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- Опубликовано: 2 мар 2018
- TRIGGER WARNING: eating disorders.
"i never feel better"
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idk what this is. it's kind of personal but i hope you enjoy it.
thank you for your ongoing love & support (and 25k+!!!)
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song: there's a ghost
colouring: mine
shows/movies: to the bone, feed, red band society, my mad fat diary, skins uk, starving in suburbia, dance academy, pretty little liars, binge, likeness (short film , the road within, glee, run (short film), empty (short film), this is us, chicago med
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twitter: @bellisariho 
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when no one notices that i've lost weight or have gotten smaller, i feel like that means i'm not starving enough.
Aw, I'm sorry. I hope you can get help and recover. Having an ED is terrible.
@@KerriB thank you
Nah sometimes people notice but refuse ti belief it even if all the signs are there
Same :(( so I start eating less and exercising more
That’s not true I’m the slightest
"Are you sure that fits?"
"You should get a bigger size"
"That's too small for you"
One of the many reasons I starved myself
this is EXACTLY what my mum says to me
@@pureblood430 please tell her that what she is saying or doing is hurtful to you, i know, she may get mad at you but still better to argue about it and maybe be a little angry at each other than to be angry at your own child for killing themselves with starving to death.
@@dominiq4771 I'll try and talk to her, thank you for being concerned :)
@@anouk8010 i also do get huge shirts as gifts from my friends, but that's because they know about my body dysmorphia and they are also aware that i feel more comfortable in oversized clothes. maybe that's the reason in your case too?
How long after starving did you start to get smaller and how much did u eat daily cos idk exactly how much to do
im sorry but I watch these for motivation and to trigger my ed
free cows same
same
free cows so do I
Same i know i shouldn’
free cows same
when your scale becomes your best friend/ biggest enemy because your always wanting it but never happy with it
no bc one time when i was younger someone callrd me fat and then for the next 2 yrs i would go on the scale
isn‘t it insane that part of me only starved myself for anyone to finally notice?
Lydia Stilinksi me too
I am starving myself but i am still fat and i hate it because i did not achieve what i want. I. Want To be skinny for myself and To catch the attention of my crush 💔
You're not the only one
me too
i only did it because i wanted someone to see how broken i was
i never had an ed i just wanted someone to notice
You know it’s back when u start watching these vids again
It never really goes away, does it
@@MrsLPAmy it’s been 4 years, i keep coming back. i cant fucking stop. i wish this was a phase because my heart and body is getting fucked
@@jamie-lee6118 same. Just same.
@@MrsLPAmy yeah :(( i don’t know if i’ll ever get better
Jokes on you, I just found this randomly and don't care about starving myself because I'm not insane.
3 weeks ago mom said "I think you're looking too thin."
1 week ago my aunt that I havent seen in 3 years said "When did you get so skinny!"
Its annoying when people say overweight people can't have an eating disorder 🤦🏽♀️
But I mean, as long as you have fat it's not as dangerous as someone underweight on the verge of death of starvation.
@@alexjulius69 Are you dumb? I think you are 😂 Doesn't matter. You don't compare that shit. An eating disorder is an eating disorder no matter what size you are
When not even your mum notice it
NikkieH14 my mum was so happy that I went to medium to extra small 🙃 but lately I’m gaining weight and everyone is saying I’m getting fatter but I’m starting to starve again..
My mum noticed it, but shes encouraging me to continue it. She likes me to be very skinny
J Wong6 i’m so sorry ❤️❤️ we’re here for u
Erinn Garcia you’re perfect
Kinda worthless tbh if you need to talk, I will listen...just know that you are strong you you can get healthy and happy
My whole family is telling me am getting fat and it really hurts me
same! i'm crying everyday they don't even know how much it hurts
Same and it doesn’t make anything any better
You are all perfect just as you are! Dont change please. You are perfect, you are perfect, you are perfect ❤️ And soo beautiful 💞
I know this feeling
you are really pretty and amazing Soul:)❤️
When I was anorexic EVERYONE was "worried" and caring but most of them liked me, boys would smile at me, I had lots of friends, I was on honor roll in highschool...I was happy with myself, the way I saw my bones and the was that I had more and more friends each day.
