[1M Subs] Drawing My Childhood
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- Опубликовано: 30 сен 2024
- Sorry for the weird personal video. It's been a weird road. Thank you all for getting this channel to where it is today. Lots more new art educational content is on the way!
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So well deserved, happy for u
this video was posted 15hrs ago why was ur comment 17hrs ago👀
actually sorry I think my page didn't load properly whoops
@@quammi_the_cat hahaha, I had a time machine
Sam is this your favorite artist
I LOVE YOU SINIX!
Thanks for being open and vulnerable! It's always eye opening to see where people come from, and I feel like your story just adds so much more interest to what I already knew about you (great artist and teacher). Congrats dude!
Honestly this video brought me close to tears, it's so relatable to some of my experiences. That burning violence inside, the simmering, the frustration, the autism. And near the end when you talk about wanting to swallow the whole universe???? I've never understood anything so deeply in my life!! I felt it rattle in my bones. When I looked at the clear night sky on my farm as a kid I wanted to spread my arms and gather up all stars and inky black and stuff them inside. You want to consume the world and just *know* it
Im not crying, you are
@@bruhifysson9005 grips your shoulder in quiet commiseration. I feel ya man
CONGRATS FOR 1 MILLION ! you definitely played a major role in our art journey and deserve every single subscriber
wow, it was not at all what I've expected from this video. I'm so happy that you've managed to turn your life around, I'll be honest, I don't know any other success story like this. Truly inspiring, I hope anyone who needs comfort can find it through this story.
i did
I like the idea of "redoing my adolescence"! My chronic illness really set me back and I often feel overwhelmed at the things I can't do anymore, but framing it as a do-over feels... more forgiving, somehow
"All i could feel was hate inside" I think that's the start of many artist's journey lol. crazy to see what change you've been through Sinix - the little sprout has a lot more meaning now :)
Your hair is extra fabulous and fluffy
His hair looks just like he always draws hair on people
been following you since i was a kid. i'm 24 now so thats gotta be over 10 years. Youre one of the few channels from back then that i still follow closely, watch, comment and rewatch again and again. youre one of my fav artists/ art teachers, big congrats on 1M! Your work and perspective is always so thoughtful and to hear a little about the journey that made you, you, makes me appreciate even more the amazing work you've done. I relate slightly to your experience, being neurodivergent, angry at the world, seeking interaction and control online. Art has been an outlet for my teen rage and also a means of catharsis and rehabilitation for me. It really is very inspiring and heartening to hear how you overcome the anger and toxicity. I wonder if one day you'll speak more on how you managed to work through it, i know there are a lot of kids who are really struggling who could use the advice
I think it's fascinating how your one of a kind art style represents your life in a way. it's an exentension of you and it has a soul that even AI can only dream of having. The imperfections, the Unordinary, and the Mature essence can be seen within your life but also felt within your works of art. How an outcast became one of the internet's art gods. Keep doing what makes you happy. You've inspired me, and many many others.
if it weren't for you or other people such as sycra and ahmed aldoori I wouldn't be the artist I am today. I am still drawing with shadows the way you taught me and it's because of you that I mainly sketch with pens, thank you
You know I’m just realizing I think we had very similar lives. Especially the fear of everything all the time, and the anger. Thank you for sharing, I kind of thought I was alone with all of this
Wow. I genuinely thank you so so much for making this. As a late diagnosed autistic, I always felt to lost, scared, yet angry about everything. Thank you so much for opening up and speaking about this! You have been one of my favorite art youtubers for so many years now, and hearing your story has made me feel a lot more hopeful about my future. You absolutely deserve the 1M subscribers, congratulations!!!
i just want to say thank you. this takes a lot of vulnerability to share. there was a point in my own turmoil where i felt defeated at the fact that there was no "success story". everyone i looked up to and could relate to on a personal level had burned out quickly and miserably. i really admire both your technical and teaching skill and personality so knowing that it's the result of struggle and self-improvement is really a breath of fresh air. this gives me a lot of hope for my future
Wow that got dark fast. That sounds like it was hell. It’s strange, it was like you were talking about my life. Virtually identical. Super timid and shy, then awkward then outcasted then angry then giving up then restarting (by doing art too. After dropping out of engineering). Would’ve been cool to have met someone in the same boat along the way.
