Hey Mack, you have helped me through hard times. People have called me sir but then when I turn around they correct themselves and say ma'am. It does bug me so I don't go out in public often and at school I don't ever go to the bathroom cause people will judge me for going into the male bathroom. Anyway I'm just here to say thank you for every video you post. It shows me that I can be who I want and not be judged. Thanks Mack, just one of your subscribers- Richard
Richard Swaggington same here and with the bathroom thing I get told to "use the other bathroom" when I go into both the men's and womens because I have quite a deep voice (for a "girl" anyway) and very short hair so I get told to leave the womens, and I'm always either with family or at school so I can't go into the men's incase someone I know sees me.
I know that the way you see yourself is so much different than the way that we all see you. To me, you've always been Mack, always been manly. I know how it feels to be on this side of things. And I TOTALLY feel you on the clothes thing. Some days I literally can't something to wear that makes me feel good about myself and the more outfits that you go through, the worse the dysphoria gets. It sucks hardcore, man. Sucks that we have to deal with this stuff when all we want is to be the manly man that we know we are. Stay strong man!
Yes we really need to! Things are so busy for me lately, I'm sad I missed the deadline for your Dear Mary Beth and Michael video (did i ever tell you my mom is named Mary Beth too?) I can't wait to see that and hear about how it goes with your parents.
Mack, if you want to lower your voice you can sing lower, talk from your stomach, or for a temporary fix put your head all the way down and hum until your looking all the way up. If you do that a few time it will lower your voice a bit.
T isn't going to help everything. Maybe it'll deepen his voice (which I already think is masculine as hell) and sharpen his jawline but won't help the fact that he has a chest and a bottom half he may not like. Testosterone can help a bit but there is so much more that Mack could do to sort of ease the dysphoria. But does he have to????? NO. Not every trans guy or girl wants to go on hormones or have surgery. Mack doesn't have to do anything but love himself and if he wants to go through with starting T and what not he shall. But I'm saying whether he does or not he is still and great, and amazing dude 😎
Cynthia Marie T isn't a miracle drug but it will help you feel a hell of a lot better both physically and mentally. I think it's important. For those that want it that is.
Ean Ray yes it does work miracles. I was responding though to the person who made the comment saying it fixes EVERYTHING which, depending on the person of course, it may not. I do agree with you though ean. It is amazing is so many ways but like I said, it all depends on the person and whether they want it or not or if it makes them feel a little better or a lot better.
so much similarity. I'm larger chested, so binding effectively is difficult for me, and I have no idea how my butt got so big. I see people complain about having a flat butt, and I'm like, I'll trade! Cuz even if I'm flat up top, my hips and butt give me away
Sameee..... I have a severely large chest just for my age so even when i'm binding you can almost always tell and my butt is huge... I have hella good genetics for a girl.. too bad i'm not..
Yeah, almost all my friends are girls and they're smaller than me, and it makes me jealous. Unfortunetly, feminine traits tend to be quite noticable in my family. It doesn't stop at vocal traits either. It makes my throat ache to lower my voice for extended periods of time
Thank you for opening up about this. I never thought of the struggles transgenders go through every single day, but you help me understand those things.
I so relate! I'm sorry you have dysphoria and I'm happy your willing to share something like this with us👍🏼 It really makes me feel less alone with what I'm going through! Your the best Mack!
Ftm here. when ever i have a dysphoria moment, i just remember that there are loads of transwomen who wish they were born with what i have. And to all transladies, there are loads of transmen out there wishing they were born with what you were born with. So try to focus on the positives, and realize that things won't always be terrible. 😊🌈💝
I relate to everything in this video. But to be honest I didn't see any of that in you. I mean you are a really nice looking guy. I can't believe anyone would see you as anything other than male. You look really fantastic man. And this was a very brave video for you to share. It's hard to talk about your insecurities. Like I said, I relate to what you've said here, but I am not very comfortable sharing it. Which really makes videos like this comforting, to hear someone else voice the thoughts I have. You just feel less alone. Best wishes Mack.
my guy i feel this for what feels like every minute of every day, i swear it never leaves me,, this sinking feeling knowing that i hate my physical existence so much and everything i can do to ease the pain is so far out of reach. going to school and work and being called miss and ma'am really gets under my skin and builds up the self hatred that has been engraved into my head.
