Re: identity - “The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new.” - Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh
Love this,! However, I want to acknowledge that for some, a mother is born the moment a person learns they are with child. Women who experienced miscarriages are still mothers.
Yess, just watched your pumpkin croquette video too! Yall are adorable and now we gon get the same baby & mother content from Jenn too🧡Im so happy for all of you
Totally agree. And also the fact that she does not try to compete for attention from Jenn. Just goes to show that she is such a well loved and well adjusted doggie.
Postpartum is really no joke. The first 2 months were the hardest for me. From latching issues, lack of sleep, and your routine being all out of wack it is definitely HARD. You are one kickass momma who despite all the hard weeks as a new mom, you’re still there showing up for yourself, your baby, and your man. Thank you for showing us all the parts of motherhood. ❤️ with love from SD
I can’t remember the entire first year with my son. There were a million tears and blood and sweat and milk and more tears. It’s a blur of depression and pain and loneliness. But I ended up becoming the best version of myself and I don’t cry for old me ever. She can stay in the past, with a hangover and stinking of cigarettes while I’m watching the sunrise at the beach, building sandcastles with the most delightful little human being I’ve ever met. I know you will get there too and you’re doing amazing.
I am a mom of 2. My oldest is 6. I cried when you talked about feeling home sick for who you once were. Thank you for putting that into words. Postpartum and shifting to life as a mom is so so challenging and full of growth. ❤️
Even though we know how busy you are now, you still vlog for us, you still give us your beautiful (what I call) experiences with every little detail and above all, you didn’t compromise the amazing video editing (which is something I learn from you as a youtuber) … Loving the video so far, still watching 😍😍❤️❤️
30 minutes of sleep 💔 I'm so glad you don't have to this alone. I don't know how I would survive on 30 minutes of sleep. Kudos to you and all the parents out there.
Every time I watch Jenn, I feel such inner peace. I feel like I'm not alone, that the thoughts in my head won't eat me alive and that things will be okay.... in the most HONEST manner! It's such an honor growing with you, Jenn
Omg exactly my feelings! I feel so at peace when i hear Jenn. So organized and driven, but also honest and peaceful? Your videos soothes my soul for some reason.
Honey, I would recommend hanging out with mummy’s that are enjoying being a mother very much , that would help you see how much fun you can have and what a wonderful journey you are going to have with him! Thank you for sharing these precious moments and feelings with us , lots of love
Hi Jenn! Babies have a pretty good inner sense of when they are full from breastfeeding so don't feel pressured to keep Lennon latched. It's a good way for him to develop intuitive eating and build feeding cues that you might notice.
Babies are able to get more directly from the breast than what you produce pumping, and their stomachs are so small still they know when they’re full and will nurse more often. It’s a better indicator to watch diaper output.
And try not to obsess too much about how many ounzes he ate. Every baby is different and needs a different amount at a time, looking at the medical charts can make one feel anxious and like something is wrong even if it isnt. Sending you positive vibes. It made me nostalgic seeing you cuddle Lennon and the babywearing
I wanted to say the same. My baby breatfed for 5 min and he was done!! You can get more milk from nursing than pumping. Plus if baby gets use to bottle he may start to refuse the nipple bcz bottle flow is so much easier than having to nurse. Happened to ny friends baby. Its time consuming to keep pumping. Thank you gor sharing your rral true experience. Always look forward to ur videos.
I feel the same about my identity. I miss my old self and life every day. But mostly just the freedom. I am very much tied down to my kids and husband as a SAHM.
Jen, you make everything so relatable! I’m not a mom but I truly felt it when you said that you’ve feel nostalgic about your life before Lennon. And how you are coping with all the new changes that are happening in your life and the advice that you gave yourself can be applied to anyone in any situation. Just wanted to say that both you and Ben are doing great!
As someone who is terrified of any kind of change ( even positive ) I understand what you are going through. Postpartum especially just gets you into a dark room with no light switches , you just have to create a light within yourself , I’m glad you are taking care of your mental health !
This is such an absolutely beautiful journey that you’ve been kind enough to share with us. New motherhood is an absolute beast, it’s true- but you’re approaching it with such grace, and such kindness, both to yourself and your family. It’s really beautiful, Jenn. We are so proud of you
I love how you are always so raw and honest. I’ve been following you for years now (before you and Ben even met) and it’s incredible seeing how life has - and still is - unfolding for you. You have always been such an inspiration to me and it’s clear how much you and Ben love little Lennon. He’s so lucky to have you two as parents.
I hope you know that we are so proud of you and Ben for being such wonderful parents already! We so proud of you two 🤍 it’s so beautiful to see the family you have created
Omg he’s grown so much already! You explain postpartum so well: it’s also the acceptance of the “death” of the old you. But only temporarily if you want. You were, you are and you will be. Things change. It’s ok.
Jenn, I’m so proud of you 😭😭😭 I love how gentle you are with yourself and understanding that you can’t just snap back to your old self and you shouldn’t. It takes so much wisdom to get to this, especially we know you’ve always been such a go getter. I just can’t express how proud and grateful for you on the YT space. Love you!!!
