i don't wanna die
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- Опубликовано: 16 сен 2024
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i wasn't crying at the end. just got a little emotional realizing how grateful i am for everything i have right now and how i just wish i could hold onto all of it forever..
MEN DONT CRY jk jk 😂
There was just something in your eye thats all. 😂
As a single father I feel this hardcore, who will watch over my children when I’m gone.
I'm 58 brother, don't know how I got here. The older I get the more I realize just how beautiful life is and lately I can tear up just standing on my front porch looking at my beautiful neighborhood and knowing this is all going to be gone (for me) in no time at all. Almost any simple act of human kindness hits me in the feels all of a sudden. It's like everything has become bittersweet and I'm just now developing the understanding to appreciate it. The point, if you need one, is to live in and enjoy each moment, connect with other people if you can, be kind to animals, understand that we all came from the same place and we return to that place when our time is up. Cliche but true. Just be connected to the world as firmly as you can for as long as you can.
Deep 🦾😢
feel like nobody talks about how much of a trip it is just getting older
I think moste of us just ignore it. Try to forget it i guess
1:09 hit different for me. we all say our youth went away in a blink of an eye, but we're just a couple more blinks until we end up under a headstone. how do i blink slower bruh
@@JuniorWAHOW DO WE BLINK SLOWER!!!! TELL US!!!
People have been talking about this, writing books on it and articles for thousands of years. The difference today is that we are all a lot more connected via social platforms, and content creators more than ever, share personal and intimate details/feelings with the rest of us where is before most famous people kept to themselves and their small inner circles
@@GooseWayneTV I do! 😂 I’m 41 and terrified of getting older, the aging stick is finally hitting me in the face 😢 and man it’s so disheartening, I’m not the hot pretty girl that I once was, who would always get compliments, I still get a few but ehh it just sucks getting older and if we don’t die from cancer we will in a car accident is how my mind works or even an airplane, that’s why I refuse to fly!! I’m like if I die, I’m not dying thousands of feet in the air while having time to reflect before smashing into the ground with a bunch of strangers 😂 no thanks 🙅♀️ but yea we should all be more open about aging and also ageism! It’s a blessing to grow older yet we have these younger people shaming us for it 😢
The trick isn’t to not be afraid of dying, it’s to not be afraid of letting go. Human nature is to try and hold onto everything, but nothing is permanent in any singular form. The only thing permanent is energy, and the transfer of it, and that gives me peace.
@@siamese605 Ive been thinking about the afterlife a lot and your comment gave me some peace. I was first afraid of me dying and what will happen after I die, the black nothingness of eternity. But knowing the people, the humans I share this world with will keep going gave me peace. Then I thought about the end of the universe, just like we theorize there was a start. How will my species survive that? But in reality that will probably be in trillions of earth years and we will learn a lot in a progressively faster speed and somehow counter that. But even then, energy doesnt disappear. Another energy bubble will probably appear and burst and create another universe. All in all I just want the world to keep going.
I screenshotted both of your comments. This is so profound. Thank you 🙏
@@siamese605 excellent take, thanks for sharing
@@Jduekengnexcellent take, thanks for sharing
@@Jduekengnthere are interesting videos on here about the end of the universe
I'm 42 and the hardest thing is seeing your parents get old. like old old. Then knowing it's your turn after they pass. if you get lucky enough to even get to that stage of life.
Love everyone around you, drop the bullshit and take care of your body.
I am 17, my dad is 72, which means my dad is getting old, and I relate to how much it sucks to see your parents age 😢.
My mom died at 59.
I guess its hard either way 😢
@@Vastiliousoh wow how old is your mom?
I'm almost 40 and my dad is only 61.
It would be wild to be born and your dad is already "old" by Social Security standards.
@ChristinaFromRUclips my mom Is 48 I think
@@ChristinaFromRUclips I am so sorry to hear that it's so tough to go through that 😞 💔
im not afraid to go but am dreading the day my mom does.
Best to just appreciate your mum while she's here. Get her some flowers, take her out for tea (or coffee) somewhere or whatever you think she'd like. That's what I'd do if my mum was still around. Just let her know she's appreciated. Then dread won't be an issue.
I think we dream as preparation for death. When we die our body will go to REM state where we live another full life, hence the term “life goes by so quickly.”
This is what really gets me. And I can actually feel her getting old at this point. She’s not the same “mom” who was sharp and helped do everything. She’s seeming more and more like a tired old person (she’s 65) and it absolutely devastates me because I still feel like i need her to fall back on but thats not really an option anymore.
@@christopherwray4788 same with my mom. Only one year til she retires. She’s still sharp but her body is not so good. I wish nothing but the best for you and your mom 💜
My mother passed when I was 13, I didn't treasure those days enough. I'm glad you at least have the perspective to treasure your days with her more. Bless you and I hope you have a lovely life
It’s so refreshing to see a man be openly vulnerable and emotional about the things he cares about. Your love for your family is so sweet.
