I am currently reading what "What my bones know" and it's such a heartbreaking, painful, truthful yet eye-opening account of what living with childhood CPTSD is like and how much there's still left to know about it. Thabk you for sharing your life story with the world, Stephanie. I wish you peace in your journey towards complete healing. ✨♥️
1. Wished we could have heard more from the guest speaker. She was very kind and understanding but there seemed to be a disconnect in the discussion that would have been more fluid if the guest could have had more opportunities to speak. 2. It would be helpful if comments could be filtered/checked out to show those with genuine questions/comments and concerns. Some of them are are the opposite.
I am 33 and I feel like I will never heal from my childhood emotional abandonment. I genuinely just can't seem to find a way out to feel happy. I am desperate.
Matthew 11:28-30 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” - Jesus Christ, the Messiah. He loves you very much. I know faith and true spirituality isn't talked much in therapy or in general in present society. But oh how the most important it is to have a relationship with God, Elohim through His Son, Jesus Christ, Yeshuah! You may never have been told this, but God created YOU on purpose, for a good purpose. He sent Himself down in the flesh to die for our sins, buried for three days to rise again on the third day. God demonstrated His love towards us that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). We don't know how to love each other the way we were made to be loved but we were made by LOVE. He who loveth not, knoweth not God for God is love (1 John 4:8). But we must realize that we need His love and His Will in our lives which is eternal love, eternal life! John 14:6 "Jesus said unto him, I am the way, the truth and the life. No one can come to the Father but by Me." God is willing, but He won't force our hand. We must be willing to surrender, repent (turn away from our sins), ask God into our lives and make Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior (live for Him, not our selves or for the world), ask for His Holy Spirit to come into our hearts, our lives to help us live Holy lives and just follow Him! That's it! He will lead you if you TRUST in Him. He loves you! God bless you!
As someone with Severe Major Depression (Non-Psychotic) for likely my entire 41 years of life, the one thing I've very rarely described myself as is sad. It's a very rare if ever felt emotion. The last thing I'd ever describe my depression as is being sad. Guess it's why it's important to remember depression isn't a thing; It's a bunch of different things.
Mine is sadness and being numb. But the last few episodes over the last few months, i have felt almost... Done.. like, I'm so tired of feeling this way, I feel like a broken record. I have weekly therapy too and I feel like it's not enough sometimes. I have been in fight or flight mode since I was about 8 (I'm 43 now). Even meeting and living a beautiful life my hubby has provided, i have 25+ years of multiple traumas that i haven't worked through. So here I am feeling undeserving of this life i live. But i am hoping to start diving into my traumas this week so i can start living life. We will see.
The fact that you have had to deal with this for a whopping 41 years is INSANE, MAJOR respect to you, and I truly hope you can feel at peace, if you aren’t
@@mistykuoha-silva7167 I hate how much I relate to the feelings of being done. I don’t experience severe depression nor consistent 24/7 symptoms but being a teenager has certainly brought along its own problems that amplify the feelings of anxiety I used to get some during different situations. I 100% do not have it anywhere NEAR as bad as you do, especially since you’ve had to deal with this bulltshit for 35 years, but I hope knowing that someone also is struggling with feeling numb and done makes you feel less alone. You’re so fucking strong for dealing with this for decades on end, I can’t even begin to imagine the difficulty it poses each day. And whatever caused your trauma, you absolutely DID NOT deserve it whatsoever. I hope that you’re now feeling, even if it’s just a bit, like you are deserving of life
I was diagnosed at age 59 with cptsd. Three years ago. None of my siblings care to even ask what it is or how I’m doing. The stork definitely brought me to the wrong house. I’m desperately trying to find my tribe.
I think I lots of empathy and letting the world run you until you snap over time. I am diagnosed with Cptsd/ bipolar 2/Major Depressive disorder/ Generalized Anxiety Disorder(with psychotic symptom)/ADHD/psychosocial personality disorder/addiction/severe hypersensitivity/ emotional violent outburst/self hate/Suicidal/homicidal ideation. Auditory/Visual hallucinations. It's been rough 33 years in psychotherapy. Countless med changes. Now I'm 42 on mental disability alone far away from this world. I have 0 friends. I stay alive so I don't hurt my father, as he's the only human that I feel cares for me. At 42, years old. 24 years of being a foreman in commercial hvac licensed in 10 states. To bottom barrel poverty. Thanks for addressing cptsd. It needs to be in an updated DSM-5.
Does anybody else have attacks that gives you the cold sweats, nausea and/vomiting, or stomach upset, loss of appetite and just wipes you out the whole day? Ugh that shit sucks so bad 😢
I hear you, and you are not alone! I was bedridden for almost a year due to those exact symptoms, experiencing them every day. 4 years later, I'm diagnosed with C-PTSD, fibromyalgia, and other mental health conditions, going through therapy and working on myself. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. There are still days where you will feel those symptoms still rule your life, but it feels so much better to know why I feel a certain way and be able to fight every day to help myself. Sending love and hugs to you 💕
@@hollycameron4451 Omg, I couldn't imagine going through that every day! I had those attacks for just 3 days in a row and thought I was going to lose my mind. Boy I swear it's the worst feeling ever, especially when you're alone.
Yeah I have CPTSD. I am so used to being in hypervigilance I actually am never fully relaxed. And whether a negative or not It has made me be able to read people very well. I always find it odd how everyone dont see what I see.
And there it is. At just after the 10 minute mark she talks about this very supportive partner she has. Thats how and why she got through things. Many of us dont have anyone offering us love or moral support in our lives, making it impossible to overcome our cptsd and anxiety and depression. We can watch all the videos in the world on these subjects and we wont get better. And thats the truth.
