Fentanyl Addict interview-Dylan
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- Опубликовано: 24 янв 2023
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Dylan, a fentanyl addict on Skid Row.
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I've heard over and over again that kids are resilient. After watching this video, that statement couldn't be any further from the truth. This young man is hurting to the core because of lack of parental love, care and guidance. We need to do so much better for the future of our children. It's heartbreaking to see someone hurting this much. Wish I could give give him a huge hug and tell him he's worth it, he's loved, he's cared for. Praying he gets clean and has a beautiful life full of love and happiness
We got to help future kids and kids in our community as much as possible. Don't ignore things. And help the current kids and adult and elderly. The key is to help others as much as possible all the time.
The problem as I see it, is lack of community support for assisting those who want to break a cycle in their family. There's too much support for the continuation of these abusive cycles, and none for the ones who want to end it.
It's sort of like how there's a ton of resources poured into the "rehabilitation of pedophiles" and providing housing for them, therapy, institutions, food, toiletries, the list goes on and on and on for pedophiles.... but their victims? what sort of resources and support are there for the victims of pedophiles? The families are often left alone to deal with it; they're handed, at best, a barely qualified therapist. The pedophiles get top minds working on them; the victims get shabby treatment.
SO society as a whole, has to change its priorities here, if we ever have a chance in hell of saving these future children from going through this sort of cycle, over and over and over and over and over and over and over
I come from a family line of alcoholics; long long line of abusive, angry, alcoholics. I'm the only child that doesn't drink; I'm the only "non alcoholic". I have a family, we have a child, we are alone aside from his side of family because I have to break away in order to end a cycle; that leaves us with very little community, or resources. It would be easier I think for people who aren't as lucky as I was, who maybe don't have the same blessings we do to keep going, to be successful in ending their cycles. I would gladly advocate for my tax dollars to go towards that, versus sterilizing children and lobbing their breast tissue off, as it currently does where I live.
Your own words show how resilient kids are. Resilient doesn’t mean you don’t hurt. It means how much an individual can endure while continuing to function. This dude seems very resilient at the moment. All that he’s been through, and is currently going through and is able to wake up each morning, tells me he’s very resilient.
#SOMUCHPAIN. 😔
God Is With You 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
God bless him and his hurting soul.
he's still that little boy who needs his mom and needed his dad to advocate for him 💔 sending lots of love, dylan. you're a beautiful, worthy person!
I’m so sorry for your pain, Dylan. You deserve so much more.
he has sex w men for drugs.. he's a p.o.s.
You know you should really think about buying him a home in a really nice car and a nest egg in the bank
@@jamessharpe6699 your comment makes no sense. What drug are you on?
Just want to hug him and hold him. So many people need just so much love and understanding and someone to listen never judge them. He needs love
Wish he can get help and find love
Dylan- if you read this, you are amazing. You deserve happiness and you are worth it! I am sorry for all the pain in your life, please don’t lose hope!
From someone who has a master’s degree in counseling, Mark you have wonderful listening skills. This young man had trouble getting his words out and giving him the time to collect his thoughts to respond was critical. When doing this type of work you have to be comfortable with silence because sometimes they just need a little extra time to formulate what they say, especially people who are traumatized and hurting.
Oh gosh my heart breaks for this young man. He’s had a crap time from the minute he was born. I think maybe this is the most poignant of all of the videos 😢
He is a natural counsellor
Gosh...some of these kids don't stand a chance with the parents & adults in their lives ...from the very start. Some people should never be parents. 😳💔😧 Makes me realize how lucky that I was, to be raised in a loving home with 2 loving parents. 👍
That's not rocket science
Well said. I have had 2 of my best friends commit suicide in the last 4 months- my brain kinda short circuited, its good to have the silence when speaking to people about it. This guy has some of the same stuff- guilt, sadness, depression etc. Prayers to this guy keep your head up you are still here, there is a reason for it
Hey bro if you're reading this I think you're a great dude and I hope things get better for you, sorry to hear about your child, take care.
This poor guy...... he was failed from such a young age. He deserves so much better than this. Every kid deserves so much more.
@@mihe6212
Please stop, you always make that REDICULOUS comment
@@mihe6212
You have no idea what anyone has done to help. How do you sit there an talk trash and don't even know.
@@mihe6212 still hear you troll. I must say I admire your persistence. You're kind of like a mosquito in that way
@Molly Henn I can make a comment without getting immaturity sweetheart. Grow up.
@@captdaddy 🍪
There was a profound moment in this interview for me.