Thank you for sharing this 🙂
Why do you people obsess over this? He wasn't "being vulnerable", he was just talking about life. People do it all the time, but you went and made it weird.
“I don’t wanna die at all.”
I felt that.
What if you don’t really tho…
Why not
That's absolutely how evolution design us. try to elevate above that and use logic its illogical to beat urselfs up if we can't do anything about it take it as a motivation to do anything in ur power to make the most of the ride
I would love nothing more
@@pattybaselines same 😂
It's so depressing. I deal with this realization every day. I am even mind blown I'm hearing someone say word for word exactly what I think about almost every day.
we'll get through it man
Fuck im in the same boat
@@GooseWayneTVwell said goose, thanks for posting this for the people who think about it often, I’m sure some of us needed it, wish you the best buddy
I have been thinking this for years . Live in the moment and do everything you can .
Literally.
Bro your such a deep thinker. You have one of those restless brains. Its a beautiful thing but it can be a curse. Its beautiful though because you tear it all apart to the root and find the reason and sometimes the reason can bring pain but eventually peace and wisdom. I love this man. Keep thinking man keep searching it hurts sometimes but the hurt is necessary hopefully we will all find a reason for this life. I think we all need a reason 🙏
Dope comment on a very sensitive/impersonal topic. Bless up. 🙏
I was in a car accident at 22. I survived, but my dad died. My body changed, and I'm permanently disabled now, but that doesn't really matter. Without him, I've never been the same.
How do get over something like that? You most value life more then I do
Just lost my mother and lost my father at 8 so I'm an orphan now and I gotta say it doesn't get better.
@@MrECrafter you don't get over something that traumatic, you just learn to live with it.
@@BettyAlexandriaPride Condolences for your father, and I’m sorry you went through such a traumatic event. ♥️🙏
I'm so sorry
Thoughts like this caused me years of anxiety. It took years to learn to live in the moment and don't fret over the future ❤
I think that's the point is to live now every second
It shouldn't be like that though? If people are struggling in this world then there's no reason to live in the moments forever when we can fix our world and make it better for our future generations. Benefit the sprouts, not the raisins.
@@AutismoGamer yes!
Preach
you should fret over the future but not let it get to you. you want to be ina situation where you're constantly thinking about where you'll be in a few years. will i be able to financially support myself? chase your dreams and use the moment to define your future.
Dude you have no idea how much so many of us needed to hear somebody else just simply vocalize those thoughts man. This is crucial to talk about and these emotions are so important to feel, regardless of how sad and somber it feels for a moment. Its almost like the sadness felt is almost always followed by an ever greater appreciation for whats real..if you allow yourself to accept that. Idk. I just appreciate this Goose.
45 and I feel like I'm just getting my shit started. It's never too early or too late to make sure you're doing what's right for you. Enjoy what you have while you have it.
@ReneRosa thank you, this is reassuring!
I’m 41 and feel like I wasted so much of my life by not getting my credit right and not doing the career I wanted to do and now I feel like I’m too late to start from scratch, I feel like I gave up because it’s easier to not give af I guess. But I think it’s part of why I’m depressed, I feel like my life is worthless and only thing I did right by were my two sons who are great young men 😢
I sure hope you're right, because I'm just a few yrs behind you & I been up B4, but made some bad choices & now REALLY down & doing.. not so good...
@@ms.rolltide256 At least you had children. That’s already a monumental accomplishment and fulfillment of life that most modern westerners won’t experience. You’re solid for that
46 feel the exact same way
The older you get you start to think about the little things that never bothered you when you was young
@@50_cal49 very true
I’m pretty young but I found when I experienced early adolescence I started to worry bout my health. (I was very overweight) And I’m grateful I did but at one point I’ve lost my inner child. Everything I eat I’m wondering that this isn’t good for me, can’t go a day without the gym without feeling guilt. It sucks, it’s gotten bette but I have to gaslight myself to have a slice of pizza without feeling like absolute shit.
As a 50 y/o male i worry less about the things
For men it is real stressful from 18-48, after that your hormones shift. Sad to say but the testosterone fades and estrogen rises. Means you get less stressed and more chill and up for a rebirth of sorts.
* to give some hope to the younger men who I see struggling so much..
Honestly found the opposite to be true tbh The little things bother me less, I see the world as a much wiser person than I did a decade ago when I was in my mid 30's, did the whole "Im on my downhill curve" thing, made sure my family are catered for as best I can, and now at 46 im looking forward to retiring soon and getting to do the things ive worked hard for the past 30 years.
Also the opposite as well. Things that you thought mattered when you were younger seem so miniscule now
I feel this so much.. I'm 36, which I forget constantly. I was just 23 like a few days ago, or it feels like it at least. Thank God I have the comfort of faith, I know not everyone does, but it still stinks knowing there's a time limit on this life. I've really enjoyed it.
