I got out of a psych ward by knowing what was expected of me. I buried my issues and walked out within a week, only to fall back into the depression. They aren't built to help you, they're built to contain you. Don't let yourself get locked up in one of these. Edit: I saw some debate on masking. Yes that's likely what I was doing, and yes it does stand to reason that one could carry that on for a time. But it's a temporary relief and only pleases those around you. However it does nothing for your own state other than make it worse. You burn more and more of your own resolve just for the benefit of others to stay off their radar. Chronic depression will always show its ugly head if you don't treat the issue itself.
@@Damn-Sandwich Yeah I do it too. My point was there's no reason to "fall back in" if you can just act your depression away. Just go "oh I'm depressed again. Time to act"
@MajoradeMayhem I got really lucky, but for most people, that would've been enough to drive them mad. Well, mad_der_. I still remember the flashlight through the slitted door window, even though it's been over a year
Hey it's rough on staff too, there's so much to do and then you need to make sure someone got that done. We were on 15 minute checks, 3 floor staff became 2 because 1 was preoccupied with checks the whole shift if they were slow enough.
We were on 15 minute checks. I knew a guy on a 5 minute check And I knew another guy that was on a 1-to-1 because he kept hurting himself in the bathroom.
@Puppyllary Response at what? Not wanting to die? Plus there’s nothing wrong with needing help. Literally everyone needs help sometimes. Unless you live secluded in the woods you’ve gotten help too.
YES! THIS!!!! Your sister is completely correct!!!! The place I was at didn’t even have full length towels!!! The largest size towel for showering was MAYBEEE just maybe just about 2inches, and then legit maybe 9, 10? Inches in width…. And the certain was pretty much only half of a certain and it didn’t move, and we were allowed to close our doors!!!! There was no type of privacy at all….. and I get it I get that they have to constantly keep eyes on us and stuff to match sure we aren’t harming our or yk…. That jazz…. But stilll!!!! Give us SOME hospitality! 😫😭😭😭
Yes, because all of these suicide prevention measures mean they don't give a damn about their patients 🙄 the nurses do offer counseling as much as they can, but tbh, most people in psych wards have a mental illness. It's different from being sad. You can't talk them through or out of it. The best thing that can be done is to keep the patient from killing themselves so the doctors have the time they need to diagnose and find the right medications for the patient.
Yeah I’m gonna go out on a limb and say it’s pretty rare for mentally healthy people to end up in this place. Edit: I’m not talking about 20 or 30+ years ago when people were forced into those facilities for ridiculous reasons and I’m saying everyone who ends up in there is insane or suicidal. Mental illness is a very wide ranging term. The purpose of psych wards isn’t exactly for healing it’s primarily for safety which sometimes does end up having the opposite effect on patients because unfortunately the system is deeply flawed.
@@annabenedetti9699 please take your comment down. I understand where you're coming from but a lot of suicides happen because people feel like they can't get any help, and your comment really enforces that idea. It's some of the worst advice you could give to a suicidal person. I get that places like this aren't fun and a lot of times don't help at all, but a lot of people's lives have been saved because of places like this, so please, don't encourage that narrative :(
I was so traumatized by my mistreatment during my first hospitalization that even when I was in far more dangerous situations, I refused to go back because it scarred me. Psych wards are meant to be safe but they, to many patients, feel incredibly unsafe & even more despondent due to conditions and staff mistreatment. More needs to be done to make them less of a hellscape for the patients.
Oh man, I'm so sorry. I've been trying the psych ward almost 10 times, and I think the one I went to must have been one of the better ones, because they made it pretty nice. Like, it still sucked, but it was comfortable, and I felt cared for, not punished or mistreated. I wish you felt like you had a safe place to go when you need one. You deserve that at the bare minimum.
I've been in once, and the only things I took away from the experience were these 1. Get better at hiding my issues. 2. If you're going to do it, do it right. One way or another, I will never be going back. I'm pretty sure murderers have more rights and dignity than psych patients.
The last time I went to one, I discovered my psychiatrist was actually mistreating me by giving me medication that sells well. All the medications I took were for mental disorders I wasn’t diagnosed with. The nurses there set me straight and found a better psych. It’s been a miracle for me. So thank you to that psyche ward for that.
I work at a gas station, and a dude came in with a couple girls. The girls were all cheery, and the dude looked pissed. When I asked what they were up to that day, the dude looked up and said "I just got out of the psych ward." To which I had to ask "did you get the dope grippy socks." Dudes face lit up, and he showed me he still had the socks on
Similar story with me. I was meeting my girlfriends family for the first time, they told me that the brother was difficult to talk to due to his m. health issues, completely unaware that I had the same issues. When we sat down to dinner her brother was really angry and volatile, making the room go all quiet. I asked him what meds he was on and he barked them at me, I told him that I used to be on same meds but changed to something else, he mouth dropped open and all of a sudden he was more happy and speaking softly, we ended up having an hour long conversation about our illnesses and meds. He considers me his best friend now.
@@Paul-A01 “you can do it” is encouragement telling the person that they can improve their mental health? Why’d your mind have to go there. Better still, why’d you have to let us know it went there.
The fact that this nurse actually thinks this is a fun video tells me everything I need to know. Thanks for the trauma memory punching me in the face, former nurse asshole.
Because they’re not… And it being that obvious to everyone should tell you something. Being there normal minded would be like prison (horrible enough) but imagine wanting to kill yourself and then being admitted there. There’s no place you’d want to kill yourself more at than these institutions. And some people say it’s not like the sanatoriums from a hundred years ago😂I’d argue it’s worse. It’s also a vicious cycle if you’ve been forcefully admitted once it sets you up to end up there again and again. Those are the only people I can actually feel happy for when they kill themselves because I’m glad they don’t have to suffer any longer ending up in these hell holes over and over again. Being able to end it is the last bit of autonomy you have. Those places are just a way of society criminalizing suicide to be honest instead of helping they sentence you to these torture prisons where you’re told you have to feel/think normal to get out of. No wonder people act like it and will never feel like they can talk honestly about their feelings ever again
Worked at one for two years I was the only employee that seemed to realize we were taking care of other people with lives, emotions, and feelings. Some never get visitors, some never leave the bed. I left work many times in tears over what I saw or heard. The least I could do was give out extra snacks and talk with them like a human and not a robot worker. I remember sneaking in the good movies for them to watch.
Does the color of the socks matter? At one hospital on the med floor, yellow socks meant trip & fall, red meant heart, gray meant trouble, etc., etc. What color do they use for psych??
@@ms.charlotte9984 no o they didn’t mean anything in particular where I worked but it has been since 2014-2016 so I might not remember something like levels of socks. But we had 1:1 or 2:1 where they would be under constant watch by 1 or 2 employees at all times
Now THIS is the kind of treatment ppl shud b getting, omg! I have been scrolling thru all these comments and it saddens me so heavily that ppl r treated this way wen if they were treated like a human being, the possibility of unaliving might actually get better
Thank you for that. I went to one when I was 14. The security guard there treated me like a human being, and I could see something so human and sad about him too. He found out what high-school I went to and it turns out his daughter who he hadn't seen in years was in my grade there. I knew of her, but wasn't friends with her. His eyes would light up as he asked me questions about her. If she's still in choir class, he'd tell me how she has a beautiful singing voice and I'd agree with him. He was so kind to me. I'm not sure why he didn't see his daughter, but I felt really bad for him. He just wanted to know that she was doing okay. And he was the only person there who treated me like a human being.
If you think that's bad go read up on the stories of people who still try and like three of the biggest dudes you've ever seen hold you down to a bed put you in a shirt you can't take off and hold you tighter than a bear hug and then they strap you down to a table and then inject you with a bunch of medications that keep you basically unconscious for 12 hours
Don't worry the help never comes. America's just a prison state. Known multiple people who gave gone there. It's useless they just feel worse after being locked in a cell for weeks
I'm still dealing with the trauma of a brief psych stay 12 years ago. I don't think I will ever be the same. Seeing this shit with bright, happy music over it makes me sick.
I was voluntarily in one for three days. An employee saw me in the holding room, came in, sat down, looked into my eyes and said, "YOU don't belong here. Do what you have to do to get yourself out. I don't want to see you here again." It shocked me so much that I did exactly that. The loneliness was nightmarish. You have no sense of time and nothing to distract you.
I was in a psych ward many years ago and I remember them asking me to remove my shoelaces so I couldn't harm anybody or myself with them. A few hours later, we were in the crafts room and they handed me a piece of leather, brass stencils and a claw hammer, to make leather bracelets. I looked at the hammer in my hand, looked back at the doctor and asked them if they could explain to me again about the dangers of shoelaces.
When using the tools, you are under supervision and are doing activities that are meant to keep your mind occupied. When you are alone, thats when most people feel the most motivated to die because thats when the intrusive thoughts come about. Most people also dont want to harm themselves in the immediate vacinity of others because they fear they would be a burden. Obviously, this isnt the case for everyone, but just like in prisons, certain people are or arent allowed to use or do certain things like using metal tools. Im not defending mental institutions, but im explaining their thought process, and personally, i think they do a lot of harm, but the goal is to reduce harm, and there have been more incidence rates of people hanging themselves than people killing themselves while supervised.
i went to a psych ward when i was in 6th grade. i was never left alone, and it just made my mental state even worse. when i got out, i told my brother it made me feel worse and then he told me that it costed him 4k. 4k for a place that didn’t even help me.
I'm sorry is this an American thing? Like ims ure we have physc wards in the uk and stuff just you wouldn't be put in one during school? I just got to talk to the pastoral coordinator and then a NHS nurse would come into school once a week to talk to you and stuff
I’m so sorry… that must have been the worst. In my experience, I think mental health is best fixed by warmth and friendship, not being treated like a monster.
I also went to a pych ward as well, and all they did was stick me in talking groups with people that had worse issues than I did, and didn't even help me with my own issues, talking about it to others isn't always gonna make it better. . .
I swear, going to a psych ward doesn't discourage most of us from suicide, it just discourages us from telling anybody. I don't think I ever got anything resembling treatment in one of those places.
YES!!! THIS!!! 👏👏👏 (And if you try to be honest and tell them you have exponentially LESS suicidal ideations at home, they twist your words around to keep you locked up longer for "being too much of a danger to yourself..." 🥴)
You won't really get Tx, there's chronic understaffing. 1 Dr/30 patients x 5min talks w each patient=3 hrs + writing Tx plans, updates & notes on each + whtvr else needs doing = 8hrs+. Psych wards keep ppl safe & fed, but it's not comfortable & not very therapeutic. Plus, if you've got good insurance they'll keep you for over a wk to get the extra $. But: if ya need a break, a reset, get you a grippy sock vacay.
Actual interaction I had while in psychiatric hospital Therapist: This isn't a prison, we're not holding you against your will Me: i'd like to go home then Therapist: Sorry you're not allowed to leave unless we allow you
Also hard plastic furniture filled with sand so you can't pick them up or throw them. They also took the caps from our water bottles because someone apparently used them to choke on. No shoes or shoelaces. No shorts or pants with drawstrings. No shampoo/conditioner, toothpaste/mouthwash, and deodorant with certain ingredients. We were allowed to play with a Nintendo Switch but they thought we could smash it and use the pieces to harm ourselves so we were closely monitored while playing Mario Kart. P.S.: I checked myself in. I came very close to committing suicide and realized I needed help. I stayed for about a week. We did activities everyday numerous times a day and I got the tools I needed to deal with things. I think it was the best place for me to be at that time.
@@SiiriCressey For everyone. I'm guessing someone ingested something from the toiletries list and got sick or something. They told me everything was for a reason.
@@Spectator79 Jeez. It sounds like that's at least as much for the convenience of the staff as for the safety of the patients. Why bother having to only keep potentially dangerous stuff away from people who are likely to/have used it to hurt themselves or others when you can just not let anyone have any?
Pro tip from someone who's done it themselves: If you're struggling with self harm thoughts and don't want to, join an acute partial hospitalization program. Psych wards are to keep you from hurting yourself, APH programs are to help you feel alive again. Hated the psych ward cause all it did was drug and ignore me. At the APH program I received daily therapy and made friends for life. I'm eternally grateful to them.
Thank you so much. I'll keep that in mind if I have trouble again as I've slowly been slipping again this year and all psych wards have done is give me ptsd
Yeah, the psych wards I've been to just wanted to keep everyone asleep so they didn't have to deal with anything. So they were very liberal in their use of the "sleepy time" drug.
This type of program changed my life! I went about a year and a half ago and it was the best decision I ever made. Best wishes to anyone who wants to get help, you can do it! ❤
Well if the choice is an apple or that fucking sandwich, i don’t blame him. No wonder they have to protect these poor people from themselves. Imagine. That’s your lunch.
couldn’t even have the hoods on the hoodie at the one i went to, it didn’t feel comfortable without it so they literally just cut it off with scissors and did a terrible job at it.
I remember those “suffocation-proof” bedsheets. They aren’t suffocation-proof. Okay before anyone gets mad it’s time to explain. I was on a 48-hour involuntary hold, and on my last night my roommate tried to strangle me with said sheets, I think he was mad because I got to be free. He had it doubly folded and I genuinely could not breathe or fight back.
Bro i'm still struggling with a bill from getting baker acted, and it didn't even help me, honestly just fucked up my whole life, work, school, social shit, everything
I went to a psych ward for depression/suicidality related to PTSD. Came out with even worse PTSD. I'm sorry, but those places aren't meant to help. They're meant to hold.
Too bad you're not in Florida. You could go to Shands and ask to be sent to the mental health part. It's a much nicer place and the people are friendly.
You're extremely insensitive and misunderstanding my point if this is how you react to this. You're also assuming a lot. I went to the ward WILLINGLY because i KNEW i needed help. I'd just come out of an abusive ass household with religious trauma, sexual trauma, and almost no life experience. I was mentally ill and had been seeking help since college (2-3 years prior). I'd been with therapists and psychs before i had to flee my bio family and therefore leave my prior resources, and they were all mostly fine. I'd been trying to get in with a therapist and psych in my new place so i could get on meds and start working on my issues, but was being pushed back in the system. I had a bad night and hurt myself-- not the first time. My partner called a hotline and was told either bring me in or the cops would come get me. I went willingly, because i thought i was going to get to talk to someone, be seen off, and get hooked up with a therapist while there. I was shoved in a white room, told to stop crying, lied to about my partner "leaving" me there (they'd been told to leave after we'd been separated), and laughed at when i asked if i had a choice of whether or not to sign papers allowing treatment. There was nothing to do, no privacy, and no individual therapy. I was also kept 1-2 days longer than i was supposed to be kept because "they wanted to make sure my insurance went through," not because they thought i needed help. I have since gotten back on medication and seen therapists after pushing and pushing for months/years for some of it just to get into the system. And i did that ON MY OWN. The hospital didn't help with any of it. The hospital left me with no resources after they dumped me back in the same situation i'd been plucked from-- no financial advice for the near homelessness, no therapist appointments, no psych recommendations. I still wake up screaming with nightmares that i'm being dragged back there. My partner still has to shake me awake every couple of months. I never said therapists are bad, i never said psychs were bad. Psych WARDS are bad. They are fundamentally flawed because they aren't designed to help sufferers get better, they're designed to hold us so we don't cause problems, nevermind if it helps us or makes us worse. The staff is sorely underpaid, the place itself is understocked and underserved, the staff is not allowed to spend proper time with the patients, and malpractice is unfortunately extremely high. Our entire lives get handed over to doctors who see us for MAYBE 20 minutes a week if we're lucky. The worst part? I got off easy. A friend of mind was sexually harassed and almost assaulted while in a ward. Another friend was forced into a room with their abusive father to "help mend the situation" during a stay. Crisis wards CAN be a little better-- my partner stayed in one and it helped them. That was where i was SUPPOSED to go. But they were closed when i had my crisis, so i was taken to a hospital instead. Years later, after a lot more therapy and on proper medication, i can honestly say that my life would be better if i had not been taken to that hospital. Think about what you say before you say it.@@wittyithink9109
I'm glad there's at least some good places. My partner went to a crisis center and it was apparently lovely. But, crisis centers are also WAY different than hospitals. x.x Sadly, tho, florida isn't a safe zone for me. I used to live there. I'm trans, and a lot of the laws their passing could get me in harm's way even in a hospital, which is extremely unfortunate for anyone else who's trans there ;; .@@Psilomuscimol
Dude you are speaking out of my soul I had similar issues (upcoming BPD ) I spend more than 1,5 years in different facilities and I was more suicidal in hospitals, because it's crazy, you are not even threated like a person and you have zero human rights or stability (sorry for my English it's not my first language)
I feel like they should make separate mental health wards specifically for people who don’t have severe mental illness where they act erratically, very aggressive, etc. I can’t imagine being suicidal and getting locked up in a ward where other people are screaming, banging walls/doors, threatening to stab others, etc. that would just make you feel worse.
