I don't get why people say that being gay is like a sign of the demon. It makes no sense, you don't choose it, it's just who you are. I'm only 10 and I already know that I am gay and everyone makes fun of me for that. I was in the same situation, I wanted to end it all, I still feel like doing it no one likes me I am invisible to everyone, even my parents every night I stay up and cry. My birthday is the worst everybody at school says "1 more year closer to death Nick" and it annoys me so much.
Nicholas I'm sorry to here that your going through such a hard time. Remember that you won't have to deal with those people who tease you all your life. Most of them do it because their afraid of not being liked themselves. Don't let other people make you feel bad about yourself. YOU Are a good and loveable person.
This may not mean anything to you but I don't hate you and I never will hate you:) You are a great person!! If other people have a problem with the way you were born, then forget them. I recently came out to myself as gay, I still have yet to tell anyone but I'm just waiting for the right time and when I feel most comfortable doing it. I know that I'm just a stranger replying to a comment through a computer screen but I still hope to make you feel even the slightest bit better. Even if other people say that about your birthday, don't listen to them! Your birthday is not just another closer to death so never think that! I like to think of it as another year that you have lived and that's a beautiful thing. If other people have a problem with something about you, that doesn't mean that anything is wrong with you, that means that they have issues of there own that they need to work on. Those people are negatively affecting themselves. No one who is fully confident and happy would ever say stuff like that to an amazing 10 year old kid. I, myself, am really afraid of the day when I finally do come out to someone because I'm afraid of losing people that I love but I realized that if anyone stops loving you simply because you are the way that you are, then those people never really loved you in the first place. It's the people that don't care and still love you afterwards that are your true friends and family and those are the people that you want in your life. And if you can't find any right now, don't worry because you are very young and someday you will find people that are just like you:) There's a ton of people on youtube that are gay and lesbian and I hope that you can watch those people and that they will make you happy and you can relate to them:D sorry that this comment was so long but i hope that it helped and if you ever want to talk about anything, feel free to message me on here because I would gladly listen if you wanted to:) I hope you have a wonderful day!
Amber Paige Amber, I know exactly how you feel. I struggled with my sexual identity for years and felt as if I could never be a "real man" because I was gay. Admitting it to yourself is the first step in moving on with a happy life. When you are ready, you will take the next step of confiding with a close friend. Don't lock yourself in a prison of insecurity and self hatred. The longer you keep this bottled up, the worse you will NEEDLESSLY tear yourself down. I looked at myself as an embarrassment to my family and everything I was associated with. I only wanted to be "normal" and I wanted to live a "normal" life. The result was to merely make my life a private hell. The longer I hid, the harder it was to come out. The most difficult thing I ever did in my life was to tell my...SON...that I am gay. I was absolutely terrified to tell him. I just knew that he would be humiliated and I would destroy his life. I eventually found the courage to send a text him to tell him I needed to speak with him about something. For an entire week I was trying to talk myself out of telling him and I thought of lies to say what it was I needed to talk about, rather than to tell him what it really was I needed to tell. I could not look him in the eyes, but somehow I managed to utter the words, I am gay. He gave me the biggest hug I think I've ever gotten from him and he told me "You are my dad, I love you no matter what. This changes nothing between us." I'm not ashamed to admit I broke down in tears. The years of self deprecation and emotions came flowing out. My coming out has been the best decision I've ever made and my experience has been nothing but positive. I've treated myself far worse than anyone I know. Don't do that to yourself. People love you and WILL accept you unconditionally.
mtbkbmt Aww that's a beautiful story :) And I have actually told 3 people now!:D Its only been three days since I've wrote that comment but I have actually told 3 people now and I found that I feel a lot better than I used to all of them were cool with it when I told them and it was like they didn't even care ya know like it didn't change anything and that's what i was hoping for because it shouldn't have to change anything soon I do want to tell a few of my best friends and I think that'll go just fine because I know how they feel about the whole "gay" thing and they don't care so I know that they won't care and I am glad that I have those people around me and in my life to make it a whole lot easier:) Their are some people like maybe a few of my cousins or some people on my dad's side of the family that won't really like or won't understand it but I don't care because if anyone doesn't like or love me as much or doesn't want to be around me anymore simply because I am the way that I am then those people never really loved me in the first place and I don't need people like that in my life:)
Sorry to hear that, it really does get better; hang in there little dude. Try to find other guys your age in your area who are the same way so you have a support system (and be careful of older guys who want to do stuff with you, I'd really encourage you only to look for friends at this point). It's really difficult but you will be a much stronger person at the end of it. There are many people out there who you can turn to for support, don't be afraid to ask for help, support, a shoulder to cry on (over the internet)
As a fellow survivor of suicidal thoughts, I wanted to congratulate you for coming out the other side and for taking your darkest moment and turning it into a gift of light you are offering others. You are a real blessing to this world that needs all the blessings it can get.
What a fantastic and inspiring video. I am a retired cop and I can't tell you how many young men I have had to talk out of jumping, pulling the trigger or punching a blade who, when I opened myself to them, confessed to me similar things you just stated. I still know a couple of them and I think the world would be a duller place without them just as I am sure it would be without you. Have a good life, enjoy it because it isn't all that long and you shouldn't waste it worrying about what others think. It is amazing how diverse the world actually is. And, the world can always use another good doctor too, pre-med right?
You seem like an amazing human being and I want to thank you for helping those people! May Allah (SWT) bless you and give you all the happiness in the world ❤️
You're a beautiful person. The fact that you want to use your tears to wash away the pain of others makes you an amazing human being. How much better the world would be with more people like you in it. Be strong, be happy and know that you're always loved.
Hi, I just saw your this video today. First let me say I just came out to my family this year. I was scared to death but, they were all loving and supportive. I've known from 7th grand and I am now 61. I've been scared to come out my whole life. Now I want to make a video on RUclips not so much a coming out video but more of a what not to do. Waiting so long made me realize what I gave up in my life, Being truly happy. Earlier today I was all set up to do the video. I just froze and started thinking what's the point. I shut everything off and just said "forget it". Then I saw this video and it gave me hope again. The only friend I have that is truly understanding and knows everything about me lives far away now so there is nobody here to talk to. thank you for this video. I completely understand what you went through. And you gave me the spark I needed to do the video.
Matthew, I'm part of the LGBTQ+ community and I cant even believe how much I can relate to this video. I've struggled with sexuality and gender identity, and I'm still not 100% sure about who I am. This is extremely inspiring and you're great. Thank you.
You are a very brave young man. I have been watching your videos for YEARS because I always felt something "positive". It pleases me that you have discovered and embraced who you are and have offered yourself to others who may be struggling. On to life!!!
Matthew, re-watching this video after seeing the Instagram photo of Michael proposing to you just shows how far you have come in four years. Take stock in that. All the pain and growth has brought you to a place where you have found love, happiness and acceptance. I am so proud of you.