So happy for you, Sinix! May I just say that your learning/teaching videos have helped me a lot to improve and I am eternally grateful!
I was very emotional watching this entire video. Thank you for being so open about your life journey. As someone who has always tiptoed life around self-sabotage, I can definitely relate to a lot of the feelings you talked about. It wasn't until I had kids and rekindled my love of art again that I felt something was finally worth the effort. Rebuilding your life is always one of the greatest achievements, so I honestly couldn't be happier for you.
wow... did not expect that kind of story
ive been watching this channel for about exactly a decade by now. which is kinda crazy to me! the amount of impact you left on not only my art but also on a lot of mindset things related to art for me, its certainlty a lot. and im sure im not the only one here. im glad you found your own corner of the world and your own place. you add so much to this world, so many people became artists or found inspiration because of you, at least partially. a lot of your experiences are very very relatable for not only me but many others (autism/adhd.) the feeling of quitting things and drawing lines even if its bad, because it gives you a sense of control, you put that into words so well, i never heard someone else talk about it like that. thank you for all your hard work, i hope good things will come your way still. i will keep watching!
My pinkie toes also touch it’s such a bad sensation, some times I can’t even put my shoes on because I can’t separate my two pinkie fingers. 😢😢😂
As your sister, I didn't know about some of the things you mentioned but I am impressed at how insightful this was. Congrats on your accomplishments! I am proud of you.
You quite literally changed my whole perception of art. I wouldn´t be the same person if it weren´t for you. So - much love, and congrats for 1 Million subs!
It's great you posted this! It can also be something good for people with undiagnosed autism.
That's fucked up, i'm really happy that you're better now. You are one the most skilled artists i know
this video came as a total surprise to me. you are such a big inspiration in my art journey and it will always be that way! Congrats for one million subscribers, as someone who watched your videos for countless years, im really happy to see you hitting this big goal. Keep it up :)
I was born in 2006💀but congrats anyways sinix, and thanks for sharing 🤗
Every person have uniqe story behind, but yours... i'm so glad that u found way out of it, so now i can watch ur videos
God I really needed to hear that last part mentioning vulnerability, watched this video at a perfect time.
What a life, glad you're in a good place now. Looking forward to seeing more of your fantastic videos, Sinix, cheers!
I love your little hair sprout it's so so cute
Thank you for this Sinix. Im also trying to redo my adolescence, it really eats at me how I wasted everything just because of laziness, lack of self-esteem, being so goddamn timid, and how I let what others say about me dictate who I am. Now that I am trying to learn everything as I step into adulthood, though I lose hope sometimes because of how left behind I am, hearing about your past inspires me to keep moving forward. Thank you again!
I ztill remember the day i found this channel ( like 4 or 5 y ago ) n that day i was like ye im artist now
edit : thank u
I relate so much with this story.
It’s so easy to hate yourself for your inadequacies, and by extension the world, but how I see it; this life and time so so incredibly complex, that it’s actually a wonder that anyone know what to do. You shouldn’t blame yourself for not ‘being normal’ or whatever, just be thankful for the gift that is the time you’ve been given.
Just try and make the best of it, even though it might be horrible at times, I’m my experience the good moments make it worth it.
Thank you for sharing, this is probably my favorite sinix video to date; you’re not only helping your audience with doing art, but also with doing life. Very inspirational!
Now I can't stop thinking about my toe
Congratulations and thank you for sharing your journey! There were definitely some parts I felt immensely heard while in others I was hearing you describe something very new. I especially resonated with the burning existential dread that comes with being raised Catholic, the feelings of worthlessness and laziness, and getting sucked into the toxic parts of the internet to find somewhere to belong. I have never experienced a struggle with mental health to that degree, but your story has given me a new understanding of others around me who I felt I could never get close to. Again, thank you for this deeply personal video and all the guidance you've given us in art.
Congrats for 1M!!!! This was… painfully relatable. Some of the specifics were different but the story beats were almost identical. You’re such a kind and thoughtful person, I’m proud of who you are today. Here’s to growth!
