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  • Опубликовано: 8 авг 2024
  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Berlin, a fentanyl addict on Skid Row.
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    #addictionstruggles #softwhiteunderbelly #drugawareness #interview #drugeducation #marklaita #lifestruggles #fentanylcrisis #swu

Комментарии • 680

  • @maureenbrennan7485
    @maureenbrennan7485 26 дней назад +115

    Common threads with addicts ...black sheep, feeling left out, aching to be loved.
    You are not alone. We do recover.

    • @wilhelmwohlinstruwe7726
      @wilhelmwohlinstruwe7726 26 дней назад +1

      @@maureenbrennan7485 yeah... And the opiates fills the hole that a family never gave one. I guess just being an addict makes you a black sheep. Atleast from society. Horrible...

  • @D5quared91
    @D5quared91 27 дней назад +382

    53 years sober today!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

    • @kynleechapman7472
      @kynleechapman7472 27 дней назад +8

      Congratulations ❤

    • @carlosbent5046
      @carlosbent5046 27 дней назад +5

      Really 😮how young are you?

    • @justasub
      @justasub 27 дней назад +2

      That's awesome!!!
      Congratulations 🎉🎉🎉

    • @jonathanbrotherton7769
      @jonathanbrotherton7769 27 дней назад +4

      Remember, Sober means clean and free from all mind, mood, and habit forming substances, leafs and liquids. Congrats to you for being Straight Edge for Life!

    • @mikehuff9793
      @mikehuff9793 27 дней назад

      @@jonathanbrotherton7769that’s impossible. We all use coping mechanisms. Behavior is the most addictive part of addiction. What you’re describing is a perfect human. We know that doesn’t exist.
      See, in recovery we learn about addiction as a behavior, not an outside factor like a leaf or liquid. Those of us in recovery hopefully make “the turn,” where we do indeed try to not relapse into any old negative behaviors that may lead to drug use. We try to be the best versions of ourselves we can be. In that, we know that no human on planet earth has “perfect behavior.” No human on this earth has it so easy. We are all suffering something. “To err is human; perfection is godlike.” Straight edge people are not gods. Sorry, not sorry.
      You can hold yourself to that standard: but I doubt very seriously that there’s any human who can never be sad, never have a bad thought, never have a bad day, never morning the loss of a loved one, who is never faced with the hard times in life. We are all suffering from something.
      In recovery we forgive ourselves and each other. We don’t hold each other to these impossible standards. We try, but we don’t cover up tattoos and promises we made to ourselves when we fail. We know we are human, and are patient with ourselves and each other. What we don’t have patience for is someone else who has never been through what we’ve been through trying to set the standards by which we live. Compassion is universal. Compassion doesn’t judge and set standards. Compassion doesn’t remind us where the bar is we much reach. We do not run around reminding each other because we don’t compare. What works for me works for me. CBT worked for me…AA/NA 12 steps worked for my wife. We do not criticize each other. I don’t hold her to the standard of cognitive behavioral therapy and she doesn’t hold me to 12-step standards.
      You want to be straight edge?..cool, be that. But that doesn’t make you the authority on what it means to clean and sober.

  • @wilhelmwohlinstruwe7726
    @wilhelmwohlinstruwe7726 27 дней назад +113

    She's so real, a true gem.
    Even though shes so broken she has a lot of insight. I just wish she finds some peace.

    • @rosebud6485
      @rosebud6485 26 дней назад

      So real. A true gem. She’s a thief and drug addict who doesn’t have her children with her.

    • @johnmcmahon5225
      @johnmcmahon5225 26 дней назад

      There is nothing "real" about drug addicts. They will tell any lie to get drugs, and that extends to their whole life. This person is living on the street, like so many others, because no one can trust them.

    • @laurynrose1111
      @laurynrose1111 26 дней назад +2

      Loss of cognition due to drugs trauma takes it s toll

    • @Monikquar
      @Monikquar 25 дней назад +2

      Yes! I find her very real and humble yet stuck in that rut. I believe in her though.

  • @donaldd.293
    @donaldd.293 27 дней назад +161

    Just over 25 1/2 years clean an sober. I’m still amazed that I was able to do this straight up nothing short of a miracle. Back in my addiction I was sure there was no life out of addiction, but I was wrong

    • @zoilarobledo8135
      @zoilarobledo8135 27 дней назад +8

      Bravo! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 Congratulations 🎉 Keep up the Excellence!

    • @courtneycool4526
      @courtneycool4526 27 дней назад +5

      I’m so proud of you!!! Congratulations and keep it up, you got this!

    • @QueefMcGeesHouse
      @QueefMcGeesHouse 26 дней назад +1

      Thank you Mark for inspiring me to start my own channel!

    • @ilovebuyers
      @ilovebuyers 26 дней назад +1

      Agree! I’m so happy for you! It’s possible!

    • @pamelawilliams1996
      @pamelawilliams1996 26 дней назад +1

      Congrats

  • @OneWithTheUniverse55
    @OneWithTheUniverse55 26 дней назад +111

    My daughter just graduated from University at 41, after 10 yrs of sobriety. She spent her 20s an addict and it took her 3 times of detoxing for it to stick.
    Dont give up attempting to get sober. Just because you relapse does not mean failure.
    Addiction is a challenge you can overcome.
    I'll pray you find the motivation to take back your life.