This was one of the first coming out videos I saw when I finally just started accepting myself last year and it had a huge impact on me . I couldn't stop tearing as I heard your story as it resembled the way I felt all through high school . To come back nearly a year later and see it again after I went through my own journey with my family and close friends it still is one of the biggest impacts of all the videos I saw because It's raw and showed me I'm not alone so I can now say something the first time around I was to scared to say thank you so much for sharing your story it has helped me greatly and I know if it helped me it has helped others.
This is the first coming out video I had ever watched and it was such an eye-opener to what life I could have. Because of you Matthew Schueller, I have decided to come out and I couldn't be more comfortable with myself! :) I'm proud of myself for doing it and I'm especially proud of you for making this video because if you EVER think that your videos don't have any impact on people's lives then look back at this comment, without you and your boyfriend I would be so lost. I can't thank you enough Matt, you and your boyfriend deserve the world :)
It made me so happy when you mentioned asexuality. So many people have no idea that it evens exists, and the fact that you recognized it made me ecstatic.
MATTHEW -- I love your communication skills, your psychological awareness, your passion and your honesty not only about your story, but about your emotions in the moment. You just put it all out there in the open for us. At almost 70 years old (growing up in the 1950's and 60's), I recognized the pain in your story. And you absolutely NAILED the core issue as LEARNING TO LOVE OURSELVES for who we are. Thanks so much. -- LOVE, Donald (a Texan living in Great Britain)
I'm so happy that you did Matthew...I know this is a long time ago 2013, when you made this video but I really think that your coming out can help so many people who are gay and need to feel that they are not alone. So well done, you are very brave !
You're amazing! Seeing this made me happy. I hope more people can realize that sexuality is fluid, and can one day feel comfortable to accept who they are. No one should be put through the torment of hiding their true selves, it makes no sense to me. My mind can't process the fact that society still sees being gay as wrong. Keep doing what you're doing! I hope you're happy and smiling each and every day; you're really making a difference in people's lives
I randomly came across your video and I must say kudos! You did a great job in portraying the emotions and showing people, regardless of their sexuality, of how difficult it is for an LGBT teenager to come out. You also carried the most important message, I believe, that acceptance comes from ones inner self. We haveto love, accept, and embrace ourselves in order for others to be able to see of how amazing and normal we are and do the same. I am openly gay and an active member of the HRC Campaign, the It Gets Better campaign, and the Trevor's project. Our community needs more people like you who are strong and are willing to pass on their positive spirit onto others. Great job! Keep it coming!
So proud of you for making this video!! This will help so many other people who are going through what you went through. I myself am gay and have a huge support from my family and friends. We are all made to be who we are. I applaud you and happy I found you on RUclips today. Much love and support!
Thank you for sharing this with us. I just came out as a gay Christian in January (not to my parents or officially to my church family). Being vulnerable is hard and you were so brave for telling your story...this will help other Christians who are struggling with coming out.
You made the right choice not to use jump cuts. The sincerity and intensity of your monologue make your story uncommonly compelling. Thank you for helping to turn the flywheel to help the cause.
I've watched this a couple of times before; no doubt I'll watch it again. This video is simply brilliant. It's comforting... somedays I get caught up in life and forget who I am. It's nice to be told that being who I am is perfectly fine; even though I know that, it's great to be reassured. So, thank you. So much.
Bravo for coming out. Brave, smart, and cute. Welcome to the world where there are LOTS just like you. I My self have housed many teens who received the worse side of coming out. That being the parents tossed them out on to the street. I clothed, fed, housed, educated them all for free and no strings attached. Now that I am getting too old to do that I hope there are others out there who will do that. Best wishes to you. And dont let the haters get you down. They will blast you, hate you, etc. But there are Many many more out there just like you. Be well and be healthy.
Literally, that is what I went through. I prayed to God every night that I would be straight, because I didn't want to be a abomination, and I literally would cry myself to sleep every night because God hated me. My foster parents had raised me against gays because my biological mother is gay, and it was really difficult. I tried to hide. I hated myself, and yes, I was planning to end my life, but someone told me that they loved me, and would never leave me no matter what. That was a new friend. Then my freshman year in high school, I decided to come out to a few people, and they were like really? Duh, we already knew, we accept you. But I didn't come out to my best friend until I was in my junior year. And it was the hardest thing in the world because we were raised in a Christian church, and I was scared of how she'd react. I really was, and she told me that she knew, and that she still loved me, and then she hugged me. That was it. I came out to my foster parents like 2 months later, and.. It was hard. I cried just trying to tell them, and my mom is a deeply Christian woman, and she said to me baby, I will love you mo matter what. I might not approve of it, but I will always love you. That was it. My dad still doesn't know. My Oldest brother doesn't know. But my Older sister, and my other older brother know, and I can talk to them about it because they accept me for who I am. It was difficult. But I am here to inspire people, and you can talk to me. I am here.
I hear you man. I think the hardest part about coming out is trying to explain to religious people (and yourself- especially if you're religious, like myself) that being who God made you be is not a sin. That is what's hard, because many don't want to listen and understand and it's frustrating.
I have to agree with everything timoteo said. As someone who hid in the closet and denied his sexuality for 30 years, I want to commend you for coming out and coming to terms with yourself. Don't let anyone ever drive you back into the closet!
I have come back to this video for months. I am probably at least a thousand of the views on this. I just love it. It is so real. And so accurate. Love.
Congratulations !!!! Everyone should think that way. The only thing that everyone should keep in mind is that we should be proud of who we are. Be happy because you are perfect the way you are.
You are very brave for sharing this video and this aspect of your life. Bravo and congratulations. Keep believing in yourself and all that you offer to those around you and online. Be proud of yourself and lead a life that makes you happy. Don't worry about those who don't believe in you or who don't respect you. They do not deserve to have you in their life. You deserve to be who you are and to be happy!!!
i have been there before. i have struggled with my own demons and it's something that i am still struggling with. i want you to know that you are a beautiful person, inside and out. stay strong and continue to be yourself :)
I grew up in a very different time and a very, very different world, yet I can identify with so much of what you had to say. The part about looking in the mirror and hating what you saw, because what you were seeing was wrong, wrong, wrong in the eyes of so many. Boy could I identify with that. You are a gorgeous young man and there is nothing about you to feel ashamed of. So glad to see where you are at with it all. Lots of love to you. Pete (55 years old and went through that sort of torment in the very unforgiving world of the 80's)
It's 2015 and there's still homophobes out there and it genuinely makes me so sad because all those homophobes are against the way someone is. They would be so mad and hurt if a homosexual hated them being straight and I think that people need to think about that before they make a homophobic comment etc - If a gay person said something horrible about you being staright, how would you feel? I'm so glad that so many people are comfortable with who they are and are able to tell people about it and have love and support and just know that if you're struggling with your sexuality, you do not need a label! You don't need to say 'I'm bi' or 'I'm staright'. I know someone andI've only ever known her to date girls but she has several photos of Justin Bieber on her phone and yes, she fangirls😂, but she doesn't say she's bisexual, she just says she's not straight. She's her and that's all that matters! You're all awesome and beautiful no matter what your sexuality, colour, gender etc!
