Things in a psych ward that just make sense
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"If you weren't suicidal already, let's put you in a box that forces you to get creative"
Onggg
Not only that but the box is full of strange ppl you don’t know that may make your mental state 10x worse!
@@ranchiestsauce nah fr and they always tryna start shit and agressive asf💀
I Can smell the indie game already
@Puppyllary Response at what? Not wanting to die? Plus there’s nothing wrong with needing help. Literally everyone needs help sometimes. Unless you live secluded in the woods you’ve gotten help too.
ah psych wards, the only place where someone is always watching you AND you’re completely alone at all times
Until you get someone screaming 24/7
Or have that one person looking at you through the room door at two in the morning
:skull:
I REMEMBER THESE! I was in one for a week when I was 12 and now it’s been a few months since I left that 1.8 star rating place..
I think, if I went there, and after I got out, I would have severe paranoia that someone is watching me 😭👌
It’s like paying money to go to a prison that worsens depression
Well you could pay money to go see a therapist
@@aaronjames3228 most people are forced into psych wards that’s the thing
@@aaronjames3228then you’ll be a little too honest with your therapist and, boom, you’re locked up against your will
@@ladymire for your own good. We can't have people offing themselves
You don't pay for the ward
I swear, going to a psych ward doesn't discourage most of us from suicide, it just discourages us from telling anybody. I don't think I ever got anything resembling treatment in one of those places.
YES!!! THIS!!! 👏👏👏 (And if you try to be honest and tell them you have exponentially LESS suicidal ideations at home, they twist your words around to keep you locked up longer for "being too much of a danger to yourself..." 🥴)
It really only helped me because I was away from the root issue of my suicidal tendencies
It discourages me from getting there alive
yeah, no one's gonna say shit if they end up in a glorified jail cell. thats all this is
You won't really get Tx, there's chronic understaffing. 1 Dr/30 patients x 5min talks w each patient=3 hrs + writing Tx plans, updates & notes on each + whtvr else needs doing = 8hrs+. Psych wards keep ppl safe & fed, but it's not comfortable & not very therapeutic. Plus, if you've got good insurance they'll keep you for over a wk to get the extra $. But: if ya need a break, a reset, get you a grippy sock vacay.
the way my sister put it; “psych wards aren’t there to help you, they’re there to make sure you don’t off yourself”
That’s because the system needs available, working hands.
I feel that. They don’t give a shit about you or your home life. Their job is to keep you alive “for now”
YES! THIS!!!! Your sister is completely correct!!!! The place I was at didn’t even have full length towels!!! The largest size towel for showering was MAYBEEE just maybe just about 2inches, and then legit maybe 9, 10? Inches in width…. And the certain was pretty much only half of a certain and it didn’t move, and we were allowed to close our doors!!!! There was no type of privacy at all….. and I get it I get that they have to constantly keep eyes on us and stuff to match sure we aren’t harming our or yk…. That jazz…. But stilll!!!! Give us SOME hospitality! 😫😭😭😭
Yes, because all of these suicide prevention measures mean they don't give a damn about their patients 🙄 the nurses do offer counseling as much as they can, but tbh, most people in psych wards have a mental illness. It's different from being sad. You can't talk them through or out of it. The best thing that can be done is to keep the patient from killing themselves so the doctors have the time they need to diagnose and find the right medications for the patient.
@@allisonlacy3004 damn I had a stroke reading all that
Actual interaction I had while in psychiatric hospital
Therapist: This isn't a prison, we're not holding you against your will
Me: i'd like to go home then
Therapist: Sorry you're not allowed to leave unless we allow you
E X A C L Y
And this is where i went from having SI to actively trying to off myself
They probably saw you voted Democrat. Makes sense.
@@Tony-hn8qy always have to make it political huh 🙄
@@Tony-hn8qy Bro shut up this isn't about politics
Don’t forget the part where you’re trying to sleep and then they come in every hour to shine a light in your face to see if you’re still there.
They do that to other hosp. Patients too....blood draws once every hour, all. Night. Long.
How the hell could you get rest
Why they can't get those glasses that make you see in the dark? Not them causing sleep depravation also... 🤦♀️@@Mary-cz5nl
@@Mary-cz5nlyes, when I was in the hospital I was constantly woken up for temperature and blood pressure and new IVs
15 minutes
I was voluntarily in one for three days. An employee saw me in the holding room, came in, sat down, looked into my eyes and said, "YOU don't belong here. Do what you have to do to get yourself out. I don't want to see you here again." It shocked me so much that I did exactly that. The loneliness was nightmarish. You have no sense of time and nothing to distract you.
Dang
That was a good doctor
Why did you want to go in and had you been before?
I work at a gas station, and a dude came in with a couple girls. The girls were all cheery, and the dude looked pissed. When I asked what they were up to that day, the dude looked up and said "I just got out of the psych ward." To which I had to ask "did you get the dope grippy socks." Dudes face lit up, and he showed me he still had the socks on
Was it you that came out of the psych ward? You said it was Dudes face that lit up! But you are Dude McDoodle!
That's so wholesome
This might just be my favorite story on the internet
Similar story with me. I was meeting my girlfriends family for the first time, they told me that the brother was difficult to talk to due to his m. health issues, completely unaware that I had the same issues. When we sat down to dinner her brother was really angry and volatile, making the room go all quiet. I asked him what meds he was on and he barked them at me, I told him that I used to be on same meds but changed to something else, he mouth dropped open and all of a sudden he was more happy and speaking softly, we ended up having an hour long conversation about our illnesses and meds. He considers me his best friend now.
@@natevic1867 aww this is so wholesome
If you weren't already depressed this is the fast track system.
The food alone is sad. I think I'd end up starving the entire time
Yeah I’m gonna go out on a limb and say it’s pretty rare for mentally healthy people to end up in this place.
Edit: I’m not talking about 20 or 30+ years ago when people were forced into those facilities for ridiculous reasons and I’m saying everyone who ends up in there is insane or suicidal. Mental illness is a very wide ranging term. The purpose of psych wards isn’t exactly for healing it’s primarily for safety which sometimes does end up having the opposite effect on patients because unfortunately the system is deeply flawed.
nah the psych ward i went to when i almost offed myself i came out a new and much healthier and happier person, not everyone has the same experiences
@@annabenedetti9699 please take your comment down. I understand where you're coming from but a lot of suicides happen because people feel like they can't get any help, and your comment really enforces that idea. It's some of the worst advice you could give to a suicidal person. I get that places like this aren't fun and a lot of times don't help at all, but a lot of people's lives have been saved because of places like this, so please, don't encourage that narrative :(
@@Princess_Maya_19 chronic pain makes you go here when the only treatment that works is now illegal.
“suffocation proof” i’d like to see that claim hold up when the towel is down my windpipe
mood
True that
Fr
And then down into my lungs cuz why not
Ew
I can already tell I would freak out if I was put into paper pants.
Same it sounds like sensory hell
@@YTCat123then they pathologize you because they can’t comprehend a new sensory dislike and you get stuck in there for life due to authoritarian culture
Hell yeah. I'm autistic and was forced into them, it sucked. So uncomfy. And they tear easily. And no one lets you get any new ones for like 2 days after.