@@jav7899 We used to, but after 1970's people thought they were cruel and not PC. So we just got rid of them and let all the psychos loose and free to roam the cities. Now we just call them homeless people.
@@jav7899There's a concept like that in Germany. We have different stages of psych ward, from 1 to 5 I believe, but I'm not sure. 1 is essentially you're not able to function in normal life but no danger to yourself or others and 5 is 'you're so suicidal and/or aggressive you essentially need a constant guard around you'. Neither is much good though, because they're understaffed as hell and no one has the time to actually help you. Had a friend with a dissociative disorder who was in 3 and during an episode, which usually involved shaking and banging her head like crazy, all the nurse could do was put a pillow under her head and rush off, because there was already another emergency around the corner. Another friend learned how to lie to therapists very well, just so he could pretend he got better to get the fuck out of there. It's not a particularly good system.
It can, been there. It depends in each one. But it's kind of like prison when it comes to the rights u have and u can't go outside and you javelin to stay with ppl u don't know and share the bathroom and rooms with strangers. It can mess with u and make u worse
I’m an electrician that works in primarily hospitals and let me tell you... the things we have to do to the electric in the psych ward so you don’t get into the electric and hurt yourself is crazy
Luckily, I know a lot of various science, and have experience working with electrical components as well as training in that field, so all good here! Like how you should always be very careful when tightening the fastening bolts on a vehicle’s battery terminals, because if the wrench is all metal and it touches a metal surface from the positive terminal, you better hope you’re shoes have rubber soles. Doc martins are great for that, because they’re chemical, puncture, and electricity resistant. Still, rubber gloves are a good idea when working with live electrical things. Footnote: I suddenly felt the need to infodump. Which is why I wrote all that.
@@ManyArmedMooseDei actually it’s the negative terminal you want to watch out for, that’s where electricity flows outward, the positive terminal is where it flows back in. Really you don’t want to touch either to ground though. Kind strange of you to boast about your electrical knowledge and then spout a bunch of incorrect information, if you are touching the wrench rubber soles aren’t going to do anything, electricity coming from a vehicle battery isn’t trying to flow through the ground it’s going to use the metal you touched to return to it’s source which is the car so it’s still going to travel through your body even with rubber soles. Common misconception, electricity doesn’t want to travel through the ground, it wants to travel back to the source and it will sometimes use the ground if it has no easier path, but if you give it an easier path like metal on the car, it’s still going to shock you.
Hey! Been in that situation myself! Except mine turned into 5 days because the doctor wasn't there my first day or the 3rd day to discharge me. So I had to wait 2 extra days until the doctor decided I was important enough for his time to let me out of the prison that psych wards truly are. My psychiatrist I've seen regularly on a set schedule for the last 13 years was NOT very happy with that doctor and he is now he's had his medical license revoked due to Medicare fraud. The mental health field is just full of great people who truly care. 😐😐😐
@@Mind_of_a_Very_Strange_Man Same here. Weekends and holidays don’t count towards your time, so the 3 days easily turns into 5 or 6 if you go on a holiday weekend.
Family member took me to the ER for SI. I had been trying to get actual help for months but no one took me seriously until then. I was 15. Spent an hour waiting for psych consult. Psych doctor was through a video call. Psych doctor talked to me for two minutes and told them to put me on a 72 hour hold. A.k.a. you're now in prison but we will call it a hospital. Got sent to a place 2 hours away when a bed opened up after spending a night in the psych hold room of the er in paper clothes. Transport guy talked to someone on the phone the entire drive, so I got to stare out the window and drown in my thoughts. Worst car ride of my life still several years later. I get there, go through the giant prison gate around the hospital. They required we strip completely in front a nurse to be checked for self harm scars or other signs of abuse. It felt violating. They didn't believe thay I had never self harmed either, or hadn't drank or used drugs. I remember the nurse kept asking me if I had just in slightly different wording each time. The usual went on. No shoelaces, etc. They had rules about clothes like we had to wear socks at all times but they had to be our own socks from home, no belts or drawstrings, no stuffed animals with hard eyes or buttons.. If you didn't have anyone to bring you clothes or hadn't brought some you were just screwed. Needed permission to even have books. Showers were freezing 5 minute experiences with no water pressure that were required daily. Got one 10 minute phone call a day. Visitations were longer but no one wanted to make the drive to see me. It really felt like prison. The nurses treated us like criminals, giving judgemental looks about any little thing that was literally entailed in their job. I lied through my teeth about how I felt so I could leave. They didn't help. They made me feel worse. I still have nightmares about that place. Didn't help you would hear gruesome stories from the other patients about the ones who got around the saftey measures anyway. The psychiatrist they had there never even listened to me, just talked a couple minutes and gave me some generic prescription writing me off as another depressed teen. Only good thing they did was get me an appointment with a psychiatrist who was the woman who actually sorted me out once I was free. Bless her, I still see her to this day. Edit: typo
oh my god, i'm fifteen and i can't even begin to imagine having to go through that. i struggle w/ self harm and all that fun stuff but god that sounds like hell
@@vanilladrizzlequeenIt is hell. Especially the juvenile places are extremely dehumanising. Please get help outside if possible - having it in your medical history will make people treat you differently, it will always be a lens filter. In my personal experience self harm in teens is really looked like it's " people who have no real problems acting out to get attention" instead of being treated as what it is - an outside manifestation of inner suffering eased by only way a person feels gets them any relief. You deserve help, you deserve patience, you deserve a medical professional who will listen and treat you like an autonomous human being, not a "problem" for your parents or being judged right out of the door as "entitled brat who knows nothing about the world". Some view self harm's seriousness upon severity of the physical damage almost as if completely oblivious to the fact that any amount means one is suffering beyond their ability to cope and any amount is way,way too much. It's as with eating disorders - some people don't believe they deserve help because they aren't thin or sick enough. It's bollocks. I'm 35 now and I hoped things changed ever since I was 12 and in that place but alas. I went through awful shit but being locked up in juvenile facility still is one of the most traumatic, dehumanising experiences of my life. I know there's people who have different experiences, and a lot depends on the place and staff, but I would consider it as last resort - place you go to to save you from hurting yourself. The best part is community support, but fortunately now one can find it outside. Please be kind to yourself. It may be tough to the point that it may seem hopeless, but you can weather that storm and come out victorious.
Man, not too long ago I was in a psych ward for an eval. That was like a prison cell. The only reason I was barely san was because my mom was in the same room as me and I had my stuffed animal with me. If I were in your position without Flower, my stuffed dog, I probably would have offed myself. I wish you the best. I hope you get the help you need.
@@moonstar3833 I'm alright several years removed, got some good professionals on my side once I got out. I'm glad you got to keep your stuffed animal, mine have always comforted me as well even into my 20's. I hope you're getting the support and love you deserve, kind stranger.
@@margodphd I told my parents I wanted to off myself at 13. I was stressed out to high hell and the pandemic was kicking my ass since I was so social in elementary school and isolation was not treating me well. When they said they were going to send me to a military school, I lost my shit, started bawling, and told them about how I wanted to do it, then they said they were going to send me to a psych ward, and when I freaked the fuck out at the prospect of being sent to one of these, they just brushed it off after I talked to some sort of psychologist person on the phone. Literally nothing changed. I could off myself just as easily as I could before. My dad literally left his whole ass gun safe unlocked at some point, but I was able to keep my mind off of things (music is the only thing keeping me from giving in to the thoughts that just pop into my brain 5-6 times a day :) ). I haven’t told them any of what I’m going through since it’ll get the same result and more than likely end up with me actually locked up in a mental hospital. It just felt like they didn’t care about what I was going through, and on top of that, it feels like none of my accomplishments are acknowledged. When school comes up, it’s only the 60/65% on that random English test I studied for, and not the consistent 90-100%s on my math tests I’ve been getting all year. It’s never anything positive, it’s solely the bad whenever I hear them talk about it. I’m just so damn tired of it all.
I knew a girl that hung herself on the door knob of her bathroom door. I could never understand how, all she had to do was put her legs down. It wasn't till I was older that I really understood how much she wanted to die to be able to hold her legs up on her own free will and used all her weight to hang herself. When she was found I think she was technically alive. She passed out and her lower body hit the floor, but there was so much brain damage that she officially died later at the hospital. When I saw the grab rail in the bathroom of this video it made me think how someone really determined could use that like the girl I knew did.
The ones in the ward have a full plate on the bottom so it isn't the normal open bar but they do have to have them for safety of those with physical disabilities to use the toilet safely. That is really sad that she didn't get the help she needed 😔
When dealing with extreme degrees of mental illness, being forcefully kept alive is absolute hell. I will never understand why society locks people up trying to escape their own psychological hell. I am the daughter of a schizophrenic father and often wonder if it was selfish asking him to stay.
They forgot the trauma, how staff does jack while you gotta be everyone’s therapist, the fact that all the boys there try to get with you, the moldy foods, the threats of you don’t leave your room you can’t do x. If you don’t shower you can’t do x. If you don’t do this you can’t do x. Oh and the fact that they spread covid like rats. I have no sense of smell and it’s been over a year since I’ve been back to one of those places. I had to stop 2 people from choking themselves in their own clothes, and I was the only person strong enough to push a door open that was being blocked to stop someone from also trying to choke themselves. Never once had a therapy session alone. Never once was taken seriously about my mental illnesses since I’m only there for 2 weeks and mask the whole time. Never once felt safe. But boy do they love to drug you up so you can’t act out.
@@mellissamercado7904 ….. you do realize it’s not a choice right? It happens naturally. It’s a response I have when I’m in a new place full of strangers and I feel unsafe.
Psych wards are horrible, my friend has been to one. It did help him, but it also changed him. He might be happier now, but for about 2 weeks after coming back he wouldn’t leave his room or talk to anyone.
Every feature in that room was put there as the result of a lawsuit. Some person used the TP roll to harm themselves, now everyone has their TP in a hole in the wall. Over many years the conditions in the room incrementally get worse and worse, as next of kin sue the place into oblivion. Lawyers convince some judge that the hospital is at fault that someone went out the window, even though they were locked, and the hospital should have known patients can pick the locks, and of course the only reasonable option is to make a window so small that no human being could conceivably squeeze through. So then everyone's window gets reduced to a 6 x 6 in square. And this is what passes for patient care and due diligence. We had a case in my neck of the woods, where a dog got off-leash and was running down the street. The dog approached a mental health patient outside her outpatient program with her therapy dog. The off leash dog says hello. No biting or aggression or barking, but he's jumping around, excited, saying hello to the therapy dog, and the owner is initially nowhere in sight. After a minute the owner comes and retrieves the off-leash dog. The patient sued the owner and said that this occasion with the off-leash dog somehow permanently changed her therapy dog. She said the therapy dog was never the same afterwards. She ended up settling with this guy's insurance for $95,000 , over how her therapy dog was forever changed by the off-leash menace. Totally bizarre.
This is literally my words nightmare. Like dude, if you look me in like an animal in a cage, I will act like an animal in a cage. I would never get out of there
Some of them will kick you out if you don't do what they say. And after I think 48 hours(if bakeracted) you can sign a paper that will get you released.
My first trip was actually super helpful, I got really lucky. My second trip not so much. I made to tell every single nurse I met that I'm pacing because I like to go on walks, I can stop whenever, and it isn't a compulsion. Eventually one asked why and I told them that I didn't want to look crazy but I still wanted to workout without being stuck here for several weeks. Didn't help that they wouldn't give me my ADHD meds because they were stimulants.
Apparently I've done this twice, Though, I don't remember it much. They will NOT hesitate to sedate you. I've been stuck with a needle in the buttski while waiting for a room.
The good news is, assuming you are in the US, they don't have long term facilities anymore. Even in very extreme cases most people won't be there for more than a month, although the average is usually less than a week.
Long warm showers used to be something I did to relax and calm down. Tried that in the psych ward and they literally just let themselves in, 3 nurses with gloves on ready to haul me to the quiet room, because they thought I was in there for a suspicious amount of time. They claim they knocked first, but if they did, I sure as hell didn't hear it. Thankfully, I was out of the shower with clothes on brushing my teeth at that point, so at least I had that much privacy.
@cassius5692 yeah I had my blood tested and was struggling to get clothes on because of the needle in my hand si they knocked and asked if I was alright. When I explained they told me to not take to long
I once went to a hospital where for “safety reasons” they took away everything in my room including the sheets, blankets, pillow, and mattress in the middle of winter while it was snowing
My bed was basically a wooden box with a sleeping pad on it (similar to the pads for camping); same sheets. Didn’t realize they were suffocating proof. We had normal door knobs. It was on the 14th floor so the windows didn’t even open. The helicopters landed right near my window. Basically the main entertainment. I did get a gown, but it had snap buttons instead of ties. The shower was one button and SCALDING hot.
@@kristynkazumi Are you a woman? I am a man and I got forced into one of those places once and I wonder if you feel a burning anger and rage against all of them because I do. I was stupid and passive last time, but if there is a next time I wont go down without a fight. Do you feel the same? Did your stay make you feel humiliated beyond belief and filled with a burning hatred for every one of them?
The fact that you can’t sleep because a nurse needs to look in on you every fucking 15 minutes and there is absolutely no way to open and close those doors quietly
Oh yeah I forgot about those. The door needs to be open. You likely have a roommate. Them walking into your room, inspecting you sleep every quarter hour is a lot. I didn't get much sleep the first few nights.
Yup because the nurses need to make sure you are still breathing and not actively hurting yourself or someone else. Unfortunately there are a lot of strict rules and protocols because no one wants any patients to die a preventable death. I've been in psych wards many times before and I know it's scary uncomfortable and hard. But I also understand that if the staff weren't being constantly vigilant a person can end up dead before they get the chance to heal.