I agree with 'David's Vlog' comment above. Booshoe, this is the best coming out video on RUclips. Truly amazing. You are a great example. Very proud of you, even though I don't know you.
I'm really proud of you for making this video matt. Although this does not in any way affect my perception of you and I still think you are amazing the way you are, I feel as though this video would truly give hope to those who are struggling now. You're an inspiration matt, no matter what others label you. Congratulations for being you xxxxx
Great coming out story. I am glad that you have overcome all your personal issues. Honestly, your story has struck a chord with me. I went through the same process. I thought I was a mistake, and that life was not worth living. But for my parents, who I love, I wouldnt be writing this comment on your video. Thankfully we are in the 21st century and we can celebrate sexual diversity and love at its varied ways. Kudos to encouraging other people facing the same issues. Cheers from Brazil @danilo_ribeiro21
In my opinion this is the most relatable and real coming out story and video I've ever seen. You're amazing and truly an inspiration. Thank you so much
Matthew that was so powerful and personal. It was courageous and compassionate to a degree that is so rare. You are so rare and amazing and beautiful. Your message really affected me and it was exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you for giving me new hope and inspiration to move forward. You honor your family and I am sure they couldn't be prouder off this brilliant person they brought into the world. Keep being awesome. Not to sound goofy but Matthew for President of the whole world.
Omg this made me cry. I'm not gay but I totally 1000% support you and what your do to your community and possibly the hole world. (BIG HUGS) keep going you guys hugs and kisses -Nicole
You're a brave boy and you are beautiful. Don't let anybody tell you otherwise. Coming out is a difficult process. Your story is very touching and I am pleased you re here with us to tell it. I hope you truly find happiness. xx
i know how u feel ..n ya im struggling myself with coming with my parents n...im really afraid to come out....i got bullied n stuff.. just so afraid....
I'm the same, i feel you, i know what it's like, I KNOW you, as i am the same. I have constantly felt the same, and only this year have i come out. "Praying the gay away" was a phrase i constantly felt like i had to uphold. Even the people that I went to church with, people I had known for basically the entirety of my existence don't know. The one time I felt the need to bring up the topic of being gay, the person who i had done church plays, of course unaware, said that "God would help them through it". My heart shattered. I became incredulous, angry, frustrated, and most of all, hurt. I understand it all, every little bit of it. Your story was my own with only a few minor changes. You are not alone. I have accepted that I am not alone. Loving myself is no longer impossible. Loving YOURSELF is no longer impossible. Because if I can love you, you can love yourself. But there are so many others out there like us who have yet to hear this message and are afraid. THAT is why I'm so glad you shared your story. So at the end you, me, and all the others like us can stand up tall and speak the words, "I'm gay and I'm proud!" with no quiver, with no hesitation, with no fear, with no anxiety; only pride. That is the dream I see slowly becoming reality as i listen to your powerful words; as I gaze at the emotion that plays across your disposition. So thank you. And remember: You are not alone.
Dude you are so amazing like you even made me cry because your story is so heart breaking and i can most definatly relate to some of it... But I was a broken condom and also I'm bisexual so BIG mistake there but i am sorta getting over it.. Unluckily for me i dipise therapy probibly because i have trust issues with it :/
H9i Booshoe37, You came out and its not so bad. I spent many many years threw my younger years that I would cover it up and I came out after my Loving parents were already dead. You are a beautiful guy and now that you have come out, move on and help others. We don't need any more suisides, I wish I had met a young guy and be in love, but 3 years ago I met my future hubby and were getting married and I am so happy, I met some one who is gay too. You do not need to change either, and move on with your life, find yourself a guy that will be your companion for many years to come. Every gay man's life is awesome and just move on and help others now. take care, Dave
Wow. I really feel so touched now. I got really emotional with your story and your boyfriend's story. I have never realized this pain, although I'm gay. I always knew who I was and never felt anything like ashamed of myself. Yeah, of course, I felt different, but nothing like that. My family was amazingly supportive, I felt safe from this very moment and that helped me seeing myself as more than a sexuality. So people wouldn't hurt me if they had any prejudice about me being gay. Well, people need someone like you to share your experience and see we must be ourselves no matter what. The world is a better place because of your video. Thanks for this.
I feel like I'm currently going through something very similar. Lately I've been questioning my sexuality ~ but I'm a very strong Christian.... I feel like I'm bound to a life in hell if I come out... I don't know what to do anymore. I've been pretty much hiding it and trying to pray the gay away, but it's just not working.. I'm so terrified that I'll be hated and that my family won't accept me and that I'll go to hell and I just- I need help... Do you have any advice?
I went through a very hard point in my life where I thought I couldn't be gay and be a Christian. I thought I couldn't love girls and love God. Now I know that this isn't true; God loves all and God forgives all and we will have a place with Him in heaven when our time comes. Wishing you all the best, and know that it gets better xx
You know, you don't need to be a Christian to believe in god. A Christian is to follow the teachings in the bible and if that's the case, you'll always have inner conflict. Due to the persecution of homosexuals from Christians, I have no idea why ANYONE would continue being a christian if they were gay. You can quite easily follow another religion, or no religion and just believe in god. You have options.
Monk. I know it seems like a totally weird thing that somebody would continue to follow a faith that persecutes their own, but it's a lot more difficult to direct away from a path you've been on your entire life than to simply turn around at some new information. Religion and faith are the most illogical of things, but when at some points they've been all you have, it's hard to take a step back and say "hey, there's a different thing I could be doing here that would completely solve all my problems, but it means abandoning the one thing that's always been with me." I don't know whether you meant to imply that somebody who is gay/bi/etc is stupid or weird to continue being religious, but that's how it came across. Please consider that people struggling with religion vs themselves need to be told how to make things work together, not to separate them, even "just a little bit" :)
thatbandnerdemily. I know it's quite late for a response, but think of it this way: a god whose main purpose is to love but who judges his children eternally for loving isn't worth worshiping. Worship the God you know, not the hateful god that some try to impose on you.
Are you still a Christian if you are that's awesome if not then that's fine too. I'm a Christian and I like watching videos like this because I too am not "straight" I identify panromantic heterosexual basically means I like and can fall in love with anyone regardless of gender but I'm only sexually attracted to guys if that makes sense. I love seeing lgbt members apart of the Christian church or just friends of the members.
I am so happy that in my surroundings, being gay or something really isn't a bad thing... It is a taboo but if you aren't straight that is usually accepted... When I came out to a couple friends yesterday it literally made no difference to them :))) if you live somewhere where it isn't that easy, I and many other people are here to help you
I actually just subscribed to your channel. You may have made this video years ago. I could ever finish the video because I am in trying to break down. I lied my way through high school, and dated two girlfriends up until spring of 2008. My last girlfriend dumped me on MySpace after a long year and half of imperfect love affair between us. She was very controlling, distance and was verbal and emotional abusive. So, by summer and Fall months that I started to wonder if I was bisexual. I rarely had and still good guy friends to look up to. In February 2015, I decided to come out as totally gay after of soul searching and the fear that comes before coming out. I still have a long way to go to find true happiness, love and acceptance, but your video the few minutes that life for me as a gay disabled man will get better. Thanks for being yourself. Gay may be a sin to some people especially to my Roman Catholic, but true love is not always black and white. Love should be about no boundaries. Love who you love (man to man, woman to woman, men to women etc.) with all of yourself. One day, the hatred for gays will come to end in today's world. But, until we must be ourselves whether guys like are loved or hated for being who we really are. Love is love in these unjudgemental, caring eyes of mine.