    • @sarahemikula
      @sarahemikula 26 дней назад +2

      Nicely put. It ain't over til it's over ❤️‍🩹

    • @wilhelmwohlinstruwe7726
      @wilhelmwohlinstruwe7726 26 дней назад +2

      @@OneWithTheUniverse55 what a kind thing to say. Much love ❤❤ and Im happy that your daughter is recovering from this horrible affliction.

    • @nnacroon7356
      @nnacroon7356 25 дней назад +1

      Amazing! Congrats to her for graduating!

    • @yvonnedeboer7535
      @yvonnedeboer7535 23 дня назад +2

      Congratulations 🎉🎉🎉
      I hope she enjoys herself now!!

    • @yvonnedeboer7535
      @yvonnedeboer7535 23 дня назад +1

      ​@@sarahemikulaYou're right. I'm 54. Where did the years go???
      I'm clean for 16 days.. again. I hope I never relapse again😅

  • @andersonluly4579
    @andersonluly4579 27 дней назад +190

    Marks the perfect person to interview these people because of his nonemotional responses

    • @gypsyman1939
      @gypsyman1939 27 дней назад +18

      Yes, he’s seen everything over the years being amongst all these people and all these interviews. It’s very sad how bad drugs are rampant in America

    • @EXHIBITINGSQUARES
      @EXHIBITINGSQUARES 27 дней назад +8

      He's cold and seems uninterested.

    • @djdansezxmass
      @djdansezxmass 27 дней назад +4

      I wish I had that skill....

    • @technomickdocumentalist2495
      @technomickdocumentalist2495 27 дней назад +13

      @@EXHIBITINGSQUARES
      That’s due to how he’s not showing many changes in his voice on purpose, he’s doing it right, he’s not leading them he’s staying for the most part detached from their story and just lets them talk without much direction, you often get a more candid and natural interview in the end.
      ** edit *. Damn reading that back over, such a “ captain obvious thing to say.. 🙄🤣

    • @sallygroutage1093
      @sallygroutage1093 26 дней назад +19

      He's definitely not cold and uninterested, if he became individually emotionally invested he wouldn't be able to do his job. His job is to provide a voice for these people ,which can often be a catalyst to change

  • @Blackcatt704
    @Blackcatt704 27 дней назад +85

    Shout out to all of you who continue to stay sober!! The comment section is 🔥🔥🔥🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

    • @stefaniadogsitterbologna8251
      @stefaniadogsitterbologna8251 26 дней назад +4

      We are so many...right?!

    • @yvonnedeboer7535
      @yvonnedeboer7535 23 дня назад +1

      ​​@@ChungalhungaNìce of you❤❤
      I'm clean for 16 days but I bought a bottle of wine today. Because it's my ex boyfriend's birthday and I broke up with him.
      I feel so stupid😂😂😢
      Tomorrow .....

    • @Chungalhunga
      @Chungalhunga 20 дней назад

      @@yvonnedeboer7535 Thank you. Relapses happen, i think we have to insist on not let them carry us away and be kind to each other ♥♥How are you doing on day 20, still positive, was 16th very hard? As you probably know partners and active addiction often don't go together that well... I'm immersed in music, waiting for the rain early this morning like in a few hours and really needing good sleep 🌒😂 It is so worth it, don't stop.

  • @RippinPacks4you
    @RippinPacks4you 27 дней назад +242

    3 Years sober and feels great to truly live life without regret and remorse🎉🎉🎉🎉..we all have a "choice"❤

    • @nicolestargell8323
      @nicolestargell8323 27 дней назад +12

      🎉🎉🎉🎉… keep up the amazing job👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾!!! Congratulations ⭐️

    • @RippinPacks4you
      @RippinPacks4you 27 дней назад +5

      @nicolestargell8323 hey good morning and Thank you!

    • @Rochelle721
      @Rochelle721 27 дней назад +2

      I’m glad you’re still here brother! ✊🏽🎊

    • @RippinPacks4you
      @RippinPacks4you 27 дней назад +1

      @@Rochelle721 gifted yet another day🙏🫶

    • @gypsyman1939
      @gypsyman1939 27 дней назад +7

      It’s a very tuff battle but it shows you have will power inside and are stronger much stronger then you know. I’m 3 years myself and after the first month I could laugh again and have the happy peaceful feeling again walking around the world. Never forget from here on out you can never have just one! The addiction won’t allow it. Stay away for good.

  • @carlosbent5046
    @carlosbent5046 27 дней назад +114

    23mths sober,😊 feels freeing patience back in Check,

    • @ow3wells
      @ow3wells 27 дней назад +1

      I don’t know you, but I’m proud of your compliment.

    • @aliwooz913
      @aliwooz913 10 дней назад +1

      That's awesome!! Can't wait to be there one day

  • @bobbyhall9920
    @bobbyhall9920 27 дней назад +117

    6 years clean. The good that came from my using is that I appreciate the small things in life way more than I used to. Getting off that crap is absolutely possible.

    • @thatpart
      @thatpart 27 дней назад +4

      Congratulations! 🙏

    • @Rochelle721
      @Rochelle721 27 дней назад +3

      I’m glad you’re still here brother. I couldn’t agree more ✊🏽🎊

    • @Its_Daniel113
      @Its_Daniel113 27 дней назад +4

      Congrats! 👏🏾

    • @gypsyman1939
      @gypsyman1939 27 дней назад +4

      Yup and you can laughed again and feel at peace. Comfortable in your own skin and be happy again when something good happens to you. 4 years straight and nothing made me happy at all. I could have found 100,000 dollars and wouldn’t have cared when I was using. Just an empty body. Congrats and remember you have will power and are very strong internally. You can never have just one the addiction won’t allow it.

