour , delivered my tiny baba in my bathroom. then I was given abortion meds, went through labour again many times over. I then had to have a procedure , to pump out remnants from my uterus, uterine evacuation. It was also my first ever time being admitted to hospital and being put under full anaesthetic, so I was very nervous, anxious, scared etc. I am so sorry for the way it all played out as well with your health care, and health care providers. I can relate to this too all the way from South Africa. You would think women would be more understanding and empathetic/sympathetic even. But I was met with so many degrees of reactions from really good responses to zero acknowledgement. The one thing that this highlighted to me is that it needs more awareness, less taboo, and more people need to learn basic tact and care and kindness when it comes to this kind of loss. Especially immediate family.
Listening to you two brought tears in my eyes. May Allah grant you both and your daughters strength to go through and pass this difficult test. Ameen 💖 And as Will rightly said, you daughter Emaan was sent as a blessing for you two, as a pathway to Jannah. She will be waiting at the gates of Jannah to ask Allah to bring her parents to her. Subhan Allah, how beautiful is this mercy of Allah. ❤ Sending your family love and duaas.
Am so sorry for your loss, may Allah give you strengths. I myself have had several miscarriages before having my rainbow baby. I completely understand no one wanted to speak about it and I did not have any support from family but my husband was my wall/rock. People say things that are insensitive cos they do not know or are not tuned to react to these situations because it is something that is not addressed. I will always remember you in my duas and ask Allah to give you and your family sabr x
Thank you so much for talking about this. It’s so important for people to know they are not alone in both celebration and grief. There are many support groups for woman but not for men dealing with miscarriage. I’ve seen my husband of 23 years cry twice. The first time was when I miscarried at 16 weeks during our honeymoon in the Dominican Republic. I actually caught the baby while sitting on the toilet. I freaked out and was bleeding so bad. Neither of us spoke Spanish not one word and trying to talk to the doctor at the resort was so frustrating. He came up to the room to give me a shot to stop the bleeding went into the bathroom to see the after math then told my husband to flush the toilet. Yep this was happening while I was still birthing tissue on a towel in the floor. After this my husband went into our walk in closet for 5 minutes. I didn’t know what was going on but later found out he went into the closet to deal with the fact he just flushed his baby down the toilet and to stop crying to be strong for me. I started bleeding the next day and was taken to a hospital the following day by ambulance. The doctor dropped the I e bag in my face. The ambulance stopped for gas on the way to the hospital all I remember is this older like 60 year old nurse was rubbing my stomach and singing to me in Spanish the whole hour drive to the hospital. At the hospital they separated me from my husband and I didn’t know what was going on. I couldn’t understand what they were saying. They started stripping my clothes off. And they put something in my IV and it burned so bad I thought it was poison and I was going to die. I started screaming and they held me down to the bed and there was this big bright light hanging above me. Then I woke up in another room covered in bright orange iodine in so much pain I just wanted to shower and there were bugs on my shower curtain. I found out from the vacation rep who showed up at the hospital and spoke English that they did a D and C and removed a second baby. My doctor had put off my ultra sound until after my vacation so I didn’t even know it was twins. Within a few hours of was on a plane balling my eyes out back to Canada. When I got home I went to our hospital and because I had had surgery in the DR they were treating me as if I was infected with everything. 5 different antibiotics. There was lots of support from family and friends but the most common thing I heard is “it’s ok you can always have more kids” which doesn’t diminish the fact that I lost these 2. No one was there to help my husband to this day, be it 23 years later is still traumatized by what the doctor made him do. I have since had 4 children but I am a mother of 6 and always will be ❤️ and we only vacation where people speak English. You are not alone and his life matters and will always matter because he did and does exist ❤️and I do believe beyond a shadow of a doubt you will be reunited some day and forever. 🤗
I am so sorry for your loss, sending many preys your way. I lost my little boy at 39 weeks pregnant, I love how even though your both going through something so difficult you are raising awareness in the culture, so selfless and kind of you both. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I am so so sorry. So sorry. I can’t believe the hospital treated you like that. I am so sorry for your loss, I don’t know what you believe to be heaven but from my faith, I hope Emaan is at peace and I know baby is being held by the angels xxxx
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Salam alaykum God bless you Don't worry you guys my mom went through the same thing ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Ap ka baby InshahAllah aakhrat me jahannum ki aag aur ap logon k darmiyan dhaal ban jaye ga. ALLAH ap logon ko sabar aata farmaye Aameen
Amazing way to honor your sweet angel. ❤️ May they rest in peace🕊️ may Allah bless you and your little angels. They will be watching over you and your girls. 💕💙❤️
What a lovely way to honor his life. Sending you all love from St. Louis, Missouri. You are such a kind, remarkable family. I hope that only blessings are showered on you from now on.
"We are still parents to 3 kids. Just 1 of them is not earthside." The strength in that sentence is remarkable. Your strength and faith and resilience is nothing short of Herculean. This grown-up rainbow baby is sending love from California, USA.
I am so sorry. Loss is painful. But your child on the other side is with you.,🌈🌹
I am so so sorry for you loss!
May Allah give you and your family lots of strength.
We are here for you
@@bryanbradley6871 but to them an there family does not matter how old the baby was it still a baby
@@bryanbradley6871 but they already felt connected to Emaan and they are traumatized from this.
