Dear Sarah, you are so pure, so honest. I think each one has its own process. Whatever helps you is ok. Just don,t force yourself and try to adjust to what your body ask you to without feeling guilty, and allow yourself to feel your emotions. I think both Josh and you are scared and you both need to express yourselfs alone or with a stranger. That would help. I,m nobody and i,m not going through the same situation but i tell you with care, tenderness and from my Heart. Love
It is tragic that Sarah seems so healthy and active here, just 6 months ago, and passed away today August 1. It is beyond cruel that a mole could cause so much pain, suffering, and destruction. I am heartbroken that Sarah could not see her children grow up.
They told me more than 10 years ago I would die without a lung transplant. And there were times that it certainly looked like I was approaching the end of my story. But I'm still here. The truth is, nobody is promised anything. People go to sleep with nothing wrong and don't wake up. People get in their cars and have horrific crashes and don't make it back home. Being sick is hard. Yeah, nobody knows when their number is up but when you're sick you have the disadvantage of seeing that on a daily basis. That's hard. Psychologically it's hard. There's no right way to go through what you're going through Sarah. There's really not. All you can do is stumble through it the best you can. And you know what? I didn't do bucket list stuff. I have lived my ordinary, daily life. Ordinary is underrated. Simply being able to do the ordinary, mundane things like wiping your own butt are such a privilege. Being able to take a breath that you don't have to fight for, is a privilege. Being able to swallow water and quinch a thirst is a privilege. Keeping sight of all the little things that add up to giving life a measure of quality that makes it worth living is what I've held onto. Because there was a point when serious consideration about sending me to hospice for terminal sedation was a thing. My husband was not ready to let me go and thank God he didn't because a very touchy and not really experimental but 50/50 surgery have me my shot and I even had a baby since. That was probably not a great decision medically but we both survived. Here's my two cents: live. Live while you're alive. Don't borrow trouble, there's nothing any of us can do about anything but right now and we're so programmed into planning and preparing but the reality is, today will keep you busy. Today will keep me busy. It has plenty to keep us occupied. Tomorrow can wait until tomorrow. The idea that we can plan and prepare is an illusion. A comforting one but an illusion none the less so love right now. Enjoy right now. Cry right now. Feel right now. Leave worry for tomorrow. Every day. This cancer situation may very well shorten your life but it doesn't have to steal your joy if you don't let it. I know this is old but we go through things and sometimes we live to shine a light in someone else's darkest moments. Not because it changes the moment but because the light can bring clarity so we can see. It's often the unseen that causes the most upset. We're afraid, intuitively, if what we can't see. That's why children who haven't learned danger are scared of the dark. This is no different. The dark is simply tomorrow. What matters is today. That's where the light is. That's where you can see. Edited to add: Everybody was so sure it would be me but ironically, it was my husband who didn't make it. I buried him. Don't feel bad for me, hold onto what I've said and do not let despair rob you of any moments you have left to do what you want to do with the people you love. The ordinary every day things being the very best that we get.
What a positive, strong attitude you have. Life is tough and we all face challenges. We always have 2 choices when given a health challenge. You can either just lay down and wait to die or you can fight like hell and move yourself and do as much as you can every day. Take care of yourself, make wise choices and enjoy life. My husband and I are in our 70's and both have health challenges but we are both so busy and push ourselves every day. Your life is what you make it. Best of luck to you. You are a Warrior Woman!
What an incredibly beautiful story! You are a gifted communicator, an inspirational writer. You made me think. Are you an author? If not, you should be.
Dear Sarah, as I write this you have passed and I am sorry for your family’s loss and that the world loss such a special lady. When I found out, even though I don’t know you I cried, bc this disease is so horrible and impacts so many families. I have stage 4 incurable ovarian cancer. My doctor told me I could have weeks, months or a few years, it all depends on how my body handles what it is going through. My ‘grand jester’ is similar to yours. I am living in the moment of the everyday. I am even more thankful for all the simple blessings I have in my life. When I do go on special outings, I breathe in every moment that much deeper. Even though I am sad about my cancer, I also have a peace about me that I didn’t have before. To Josh and the rest of the family, I am very sorry for your loss and very impressed by the love you have for Sarah and eachother. 🌿
True happiness comes from within, and noticing and appreciating the small things in life. My cancer diagnosis has changed my life… for the better in a way. It has saved me in a way. Before I was just existing and now I am living… I never have and will never be able to travel due to disability and health problems, but I look at photos and thats enough for me! I am glad you are feeling at peace. Wishing you a good quality of life for the rest of your days, hopefully years!
As a cancer patient myself, I've watched the vlogs of many fellow patients. Sarah's vlogs stand out. She had an extraordinary talent to communicate. Sarah was unforgettable.
Watching back. I understand where Sarah is coming from. As a mum who has also been told my cancer is incurable sometimes I am just doing the ordinary because at the end of the day. That’s what I want to be doing for a long time. Living an ordinary life with my extraordinary family. What a wise souls Sarah was.
She pushed herself through so much to live with us, as normal a life as possible. I was watching her “How We Met Video” and she identifies a clear line where things change to life before cancer and life after cancer. And while we did some of the same things we watched how we changed into be able to do them. ❤️💔❤️🫶🏻🫶🏻
@@pogfam She was very brave and created an obvious strong secure place for all of your family. It's a big loss for you, but she's set you up for success too. Sending you many good thoughts and wishes.
I recall a Canadian financial advisor who frequented business segments on TV announcing her cancer diagnosis. She said, “none of us can live forever, I have just given more detailed information about my own morality” I certainly understand your desire to continue living the routine of your life, it offers familiarity and comfort I am sure.
I was diagnosed with stage 4 Endometrial cancer this year, and want to thank you for the videos that you and your husband both put out, they have been helping me and my caregiver tremendously
@@pogfam likewise ..many prayers for you and your family. I know this is a very tough time and all the prayers and support and good vibes we can get are needed. Keep going as if you are going to have many years and don’t waste a moment in a day.
Jhen, , please read this book- Eat to beat disease by William Li. On page 15 he identifies endometrial with excessive angeogenesis that is excessive growth of blood vessels and in Appendix A gives a whole list of Antiangeogenic food to include in your diet. JJ Trochon a cancer survivor talks in his book "Flying against the Odds" about antiangeogenic diet and his survival story. Also read Evan Evrards book and Guy Tennembaum. These are truly inspirational. They survived and so can you. But you gotta have faith in the process.
Sarah you are doing the best thing for you, I also agreed with you keep your normal routines with your job and your lovely family. You will know when things get too tough I'm sure. I pray you get many many more months and years Sarah you are an inspiration for us with all the videos you do. ❤
None of us know how long we will live- accepting our mortality is a good thing to do no matter what. I am not terminally ill or have a disease but I am a senior so have been thinking a lot about my demise and try to live accordingly. I agree with you, you shouldn’t have to dramatically change your life or lose control of your daily routine just because of having cancer. While you’re still healthy and strong enough to go to work and live your life as normal as possible sounds like a reasonable plan to me.
@@pogfam Perhaps pushing outside your comfort zone (and 'accepting' your mortality) could be as simple as doing what I have had to do as a disabled senior.....make final arrangements, talk to family about your wishes and anything else important to you, perhaps even writing it down....and then set it all aside, move forward, living as best you can with your disease's limitations. What do you think?
True If we all can have a peacefully life That's all count untill only God knows when Hopefully we can have more 😇 angels people on this earth 🌎 Peace ✌️
Ĥow could you upset anyone my dear. None of us know how we would react to the news. My Husband has been diagnosed with two different kinds of Cancer. We live every day as it comes. Not many people know about it. We keep positive 🙏. You are amazing sweetheart ❤️. We know how strong you are, & your wonderful husband Josh. In our prayers 🙏 always. Much love ❤️ from Africa xxxxx ❤️
My dear, there comes a time when we all have to come to terms with our mortality. As a woman of a certain age (old).each year I become more aware of my clock ticking down. That is kind of the deal. You have a wonderful family and seems like a wonderful life. That in itself is a gift. Sometimes sitting in a quiet corner and reading a good book and sipping a wonderful cup of tea is everything. These seemingly small things are our anchors. They can give us as much joy as viewing the Eiffel Tower. These are the things that truly represent who we are as human beings and not those big grand gestures. Appreciate them. I do.
Darling Sarah. I wish God allowed you more time on this earth as people like you are so needed here. Heaven has another angel. RIP darling lady xxxx❤❤❤❤❤
What you said absolutely makes sense. When my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 renal cell carcinoma in 2016, we lived life as usual. Surrendering to the “bucket list” would have felt like defeat, so I get it. The silver lining in his diagnosis was how we lived each “normal” day. Perspective changed so our experience with the average day became richer, more full, more special. He’s been in remission since 2018. He retired early and I am happy to continue to work to pay for his tee times. Sending you lots of love and strength. ❤
So so glad to hear he is doing well and I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels like that with the bucket list thing. There are still lots of things I want to do, but I just don’t want to drop everything else in life to do them.