This is so human and genuine. You are so very brave and I admire you so much. I can't not subscribe after seeing this. You inspire me. I have never seen a video on RUclips that touched me so much. Not only is life awesome, but YOU are awesome
Booshoe, I'm obviously new to your channel, but you know what, you're pretty cool in my book. I've tried making a video like this but i could just never post it. You are truly amazing for this video. and it's awesome because you overcame something that most people find terrifying. You overcame something most people find to be the hardest thing ever. that is the definition of a hero. You're really cute and i hope you end up with someone who makes you extremely happy.
Your honesty, openness and strength is helping more people than you can possibly imagine. You couldn’t have said it better. Wishing you peace and happiness. Thank you!
You deserve to be happy for what you truly are and the message you have delt with this video makes people get a little more hope. As long as a person is not out, he must find a way to get by and deal with himself. What you have claimed about homosexuality is very moving and I am sure this is going to get people to face their own sexuality properly. Thank you.
Your story is very moving my story is similar to yours, a beautiful boy helped me, my first boyfriend I will always love him no matter what. I hope you find love you already found acceptance in yourself, your a strong beautiful young man I wish you all the best and happiness.
I remember when I felt like this, exactly like this. I begged and pleaded and cried to become straight, each day hoping that I would change my way. Truly there is and never was anything wrong with you. You are a beautiful person and never forget it. Keep standing and doing what you do with your life, because this is your life and no one else's. Because you deserve to be who you are and apologize to no one for it.
I cried watching this. It's like I'm looking the mirror watching you tell your story because it hit home. I'm a girl but it doesn't matter. I felt the exact same way..prayed..was suicidal.. Thank you for sharing
Great video. Another proud, strong gay young man. The future is without limits for you like it never was for my generation. Do it well and make it count.
Wow! =D This was an *AWESOME* video dude!!! You really spoke from the same *EXACT* place i was in at your age........the only difference is, back then, the times were a lot less accepting of us......it was very painful, personally damaging, and down-right tough and demoralizing as hell! It is not all peaches and cream now i know.......but, to be alive at this time in history and seeing all of my young *Brothers and Sisters* coming-OUT in droves and accepting and loving themselves for who they are.........i tell you dude, that is the BEST gift i could ever ask for in my LIFE! Thank you soooo very much for sharing this video! *Hugs my little brother.......and God Bless!*
You said there, that you don't know what to do with the way that other people are going through what you did, but by making this video, you have done something. This is a message that people need to know, it gets better! It honestly does. I'm a bit older than you, but I completely identified with a lot of what you said. I notice this is a bit of an old video, so hopefully you're in an even better place now :) x
This is by far the best coming out video EVER! This is almost identical to my own, and I'm so happy to know that mine isn't that bizarre. Thanks for making this!
I've been struggling with my sexuality for awhile. I always told people who were in my position that it's okay and homosexuality is not a choice, but i just can't accept it myself. The idea of telling anyone-close friends, teachers, especially my strict catholic family-terrifies me. I am so scared of letting people know who I am and I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for posting this video and sharing your experience.
I just watched this video and I have no words. It was so moving. I know you don't know me but I will always support you, no matter what. I applaud you for making this video:)
Sorry you've had such a hard time with it all. I'm glad you've been able to overcome the issues that society has imposed on you and your story will be of great help to any guys finding themself in the same situation.
Living, sharing & speaking your truth took courage Matt. I along with the countless others who’ve commented are truly grateful that you are still here & that your story, & journey are here for those who may be struggling with similar situations. It a story of struggle, of hope, of determination & a message that difficult times don’t always last, that given time, support & love from family & friends, that things can & do get better. You are an inspiration to many & one of the most genuine supportive people I know. 🏳️🌈🦄🌈
Im so proud to be a fan of yours. This warms my heart and it makes me so happy that 2 years ago you came out to the Internet, then 6 months later you ended up with the first person who sent a video response, about a 1 & 6 months later you are with the one you I personally think, you will be with forever. When you said that you hated yourself in this video, I immediately started crying. You are the sweetest person in the world and you and michael make me so happy. Thankyou for finally deciding that you belong on this earth and made this video, because trust me YOU saved lives by making this video. You being on this earth, makes the world a way more happier place. I hope you read this comment to know how important you are to so many. You have a wonderful family it seems and friends and most of all boyfriend, michael is so amazing but he is very lucky to have you, and you are lucky to have him. You matthew, are such an amazing person and you make my life so much better ❤️ love you lots xx
This video was absolutely inspiring. Everybody should share this with their friends and family--spread awareness. We could all literally be saving lives. As someone who can relate to your story, perhaps not entirely, but at least a bit, I can easily say that this wasn't a video that was easy to make. You've come a long way, and I'm glad you're still here with us.
NEVER allow the beliefs of others dictate what you think of yourself! Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living by the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinion drown out your own inner voice. Incredible video!
I'm in high school and I am doing the same thing. I'm not the flamey or effeminate gay, I guess best way to consider myself is a gaymer/"straight-acting" gay, and I can relate. Only a good amount of people know and I haven't completely come out yet, and I've had suicide thoughts too and feelings of wanting to disappear, but I wanna thank you for uploading this, and never forget who you are and how to help yourself in the best way possible.
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Most people don't realize how big of a struggle figuring one's sexuality can be. Thanks for sharing!
This is the biggest understatement of my life at the moment...
We love you! being Gay is just one more thing to love!
I don't get why people say that being gay is like a sign of the demon. It makes no sense, you don't choose it, it's just who you are. I'm only 10 and I already know that I am gay and everyone makes fun of me for that. I was in the same situation, I wanted to end it all, I still feel like doing it no one likes me I am invisible to everyone, even my parents every night I stay up and cry. My birthday is the worst everybody at school says "1 more year closer to death Nick" and it annoys me so much.
Nicholas I'm sorry to here that your going through such a hard time. Remember that you won't have to deal with those people who tease you all your life. Most of them do it because their afraid of not being liked themselves. Don't let other people make you feel bad about yourself. YOU Are a good and loveable person.