    • @user-lf9uo2de4z
      @user-lf9uo2de4z 27 дней назад

      😊❤🎉❤💗🤍

  • @paulsutherland4227
    @paulsutherland4227 27 дней назад +104

    5 years sober 👍🏾

    • @Rochelle721
      @Rochelle721 27 дней назад +4

      I’m glad you’re still here brother ✊🏽❤️

    • @orianjuarez3074
      @orianjuarez3074 26 дней назад +2

      Awesome.👍❤

  • @haleyk6359
    @haleyk6359 26 дней назад +52

    You should do a video with a retail worker and have them talk about the abuse that a lot of us go through daily

    • @DanielPolitical
      @DanielPolitical 26 дней назад +14

      That and food service workers

    • @2fierce4
      @2fierce4 25 дней назад +3

      And all the bosses support that behaviour.Thats why it changed.When I started 30 years ago you wouldn't allow a certain behaviour and you defenatly didn't care when they had to leave.But now everyone who has shitty underwear comes around after 2years and wants to have new ones for free.🤮

    • @addisonaddy6118
      @addisonaddy6118 24 дня назад +2

      Omg yessssss…People are so entitled.

    • @addisonaddy6118
      @addisonaddy6118 24 дня назад +4

      @@2fierce4 I’m a manager in an upscale grocery store. Basically anything goes according to the top brass to keep idiots happy. BUT, I cannot stand and will not tolerate rudeness to my employees., no matter what ..EVER. Covid was the worst. The worst is when the customer is ignorant to a 16 year old high school student, who is just learning. Really makes you hate people…

    • @ShutUpStooopid
      @ShutUpStooopid 24 дня назад

      And I saw it a young person getting harassed. During covid, I yelled at snd humiliated that person just like she was doing to the 16 year old. Give them there own medicine. She shut right up.We all have to stop this behavior.​@addisonaddy6118

  • @michellebouchard4427
    @michellebouchard4427 26 дней назад +17

    Does everyone hear how gentle Mark is with her? His heart is so big it's a understatement. Plus she's so honest is a big help and I've watched so many of his videos and most never say there biggest regrets is not being with there kids and she regrets it. God bless her for knowing her children matter and come first even tho she's on drugs. I pray for you to get over this and live a normal happy life 🙏✝️

  • @patallen5095
    @patallen5095 26 дней назад +13

    Hey Mark. While doing my daily RUclips perusal I came across someone who actually was criticizing you for what you do with your video essays. I just wanted to thank you for all of these interviews, or self explanations. You've shone a light on people's lives and existences where most people don't want to go, see or be involved with. Plus, thank you for all the support you've provided to many who you've interviewed. Keep up the great work. Not sure where all the haters come from or why they like to hate. Social media has its positive and obvious negative sides. Now I'll watch this.......👍

  • @mewowcat
    @mewowcat 27 дней назад +62

    Berlin, whenever you're ready babe, it's never too late. 🙏

  • @LesAtlas
    @LesAtlas 26 дней назад +21

    Decades ago I had a mountain climbing accident which damaged my spine. As a result my legs hurt all the time. I've had plenty of surgeries which have not helped. Every day is a struggle due to my chronic pain. 10-20 years ago, the medical profession did not undertreat pain. I could get methadone and hydrocodone which I carefully only took as prescribed. They did not remove the pain, not even close, but I was functional. But these opiates are now considered some awful poison. The government sometimes changes rules and doctors need to abide by the rules. So, again, with no warning, my hydrocodone almost stopped a few days ago. What are my choices? Live with this intolerable severe pain, which is really not possible, or end up on the street? Some of us are addicted, but really do need the pain reduction. It's not about trauma or mental health. It's instead the intense need to reduce real physical pain. I'm not using fentanyl yet, but I could very well end up there.

    • @lindamaroney5393
      @lindamaroney5393 26 дней назад +7

      You are right people with severe chronic pain like yourself are really damaged by this latest war on opioids! I wish you the best finding something to help you remain functional

    • @thegmom7812
      @thegmom7812 26 дней назад

      Tylenol and ibuprofen are better for pain actually

    • @patientzero5685
      @patientzero5685 25 дней назад +2

      Please don’t turn to the streets. I too am on medically controlled pain management and worry it could be taken because I don’t think I could survive the pain. The nights would be intolerable. I’d off myself before I’d become a street addict.

    • @hwoods-kg1jf
      @hwoods-kg1jf 25 дней назад

      @@thegmom7812 no they are not. They destroy your stomach, liver and kidneys. NSAIDS are not the gold standard for pain AT ALL.

    • @cindyfitzgerald4500
      @cindyfitzgerald4500 24 дня назад +5

      @@thegmom7812really? Have you ever gone through cancer or pancreatitis and just taken Tylenol or ibuprofen for the pain? I disagree with you

  • @LuluX3
    @LuluX3 27 дней назад +41

    Have a great weekend everyone ! Stay safe 🤍

  • @holyjazus
    @holyjazus 27 дней назад +34

    She's a dreamer. It'd take 100 yrs to cram in what she's done in her life. All unbelievable

    • @rusty2811
      @rusty2811 26 дней назад +9

      You're definitely not very good at math

    • @sj122s
      @sj122s 26 дней назад +3

      I wouldn't want to do anything she's done.

    • @lisakrieg3076
      @lisakrieg3076 24 дня назад +1

      Exactly! Few things don't add up.......

