The Truth About Where We've Been...
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- Опубликовано: 23 авг 2024
- In this video we sit down and get honest with you guys about where we've been the past couple months and why we haven't been posting as much. We talk about many hard topics and struggles we face living with chronic illness bot mental and physical.. its a heavy video but hopefully some of you will relate and known youre not alone 🖤 thank you for always supporting us and feel free to vent in the comments !!
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wow I am absolutely shocked at the amount of you guys that deal with the same issues and then some !! It both warms my heart that we have an understanding community that is here to support one another, and makes me sad that so many ppl are struggling.. somehow we’ve all found eachother and that’s the what keeps us going. yea dealing with this stuff is shitty but it’s so worth It to know that we can make even 1 person feel more “normal” and not alone. thank you all for opening up in the comments and sharing, bc It truly helps me more than you could ever know. life has been hard and reading some of your comments gives me hope! thanks again and let’s keep this convo going !! -mackie 🖤
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I hope you know your subscribers understand. You should always focus on personal healing before trying to satisfy everyone else. I'm sure most of us would rather see you both happy and healthy rather than seeing you suffer through videos you feel forced to make. Peace and love.
Mackie and Amanda you are not alone and thank you for letting me know that we are also not alone.❤
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Trauma is the root cause for so many issues. My wife is an alcoholic and wasn’t able to get sober until she dealt with her complex ptsd. She went through hell for 18 months before things started getting better, she is coming up on 2 years sober. I’m so glad you are both doing what you need for yourselves. Keep fighting, it’s worth it.
My wife and I are both recovering alcoholic’s (8years) she was sexually assaulted twice by a neighbor when she was 12 and was not able to talk about it with her very strict LDS family , then while in high school it happened again. Needless to say she developed anxiety,agoraphobia,depression and so on. But today and after many great AA meetings she and I are really enjoying life together even after 43 years together. Stay strong and remember AA is always free and it really works if you work it.
My mom is an alcoholic and I can tell she's got her fair share of unresolved childhood traumas, but she doesn't believe in getting professional help. So a genuine congratulations to you both for your personal recovery and/or the recovery of the woman in your life. Hope my mom can find that strength one day and live her life authentically and freely.
I have suffered from chronic pain since I was 9 in 1975. I have needed large doses of pain medicine since then. It is hard to deal with, but you can live a full life with it. I had a great career, I have traveled around the world and have been happily married for 25 years and have raised an amazing family. It is not always easy, but it is possible. You already have the right attitude. Do not let chronic pain define you.
70’s kid here too and wow . Stay strong and you’re not alone .
It took my doctor's three years to listen to me about my chronic pain 😢.
It took from 26 to 43 years of age until I was diagnosed, someone finally paid attention, tested me for a specific autoimmune in a suspicion and it came back positive. A diagnosis (although scary) is such a relief and gives a path and hope. I’m happily married 25 years with two adult amazing boys. You can live a full life with chronic pain. 1970 baby here🙋🏼♀️
Fun fact you're almost as old as my mom she was born in 65!
@@lisachiappetti6092 I’m 57 my beautiful kid .
as a fellow young woman who suddenly developed pains that no one can diagnose.. (oh and hella anxiety) its comforting to hear stories from other women, im not alone
we're all strong, i hope everything keeps heading in the right direction for you both ♥
It's a pretty common thing that happens post viruses unfortunately. So many people don't realize how dodgy viruses are for chronic stuff in the long term. Including that recent virus that came out in 2020 onwards per each reinfection even of the acute feels mild. Hope you go well.
Arthritis, fibromyalgia, degenerative disc disease, anxiety, depression.
Yes I get it.
Just a few reasons why I send positive energy to you both.
Love peace gratitude and healing energy. 🙏💞🙏🌀☮️
I have the same as you so I feel your pain...but I stay positive everyday no matter how bad it gets!
@@tanyamalone1484 yes 🙌🤗💞🌀🙏
Keeping you in my prayers!
Same
I completely understand all of this! Arthritis, fibromyalgia, degenerative disc disease, depression, anxiety, shingles, thalassemia anemia….sheesh, I can seriously go on. I’ve had to have iron infusions so I understand how difficult and long infusions are. I pray for you both because I understand the struggle. Love you both ❤
Whew. I get it.
I thought my chronic pain from degenerative disc disease was bad enough, but then I lost my husband in 2019, he was only 31 - we only got 12 short short years together. And the horrific toll my grief has taken on my body was something I never expected. Ive aged 10 years or more in the almost 5 years since. It's all I can do to just try to be a good mom to our kids, all alone.
I sincerely wish relief to everyone else suffering. 🖤
I'm so sorry for your loss ❤️ I also have DDD and it is terrible. Any stress and I get a bad flare up. Im a single mother and my son has epilepsy and autism. It's hard but not impossible. It sure feels that way sometimes though
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Oh my goodness, I thought I wrote this... until I got to your husband's age. I have DDD and chronic pain. My husband passed away in 2020 at 45 years old. We had 18 years together. Entirely too short!
(((Hugs))) sending prayers for you.