My daughter is transgender and I appreciate your video because since she told me when she was 15 that she thought she should have been born a female she hasn't wanted to really talk about it and your video helps me understand how she is feeling. THANK YOU
I can't even imagine to feel like this everyday. I mean, I'm insecure a lot of the time about my sexuality and my body but I don't deal with disphoria. you're a really strong guy and I look up to you for that. have an awesome day! ☺
sofie wild T doesn't shrink your hips that's solid bone. It will lessen the effect by redistributing some fat but trans guys who have an amazing V body shape get that from workout plans made specifically to enlarge the muscles around to hips to make them look smaller by comparison. However it's not bad if you don't do that cos some cis guys do have a curvier shape too.
I don't know what to say on this one... I feel the same way as you with some things, specially the hips and binding... Stay strong ♥ we know you can do it!
I know this sounds weird but I'm sooo proud of you. It takes ALOT to just do a video like this.. Keep doing what your doing to become you.. The REAL YOU... All in all the ones who love u the most will not ? u, they will love you every day all day in which comes to me.. I'm here day n n day out bc I love ya for who U are... Hugs **keep that head up sweets**
Sighhhh... And I would have given ANYTHING to have been born physically female. And to look like you BEFORE testosterone! Every single moment, of every singly day, as far back as I remember... I've identified as, and wanted to be a woman. And as I watch your videos, I can't help but think about how awesome it is that YOU have the courage to transition to male. (Although I have dabbled with self-medicating with female hormones for several years, I never found the courage to fully transition...). Your story is one I TOTALLY relate to, despite our opposite gender identities. Thank you for sharing your awesome story!
riverwest1 Hi! I've enjoyed reading all your comments on my videos :) I'm really glad my story relates to you (in an opposite way haha). It took me a veeeeery long time to decide to come out and transition. Just know that your gender is valid! You are valid.
Mac, you're very handsome! I think all boys look really great with full hips and a "baby face". Also, you're pretty muscular. I think you pass easily on that front. I hope you can learn to love your traits as much as everyone else does!
Once me and my cousin where at a restaurant (I'm ftm) and a waitress misgendered me so I asked my cousin to try and let her know I'm a guy. My cousin decided to wait for her to come back and start using male pronouns for me and the waitress looked so confused. And every time the server walked past us my cousin would stare her down. Even when we left she said "bye ladies" which confused me, my cousin made it pretty clear I was a guy (I usually feel really uncomfortable and awkward correcting people on that stuff unless I know the person really well)
Hey Mack! Lately, I have gotten many "Sir's" And "Mister's" and "Young Man's" Which feels awesome. Since I'm only 13, I'm lucky that I'm still being read as a male my age! However, I am super curvy. I am horrified that as my body grows, so will the feminine parts of me that I loath, and I'm scared that I'll start being read as female more and more often. As of right now, waking up and seeing my chest/hips now is hard enough, so I don't know what I'm going to do when I get older. Sorry to ramble! You are a super handsome guy Mack and I really hope you get read as male more often!
U could not have said this any better everything u said I feel and then some I’m 36 ftm Just started t waiting on surgery date and just lost my partner 3 months again and started my transition right away plus on top of that I’m bipolar and I think the t doctor was pretending to give me t because I’m bipolar I saw a different doctor same team but he put me on the right dose It’s really hard because everything now is hitting me all at once my dysphoria is killing me because it’s right in my face and my transition didn’t start off smoothly so that was stressful and I’m feeling suicidal over again like I’m 12 and I hate it but I’m getting the help I need and going to my first transgender support group Tuesday I am very excited to transitioning but it’s also very scary too I do wish I transitioned early in life it just wasn’t an option then thank u I feel better because someone understands how I feel thank u
jcsreborn journey good luck with the T and the support group! It's always going to be hard at first, as people get used to it cause that's nature. I'm just beginning my transition to male too (I'm 14 :]). I hope you find someone new who van love you for who you are.
Amber Shoffren thank you I was just put into inpatient psychiatric hospital I am really having a difficult time with everything I was so mad I didn’t know that the support group was this past Tuesday I was there for a doctors appointment I would have gone if I knew about it
jcsreborn journey just out of curiosity, bc I have certain feelings toward being a woman and I love other women, so that makes me gay. Why transition if you are just gay?