“I don’t like myself sober”
The hurt is so apparent. I hope he can get the help he so desperately needs.
Don’t give up Dylan. Don’t give in. Sending love and hugs to you x
I truly feel for this one. I relate to him on many levels. He was dealt a bad hand from the jump.. prayers to you bro 🙏🏻
Yeah, this is one of the toughest videos.
you can hear how tired he is in his voice. I hope he can keep holding on & fighting the fight 💪🏼
I know this guy. Used to ride bicycles with him back in the day. Crazy he made it on here from a little town we grew up in. Sad to see he’s went down this path.prayers to him
I know him too, from PA/NY, and hope he gets better. He use to be a cool person was always really sweet.
Some people in this world look down on people addicted but never understand the life these people have had to live growing up as a child.
Or even just the life they've lived in general. .
I watch these every morning mark. Your work doesn’t go unnoticed 💪💪
Poor guy. Set up for failure since day one. Praying for him & his wife to find the strength to get out of this🙏🏼
Mark, I don’t watch all of your videos. There’s just so much pain in each one. But I force myself to watch them regularly to remind myself how important it is for me to be a good father. Thank you for your content.
Honey. I don’t know if you will ever read this, and I know this is so cliche. But you deserve so much better. I went to my last rehab almost four years ago, and my self hatred in early sobriety was insane. But it takes time to discover a new you. Sexuality doesn’t really apply when you’re using, a lot of us had to do what we needed to to get our medicine. Stay strong. And I promise you, sobriety is uncomfortable, but it’s the best thing I could ever do. The fear of too scared to die and too scared to live is a real thing. I hope you choose life!
A lot of people need to here this 👍
Thank you for posting this. I needed this.
❤️
You can actually see the pain in him. Heartbreaking!! My heart goes out to him. Prayers for him.
He is actually shaking. This broke my heart.
@@cherylculbertson9414 pent up emotion most likely combined with being dopesick. Just heartbreaking. I've been there ❤️🙏
I am so sorry you had to go through this. My heart aches for people that are fighting addiction.
@@cherylculbertson9414 ❤️
Btw. Keep up the good work documenting these people and what they have to say without judgment. I admire your work for real. I want to actually work in a rehab one day because I'm still an addict even if I only smoke pot now, use to struggle bad with meth and been to about 10 rehabs. It's good that you have a variety of characters that you document as well. Everyone deserves and fighting chance and hope.
He is a shell of a human, and when cracked into, the inside isn't fully formed. My heart goes out to you, Dylan. None of this was your fault. What a heavy burden you carry. God bless!
So true. His " foundation" is lacking because noone cared or loved him enough to help form it. Rips my heart out.
I had the exact same thought when the video started… it’s like he’s here but not at the same time
Oh Dylan… you seem like such a resilient and good soul. I wish you and your wife all the beat and I know you guys can beat this.
This one cuts so deep. Dylan clearly has a purpose in this life, and I truly hope he gets the support he needs to move out of this hell he's been in for too long. He deserves a freaking break. Too much for one soul to deal with. Sending him armfuls of love and hope ❤ ♥
Makes you think twice before judging drug addicts, when you hear lifestories like this...
Been watching your videos mark for over a year now, well done for giving these people a voice and hopefully in some cathartic way it brings some relief to themselves. the homeless problem here in the uk is nowhere near on this scale. definitely glad fentanyl isn't on the streets yet.
sorry to hear your plight Dylan, rooting for you that things can get better matey. keep swimming fella ✌
@glendalindaloo
It's out there.....
Fentanyl is everywhere
Childhood trauma is such a life sentence... People have kids without really understanding what they are doing
Kids having kids.
Good morning! Thanks for sharing your story, Dylan.
Dylan has severe complex ptsd. I hope you can get better Dylan. Educate yourself on complex ptsd and things can possibly improve for you.
He needs a path forward with someone who shows genuine love and guidance. I have yet to meet or hear of anyone fixing their own PTSD
Very hard to watch. This almost leaves me speechless. I pray he and his wife gets better.
My heart breaks for you Dylan. 💔 I hope you and your wife can pull yourselves out of this mess. You were dealt a bad hand as soon as you were born. I will say a lot of prayers for you! You can do it! 🙏🏻🤗🙏🏻🤗🙏🏻🤗🙏🏻
It's just to easy to stop using street drugs today these there just severely mentally ill more than addicted
Dylan, I’m so so sorry that you have had to go through so many traumatic events. I wish you nothing but love and kindness. You seem like such a beautiful person that has been hurt so bad and it is so hard to watch. Thank you for sharing your story.
