All the comments saying "Please dont" are people that dont care for your mental health. You are free to take a break in whatever you do okay. Thoughts are free will, free will is what makes everything creative. Dont let your brain build a brick wall. Let it free. Dont worry about dissapointing people. 6:38 lel console hackring
it's ok, I get that what I do means a lot to a lot of people. I'm not bothered by it. I just also accept that at the end of the day I only have so much I can offer people.
This was incredibly relatable. I'm 25. Life doesn't care about your dreams, your passions, your obsessions, who you were "meant to be". And sometimes it feels like a cruel twisted joke, and other times it makes you see there are actually things and people more valuable in this world than your own personal "dreams". I go back and forth between feeling good about this and not. Feeling good or bad about being obsessed with my desired future, then feeling good or bad about letting go of those dreams, being bitter or appreciative of the unexpected things life throws my way, and feeling serenity or anxiety about the absurdity of it all... It's so fucking messy and confusing idek if this comment makes sense.
I totally feel ya. You're not alone. There's so many expectations around every corner. There's a constant battle to chose not to care about what doesn't affect you. I can feel like a bad person sometimes for not measuring up to everything about everyone around me and I need to stop. It's ok to be imperfect. It's ok to be weird. The secret is that most people feel inadequate and are just faking their confidence. That's 100% normal.
Love the fact that there are still normal people that actually try focusing on life as a full picture than just locking themselves to one thing No matter what jam does i hope the community respects him for his decision ❤
First, i would like to say, i am not an adult, i am 14 years of age as of writing this comment. But, i can relate a good amount to what you are saying, i never really noticed until now that your brain makes things seem normal to you, when they really arnet. I think that if anyone knew alot about my life, they would find it very weird and concerning but to me its just, how its always been. I am also neurodivergent, and i relate to what you said about that. Its pretty hard to realise that being neurodivergent really does effect every moment of your life, because it really doesn't feel like it, but its just the truth. You should always try to remember that, you being neurodivergent is part of what makes you, you. the same way an artist being good at drawing is one of the things that make them themselves. Its not something to be ashamed of. I one hundred percent agree that being around other people can make your life 100x better, you just need to be around *your* people. Forcing yourself to be around people who you dont really enjoy being around can be damaging, if there always putting you down or always ignoring you or making fun of you, then those arnet your friends. Try to be more open with people, if they don't like you for being you then, you were probably better off without them anyways. Its nice to see you coming to terms with this stuff, there is more to life about you than just jamattack. I hope that you try to focus more on yourself, from what i can see your already getting better, which is great. Have a good day jam :)
Not to pander to the people here that still don't see you as a human being with other needs, but I'll be honest, I doubt you'll have to quit completely. You may have been granted a privilege in this game and channel but I was granted a privilege in like so many other ways that I am pretty much certain that things will turn out fine for me no matter what. And with so many options in front of me I realize that its not about choosing one or the other, it's about choosing both but in the right way. Give your brain more credit, it can fit a little of itself in the JamAttack Box and plenty in the You Box. You're probably gonna have to leave behind the kinds of people in this comment section who say you can't leave, but you don't have to abandon this passion of yours, its still here, its ready for you when you are. I and many many others will remain here still hoping the best for you.
Yea I do still love doing this. I agree with what you're saying. I think I'm just trying to make it clear that at the end of the day it's my choice how I approach this game. I've spent a long time working out of a sense of expectations and pressure. I need to let go of that. I need to go back to making stuff because I want to. Seems kinda blatantly obvious saying it now lol, I got way too sucked into grind culture.
Hey Jam! Im pretty young, but I have some pretty serious ADHD, and I can relate quite a lot to this video. I can't stop thinking about things I obsess over, music, geometry dash, school, friends, fights, and I can't stop thinking about it until I obsess over something else. I completley understand the part of doing your own thing or projects in your room all day. Thats all I do. Outside of school, and talking to my parents, hellos and goodbyes between siblings, I just spend all day in my room. I think I spend more time with my dogs then I do all other human beings combined. I think you really made me realise just how little I interact with other humans, so thank you for helping me come to that reaslization. I agree with the part about "No people" And "Yes people" as I'm in an improv troop, I actually had a performance yesterday, and I agree with you about finding and surrounding yourself with "Yes, and" people more than anything in this video. As my teacher says, we should'nt say "Yes, but" or "Yes, or" or "No, but" because it completley de-values the other persons idea, and thats not fair to them. So anyways, take as much breaks as you need from youtube, as long as you think it will help you do better, and be healthier. I hope you have a great day, night evening, wherever you are.