Malachi's House I don’t How to answer this you have to take sex completely off the table that’s only four percent of relationship you have to take it off the table and say am I comfortable in my own skin with my own sex and I was born with and my answer for me is no I would only have sex with a woman as a man that means you have to have a penis I hope that helped and every transgender person feels different that’s just the way I feel we’re all different and different is good just because someone is transgender doesn’t mean they have to be labeled as gay as well I feel we should find ourselves first go through the transition and then decide where to go sexually from there Being stuck in the wrong body wake up wanting to die every day I know I do and I’ve been going through this for 36 years
I'm 15 and ever since I started getting a chest I've hated it. I always wear sweatshirts even when it's hot in the summer. I haven't gone out in public without a sweatshirt in like 3 years.
Same.... before I knew what trans was I always thought that I looked masculine and had a deep voice and I always wanted a higher voice because I wanted to 'fit in' but I always related more to boys and hated anything girly well I was more 'offended' by it I guess... but after I started going through puberty I realized how girly I looked and sounded and I started having really bad self esteem issues and started noticing all my girly features more and even when people called me she before I knew what trans was it stung a bit... I've been out of the closet since May 17th 2016 I do have a binder and my parents are trying to call me by my name and are working up to calling me he.. honestly I have a pretty accepting family.. on holiday my family still calls me she and birth name on my dads side.. my moms side called me Blake besides my grandpa and my grandma actually sat me down the time I visited for thanksgiving and said she would love me no matter what.. but when my cousin would get mad because I wouldn't give him all the attention he would make fun of me for it or talk crap.. I love your videos
Sinnamon Roll If you look up Ashley Mardell on RUclips. She's pans and has a ton of videos about coming out and the different types of genders, sexes, sexual orientation etc. You can get lost in her channel because it's quite confusing with all the things she talks about.
I'm 8 months on T and still get misgendered. My ID says male. I get ID'd the other day. "Why does this say M, miss?" And I'm still in a binder. I feel you. But slowly I am liking my own hairy skin.
Reg K Flint hey could you tell me something? Only if you are comfortable, but when did you start getting breast? Like what age? Sorry if I sound like a creep...
I always said my soul was a boy. ever since I started transitioning my mom now all of a sudden calls me missy,etc and it eats me up like she's trying to remind me I'm a female.
I know how you feel like I'm a girl but I always knew I wanted to be a boy when I was 3 because i would play outside with my 4 brother's and I would never want to where dresses and I always where my brother's clothes from when they were younger and I get picked on at school for it I don't care what they say about it it's who I'm and I'm proud
Dysphoria sucks so fucking much. My worst is my thighs. I cant find any pants to wear that doesn't make me look so feminine. It's easy to hide your chest (for me personally) but i cant hide my curvaceous thighs.
As someone whom im sure disagrees with you a ton about what you believe. I earnestly hope that you you find a peace with yourself and this world. Hang in there and keep chugging along. Male or female were all humans.
Oh, the mirror chest thing, plus the hips thing....MEEEEEEE. And the CLOTHES. UGH. It's horrible. And the catch 22 he brought up was interesting to me. Because since I have a medium sized chest, probably, binders barely work for me, so, it's like, do I want to be physically uncomfortable and /still/ feel terrible about my chest, or do I have slightly more dysphoria and be more physically comfortable....because, basically, there's dysphoria either way. The only thing that will basically take it away is getting top surgery, so, until i find a better binder, I'm kinda stuck. This also leads to me rarely binding, and seeing "male" mannequins at the store with that slight bump and stuff to their chest.....it actually helps a lot rationally, just not really emotionally.