Jenn, it’s so refreshing and relatable listening to your new journey. I am now a mom to my 18 month old toddler, and I see flashbacks when I hear your story. It took me almost a year to assume my new identity and feel more comfortable in my skin! Sending you all the love and positivity ❤️
Jenn you got this! I remember the first month of motherhood is so so hard! Stick to the basics, safe baby, some food, some sleep…and a hot shower if you have time! Enjoy all the precious little moments, they DO grow up so fast 😻🥺✌️
I've been following your pregnancy journey, but this is the first time I'm commenting 😊 thank you so much for sharing ALL of it 💜 - Someone who is deathly afraid of giving birth, but considering it as a possibility in the future.
I love how open and realistic you are! I feel like when moms transition into motherhood for the first time they don't talk about how weird it feels knowing you're this new person and you've this new huge responsibility I love how you touched that subject! I'm not a mom yet but whenever I think about having kids in the future this is something I often think about. Congrats on this new journey ❤️
I love how you documented your journey with pregnancy and all that. I used to be very scared of pregnancy and having a kid itself, but when you shared your story with everyone I felt a little bit better.
I love how raw Jenn has been throughout her motherhood journey. I never related to other pregnancy vlogs since they made everything so enjoyable and pregnancy terrifies me. So Jenn being honest of any thoughts she has or struggles she faces has been very comforting.
Transitions are so hard Jenn! Highly recommend looking into transition coping mechanisms, or research on it! It’s helped me feel less out of place and embrace the interims in my life ❤️ sending you love
Be kind to yourself, its been 5 years since i had my son and finally conceived my second 7 months ago. You will never be the same person, but everything is so worth it. One day i hope i will have a clear identity for myself, But until then i am living my daggy mum life.
I always appreciate how you view things in life especially what you are going through. Though it might take you awhile to get to where your current mental state is at, you never say "snap out of it". Instead you pay attention, try to understand and hear yourself. I have learned so much from you as to how to cope with negative thoughts in my head and try to listen to thoughts instead of forcing it to an end. Thanks for being so authentically you and keeping us posted on your little family 🤍
I cannot stress this enough: your candid conversations about who you are and your experience as a mother are so refreshing! Thank you for your honesty and sharing your work through self-reflection!
Oh jenn you are soooo not alone there. Being born as a mother is such a raw and tender time. I never cried more in my life than the first year of having my little one. It really kicked my butt.
Your mom is the definition of a grandma and I know your baby boy will grow up to appreciate and love her for what she does. Especially when he has something to look back on in the future.
You’re doing amazing and not alone! I pumped strictly for a month and half and after that i stopped and my mental health has never been better. Formula is where it’s at for me. We’re good moms trying our best everyday! 💙☺️
Postpartum anxiety isn’t talked about as much as postpartum depression is so it’s nice to hear you talk about how postpartum can look different in different people. Blessings to your family ✨🕊
Motherhood truly looks so beautiful on you! I remember the early days of clothes encounters before you moved up north. Crazy how time flies! I love seeing this stage of your life the most ❤️ thank you so much for sharing
I had the worst postpartum depression and I didn’t know it. It was like, how the heck am I going to take care of another human being? How does that even work? Those were the voices in my head. I hated it and I felt like I would be so cold as a mom. I went through it for 6-8 months after my baby was born. I didn’t know who I was and what I was going to be after the baby. I felt like used goods that no one wanted, ugly and gross. It was so so bad. It gets better but the reality is it just downright sucks. You’re doing awesome and your baby will be fine, I promise. Stay strong and take care 💜 sending you all the positivity 🙏🏻 and prayers.
FTM to a beautiful 3.5 month old and defiantley felt this! Nothing could have prepapred me for how challenging those first few months are - I really struggled with the breastfeeding and just anxious 24/7! Being gentle with yourself is the best thing you can do! Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing
I love how open and honest you are about your feelings. Makes me feel less guilty of how I felt after giving birth regarding changes and losing a version of myself. Thank you for this!
You are such a beautiful Mama Jenn! I completely agree that meditation can completely change your outlook on life. It is such a great start to your day. I’m so glad your Mama is there to help out❤️
I appreciate the very raw emotions and mental health awareness that you're sharing to the world. Post-partum care is so important and not enough people are comfortable enough to talk about it!
Mom of an 18 month year old now and I had a pretty low supply throughout 17 months of nursing her and she refused formula…luckily she got through the first 4 months with just enough to keep her healthy and once we introduced purées…she started gaining more weight and reach average to slightly above in weight! You’re doing amazing and will get through it and it’ll feel like it whizzed by! Love your videos!
I’m so amazed and encouraged by you… I mean I always was, but now even more because I’m a mom as well. Thank you for vlogging and editing in a time where you have to be on the clock for Lennon and your family! I love how uplifting and gracious you are to yourself!! Learning so much from your wisdom and strength… always!! You’re amazing!!! Don’t let anyone especially the voices inside of us that speak nothing but lies to bring us down. Thank you Jenn!!! Your glowing as a mama, wife, and still as a sister and friend to all of us💗💗
Super thankful i found your vlog. I'm 13weeks pregnant and so much is going on with my mind. Seeing you cope up with the struggles within and seeing you now so happy and thankful makes me think I can surpass these negative things on my mind too. God bless you and Lennon and Ben. Keep inspiring us!
