a full week of drawing at my art studio + life update
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- Опубликовано: 13 авг 2020
- spoiler and tw: last week I found out I have depression (so weird to write it down or say it out loud). Even though it's so painful to accept this fact, I want to make people feel less lonely, specially if you're going through this too. Please forgive my clumsiness and awkwardness around the subject, I realized that being sad makes me feel mega insecure and I second-guess everything I do or say.
Let me know how you guys feel about this, about me sharing the journey of my recovery WHILE still drawing a lot and doing art
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VIDEO CREDITS
Thank you so so much to super Kevin for writing the spanish subtitles! We loooove you Keviin!
All my music is from Epidemic Sound
Camera
all videos filmed until December 2019 were filmed with a Canon EOS m with a 22mm lens (REALLY recommend if you're starting out, although it doesn't have a manual focus mode, it's cheap and the quality is great)
Now I'm using a Canon EOS M6 mark II with a 22mm lens
I use DaVinci Resolve for editing!
Things you don't know about this video: This weekend I'll be looking for a replacement of my fav pen; the MUJI hexagonal black pen (0.25). I realized last week it got discontinued last year, noooo! So this weekend my plan is: take myself on a date, and go pen hunting at my local art supply store.
Also, didn't mention this in the vlog, but I finished the thank-you postcards and should arrive soon! Yaaaay!
Fran some of us come to youtube to find people like us!!! not perfect and shiny people but real and normal people!!! That's why i watch you!!!
Yess! I love watching her vlogs because she is so real! 🙌🙌
Totally! I agree, we don't feel alone anymore and I appreciate her honesty❤
Yes!!!!!
Yes!❤️
Yes! This is 100% truth!
Does anyone else want prints of Fran’s “ugly” sketch book?
Her ugly sketchbook is my pristine, gorgeous, ready to scan and sell sketchbook. Those landscapes? My goodness.
It is gorgeous!,
YES!!!!!
Hiiiii💕 I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
A book will be better
So I got to the 15 minute mark where you're saying 'who wants to watch someone with depression' and I just had to comment and say, I absolutely love your channel because you are so honest and REAL. The things you've shared with us here are so brave and I love that you do that without judgement. Don't ever feel like you need to cover up your depression because you're an online presence, your honesty is just one of the many incredible things that I admire about you and I'm sure I'm not the only one. I suffered with severe depression throughout my early 20's (it comes in waves even now) and, it absolutely sucks but I promise you there is light at the end of the tunnel. You've experienced an immense trauma whilst simultaneously experiencing possibly one of the worst years in our history, don't EVER feel like you need to justify how you feel about that. Your feelings are valid Fran, you are valid. As someone said below, you are not alone! I never leave comments but I felt compelled to tell you that. Now I'm going to get back to enjoying the rest of your video :)
I was going to leave a comment but this fellow Emily has said exactly what I was going to say.
You're amazing, Fran! Be gentle with yourself. Depression is very, very common and not a flaw. xx
Hiiiii💕 I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
I feel the same! As someone struggling with mental health, videos like this are so nice and soothing and make me feel less like everyone's in the 'progress-train' and I'm stuck at the station dwindling around feeling sad. So, thank you Fran for sharing : )
I was going to say that!!! Fran, wherevee time do you need us, we are here. We are here to lisen to you always!
I completely agree with the comment above!
High functioning depression is so underrated and over looked.. it’s really frustrating.
Agreed. I have high functioning anxiety and it makes me so exhausted that I get depressed from being tired and foggy-brained often. I still don’t look anxious or depressed on the outside.
Tea Bunny I just saw that you have my favorite Animal Crossing music in your playlist (the rainy town one) that I LITERALLY just played out loud while giving my family some Gua Sha. 🤩🌸💖
Moonshadow Garden it’s the same for me.. I feel like most people don’t see it as a real thing unless you’re actively trying to kill yourself or shut yourself away from everyone.
Moonshadow Garden And yes I love that one! Animal crossing is one of my favorite games to play! I wish new horizons had better music though.. I’m a bit disappointed.