Prayers 🙏 and hugs 🤗
Damn I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Only the best people die young. Prayers to you and your family.
I'm a cancer survivor, a wheelchair user, and a RUclipsr, so I can relate to this and trying to balance everything, especially when you're monetized and/or have a following. There is definitely added pressure because not only are you trying to maintain your channel from that perspective, but you also start to feel like you're letting people down somehow... but taking care of yourself is always the most important thing.
Healing trauma is draining. You've been working through it, Mackie, and I hope you are extremely proud of yourself for doing so.
I hope you both realize how much you are helping all of us. You are normalizing talking about challenges. You are normalizing taking breaks to care for oneself. It's huge. Thank you. ❤
I wish I could love this comment 8 trillion times!!!!! ❤
I want to add: I originally found your channel back when I first started going through my own trauma healing, and there was something oddly comforting about watching you guys hunt ghosts and shed light on "dark" things while I was going through my stuff and fighting my own "demons" if you will lol. So thank you for doing what you do!
Happy for your new house Amanda! I know you probably just moved in... But put a battery in the smoke alarm already 😂
Came here to say the same, it's soooo distracting 😅 also think it was doing that the last time 😱
I said the same thing 😂
I was just about to advise this! Lol
Right??? Lol that chirp is so loud
Mackie, I feel you! Graves disease sucks... I was diagnosed when I was about 17, and then there were several complications during treatment - allergic reactions, unable to operate due to physical problems, so I ended up getting radiation treatment and now it's a constant battle to keep the hormone levels right.
Hang in there!
Amanda - hang in there too hun! I've heard how terrible chronic pain is.
Remember to always take care of yourselves ladies! 🌸
I legit thought of you guys earlier. I was like, they haven't uploaded in a bit. I'm glad you both are back, y'all are amazing.
Same. I kept looking at my notifications wondering if I'd missed something. Glad they are back.
Like Amanda said your health( mental, physical, emotional, and even spiritual health) is very important and takes priority. I’m so happy that you guys are doing well (getting better). Looking forward to what’s to come. Love you ladies ❤
I was in a workplace accident 24 years ago and as a result have multiple spinal injuries which are un-operable, been on mst that helps for the duration, but now after 7 years of telling my GP I have a problem and being blanked, I am awaiting a MRI scan to confirm I have Crohn’s disease (the specialist got the diagnosis wrong in 1995) and I had a flare up on December 26th and still in debilitating pain. Here in the UK you don’t get help or advice on how to manage the condition unless you are confirmed by a specialist. My advice is if you have a problem keep pushing with your doctor till they listen and make a diary of symptoms and times off the problem, it helps them to see how it effects your life
Anxiety for sure! And I’ve been walking around my house trying to figure out which smoke alarm is out. Turns out they’re all good!
I've been dealing with chronic pain for the last 10 years and I'm 60 years old and I also have anxiety.
I haven't had since i was 10 years old and I've had shingles that is very painful.
I was born in 1963 so i did have all those children disease in the 70s.
I even broke my arm when i was 10 years old. 😢 As we have learned from the pandemic we need to take care of ourselves.
Sending love and prayers to you young ladies and everyone here who is dealing with medical issues. 🙏🏻 🤍🙏🏻🤍
I've been going through a healing journey of my own, working on healing chronic physical and mental health issues. A HUGE part of that has been working through and healing deep-rooted traumas. It's TOUGH dude!! But so worth it. To everyone going through it: know that you're not alone. Give yourself the time and grace it takes to heal. Remember to love and take care of yourself because you're worth it ❤
Last year i found out i have graves disease, its no joke. 😢 graves can also trigger anxiety! Hope you guys feel better soon! Best wishes! Glad ur taking care of yourselves!❤
I have suffered from agoraphobia and anxiety for so long. Lately, I've had bad back pain. I'm so glad you are both okay boos, take time to heal. We all love you guys 🖤🖤
Happy to see you guys back. We get it, I get it I have fibromyalgia, chronic pain, mdd and anxiety. It’s hard. Take your time to heal.
Hi Spookyboo's, please know that we all suffer at one time or another so you don't need to explain why you aren't on a set schedule. We will always be standing by !
Mackie, Glad you made it through Covid & sorry to hear about the PTSD. I went through that after the death of a family member & yes, it is like being at the bottom of a dark pit !
Amanda, I am sorry to hear of the chronic pain, although I can empathize as I have Multiple Sclerosis & have suffered a few seizures. I had a very difficult time after my husband passed 7 years ago, unexpectedly, but I was lucky enough to see & hear from him through lucid dreams & visits.
I am sure the Ketamine Infusions will be helpful, as I have had Prednisone & morphine infusions that have helped me greatly. For 8 years I had a Spinal implant, but I developed a septic infection & it had to be removed. Congrats🎊on the house !!
I'm sure your Dad was given the message to help you both feel better & to have something to look forward to !!
