Feeling Like You Don't Belong | How I Found Home | Slow Living in English Countryside in Spring
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- Опубликовано: 12 апр 2023
- Where is your home? Where do you belong? These are the questions I've been pondering about for as long as I can remember. Ever since childhood belonging was difficult to me. I always felt out of place - but I realised that's largely not because I was unhappy with the environment I was in, but possibly because I was unhappy with myself. It took me a long time to realise what home really is. Where I truly belong. It's still a work in progress and largely depends on my relationship with my inner, most authentic self.
I love this quote by Fernando Pessoa:
“The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd - The longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else. All these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.”
I think it describes these feelings beautifully.
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Filmed on: Fujifilm XH2S with 33mm f1/4 lens
Edited with: Premiere Pro CC
Music: Epidemic Sound
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Sea location:
Cuckmere Valley, Seven Sisters Cliffs
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Anemoia - nostalgia for a time or a place one has never known.
Please let me know if you relate to anything I said in this video! I'd love to know your thoughts. 💕
sometimes I Crave places I've never been, this feeling along with nostalgia is my favorite to feel because they let get away even if it just for a short period of time, this video was just pure poetry 🌟
Graceful🔊🌲🍀🌿❤
these truths be a good part of living ; lovely landscape
Дуже відкликається сказане в відео. Прослухала, як медитацію, у Вас дуже приємний голос. І подача відео чудова. Дякую!
To the person reading this: Even though I don’t know you, I wish you the best of what life has to offer ❤
Likewise for your heart, your soul and every being that around you!! ❤
"The more you look outward, the more lost you become" Ouch...ringing with truth though.
Transplanted frequently, pruned back, repotted, and forced to live in emotional climates to which I was not suited but, at last, digging roots deep in nourishing loam of my own making. Making a cozy nest wherever I am, remembering where I have come, dreaming of where I will fly, at home in myself.
I hope the wars and hatred will end, so people can be free and safe. My own personal suffering is private, and I feel that home for me is beyond this mortal life. Thank you for a beautiful video.🪶
I really hope with all my heart for you to find home in this life too.
@@ronweasley54 Yes, thank you.
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This world will have troubles trials... we only find peace in the storm listening to Jesus ❤ the beauty of His love is all around ❤️ yes their will be wars so as in our own souls be still and know He is God . Peace unto you 🙏
I hope you have someone to talk to.❤
" I placed too much responsibility on others to accept me...." This speaks to me.. such a profound, true statement...
Oh, the little church and the old moss covered Celtic cross headstone and a beautiful woman sitting on the grass with her novel. This is true romance what a lovely image and place.
Thank you, your words comforted me. I'm having a hard time now and your words touched my heart.. I've been living in a place where I don't feel I belong. It's been almost 2 years since I left my country and moved to another country in Europe. And it's hard for me to build myself again, I feel like a plant that has been cut off from my roots. Thank you for reminding me that I can still grow and be myself wherever I am. That I don't need to be accepted by the people, but to accept myself instead for being different. ❤
I know how you feel but we just have to keep moving. Wishing you all the best.
@@goldeneagle4997 thank you ❤
This video truly resonated with me and the way I have been feeling, just as you said, as what from an outer perspective is an immigrant living in another country. For over 10 years in England, I have been unconsciously always trying to fit in, worrying that I may not be seen like everyone else just because of my Italian accent. Like you, I have moved from the South of England to a smaller and quieter place and this made me really worried that integration would be harder. Luckily, I was very wrong and found a lovely community here. And what's also interesting is, I never intended to move to England permanently, but I ended up staying here after meeting my partner who is British. Thank you so much for sharing your feelings so honestly, it makes me feel less alone in my thoughts
I'm living in an area where I don't wish to be. Like you, I dream of getting away. Running into the wild, out of my own thoughts. But holding on to people, friends, my husband. Accepting oneself and trusting it is a long way to go from where I'm now. But you're right... It's the best way to go.
I’m sure the right way will present itself to you if you keep sight of what it is that you want! It’s true though , we all depend on other people, and sometimes our choices are the sacrifices we make.