6:45 never related to anyone more than this moment right here, honestly. i too have OCD and i swear i have NEVER felt so understood! the cycle of caring way too much about minuscule details to being forced to not care about some things because it’s just too much, then recharging and repeating the cycle again is (at least in my case) spot-on. i’ve even started a project a year ago that fit the question you asked, “if you’re not getting anything out of what you’re doing, and it’s not enjoyable or accomplishing anything, why are you doing it?” this next paragraph will be basically me ranting about the project in question, so skip to the next one if you’d like, it’s pretty darn long :) the project in question was an unreachable goal, by definition. something that could never be reached, that could be infinitely expanded, and with one of my neurological disorders making me VERY creative, that tends to get very out of hand very quickly. it was essentially a recipe for disaster. i was never even planning to submit it anywhere because of the fear that no one would like it, therefore i wasn’t getting anything out of it but some fun ideas on paper! it started out as EXTREMELY enjoyable, i would write nearly 20+ pages of this thing a DAY, i would talk about it nonstop, i would be constantly looking up inspirations and things to learn from to use for the project, hours and hours every day dedicated to obsessing over it. i was obsessed with this project, and then it started to drain me. it was becoming too monotonous, i would try to shake things up, and it would never really help. the project was becoming too big a scale, so i took a long break before getting into it again, and it just… wasn’t the same. so, after about three years of work poured into it, i quit the project, and i still have mixed feelings about that. i know it was definitely the right thing to do, but at the same time, it felt wrong to be abandoning it like this? yeah, i was THAT obsessed with it. but still, i ended up quitting it, and i’ve been quite a bit more free since. in short, do whatever you need to do! take some time off, defocus on the channel to prioritize your life, focus on the channel when you can and want to, whatever you need at the moment, i know i’ll support you through it! in that relatively short section about your experiences with OCD, you unironically made me feel the most understood and felt i’ve been in a LONG, long time. thank you for that, i wish you nothing but the best :D (sorry about the ridiculously long comment, but i had a lot of feelings to get out i guess lol)
Just watched your layout video and it was awesome. And as for you, I’m glad you’ve been able to meet people and focus on yourself for a bit, instead of just the channel. So whatever you do next, I wish you well :3
do whatever, you've put out relatively consistent 10/10 videos and 10/10 levels for ages now and wanting to move on is entirely understandable, just focus on what you want to do and please try not to fall into the youtuber trap of "i need to make content for the subs". hope you have a good time in whatever you wanna do. youve inspired thousands and lead to people finding their passion, its only fair that you get to find another passion if you want
This made me cry. Thank you for all the content. You can do whatever you want or need, because you have given us so much under your will, sacrifiicnng your time, effort, and energy on something that might hurt you. Thank you for everything.
Life is kind of like the level electrodynamics, where everything is going as it always does, smooth and continuous, when suddenly, it all speeds up, and you nearly lose control, and you have to get used to the more challenging version of existence (also don't worry Jam we are all here to support you take as long as you want)
I like how everyone was panicking 20 minutes ago, but cmon guys, watch the video first! And JamAttack, thank you for being aware of how important building your online community should be to you!
jam, i don't know if you'll read this, but i need somewhere to ramble about where i'm at and this video brought up a lot of stuff for me. of course you have no clue how i am, but i see a lot of myself in you whenever you talk about your life, and i'm so so grateful that you've been as open and honest with us as you have. i'm a freshman in college, and i'm lost. very very lost. needless to say that as i grow older the world gets more and more confusing. this includes with gender as well; i've been trying to figure that shit out for like 4 years but i've accepted it'll never make sense to me. living in florida doesn't help either. i've found solace for a while in online communities, and the idea that finding other people who complement you in the right ways is the key to success is something i've reflected on a lot recently. i think that as a kid there were very rare instances of having someone who truly felt like that to me, and even then i never really felt understood. but i also didn't realize that i never felt understood, so it just felt like there was some sort of invisible boundary between my own world and everyone else's. meeting people through discord over the past couple of years has sorta started to break that, but it still makes a huge difference for me that i can't spend time with them in real life. going into college, i thought it would be the perfect time to finally find those types of people in real life. but, as i'm sure you know, it's *really fucking hard.* and right now, i'm sort of in the stage where i can barely keep myself together, if at all, so i start to lose hope that i'll ever find my place. i still try as hard as possible to have hope for the future, but when i don't see a path out it's really difficult to believe it exists. if anyone's reading this far, thank you so much, i don't really know where i wanted to go with this but it's been causing me a lot of stress. god damn i wrote a lot uhhh ok yeah again thanks for putting this out there so people like me have someone they can somewhat relate with. ok bye, have a nice day and also welcome to the nb club
Keep holding onto hope. Do the things you want to do even if you're terrified to do them. When the world doesn't value who you are, the best you can do is show them why they should. It's not an easy place to be put in, it's incredibly hard and confusing at every turn, but it also can be a rewarding journey. That's what I tell myself anyway. Change starts slow and small. As long as you're doing something that feels like it's helping, that's enough for now. Even if it's a small thing.
Hey Jam, we all support you. I may be disappointed now, but in time I will indefinitely respect your decision to do what you need. It takes a strong person be able to do that. Here's a quote: "Sometimes, the best way to move forward is to take a step back." -Unknown
JamAttack, take your time on videos, if you're stressed out or if you're trying to do something, that's completely fine, don't make RUclips your top priority, as long as we know you're okay, we're fine with that ❤
Thank you for the amazing videos and levels glorious fortress was my first demon and your channel will always hold a special place in my heart for inspiring me to start with level creation take as much time as you need
Hey, I'll keep it brief so as to not write an essay in the comment section (something I am very guilty of). But as a (self-diagnosed) autistic trans girlie (non-binary), I think you hit on a lot of things I also personally have been dealing with as I'm 23 years old. I'm in a completely liminal space, not entirely sure where I'm going or where I am, but shit is happening. I hope to begin HRT next year, I'll have to go through my autism screening before then for some reason, and in the meantime I'm just waiting on shit to happen. You also hit on the concept of community, I've been thinking a lot about it recently, like I have friends and sort of a support system, but I wish I had more of a community, an exclusively social environment. So I've been trying to act on that wish, meeting people whenever I can, but it's hard, especially as someone with a lot of social trauma and anxiety due to my autistic tendencies as a kid. Failure has always been hard to deal with, most of my anxiety surrounds making mistakes. From what it seems though, this looks to be a very normal experience, "the liminal twenties" as I call it. Anyway this was a very pleasing listening experience and made me feel better about where I am, thank you. (I know i said I'd keep it brief but this is as brief as it can go okay)
It's pretty hard to define yourself in a world built around fitting into certain models. I know it can pay off in the long run though. It's a hard and confusing journey full of sacrifice and guilt around every corner. But it's also beautiful when you finally come full circle and realize that despite everything... it's still you. (undertale fan who would have guessed) You are still the person you always knew deep inside that you are. The journey isn't about rising to the thousands of demands from life, it's about learning not to care. It's about learning that you're still you at deeper and deeper levels.