"I'm gonna blink again and be 44, and then 54..." that is living in the moment, realizing how fast life goes by, and cherishing the "now"
being 25 and literally feels like i was just 15 and now im only 10 years away from "middle aged" is a mind fuck
@@ninjakitty11000 I'm 29 now. Damn how does this happen... Lol
Funnily enough, four years ago I heard the song hundred years by Five for Fighting and came to a realization that my time is brief and I needed to go be happy. Made some massive massive life changes simply because of that and my outlook has completely changed.
@@ninjakitty11000 i feel ya im a 96 baby 28 rn and yes the BLINK is real had my first baby three years ago and my 20s SNAPPED by it was all work … work…. Little family time, little personal time
@@Corkoth55 right there with ya ! At least we might make it to GTA VII in 2060 tho!
y'knkow what, I never realized how young early 30s are until I worked with a girl who was 32 when I was 21. it made me lose the fear of reaching my 30s
I've met several 19 year old girls who were acting 13 at most when I was 21 :)
Love the profile bro
@@SeeräubereiI was going to say the same, getting a g59 tattoo soon👀
@@add69420 das sick bro. Might get an anarchy tattoo with G59 next to it or something like that, not sure yet haha
@@choonblazeI’ve met a lot of men that are 35 acting 15 so
Ive actually been struggling with this every night, it’s been keeping me awake. I’m 23 and I love living. I hate knowing I’m powerless against mortality. When you said “I’m sad that someday it has to end” that instantly brought me to tears. That’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. I’m not afraid of dying I’m afraid of not living. I’ve never been so happy and I already feel like it’s almost over. This ride is so short. Thank you for sharing this it honestly has helped calm that anxiety I’ve been having surrounding this topic. We’re all in this together ❤️
Don't focus on the end or you lose sight of the journey. Instead of focusing on dying and the end, worry about living the life you have now. Why fear Death if you're not even living the life you had? Live your life and try not to think so hard about passing on. Think that in all likelihood you're probably only about a 5th of the way through your life, given medical advancement. You still have so much time to live before you have to "pass it on" and give someone else a chance to shine. So light it up while you can and don't worry about the future until it gets there. - DD 💜❤️
This is why helping people and being a great parent is so rewarding. It is fulfilling. We got to have our fun and live free. Time to help our children do the same thing.
yes! 💪🏽
I remember my early 30’s like it was yesterday. God man, I was a machine. I just turned 47, have high blood pressure, and have gained weight due to a thyroid issue. It goes so fast. Please enjoy it. Take care of your body and mind. Drink water. Make love.
And now there’s aids
Yes the same in my 30s was the best I felt it was probably the best I felt and looked but once I hit 40 everything went to shit my looks and health really struggling now
I am 36 and I feel like I can't feel accomplished no matter what I do anymore. I worked hard my entire life in the culinary industry just for the virus to destroy all of it, leaving me basically wondering what to do now. I got into game dev and ended up working alongside the creators of The Elder Scrolls, and even that wasn't enough. I feel lost, I went from this self-motivated person that was on my stuff to somebody that just kinda drifts around.
I'm not giving up, but to be honest I don't know what to even do anymore.
Just keep trying. Some things in life don't come easy and you just have to keep working at it. If you want to do game dev, just keep at it and eventually it will stick. It might suck for a while, maybe you wont make enough money at first, or maybe its difficult in the beginning, but it will get better. You've got this.
Sometimes you are the one who has to make of it what you will. That elder scrolls position was somebody's dream, but for you it wasn't for you. But for so many people, that woudl have been a DREAM job, something they'd be giddy about, making them really fulfilled to be working on something so important. That doesn't seem to be for you. You might not even know what you want per se, but keep searching, and something will surely click. The accomplishment you seek is only given to by yourself. One can feel accomplished for doing absolutely nothing, but one may also never feel accomplished no matter what he does, even if they were to ascend to President of the USA. If that is the case, then you have to set your accomplishment bar a lot lower because you've got some sincerely impossible accomplishments in mind. It's okay to lower the bar especially if that bar is impossible to reach.
Many people are content to not achieve a thing. That's okay, I believe. Another question you ask yourself is, do you WANT To be remembered for all of time to end? At first, I used to think yes. But more time thought, I think no, I don't wish to be remembered for all of time. I am content with my immediate family and relatives/friends knowing of my existence. It is unfortunate, but there is no way every single person can be forever remembered (at least not right now, perhaps future technological advances can change that).
@Skullzi remember you helped develop one of the best games that's something to be proud of
From a culinary industry to a game designer and trying to keep positive, this guy is living my dream and hopefully my future. Stand proud and try your best! 🙂
Why lie on the internet?