Only high-risk patients get them, luckily.
i'm autistic, and the sensory would freak me out as well. i'm glad with how nuts i am (due to other issues), my dad surprisingly hasn't even considered sending me to a psych ward. it sounds like hell.
@@EnbyBeewere you considered "high risk" because of the Autism? I'm genuinely curious. My meltdowns are usually interpreted in rather extreme ways.
I get that they’re trying to get you from hurting yourself when you go off the deep end…but this sh*t would help me find new depths
Fr💀
Lol that's the point.
@@BlackSakura33 lmao ur username
Then you ain't in the depths... These ain't no issues.
I'm still dealing with the trauma of a brief psych stay 12 years ago. I don't think I will ever be the same. Seeing this shit with bright, happy music over it makes me sick.
i went to a psych ward when i was in 6th grade. i was never left alone, and it just made my mental state even worse. when i got out, i told my brother it made me feel worse and then he told me that it costed him 4k. 4k for a place that didn’t even help me.
Omg I'm so sorry :( I had horrible experiences at psych wards. It's horrible how expensive they are, just to make us feel worse
I'm sorry is this an American thing? Like ims ure we have physc wards in the uk and stuff just you wouldn't be put in one during school? I just got to talk to the pastoral coordinator and then a NHS nurse would come into school once a week to talk to you and stuff
I’m so sorry… that must have been the worst. In my experience, I think mental health is best fixed by warmth and friendship, not being treated like a monster.
Wait how did you do that
I also went to a pych ward as well, and all they did was stick me in talking groups with people that had worse issues than I did, and didn't even help me with my own issues, talking about it to others isn't always gonna make it better. . .
I just found lile 6 different objects there i can use to hurt myself.... I need to call my therapist. I'll see myself out.
I was looking for a comment like this… thought I was the only one thinking this lmao!
Haha I was thinking to myself I could definitely figure out how to hang myself with those doorknobs
@@nikkireigns or the handles in the bathroom lol
Anything but actually help them mentally😂😂😂
Fr I've been to two different psych wards, and they made me feel so much worse
“If you weren’t suicidal coming in, you definitely will be coming out!”
Absolutely
IF you come out
Good point@@Therandomguy691
DEADASS THO MY TRIP GENUINELY MADE ME WANNA KMS MORE I WAS SO FINALLY HAPPY WHEN I GOT TO LEAVE
i saw like 4 ways i could kill myself in the box of secrets
In my room at the psych ward someone actually wrote "you can do it!" on the desk next to the bed. Made me cry fr
@@che887 as calloused as a Vietnam veteran
What was "it"? Because it seems like the rest of the stuff is designed to prevent you from doing "it"
Prolly me... I used to tally how many days aswell and tag shit too
@@Paul-A01 just make it out of there and getting better??
@@Paul-A01 “you can do it” is encouragement telling the person that they can improve their mental health? Why’d your mind have to go there. Better still, why’d you have to let us know it went there.
I find the noose proof door knobs paired with an entirely noosable support rail in the bathroom humorous.
the support rails have plate metal welded to the bottom of them, so there's no hole through them
I was so bored and lonely at one point I turned to counting cars, remembering the traffic light cycle outside the hospital, and actually remembered who would get on and off their shifts at what time. Also i stole the grippy socks cause they were kinda comfy.
I wish i had a window
I did kinda the same thing except I would look to see if I could find any cars out there that were the same model as mine.
I was in a psych ward many years ago and I remember them asking me to remove my shoelaces so I couldn't harm anybody or myself with them. A few hours later, we were in the crafts room and they handed me a piece of leather, brass stencils and a claw hammer, to make leather bracelets. I looked at the hammer in my hand, looked back at the doctor and asked them if they could explain to me again about the dangers of shoelaces.
@incognitopotato.yea, very ironic..
proves that just because someone can memorize a huge number of books doesn't mean they're smart
🤦🏻♀️
😂
When using the tools, you are under supervision and are doing activities that are meant to keep your mind occupied.
When you are alone, thats when most people feel the most motivated to die because thats when the intrusive thoughts come about. Most people also dont want to harm themselves in the immediate vacinity of others because they fear they would be a burden. Obviously, this isnt the case for everyone, but just like in prisons, certain people are or arent allowed to use or do certain things like using metal tools.
Im not defending mental institutions, but im explaining their thought process, and personally, i think they do a lot of harm, but the goal is to reduce harm, and there have been more incidence rates of people hanging themselves than people killing themselves while supervised.
I was so traumatized by my mistreatment during my first hospitalization that even when I was in far more dangerous situations, I refused to go back because it scarred me.
Psych wards are meant to be safe but they, to many patients, feel incredibly unsafe & even more despondent due to conditions and staff mistreatment. More needs to be done to make them less of a hellscape for the patients.
Oh man, I'm so sorry. I've been trying the psych ward almost 10 times, and I think the one I went to must have been one of the better ones, because they made it pretty nice. Like, it still sucked, but it was comfortable, and I felt cared for, not punished or mistreated. I wish you felt like you had a safe place to go when you need one. You deserve that at the bare minimum.
same but during my second hospitalization. i feel you there friend
I've been in once, and the only things I took away from the experience were these
1. Get better at hiding my issues.
2. If you're going to do it, do it right.
One way or another, I will never be going back. I'm pretty sure murderers have more rights and dignity than psych patients.
Same, FUCK OCEANS!!!! (Oceans is a psych hospital)
@@formorian5 😔❤️🩹 I’m truly so sorry that you had the incredible courage to go there and all it did was let you down.
My distant cousin still managed to commit suicide in a psych ward
That's one expensive jail.
“Couldn’t you strangle yourself with the arms of the hoodi-“
Psych ward: **cuts arms off hoodie**
Couldn't you strangle yourself with the arm holes left from cutting the arms off the hoodie?
I was just thinking about that!!
*throws the whole hoodie away*
Modern fashion
That's to make you look cool and tough
couldn’t even have the hoods on the hoodie at the one i went to, it didn’t feel comfortable without it so they literally just cut it off with scissors and did a terrible job at it.
Same but I just didn’t bring my hoodies just sweatshirts
It's just so you don't suffocate yourself
Ours didn’t even have hoodies, but we were in Florida so I guess we didn’t need them. I was still cold and asked for lots of blankets.
Yeah I wasn't allowing them to cut mine... It was a hoodie for my youngest son who was playing soccer. I literally chose to freeze.
@@unknown_pineapple1110 same just sweatshirts no hoodies
Psych wards are hell and make you like 10x more suicidal than you already were. Also, I got into so many fights in the pedi unit when I was like 10-11.
Now it’s usually just me trying to ignore everyone and look like I’m not anorexic or suicidal anymore whenever I’m admitted.