I'm 57 years old. I, too, have no support. I've been in therapy for over a year. I've found peace, patience, and love thru Jesus. I often pray and talk to Jesus. Because he is the world's great supporter and he loves you! He doesn't judge.
Kind of agree, we are relational beings that require love, support and finances. And seems to be the way to have the equilibrium is when someone is carrying more of that load for us.
Same here; I'm utterly alone, cut off contact to my shitty family six years ago, have no friends, don't know how to/scared to form bonds and connections... I ever so often think my mother should have gone through with her initial plan to abort me. I really feel like a waste of space and I'm convinced that I don't have anything positive to contribute to this world.
You are not a waste of space ! I was diagnosed at age 59 and am alone as well. I know I need to find a tribe of like minded souls. I have a desperation around this. People like us have so much to offer. It’s so hard to get out the and trust.
Wow. Listening to the two of you sharing your experiences clarified so much for me regarding perspective, acceptance of, realistic expectations of the gamut of mental health diagnoses and treatments. Key concepts for me are “you have this for life”, “life can get better when you look for treatments and skills to control your behaviors and thoughts”, “the Hulk gets triggered but he can be controlled. The Hulk is not bad and there are redeeming qualities about him.” All of these insights are going to help me sooooo much. Best wishes and God bless y’all.
Writing from Melbourne, Australia and I'm struggling to find words. Firstly, thank you for sharing your story/stories. So much of what was said by both of you resonated with me and what I see in my family dynamic. I am a 47 year old male and I have two sisters (I'm the middle child). My older sister and I were physically abused by our father from as far back as we can remember, my older sister definitely had it worse than I did, she was also sexually abused by our grandfather (my mothers Dad), which is insult to injury for both my sister and my mother as we went through our tumultuous home life and my mother was and still is the most caring, kind and supportive person, it was heartbreaking for her to know that her father did abuse her own daughter and we later found out that our cousin, (youngest of three girls) was also abused. It's a long and complex story but my younger sister had cut communication with my older sister and still does to this day but still has a strong bond with our father and with mum. I'll stop there and echo my thanks and admiration for both of you for sharing which is a far greater and more noble achievement than making Forbes' Top richest people (sorry, my little personal gripe as most of society's problems derive from a notion of success being measured in dollars). I will be buying the book and I wish you all the best :)
I stumbled upon this book and devoured it. Its one of the most helpful books on the topic I've found. I'd be interested in a follow up book on the nect chapters.
Thanks Ladies for the video❤ The comparison of “The Hulk” was spot on! A nice A-ha explanation. Been in a chapter of treating my mental health. Lots of therapy over the years. I have benefited so much from intensive outpatient therapy ( I called it mind school) I am presently coming to the end of 6 mo the of DBT therapy. Learning about emotions and having a skill to help understand my emotions has been a game changer. I have C-ptsd, Mdd, Gad, and bpd traits. It’s truly amazing how all of a sudden your able to identify the problem emotion, understand it, and desire a new behavior. Healing is a motha but so worth it. Radical acceptance and mindfulness have found me😂❤
I am so broken that no one likes me at work, in my sober living, etc. I feel like I’m painted as a monster when I haven’t done anything violent at all. I mostly cry and beg people to love me and shame spiral when they don’t. I really wish I could just live alone away from everyone forever.
I'm old, and it took till I was 24 to even be diagnosed with depression. I must take them or can't function. I know I'll be in for rest of my life. I was diagnosed with panic attacks and anxiety at age 17. Did not know I had CPTSD till I was in my 40s. Thanks for this video, and all the other ones you do. ❤
Survivor here. Instead of driving myself to achieve like my sister and Stephanie, I dropped out and escaped and became lost. I’ve been struggling for 68 years.
I'm so sick of people saying you can completely heal from your symptoms of CPTSD. Yes healing can happen but it doesn't go completely away and never experience the symptoms ever again. Or when you have anxiety its the same as everyone's. Its not and society treats us like what is wrong with you.
i read her memoir and its one of the best memoirs i've read. she definitely had some great advice in her memoir but i know i will suffer until im old af
my health comes first 🙏 i've been there too, left my first job due to chronic neurological symptoms and CPTSD (I couldn't even identify with the label at the time because I constantly doubted myself), after having to leave my PhD just a few years prior for the same reasons. i left my software job as a junior and very little experience but now i am starting to earn a little money from the app i've written over the past two years since leaving and i hope to make a living from it someday. my parents have screamed at me for the choices i've made to find healing from my physical health conditions - due to finances and the pandemic i've had to live with them multiple times in adulthood. but at least i have had some savings to fall back on at other times. many people i know are not nearly so lucky.
0:00: 💪 Having complex PTSD is like being the Incredible Hulk when triggered, but it also has a bright side of empathy and courage. 4:28: 🏠 The speaker grew up in a traumatic home where they couldn't express their emotions. 9:12: 😔 The decision to leave a dream job for the sake of health was terrifying but ultimately liberating. 13:18: 🤝 The powerful moment of connecting with someone who has lived experience. 17:59: 👥 The speaker feels inferior to their Harvard-educated doctors and wants a partnership for better health. 22:22: 😊 The speaker is discussing the myth of keeping someone at arm's length and the comfort of meeting someone accepting and emotionally available. 26:33: 🧬 Our ancestral trauma can be passed down culturally and through our epigenome, affecting the way we process trauma and scary things. 30:54: 👌 Managing mental health requires realistic expectations and ongoing maintenance. 35:43: 🔑 The speaker has learned to understand and cope with their negative emotions by using a toolbox of strategies. Recap by Tammy AI
❤❤THANK YOU FOR THIS❤❤ NO MORE SHAME🌻 Teaching AUTHENTIC healing, and diving into the darkness is there one finds their safe within thyself,..and THERE,is where one finds their illuminating light🌟
I’m 50 now my young wife had a car accident and lost out unborn child and she had severe brain damage I was only 25 at the time and had my toddler son to raise. She became a totally different person than the one I married. She lost her independence and could not function in social environments any more. There was issues between her and my young son. I have not been able to function normally ever since. I failed relationship after relationship because I still felt married to her even after we were not together anymore. I stayed working as best I could when raising my son my mother and father helped me a lot. After my son was in college I finally just was not able to do anything anymore. I actually laid in the bed for about two years and now I could not function in normal society any more. That happened in my early 40s and I still have not been able to get my grounding back. I have bipolar disorder also so I’m not totally in the bed all the time but I have severe mood swings where when im up I have manic episodes where my body speeds up my hart rate increases and go until im back in the bed again. It’s been a long struggle over the years with no end in sight. It’s put me in a bad place in my life I was able to save a decent amount of money while I was still working but that is running out and I just don’t qualify for disability.soon the money will be gone and I have bad relationships with even my son because of my disorders. So I’m just have to ride it out by myself.