@@pogfam There are special moments in the mundane, and THANKFULLY boring life we now lead. You do not have to travel the world to feel and cherish those moments and the memories that we create at home. Sometimes a good movie, cozy blanket, and sharing popcorn is more than enough. Sending you so much love. ❤️
I also came back to this video that Sweet Sarah created. I felt the need to watch it again. I am still in awe of Sarah's vulnerability and wisdom. Oh, how I miss her daily videos... her stunning smile...the twinkle in her eyes...her calming voice...her laughter....and the list goes on. Oh, Sweet Sarah, you are loved SO much! So many people are forever changed in the most beautiful way because of you. I know my life has been. I feel so blessed. It is such a blessing to be part of yours and your precious family's lives, along with this loving ❤ family/community. I will continue to do my very best to live my life through your profound message, "Be kind. Make good choices." 🌻✨️🌼✨️🏵✨️💖
It's a shame for someone to judge how ANYONE decides to live their life. It's your life, it's your family, it's definitely your choice. Don't apologize. ❤❤❤
As a cancer "survivor" you're right -mortality hits you in the face and maybe that's one of the gifts of all this-everyone should face it but we are FORCED to-I hope you are feeling well -you are an inspiration! ❤️
It's a strange place to be to just go through Christmas wondering "will this be my last" and living each day convinced I have another 30 years. I've logically known we are all mortal and nobody get's out of life alive. But as someone who hasn't hit 35 yet, younger people don't generally go to sleep each night wondering if you'll wake up tomorrow. Stage 4 cancer is both horrifying and liberating. Life almost handed us full permission to "live like we're dying". Thank you so much for your continued videos. Your journey gives hope and positivity that so many of us need. ❤
Exactly! For me it really is the fact that at 36 I am staring death in the face in a way. I really just want to stick my tongue out at him and blow a raspberry because I wasn't supposed to meet him this early in life.
For me cancer is a crash course in spirituality, healthy relationships, psychology, biochemistry, etc. This list is infinite. My husband is always so positive about things but recently his health and relation to his health took a downward direction. Our psychologist said he is experiencing anticipatory grief and that it is manifesting in his health. But now it is out in the open and he seems genuinely happier and his physical health has improved. We love both of you. With warm regards🦄💚
Hi Sarah, thank you for your courage in discussing this subject today and you may find that your honesty may help more people than you will ever know. It sounds like this subject has been really weighing on Josh's heart for awhile and it was so good that you could talk about it so openingly. My mother would have called this an "elephant in the room". That is an old phrase which means that there is a subject that is huge and weighing on people's minds but instead of addressing it, they walk around it. She said she hated elephants because after awhile you forget they are even there and put doilies and lamps on them. :). Avoiding sensitive subjects for too long can be exhausting and scary. I think Josh was very wise in saying that living intentionally doesn't mean doing the big things. If I remember right after your trip to Disney Land he said on his vlog post something to the fact that he hated it when people pressured you to live your bucket list and do all the things you always wanted to do, because by the time people are that sick that they realize they need to do this, they don't have the energy. He could see you were trying so hard to keep up and do all the things you used to do at the park but it was hurting you. So this fear has probably been on his mind for awhile. It sounds like what he is really saying is that if there is a chance you might pass away he wants to have as much time with you as possible. He sounds like a man who truly loves you. I sure see your point of view though and why you feel the need to hold on to your activities for as long as you can and why work and being an active homemaker mean so very much to you. What I hear is that these things make you feel normal and positive and if you didn't do them you would feel compelled to dwell on the negative aspects of your illness and mortality. Maybe though there is balance between the two that you and Josh can find together. I don't see you ever giving up Sarah, you have fought your way through too many trials! You are a trouper. I know sometimes you may feel like you are walking on the razor's edge, but you will not give up. You have too much to live for and fight for. Remember that slowing down a bit, so that you have the energy to have meaningful interactions or activities with Josh has nothing to do with you giving up. It's just a simple choice to put your energy else where so that you can enjoy your marriage. I think you and Josh are coming to a really healthy emotional place . He is your closet friend and is with you every day and knows more about you and your cancer than anyone. Use him as a precious resource because he may notice things about you that you don't see because of the pain. If you keep things between the two of you real, you will always be a very effective team. Hang in there dear one, you are amazing!
@POGDadOfficial you absolutely are not the villain,x. You are the loving husband who is supporting your wife, whilst also trying to deal with your own emotions. You were the one who broached the subject of (as Delisa so pertinently said) the elephant in the room - that’s a hard thing to do, especially when you know it’s a painful conversation. Please know that, as many of our thoughts are with your wife, those thoughts are with you too, x.
@delisamarchetti5926 you are incredible! I love reading your comments and this one brought tears to my eyes but in a good way. As an outsider you have put together the whole issue/story and added a nice little bow to it. I hadn't yet made the connecting you made, at least not as directly and I can't thank you enough for doing so!
My husband had a terminal illness when we got together. We had 7 wonderful years and spent his last 3 years traveling . We made a literal bucket of little pieces of paper; each 1 had a place that we really wanted to go. On the 1st of every month we'd get a special family member to draw a piece of paper out and that was where we went that month. We usually traveled around the 13th of the month because both of us liked the number 13. It was so much fun and I don't regret a single moment. The only thing I hate is when he died in 2017 his "Atlantic City, New Jersey" paper was still in the bucket and he had been REALLY wanting to go there. He made me promise that I would continue with the bucket after he died. So my daughter, son-in-law & I started drawing trips every month. Then the Cvirus hit and the trips stopped & we haven't resumed them & Atlantic City is STILL in the bucket!!!!
As a french psychiatrist i know how difficult it is to think about our death…we live as if we were eternal even if we know that we are mortal..each person faces this contradiction ..one more time , you show me that a life threatening disease gives strength , courage and maturity.. heavy price though.. keeping hope is fondamental especially because no one can say how long the journey will last… healthy or not . . Kisses
Josh is very bright! It is not about grand gestures but the magic of so called “ normal” life when you are able to be fully present. We had a saying- let your mind be where your feet are. Live in the moment today. You don’t need anyone else’s book. You write your own -
Go on a vacation. Give your mind a break and uplift your soul. It doesn’t mean you are going to die and sooner but you will make beautiful memories regardless. You deserve it!
We are all terminal . No one knows when we will die. Live each second, not for tomorrow. To fear is to not enjoy living . You and your family are beautiful and amazing. We love you all. God bless you 🙏 ❤️.
@@nancybinion11 That’s what I was wondering too. Because she and her husband don’t seem to have a relationship with Jesus Christ at least not what I have heard. If not that is super frightening.
You are such a lovely, smart female. No one knows how long we have left but accepting that we all have to go someday is a mature thing. I am a senior and must accept my mortality. Thank you for your smart rational thoughts
Sarah, I understand what you are saying. That if you start thinking that you have a limited amount of time left on Earth, that it may become a self-fulfilling prophecy. Focus on each day as it comes. Do something that makes you feel good (whether it's for yourself or someone else). You need to start putting yourself first, even if you have a hard time doing so. You are such a lovely, generous, and kind woman who deserves peace and happiness. Thinking of you & your family.❤
From a caregivers perspective, knowing my husband's cancer was a battle he would unfortunately lose, and that there were so many, many things I had no idea how to manage (he made our home a Smart Home, maintaining the water softener etc) I couldn't bring myself to ask him to show me all the things I would have to take care of myself. I too felt like I would be sending a message I was giving up on his fight. It's such a tightrope we walk with our loved one, keeping them strong but needing to prepare OURSELVES for the the "what if". We can never know what you're going through and feel so helpless a lot of the time. I know he wished we would have had the hard conversations but didn't realize until it was too late. I guess we were both protecting one another for our own reasons. I understand how hard it had to be for Josh to say those words to you. By no means is it giving up, but facing the "what if" headon. My husband said to me, "I have the easy part, you have to live on".
Dear Sarah I want you to know that I was diagnosed with heart disease 5 years ago and I was told that I was going to die if I don't have heart bypass surgery. I didn't have any surgery and guess what I I'm still here why because God's grace and I trust God to keep me and take care of myself the best way I can God is in control not man
Remember you and Josh are in this TOGETHER. You’re a team just like you always have been. Start with accepting that everyone is mortal! None of us gets out of this alive. We begin the dying process when we are born. And nobody, not you, not me, gets to choose how we will leave our earthly bodies! Life isn’t fair to anyone. God gives us the life we are supposed to have….so trust in Him to help you through every bad day. Thank Him for every good day. And ask Him the questions you need answered. He welcomes our conversation….it was for God’s interaction and connection that we were created in the first place. God bless and give you the peace you desire. 🙏🏻🕊💕
Only God can be our best friend at all times even when we are passing through the valley of death. Human love is temporal, whereas God's love is eternal. Lord Jesus gave His life for you Sarah that you may have eternal life. But God is a gentleman. He never barges into our life. But he is willing to come to our aid any moment we invite him. He patiently knocks at the door of our heart. If we would invite him into our hearts, oh what a life of joy and peace He would offer us. Do good to yourself. Please don't pass through this difficult path alone. God bless you dear.