    • @astralfluxaf
      @astralfluxaf 24 дня назад

      Could it be that your life is so average that you couldn’t fathom a life where it is fast paced?
      People who live in cities have much faster lives than people who live in the middle of no where. And that doesn’t even take into consideration someone who’s willing to try anything and desperate for dr*gs. Every day is like a movie.

  • @oghamstone5964
    @oghamstone5964 27 дней назад +38

    Got a job bartending in a HA bar....what could possibly go wrong....

    • @sj122s
      @sj122s 26 дней назад +4

      Yep... That's like a chicken jumping in the middle of a pack of wolves. What could possibly go wrong.

    • @MazingerZ379
      @MazingerZ379 26 дней назад +7

      I have been sharing more than a decade with members of the Hell's Angels and if there is one thing they have always shown me, it is impeccable kindness and hospitality. This woman's experience is sad, but it is because she has run into some bad apples... nothing to do with the fact that he is a member of the Hell's Angels.

  • @chrischristoferson1191
    @chrischristoferson1191 26 дней назад +26

    That’s exactly why I quit drugs & smoking. I was tired of IT controlling ME.

    • @nephie1979
      @nephie1979 25 дней назад +3

      That is the truth. I began taking opiods from my aunt 9 years ago..I have an addictive gene..both my parents smoke and drink..also their parents, so it's nothing new...no one knew and still don't that I had this addiction..9 years strong I held it up, and a job to support my habit. 2 months ago I decided no more..I'm a mother of 2 ..in my 40's I thought it was just crazy that I allowed myself to literally get addicted...wtf was I thinking...rock bottom a storm in my city ...no money for pills my kids have school trips..no money..I couldn't do it anymore. 2 months clean through an online doctor. I can't complain at all...I thought I was alone because no one would ever think that I battled this addiction for 9 years straight..no one. I want to thank all the brave folks for sharing their story because I have no idea if ever I will be that brave.

    • @FLBeautyQueen
      @FLBeautyQueen 22 дня назад +1

      Congrats! I need to quit vaping

  • @user-sw2sf3cy4k
    @user-sw2sf3cy4k 27 дней назад +24

    She is quoting a Prince song!...and rockin' a version of a raspberry beret the kind you find in a secondhand store. I think I love this channel. Always something to learn,feel and grow. ❤

  • @annaelisavettavonnedozza9607
    @annaelisavettavonnedozza9607 27 дней назад +24

    They all have children. They always have children 😞

    • @jzea100
      @jzea100 26 дней назад +1

      Yup, yet so many struggle with fertility

    • @Tony-hu7uk
      @Tony-hu7uk 26 дней назад +2

      You're exactly right.They all have children.People need to learn to have sex without the woman getting pregnant.

    • @Cesparkle
      @Cesparkle 22 дня назад

      @@Tony-hu7ukyes!! Like do some guys just not care? Lol shit!

    • @SuperTooncesthecat
      @SuperTooncesthecat 16 дней назад

      The cycle begins again.

    • @Tony-hu7uk
      @Tony-hu7uk 16 дней назад

      ​@@CesparkleYeah, it's not that fucking(no pun intended) difficult.

  • @daniellelenehan-rg5lb
    @daniellelenehan-rg5lb 26 дней назад +11

    20 years clean from England!! ❤️ u America!! ❤❤🎉🎉

  • @roderickfiske4769
    @roderickfiske4769 27 дней назад +18

    I may well be wrong but right now I am not buying what she is telling.

    • @sarah2.017
      @sarah2.017 26 дней назад

      Right, because she's actively in addiction.

    • @dianegardner2399
      @dianegardner2399 23 дня назад +1

      Glad I'm not the only one.

    • @talulatree5297
      @talulatree5297 23 дня назад

      Me neither.

    • @user-si3sz5hl9g
      @user-si3sz5hl9g 11 дней назад

      I had that feeling as well. I think Mark may have actually caught her in a couple of tails. Regardless, I hope she can end this cycle and be reunited with her children and family. I know it’s hard work.

  • @peace.404
    @peace.404 27 дней назад +52

    She definitely tries to sugarcoat and dodge taking responsibility for her actions, like a true addict.I wish her well.

    • @innermeetme
      @innermeetme 25 дней назад +15

      A lot of people do that, addict or not. And I saw a lot of responsibility-taking as well.

    • @shannaschultz
      @shannaschultz 23 дня назад +3

      Everyone does that. No matter the situation.

  • @Papdog429
    @Papdog429 27 дней назад +36

    This woman is the Queen of bad choices.

    • @sj122s
      @sj122s 26 дней назад +4

      Bad choices lead to jail time and worse. It's just too bad some people don't understand that.

    • @MyopicBiopic
      @MyopicBiopic 26 дней назад

      Who are u 2 judge

  • @rhys2040
    @rhys2040 27 дней назад +64

    This woman is a compulsive liar. I'm not saying she hasn't been through certain things. A habitual liar, though.

    • @reneelibby4885
      @reneelibby4885 27 дней назад +16

      and you know this how?

    • @rhys2040
      @rhys2040 27 дней назад +16

      ​@reneelibby4885 It's my opinion obviously. It's how she describes certain stories. I hope the best for her. When I say she's a liar, I mean she's lying to herself as well. I probably should have mentioned that.