Hiiiii💕 I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
I appreciate your ability to talk about hard topics, like depression. You're amazing, Fran. I really cherish this channel. ❤
Hiiiii💕 I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
Hiiiii💕 I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
You could totally turn your 'ugly sketchbook' into an art book and sell it! It looks great - mistakes and all! The aesthetic is really lovely.
@@richardaguero4359 stop spamming bro lmaoooo
@@AkwaIbomDoll SHUT YOUR MOUTH
I just wanted to pause here and tell you, that I suffer from depression, anxiety and OCD for 16 years now and there is no such thing like 'you don't look like depressed person'. Everyone's case is different and unique. And by the way, I come to your channel to see someone who is genuine and supportive of others. We often come to yt to be understood and not entertained, so don't worry! I click on your videos immediately without reading the title. I'm just seing your face and clicking, because I know you will be honest and genuine. Ok, now I'm back to watching your video. 😊❤
I had to pause the video too. I have depression, anxiety and fibro myalgia. Finding others going through similar struggles helps us not feel so alone. I watch some that have chronic illnesses which help me through hard days with mine. I've found that you can never know what someone is going through unless they open up to you. Thanks Fran for talking about it.
Hiiiii💕 I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
Fran: "I wish I was funnier"
Also Fran: *has a full conversation with camera as if we are getting to stay in her studio over the weekend*
😂👏❤️ Hope you start to get your mojo back, soooo many of us suffer with depression and it sucks, but you are doing amazingly.
AHAHAHHA exacly 😂😂
The camera angles, editing & everything in fran's videos are so unique. She's an amazing visual storyteller. ❄
thank you : ... )
Absolutely she is.
@@richardaguero4359 🤗 will check it out
Hi, I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
YESSS AGREED.
Listen, I really really liked the silent sketching timelapse
Me too, that was really unique and beautiful.
Oh my goodness, I’ve never heard someone else who worries about how their depression will affect the way people see them. I can relate so much, and just want to thank you for sharing this. It made me feel like I’m not the only one who thinks about that.
The part where you were talking about what we would have to do when you left us in the studio was adorable.
I loved filling out the planners and trying on the t-shirts btw haha
I wish we actually could be there.
I love this new black ink sketch style you've got going on.
Oh Fran, from one depressed bitch to another, this vlog was delightful as always. Your studio is a magic lil liminal space and I feel so privileged to get to peek at it, let alone spend a whole weekend there by myself! 😉
Continue to be gentle with yourself, you deserve it ❤️
Fran, como persona que ha sufrido depresión, entiendo perfectamente ese sentimiento de "¿quién querrá pasar tiempo con una persona que tiene depresión?". Pero recuerda que aquí venimos no solo para entretenernos y olvidar, durante un rato, todo lo que está sucediendo a nuestro alrededor; sino que también venimos para conectar con vosotr@s, las personas que hacéis contenido. Yo prefiero mil veces ver un vídeo en el que nos expliques cómo te sientes, cuál es tu realidad, que no otra persona que vaya siempre con esa careta se felicidad perpetua, totalmente irreal. Necesitamos, como espectadores/as, testimonios reales, personas reales y de las cuales podamos decir: "es como yo", "yo también he pasado por ello", "no estoy sola, hay más gente como yo". O incluso para visibilizar los problemas de salud mental y ver que no son tan aislados como pensamos.
Deseo de corazón que poco a poco vayas mejorando, que la tristeza se disipe y que no sientas ese peso encima. Un fuerte abrazo para ti y Ed 💜
Hiiiii💕 Tengo un pequeñísimo canal de arte también con buen contenido :) te juro que te gustará. Ve a verlo.