Thanks for this. I've just ordered Stephanies book to read. I've gained an important person in my life with this diagnosis and I want to learn all I can. Any other resources people know of I'd really appreciate any advice/direction/links/videos etc. Thank you.
Can anyone help me find out what she is referring to at about 21:06? It sounds like she says "google docs therapy" but I can't find anything about this online. I'm diagnosed with CPTSD and very curious
Stephanie Foo great work continue being amazing you did excellent work, i hope we can check in on Lisa Ling and see if shed be willing to investigate some of the phenomena in the US that we cauc asians around same age are not allowed to discuss yet want the discussion. And also please say hello to Doctor Yip and let her know somebody is thinking about her and hoping she is enjoying life.
Being that complex ptsd isn’t diagnosable, I’ll just say I have ptsd and sud. However I have recovered from both of these. EMDR and CBT along with becoming a part of a community will change your life.
HI! As I watch more true crime and read more about trauma, I regularly ask myself how I never harmed anyone and how I have no intention to harm anyone. Yet I was traumatized and raised like dahmer, ridgeway, DEANGELO, or Sutcliffe. WHY AM I DIFFERENT? Can we reverse engineer these concepts and maybe find places where people can be better instead of worse? Im desperate to know?
Eye was bullied from the age of 5 to 16 then joined the military for a number of years, so the young bullied boy turned into a man with a very good memory of the peopel that bullied me,eye did get them all back does this make me a bad person or is this behaviour normal??
My brain knows I'll be ok, but I cannot get it ti believe I'll be ok. I feel like no matter what I do to comfort myself, I still feel a looming sense of demise.
With someone who love bombed and then isolated their victim. Keeping him entirely away from his once loved Family and all of his friends. Could this person have CPTSD? Or does that not fit into the scenario?
MajorIllustration absolutely cpdst and being a victim of narcistic or even psychopatic disorder is possible but then you should try to realise is panic attacs comes from an accident or from abuser and it is abuser and there was a manipulation try maybe dr ramani she is very clearly discibing this
I’m more like The Incredible Sulk, because of all the indelible folk, who reared me up against a toxic yoke, To the point that safety seems a cosmic joke.
3:02 2024 now, and this bloody world has managed to finally make me see its true colours. EVERYBODY that has been in a position of power and authority has betrayed me. My parents, the religious authority figures of not one, but two major religions, the managers I had, those who were supposed to have the general population’s best interest at heart, my partner, doctors, Police, Justice, scientists, journalists, even some who do not deserve to call themselves ‘psychologists’. I LOATHE humankind. I wish I were an alien. I’d rather be a worm, an amoeba, anything but human. Do not ever insult me by calling me ‘human’. EVER.
As a person suffering cptsd since 1985 and having lived with stress and violence since 1947 there is little similarity in your presentation on this subject. I have no worth while understanding of where you are coming from. Total wast of time.
My CPTSD does define me. I never wanted a job, except underage stripper rockstar or gay child porn star. Only that which insults and abandons the females, as punishment for their grooming and violent molestation, their determination to either rob me of my bodily autonomy or kill me outright, their complaints of NOT being raped. Anything else is degrading, it can't compare to the sex that REAL humans (girls) get and depicts homosexuality as diseased, which women then use as justification for their demands of genocide, and it makes me a traitor to the cause, a weak and lighthouse-obvious target. And, of course, my revulsion with the vile adult body and skin doesn't help in any way, because it means you're not good enough to be a real person, gay and wrong, if you had to settle for an adult, the wrongestest choice, that threatens all the girls by normalising it, and making them believe, "hmm, maybe it wouldn't actually be THAT bad..." so they get themselves raped and destroyed again. Moreover, it means you're unprotected, the characteristic proven to be precisely, what makes the homophobes attack. The next issue, is how money is something, that ugly, harmful men, who deserve no love or human esteem, use to rape women, while society just shrugs like: "She DID choose that herself, besides, it's so cute, how I can use those people to ignore the harm I'm doing to myself in the name of heteronormativity." It doesn't really translate to homosexual context, because it is a disrespect for the value of sex and love itself, and being killed over 100$ just isn't much fun... When you already had to run that risk, just for "turning your back on girls" in the first place, sex needs to be extremely important. And there is no protective sex that can be purchased for any amount of immense wealth, unless you are willing to abuse women or little girls, then you win everything. I feel like I can't afford to be seen in the company of adults, because that proves that I am a worthless street-whore, proves I'm a self-enamoured bitch, who deserves to be killed. So I self-isolate in the extreme. And I very much do prefer to scream at my walls, over at random useless uggos in the street or at work. I just don't want to go Hulk, when I'm surrounded by the old nasty people, who can only do sexual harm by hammers and a thousand needles. Only 1 person will leave that room alive, and probably not me, either. It is so frustrating, too, how the women only hurt me, because there are no consequences for them, even when they sex wrong with an adult, they are not killed for not being real people, gay and wrong. Even when they sexually molest 7 year old boys, for the deliberate purpose of "traumatising the gay away". They always get a second chance, by the men, who pretend it's okay to settle for an adult. And this whole time, the only thing keeping them alive, is ME, my refusal to stoop to their level of inhumane cruelty and cowardice... those weakling faggots couldn't hope to defend themselves against my righteous veng.... I mean, my self-entitled rage. Ultimately, if I did murder all of them, then they somehow ALSO win, because that just proves how evil all men are (if you kick them in the nut-sack enough times, they're always so angry, for some reason), and retro-actively provides them with the justification for trying to get me killed in the first place. I don't want to provide them with anything, when they took EVERYTHING from me!