unlimitedfunlol hey I know that you posted this comment 3 months ago but I hope you will see this anyway. I understand the binding problem. For me I'm not thin in fact I consider myself fat really and have a larger "chest" and binding doesn't feel like it does much to help and it really is more than uncomfortable for me. It's really hard for me to breath due to the pressure of both binding plus I have asthma and we'll truth be told I still smoke. Stupid I know. Something I am working on again. Anyways my fiancé told me that it looks really good and actually makes me look more masculine. I could tell by the look on her face she was telling the truth. I wanted that to help and maybe it did little bit but I myself feel that it didn't because of my personal dysphoria. I fell that unless it makes me completely flat it's pointless. I'm trying desperately to look at this differently. I have to realize it helps somewhat. I feel the same about surgery as you. That it will be the only way to get rid of the chest dysphoria. But I also realize that I am always so miserable not binding if I go outside of my home. So I guess you have to weigh the pros and cons like you were saying. Idk what kind or brands of binders you have tried. But I thought I would tell you the one I use and that does seem to help and is not as uncomfortable as a lot of others brand. It's GC2B. The half binder is the best. The "tank" binder is the same on the top as a half binder but then the rest of it is a material that irritates my skin. And really doesn't do anything positive for me either. And you can see the difference in the material on their website. It's like idk polyester kind of feeling. Like a thicker pantyhose feel. Ugh. I don't like it and it makes you hotter than you have to be. Binding is bad enough right?!? So I thought I would share my experience with you and maybe it will help. Idk. I hope it will. The half binders are $33 and ant size considered X like 1 X, 2X, etc., is $35. Stupid, I know but whatever. I think it's stupid because us trans guys come in all sizes and to make someone pay more because we r larger up top isn't real helpful. But whatev's. It's really not the money; it's the point. Also you can get 5% off just by following them on Instagram and FB Etc, so once you join their website you can find all those instructions and then follow them and as you do this you will get emails sending you the extras off or the % off. It's cool. I payed for priority shipping and all that came to around $37 and that's with priority shipping of more that $7. So if you get regular shipping and 5% or better off your first order you will get a better deal. I hope this helps you. I am in the same boat though. Nothing is really going to help me until I get to have top surgery. Good luck to you!!!
I'm still questioning my gender but I do know that I prefer male pronouns. I am not out to anyone (except online friends) so I get misgendered daily (family, coworkers and even close friends call me she/her). I hate it.. I can't wait till the day I can be who I am and live life as the person I see inside (whoever that may be).
amiddend I'm the same but I'm out to most of my friends but everyone still calls me by female pronouns. I had a parent's evening tonight with my mum and dad and my science teacher told me that I would be a good engineer and that there is a shortage of female engineers and the whole way through I was thinking 'but I'm a boy'.
I really think that you look like a man, like your face shape to me is very manly and even your voice, i cant think on a woman if a hear it, to me is a man.
and how about that the idea of a man is just an idea that hunting u and u just believed it ? . I would like to know why u don't like to be a woman ? I would like to hear an honest answer.
It's not that "he doesn't like to be a woman." Look up on youtube what it means to be trans. There are so many informational videos on the topic that'll answer your questions.
Why are you still in the closet? You're a grown ass man stop thinking of others happiness and put yours first! YOU ARE NOT PROMISED TOMORROW SO START LIVING TODAY AS THE REAL YOU!!
He goes to a religious school, which makes it a hell of a lot harder to come out. My guess is that he is waiting until after graduation so that there is no chance that he would get kicked out.
My 5 year old son came over while I was watching this video at 3:07 and asked me, "Why's he naked?". So I hope that makes you feel good today!
MommyOfZoeAndLiam Kids are cool like that. Probably more interested in my he's nude.
I have a trans child (f2m)Your video helps me understand what he goes through every day.Thank you
Ryan Johnson God I wish my parents were supportive when I was young and scared. You are amazing.
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All I can do is accept and love unconditionally.
"Be who you needed when you were younger."
Hey Mack, you have helped me through hard times. People have called me sir but then when I turn around they correct themselves and say ma'am. It does bug me so I don't go out in public often and at school I don't ever go to the bathroom cause people will judge me for going into the male bathroom. Anyway I'm just here to say thank you for every video you post. It shows me that I can be who I want and not be judged. Thanks Mack, just one of your subscribers- Richard
Richard Swaggington same here and with the bathroom thing I get told to "use the other bathroom" when I go into both the men's and womens because I have quite a deep voice (for a "girl" anyway) and very short hair so I get told to leave the womens, and I'm always either with family or at school so I can't go into the men's incase someone I know sees me.
dude this is so relatable and i totally do the baggy sweater thing too, you'll get where you want to be one day though!
I know that the way you see yourself is so much different than the way that we all see you. To me, you've always been Mack, always been manly. I know how it feels to be on this side of things. And I TOTALLY feel you on the clothes thing. Some days I literally can't something to wear that makes me feel good about myself and the more outfits that you go through, the worse the dysphoria gets. It sucks hardcore, man. Sucks that we have to deal with this stuff when all we want is to be the manly man that we know we are. Stay strong man!
Thanks bro, you stay strong too :) Let's catch up soon!
Yes we really need to! Things are so busy for me lately, I'm sad I missed the deadline for your Dear Mary Beth and Michael video (did i ever tell you my mom is named Mary Beth too?) I can't wait to see that and hear about how it goes with your parents.