Girl I feel you in every sense of our metamorphosis. I am currently 5.5 months pregnant and I feel like I’m grieving my old self already and it scares me. There’s a lot of things I enjoy like writing and reading and going to coffee shops and book stores and it just makes me feel like I won’t be able to do those things no more, I know it’s not the end of the world for me but a new beginning and I can’t wait for the moment where I will get to share the things I love and enjoy with my little guy. I’m scared but anxious and excited. I am afraid of postpartum depression as I am currently going through waves of ups and downs. But I keep telling myself I’ll be alright.
Worry is like a rocking chair, you get nowhere fast, is what I try to say to myself haha. Wishing you health and calm days, you will be more than alright, try to enjoy this time :) hugs.
Thank you for being so honest about your experience. It is so refreshing. Everything is still so new so give it time. You are so beautiful inside and out.
Thank you for being so candid sharing about your postpartum journey so far! I'm a first time mom to a 6 month old, an exclusive pumper and under supplier, and I have totally described that "homesick" feeling to my husband before, often while pumping, obsessing over my supply, and mourning my "old self" . I will say that that feeling evolved as 5 months rolled around and I started feeling more like "myself" again. Keep going mama, you are doing an incredible job! Eventually you will pump less frequently and will be so rewarded watching Lennon grow. Looking forward to seeing how your life and identity evolves as your postpartum journey continues.
Jenn Ive been following you for so long and I feel like I want to support you as much as possible and I enjoy these vlogs even tho I never even thought of having a child myself! 😂 I watch all the ads, sponsorships (you go girl!) and you are so relatable with talking about your struggles! even if our life situations couldnt differ more I can relate so much to you! Dont put pressure on yourself to film and enjoy it all! :) lots of support to you, Ben and your awesome mom!
Dear Jenn I’m a teenager starting to work and I too feel like I want to be the old person I was or go back to school or Uni I felt it was just me who felt that but hearing you say that eased my mind. Thank you for saying that you’re an amazing mother and you’ll be an amazing mother. If he grows up and see all of this I bet he’ll be so proud of all of you .
Being a mom is so hard. You’ll get through it! I know it may feel never ending, but the newborn phase does end. It does get better. Just wanted to say, your pumped milk is liquid gold. So when you was holding it without a cap, it gave me so much anxiety LOL. I exclusively pumped for 13 months, so I understand the struggle. Also, I’m glad that your mom is staying to help. Your village is so important during the newborn phase ❤️
The first 2 months were really really hard for me. I exclusively pumped along with nursing too. I swear i cried every single day for the first 2 months questioning whether this was meant for me or maybe I wasnt cut out to to be a mom. Then one day things got easier, my anxiety eased, we got a little more of a routine, he started sleeping better and my confidence blossomed. You and Ben are doing amazing. Lennon is a lucky dude.
Might be different for Lennon but my daughter only ever fed for 10-15 minutes at a time and I did that exclusively for a year. She always stopped when she was full
You’re doing an amazing job! Don’t stress about feeling like yourself again. It will happen when it’s supposed to happen. Give yourself all the grace. Glad you have your mom’s help too! It really takes a village!
When we had our first baby in 2019, I cried all the time. We had multiple losses for two years prior so I was expecting to be nothing but happy, but I cried worrying I had ruined my life because suddenly everything was soo different. My baby cried a lot so I thought something was wrong with him. I didn’t produce enough milk but cried at the thought of supplementing since it made me feel like a failure. I cried at the lack of sleep and lack of schedule. I cried every time it started to get dark dreading how the night will go. I didn’t believe anyone when they said it will get better, but it did. It got soo much better.
" I cried every time it started to get dark dreading how the night will go" yeah been there with the night dread and it def got better after a few months :) It's incredible what you can go through and survive and thrive. The human model is quite resilient.
You are doing amazing!!! Do not let anything or anyone make you feel bad for feeling the growing pains of motherhood. It's so different for every mom. It took me about a year after my 1st one. Once I went back to work and I started feeling like I have other roles in my life besides being a mom, I felt like myself again but a better and more badass version. Baby Lennon is soooo adorable 😍
Hi Jen, I just want to say how much I appreciate your honesty about the feelings of being a new mother, as well as how hard it is to adjust to this new role. I feel sometimes nobody talks about the hard days, as they will be judged, but I think it's important to acknowledge that it's not easy and new mothers are not alone, or "bad mother's" if they feel that way, and that it's ok that we miss our lives before having kids. Anyways, just want to say I appreciate that and you are doing amazing :-)
Nobody talks about it really but it happens to so many parents, I agree, this candid peek into her journey of motherhood resonates with my own experiences and definitely makes me feel better at least in my own mind :)
i am still single but watching this video makes me wanna cry!! You're definitely on the right(best) track to recover and life will be much much easier a few more months later! Also thanks for reminding that I should cherish myself for being a carefree person, instead of seeing myself as lonely or any other more negative way to describe this stage. No matter what happens in life, embrace it, enjoy it, every experience has its own meaning.
This vlog feels like a friend holding your hand as you're also on a baby journey yourself. Thank you 🧡 And you're doing incredible, make sure to give yourself credit, this is quite an experience!
I watched this video 3 hours ago when it was released and felt super bad about not leaving a comment when I had so many thoughts in my head. I don’t fully understand what you are going through during this postpartum stage and all of the changes you are experiencing in the moment, but I hope you can remember all of the light ahead of you in the future🤍 sending all my love to you!