Heyy big fan of you 💫
Yeah i agreed
I am praying for your family I can’t imagine the pain you are experiencing. May Allah grant you all peace and healing and allow you to reunite with your baby in the highest heaven 🤲🏻🤲🏻
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I suffered 2 miscarriages before I finally had my rainbow baby. I didn't talk about it, and only one of my friends and husband knew about it. The pain, as a mother, to lose a child even if they are just in the womb is so hard to even put into words. My heart breaks with you, and I pray for your healing from this loss. Take it slow, there is no rush in how to deal with grief. 💕
My husband and I just lost our first baby in December when I was 21 weeks pregnant after 6 years of infertility. The whole experience has been completely devastating to us. My deepest condolences to your family
I am so sorry for your loss!
I’m so sorry for your loss, Anais. I’m sending you prayers and well wishes 💐💐💐
May Allah bless you with many children!
Your baby is waiting for you with great love and when you meet again it will be special 💖
i m sorry for your loss .May Allah grant you with healthy child soon .stay strong Allah is happy with you
I am so sorry for your loss. It is never easy to loose someone but a baby you are growing inside of you is terrible. I as a mother could never imagine that happening to me. You are blessed and will eventually get through this and continue and know you will see him again. Sending love and prayers.
@@Hannah-sg4sr unnecessary comment.
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I watched this recently and was so moved. I'm from the US and we see the Canadian health system as a gold standard. My deepest sympathy for you Ross. I was a labor and delivery nurse a d witnessed the joy and sorrows .Even in the midst of COVID, no one should be left to deliver their child and grieve alone.
I am so saddened to hear of your heart breaking loss 😔 Sending much love to you and baby Emaan. I’ve been through miscarriages too and it’s awful to go through. Sending you SO much love and many hugs mama ❤️❤️❤️
Marlena, you were one of the people who’s stories I listened to when this happened. I can’t thank you enough for being a light in this journey of grief and sharing your story. Sending you prayers for you and your family 🥺❤️
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Omg marlenaaa so nice to see u here and showing your support 🥰
Same here sister , I know how you feel, Alhamdulillah the baby is in Jannah
I lost my 4th last baby born with C.section died on the 13th day with sudden Menangites
May Allah make it easy for you
Inshallah in some years time youl look back and feel happy to say happily “ my child in Jannah I would rather he has made made it to Jannah
@Alia inshallah with time pain will be bearable
Subhanallah these hospitals
I really feel angry when I hear their neglect
You guys have so much strength talking about the loss. I had an infant loss when my baby girl passed away right after birth. I could not talk about it without breaking down for so long. I can't imagine the pain you must be feeling. At the same time I find a lot of comfort that my baby is with Allah safe and sound. Maybe our kids are best friends in Jannah :) Duas for your family.
My miscarriage was also one of the most traumatic experiences of my life, I went into the ER because of severe abdominal pain and massive bleeding, i was treated so coldly by front staff. I remember the OBGYN doctor was really kind but the male nurse who was in the room during the D&C procedure said to me, "if you think this is painful imagine actual childbirth" i cried and cried, my partner was made to stand in the hall so i was alone. This was 9 years ago, the pain is still with me, a life i will never know. Going back for medical care since then gives me anxiety, still after all these years. I feel like i couldnt even talk about it, i feel so much empathy for your family. Thank you for talking about such a difficult topic
Wow. that's insensitive what the nurse said to you. I'm sorry.
I’m so so sorry about what happened to you. This is really awful. Maybe I’ll be a gynaecologist in the future(God Willing) and I’ll make sure to be the most kind and respectful to people who have to go through stuff like this. May Allah(God) make it easy for you
Your experience was traumatic.
Prayers for you, your family and your child in heaven.
Why are medical staff always so cold and mean? I guess that they are numb after everything that they have witnessed during their job but what that nurse said to you was completely out of order! I hope that you move on eventually and accept yourself. I am so sorry♥️
I read somewhere that just because someone else has been through more pain than you, doesn't mean your pain is not bad. That nurse should be fired.
I had a miscarriage during my first pregnancy, I had the miscarriage a week after I found out I was pregnant so it wasn’t as traumatic for me, but I thought something was wrong with me, yet I talked to a few women and realized they’ve had miscarriages in the past too. It’s so common yet nobody talks about it. Thank you for sharing such a personal story with us and spreading awareness. May Allah grant you with your child in jannah❤️
First and foremost, I’m sorry for your loss. We lost our son at 25 weeks. He fought for 10 hours before gaining his wings. Everything you both said is what we’ve said these last 6 months. Till this day I still get, “ oh but you still have other children” or “you can try again”. It has to be the most frustrating part of my grieving process. Any chance I get, I educated them on what should and shouldn’t be said.
Some days are hard, some are harder. Without my husband.. I don’t think I would still be here.
We included him in everything. I never stop talking about him or his story. He is and will always be a part of our family.
We are here for you 💙
Thank you so much!!!! May you indeed be reunited with your precious son again one day!! ❤️
I am very sorry for your loss, I cant imagine how an experience like that would be.
I have a question tho, did she mention how far along she was?
In my younger years I lost two babies. Such a loss is so very difficult especially when there's really no one to talk to about it. I had to soldier on anyway. Now that I'm 70 I find myself still think about them as if I had the chance to hold them in my arms. I know exactly what you are going through and my heart and prayers are with you both. ❤️❤️
I’m so very sorry for your loss. When Will was talking about the loss of his father and how the pain differed it was like it had struck something deep inside of me. I’m only a teenager so I don’t have children but I have furry child(ren).I adopted my cat Rizzo as a kitten almost 5 years ago right before I started 7th grade. We took him to the vet last month for weight loss and was told that there was a growth on his liver that was most likely cancerous and we’d have to put him down. It absolutely gutted me because he was my baby and he was supposed to be with me for at least 10 more years and navigate adulthood with me. We put him down three weeks ago today. I felt that loss even deeper than I had ever felt the loss of my grandfather in 2020. I felt like there was something wrong with me for feeling his loss deeper than that of my own grandfather and saying that your child’s (furry in this case for me) loss is ok to feel deeper than that of a parent or grandparent made me feel so much relief. When you guys talked about how having other children does not takeaway the pain of losing this specific child I related again. I adopted another kitten a week ago yesterday to help myself heal and have that companionship but the feelings of happiness and love he brings doesn’t replace the feelings of loss and sorrow I will always feel about Rizzo.