God Bless & wishing you love & light in your healing !!❤👻🧡👻
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Don’t ever be ashamed or embarrassed about things you both go through. That’s life. The right people will understand. We all have a story. I just hope your ok ❤
I’m about to start EMDR personal reasons have given me Anxiety Depression and PTSD…I’m really scared. I think hearing you talk about this Mackie has helped ease my stress a little.
hey!! i’m sorry to heard about what you’re going through, but rest assure EMDR has helped me SOO MUCH!! it’s difficult to get through but trust me it’s worth It. slowly but surely takes the edge off. I couldn’t even leave my house a few years ago before I started and after the first session I was out and about ! so don’t be scared, be prepared for a lil anxiety but It won’t be worse than anything you’re dealing with now :)
You're not alone with being scared to start EMDR, I definitely am too. I've known about that type of treatment for a while but I struggle with the stigma that "I'm not that bad, I don't need it, someone else needs it more". Putting forth the effort and accepting help is one of the hardest parts of mental health treatment in my opinion. Keep that drive to get better and be willing to put in the hard work for yourself and slowly things will get lighter ❤️🩹
@@mackiealbertsonn thanks so much Mackie, honestly I delayed my last couple of psychology appointments, I’ve just read this beautiful message from you and will be calling to make an appointment for next week. I really appreciate you taking the time to read and reply to me, it truly means the world. Much love and appreciation, all the way from Australia 🇦🇺 🤍
@@bec2137 thank you so very much for you kind words they mean a lot ☺️ ….. I am going to continue with the help I have come to accept I deserve as well as need. When I am better mentally my plan is to become a Mental Health Counsellor myself, if I can help even just a small amount of people get through some of the atrocities I have endured, that would bring me some much contentment. Maybe I have struggled to be healed and become stronger so I can help others who have been in my situation .
I have been dealing with nonstop pain 24/7 that never lets up! I have Fibromyalgia, back and hip injuries, nerve damage, sciatic nerve pain due to a disc pinching the nerve, etc etc. the list goes on. I also have learned to cope with panic/anxiety attacks. Coping skills go a long way in pain and anxiety! I have a pain specialist I see monthly. I understand what you're going through. It's exhausting and debilitating!
I also had very traumatic experiences and had 'agoraphobia' and PTSD along with panic/anxiety attacks and severe depression for almost 3 years and couldn't even leave my home! It took time but i can go just about anywhere now and the coping skills I've learned are literal lifesavers!!
Anyways im glad yall are bettering yourselves mentally, physically, etc. I've been disabled since 1996 officially.
You girls take all the time you need...
I'm here for either of you if you ever need to talk. ❤❤
I’m so sorry that you have had to go through all of your treatments but am hopeful that it will have good and long lasting results. I understand how hard it is to move through trauma and how much it affects poor health and pain levels in the body and mind. You are not alone! Mental health struggles, along with chronic physical health problems are real and have a huge impact on daily living. I wish you both a very bright future and am glad you took the time to begin your healing process. Thank you for sharing 💕🦋
I'm 57 now, have had pain since I was a kid too. My mom was a great advocate,but we were always told my pain was growing pains. No one would listen. I was diagnosed in my early 20s with osteoarthritis. It was already affecting both ankles, my knees, and my back. It's not an easy life to live, especially since I'm older and the list of conditions just gets longer.
Amanda, I'm hoping you'll find relief, and praying for you 🙏
Congratulations on the new home Amanda! 🎉🥳
I feel your pain, both of you... Like you & others, I've suffered with chronic pain from fybromyalgia, 3 bulging disc's in my lower spine that constantly press on all 4 major nerves that go down my legs, osteoarthritis, migraines & TBI from 5 concussions, carpal Tunnel in both wrists, as well as generalized anxiety disorder, OCD, Social Anxiety, panic & anxiety attacks & C-PTSD & Non 24hr syndrome (a debilitating sleep disorder I was born with), Insomnia, sleep paralysis, nightmares, flashbacks & even agoraphobia after a very traumatic event, every day has been a struggle for decades.
I'm a barrel of messed up lol. Always feeling like a 43 yr old trapped in the body of a 90 yr old... Due to a not so nice life up until 9 yrs ago, when I finally escaped NY & started living on the road full time.
This lifestyle is so helpful, since it's way less stress & Nomads are much more accepting of these thing's.
I went through hell & back for 8yrs of serious treatment from a pain specialist & Amazing Mental health professionals that helped me learn coping skills.
I've been on so many medications, most gave me serious side effects like developing alopecia, another made most of my hair fall out & top it off with a blood clotting disorder I was born with, but nobody new about till it almost killed me at 33, with a DVT that turned into a PE & was misdiagnosed for a wk before I almost died.
Due to it being misdiagnosed for a week, as the clot in my lung grew bigger & bigger, it caused permanent damage to my left lung.
After that I was told it's too risky for me to have any surgery that may help any of these issues & I couldn't take any of the meds that may help either, because they all have a risk of blood clots & my body is already high risk for blood clotting, because my blood is so thick.