I'll never look at my pinky toe the same ever again smh thanks sinix, congrats on 1 milli
Love the vid man, super cool
Glad-ish i’m not the only one feeling the toes
Sinix has perfected the look, vibe and attitude of a tormented early 20th century artist. All he needs now is an oversized trench coat and a bottle of bootleg whiskey....
But seriously congratulations on your journey and progress, there is more to come 😊😊😊
Congratulations on 1mil! Your story sounds almost eerily relatable, though I wouldn't characterize my experience in the edgelord debate club corners of the internet in quite that negative terms. For me at least, a space where I could express my honest thoughts without fear of repercussions helped me work through them in a way that having to try and fail to fit in and always being afraid of social consequences of saying the wrong thing never did.
Thank you Sinix, you motivated me to become an artist and you will always have a special place in my heart
Sinix you are a legend, I am very grateful for everything you have done here on RUclips during all these years you have been a huge inspiration for me. Much love
Thank you for being willing to talk about your past so personally. I think I get caught up in believing all my inspirations were always amazing, it helps to know someone can be so amazing despite going through some harsher things
This was really beautiful. I love your channel! You a hundred percent deserve all the viewers, fans, support this channel received. Thank you for giving us such amazing content~
He deserves so much recognition omg
sinus lore????? (Congrats on the million, well deserved)
if there's anyone who deserves 1M it's you!! You are basically the reason I paint today. It took so long but IM SO GLAD
CONGRATS FOR 1 MIL SINIX!! 🥳🎉
You’ve definitely deserved it for a long time.
"persists beyond my laziness" -- hahah! - Yeah, there's some identification happening here ;)
"strong sense of mimicry" -- You're really mirroring some stuff here ...
"feeling control when quitting" --- WTF!! What's going on here?!? -- This is something I do, but now at 52 I have never seen it that way ... Who are you?! :D :D
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>>> also an illustrator, comic maker and concept artist -- and of course I got some superpowers that make me the creative that I am >> dyslexic, ADHD and a bit of Autism thrown in for good measure.
Edit: I have to say that I got more out of watching this video than any therapy session has ever managed to reach ... a bit stumped over here :)
Posting one video every two months and still hitting 1M🎉 proof for the "quality not quantity" theory
CONGRATS! You were the first youtuber whose style aligned with my own and I have infinite thanks to give you for teaching me how to paint!! You deserve 1 mill man, good job.
"Sinix, the Artist surrounded by Yellow"
A novel about art, life struggles and existential dread, by PH Loathcraft.
Thank you for all the great content and candid sharing. We really appreciate it and hope the best for you!
Congrats!
hah, same upbringing. im only 21, dropped out at 14-17 depending on where you want to call it. wasnt so much hateful as i was introspectively lost and void of emotion. AuDHD is a bitch. im happier now, but only just getting back to being social after 8 years of being derailed from normal social standards.
Great video really.
But for this 1 "success" story, what happened to the 99 other vulnerable people? We'll sadly never get to hear their story.
I don't mean that in a bad way towards you and your story though!!
I feel less alone now
JEZUS PIZZUS, my upbringing is almost COPY-PASTE to yours. Except I would watch your videos on how to draw instead of going to class! I even cried in the school counselors office. Cheers, I luvya
CONGRATS ON ONE MILLION!! love your videos :)
this is a powerful piece of work. I applaud your vulnerability. Thanks for sharing. You're an inspiration and I am glad you came out of the reactionary rabbit hole
Sounds like you are in the PDA syndrome, my youngest daughter is like that. :) Cool you found yourself early enough. And somehow without help!
Dude whaaaat. I subscribed to your channel over 10 years ago. Stopped watching because i just assumed you retired. This is the first time ive seen your face because your old videos didnt show you. Thanks so much for being one of the only digital art teachers on youtube when i was 16
Who told you / how did you come to that conclusion / how did you learn, that you'll need to relive your adolescence? How did you manage to do that, who thought you to then behave properly? I'm glad you became an artist and not a school shooter. And by doing that, you help others to choose in a similar way. ..But where did the rage go? Asking because It's oddly, specifically relatable in some aspects, but like said, glad you chose this line to walk on.
i dont know what i was expecting but this was beautiful, super glad u make content and ur art will always be a big inspirtation !!!