Then...I was hospitalized for 2 months and I recovered and I lost everyone, no more friends.. at all...no more smiles from anyone. All of that caused me to became extremely depressed and I started overdosing, bad grades, isolation, over exercise...
It's horrible how people can leave just like that... 💔
I know how that feels if you need anyone to talk to I'm here for you girl @iam__aisha__m that's my instagram we can talk from there
@@Sh_arlyne thank you!
@@values1111 what's your instagram username I'll dm you
I once had a doc in a psych ward tell me i wasnt skinny enough to have an E.D. when i told her of my habits so i figured it was ok to continue.
When you see something beautiful in someone, tell them. It may take a second to say, but for them, it could last a lifetime✨
This song gives me pll feels😭
xviemria omg I though I was the only oneee!!!
xviemria yaassssssss
“You don’t know them like i do”. From when Ali wrote to the PLL’s so Charlotte could be released.
jen ships sparia well it is from pll lol
It makes me incredibly emotional that you have included a male sufferer, barely anyone does this here. Eating disorders are a genetic accurance within my family so alongside my mum and I (anorexia), my male cousin has bulimia - a topic which is never ever spoken about 💗 Thank you so much
no hate but the worst part about this video for me personally is that all the people in it are beautiful
but honestly, beautifully made, thank you
I was here one year ago and I'm here again and I guess that's not a good sign
it went from "why are you eating all of the food in the house?" and "you're too fat" to "please eat" or "you're sick"
WELL WHICH ONE IS IT?
I've been binging the past three days so I came here to make myself restrict again idk what I'm doing
THIS IS LITERALLY SOMETHING I NEEDED LATELY AND I CANNOT BELIEVE ONE OF MY FAVOURITE EDITORS DELIVERED👏🏽👏🏽 I LOVE THIS SONG AND ALL THE SHOWS/MOVIES. I AM LIVING
CoryDonnan THANKYOU!! i hope you’re okay ☺️
I used to watch this to self trigger my Ed, I just got out of recovery and now I use it to show people it's not a mental issue you want.
Congratulations! I’m in recovery rn and it’s so hard
You are such an amazing editor like this is art
I have this video memorised because I watch it so much :(
i ate dinner with my family and now i’m in the toilet... i feel so bad rn because i can’t purge too
ik i´m really late but i´m glad you included boys in this video.
often when i tell people that i have an ED (mostly family) they tell me that i can´t because i am a boy and only girls can have an ED
I'm really sorry for it..I wish I could express myself with words.
the thing what makes me sad is, if I eat 50, 100 or 200 calories per day, or if I fast a day, it’s normal. my doctor says all the years your not ill, you’re okay. it started when I was 13, slim down my food, taking pills, loosing or gaining weight. but no one noticed. they always when they see thin people, in anorexic movies or on the street, „she or him need to eat“ but when I do it, as a Chubby Girl who was always Chubby, they’re like. „You make a good diet“ it’s not a diet what I make. it’s counting calories, weight myself everyday making me crazy if I gain one kilo, or less. But always hearing „it’s normal“ triggers me. I continue.
I hate hearing from my family „you don’t look good in that dress“ „don’t wear this“ „don’t eat this“ it hurts. it kills me inside. but they will never care. never..
"you're gonna eat all of that?" "That's too much food" "save some for everyone else" .... "Are you not hungry?" "That's not enough to fill you up." "You need to eat" "please just eat". They judged me, and when I changed something, when I finally did something about it, then they started to worry
So powerfull and emotional. Incredible work
You are an artist! so beautiful!
AnaGarrett thank you x
You’re videos are always d’or amazingly edited. This is fantastic!
QueenSansa that’s so kind of you to say! thank you
hastings anatomy you’re welcome (;
I'm crying. It's a great video and you're very good💕
U're so creative ❤️ I hope one day we just stop all the hate and start loving our selves 🙁
I really love all your videos. They're deeply intenses. 💕
i had bulimia and began eating normally again. i forgot about it all and started eating without purging. i feel so big, and large now and watching these edits help me and i’m pretty sure a lot of us to continue doing what we’re doing. i hate to admit it but watching these trigger me which is what i want
I hope you get help. You deserve better :)
this is really beautiful ^^
This is so beautiful
Low key crying right now, this hits home💔
I’m watching these to trigger myself.
