The Hardest Year of My Life (and what it taught me)
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- Опубликовано: 21 июл 2024
- So often on social media we only share the good moments. The things that we’re proud of. But I think that’s a part of what leads to the suffocating feeling of social media and why it doesn’t feel real.
So, I made a video about the hardest year of my life, when I was 18 years old and doubting every decision that I made. I like seeing other people’s struggles because it always makes me feel less alone.
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Damn, watching a human being open about so personal things is truly empowering. Huge respect man.
agreed! he's helping so many by sharing this
I love your poems man!! They've helped me get through some tough times.
100% agree with with comment
@@thecrisroldan Loved ittttt
its soemething called being real..
“What you still need to know is this: before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream. That’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one ‘dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.’ -Paulo Coelho The Alchemist
I definitely gotta read it now! Thanks for sharing 🙏
I *LOVE* that book
The Alchemist is one of the best books ever, recommend everyone to read it, it is a must!
Wow!
I just saved this comment 👏🏼
I think we all kinda lose our sense of “why” at some point. All we gotta do is keep going, no matter what we do, and the why will eventually get clearer. What’s the purpose of life? To live every second ✨🙌
I was literally feeling this and saw your comment and made me feel so much better .. thank you so muchhhh 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻✨✨✨ have a lovely day aheadddd
@@TilikaVispute have a lovely day too ❤️ Thank you for being there 🙌✨
@@nawaldoghri 🥺🥺☺️☺️♥️♥️
I concur! I’m experiencing this now. Being patient through the experience is a challenge :0)
@@kmichalene yes a tough one! But we can still find ways through it, sending you all my positive energy ✨
I’ve had panic attacks before because I had no idea that I was anxious because I bottled it all up. Then I read that gratitude can help with anxiety, I tried gratitude meditation and I’ve not had them since. They say that it’s almost impossible to feel anxiety and gratitude at the same time.
Thank you man! I’m forever grateful for your videos. You make us feel less alone.
I want to try that gratitude meditation. How did you do it?
@@kita3256 Hey Kita! I just searched guided meditation for gratitude on RUclips and used those. Have a great day wherever you are!
@@kita3256 i noticed that whenever I was anxious in life, going through anxious times I always reminded myself what I'm great for in life
@@__jake.m thanks! Will definitely do that. I’m in California 😀 Have a great day too, wherever you are!
@@Kat-fw5jo I guess it’s like a grounding exercise. I can see that. I will try that. I suffer severally of anxiety and panic attacks but I also have ptsd so it gets very ugly. But I’ll try this gratitude meditation!
can we appreciate how far he’s come. his content used to be all videography (which isn’t bad) and now there’s all this personal and intimate insight :’) it’s so nice to see the growth over the years.
Living with a narcissist is so emotionally exhausting. I've lived with one my whole life. It's all about them and their needs; stepping all over your sense of self and turning your self-esteem into dust is what they do best. I feel so disillusioned with life right now, like it's not worth living anymore, since I spent all those years trying to please that narc that I don't know who I am and what I really want to do. And I'm constantly pushing people away because I'd rather not be hurt in any way by anyone again.
Nathaniel is helping thousands of people work towards their goals in a way that promotes wellness, not sacrifices wellness. He is giving people a better chance at understanding their lives and making an honest evaluation of it. Very important; thank you Nathaniel.
*”We have two lives. The second begins when we realise we only have one”* - Confucius
Love from a small RUclipsr 💙
I loved this video. It felt like just sitting down and chatting about the moments that have shaped us into who we are today. I think many of us have years or times that we can reflect back on like this. I know I look back on 25 like it was the worst year but the most productive year to show me what I deserve in life and what I don't. Thanks for the reminder that through pain comes growth if you're willing to walk ahead of the shadows!
Ikr the video was awesome 👍
Truly inspiring
One thing I've learned through my life is sometimes quitting (and letting go of something) is a good thing
It almost feels like everyone has to go through some level of depression to figure out what we want from our life.
I think that pain is something essential to our progress and evolution, it's the complement of pleasure, one can't exist without other. While suffering is optional and borns from attachment to pleasure or pain.
I absolutely agree. My depression has given me the worst but it has also given me the gratitude and the astonishment with which I see the world.
Sit down storytimes are great! It's like sitting down with a friend with a cuppa. Thanks for sharing your journey. Really resonates sooo much!