Mack, if you want to lower your voice you can sing lower, talk from your stomach, or for a temporary fix put your head all the way down and hum until your looking all the way up. If you do that a few time it will lower your voice a bit.
T isn't going to help everything. Maybe it'll deepen his voice (which I already think is masculine as hell) and sharpen his jawline but won't help the fact that he has a chest and a bottom half he may not like. Testosterone can help a bit but there is so much more that Mack could do to sort of ease the dysphoria. But does he have to????? NO. Not every trans guy or girl wants to go on hormones or have surgery. Mack doesn't have to do anything but love himself and if he wants to go through with starting T and what not he shall. But I'm saying whether he does or not he is still and great, and amazing dude 😎
Cynthia Marie T isn't a miracle drug but it will help you feel a hell of a lot better both physically and mentally. I think it's important. For those that want it that is.
Ean Ray yes it does work miracles. I was responding though to the person who made the comment saying it fixes EVERYTHING which, depending on the person of course, it may not. I do agree with you though ean. It is amazing is so many ways but like I said, it all depends on the person and whether they want it or not or if it makes them feel a little better or a lot better.
so much similarity. I'm larger chested, so binding effectively is difficult for me, and I have no idea how my butt got so big. I see people complain about having a flat butt, and I'm like, I'll trade! Cuz even if I'm flat up top, my hips and butt give me away
Sameee..... I have a severely large chest just for my age so even when i'm binding you can almost always tell and my butt is huge... I have hella good genetics for a girl.. too bad i'm not..
Yeah, almost all my friends are girls and they're smaller than me, and it makes me jealous. Unfortunetly, feminine traits tend to be quite noticable in my family. It doesn't stop at vocal traits either. It makes my throat ache to lower my voice for extended periods of time
Tennant Turtle when did you guys start getting breast??? Not trying to be weird I just really want to know!
Gasca No, it's ok, I don't mind. I started developing when I was 11 or 12.
Tennant Turtle ok, thanks!
Thank you for opening up about this. I never thought of the struggles transgenders go through every single day, but you help me understand those things.
I so relate! I'm sorry you have dysphoria and I'm happy your willing to share something like this with us👍🏼 It really makes me feel less alone with what I'm going through! Your the best Mack!
Love how you put it, man! I'm a non op f to m. You rock!! Love your videos!
the irony of this vid: you talking about how you don't feel or see masculine when I think I've never seen you so handsome
Ftm here. when ever i have a dysphoria moment, i just remember that there are loads of transwomen who wish they were born with what i have. And to all transladies, there are loads of transmen out there wishing they were born with what you were born with. So try to focus on the positives, and realize that things won't always be terrible. 😊🌈💝
I relate to everything in this video. But to be honest I didn't see any of that in you. I mean you are a really nice looking guy. I can't believe anyone would see you as anything other than male. You look really fantastic man. And this was a very brave video for you to share. It's hard to talk about your insecurities. Like I said, I relate to what you've said here, but I am not very comfortable sharing it. Which really makes videos like this comforting, to hear someone else voice the thoughts I have. You just feel less alone. Best wishes Mack.
Hey great video man! I can relate so much. I can't wait to start T and get top surgery, I'm documenting my transition on my channel to help others!
We have exactly the same problems except I'm shorter and heavier. I feel you man. Hips are the worst
Ryan Kann Same
that's why I love hoodies so much
my guy i feel this for what feels like every minute of every day, i swear it never leaves me,, this sinking feeling knowing that i hate my physical existence so much and everything i can do to ease the pain is so far out of reach. going to school and work and being called miss and ma'am really gets under my skin and builds up the self hatred that has been engraved into my head.
I have one substitute teacher that gets on my nerves because every time he talks to me he says, "young lady" and puts great emphasis on the lady.
This is a really excellent video describing what it feels like to have gender dysphoria. Love all of your videos and hope to see more of them soon.
Dude you look so masculine in the thumbnail! Btw I love your hair as well :)
So true! I love his hair!
My daughter is transgender and I appreciate your video because since she told me when she was 15 that she thought she should have been born a female she hasn't wanted to really talk about it and your video helps me understand how she is feeling. THANK YOU
I can't even imagine to feel like this everyday. I mean, I'm insecure a lot of the time about my sexuality and my body but I don't deal with disphoria. you're a really strong guy and I look up to you for that. have an awesome day! ☺
dysphoria sucks but it really sucks when you can't even get a binder because your not out yet and you can't order anything online
T could solve almost all of that
can't wait to start t
sofie wild T doesn't shrink your hips that's solid bone. It will lessen the effect by redistributing some fat but trans guys who have an amazing V body shape get that from workout plans made specifically to enlarge the muscles around to hips to make them look smaller by comparison. However it's not bad if you don't do that cos some cis guys do have a curvier shape too.