There is usually one person in the ward that controls the TV so everyone else never gets to watch what they like. Only 3 recliners for at least 10 people rest of us have to sit at tables all day. Not allowed to stay in our rooms during the day but nothing else to do but stare at lousy tv or out the window. So boring and depressing. I was in over Christmas a few years back, talk about hell. Paper pants, paper underware, scrub style shirt and no bra. Shower once a week. I now have PTSD after that experience. Lot of good that does me. I still wake up screaming with night terrors.😢
Don't forget the nurse screaming "I'll kill you if you don't shut up" at the patien that kept calling her and asking for an apple multiple times..
Sorry, what…? 🤨
Because of one asshole, all nurses are evil, got it.
Well if the choice is an apple or that fucking sandwich, i don’t blame him.
No wonder they have to protect these poor people from themselves. Imagine. That’s your lunch.
Maybe she should get admitted, God damn.
Sounds about right. Hospital staff hate the people they take care of
“You’re depressed? How about 👋 _prison_ 👋
@@firemonster2218prison is worse?
@@firemonster2218idk what prison you're going too but it must have been real lax if you think that's worse
@@AA-sw5pbtheir user is “fire monster” so I’m obligated to not believe them
And depending on the state, if you're not straight.
psych wards are for mentally unstable people though. You’re acting like depression is equivalent to being crazy
I was in a psych ward for a suicide attempt, other patients had: schizoaffective disorder, stabbed her eyes out on a bad trip, paranoid delusional schizophrenia, dementia with suicidal ideation, and a variety of other things. Some nurses were awesome, some idealized Hitler and believed all women fake rape accusations. The only people I could rely on were the other patients 😅. We really need better healthcare. USA, obviously.
Imagen smiling when someone is suffering...
I reckon psych wards are what made me so uncomfortable around people smiling
Psych ward: If you weren't crazy before, you will be by the time you leave! Guaranteed! 🤗
Not rlly but alr
well i mean i dont think it makes people crazy but maybe idk
@@Savannah-qb4bb it doesn’t.
It can, been there. It depends in each one. But it's kind of like prison when it comes to the rights u have and u can't go outside and you javelin to stay with ppl u don't know and share the bathroom and rooms with strangers. It can mess with u and make u worse
I think I would rather go to a North Korean forced labor camp than any psych ward
The fact that this video feels like a PTSD flashback makes me think they’re not working
The fact that this nurse actually thinks this is a fun video tells me everything I need to know. Thanks for the trauma memory punching me in the face, former nurse asshole.
Because they’re not… And it being that obvious to everyone should tell you something. Being there normal minded would be like prison (horrible enough) but imagine wanting to kill yourself and then being admitted there. There’s no place you’d want to kill yourself more at than these institutions. And some people say it’s not like the sanatoriums from a hundred years ago😂I’d argue it’s worse. It’s also a vicious cycle if you’ve been forcefully admitted once it sets you up to end up there again and again. Those are the only people I can actually feel happy for when they kill themselves because I’m glad they don’t have to suffer any longer ending up in these hell holes over and over again. Being able to end it is the last bit of autonomy you have. Those places are just a way of society criminalizing suicide to be honest instead of helping they sentence you to these torture prisons where you’re told you have to feel/think normal to get out of. No wonder people act like it and will never feel like they can talk honestly about their feelings ever again
I mean they did say 'the strings on MY hoodie.
The fact this is a western one. Imagine how the eastern European ones look 😬😬
I keep having these videos pop up on my fyp and idk what to do bc they trigger my ptsd and I freeze up
I came here recently during my 33rd week of pregnancy. I wasn’t coping with stress very well and got to harming myself so I went with the support of my fiancé. I had a very different experience there. The whole Labor and Delivery team in the hospital came to check on me three times a day. The nurses and techs in the ward listened to me talk about my stress and sat with me while I cried. They made sure I ate, even if it was only a little. The therapist even spent extra time with us during our three group therapies a day and even gave individual therapies before it was lights out. We were free to leave our room and walk around at anytime. If we struggled to sleep, the nurses would offer us anything to make us comfortable, even sleep meds. The psychiatrist helped me develop a plan to manage my stress and learn how to cope in a healthy way. She also got me an outpatient psychiatrist. It was scary at first, but I’m glad I went.
Probably because you were a pregnant woman.
Cant forget the nurses waking you up every night to check your damn blood pressure
That's in every hospital type setting
Ah yes, the psych ward. Preventing suicidal people from trying to seek help ever since their inception. Gotta love it!
I feel like they should make separate mental health wards specifically for people who don’t have severe mental illness where they act erratically, very aggressive, etc. I can’t imagine being suicidal and getting locked up in a ward where other people are screaming, banging walls/doors, threatening to stab others, etc. that would just make you feel worse.
@@jav7899they do sometimes, but most often it's just a different section of the same ward.
@@jav7899 We used to, but after 1970's people thought they were cruel and not PC. So we just got rid of them and let all the psychos loose and free to roam the cities. Now we just call them homeless people.
@@jav7899There's a concept like that in Germany. We have different stages of psych ward, from 1 to 5 I believe, but I'm not sure. 1 is essentially you're not able to function in normal life but no danger to yourself or others and 5 is 'you're so suicidal and/or aggressive you essentially need a constant guard around you'. Neither is much good though, because they're understaffed as hell and no one has the time to actually help you. Had a friend with a dissociative disorder who was in 3 and during an episode, which usually involved shaking and banging her head like crazy, all the nurse could do was put a pillow under her head and rush off, because there was already another emergency around the corner. Another friend learned how to lie to therapists very well, just so he could pretend he got better to get the fuck out of there. It's not a particularly good system.
@@ThePsycoScoutif you knew anything about psych wards youd know how cruel they were
i don’t even wanna die but if you put me in here and didn’t let me out I think I would start to find ways to do it.
Yeah I never understood how putting someone in a white room with nothing to entertain themselves is supposed to help someone who's just feeling suicidal
@@ShellyTheSeal Honestly, the reason I haven’t told anyone about my suicidal ideation is because I know it would just end up making my life worse.
i didn’t want to die until i was in there it got so much worse
I was in one for about 8 days at the very start of the pandemic. Fun stuff. Very memorable moments. 💖 Nah but in all seriousness the nurses could tell I was "with it" so they straight up told me what it takes to get out: Take the meds, admit to whatever the doctors think you're there for, and have a place to go. Don't cause problems. Stay calm no matter what. Most of the people I saw there were there due to serious mental health issues but also because they had nowhere else to go. My mom came to visit me every day and the women I was in there with would all walk by the window of the visitor's room and peek in all shyly just for a glimpse of my mom because I talked about her quite a bit and I don't think a lot of them knew what that looked or felt like. It's been two years and I still think about that. And all of those women with all those different stories and backgrounds.
@@leafyveins4985 I don't know you but I love your vibe 🖤 I hope you're doing better than you were at the beginning of the pandemic, but if not, I hope you continue to fight for your peace 🖤 Stay safe out there 🖤
How dare you underestimate my ability to improvise.
The game me and the other kids played was "what could we use to do it anyway". The eraser-less pencils they gave were always a big one.