Everyone normally has a protein in their blood that keeps your blood thin. My body does not produce that protein. Gummies are a beautiful amazing thing! 😜
You are not alone! But be grateful you can receive treatment & take meds that may help. Imagine being me & not having that option. You just have to suffer through it & fight each day through the pain, in order to have something that resembles a life! 💪
Take whatever time you need to work with the doctors. RUclips isn't going anywhere & niether are your loyal subs like myself! 😉
We just want you to feel better & we will be here waiting & enjoying what ya'll do post when you get the chance. We got you girls! ❤
I have chronic nerve pain, myself, and I can SO understand how hard it is to function in any meaningful way when you're in pain. So much sympathy for both of you - as well as for the emotional/mental stressors that only make everything worse - and I am sending positive and healing vibes your way and hoping things improve for you two awesome folks. Thank you for updating us. 😁👍🏻💞
I’m almost 42 and have been dealing with chronic almost since birth. I was born with scoliosis and there’s pain associated with that. I’ve also had a lot of gynecological issues that have resulted in multiple surgeries, including an upcoming hysterectomy that I’ve wanted for years. People don’t always realize just how much of a toll it takes on the body. Even for those going through it. And the folks that don’t go through it don’t always understand it. I knew what was causing my back pain as a kid. But doctors always said it was growing pains. I didn’t know that feeling like I had pins being shoved into me was because I was growing. I’ve since developed an insane amount of pain tolerance. But I think it was because I was always told that I didn’t really have any major issues. That or I was so used to people, especially doctors, not listening to me that I managed to push it down. Which in the end wasn’t healthy either. I managed to play sports and do competitive dance for a lot of years. Oh, and I have hyper mobility so that probably added to people not believing me. It takes its toll on you eventually. It’s good that you’re both getting the help you need and are addressing it now.
I have chronic pain as well as depression and anxiety. I appreciate that you girls talked about the things you’re going through. I do have to tell you that there is a light in both of you that I have not seen before so know whatever you’re doing is working. Mackie, your smile and laughter has never been so real. I don’t know if everyone else notices that however, to me I have never seen you truly happier. Amanda, congratulations on your new beautiful home. Love you both and always wishing you both the happiness you deserve God Bless
Mackie blending in with the flower pot 😂
take your time healing we all understand, we’re all still be here when your both ready to upload 👻 x
As a mom of children around your ages I am sending you both lots of love!!
The past month and a half I have had a degenerative disc disease flare up. Between C7 and T1. Intensely constant pain in my arm from the nerve being pinched. How you both live with constant pain every day is both so impressive and heartbreaking at the same time. Be well, be safe.
I got diagnosed a few years back with some auto immune disorders. I was devastated but since then things have been okay. With some medicine and good lifestyles I can live a normal life. Some days are better than others and I just gotta stay positive. It can be exhausting some days. I hope you are well and hang in there because you are most definitely not alone!
GOOOD JOB MANDAAAA!!! You too Mackey!
I work in the medical field and have my own situs!!!! 100% RESPECT!!!
I literally was feeling so sorry for myself thinking how unfair it is that I’m agoraphobic, have had panic attacks since age 7/8, and chronic health issues - as a young person it’s so isolating. I literally always felt a connection to you guys but I actually can’t believe this showed up. I can’t thank you enough for talking to us about this. It amazes me - this is exactly what I’ve dealt with too.
I had gotten Shingles in my mid 20's I'm in my 30's now. I still get pain from time to time in the place I had the shingles the pain really doesn't go away fully but the pain isn't as bad as when I first got them. It usually starts hurting when I'm stressed about something because that's how I ended up getting them in the first place because of stress. I am doing good now since I havent had the pain in a while now. It's just crazy how they say shingles really only effects people past their 60's but I have been hearing a lot more younger people are getting shingles now adays. I am glad that both of you are doing better, and I can't wait to see you guys back doing videos again.
Stay Strong Amanda dealing with any kind of disease sucks but I wish you all the best.
I'm so glad to hear that you both are getting treatments that you need. Reading so many comments of others who deal with chronic pain has also helped me not to feel so alone, which is also very sad. I've been dealing with multiple chronic conditions for over a decade. Osteoarthritis, degenerative disc disease, endometriosis, interstitial cystitis, fibromyalgia, IBS, frequent bad headaches, depression, and anxiety.
I spend a lot of time with one heating pad on my back and one on my abdomen hoping for the pain to decrease. I started walking on a treadmill because movement is supposed to help, and it did....until it caused ankle pain, and I had to stop. I'm hoping to figure out a way to get back to it without trading one pain for another. I'm also 47 and perimenopause has kicked in, bringing its own set of pains. It's hard, but my family is very supportive and understanding, always assuring me that I'm not being lazy, I'm taking care of myself. Those reminders really mean a lot.