This video hits home as I am 29 and I seriously cannot account for what happened in the last 10 years of my Life. I feel like I just let the same year happen to me again and again. But I'm trying to break that. Waking up a bit earlier,eating a little bit better, working out a little bit more, improving my skills a little bit more and trying to be a little bit nicer to people and myself every day. I guess a meaning to life can be found in that. Also goose don't talk so negatively about your life expectancy, remember Winston Churchill lived till he was 90😅
Youre well on your way godspeed friend keep those improvements going
WE NEED MORE TIME!!! 😭😭😭
This is the way
@@GooseWayneTVit’s MY TIME and I need it now!
@@maxdemersam I the only one that understands this reference?? 😅
I don't think enough people share their most innermost thoughts like this very often, so thankyou for that
Because nobody really cares
@@Dextrome nah people care, it’s cool to care about others and their thoughts and wellbeing
@@Dextrome fighting past apathy or initial feelings of "cringe" does open u up to other people
i really appreciate this style of introspective and honest dialogue, please make more of these! you are really good at it. they are clearly resonating with a lot of people! 😊
this genuinely pulled me out of an episode that i’ve been having for awhile now. i have been so down lately and wanting to just give up. it’s videos like these that pull be back to the reality of how short life is and that i need to live it to the fullest.
same boat. life is short yet we still have so much time to find solace and beauty in it and overcome whatever may be holding us back. you've got this!
You have to remember that life expectancy isn't necessarily what you seem to think it is. This isn't a measure of natural death, it literally averages out the ages of people who've died. This means that it includes ALL deaths, so things like accidents, drug overdoses, murders and even infant mortality will drag it down. Being in your 30s is not middle-aged!
@GooseWayneTV hey bud, I mentioned to you a while back that my fiance Kristina was very sick with liver failure, and that she was in the hospital. She is now on Hospice, unable to speak, and basically in a coma. It's just crazy because she just turned 35. I feel terrible for her, and I am extremely depressed. I've been praying non stop for a miracle. If you could maybe say a prayer for her, I know she would appreciate it! She loved the podcasts with you and your wife.
@@ArialHDMultimedia sending prayers 🙏
@@ou4534 I'm sure she appreciates all the love everyone!! She needs a miracle right now! 🙏
aye brother wish i was replying on different terms 😓 i will be keeping her in my thoughts and also hoping for a miracle man 😭💜 love yall. please hang in there
I know she would really appreciate the prayers and best wishes guys.. She needs a miracle! Thank you everyone for the support! 🙏
Praying for you sir
Goose is at the age where now hes nostalgic, and its what every man goes thru bro. We all literally do. Im 43 and that shit snuck up quick as fuck. But dying is part of life, it gives meaning to life. Live your life as much as you can!
As a 45 year old - I can say it's SCARY how fast time starts going the older you get. Years start feeling like months. Weeks start feeling like days. Shit's wild.
It’s bonkers. I was just 18 yesterday. I’m 42 today…
I'm 41 and this is so fucking true 😑
Same age and same experience here. Definitely crazy!!
I'm 30, and I feel exactly like this. I've felt like this since my early 20s actually.
I agree 💯, I'm also 45. I feel ya on this one.
I’m 28 and the thought of dying gives me crippling anxiety. I think a lot of us feel the same way! Enjoy the small things in life and try to make the most memories you can with the ones you love and care for! Hearing you choke up made me sad. You’re not alone Goose!
@@haleighklemm how do you deal with the crippling anxiety? I’ve been dealing with similar since i was about 14 and i’m 25 now.
@liamk9906 For me, it was Lexapro, excersize, and a steady job. Also, a good friend group! Humans are social creatures.
There's been something seriously wrong with my health for about 8 years, and the doctors haven't found anything. I've spent the majority of it with severe anxiety and wondering when it's going to happen. It's helped with me to accept that everyone dies, and even if you die younger than many (I'm 37 atm), that it's a natural thing. I make the most of the time I'm given. I count myself lucky to have made it 8 years. I've had the chance to build stronger relationships with my family. It's given me a lot of time to read and strengthen my faith. No one gets to live forever. Just make sure the time you have has meaning and that you really enjoy even the small things. I've become so grateful for the smallest things.
Recommend the book The Tibetan Guide to Living and Dying if you have anxiety surrounding death.
When you were talking about eternal darkness I was suddenly overwhelmed by what felt like a sudden huge rush of adrenaline, as I realized, on a deeper level then I ever have, that I just wont exist some day. It's something I think about often, but it's such a hard thing to truly grasp, since living is all we know, and honestly it scared the shit out of me. I feel like I've never understood that fact in as real and deep a way as this video has led me to. I hope that because of that, I can actually start living more, and making the most out of the life I have. It's something I always tell myself, but it's something that is so hard to truly realize and acknowledge. This is all we have, so why not make the most of it?
Your voice breaking up around the end is a testament to how you value what you have. Fear of little time to be with what you value shows the importance it has to you.