You are so special to so many people. It is heartbreaking to think of you suffering. You have fought the good fight and have been so strong. Love you sweet girl.
Wow, what a thoughtful real video. I was diagnosed with cancer 15 months ago and am now NED, but I remember how much I just wanted "normal," a time when my decisions were not affected by having cancer. And how much I missed doing regular routine things because they were something I did, and had nothing to do with cancer. I hear you!! Josh inevitably is experiencing this differently, how could he not? The beautiful thing is that you both can talk to each other and be vulnerable and supportive and love eah other. We should all live deliberatively, whether we have cancer or not. Maybe focus on that, less on mortality, just being deliberate. Those who watch, care, I hope that helps.
It takes such grace and strength to accept the unacceptable. And, yet moving on and living your best life each day is the very thing that you should do. God bless you and your family.
I totally 100% get this. When my aunt was diagnosed with cancer waaayyy back in the 1960's, her doctor told her, a lot of people in life are going to die before you. This changed everything for her. She decided to just live her life. She lived through my very early childhood, childhood, teenagehood, young adulthood, adulthood, and this was with advanced cancer, way back before they had good treatments, (although she did undergo treatments.) Yes. I agree with you 100%. Quite honestly, her mother (my Grandma) had cancer too, and ended up dying in her 80's of something else. 💕
Personally I think the treatments make it worse I’ve followed a few of these pages and I see sucha. Downhill slide after treatments. My friends dad got given 6 months he didn’t take any life extending treatments like chemo and he’s still here 8 years later
My partner has stage 4 neuroendocrine intestinal cancer. His diagnosis definately hit us hard. And yes, something like that changes the way one sees life! But I agree with Josh, the changes don't have to be massive. I dare say that often people "cannot afford" these massive changes. That said, I do think that we should live as best as we can and take every opportunity to do more things, see more things and spend quality time with our loved ones. But then again, shouldn't we all do this, cancer or no cancer? We are all mortals with unknown expiration date!😉😊😘🥰
This is so pure and honest. Maybe there is no one right way to do this. I watch both you and Jenny Apple. Her oncologist evidently told her and her husband to make good memories and they seem happy to do as much of that as they can afford to do with the financial support they are getting from the people who are capable of helping. It gives them great joy. But that may not be the right path for you and your husband. Plus there is this. A nurse once told me, when I was in the position of comforting a friend who had been through trauma “make sure to tell her that feeling regret later does not mean she made the wrong decision, it means she made a hard decision.” All these years later that is the only thing I remember anyone saying to me that day and have learned to extend that grace to myself as whether as others when hard choices must be made.
I think it is wonderful that you can go on with your life as much as normal. It is good for your family. It is so much more difficult to face your mortality as a young person with a young family. Do what ever it takes to get you through!! I have had friends who faced cancer much as you do. They just kept on living normally until they couldn’t. That takes courage and I admired them and you. I only did one thing when I got my cancer diagnosis. I was determined to move near my daughters and their families. Knowing that my husband would not be alone has given me so much peace. I still do not like to think about mortality but adding a little peace does help.
We Love You , Sarah! We are here for You, Josh and your entire family. Please don’t apologize for being emotional. I’d be concerned if you weren’t (social worker in me is showing, sorry). Surrounding You, Josh, Your Kids and Loved Ones with an abundance of Love & Strength. Lean on all of Us, please. I know it’s not easy but we are here for you. ♥️♥️♥️♥️
Dear Sarah, You are so mature and expressive. I am 72, and still not accepting my mortality. I see a therapist for anxiety and what she and my mother always said was "Guilt is a wasted emotion." Enjoy what makes you happy. Be kind to yourself as well as to others and let them be kind to you. You are teaching me to live in the moment and I want to but it's difficult to not get distracted by life's small irritations So, thank you. Sending healing prayers and vibes your way. Aloha.
I have just as much trouble living in the moment and tend to find those small irritations too. In fact one of the things Josh and I talked about what that we were both starting to nit pick and focus on those little irritations a bit too much, instead of looking on the more positive side of things. This included being negative about people at the grocery store or things like that. So we are both working to remind each other to be a bit more positive.
I completely understand and you are NOT crazy at all. Your feeling and your thoughts are normal. You are going through an extremely hard time. Be kind to yourself.
Sending my love from Cape Coral, Florida. You are in my prayers. I am waiting for pathology reports, won't get results till January 18th. Please pray for me too. Thanks for your honesty. ❤️❤️❤️
@@pogfam , I finally got my results. No stomach cancer!!! Praise God!!! Multiple adenomas in my colon. One adenocarcinoma in situ. Gastro doc wants to do another colonoscopy/endoscopy in 6 months.
My husband died 5 years ago and the most important thing I think is CHERISH YOU TIME WITH YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENS together. You are such a beautiful soul and so inspiring to me....I adore you Thank you so much for sharing your courageous life with us!♥️🙏♥️
Sarah, I respect the honesty and coming to terms, but please try not to focus on the outcome. We are all bound to die at one point and it is not evadable. The best we can do, for the time being, is live life to the fullest, look past what we don’t have control over(such as how or when we die) and cherishing what we do have and have had in life(such as our families and experiences). I genuinely do believe that if anyone can overcome this, it is you! Praying for you and Josh!🙏❤️
I think you are making great emotional/psychosocial progress making these deeper thinking blogs Sarah so kudos to you for that. We should all live our lives as if tomorrow may be our last - not easy I know. My kids are grown so I don’t need to think about making memories for them but if I did have young children I would try to create memory vlogs of what I did with them for them to look back on. We have the technology now to pretty easily do this. As a retired cancer research nurse, I do have some sad memories of those patients who worked all through treatments because they thought they were being strong and they were on top of everything and then sometimes there was no time left for what I call the important stuff - love. I think I’ve seen you referred to Jenny Apple’s channel - she has stage IV lung cancer - and I think she creates beautiful family vlogs that are really only to have the memories. You don’t need to broadcast family moments but you could record them just for you. This is something we should all be doing - all the time - no matter whether we have a cancer diagnosis or not. A special memory doesn’t have to be a trip to Paris - it can be movies and popcorn, dress ups and dancing and being silly. You’re heading in the right direction for sure. 🤗😘❤️🌈.
Thank you so much! We definitely have a lot of video memories captured and continue to make more. Most not not added to our channel, but definitely available if the kids need them one day. ;)
It's definitely something to think about. We should all be living our Best lives, regardless what we think our longevity is. Definitely, need to ponder. I'm praying for you! Try hard to Live you Best life, what ever that is. 😘❤️ I appreciate you!
I understand exactly what you're saying..focus on what you can control..unfortunately normal changes from day to day when dealing with a medical diagnosis and treatment...You are in our prayers
Thank you for the honest and brave video. Accepting mortality is prob something so hard for most of us. It is never something easy to accept but to say: I will live for today, is a good thing. Horrible to think you may not make it through and I hope that is not the case but being realistic is good too. By accepting the end may happen sooner, you can then make the most of whatever remaining days you do have. That is not giving up it is being realistic to a potential outcome. If something happens to change the trajectory that is amazing but being aware is a certain strength. Please take care Xx
The bravery you have is astounding. You do you. Whatever you want to do is what you do. Your choice. Always on your terms. On a personal note, my brother passed when we were pretty young - he was 10.5 months my senior. He has been gone now for almost 8 years. We always said we were going to do grand things and we should do this or that, but we never did. We fished, a lot. He wasn't very mobile near the end and we did lots of things like play Trivial Pursuit or just sit and bullshit. And now, 8 years later that is what I miss. i would give quite a bit to be able to go fishing one more time. It's the little things that stick with those left behind. So please, give yourself grace to enjoy the beauty of the little things. The time spent with friends, coworkers, family. No one needs the big things to remember you; they will remember the time spent together. The most mundane becomes the most treasured. hope this comment isn't too dark or too triggering. And i hope you are with your family for years and years and years to come. Much love and peace to you on your journey.
Not too dark at all, it is very comforting actually. I would like to think the little things in my life mean and will mean a lot to those around me. I will work to throw in some bigger moments and always remember that the little things are ok too. Thanks so much for sharing your and your brother's story too
I agree, I think your life must already be rich as you are not needing anything outside of that to make you happy, it is like people who just live and work for the next vacation, I think that is quite sad and they are obviously not living the life they want, where as you (apart from the cancer) are fulfilled in yours :)
That is so true, not that there is anything wrong with vacations, but there is something to be said about enjoying life as it is. My family is a big part of that for sure.