    • @shannykush
      @shannykush 27 дней назад +10

      Highly agree dude it was a bitch to watch this 🤦🏼‍♀️

    • @shannykush
      @shannykush 27 дней назад +1

      @@reneelibby4885you know what when how who shut up too weirdo

    • @MoonChild-po9du
      @MoonChild-po9du 27 дней назад +3

      ​@@reneelibby4885 To start with she has done interviews before Her name was Kristen and her story has changed dramatically guess people forget I was once this now I'm that

  • @barnabascollins4625
    @barnabascollins4625 27 дней назад +19

    “Where do you think that came from if you had such a perfect family” “I was always the black sheep” come on

    • @tigress725
      @tigress725 26 дней назад +3

      “Dad was a functional alcoholic and I had a Perfect Childhood”……..no new tale to tell with someone who is using dope to numb the pain of reality. Been there done that 👁

    • @Cesparkle
      @Cesparkle 22 дня назад +2

      What are you trying to say? Not to be rude I just want to know your your trying to say. Why come on?

  • @hurtlocker22
    @hurtlocker22 26 дней назад +12

    Unfortunately she’ll be in your “passed away” former guests segment. It’s Russian roulette with fentanyl

  • @chefboy6123
    @chefboy6123 27 дней назад +53

    “Perfect” with a chip on her shoulder and lots of bad decisions.

  • @brettlott570
    @brettlott570 26 дней назад +21

    I feel for anyone in addiction. I struggled for many years until I hit my bottom and was locked up and now a felon. Life isn’t fair but that’s part of living. I’m happy to be alive and to have my wife & kids in my life. God Bless everyone

    • @jzea100
      @jzea100 26 дней назад

      I’ve never even been offered drugs. But yet I’m single with no family, doesn’t make sense

    • @brettlott570
      @brettlott570 26 дней назад +3

      @@jzea100 I’m not sure I understand your message. There’s many people not married with no kids and haven’t been offered drugs.

    • @jzea100
      @jzea100 26 дней назад

      @@brettlott570 because they say you lose everything from doing drugs, but I’ve never done a drug and still losing

  • @cindybrady2501
    @cindybrady2501 22 дня назад +2

    6 years sober , no alcohol , no weed , no toxic enablers and hangers on , no energy vampires , no intrusive thoughts , just raw dogging life , setting CLEAR af boundaries , and protecting my peace .

  • @jeremymcgrath7965
    @jeremymcgrath7965 26 дней назад +2

    Thank you soft white underbelly. My sister has been through rehab over and over again, and it's crazy what she's been through and what she's brought my entire family through. Thank you for inviting these brave people on and showing what it's really like going through this

  • @MEL2theJ
    @MEL2theJ 25 дней назад +5

    Thank you for the interview Berlin & SWU

  • @Music-bh5bo
    @Music-bh5bo 27 дней назад +11

    She walked in through the outdoor and wore a raspberry beret.🤔

  • @anamonica3463
    @anamonica3463 26 дней назад +5

    She has her own ethical code.
    I wish her sobriety before she spirals, as many people Mark has interviewed have.
    You can beat this. Rooting for you!

  • @sarah2.017
    @sarah2.017 26 дней назад +11

    I'm a retired pharmacist, and if her pharmacist father was a Doomsday prepper, she did NOT have an idyllic childhood.

  • @theprofromdoverduffey4653
    @theprofromdoverduffey4653 27 дней назад +31

    Narcissism and delusion.....can be crippling.....

    • @Kim-oo9vv
      @Kim-oo9vv 27 дней назад +2

      Thank you!!! Narcissist and delusional to the core!!!!!!! Perfect summary!!

    • @natashamamotko8829
      @natashamamotko8829 26 дней назад

      That’s a very bad combination plus drug addiction. So it is very difficult to get out from this lifestyle, because narcissist never admits he is a narcissist, nor a drug addict admits he has problems

    • @brucelee5860
      @brucelee5860 25 дней назад

      Narcissism? Delusional, yes. Dunno about narcissism. ADD or ADHD?

  • @carolyncarson1671
    @carolyncarson1671 27 дней назад +7

    Wishing Berlin all the best. The honesty is refreshing. We are all interconnected. Others judgment is as much of the problem as is this mysterious disease.

  • @jacksonalex6525
    @jacksonalex6525 27 дней назад +41

    Berlin is all of us. A lot of regrets, struggles, tears, and heartaches. These are the things we all go through. Let's all wish her well, or pray for her if you're a religious person. It's not easy for an addict to quit. Of course, we all have a choice. Wishing you all the best, Berlin.

  • @joshhumen575
    @joshhumen575 24 дня назад +2

    I drank heavily for almost 20 years (750 ml to a liter of vodka a day). I was functional but barely hanging on. One day i just decided to quit. I still struggle every day but its very rewarding to be off alcohol.

  • @ronharmsen8466
    @ronharmsen8466 27 дней назад +21

    These interviews are interesting, but also frustrating when they dont fill in the blanks of their stories. A common theme is using drugs to numb something. Possibly numbing not facing some experienced trauma at a young age. 😔

    • @PuddlesofLFC
      @PuddlesofLFC 25 дней назад +1

      Yep - interviewer is not good. At all.
      *kidnapped by hells angels(no details really)
      *started abusing opiates at 10 years old(couples sentences about 1st pill after accident and dad was a pharmacist. That’s it)
      *married an Argentinian Coke dealer to help get immigration papers(one sentence that it didn’t really work he was deported and also had 2 kids with his best friend- no follow up)
      I see lots of thumbnail links for this channel but finally watched this and it’s probably the worst possible interview I could have imagined. So much potential wasted. So flat and boring. Maybe this is an off day for guy?

  • @michaelc9507
    @michaelc9507 26 дней назад +5

    The bullshit detector beeping in the red!