It's a good place to be, and I hope I find a way there myself too.
you're 100% right man. i wasn't scared of dying or anything until i started growing my own family and finally starting to accomplish my goals. double edge sword i guess because now im terrified of the day i have to say goodbye to my family and my blossoming internet family as well.
i believe you'll get there eventually man. keep seeking. be a good person. help others and continue working toward your goals whatever they may be. then you'll be able to graciously welcome the terrified feeling of losing it all lol. but that feeling is, as you said, a fortunate one to have 💜💜💜
@@GooseWayneTV
Middle aged does not literally mean the mid point of life expectancy...I used to think this too until somebody corrected and I read the wiki article about it
@@GooseWayneTV hey bro do me a favor and quit smoking. I will pay you $100. You will save more than that, have more time with your family(because you wont have to excuse yourself to smoke) and be healthier overall. Thank you for the laughs. Life is like a bank account that we withdraw from every day never knowing the balance.
I googled Smoker's life expectancy:
Smoking can reduce life expectancy, especially for heavy smokers. For example, a 20-year-old male who never smokes has a life expectancy of 56.7 years, while a 20-year-old male lifelong heavy smoker has a life expectancy of 36.5 years. Heavy smokers can also have a 13-year shorter life expectancy than non-smokers on average.
@@GooseWayneTV A literal mid-life crisis.
@@GooseWayneTV It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
The quote "We only die when we are forgotten" means so much to me. I had a stroke in 2014 that gave me a sudden realization that at only 25 I could die and be forgotten.
We should strive every day to affect the world in a positive way. We may be forgotten someday but our actions hold power for the rest of civilization.
Move with love.
Nah man we will be forgotten anyway no matter what. Just be happy, enjoy all you can and don't think about it too much. Don't stress about being memorable... you probably won't be and will live stressed about it so just let life happen there is nothing else you can do.
@@Kazperianthe thing about memories is ya don't know when you're making 'em. You can't have fun memories if you can't let go of your worries to have fun. You want to be remembered and do something memorable? Climb above the despair, let your fear be your motivation and just have fun doing something that makes you happy at the end of the day, no matter what it is. Why not aspire to change the world before you pass? If what you do ends up working out you could be living the life or even changing the game entirely, right?
Musicians, they're admired because of their personalities and what they represent through their songs. They have fun and rise above their fears to do something that makes memories before they die, and they're loved and famous, bringing joy to all. Why not strive for greatness?
The trick is to strive for it without letting it become your fear - don't worry so hard about it that you end up wanting to forget your goals and passions entirely. Don't push yourself too hard, or you'll bury your dreams. -DD 💜❤️
i'm gonna be 21 this year and it's cool to hear your thoughts on aging, i really feel like my childhood flew by so quick and i feel like im gonna hit 30 quicker than i felt from when i went from 10-20. i don't wanna keep thinking of my future and i wanna make the best out of what i got right now. i love your content and you always manage to make me smile, thanks man for being here
Existential moments with Goose. I’m 37, and just here for life’s ride at the moment. Also, sleep is good for you, please don’t skip out on it.
Live in the moment, appreciate the little things. Unfortunately, death is inevitable, can’t worry about it too much.
my thoughts exactly
Man this really resonates with me.
I feel like the last 10 years flashed by in a blink, I don’t even remember what happened.
Hope you made the most of these existential thoughts, as they can often lead to breakthroughs like I think we see here and I feel you. Broke my back at 17 and it's been downhill from there physically speaking. I've lived more than twice how old I was when I was injured for life, and I am most likely halfway or more through my life with this comment. I want to change it up and see what kind of life I can live from here. LFG!!!
Mundane routines will make it seem like your life is on turbo mode. You can cruise through decades like they are hours. In my 20’s I realized that if you make your life unpredictable & chaotic then it will make it seem much longer. That’s why life seems to speed up as you age because you start to know what to expect and it all starts to meld together. I am 37 now with a 5 year old and I try to make things interesting everyday by trying new things & going new places. It’s difficult, but I have noticed it seems to help.
Yeah, when you repeat something you did many times your brain starts to enter in "automatic mode", and it's like you're not even there, and memories are not formed, and then you perceive time as "fast",
Time isn't fast you just don't remember nothing between the dates you're trying to recall because it's all the same
So trying new things, forcing the brain to think, being uncomfortable really seems to make time slow down
I'm 35 with a newborn girly and have been going back to this issue, feeling depressed about it but hearing someone else open up about it really helps honestly 🙏🙏 thank you for being so transparent
the kids change us 😭💜
@@GooseWayneTV you got that right 🤣🤣 we got this tho! 💪💪
Enjoy your time with your baby! This is the best part of your life! ❤
@@ACSuperstar thank you, definitely feels like it ❤️ such an awesome experience so far
@@GooseWayneTVwait you’re trans?
Beautifully said. We all need to think about this much more often. The world would be much more peaceful if this was consciously on our minds a bit more. It may be sad to think about it but it's only sad because of how amazing this all is in the first place, and letting go of all that is terrifying.