I knew someone in the psych ward who would eat those pencils whole
We had bendy pencils bc everyone would stab ppl with normal ones
I got out of a psych ward by knowing what was expected of me. I buried my issues and walked out within a week, only to fall back into the depression. They aren't built to help you, they're built to contain you. Don't let yourself get locked up in one of these.
Edit: I saw some debate on masking. Yes that's likely what I was doing, and yes it does stand to reason that one could carry that on for a time. But it's a temporary relief and only pleases those around you. However it does nothing for your own state other than make it worse. You burn more and more of your own resolve just for the benefit of others to stay off their radar. Chronic depression will always show its ugly head if you don't treat the issue itself.
The amount of times I have lied to doctors just to stay out of grippy sock jail is painful
yeah no kidding it is awful in there, no matter how bad things get i dont think i ever wanna go back in one
Sounds weird that you were able to "act" your depression away only for a short term goal.
@@dmwanderer9454 masking a mental illness isn’t something new😂
@@Damn-Sandwich Yeah I do it too. My point was there's no reason to "fall back in" if you can just act your depression away. Just go "oh I'm depressed again. Time to act"
Also hard plastic furniture filled with sand so you can't pick them up or throw them. They also took the caps from our water bottles because someone apparently used them to choke on. No shoes or shoelaces. No shorts or pants with drawstrings. No shampoo/conditioner, toothpaste/mouthwash, and deodorant with certain ingredients. We were allowed to play with a Nintendo Switch but they thought we could smash it and use the pieces to harm ourselves so we were closely monitored while playing Mario Kart.
P.S.: I checked myself in. I came very close to committing suicide and realized I needed help. I stayed for about a week. We did activities everyday numerous times a day and I got the tools I needed to deal with things. I think it was the best place for me to be at that time.
For everyone, or just the patients with a tendency to harm? What was up with the toiletries thing?
@@SiiriCressey I think the toiletries thing would be do that you couldn’t consume them & have that consumption hurt you
@@SiiriCressey For everyone. I'm guessing someone ingested something from the toiletries list and got sick or something. They told me everything was for a reason.
@@Spectator79 Jeez. It sounds like that's at least as much for the convenience of the staff as for the safety of the patients. Why bother having to only keep potentially dangerous stuff away from people who are likely to/have used it to hurt themselves or others when you can just not let anyone have any?
@@Spectator79 why no shoes too? Wtf do you wear then? Just the grippy socks?
I saw at least a dozen ways to kill myself and I wasn't even paying attention.
*uses the sleeve to choke myself*
You know what screw you *unhoodies your hoodie*
If they think you'll do that you'll get a paper shirt. The paper shirt sucks, especially if you're a female
@@EnbyBee that'd make me wanna die more
@@snakaloo9441 real
This is basically just a place for people to learn how to hide their issues so they can leave
Yup. HOT. GARBAGE.
I relate to that. I got out quick that way.
Psych wards are horrible, my friend has been to one. It did help him, but it also changed him. He might be happier now, but for about 2 weeks after coming back he wouldn’t leave his room or talk to anyone.
Every feature in that room was put there as the result of a lawsuit. Some person used the TP roll to harm themselves, now everyone has their TP in a hole in the wall. Over many years the conditions in the room incrementally get worse and worse, as next of kin sue the place into oblivion.
Lawyers convince some judge that the hospital is at fault that someone went out the window, even though they were locked, and the hospital should have known patients can pick the locks, and of course the only reasonable option is to make a window so small that no human being could conceivably squeeze through. So then everyone's window gets reduced to a 6 x 6 in square. And this is what passes for patient care and due diligence.
We had a case in my neck of the woods, where a dog got off-leash and was running down the street. The dog approached a mental health patient outside her outpatient program with her therapy dog. The off leash dog says hello. No biting or aggression or barking, but he's jumping around, excited, saying hello to the therapy dog, and the owner is initially nowhere in sight. After a minute the owner comes and retrieves the off-leash dog.
The patient sued the owner and said that this occasion with the off-leash dog somehow permanently changed her therapy dog. She said the therapy dog was never the same afterwards. She ended up settling with this guy's insurance for $95,000 , over how her therapy dog was forever changed by the off-leash menace. Totally bizarre.
@@giggitygooz3198i just lied at the initial meeting💀
It seems this is more of an “anti suicide room” than an actual facility for helping people.
If you think that's bad go read up on the stories of people who still try and like three of the biggest dudes you've ever seen hold you down to a bed put you in a shirt you can't take off and hold you tighter than a bear hug and then they strap you down to a table and then inject you with a bunch of medications that keep you basically unconscious for 12 hours
Ive been to a psych ward and I assure you, no it doesnt come after
Don't worry the help never comes. America's just a prison state. Known multiple people who gave gone there. It's useless they just feel worse after being locked in a cell for weeks
Keeping people from killing themselves IS helping them. They will understand later.
This literally helps people, tf you on about
I’m surprised I’m not in a psych ward oh wait I lie to my therapist 24/7 😢
I will report that to youtube.
I swear I'm the only one who came out of the psych ward better than I came in. Didn't continue the trazadon, but I definitely learned better ways to manage my depression and anxiety, and they were the first therapist to get me to open up. I still have very fond memories of that place. I'll never forget the way everybody broke the rules to hug me as I was being discharged all cause I wanted to wave goodbye to the people I had talked to, learned from, and even may have helped.
I’m happy you had that experience! I definitely made some friends, my hospital homies, and learned some ways to help myself. I also learned how to play new card games so that’s cool. It wasn’t the best experience for me though, it definitely gave me some PTSD.
Been to both jail and the psych ward. Differences are minimal. You actually have a tiny bit more freedom in jail😂
bro that is wild. I believe it though
How was it in there? I’m curious :D
Are either of them about freedom?
@@thoroughlyunoriginalname no but you shouldnt put someone in jail for being mentally ill.
Let’s be honest, there are no differences
The coolest part is when you are involuntarily put in these places then you're handed a bill for thousands of dollars
Only in America
Don't pay it. Let that shit go to collections.
@@justaweeb14688 nope, literally most places in the world...and, a lot of countries don't even have such facilities, they just put you in jail
@@tevarinvagabond1192 source
Bro i'm still struggling with a bill from getting baker acted, and it didn't even help me, honestly just fucked up my whole life, work, school, social shit, everything
the psych ward I was in didn't even let me have my hoodie bc of the hood and they said someone could pull you down by the hood and those socks get really dirty and the food is terrible and those scrubs aren't warm at all i was shivering and the staff members did nothing
I was in a psych ward over 10 years ago and when the one lady came in and told me I couldn't go to my friends funeral without explanation, I had a breakdown and ended up in the solitary confinement room (concrete room with just one of those gym mats). She said I had to be silent for 20 minutes before i could be let out. After i calmed down i silently counted to 60 20 times on my hands, then waited. Then kept counting. Then after like 40 minutes i asked if i could come out and a different lady over the PA said the one who put me in there went on lunch break so I'd have to wait for her 😐
Also the doctor in charge called me a wh*re and said i was "incredibly intelligent but not very smart". I was 13.
I’m so sorry that happened to you!