I respect this and would be fine with him quitting if he wants to move on. I can totally understand that feeling like stuff can pull you away from other things and that you might want to change. I just hope you enjoy what you find later on
at the end of the day its all art. life is an art. art is a skill. art is fun. life is fun. so the point is to improve at the skill of making life fun. seems like youre doin that so nice job!
Hey jam, i hope whatever you do is the best for you, not us, as people (I just want to say us viewers but people will work) just want to see more and more, but some people, see past that see the real person that inside you, and i do hope that most of your community will support you wherever you go, and those people who dont, dont care about them, they are just small specks of your community, and that most people will support you, no matter what. Sorry if that came off as weird by any chance, not good with words honestly, but whatever you do, we support you♥
glad you’re doing better! im happy that you’re finding yourself, what you like to do, and people that you enjoy being around. keep being you and just live life
i recently have been very depressed and not making anything or working on anything I enjoy so as somebody trying to keep people from falling into that pit take a bit and focus on yourself jam
Even though I'm only 13, I still understand what you are saying. I'm also autistic and I constanly worry about what will happen to my later life. At the end of the day, it's your decision. Do what you want with your life.
I genuinly can’t think of anything to comment anymore, you’ve exhausted my small reserve of positive comments! ohno!! you deserve it though ^w^ Idon’tknowwhattosayanymorebyeeeee
Just do... whatever you want man. You don't owe us anything. If you feel like uploading, go for it. Im always happy to see you upload. If you don't feel like and have other priorities- that's completely fine. :)
Don't worry, you can take any break any time, i know your mental health is not good and you should need to take a break and take a rest, we all know what you're going through and you still made us happy gave us entertainment and happiness you couldn't have, you are a inspiration for me ❤
i have autism, ADHD, DCD and social anxiety all diagnosed and honestly the most helpful thing for me was to pick up more stuff, i have basically quit gd at this point and picked up game development, music and drawing and honestly i haven't enjoyed myself this much in a long time, just like you i didn't really realize just how bad of a place i was in, i was actually suicidal without really realizing it, it sucks because i feel like i wasted so much of my time focusing on things i didn't actually care about just for the sake of my future, but i realize now that realistically, there isn't really much i can do about how i am now, I've already done a ton of work on my issues, they are still a huge problem and the returns are minuscule now, but somehow that's a bit freeing, i know i wont be able to live a normal life like i once wanted to, i can't get over my anxiety or any of my other problems, so what am i left with? nothing, so i might as well do whatever i want, i stopped really caring about improving my issues and conversely that has improved how i feel about myself a lot. i picked up stuff that i always wanted to do but felt like i didn't have the time to do because i always had to work extra hard to keep up with important stuff, eventually i will be an adult and i will need to work out stuff but for now I'm just going to fuck around a bit and maybe some of the things i'm good at can take me somewhere
Can relate to a lot of this. And yeah I really understand. Hope 2025 can be a less confusing year for you. Also OCD fucking sucks I used to really struggle with it
boundaries are good and you are so right. you don't owe us anything, and this isn't all there is to life. we love you and support you, and i hope you know that it's okay to take as many breaks as you need or leave entirely. take care.
I'm 21 and in a similar boat; I feel like I've, I don't want to say "wasted", but just not really used my late teens especially as well as I could've and I'm trying to make up for lost time a little myself. I still play the game as it makes me happy and I relate to What you're saying a lot. We got this 👍
I just hope you stay safe Jam, you have a great community that cares about you, that supports you and would do everything they have in hand to help. This video has made me realize things, it's... sorta depressing, but in a good way, it made me realize that I shouldnt limit myself to one or things, that I should go outside my lil comfort zone and explore, and to be... myself. Thank you very much Jam, please take care and keep being as cool as you are
There's so many people that need this video, so just as a quick reminder for anyone who stumbles across my little comment, you are more important to yourself than what other people think of you. Don't focus too hard on building up a public image, because no matter how you show yourself, you're still a person and disconnecting from yourself to deliver to others is a really unhealthy habit.
And as for me, (for anyone who cares) as a trans girly myself, I definitely struggle, being so focused on the internet and stuff. I live in one of the most republican states in America, so I have little to no interest in being social around others near me, and I have REALLY bad social anxiety. I still have many ways to go, and I doubt all of my problems will go away for another few years, but fixing yourself is a process, not something that happens instantly. So being patient and being easy on yourself is something that I think is worth knowing. Good luck to all of you, and much love.
whatever you do, we all care about you (i think) and you can do anything you want if its what you genuinely want to do, as long as it makes you happy :) anyways time to play the mlmt layout
damn, we have some similar life things. just be yourself. You were an insperation, and still are. I am probably going to watch all of your vids when I have time.