Lmao I agree. I also remember how bare the restroom/shower room were. But why do they have to make the psych ward so boring. It was so boring that you can’t help but contemplate on negative thoughts because there is nothing else to do but watch from a crappy television and draw and write using shitty crayons.
I went to a mental hospital as a child, they treated us so horribly. I woke up every night screaming after I got home for a week. And every time I drove past that building I felt unnerved. And whenever something smells like it to this day, it still makes me uncomfortable.
Our insurance company stopped paying for my most important medication and told us that I didn't need it because I was seven years old. My Mum fought as hard as she could to get them to cover it, but they wouldn't. So, at age 7, I was hospitalized in a psychiatric hospital for 17 days. My parents sobbed every night I was away, and I sobbed every night too. I don't remember much about the hospital because I block it out of my memory. But I remember that we were treated like prisoners instead of patients. I recall being held down like a criminal, like the nurses were police officers.
Fr. I have a fear of empty/plain rooms. I remember having a light shone on my fucking face every fifteen minutes. The nurse was like "why aren't you asleep" and I'm like BITCH YOU'RE SHINING A FLASHLIGHT IN MY FACE. I also got locked in a shower stall cuz the door was jammed. Nobody was around to help me. One of the heavily-mentally handicapped older patient let me out. I had a panic attack in that room. I was also yelled at for not being in my room because the boy across from me didn't have markers. We met halfway in the hall so I could hand them over. This dude fucking yelled at me from the end of the hall. That room felt like a jail cell. There were also literally bars on the windows.
@@iaintbeendroppingnoeavessir Oh my gosh yes the constant flashlight in the face sucked so much LMAO. That’s why I didn’t face sleeping the door most of the time.
There were no curtains on our showers, no curtain rods the shower head didn’t even come out of the wall it was just 3 holes in a knob thing so you couldn’t tie anything to a pipe, they checked in on you every 5 minutes while you showered by knocking on the non-locking handleless door and they gave you hand towel the size of a napkin to dry off with
They are doctors. Not your therapists, it’s not on them to fix your problems, they’re concern is to keep you safe. That is the number one priority. They’re job is to keep you healthy and alive not fix everything wrong in your life.
@@EmeraldWatsyyeah but they often cause worse PTSD and people often kill themselves as soon as they get out because they realize that no one actually wants to help them to not hate themselves. Also if you're trans and it's separated by sex it's extra horrible.
Made the mistake of telling a friend ONCE that I was suicidal. Was forcibly taken from my home in pajamas and slippers right after a snowstorm. The only reason I was allowed a jacket was because the crisis worker demanded the cop let me grab it
@@Pikabo0wait what? So if you tell someone you're suicidal they can call the police and have you placed in a psych ward? Without any evaluation at all? So sorry you had to go through that
Locked doors. Locked windows. Not so hidden cameras EVERYWHERE (except for the bathroom/shower/bedrooms). The mirrors are made with plastic thing instead of normal mirror glass. You can't have phones/cameras (there are computers in the lobby to communicate with the outside world). They lock the bedrooms from 9 am to 3 pm and from 4 pm to 7 pm. You have lockers in the hallway but if you harm yourself the nurses lock it as a punishment or something. You can't bring sharpener or scissors. You can't bring COVID masks (sometimes they give you a musk without a wire in). At the end of craft class and stuff like that, they count the scissors to make sure none of them are missing. You can't have deodorant spray or a soda can. The charger's cabel must be short. Umm that's what I remember... Maby I'll add more later... But yeah, a lot of little rules, and it's really annoying and give extra triggers when you're out... EDIT: Also this from my experience from a year ago in a teen psych ward. So there are probably some changes in different wards/different times/different countries...
@@incognitonegress3453 yeah it was super tough.. I was there around six weeks and I couldn't wait to get the hell out of there... And it was my first time and I couldn't believe that some girls have been there for months 😵💫 All of the time I was emotionally shut down any all the trauma and triggerd started after I left... But I guess it worked because I almost didn't hurt myself just from fear that I would have to go back there 😰
I'm so sorry you had a bad experience, I'm not trying to justify the people there, but the point is to protect suicidal people from killing themselves. Most of those things are in place to protect you. Again I think they could 100% do a better job.
I remember the pillows in the one I went to were almost exactly like plastic bags. We couldn't have a phone, or clothing with strings (which I understand) the blankets were thin and the rooms were extremely cold. Basically, all you could do in that hellhole was talk to others and participate in these mandatory mental health activity things, so you practically were like an NPC in a video game. I get these places are supposed to protect you especially from yourself, but it feels like you're being punished rather than actually getting help for the reason you're there.
EXACTLY. Psych wards are pretty much just prison. Only thing they succeed in doing is making you feel terrible for having thoughts or attempting. Don't know why they think locking you in a room with no entertainment (one I went didn't let you have your phone or any other device. There was a TV but unless your pleasure was watching Law & Order on mute...) will improve your mental state. I left feeling worse and more wary of seeking getting help lest I be forced to go back
that’s how mine was. we’d sometimes get to use rubber pens or playing cards, though. but it was so boring, i wanted to rip my hair out. i lied during the check-ins because i wanted to get out asap, i felt much happier when i was at home.
it was terrible, i hated being punished for being depressed. i wasn’t even suicidal but nobody listened to me and my rights were basically taken away it was horrific being trapped in there with nothing and all those other people… this one girl had chronic seizures and we were talking and she just collapsed and i had to scream and beg for the nurses to even help… it was awful.
Y‘know my mom put me into the mental hospital because she read my diary in which I wrote that I can’t take this shit anymore. (The shit I couldn’t take was my mom, and only her, no suicidal intentions) but she interpreted it as such. They took basically everything from me and I was left in my room with just one book for four days. I literally became insane in there. Luckily after those four days the psychologist released me stating that there was nothing wrong with me. That was one hell of an experience. (I also read that one book that I had 6 times)
Both my mom & I were sent to mental hospitals at some point in our lives. Mental illness runs in our family. But our conditions deteriorated inside because we were treated like animals. I wasn't even allowed to wear my bra anymore & was forced to take it off infront of staff to prove I'm not wearing it. I thought we abolished asylums but they still exist.
The last time I was in one there was a guy who kept running around naked praising Jesus while holding rosary beads. They didn't want to give them to him because obvious danger but he was getting so combative and violent that they told him he had to calm do n and get dressed. First half of that worked. They then tried multiple times to reclaim the he beads and we all had to be locked into a counseling room because security was coming as the staff couldn't controll him.
@@nellhandebo5962 they don't. I was in a mental hospital last year. They don't use restraints for that. The patients who are there for suicide attempts only do it because they're bored with nothing to do. They can't do anything. They took away the radios because someone tried to swallow a battery.
@@dontwakethedeadp.jankey9592 they took my jewelry and it broke in their storage. One of my gloves got lost and they lost my birth control. I'm trans and need it. Without birth control, I'm extremely violent on my period.
Belgium: If you don't want to live anymore, you have the right to demand assisted suicide, even if you are physically healthy. USA: Don't even think about killing yourself, or we will take away all your rights and treat you like a child. Residence will be punished, because we are the land of the free.
People who go to psych wards usually need better help than a normal therapist or family can give them, alot of these people are people who want to hurt themselves or others so precautions are taken. People "baby proof" things cause babies are clumsy and don't try to hurt themselves. Implying that people in a psych ward are "babies" and need things to be "babies proofed" is probably offensive as they are not babies but human beings who ended extra help.
Remember, psych wards aren't for treatment they're for stabilization. They don't do much more than calm you down and generally medicate you. For me, I went twice, it's what I needed. I'm bipolar so I just needed forced to take my meds and some time for the episode to simmer down in a space where I couldn't harm myself. I really liked most of the nurses I saw too.
True. Mental illness requites a multi pronged approach as far as treatment is concerned. A stay in an inpatient ward is to assess you and if need be, adjust or begin a medication regime. Many folk on psych meds will stop taking them once they feel better. Unfortunately, treatment for mental illness isn't like a broken arm. How wonderful would it be to xray bipolar, chuck a cast on depression and keep anxiety dry for 6 weeks.
My cousin tried to burn the house down with herself and her kids locked inside. Was in a ward for a few months, to stabilize and figure out medication. Does she still need help, meds and support? Yes. But she's far more stable than she's ever been, and the meds are helping immensely. And I can't imagine it would've been possible without her having that time in that environment.
They took away my medication for a week instead because the psychiatrist was never there to approve my prescription. I was going through withdrawal from clonazepam and having intense anxiety and mild psychosis that everyone in the ward was there to torture and kill me. I had to keep asking the most patient nurse to confirm it was just withdrawal.
@@PandoraPotatoSalad noo clonazepam withdrawal is serious, you should have been helped through it. I decided to go cold turkey once and made myself so ill (I hadn't slept for 4 days) the pharmacist in my local chemist looked at me and said go straight home and call your GP. Do not go anywhere else. My GP said well you can carry on and feel even worse until about day 7 and then we can see how you are without it or you can take your medication and feel better. I'm bipolar so I don't always make the best choices but my old GP was the best at talking me round gently. I ended up giving in and taking a clonazepam and going to bed until I felt better.
It should that's the point they are there to make sure you don't off yourself I was in an and out of them as a kid teen and young adult probably around my 30th visit it finally dawned on me I'm clearly fucked in the head I need to do something because I can't do this anymore so I did I promised Myself I will never harm anything or anyone again including myself no matter what I will not kill myself and I sought out help anything in the past I refused to try I went and tried and this is just what worked for me I realize not everyones the same but you will never know if something works if you don't try
The crazy part is you don't even have to be crazy or depressed to be placed in a psych ward. If you're having any issues with your mental health wether it be a phobia or anxiety you still get mixed in with the rest of the more severe psych patients regardless
@whoiszinaya4239 i mean it more personally I knew i didn't need to be there i was just a little depressed the people and things around me really showed i wasn't off that bad
Even when I was at the most suicidal point in my life, my therapist refused* to commit me to a place like this. He said that the wards were "inhumane" and that, more importantly, he wanted me to trust him and continue opening up to him. He knew how poorly I would tolerate such a place (given that a lot of my trauma relates to feeling trapped with no escape), and he truly cared how I'd feel. He's been my therapist for 10+ years and has truly helped me stay alive - not by locking me up under constant supervision, but by guiding me towards thoughts, medications, and situations that would truly benefit me and ultimately help me help myself. If I had gone to a psych ward, I don't doubt that it would have taken me longer to get where I am now, if I would have gotten there at all. * [Edit: To add some more context, when I said "refused," I meant that my therapist was reluctant to do so, but if it was legally required of him or if he felt it was absolutely necessary, I don't doubt he would have done what needed to be done. Luckily, I hadn't explicitly mentioned any active suicidal intent to him (out of paranoia that I would be involuntarily hospitalized), but he could intuitively tell I wasn't doing well.]
tell those of us who literally cannot afford to go or have a way to go what the biggest thing in staying relatively happy, grounded &/or just not sewersidal plz
@@embadly watching Dr K from healthy gamer und reading "the depression cure" by Illardy (he's also got a Ted talk that already contains most of it). Every book I read and talk I heard helped me in a way. Then of course walking, dancing, talking to honest friends and to people who know what it's like. I forgot the name of that one guy who really made it clear for me... if you want to, I can look it up and tell you.
Your therapist is legally required to have you institutionalized if you had an active plan for suicide or harm. Not sure if you were at that stage yet or if they actually broke the law or not, if so then they were at serious risk of losing their license. It's not an easy situation for mental health professionals
@@meesha6723 like bro if ur suicidal this shit will make it way worse. if you try telling them how shitty it is they will say you have even more problems and wont give a single fuck about you.
In the patient rooms, it’s also worth noting that the door to the bathroom does not have a lock. This is so patients cannot lock themselves in the bathroom and do something harmful to themselves. The issue with this is that your privacy can easily be invaded, especially when you are taking a shit on the toilet.
One ward I was in, the bathrooms didn’t even have doors. Several times, I’d be on the toilet and a nurse would come in and literally walk right up to me as I was doing my business… like excuse the fuck out of me SIR but I am trying to PISS and you are MAKING IT DIFFICULT 😮
I think the one I was in (in germany), handled that pretty well. Every station, even closed ward, had locks on the bathrooms. But they also had a slit for a certain tool, that could open the doors. A tool the handlers had, obviously, and which patients couldn’t easily recreate without the handler‘s notice.
We had doors and locks of we shared a room, not I'd we didn't. One time I was using the toilet and I shared a room and the staff unlocked it from the the outside because I didn't respond fast enough or something like that when I was fine and not doing anything dangerous.
@@AurenGlytterkat I was also in one with no door. It was a curtain instead. It was like a stall door were there was is a gab where if you wanted to look underneath you could. Zero privacy
The one I was in some rooms had their own bathrooms others didn't, mine did not and the doors technically locked but we couldn't unlock them ourselves from the outside, we needed a staff member to use the key and so long as you weren't on 'watch' (had a recent event in which you tried to harm yourself) you were left unattended although every 15 minutes or so someone would knock to ask if someone was in there and make sure everything was okay. If you were on watch then someone would have to basically be in the bathroom with you, or right outside of it depending on what you were doing. The place I went to was pretty fair in its rules thankfully and allowing privacy for the most part.
Ironically, fear of getting hospitalized kept me from asking for help when things were really dangerous for me. The only thing that was really keeping me alive was the idea that "well, I can die any time I want, may as well put it off." That logic doesn't work if I no longer have the option of death. If anyone had taken my ability to die away, then it just would've encouraged me to die at my first viable opportunity. I knew that psych wards were not pleasant places, and I was already struggling, so I really didn't want to be forced to exist there.
When my friend tried to kill himself, I told him he could contact me at any time to talk, and I would never report it or try to "save him". He did eventually kill himself. I'm somewhat suicidal myself and I'm afraid to talk about it to the closest people in my life, just so they don't call an ambulance or do some other things that really make my anxiety go through the roof.
@@VideoDotGoogleDotCom Dont talk to family, especially if they are the type to believe its just a faze. They will send you to that prison, and belive me it makes you want to off yourself 10x more. Talk to a Friend or a online therapist instead.
Sometimes and for some people like me, the opposite method works the best - I made sure to have the means to end it, hidden somewhere safely and certainly not where anybody would search and find it - I haven't tried even once, not before and especially not ever since. But I'm a "passive depressive", I only pray to die in my sleep and not wake up again but I won't act on it ... what they're doing here in this video would and could throw me over the edge though! Not to mention, the sadistic smile while he's talking about it is very telling to me, bc it's all about control and not about helping.
@@VideoDotGoogleDotComif not purpose or psych more? Try reaching out to healthy places online and things..... Hobbies? Things to reflect what's causing you harm
It’s funny that they put in all this stuff to stop you from killing yourself and it just makes you want to do it more. You have no idea how mind-numbing and agonizing it is to be stuck in one of those places. My mum would sometimes tell me she would take me to a psych ward “to get help” when I was in times of crisis, but I don’t think she understood how terrifying of a threat that really is Edit: let me be clear that I’m not saying there is no point or use to these things, or that I had a terrible mother or anything like that. My mother is great and obviously would be trying to help me out. But I’ve never had a positive experience with these sorts of things, and being stuck in a place like that when what you actually need is to be able to socialize with friends or get out of a shitty headspace it’s the worst.