So thank you guys again for just having these explanations that let me know that this guilt over how I’ve been grieving was not needed and that how I am grieving is ok just meant so much to me. I wish you all the best in grieving your loss and know you are loved ♥️.
This comment deserves a like, so beautifully said…also, sorry for your loss 😢
Sometimes I randomly scroll down and read other’s comments and stories because you never know when you’ll across one that may help you in any way.
This is so sad. I'm sorry for your loss. My pets are my children too as well as my child. Loss is loss whether they are furry or not. I'm glad your pet had you as a pet parent.... you sound like you love your pet so much.
I hope it does get easier for you and time heals 💕🙏🥺
@@Jerseybaby19 I did my best for him and just wish he could have been around longer. The kitten I adopted has helped me heal tremendously but it’ll never fully heal especially because of the way and how quickly he basically declined will forever be etched into me. I know he loved me and I loved him dearly so that’s what counts at the end of the day.
What a blessing to have a husband that is as emotionally invested in the pregnancy and loss as the mother is, and is so supportive and understanding of the physical effects on his wife. Praying for healing for you both. ♥️
I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost a baby last year, and you are correct, it’s not talked about enough. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. Your family is in my prayers. ❤️
Prayers to you and your baby 🥺
It feels weird to like a video that is so emotionally loaded. Please understand the likes as love and encouragement and support for you while you grieve and integrate these events into your lives. Thank you for sharing about Emaan with us.
I never knew until much later that my mom had a miscarriage between me and my older sister. She didn’t talk about it for many years due to the trauma. I didn’t know until I was about 13-14 and even tho I never knew this sibling, I felt a loss and grief I didn’t except. All the love and prayers to both of you and your daughters.
my mother too had to deal with all 4 of her miscarriages mentally, alone, due to my father being emotionally distant. she was blessed with 10 children after her first 3 miscarriages, and the 1 more miscarriage after her last son, my youngest brother. you guys are so very strong to come on this platform and talk openly about how hard it is. much love to you both, and to your 3 children❤
I’m so sorry for the loss of your baby 💔🥺 we lost our daughter, at 39 weeks in 2020 and not a single day goes by that we do t think of her and miss her. Sending you guys a big hug! Never stop talking about your baby, it helps 💛
"As Muslims, we live a life of purpose and we go through life with tests and Allah test those he loves the most". Everything you said about faith ❣️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️❣️❣️❣️❣️.
May Allah comfort you, grant you ease and shower you with his blessings from now on.
A good friend of me said something I can’t forget. You loved and wanted this child, but Allah wanted and loved this child more 🥺 He had bigger and better plans for Emaan. «They plan, And Allah plans. And surely Allah is the Best of planners» ❤️ Sending a lot of love. And as a nurse myself, it hurts to hear how they met you guys. In this field sympathy, and empathy is the most important qualities we HAVE to have. But sometimes it is hard for some of my colleauges to look behold the diagnose, and actually see the human being there. Volunarable and hurt. Thanks for the reminding, may Allah give you shifa 🤲
I am so sorry for your loss and the experience of dealing alone. (As an ER nurse in the US it was one of the hardest things to have a patient suffering and dying without a loved one. But this was the first year of COVID not now). I watch you as a Christian and was tying to learn about others and their beliefs. I do always feel such peace and love while watching you and how you speak about your community and to each other. May you find shalom sharing your story.
I’m deeply sorry for your families loss 😢 I had a miscarriage 3 years ago , it’s one of the most painful things you can go through. I still grieve my baby. Your right though their is some sweetness in all of this , knowing your baby is in heaven and that you will be reunited one day , and what a sweet reunion it will be. Sending all my love to your family ♥️
Though I've never had a miscarriage, I lost my infant Son, Hunter, when he was just 4 days old. I am thinking of your family as that was the absolute hardest part of my life. I miss my baby boy and just want to hold him even for only a moment and this was 20 years ago now.
I'm sorry for your lose
I’m giving you well wishes on this long journey of healing. ❤️
Many blessings back
May your pain be eased some time! As someone who hasn’t kids I can not imagine what you guys are going through as a family.
It’s so beautiful that you honour your baby this incredible way!
It’s so important to talk about it, so thank you, that you’re brave enough to be so open about this topic, especially at a time where you’re still processing what actually happened.
I'm so sorry for what happened!
May Allah reunite you with your daughter in Janaa!
Thank you for being strong, kind, and lovely!
Thank you for your love and support
@@SalehFamily We're one family 💜
Sana looks like she completely lost her old sparkle.. I hope she finds it again❤️ I’m so sorry for your loss
In the US, many states have passed or are attempting to pass laws that may require mothers who lose a child in pregnancy prove they did not do anything to cause their baby to die. The incredible pain of the loss may be compounded by accusations and by legal authorities investigating a mother in her time of deepest pain.
This is exactly why your voices, dear friends, are so incredibly important. I thank you for having the courage and compassion to share your pain and your hearts.