"come work out with me!"
"how many did you eat?"
"your so lazy"
shoutout to my parents. i cant look at food the same now.
crying this is beautiful
emma bellisario thank you x
They say I'm getting fat as a good thing but my sick mind says horrible things about my body
growing up as the "fat kid" traumatize me. and now, i don't want to eat anymore.
So sad and beautiful 😭😍
Am i the only one who still watch these to trigger them self
Amazing a masterpiece
you know it gets bad when you start watching these videos again
My problem with restricting is that I can do it really easily 'cause hunger doesn't bother me but then I can't stop thinking about food, I literally can't focusing on anything else and then I eat and feel like shit and can't concentrate again. I hate myself
I feel like I’m about to relapse after over 2 years of being clean. I’ve gained so much weight and I hate myself because of it, not to mention my depression and anxiety are out of control I feel like I have no control over anything anymore.
how are you?
Once an anorexo, always an anorexo. As they say. But I hope you're doimg well
So beautyful 😍❤
I love the fact that there are boys in here as well :)
i use to watch these to trigger my ed and now i just watch these to feel less alone. i wish i never did this to myself.
I'm crying😭😭😍
Extremely cool video! Nice job!
i told my mom today that i didn’t eat anything and she didn’t care but when my older brother who’s skinnier than me eats nothing she tells him to eat
i feel like everyone thinks i’m fat
so many people told me i’m fat and i’m starting to believe it lol
they don’t realize how much words can hurt
wow great edit
Insomnia Edits thankyou!
Great video!
Everyone tells me I’m fat
Im not anorexic...but i wish i was. Im just so fat and i cant look in the mirror without crying. I want to try but i physically cant trow up and all i think abt is food.
You don't look fat based on your pfp and I'm not a goody wonderlands and sunshines type of person either. Get more of an active lifestyle and in 5 years you'll be fine if you're not happy currently.
My mum would comment on my weight months ago, asking me to "not lose anymore weight" and to not "exaggerate" , I think she was worried.. I lost more weight though, now she doesn't say anything at all anymore.. I think she's in denial, she doesn't want to believe what I am doing to myself.. I feel bad about it, but I can't help it
I don't know why I'm starving they said I'm pretty and that's why they like me the most but then why I'm uncomfortable.... I want to eat at the same time I'm not even hungry... Eating is frustrating...
I hate seeing comments from immature kids who miss a dinner and think there anorexic
idk what it is, but something about this specific multi fandom just hits different
It doesn't to me 😜 I just like to observe people that revolve their whole lives around being bag of bones for whatever reason
Для кого мы живём ,кого мы по настоящему любим без приколов и рофлов? Жизнь мимолетна я разрешаю тебе совершать ошибки ,но запрещаю причинять себе боль как физическую так и моральную ,ВСЕГДА слышишь? Верь в себя ,верь что ты в этом мире не одинок , ты лучик света ,ты воспроизводишь все свои мечты в РЕАЛЬНОСТЬ ,полюби себя ,хорошо если ты себя ненавидиш то помни что я да я ,Я ЛЮБЛЮ ТЕБЯ ,Я ВЕРЮ В ТЕБЯ,У ТЕБЯ ВСЕ ПОЛУЧИТСЯ ♥️🌌
This is beautiful 💗
At work, I say my weight and they make fun of my small size. So I restrict. To prove them wrong, and that I’m not just a kid.
The thing I hate the most is when someone tells me I'm not fat only to make me feel better after I say I'm fat. It hurts because they only say it to make me feel better not because its true.
Waking up on the bathroom floor after purging all 3 bites of dinner. Guilt is still there. You go to your room and inspect your body in the mirror. Not enough ribs, too much fat. So you watch super size vs super skinny as you do crunches on the floor. Cigarettes, monsters, and 200 calories a day… no- 100… no- 50… eventually none. Youre literally wasting away but you want more. Eventually you realize you don’t wanna die you want help
pls stay safe.
I wish I could edit as well as you do
I don’t feel like myself anymore
"You don't need to take care of me." What's that from?"