Jennn!! Thank you for sharing your journey with us! It's crazy that a year ago, when we worked together, your life was so different. So excited to follow your journey as a mum, you've really opened my eyes, to see how strong and caring mothers are! Lennon is so insanely precious. Hope we can shoot together soon to document these beautiful times, and with Lennon! 😍❤️ (I was born year of the ox, like Lennon too!!)
Identity shift was one of the toughest for me. So glad you are able to separate from your thoughts and create more space for peace within this season of change. I don’t think I was quite prepared for it so when it hit, I got dragged a little bit. Almost 9 months out now and things are going really good. The babies also get infinitely better at all the things; eating, sleeping and being realllllly stinkin cute!
Thank you for being so open, raw and real. I'm nowhere close to being a mum but there need to be more videos like this that shed light on the reality of being a new mum. You are doing such a great job, just keep going!
Every single word you've talked about your feelings postpartum, I was nodding n nodding, I'm like yes yes yes exactly I feel you... I also felt so left alone during that postpartum months. So I LOVE that Ben stayed so positive for you, you were just smiling at him when he was talking, that is so so beautiful! The support from your partner is so important and it is so hard to realize it before having kids. We love you as always, and I feel you're already a superwoman, wow, pumping, vlogging, editing, breastfeeding... wow... Too much to say, wish I can be there and take a shift rotation for you, and love you Jenn!
You are truly a light Jenn! Your little family is a joy to watch and I love how transparent you are about your journey through pregnancy and motherhood. I'm terrified of this journey for myself in the future but you give me a glimpse into the realities and I feel a lot less scared. Your vlogs are so refreshing. Thank you for letting us grow up with you.
I am 11months postpartum but still don’t feel like myself, body and mentally. But it’s so worth it to see little nugget sleeping in your arms and smiling at you. Hang in there! And when your baby calls you umma for the first time, you will cry 😆
Jen, I have to tell you something. My entire life I've been terrified of pregnancy - like I've had a legitimate psychological fear. Anytime I think too much about having a child and growing one in my belly it makes me feel sick. However, after following your journey, you've given me a different perspective that I think may have helped soften my thoughts around it. I was diagnosed with PCOS when I was 19 and have mostly not been worried if I become infertile, but I've started to feel differently. I actually think I would like to be someone's momma. So, thank you for sharing this part of you and your family's lives with us.
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Re: identity - “The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new.” - Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh
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I love this quote! x
Love this,! However, I want to acknowledge that for some, a mother is born the moment a person learns they are with child. Women who experienced miscarriages are still mothers.
The partnership between you and Ben is so beautiful. 💞 props to you for all that you do for little Lennon!
My girl Brittany! 👋 The crossover I needed!
It’s funny how all my favorites you tubers are all mommy now … and me tooo!!!
@@oohlalaseoul same haha 🤣
Aww thank you, Brittany! Seeing you and Arrow makes me so excited for future adventures.
@@imjennim Congratulations!! I love your set you went to lunch in, where is it from?🥰
I have no idea how you’re pumping, vlogging and being a mom 🤯🤯🤯 SUPERWOMAN ✨✨✨
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I love seeing new mom encouraging each other ! Love you Maya and Jenn ❤️
She has a dedicated video editor and graphics designer to make her vlogs but yes, she is a supermom 🙌
SERIOUSLY!!!!!
@@me23435 so salty lmao
the shot of the two of you sitting at the dining table, having a meal while Lennon is strapped in. MY HEART IS OVERFLOWING 😭
hii, were u the one who edited your profile photo? may I know what filter (?) did u use? I love the tone and vibess!!
We are here to support you. Your mental health is number one priority while raising child❤️
I love that you watch Jenn as well! Two of my favourite YTers!!!!
Yess, just watched your pumpkin croquette video too! Yall are adorable and now we gon get the same baby & mother content from Jenn too🧡Im so happy for all of you
Omg I love Kimono Mom and Jen! My fav RUclipsrs
WOAH , i just watched your pumpkin croquette video , didn’t know you watch jenn too !! sending loves
Two of my favorites moms on RUclips! ❤️
The way that Cheeki cuddles up on the bed with you and Lennon 🥺 Looks like she's adjusting well to being a furry sister!
Totally agree. And also the fact that she does not try to compete for attention from Jenn. Just goes to show that she is such a well loved and well adjusted doggie.
Yesss, Cheeki has been the best sister! T-T
"My identity is going through a period of growing pains." Beautifully said. Keep it up, Jenn. Lennon is so sweet. Sending love
Postpartum is really no joke. The first 2 months were the hardest for me. From latching issues, lack of sleep, and your routine being all out of wack it is definitely HARD. You are one kickass momma who despite all the hard weeks as a new mom, you’re still there showing up for yourself, your baby, and your man. Thank you for showing us all the parts of motherhood. ❤️ with love from SD
Thank you so much for this comment. The past two months have been SUCH an intense ride with highs and lows. I know things will level out with time. x
I can’t remember the entire first year with my son. There were a million tears and blood and sweat and milk and more tears. It’s a blur of depression and pain and loneliness. But I ended up becoming the best version of myself and I don’t cry for old me ever. She can stay in the past, with a hangover and stinking of cigarettes while I’m watching the sunrise at the beach, building sandcastles with the most delightful little human being I’ve ever met.