@@ProjectMoff Well, I have tried multiple times. But it's very difficult when adult physicality and company is regarded as degrading and harmful, making me vastly uncomfortable and clutching a dagger behind my back in distrust, expecting I may need to go to extremes to defend myself. It's also not a secret, how uncomfortable it is to work with someone, who doesn't want to be a sex slave, and repeatedly confront how the women were the monsters they warned us about. When I want to project myself as different, based on the experience that it insults them, and teaches them how their difference to us feels from our perspective, what they saw as righteous feels shameful, when you add the opposite perspective. But also need a trustworthy (not desperately lying) source of support, to symbolize sex turning away from those, that turned away from sex. Thanks for replying. Or mocking my suffering, if that's what you meant to do.
😆 its not a competition right? 😆 Yup, i helped an asian receieve asylum status, and i kid you not, i am sleeping in parking lot, in sub par living environment, and the person who received asylum status a much better quality of life than I, better food, a real bed, a real profession, a real life. Immigration yup i helped an asian receive asylum status that person went on to out accomplish me 😆But we are not allowed to talk about how to get their cut cauc asian men who are very competitive isolated their families, we did not get to this very isolated place in the States without some movements, such as the divide and conquer movement, the long march into the institutions, the birth certificate and social security number movement,
Why don't you just unsubscribe from Medcircle and find some other account to follow, then? If everyone one on here annoys you and sounds "spoiled"...honestly that sounds like cptsd trigger itself 😅 but I'm not a Dr. I feel like Medcircle and it's contributers are here to help people and educate on all these different topics. If that offends you, just don't watch it and get a therapist that doesn't sound annoying and spoiled to you 🤙 blessings on your healing journey sister
@@anettszabo108 mute it and use subtitles. I have just discovered Jackie and she is such an inspiration to listen to. Making a personal comment about someone, reflects on you badly, do you realise this?
What she is doing is an extreme vocal fry, and it is very very noticeable, and very harsh on the ears, nevertheless done to be more powerful and perhaps sexy (although I would love to ask what man finds the vocal fry sexy - perhaps a bisexual or homosexual, a misogynist). , This American Life has covered the topic, the topic has been covered extensively and is considered an American thing for working women, Maybe med circle can have a pod cast about Vocal Fry. When will women be allowed to give their full vocal range? the moment someone really connects with their full voice, their presence becomes vibrant . . . charismatic . . . dynamic . . . engaging. It’s powerful stuff - like turning your charisma from black and white to full Technicolor.
To live in the body of a survivor is to never be able to leave the scene of the crime. I cannot ignore the fact that I live here. - Blythe Baird
Well said that’s what it feels like
For me it's worse; im living here physically, and with one of the perpatrators; and the crime is ongoing.
Feel like that too
It's the gift that keeps on giving...
I am currently reading what "What my bones know" and it's such a heartbreaking, painful, truthful yet eye-opening account of what living with childhood CPTSD is like and how much there's still left to know about it.
Thabk you for sharing your life story with the world, Stephanie. I wish you peace in your journey towards complete healing. ✨♥️
1. Wished we could have heard more from the guest speaker. She was very kind and understanding but there seemed to be a disconnect in the discussion that would have been more fluid if the guest could have had more opportunities to speak.
2. It would be helpful if comments could be filtered/checked out to show those with genuine questions/comments and concerns. Some of them are are the opposite.
I am 33 and I feel like I will never heal from my childhood emotional abandonment. I genuinely just can't seem to find a way out to feel happy. I am desperate.
Compassion to you.
@@melliecrann-gaoth4789 much love 💕
Matthew 11:28-30 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” - Jesus Christ, the Messiah.
He loves you very much. I know faith and true spirituality isn't talked much in therapy or in general in present society. But oh how the most important it is to have a relationship with God, Elohim through His Son, Jesus Christ, Yeshuah! You may never have been told this, but God created YOU on purpose, for a good purpose. He sent Himself down in the flesh to die for our sins, buried for three days to rise again on the third day. God demonstrated His love towards us that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). We don't know how to love each other the way we were made to be loved but we were made by LOVE. He who loveth not, knoweth not God for God is love (1 John 4:8). But we must realize that we need His love and His Will in our lives which is eternal love, eternal life! John 14:6 "Jesus said unto him, I am the way, the truth and the life. No one can come to the Father but by Me." God is willing, but He won't force our hand. We must be willing to surrender, repent (turn away from our sins), ask God into our lives and make Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior (live for Him, not our selves or for the world), ask for His Holy Spirit to come into our hearts, our lives to help us live Holy lives and just follow Him! That's it! He will lead you if you TRUST in Him. He loves you! God bless you!
You’re not alone🤍if you ever need someone to talk to or share with, I am a message away. I understand.
Hang in there. Keep learning about cPTSD and trauma. Learn as much as you can, and seek support. There is hope.