@@SirDankleberry everybody self harms in some way or another so as long as you monitor your own harm reduction then you're not going to end up in a ward. Fuck the people who try to tell you that your way of coping is wrong. It's up to you
I understand wanting to get people help that need it, but I would be seriously hesitant to recommend inpatient mental treatment to anyone. I can't speak for other places, but around here, it's a racket. It's very odd to dehumanize people in need of mental treatment, but it seems to be the norm. They run it like a business. If they have 20 beds, you better believe that all 20 beds are full at all times. And people wonder why mental health has been in constant decline. Gee, I wonder why. I have literally never heard a single good thing about our local mental health institution.
I was diagnosed with PTSD from one of these places. I already had it due to unrelated issues but the abuse added a whole new layer to my diagnosis. Went in for a major PTSD episode that lasted 3 days long and the nurse got an inch from my face and started screaming at me for crying. I hate all them there. These places are nightmares
All it does is make peoples mental states worse and make those of us who want to off ourselves get more creative. If we want to do it, there isn’t much they’ll be able to do to stop us.
Yeah me too. It was 7 years ago for me and it still is ruining my life. 3 days to completely kill the person I was and turn me into a much more broken person.
Ive had two different psych staff in two different cities tell me to kill myself. They are all truly monsters. You're better off smoking weed, ignoring all of the narcissist advice from "professionals" and just learning a productive hobby. I garden now. I have been therapy free for years because I garden and I don't like being abused.
@@Seafoamworks99 unfortunately, I can’t do any of that stuff since I’m underage, but judging from all of the comments from people’s stories, that sounds like a much better alternative.
Psych wards are so helpful. You sit around staring at a wall all day day and for about 7 minutes a dr comes around asking how you feel knowing that if you tell him anything other than “i feel great” you get to stay longer. So helpful
I lied about feeling great and masked a whole lot just so I could get out early. I was so happy when I got out I felt like crying tears of joy. You shouldn't feel like you should cry tears of joy for leaving a place that is supposed to "help you". Also made friends with a toxic asshole, got picked on by the other girls and wasn't allowed into friend groups, there was a psycho there that scared me cause I felt like they were gonna kill me in my sleep (told the staff and they said oh well), also was friends with a drug addict who was 14 and said she had a kid and did drugs (kid part was probably true, I hope she gets better cause she actually seemed like such a nice person). All I did was color. color. COLORED We ended up making a Ouija board and that got taken away cause it was disturbing the other girls even tho they were allowed to spill conspiracy theories that were disturbing. Idk, I came in with little PTSD, left with lots of PTSD.
And then after knowing you for seven minutes he diagnoses you with bipolar! This has happened to me twice. Sub seven minutes, I watched the clock. I am not bipolar.
Amen! I will forever lie my ass off before being honest and ending up in this place. Ffs I married a veteran and we share the same DARK humor....they'd never let me out again 😂
Never be honest when people ask how you feel! If I was honest to like counselors I'd be locked in that psych ward forever! Heh just glad there aren't mind readers :3 wait ......
Yeah but then if you say that you’re feeling great, he or she will then say “How do I know you’re just saying it and not meaning it? Or how do I know you’re just telling me what I want to hear?”
This is incredibly dehumanizing. I was sent there against my will even though all the staff admitted on all my paperwork at every stage that I was NOT a risk to myself or others. They absolutely do not care. Being in there only made my mental health worse.
Wow helping people not kill themselves. Might as well graffiti on the wall. Listen if you wanted to kill yourself that bad you would have done it the first time but now you're here and you're not even going to get the chance to
They don't wonder about why patients use profanity. The reason's usually plainly obvious. But staff have a moral and legal duty to follow and will do it in spite of the cursing.
Truthfully, that's better then the Psych ward i was on a few years ago. I didn't even have windows, I had to lay on the ground to look through a vent in the floor to see outside. I was there for over a year without any self harming tendencies. But yet they kept me there. I doubt anyone will see this in the 10k comments, but if you do, just know there's better ways to get help sometimes, especially if you're under 18
@@luisgamercoolgaming If that's the case then I suppose not unless the snap managed to kill you if you weren't able to get it tight enough to stop your breathing
i was in and out several times. the thing is that you will definitely come back unless you learn to open up to staff or learn to support yourself better. that was one of the first trips they told me that, and i was in and out until the last time when i made decent progress.
@@blixtm_771Is that because you think you’re special? Do you think nobody else on this entire planet has been through whatever you’re going through? The sooner you realise that it’s all bullshit and that getting help is that easy, the sooner you get better, as opposed to jerking yourself off.
Seeing all those terrifying story, I wanna share some positive ones - from Germany though. I have several friends who spent time in German psychiatric clinics and all of them had a generally positive experience. One friend for example told me that the first days he was barely able to do anything but sit in a chair and eat cafetaria cake, before he finally was ready to even talk to the psychiatrist and that was perfectly fine for them. Another friend is a great artist and they encouraged her to take more time for her drawings while she was there. One friend discovered a new hobby while in a clinic, one friend told that the nurses organized a picnic outside with the more stable patients and another friend, who is chronically mentally ill, regularly spends prescheduled time in a clinic which really helps her tackle her life. I'm really sorry all the people here had to go through so much crap, this is terrifying.
Germany has probably one of the best healthcare systems in Europe, come to the UK if you are having psychiatric problems, they are known as Cinderella services because they are so underfunded.😢
From personal experience I can say: it is what it is…and what you can make out of it for yourself. Extended stays in the closed ward are only beneficial if you are already quite far gone. Show that you want to work with them, pester them to be moved to an open or half open station, don’t hurt yourself and stay away from trouble as much as you can. Luckily I only had to spent some 5-6 days in a closed ward before being transferred to another station, but I am certain if I had stayed longer in there, I may have ended up more broken than when I got in. Grüße aus NRW
ah psych wards, the only place where someone is always watching you AND you’re completely alone at all times
Until you get someone screaming 24/7
Or have that one person looking at you through the room door at two in the morning
:skull:
I REMEMBER THESE! I was in one for a week when I was 12 and now it’s been a few months since I left that 1.8 star rating place..
I think, if I went there, and after I got out, I would have severe paranoia that someone is watching me 😭👌
I got out of a psych ward by knowing what was expected of me. I buried my issues and walked out within a week, only to fall back into the depression. They aren't built to help you, they're built to contain you. Don't let yourself get locked up in one of these.
Edit: I saw some debate on masking. Yes that's likely what I was doing, and yes it does stand to reason that one could carry that on for a time. But it's a temporary relief and only pleases those around you. However it does nothing for your own state other than make it worse. You burn more and more of your own resolve just for the benefit of others to stay off their radar. Chronic depression will always show its ugly head if you don't treat the issue itself.
The amount of times I have lied to doctors just to stay out of grippy sock jail is painful
yeah no kidding it is awful in there, no matter how bad things get i dont think i ever wanna go back in one
Sounds weird that you were able to "act" your depression away only for a short term goal.
@@dmwanderer9454 masking a mental illness isn’t something new😂
@@Damn-Sandwich Yeah I do it too. My point was there's no reason to "fall back in" if you can just act your depression away. Just go "oh I'm depressed again. Time to act"
The constant checks. Every 30 minutes. Even in the dead hours of night. Every. 30. Minutes. Zero breaks in that *ever*
Yikes. As if depressed people don't already have insomnia.
@MajoradeMayhem I got really lucky, but for most people, that would've been enough to drive them mad. Well, mad_der_. I still remember the flashlight through the slitted door window, even though it's been over a year
@@neologicalgamer3437 I'm sorry you went through that and I hope you're much better now. May there be many peaceful nights in your future.
Hey it's rough on staff too, there's so much to do and then you need to make sure someone got that done. We were on 15 minute checks, 3 floor staff became 2 because 1 was preoccupied with checks the whole shift if they were slow enough.
We were on 15 minute checks.
I knew a guy on a 5 minute check
And I knew another guy that was on a 1-to-1 because he kept hurting himself in the bathroom.
"If you weren't suicidal already, let's put you in a box that forces you to get creative"
Onggg
Not only that but the box is full of strange ppl you don’t know that may make your mental state 10x worse!
@@ranchiestsauce nah fr and they always tryna start shit and agressive asf💀
I Can smell the indie game already
@Puppyllary Response at what? Not wanting to die? Plus there’s nothing wrong with needing help. Literally everyone needs help sometimes. Unless you live secluded in the woods you’ve gotten help too.
the way my sister put it; “psych wards aren’t there to help you, they’re there to make sure you don’t off yourself”
That’s because the system needs available, working hands.
I feel that. They don’t give a shit about you or your home life. Their job is to keep you alive “for now”
YES! THIS!!!! Your sister is completely correct!!!! The place I was at didn’t even have full length towels!!! The largest size towel for showering was MAYBEEE just maybe just about 2inches, and then legit maybe 9, 10? Inches in width…. And the certain was pretty much only half of a certain and it didn’t move, and we were allowed to close our doors!!!! There was no type of privacy at all….. and I get it I get that they have to constantly keep eyes on us and stuff to match sure we aren’t harming our or yk…. That jazz…. But stilll!!!! Give us SOME hospitality! 😫😭😭😭
Yes, because all of these suicide prevention measures mean they don't give a damn about their patients 🙄 the nurses do offer counseling as much as they can, but tbh, most people in psych wards have a mental illness. It's different from being sad. You can't talk them through or out of it. The best thing that can be done is to keep the patient from killing themselves so the doctors have the time they need to diagnose and find the right medications for the patient.
@@allisonlacy3004 damn I had a stroke reading all that
If you weren't already depressed this is the fast track system.
The food alone is sad. I think I'd end up starving the entire time
Yeah I’m gonna go out on a limb and say it’s pretty rare for mentally healthy people to end up in this place.
Edit: I’m not talking about 20 or 30+ years ago when people were forced into those facilities for ridiculous reasons and I’m saying everyone who ends up in there is insane or suicidal. Mental illness is a very wide ranging term. The purpose of psych wards isn’t exactly for healing it’s primarily for safety which sometimes does end up having the opposite effect on patients because unfortunately the system is deeply flawed.
nah the psych ward i went to when i almost offed myself i came out a new and much healthier and happier person, not everyone has the same experiences
@@annabenedetti9699 please take your comment down. I understand where you're coming from but a lot of suicides happen because people feel like they can't get any help, and your comment really enforces that idea. It's some of the worst advice you could give to a suicidal person. I get that places like this aren't fun and a lot of times don't help at all, but a lot of people's lives have been saved because of places like this, so please, don't encourage that narrative :(
@@Princess_Maya_19 chronic pain makes you go here when the only treatment that works is now illegal.
I was so traumatized by my mistreatment during my first hospitalization that even when I was in far more dangerous situations, I refused to go back because it scarred me.
Psych wards are meant to be safe but they, to many patients, feel incredibly unsafe & even more despondent due to conditions and staff mistreatment. More needs to be done to make them less of a hellscape for the patients.
Oh man, I'm so sorry. I've been trying the psych ward almost 10 times, and I think the one I went to must have been one of the better ones, because they made it pretty nice. Like, it still sucked, but it was comfortable, and I felt cared for, not punished or mistreated. I wish you felt like you had a safe place to go when you need one. You deserve that at the bare minimum.
same but during my second hospitalization. i feel you there friend
I've been in once, and the only things I took away from the experience were these
1. Get better at hiding my issues.
2. If you're going to do it, do it right.
One way or another, I will never be going back. I'm pretty sure murderers have more rights and dignity than psych patients.
Same, FUCK OCEANS!!!! (Oceans is a psych hospital)
@@formorian5 😔❤️🩹 I’m truly so sorry that you had the incredible courage to go there and all it did was let you down.
The last time I went to one, I discovered my psychiatrist was actually mistreating me by giving me medication that sells well. All the medications I took were for mental disorders I wasn’t diagnosed with. The nurses there set me straight and found a better psych. It’s been a miracle for me. So thank you to that psyche ward for that.
It’s horrible that the people who you trust as professionals and pay to help you for some reason choose to make everything worse
@@chesiresays Its exactly why I don't 100% blame people for being paranoid and not trusting the medical industry and health/medical professionals.
I’m so happy they found that out so you could actually start recovering!!
Yeah I had a psychiatrist try to trigger me into getting angry lol put me on antidepressants because I don’t make enough vitamin d lol
I work at a gas station, and a dude came in with a couple girls. The girls were all cheery, and the dude looked pissed. When I asked what they were up to that day, the dude looked up and said "I just got out of the psych ward." To which I had to ask "did you get the dope grippy socks." Dudes face lit up, and he showed me he still had the socks on
Was it you that came out of the psych ward? You said it was Dudes face that lit up! But you are Dude McDoodle!
That's so wholesome
This might just be my favorite story on the internet
Similar story with me. I was meeting my girlfriends family for the first time, they told me that the brother was difficult to talk to due to his m. health issues, completely unaware that I had the same issues. When we sat down to dinner her brother was really angry and volatile, making the room go all quiet. I asked him what meds he was on and he barked them at me, I told him that I used to be on same meds but changed to something else, he mouth dropped open and all of a sudden he was more happy and speaking softly, we ended up having an hour long conversation about our illnesses and meds. He considers me his best friend now.
@@natevic1867 aww this is so wholesome
In my room at the psych ward someone actually wrote "you can do it!" on the desk next to the bed. Made me cry fr
@@che887 as calloused as a Vietnam veteran
What was "it"? Because it seems like the rest of the stuff is designed to prevent you from doing "it"
Prolly me... I used to tally how many days aswell and tag shit too
@@Paul-A01 just make it out of there and getting better??
@@Paul-A01 “you can do it” is encouragement telling the person that they can improve their mental health? Why’d your mind have to go there. Better still, why’d you have to let us know it went there.
The fact that this video feels like a PTSD flashback makes me think they’re not working
The fact that this nurse actually thinks this is a fun video tells me everything I need to know. Thanks for the trauma memory punching me in the face, former nurse asshole.
Because they’re not… And it being that obvious to everyone should tell you something. Being there normal minded would be like prison (horrible enough) but imagine wanting to kill yourself and then being admitted there. There’s no place you’d want to kill yourself more at than these institutions. And some people say it’s not like the sanatoriums from a hundred years ago😂I’d argue it’s worse. It’s also a vicious cycle if you’ve been forcefully admitted once it sets you up to end up there again and again. Those are the only people I can actually feel happy for when they kill themselves because I’m glad they don’t have to suffer any longer ending up in these hell holes over and over again. Being able to end it is the last bit of autonomy you have. Those places are just a way of society criminalizing suicide to be honest instead of helping they sentence you to these torture prisons where you’re told you have to feel/think normal to get out of. No wonder people act like it and will never feel like they can talk honestly about their feelings ever again
I mean they did say 'the strings on MY hoodie.
The fact this is a western one. Imagine how the eastern European ones look 😬😬
I keep having these videos pop up on my fyp and idk what to do bc they trigger my ptsd and I freeze up
Nearly all of my hospitalizations the staff indirectly said, "Don't be depressed and you won't be depressed."