These were some deep thoughts GooseWayne. Whenever we have that realization about how short life really is, for a moment we feel like we finally "get it" and we'll live our lives more fully... The problem is that we so easily forget that mindset, I guess as a defence mechanism and we fall back into blissful ignorance. Thanks for the reminder man, and yeah we gotta do our best to live every moment to the fullest. Cheers
The best thing about developing a stoic mindset is knowing your going to die and everyday trying to make a difference in the blip of time we have in this world. I aint afraid of dying but im afraid of dying before I find my purpose.
I got a super strong yet vague hint about me having purpose on my way to a choice cliff one day.
Something out there was telling me it aint my time yet.
Still dont know what my purpose is, but i kinda belive in a higher power after that day.
"Death is not the end. It is just another path. One which we all must take" - Gandalf ❤❤❤❤
I've had all these thoughts. All you can do is try to enjoy each day while you are here. Go on some adventures. See the world. Find someone to love.
30s is prime babe, embrace it because I am! Be strong and self improve everyday.
@@thefraudsniffer5485 trying to work on that now myself
ehhh late 30's is when my body is starting to fall apart, everything before that I was perfectly healthy, but now my hair is turning grey, my thyroid is failing, and my body is creaking and falling apart more al lthe time.
@@casedistorted You work out? Exercise any besides moving some at work? Do you eat healthy and take supplements? Staying consistent with all these things do help.. But there is going to come a time that age will win.
@@casedistorted Strength training is critical
@@thefraudsniffer5485i seen a 100 year old granny deadlifting heavy weight, so idk man. Seems its pretty possible to give death the middle finger
My grandparents were all 90s and perfectly fine, even able to drive. It’s all about luck, GENETICS, your environment, state of mind, and how you treat your body.
Apeirophobia - the fear of forever
I struggled with this a lot in my early years because I always wondered what would happen if existence just never ended. But I found peace in god and knowing that time may not be the same in the afterlife and it really helped me a lot cause I used to lose sleep over fear of living forever even after physical death
Wow! I genuinely thought I was the only one who had this fear! Everybody is always afraid of dying, but I'm more afraid of living forever
Living forever might be the worst possible form of torture that I can imagine.
I've always had the same fear. I was more afraid of an afterlife and it brought LESS comfort. I didn't like the idea of "living" eternally in "heaven". That was way scarier than anything I could have imagined. Still is. I'm not religious and most likely never will be. Not even remotely close to believing in it.
The only way for me to be content is to never think of death... And definitely never dwell on it. The thought of death enters my mind sometimes and I just let it drift by and fade away. Good luck out there
Huh? For years you had a fear of the impossible (living forever)? I am so confused right now
@@Dextrome It's not "impossible" if you believe in an afterlife. Heaven "lasts forever" presumably, right?
i’m only 18, and i’ve been battling with these types of thoughts for about 4 years now. i was on instagram way too young, and i saw people dying in horrible ways and it lead me to websites of even worse videos. i’ve been so hyper aware of death and what will come afterwards that i can’t even seem to live. we all get that sense of invincibility because we feel like we have so much time, but anything could happen, any day, any second. as i’ve gotten older the panic attacks have lessened and i feel less dread about it, i try to only surround myself with positive thoughts and if i catch myself worrying i like so put something funny on to distract myself, your videos are good distractions :)
Thank you so much for this. the impact this can make on one's life is unfathomable tbh. It's what we need to hear, but are too scared to think about. Thank you. I needed this
it’s the getting older and having to deal with slowly losing people you know is the hardest for me. every moment counts.
This hit me in the gut thinking of loved one getting close to average age of death and it really smh. I definitely need to change the way I live and handle my everyday life.
Really attend to this fear to deal with and pray
Yeah that's the part everyone forgets. Even if you were to live to be the oldest person on Earth it would be incredibly tragic since you would be the last survivor of your generation, and will live to see every person you love and cherish pass before you. I've noticed the older we get the more it becomes a longevity competition, before long you'll be checking the obituaries for people you once knew: "did you hear so and so passed away?"
all i could really think of is to practice gratitude, because with everything loaned to us, in time it’ll all be taken away and all we could do is be thankful & make the most of what we have now.
im 33 myself, and i've thought about it a lot lately. after your 20's are over you can literally blink and be 5 years older. was looking at my parents and thinking how old they look now but never noticed the small changes over the years. all we can do is be conscious of the nearing inevitable and make the most we can with what time we have left. bless up brother love the content.
Ngl, seeing my dad battle stage 3 cancer and going through chemo is super hard breaking. Its like seeing someone deteriorate is the worst thing but its the circle of life. We just try to take each and everyday as a blessing and try to spend as much time with him as possible.