    • @Unfluencer
      @Unfluencer 25 дней назад

      yea, she claims to have young kids but is easily in her 50's.

  • @stefaniadogsitterbologna8251
    @stefaniadogsitterbologna8251 26 дней назад +5

    Dear Mark, if only i could have the chance to tell you how much i love your attitude, how much respect and admiration for all this work you do ❤ maybe one day we will meet and in the meantime i keep my addiction in control staying as sober as possibile.

    • @thegmom7812
      @thegmom7812 26 дней назад

      Addiction is the definition of NOT in control !!!! Sooo......

    • @stefaniadogsitterbologna8251
      @stefaniadogsitterbologna8251 14 дней назад

      @@thegmom7812 its a work in progrss every day for ever.

  • @RichieP73
    @RichieP73 27 дней назад +7

    Who’s going to tell her “if it walks like a duck and looks like a duck it’s not a duck” isn’t the saying 😂

  • @cassandrarichardson2467
    @cassandrarichardson2467 27 дней назад +12

    Lived a mile away… and ended up 45 miles away crashed into a revene… my jaw dropped. Always wishing healing for everyone out there 🩵

  • @waykiwayki
    @waykiwayki 27 дней назад +28

    Listening to her I felt like I was on an opiat. "Not slept within anyone for drugs/bed." Don't believe that at all. It's all very sad tho.

    • @shannykush
      @shannykush 27 дней назад

      Right!!

    • @angelamerlati8814
      @angelamerlati8814 27 дней назад +12

      Regardless it's not for you to decide. It's "her" story.

    • @waykiwayki
      @waykiwayki 27 дней назад +10

      @@angelamerlati8814 I'm not deciding... I'm simply calling bs

    • @Collageartist69
      @Collageartist69 27 дней назад +1

      Liar.

    • @Collageartist69
      @Collageartist69 27 дней назад +1

      ​@@waykiwaykiIt is bs.

  • @racingfortheson
    @racingfortheson 27 дней назад +18

    Same backdrop as my middle school pictures 😂

  • @peterlittlehorse5695
    @peterlittlehorse5695 26 дней назад +3

    I've been dry for 34 years now.

  • @drfabsoonjd
    @drfabsoonjd 26 дней назад +4

    Berlin you got this!! There is more to life than addiction. It’s just part of your story. Keep the fight of faith!

  • @BelleTolles
    @BelleTolles 25 дней назад +2

    She has a powerful presence and an amazing face. She probably could get work modeling for art students doing sculpture or painting of the face. I can relate to how it feels wanting something that just makes it all go away. I hope she finds th

    • @BelleTolles
      @BelleTolles 25 дней назад

      Finds the best path for herself

  • @princessbleu1090
    @princessbleu1090 26 дней назад +4

    24hr sober 🎂

  • @afterthestorm221
    @afterthestorm221 27 дней назад +5

    Once I started accepting myself as is instead of continuing to don the mask of conformity, I was able to value myself by regaining control of my life and achieve my mental freedom through long-term recovery. Its possible to live a life without a substance you just have to realize you're worth the effort.

    • @patientzero5685
      @patientzero5685 25 дней назад

      Why is your YT handle icon a marijuana leaf?

  • @reannfrantz9102
    @reannfrantz9102 27 дней назад +15

    Clean n sober circa 2007, praise God❤🎉

  • @tjemilua3724
    @tjemilua3724 25 дней назад +1

    She’s so stylish, beautiful, and sounds so aware of her state. I hope she pulls through ❤

  • @mjiam001
    @mjiam001 26 дней назад +2

    My heart breaks for her. She has dreams of getting sober, and getting past this chapter. I pray that she can do that 🙏

  • @whocares4464
    @whocares4464 26 дней назад +4

    I had my struggles with Mexican mud but it 90's and early 2000's so the only fenty around was medical grade suckers and patches. Thank God i got past all that and got out before this toxic soup hit the market

  • @meganhare8574
    @meganhare8574 27 дней назад +36

    She is full of it!

    • @Collageartist69
      @Collageartist69 27 дней назад +14

      She is not being honest. Making it up as she goes.

    • @yayacooksneal3291
      @yayacooksneal3291 27 дней назад +7

      I think so too because she was driving the car then wreck the car then she got a ride from some guy and called the police to find the car, she is NOT ready for help

    • @kukantalasha2829
      @kukantalasha2829 27 дней назад +8

      I find alot of the ppl that come on here make up stories alot

    • @Livingmybestistlife
      @Livingmybestistlife 27 дней назад +4

      Ty,her story's are like swiss cheese! Alot of holes in it

    • @Goldie789
      @Goldie789 26 дней назад +4

      Relationship with her parents is nonexistent. She has full custody of her 2 kids, but for now, they "stay with" her parents.
      I'm going to bet that her parents have gone to court while she's been out on the streets for over 3 years doing drugs. I'm guessing that they have full custody of the children. If she ever gets clean, she won't be allowed to just go get her kids. 🤦🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️
      It doesn't work that way, ma'am.

  • @sherrianderson3014
    @sherrianderson3014 27 дней назад +20

    16 years Clean ,Only by God's Grace and Mercy 🙏🏾

    • @user-rw8rc3yp9d
      @user-rw8rc3yp9d 27 дней назад +1

      drugs are better get back on them

    • @linajams
      @linajams 27 дней назад +1

      We DO recover!