Worked at one for two years I was the only employee that seemed to realize we were taking care of other people with lives, emotions, and feelings. Some never get visitors, some never leave the bed. I left work many times in tears over what I saw or heard. The least I could do was give out extra snacks and talk with them like a human and not a robot worker. I remember sneaking in the good movies for them to watch.
Does the color of the socks matter? At one hospital on the med floor, yellow socks meant trip & fall, red meant heart, gray meant trouble, etc., etc.
What color do they use for psych??
@@ms.charlotte9984 no o they didn’t mean anything in particular where I worked but it has been since 2014-2016 so I might not remember something like levels of socks. But we had 1:1 or 2:1 where they would be under constant watch by 1 or 2 employees at all times
🎉❤🎉
Now THIS is the kind of treatment ppl shud b getting, omg! I have been scrolling thru all these comments and it saddens me so heavily that ppl r treated this way wen if they were treated like a human being, the possibility of unaliving might actually get better
Thank you for that. I went to one when I was 14. The security guard there treated me like a human being, and I could see something so human and sad about him too. He found out what high-school I went to and it turns out his daughter who he hadn't seen in years was in my grade there. I knew of her, but wasn't friends with her. His eyes would light up as he asked me questions about her. If she's still in choir class, he'd tell me how she has a beautiful singing voice and I'd agree with him. He was so kind to me. I'm not sure why he didn't see his daughter, but I felt really bad for him. He just wanted to know that she was doing okay. And he was the only person there who treated me like a human being.
“If you weren’t suicidal coming in, you definitely will be coming out!”
Absolutely
IF you come out
Good point@@Therandomguy691
DEADASS THO MY TRIP GENUINELY MADE ME WANNA KMS MORE I WAS SO FINALLY HAPPY WHEN I GOT TO LEAVE
i saw like 4 ways i could kill myself in the box of secrets
It seems this is more of an “anti suicide room” than an actual facility for helping people.
If you think that's bad go read up on the stories of people who still try and like three of the biggest dudes you've ever seen hold you down to a bed put you in a shirt you can't take off and hold you tighter than a bear hug and then they strap you down to a table and then inject you with a bunch of medications that keep you basically unconscious for 12 hours
Ive been to a psych ward and I assure you, no it doesnt come after
Don't worry the help never comes. America's just a prison state. Known multiple people who gave gone there. It's useless they just feel worse after being locked in a cell for weeks
Keeping people from killing themselves IS helping them. They will understand later.
This literally helps people, tf you on about
Not me thinking of many different ways ppl could end up hurting themselves 💀
💀💀
“Couldn’t you strangle yourself with the arms of the hoodi-“
Psych ward: **cuts arms off hoodie**
Couldn't you strangle yourself with the arm holes left from cutting the arms off the hoodie?
I was just thinking about that!!
*throws the whole hoodie away*
Modern fashion
That's to make you look cool and tough
I get that they’re trying to get you from hurting yourself when you go off the deep end…but this sh*t would help me find new depths
Fr💀
Lol that's the point.
@@BlackSakura33 lmao ur username
Then you ain't in the depths... These ain't no issues.
I'm still dealing with the trauma of a brief psych stay 12 years ago. I don't think I will ever be the same. Seeing this shit with bright, happy music over it makes me sick.
I was voluntarily in one for three days. An employee saw me in the holding room, came in, sat down, looked into my eyes and said, "YOU don't belong here. Do what you have to do to get yourself out. I don't want to see you here again." It shocked me so much that I did exactly that. The loneliness was nightmarish. You have no sense of time and nothing to distract you.
Dang
That was a good doctor
Why did you want to go in and had you been before?
How did you get out
Same. They told me that too. I had no clue how bad it was in there until i was there. It was really scary.
My favorite signing medical documents in crayon cause you aren't allowed to have regular pens
I was in a psych ward many years ago and I remember them asking me to remove my shoelaces so I couldn't harm anybody or myself with them. A few hours later, we were in the crafts room and they handed me a piece of leather, brass stencils and a claw hammer, to make leather bracelets. I looked at the hammer in my hand, looked back at the doctor and asked them if they could explain to me again about the dangers of shoelaces.
@incognitopotato.yea, very ironic..
proves that just because someone can memorize a huge number of books doesn't mean they're smart
🤦🏻♀️
When using the tools, you are under supervision and are doing activities that are meant to keep your mind occupied.
When you are alone, thats when most people feel the most motivated to die because thats when the intrusive thoughts come about. Most people also dont want to harm themselves in the immediate vacinity of others because they fear they would be a burden. Obviously, this isnt the case for everyone, but just like in prisons, certain people are or arent allowed to use or do certain things like using metal tools.
Im not defending mental institutions, but im explaining their thought process, and personally, i think they do a lot of harm, but the goal is to reduce harm, and there have been more incidence rates of people hanging themselves than people killing themselves while supervised.
Good job
i went to a psych ward when i was in 6th grade. i was never left alone, and it just made my mental state even worse. when i got out, i told my brother it made me feel worse and then he told me that it costed him 4k. 4k for a place that didn’t even help me.
Omg I'm so sorry :( I had horrible experiences at psych wards. It's horrible how expensive they are, just to make us feel worse
I'm sorry is this an American thing? Like ims ure we have physc wards in the uk and stuff just you wouldn't be put in one during school? I just got to talk to the pastoral coordinator and then a NHS nurse would come into school once a week to talk to you and stuff
I’m so sorry… that must have been the worst. In my experience, I think mental health is best fixed by warmth and friendship, not being treated like a monster.
Wait how did you do that
I also went to a pych ward as well, and all they did was stick me in talking groups with people that had worse issues than I did, and didn't even help me with my own issues, talking about it to others isn't always gonna make it better. . .
I swear, going to a psych ward doesn't discourage most of us from suicide, it just discourages us from telling anybody. I don't think I ever got anything resembling treatment in one of those places.
YES!!! THIS!!! 👏👏👏 (And if you try to be honest and tell them you have exponentially LESS suicidal ideations at home, they twist your words around to keep you locked up longer for "being too much of a danger to yourself..." 🥴)
It really only helped me because I was away from the root issue of my suicidal tendencies
It discourages me from getting there alive
yeah, no one's gonna say shit if they end up in a glorified jail cell. thats all this is
You won't really get Tx, there's chronic understaffing. 1 Dr/30 patients x 5min talks w each patient=3 hrs + writing Tx plans, updates & notes on each + whtvr else needs doing = 8hrs+. Psych wards keep ppl safe & fed, but it's not comfortable & not very therapeutic. Plus, if you've got good insurance they'll keep you for over a wk to get the extra $. But: if ya need a break, a reset, get you a grippy sock vacay.
Im gonna go to a psych ward just to prove you can still get rid of yourself with all precautions
Actual interaction I had while in psychiatric hospital
Therapist: This isn't a prison, we're not holding you against your will
Me: i'd like to go home then
Therapist: Sorry you're not allowed to leave unless we allow you
E X A C L Y
And this is where i went from having SI to actively trying to off myself
They probably saw you voted Democrat. Makes sense.
@@Tony-hn8qy always have to make it political huh 🙄
@@Tony-hn8qy Bro shut up this isn't about politics
Also hard plastic furniture filled with sand so you can't pick them up or throw them. They also took the caps from our water bottles because someone apparently used them to choke on. No shoes or shoelaces. No shorts or pants with drawstrings. No shampoo/conditioner, toothpaste/mouthwash, and deodorant with certain ingredients. We were allowed to play with a Nintendo Switch but they thought we could smash it and use the pieces to harm ourselves so we were closely monitored while playing Mario Kart.
P.S.: I checked myself in. I came very close to committing suicide and realized I needed help. I stayed for about a week. We did activities everyday numerous times a day and I got the tools I needed to deal with things. I think it was the best place for me to be at that time.
For everyone, or just the patients with a tendency to harm? What was up with the toiletries thing?
@@SiiriCressey I think the toiletries thing would be do that you couldn’t consume them & have that consumption hurt you
@@SiiriCressey For everyone. I'm guessing someone ingested something from the toiletries list and got sick or something. They told me everything was for a reason.
@@Spectator79 Jeez. It sounds like that's at least as much for the convenience of the staff as for the safety of the patients. Why bother having to only keep potentially dangerous stuff away from people who are likely to/have used it to hurt themselves or others when you can just not let anyone have any?
@@Spectator79 why no shoes too? Wtf do you wear then? Just the grippy socks?
I heard someone call a psych ward "grippy sock jail" once and i cant stop thinking about it
my neice got sent to one just before Christmas and called it that when they got out
My ex called it the “grippy sock hotel” and this was after my “luxurious trip” there… I cried laughing
That is exactly what it is.
Or grippy sock vacation. Your choice.
@Eragon, Dragonrider I work in mental health and someone referred to it as a "free grippy sock vacation" 😂
According to some of the patients I met there, jail was preferable in a number of ways
“suffocation proof bedsheets”
That sounds like a challenge…
Pro tip from someone who's done it themselves: If you're struggling with self harm thoughts and don't want to, join an acute partial hospitalization program. Psych wards are to keep you from hurting yourself, APH programs are to help you feel alive again. Hated the psych ward cause all it did was drug and ignore me. At the APH program I received daily therapy and made friends for life. I'm eternally grateful to them.
Thank you so much. I'll keep that in mind if I have trouble again as I've slowly been slipping again this year and all psych wards have done is give me ptsd
Yeah, the psych wards I've been to just wanted to keep everyone asleep so they didn't have to deal with anything. So they were very liberal in their use of the "sleepy time" drug.
That'll be 100k
YESSS THANK YOU THIS IS 100% true
This type of program changed my life! I went about a year and a half ago and it was the best decision I ever made. Best wishes to anyone who wants to get help, you can do it! ❤
Don't forget the nurse screaming "I'll kill you if you don't shut up" at the patien that kept calling her and asking for an apple multiple times..
Sorry, what…? 🤨
Because of one asshole, all nurses are evil, got it.
Well if the choice is an apple or that fucking sandwich, i don’t blame him.
No wonder they have to protect these poor people from themselves. Imagine. That’s your lunch.
Maybe she should get admitted, God damn.
Sounds about right. Hospital staff hate the people they take care of
couldn’t even have the hoods on the hoodie at the one i went to, it didn’t feel comfortable without it so they literally just cut it off with scissors and did a terrible job at it.
Same but I just didn’t bring my hoodies just sweatshirts
It's just so you don't suffocate yourself
Ours didn’t even have hoodies, but we were in Florida so I guess we didn’t need them. I was still cold and asked for lots of blankets.
Yeah I wasn't allowing them to cut mine... It was a hoodie for my youngest son who was playing soccer. I literally chose to freeze.
@@unknown_pineapple1110 same just sweatshirts no hoodies
I remember those “suffocation-proof” bedsheets.
They aren’t suffocation-proof.
Okay before anyone gets mad it’s time to explain. I was on a 48-hour involuntary hold, and on my last night my roommate tried to strangle me with said sheets, I think he was mad because I got to be free. He had it doubly folded and I genuinely could not breathe or fight back.
The coolest part is when you are involuntarily put in these places then you're handed a bill for thousands of dollars
Only in America
Don't pay it. Let that shit go to collections.
@@justaweeb1884 nope, literally most places in the world...and, a lot of countries don't even have such facilities, they just put you in jail
@@tevarinvagabond1192 source
Bro i'm still struggling with a bill from getting baker acted, and it didn't even help me, honestly just fucked up my whole life, work, school, social shit, everything
It’s like paying money to go to a prison that worsens depression
Well you could pay money to go see a therapist
@@aaronjames3228 most people are forced into psych wards that’s the thing
@@aaronjames3228then you’ll be a little too honest with your therapist and, boom, you’re locked up against your will
@@ladymire for your own good. We can't have people offing themselves
You don't pay for the ward
I went to a psych ward for depression/suicidality related to PTSD. Came out with even worse PTSD. I'm sorry, but those places aren't meant to help. They're meant to hold.
Too bad you're not in Florida. You could go to Shands and ask to be sent to the mental health part. It's a much nicer place and the people are friendly.
"I refused all help, and made my situation worse, then blamed the people trying to help me."
You're extremely insensitive and misunderstanding my point if this is how you react to this. You're also assuming a lot.
I went to the ward WILLINGLY because i KNEW i needed help. I'd just come out of an abusive ass household with religious trauma, sexual trauma, and almost no life experience. I was mentally ill and had been seeking help since college (2-3 years prior). I'd been with therapists and psychs before i had to flee my bio family and therefore leave my prior resources, and they were all mostly fine. I'd been trying to get in with a therapist and psych in my new place so i could get on meds and start working on my issues, but was being pushed back in the system. I had a bad night and hurt myself-- not the first time. My partner called a hotline and was told either bring me in or the cops would come get me. I went willingly, because i thought i was going to get to talk to someone, be seen off, and get hooked up with a therapist while there.
I was shoved in a white room, told to stop crying, lied to about my partner "leaving" me there (they'd been told to leave after we'd been separated), and laughed at when i asked if i had a choice of whether or not to sign papers allowing treatment. There was nothing to do, no privacy, and no individual therapy. I was also kept 1-2 days longer than i was supposed to be kept because "they wanted to make sure my insurance went through," not because they thought i needed help.
I have since gotten back on medication and seen therapists after pushing and pushing for months/years for some of it just to get into the system. And i did that ON MY OWN. The hospital didn't help with any of it. The hospital left me with no resources after they dumped me back in the same situation i'd been plucked from-- no financial advice for the near homelessness, no therapist appointments, no psych recommendations.
I still wake up screaming with nightmares that i'm being dragged back there. My partner still has to shake me awake every couple of months.
I never said therapists are bad, i never said psychs were bad. Psych WARDS are bad. They are fundamentally flawed because they aren't designed to help sufferers get better, they're designed to hold us so we don't cause problems, nevermind if it helps us or makes us worse. The staff is sorely underpaid, the place itself is understocked and underserved, the staff is not allowed to spend proper time with the patients, and malpractice is unfortunately extremely high. Our entire lives get handed over to doctors who see us for MAYBE 20 minutes a week if we're lucky.
The worst part? I got off easy. A friend of mind was sexually harassed and almost assaulted while in a ward. Another friend was forced into a room with their abusive father to "help mend the situation" during a stay.
Crisis wards CAN be a little better-- my partner stayed in one and it helped them. That was where i was SUPPOSED to go. But they were closed when i had my crisis, so i was taken to a hospital instead. Years later, after a lot more therapy and on proper medication, i can honestly say that my life would be better if i had not been taken to that hospital.
Think about what you say before you say it.@@wittyithink9109
I'm glad there's at least some good places. My partner went to a crisis center and it was apparently lovely. But, crisis centers are also WAY different than hospitals. x.x
Sadly, tho, florida isn't a safe zone for me. I used to live there. I'm trans, and a lot of the laws their passing could get me in harm's way even in a hospital, which is extremely unfortunate for anyone else who's trans there ;; .@@Psilomuscimol
Dude you are speaking out of my soul I had similar issues (upcoming BPD ) I spend more than 1,5 years in different facilities and I was more suicidal in hospitals, because it's crazy, you are not even threated like a person and you have zero human rights or stability (sorry for my English it's not my first language)
at least that one has windows 😂😂
Ah yes, the psych ward. Preventing suicidal people from trying to seek help ever since their inception. Gotta love it!