Small things are really the big things, and they are the best things. I love your spirit and how clear you speak to us on very important things that will help each of us on our own journey.
I think everyone accepts their own mortality in different ways. What works for some doesn't work for others. Try to think of what makes you comfortable and at peace. That's really all I can say on the matter. You are so strong and courageous...I'm confident you will find out what works best for you and your family. God bless! 🙏🏼🙏🏼
First time watching your channel, think RUclips's algorithms have cottoned on that I watch emotional videos, I don't have cancer but somehow I'm drawn to people who are going through what you are. I think it's the desire to connect and share with others, I do have a lot of loss. I think sometimes the small things can be the best, being truly present and as you said, saying hello to someone you don't usually say hello to. Noticing things you may not have normally noticed. Appreciating all the little things.... I'm looking at the view from your window it looks lovely xxxx 💕
Welcome to the family! Thank you for watching and commenting. Small things are important for sure. We do have a pretty nice green space behind our house :)
Thank you for sharing this part of your life and words of wisdom. I hope you are still hanging in there. Please do your research on autophagy and cancer cells. I hope and pray this information helps you.
Dear Sarah, you’re so sweet and open. My heart really goes out to you because what you’re going through is taking you into the realm of accepting your own mortality. Having experienced a life threatening situation and ending up with PTSD removed that safety bubble for me. I faced my own mortality and can’t unface it. Now I’m left with an autoimmune illness that could severely shorten my life, but no way am I comparing your cancer to that; it’s just the psychological aspect is so similar, and the physical is almost the same. The loss of self and identity and having to recreate a new self identity each time something is lost. It hurts. It’s terribly difficult. It’s heartbreaking to see things fall away from ourselves and there’s little we can do about it. As for you doing those *big things*, would that make you happy? Are you happier with a routinal lifestyle? There’s no right or wrong. I know full well I’m not one to go running around the globe at the last minute, but I’m a boring creature. Routine makes me happy. My home, family and surroundings I know. You may well be the same. It’s also possible you’re facing a grief of your own body - googling that might make sense to you. And you have no use by date stamped on your derrière - that’s very important to remember! Love and hugs -Jez ❤️❤️❤️💐
Thank you so so much for sharing your own pain and your story. I appreciate the of routine making you happy, because that is definitely true for me. I do enjoy adventures but the little things in life make me happy too.
You are lowkey a beautifully intelligent philosopher. You have the best perspective on life I've ever verbally heard from anyone in my life and I am rooting for you and your awesome family. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. We love and appreciate you for being your amazing strong self!
Dear Sarah, don't feel so guilty about how you are feeliing. You have all reason to feel the way you do. You are loved by many out there and you display such strength and courage. Remember, you are loved and admired.
You are so brave and so strong. Each day is a gift and your appreciation for life shines through in all of your videos! Keep living life your way; with grace, love, and positivity. God bless you and your family.
Oh Sarah...you poor dear. I really don't think there's one human being who could HONESTLY face their mortality any other way than you are. It's not an easy topic and it certainly is far from being an easy thing. You are doing the best anyone can in your situation. Hold on to what you need to each day...but mostly hold on to God. Having had cancer myself...and losing a husband to it as well...I only got through both times with God's help. He'll help you to maintain your normalcy of life and give you what you need for each day. For me it is and was what I heard once: When God is all you have, God is all you need. Much Love to you. 🙏💖
You have a new normal for you and your family and that’s ok, you have a kind nature and you’re right there doesn’t need to be massive gestures just live your life with how you want to control it. Sending hugs xx
So admire your courage. Enjoy each moment and day. Take pleasure in every thing you see and do. You are a wonderful person and so very brave. Blessings to you and yours.
Normalcy however you see it or others see it makes it your adventure. Live in the moment with your very supportive husband Josh and awesome small kids. Every little thing you all do together is a big family adventure you all will talk about in the future. God Bless
I just found this channel and I don't know the whole background. I lost my husband in a car accident. I don't think about the things we didn't do. I think about the little things. I remember driving down the highway and out of nowhere, he said, "you have no idea how much I love you". That was probably 2 months before he died. The things you do now in your situation, are the things all of us should do and say every day. In the blink of an eye we can be gone from this earthly realm. Fear not.
Thank you! I think we are being more intentional about those things we say. Making sure to share our love, and also our fears, frustrations, sadness, and all the feels. In the end they all have a positive outcome so long as we allow the feels to be. ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so much for sharing your own experience with loss and I am so sorry for your loss. I so appreciate your strength to share that and the guidance about the little thing being so important! Welcome to the family!
You make total sense.... feeling like it means you're giving up. That's anything but stupid. I think the key is finding that fine line, between excepting the possibility and not giving up. Such a hard thing to do, I empathize with you. My life has been shrouded in death- mom, dad, little bro, all grandparents, late miscarriage, etc. But I still have no idea how YOU feel. My heart is with you. ❤️
When I was diagnosed with CML I began preparing for my funeral ( that was in 2021). I wasn’t sure what was going to happen but I knew that leukemia kills millions of people every year. I continued to work, I began to travel more, spending more time with my loved ones. I began to live when I thought I was going to die. My meds are horrible but I managed them better. Sarah was such an inspiration and I never rooted for someone I didn’t even know to survive this as much as I did for her. I wish she had lived longer. ❤️❤️❤️🥺🥺🥺
Understand what you mean. My joy is a good day, good food, a good conversation with the children, watching a good film and not thinking ahead, just enjoying here and now. You are fantastic and so strong, we love you. You are fantastic
Yes. I think this is a headspace we are working towards. ❤️ Adjusting expectations fir what we could enjoy and starting to allow joy in the little things.
Thank you for sharing your feelings, this particular one means a lot,as I feel the same as you . I am grateful to wake up each morning .Your courage is breathtaking. Take care sweetheart 💕🇬🇧
Dear Sarah, you are so pure, so honest. I think each one has its own process. Whatever helps you is ok. Just don,t force yourself and try to adjust to what your body ask you to without feeling guilty, and allow yourself to feel your emotions. I think both Josh and you are scared and you both need to express yourselfs alone or with a stranger. That would help. I,m nobody and i,m not going through the same situation but i tell you with care, tenderness and from my Heart. Love
Thank you so much!
This comment is so kind and genuine. ❤
The lord can heal you
@@pogfam have you received the ja.b? If not don't it's the m.ar.k. the jbb is causing all of this.
It is tragic that Sarah seems so healthy and active here, just 6 months ago, and passed away today August 1. It is beyond cruel that a mole could cause so much pain, suffering, and destruction. I am heartbroken that Sarah could not see her children grow up.
I think the same thing!😢
I couldn’t agree with you more. My heart breaks for this beautiful family. ❤️💔❤️🩹
Yes😞😞😞
They told me more than 10 years ago I would die without a lung transplant. And there were times that it certainly looked like I was approaching the end of my story. But I'm still here. The truth is, nobody is promised anything. People go to sleep with nothing wrong and don't wake up. People get in their cars and have horrific crashes and don't make it back home. Being sick is hard. Yeah, nobody knows when their number is up but when you're sick you have the disadvantage of seeing that on a daily basis. That's hard. Psychologically it's hard. There's no right way to go through what you're going through Sarah. There's really not. All you can do is stumble through it the best you can. And you know what? I didn't do bucket list stuff. I have lived my ordinary, daily life. Ordinary is underrated. Simply being able to do the ordinary, mundane things like wiping your own butt are such a privilege. Being able to take a breath that you don't have to fight for, is a privilege. Being able to swallow water and quinch a thirst is a privilege. Keeping sight of all the little things that add up to giving life a measure of quality that makes it worth living is what I've held onto. Because there was a point when serious consideration about sending me to hospice for terminal sedation was a thing. My husband was not ready to let me go and thank God he didn't because a very touchy and not really experimental but 50/50 surgery have me my shot and I even had a baby since. That was probably not a great decision medically but we both survived. Here's my two cents: live. Live while you're alive. Don't borrow trouble, there's nothing any of us can do about anything but right now and we're so programmed into planning and preparing but the reality is, today will keep you busy. Today will keep me busy. It has plenty to keep us occupied. Tomorrow can wait until tomorrow. The idea that we can plan and prepare is an illusion. A comforting one but an illusion none the less so love right now. Enjoy right now. Cry right now. Feel right now. Leave worry for tomorrow. Every day. This cancer situation may very well shorten your life but it doesn't have to steal your joy if you don't let it. I know this is old but we go through things and sometimes we live to shine a light in someone else's darkest moments. Not because it changes the moment but because the light can bring clarity so we can see. It's often the unseen that causes the most upset. We're afraid, intuitively, if what we can't see. That's why children who haven't learned danger are scared of the dark. This is no different. The dark is simply tomorrow. What matters is today. That's where the light is. That's where you can see.