Know we honor your family and your sadness. We are grateful for your openness in this time of greatest sorrow. Our hearts are with yours.
I’m so so sorry for your loss. I am 24 weeks pregnant now with my first child. A son we’ve named Everett. But, because of his severe heart condition, he will pass soon after he is born. There’s nothing we can do but hold him and show him all the love we can possibly give to him for the brief moments that he is here. My heart and prayers are with you both and your families now. I know this is not easy. It’s beyond hard losing a baby. God Bless you both❤️
I just read your comment and cried for you. I will keep you in my prayers.
I’m so sorry to read this and I really hope you had the comfort and support needed. Wishing you peace ❤
I'm so sorry for your loss. I know your baby is interceding from heaven for you. As a Catholic, I believe that Joseph and Mary are our spiritual parents, and I'm sure that they are wrapping their arms around your baby and your family as well. May God be close to you in this sorrow.
I am so sorry for your families loss and I want to thank you for sharing your story.
I still struggle with the grief of losing my son, he would be 7 next month. I am thankful to hear people speaking out about their truth in this tragic situation.
Love to you all 💜
Edited to add, I donated what I was able to in the name of my baby boy, Ciaran Azmodel 💜
I've been crying for the entirety of the video. i am so sorry for your loss. So sorry for your traumatic experience with losing your child and for how you were treated by hospital staff during an already traumatic time.
I hope you get to heal from this
So so sorry for your loss. ❤️ We suffered a miscarriage around the same time, subhanAllah. I pray Allah SWT gives your hearts ease and answers all of your duas in the best way for you. 🤲🌸
I wish to tell you that I am very much Christian but have found your gentleness and kindness to be a breath of fresh air, I have followed you through this journey and have waited for this update. I am so very sorry for your loss and see how the way you have had to go through it is unbelievable- and once again you tell your story with grace. I pray that you find the peace that passes all understanding and the Lord blesses you not with a replacement child but with one that brings joy to your beautiful family. May you walk with the load a little lighter knowing that there are many out here are praying for you. God bless you.
I just cried throughout this whole video, crying for you and your loss of baby Emaan, crying for the loss of my sisters baby and the pain and suffering she endured after her loss, both emotionally and physically (they had to clean all her insides again, as the baby remains were still in there after surgery, causing her pain), she also contracted meningitis and sepsis and needed a spinal tap and all other issues before she even could come to terms with her loss and what she was feeling. She also had infections and was on antibiotics for months. I am so, sooo sorry and also so very emotional right now watching your honest and beautifully spoken words portraying your journey through the emotional turmoil you went through along with your little girls, who experienced an immense heartbreak so early in their lives. May you all be granted sabrun jameel and a sukoon to get through this difficult time and always remember that baby Emaan is waiting for you at the doors of heaven to take you with her through those gates. I love you both for the sake of Allah and pray He grants you more strength and a beautiful patience. I love how openly you have shared your experiences of a taboo subject that most people don’t want to talk about or don’t know how to talk about, because they can’t find the words. May your journey and your future be bright and beautiful and forever happy 😊😘😍
We have lost our baby number 3 at 12weeks a year ago, only who goes through that can understand. At the moment I am 28weeks pregnant but have been so scared and always worrying it might happen again.. so we didn’t buy anything yet for baby. My prayers are with you guys and may Allah(swt) give you peace from Him in the thought that you will be reunited with baby Emaan inshaAllah.
Much love
My heart is with you and you are in my prayers. In 2020 I had a late miscarriage. It was my first pregnancy. The baby had passed 3 weeks before I started miscarrying at home suddenly. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through. It tested my faith and my marriage, and just destroyed me. Alhamdullilah things slept got better. As I write this comment I’m nursing my little rainbow baby. He’s helped me grow and heal a lot. But it’s not easy. My second pregnancy was so scary. Keep talking about and don’t be afraid to ask for help. You guys are wonderful parents and I wish you nothing but joy
33 years ago, I experienced my first miscarriage. It was my first child and I was shattered.I can relate so well to what you said, Sana, about feeling your body had betrayed you. Waking up one morning with a child inside you, and a mere 24 hours later waking up empty, bereft. 2 years ago, my daughter miscarried her first pregnancy, my first grandchild, and the pain was no less. Sending you love and duaas.
I'm glad you guys really did take the time for yourself and the family.
So heartbreaking seeing someone talk about such a dear loss.
Emaan will be so proud looking down at you 4 and give all the love and protection. Waiting patiently untill you guys be reunited again.
Also thank you for sharing this story in the way you do, really breaking down on all the parts most people don't.
Both mother and father's side are as important to talk about when experiencing a traumatic event like this.
For me, I was only so young having a miscarriage, I never even reflected on that part of my life, just pushed it away and went back to school where no one ever supported me besides my mum gladly.
That part will always hurt in my heart.
I'm just rambling whilst watching.
All the love to you all ❤️
My heart shattered when I saw Sana crying like I can't even imagine going through something like this (I'm still 17 but still). Thank you for sharing your story, ik it wasn't easy. Emaan will be waiting for you in heaven to play with your daughters and you guys too. Stay strong and my well wishes are always with you❤
My grandparents had 5 children. One died a couple weeks before his first birthday. For decades after this baby died, my grandparents always said they had 5 children but one wasn't with them. Emaan is always your child. She's simply in a different place. I found your channel about a week ago. Thank you.