Wtaf
What the actual frick 😢
Whenever I consider telling my therapist the truth I just think of this place and it encourages me to keep lying about my mental state 👍
That there, is not healthy my guy/gal/them guy? (What’s the non binary guy term? I’m rlly trying here)
idk where you live but usually they wont do that, you can even just tell them that youre having suicidal thoughts but arent planning on doing it, thats atleast what i do so i dont end up at a psych ward again
@@haydenwestfall8798I just say guy for everybody tbh😭
I know what you mean, I have some really bad problems that I’ve had my entire life and I haven’t told anyone. If I told my therapist I know I’d get sent straight to a mental hospital.
@@haydenwestfall8798 Dude, probably?
I heard someone call a psych ward "grippy sock jail" once and i cant stop thinking about it
my neice got sent to one just before Christmas and called it that when they got out
My ex called it the “grippy sock hotel” and this was after my “luxurious trip” there… I cried laughing
That is exactly what it is.
Or grippy sock vacation. Your choice.
@Eragon, Dragonrider I work in mental health and someone referred to it as a "free grippy sock vacation" 😂
According to some of the patients I met there, jail was preferable in a number of ways
The first hospital I went to didn't treat me right and traumatized me more than I already was...but the socks...THE SOCKS I STILL HAVE TO THIS DAY 😂
I know so many people have had such bad experiences. I want to say as a several time psych patient that I have had a few good visits. They do exist. I am so appreciative to the ones who help and genuinely care. Thank you for what you do and for helping me.
I definitely had some positive experiences. I learned new card games, made friends, and I met some good employees. There was one nurse that really helped me believe in myself and gave me good words of encouragement. I could tell he actually cared.
The fear of being admitted to a psych ward was genuinely the only thing that kept me from ending myself when I had severe depression.
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As someone who was in a psych ward lil over a week ago, you chose correctly. It was a hell that I don't wish on anyone
Absolutely correct. Biggest mistake ever is getting committed. That was so much worse than the attempt. Never going back.
Person: *suicidal*
Psych ward: **PRISON**
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@@meesha6723 like bro if ur suicidal this shit will make it way worse. if you try telling them how shitty it is they will say you have even more problems and wont give a single fuck about you.
prison has more freedom, at least they get to go outside and talk to people and have decent clothes
@@wAfton83 fr
@@wAfton83 bro knows nothing about American prisons 💀 they are quite literally subject to slave labor
Yes, most of these things make sense, but none is a laughing matter.
Maybe you haven’t been, I can’t tell for sure, but it’s funny for me after having been in one earlier this year.
I spent 6 days in a "unit", in 2006. They took my shoes, because of metal buckles, but allowed me to have a radio With an 18 inch metal antenna. 🙄
I went to a psych ward for depression/suicidality related to PTSD. Came out with even worse PTSD. I'm sorry, but those places aren't meant to help. They're meant to hold.
Too bad you're not in Florida. You could go to Shands and ask to be sent to the mental health part. It's a much nicer place and the people are friendly.
"I refused all help, and made my situation worse, then blamed the people trying to help me."
You're extremely insensitive and misunderstanding my point if this is how you react to this. You're also assuming a lot.
I went to the ward WILLINGLY because i KNEW i needed help. I'd just come out of an abusive ass household with religious trauma, sexual trauma, and almost no life experience. I was mentally ill and had been seeking help since college (2-3 years prior). I'd been with therapists and psychs before i had to flee my bio family and therefore leave my prior resources, and they were all mostly fine. I'd been trying to get in with a therapist and psych in my new place so i could get on meds and start working on my issues, but was being pushed back in the system. I had a bad night and hurt myself-- not the first time. My partner called a hotline and was told either bring me in or the cops would come get me. I went willingly, because i thought i was going to get to talk to someone, be seen off, and get hooked up with a therapist while there.
I was shoved in a white room, told to stop crying, lied to about my partner "leaving" me there (they'd been told to leave after we'd been separated), and laughed at when i asked if i had a choice of whether or not to sign papers allowing treatment. There was nothing to do, no privacy, and no individual therapy. I was also kept 1-2 days longer than i was supposed to be kept because "they wanted to make sure my insurance went through," not because they thought i needed help.
I have since gotten back on medication and seen therapists after pushing and pushing for months/years for some of it just to get into the system. And i did that ON MY OWN. The hospital didn't help with any of it. The hospital left me with no resources after they dumped me back in the same situation i'd been plucked from-- no financial advice for the near homelessness, no therapist appointments, no psych recommendations.
I still wake up screaming with nightmares that i'm being dragged back there. My partner still has to shake me awake every couple of months.
I never said therapists are bad, i never said psychs were bad. Psych WARDS are bad. They are fundamentally flawed because they aren't designed to help sufferers get better, they're designed to hold us so we don't cause problems, nevermind if it helps us or makes us worse. The staff is sorely underpaid, the place itself is understocked and underserved, the staff is not allowed to spend proper time with the patients, and malpractice is unfortunately extremely high. Our entire lives get handed over to doctors who see us for MAYBE 20 minutes a week if we're lucky.
The worst part? I got off easy. A friend of mind was sexually harassed and almost assaulted while in a ward. Another friend was forced into a room with their abusive father to "help mend the situation" during a stay.
Crisis wards CAN be a little better-- my partner stayed in one and it helped them. That was where i was SUPPOSED to go. But they were closed when i had my crisis, so i was taken to a hospital instead. Years later, after a lot more therapy and on proper medication, i can honestly say that my life would be better if i had not been taken to that hospital.
Think about what you say before you say it.@@wittyithink9109
I'm glad there's at least some good places. My partner went to a crisis center and it was apparently lovely. But, crisis centers are also WAY different than hospitals. x.x
Sadly, tho, florida isn't a safe zone for me. I used to live there. I'm trans, and a lot of the laws their passing could get me in harm's way even in a hospital, which is extremely unfortunate for anyone else who's trans there ;; .@@Psilomuscimol
Dude you are speaking out of my soul I had similar issues (upcoming BPD ) I spend more than 1,5 years in different facilities and I was more suicidal in hospitals, because it's crazy, you are not even threated like a person and you have zero human rights or stability (sorry for my English it's not my first language)
They forgot the trauma, how staff does jack while you gotta be everyone’s therapist, the fact that all the boys there try to get with you, the moldy foods, the threats of you don’t leave your room you can’t do x. If you don’t shower you can’t do x. If you don’t do this you can’t do x. Oh and the fact that they spread covid like rats. I have no sense of smell and it’s been over a year since I’ve been back to one of those places. I had to stop 2 people from choking themselves in their own clothes, and I was the only person strong enough to push a door open that was being blocked to stop someone from also trying to choke themselves. Never once had a therapy session alone. Never once was taken seriously about my mental illnesses since I’m only there for 2 weeks and mask the whole time. Never once felt safe. But boy do they love to drug you up so you can’t act out.
That's why I fought like hell when they tried to section me through legal threats and being willing to demonstrate my sanity in a court room.