Saw the same... A strong man getting turned into the old man, just skin and bones before the end. I had so much anger after that injustice. I hate that that my son will never have such an awesome grandfather. =/
Having just turned 40 and no longer able to convince myself into believing I'm not middle age yet, it's an experience for sure. Like you, I drank for about a decade before I got sober and now I eat healthier and stay active which has proven for me to be a great benefit to all aspects of my well-being. All I can say to the younger people out there is to have fun, but make taking care of your physical and mental well-being a priority. Middle-age doesn't have to be this scary, existential crisis like you may believe, it can be the beginning of yet another chapter in your life. To the best of your ability, fill your life with experiences that you'll remember and hopefully cherish because at the end of the day, life is nothing but the culmination of all those experiences. None of us know when our final chapter will be written, so hopefully you take every opportunity to make your life an interesting story.
Thanks for being so candid about this and sharing it.
I always feel bad because I just turned 33, and I feel like I missed out on my life, not doing more in my 20s that most do, and it's too late to do any of that now, it's not the same etc. I feel like depression and society makes us feel these things. I feel like theres a 50 year old out there calling us young and we can still do things, and a 70 year old calling that 50 year old old. It's all subjective in our eyes.
i’m turning 24 this year and everything you said in this video has been running rampant in my head the last year or so. i too wish i could hold onto this life forever. it’s an extremely depressing thought that everything you’ve fought so hard for in life will just be gone one day. Thanks for uploading this goose, i’ve been feeling really alone in the topic.
Favorite video you ever did. Im 35. Lost my stepdad 15 years ago, he was 42, my father this year, he was 61. Life is intricate. So many factors, so many emotions, so many correct opinions and wrong facts, and vice versa. Ive learned to embrace pain. Its in its own way a healthy restoration of soul. I see a lot of pain on a lot of faces out there, unembraced and broken by it. Mid life crisis is something were waiting patiently to hit one day, i think we need to use our imagination as vividly as we can to put ourselves in those shoes as early as possible. If you tell an 18 year old he/she has 2, at most 3 more segments of the life lived so far, it puts into perspective what can be done with that time. But we live by pre-implemented chapters of growth already designated for us, we wait for the next chapter to finish to see what conclusions we can absorb, instead of learning now through introspection and imagination. One of my most stirring recurring thoughts is when i lay in bed on my back and i close my eyes and imagine i was already gone, that this is exactly how i would be laying in my casket, and a wave comes over me like meditation mixed with breathlessness, it reminds me of my mortality, of my fleeting strength, my increasing disillusionment.... need grows deeper, desires fall away. In the past few years Ive quit cigarettes, ive quit drinking, im almost free of thc now too. Seeing videos like this remind me im doing the right thing for myself. These are years long endeavors for some of us. Some of us dont hear these affirmations too often. Goose youre the man, wicks or no wicks 🪿
Beautiful conversation. I’m the same exact age and think about these things every day.
The thought of losing someone or even leaving someone behind and how it might affect them can be a really heavy thing to process.
It’s all about perspective and learning to appreciate every moment. Because no matter how bad things might be for someone, it can always be worse.
I’m 40 and I have 6 sons ages 20,18,14,8,7,3 😂 I feel good and no grey hair. Worked construction all my life. Don’t worry about dying, dying takes care of itself. Live!
You sir are a national treasure ❤
Sheesh...
I’m 17 so still young by standards but the death anxiety is real. You seem like such a positive go lucky man and for you to be feeling this way got me tearing up fr. I wish we lived forever
Same boat man. I just realized this last week. Time to live in the moment and enjoy everyday like it’s our last! Remember all good things come to an end brother.
true! and all bad things come to an end too!
@@GooseWayneTV exactly brother. Focus on the positive and good things that’s happening in your life. I literally just got over this hump last week. I’m a couple years older than you and the realization of half our lives over does suck. Stay positive bro
Just turned 25 spiraling into existential thoughts. Didn't know I needed this video.
@@avyboii3761 I'm having these thoughts at 11 and I'm aware I'm only just getting started but it's still traumatic to wake up and remember that one day I won't
@@alpotato6531 Don't be worrying about this stuff for now. It's completely unwarranted. Just focus on getting good grades and set yourself up with a great work ethic. I ruined my life by squandering all schooling and now I'm stuck as a cleaner, when your parents talk about how much school matters its really about learning how no one will be looking out for you after school is done and over. Get good grades, get a nice comfy job and work on getting yourself to a point were you are comfortable doing a hobby you enjoy. Seriously, it's not worth it being a loser.
@@Cainny actually i'm in my early twenties. Not sure why I wrote the comment above. I'm at school at the moment and hopefully i can find a job after. Sorry to hear about your situation.
@@alpotato6531dude you’re 10% done with life focus on the here and now man
@@avyboii3761 im not trying to invalidate your feelings, because ive been in your shoes at that same age myself.
But in hindsight i feel i was too young to be worrying about that stuff at 17, i spent the last decade of my life wondering about the what and why to the point I found everything to be ultimately pointless from a strictly logical standpoint. Eventually destroyed my life with drugs and alcohol because that was the only way i felt anything. Now im trapped in that same boat still and just wasting away and dead broke.
Just focus on life, dying is the easy part and for the future you to worry about.