I'm going through one of those bad periods in my life at the moment. Thank you for making this video. I'm trying to work really hard to fight through it right now and get to a better place and this video helps in a small way on my own journey.
hey, please never give up, you already know its gonna change for better. :)
@@alokrawatt Thank you for the encouragement, right now everything seems black and bleak because I'm in the middle of it. I'm taking steps to help myself by meditating and finally accepted that I need outside help by going to therapy.
@@overnightgrowth buddy I totally get you. I been through that phase and can understand every bit of it.
I am suacide survivor and disabled 32yo male. Broke my body because of narcissistic abuse explained in your previous video. My self-conficence fall off the cliff. Felt so deep sence of shame that nobody is up to endure. I still suffer from PTSD and daily pain. It's very comforting to know that it can pass with time, although disablility cannot be undone. Thank you for seriousness here.
“It’s okay to not be okay sometimes”
Really needed to hear it, thanks for sharing your story, man!
Worst phase in our life teaches us most important lessons than a good phase in our lives .
I am experiencing it:)
Thankyou for sharing Nathaniel❤
Let's keep going and get through these tough times! 💪
More than 40% of the viewers of this video are going through the same including me
Whenever I watch your videos I feel like I'm becoming more and more wiser with every video.
-THANK YOU 🙂
You’ve no idea how understood I felt while watching this video. I’m 20 years old and I have no clue of what the hell is going on. The hole past year is such a blur; I feel like I lost control of absolutely everything, but the worst part, and you put it into words, is that I lost the reasons and I lost the point of why I was doing the things that I was doing. I don’t know what’s going to happen and definitely not know where my life is headed, but is nice to hear that it will no always be this confusing. I guess you’re right, it’s a part of growing up.
By the way, I’m sorry that you didn’t have a very pleasant time in Argentina, we would love to have you back!
Things will be better soon. Till then keep the faith, buddy.
This affected me so deeply.
I find myself on a parallel path-- workaways, narcissists, valuing reflection, travel. Suddenly out in the big bad world.
What an articulate and thoughtful portrait of a past version of self. I hope that five years from now I can sit down and recount the connections and trials of life, and continue to strive forward. These sorts of videos make it measurable over time and prompt self awareness in others...myself included.
Fantastic.
The level of genuine interaction I get from watching this channel is too real. Even though the video is a bit more relaxed, I feel like I am right there with you as a mate. Guess that just speaks to the power of storytelling right?
I'm 19 and I feel like I'm going through the worst year and the best at the same time, and it's sooo reassuring to hear someone who has grown out of it and can look back saying that it had to happen this way ❤️ thanks so much for opening up!!
Having parents who are narcissists. Living in a "third world" country and being socially isolated contribute to the misery and hopelessness and the question "why" that complicate things more.
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OMG. That hit hard
I went through the same experience: 2019 was supposed to be one of the best years of my life, as I had begun a study abroad programme in Paris, but my year was spent recovering from burnout, suffering from depression and feeling numb inside. It was really difficult but it helped me begin my journey of personal development and taught me to take care of myself more
How did you heal from depression?
@@spunzel851 therapy and self-care. Giving myself time to rest and process everything that happened. Journalling is really good for processing things. Also try and identify what is causing your depression, as sometimes it is due to external factors - for me it was my studies. So once I finished my studies I felt so much better, as if a mountain had been lifted off my shoulders.
@@romaiseb do you think it is link to Paris ? What idea did you have of the City before ?
I think what I’ve struggled with the most is that “why”, which is something still hard to make sense of but hopefully one day it will:/
I'm 18, and I am experiencing the same experience that you had. I just graduated from high school. I decided to get a job first before entering college (i don't have a particular course in mind), and maybe, that way, I can connect with myself again. I don't have any idea about what's going on in my life right now. That's why I am so grateful for this video. I learned a lot. Thank you very much! Thank you for enlightening lost souls like me!😭
I feel like i'm stuck. I decided to take off a semester of school do to burnout, and just feeling like crap. I plan on transferring to a new school but am just confused on what I want to do. This video is relatable.
I actually feel like im in this place at 18 years old and its comforting to see that you aswell were in a dark period and ended up in such a great place not too long after. Always appreciate your videos man. We dont really know eachother but im sure speaking as a viewer you have many friends who appreciate your existence.
I cannot explain how much I resonate with this video because of where I am now.