I hope you both continue to feel better as you work through everything. This is the best thing you could be doing, and I'm so happy that you are! ❤
Girlies, Take all the time you need for yourself! Self-care is so important! I've been living with Chronic illness and pain since I was 13 (I'm 22 now). It's not easy to share, the fear of people judging you or not believing you is real. All too often I get told "You don't look sick" or "It can't be that bad". Just know that there are a lot of people in this community who believe you. Thank you for sharing your stories, it helps to feel less alone. ❤❤❤
Happy for you getting a new home!! My one tip having carpets and cats - invest in one of those awesome carpet shampooer vacuum things. I went years without one and have three aging kitties who get picky about food and vomit annoyingly often and hand scrubbing that stuff was just NOT the funnest with chronic pain so getting a carpet shampooer CHANGED MY LIFE hahaha. It will keep your carpet feeling new for a long time no matter what the kitties do!! I wish you all the good vibes for the new place.
Thank you ladies for catching us up with you two. It takes a lot to share personal stuff with others especially complete strangers. You definitely will be helping others with opening up so thank you for doing that. Much love you two. Glad you two are getting just what you need to help you with your pain. ❤
Be careful with your pain management,i was on pain med for 40 years and it got away from me i realized I was addicted to it,i have been clean for 3 years I feel great just be careful don't fall in the tough spot i was in.
You guys bring only joy, love you!!
Im in treatment for severe complex PTSD from a domestic violence attack by my ex about 2 yrs ago..... EMDR is my goal. I would love to know more about it from your perspective and pros and cons of this treatment from someone whos been thru it....i hear great things from doctors and therapists...but never anyone whos been on the patient side of things.
By the way your videos and many others videos helps me NOT focus on the attack all day every day....i still have 3 or 4 flashbacks every day.bso Mackee i totally get what youre dealing with. Im so sorry youre dealing with it but glad youre in treatment. I just started mine 2 months ago. So long way to go still. But youre not alone. And reach out if you ever need a neutral 3rd party to vent to. Sounds cazy coming from a stranger but i'll be here if you need it.
I’m glad your taking time and focusing on your health
Sending u both LOVE and GRATITUDE for sharing. I'm currently dealing with and trying to heal my chronic pain and healing my childhood trauma, so that's fun, lol. Amanda, I love your ketamine experience, nothing has ever worked for me so I'm gonna try that! Mackie, healing trauma is NOT for the faint of heart, it IS HEAVY work, I keep reminding myself it won't always feel like this (roller coaster)... WE'LL GET THERE! Thank you TWO BEAUTIFUL WARRIORS, proud of you!
I have been dealing with chronic illness for months so I can sympathize with you a lot. it's really good to step away and focus on yourself. never let a career or people make you feel guilty. the real people will stick by!!
IM GLAD YALL ARE BACK
OMG Mackie, from a fellow Graves sufferer, hang on and breathe deep hun! I've just been through 9 months of hell after it resurfaced after 30 years. It came back HARD, started going to my heart and has left me with health PTSD, the anxiety attacks, the palpitations, etc, faaaark! But there is light at the end of the tunnel, for me i had to have a total thyroidectomy because there was no gambling with what it would do if it came back a third time. At your age, i would look into just anything that reduces your stress, the first time I got it I was around your age and had NO help other than the meds. There's so much education out there now and so much more research, let's just say i learnt a lot going through this! I hope you both find relief and from this old medium and energy healer in Oz, thank you for the awesome content!!
I'm 45 and life for young people is SO MUCH HARDER in 2024 than in, say, 2004... just understand that you're living through very interesting times and life, for the vast majority of people, is much harder in 2024 than only 20 years ago.
Aw man you're not even a boomer and you have that energy! Life has been hard throughout all of time and space. Sure, we're dealing with different problems than we were 20 years ago, but that does not mean life is harder. Life has always been hard. I know this is supposed to be a positive space but I just had to correct you because wow
Holy cow life was sooooooooo much easier in 2004 than 2024, I cannot even begin to count the ways things were easier... no social media, jobs paid well (25% or less of income for a 1 bedroom apartment) food was dirt cheap, gas dirt cheap, real friends and real communities, still so much optimism for the future even after 9/11, no mandatory "vaccines" just to travel or have a job or go to school... You're the boomer, boomer!@@lisachiappetti6092
100% deal with terrible anxiety and stress. I’m right there with you. Love ya, Mackie and Amanda. I have worked very hard on my breathing and concentration and to not over think. I’m an empath so I feel energy and it makes me happy that you are working on yourselves. Proud of you both for discussing what you are going through. Much love! 🫶🏼
Completely understand! Depression and Anxiety since I was 6 (first time I tried doing a certain something to myself), fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, chronic pain, Interstitial Cystitis (like having a horrible bladder infection 24/7 but no cure), IBS, Endometriosis, and the list seems to grow! I am going to look into the treatments you both mentioned! I’ve been on pain meds since 2000 I was the youngest and worst case my doctor had seen with IC.prayers that things will ease up! You have viewers that are willing to pray if you let us know what you need so I’m sure you will have many prayers said for you two!
I had a hospital stay back in October last year after "living" in survival mode for months. Then I went through intensive out patient therapy, 4 days a week for 4 hours a day. Along with medication changes it's been a hard journey of getting better. Moved back in with my parents (not a good thing for my mental health) after the new year and it feels like I'm slipping back to the bad place. Mental health is full of ups and downs, 2 steps forward and 1 step back. I've been there, I'm there right now. These things can't be rushed.