Venía justo a decir esto pero creo que lo has expresado mejor de lo que yo pensaba hacer 😂
@@rednieh jajaja
Seguro que habría sido igual de interesante leerte. Cada uno/a pone su toque personal 😃
Fran, I don't come to youtube to be entertained and forget about how life sucks right now, I come to RUclips to find people like me, that struggle with things like me, and fight through it. You, being open and vulnerable, is not a downer, it is so motivating! Because I feel less alone, and I feel like I can tackle life a bit better, with you virtually supporting me by my side. And I'm sure we are A LOT thinking like this! Don't feel bad, stay who you are, we love you :)
I was diagnosed with Depression last year and felt exactly the same. It's a difficult thing to talk about and I have found the only people who truly understand are those that are or have gone through it. Just remember you're not alone.
You are the most honest person I ever seen on youtube, artists always want to pretend that everything its fine but it's ok to feel sad, it's ok not to be funny, it's ok to be honest and open your heart and it's ok to cry we are humans not machines, so thank you for sharing how you feel, please stay strong and keep learning for your experiences, sending a lot of support to you .By the way i love the way you draw rocks ❤
Hiiiii💕 I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
@@richardaguero4359 I will :3
You’re depressed but it’s not forever. It was triggered by an overwhelming loss. Sos chingona and i know you will get better because you know what’s happening to you.
I love how honest you are in your videos. I much prefer this over "funny, charismatic, cheerful" ones. Life is just not always cheerful, I like how raw you are. (You're actually an inspiration for me on RUclips)
Also, from someone who suffers depressions on the regular, you'll be fine. I'm sending hugs!
Lastly, I only draw with nibs and I love it, it's just a pain to transport. ^^'
Hiiiii💕 I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
Yeah
We come on your channel to have news of you and how you're doing and what is happening and what you're doing. We're waaaay past entertainment after all those years ^^
Querida Fran: es tan valioso lo que estás haciendo. Mostrando como te sientes ayudas a muchas personas. Abracitos para ti
Hiiiii💕 I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
Can you please do an “ugly sketchbook” tour once completed?? 😍😍
You don’t entertain us Fran, you give motivation, compassion, turst, honesty and something real in this superficial world. Never doubt yourself about how your content should look like. That is why we love you so much. You played a big role for me to choose animation as a career and motivated me to start university in an other country. You ar talented, charismatic, creative and such a role model. Please don’t forget that, and be kind to yourself. Thank you for everything! ❤️❤️❤️
I come to RUclips to connect with people who are sharing their unique experiences. I come here to see other artists who are also struggling. I come hear about all these different creative lives.
Quite honestly I appreciate people being “real” on RUclips. It would be incredibly depressing if everyone only posted positive, uplifting content because it would make me question why my life isn’t as happy! Keep doing what you are doing - you don’t know who you are helping on the other side of the screen ❤️.
Ahh Fran, I totally understand the want to be charismatic and like energetic, but honestly I'm personally tired from that? I'm a mellow person myself so I get tired from too much entertainment (?? if that makes sense 😂). Thank you for sharing your struggles! I'm a firm believer the truth is always best path
I get that. I like to watch mellow, chill videos especially at the start & end to my day. I have to be in the mood to watch a movie but always enjoy vlogs like Fran's whenever. ^^
I completely understand. I will exit a video because I am annoyed by the pettiness.
I love your authenticity, so much, makes me feel like I'm talking to a close friend when I watch your videos
“Embracing our imperfections” 💕 we can do it :-)
We like you. Period.
It's ok to be depressed. I'm treating my depression since 2014 and it might take some time, but you'll also be ok and feel yourself again, I promise.
Thank you for being this amazing & honest artist you are.
We are here for you
SO CUTE you left us in your studio
Hiiiii💕 I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
as a person who also has depression i think your channel and videos are so calm healthy inspirational, and the most important thing is express yourself about thoughts and feelings. i feel safe here
I feel the same way because of this pandemic, I’ve gained weight & my job is still closed but honestly I love watching your videos. It makes me feel worse when I watch other RUclips videos and everyone’s is so happy and maybe they’re faking it but it just makes me feel worse because I’m like “ am I the only one down?!”. Finally I don’t feel so alone but I hope we get through this.