I feel like they should make separate mental health wards specifically for people who don’t have severe mental illness where they act erratically, very aggressive, etc. I can’t imagine being suicidal and getting locked up in a ward where other people are screaming, banging walls/doors, threatening to stab others, etc. that would just make you feel worse.
@@jav7899they do sometimes, but most often it's just a different section of the same ward.
@@jav7899 We used to, but after 1970's people thought they were cruel and not PC. So we just got rid of them and let all the psychos loose and free to roam the cities. Now we just call them homeless people.
@@jav7899There's a concept like that in Germany. We have different stages of psych ward, from 1 to 5 I believe, but I'm not sure. 1 is essentially you're not able to function in normal life but no danger to yourself or others and 5 is 'you're so suicidal and/or aggressive you essentially need a constant guard around you'. Neither is much good though, because they're understaffed as hell and no one has the time to actually help you. Had a friend with a dissociative disorder who was in 3 and during an episode, which usually involved shaking and banging her head like crazy, all the nurse could do was put a pillow under her head and rush off, because there was already another emergency around the corner. Another friend learned how to lie to therapists very well, just so he could pretend he got better to get the fuck out of there. It's not a particularly good system.
@@ThePsycoScoutif you knew anything about psych wards youd know how cruel they were
“You’re depressed? How about 👋 _prison_ 👋
@@firemonster2218prison is worse?
@@firemonster2218idk what prison you're going too but it must have been real lax if you think that's worse
@@AA-sw5pbtheir user is “fire monster” so I’m obligated to not believe them
And depending on the state, if you're not straight.
😂🤣
I was in a psych ward for 2 weeks and I didn't want to leave. I think this statement shows exactly how great my home life was.
😢
I tried to put myself into foster care multiple times, so I get it
damn maybe i should do this, my home life sucks too
I’m sorry
I tried to put myself in a ED recovery, I feel you so much
@@alan057 like a recovery place? Hope you were successful… people seeking recovery deserve support 💛
"So you dont escape" sounds incredibly horrendous
Psych ward: If you weren't crazy before, you will be by the time you leave! Guaranteed! 🤗
Not rlly but alr
well i mean i dont think it makes people crazy but maybe idk
@@Savannah-qb4bb it doesn’t.
It can, been there. It depends in each one. But it's kind of like prison when it comes to the rights u have and u can't go outside and you javelin to stay with ppl u don't know and share the bathroom and rooms with strangers. It can mess with u and make u worse
I think I would rather go to a North Korean forced labor camp than any psych ward
I’m an electrician that works in primarily hospitals and let me tell you... the things we have to do to the electric in the psych ward so you don’t get into the electric and hurt yourself is crazy
You do a good thing
pun intended?? lol
@@christaverduren690 🤫😉🤓
Luckily, I know a lot of various science, and have experience working with electrical components as well as training in that field, so all good here! Like how you should always be very careful when tightening the fastening bolts on a vehicle’s battery terminals, because if the wrench is all metal and it touches a metal surface from the positive terminal, you better hope you’re shoes have rubber soles. Doc martins are great for that, because they’re chemical, puncture, and electricity resistant. Still, rubber gloves are a good idea when working with live electrical things. Footnote: I suddenly felt the need to infodump. Which is why I wrote all that.
@@ManyArmedMooseDei actually it’s the negative terminal you want to watch out for, that’s where electricity flows outward, the positive terminal is where it flows back in. Really you don’t want to touch either to ground though. Kind strange of you to boast about your electrical knowledge and then spout a bunch of incorrect information, if you are touching the wrench rubber soles aren’t going to do anything, electricity coming from a vehicle battery isn’t trying to flow through the ground it’s going to use the metal you touched to return to it’s source which is the car so it’s still going to travel through your body even with rubber soles. Common misconception, electricity doesn’t want to travel through the ground, it wants to travel back to the source and it will sometimes use the ground if it has no easier path, but if you give it an easier path like metal on the car, it’s still going to shock you.
The worst part is when family calls the police and falsely accuses you of being suicidal just so you can get stuck on a 72+ hour hold.
Hey! Been in that situation myself! Except mine turned into 5 days because the doctor wasn't there my first day or the 3rd day to discharge me. So I had to wait 2 extra days until the doctor decided I was important enough for his time to let me out of the prison that psych wards truly are. My psychiatrist I've seen regularly on a set schedule for the last 13 years was NOT very happy with that doctor and he is now he's had his medical license revoked due to Medicare fraud. The mental health field is just full of great people who truly care. 😐😐😐
oh I wish then maybe I could finally get committed :D
How did you get free and stay free😢
Exactly this happened to me. I was stuck there for a month
@@Mind_of_a_Very_Strange_Man Same here. Weekends and holidays don’t count towards your time, so the 3 days easily turns into 5 or 6 if you go on a holiday weekend.
Psych wards sound like a fucking terrible nightmare
Family member took me to the ER for SI. I had been trying to get actual help for months but no one took me seriously until then. I was 15. Spent an hour waiting for psych consult. Psych doctor was through a video call. Psych doctor talked to me for two minutes and told them to put me on a 72 hour hold. A.k.a. you're now in prison but we will call it a hospital. Got sent to a place 2 hours away when a bed opened up after spending a night in the psych hold room of the er in paper clothes. Transport guy talked to someone on the phone the entire drive, so I got to stare out the window and drown in my thoughts. Worst car ride of my life still several years later. I get there, go through the giant prison gate around the hospital. They required we strip completely in front a nurse to be checked for self harm scars or other signs of abuse. It felt violating. They didn't believe thay I had never self harmed either, or hadn't drank or used drugs. I remember the nurse kept asking me if I had just in slightly different wording each time. The usual went on. No shoelaces, etc. They had rules about clothes like we had to wear socks at all times but they had to be our own socks from home, no belts or drawstrings, no stuffed animals with hard eyes or buttons.. If you didn't have anyone to bring you clothes or hadn't brought some you were just screwed. Needed permission to even have books. Showers were freezing 5 minute experiences with no water pressure that were required daily. Got one 10 minute phone call a day. Visitations were longer but no one wanted to make the drive to see me. It really felt like prison. The nurses treated us like criminals, giving judgemental looks about any little thing that was literally entailed in their job. I lied through my teeth about how I felt so I could leave. They didn't help. They made me feel worse. I still have nightmares about that place. Didn't help you would hear gruesome stories from the other patients about the ones who got around the saftey measures anyway. The psychiatrist they had there never even listened to me, just talked a couple minutes and gave me some generic prescription writing me off as another depressed teen. Only good thing they did was get me an appointment with a psychiatrist who was the woman who actually sorted me out once I was free. Bless her, I still see her to this day.
Edit: typo
oh my god, i'm fifteen and i can't even begin to imagine having to go through that. i struggle w/ self harm and all that fun stuff but god that sounds like hell
@@vanilladrizzlequeenIt is hell. Especially the juvenile places are extremely dehumanising. Please get help outside if possible - having it in your medical history will make people treat you differently, it will always be a lens filter. In my personal experience self harm in teens is really looked like it's " people who have no real problems acting out to get attention" instead of being treated as what it is - an outside manifestation of inner suffering eased by only way a person feels gets them any relief. You deserve help, you deserve patience, you deserve a medical professional who will listen and treat you like an autonomous human being, not a "problem" for your parents or being judged right out of the door as "entitled brat who knows nothing about the world". Some view self harm's seriousness upon severity of the physical damage almost as if completely oblivious to the fact that any amount means one is suffering beyond their ability to cope and any amount is way,way too much. It's as with eating disorders - some people don't believe they deserve help because they aren't thin or sick enough. It's bollocks.
I'm 35 now and I hoped things changed ever since I was 12 and in that place but alas. I went through awful shit but being locked up in juvenile facility still is one of the most traumatic, dehumanising experiences of my life. I know there's people who have different experiences, and a lot depends on the place and staff, but I would consider it as last resort - place you go to to save you from hurting yourself. The best part is community support, but fortunately now one can find it outside.
Please be kind to yourself. It may be tough to the point that it may seem hopeless, but you can weather that storm and come out victorious.
Man, not too long ago I was in a psych ward for an eval. That was like a prison cell. The only reason I was barely san was because my mom was in the same room as me and I had my stuffed animal with me. If I were in your position without Flower, my stuffed dog, I probably would have offed myself. I wish you the best. I hope you get the help you need.
@@moonstar3833 I'm alright several years removed, got some good professionals on my side once I got out. I'm glad you got to keep your stuffed animal, mine have always comforted me as well even into my 20's. I hope you're getting the support and love you deserve, kind stranger.
@@margodphd I told my parents I wanted to off myself at 13. I was stressed out to high hell and the pandemic was kicking my ass since I was so social in elementary school and isolation was not treating me well. When they said they were going to send me to a military school, I lost my shit, started bawling, and told them about how I wanted to do it, then they said they were going to send me to a psych ward, and when I freaked the fuck out at the prospect of being sent to one of these, they just brushed it off after I talked to some sort of psychologist person on the phone. Literally nothing changed. I could off myself just as easily as I could before. My dad literally left his whole ass gun safe unlocked at some point, but I was able to keep my mind off of things (music is the only thing keeping me from giving in to the thoughts that just pop into my brain 5-6 times a day :) ). I haven’t told them any of what I’m going through since it’ll get the same result and more than likely end up with me actually locked up in a mental hospital. It just felt like they didn’t care about what I was going through, and on top of that, it feels like none of my accomplishments are acknowledged. When school comes up, it’s only the 60/65% on that random English test I studied for, and not the consistent 90-100%s on my math tests I’ve been getting all year. It’s never anything positive, it’s solely the bad whenever I hear them talk about it. I’m just so damn tired of it all.
Been to both jail and the psych ward. Differences are minimal. You actually have a tiny bit more freedom in jail😂
bro that is wild. I believe it though
How was it in there? I’m curious :D
Are either of them about freedom?
@@thoroughlyunoriginalname no but you shouldnt put someone in jail for being mentally ill.
Let’s be honest, there are no differences
Don’t forget an “us and them attitude” from the staff 👏
This
Which is why so many of us patients tried to escape and do everything in our power to make their job hell :)
i was a frequent flyer for 3 years with 8 visits and had nothing but positive supportive experiences.
I knew a girl that hung herself on the door knob of her bathroom door. I could never understand how, all she had to do was put her legs down. It wasn't till I was older that I really understood how much she wanted to die to be able to hold her legs up on her own free will and used all her weight to hang herself. When she was found I think she was technically alive. She passed out and her lower body hit the floor, but there was so much brain damage that she officially died later at the hospital.
When I saw the grab rail in the bathroom of this video it made me think how someone really determined could use that like the girl I knew did.
The ones in the ward have a full plate on the bottom so it isn't the normal open bar but they do have to have them for safety of those with physical disabilities to use the toilet safely. That is really sad that she didn't get the help she needed 😔
Doorknob is actually a classic. Unfortunately.
That's disturbing... God help us all
When you need to go, you need to go 😢
When dealing with extreme degrees of mental illness, being forcefully kept alive is absolute hell. I will never understand why society locks people up trying to escape their own psychological hell. I am the daughter of a schizophrenic father and often wonder if it was selfish asking him to stay.
They forgot the trauma, how staff does jack while you gotta be everyone’s therapist, the fact that all the boys there try to get with you, the moldy foods, the threats of you don’t leave your room you can’t do x. If you don’t shower you can’t do x. If you don’t do this you can’t do x. Oh and the fact that they spread covid like rats. I have no sense of smell and it’s been over a year since I’ve been back to one of those places. I had to stop 2 people from choking themselves in their own clothes, and I was the only person strong enough to push a door open that was being blocked to stop someone from also trying to choke themselves. Never once had a therapy session alone. Never once was taken seriously about my mental illnesses since I’m only there for 2 weeks and mask the whole time. Never once felt safe. But boy do they love to drug you up so you can’t act out.
That's why I fought like hell when they tried to section me through legal threats and being willing to demonstrate my sanity in a court room.
Wow sounds too familiar
Sounds like skill issues
maybe stop masking
@@mellissamercado7904 ….. you do realize it’s not a choice right? It happens naturally. It’s a response I have when I’m in a new place full of strangers and I feel unsafe.
This is basically just a place for people to learn how to hide their issues so they can leave
Yup. HOT. GARBAGE.
I relate to that. I got out quick that way.
Psych wards are horrible, my friend has been to one. It did help him, but it also changed him. He might be happier now, but for about 2 weeks after coming back he wouldn’t leave his room or talk to anyone.
Every feature in that room was put there as the result of a lawsuit. Some person used the TP roll to harm themselves, now everyone has their TP in a hole in the wall. Over many years the conditions in the room incrementally get worse and worse, as next of kin sue the place into oblivion.
Lawyers convince some judge that the hospital is at fault that someone went out the window, even though they were locked, and the hospital should have known patients can pick the locks, and of course the only reasonable option is to make a window so small that no human being could conceivably squeeze through. So then everyone's window gets reduced to a 6 x 6 in square. And this is what passes for patient care and due diligence.
We had a case in my neck of the woods, where a dog got off-leash and was running down the street. The dog approached a mental health patient outside her outpatient program with her therapy dog. The off leash dog says hello. No biting or aggression or barking, but he's jumping around, excited, saying hello to the therapy dog, and the owner is initially nowhere in sight. After a minute the owner comes and retrieves the off-leash dog.
The patient sued the owner and said that this occasion with the off-leash dog somehow permanently changed her therapy dog. She said the therapy dog was never the same afterwards. She ended up settling with this guy's insurance for $95,000 , over how her therapy dog was forever changed by the off-leash menace. Totally bizarre.
@@giggitygooz3198i just lied at the initial meeting💀
Hospital socks are free in the drawer when a doc leaves
“You fools.”
*eats my bedsheets*
if you fold it enough times its just as bad as a regular blanket
Can breath through em, but what's stopping us from just ripping a hole in it and giving ourselves a nice neck hug? 😂😂
@@potatotrashone they’re stretchy
Not thaaaaat stretchy, though.
Phych ward: "Jokes on you the bedsheets are made out of cotton candy"
This is literally my words nightmare. Like dude, if you look me in like an animal in a cage, I will act like an animal in a cage. I would never get out of there
Some of them will kick you out if you don't do what they say. And after I think 48 hours(if bakeracted) you can sign a paper that will get you released.
Same
My first trip was actually super helpful, I got really lucky. My second trip not so much. I made to tell every single nurse I met that I'm pacing because I like to go on walks, I can stop whenever, and it isn't a compulsion. Eventually one asked why and I told them that I didn't want to look crazy but I still wanted to workout without being stuck here for several weeks. Didn't help that they wouldn't give me my ADHD meds because they were stimulants.
Apparently I've done this twice, Though, I don't remember it much. They will NOT hesitate to sedate you. I've been stuck with a needle in the buttski while waiting for a room.
The good news is, assuming you are in the US, they don't have long term facilities anymore. Even in very extreme cases most people won't be there for more than a month, although the average is usually less than a week.
And dont forget nurses knocking on the door if you take too long in the bathroom
Long warm showers used to be something I did to relax and calm down. Tried that in the psych ward and they literally just let themselves in, 3 nurses with gloves on ready to haul me to the quiet room, because they thought I was in there for a suspicious amount of time.