Edited to add: Everybody was so sure it would be me but ironically, it was my husband who didn't make it. I buried him. Don't feel bad for me, hold onto what I've said and do not let despair rob you of any moments you have left to do what you want to do with the people you love. The ordinary every day things being the very best that we get.
Beautifully said
What a positive, strong attitude you have. Life is tough and we all face challenges. We always have 2 choices when given a health challenge. You can either just lay down and wait to die or you can fight like hell and move yourself and do as much as you can every day. Take care of yourself, make wise choices and enjoy life. My husband and I are in our 70's and both have health challenges but we are both so busy and push ourselves every day. Your life is what you make it. Best of luck to you. You are a Warrior Woman!
What an incredibly beautiful story! You are a gifted communicator, an inspirational writer. You made me think. Are you an author? If not, you should be.
Dear Sarah, as I write this you have passed and I am sorry for your family’s loss and that the world loss such a special lady. When I found out, even though I don’t know you I cried, bc this disease is so horrible and impacts so many families. I have stage 4 incurable ovarian cancer. My doctor told me I could have weeks, months or a few years, it all depends on how my body handles what it is going through. My ‘grand jester’ is similar to yours. I am living in the moment of the everyday. I am even more thankful for all the simple blessings I have in my life. When I do go on special outings, I breathe in every moment that much deeper. Even though I am sad about my cancer, I also have a peace about me that I didn’t have before. To Josh and the rest of the family, I am very sorry for your loss and very impressed by the love you have for Sarah and eachother. 🌿
Wishing you peace and healing for many, many years. Very thoughtful of you to comment here.
You are in my prayers for healing, peace and God's mercy. ❤
True happiness comes from within, and noticing and appreciating the small things in life. My cancer diagnosis has changed my life… for the better in a way. It has saved me in a way. Before I was just existing and now I am living… I never have and will never be able to travel due to disability and health problems, but I look at photos and thats enough for me! I am glad you are feeling at peace. Wishing you a good quality of life for the rest of your days, hopefully years!
As a cancer patient myself, I've watched the vlogs of many fellow patients. Sarah's vlogs stand out. She had an extraordinary talent to communicate. Sarah was unforgettable.
Thank you! She really is unforgettable…
Watching back. I understand where Sarah is coming from. As a mum who has also been told my cancer is incurable sometimes I am just doing the ordinary because at the end of the day. That’s what I want to be doing for a long time. Living an ordinary life with my extraordinary family. What a wise souls Sarah was.
She pushed herself through so much to live with us, as normal a life as possible. I was watching her “How We Met Video” and she identifies a clear line where things change to life before cancer and life after cancer. And while we did some of the same things we watched how we changed into be able to do them. ❤️💔❤️🫶🏻🫶🏻
@@pogfam She was very brave and created an obvious strong secure place for all of your family. It's a big loss for you, but she's set you up for success too. Sending you many good thoughts and wishes.
I recall a Canadian financial advisor who frequented business segments on TV announcing her cancer diagnosis. She said, “none of us can live forever, I have just given more detailed information about my own morality” I certainly understand your desire to continue living the routine of your life, it offers familiarity and comfort I am sure.
The world has lost an incredible, beautiful soul. I will never forget you Sarah.
I was diagnosed with stage 4 Endometrial cancer this year, and want to thank you for the videos that you and your husband both put out, they have been helping me and my caregiver tremendously
You are so welcome! I’m very glad you found us, I’m wishing the very best for you and sending lots of positive vibes your way. Welcome to the family!
@@pogfam likewise ..many prayers for you and your family. I know this is a very tough time and all the prayers and support and good vibes we can get are needed. Keep going as if you are going to have many years and don’t waste a moment in a day.
Thoughts and prayers jhen.
Jhen, , please read this book- Eat to beat disease by William Li. On page 15 he identifies endometrial with excessive angeogenesis that is excessive growth of blood vessels and in Appendix A gives a whole list of Antiangeogenic food to include in your diet. JJ Trochon a cancer survivor talks in his book "Flying against the Odds" about antiangeogenic diet and his survival story. Also read Evan Evrards book and Guy Tennembaum. These are truly inspirational. They survived and so can you. But you gotta have faith in the process.
Sarah you are doing the best thing for you, I also agreed with you keep your normal routines with your job and your lovely family. You will know when things get too tough I'm sure. I pray you get many many more months and years Sarah you are an inspiration for us with all the videos you do. ❤
None of us know how long we will live- accepting our mortality is a good thing to do no matter what. I am not terminally ill or have a disease but I am a senior so have been thinking a lot about my demise and try to live accordingly. I agree with you, you shouldn’t have to dramatically change your life or lose control of your daily routine just because of having cancer. While you’re still healthy and strong enough to go to work and live your life as normal as possible sounds like a reasonable plan to me.
Thank you, I appreciate the agreement even though I know it won’t hurt me to push outside of that comfort zone some. :)
@@pogfam Perhaps pushing outside your comfort zone (and 'accepting' your mortality) could be as simple as doing what I have had to do as a disabled senior.....make final arrangements, talk to family about your wishes and anything else important to you, perhaps even writing it down....and then set it all aside, move forward, living as best you can with your disease's limitations. What do you think?
True
If we all can have a peacefully life
That's all count
untill only God knows when
Hopefully we can have more 😇 angels people on this earth 🌎
Peace ✌️
Ĥow could you upset anyone my dear. None of us know how we would react to the news. My Husband has been diagnosed with two different kinds of Cancer. We live every day as it comes. Not many people know about it. We keep positive 🙏. You are amazing sweetheart ❤️. We know how strong you are, & your wonderful husband Josh. In our prayers 🙏 always. Much love ❤️ from Africa xxxxx ❤️
It's not so bad for someone older but 35 is too young never give up of course everyone has to except their mortality but you don't have to give up.
My dear, there comes a time when we all have to come to terms with our mortality. As a woman of a certain age (old).each year I become more aware of my clock ticking down. That is kind of the deal. You have a wonderful family and seems like a wonderful life. That in itself is a gift. Sometimes sitting in a quiet corner and reading a good book and sipping a wonderful cup of tea is everything. These seemingly small things are our anchors. They can give us as much joy as viewing the Eiffel Tower. These are the things that truly represent who we are as human beings and not those big grand gestures. Appreciate them. I do.
It is so sad to hear she passed away today. I am glad she is in peace now though, i have really enjoyed these videos.
Darling Sarah. I wish God allowed you more time on this earth as people like you are so needed here. Heaven has another angel. RIP darling lady xxxx❤❤❤❤❤
She was wise beyond her years. On Aug 1, 2023 she passed. Miss her wisdom filled posts.
No you didn't upset us. We love you. Praying for you.
Thank you
What you said absolutely makes sense. When my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 renal cell carcinoma in 2016, we lived life as usual. Surrendering to the “bucket list” would have felt like defeat, so I get it. The silver lining in his diagnosis was how we lived each “normal” day. Perspective changed so our experience with the average day became richer, more full, more special. He’s been in remission since 2018. He retired early and I am happy to continue to work to pay for his tee times. Sending you lots of love and strength. ❤
So so glad to hear he is doing well and I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels like that with the bucket list thing. There are still lots of things I want to do, but I just don’t want to drop everything else in life to do them.
@@pogfam There are special moments in the mundane, and THANKFULLY boring life we now lead. You do not have to travel the world to feel and cherish those moments and the memories that we create at home. Sometimes a good movie, cozy blanket, and sharing popcorn is more than enough. Sending you so much love. ❤️
Coming back to this now as her time shortens a lot…. Sarah this was so beautifully said🥰 love you
I have as well ❤ what an amazing woman
I also came back to this video that Sweet Sarah created. I felt the need to watch it again. I am still in awe of Sarah's vulnerability and wisdom. Oh, how I miss her daily videos... her stunning smile...the twinkle in her eyes...her calming voice...her laughter....and the list goes on. Oh, Sweet Sarah, you are loved SO much! So many people are forever changed in the most beautiful way because of you. I know my life has been. I feel so blessed. It is such a blessing to be part of yours and your precious family's lives, along with this loving ❤ family/community. I will continue to do my very best to live my life through your profound message, "Be kind. Make good choices."
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@@bohochic2459 I miss them already too!! ...Thank you Sarah for blessing us. She's an amazing woman, an irreplaceable human.
It's a shame for someone to judge how ANYONE decides to live their life.
It's your life, it's your family, it's definitely your choice.
Don't apologize. ❤❤❤
As a cancer "survivor" you're right -mortality hits you in the face and maybe that's one of the gifts of all this-everyone should face it but we are FORCED to-I hope you are feeling well -you are an inspiration! ❤️
It definitely makes a difference for our families being forced to consider death. ❤️
Thank you!