As someone with Severe Major Depression (Non-Psychotic) for likely my entire 41 years of life, the one thing I've very rarely described myself as is sad. It's a very rare if ever felt emotion. The last thing I'd ever describe my depression as is being sad. Guess it's why it's important to remember depression isn't a thing; It's a bunch of different things.
Mine is sadness and being numb. But the last few episodes over the last few months, i have felt almost... Done.. like, I'm so tired of feeling this way, I feel like a broken record. I have weekly therapy too and I feel like it's not enough sometimes. I have been in fight or flight mode since I was about 8 (I'm 43 now). Even meeting and living a beautiful life my hubby has provided, i have 25+ years of multiple traumas that i haven't worked through. So here I am feeling undeserving of this life i live. But i am hoping to start diving into my traumas this week so i can start living life. We will see.
The fact that you have had to deal with this for a whopping 41 years is INSANE, MAJOR respect to you, and I truly hope you can feel at peace, if you aren’t
@@mistykuoha-silva7167 I hate how much I relate to the feelings of being done. I don’t experience severe depression nor consistent 24/7 symptoms but being a teenager has certainly brought along its own problems that amplify the feelings of anxiety I used to get some during different situations. I 100% do not have it anywhere NEAR as bad as you do, especially since you’ve had to deal with this bulltshit for 35 years, but I hope knowing that someone also is struggling with feeling numb and done makes you feel less alone. You’re so fucking strong for dealing with this for decades on end, I can’t even begin to imagine the difficulty it poses each day. And whatever caused your trauma, you absolutely DID NOT deserve it whatsoever. I hope that you’re now feeling, even if it’s just a bit, like you are deserving of life
Depression is anger, turned inwards.
I was diagnosed at age 59 with cptsd. Three years ago. None of my siblings care to even ask what it is or how I’m doing. The stork definitely brought me to the wrong house.
I’m desperately trying to find my tribe.
I think I lots of empathy and letting the world run you until you snap over time. I am diagnosed with Cptsd/ bipolar 2/Major Depressive disorder/ Generalized Anxiety Disorder(with psychotic symptom)/ADHD/psychosocial personality disorder/addiction/severe hypersensitivity/ emotional violent outburst/self hate/Suicidal/homicidal ideation. Auditory/Visual hallucinations. It's been rough 33 years in psychotherapy. Countless med changes. Now I'm 42 on mental disability alone far away from this world. I have 0 friends. I stay alive so I don't hurt my father, as he's the only human that I feel cares for me. At 42, years old. 24 years of being a foreman in commercial hvac licensed in 10 states. To bottom barrel poverty. Thanks for addressing cptsd. It needs to be in an updated DSM-5.
Survivor here. Been struggling for 68 years. You ARE NOT ALONE. I’m sending you LOVE! There is empathy and love ❤️
Does anybody else have attacks that gives you the cold sweats, nausea and/vomiting, or stomach upset, loss of appetite and just wipes you out the whole day? Ugh that shit sucks so bad 😢
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I hear you, and you are not alone! I was bedridden for almost a year due to those exact symptoms, experiencing them every day. 4 years later, I'm diagnosed with C-PTSD, fibromyalgia, and other mental health conditions, going through therapy and working on myself. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. There are still days where you will feel those symptoms still rule your life, but it feels so much better to know why I feel a certain way and be able to fight every day to help myself. Sending love and hugs to you 💕
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Omg, I couldn't imagine going through that every day! I had those attacks for just 3 days in a row and thought I was going to lose my mind. Boy I swear it's the worst feeling ever, especially when you're alone.
I has then a lot. I haven't experienced it in a year so... it sucked
Yes, constantly in waves for over a decade now
My CPTSD crew where you at?
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Yeah I have CPTSD. I am so used to being in hypervigilance I actually am never fully relaxed. And whether a negative or not It has made me be able to read people very well. I always find it odd how everyone dont see what I see.
And there it is. At just after the 10 minute mark she talks about this very supportive partner she has. Thats how and why she got through things. Many of us dont have anyone offering us love or moral support in our lives, making it impossible to overcome our cptsd and anxiety and depression. We can watch all the videos in the world on these subjects and we wont get better. And thats the truth.
I'm 57 years old. I, too, have no support. I've been in therapy for over a year. I've found peace, patience, and love thru Jesus. I often pray and talk to Jesus. Because he is the world's great supporter and he loves you! He doesn't judge.
Kind of agree, we are relational beings that require love, support and finances.
And seems to be the way to have the equilibrium is when someone is carrying more of that load for us.
Same here; I'm utterly alone, cut off contact to my shitty family six years ago, have no friends, don't know how to/scared to form bonds and connections...
I ever so often think my mother should have gone through with her initial plan to abort me. I really feel like a waste of space and I'm convinced that I don't have anything positive to contribute to this world.
@@leonahutchens4246That is the truth....we need true love connection and support to heal....and the reason we don't heal is we don't get it.
You are not a waste of space ! I was diagnosed at age 59 and am alone as well. I know I need to find a tribe of like minded souls. I have a desperation around this. People like us have so much to offer.
It’s so hard to get out the and trust.
Wow. Listening to the two of you sharing your experiences clarified so much for me regarding perspective, acceptance of, realistic expectations of the gamut of mental health diagnoses and treatments. Key concepts for me are “you have this for life”, “life can get better when you look for treatments and skills to control your behaviors and thoughts”, “the Hulk gets triggered but he can be controlled. The Hulk is not bad and there are redeeming qualities about him.” All of these insights are going to help me sooooo much. Best wishes and God bless y’all.
Her book is so traumatic and difficult to read but eye opening for me.