    • @sherrianderson3014
      @sherrianderson3014 26 дней назад

      @@user-rw8rc3yp9d you sound Stupid 🤔

    • @sherrianderson3014
      @sherrianderson3014 26 дней назад

      @@user-rw8rc3yp9d You sound Stupid 🤦🏾‍♀️

    • @denz4133
      @denz4133 25 дней назад

      Congratulations! Which god did you pray to?

  • @milehighco7024
    @milehighco7024 26 дней назад +12

    Im no psychiatrist, but something is not clicking right.

    • @uc3406
      @uc3406 25 дней назад

      Could you please elaborate? Thank you

  • @ScottCampbell-wy4ie
    @ScottCampbell-wy4ie 26 дней назад +2

    I love her honesty and eloquence. Berlin seems highly intelligent but not possible for her to ditch the drugs and return to her children.

  • @moparldy40
    @moparldy40 26 дней назад +2

    Girl I hope you see this your beautiful inside and outside. Being a black sheep of the family also. I was raised by the foster care system. Fortunately I've nvr been an addict. It helps to build a family that isn't blood. You need to get to the point that losing control over your heart and body just puts you in fear. That's the only way I've been able to stay sober and I'm 51 yrs old and fight with self worth every day but you are worth it. Reward yourself with smiles and heart warming gestures it's very rewarding. I work with equine therapy I wish you were here so I could show you the power you have with in to control 16hand horse and instill in you how strong and special you are. I've seen alot of these interviews but your sad eyes really called to me. Have faith in yourself that you can get rewarded in another way. Try finding some equine therapy it's the best thing that's ever happened to me.

  • @reneelibby4885
    @reneelibby4885 27 дней назад +9

    New ceases to amaze me how many come on the comments for no other reason than to "punch down" to feel better about themselves. Go do something good and constructive if you want to feel better about yourself. Tearing down people is cowardly and ineffective.

    • @shivers47
      @shivers47 26 дней назад +1

      People love to wiggle their moral finger instead of using their brain. A story as old as time.

  • @benjaminciotti3462
    @benjaminciotti3462 26 дней назад +5

    She doesn't look bad for 46

    • @seltzermint5
      @seltzermint5 24 дня назад

      I agree. She is one year younger than I am and I would have guessed that pretty close (43-46 if I didn't know). Usually in these videos I'm wrong because the person is so aged due to lifestyle.

  • @a.mie.533
    @a.mie.533 26 дней назад +1

    Mark's "hm"- responses are priceless 😂!

  • @donseiler1307
    @donseiler1307 26 дней назад +3

    And of course she has kids that she is not raising.
    Blames everyone - takes no responsibility for her actions.
    Disgusting.

  • @karenwalker3233
    @karenwalker3233 27 дней назад +13

    Prayers sent to you Berlin for recovery!

  • @jenniferevans4874
    @jenniferevans4874 27 дней назад +5

    Sorry but it’s all a pity party and people can find any excuse for living a weak and pathetic life . A thief .

  • @charliemiller1934
    @charliemiller1934 27 дней назад +8

    Berlin is cool lady and so softly spoken. I hope you find whatever you are looking for. Thank you for sharing.

  • @darlenel9226
    @darlenel9226 26 дней назад +2

    She's rebellious and hasn't learned anything. People are "judgemental" against things because some things are BAD for us.

  • @Sonia94537
    @Sonia94537 26 дней назад +1

    I am glad he said:"You can still do that." Sometimes it feels like he cheers only the young guys.

  • @jacobosbak
    @jacobosbak 26 дней назад +2

    that shrug of the shoulders and roll of the eyes seems to be her responsibility to her life and kids

  • @UNKALgqUS1
    @UNKALgqUS1 27 дней назад +14

    I don't know how you but it feels like an interview from a heavenly being. God bless her.

    • @jeffv2981
      @jeffv2981 27 дней назад

      She looks like a ghoul or skeletor, tf you mean heavenly being?

  • @ow3wells
    @ow3wells 27 дней назад +18

    Sketchy story teller, but overall I believe her story because you can tell she’s learn some important lessons in life.

    • @ddz1375
      @ddz1375 27 дней назад +3

      Anhedonia

    • @shannykush
      @shannykush 27 дней назад +5

      Agree super sketchy

    • @ow3wells
      @ow3wells 27 дней назад +3

      @@shannykush She learned the lesson that you can never judge a book by its cover.

    • @ckh2815
      @ckh2815 27 дней назад +1

      It appears Berlin has learned NO important lessons in her life.

  • @hippyreich
    @hippyreich 26 дней назад +4

    Girl, please get help.

  • @JBE608
    @JBE608 26 дней назад +1

    Thank you for sharing Berlin🙏💙

  • @sarajoyann
    @sarajoyann 27 дней назад +5

    She is so calm

  • @octaviantaylor6088
    @octaviantaylor6088 26 дней назад +2

    I really hope this women recovers before it’s to late. There is enough time to still to live your dreams.

  • @stephaniecarroll5867
    @stephaniecarroll5867 26 дней назад +1

    9 years clean June 14 2024 I deeply feel their pain! I pray for all of you that are still using and not living the life you deserve. 😢

  • @kellyford5903
    @kellyford5903 26 дней назад +12

    Sounds a tad “Booo Hoooo poor me…I don’t know why but…poor ME.”

  • @donseiler1307
    @donseiler1307 26 дней назад +3

    A series of bad decisions.
    We reap what we sow.
    Next.

  • @skippygatten8572
    @skippygatten8572 26 дней назад +4

    She was on another channel called "Street Disclosures."" It is an Orange County based channel like SWU. Sad situation

    • @KJ-tz7vc
      @KJ-tz7vc 26 дней назад

      I'm glad to see her here as Street Disclosures hasn't updated in awhile.