I was in my kitchen the other day, crying because I have no idea what I'm doing with my life, and I happened to pick up a fortune cookie hanging around from an old takeout order. It said, "Do not wait for others to open the right doors for you."
Thank you for encouraging us all to open our own doors. Excited to see what's in store for you :)
Feeling sadness can be so lethargic and took so much of our energy. I'm glad you're now in a good place, Drew! I love your videos and often replay it, for your deep thoughts & inspiring life journey!
I'm so sorry that the time you spent in Argentina was so hard. I know that this country can be very tough (actually, it's never been easy). But also I think that probably it was the time and place you have and will learnt more from, in due time. Nietsche made the famous quote: lo que no me destruye me fortalece. I hope if you ever come back you'll have a better time here. Your videos are consistenly better each time.
This piece really encouraged me as someone who is pursuing a path in the creative field without college. I've got to work hard while also not overburdening myself with pressure and realize that these things take time. Thanks, Nathaniel.
"Streangth grows in the moments when you think you can't go on but you keep going anyway."
Thank you nathaniel for putting this out you are mentally so strong. I have been feeling this way and your video really came at the right time. Please keep doing this storytime videos this will really help us.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us Nathaniel! When I was 18, depression, anxiety and suicide attempts entered and devastated my world and everything I knew till that point.
I was also abroad, also felt super alone, no friends and no one to speak with.
So, hearing people share their disadventures really touches me in some type of way. So, thank you
Can’t even begin to explain how deeply I relate to this story! It’s a beautiful video with well thought out message. Thank you, I’m sure there’s more people that can relate to this than you think there are!
Thanks for sharing the most vulnerable moment of your life. I feel like the society has always been telling us that we need to know what we want in our life, but to get there, we have to go through a process, we will struggle and get lost…but not many people talk about it.
Thank you for sharing so openly. Your experience applies to so many of us, I'm sure, going through all different kinds of things. It is hope-giving to hear you sharing in hindsight. Thank you for the vulnerability and the honesty.
Nathaniel, your story in this video is precisely what I needed to hear. Right now, I am feeling what you felt back in 2016-2017 and I’m struggling big time. But somehow, you have managed to transmit hope for what’s to come. Thank you for this video :)
Your vulnerability in this video is very inspirational! I think that many of us can relate to many elements of your story in one way or another. Thanks for sharing man!
So glad you brought up these points of learning from painful periods. I’m finally moving on from a phase of my life that’s been so painful and difficult, and even though I know I’ll have very painful moments in this next phase of my life, I’m ecstatic to see what I learn from my new experiences.
I loved this laid back feel. Felt like I was at lunch with a friend!
Your honesty and authenticity is really encouraging. I love your videos!
I really needed to hear this right now. Not only have you validated my struggle but to see you on the other side of it, successful and happy, gives me alot of hope. Thank you for sharing.
You have put all the feelings I’m experiencing these days into words my friend. Your words are a true inspiration 😊🙏🏻
Truly appreciate your authenticity and openness as always. It's so easy to see people on what they've achieved and forget the hardship and challenges they went through to get here. Everyone faces obstacles in their lives, the question is what you decide to do about it. Love the heart and soul you put into your work and thank you for being you.
Yes, please do more of this style! Thanks for sharing your story Nathaniel 🙏
Thank you for sharing your story, hearing you say " it takes time to process the things that happen to do" really resonated with me. We don't grow up in a day, we're always growing and it helps to hear people share their stories. Thank you!
Thank you for encouraging us to be real and to embrace our humanity! Transparency is such a big act of self love
well this is probably the most relatable youtube video I have ever watched, thank you for sharing. It makes me feel a little less alone, grateful for what is and motivated to keep going.
This resonated so much with me. The video felt like a warm comforting hug from a wise person I trust. Thank you
watching you this past year has helped shift my perspective on content creating. there's something so special about a creator being honest about their lives, lessons, and mistakes. thank you nathaniel and keep it up.
I love listening to you speak, it feels like having a conversation with a close friend. Thanks so much for sharing this perspective and how you grew from that rough period in your life ❤️ I hope I can reach your level of contentment one day
Thanks so much for this Nate, I'm currently 18 and feel like I'm so lost with my own thoughts, past (mistakes), and more. So much encouragement and insight from you. Lova ya man!
man, your openness is so precious and rare - thank you so much!