This may not mean anything to you but I don't hate you and I never will hate you:) You are a great person!! If other people have a problem with the way you were born, then forget them. I recently came out to myself as gay, I still have yet to tell anyone but I'm just waiting for the right time and when I feel most comfortable doing it. I know that I'm just a stranger replying to a comment through a computer screen but I still hope to make you feel even the slightest bit better. Even if other people say that about your birthday, don't listen to them! Your birthday is not just another closer to death so never think that! I like to think of it as another year that you have lived and that's a beautiful thing. If other people have a problem with something about you, that doesn't mean that anything is wrong with you, that means that they have issues of there own that they need to work on. Those people are negatively affecting themselves. No one who is fully confident and happy would ever say stuff like that to an amazing 10 year old kid. I, myself, am really afraid of the day when I finally do come out to someone because I'm afraid of losing people that I love but I realized that if anyone stops loving you simply because you are the way that you are, then those people never really loved you in the first place. It's the people that don't care and still love you afterwards that are your true friends and family and those are the people that you want in your life. And if you can't find any right now, don't worry because you are very young and someday you will find people that are just like you:) There's a ton of people on youtube that are gay and lesbian and I hope that you can watch those people and that they will make you happy and you can relate to them:D sorry that this comment was so long but i hope that it helped and if you ever want to talk about anything, feel free to message me on here because I would gladly listen if you wanted to:) I hope you have a wonderful day!
Amber Paige Amber, I know exactly how you feel. I struggled with my sexual identity for years and felt as if I could never be a "real man" because I was gay. Admitting it to yourself is the first step in moving on with a happy life. When you are ready, you will take the next step of confiding with a close friend. Don't lock yourself in a prison of insecurity and self hatred. The longer you keep this bottled up, the worse you will NEEDLESSLY tear yourself down. I looked at myself as an embarrassment to my family and everything I was associated with. I only wanted to be "normal" and I wanted to live a "normal" life. The result was to merely make my life a private hell. The longer I hid, the harder it was to come out. The most difficult thing I ever did in my life was to tell my...SON...that I am gay. I was absolutely terrified to tell him. I just knew that he would be humiliated and I would destroy his life. I eventually found the courage to send a text him to tell him I needed to speak with him about something. For an entire week I was trying to talk myself out of telling him and I thought of lies to say what it was I needed to talk about, rather than to tell him what it really was I needed to tell. I could not look him in the eyes, but somehow I managed to utter the words, I am gay. He gave me the biggest hug I think I've ever gotten from him and he told me "You are my dad, I love you no matter what. This changes nothing between us." I'm not ashamed to admit I broke down in tears. The years of self deprecation and emotions came flowing out. My coming out has been the best decision I've ever made and my experience has been nothing but positive. I've treated myself far worse than anyone I know. Don't do that to yourself. People love you and WILL accept you unconditionally.
mtbkbmt Aww that's a beautiful story :) And I have actually told 3 people now!:D Its only been three days since I've wrote that comment but I have actually told 3 people now and I found that I feel a lot better than I used to all of them were cool with it when I told them and it was like they didn't even care ya know like it didn't change anything and that's what i was hoping for because it shouldn't have to change anything soon I do want to tell a few of my best friends and I think that'll go just fine because I know how they feel about the whole "gay" thing and they don't care so I know that they won't care and I am glad that I have those people around me and in my life to make it a whole lot easier:) Their are some people like maybe a few of my cousins or some people on my dad's side of the family that won't really like or won't understand it but I don't care because if anyone doesn't like or love me as much or doesn't want to be around me anymore simply because I am the way that I am then those people never really loved me in the first place and I don't need people like that in my life:)
Sorry to hear that, it really does get better; hang in there little dude. Try to find other guys your age in your area who are the same way so you have a support system (and be careful of older guys who want to do stuff with you, I'd really encourage you only to look for friends at this point). It's really difficult but you will be a much stronger person at the end of it. There are many people out there who you can turn to for support, don't be afraid to ask for help, support, a shoulder to cry on (over the internet)
The fact that you have the confidence to put a video of yourself up on the internet of you showing your true self, is truly inspiring
As a fellow survivor of suicidal thoughts, I wanted to congratulate you for coming out the other side and for taking your darkest moment and turning it into a gift of light you are offering others. You are a real blessing to this world that needs all the blessings it can get.
What a fantastic and inspiring video. I am a retired cop and I can't tell you how many young men I have had to talk out of jumping, pulling the trigger or punching a blade who, when I opened myself to them, confessed to me similar things you just stated. I still know a couple of them and I think the world would be a duller place without them just as I am sure it would be without you. Have a good life, enjoy it because it isn't all that long and you shouldn't waste it worrying about what others think. It is amazing how diverse the world actually is. And, the world can always use another good doctor too, pre-med right?
teslavate thank you for all you've done and the lives you've saved.
You seem like an amazing human being and I want to thank you for helping those people! May Allah (SWT) bless you and give you all the happiness in the world ❤️
You're a good and wise human being, an inspiration.
I am very happy that you're still here today. You are a beautiful person, who should never have to hide who they are. :)
Nicely put Bolton! : )
You're a beautiful person. The fact that you want to use your tears to wash away the pain of others makes you an amazing human being. How much better the world would be with more people like you in it. Be strong, be happy and know that you're always loved.
This video gave me the strength to come out to my dad!!
Hi, I just saw your this video today. First let me say I just came out to my family this year. I was scared to death but, they were all loving and supportive. I've known from 7th grand and I am now 61. I've been scared to come out my whole life. Now I want to make a video on RUclips not so much a coming out video but more of a what not to do. Waiting so long made me realize what I gave up in my life, Being truly happy. Earlier today I was all set up to do the video. I just froze and started thinking what's the point. I shut everything off and just said "forget it". Then I saw this video and it gave me hope again. The only friend I have that is truly understanding and knows everything about me lives far away now so there is nobody here to talk to. thank you for this video. I completely understand what you went through. And you gave me the spark I needed to do the video.
Matthew, I'm part of the LGBTQ+ community and I cant even believe how much I can relate to this video. I've struggled with sexuality and gender identity, and I'm still not 100% sure about who I am. This is extremely inspiring and you're great. Thank you.
You are a very brave young man. I have been watching your videos for YEARS because I always felt something "positive". It pleases me that you have discovered and embraced who you are and have offered yourself to others who may be struggling. On to life!!!
He made me cry because he was about to cry. He was really strong and AWESOME.. He was very brave to do this
Matthew, re-watching this video after seeing the Instagram photo of Michael proposing to you just shows how far you have come in four years. Take stock in that. All the pain and growth has brought you to a place where you have found love, happiness and acceptance. I am so proud of you.
SO SINCERE
Thank you.
omg. what are you doing here?. ps. love your videos
This was one of the first coming out videos I saw when I finally just started accepting myself last year and it had a huge impact on me . I couldn't stop tearing as I heard your story as it resembled the way I felt all through high school . To come back nearly a year later and see it again after I went through my own journey with my family and close friends it still is one of the biggest impacts of all the videos I saw because It's raw and showed me I'm not alone so I can now say something the first time around I was to scared to say thank you so much for sharing your story it has helped me greatly and I know if it helped me it has helped others.
You should stop listening to those who tell you what they want you to be and start listening to yourself and be who YOU want to be.
This is the first coming out video I had ever watched and it was such an eye-opener to what life I could have. Because of you Matthew Schueller, I have decided to come out and I couldn't be more comfortable with myself! :)
I'm proud of myself for doing it and I'm especially proud of you for making this video because if you EVER think that your videos don't have any impact on people's lives then look back at this comment, without you and your boyfriend I would be so lost.