I know you will get there too and you’re doing amazing.
ahh you made me cry!
it sounds so beautiful and healthy. Im so happy for you 🤗
awww this was so beautiful
9 weeks postpartum and feeling this hard 😢 can’t wait to feel like me again. This gives me hope that eventually that time will come
@@westchuchilly hang in there, it seems impossible but you will feel like a functioning human again, I promise
I am a mom of 2. My oldest is 6. I cried when you talked about feeling home sick for who you once were. Thank you for putting that into words. Postpartum and shifting to life as a mom is so so challenging and full of growth. ❤️
Even though we know how busy you are now, you still vlog for us, you still give us your beautiful (what I call) experiences with every little detail and above all, you didn’t compromise the amazing video editing (which is something I learn from you as a youtuber) … Loving the video so far, still watching 😍😍❤️❤️
بنحبــك يا نهلـــــة ❤❤❤
We are so thankful and grateful. We love so much Jenn.
That's her job though.
Lol it’s not for us, it’s her job. Our views and clicks on her videos is a source of revenue for her lol
@@daxo7833 well I am a youtuber and I know .. but I would like to believe otherwise :)
Jenn and Ben's reactions every time they try a meal are everything. Alway, "Mmmmm! Wow!" I love it
Yeah same I do it now too haha mmmm
30 minutes of sleep 💔 I'm so glad you don't have to this alone. I don't know how I would survive on 30 minutes of sleep. Kudos to you and all the parents out there.
I'm so grateful I have the help and support to raise our little one. My heart goes out to all the parents out there too! x
Every time I watch Jenn, I feel such inner peace. I feel like I'm not alone, that the thoughts in my head won't eat me alive and that things will be okay.... in the most HONEST manner! It's such an honor growing with you, Jenn
Omg exactly my feelings! I feel so at peace when i hear Jenn. So organized and driven, but also honest and peaceful? Your videos soothes my soul for some reason.
It's so weird tht i've consistently watched jenn since middle school and now she has a literal child omg
Honey, I would recommend hanging out with mummy’s that are enjoying being a mother very much , that would help you see how much fun you can have and what a wonderful journey you are going to have with him! Thank you for sharing these precious moments and feelings with us , lots of love
Hi Jenn! Babies have a pretty good inner sense of when they are full from breastfeeding so don't feel pressured to keep Lennon latched. It's a good way for him to develop intuitive eating and build feeding cues that you might notice.
This this this! Babies are the BEST intuitive eaters and they really do know when enough is enough.
Came here to say that also!
Babies are able to get more directly from the breast than what you produce pumping, and their stomachs are so small still they know when they’re full and will nurse more often. It’s a better indicator to watch diaper output.
And try not to obsess too much about how many ounzes he ate. Every baby is different and needs a different amount at a time, looking at the medical charts can make one feel anxious and like something is wrong even if it isnt. Sending you positive vibes.
It made me nostalgic seeing you cuddle Lennon and the babywearing
I wanted to say the same. My baby breatfed for 5 min and he was done!! You can get more milk from nursing than pumping. Plus if baby gets use to bottle he may start to refuse the nipple bcz bottle flow is so much easier than having to nurse. Happened to ny friends baby. Its time consuming to keep pumping. Thank you gor sharing your rral true experience. Always look forward to ur videos.
I feel the same about my identity. I miss my old self and life every day. But mostly just the freedom. I am very much tied down to my kids and husband as a SAHM.
Jen, you make everything so relatable! I’m not a mom but I truly felt it when you said that you’ve feel nostalgic about your life before Lennon. And how you are coping with all the new changes that are happening in your life and the advice that you gave yourself can be applied to anyone in any situation. Just wanted to say that both you and Ben are doing great!
As someone who is terrified of any kind of change ( even positive ) I understand what you are going through. Postpartum especially just gets you into a dark room with no light switches , you just have to create a light within yourself , I’m glad you are taking care of your mental health !
진짜 엄마 와있으니까 엄청 든든할 것 같아요 ㅠㅠㅠ 엄마가 최고야
This is such an absolutely beautiful journey that you’ve been kind enough to share with us. New motherhood is an absolute beast, it’s true- but you’re approaching it with such grace, and such kindness, both to yourself and your family. It’s really beautiful, Jenn. We are so proud of you
I love how you are always so raw and honest. I’ve been following you for years now (before you and Ben even met) and it’s incredible seeing how life has - and still is - unfolding for you. You have always been such an inspiration to me and it’s clear how much you and Ben love little Lennon. He’s so lucky to have you two as parents.
I hope you know that we are so proud of you and Ben for being such wonderful parents already! We so proud of you two 🤍 it’s so beautiful to see the family you have created
I know how grateful the "thank you 엄마" is !!! Moms are hero!!!!
Omg he’s grown so much already! You explain postpartum so well: it’s also the acceptance of the “death” of the old you. But only temporarily if you want. You were, you are and you will be. Things change. It’s ok.
Jenn, I’m so proud of you 😭😭😭 I love how gentle you are with yourself and understanding that you can’t just snap back to your old self and you shouldn’t. It takes so much wisdom to get to this, especially we know you’ve always been such a go getter. I just can’t express how proud and grateful for you on the YT space. Love you!!!