Thank you for following the path less travelled and following your passion for travel and film making. We wouldn't have your amazing creations if you'd followed society's expectations. We need more people like you! You're an inspiration to so many and I'm so glad you can now look back on the tough times with grace ❤
Love these videos! Thank you so much for sharing. Narcissists bring you to a place on your Heroes journey that show you your own wounds. It’s excruciating, but the truth is within ourselves. Exploring that, rather than remaining paralysed is life changing. You give hope to many that their suffering is ok, and that nothing stays the same. 🙏
Wow... thank you for this video man! Not sure if you'll see this comment, or anyone else for that matter... but I've been going through a lot lately and definitely relate to a degree of that lost feeling and feeling like overwhelmed about the future etc.
Wow, I really love how vulnerable and real you've been with this video. I've been through some similar issues and resorted to strange coping skills. On top of that, I felt so much pressure to make a toxic situation work. Thank you for sharing this 🙏 ❤
Loved this video! Hearing your struggles makes me feel less alone, when live can be so overwhelming and i feel lost on where im going. Thank you for sharing, I found it very valuable.
This video is so inspiring, and thank you for sharing the perspective of how hard times are necessary! It's so easy to get sucked into a victim mindset of "woe is me" carrying around the pain of our hard times, rather than growing from them
Thank you for opening up and sharing this with us all. A brave choice to be so vulnerable...bless be for that courage! And what lessons you've learned (and thankfully are sharing!) that have made you so very empathetic!
I’m currently going through a tough time mentally and I’m learning to find the beauty in those struggles. Future me will be much stronger than before. Appreciate you sharing this means a lot to a lot of us. ♥️
Thank you so much for being vulnerable and open about your experiences and struggles, I know I needed to hear what you said. Having these conversations is really important and taking that extra step to share with all of us took courage so seriously thank you!
Thank you for sharing this Nathaniel, it’s helped me make more sense out of my own rough patch, you da best x
I appreciate this so much, thank you for sharing stories like this. This one touched a part of me that believes that just maybe the worst year of my life won't last forever...
This is one of my top faves you have created. I totally relate, have been there countless times & you communicate beautifully on how these experience hits & shapes us. Thank you Nathaniel, I do not feel alone x
felt like i needed to hear this! i resonated a lot with it as last year at 18 I had decided to take a gap year, and have felt the exact same as you described it of feeling lonely and lost questioning if I made the right decision. i’m still learning and it’s just a season of my life but it was reaffirming to hear this. thank you and i’m very proud of you and inspired by you to see where you’ve come from and all that you’re creating.
i’ve been a subscriber of your channel for years now and i’ve enjoyed every single video you put out thus far. but i have to say by far this video really speaks to the heart for me. i found myself in a place like yours few years back and i felt so so hopeless. watching this video and looking back,i’m beyond grateful of where i am now. thank you for putting this out ❤️
wow, this is super inspiring- especially because I am in that "trying just to get my foot in the door" phase of life right now, just to hear someones story turn to success is the best motivation to keep going- Thank you Nate!!
Thank you for sharing this part of your journey. It was exactly what I needed to hear right now - just to feel understood and not alone in the season of life I'm in currently. It will pass ♥
I’m experiencing not the best times rn & your video is smth not only me, but I’m sure lots of people need to see. It’s just like a reminder that u r not alone. And yes - it’s okay not to be okay. Dark times show us our true power.
Thank you, Nathaniel!
What you create and share here helps a lot man, thanks for that.
Thank you for sharing your worst part of your life. It's good to normalize that we all go through some tough times in our lives and it is not a shame to share it but it rather encourages us to feel more compassionate towards others.
For me, this period is teaching me to be a lot more patient with myself and to accept things take time in life.
Enjoyed the content, thanks!
I’m tearing up watching this video ❤️ thank you for sharing this, it really makes me feel less alone.
Nathaniel, I'm a teenager who has been watching your videos for almost a year and a half. I can't tell how much I've learnt from your experiences! especially this one, sometimes we live in a blurry world, you feel like if you're a stranger even if you were among your family and friends, but it's all ok because someday you'll realize that this period of your life was so important to your self-improvement. Thank you so much
Thank you for this video... I just needed it! You are an incredible human being and I am learning a lot from you, even being younger than me.
Thanks for sharing your emotions and life experiences, it feels like we are friends talking to each other.
Grettings from Colombia!