My art studio is literally my bed 😂
I feel you! x)
lool it was mine for yeaaars, it won't be like this forever I promise you
@@FranMeneses that's so sweet of you to say!🤗 I am sure we will evolve as well💃💃🌙🌿
Fran Meneses i hope so 😅💕
@@MintysSketchbook one day at a time ;)
the tone oof your voice, the flow of words, the many many many "sorrys"... it's like witnessing a great (exhausted) human trying to keep entertaining her community whereas she needs to take some me-time to take care of her mental health... Fran thanks for taking the time to create such great contents and videos and all, but i had the feeling you could really use some time off... You do you, but i really would like to suggest to make a pause. Your community will still be there !
love love love the timelapse!!! so pleasing
A big part of why I've watched you for a long time is because you don't snip out all the bad parts like they don't exist. It's so boring watching somebody who wants to make you think they have this lovely perfect life, and so comforting to watch someone who says things as they are because that's real life and it's relatable.
The reason I fell in love with your channel a long time ago when you were in Germany was because you were always genuine. Always very real not afraid to be yourself. And not try to hide it at all it's such a nice quality about you and your channel. Take care dont forget to be kind to yourself ♡ and bby that sketchbook is not ugly. Your doing so well on landscapes proud of u!
Hiiiii💕 I have a small art channel as well if you want to check it out
Dearest Fran,
I'm battling depression for over 13 years now - I often heard that a youtube person can't have mental issues and keep a channel, but you know what? A person can actually. My viewers have been the most supporting all these years and the same - we're here for you, no matter what, no matter how you feel at the moment. The most important is to tell to yourself that "yes, I'm struggling but that doesn't make me worse". Love you lots xx
i loved this video so much! i watched the whole thing haha, you're so pure and i hope you're begin feeling better soon because you deserve it!!!
Lots of love to you both Fran 💖💖💖
Also I liked this style of vlogging, very raw.
I can always tell when I am entering a depressive episode when I lose the joy in my work. I will be sitting in traffic and think “huh, why do I not feel excited to make anything.” And then it will click “oh! I’m depressed!” Haha. When I am depressed I always just baby myself like I am sick. I make sure I eat and take showers, and be easy with myself. Be kind. And then I trust it will pass. If it doesn’t, I will find a therapist.
Love you Fran!
Fran! Stop apologising for everything, we love what you do
Hi Fran, I gonna ask you for some patience because english is not my first language (i could probably write in portuguese but i guess it is easier for you to understand in english)...
But you are a role model for so many people, i dont even want to be an illustrator but your work ethic for example is something that everyone can admire. So when you say that someone wouldnt want to watch someone with depression really hitted me hard.
As someone who suffers with depression/anxiety I think those thoughts are really common, and I do that to myself a lot so i was like NO FRAN DONT DO THAT! And i was like... but I do that all the time - and yes im trying to be gentle to myself bc of you and because you talk about it so openly.
So I just want to say to you that we dont need someone perfect, we need real people so we can make a new and more open society - i know it seems like a huge steps, but someone who follow who may have prejudice about mental health may be more open minded to seek help after see your vlog.
So we need people like you who talk more openly about mental health so people dont suffer and can seek help in early stages of depression, because that is nothing to be ashamed of.
wow thats super long... love from brazil ✨✨
I wonder what would a therapist think about someone suffering depression and having a RUclips channel, sharing their life on it and having so many followers.
Loved the drawings!
I love how real this feels. Thank you for sharing this side of you with us.
Dear Fran, just be yourself. We come back to see YOU not another version of a Fran you think we should see and would appreciate more.
Be assured many people watching your videos are here to accompany you on your journey and feel with you. Being kind to yourself is difficult but I see you getting better at it. It makes me feel a spark of happiness for you. Feel the feels, laugh the laughters and everything in between.
Greetings from Berlin 🙋🏼♀️
Feel your feels ✨ You’re amazing. Thanks for sharing.
Thank you for this beautiful video! I have been struggeling too and your honesty is so refreshing and needed! Sending love from the Netherlands!
I love that you make us (your audience) feel so appreciated
I adore your videos, I relate and feel safe when I’m watching, and I love the long videos too 🥺
it looks really fantastic!
Your new style adventures are absolutely stunning!