After watching this video, I really feel for you. You don't know me and I don't know you, but as someone with autism and possibly undiagnosed ADHD (and my hyperfixation being GD instead of something 'useful') it sounds like you genuinely mentally tortured yourself to make the 100 hour layout, and I don't even know what you're going through IRL. I can't give advice for everything, but my suggestion is to slow down with the content creation and possibly just make a small little level just for fun, exactly the way you want to - nobody has to know about it and you don't even have to upload it or show it to anyone. And of course, stick by your friends and family and try your best not to feel pressured to keep pumping out content or community updates; at its core, RUclips really is just supposed to be a platform for a hobby. Don't forget that you don't owe us anything and that your wellbeing comes first.
Finally! Honestly no one on earth expects your entire life to be gd related just so we can watch content... Ever since your first video I've been wondering when you would dial it down on the crazy scale. No other gd content creator does nearly as much as you and we watch them anyway... GL
do whatever you wish man. at the end of the day it's but to you, but honestly i'd just say to make videos when you feel like it. if that's never, that's okay. but regardless, still keep making creative things, it gives us all a purpose
Its so sad seeing such a great youtuber is going to be uploading less, but the reasoning is really valid, just take it easy Jam, dont destroy yourself over this channel and stay safe
Hi jam! I have autism and adhd and ocd too, and I love your vids! Your videos are really awesome and I always laugh! Do whatever you want to stay happy and if you ever have too much on your plate, remember that you can just stop being productive and chill. Your vids are great man, and good luck ❤
Today i got a ground shaking news from my new best friend.He will maybe skip the ninth grade(where i live we have 9 grades)to go to a musical middle scool. Im feeling all time low becouse we knew eachother for life.This vid me appriciate what we have now then ever,so...thank you!
Glad you start to be ....normal. Its good that you get "redemption arc". The thing you realize that games arent that fun, how they used to be. If you finally decide if youre quitting and starting normal life or stay a little big more there will be no hate just understanding. Good luck ♥️ We will miss you (btw ADHD is caused by overstimulation, it is not an acquired disease like you said)
Hey Jam, if you want to verify it yourself (the level from your 100+ hour layout video) but if not, I'll be there 👍. Also I hope your stuff gets better, good luck
I know you said to try our best not to make the same mistakes you did, but I know exactly I will. I know I'll make the same mistakes to a certain extent, yet I'm too lazy to do something about them. Either way, I'm glad you're working on yourself, Jam. I wish you the best moving forward
Laziness isn't a real thing if you think about it. Like is it lack of motivation? Is it deciding to be efficient? Done out of ignorance? Never dismiss what you do as just "lazy". ALWAYS dig deeper than that. Figure out why you're not doing something and find a way to solve that problem.
@@JamAttack If I had to chalk it up to something it's probably lack of motivation and/or ignorance. Not sure, and I feel it's too hard to find out. Thinking about it, it's probably just ignorance if that word means what I think it does
Your ware ones my favorite creator, you may not be my favorite now but your still up there and it's sad that'll leave :( but I agree the brain is funny.. youtube ain't everything and it shouldn't be a person whole life. Being... normal is just healthy most of the time nay all the time so just enjoy the life you have in the way you want it. The internet ain't everything, sometimes... oh I forgor what I was going to say but yeah enjoy the rest of your life ^^
Hi Jam! Just finished watching your 100+ hour layout video, great stuff man, keep it up!
All the comments saying "Please dont" are people that dont care for your mental health. You are free to take a break in whatever you do okay. Thoughts are free will, free will is what makes everything creative. Dont let your brain build a brick wall. Let it free. Dont worry about dissapointing people.
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it's ok, I get that what I do means a lot to a lot of people. I'm not bothered by it. I just also accept that at the end of the day I only have so much I can offer people.
No way he listened to the guy who told him to get a stable life in his glorious fortress videos
This was incredibly relatable. I'm 25. Life doesn't care about your dreams, your passions, your obsessions, who you were "meant to be". And sometimes it feels like a cruel twisted joke, and other times it makes you see there are actually things and people more valuable in this world than your own personal "dreams". I go back and forth between feeling good about this and not. Feeling good or bad about being obsessed with my desired future, then feeling good or bad about letting go of those dreams, being bitter or appreciative of the unexpected things life throws my way, and feeling serenity or anxiety about the absurdity of it all...
It's so fucking messy and confusing idek if this comment makes sense.
This does make sense
I totally feel ya. You're not alone. There's so many expectations around every corner. There's a constant battle to chose not to care about what doesn't affect you. I can feel like a bad person sometimes for not measuring up to everything about everyone around me and I need to stop. It's ok to be imperfect. It's ok to be weird. The secret is that most people feel inadequate and are just faking their confidence. That's 100% normal.
Love the fact that there are still normal people that actually try focusing on life as a full picture than just locking themselves to one thing No matter what jam does i hope the community respects him for his decision ❤
First, i would like to say, i am not an adult, i am 14 years of age as of writing this comment. But, i can relate a good amount to what you are saying, i never really noticed until now that your brain makes things seem normal to you, when they really arnet. I think that if anyone knew alot about my life, they would find it very weird and concerning but to me its just, how its always been.