Rocky but beautiful journey! Our world seem to be with endless mixed feelings, sometimes there is no reason for what made us or mede us feel. You are an overcomer, and that is beautiful!
Wow! Thank you for sharing and congratulations on your great achievement of life!
I lost your channel during a turbulent time of my life. Just found it again with this video and I was so happy I cried. Am going to rewatch all your videos over and over and over again, as i used to do.
I love seeing fellow autistic peeps strive in art. Thanks for your service, you deserve more for what you have been doing❤❤
WOWZERZ ive been subbed for like 12yrs CRAZY since the painting faces video
I think a lot of the problems in your life could've been avoided if only your parents and teachers knew you were autistic and treated you with kindness rather than as a bad child.
You're incredible!!! Thank you for sharing your story ❤
Guitar teacher here, sinix you better remove that capo from the guitar strings, causes wear from the constant stress being placed on the fretboard. Tut tut tut
I've been watching you since I was around 15, I think. It's very strange to see how far you've come, how far we've come.
If only I’d have had stories like this when I was in my edgy middle school hellscape…
Please teach us how to draw heads in different angles. PLEASE!
always great to see you upload!!! congrats!!!
Siri play “A Milli” by Lil Wayne
🎉Congratulations🎉
Nice knowing more about you! It's not so long that I'm following you but I have always enjoyed your videos!
You’ve come a long way, baby. You’re a phenom IMO.
(You needed to make peace with God,)
This is exactly what I'm feeling right now, I feel like I don't exist in online and real life and art is the only reason why my ego and self esteem exist
Your story really resonated with me. Long time follower and admirer of your artwork.
congrats on the big million, sinix ! you're easily one of my favourite art people. thank you for all that you've given and will continue to give to the art community ❤
It's actually scaring me how our lives are SO similar??? I'm not the same age or gender though, but I'm an artist
Hey, Sinix! I am so glad that you found a way to redo your adolescence and find a way to be happy and at peace with others. There are so many similar stories so full of sadness and pain that take darker turns. Thank you for sharing your story and I hope that it can help others who may be feeling similarly.
Concratulations on 1 million subscribers ♥
PS The insomnia and feeling your toes/fingers (in my case all of them) is... Agh, I have never known anyone who understood me when I told them about that. It's so stupid, but so unnerving and it sucks.
Congrats! We defiantly feel closer to you in a way now:) Thanks
It’s sinix!
Edit: I just watched the full video o-O
can i just say my toes touching while it was hot and it couldn't sleep was the worst feeling
Going through kind of the same thing, any advice? I am 16
yoooo the unexpected 2023 draw my life lesgo
I've only recently started watching your content but I found your story very touching and relatable. As a fellow 90's kid who grew up on the internet it's wild to see how much overlap we had in online habits. It was a bizarre way to become acquainted with the world, but in hindsight it seemed like those places were a natural confluence for those of us who felt out of place in the real world. Thanks for sharing.
Dunno if intentional but the chords in the intro music are a bit similar to In My Life by The Beatles, very fitting lol
Congratulations on the 1M! So well deserved. Thank you for all your art help and your vulnerability in this video. u rock
This touched me, thank you sinix. We have very similar problems even tho we have completely different lives. cant wait for paintover palls
I remember trying to learn to draw. I would watch you and Sycra. Good to see you popping that 1m!
Don’t forget guys almost daily art streams on twitch
WTF now I’m think about my damn toes touching
2006.. wow, I was born along with this channel..
Thank you for sharing a vulnerable story. There's nothing more I appreciate from art.
Thanks for creathis video 🙏🤝❤️
i can't explain how elevated i am to know you finally achieved 1 million subs! i've learned whatever little i can draw and started my art journey by watching your anatomy videos and they have truly taught me great lessons! i'm so happy for your future endeavours sinix🖤
the Dick Cheney trading cards lmaooo