You're not alone! Indivduating can sometimes be painful, and we never "finish" learning who we truly are. Human beings are socialized to assume we can trust other humans because trust is a necessary component for humans (and human societies) to function and survive. Did you know that the handshake originated as a physical gesture of trust between ancient homosapiens? By way of holding out one's hands to show the other human that they held no weapons. Their open hands were symbols of surrender and pure intent.
You consistently articulate the experience so well, making it easier to feel less alone and less strange for having gone through it, as well as the impacts and challenges we face as a result. It's great that you have managed to have therapeutic relationships that are now helping you. You are lucky to have come so far and to have arrived at these realisations whilst your still young.
I know all these things myself...but it's so hard to change... i sometimes feel like...the discomfort is not worth breaking the comfort and safety of these walls
It's so weird that people continue to want to deny my view of others as much more intentional and malicious than people claim they are. They are constantly minimizing those experiences.
You're not alone! Indivduating can sometimes be painful, and we never "finish" learning who we truly are. Human beings are socialized to assume we can trust other humans because trust is a necessary component for humans (and human societies) to function and survive. Did you know that the handshake originated as a physical gesture of trust between ancient homosapiens? By way of holding out one's hands to show the other human that they held no weapons. Their open hands were symbols of surrender and pure intent.
You consistently articulate the experience so well, making it easier to feel less alone and less strange for having gone through it, as well as the impacts and challenges we face as a result. It's great that you have managed to have therapeutic relationships that are now helping you. You are lucky to have come so far and to have arrived at these realisations whilst your still young.
I know all these things myself...but it's so hard to change... i sometimes feel like...the discomfort is not worth breaking the comfort and safety of these walls
It's so weird that people continue to want to deny my view of others as much more intentional and malicious than people claim they are. They are constantly minimizing those experiences.
You have a beautiful voice😊