Writing from Melbourne, Australia and I'm struggling to find words. Firstly, thank you for sharing your story/stories. So much of what was said by both of you resonated with me and what I see in my family dynamic. I am a 47 year old male and I have two sisters (I'm the middle child). My older sister and I were physically abused by our father from as far back as we can remember, my older sister definitely had it worse than I did, she was also sexually abused by our grandfather (my mothers Dad), which is insult to injury for both my sister and my mother as we went through our tumultuous home life and my mother was and still is the most caring, kind and supportive person, it was heartbreaking for her to know that her father did abuse her own daughter and we later found out that our cousin, (youngest of three girls) was also abused. It's a long and complex story but my younger sister had cut communication with my older sister and still does to this day but still has a strong bond with our father and with mum. I'll stop there and echo my thanks and admiration for both of you for sharing which is a far greater and more noble achievement than making Forbes' Top richest people (sorry, my little personal gripe as most of society's problems derive from a notion of success being measured in dollars). I will be buying the book and I wish you all the best :)
Thank you so much for this wonderful interview, it really helps to know we’re not alone on this journey! Thanks for your openness and honesty.
I stumbled upon this book and devoured it. Its one of the most helpful books on the topic I've found. I'd be interested in a follow up book on the nect chapters.
Thanks Ladies for the video❤
The comparison of “The Hulk” was spot on! A nice A-ha explanation. Been in a chapter of treating my mental health. Lots of therapy over the years.
I have benefited so much from intensive outpatient therapy ( I called it mind school) I am presently coming to the end of 6 mo the of DBT therapy. Learning about emotions and having a skill to help understand my emotions has been a game changer.
I have C-ptsd, Mdd, Gad, and bpd traits. It’s truly amazing how all of a sudden your able to identify the problem emotion, understand it, and desire a new behavior.
Healing is a motha but so worth it.
Radical acceptance and mindfulness have found me😂❤
I appreciate even just the opening statements. It brought me to tears bc it’s so hard to see through the lens of positivity in regards to me trauma
I am so broken that no one likes me at work, in my sober living, etc. I feel like I’m painted as a monster when I haven’t done anything violent at all. I mostly cry and beg people to love me and shame spiral when they don’t. I really wish I could just live alone away from everyone forever.
I'm old, and it took till I was 24 to even be diagnosed with depression. I must take them or can't function. I know I'll be in for rest of my life. I was diagnosed with panic attacks and anxiety at age 17. Did not know I had CPTSD till I was in my 40s. Thanks for this video, and all the other ones you do. ❤
Try microdosing ❤
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Survivor here. Instead of driving myself to achieve like my sister and Stephanie, I dropped out and escaped and became lost. I’ve been struggling for 68 years.
I’ve been hurt by just about everyone I have loved. All of them.
I'm so sick of people saying you can completely heal from your symptoms of CPTSD. Yes healing can happen but it doesn't go completely away and never experience the symptoms ever again. Or when you have anxiety its the same as everyone's. Its not and society treats us like what is wrong with you.
i know right. at the end of the day youre on your own after all
I agree! I also hate that is called a disorder! I view it as a mental injury! You can heal from injuries, and Disorders don't.
i read her memoir and its one of the best memoirs i've read. she definitely had some great advice in her memoir but i know i will suffer until im old af
my health comes first 🙏 i've been there too, left my first job due to chronic neurological symptoms and CPTSD (I couldn't even identify with the label at the time because I constantly doubted myself), after having to leave my PhD just a few years prior for the same reasons. i left my software job as a junior and very little experience but now i am starting to earn a little money from the app i've written over the past two years since leaving and i hope to make a living from it someday. my parents have screamed at me for the choices i've made to find healing from my physical health conditions - due to finances and the pandemic i've had to live with them multiple times in adulthood. but at least i have had some savings to fall back on at other times. many people i know are not nearly so lucky.
Thank You for sharing your time with me today 🙏 God Bless You 💗
With all my respect to the host , let Steph speak . 🙏🏻
Thank you for this. Really great watch while on my bumpy recovery journey.
Thank you very much. This feels good on a tuesday morning !
0:00: 💪 Having complex PTSD is like being the Incredible Hulk when triggered, but it also has a bright side of empathy and courage.
4:28: 🏠 The speaker grew up in a traumatic home where they couldn't express their emotions.
9:12: 😔 The decision to leave a dream job for the sake of health was terrifying but ultimately liberating.
13:18: 🤝 The powerful moment of connecting with someone who has lived experience.
17:59: 👥 The speaker feels inferior to their Harvard-educated doctors and wants a partnership for better health.
22:22: 😊 The speaker is discussing the myth of keeping someone at arm's length and the comfort of meeting someone accepting and emotionally available.
26:33: 🧬 Our ancestral trauma can be passed down culturally and through our epigenome, affecting the way we process trauma and scary things.
30:54: 👌 Managing mental health requires realistic expectations and ongoing maintenance.
35:43: 🔑 The speaker has learned to understand and cope with their negative emotions by using a toolbox of strategies.
Recap by Tammy AI
❤❤THANK YOU FOR THIS❤❤
NO MORE SHAME🌻 Teaching AUTHENTIC healing, and diving into the darkness is there one finds their safe within thyself,..and THERE,is where one finds their illuminating light🌟
Thank You for sharing this video with me 🙏💟✝️🕊️
The person I harm when I “hulk out” is almost always myself. It’s very rare for anyone else to even see that side of myself.
I Feel Like I Didnt Hear Enough from Her..😪
Thanku so much for this video! Very insightful & tbh relatable
wow, you had me hooked in the first 60 seconds.
This was so good 😢 the hulk metaphor made me tear up
I’m 50 now my young wife had a car accident and lost out unborn child and she had severe brain damage I was only 25 at the time and had my toddler son to raise. She became a totally different person than the one I married. She lost her independence and could not function in social environments any more.