I am also neurodivergent, and i relate to what you said about that. Its pretty hard to realise that being neurodivergent really does effect every moment of your life, because it really doesn't feel like it, but its just the truth. You should always try to remember that, you being neurodivergent is part of what makes you, you. the same way an artist being good at drawing is one of the things that make them themselves. Its not something to be ashamed of.
I one hundred percent agree that being around other people can make your life 100x better, you just need to be around *your* people. Forcing yourself to be around people who you dont really enjoy being around can be damaging, if there always putting you down or always ignoring you or making fun of you, then those arnet your friends. Try to be more open with people, if they don't like you for being you then, you were probably better off without them anyways.
Its nice to see you coming to terms with this stuff, there is more to life about you than just jamattack. I hope that you try to focus more on yourself, from what i can see your already getting better, which is great. Have a good day jam :)
I completely understand. Make sure to focus on what you need. ❤
Not to pander to the people here that still don't see you as a human being with other needs, but I'll be honest, I doubt you'll have to quit completely. You may have been granted a privilege in this game and channel but I was granted a privilege in like so many other ways that I am pretty much certain that things will turn out fine for me no matter what. And with so many options in front of me I realize that its not about choosing one or the other, it's about choosing both but in the right way. Give your brain more credit, it can fit a little of itself in the JamAttack Box and plenty in the You Box. You're probably gonna have to leave behind the kinds of people in this comment section who say you can't leave, but you don't have to abandon this passion of yours, its still here, its ready for you when you are. I and many many others will remain here still hoping the best for you.
Yea I do still love doing this. I agree with what you're saying. I think I'm just trying to make it clear that at the end of the day it's my choice how I approach this game. I've spent a long time working out of a sense of expectations and pressure. I need to let go of that. I need to go back to making stuff because I want to. Seems kinda blatantly obvious saying it now lol, I got way too sucked into grind culture.
@@JamAttack ❤
Hey Jam! Im pretty young, but I have some pretty serious ADHD, and I can relate quite a lot to this video. I can't stop thinking about things I obsess over, music, geometry dash, school, friends, fights, and I can't stop thinking about it until I obsess over something else. I completley understand the part of doing your own thing or projects in your room all day. Thats all I do. Outside of school, and talking to my parents, hellos and goodbyes between siblings, I just spend all day in my room. I think I spend more time with my dogs then I do all other human beings combined. I think you really made me realise just how little I interact with other humans, so thank you for helping me come to that reaslization. I agree with the part about "No people" And "Yes people" as I'm in an improv troop, I actually had a performance yesterday, and I agree with you about finding and surrounding yourself with "Yes, and" people more than anything in this video. As my teacher says, we should'nt say "Yes, but" or "Yes, or" or "No, but" because it completley de-values the other persons idea, and thats not fair to them. So anyways, take as much breaks as you need from youtube, as long as you think it will help you do better, and be healthier. I hope you have a great day, night evening, wherever you are.
man...
keep moving on jam
nothing stopping you
you didnt just make art
you became the art show itself
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never related to anyone more than this moment right here, honestly. i too have OCD and i swear i have NEVER felt so understood! the cycle of caring way too much about minuscule details to being forced to not care about some things because it’s just too much, then recharging and repeating the cycle again is (at least in my case) spot-on. i’ve even started a project a year ago that fit the question you asked, “if you’re not getting anything out of what you’re doing, and it’s not enjoyable or accomplishing anything, why are you doing it?”
this next paragraph will be basically me ranting about the project in question, so skip to the next one if you’d like, it’s pretty darn long :)
the project in question was an unreachable goal, by definition. something that could never be reached, that could be infinitely expanded, and with one of my neurological disorders making me VERY creative, that tends to get very out of hand very quickly. it was essentially a recipe for disaster. i was never even planning to submit it anywhere because of the fear that no one would like it, therefore i wasn’t getting anything out of it but some fun ideas on paper! it started out as EXTREMELY enjoyable, i would write nearly 20+ pages of this thing a DAY, i would talk about it nonstop, i would be constantly looking up inspirations and things to learn from to use for the project, hours and hours every day dedicated to obsessing over it. i was obsessed with this project, and then it started to drain me. it was becoming too monotonous, i would try to shake things up, and it would never really help. the project was becoming too big a scale, so i took a long break before getting into it again, and it just… wasn’t the same. so, after about three years of work poured into it, i quit the project, and i still have mixed feelings about that. i know it was definitely the right thing to do, but at the same time, it felt wrong to be abandoning it like this? yeah, i was THAT obsessed with it. but still, i ended up quitting it, and i’ve been quite a bit more free since.
in short, do whatever you need to do! take some time off, defocus on the channel to prioritize your life, focus on the channel when you can and want to, whatever you need at the moment, i know i’ll support you through it! in that relatively short section about your experiences with OCD, you unironically made me feel the most understood and felt i’ve been in a LONG, long time. thank you for that, i wish you nothing but the best :D
(sorry about the ridiculously long comment, but i had a lot of feelings to get out i guess lol)
just to remind you, we all love you and keep doing whatever you think is right
Thank you for being such a great part of the community even if u might leave, you deserve a break ❤
Just watched your layout video and it was awesome. And as for you, I’m glad you’ve been able to meet people and focus on yourself for a bit, instead of just the channel. So whatever you do next, I wish you well :3
So good to hear you feel better now. Love ya man, stay real ❤
do whatever, you've put out relatively consistent 10/10 videos and 10/10 levels for ages now and wanting to move on is entirely understandable, just focus on what you want to do and please try not to fall into the youtuber trap of "i need to make content for the subs".
hope you have a good time in whatever you wanna do. youve inspired thousands and lead to people finding their passion, its only fair that you get to find another passion if you want
Good luck mate, just hope you have fun with whatever you wanna do. Wishing you the best
Take as much time as you need bro, you deserve it :)
Mental health is the priority, don't apologize for leaving
This made me cry. Thank you for all the content. You can do whatever you want or need, because you have given us so much under your will, sacrifiicnng your time, effort, and energy on something that might hurt you. Thank you for everything.