It's a strange place to be to just go through Christmas wondering "will this be my last" and living each day convinced I have another 30 years. I've logically known we are all mortal and nobody get's out of life alive. But as someone who hasn't hit 35 yet, younger people don't generally go to sleep each night wondering if you'll wake up tomorrow. Stage 4 cancer is both horrifying and liberating. Life almost handed us full permission to "live like we're dying". Thank you so much for your continued videos. Your journey gives hope and positivity that so many of us need. ❤
Exactly! For me it really is the fact that at 36 I am staring death in the face in a way. I really just want to stick my tongue out at him and blow a raspberry because I wasn't supposed to meet him this early in life.
Don't be too hard on yourself. We are just human, and you're doing the best as you can. Nobody knows what it's like in your shoes. I love your videos
For me cancer is a crash course in spirituality, healthy relationships, psychology, biochemistry, etc. This list is infinite.
My husband is always so positive about things but recently his health and relation to his health took a downward direction. Our psychologist said he is experiencing anticipatory grief and that it is manifesting in his health. But now it is out in the open and he seems genuinely happier and his physical health has improved.
We love both of you.
With warm regards🦄💚
Hi Sarah, thank you for your courage in discussing this subject today and you may find that your honesty may help more people than you will ever know. It sounds like this subject has been really weighing on Josh's heart for awhile and it was so good that you could talk about it so openingly. My mother would have called this an "elephant in the room". That is an old phrase which means that there is a subject that is huge and weighing on people's minds but instead of addressing it, they walk around it. She said she hated elephants because after awhile you forget they are even there and put doilies and lamps on them. :). Avoiding sensitive subjects for too long can be exhausting and scary. I think Josh was very wise in saying that living intentionally doesn't mean doing the big things. If I remember right after your trip to Disney Land he said on his vlog post something to the fact that he hated it when people pressured you to live your bucket list and do all the things you always wanted to do, because by the time people are that sick that they realize they need to do this, they don't have the energy. He could see you were trying so hard to keep up and do all the things you used to do at the park but it was hurting you. So this fear has probably been on his mind for awhile. It sounds like what he is really saying is that if there is a chance you might pass away he wants to have as much time with you as possible. He sounds like a man who truly loves you. I sure see your point of view though and why you feel the need to hold on to your activities for as long as you can and why work and being an active homemaker mean so very much to you. What I hear is that these things make you feel normal and positive and if you didn't do them you would feel compelled to dwell on the negative aspects of your illness and mortality. Maybe though there is balance between the two that you and Josh can find together. I don't see you ever giving up Sarah, you have fought your way through too many trials! You are a trouper. I know sometimes you may feel like you are walking on the razor's edge, but you will not give up. You have too much to live for and fight for. Remember that slowing down a bit, so that you have the energy to have meaningful interactions or activities with Josh has nothing to do with you giving up. It's just a simple choice to put your energy else where so that you can enjoy your marriage. I think you and Josh are coming to a really healthy emotional place . He is your closet friend and is with you every day and knows more about you and your cancer than anyone. Use him as a precious resource because he may notice things about you that you don't see because of the pain. If you keep things between the two of you real, you will always be a very effective team. Hang in there dear one, you are amazing!
@POGDadOfficial you absolutely are not the villain,x.
You are the loving husband who is supporting your wife, whilst also trying to deal with your own emotions. You were the one who broached the subject of (as Delisa so pertinently said) the elephant in the room - that’s a hard thing to do, especially when you know it’s a painful conversation.
Please know that, as many of our thoughts are with your wife, those thoughts are with you too, x.
Thank you for your kindness, I know Josh particularly appreciated your words in this comment. Thank you! ❤️
@delisamarchetti5926 you are incredible! I love reading your comments and this one brought tears to my eyes but in a good way. As an outsider you have put together the whole issue/story and added a nice little bow to it. I hadn't yet made the connecting you made, at least not as directly and I can't thank you enough for doing so!
@@pogfamluv
My husband had a terminal illness when we got together. We had 7 wonderful years and spent his last 3 years traveling . We made a literal bucket of little pieces of paper; each 1 had a place that we really wanted to go. On the 1st of every month we'd get a special family member to draw a piece of paper out and that was where we went that month. We usually traveled around the 13th of the month because both of us liked the number 13. It was so much fun and I don't regret a single moment. The only thing I hate is when he died in 2017 his "Atlantic City, New Jersey" paper was still in the bucket and he had been REALLY wanting to go there. He made me promise that I would continue with the bucket after he died. So my daughter, son-in-law & I started drawing trips every month. Then the Cvirus hit and the trips stopped & we haven't resumed them & Atlantic City is STILL in the bucket!!!!
As a french psychiatrist i know how difficult it is to think about our death…we live as if we were eternal even if we know that we are mortal..each person faces this contradiction ..one more time , you show me that a life threatening disease gives strength , courage and maturity.. heavy price though.. keeping hope is fondamental especially because no one can say how long the journey will last… healthy or not . . Kisses
Thank you so much for such beautiful words, I very much appreciate you being here and watching and commenting
Josh is very bright! It is not about grand gestures but the magic of so called “ normal” life when you are able to be fully present. We had a saying- let your mind be where your feet are. Live in the moment today. You don’t need anyone else’s book. You write your own -
You’re absolutely right!
Go on a vacation. Give your mind a break and uplift your soul. It doesn’t mean you are going to die and sooner but you will make beautiful memories regardless. You deserve it!
Thanks so much, we actually just went on a big family vacation in November, it was very nice and did help recharge all of us
We are all terminal .
No one knows when we will die.
Live each second, not for tomorrow.
To fear is to not enjoy living .
You and your family are beautiful and amazing.
We love you all.
God bless you 🙏 ❤️.
Thanks for being here
How do you not fall asleep at work?
Do you know JESUS? Have a personal relationship with HIM?
@@nancybinion11 That’s what I was wondering too. Because she and her husband don’t seem to have a relationship with Jesus Christ at least not what I have heard. If not that is super frightening.
I’m so proud of your courage to speak about this. I lost my husband to cancer. My prayers are following you.
Thank you so much and condolences for your loss
You are such a lovely, smart female. No one knows how long we have left but accepting that we all have to go someday is a mature thing. I am a senior and must accept my mortality. Thank you for your smart rational thoughts
Sarah, I understand what you are saying. That if you start thinking that you have a limited amount of time left on Earth, that it may become a self-fulfilling prophecy. Focus on each day as it comes. Do something that makes you feel good (whether it's for yourself or someone else). You need to start putting yourself first, even if you have a hard time doing so. You are such a lovely, generous, and kind woman who deserves peace and happiness. Thinking of you & your family.❤
From a caregivers perspective, knowing my husband's cancer was a battle he would unfortunately lose, and that there were so many, many things I had no idea how to manage (he made our home a Smart Home, maintaining the water softener etc) I couldn't bring myself to ask him to show me all the things I would have to take care of myself. I too felt like I would be sending a message I was giving up on his fight. It's such a tightrope we walk with our loved one, keeping them strong but needing to prepare OURSELVES for the the "what if". We can never know what you're going through and feel so helpless a lot of the time. I know he wished we would have had the hard conversations but didn't realize until it was too late. I guess we were both protecting one another for our own reasons. I understand how hard it had to be for Josh to say those words to you. By no means is it giving up, but facing the "what if" headon. My husband said to me, "I have the easy part, you have to live on".
No need to apologize Sarah! Love your realness and strive to keep normalcy in your life. Always praying and thinking about you and your family ❤❤❤
It's called faith that's what keeps one going. You are one brave person. God is holding your hand. Dont forget that
Dear Sarah I want you to know that I was diagnosed with heart disease 5 years ago and I was told that I was going to die if I don't have heart bypass surgery. I didn't have any surgery and guess what I I'm still here why because God's grace and I trust God to keep me and take care of myself the best way I can God is in control not man
God Bless you 🙏🏻 May God touch you in all ways ❤ peace and love
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Remember you and Josh are in this TOGETHER. You’re a team just like you always have been.
Start with accepting that everyone is mortal! None of us gets out of this alive. We begin the dying process when we are born. And nobody, not you, not me, gets to choose how we will leave our earthly bodies! Life isn’t fair to anyone. God gives us the life we are supposed to have….so trust in Him to help you through every bad day. Thank Him for every good day. And ask Him the questions you need answered. He welcomes our conversation….it was for God’s interaction and connection that we were created in the first place.
God bless and give you the peace you desire. 🙏🏻🕊💕
Only God can be our best friend at all times even when we are passing through the valley of death.
Human love is temporal, whereas God's love is eternal. Lord Jesus gave His life for you Sarah that you may have eternal life.