I've heard about EMDR and that might be the next step for me if things don't get better. Thanks Mackie for reminding me. PTSD sucks 🤕
Girlys please take your time getting back into videos, we'll be waiting no matter how long it takes ❤️🩹
Endometriosis and migraine. Currently dealing with rehabilitation for the nerve damage caused by my last two endo surgeries. My entire right leg is numb. 14 years of barometric migraines. My inbox is always open to chat because there are so many things that we all go through that doctors cannot help us with and I've been dealing with these issues for so long now I feel like I've seen enough to have useful advice to those just starting. I live in pain daily but I'm working on it. I live by the idea that "no is still an answer", that when you have a list of things that what is happening could be, that no is not a negative thing, but the ability to tick something off a list and another clue to finding the right answer.
Wow I'm sooo sorry to hear about your shingles Amanda, I can totally empathize with that! I got them about 6 months ago, and it was horrible!!! I also got nerve damage, so I get it. And I'm proud of you Mackie, working on trauma ain't easy!! But just remember, it's always darkest before it's dawn! You guys got this!
Mackie and Amanda…your health absolutely comes before your work. You both will get through this. I am intending complete healing for you both. So it is.
I am so glad that you guys are helping a lot of people with what you are going through. Much love from my family to yours
Yes, I have chronic issues as well.
Mine stem from childhood trauma and what happened to me regarding poisoning, which destroyed my immunsystem.
That's what got me info chronic pain from 21 on, hasn't stopped since...additional to other issues.
Problem is, that my doctors currently just say "it's just the pain that's imprinted in your brain, there's nothing wrong" and refuse to help.
Anyways
We all understand honey, you never need to feel bad for being absent, we're here and we are not planning on going anywhere ❤
I'm so glad to see you both. I absolutely understand what you are going through. I have panic and anxiety as well, and the past year has been bad. I'm slowly working my way back to every day living. I appreciate you sharing and will keep you both in my prayers 🙏 ❤
Severe chronic pain disorder plus hypermobility and a lifetime's worth of injuries from hypermobility that built up over 50 years. The pain disorder was triggered 10 years ago and all the past injuries and arthritis and just damage ghosted up and hit me with everything. At the same time, all my mental illness disorders and trauma related disorders that I'd finally beaten into submission lol... they were finally under control until all the pain. Every day pain basically blew up all my hard work. My depression (chemical and traumatic) became major depressive disorder, my anxiety, panic and social disorders became agoraphobia and social avoidance. I am almost housebound, some days bed-bound. If it weren't for an amazing bf and family (and one super amazing young adult son who had his own battle with leukemia in 2021... triggered his own fibromyalgia and he's also hypermobile (genetics, yay.)) I'd never survive.
I also deal with cptsd,adhd, and a buttload of comorbid crap.
Thank you for sharing, awareness is always helpful so that those without these things can understand a bit easier.
I've been recommended ketamine infusion but my insurance simply won't cover it and it's prohibitively expensive.
I wish i could try it as everything has failed and it's desperately hard to live not just survive from day to day. I'm just on a crap-load of pain meds (narcotic) and antidepressants and anti anxiety meds and ibuprofen.... it's not much fun, and I'm so awestruck to see that you went through that at such a young age and I'm thankful and happy that you've found a bit of relief.
Keep going and anytime you need a break, you know we'll be here when you get back. it's absolutely important to take care of you.
Hugs!
Congratulations Amanda and Brendan on your new house.
I think I speak for everyone in saying we are so glad to see you back. The world is a bit messed up. You help us to forget all that.
so many people love you guys and you bring so much happiness to many. thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing. Your courage is clear! So happy for both of you healing.
I’ve been wanting to go to the queen Mary but the anxiety is stopping me. Proud of you for getting the help you need
Hi, I really appreciate you sharing your stories. I have chronic pain, it's been 15 years now and is something I have had to learn to live with as I can't find anything that helps. And Mackie, I have Graves Disease also!! It's exhausting! I really wish I could live closer to you guys, it would be so nice to be around people who understand! Xxxxx
It’s nice to know we aren’t alone. Please take care of you.
I have chronic pain from fibromyalgia. Stress definitely makes it worse. Also, I have been clean & sober for 36 years. So I'm not willing to jeopardize my recovery from addiction by taking narcotic pain killers. It is very hard to manage because there are other symptoms besides pain. And I also suffer from depression and anxiety. I'm glad you are talking about this because it does help so much to know we are not alone. Love you! Tami McFarland
Hugs❤ and congratulations on sobriety 😊 it'll be a year for me off of suboxine, and I've never felt better.
Magnesium taurate and malate have been proven to help a lot with fibromyalgia's symptoms. Are you supplementing?
Hang in there Ladies! Just know you two are loved by many people are praying for you everyday 😘
Being completely and boldly honest with myself has been very helpful with my depression and traumas. It helped me truly see myself from honesty and from there change things in my external world to make it make more sense based on being my true self. Also being Extremely accepting of the reality of my life experience, the past, and the present. Being so accepting that i can't hide or try to convince myself that something isn't true or real, you know? That's helped so much too because theirs no lying to myself, it is what it is and it's ok and i need to accept it and feel it and really analyze myself and how my traumas have altered or influenced my decisions in behavior towards life, people and things.