Life is kind of like the level electrodynamics, where everything is going as it always does, smooth and continuous, when suddenly, it all speeds up, and you nearly lose control, and you have to get used to the more challenging version of existence (also don't worry Jam we are all here to support you take as long as you want)
my life is like a video game
@@JamAttacktrying hard to beat the stage
And for some reason im here
I like how everyone was panicking 20 minutes ago, but cmon guys, watch the video first! And JamAttack, thank you for being aware of how important building your online community should be to you!
Just do what you love, it's your life, not ours.
jam, i don't know if you'll read this, but i need somewhere to ramble about where i'm at and this video brought up a lot of stuff for me. of course you have no clue how i am, but i see a lot of myself in you whenever you talk about your life, and i'm so so grateful that you've been as open and honest with us as you have. i'm a freshman in college, and i'm lost. very very lost. needless to say that as i grow older the world gets more and more confusing. this includes with gender as well; i've been trying to figure that shit out for like 4 years but i've accepted it'll never make sense to me. living in florida doesn't help either. i've found solace for a while in online communities, and the idea that finding other people who complement you in the right ways is the key to success is something i've reflected on a lot recently. i think that as a kid there were very rare instances of having someone who truly felt like that to me, and even then i never really felt understood. but i also didn't realize that i never felt understood, so it just felt like there was some sort of invisible boundary between my own world and everyone else's. meeting people through discord over the past couple of years has sorta started to break that, but it still makes a huge difference for me that i can't spend time with them in real life. going into college, i thought it would be the perfect time to finally find those types of people in real life. but, as i'm sure you know, it's *really fucking hard.* and right now, i'm sort of in the stage where i can barely keep myself together, if at all, so i start to lose hope that i'll ever find my place. i still try as hard as possible to have hope for the future, but when i don't see a path out it's really difficult to believe it exists. if anyone's reading this far, thank you so much, i don't really know where i wanted to go with this but it's been causing me a lot of stress. god damn i wrote a lot uhhh ok yeah again thanks for putting this out there so people like me have someone they can somewhat relate with. ok bye, have a nice day and also welcome to the nb club
Keep holding onto hope. Do the things you want to do even if you're terrified to do them. When the world doesn't value who you are, the best you can do is show them why they should. It's not an easy place to be put in, it's incredibly hard and confusing at every turn, but it also can be a rewarding journey. That's what I tell myself anyway. Change starts slow and small. As long as you're doing something that feels like it's helping, that's enough for now. Even if it's a small thing.
I understand you completely dont feel like you cant quit love you jam!
Hey Jam, we all support you. I may be disappointed now, but in time I will indefinitely respect your decision to do what you need. It takes a strong person be able to do that.
Here's a quote: "Sometimes, the best way to move forward is to take a step back." -Unknown
JamAttack, take your time on videos, if you're stressed out or if you're trying to do something, that's completely fine, don't make RUclips your top priority, as long as we know you're okay, we're fine with that ❤
Jam, do what you need to to be happy ❤
Thank you for the amazing videos and levels glorious fortress was my first demon and your channel will always hold a special place in my heart for inspiring me to start with level creation take as much time as you need
Don’t Attack the Jam, Our Jam
Hey, I'll keep it brief so as to not write an essay in the comment section (something I am very guilty of).
But as a (self-diagnosed) autistic trans girlie (non-binary), I think you hit on a lot of things I also personally have been dealing with as I'm 23 years old. I'm in a completely liminal space, not entirely sure where I'm going or where I am, but shit is happening.
I hope to begin HRT next year, I'll have to go through my autism screening before then for some reason, and in the meantime I'm just waiting on shit to happen.
You also hit on the concept of community, I've been thinking a lot about it recently, like I have friends and sort of a support system, but I wish I had more of a community, an exclusively social environment.
So I've been trying to act on that wish, meeting people whenever I can, but it's hard, especially as someone with a lot of social trauma and anxiety due to my autistic tendencies as a kid. Failure has always been hard to deal with, most of my anxiety surrounds making mistakes.
From what it seems though, this looks to be a very normal experience, "the liminal twenties" as I call it.
Anyway this was a very pleasing listening experience and made me feel better about where I am, thank you. (I know i said I'd keep it brief but this is as brief as it can go okay)
It's pretty hard to define yourself in a world built around fitting into certain models. I know it can pay off in the long run though. It's a hard and confusing journey full of sacrifice and guilt around every corner. But it's also beautiful when you finally come full circle and realize that despite everything... it's still you. (undertale fan who would have guessed) You are still the person you always knew deep inside that you are. The journey isn't about rising to the thousands of demands from life, it's about learning not to care. It's about learning that you're still you at deeper and deeper levels.