@@IamDariayou are so Right! I am same the outward never made me feel the real JOY! And been searching searching visiting places still deeply craving longing to find it on earth 🙏🤲
Your choice of words are deep and meaningful. I try to absorb each word you speak because I appreciate all that you express. Another beautiful video with stunning scenery. Love it! I always look forward to your videos Daria. ❤💫
Thank you so much for such kind words! ❤️
I was in tears throughout this entire video- thank you so much for sharing this
Me too, reminds me of myself, Is lucky she found the place i am still craving where is that place on earth
I feel blessed that I have come back to my birth area after living in many other locations that did not feel like home but I made do with it. Now, just looking through the windows and feeling the warm breezes , watching everything bloom with the warm winds of springs make me feel alive again. This is home; as imperfect as perfect it can be.
I lived in the same house for 30+ years, but the home I live in is in me. It is what you make it. I moved constantly growing up, but I have the good and not so good memories no matter where I was. It all centers in you, I think. Your surroundings are just dressing for your remembrance.
I dont feel belong to any place, but more important I never feel the need to belong. I dont like to live in an unique place, or in the same place. My home is where my family is, the rest is scenery, and all the world is a house for me, not a strange place. My patria is my body, my limits my skin. Thats the only one.
Dear Daria, what a beautiful poetry you created on screen for us to experience! The wisdom in your deep thoughts are so mind blowing and thought provoking! Every word hits the very core of my being. Somehow you speak my mind when you talk about melancholy, nostalgia, regrets, desires and off course the sense of belonging and home! I hear you and I feel you with every bit of my own life’s experience! I hold on to people, places and memories as well. But lately i have this new feelings of “home is where you make it”. My mind, sort of , somehow, finally, escaped the sense of the walls of a physical house or even the man made boundary of a country. Somehow my soul learned to think of the earth to call HOME. I finally feel a sense of freedom that i was deprived of for a very long time. My heart felt caged for a long long time. I feel free (after many storms I went through in life). I feel like , Now I only need a pair of wings. I don’t know if that makes any sense. But it felt so good to just hear your feelings! Hugs. With love, Lilac🕊️
Thank you so much for sharing your feelings with me, Lilac! This absolutely makes sense. I am happy you are finding your freedom and sense of belonging. It’s a beautiful feeling, isn’t it, when you finally find your own definition of home! 🌸 Thank you for all your kind words!
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Oh how I relate to this on every level. I am the first generation born in my country but spoke a different language and English is a second language, and although I feel I have no accent, people comment all the time about it. Even my children get asked where their accent is from. I know my ancestry which is very broad. My father's family originated in Egypt, then went to Leon in France, then finally settling in Rome. My mother's father was Spanish and her mother's parents French, but she along with her mother were born in Sicily. You can imagine the throw backs in our family. I'm very fair, but have dark extremely curly hair and hazel/amber eyes, my brother is extremely dark with black eyes.
I have children who all look like me but skin, hair and eye colours vary. I always felt I never quite fit, was always considered a bit weird. I love nature and prefer being alone, but my family mean more to me than anything. Finally I realised that living in the suburbs or a city wasn't for me so moved to semi rural Australia and love it. My children, all adults, also prefer nature and open spaces. It's really interesting when I think about where my 5 year old self wanted to be as an adult compared to the 20 year old me. 5 year old me had the right idea😊
I can relate to every word. I have lived in many places also, know that feeling well of feeling lost in this world and most content at home❤
Ohhh my , you are such a poet! I so love how you speak 👌💌💌💌💗🎶
This is warm, glad I've found you. How I long to feel nature more closely. I actually thought I was somehow lost due to this feeling,but it keeps coming more often and I feel it's magical somehow, like speaking to the flowers , breathing that fresh calm breeze....
Deeply touched by this video and truly resonate with what you said. In our Chinese culture, we have a sentence "Where is your heart belongs to, where it is your home". As an immigrant, we can struggle a lot with how to be perceived by others, how to suit in a different culture, and how to identify ourselves. But by the end of the day, it is depending on how we pursue inner belongs.
This moment when people communicate all the inside you can feel how liberating it is that so many others have the same thoughts with you.
Maybe this is the place where hearts are as one.