Love the time lapses Fran! ❤️
Love your videos! Thank you so much for sharing parts of your life with us!
I really like your b&w sketches. Every time I see them I just want to take a pen and draw. And you have a nice studio. Thank you for this vlog ♥️
thank you for your honesty. i really apreachiate and i wish you all the best fran!
I love your videos, your art and your honesty! So inspiring!!!
Also: speed drawing shots are awesome! The one you put there was so good :)
negotiation accepted lol i hope you feel better in the next days fran! love you and your vlogs a lot no matter what
I love you Fran! Thanks for being so honest and real.
I love the fast speed with drawings ❤️ thank u Fran
I looove you too fran!!❤️❤️ you are soo cool🥰
I'm so proud of you Fran, you're improving a lot on your drawings and you're taking care of yourself💕 you inspire me a lot 🙌 lots of love from sunny Greece❤
I loved hearing you get so into your new exploration of drawing landscapes ❤️ sending you good energy
I love your channel because it's super real. Thank you for sharing your metal health journey so openly
I'm so proud of you love! healing and growth is hard work!
I really appreciate your honesty and actually that’s one of the things that makes me watch your videos! It’s amazing how you can be so funny even when suffering from depression. And you’re so talented. There is no need to apologize for not being “as entertaining” as other creators because you are really entertaining! You really inspire me and I always feel like creating art or youtube videos after watching your stuff❤️
This video helped me a lot. Thank you for sharing your feelings Fran
I love your long videos💗 I love your speed drawing shots💗 I love you💗 thank you for being open with us :)
You are so adorable, I love just listening to your vlogs. Thank you for being to real with us!
I love your vlogs so much. Thank you for being so vulnerable and authentic.
I always come back to your channel to wind down and to feel understood. I am so sorry you have to go through this, but also so glad you decided to share ♥ Love you thank you for making videos for us!
I always love your content and recently you've been sharing a lot of really personal stuff with us and I just wanted to thank you for that. It's nice to be able to see someone else going through hardship and how you work through it and see that you don't have to pretend to be some happy person no matter what you go through. Thank you so much Fran 💖
Sending lots of love your way. I enjoyed the sketching and your honesty is always appreciated.
I appreciate these videos so much. I love your work and honesty 💟don't forget you're amazing💛
Really want enjoyed your sketchbook
Sending you positive vibes Fran, always so refreshing to hear your open and honest content
i always love the moments of asmr you go into with your vlogs. that helps balance out talking and i love it
I adore your style. So unique! Whenever I look at a work I instantly know if it's yours. Loved the video and wish you the best. Also, those landscapes *rock* ;)
i love you honesty and openness fran - its such a gift. makes me feel less lonely. also loves the speedshot of you drawing
This week end at your studio was great!! ☺ Also I like your speed drawings. Thank you for this video ♥
This was beautiful. Hearing your story is really really helpful. You help so many people with your honesty! Please don't feel bad for not being happy and well all the time.
i really hope you will feel better soon!
Hi Fran✨ I love everything about this video, thank you for making them 🌸 much love !
Fran, thank you for being amazingly human :)
I always love and appreciate you and your beautiful content. ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for being so brave and honest - it makes me like you and your videos even more.
I love how honest you are! Your videos are just so calming and inspiring :)
Love you and love your videos! It’s nice to have you to laugh AND to cry with. I watch you because I see myself in you, and I hope you can feel this virtual hug from here.
Your sketch book is so cute :) I love how real you are, and I love following you and your art! Sending all the positivity and love to you during this time!
Fran I am loving the fast speed drawing!
I’m really appreciating your honesty and openness with how you’re feeling because it’s relatable and comforting
I am loving your pen line-drawings!! Beautiful 🥰
Hugs to you Fran. No other words.
OMG your mountain drawings look soooooo good! 😍
Love the fast speed scenes of your sketchbook drawing!
I really love and appreciate your videos so much. Lots of love from Sydney Australia xo
Just found ur channel and watching feels so nice!! It's really calming and interesting. Continue to create!!💗💗💗