Wow sounds too familiar
Sounds like skill issues
maybe stop masking
@@mellissamercado7904 ….. you do realize it’s not a choice right? It happens naturally. It’s a response I have when I’m in a new place full of strangers and I feel unsafe.
I've yet to see a psych ward that actually made people feel BETTER.
Gotta say I’ll never go back to a psych ward. It was the worst experience I ever had and it doesn’t make me feel any better to be in there.
In my physch ward, the graffiti on my bathroom wall was “tell them you don’t want to kill yourself and they’ll let you out” 😂
Edit: I HAVE NEVER GOTTEN A COMMENT THIS LIKE THANK YOU FOR 10k WHAT
Lmao bro is smart though
Yep, it works lol.
Lmao
I feel like I would have a better time in like Auschwitz than a psych ward
@@ApeApeApeApe9absolutely not 😂
I was in a psych ward for 2 weeks and I didn't want to leave. I think this statement shows exactly how great my home life was.
😢
I tried to put myself into foster care multiple times, so I get it
damn maybe i should do this, my home life sucks too
I’m sorry
I tried to put myself in a ED recovery, I feel you so much
@@alan057 like a recovery place? Hope you were successful… people seeking recovery deserve support 💛
If i got put in there, i would be like "Challenge acceptet"
No you wouldn't.
@@sethravillaofnisan9998 these little tricks aint gonna stop my bud
People still kill themselves in those, if you have one goal you'll probably find a way, @@sethravillaofnisan9998
Locked windows? More like bulletproof.
The only air going into the ward is from the vent ducts
I knew a girl that hung herself on the door knob of her bathroom door. I could never understand how, all she had to do was put her legs down. It wasn't till I was older that I really understood how much she wanted to die to be able to hold her legs up on her own free will and used all her weight to hang herself. When she was found I think she was technically alive. She passed out and her lower body hit the floor, but there was so much brain damage that she officially died later at the hospital.
When I saw the grab rail in the bathroom of this video it made me think how someone really determined could use that like the girl I knew did.
The ones in the ward have a full plate on the bottom so it isn't the normal open bar but they do have to have them for safety of those with physical disabilities to use the toilet safely. That is really sad that she didn't get the help she needed 😔
Doorknob is actually a classic. Unfortunately.
That's disturbing... God help us all
When you need to go, you need to go 😢
When dealing with extreme degrees of mental illness, being forcefully kept alive is absolute hell. I will never understand why society locks people up trying to escape their own psychological hell. I am the daughter of a schizophrenic father and often wonder if it was selfish asking him to stay.
I remember the first day I showed up to one of these, a girl hung herself with the shower curtain. We immediately got hard rubber shower curtains
Oh uhhh that's a "fun" story
That’s so….
There were no curtains on our showers, no curtain rods the shower head didn’t even come out of the wall it was just 3 holes in a knob thing so you couldn’t tie anything to a pipe, they checked in on you every 5 minutes while you showered by knocking on the non-locking handleless door and they gave you hand towel the size of a napkin to dry off with
@xX_RonaldReagan_Xx okay now that's just messed up dude
😃👉🏽😦
My favorite psych ward item is the bendy pens
This made me remember when I was a freshman I had on just jump grippy socks and this dude came over to me and asked me If I was in a phyc ward 😢
When I was in the psyche ward we literally planned a coup against the employees cause after a while they started treating us like shit.
I want the story😂😂😂
Feel horrible it got that far
U should go back
@@speedygee6396it just seems you have never had a hard time in your life. If you did, you wouldn't even consider saying this
And we still need more places like this open
It’s funny that they put in all this stuff to stop you from killing yourself and it just makes you want to do it more. You have no idea how mind-numbing and agonizing it is to be stuck in one of those places. My mum would sometimes tell me she would take me to a psych ward “to get help” when I was in times of crisis, but I don’t think she understood how terrifying of a threat that really is
Edit: let me be clear that I’m not saying there is no point or use to these things, or that I had a terrible mother or anything like that. My mother is great and obviously would be trying to help me out. But I’ve never had a positive experience with these sorts of things, and being stuck in a place like that when what you actually need is to be able to socialize with friends or get out of a shitty headspace it’s the worst.
My mother threatened that if I didn't stop self harming (Not even bad kind) she'd send me to one knowing I hate those fucking places.
@@SirDankleberry there is no good kind my friend
It's a horrible fucking place all they do is drug mentally ill people and do other shit against their will.
@@SirDankleberry everybody self harms in some way or another so as long as you monitor your own harm reduction then you're not going to end up in a ward. Fuck the people who try to tell you that your way of coping is wrong. It's up to you
I understand wanting to get people help that need it, but I would be seriously hesitant to recommend inpatient mental treatment to anyone. I can't speak for other places, but around here, it's a racket. It's very odd to dehumanize people in need of mental treatment, but it seems to be the norm. They run it like a business. If they have 20 beds, you better believe that all 20 beds are full at all times. And people wonder why mental health has been in constant decline. Gee, I wonder why. I have literally never heard a single good thing about our local mental health institution.
Unfortunately the drug unit AND mental health unit were on the same floor and some girl who was withdrawing puked in from of my bed and I woke up to her TOWERING OVER MY BED STARING AT ME and then she told me I WAS IN HER BED and I was like 😶🌫️😶🌫️😶🌫️no this is uh my bed. One guy also told me that he would kill all my friends and family when he got out. He was tied down to a bed later that day and escorted out of the unit. He also followed me around EVERYWHERE and the nurses wouldn't do anything about it. I was trying to take a shower and the shower room was half a wall basically and the guy walked by and stared at me from the other side and I had to scream for help to get him away from me
Since when are you allowed to have your phone in a psych ward?!
"We know you're suicidal so we'll lock you into a freaking box that is literally prison but bigger."
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arguably less freedoms than a prison
Idk if i should ever be in a psych ward, this all would just make the voice in my head scream "challenge accepted!"
Oh trust me, it did that to my brain too.
Fuckers got solutions to everything lmao
I second this!
THat happened to the majority of the people that went to the hospital at the time I did lol. We all still found a way to self harm there.
Oh, same here.
@@lewmie179 same with me the plastic bracelet I was given it off folded it to make it harder and then proceeded to use it to cut myself with
I still wear the socks I got from there almost a decade later. Absolutely top teir.
When i was admitted to 1 in the UK the bath had no handles or a slipmat.Obv being medicated,i fell and got a massive bruise on my side,almost broke my ribs
I remember the pillows in the one I went to were almost exactly like plastic bags. We couldn't have a phone, or clothing with strings (which I understand) the blankets were thin and the rooms were extremely cold. Basically, all you could do in that hellhole was talk to others and participate in these mandatory mental health activity things, so you practically were like an NPC in a video game. I get these places are supposed to protect you especially from yourself, but it feels like you're being punished rather than actually getting help for the reason you're there.