Really, I also suspect that when a person loses himself, he cannot find himself elsewhere. I like Fernando Pessoa a lot and I know the passage you quoted. Thanks so much for another beautiful video! 🌷🍁
That’s true! We have to search within. ☺️ I’m happy you know Pessoa’s work! It’s beautiful, isn’t it!
Love from Morocco ❤❤❤❤ I love this kind of video your words is so deep I don't now how to express my feelings while I'm watching this video because my English is not good❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing this beauty with us. I adore the seaside. I've been feeling very tired lately due to helping my elderly parents. My mother recently fell and broke her arm, so I'm needed now more than ever. I appreciate very much the beauty, peace and serenity you give.
I have moved many times, always coming back to my home town. But the fitting in you talk of is not mine. I'm that quiet shy person always in the background. Seeking the peaceful, shutting out the noises and busyness of those around me. As I have aged, I have come to enjoy the solitude. ..more and more. And learned there is much happiness in that solitude. As there are worse things than being alone, much worse. My only wish now is for a small cottage just outside of town, and that is never to be...nor the small garden of fresh foods grown by myself. Instead it's the farmers market, being happy I live in a small town...with a beautiful river running through its middle, a quiet town...with many peaceful spots tucked here and there. The cemetery where family members lay asleep...that has bound less nature to enjoy, deer coming out at twilight, the red fox, the small animals and birds. The ground covered in mosses, forget me nots, wild violets...and the plants placed there in remembrance of loved ones...it's my peaceful place. A place where I feel at home.
3:18 is one one of the most beautiful screenshots I have ever seen. It looks like a painting!! It is poetry to my eyes. What a beautiful atmosphere and scenery!
I live near it ...hope gap sussex
So amazing, Thanks for the great video I really passionate it.❤️👍
Anemoia! Wow. Like the word
Thank you so much. Your videos are medicine for me. It's gives me oxygen for life.
Your uniqueness and individuality is what makes you beautiful to me in this modern world!
Aah thank you for your kindness 🌸
Thank you for this thoughtful video. Your situation is like so many other immigrants. We live in America. America is a land of immigrants. But the truth is, our ancestors came here because it wasn't going well where they were from. America was a chance for a new start. But in the process, so many of us lost our roots. We don't know where we come from, and even if we do, it is a land we really know nothing about. Children are born here, but cut off from their deeper roots, and in a strange new land that isn't theirs, but it is the only place they know. I agree. We are looking the wrong direction in trying to find home outside of us and with other people. A sense of peace and home can only come from within. Peace be with you friend. 💖
Every time I finish watching your beautiful videos I am filled with peace and a deep satisfaction for my senses.
Just found your channel. Beautiful and so lovingly spoken -words of wisdom. Thank you..
Hi Daria, I don't think I have related to a blogger online in recent years like I have related to you. From the first few videos I felt the "light melancholia" of your musings and perspectives to basically be the same as my own, some of my most persistent daily thoughts. Now in this video I find that of course, we have another commonality, which is being immigrants from childhood without a complete knowledge of our past. Perhaps having this sort of background produces the kind of thinking we spend time on. One difficulty of having this sort of background, I think, is that it may make it more difficult to connect with others who seem much more established in knowing "who they are" in a familial and societal way. The rare chance of getting to see a blogger like you with similar life experiences is very heartwarming! I hope you have a restful week.
Dear Daria, this is such a powerful video. As someone whose been moving around often and always felt out of place socially, I can relate on so many levels. You go to different places, yet you don't fit. It hit me when you mentioned the physical home and ancestry. This video came to me at a perfect time as I reflect my childhood and pursue my own path. I love the notion of home being inside you because then you don't have to keep chasing an expectation. You create the reality you were always meant to partake in. Where is home? Hint: Observe nature. It is the natural state we are all born from. Inside us nature lies, and outside nature thrives. Vice versa. For the physical body, home is on earth. For the soul and spirit, home lies within a vast space; it is boundless. Thank you for sharing such wonderful words of wisdom and being yourself!
I am living in this phase since so long now, I don’t know where home is, where I belong?
Where to go? Hopefully I will find home, thank you for this beautiful video.