I'm at a loss for words, all I can say is my heart is truly breaking for you. It's such an important topic to be talking about as it happens to so many people. But also I appreciate how you are sharing both of your experiences. Most times people sort of forget the father, because he didn't carry the baby. I'm sending all my love to all 5 of you ♥️
I absolutely love you videos i have had two miscarriages with no living babies and your strength is amazing makes me want to keep pushing on we may not have the same religion but you inspire me thank you for doing what you do.
I cannot express how sorry I am for you guys. The pain in both of your faces made my heart break. The most lovely couple I've ever come across, I wish you nothing but love. You'll never ever forget something like this but I hope in time you will heal. You'll always have your precious baby with you ❤
I am so very sorry y’all. My first baby- a little girl was born sleeping in 2/24/1995. She was 27 weeks five days gestation when her cord knot cinched and she was deprived of oxygen. Hardest thing to walk through in my life. Thank you for sharing. This club sucks! We need to talk about the loss we suffer. PrYers for your family!!
Only a parent can decide when they become a parent. I'm like y'all, I loved my children from the first moment regardless if it was the heartbeat or a missed period. I went to the ER in massive pain and the staff was like oh by the way your body is aborting (this is not the term the doctor should have used) the baby come back when you start bleeding. My husband and I were DEVISATED and they didn't even give us a moment, they wanted me dressed and out of their way immediately. I can't imagine going through that without my husband.
Our son did survive so I only know a fraction of the pain that your going through. I know several parents that even though their child has gone to heaven they still do something on the children's birthday (one friend uses the due date as her baby girl's birthday)
what they do is different for every parent. Grief is so personal but I think it's great that your both talking about it!
I'm so sorry for your loss. I've seen and personally experienced how hard the loss of a baby is. I've never experienced it as a parent, but I have experienced it as a sister. I'm the second oldest of 8, and at the anatomy scan of the 7th baby, they found a lot of fluid surrounding his heart, lungs, and brain. They had surgery to place shunts in his sides to drain some of the fluid. When he was born, he was immediately placed into the NICU. After 7 days, his organs were failing and his little body gave up. It was so incredibly hard. Not only did I have to deal with my own grief, but I had to help explain what happened to my younger siblings and comfort them through their grief while my parents were dealing with their own grief. He would be 6 years old now, and is talked about all of the time in our house. Even my youngest brother, Silas, who was born just days shy of a year after Joseph passed away, talks about his big brother all the time and how he wishes he could have met him.
Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'oon. May his soul rest in peace. May Allah give you the strength to bear this pain. Indeed Allah does not burden a soul beyond it can bear. And indeed with every difficulty, is ease. Lots of prayers for you.
Thank you for sharing your story. Someone very close to me has 2 children, and had 7 miscarriages after the 2 healthy pregnancies. Very grateful for the insight 🙏
The Messenger of Allah (صلى الله عليه وسلم) said, “By the One in Whose hands is my soul, the miscarried fetus will drag his mother to paradise by his [umbilical] cord if she was patient [with the miscarriage], hoping to be rewarded.” [Ahmad] 💙
Thank you for sharing so many things came up for me.
1st sending love.
I had a my 1st miscarriage yrs ago. Our 1st baby.
I started to lose the baby at church, which created many thoughts and emotions. We went to hospital and were told we would lose the baby, sent home to do it there. My husband left me on the couch to go play hockey, you are blessed to have a man that respects and values so much.
I did end up in hospital the next day where surgery was done. There was no supports in place to help me understand the emotions and had depression for a period of time.
Since then I had several miscarriages and have new doctors and support. I wanted family, and eventually had 2 beautiful children. Thank you lord.
I am so sorry for all you have been through, and for all you continue to go through. The trauma of losing a child is one I wouldnt wish on my worst enemy, and yet you have shown such bravery telling your story and wanting to use it to help others. You truly are an inspiration, although I am sure it doesnt feel like it right now.
I will keep your whole family in my prayers, in my thoughts, and in my heart.
You both are in my prayers, it's more than difficult when there's no defined way of how to handle a tragedy such as yours. I know it must be terrifying every second when the thoughts don't stop. I know that feeling, I want to let you know I have so much gratitude for how tremendously strong you both are for sharing your story. I think in the way you explained this covered so much importance that gets overlooked.
When you mentioned the Lack of empathy you experienced during this trauma from medical I can relate from my experience. We were judged, talked about etc..
I know how hard this was, and still is.. Myself along w you believe Allah works in mysterious ways, and he has a plan for all of us. Even during our darkest times and all we can do is ponder why. I want to send you and your family all the love in the world, and let you know you have my support as well as others
Soo sorry for your loss...we are praying for you all ❤ InShaaAllah you guys will reunite in Jannah. May Allah bless you.
I want a marriage like this so bad. Bless you both and your beautiful family ❤️❤️❤️
I wish the best for you guys ❤️ Just know that your baby has went home, to jannah.
I just found your channel and stumbled across this video … one of our daughters was stillborn almost 3 years ago and I can relate to what people say to you after. “Be grateful”, “it probably happened for a reason”… the worst thing was “she probably left because there was something really wrong with her and she was saving you from a life of hardship.” - I wouldn’t care, I’d take her being here and the hardship over the hole in our lives without her in a second if I had a choice!! People are insensitive.