I think everyone expects me too be the one whos always eating so i hide not eating by letting them think im eating alot to not be suspicious.
The thing I hate most is eating in front of me.
lol seeing my comments from 2 years ago and realizing how ive come full circle even after 7 months in a residential facility where they forced me to eat is so fucking sad. why do ppl still think forcing ppl to eat wont just change the mental part of the disorder??? i only ended up binging for a year and then relapsing and losing 60 lbs and now im fucking stuck even tho i NEED to get to my ugw by my bday and its coming in only 2 months and ive only gained since i was at my lw UGHHHH i actually wanna fucking die but im determined to do whatever i can to lose this fucking weight istg
I tried to talk, I really did but they just didn’t notice.
I really liked your editings but plz the name of them all ❤
When people notice but nobody cares.
instead of my mom worrying she got mad at me for being ungrateful she kept asking who’s making you do this but continued to called me a pig and fat when i’d eat a lot she says she’s joking but she doesn’t realize that i don’t process it that way she’s knows i have issues but refuses to accept it and then blames me for everything
i feel the same way w my mom but it’s alright. stay strong!💗
i've been told i was skin and bones before, but i would believe that once i look in the mirror and see something i want to see.
todays calories -0
Very lovely
and now i have an amazing gag reflex
❤️
Ok so my family teel me i look skinner i actually trying to recover myself for that i havnt purged in 2 months until last week i relapse after 2 months clean y have a relapse my family in these days is telling me i look skinnear an they are congrating me for that (in my family is always been a “competition” of that) but i actually had seen my self fatter and fatter evryday
Im in pain. Im not fine. I dont know what can i do for myself. Im loser. I cant stop binge. Sorry for my english. But i need help. I have to start new life but this is so hard. I tried but results so bad. My heart getting colder and colder
I really wish I was skinny like them
And I don't. I'm happy to be at 16% bodyfat 🤗
I start a program for my eating Monday that last 6 weeks, and I’m scared as fuck. They’re gonna make me eat, it’s become so much harder for me to eat recently. I can’t do this.
U can do this. I wont tell u it's gonna be easy cuz it wont but it will become better and better u just have to stay strong
I have anorexia, bulimia, ptsd, severe depression, anxiety, adhd, etc. yeah and it fucking sucks
I miss school
Before you call me crazy I have a reason...
At school you don't have to eat lunch or breakfast and your parents won't know so you can go home and tell them you had a big lunch.
See mathematics (not really math lol)
I used to do the same thing so I understand you
Woaw I’m -
To
I hate lying to you but I don't want to live anymore your the only thing that makes me feel human
the thing is if I can't find any other way to commit suicide I cut and starve myself, now I can't cut cuz they hid all the blades so I starve myself more and I purge... U can hurt urself with basically anything so how do they think I'm gonna survive without being in a hospital like that? But no, if I go back to any hospital ever again it's cuz it's "for attention" not that I actually just need more time there cuz I'm definitely not better and I'll admit it I don't even trust myself so I can't even ask for help I need someone to turn me in if I'm ever gonna get it. Or we could wait till I get actually sick and they realize I'm not doing it for attention. Fml.
Feels 🤕
My mom said one year ago I'm fat and my step dad then my aunt said I'm fat and then I don't eat mutch and my aunt say why don't you eat you always eated so mutch and know you barely eat.... I can't eat because I feel like I'm going trow up......
I’m relapsing. I know it because I’ve watched these a million times, just to keep myself from eating. It’s ridiculous how aware I am of myself dying. I get it. I’m sick. And I don’t fucking care.
Chill
i feel like we all come here to trigger our eds
I starve my self and after I feel like I have to eat everything. I ate horrible and took a shower washed all the smell of food. For the first time I throw up and for once I was in control.
I hope you are better now
how do i make my parents believe i’m eating when i’m not? pls help, it’s hard now that we’re always at home.
Watch Linda sun she helped me with my relationship with food
I've dropped 10 pounds in 3 days and my mum hasn't notices anything... I've been starving myself for 3 months now
What is the name of the show / movie, from the first scene please ? ( sorry i'm not english ) I'm looking for it like.. A lonnng time ago, thanks :)