Also something i've learned thru this.. your intuition is so so much stronger this way, because intuitions language is truth, so this whole healing is aligning you to the language of your soul, helping you trust your intuition better because your living in truth yourself. It makes you Distinguish your inner voice from your intuitive voice. Love you guys keep on healing slow and steady :)
As someone who has both chronic pain and autoimmune disorders and is currently trying to go through EMDR for some deep rooted and repressed trauma, communicates as a medium ( which takes a lot of energy) and i currently have covid, I totally understand where you guys are coming from. Please dont feel guilty for not posting. I know how exhausting chronic illness/pain flare ups are and the "side effects" from EMDR can be; it really just consumes all your time and energy. I was really feeling quite alone in my experience but its comforting that there are other people out there who get it. Love you guys
I have fibromyalgia, adhd, polycystic ovarian syndrome, anxiety, depression, ptsd, all types of trauma and migraines so I can fully relate and understand how it feels to struggle! I cared for my mum with fibromyalgia and bipolar for years then fell pregnant at 16 and gave birth at 17 basically being a single mum from the start and it hits hard when you realize you’ve been running on empty for years. I realized that when I started understanding my sexuality so everything hit at once, it’s so tough to go through! I’m glad you guys are doing good and I hope you both just get better and better from here! Love you guys 🤍
I completely understand with pain and stress. I have fibromyalgia and my stress and depression is a huge part of why I hurt so much. And it sucks cuz when you’re in pain you’re more stressed and it just continues to get worse and worse. I hope you get better! I’m glad you’re taking care of your health!
Hey Amanda, I'm a fan since you were with Sam and Colby the 1st time...but I wanted to let you know I can relate... been doing Ket infusions for almost 2 years for a nerve disorder called CRPS...so I too deal with chronic pain, have for years, well since 2011. I think its awesome it's working for you. I'm doing the infusions as well as other medications and finally found a regiment that is working... thank you so much for opening up about this... its nice to see other people going through similar things...sucks that you have to deal with it but so glad it's working out. ❤❤❤
I had 2 different major surgeries almost exactly 2 months apart in June & August 2023 but the problems started in like late March. So basically my entire year was disrupted by all that nonsense. I was stuck on the recliner either waiting for surgery or recovering from surgery for several months straight. Leading up to it I was working 2 full time jobs & went about 9 months without a true day off from both jobs.
So flipping the script that drastically at the drop of a dime was just…life altering. All the physical problems made my body not feel like my own but then that created a lot of mental & emotional changes that are now making my mind also not feel like my own. I’ve been in a bad headspace for a long while now.
I say all of that to relay I completely understand how you guys just need a break. Take the time please bc if you try to rush yourselves you’ll just delay the inevitable & things will be so much worse when you finally snap. Hope you both heal 🙏🏼🙏🏼
I joined the graves club last year, and have the associated eye disease too. Definitely not a club I wanted to or was expecting to join. My anxiety has ramped up mostly worrying about my eyes and if I am going to end up blind. Thank you for sharing Ladies. I think we all feel we have to struggle alone and no-one wants to hear about what I'm going through day to day. You guys being open and transparent will help us all be more accepting of not only our own struggles but of others struggles too.
I have chronic illnesses and flare ups have made me resign from work and focus on my health. Also have EMDR, the first few weeks were horrible, and I felt like I was set back, but after that, it really helped. On the waiting list to go back for some more sessions. Take care of yourselves, you've got this!
What's up M&A!
Glad you girls came out with the truth and being honest with your community.
I'll be praying y'all's healing.
I cannot imagine the pain of chronic and the anxiety is something thats difficult to control. Prayer is thing that helps me through, but you could be different.
But at least it's out there and even if it only helped one person than it's worth it.
Ngl i missed your videos, but it's always better to get yourself healthy and clean, especially in y'all's line of work.
Who knows what could've happened with y'all being left vulnerable of the evil ones around you?
All love M&A 💚💚
I have neuropathy which is nerve pain too so I know exactly what you're going through, I am glad you finally have something that is helping
Thank yall for sharing this - mad respect cuz its def not easy to talk about. I also have Graves and Crohns and its a rollercoaster for sure. Sending all the good healing vibes yalls way! And thanks for being literally the coolest people on the internet - Im always so inspired by both of you
I've dealt with chronic neck pains my entire life that doctors have never found an answer for. You're right about stress making it worse. Some days it travels as a high sensitive migraine. Thank you both for the check in and we appreciate you for prioritizing the self care. Your health comes first, ladies ❤ so glad to see you both well.