The pain in his voice is the same pain I hear every day in the people I treat for substance misuse disorder. It's obviously not the exact same, his pain is unique and extremely deep inside. I hope this video can help others to learn that addiction is a disease, not a moral failing. Kindness and empathy is the only way we can tackle this epidemic. Shame and guilt is needlessly killing people.
Among the saddest of the sad. Heart wrenching.
Oh my Dylan, I am so sorry for what you went thru. Had me tearing up with your first sentence. Bless you xxx
Dylan, I'm sorry for the pain you have had to endure. I pray you find the strength to begin taking steps towards recovery and getting therapy. You are not what you do to feed your habit, and I feel you have a pure heart. Don't give up❤️
Hi. Mark if you see this I want to thank you for giving this young man a safe place to share his pain. You have a great non judgemental ability to actively listen and bring a sense of safety for them if only temporary that they likely haven’t felt for a really long time. I hope you are able to leave them with hope. A lot can be started with just a little hope. THANK YOU MARK! You really are a good soul.
You can tell Dylan is an amazing person.. he was just never given the chance. He deserves so much more
Love you bro, I am clean 11 months. It takes a lot of courage to do what you did here, you should be proud. Know you are able to do this, share this experience with the world, You are of the strongest people I've had the chance to hear. Never forget your not a lone, never forget its never to late to live life doing your passion. Everyone is rooting for you! Be the first from your background, help others by showing success, I know just listening to you, that you do not one anyone to go through what you did. Get out there and save some kids by showing them a better path. L&R Happy 24
Gosh my heart goes out to him. So hoping and praying he gets the opportunity to get clean with Rachel and have a new beautiful life.
This breaks my heart. Seems like such a sweet soul.
This was very hard to watch, my heart breaks, hope he pulls thru this....🙏
Dylan, I could feel your pain through your interview. I am a recovering addict and I understood when you said that you don't like yourself sober. A lot of the times we have mental health issues and emotional damage that we have to work on repairing once we get sober. It is really hard work. I struggle so much with it too. Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. I also am hoping that you will be able to get into a rehab that will help you get free of the substances and maybe get some government housing. For me I was in a homeless shelter to start with, and then I applied for government housing and then got transferred to government housing. It has really helped me a lot. I know you can do it. And I also said a prayer for you
This dude broke my heart. So much pain. You deserve a better life Dylan, you are worth it ❤
Stay strong Dylan… don’t give up because there is hope in your eyes and I see it. You need support and reach out to places where they can help you and guide you and your wife. You both are worth it!! 💛💛💛💛
This was heartbreaking. I hope he gets the help he needs. Lots going on here
If you see this Dylan please know you deserved to loved and protected. Sending huge ❤ and respect.
Man watching this just breaks my heart and reminds me of my 27 year old nephew go through this same shit. He definitely turned it around I hope he says he’s a year in half sober and I really hope he is and stays like that. And I hope everyone who went down that road turns it around 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
Much love Dylan 🙏❤️ I’m so sorry for all of your trauma. God bless you.
I’m so so sorry your beginning was so traumatic! You deserve help and I’m sure you’ll get the help now you need!❤
I am so sorry for what happened to you Dylan. Please don’t give up. Love you man
Don’t ever give up on getting sober Dylan, you deserve to be happy and healthy dude. Your worthy of being clean.
There is a degree of therapy in being able to tell your story. I wish for you some relief and shelter away from drugs Dylan and many thanks Mark.
This young man is so nice and loves his wife so much. I am so sorry for your past and hope for you a better tomorrow!
Dylan, you’re a beautiful soul. You were not given a fair start, but you deserve to live in peace and happiness.
You deserve so much in this world. You are a fighter, you can do this.
I really want to see him get the proper help.
I'm so sorry for Dylan. Poor soul, he's struggling to get his words out due to the trauma and abuse. I wish I could give him a big hug.
Giving him a hug was my instinct as well. I feel for this young man.
Dylan, I'm so sorry you underwent so much at such young age. I really hope you get better, you deserve to be happy and to be loved.
I fear for this young man and yet still have hope.
Sorry to hear about your kid passing away, it really breaks my heart to hear that and to know your roommates who wanted to adopt your child turned on you when you just lost your kid. I hope they just didn't pretend to care until they couldn't have what they wanted.
Sounds like they did pretend to care! WHO DOES THAT??!! IT'S EVIL!