Very nice thoughts and visuals, it helps to think and reflect, in an atmosphere of beauty, elegance and simplicity, thank you very much ! Your last words reminded me of Voltaire who in one of his novels (Zadig), concluded that in life, the most important thing is to cultivate one's own garden, in every sense of the term... I wish you a very nice week in the beautiful English countryside :)
You have such a calming voice not to mention your poetic language. Very much enjoy ☺️ your content creation
Hello
First time on your Channel.
This is exactly what I needed to hear today.
Thanks you. Indeed
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Daria, I would give you 10 points for this video because youtube only let each person did one like as a time, but I really like the video........ so I decided to give you 10 points for this video
Aw thank you!
Hats off to you 🙌✨
U filmed this video so beautifully !
It felt like a magical place .....
Wow, I love how you describe how you feel so eloquently and very detailed. My husband immigrated here and it's hard for him to put his feelings into perfect English, and he tries to convey a lot of these same feelings and I believe you have just helped me to have a deeper understanding. Thank you so much!
this video is beautiful, I kept viewing it back and forth many time.........Well done Daria!
What a beautiful video! I love your reflectiveness. And your transparency! I’ve always longed for something that wasn’t. I’m a Christian, so perhaps that is simply longing for “home “which I’ll only know when I get to heaven. Anemoia , a new, beautiful word I’m gonna pay attention to❤
I so relate with every word you said! Thank you for yet again another absolutely beautiful video 🌸
I live in England and feel the same way. Wouldn't live anywhere else. As you can see from your video, The landscape is like a fairy tale and the steeped in history . Beauty around every corner . Interestingly , I find the people who do not notice it as much are the people over here whom live in these parts .
Ok so this is my first time seeing a vedio by this creator and I'm 30 seconds in the vedio and i already know that she is gonna be one of my favourite youtubers
I want this lifestyle so much yet I'm stuck here hoping for a chance someday
I so resonate with all you said! 💕🙏🏼
Beautiful flowers
Always love yr dressing/clothes n the videos scenery always captivating ❤
Lovingly and brilliantly said...thankyou
That was beeautiful. Thank you.
Beautiful and joyful. Thank you!
Beautiful video and words, thanks - home is within, a wonderful motive for self-care
What a beautiful video! ❤ I’m in this place right now and only today had a discussion with my husband on this very subject. What perfect timing….thank you! Xx
Thank you so much for this soothing video 🌿✨ It really helped with my self-acceptance when it comes to belonging. A very strong feeling especially when being an immigrant child. It comes from yourself, from within. It‘s so important. 🧡
Extremely beautiful, there are many who share the same thoughts, I’m daz from australia,
I think you and Adriana Tudorache would work beautifully together on projects. 🤍
Thank you it is the way I feel now at least some else understands.
primera vez q veo uno de tua videoa GRASIASSSSS
Beautifully said n interesting. I never stop learning. Inspiring 👏👏❤❤
I love your videos and your insight. I very much relate to this video. When I was very young, I got to visit my grandmother every summer on the other side of the US. I grew up in the southwest US and I really did not appreciate the desert landscape. I would spend the whole rest of the year (every year) longing for the time I would spend in the summer with my grandma in the Appalachian Mountains exploring lush forests which was, in my mind, the most beautiful place I have ever been. I wanted to live there when I grew up. That never happened. Instead, I moved to a high elevation rural area about 100 miles from where I grew up. I still spent a good amount of my early adulthood longing to move back east, it always felt like that was home and the place where I was born and grew up was only where I visited, if that even makes sense, it never felt like home. As the years passed, that longing eased and what was right in front of me the whole time was the bliss I had longed for all those years ago.
Thank you for making such beautiful videos! 🦋❤
"People travel to wonder at the height of mountains, at the huge waves of the sea, at the long courses of rivers, at the vast compass of the ocean, at the circular motion of the stars; and they pass by themselves without wondering. ~ AUGUSTINE OF HIPPO
Thank you so much for sharing your experience! It’s familiar to me in a way that the place I was born always felt temporary, as the one I’m just passing by to me.
I’m happy you now feel that where you are is where you’re meant to be! And that quote is beautiful. ❤️ Thank you!