His little sounds through the whole video, I'm so soft ❤❤ you and Ben are both doing amazing!
Awwww, cheeky is so sweet in the intro!
Jenn, it’s so refreshing and relatable listening to your new journey. I am now a mom to my 18 month old toddler, and I see flashbacks when I hear your story. It took me almost a year to assume my new identity and feel more comfortable in my skin! Sending you all the love and positivity ❤️
Jenn you got this! I remember the first month of motherhood is so so hard! Stick to the basics, safe baby, some food, some sleep…and a hot shower if you have time! Enjoy all the precious little moments, they DO grow up so fast 😻🥺✌️
I could actually just sob watching you in your mom element 😭😭😭 you have transitioned into this role so seamlessly you’re a natural! 🥲🥲🥲❤️
Thank you for sharing so openly. It's so important for young moms to be honest about how it can be a struggle.
I've been following your pregnancy journey, but this is the first time I'm commenting 😊 thank you so much for sharing ALL of it 💜
- Someone who is deathly afraid of giving birth, but considering it as a possibility in the future.
Thank you for tuning in, Lena! x
I love how open and realistic you are! I feel like when moms transition into motherhood for the first time they don't talk about how weird it feels knowing you're this new person and you've this new huge responsibility I love how you touched that subject! I'm not a mom yet but whenever I think about having kids in the future this is something I often think about. Congrats on this new journey ❤️
I have a problem with expressing myself with words. Missy you are speaking for every mother out there!
I love how you documented your journey with pregnancy and all that. I used to be very scared of pregnancy and having a kid itself, but when you shared your story with everyone I felt a little bit better.
Mommy jenn we proud of you 🤍🤍😭😭
I love how raw Jenn has been throughout her motherhood journey. I never related to other pregnancy vlogs since they made everything so enjoyable and pregnancy terrifies me. So Jenn being honest of any thoughts she has or struggles she faces has been very comforting.
Transitions are so hard Jenn! Highly recommend looking into transition coping mechanisms, or research on it! It’s helped me feel less out of place and embrace the interims in my life ❤️ sending you love
Be kind to yourself, its been 5 years since i had my son and finally conceived my second 7 months ago.
You will never be the same person, but everything is so worth it. One day i hope i will have a clear identity for myself,
But until then i am living my daggy mum life.
I always appreciate how you view things in life especially what you are going through. Though it might take you awhile to get to where your current mental state is at, you never say "snap out of it". Instead you pay attention, try to understand and hear yourself. I have learned so much from you as to how to cope with negative thoughts in my head and try to listen to thoughts instead of forcing it to an end.
Thanks for being so authentically you and keeping us posted on your little family 🤍
I cannot stress this enough: your candid conversations about who you are and your experience as a mother are so refreshing! Thank you for your honesty and sharing your work through self-reflection!
Loving Ben's positive perspective as well!
Oh jenn you are soooo not alone there. Being born as a mother is such a raw and tender time. I never cried more in my life than the first year of having my little one. It really kicked my butt.
Your mom is the definition of a grandma and I know your baby boy will grow up to appreciate and love her for what she does. Especially when he has something to look back on in the future.
You’re doing amazing and not alone! I pumped strictly for a month and half and after that i stopped and my mental health has never been better. Formula is where it’s at for me. We’re good moms trying our best everyday! 💙☺️
Postpartum anxiety isn’t talked about as much as postpartum depression is so it’s nice to hear you talk about how postpartum can look different in different people.
Blessings to your family ✨🕊
Motherhood truly looks so beautiful on you! I remember the early days of clothes encounters before you moved up north. Crazy how time flies! I love seeing this stage of your life the most ❤️ thank you so much for sharing
I had the worst postpartum depression and I didn’t know it. It was like, how the heck am I going to take care of another human being? How does that even work? Those were the voices in my head. I hated it and I felt like I would be so cold as a mom. I went through it for 6-8 months after my baby was born. I didn’t know who I was and what I was going to be after the baby. I felt like used goods that no one wanted, ugly and gross. It was so so bad. It gets better but the reality is it just downright sucks. You’re doing awesome and your baby will be fine, I promise. Stay strong and take care 💜 sending you all the positivity 🙏🏻 and prayers.
It's so easy to lose your identity, and feel like you don't belong to yourself especially in the first weeks and months, and running on no sleep.
FTM to a beautiful 3.5 month old and defiantley felt this! Nothing could have prepapred me for how challenging those first few months are - I really struggled with the breastfeeding and just anxious 24/7! Being gentle with yourself is the best thing you can do! Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing
I love how open and honest you are about your feelings. Makes me feel less guilty of how I felt after giving birth regarding changes and losing a version of myself. Thank you for this!
You are such a beautiful Mama Jenn! I completely agree that meditation can completely change your outlook on life. It is such a great start to your day. I’m so glad your Mama is there to help out❤️
Becoming a mom is the biggest mind trip!
The couch scene is the best. The way Lennon is sleeping is just so precious. So small and calm ❤️
Jenn - you give me hope that everyone is capable of being a great parent
I appreciate the very raw emotions and mental health awareness that you're sharing to the world. Post-partum care is so important and not enough people are comfortable enough to talk about it!