Thank uu for sharing ur story, i had many struggles in the last six years trying to find my path and i learned a lot from it and hearing about your journey gave me strength to keep pushing until i find what is right for me.
yes, i made it to the end of the video and i genuinely listened to every sentence you said i even found myself repeating some parts to make sure i get you right ! thank you for these reflections they were super useful !
This actually inspired me. Tour videos are my little daily highlights. Tha k you for sticking to what you believe in and what u dreamed of. Always remember, there are a million people always standing behind you
Please make more videos like this Nathaniel. This feels so much real, thanks for sharing your struggles on this platform.
I really appreciate you putting this video out and sharing some of your struggles. It’s the hard times that forge us. The hard times suck without a doubt but when we get through them we come out the other side with increased super powers, some good wisdoms, and some new “internal” strength. One thing that is so important is the that you didn’t give up! No matter if your pace slowed or paused or if all of it felt like a huge weight on your back pinning you down, you moved forward.
Solid work brother. ✔️😊
Story times are the best. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability that shows actually strength, maturity and wisdom.
Please more of these 🥰💫🙏
We really must give teens and young adult the tools to survive difficult and hostile environments. My young adults years were beyond horrible and it was because of the people I lived with. I have spent the past 5years healing from it.
Blessings
I love watching & listening to you so much. This week I have watched only your videos while having my lunch & dinner. Peaceful vibes💛
You're awesome! A true example of success in life: ' Learn about the value of reflection '👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻💯
Thanks for telling this to us!
An unscheduled sob on my Saturday morning. Thank you for sharing. So inspiring. Big love to you
It feels so real. Really appreciate your openness in sharing and vulnerability here as it is.
It's refreshing to see someone speak of their experience as the observer, life unraveling itself to help him grow. Such an awesome video!
Its nice to know that I am not the only one who went through something life changing in 2016-2017. Thank you for making this video. I am late comer to your channel but I am looking forward to watching your videos!
This was beautiful, Nathaniel. Your maturity is something that's always stood out for me. I've been going through this phase for the past year and a half, (I'm 37) and it's not easy. Taking it one day at a time and praying that the path will become clearer as I take the steps forward. Take care!
I respect and appreciate you because you were able to talk about it. I’ve barely finished getting through the tough period of my life, and it’s lasted years, but I’m not at all ready to talk about it yet, just because it was extremely personally tough and challenging. So I want to thank you for sharing yours, because it’s given me hope that one day, I’ll be able to share mine.
I love watching your videos and the way you tell the story. I'm a lot older than you and I have never felt so lost about my life than now. I know in my heart that I want to make a drastic change but I don't have the energy to do the work.
Thank you so much for this. Right now I feel like I’m lost, I feel alone and it’s seems like I can’t feel much. But I know I’m gonna grow from this. Sometimes is difficult to see the thing outside pain but I’m fighting for me to stay, to go through each day. Thank u so much for this video, I don’t feel alone and I feel hopeful.
Everyone who’s going through something, I promise you you’re not alone. We are gonna be okay and we are gonna grow into something beautiful.
Thank you for sharing. The best videos are the ones where I'm able to relate to your story and when you open up in a really genuine and honest way.
Thanks for sharing this. As someone living this struggling time of life I can say how comforting it is to hear it.
I really liked this. I'm in that stage of life right now where I feel lost and I need to figure out what kind of life I want to live. Thank you for letting me know that this was normal :) It really helps a lot
Thanks for sharing Nathaniel ! Your stories are like guiding light to my journey❤️
Your description of how you felt physically and emotionally while trying to make it work under impossible conditions working for a narcissist is the exact way that I felt in a similar experience. It's kind of crazy to look back and see what were those manifestations of that stress, now that I am (mostly) out of that situation. Thanks for sharing!
It's pretty cool watching how much courage you have to share such personal stories on here. People clearly connect well with you. It's very inspiring to see what you create from such personal subject matter.
that's such an awful experience Nathaniel, i'm so sorry, so happy you're out the other side. i really enjoyed this format - you are an excellent storyteller :)
Thank you for your honesty. I'm currently going through my second bout of what you're talking about. Really needed to hear something like this from a stranger. Agreed, it's so important to stop and reflect and kind of let the situation wash over you but remember it will pass and to keep learning and growing. Thanks, all the best to you!
Thank you Nathaniel. This video couldn't have come at a better time. I have so many hard issues to deal with right now and they just keep cropping up. I am sorry you had to go though such an awful time but it's hopeful to see you have learned from the experience and bravely sharing in order to help others.