I can't thank you enough Matt, you and your boyfriend deserve the world :)
It made me so happy when you mentioned asexuality. So many people have no idea that it evens exists, and the fact that you recognized it made me ecstatic.
MATTHEW -- I love your communication skills, your psychological awareness, your passion and your honesty not only about your story, but about your emotions in the moment. You just put it all out there in the open for us. At almost 70 years old (growing up in the 1950's and 60's), I recognized the pain in your story. And you absolutely NAILED the core issue as LEARNING TO LOVE OURSELVES for who we are. Thanks so much. -- LOVE, Donald (a Texan living in Great Britain)
I'm so happy that you did Matthew...I know this is a long time ago 2013, when you made this video but I really think that your coming out can help so many people who are gay and need to feel that they are not alone. So well done, you are very brave !
You're amazing! Seeing this made me happy. I hope more people can realize that sexuality is fluid, and can one day feel comfortable to accept who they are. No one should be put through the torment of hiding their true selves, it makes no sense to me. My mind can't process the fact that society still sees being gay as wrong. Keep doing what you're doing! I hope you're happy and smiling each and every day; you're really making a difference in people's lives
I randomly came across your video and I must say kudos! You did a great job in portraying the emotions and showing people, regardless of their sexuality, of how difficult it is for an LGBT teenager to come out. You also carried the most important message, I believe, that acceptance comes from ones inner self. We haveto love, accept, and embrace ourselves in order for others to be able to see of how amazing and normal we are and do the same.
I am openly gay and an active member of the HRC Campaign, the It Gets Better campaign, and the Trevor's project. Our community needs more people like you who are strong and are willing to pass on their positive spirit onto others. Great job! Keep it coming!
So proud of you for making this video!! This will help so many other people who are going through what you went through. I myself am gay and have a huge support from my family and friends. We are all made to be who we are. I applaud you and happy I found you on RUclips today. Much love and support!
Thank you for sharing this with us. I just came out as a gay Christian in January (not to my parents or officially to my church family). Being vulnerable is hard and you were so brave for telling your story...this will help other Christians who are struggling with coming out.
You made the right choice not to use jump cuts. The sincerity and intensity of your monologue make your story uncommonly compelling. Thank you for helping to turn the flywheel to help the cause.
I've watched this a couple of times before; no doubt I'll watch it again. This video is simply brilliant. It's comforting... somedays I get caught up in life and forget who I am. It's nice to be told that being who I am is perfectly fine; even though I know that, it's great to be reassured. So, thank you. So much.
Bravo for coming out. Brave, smart, and cute. Welcome to the world where there are LOTS just like you. I My self have housed many teens who received the worse side of coming out. That being the parents tossed them out on to the street. I clothed, fed, housed, educated them all for free and no strings attached. Now that I am getting too old to do that I hope there are others out there who will do that. Best wishes to you. And dont let the haters get you down. They will blast you, hate you, etc. But there are Many many more out there just like you. Be well and be healthy.
Literally, that is what I went through. I prayed to God every night that I would be straight, because I didn't want to be a abomination, and I literally would cry myself to sleep every night because God hated me. My foster parents had raised me against gays because my biological mother is gay, and it was really difficult. I tried to hide. I hated myself, and yes, I was planning to end my life, but someone told me that they loved me, and would never leave me no matter what. That was a new friend. Then my freshman year in high school, I decided to come out to a few people, and they were like really? Duh, we already knew, we accept you. But I didn't come out to my best friend until I was in my junior year. And it was the hardest thing in the world because we were raised in a Christian church, and I was scared of how she'd react. I really was, and she told me that she knew, and that she still loved me, and then she hugged me. That was it. I came out to my foster parents like 2 months later, and.. It was hard. I cried just trying to tell them, and my mom is a deeply Christian woman, and she said to me baby, I will love you mo matter what. I might not approve of it, but I will always love you. That was it. My dad still doesn't know. My Oldest brother doesn't know. But my Older sister, and my other older brother know, and I can talk to them about it because they accept me for who I am. It was difficult. But I am here to inspire people, and you can talk to me. I am here.
I hear you man. I think the hardest part about coming out is trying to explain to religious people (and yourself- especially if you're religious, like myself) that being who God made you be is not a sin. That is what's hard, because many don't want to listen and understand and it's frustrating.
I have to agree with everything timoteo said. As someone who hid in the closet and denied his sexuality for 30 years, I want to commend you for coming out and coming to terms with yourself. Don't let anyone ever drive you back into the closet!
You're a cool guy, and you should be proud of who you are!
I have come back to this video for months. I am probably at least a thousand of the views on this. I just love it. It is so real. And so accurate. Love.
That is one of the most moving and inspiring videos I have ever seen. I am crying so much right now. Thank YOU Matt :)
Congratulations !!!! Everyone should think that way. The only thing that everyone should keep in mind is that we should be proud of who we are. Be happy because you are perfect the way you are.
Just saw an extract of your video in a french documentary today, I was really moved. Hope Michael and yourself are vey happy :) wish you the best x
You are awesome and you are loved, remember " At the end of the day, all we have is who we are"
You are very brave for sharing this video and this aspect of your life. Bravo and congratulations. Keep believing in yourself and all that you offer to those around you and online. Be proud of yourself and lead a life that makes you happy. Don't worry about those who don't believe in you or who don't respect you. They do not deserve to have you in their life. You deserve to be who you are and to be happy!!!
Thank you for making this video! :)
i have been there before. i have struggled with my own demons and it's something that i am still struggling with. i want you to know that you are a beautiful person, inside and out. stay strong and continue to be yourself :)
I grew up in a very different time and a very, very different world, yet I can identify with so much of what you had to say. The part about looking in the mirror and hating what you saw, because what you were seeing was wrong, wrong, wrong in the eyes of so many. Boy could I identify with that. You are a gorgeous young man and there is nothing about you to feel ashamed of. So glad to see where you are at with it all. Lots of love to you. Pete (55 years old and went through that sort of torment in the very unforgiving world of the 80's)
I am in love with his eyes...
Probably one of the most touching video that i saw, compliments you're great :))
It's 2015 and there's still homophobes out there and it genuinely makes me so sad because all those homophobes are against the way someone is. They would be so mad and hurt if a homosexual hated them being straight and I think that people need to think about that before they make a homophobic comment etc - If a gay person said something horrible about you being staright, how would you feel?
I'm so glad that so many people are comfortable with who they are and are able to tell people about it and have love and support and just know that if you're struggling with your sexuality, you do not need a label! You don't need to say 'I'm bi' or 'I'm staright'. I know someone andI've only ever known her to date girls but she has several photos of Justin Bieber on her phone and yes, she fangirls😂, but she doesn't say she's bisexual, she just says she's not straight. She's her and that's all that matters! You're all awesome and beautiful no matter what your sexuality, colour, gender etc!
I agree with 'David's Vlog' comment above. Booshoe, this is the best coming out video on RUclips. Truly amazing. You are a great example. Very proud of you, even though I don't know you.