They claim they knocked first, but if they did, I sure as hell didn't hear it. Thankfully, I was out of the shower with clothes on brushing my teeth at that point, so at least I had that much privacy.
@cassius5692 yeah I had my blood tested and was struggling to get clothes on because of the needle in my hand si they knocked and asked if I was alright. When I explained they told me to not take to long
How to unalive in a psych ward:
1) Pretend you're okay
2) Get let out from heII
3) Unalive
that happens to me at school
"JESUS F--KING CHRIST MARTHA I AM JUST TAKING A SHIT!"
I once went to a hospital where for “safety reasons” they took away everything in my room including the sheets, blankets, pillow, and mattress in the middle of winter while it was snowing
My bed was basically a wooden box with a sleeping pad on it (similar to the pads for camping); same sheets. Didn’t realize they were suffocating proof. We had normal door knobs. It was on the 14th floor so the windows didn’t even open. The helicopters landed right near my window. Basically the main entertainment. I did get a gown, but it had snap buttons instead of ties. The shower was one button and SCALDING hot.
dude you guys got hot showers?!
@@Elektricknight It started cold and just got hotter and hotter and hotter until I just couldn’t take it anymore
Fr
@@kristynkazumi Are you a woman? I am a man and I got forced into one of those places once and I wonder if you feel a burning anger and rage against all of them because I do. I was stupid and passive last time, but if there is a next time I wont go down without a fight. Do you feel the same?
Did your stay make you feel humiliated beyond belief and filled with a burning hatred for every one of them?
@@JohnSmith-kt3yy Ik that degrading feeling
The fact that you can’t sleep because a nurse needs to look in on you every fucking 15 minutes and there is absolutely no way to open and close those doors quietly
Oh yeah I forgot about those. The door needs to be open. You likely have a roommate. Them walking into your room, inspecting you sleep every quarter hour is a lot. I didn't get much sleep the first few nights.
Yup because the nurses need to make sure you are still breathing and not actively hurting yourself or someone else. Unfortunately there are a lot of strict rules and protocols because no one wants any patients to die a preventable death. I've been in psych wards many times before and I know it's scary uncomfortable and hard. But I also understand that if the staff weren't being constantly vigilant a person can end up dead before they get the chance to heal.
.............@@missasaur
@@CatgirlExplise6039 ...................?
They put me in a residential treatment facility. They shined a flash light into the room every 15 minutes. All the doors were locked.
You forgot about my personal favorite, the super rubbery pencils that you can barely write with
Lmao I agree. I also remember how bare the restroom/shower room were. But why do they have to make the psych ward so boring. It was so boring that you can’t help but contemplate on negative thoughts because there is nothing else to do but watch from a crappy television and draw and write using shitty crayons.
nah the crayons tho💀
they even took our markers away because we were drawing cute stuff on our arms to remind us not to scratch... god I hated it there
With enough toilet paper you can do anything
We weren’t allowed pencils 😭
“You can check out any time you like, but you can’t never leave”
I went to a mental hospital as a child, they treated us so horribly. I woke up every night screaming after I got home for a week. And every time I drove past that building I felt unnerved. And whenever something smells like it to this day, it still makes me uncomfortable.
Our insurance company stopped paying for my most important medication and told us that I didn't need it because I was seven years old. My Mum fought as hard as she could to get them to cover it, but they wouldn't.
So, at age 7, I was hospitalized in a psychiatric hospital for 17 days. My parents sobbed every night I was away, and I sobbed every night too. I don't remember much about the hospital because I block it out of my memory. But I remember that we were treated like prisoners instead of patients. I recall being held down like a criminal, like the nurses were police officers.
@@sleeplessstudios7626 wow that's fucked up the things people can do knowingly for profit is insane!
Fr. I have a fear of empty/plain rooms. I remember having a light shone on my fucking face every fifteen minutes. The nurse was like "why aren't you asleep" and I'm like BITCH YOU'RE SHINING A FLASHLIGHT IN MY FACE. I also got locked in a shower stall cuz the door was jammed. Nobody was around to help me. One of the heavily-mentally handicapped older patient let me out. I had a panic attack in that room. I was also yelled at for not being in my room because the boy across from me didn't have markers. We met halfway in the hall so I could hand them over. This dude fucking yelled at me from the end of the hall. That room felt like a jail cell. There were also literally bars on the windows.
@@sleeplessstudios7626 I had a similar experience.
@@iaintbeendroppingnoeavessir Oh my gosh yes the constant flashlight in the face sucked so much LMAO. That’s why I didn’t face sleeping the door most of the time.
I remember the first day I showed up to one of these, a girl hung herself with the shower curtain. We immediately got hard rubber shower curtains
Oh uhhh that's a "fun" story
That’s so….
There were no curtains on our showers, no curtain rods the shower head didn’t even come out of the wall it was just 3 holes in a knob thing so you couldn’t tie anything to a pipe, they checked in on you every 5 minutes while you showered by knocking on the non-locking handleless door and they gave you hand towel the size of a napkin to dry off with
@xX_RonaldReagan_Xx okay now that's just messed up dude
😃👉🏽😦
Psyche ward: don’t make people not want to die, just don’t give them a choice
They are doctors. Not your therapists, it’s not on them to fix your problems, they’re concern is to keep you safe. That is the number one priority. They’re job is to keep you healthy and alive not fix everything wrong in your life.
Y liking ur own comment@@EmeraldWatsy
@@EmeraldWatsywhat you have described is not a doctor. It is a prison guard.
Doctors. They didn’t make the system. Name calling isn’t the answer. And does it keep you alive? Yes. So they’ve done their job.@@Ryzard
@@EmeraldWatsyyeah but they often cause worse PTSD and people often kill themselves as soon as they get out because they realize that no one actually wants to help them to not hate themselves. Also if you're trans and it's separated by sex it's extra horrible.
I think psych wards heavily underestimate my power.
Psych wards scare you into lying about your feelings in order to avoid basically being imprisoned.
And the fact that you have to get naked and they have to check your holes before you get in… it’s traumatizing for anyone but imagine SA victims
Made the mistake of telling a friend ONCE that I was suicidal. Was forcibly taken from my home in pajamas and slippers right after a snowstorm. The only reason I was allowed a jacket was because the crisis worker demanded the cop let me grab it
What. That never happened to me
@@Pikabo0 i'd better stop my intrusive thoughts from ever existing in the first place.
@@Pikabo0wait what? So if you tell someone you're suicidal they can call the police and have you placed in a psych ward? Without any evaluation at all? So sorry you had to go through that
Locked doors.
Locked windows.
Not so hidden cameras EVERYWHERE (except for the bathroom/shower/bedrooms).
The mirrors are made with plastic thing instead of normal mirror glass.
You can't have phones/cameras (there are computers in the lobby to communicate with the outside world).
They lock the bedrooms from 9 am to 3 pm and from 4 pm to 7 pm.
You have lockers in the hallway but if you harm yourself the nurses lock it as a punishment or something.
You can't bring sharpener or scissors.
You can't bring COVID masks (sometimes they give you a musk without a wire in).
At the end of craft class and stuff like that, they count the scissors to make sure none of them are missing.
You can't have deodorant spray or a soda can.
The charger's cabel must be short.
Umm that's what I remember...
Maby I'll add more later...
But yeah, a lot of little rules, and it's really annoying and give extra triggers when you're out...
EDIT: Also this from my experience from a year ago in a teen psych ward.
So there are probably some changes in different wards/different times/different countries...
Why do you need charger cable if you're not allowed to have a phone? Just curious
@@alexandrastachova4856 you can have mp3
I'm sorry that was ur reality
@@incognitonegress3453 yeah it was super tough..
I was there around six weeks and I couldn't wait to get the hell out of there...
And it was my first time and I couldn't believe that some girls have been there for months 😵💫
All of the time I was emotionally shut down any all the trauma and triggerd started after I left...
But I guess it worked because I almost didn't hurt myself just from fear that I would have to go back there 😰
I'm so sorry you had a bad experience, I'm not trying to justify the people there, but the point is to protect suicidal people from killing themselves. Most of those things are in place to protect you. Again I think they could 100% do a better job.
I remember the pillows in the one I went to were almost exactly like plastic bags. We couldn't have a phone, or clothing with strings (which I understand) the blankets were thin and the rooms were extremely cold. Basically, all you could do in that hellhole was talk to others and participate in these mandatory mental health activity things, so you practically were like an NPC in a video game. I get these places are supposed to protect you especially from yourself, but it feels like you're being punished rather than actually getting help for the reason you're there.
EXACTLY. Psych wards are pretty much just prison. Only thing they succeed in doing is making you feel terrible for having thoughts or attempting. Don't know why they think locking you in a room with no entertainment (one I went didn't let you have your phone or any other device. There was a TV but unless your pleasure was watching Law & Order on mute...) will improve your mental state. I left feeling worse and more wary of seeking getting help lest I be forced to go back
Your pfp explains your behavior
that’s how mine was. we’d sometimes get to use rubber pens or playing cards, though. but it was so boring, i wanted to rip my hair out. i lied during the check-ins because i wanted to get out asap, i felt much happier when i was at home.
it was terrible, i hated being punished for being depressed. i wasn’t even suicidal but nobody listened to me and my rights were basically taken away it was horrific being trapped in there with nothing and all those other people… this one girl had chronic seizures and we were talking and she just collapsed and i had to scream and beg for the nurses to even help… it was awful.
Talk to others?
My idea of hell right there, talking to other people is dangerous, terrifying and leaves me absolutely drained even in the short term
Was half expecting a shock therapy chair 😂😂😂
Y‘know my mom put me into the mental hospital because she read my diary in which I wrote that I can’t take this shit anymore. (The shit I couldn’t take was my mom, and only her, no suicidal intentions) but she interpreted it as such. They took basically everything from me and I was left in my room with just one book for four days. I literally became insane in there. Luckily after those four days the psychologist released me stating that there was nothing wrong with me.
That was one hell of an experience.
(I also read that one book that I had 6 times)
Lol just wondering, what was the book called/about?
Stealing comment location to state: This man should NOT be in medicine. Condescending asshole anytime mental health is mentioned.
@@Purple_girl1006 it was a German book about a girl in the drug scene, prostitution and so on. It’s very popular over here.
@@KJun2_ oh
Both my mom & I were sent to mental hospitals at some point in our lives. Mental illness runs in our family. But our conditions deteriorated inside because we were treated like animals. I wasn't even allowed to wear my bra anymore & was forced to take it off infront of staff to prove I'm not wearing it. I thought we abolished asylums but they still exist.
Don't forget the people singing and pounding on the walls.
They use medical restraints to eliminate that sort of behaviour these days 😐
The last time I was in one there was a guy who kept running around naked praising Jesus while holding rosary beads. They didn't want to give them to him because obvious danger but he was getting so combative and violent that they told him he had to calm do n and get dressed. First half of that worked. They then tried multiple times to reclaim the he beads and we all had to be locked into a counseling room because security was coming as the staff couldn't controll him.
@@nellhandebo5962 they don't. I was in a mental hospital last year. They don't use restraints for that. The patients who are there for suicide attempts only do it because they're bored with nothing to do. They can't do anything. They took away the radios because someone tried to swallow a battery.
@@dontwakethedeadp.jankey9592 they took my jewelry and it broke in their storage. One of my gloves got lost and they lost my birth control. I'm trans and need it. Without birth control, I'm extremely violent on my period.
When I did as in-nobody sang or banged. It would have made it more human-focused with some type of music but alas there was none of that.
Dam they really thought of everything and said “baby proof” 💀
Belgium: If you don't want to live anymore, you have the right to demand assisted suicide, even if you are physically healthy.
USA: Don't even think about killing yourself, or we will take away all your rights and treat you like a child. Residence will be punished, because we are the land of the free.
its just a daycare for all the mental midgets
People who go to psych wards usually need better help than a normal therapist or family can give them, alot of these people are people who want to hurt themselves or others so precautions are taken. People "baby proof" things cause babies are clumsy and don't try to hurt themselves. Implying that people in a psych ward are "babies" and need things to be "babies proofed" is probably offensive as they are not babies but human beings who ended extra help.
@@ChaosRat5 no people are usually forced to go there after the slightest glimpse of suicidal thoughts
Im such a big fan of the pillow paws grippy socks. The little smiley face on them always cheered me up
the way he's smiling through the whole video and then proceeds to trying to sell you socks 💀
Just buy the socks already they are grippy so you don't off yourself.
@@spazzypotato8325 💀
New motto for socks: "Why unexist yourself, you have grippies for your grippers."
psychiatrist moment
When you deal with this shit everyday, yep you find humour where you can.
Also gotta pay the bills
Remember, psych wards aren't for treatment they're for stabilization. They don't do much more than calm you down and generally medicate you. For me, I went twice, it's what I needed. I'm bipolar so I just needed forced to take my meds and some time for the episode to simmer down in a space where I couldn't harm myself. I really liked most of the nurses I saw too.
True. Mental illness requites a multi pronged approach as far as treatment is concerned. A stay in an inpatient ward is to assess you and if need be, adjust or begin a medication regime. Many folk on psych meds will stop taking them once they feel better.
Unfortunately, treatment for mental illness isn't like a broken arm. How wonderful would it be to xray bipolar, chuck a cast on depression and keep anxiety dry for 6 weeks.
My cousin tried to burn the house down with herself and her kids locked inside. Was in a ward for a few months, to stabilize and figure out medication. Does she still need help, meds and support? Yes. But she's far more stable than she's ever been, and the meds are helping immensely. And I can't imagine it would've been possible without her having that time in that environment.
i’m glad you had an alright experience with it!
They took away my medication for a week instead because the psychiatrist was never there to approve my prescription. I was going through withdrawal from clonazepam and having intense anxiety and mild psychosis that everyone in the ward was there to torture and kill me. I had to keep asking the most patient nurse to confirm it was just withdrawal.
@@PandoraPotatoSalad noo clonazepam withdrawal is serious, you should have been helped through it. I decided to go cold turkey once and made myself so ill (I hadn't slept for 4 days) the pharmacist in my local chemist looked at me and said go straight home and call your GP. Do not go anywhere else. My GP said well you can carry on and feel even worse until about day 7 and then we can see how you are without it or you can take your medication and feel better. I'm bipolar so I don't always make the best choices but my old GP was the best at talking me round gently. I ended up giving in and taking a clonazepam and going to bed until I felt better.
You realize how depressed or crazy you really are in psych wards. It's really like American horror story
It should that's the point they are there to make sure you don't off yourself I was in an and out of them as a kid teen and young adult probably around my 30th visit it finally dawned on me I'm clearly fucked in the head I need to do something because I can't do this anymore so I did I promised Myself I will never harm anything or anyone again including myself no matter what I will not kill myself and I sought out help anything in the past I refused to try I went and tried and this is just what worked for me I realize not everyones the same but you will never know if something works if you don't try
HELP🚔HES ESCAPING😍THE☹️KILLER😘IS🤔ESCPAING😝
The crazy part is you don't even have to be crazy or depressed to be placed in a psych ward. If you're having any issues with your mental health wether it be a phobia or anxiety you still get mixed in with the rest of the more severe psych patients regardless
@whoiszinaya4239 i mean it more personally I knew i didn't need to be there i was just a little depressed the people and things around me really showed i wasn't off that bad
Those socks would kill me, socks are already uncomfortable but those are so much worse😂
Even when I was at the most suicidal point in my life, my therapist refused* to commit me to a place like this. He said that the wards were "inhumane" and that, more importantly, he wanted me to trust him and continue opening up to him. He knew how poorly I would tolerate such a place (given that a lot of my trauma relates to feeling trapped with no escape), and he truly cared how I'd feel. He's been my therapist for 10+ years and has truly helped me stay alive - not by locking me up under constant supervision, but by guiding me towards thoughts, medications, and situations that would truly benefit me and ultimately help me help myself. If I had gone to a psych ward, I don't doubt that it would have taken me longer to get where I am now, if I would have gotten there at all.