Mom of an 18 month year old now and I had a pretty low supply throughout 17 months of nursing her and she refused formula…luckily she got through the first 4 months with just enough to keep her healthy and once we introduced purées…she started gaining more weight and reach average to slightly above in weight! You’re doing amazing and will get through it and it’ll feel like it whizzed by! Love your videos!
I’m so amazed and encouraged by you… I mean I always was, but now even more because I’m a mom as well. Thank you for vlogging and editing in a time where you have to be on the clock for Lennon and your family! I love how uplifting and gracious you are to yourself!! Learning so much from your wisdom and strength… always!! You’re amazing!!! Don’t let anyone especially the voices inside of us that speak nothing but lies to bring us down. Thank you Jenn!!! Your glowing as a mama, wife, and still as a sister and friend to all of us💗💗
Super thankful i found your vlog. I'm 13weeks pregnant and so much is going on with my mind. Seeing you cope up with the struggles within and seeing you now so happy and thankful makes me think I can surpass these negative things on my mind too. God bless you and Lennon and Ben. Keep inspiring us!
Girl I feel you in every sense of our metamorphosis. I am currently 5.5 months pregnant and I feel like I’m grieving my old self already and it scares me. There’s a lot of things I enjoy like writing and reading and going to coffee shops and book stores and it just makes me feel like I won’t be able to do those things no more, I know it’s not the end of the world for me but a new beginning and I can’t wait for the moment where I will get to share the things I love and enjoy with my little guy. I’m scared but anxious and excited. I am afraid of postpartum depression as I am currently going through waves of ups and downs. But I keep telling myself I’ll be alright.
Worry is like a rocking chair, you get nowhere fast, is what I try to say to myself haha. Wishing you health and calm days, you will be more than alright, try to enjoy this time :) hugs.
Thank you for being so honest about your experience. It is so refreshing. Everything is still so new so give it time. You are so beautiful inside and out.
i hope you and your family always happy and healthy
Watching your vlogs are so calming.
jen you literally are GLOWING as a person! i know it may be hard for you to see, but you honestly look beautiful both inside and out.
Thank you for being so candid sharing about your postpartum journey so far! I'm a first time mom to a 6 month old, an exclusive pumper and under supplier, and I have totally described that "homesick" feeling to my husband before, often while pumping, obsessing over my supply, and mourning my "old self" . I will say that that feeling evolved as 5 months rolled around and I started feeling more like "myself" again. Keep going mama, you are doing an incredible job! Eventually you will pump less frequently and will be so rewarded watching Lennon grow. Looking forward to seeing how your life and identity evolves as your postpartum journey continues.
Watching this while I pump and my newborn naps. ☺️ Having a new little human really does change your whole world but it’s so rewarding. 🤍
Jenn Ive been following you for so long and I feel like I want to support you as much as possible and I enjoy these vlogs even tho I never even thought of having a child myself! 😂 I watch all the ads, sponsorships (you go girl!) and you are so relatable with talking about your struggles! even if our life situations couldnt differ more I can relate so much to you! Dont put pressure on yourself to film and enjoy it all! :) lots of support to you, Ben and your awesome mom!
Ahh you're too sweet! Thank you, Ola! This message means so much. x
Dear Jenn I’m a teenager starting to work and I too feel like I want to be the old person I was or go back to school or Uni I felt it was just me who felt that but hearing you say that eased my mind. Thank you for saying that you’re an amazing mother and you’ll be an amazing mother. If he grows up and see all of this I bet he’ll be so proud of all of you .
Being a mom is so hard. You’ll get through it! I know it may feel never ending, but the newborn phase does end. It does get better. Just wanted to say, your pumped milk is liquid gold. So when you was holding it without a cap, it gave me so much anxiety LOL. I exclusively pumped for 13 months, so I understand the struggle. Also, I’m glad that your mom is staying to help. Your village is so important during the newborn phase ❤️
Respect to you for being so honest and transparent!!
The first 2 months were really really hard for me. I exclusively pumped along with nursing too. I swear i cried every single day for the first 2 months questioning whether this was meant for me or maybe I wasnt cut out to to be a mom. Then one day things got easier, my anxiety eased, we got a little more of a routine, he started sleeping better and my confidence blossomed. You and Ben are doing amazing. Lennon is a lucky dude.
Might be different for Lennon but my daughter only ever fed for 10-15 minutes at a time and I did that exclusively for a year. She always stopped when she was full
My baby only fed for about 5 minutes on one boob at a time and he was growing perfectly with that!
You’re doing an amazing job! Don’t stress about feeling like yourself again. It will happen when it’s supposed to happen. Give yourself all the grace. Glad you have your mom’s help too! It really takes a village!
When we had our first baby in 2019, I cried all the time. We had multiple losses for two years prior so I was expecting to be nothing but happy, but I cried worrying I had ruined my life because suddenly everything was soo different. My baby cried a lot so I thought something was wrong with him. I didn’t produce enough milk but cried at the thought of supplementing since it made me feel like a failure. I cried at the lack of sleep and lack of schedule. I cried every time it started to get dark dreading how the night will go. I didn’t believe anyone when they said it will get better, but it did. It got soo much better.
" I cried every time it started to get dark dreading how the night will go" yeah been there with the night dread and it def got better after a few months :) It's incredible what you can go through and survive and thrive. The human model is quite resilient.