I'm really proud of you for making this video matt. Although this does not in any way affect my perception of you and I still think you are amazing the way you are, I feel as though this video would truly give hope to those who are struggling now. You're an inspiration matt, no matter what others label you. Congratulations for being you xxxxx
Great coming out story. I am glad that you have overcome all your personal issues. Honestly, your story has struck a chord with me. I went through the same process. I thought I was a mistake, and that life was not worth living. But for my parents, who I love, I wouldnt be writing this comment on your video. Thankfully we are in the 21st century and we can celebrate sexual diversity and love at its varied ways. Kudos to encouraging other people facing the same issues.
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Love you, so brave. Thank you for sharing! God bless you!!
I cried. We went through almost the same things
In my opinion this is the most relatable and real coming out story and video I've ever seen. You're amazing and truly an inspiration. Thank you so much
Matthew that was so powerful and personal. It was courageous and compassionate to a degree that is so rare. You are so rare and amazing and beautiful. Your message really affected me and it was exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you for giving me new hope and inspiration to move forward. You honor your family and I am sure they couldn't be prouder off this brilliant person they brought into the world. Keep being awesome. Not to sound goofy but Matthew for President of the whole world.
Oh my god, I love this. I just love this.
I fucking love you.
Hugs for you. Well done!
Omg this made me cry. I'm not gay but I totally 1000% support you and what your do to your community and possibly the hole world. (BIG HUGS) keep going you guys hugs and kisses
-Nicole
You're a brave boy and you are beautiful. Don't let anybody tell you otherwise. Coming out is a difficult process. Your story is very touching and I am pleased you re here with us to tell it. I hope you truly find happiness. xx
i know how u feel ..n ya im struggling myself with coming with my parents n...im really afraid to come out....i got bullied n stuff.. just so afraid....
You are cute =)
Hi. This video was made a while ago but I wish I could reach out and hug you...God bless you.
Thank you so much for your love and devotion to this subject. I am gay and 56 years old male who is fighting with gay and church
I'm the same, i feel you, i know what it's like, I KNOW you, as i am the same. I have constantly felt the same, and only this year have i come out. "Praying the gay away" was a phrase i constantly felt like i had to uphold. Even the people that I went to church with, people I had known for basically the entirety of my existence don't know. The one time I felt the need to bring up the topic of being gay, the person who i had done church plays, of course unaware, said that "God would help them through it". My heart shattered. I became incredulous, angry, frustrated, and most of all, hurt. I understand it all, every little bit of it. Your story was my own with only a few minor changes. You are not alone. I have accepted that I am not alone. Loving myself is no longer impossible. Loving YOURSELF is no longer impossible. Because if I can love you, you can love yourself. But there are so many others out there like us who have yet to hear this message and are afraid. THAT is why I'm so glad you shared your story. So at the end you, me, and all the others like us can stand up tall and speak the words, "I'm gay and I'm proud!" with no quiver, with no hesitation, with no fear, with no anxiety; only pride. That is the dream I see slowly becoming reality as i listen to your powerful words; as I gaze at the emotion that plays across your disposition. So thank you.
And remember: You are not alone.
Dude you are so amazing like you even made me cry because your story is so heart breaking and i can most definatly relate to some of it... But I was a broken condom and also I'm bisexual so BIG mistake there but i am sorta getting over it.. Unluckily for me i dipise therapy probibly because i have trust issues with it :/
I want to just give you a big hug
just be urself and be happy to ur life
You should run for President
Thomas Rubas I completely agree!
H9i Booshoe37, You came out and its not so bad. I spent many many years threw my younger years that I would cover it up and I came out after my Loving parents were already dead. You are a beautiful guy and now that you have come out, move on and help others. We don't need any more suisides, I wish I had met a young guy and be in love, but 3 years ago I met my future hubby and were getting married and I am so happy, I met some one who is gay too.
You do not need to change either, and move on with your life, find yourself a guy that will be your companion for many years to come. Every gay man's life is awesome and just move on and help others now.
take care,
Dave
Wow. I really feel so touched now. I got really emotional with your story and your boyfriend's story. I have never realized this pain, although I'm gay. I always knew who I was and never felt anything like ashamed of myself. Yeah, of course, I felt different, but nothing like that. My family was amazingly supportive, I felt safe from this very moment and that helped me seeing myself as more than a sexuality. So people wouldn't hurt me if they had any prejudice about me being gay.
Well, people need someone like you to share your experience and see we must be ourselves no matter what. The world is a better place because of your video.
Thanks for this.
I feel like I'm currently going through something very similar. Lately I've been questioning my sexuality ~ but I'm a very strong Christian.... I feel like I'm bound to a life in hell if I come out... I don't know what to do anymore.
I've been pretty much hiding it and trying to pray the gay away, but it's just not working.. I'm so terrified that I'll be hated and that my family won't accept me and that I'll go to hell and I just- I need help... Do you have any advice?
I went through a very hard point in my life where I thought I couldn't be gay and be a Christian. I thought I couldn't love girls and love God. Now I know that this isn't true; God loves all and God forgives all and we will have a place with Him in heaven when our time comes.
Wishing you all the best, and know that it gets better xx
Amy Schumacher thank you so much, your advice is great help cx
You know, you don't need to be a Christian to believe in god. A Christian is to follow the teachings in the bible and if that's the case, you'll always have inner conflict. Due to the persecution of homosexuals from Christians, I have no idea why ANYONE would continue being a christian if they were gay. You can quite easily follow another religion, or no religion and just believe in god. You have options.
Monk. I know it seems like a totally weird thing that somebody would continue to follow a faith that persecutes their own, but it's a lot more difficult to direct away from a path you've been on your entire life than to simply turn around at some new information. Religion and faith are the most illogical of things, but when at some points they've been all you have, it's hard to take a step back and say "hey, there's a different thing I could be doing here that would completely solve all my problems, but it means abandoning the one thing that's always been with me." I don't know whether you meant to imply that somebody who is gay/bi/etc is stupid or weird to continue being religious, but that's how it came across. Please consider that people struggling with religion vs themselves need to be told how to make things work together, not to separate them, even "just a little bit" :)
thatbandnerdemily. I know it's quite late for a response, but think of it this way: a god whose main purpose is to love but who judges his children eternally for loving isn't worth worshiping. Worship the God you know, not the hateful god that some try to impose on you.
This like hearing me... so surprising 💜
Are you still a Christian if you are that's awesome if not then that's fine too. I'm a Christian and I like watching videos like this because I too am not "straight" I identify panromantic heterosexual basically means I like and can fall in love with anyone regardless of gender but I'm only sexually attracted to guys if that makes sense. I love seeing lgbt members apart of the Christian church or just friends of the members.
Yes he is
I am so happy that in my surroundings, being gay or something really isn't a bad thing... It is a taboo but if you aren't straight that is usually accepted... When I came out to a couple friends yesterday it literally made no difference to them :))) if you live somewhere where it isn't that easy, I and many other people are here to help you
welcome to the tribe. so glad your light was not snuffed out in despair. the world would have been a poorer place without you.