If they were potential adopters of the child the death of the child might have been equally as painful to them thus seeing the parents would just trigger more pain. It's a damn shame all around.
The “roommates” were waiting to collect the state child support.
None of us know the circumstances of their relationship so it's not right for anyone to pick sides. What if they were abusing substances throughout the pregnancy which led to to the death of the child? Either way we don't know the situation so it's not right to assume they were pretending to care.
That's a terrible thought but all too plausible. Very sad regardless.
i have no words. i feel so sorry for him. hope and pray he makes it. this one was pretty sad.
Wow guys, good one. It just goes to show you how when you think you have it bad, your really don't compared to some people out there right now like this poor soul on the streets. Hope he finds grace and connection, that's what saved me from addiction was the people and reaching out. Being on this interview is a huge step for him though tbh. Hopefully someone can link him up with some recovery support networks. Shits not easy but that road is always a dead end living out there like that. It's a harsh reality but the truth.
It's not a dead end. I mean on one hand, you're saying you hope he links up and get some help and gets out of here but on the other hand, you're saying being on the street is a dead end.
Also, the worst thing that ever happened to you, is the worst thing that ever happened to you. For somebody, the very worst thing might be losing a parent for somebody else, the very worst thing might be living on the street with a deadly drug addiction . You can't look at yourself and say oh I have it better because somebody else has it worse. That's terrible advice. We all suffer but it's only relative to the life we lead
Hunter Good for You for getting Clean! You deserve all that is good. If you would like to be a drug counselor You can Absolutely do it!!
@@jackandlill definitely would aim for something like that. I always enjoy trying to help others.
@@southphillylilly good devils advocate roll, I will definitely take notes on that.
@florida ginger I agree, we all have different avenues of suffering. But I'm trying to just shed some light on being grateful for the things that people who already have it made have. That comment was directed more so for people out there who might not realize how bad things actually can be like myself who is a master of dissociation. Being grateful for little things that life will give back through suffering is something alot of people including myself have missed over.
Praying for you, bud. Hang in there. Lots of people you don’t even know are rooting for you and care about you. You have loads of potential!!
Dylan, thank you for your story.
The first minute of this one got me already …. Dude been through it. 🙏
After a few seconds of watching he seemed broken and my heart went out to him. At 4:20 when he said he pimped himself out to men.. That has to be a deep psychological lifelong wound for a guy. Among everything else he's been through. Hope he can find a few friends that care about him.
Well, the truth is many addicts turn to sex work to support their addiction.
First minute in already heartbreaking, wishing him healing
I've never left a comment on a RUclips video before but I felt compelled after listening to Dylan's story. I ache with sadness after hearing how he was abandoned and failed again and again during his childhood, he was a little boy, he needed to be cared for and guided. As a father of a 4 year old I can't fathom how parents could fail so badly. Life's hard and every parent has their own struggles but to allow your child to grow up like Dylan did is evil personified in my opinion. Dylan you may never read this but I'm sorry that you were dealt an awful hand as a child but that doesn't have to be your story, please know that your past is your past and you can write a new future, I hope and pray that this video will open a few doors for you which will lead you to a better path and give you a future you deserve, wishing you all the best Dylan.
I wish I could just hug this kid. I hope he finds the peace and love he so much deserves. ❤
He's 29. Not a kid.
@@Moon_Presence Get a life.
Beau Travail comme d'habitude🔬🎬Alex From France🌌🙏
Dylan!! I remember you, you were so much fun to be around way back in the day. I hope you see this and know your missed and cared about. I hope you're doing better. It's Aurora, use to hang out with Rich and Jon.
Dylan- YOU CAN OVERCOME THIS! You are strong and are smart, don’t give up. YOU CAN DO THIS. Sending lots of love. Keep your head up, never give up.
He’s in so much distress he can’t even talk.
Hearing Dylan speak his story made me cry poor guy he didn’t ask to be here his dad could of done a lot more for him so sorry Dylan hope things get better you get chance a life again
You're such a great guy, Dylan! And a beutiful soul. I have no idea why life can be like that for some people, but I wish you all the best! Lots of love ❤❤
This guy breaks my heart. His story is heart breaking .
My heart goes out to you Dylan. I know the pain about molestation cause I was violated too. I see yearning for some peace in your life. My condolences to your baby. One major thing you have is your wife to get sober. You both could help each other immensely. Please you and wife don’t give up on yourselves. Keep vigilant and go full throttle to beat this. God Bless You Both. Luv ya man. ❤❤❤
Oh sweet boy…. Sending lots of love to you and Rachel.