I don't know what to say on this one... I feel the same way as you with some things, specially the hips and binding...
Stay strong ♥ we know you can do it!
I know this sounds weird but I'm sooo proud of you. It takes ALOT to just do a video like this.. Keep doing what your doing to become you.. The REAL YOU... All in all the ones who love u the most will not ? u, they will love you every day all day in which comes to me.. I'm here day n n day out bc I love ya for who U are... Hugs **keep that head up sweets**
Sighhhh... And I would have given ANYTHING to have been born physically female.
And to look like you BEFORE testosterone!
Every single moment, of every singly day, as far back as I remember... I've identified as, and wanted to be a woman.
And as I watch your videos, I can't help but think about how awesome it is that YOU have the courage to transition to male. (Although I have dabbled with self-medicating with female hormones for several years, I never found the courage to fully transition...).
Your story is one I TOTALLY relate to, despite our opposite gender identities.
Thank you for sharing your awesome story!
riverwest1 Hi! I've enjoyed reading all your comments on my videos :) I'm really glad my story relates to you (in an opposite way haha). It took me a veeeeery long time to decide to come out and transition. Just know that your gender is valid! You are valid.
Mac, you're very handsome! I think all boys look really great with full hips and a "baby face". Also, you're pretty muscular. I think you pass easily on that front. I hope you can learn to love your traits as much as everyone else does!
And also, I've found that usually a very firm, "um, sorry sir/miss, but I am a boy" will work
This is a really good video Mack 💙
I know how you feel I feel the same way sometimes
since i haven't gotten a binder, i just wear two shirts so i can pass too. sometimes i do but then one of my family members corrects them....
Love ya man keep going strong! Ik you can make it
Once me and my cousin where at a restaurant (I'm ftm) and a waitress misgendered me so I asked my cousin to try and let her know I'm a guy. My cousin decided to wait for her to come back and start using male pronouns for me and the waitress looked so confused. And every time the server walked past us my cousin would stare her down. Even when we left she said "bye ladies" which confused me, my cousin made it pretty clear I was a guy (I usually feel really uncomfortable and awkward correcting people on that stuff unless I know the person really well)
Hey Mack! Lately, I have gotten many "Sir's" And "Mister's" and "Young Man's" Which feels awesome. Since I'm only 13, I'm lucky that I'm still being read as a male my age! However, I am super curvy. I am horrified that as my body grows, so will the feminine parts of me that I loath, and I'm scared that I'll start being read as female more and more often. As of right now, waking up and seeing my chest/hips now is hard enough, so I don't know what I'm going to do when I get older. Sorry to ramble! You are a super handsome guy Mack and I really hope you get read as male more often!
I hope that you feel more comfortable with your body and I hope you continue to make videos. I will always support you .😄💕💕
You captured it perfectly thank you
3:47 Exactly 👍
I'm feeling for you Mack. Dysphoria is a horrible thing. I hope that you can find happiness soon, you deserve it ❤
Ooh those shoulder blades 😍
great video. I am new to your channel but I like your content so far and I'm sorry because I know this feeling but it'll get better. keep your head up
U could not have said this any better everything u said I feel and then some I’m 36 ftm Just started t waiting on surgery date and just lost my partner 3 months again and started my transition right away plus on top of that I’m bipolar and I think the t doctor was pretending to give me t because I’m bipolar I saw a different doctor same team but he put me on the right dose
It’s really hard because everything now is hitting me all at once my dysphoria is killing me because it’s right in my face and my transition didn’t start off smoothly so that was stressful and I’m feeling suicidal over again like I’m 12 and I hate it but I’m getting the help I need and going to my first transgender support group Tuesday I am very excited to transitioning but it’s also very scary too I do wish I transitioned early in life it just wasn’t an option then thank u I feel better because someone understands how I feel thank u
jcsreborn journey good luck with the T and the support group! It's always going to be hard at first, as people get used to it cause that's nature. I'm just beginning my transition to male too (I'm 14 :]). I hope you find someone new who van love you for who you are.