Re policies … my daughter died BECAUSE of the policies … dont get me started …
I’m so sorry for your loss of Eman and Congratulations on your beautiful boy Yusuf and blessings to your family xx
I’m so sorry for your loss, Emaan will always be with you ❤️ take time to heal, take time to yourselves, grieve how you need to grieve. I went through 2 losses before having my son and I still cry over my other two babies. I’m so sorry for your traumatic experience as well, what the tech and OB office did is horrible as well as the hospital. I hope you both find your peace and find comfort in each other and your daughters as well ❤️
Seriously can’t imagine a better pair of parents for a child to be given. You are both incredible. Prayers for your family ❤️❤️❤️
I’m sorry for the immeasurable loss your family is going through and how you were treated. No person should experience any of that. But thank you for talking about it. Thank you for sharing your experience and taking a step toward ending the stigma. Much love to you all.
My heart and prayers go to you from a mom who's had miscarriages and trying to memorialize 2 children I lost in August. Hang tough, stay strong. Biggest virtual hugs to you both.
I am so sorry for your loss. Sending all of my love to you and your beautiful family.
I am so sorry for your loss, my heart breaks for you 😢💔 and the fact that the hospital made you go through all of it alone is just so infuriating! I hope you’re on your way to healing, physically and mentally. You are honoring your sweet baby in a wonderful way. Bless you all❤️
Omg im so sorry for you guys :( may allah reunite you guys with your daughter in jannah ameen! Sending all my love and prayers 💗
As I was listening to your story, it was like listening to mine...from the circumstances of a missed miscarriage, to the compounded trauma caused by COVID restrictions, to the medical complications afterwards. I'm so sorry for your loss, and for the trauma and hurt your family has experienced. I've enjoyed watching your videos and learning about your culture and religion, and I wish you the best.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a child is the worst thing ever. Sending you prayers and love to you all xxx
Thank you for making this video. Today marks 1 month since I lost my son at 24 weeks. I’ve been suffering in silence trying to be strong for everyone else and I feel like coming across this video was a sign that I’m going to be okay. It was the most traumatic experience in my entire life and I can relate to this video so much even as a non Muslim. Thank you for validating my feelings. I hope that you are blessed again in the future and I pray for your strength!
Sorry to hear that!!😢 Everything will be fine. Inshallah 🤲
I am so sorry you had to go through this. I have also been through a traumatic missed miscarriage in the spring of 2021. I understand your pain 💜 I had hemorrhages and many visits to the hospital, as well my body did not want to release my baby.
I wasn't aware that miscarriage was so common until I had one. I learned then that the majority of the females in my family have had at least 1; my mum had 2 in between my younger sister and I. It should definitely not be a taboo subject.
My mum miscarried twins last year on the 15th of Feb, although she was early on in her pregnancy it was still very heart breaking and honestly I'm happy to know that we didn't go through this alone. I'm so sorry for your loss, may Allah grant your family peace with the loss of your baby Emaan :)
I am sooo sorry for your loss. You guys are such good people. On the water wells. I knew someone that built wells in Southeast Asia mostly Cambodia. She spent several years there, had left and came back. When she came back what she discovered was that the locals dismantled ALL of the wells and either sold them or repurposed the materials. Evidently, they didn't want the clean drinking water. I don't know if there is any way at all that you can vet a community out before installing the wells to make sure they won't do the same. Perhaps you can check with the contractor that can certify that they will actually vet them out. I'd hate for you to visit the wells someday and find that they are no longer there.
That is so sad that you guys lost the baby. I haven’t been on social media for a while so I had no idea. You guys will one day see Emman in Heaven. I’ll be praying for you guys❤️
Thank you so much for sharing. When I went through my miscarriage it was early trimester. Like you guys said there’s no one talking. My gp service and the nurses had advised my husband not to talk about it. So I was left to my own devices. Like any other parent you never forget about your loss pregnancy. There was one kind nurse who came to me and spoke with me. I had asked her what the hospital did with the embryo/ child. And she said that they dispose of them. But she wrote in my notes to bury it in the ground rather than being binned or burned. Only just because My religion (Islam). That was the last I heard of the baby. Even to this day I don’t think my husband is aware of the burial. I soon fell pregnant again (in medical terms a rainbow baby) but the pregnancy made me drift away from everyone including my husband, only just I didn’t get the support I needed at the time. Now because of the experience I’m very apprehensive about who I talk/ trust unfortunately. I wish I could but this is my reality.
Thank you for sharing so openly ♡ It is not an easy thing to do, but in talking we will change the future for those coming after us! We have had 4 losses, 1 of which was a missed miscarriage - it is definitely an incredibly heartwrenching experience. Sending hugs ♡ I would highly recommend checking out Project Robby - Amanda is amazing and can give you a keepsake for Emaan - she also does grief coaching and I can 100% say that working with her changed my life after our losses
Its absolutely the biggest loss in life I have ever experienced and the most traumatic. I don't think anyone who hasn't experienced this can understand the loss you feel in your soul.... its a deep ache that you can feel physically.
I wish you all the luck and the best in life... I'm so glad you have faith to help you through 🙏💗 I'm so sorry.
Edit- my miscarriage was extremely traumatic and the nurses just didn't care either. It's disgusting. They shouldn't be in the health care field when their attitudes are so dismissive.
I heammoraged and almost died because the nurse wouldn't listen to me. I won't tell you what else they did because it is so vile.
They make it so much harder. I'm in tears for you. I couldn't imagine going through all that as far on in my pregnancy as you were. Awful.
My husband and I suffer from infertility and are finally pregnant with our miracle baby via IVF. Both my sister and sister in law lost babies at 27 weeks. I completely agree with you. Our community just does not talk about loss and infertility enough. It took a lot for me to finally start going to therapy. Going through my fertility journey was gut wrenching and watching my sister and sister in law go through what they went through was horrific. We need that help! Thank you for speaking out ❤️❤️. May Allah swt bring you solace during these trying times and raise your ranks in Jannah ❤️.