Dylan, you deserve more. Shame is a heavy load to carry... I hope you and Rachel can break free and enjoy the rest of your life. I'm so sorry for your pain
My heart breaks in peaces when I see how much pain people like Dylan feel and are going through. It’s easy to suggests solutions and to speak from your couch, I only pray they find the courage to fight for a better life. Dylan you are very young and You can have a better life away from drugs. Find faith in God and within yourself, I know you can do it!
This was heartbreaking to watch. I hope he gets better
The authorities whom ignored this man and his sister as children should be held accountable today. No more getting away with this stuff. Authorities need to holdup their end of the deal. The lack of respect for Children as human beings Is by far the the key to most of these stories. The worlds ability to ignore kids is the whole problem, damaged kids with no help become damaged adults. See something wrong, say something. It’s up to good people to protect weak from predators. Love needs to stand up, the world is not meant to be this evil.
There are many Police that are I involved in child trafficking. Just look up all the police sexual assault on children cases in the last few years alone.
Best wishes... And hope you can get some help and get sober. Love from denmark
Some addicts seem resigned, but Dylan wants a better life. I'm betting with the right help he's got what it takes to improve things for himself.
Please stay hopeful Dylan. It's not your fault you had horrible parents; you're so much better than them.
Wow I hear so much hurt in hus voice. It's do sad. And I've never heard of someone not knowing their mother...I just want to cry for him. I honestly always think it's the person's own fault for getting into drugs, but for this poor guy it was like a need so he could just barely cope. I think anyone would've made the same choice being put in his shoes. This is so heartbreaking. I hope he can get better.
Dylan is very intelligent and very aware of his trauma he's experienced and of his actions. He has so much potential, but he is so damaged. 💔 I am myself also very damaged but not as severe as his case or in the same way, but my own damage and Trauma has affected my relationships and the way I can even maneuver in life. I can only imagine what he's been through. He deserves so much more! 💔
This was extremely sad
I pray God blesses him and his wife
Good morning from Maine!
The empty stare as he's recalling his past is haunting, Dylan I wish you the best
I just want to hug him & tell him he is cared about & loved.
This guys been thru it- he shakes so much I almost thought he was in active physical distress (besides Fentanyl withdrawal)..
Damn! Felt that one, life beating me up is not so bad when I hear these struggles, I'm almost embarrassed at my moans of things being unfair or not going my way!
Man this boy just needs a break! The poor kid is hurting so bad and his confidence just needs building. He has so much potential
He’s so, so sad. This is heartbreaking. People need to be shown this video when they say ‘oh drug addicts are just lazy people just want to get high and who should get a job’. This man doesn’t WANT to get high, he hates his life and himself and his situation. He can’t see a way out. His self worth is so depleted from never being shown help and compassion and that he mattered from childhood.
When I hear people say they don't know why they're still here I want to tell them it's because they have a life purpose that is not yet fulfilled. Your soul knows more than you ever could and it is your soul that brought you back to this life on earth to fulfill your purpose.
Never judge a book by his cover, with out knowing the back story, so so sad this story, some of these story are really hard to watch, but at the same time it make eye realise that your life not to bad,I really hope Dylan get the help he needs. Much love from the UK
Childhood trauma is real and carry’s over into adult life. This poor guy didn’t stand a chance.
Very true, I still struggle with issues I went thru as a child on a daily basis! I'm 51 & some shit hurts just as bad as the day I went thru them! For some of us, drugs are the only coping skills we have that actually work to relieve the pain..... Some of us never had a fighting chance from the get go.
He breaks my heart. I'm sending him love.
Thank you for sharing your story. You have been dealt a shitty hand. You still have the hope and want to have a better Life. I believe in you and that you can have a better Life. You just needca helping hand. Big hugs and much Love to You and your Wife xx
Most addicts have no true understanding of how their lifestyle and choices affect family members. I have a brother who is 65 years old and has been addicted to drugs for 45 years. He has been married and divorced 4 times, wrecked 6 vehicles, he has 2 grown children that he has nothing to do with at all. He will not even admit that he has a problem. He claims he does not do drugs, how crazy is this?
I’m so sorry Dylan please don’t give up. You deserve a good life. Look into EMDR therapy.
May God bless you I’m so sorry to hear your story
So heartbreaking so wrong for anyone to have a child and do this to them. I pray for this young man. so much pain. I feel for this young man. so much trauma.
This interview was hard to watch. It was heart-rending. I hope Dylan finds his way out of his unhappiness.