Amber Shoffren thank you I was just put into inpatient psychiatric hospital I am really having a difficult time with everything I was so mad I didn’t know that the support group was this past Tuesday I was there for a doctors appointment I would have gone if I knew about it
jcsreborn journey just out of curiosity, bc I have certain feelings toward being a woman and I love other women, so that makes me gay. Why transition if you are just gay?
Malachi's House I don’t How to answer this you have to take sex completely off the table that’s only four percent of relationship you have to take it off the table and say am I comfortable in my own skin with my own sex and I was born with and my answer for me is no I would only have sex with a woman as a man that means you have to have a penis I hope that helped and every transgender person feels different that’s just the way I feel we’re all different and different is good just because someone is transgender doesn’t mean they have to be labeled as gay as well I feel we should find ourselves first go through the transition and then decide where to go sexually from there Being stuck in the wrong body wake up wanting to die every day I know I do and I’ve been going through this for 36 years
Thanks for this vid Mack..
man I feel the same way .....😑😐😕😞😞
I'm 15 and ever since I started getting a chest I've hated it. I always wear sweatshirts even when it's hot in the summer. I haven't gone out in public without a sweatshirt in like 3 years.
I relate to this so much
Same.... before I knew what trans was I always thought that I looked masculine and had a deep voice and I always wanted a higher voice because I wanted to 'fit in' but I always related more to boys and hated anything girly well I was more 'offended' by it I guess... but after I started going through puberty I realized how girly I looked and sounded and I started having really bad self esteem issues and started noticing all my girly features more and even when people called me she before I knew what trans was it stung a bit... I've been out of the closet since May 17th 2016 I do have a binder and my parents are trying to call me by my name and are working up to calling me he.. honestly I have a pretty accepting family.. on holiday my family still calls me she and birth name on my dads side.. my moms side called me Blake besides my grandpa and my grandma actually sat me down the time I visited for thanksgiving and said she would love me no matter what.. but when my cousin would get mad because I wouldn't give him all the attention he would make fun of me for it or talk crap.. I love your videos
This was really helpful, I feel the same way
I'm not trans but I have tons of chest dysphoria, I can't bind cause that means I have to come out and Idek what my gender is ;-;
Sinnamon Roll If you look up Ashley Mardell on RUclips. She's pans and has a ton of videos about coming out and the different types of genders, sexes, sexual orientation etc. You can get lost in her channel because it's quite confusing with all the things she talks about.
I go threw the same things as you do.Im out as trans to my family friends school.
You are already very handsome. If you were to go on T I imagine you would feel a lot better, but it is your choice ! Good luck honey X
Does anyone else's dysphoria hurt?
Where can I find such baggy hoodie?
I have to live with that everyday as well😞
I'm 8 months on T and still get misgendered. My ID says male. I get ID'd the other day. "Why does this say M, miss?" And I'm still in a binder. I feel you. But slowly I am liking my own hairy skin.
Reg K Flint hey could you tell me something? Only if you are comfortable, but when did you start getting breast? Like what age? Sorry if I sound like a creep...
Gasca thirteen. The bloody nuisance stuff didn't start til 15.
I was l "late bloomer" obviously.
Reg K Flint ok, thanks. My friend got her period when she was seven. Now she has to take tablets...
I have the same pare of underwear 👌🏻☺️
Esty same 😂😂
I always said my soul was a boy. ever since I started transitioning my mom now all of a sudden calls me missy,etc and it eats me up like she's trying to remind me I'm a female.
love to you Mack
Mackman is so cute
omg your just amazing and perfect
Have you thought about going on T?
I'm transgender too and I know about dysphoria FTM
I feel you
I know how you feel like I'm a girl but I always knew I wanted to be a boy when I was 3 because i would play outside with my 4 brother's and I would never want to where dresses and I always where my brother's clothes from when they were younger and I get picked on at school for it I don't care what they say about it it's who I'm and I'm proud
Dysphoria sucks so fucking much. My worst is my thighs. I cant find any pants to wear that doesn't make me look so feminine. It's easy to hide your chest (for me personally) but i cant hide my curvaceous thighs.
i get you
As someone whom im sure disagrees with you a ton about what you believe. I earnestly hope that you you find a peace with yourself and this world. Hang in there and keep chugging along. Male or female were all humans.
Tbh waking up as a man sounds dope. Though I think it might get less dope as I got deeper into it.
MingusTale I think waking up with a penis would be frigging weird.