Please just have faith and take progestrone you will be fine
My heart breaks for your loss and I'm so sorry for the way you both were treated at the hospital. I've donated in memory of your baby and also in memory of the babies my sister has lost. I'm honored to get be a part of it.
extremely devastated to hear about your loss, i pray Allāh heals your broken hearts and reunites you all with your beautiful baby soon❤️
I am so sorry to hear of your loss and wanted to thank you for sharing. I had two miscarriages before my oldest was born 22 years ago. Both were ectopic pregnancies and both required surgery. I still remember them as if they happened yesterday and I still cry. My HCG levels remained high up to six weeks after each and my emotions were all over the board. I was mad at God, at myself, at my husband, and at the poor babies. I got upset when people apologized and upset when they didn't.
I live in Alberta and I can honestly say the nurses were good but I had issues with a few ER doctors and one tech with the first one. I won't go into all the details, but I woke up in intense pain and my husband rushed me to the ER. They triaged in on time and pushed me to the top of the last. The doctor on duty basically told me that because I wasn't bleeding and it was my first pregnancy, to go home, use a hot compress and take some Tylenol because it was either muscular or a bladder infection. It was the nurse who, after the doctor left, said she would make sure my file was left open and that I should go in if I started spotting or the pain got worse. Three hours later I went home and the pain had stopped.
I started spotting at 7 am, got into ER and waited 10 hours before I was told I had an ectopic and needed surgery. During that time the spotting turned into heavy bleeding, the pain came back, and I had two ultrasounds. I had three ER doctors looking in on me before an OB could come in because we were short at the time. It was the Ultrasound tech who, very ignorantly, told me I had no baby and my uterus was filled with blood so "it" had died and I could go back to my room. He left me in the wheelchair by myself before a nurse came and got me.
During this while time my husband was by my side. I knew he was worried so I never told him how heavy I was bleeding, how much pain I was in or what the tech had said. It wasn't until the first OB came in at three that afternoon and said she suspected a miscarriage that he knew what was happening. I knew about three hours in but I tried to focus on him. At 5 pm the specialist came in, told us what an ectopic pregnancy was, that my fallopian tube had ruptured and that I needed surgery immediately.
The nurses were amazing. I was put on the maternity ward, in a private room. My second day after surgery, I was eating breakfast and I started to cry and couldn't stop. A nurse came in and held me for twenty minutes, told me about her loss and said I would heal but it would take time. She also said it was okay to cry or not too cry and to be angry. When I told her I was angry with God, she told me that was okay because he was all forgiving and felt what I felt.
Needless to say, I recovered but it was a long recovery. I went through the same thing almost a year later but this time I caught it early enough to only need laparoscopic surgery. 13 months after my last surgery I gave birth to my, now, 22 year old son, 14 months later my daughter and SIX years later my youngest son.
When you mentioned 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage that didn't surprise me at all. At the time I had my first one the statistics were 1 in 250, 000 were ectopic but after a woman has her first ectopic the stats become 1 in 25. I don't think people know how common miscarriages are or understand what happens.
I said I wouldn't go into details but apparently I did. Sorry, this was so long. Again, I offer my sympathy and a thank you to you both. I have been following you since COVID began and I am a huge fan. I am sending good thoughts and many prayers and a promise that it will get better.
She is an amazing big sister!❤️
I’m so sorry for you’re loss! 💔❤️
My thoughts and prayers are with you guys sending you love from Ireland!
Rip Iman!❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost a baby in 2013. I had a very hard time afterwards too. I'm glad you are sharing this because I know it will help others going through it. My thoughts and prayers are with your family as you go through this.
Truly sorry for your loss, sending lots of love from the uk. Thank you for sharing something so personal and raising awareness. You are truly amazing. Your baby will always be with you xxxx
First of all thank you so much for your courage in sharing your story and I’m so sorry for your loss 😓Nobody deserves such a terrible tragedy in their lives.
I’ve never experienced a miscarriage myself so I can’t even begin to imagine how terrible it could be to lose a child.
And I just can’t understand why some people hurt a family that’s going through such a difficult time with their words.☹️
PS: I have one small remark. Please don’t compare somebody else’s trauma with your personal experience labeling theirs as “less painful”. This just invalidates their emotions 🥺
Acknowledging the fact that for a woman who’s gone through multiple miscarriages, each one of them can result in PTSD and be just as traumatic for them as your experience was/is for you, is healing for everybody ❤️🩹
It's alright , I'm glad that you've accepted Allah's decision. May allah bless you with bunch of happiness and best wishes for Amina and Zeinab
I discovered your channel recently and I found you all so happy and fierce. I had no idea what was hidden behind these smiles. May Allah ease your pain and give patience to your children. I can feel their pain. I have lost 5 brothers and it's never easy to comprehend and deal with this kind of loss. May Allah help you in this trial.
I am so sorry for your loss.
“Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un” (“Verily we belong to Allah, and truly to Him shall we return”). May Allah give you Sabr and strength. Sending lots of prayers and love your way ❤️ 😘.