    • @uc3406
      @uc3406 25 дней назад +1

      There are several videos and shorts of her there, with a different name and different stories. I still like her and wish her all the best.

  • @edieseltzer4896
    @edieseltzer4896 27 дней назад +1

    I really liked this story! Ty for sharing

  • @mrabrasive51
    @mrabrasive51 26 дней назад +10

    Shes the perfect blueprint for how to fuck up your life!.she'll never quit because she loves her life as is!

    • @finisheseverythi
      @finisheseverythi 26 дней назад +3

      How do you reach that conclusion? Her shame is literally overflowing. She is haunted by it and disconnected. Her fentanyl is the solution she has found to her pain. She knows it isn't helpful. This is not simply about choice.

    • @mrabrasive51
      @mrabrasive51 26 дней назад

      @@finisheseverythi you don't know much about addicts..they're liars and manipulators!

  • @canterberrytells8215
    @canterberrytells8215 24 дня назад +1

    We do recover babe!! You’re so so beautiful and such a beautiful soul. Hugging you from here.

  • @scherriray.raindrop
    @scherriray.raindrop 26 дней назад +4

    Her dad set the stage for drug abuse

  • @Monikquar
    @Monikquar 26 дней назад +1

    Honey! I'm watching you from Australia. That doesn't mean much, except that I'm hearing your story and I'm going through a similar ordeal. We can get through this xx I can see you have the most caring heart xx best wishes

  • @clancykeegan748
    @clancykeegan748 27 дней назад +25

    Berlin should have her own studio creating art/ fashion.
    Such a waste of your life, Berlin. Head towards the light. God has a plan for you. Start praying 🙏

    • @petethefeet1461
      @petethefeet1461 27 дней назад +7

      just curious .. why didn't god stop this lady or any person doing drugs but takes the credit if someone gets clean

    • @naelyneurkopfen9741
      @naelyneurkopfen9741 27 дней назад

      ​@@petethefeet1461We have freewill, we choose to do what he asks, or we don't. When you realize that your own power does nothing for you, no matter how hard and how many times you've tried, you just give it all to Him. Every bit of it. You literally humble yourself and bow to Him.
      He gets the glory because only dying to self and trusting Him was able to save you from yourself.

    • @reannfrantz9102
      @reannfrantz9102 27 дней назад

      ​​@@petethefeet1461God doesn't force himself on us. He gives us free will. He didn't force the drugs on her. She made the choice to take them. That said, he gives a way out, if we will turn our will and lives over to him. We can overcome the flesh, even death, through Yeshua.

    • @marsayshih6978
      @marsayshih6978 27 дней назад

      The stealing is horrendous.

    • @readyeddie2065
      @readyeddie2065 26 дней назад

      @@petethefeet1461God doesn’t get in the way of our free will but he’s always there to help us when we decide to turn to him. I don’t pretend to understand it all but that’s the best way it was explained to me. It’s not that he can’t interfere with our free will but He chooses not to in order for us get what we’re supposed to get out of this life.

  • @JoeL-zb1yd
    @JoeL-zb1yd 16 дней назад +1

    He didn't ask her if she ever got caught, did jail time, etc. Not believable.

  • @elainemcginnis7361
    @elainemcginnis7361 26 дней назад +1

    Great interview

  • @danhoebbel2250
    @danhoebbel2250 24 дня назад

    I can relate to your story! Especially family dynamic. Different drugs, different traumas. Wish you the best of luck !

  • @CastorPollum
    @CastorPollum 26 дней назад +2

    I don't think I will ever understand why people decide to cover/destroy their entire body with tattoos. I fail to see the appeal.

  • @winros
    @winros 27 дней назад +8

    Good morning, New Jersey 😂

    • @Rochelle721
      @Rochelle721 27 дней назад +2

      Good morning, from California

    • @winros
      @winros 27 дней назад +2

      @@Rochelle721 😆

  • @jeff1130
    @jeff1130 27 дней назад +8

    I have a great family and I have my kids except for right now.
    I haven't talked to my family for years And my kids Live
    with. My parents.... Sounds great to me. Sounds like she has a great relationship with her drug dealer.

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls 27 дней назад +2

      And a nonexistent relationship with her family who has her kids. Talk about denial.

  • @StrangeDayz2024
    @StrangeDayz2024 27 дней назад +1

    2 minutes in this to this video and Me and Berlin are exactly the same same childhood same being black sheep same drug of choice..love you and God bless Mark and berlin

  • @claudettebertrand3791
    @claudettebertrand3791 26 дней назад +4

    Went by name Kristen on Street Disclosures.

  • @matthewbrandon931
    @matthewbrandon931 27 дней назад +3

    Every junkie's like a setting sun. N. Young

  • @miketan8857
    @miketan8857 26 дней назад

    I commend you It takes guts to do an interview of this magnitude. It certainly kept me engrossed. I'm sorry you had to go through what you had to. You deserve better. Please be good to yourself Berlin. I am in recovery and developed a circle of people that care about me. I also have a God in my life.
    You seem to be "brutality honest" with your pain; Berlin you would be able to help so many women. Please get clean. Please There is nowhere to go but up Berlin. Make that choice (for Yourself)

  • @JenniferLazzaro-dv1be
    @JenniferLazzaro-dv1be 25 дней назад +1

    13 years sober ❤We do recover ❤

  • @call_meChas
    @call_meChas 24 дня назад

    My favorite interview. So brave & raw.