You are doing amazing!!! Do not let anything or anyone make you feel bad for feeling the growing pains of motherhood. It's so different for every mom. It took me about a year after my 1st one. Once I went back to work and I started feeling like I have other roles in my life besides being a mom, I felt like myself again but a better and more badass version. Baby Lennon is soooo adorable 😍
little Lennon is the sweetest and he is having the best parents ever! cant wait to see him growing up
Hi Jen, I just want to say how much I appreciate your honesty about the feelings of being a new mother, as well as how hard it is to adjust to this new role. I feel sometimes nobody talks about the hard days, as they will be judged, but I think it's important to acknowledge that it's not easy and new mothers are not alone, or "bad mother's" if they feel that way, and that it's ok that we miss our lives before having kids. Anyways, just want to say I appreciate that and you are doing amazing :-)
Nobody talks about it really but it happens to so many parents, I agree, this candid peek into her journey of motherhood resonates with my own experiences and definitely makes me feel better at least in my own mind :)
I love how beautiful you are inside and out. And especially your no makeup looks. Gorgeous x the honesty. Thank you for sharing
i am still single but watching this video makes me wanna cry!! You're definitely on the right(best) track to recover and life will be much much easier a few more months later! Also thanks for reminding that I should cherish myself for being a carefree person, instead of seeing myself as lonely or any other more negative way to describe this stage. No matter what happens in life, embrace it, enjoy it, every experience has its own meaning.
This vlog feels like a friend holding your hand as you're also on a baby journey yourself. Thank you 🧡 And you're doing incredible, make sure to give yourself credit, this is quite an experience!
I love how family first you guys are, Ben really put it in perspective at the end there. It's truly beautiful!
Thank you for being so honest. I feel a lot of the same feelings right now. Good to see I'm not alone. Thanks for sharing.
I watched this video 3 hours ago when it was released and felt super bad about not leaving a comment when I had so many thoughts in my head. I don’t fully understand what you are going through during this postpartum stage and all of the changes you are experiencing in the moment, but I hope you can remember all of the light ahead of you in the future🤍 sending all my love to you!
you don't know how much you have change my life to the better jen! GOD blessed you!
Jennn!! Thank you for sharing your journey with us! It's crazy that a year ago, when we worked together, your life was so different. So excited to follow your journey as a mum, you've really opened my eyes, to see how strong and caring mothers are! Lennon is so insanely precious. Hope we can shoot together soon to document these beautiful times, and with Lennon! 😍❤️ (I was born year of the ox, like Lennon too!!)
Always loved how jenn speaks and explains her thought process. Alot of things she says most pple can relate. Love u jenn!!
It’s absolutely adorable that Lennon opens his mouth when Jenn takes the first bite of the soup!
after bearing months of pain when the kid is finally out its feels great
Louise Hay is the shit. I didn’t have a nurturing mom but Louise is someone who has mothered me and helped my anxiety and self worth
Identity shift was one of the toughest for me. So glad you are able to separate from your thoughts and create more space for peace within this season of change. I don’t think I was quite prepared for it so when it hit, I got dragged a little bit. Almost 9 months out now and things are going really good. The babies also get infinitely better at all the things; eating, sleeping and being realllllly stinkin cute!
I love how real you are. Not trying to act like having a baby is always wonderful and easy. I think that helps lots of moms out there. 👏🏼👏🏼
You and Ben both look so complete and content. Wishing your peaceful family an everlasting happiness Jen! :)
For something so natural, being a Mom can be awfully difficult. Just know that your Baby is always grateful to have you 💖
Thank you for being so open, raw and real. I'm nowhere close to being a mum but there need to be more videos like this that shed light on the reality of being a new mum. You are doing such a great job, just keep going!
Every single word you've talked about your feelings postpartum, I was nodding n nodding, I'm like yes yes yes exactly I feel you... I also felt so left alone during that postpartum months. So I LOVE that Ben stayed so positive for you, you were just smiling at him when he was talking, that is so so beautiful! The support from your partner is so important and it is so hard to realize it before having kids. We love you as always, and I feel you're already a superwoman, wow, pumping, vlogging, editing, breastfeeding... wow... Too much to say, wish I can be there and take a shift rotation for you, and love you Jenn!
Jenn just want to say I am very impressed by your commitment to uploading even with a newborn. Love seeing these precious moments!!
You are truly a light Jenn! Your little family is a joy to watch and I love how transparent you are about your journey through pregnancy and motherhood. I'm terrified of this journey for myself in the future but you give me a glimpse into the realities and I feel a lot less scared. Your vlogs are so refreshing. Thank you for letting us grow up with you.
Lennon's baby babbles are soooo sweet! Making my heart melt 🥺
I am 11months postpartum but still don’t feel like myself, body and mentally. But it’s so worth it to see little nugget sleeping in your arms and smiling at you. Hang in there! And when your baby calls you umma for the first time, you will cry 😆
Jen, I have to tell you something. My entire life I've been terrified of pregnancy - like I've had a legitimate psychological fear. Anytime I think too much about having a child and growing one in my belly it makes me feel sick. However, after following your journey, you've given me a different perspective that I think may have helped soften my thoughts around it. I was diagnosed with PCOS when I was 19 and have mostly not been worried if I become infertile, but I've started to feel differently. I actually think I would like to be someone's momma. So, thank you for sharing this part of you and your family's lives with us.