I respect this and would be fine with him quitting if he wants to move on. I can totally understand that feeling like stuff can pull you away from other things and that you might want to change. I just hope you enjoy what you find later on
at the end of the day its all art. life is an art. art is a skill. art is fun. life is fun. so the point is to improve at the skill of making life fun. seems like youre doin that so nice job!
Hey jam, i hope whatever you do is the best for you, not us, as people (I just want to say us viewers but people will work) just want to see more and more, but some people, see past that see the real person that inside you, and i do hope that most of your community will support you wherever you go, and those people who dont, dont care about them, they are just small specks of your community, and that most people will support you, no matter what.
Sorry if that came off as weird by any chance, not good with words honestly, but whatever you do, we support you♥
glad you’re doing better! im happy that you’re finding yourself, what you like to do, and people that you enjoy being around. keep being you and just live life
i recently have been very depressed and not making anything or working on anything I enjoy so as somebody trying to keep people from falling into that pit take a bit and focus on yourself jam
Stay strong and take care of yourself, because you disserve it no matter what anyone tells you.
No, we love you ❤❤❤
Even though I'm only 13, I still understand what you are saying. I'm also autistic and I constanly worry about what will happen to my later life. At the end of the day, it's your decision. Do what you want with your life.
Bro, you're on your touching grass arc. Good job!
I will become unstoppable 💪
I genuinly can’t think of anything to comment anymore, you’ve exhausted my small reserve of positive comments! ohno!!
you deserve it though ^w^
Idon’tknowwhattosayanymorebyeeeee
Just do... whatever you want man. You don't owe us anything. If you feel like uploading, go for it. Im always happy to see you upload.
If you don't feel like and have other priorities- that's completely fine. :)
Do whatever you want. If you want to quit, we won't blame you.
Don't worry, you can take any break any time, i know your mental health is not good and you should need to take a break and take a rest, we all know what you're going through and you still made us happy gave us entertainment and happiness you couldn't have, you are a inspiration for me ❤
i have autism, ADHD, DCD and social anxiety all diagnosed and honestly the most helpful thing for me was to pick up more stuff, i have basically quit gd at this point and picked up game development, music and drawing and honestly i haven't enjoyed myself this much in a long time, just like you i didn't really realize just how bad of a place i was in, i was actually suicidal without really realizing it, it sucks because i feel like i wasted so much of my time focusing on things i didn't actually care about just for the sake of my future, but i realize now that realistically, there isn't really much i can do about how i am now, I've already done a ton of work on my issues, they are still a huge problem and the returns are minuscule now, but somehow that's a bit freeing, i know i wont be able to live a normal life like i once wanted to, i can't get over my anxiety or any of my other problems, so what am i left with? nothing, so i might as well do whatever i want, i stopped really caring about improving my issues and conversely that has improved how i feel about myself a lot. i picked up stuff that i always wanted to do but felt like i didn't have the time to do because i always had to work extra hard to keep up with important stuff, eventually i will be an adult and i will need to work out stuff but for now I'm just going to fuck around a bit and maybe some of the things i'm good at can take me somewhere
Always appreciated those kind of videos from you, it's always reassuring to know that I'm not the only person with a trainwreck of a life
Can relate to a lot of this. And yeah I really understand. Hope 2025 can be a less confusing year for you. Also OCD fucking sucks I used to really struggle with it
boundaries are good and you are so right. you don't owe us anything, and this isn't all there is to life. we love you and support you, and i hope you know that it's okay to take as many breaks as you need or leave entirely.
take care.
I'm 21 and in a similar boat; I feel like I've, I don't want to say "wasted", but just not really used my late teens especially as well as I could've and I'm trying to make up for lost time a little myself. I still play the game as it makes me happy and I relate to What you're saying a lot. We got this 👍
I just hope you stay safe Jam, you have a great community that cares about you, that supports you and would do everything they have in hand to help.
This video has made me realize things, it's... sorta depressing, but in a good way, it made me realize that I shouldnt limit myself to one or things, that I should go outside my lil comfort zone and explore, and to be... myself.
Thank you very much Jam, please take care and keep being as cool as you are
There's so many people that need this video, so just as a quick reminder for anyone who stumbles across my little comment, you are more important to yourself than what other people think of you. Don't focus too hard on building up a public image, because no matter how you show yourself, you're still a person and disconnecting from yourself to deliver to others is a really unhealthy habit.
And as for me, (for anyone who cares) as a trans girly myself, I definitely struggle, being so focused on the internet and stuff. I live in one of the most republican states in America, so I have little to no interest in being social around others near me, and I have REALLY bad social anxiety. I still have many ways to go, and I doubt all of my problems will go away for another few years, but fixing yourself is a process, not something that happens instantly. So being patient and being easy on yourself is something that I think is worth knowing. Good luck to all of you, and much love.
I completely respect whatever you choose to do,and will support you
👍Hey man, good for you! Real life is important, I'm glad you're doing what you think is best for you!
I know that feeling very well. But if you've came this far, you should keep it up! You can do this! I believe you! We believe you!
I have Asperger's syndrome. Damn. You have so much more. You're doing well!