EXACTLY. Psych wards are pretty much just prison. Only thing they succeed in doing is making you feel terrible for having thoughts or attempting. Don't know why they think locking you in a room with no entertainment (one I went didn't let you have your phone or any other device. There was a TV but unless your pleasure was watching Law & Order on mute...) will improve your mental state. I left feeling worse and more wary of seeking getting help lest I be forced to go back
Your pfp explains your behavior
that’s how mine was. we’d sometimes get to use rubber pens or playing cards, though. but it was so boring, i wanted to rip my hair out. i lied during the check-ins because i wanted to get out asap, i felt much happier when i was at home.
it was terrible, i hated being punished for being depressed. i wasn’t even suicidal but nobody listened to me and my rights were basically taken away it was horrific being trapped in there with nothing and all those other people… this one girl had chronic seizures and we were talking and she just collapsed and i had to scream and beg for the nurses to even help… it was awful.
Talk to others?
My idea of hell right there, talking to other people is dangerous, terrifying and leaves me absolutely drained even in the short term
literally jail, being involuntarily put in a psych ward is one of my worst fears
hi! i was put in a pysch ward involuntarily! do not recommend :)
"We are not forcing you to go but if you don't, we're going to send you to the "closed station" where everything is worse 🙂"
@@vivi-ws9yl deadass stfg
@bored tired and sad that’s weird cus I went in voluntary last year for about two weeks and they kept asking me if I wanted to go but I love psych wards and schedules and stuff like that so I got them to just keep me there, I eventually left when all my friends left
Jail is much better than this trust me
Now I want suffocation-proof bed sheets.
My hubbys uncle was in the psych ward for a few days and at night he'd go in the hallway and turn all the pictures upside down. Now they nail all the pictures to the wall 🤣
Even when I was at the most suicidal point in my life, my therapist refused* to commit me to a place like this. He said that the wards were "inhumane" and that, more importantly, he wanted me to trust him and continue opening up to him. He knew how poorly I would tolerate such a place (given that a lot of my trauma relates to feeling trapped with no escape), and he truly cared how I'd feel. He's been my therapist for 10+ years and has truly helped me stay alive - not by locking me up under constant supervision, but by guiding me towards thoughts, medications, and situations that would truly benefit me and ultimately help me help myself. If I had gone to a psych ward, I don't doubt that it would have taken me longer to get where I am now, if I would have gotten there at all.
* [Edit: To add some more context, when I said "refused," I meant that my therapist was reluctant to do so, but if it was legally required of him or if he felt it was absolutely necessary, I don't doubt he would have done what needed to be done. Luckily, I hadn't explicitly mentioned any active suicidal intent to him (out of paranoia that I would be involuntarily hospitalized), but he could intuitively tell I wasn't doing well.]
tell those of us who literally cannot afford to go or have a way to go what the biggest thing in staying relatively happy, grounded &/or just not sewersidal plz
you are very lucky you got the right one for you. that's really nice to read
@@embadly watching Dr K from healthy gamer und reading "the depression cure" by Illardy (he's also got a Ted talk that already contains most of it).
Every book I read and talk I heard helped me in a way. Then of course walking, dancing, talking to honest friends and to people who know what it's like.
I forgot the name of that one guy who really made it clear for me... if you want to, I can look it up and tell you.
@@embadly and it really gets better. hang in there
Your therapist is legally required to have you institutionalized if you had an active plan for suicide or harm. Not sure if you were at that stage yet or if they actually broke the law or not, if so then they were at serious risk of losing their license. It's not an easy situation for mental health professionals
Y‘know my mom put me into the mental hospital because she read my diary in which I wrote that I can’t take this shit anymore. (The shit I couldn’t take was my mom, and only her, no suicidal intentions) but she interpreted it as such. They took basically everything from me and I was left in my room with just one book for four days. I literally became insane in there. Luckily after those four days the psychologist released me stating that there was nothing wrong with me.
That was one hell of an experience.
(I also read that one book that I had 6 times)
Lol just wondering, what was the book called/about?
Stealing comment location to state: This man should NOT be in medicine. Condescending asshole anytime mental health is mentioned.
@@Purple_girl1006 it was a German book about a girl in the drug scene, prostitution and so on. It’s very popular over here.
@@KJun2_ oh
Both my mom & I were sent to mental hospitals at some point in our lives. Mental illness runs in our family. But our conditions deteriorated inside because we were treated like animals. I wasn't even allowed to wear my bra anymore & was forced to take it off infront of staff to prove I'm not wearing it. I thought we abolished asylums but they still exist.
I enjoyed my psych ward a lot. I was also so fucking stressed and suicidal before I went in that literally anything was better; but a forced disconnect for 14 days was amazing. They are meant to give you fast track coping skills and it’s really the outpatient that helps a lot.
I know my experience isn’t very common but it also helps to have good nurses. I will always remember my favorite nurse, Ivan. He was a super tall super strong black man that would always say he needed to keep his reputation while at the same time handing me the tray he snuck off the meal cart so I would have something to eat when I woke up- I’d usually wake up after they already took away the meal carts(and the rest of the meals eaten or not).
i was in a pysch ward when i was 12 and my ward we had a menu and got to wear free dress and no windows
Pro tip from someone who's done it themselves: If you're struggling with self harm thoughts and don't want to, join an acute partial hospitalization program. Psych wards are to keep you from hurting yourself, APH programs are to help you feel alive again. Hated the psych ward cause all it did was drug and ignore me. At the APH program I received daily therapy and made friends for life. I'm eternally grateful to them.
Thank you so much. I'll keep that in mind if I have trouble again as I've slowly been slipping again this year and all psych wards have done is give me ptsd
Yeah, the psych wards I've been to just wanted to keep everyone asleep so they didn't have to deal with anything. So they were very liberal in their use of the "sleepy time" drug.
That'll be 100k
YESSS THANK YOU THIS IS 100% true
This type of program changed my life! I went about a year and a half ago and it was the best decision I ever made. Best wishes to anyone who wants to get help, you can do it! ❤
Don't forget the people singing and pounding on the walls.
They use medical restraints to eliminate that sort of behaviour these days 😐
The last time I was in one there was a guy who kept running around naked praising Jesus while holding rosary beads. They didn't want to give them to him because obvious danger but he was getting so combative and violent that they told him he had to calm do n and get dressed. First half of that worked. They then tried multiple times to reclaim the he beads and we all had to be locked into a counseling room because security was coming as the staff couldn't controll him.
@@nellhandebo5962 they don't. I was in a mental hospital last year. They don't use restraints for that. The patients who are there for suicide attempts only do it because they're bored with nothing to do. They can't do anything. They took away the radios because someone tried to swallow a battery.
@@dontwakethedeadp.jankey9592 they took my jewelry and it broke in their storage. One of my gloves got lost and they lost my birth control. I'm trans and need it. Without birth control, I'm extremely violent on my period.
When I did as in-nobody sang or banged. It would have made it more human-focused with some type of music but alas there was none of that.
just double up the bed sheets
Couldn’t you use the bedclothes and that hand rail to 💀
the way he's smiling through the whole video and then proceeds to trying to sell you socks 💀
Just buy the socks already they are grippy so you don't off yourself.
@@spazzypotato8325 💀
New motto for socks: "Why unexist yourself, you have grippies for your grippers."
psychiatrist moment
When you deal with this shit everyday, yep you find humour where you can.