But God is a gentleman. He never barges into our life. But he is willing to come to our aid any moment we invite him. He patiently knocks at the door of our heart. If we would invite him into our hearts, oh what a life of joy and peace He would offer us.
Do good to yourself. Please don't pass through this difficult path alone. God bless you dear.
You are so special to so many people. It is heartbreaking to think of you suffering. You have fought the good fight and have been so strong. Love you sweet girl.
I love you friend. I can't believe you have to go through this. So sorry. Good journey.
Wow, what a thoughtful real video. I was diagnosed with cancer 15 months ago and am now NED, but I remember how much I just wanted "normal," a time when my decisions were not affected by having cancer. And how much I missed doing regular routine things because they were something I did, and had nothing to do with cancer. I hear you!! Josh inevitably is experiencing this differently, how could he not? The beautiful thing is that you both can talk to each other and be vulnerable and supportive and love eah other. We should all live deliberatively, whether we have cancer or not. Maybe focus on that, less on mortality, just being deliberate. Those who watch, care, I hope that helps.
Deliberate is a great word and I love it. I am so happy to hear that you are NED, that is very very exciting! Stay strong and so will I!
It takes such grace and strength to accept the unacceptable. And, yet moving on and living your best life each day is the very thing that you should do. God bless you and your family.
I totally 100% get this. When my aunt was diagnosed with cancer waaayyy back in the 1960's, her doctor told her, a lot of people in life are going to die before you. This changed everything for her. She decided to just live her life. She lived through my very early childhood, childhood, teenagehood, young adulthood, adulthood, and this was with advanced cancer, way back before they had good treatments, (although she did undergo treatments.)
Yes. I agree with you 100%.
Quite honestly, her mother (my Grandma) had cancer too, and ended up dying in her 80's of something else.
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Personally I think the treatments make it worse I’ve followed a few of these pages and I see sucha. Downhill slide after treatments. My friends dad got given 6 months he didn’t take any life extending treatments like chemo and he’s still here 8 years later
My partner has stage 4 neuroendocrine intestinal cancer. His diagnosis definately hit us hard. And yes, something like that changes the way one sees life! But I agree with Josh, the changes don't have to be massive. I dare say that often people "cannot afford" these massive changes. That said, I do think that we should live as best as we can and take every opportunity to do more things, see more things and spend quality time with our loved ones. But then again, shouldn't we all do this, cancer or no cancer? We are all mortals with unknown expiration date!😉😊😘🥰
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This is so pure and honest. Maybe there is no one right way to do this. I watch both you and Jenny Apple. Her oncologist evidently told her and her husband to make good memories and they seem happy to do as much of that as they can afford to do with the financial support they are getting from the people who are capable of helping. It gives them great joy. But that may not be the right path for you and your husband.
Plus there is this. A nurse once told me, when I was in the position of comforting a friend who had been through trauma “make sure to tell her that feeling regret later does not mean she made the wrong decision, it means she made a hard decision.” All these years later that is the only thing I remember anyone saying to me that day and have learned to extend that grace to myself as whether as others when hard choices must be made.
Thank you so much, that is a very unique way of thinking and I like it a lot!
Prayers from Kentucky. Jesus loves you and is with you through this ..
I think it is wonderful that you can go on with your life as much as normal. It is good for your family. It is so much more difficult to face your mortality as a young person with a young family. Do what ever it takes to get you through!! I have had friends who faced cancer much as you do. They just kept on living normally until they couldn’t. That takes courage and I admired them and you. I only did one thing when I got my cancer diagnosis. I was determined to move near my daughters and their families. Knowing that my husband would not be alone has given me so much peace. I still do not like to think about mortality but adding a little peace does help.
You’re so pure and honest.
Thank you ❤️
We Love You , Sarah! We are here for You, Josh and your entire family. Please don’t apologize for being emotional. I’d be concerned if you weren’t (social worker in me is showing, sorry). Surrounding You, Josh, Your Kids and Loved Ones with an abundance of Love & Strength. Lean on all of Us, please. I know it’s not easy but we are here for you. ♥️♥️♥️♥️
Thanks a ton Heather it means a lot! ❤️
Dear Sarah, You are so mature and expressive. I am 72, and still not accepting my mortality. I see a therapist for anxiety and what she and my mother always said was "Guilt is a wasted emotion." Enjoy what makes you happy. Be kind to yourself as well as to others and let them be kind to you. You are teaching me to live in the moment and I want to but it's difficult to not get distracted by life's small irritations So, thank you. Sending healing prayers and vibes your way. Aloha.
I have just as much trouble living in the moment and tend to find those small irritations too. In fact one of the things Josh and I talked about what that we were both starting to nit pick and focus on those little irritations a bit too much, instead of looking on the more positive side of things. This included being negative about people at the grocery store or things like that. So we are both working to remind each other to be a bit more positive.
Praying so hard beautiful for u and your family right now such a beautiful kind soul you are xxx ❤
Thank you Sarah for making me a better person. I’ve learned a lot for you and want to thank you from the bottom of my heart 🙏🏻♥️
We miss you so much Sarah, choose the best sits for us for when we meet again in paradise! RIP OUR SARAH ❤
Sarah you are the sweetest . May God place his hand of healing upon you . Continued prayers for you ❤
I completely understand and you are NOT crazy at all. Your feeling and your thoughts are normal. You are going through an extremely hard time. Be kind to yourself.
I do need that reminder sometimes, to be kind to myself. Thank you!
Sending my love from Cape Coral, Florida. You are in my prayers. I am waiting for pathology reports, won't get results till January 18th. Please pray for me too. Thanks for your honesty. ❤️❤️❤️
Sending you lots of love and positivity as you wait for your results!
@@pogfam , I finally got my results. No stomach cancer!!! Praise God!!! Multiple adenomas in my colon. One adenocarcinoma in situ. Gastro doc wants to do another colonoscopy/endoscopy in 6 months.
My husband died 5 years ago and the most important thing I think is CHERISH YOU TIME WITH YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENS together.
You are such a beautiful soul and so inspiring to me....I adore you
Thank you so much for sharing your courageous life with us!♥️🙏♥️
Thank you so much. So sorry for your loss and that you are still trying to spread some joy and support!
Your speech and cognitive skills are back to normal!!! Glory to God
Sarah, I respect the honesty and coming to terms, but please try not to focus on the outcome. We are all bound to die at one point and it is not evadable. The best we can do, for the time being, is live life to the fullest, look past what we don’t have control over(such as how or when we die) and cherishing what we do have and have had in life(such as our families and experiences). I genuinely do believe that if anyone can overcome this, it is you! Praying for you and Josh!🙏❤️
Thank you so much! And yes you are right, focusing on what I can and just continuing to live a positive life is a good way to go!
There is nothing upsetting about what you said, it’s reality. Much love to you
I firmly believe you are going to beat this illness.
Thank you for the positivity
I agree!
I think you are AMAZING! You are so upbeat and you're a fighter. You're a wonderful person. Keep staying strong! xx
Thank you
I think you are making great emotional/psychosocial progress making these deeper thinking blogs Sarah so kudos to you for that. We should all live our lives as if tomorrow may be our last - not easy I know. My kids are grown so I don’t need to think about making memories for them but if I did have young children I would try to create memory vlogs of what I did with
them for them to look back on. We have the technology now to pretty easily do this. As a retired cancer research nurse, I do have some sad memories of those patients who worked all through treatments because they thought they were being strong and they were on top of everything and then sometimes there was no time left for what I call the important stuff - love. I think I’ve seen you referred to Jenny Apple’s channel - she has stage IV lung cancer - and I think she creates beautiful family vlogs that are really only to have the memories. You don’t need to broadcast family moments but you could record them just for you. This is something we should all be doing - all the time - no matter whether we have a cancer diagnosis or not. A special memory doesn’t have to be a trip to Paris - it can be movies and popcorn, dress ups and dancing and being silly. You’re heading in the right direction for sure. 🤗😘❤️🌈.
Thank you so much! We definitely have a lot of video memories captured and continue to make more. Most not not added to our channel, but definitely available if the kids need them one day. ;)
Love you…you are helping many people with your hard topics…God bless you. Praying.
Sarah you do you!❤ great attitude. Keep on keeping on🙏🏼🙏🏼✍️
I’m watching this after watching the video about your husband telling us you’re ready to let go. You are so loved.
The most strong nerves woman I have ever seen. Even men are not much strong
You are such a brave soul! Thank you for sharing your story everyday !
Thank you for being here
Each person handles this “ change” differently. I hope your last few months were good. Am sorry things are winding down for you now. Praying for you.
It's definitely something to think about. We should all be living our Best lives, regardless what we think our longevity is. Definitely, need to ponder. I'm praying for you! Try hard to Live you Best life, what ever that is. 😘❤️ I appreciate you!