I actually just subscribed to your channel. You may have made this video years ago. I could ever finish the video because I am in trying to break down. I lied my way through high school, and dated two girlfriends up until spring of 2008. My last girlfriend dumped me on MySpace after a long year and half of imperfect love affair between us. She was very controlling, distance and was verbal and emotional abusive. So, by summer and Fall months that I started to wonder if I was bisexual. I rarely had and still good guy friends to look up to. In February 2015, I decided to come out as totally gay after of soul searching and the fear that comes before coming out. I still have a long way to go to find true happiness, love and acceptance, but your video the few minutes that life for me as a gay disabled man will get better. Thanks for being yourself. Gay may be a sin to some people especially to my Roman Catholic, but true love is not always black and white. Love should be about no boundaries. Love who you love (man to man, woman to woman, men to women etc.) with all of yourself. One day, the hatred for gays will come to end in today's world. But, until we must be ourselves whether guys like are loved or hated for being who we really are. Love is love in these unjudgemental, caring eyes of mine.
So proud of you! You deserve to be happy and being honest with yourself is the first step to being truly happy!
Congrats Buddy...Very brave of you...Way to go! Your life should dramatically improve as you just be yourself!
This is so human and genuine. You are so very brave and I admire you so much. I can't not subscribe after seeing this. You inspire me. I have never seen a video on RUclips that touched me so much. Not only is life awesome, but YOU are awesome
Booshoe, I'm obviously new to your channel, but you know what, you're pretty cool in my book. I've tried making a video like this but i could just never post it. You are truly amazing for this video. and it's awesome because you overcame something that most people find terrifying. You overcame something most people find to be the hardest thing ever. that is the definition of a hero. You're really cute and i hope you end up with someone who makes you extremely happy.
Your honesty, openness and strength is helping more people than you can possibly imagine. You couldn’t have said it better. Wishing you peace and happiness. Thank you!
"So glad to be born as a gay guy in this crucial time in history" yeah! That's an awesome way to look at today. Thank you! Great an inspiring video!
You deserve to be happy for what you truly are and the message you have delt with this video makes people get a little more hope.
As long as a person is not out, he must find a way to get by and deal with himself.
What you have claimed about homosexuality is very moving and I am sure this is going to get people to face their own sexuality properly. Thank you.
Your story is very moving my story is similar to yours, a beautiful boy helped me, my first boyfriend I will always love him no matter what. I hope you find love you already found acceptance in yourself, your a strong beautiful young man I wish you all the best and happiness.
Who knows how many lives you have saved with this video Matt. Thank you.
I think it is still important to post these kind of videos on YT. You can get courage out of this sort of messages. Thank you for being this honest!
Your message found the right person. Thank you.
I remember when I felt like this, exactly like this. I begged and pleaded and cried to become straight, each day hoping that I would change my way. Truly there is and never was anything wrong with you. You are a beautiful person and never forget it. Keep standing and doing what you do with your life, because this is your life and no one else's. Because you deserve to be who you are and apologize to no one for it.
Keep sharing this. Many young men and women may not know that there are others like them and who care for them.
I cried watching this. It's like I'm looking the mirror watching you tell your story because it hit home. I'm a girl but it doesn't matter. I felt the exact same way..prayed..was suicidal.. Thank you for sharing
Great video. Another proud, strong gay young man. The future is without limits for you like it never was for my generation. Do it well and make it count.
So real, so moving. You rock for reaching out and being willing to help others in your past situation. You are beautiful.
Wow! =D This was an *AWESOME* video dude!!! You really spoke from the same *EXACT* place i was in at your age........the only difference is, back then, the times were a lot less accepting of us......it was very painful, personally damaging, and down-right tough and demoralizing as hell! It is not all peaches and cream now i know.......but, to be alive at this time in history and seeing all of my young *Brothers and Sisters* coming-OUT in droves and accepting and loving themselves for who they are.........i tell you dude, that is the BEST gift i could ever ask for in my LIFE! Thank you soooo very much for sharing this video! *Hugs my little brother.......and God Bless!*
You said there, that you don't know what to do with the way that other people are going through what you did, but by making this video, you have done something. This is a message that people need to know, it gets better! It honestly does. I'm a bit older than you, but I completely identified with a lot of what you said. I notice this is a bit of an old video, so hopefully you're in an even better place now :) x
This is by far the best coming out video EVER! This is almost identical to my own, and I'm so happy to know that mine isn't that bizarre. Thanks for making this!
I've been struggling with my sexuality for awhile. I always told people who were in my position that it's okay and homosexuality is not a choice, but i just can't accept it myself. The idea of telling anyone-close friends, teachers, especially my strict catholic family-terrifies me. I am so scared of letting people know who I am and I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for posting this video and sharing your experience.
I just watched this video and I have no words. It was so moving. I know you don't know me but I will always support you, no matter what. I applaud you for making this video:)
Sorry you've had such a hard time with it all. I'm glad you've been able to overcome the issues that society has imposed on you and your story will be of great help to any guys finding themself in the same situation.
Such a great video & so glad you are alive. Hope you channel all this wisdom and do great things with your life.
This video really gets me. Man I'm speechless... I really feel for you and all the things you have been through.
Living, sharing & speaking your truth took courage Matt. I along with the countless others who’ve commented are truly grateful that you are still here & that your story, & journey are here for those who may be struggling with similar situations. It a story of struggle, of hope, of determination & a message that difficult times don’t always last, that given time, support & love from family & friends, that things can & do get better. You are an inspiration to many & one of the most genuine supportive people I know. 🏳️🌈🦄🌈
Im so proud to be a fan of yours. This warms my heart and it makes me so happy that 2 years ago you came out to the Internet, then 6 months later you ended up with the first person who sent a video response, about a 1 & 6 months later you are with the one you I personally think, you will be with forever. When you said that you hated yourself in this video, I immediately started crying. You are the sweetest person in the world and you and michael make me so happy. Thankyou for finally deciding that you belong on this earth and made this video, because trust me YOU saved lives by making this video. You being on this earth, makes the world a way more happier place. I hope you read this comment to know how important you are to so many. You have a wonderful family it seems and friends and most of all boyfriend, michael is so amazing but he is very lucky to have you, and you are lucky to have him. You matthew, are such an amazing person and you make my life so much better ❤️ love you lots xx
This video was absolutely inspiring. Everybody should share this with their friends and family--spread awareness. We could all literally be saving lives. As someone who can relate to your story, perhaps not entirely, but at least a bit, I can easily say that this wasn't a video that was easy to make. You've come a long way, and I'm glad you're still here with us.
NEVER allow the beliefs of others dictate what you think of yourself!
Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living by the results of other people's thinking.
Don't let the noise of others' opinion drown out your own inner voice.
Incredible video!
I'm in high school and I am doing the same thing. I'm not the flamey or effeminate gay, I guess best way to consider myself is a gaymer/"straight-acting" gay, and I can relate. Only a good amount of people know and I haven't completely come out yet, and I've had suicide thoughts too and feelings of wanting to disappear, but I wanna thank you for uploading this, and never forget who you are and how to help yourself in the best way possible.