There was issues between her and my young son. I have not been able to function normally ever since. I failed relationship after relationship because I still felt married to her even after we were not together anymore. I stayed working as best I could when raising my son my mother and father helped me a lot. After my son was in college I finally just was not able to do anything anymore. I actually laid in the bed for about two years and now I could not function in normal society any more. That happened in my early 40s and I still have not been able to get my grounding back. I have bipolar disorder also so I’m not totally in the bed all the time but I have severe mood swings where when im up I have manic episodes where my body speeds up my hart rate increases and go until im back in the bed again. It’s been a long struggle over the years with no end in sight. It’s put me in a bad place in my life I was able to save a decent amount of money while I was still working but that is running out and I just don’t qualify for disability.soon the money will be gone and I have bad relationships with even my son because of my disorders. So I’m just have to ride it out by myself.
Seek this TRUTH: 1 Corinthians 15:1-4ff and the Gospel of John chapter one.
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Imagine getting into a terrible accident that had you miscarry and your husband only thinks about it affected him.
Stephanie's book was recommended to me by a therapist. :)
Yes! they are the most empathetic
I like the part when I turn green the best!
Thanks for this. I've just ordered Stephanies book to read. I've gained an important person in my life with this diagnosis and I want to learn all I can. Any other resources people know of I'd really appreciate any advice/direction/links/videos etc.
Thank you.
Thanks for sharing
I was diagnosed with cptsd just recently
Can anyone help me find out what she is referring to at about 21:06? It sounds like she says "google docs therapy" but I can't find anything about this online. I'm diagnosed with CPTSD and very curious
I was wondering the same thing. "Google docs therapy"
Commenting here in case anyone answers you.
She discusses it in her book… something that her therapist used that worked for her in the end. It’s not a “real” modality
Stephanie Foo great work continue being amazing you did excellent work, i hope we can check in on Lisa Ling and see if shed be willing to investigate some of the phenomena in the US that we cauc asians around same age are not allowed to discuss yet want the discussion.
And also please say hello to Doctor Yip and let her know somebody is thinking about her and hoping she is enjoying life.
12 minutes I’m still waiting for them to talk about c ptsd
Being that complex ptsd isn’t diagnosable, I’ll just say I have ptsd and sud. However I have recovered from both of these. EMDR and CBT along with becoming a part of a community will change your life.
Are you a JW?
@@shplms lol. No. Those are my initials. I’m just a Christian
@@shplmsLmao
I struggle with Trauma
I can so relate to the little lady on the right side.. from childhood to BF to sexual assault...
HI!
As I watch more true crime and read more about trauma, I regularly ask myself how I never harmed anyone and how I have no intention to harm anyone. Yet I was traumatized and raised like dahmer, ridgeway, DEANGELO, or Sutcliffe. WHY AM I DIFFERENT? Can we reverse engineer these concepts and maybe find places where people can be better instead of worse? Im desperate to know?
Cptsd is the worst invisible disability. So isolating. No one will understand unless they have it. Wouldn’t wish it on anyone. 💔
Wow so there's an upside to this
❤You helped me.
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Eye was bullied from the age of 5 to 16 then joined the military for a number of years, so the young bullied boy turned into a man with a very good memory of the peopel that bullied me,eye did get them all back does this make me a bad person or is this behaviour normal??
I'm hurting so bad. Rn
thank u
What do you do if it is keeping me from holding down a job.. And having add and not being able to have that treated because of a heart condition ?
i cant escape voice fry here in usa
My brain knows I'll be ok, but I cannot get it ti believe I'll be ok. I feel like no matter what I do to comfort myself, I still feel a looming sense of demise.
Everything is in your head. There is nothing that isn't. If it isn't in your head, then for you, it doesn't exist, whether wanted, or unwanted.
With someone who love bombed and then isolated their victim. Keeping him entirely away from his once loved Family and all of his friends. Could this person have CPTSD? Or does that not fit into the scenario?
MajorIllustration absolutely cpdst and being a victim of narcistic or even psychopatic disorder is possible but then you should try to realise is panic attacs comes from an accident or from abuser and it is abuser and there was a manipulation try maybe dr ramani she is very clearly discibing this
Also if you meant abuser as a victim cpdst it is possible but its impossible to heal if abuser is narcisstic
I have BPTM-C-PTSD.
O cry and shake a lot from mine...
I find this example of a high functioning person with CPTSD rather depressing, most of us can't even hold down a very basic job.
My Hulk is a lot like in Infinity War when the Hulk won’t come out when i need him most
Can you totally heal from this ? Or do you have it for your whole life ?
I’m more like The Incredible Sulk,
because of all the indelible folk,
who reared me up against a toxic yoke,
To the point that safety seems a cosmic joke.
Me too
Stop taking up so much space, let her speak!
Only a minute in- wow! I’ve said jokingly before that I’m like hulk- always angry.
Oof.
Interviewer needs way too much attention and talks way too much.
That’s unnecessarily rude
3:02 2024 now, and this bloody world has managed to finally make me see its true colours. EVERYBODY that has been in a position of power and authority has betrayed me. My parents, the religious authority figures of not one, but two major religions, the managers I had, those who were supposed to have the general population’s best interest at heart, my partner, doctors, Police, Justice, scientists, journalists, even some who do not deserve to call themselves ‘psychologists’. I LOATHE humankind. I wish I were an alien. I’d rather be a worm, an amoeba, anything but human. Do not ever insult me by calling me ‘human’. EVER.
As a person suffering cptsd since 1985 and having lived with stress and violence since 1947 there is little similarity in your presentation on this subject. I have no worth while understanding of where you are coming from. Total wast of time.
My CPTSD does define me.