That was what I was diagnosed with when I was 5 actually but they moved it to be part of ASD I think.
do whatever makes you happy and keep looking out for yourself ❤
Good luck bro! Do what you want. I will always support you ❤
cool :) do whatever you want but remember 72 thousand people love you (I support whatever you want) Also i can't wait for your new level
Jam saying hes 24 makes me feel way too old 😭
6:27 yooo we the same :D
whatever you do, we all care about you (i think) and you can do anything you want if its what you genuinely want to do, as long as it makes you happy :) anyways time to play the mlmt layout
gl try to win
Honestly, just do what you enjoy doing and do what you need to do. Just remember that life isn't fair and bad things will happen, it's part of life.
will always support u
damn, we have some similar life things. just be yourself. You were an insperation, and still are. I am probably going to watch all of your vids when I have time.
After watching this video, I really feel for you. You don't know me and I don't know you, but as someone with autism and possibly undiagnosed ADHD (and my hyperfixation being GD instead of something 'useful') it sounds like you genuinely mentally tortured yourself to make the 100 hour layout, and I don't even know what you're going through IRL. I can't give advice for everything, but my suggestion is to slow down with the content creation and possibly just make a small little level just for fun, exactly the way you want to - nobody has to know about it and you don't even have to upload it or show it to anyone. And of course, stick by your friends and family and try your best not to feel pressured to keep pumping out content or community updates; at its core, RUclips really is just supposed to be a platform for a hobby. Don't forget that you don't owe us anything and that your wellbeing comes first.
Finally! Honestly no one on earth expects your entire life to be gd related just so we can watch content... Ever since your first video I've been wondering when you would dial it down on the crazy scale. No other gd content creator does nearly as much as you and we watch them anyway... GL
I mean sputnix and samifying do go pretty wild lol
Take care of yourself :) I understand that your well being goes before GD ♥️
If you want to take a break, or suddenly need one, take one, we’ll all wait for you, I will, at least… ❤
do whatever you wish man. at the end of the day it's but to you, but honestly i'd just say to make videos when you feel like it. if that's never, that's okay. but regardless, still keep making creative things, it gives us all a purpose
Thank you, I know we all support your decision.
Please, take your time.
just do what makes you happy man, take your time❤
… aaaaand that’s why people want to have a broken upload schedule
Don't Worry bro take as much time you need
keep it up! (At your own pace). you dont need really to impress anyone. (also your hair looks nice)
I love videos like this, every word you said is absolutely right, I wanna be friends with people like you, who understand (if ykyk)
Your choose is your choose we gonna wait for u jam
Its so sad seeing such a great youtuber is going to be uploading less, but the reasoning is really valid, just take it easy Jam, dont destroy yourself over this channel and stay safe
Do whatever you need
Hi jam! I have autism and adhd and ocd too, and I love your vids! Your videos are really awesome and I always laugh! Do whatever you want to stay happy and if you ever have too much on your plate, remember that you can just stop being productive and chill. Your vids are great man, and good luck ❤
Today i got a ground shaking news from my new best friend.He will maybe skip the ninth grade(where i live we have 9 grades)to go to a musical middle scool. Im feeling all time low becouse we knew eachother for life.This vid me appriciate what we have now then ever,so...thank you!
Always appreciate what you have now. Don't take it for granted because nothing lasts forever.
Glad you start to be ....normal. Its good that you get "redemption arc". The thing you realize that games arent that fun, how they used to be. If you finally decide if youre quitting and starting normal life or stay a little big more there will be no hate just understanding. Good luck ♥️ We will miss you (btw ADHD is caused by overstimulation, it is not an acquired disease like you said)
the video was super reliving, if you feel like doing smth like this again in the future i'm all for it 👍
I reflected upon myself and changed as a person in Geometry Dash!
Watching this after the stream makes much more sense
Support from Oregon love your videos and love what you do ❤
My only request.. least say goodbye before moving on..Love ya❤️
It’s alright jam we love you and your content as lng as you can be happy then we can be happy
The future is always scary
The jam isn't jamming. He giving life advice
Hey Jam, if you want to verify it yourself (the level from your 100+ hour layout video) but if not, I'll be there 👍. Also I hope your stuff gets better, good luck
good for you! hope you have fun!
We will all miss you until you come back! 🫡
I know you said to try our best not to make the same mistakes you did, but I know exactly I will. I know I'll make the same mistakes to a certain extent, yet I'm too lazy to do something about them.
Either way, I'm glad you're working on yourself, Jam. I wish you the best moving forward
Laziness isn't a real thing if you think about it. Like is it lack of motivation? Is it deciding to be efficient? Done out of ignorance? Never dismiss what you do as just "lazy". ALWAYS dig deeper than that. Figure out why you're not doing something and find a way to solve that problem.
@@JamAttack If I had to chalk it up to something it's probably lack of motivation and/or ignorance. Not sure, and I feel it's too hard to find out.
Thinking about it, it's probably just ignorance if that word means what I think it does
beauty care is very scary
What was the music festival?
Your ware ones my favorite creator, you may not be my favorite now but your still up there and it's sad that'll leave :( but I agree the brain is funny.. youtube ain't everything and it shouldn't be a person whole life. Being... normal is just healthy most of the time nay all the time so just enjoy the life you have in the way you want it. The internet ain't everything, sometimes... oh I forgor what I was going to say but yeah enjoy the rest of your life ^^
guys, when jam takes a break we gotta give him 100k subs, no cap, comeon lads
Might come, might not
We don’t care how often you upload, just be yourself man, continue being amazing
I can’t watch rn, but do whatever makes you happiest dude we won’t demand you to make content for us
geometry dash player actually touches grass...
Having life is great ik