By having Ankylosing Spondylitis, fibromyalgia, anxiety, ADD, bipolar, major depressive disorder (MDD,) and other junk, I completely understand. Thank you for taking the time to deal with your struggles, we ALL will be here when you return. Much love! ❤
I can definitely relate to just about everything you talked about. I have C-PTSD and have also dealt with anxiety and depression since I was very young. I have done EMDR and found it very helpful and hope to go back to it soon. I have multiple chronic conditions that stem from stress and trauma including Fibromyalgia, IBS, and migraines. I had Shingles about 3 years ago and thank God I didn't have lasting nerve damage specifically from it, but the pain of the actual illness was so horrible I was literally screaming at times. I do have nerve pain from the Fibro as well as many other types of pain on a daily basis. It also involves severe fatigue. One of the worst things about it is that I can't do so much of the things I used to do because I'm so exhausted and simple physical tasks can lead to a flare. Sometimes I start to beat myself up for being "lazy" or a "bum" as you put it Amanda, but it's important to remember that you do the best you can with what you've got. It's not lazy to rest when your body is screaming at you that it's tired. That goes for you too with the emotional exhaustion Mackie. Our minds can get tired just like our bodies and therapy is work. We say we are "working on ourselves," we are "doing the work," for a reason. I'm proud of you both for sharing your stories cause it's obvious it was not easy for you, but it is so important for both your own growth and for those in your community who may now feel less alone on their own journey. Take Care!
You two are so relatable. Sending so much love!
Good to have you two back! It's good to take sometime to yourself. I know about pain, I have pain in my back , back , knees and hand. Love your new house Amanda 😍
We are all glad you're okay and safe. We miss your videos, but health is important 🖤
Love your honesty guys, you're great, keep it up.
No worries, hopefully things will work out for you both. You have been missed.
I have been helping my daughter with major depression and complex PTSD all treatment resistant. She is halfway through her ketemine treatments. Dont feel bad about seeking any kind of help, ignore the stigma, it is fading. It is a legit for of treatment for several chronic conditions. Ive known vets with PTSD who swear by this treatment. As will all things medical if it helps it will be more and more accepted. Do what you need to, no judgement from here, just understanding. Take care. We're pulling for you.
“It affects us all” 😂😂😂 That commercial is now stuck in my head. Lol
Hey Mackie and Amanda ❤ totally get it I have chronic migraine, generalized anxiety and depression, thankfully no panic attacks recently, its so exhausting. Thanks for sharing❤
I also suffer chronic pain, due to arthritis. It causes me to get stress and anxiety. I try my best to be kind, and hide my suffering. But sometimes I have to remove myself from friends and family. So, I know how you feel.
I'm so very happy for y'all, that you're having progression in your health and that you are feeling better by the day and that you got a new place ❤
If you guys ever need to take extended time off to feel better or focus on things in your personal life please do it, all your fans will be right here waiting for you to come back being happy and healthy, we love you guys and just want yall happy and healthy 💗❤
Is nobody gonna talk about the fire alarm beeping in the background it was killing me 😂 also love you guys and keep up the good work and if you ever need a break just go for it and we will always be her for you and support you ❤
I love watching yall thank yall for being honest and open. I relate to you both in different ways. From a young age I’ve been sensitive. I used to play with my dead great grandmother when I was little I and several times my mom caught me having conversations with nobody upstairs. We lived in the house she lived in as our family is in realest estate and owning different properties as a family business. Backstory, I was adopted from Russia and my mom has told me she believed I had an attachment that must have followed bc as I got to 12 I developed and eating disorder and then addiction. My mom said she could literally always tell because nothing about me was normal when I was active in either.
After a decade of struggling with anorexia and 6 years of addiction from 2015- 2021 since recovering and going to church and really diving into my spiritual journey and walk with my higher power. Since adoption from Russia in 2001-2012- we lived in my grandmothers house. We moved to a country club neighborhood from 2012-2018. My mom moved out of the country club house because she fully believed a negative entity was attached. The stories I have are crazy. Since the house was in the family business when we moved we still owned it and just rented it out as that was my grandmother and grandfathers business. As soon as people moved out my mom moved us right back to the old house. Since moving back into the childhood home nobody has experienced anything negative in that house. To say all that I have def spent my time in and out of treatment centers, I have fibromyalgia, & other medical conditions. Being so young and having done so much havoc on my body already def makes me grateful for my body now and not want to take for granted again. I love what yall do yall Inspire me to do what you love and I’m working on that. And I’m so super interested about the paranormal. I was adopted from Russia and was found by police who gave me a name and birthday. So I’ve always wondered if a medium experience could ever give me some information or answer any questions I have for the people I’ve lost. I wonder if anybody would come through and what would they say? Yall are awesome I love you girlies!!
Mackie it's so great to hear you are working on your trauma. It takes so much strength to work through trauma. EMDR is incredible!
glad you both are addressing this as everyone at some point in their lives go through either due to health or mental health even both... positive to see that you both are doing something about it.. when you are ready we will be here
p.s. maybe see a psychic healer to cleanse your energy as you are so open to good and bad energy sometimes they drain you and make you sick..☺
I've been struggling with chronic back pain in the spine area since April 2023. It's like you say though 1 day at a time and focusing on the positives. Ive been streaming and doing RUclips hoping for a better future. Congrats on your channel growth! May your future bring happiness.