I never wanted a job, except underage stripper rockstar or gay child porn star. Only that which insults and abandons the females, as punishment for their grooming and violent molestation, their determination to either rob me of my bodily autonomy or kill me outright, their complaints of NOT being raped. Anything else is degrading, it can't compare to the sex that REAL humans (girls) get and depicts homosexuality as diseased, which women then use as justification for their demands of genocide, and it makes me a traitor to the cause, a weak and lighthouse-obvious target. And, of course, my revulsion with the vile adult body and skin doesn't help in any way, because it means you're not good enough to be a real person, gay and wrong, if you had to settle for an adult, the wrongestest choice, that threatens all the girls by normalising it, and making them believe, "hmm, maybe it wouldn't actually be THAT bad..." so they get themselves raped and destroyed again. Moreover, it means you're unprotected, the characteristic proven to be precisely, what makes the homophobes attack.
The next issue, is how money is something, that ugly, harmful men, who deserve no love or human esteem, use to rape women, while society just shrugs like: "She DID choose that herself, besides, it's so cute, how I can use those people to ignore the harm I'm doing to myself in the name of heteronormativity." It doesn't really translate to homosexual context, because it is a disrespect for the value of sex and love itself, and being killed over 100$ just isn't much fun... When you already had to run that risk, just for "turning your back on girls" in the first place, sex needs to be extremely important. And there is no protective sex that can be purchased for any amount of immense wealth, unless you are willing to abuse women or little girls, then you win everything. I feel like I can't afford to be seen in the company of adults, because that proves that I am a worthless street-whore, proves I'm a self-enamoured bitch, who deserves to be killed. So I self-isolate in the extreme. And I very much do prefer to scream at my walls, over at random useless uggos in the street or at work.
I just don't want to go Hulk, when I'm surrounded by the old nasty people, who can only do sexual harm by hammers and a thousand needles. Only 1 person will leave that room alive, and probably not me, either. It is so frustrating, too, how the women only hurt me, because there are no consequences for them, even when they sex wrong with an adult, they are not killed for not being real people, gay and wrong. Even when they sexually molest 7 year old boys, for the deliberate purpose of "traumatising the gay away". They always get a second chance, by the men, who pretend it's okay to settle for an adult.
And this whole time, the only thing keeping them alive, is ME, my refusal to stoop to their level of inhumane cruelty and cowardice... those weakling faggots couldn't hope to defend themselves against my righteous veng.... I mean, my self-entitled rage. Ultimately, if I did murder all of them, then they somehow ALSO win, because that just proves how evil all men are (if you kick them in the nut-sack enough times, they're always so angry, for some reason), and retro-actively provides them with the justification for trying to get me killed in the first place. I don't want to provide them with anything, when they took EVERYTHING from me!
Are you receiving therapy Phil?
@@ProjectMoff Well, I have tried multiple times. But it's very difficult when adult physicality and company is regarded as degrading and harmful, making me vastly uncomfortable and clutching a dagger behind my back in distrust, expecting I may need to go to extremes to defend myself.
It's also not a secret, how uncomfortable it is to work with someone, who doesn't want to be a sex slave, and repeatedly confront how the women were the monsters they warned us about.
When I want to project myself as different, based on the experience that it insults them, and teaches them how their difference to us feels from our perspective, what they saw as righteous feels shameful, when you add the opposite perspective. But also need a trustworthy (not desperately lying) source of support, to symbolize sex turning away from those, that turned away from sex.
Thanks for replying. Or mocking my suffering, if that's what you meant to do.
😆 its not a competition right? 😆
Yup, i helped an asian receieve asylum status, and i kid you not, i am sleeping in parking lot, in sub par living environment, and the person who received asylum status a much better quality of life than I, better food, a real bed, a real profession, a real life. Immigration yup i helped an asian receive asylum status that person went on to out accomplish me 😆But we are not allowed to talk about how to get their cut cauc asian men who are very competitive isolated their families, we did not get to this very isolated place in the States without some movements, such as the divide and conquer movement, the long march into the institutions, the birth certificate and social security number movement,
Jackie is weird..can you find a new host. Kyle is great
The voice of the interviewer sounds like AI ….in the worst way.
I want to hear about the book but with this annoying, spoiled strong voice, after 10 seconds i switch off any Medcircle videos.
Who is this(?)
Why don't you just unsubscribe from Medcircle and find some other account to follow, then? If everyone one on here annoys you and sounds "spoiled"...honestly that sounds like cptsd trigger itself 😅 but I'm not a Dr.
I feel like Medcircle and it's contributers are here to help people and educate on all these different topics. If that offends you, just don't watch it and get a therapist that doesn't sound annoying and spoiled to you 🤙 blessings on your healing journey sister
@@thepeatbog Because i follow it for 2 years at least,but this New Person is the only one who hurts my ears. Not the real professionals (therapists)
@@anettszabo108 mute it and use subtitles. I have just discovered Jackie and she is such an inspiration to listen to. Making a personal comment about someone, reflects on you badly, do you realise this?
@@Yearofthetiger24026 good idea, subtitle.
Thanks!
What she is doing is an extreme vocal fry, and it is very very noticeable, and very harsh on the ears, nevertheless done to be more powerful and perhaps sexy (although I would love to ask what man finds the vocal fry sexy - perhaps a bisexual or homosexual, a misogynist). , This American Life has covered the topic, the topic has been covered extensively and is considered an American thing for working women,
Maybe med circle can have a pod cast about Vocal Fry. When will women be allowed to give their full vocal range? the moment someone really connects with their full voice, their presence becomes vibrant . . . charismatic . . . dynamic . . . engaging. It’s powerful stuff - like turning your charisma from black and white to full Technicolor.
不敢开听证会，害怕事实真相，