Oh, the mirror chest thing, plus the hips thing....MEEEEEEE. And the CLOTHES. UGH. It's horrible. And the catch 22 he brought up was interesting to me. Because since I have a medium sized chest, probably, binders barely work for me, so, it's like, do I want to be physically uncomfortable and /still/ feel terrible about my chest, or do I have slightly more dysphoria and be more physically comfortable....because, basically, there's dysphoria either way. The only thing that will basically take it away is getting top surgery, so, until i find a better binder, I'm kinda stuck. This also leads to me rarely binding, and seeing "male" mannequins at the store with that slight bump and stuff to their chest.....it actually helps a lot rationally, just not really emotionally.
unlimitedfunlol hey I know that you posted this comment 3 months ago but I hope you will see this anyway. I understand the binding problem. For me I'm not thin in fact I consider myself fat really and have a larger "chest" and binding doesn't feel like it does much to help and it really is more than uncomfortable for me. It's really hard for me to breath due to the pressure of both binding plus I have asthma and we'll truth be told I still smoke. Stupid I know. Something I am working on again. Anyways my fiancé told me that it looks really good and actually makes me look more masculine. I could tell by the look on her face she was telling the truth. I wanted that to help and maybe it did little bit but I myself feel that it didn't because of my personal dysphoria. I fell that unless it makes me completely flat it's pointless. I'm trying desperately to look at this differently. I have to realize it helps somewhat. I feel the same about surgery as you. That it will be the only way to get rid of the chest dysphoria. But I also realize that I am always so miserable not binding if I go outside of my home. So I guess you have to weigh the pros and cons like you were saying. Idk what kind or brands of binders you have tried. But I thought I would tell you the one I use and that does seem to help and is not as uncomfortable as a lot of others brand. It's GC2B. The half binder is the best. The "tank" binder is the same on the top as a half binder but then the rest of it is a material that irritates my skin. And really doesn't do anything positive for me either. And you can see the difference in the material on their website. It's like idk polyester kind of feeling. Like a thicker pantyhose feel. Ugh. I don't like it and it makes you hotter than you have to be. Binding is bad enough right?!? So I thought I would share my experience with you and maybe it will help. Idk. I hope it will. The half binders are $33 and ant size considered X like 1 X, 2X, etc., is $35. Stupid, I know but whatever. I think it's stupid because us trans guys come in all sizes and to make someone pay more because we r larger up top isn't real helpful. But whatev's. It's really not the money; it's the point. Also you can get 5% off just by following them on Instagram and FB Etc, so once you join their website you can find all those instructions and then follow them and as you do this you will get emails sending you the extras off or the % off. It's cool. I payed for priority shipping and all that came to around $37 and that's with priority shipping of more that $7. So if you get regular shipping and 5% or better off your first order you will get a better deal. I hope this helps you. I am in the same boat though. Nothing is really going to help me until I get to have top surgery. Good luck to you!!!
I'm still questioning my gender but I do know that I prefer male pronouns. I am not out to anyone (except online friends) so I get misgendered daily (family, coworkers and even close friends call me she/her). I hate it.. I can't wait till the day I can be who I am and live life as the person I see inside (whoever that may be).
amiddend I'm the same but I'm out to most of my friends but everyone still calls me by female pronouns. I had a parent's evening tonight with my mum and dad and my science teacher told me that I would be a good engineer and that there is a shortage of female engineers and the whole way through I was thinking 'but I'm a boy'.
Mack u r cool
thats the best way to describe how it is to be transgender🖒
what is ur height?
I really think that you look like a man, like your face shape to me is very manly and even your voice, i cant think on a woman if a hear it, to me is a man.
You're a handsome dude Im a cis girl but I still love watching.
story of my life... (FtM)
throwing some shade at the tall girls there >:(
and how about that the idea of a man is just an idea that hunting u and u just believed it ? . I would like to know why u don't like to be a woman ? I would like to hear an honest answer.
It's not that "he doesn't like to be a woman."
Look up on youtube what it means to be trans.
There are so many informational videos on the topic that'll answer your questions.
Why are you still in the closet? You're a grown ass man stop thinking of others happiness and put yours first! YOU ARE NOT PROMISED TOMORROW SO START LIVING TODAY AS THE REAL YOU!!
He goes to a religious school, which makes it a hell of a lot harder to come out. My guess is that he is waiting until after graduation so that there is no chance that he would get kicked out.
when I look at you I see a man, I thought you were a cis man 💙
were you born a Girl
you're a girl and even kinda cute....get over it