Hi. I have been following you all for a while but this is the first time have seen this video. I went through the same thing 30 years ago and have 2 growing up sons now. But it had taken me some time to get over what happened and i never forget what happened. There was never somewhere to go and talk about it. It was my family and friends that helped me a lot. Lots of love to you both and in my prayers xx
Thank you for summoning the strength and courage to share Emaan’s story with us. I am so so sorry for your family’s loss. We have had four losses ourselves and every single one broke us in ways I can’t even begin to explain. But Alhumdulillah, each loss also brought us closer to Allah SWT and I have hope knowing that my babies are playing in Jannah and that InshaAllah we will be reunited with them soon. May Allah SWT bless you both for taking this wonderful initiative and I pray that you and your sweet girls find your beautiful smiles again soon InshaAllah. ♥️
This is really awful. I am so sorry for your loss. May Allah make it easy for you to cope with this experience and give you guys shif’a, Sum Ameen. Allah cares and values about your patience(sabr). It is really helpful that you guys as Muslims are talking about miscarriage. My mom went through a miscarriage too and randomly brought it up. I was sooo shocked, and I could see the pain in her face when talking about it even though it happened over a decade ago. May Allah bless you and take care of your family. ❤️
Sending your family so much love. I am so sorry that those medical professionals failed you, no doubt that caused even more trauma. Wishing you a better recovery than you've had so far 💓
As-salamu alaykum. May Allah make this time easy for you. I myself went through a miscarriage in August this year, and apart from the emotional trauma, which is immense in itself, it was the physical trauma too to deal with. (I also had one last year, but this one had more impact on as I was further along). I too had to bear the news that my baby had dies in my stomach, then waited , went into labour , delivered my tiny baba in my bathroom. then I was given abortion meds, went through labour again many times over. I then had to have a procedure , to pump out remnants from my uterus, uterine evacuation. It was also my first ever time being admitted to hospital and being put under full anaesthetic, so I was very nervous, anxious, scared etc. I am so sorry for the way it all played out as well with your health care, and health care providers. I can relate to this too all the way from South Africa. You would think women would be more understanding and empathetic/sympathetic even. But I was met with so many degrees of reactions from really good responses to zero acknowledgement. The one thing that this highlighted to me is that it needs more awareness, less taboo, and more people need to learn basic tact and care and kindness when it comes to this kind of loss. Especially immediate family.
Listening to you two brought tears in my eyes. May Allah grant you both and your daughters strength to go through and pass this difficult test. Ameen 💖 And as Will rightly said, you daughter Emaan was sent as a blessing for you two, as a pathway to Jannah. She will be waiting at the gates of Jannah to ask Allah to bring her parents to her. Subhan Allah, how beautiful is this mercy of Allah. ❤ Sending your family love and duaas.
Am so sorry for your loss, may Allah give you strengths. I myself have had several miscarriages before having my rainbow baby. I completely understand no one wanted to speak about it and I did not have any support from family but my husband was my wall/rock. People say things that are insensitive cos they do not know or are not tuned to react to these situations because it is something that is not addressed. I will always remember you in my duas and ask Allah to give you and your family sabr x
Sorry to hear of you’re loss. I’ve suffered 5 miscarriages and know the pain you’re going through 🥰🥰may allah give you sabr
Thank you so much for talking about this. It’s so important for people to know they are not alone in both celebration and grief. There are many support groups for woman but not for men dealing with miscarriage. I’ve seen my husband of 23 years cry twice. The first time was when I miscarried at 16 weeks during our honeymoon in the Dominican Republic. I actually caught the baby while sitting on the toilet. I freaked out and was bleeding so bad. Neither of us spoke Spanish not one word and trying to talk to the doctor at the resort was so frustrating. He came up to the room to give me a shot to stop the bleeding went into the bathroom to see the after math then told my husband to flush the toilet. Yep this was happening while I was still birthing tissue on a towel in the floor. After this my husband went into our walk in closet for 5 minutes. I didn’t know what was going on but later found out he went into the closet to deal with the fact he just flushed his baby down the toilet and to stop crying to be strong for me. I started bleeding the next day and was taken to a hospital the following day by ambulance. The doctor dropped the I e bag in my face. The ambulance stopped for gas on the way to the hospital all I remember is this older like 60 year old nurse was rubbing my stomach and singing to me in Spanish the whole hour drive to the hospital.
At the hospital they separated me from my husband and I didn’t know what was going on. I couldn’t understand what they were saying. They started stripping my clothes off. And they put something in my IV and it burned so bad I thought it was poison and I was going to die. I started screaming and they held me down to the bed and there was this big bright light hanging above me. Then I woke up in another room covered in bright orange iodine in so much pain I just wanted to shower and there were bugs on my shower curtain.
I found out from the vacation rep who showed up at the hospital and spoke English that they did a D and C and removed a second baby. My doctor had put off my ultra sound until after my vacation so I didn’t even know it was twins. Within a few hours of was on a plane balling my eyes out back to Canada. When I got home I went to our hospital and because I had had surgery in the DR they were treating me as if I was infected with everything. 5 different antibiotics. There was lots of support from family and friends but the most common thing I heard is “it’s ok you can always have more kids” which doesn’t diminish the fact that I lost these 2. No one was there to help my husband to this day, be it 23 years later is still traumatized by what the doctor made him do. I have since had 4 children but I am a mother of 6 and always will be ❤️ and we only vacation where people speak English. You are not alone and his life matters and will always matter because he did and does exist ❤️and I do believe beyond a shadow of a doubt you will be reunited some day and forever. 🤗
I am so sorry for your loss, sending many preys your way. I lost my little boy at 39 weeks pregnant, I love how even though your both going through something so difficult you are raising awareness in the culture, so selfless and kind of you both. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
My thoughts are with you x
So sorry for your loss 🙏🏽😔
I am so so sorry. So sorry. I can’t believe the hospital treated you like that. I am so sorry for your loss, I don’t know what you believe to be heaven but from my faith, I hope Emaan is at peace and I know baby is being held by the angels xxxx