* [Edit: To add some more context, when I said "refused," I meant that my therapist was reluctant to do so, but if it was legally required of him or if he felt it was absolutely necessary, I don't doubt he would have done what needed to be done. Luckily, I hadn't explicitly mentioned any active suicidal intent to him (out of paranoia that I would be involuntarily hospitalized), but he could intuitively tell I wasn't doing well.]
tell those of us who literally cannot afford to go or have a way to go what the biggest thing in staying relatively happy, grounded &/or just not sewersidal plz
you are very lucky you got the right one for you. that's really nice to read
@@embadly watching Dr K from healthy gamer und reading "the depression cure" by Illardy (he's also got a Ted talk that already contains most of it).
Every book I read and talk I heard helped me in a way. Then of course walking, dancing, talking to honest friends and to people who know what it's like.
I forgot the name of that one guy who really made it clear for me... if you want to, I can look it up and tell you.
@@embadly and it really gets better. hang in there
Your therapist is legally required to have you institutionalized if you had an active plan for suicide or harm. Not sure if you were at that stage yet or if they actually broke the law or not, if so then they were at serious risk of losing their license. It's not an easy situation for mental health professionals
Person: *suicidal*
Psych ward: **PRISON**
Fr
@@meesha6723 like bro if ur suicidal this shit will make it way worse. if you try telling them how shitty it is they will say you have even more problems and wont give a single fuck about you.
prison has more freedom, at least they get to go outside and talk to people and have decent clothes
@@wAfton83 fr
@@wAfton83 bro knows nothing about American prisons 💀 they are quite literally subject to slave labor
In the patient rooms, it’s also worth noting that the door to the bathroom does not have a lock. This is so patients cannot lock themselves in the bathroom and do something harmful to themselves.
The issue with this is that your privacy can easily be invaded, especially when you are taking a shit on the toilet.
One ward I was in, the bathrooms didn’t even have doors. Several times, I’d be on the toilet and a nurse would come in and literally walk right up to me as I was doing my business… like excuse the fuck out of me SIR but I am trying to PISS and you are MAKING IT DIFFICULT 😮
I think the one I was in (in germany), handled that pretty well. Every station, even closed ward, had locks on the bathrooms. But they also had a slit for a certain tool, that could open the doors. A tool the handlers had, obviously, and which patients couldn’t easily recreate without the handler‘s notice.
We had doors and locks of we shared a room, not I'd we didn't.
One time I was using the toilet and I shared a room and the staff unlocked it from the the outside because I didn't respond fast enough or something like that when I was fine and not doing anything dangerous.
@@AurenGlytterkat I was also in one with no door. It was a curtain instead. It was like a stall door were there was is a gab where if you wanted to look underneath you could. Zero privacy
The one I was in some rooms had their own bathrooms others didn't, mine did not and the doors technically locked but we couldn't unlock them ourselves from the outside, we needed a staff member to use the key and so long as you weren't on 'watch' (had a recent event in which you tried to harm yourself) you were left unattended although every 15 minutes or so someone would knock to ask if someone was in there and make sure everything was okay. If you were on watch then someone would have to basically be in the bathroom with you, or right outside of it depending on what you were doing.
The place I went to was pretty fair in its rules thankfully and allowing privacy for the most part.
the only place where 100% of prisoners is innocent
Bro at this point, you’d be offing yourself out of spite 😭
Fr 😭😭
fr
Fr
Ironically, fear of getting hospitalized kept me from asking for help when things were really dangerous for me. The only thing that was really keeping me alive was the idea that "well, I can die any time I want, may as well put it off." That logic doesn't work if I no longer have the option of death. If anyone had taken my ability to die away, then it just would've encouraged me to die at my first viable opportunity.
I knew that psych wards were not pleasant places, and I was already struggling, so I really didn't want to be forced to exist there.
When my friend tried to kill himself, I told him he could contact me at any time to talk, and I would never report it or try to "save him". He did eventually kill himself.
I'm somewhat suicidal myself and I'm afraid to talk about it to the closest people in my life, just so they don't call an ambulance or do some other things that really make my anxiety go through the roof.
@@VideoDotGoogleDotCom Dont talk to family, especially if they are the type to believe its just a faze. They will send you to that prison, and belive me it makes you want to off yourself 10x more. Talk to a Friend or a online therapist instead.
Sometimes and for some people like me, the opposite method works the best - I made sure to have the means to end it, hidden somewhere safely and certainly not where anybody would search and find it - I haven't tried even once, not before and especially not ever since.
But I'm a "passive depressive", I only pray to die in my sleep and not wake up again but I won't act on it ... what they're doing here in this video would and could throw me over the edge though!
Not to mention, the sadistic smile while he's talking about it is very telling to me, bc it's all about control and not about helping.
@@VideoDotGoogleDotComif not purpose or psych more? Try reaching out to healthy places online and things..... Hobbies? Things to reflect what's causing you harm
@@VideoDotGoogleDotComI feel that. It's rough. I hope you find some more peace and joy. 💙
It’s funny that they put in all this stuff to stop you from killing yourself and it just makes you want to do it more. You have no idea how mind-numbing and agonizing it is to be stuck in one of those places. My mum would sometimes tell me she would take me to a psych ward “to get help” when I was in times of crisis, but I don’t think she understood how terrifying of a threat that really is
Edit: let me be clear that I’m not saying there is no point or use to these things, or that I had a terrible mother or anything like that. My mother is great and obviously would be trying to help me out. But I’ve never had a positive experience with these sorts of things, and being stuck in a place like that when what you actually need is to be able to socialize with friends or get out of a shitty headspace it’s the worst.
My mother threatened that if I didn't stop self harming (Not even bad kind) she'd send me to one knowing I hate those fucking places.
@@SirDankleberry there is no good kind my friend
It's a horrible fucking place all they do is drug mentally ill people and do other shit against their will.
@@SirDankleberry everybody self harms in some way or another so as long as you monitor your own harm reduction then you're not going to end up in a ward. Fuck the people who try to tell you that your way of coping is wrong. It's up to you
I understand wanting to get people help that need it, but I would be seriously hesitant to recommend inpatient mental treatment to anyone. I can't speak for other places, but around here, it's a racket. It's very odd to dehumanize people in need of mental treatment, but it seems to be the norm. They run it like a business. If they have 20 beds, you better believe that all 20 beds are full at all times. And people wonder why mental health has been in constant decline. Gee, I wonder why. I have literally never heard a single good thing about our local mental health institution.
Bringing back memories 💀😭
I was diagnosed with PTSD from one of these places. I already had it due to unrelated issues but the abuse added a whole new layer to my diagnosis. Went in for a major PTSD episode that lasted 3 days long and the nurse got an inch from my face and started screaming at me for crying. I hate all them there. These places are nightmares
All it does is make peoples mental states worse and make those of us who want to off ourselves get more creative. If we want to do it, there isn’t much they’ll be able to do to stop us.
Yeah me too. It was 7 years ago for me and it still is ruining my life. 3 days to completely kill the person I was and turn me into a much more broken person.
Ive had two different psych staff in two different cities tell me to kill myself. They are all truly monsters. You're better off smoking weed, ignoring all of the narcissist advice from "professionals" and just learning a productive hobby. I garden now. I have been therapy free for years because I garden and I don't like being abused.
@@Seafoamworks99 unfortunately, I can’t do any of that stuff since I’m underage, but judging from all of the comments from people’s stories, that sounds like a much better alternative.
Don’t forget the part where you’re trying to sleep and then they come in every hour to shine a light in your face to see if you’re still there.
They do that to other hosp. Patients too....blood draws once every hour, all. Night. Long.
How the hell could you get rest
Why they can't get those glasses that make you see in the dark? Not them causing sleep depravation also... 🤦♀️@@Mary-cz5nl
@@Mary-cz5nlyes, when I was in the hospital I was constantly woken up for temperature and blood pressure and new IVs
15 minutes
Psych wards are so helpful. You sit around staring at a wall all day day and for about 7 minutes a dr comes around asking how you feel knowing that if you tell him anything other than “i feel great” you get to stay longer. So helpful
I lied about feeling great and masked a whole lot just so I could get out early.
I was so happy when I got out I felt like crying tears of joy.
You shouldn't feel like you should cry tears of joy for leaving a place that is supposed to "help you".
Also made friends with a toxic asshole, got picked on by the other girls and wasn't allowed into friend groups, there was a psycho there that scared me cause I felt like they were gonna kill me in my sleep (told the staff and they said oh well), also was friends with a drug addict who was 14 and said she had a kid and did drugs (kid part was probably true, I hope she gets better cause she actually seemed like such a nice person).
All I did was color. color. COLORED
We ended up making a Ouija board and that got taken away cause it was disturbing the other girls even tho they were allowed to spill conspiracy theories that were disturbing.
Idk, I came in with little PTSD, left with lots of PTSD.
And then after knowing you for seven minutes he diagnoses you with bipolar! This has happened to me twice. Sub seven minutes, I watched the clock. I am not bipolar.
Amen! I will forever lie my ass off before being honest and ending up in this place. Ffs I married a veteran and we share the same DARK humor....they'd never let me out again 😂
Never be honest when people ask how you feel! If I was honest to like counselors I'd be locked in that psych ward forever! Heh just glad there aren't mind readers :3 wait ......
Yeah but then if you say that you’re feeling great, he or she will then say “How do I know you’re just saying it and not meaning it? Or how do I know you’re just telling me what I want to hear?”
The bed sheets are surely mad comfy in summer
This is incredibly dehumanizing. I was sent there against my will even though all the staff admitted on all my paperwork at every stage that I was NOT a risk to myself or others. They absolutely do not care. Being in there only made my mental health worse.
and this is why i dont say shit to anyone who is not in the same boat as me
Yupppp this guy is scummy as fuck. Hé thinks other people's lives are a joke for his mediocre TikTok page.
I'm sorry you endured that. *hugs* I wish you continued healing. 🥰
They sent me even though I wasn't considered a risk to myself
Isn't that false imprisonment?
psych wards will really do all this to people and then wonder why the patients carve "fuck you" into the walls
Wow helping people not kill themselves. Might as well graffiti on the wall. Listen if you wanted to kill yourself that bad you would have done it the first time but now you're here and you're not even going to get the chance to
😮
Gen z has too many mental issues
I don’t think you understand the purpose of a psych ward
They don't wonder about why patients use profanity. The reason's usually plainly obvious. But staff have a moral and legal duty to follow and will do it in spite of the cursing.
My sister once, in a mental hospital, used ice and salt to give herself freeze burns. She got real f***ing creative with it.
At that point she's asking to be kept longer.
Like Mt friend that slammed her head on the wall. She was gonna be there till they found something to help.
@@PsilomuscimolI did that and was let out the next morning. I told them I was never coming back as I left.
I once poked the wire out of a mask during the COVID outbreak and used that to cut myself
@user-yo4sn2uu2f
Nice.
not wearing the socks upside down 😭
Truthfully, that's better then the Psych ward i was on a few years ago. I didn't even have windows, I had to lay on the ground to look through a vent in the floor to see outside. I was there for over a year without any self harming tendencies. But yet they kept me there. I doubt anyone will see this in the 10k comments, but if you do, just know there's better ways to get help sometimes, especially if you're under 18
We saw it dude, I hope you feel better.
@@theaveragegamer108 Thank you
Well you are a furry so maybe they should send you in for a while longer
Jesus fucking christ, and here I thought they got rid of those prison asylums...
@@damiengarcia2126you’re really that sad huh
don’t forget the taking you away from your friends and family to imprison you in a sterile hellscape until you lie about feeling better!
That part !
Fake it till you make it. At least, that's how I felt.
You have friends?
If you don't lie they'll send you to an even worse part of the facility, so make sure you're happy and laughing
As someone who went 3 times, I confirm.
Man this escape room looks really hard
i was very easy but yoj dont have anywhere else to go
So glad my sisters ward was amazing and she came out 10x better ☺
"I'll take hanging myself with a bedsheet for $200"
What about a tourniquet?
@@lGhostWolfeldoesn't it snap your neck though? A tourniquet wouldn't do shit for a broken spinal cord.
@@luisgamercoolgaming If that's the case then I suppose not unless the snap managed to kill you if you weren't able to get it tight enough to stop your breathing
went to 2 of em this year
that shit becomes “how to hide your real emotions 101”
i was in and out several times. the thing is that you will definitely come back unless you learn to open up to staff or learn to support yourself better. that was one of the first trips they told me that, and i was in and out until the last time when i made decent progress.
i have had that class without mental hospitals i need that as a child of divorced parents
@@y0ur2truly yeah, i ain't really one to "open up" about my emotions, i'm afraid. i'm glad it helped you, though.
@@blixtm_771Is that because you think you’re special? Do you think nobody else on this entire planet has been through whatever you’re going through?
The sooner you realise that it’s all bullshit and that getting help is that easy, the sooner you get better, as opposed to jerking yourself off.
@@blixtm_771well until you open up and get those negative feelings out, and deal with the issues that you obviously have
Seeing all those terrifying story, I wanna share some positive ones - from Germany though. I have several friends who spent time in German psychiatric clinics and all of them had a generally positive experience. One friend for example told me that the first days he was barely able to do anything but sit in a chair and eat cafetaria cake, before he finally was ready to even talk to the psychiatrist and that was perfectly fine for them. Another friend is a great artist and they encouraged her to take more time for her drawings while she was there. One friend discovered a new hobby while in a clinic, one friend told that the nurses organized a picnic outside with the more stable patients and another friend, who is chronically mentally ill, regularly spends prescheduled time in a clinic which really helps her tackle her life. I'm really sorry all the people here had to go through so much crap, this is terrifying.
You know a ton of folks that need to be in the psychiatric clinic...
Germany has probably one of the best healthcare systems in Europe, come to the UK if you are having psychiatric problems, they are known as Cinderella services because they are so underfunded.😢
teilweise gehts aber vorallem geschlossene kann richtig scheisse sein haha, war nich geil
Open stations are nice closed ones are just something else, but yeah german mental hospitals don't even feel like mental hospitals most of times
From personal experience I can say: it is what it is…and what you can make out of it for yourself.
Extended stays in the closed ward are only beneficial if you are already quite far gone. Show that you want to work with them, pester them to be moved to an open or half open station, don’t hurt yourself and stay away from trouble as much as you can.
Luckily I only had to spent some 5-6 days in a closed ward before being transferred to another station, but I am certain if I had stayed longer in there, I may have ended up more broken than when I got in.
Grüße aus NRW