Also gotta pay the bills
Remember, psych wards aren't for treatment they're for stabilization. They don't do much more than calm you down and generally medicate you. For me, I went twice, it's what I needed. I'm bipolar so I just needed forced to take my meds and some time for the episode to simmer down in a space where I couldn't harm myself. I really liked most of the nurses I saw too.
True. Mental illness requites a multi pronged approach as far as treatment is concerned. A stay in an inpatient ward is to assess you and if need be, adjust or begin a medication regime. Many folk on psych meds will stop taking them once they feel better.
Unfortunately, treatment for mental illness isn't like a broken arm. How wonderful would it be to xray bipolar, chuck a cast on depression and keep anxiety dry for 6 weeks.
My cousin tried to burn the house down with herself and her kids locked inside. Was in a ward for a few months, to stabilize and figure out medication. Does she still need help, meds and support? Yes. But she's far more stable than she's ever been, and the meds are helping immensely. And I can't imagine it would've been possible without her having that time in that environment.
i’m glad you had an alright experience with it!
They took away my medication for a week instead because the psychiatrist was never there to approve my prescription. I was going through withdrawal from clonazepam and having intense anxiety and mild psychosis that everyone in the ward was there to torture and kill me. I had to keep asking the most patient nurse to confirm it was just withdrawal.
@@PandoraPotatoSalad noo clonazepam withdrawal is serious, you should have been helped through it. I decided to go cold turkey once and made myself so ill (I hadn't slept for 4 days) the pharmacist in my local chemist looked at me and said go straight home and call your GP. Do not go anywhere else. My GP said well you can carry on and feel even worse until about day 7 and then we can see how you are without it or you can take your medication and feel better. I'm bipolar so I don't always make the best choices but my old GP was the best at talking me round gently. I ended up giving in and taking a clonazepam and going to bed until I felt better.
Damn even I didn’t have toilet paper 😭 I had to sneak napkins
I would go even crazier being on there
Don’t forget an “us and them attitude” from the staff 👏
This
Which is why so many of us patients tried to escape and do everything in our power to make their job hell :)
Family member took me to the ER for SI. I had been trying to get actual help for months but no one took me seriously until then. I was 15. Spent an hour waiting for psych consult. Psych doctor was through a video call. Psych doctor talked to me for two minutes and told them to put me on a 72 hour hold. A.k.a. you're now in prison but we will call it a hospital. Got sent to a place 2 hours away when a bed opened up after spending a night in the psych hold room of the er in paper clothes. Transport guy talked to someone on the phone the entire drive, so I got to stare out the window and drown in my thoughts. Worst car ride of my life still several years later. I get there, go through the giant prison gate around the hospital. They required we strip completely in front a nurse to be checked for self harm scars or other signs of abuse. It felt violating. They didn't believe thay I had never self harmed either, or hadn't drank or used drugs. I remember the nurse kept asking me if I had just in slightly different wording each time. The usual went on. No shoelaces, etc. They had rules about clothes like we had to wear socks at all times but they had to be our own socks from home, no belts or drawstrings, no stuffed animals with hard eyes or buttons.. If you didn't have anyone to bring you clothes or hadn't brought some you were just screwed. Needed permission to even have books. Showers were freezing 5 minute experiences with no water pressure that were required daily. Got one 10 minute phone call a day. Visitations were longer but no one wanted to make the drive to see me. It really felt like prison. The nurses treated us like criminals, giving judgemental looks about any little thing that was literally entailed in their job. I lied through my teeth about how I felt so I could leave. They didn't help. They made me feel worse. I still have nightmares about that place. Didn't help you would hear gruesome stories from the other patients about the ones who got around the saftey measures anyway. The psychiatrist they had there never even listened to me, just talked a couple minutes and gave me some generic prescription writing me off as another depressed teen. Only good thing they did was get me an appointment with a psychiatrist who was the woman who actually sorted me out once I was free. Bless her, I still see her to this day.
Edit: typo
oh my god, i'm fifteen and i can't even begin to imagine having to go through that. i struggle w/ self harm and all that fun stuff but god that sounds like hell
@@vanilladrizzlequeenIt is hell. Especially the juvenile places are extremely dehumanising. Please get help outside if possible - having it in your medical history will make people treat you differently, it will always be a lens filter. In my personal experience self harm in teens is really looked like it's " people who have no real problems acting out to get attention" instead of being treated as what it is - an outside manifestation of inner suffering eased by only way a person feels gets them any relief. You deserve help, you deserve patience, you deserve a medical professional who will listen and treat you like an autonomous human being, not a "problem" for your parents or being judged right out of the door as "entitled brat who knows nothing about the world". Some view self harm's seriousness upon severity of the physical damage almost as if completely oblivious to the fact that any amount means one is suffering beyond their ability to cope and any amount is way,way too much. It's as with eating disorders - some people don't believe they deserve help because they aren't thin or sick enough. It's bollocks.
I'm 35 now and I hoped things changed ever since I was 12 and in that place but alas. I went through awful shit but being locked up in juvenile facility still is one of the most traumatic, dehumanising experiences of my life. I know there's people who have different experiences, and a lot depends on the place and staff, but I would consider it as last resort - place you go to to save you from hurting yourself. The best part is community support, but fortunately now one can find it outside.
Please be kind to yourself. It may be tough to the point that it may seem hopeless, but you can weather that storm and come out victorious.
Man, not too long ago I was in a psych ward for an eval. That was like a prison cell. The only reason I was barely san was because my mom was in the same room as me and I had my stuffed animal with me. If I were in your position without Flower, my stuffed dog, I probably would have offed myself. I wish you the best. I hope you get the help you need.
@@moonstar3833 I'm alright several years removed, got some good professionals on my side once I got out. I'm glad you got to keep your stuffed animal, mine have always comforted me as well even into my 20's. I hope you're getting the support and love you deserve, kind stranger.
@@margodphd I told my parents I wanted to off myself at 13. I was stressed out to high hell and the pandemic was kicking my ass since I was so social in elementary school and isolation was not treating me well. When they said they were going to send me to a military school, I lost my shit, started bawling, and told them about how I wanted to do it, then they said they were going to send me to a psych ward, and when I freaked the fuck out at the prospect of being sent to one of these, they just brushed it off after I talked to some sort of psychologist person on the phone. Literally nothing changed. I could off myself just as easily as I could before. My dad literally left his whole ass gun safe unlocked at some point, but I was able to keep my mind off of things (music is the only thing keeping me from giving in to the thoughts that just pop into my brain 5-6 times a day :) ). I haven’t told them any of what I’m going through since it’ll get the same result and more than likely end up with me actually locked up in a mental hospital. It just felt like they didn’t care about what I was going through, and on top of that, it feels like none of my accomplishments are acknowledged. When school comes up, it’s only the 60/65% on that random English test I studied for, and not the consistent 90-100%s on my math tests I’ve been getting all year. It’s never anything positive, it’s solely the bad whenever I hear them talk about it. I’m just so damn tired of it all.
When parents don’t want to be parents anymore