I understand exactly what you're saying..focus on what you can control..unfortunately normal changes from day to day when dealing with a medical diagnosis and treatment...You are in our prayers
Thank you for the honest and brave video. Accepting mortality is prob something so hard for most of us. It is never something easy to accept but to say: I will live for today, is a good thing. Horrible to think you may not make it through and I hope that is not the case but being realistic is good too. By accepting the end may happen sooner, you can then make the most of whatever remaining days you do have. That is not giving up it is being realistic to a potential outcome. If something happens to change the trajectory that is amazing but being aware is a certain strength. Please take care Xx
Very good way to see it. Thanks so much for the support and for your thoughtful words!
The bravery you have is astounding. You do you. Whatever you want to do is what you do. Your choice. Always on your terms. On a personal note, my brother passed when we were pretty young - he was 10.5 months my senior. He has been gone now for almost 8 years. We always said we were going to do grand things and we should do this or that, but we never did. We fished, a lot. He wasn't very mobile near the end and we did lots of things like play Trivial Pursuit or just sit and bullshit. And now, 8 years later that is what I miss. i would give quite a bit to be able to go fishing one more time. It's the little things that stick with those left behind. So please, give yourself grace to enjoy the beauty of the little things. The time spent with friends, coworkers, family. No one needs the big things to remember you; they will remember the time spent together. The most mundane becomes the most treasured. hope this comment isn't too dark or too triggering. And i hope you are with your family for years and years and years to come. Much love and peace to you on your journey.
Not too dark at all, it is very comforting actually. I would like to think the little things in my life mean and will mean a lot to those around me. I will work to throw in some bigger moments and always remember that the little things are ok too. Thanks so much for sharing your and your brother's story too
You do you!!! That’s the best you got. Praise the good times and thankful to get through the bad. 💞💞💞🙏🏼🙏🏼💞💞
I agree, I think your life must already be rich as you are not needing anything outside of that to make you happy, it is like people who just live and work for the next vacation, I think that is quite sad and they are obviously not living the life they want, where as you (apart from the cancer) are fulfilled in yours :)
That is so true, not that there is anything wrong with vacations, but there is something to be said about enjoying life as it is. My family is a big part of that for sure.
Small things are really the big things, and they are the best things. I love your spirit and how clear you speak to us on very important things that will help each of us on our own journey.
Yes! Thank you!
I think everyone accepts their own mortality in different ways. What works for some doesn't work for others. Try to think of what makes you comfortable and at peace. That's really all I can say on the matter. You are so strong and courageous...I'm confident you will find out what works best for you and your family. God bless! 🙏🏼🙏🏼
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I appreciate all that you share. You are very wise and I love your mindset. I wish you a good day and bless you so very much!
Thank you so much!
First time watching your channel, think RUclips's algorithms have cottoned on that I watch emotional videos, I don't have cancer but somehow I'm drawn to people who are going through what you are. I think it's the desire to connect and share with others, I do have a lot of loss.
I think sometimes the small things can be the best, being truly present and as you said, saying hello to someone you don't usually say hello to.
Noticing things you may not have normally noticed. Appreciating all the little things....
I'm looking at the view from your window it looks lovely xxxx 💕
Welcome to the family! Thank you for watching and commenting. Small things are important for sure. We do have a pretty nice green space behind our house :)
You are such a gracious and lovely lady. God bless you.
Thank you for sharing this part of your life and words of wisdom. I hope you are still hanging in there. Please do your research on autophagy and cancer cells. I hope and pray this information helps you.
Dear Sarah, you’re so sweet and open. My heart really goes out to you because what you’re going through is taking you into the realm of accepting your own mortality. Having experienced a life threatening situation and ending up with PTSD removed that safety bubble for me. I faced my own mortality and can’t unface it. Now I’m left with an autoimmune illness that could severely shorten my life, but no way am I comparing your cancer to that; it’s just the psychological aspect is so similar, and the physical is almost the same. The loss of self and identity and having to recreate a new self identity each time something is lost. It hurts. It’s terribly difficult. It’s heartbreaking to see things fall away from ourselves and there’s little we can do about it. As for you doing those *big things*, would that make you happy? Are you happier with a routinal lifestyle? There’s no right or wrong. I know full well I’m not one to go running around the globe at the last minute, but I’m a boring creature. Routine makes me happy. My home, family and surroundings I know. You may well be the same. It’s also possible you’re facing a grief of your own body - googling that might make sense to you. And you have no use by date stamped on your derrière - that’s very important to remember! Love and hugs -Jez ❤️❤️❤️💐
Thank you so so much for sharing your own pain and your story. I appreciate the of routine making you happy, because that is definitely true for me. I do enjoy adventures but the little things in life make me happy too.
Absolutely, totally get where you’re coming from. I just haven’t put it in words. Bless you Sarah.
Thank you! You too!
You are lowkey a beautifully intelligent philosopher. You have the best perspective on life I've ever verbally heard from anyone in my life and I am rooting for you and your awesome family. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. We love and appreciate you for being your amazing strong self!
Thank you for sharing ❤️🙏🦸♀️
Yes-one day at a time.. enjoy your journey ✨️
Yes! Thank you!
Dear Sarah, don't feel so guilty about how you are feeliing. You have all reason to feel the way you do. You are loved by many out there and you display such strength and courage. Remember, you are loved and admired.
You are so brave and so strong. Each day is a gift and your appreciation for life shines through in all of your videos! Keep living life your way; with grace, love, and positivity. God bless you and your family.
Thank you so much!
Oh Sarah...you poor dear. I really don't think there's one human being who could HONESTLY face their mortality any other way than you are. It's not an easy topic and it certainly is far from being an easy thing. You are doing the best anyone can in your situation. Hold on to what you need to each day...but mostly hold on to God. Having had cancer myself...and losing a husband to it as well...I only got through both times with God's help. He'll help you to maintain your normalcy of life and give you what you need for each day. For me it is and was what I heard once: When God is all you have, God is all you need. Much Love to you. 🙏💖
Thank you ❤️
You have a new normal for you and your family and that’s ok, you have a kind nature and you’re right there doesn’t need to be massive gestures just live your life with how you want to control it. Sending hugs xx
So admire your courage. Enjoy each moment and day. Take pleasure in every thing you see and do. You are a wonderful person and so very brave. Blessings to you and yours.
Thank you, I will ❤️
Normalcy however you see it or others see it makes it your adventure. Live in the moment with your very supportive husband Josh and awesome small kids. Every little thing you all do together is a big family adventure you all will talk about in the future. God Bless
God bless you Sarah. So much heart.
I just found this channel and I don't know the whole background. I lost my husband in a car accident. I don't think about the things we didn't do. I think about the little things. I remember driving down the highway and out of nowhere, he said, "you have no idea how much I love you". That was probably 2 months before he died.
The things you do now in your situation, are the things all of us should do and say every day. In the blink of an eye we can be gone from this earthly realm.
Fear not.
Thank you! I think we are being more intentional about those things we say. Making sure to share our love, and also our fears, frustrations, sadness, and all the feels. In the end they all have a positive outcome so long as we allow the feels to be. ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so much for sharing your own experience with loss and I am so sorry for your loss. I so appreciate your strength to share that and the guidance about the little thing being so important! Welcome to the family!
You make total sense.... feeling like it means you're giving up. That's anything but stupid. I think the key is finding that fine line, between excepting the possibility and not giving up. Such a hard thing to do, I empathize with you. My life has been shrouded in death- mom, dad, little bro, all grandparents, late miscarriage, etc. But I still have no idea how YOU feel. My heart is with you. ❤️
Thank you! Miscarriages are close to home for us as well! ❤️❤️
When I was diagnosed with CML I began preparing for my funeral ( that was in 2021). I wasn’t sure what was going to happen but I knew that leukemia kills millions of people every year. I continued to work, I began to travel more, spending more time with my loved ones. I began to live when I thought I was going to die. My meds are horrible but I managed them better. Sarah was such an inspiration and I never rooted for someone I didn’t even know to survive this as much as I did for her. I wish she had lived longer. ❤️❤️❤️🥺🥺🥺
True just live one day at a time or as live for the moment.
Wl always include u beautiful couple in my prayers n positive thoughts
Understand what you mean. My joy is a good day, good food, a good conversation with the children, watching a good film and not thinking ahead, just enjoying here and now. You are fantastic and so strong, we love you. You are fantastic
Yes. I think this is a headspace we are working towards. ❤️ Adjusting expectations fir what we could enjoy and starting to allow joy in the little things.
Thank you for sharing your feelings, this particular one means a lot,as I feel the same as you . I am grateful to wake up each morning .Your courage is breathtaking. Take care sweetheart 💕🇬🇧
Thanknyou
May you and your family always be blessed with all that is good.
Sarah, you can say what ever you want, I’m an ovarian cancer survivor
Bless you.