@@IamDaria I always want to travel, all my life, and I enjoy living in different places. For me the problem, if it is, its not if I belong to any place (never feel that) only that I never felt that need of belonging and you say should I feel that need? Ive lived in a lot of houses, in different countries and languages) all were and are my houses. I did the same habits and things in all of them and I felt the same person all my live. The houses are only a scenery. In my dreams I am each night in a different house of my past ones, or in my present house. I feel all that my house in the dream. I think its important that to be doesnt depend of where you are.
Too in my dreams I speak in French, in Japanese, in Italian, Spanish, English, xD My languages
And beside all the changes and languages, I feel the same that my 3 years old self, or 10, or 15, and Im 41. All my life I liked the same things, the same music, the same books. Exactly the same. So in that sense Im very defined.
Your videos are therapy for me❤
Wow what a beautiful and magical video!
Truly touching words! I am amazed how deep you have thought about this. This video really touched me deeply.
Thank you much, I love your videos, beautiful place, trees, flowers, comfortable scenery.
Love what you say in this video. Beautiful too. Thank you ❤
I also often think of things that could’ve been and feel nostalgia for what never was ❤
Thankyou for beautiful video🧡
Thank you for what you do - I truly love the plants in the video, the music, the words! I think you should consider printing a book of your texts one day! They're really deep and special!
I do relate to you, though in my own way, I'm graduating from school this year so my main goal is to create the sense of home inside of me)
All your videos give me studio ghibli vibes and I absolutely love it 😍
The locations in this video are stunning! I relate to everything you say as well
Aah thank you! I saw some beautiful places recently!
So true ❤
Thank you so much
The frames though 👌
Your beautiful landscape and words touch my heart and feel comfortable
You have a beautiful accent I love the way you.speak
Sending love from Toronto.❤ Such beauty in your filming. You are truly an authentic woman.
I too love the word anemoia, it is a word that describes and explains so well what I have felt most of my life. Blessings to you.
I love this
Gracias por el vídeo :) i really enjoyed it
I am blessed that this video exist❤
What you said was true, when we look for things in the outside world, we lose sight of ourselves.
Good point dear,home is us😍😍👌👌👍👍👍
I enjoy the thoughts behind this video
Thanks for this video,
Aapne mere feelings ko , represent kiya h ।👍👍👍🌿🌿🌿🍁🍁🍁🌳
Just found ur channel. Watched this video for 30 seconds. The rainfall plus the serene views made me instantly subscribe to your channel!
Now lemme go back and watch the entire video 😀
Me indetifico nos seus vídeos, são tão lindos.
This is a dream 💜
Thank you ❤
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Really calming video... love from India❤
How beautiful!! Nature is the most sacred place.. place? Or what do I call nature? Idk. I can only wish to be there. So serene
Isn’t nature so magical 🍃🥰
@@IamDaria very much plus u made it look even more enchanted. Thank you
Hello and thank you for your video, a reminder that we are fortunate to live in such a beautiful part of the world, I don't think one has to be of different nationality to not fit in , I grew up in a large family here in England, I never did feel I belonged, I feel this way still as an older woman, I live my life in my own way, I am different from my siblings, but that is my choice. I'm my own person with my own life experiences and I'm happy and glad for this.
We are all different that is what makes us unique. Hugs to you.💚🌹
Amazing videos ! As immigrants we can have as many homes as we like, what it's true is that the source of home feeling comes from within. Pessoas' work is a treasure to humanity !
Do you know by chance the work from Khalil Gibran? Poems like defeat or do not love half Lovers go also deep down to the soul of those of us fueled by nostalgia through life. Please carry on doing this cinematographic work!
Beautiful. Glad to find ur channel. Salam dari Indonesia 🌺
Well my choices led my where I am now, but I don't want to be where I am now thus I feel like I don't belong here.
I think The hard part of belonnging is accepting that what I want may change over time.
Village life is beautiful, also you are looking really good on your long dress :) thank you for the awesome video
so nice🌼
Accept where you came from, where you're heading to and where you are now. We all are travellers of this world, we all have ancestries that were elsewhere and some we may never know of. Does it matter really where our roots were but where they are now in this life. Just accept your life, don't judge yourself too harsh but live in the moment for it will soon be a past and we're not heading that way.....I enjoyed your deep soulful thoughts. Sometimes getting too deep in our thoughts may not bring the answers we so desire.
Daria where can I get all the varieties of the wild flowers in your videos??? they are so pretty