Live brother, do that thing you want to try, travel and see the world, ask that crush out, hell try new things you'd never even think about, and try not to get into your head too much and end up stuck in a negative feedback loop as i have.
You're on a path to turn your mind into a prison dwelling on stuff we have no control over.
Every new day could be our last, make em meaningful for you.
I’m so grateful to have found your channel this year. Thank you for sharing such a real and heartfelt message. I turn 31 next week and I’m having similar thoughts and feelings. Hopefully we’re all making the best of it.
I’m 33 next month, second child on the way. I work hard outside and my body is starting to hurt. I feel this. However I wouldn’t replace the knowledge and experience I’ve gained. A decade can go by fast, but at the same time so much an be accomplished with the clarity and know how that comes with age. I’m looking forward to my 40’s
I once didn't fear death, just like most people. Well it was scary when i was close to it, but not after. Then one day i fully understood the horror of it. It was the strongest emotion of my life, you could barely even call it terrifying, it was magnitudes stronger than that. Then suddenly one day recently , my fear suddenly dropped back to zero. I didnt accept it, quite the opposite. I opposed it. I wanted to fight it as long as i could and for as many people as i could. It was my life goal. But now my motivation to fight it is none, yet it still remains my goal. I feel like part of me is missing without it now.
@@cowclucklater8448 ever Heard of longevity research, the Main cause why people die at certain Ages is aging itself so if we stop that we can concebtrate on less likely factors
I'm not middle aged yet, but I'm at a phase where I revisit a lot of things I loved as a kid and look at them through a different lens. I recently re-watched Disney's Tarzan and found myself tearing up at moments that I once didn't give a shit about. It made me realize that art in general is one of the main things that makes life easy to let go of.
Knowing that future generations can be inspired by the same things that inspired you, whether it be film, music, culture, whatever it is... it helps you understand that at some point you have to live life in a more selfless way and simply do your best to make the path easier for others before it's your time to go.
Man I'm telling you im 33 and was diagnosed with RRMS at the end of 2023and have thought about nothing but the end of my life but you got me crying my eyes out listening to this 😭😢 I think about dying all of the time. When my dad passed in 2022 I went blank and figured death is nothing but darkness. I thank you for this video and I'm glad I'm not alone in these feelings and thoughts 🙏
My dad recently died and holy shit man. Talk about an eye opener. We all know we dont live forever, but when you're next, bruh... Dont like it.
True, when all my grandparents died I knew that day that my parents are next in line and I've been pushing them to go to all doctor appointments and stuff but well they just live how they want to live and I won't judge it. At the end we don't take anything with us, we just enjoy the memories while we live.
The things we choose to focus on every day matter.
These conversations need to be a bigger part of our every day.
It’s okay to lose focus and get immersed in what we love about life but it’s very important to return to the foundation of what we know. That life is short and love is everything.
Your experience mirrors mine when I was very truamatissd with PTSD . I spent my 20s trying to figure this out depressed and making an understanding that everything is pointless and I should try do my best.
Ultimately after suffering stupidly I came across magic mushrooms which not only have me answers to all this but directly plugged me back into life and I was just so profoundly overwhelmed with the experience even afterward I changed forever and realised I just want to be here and with people and this whole question ceased to matter and haunt me
I am 24. The family I was a nanny for all recently died in a plane crash in October of last year. They were family to me. Mom, dad, and two boys ages 5 and 12. I was in the middle of moving out for the first time too, across the country to live with my fiance. I don't have any friends at all and struggle to make them because of Asperger's, PTSD, and STPD. Physically, I am okay. Many have it worse. Life is full of pain, we all feel it, and that helps each other somehow. The greatest unknown isn't death, it's life.
@@ArtistUnknownOfficial that is actually horrible I really hope you’re feeling okay
Is STPD just you making a joke or a real thing? If it is real what is it?
@@IzzyWitDaEarz It means Schizotypal Personality Disorder
@@ArtistUnknownOfficial thank you 😊
I'm sorry you went through that. Word of advice. Try and ignore your mental illnesses. The more you convince yourself you're sick, the harder it is to heal. Tell yourself you will succeed. Tell yourself what you need to do to get better. I used to have Tourette's, STPD, and Autism, and as of this year, I was rediagnosed and was found to have nothing. I fucking told myself "I don't want to be this way. I want to be in control of my words, actions, and social-emotional intelligence." And I powered straight through. It's possible. Believe in yourself. I'm functioning fantastic now; work, full-time lawschool, volunteering, travelling outside of the country. That's all it takes. Go for it!
Im 36, feel like i just started living my best life yet
exactly 😭😭😭
@GooseWayneTV happy to be on this platform with you bro.
Love this guy. Thank you for your videos. Such a trip growing up and it’s hard to look back at your life as it’s already passed you by.
Ive survived so many crazy things ive learned to just be thankful everyday im alive. Alot of people dont get to live to old age, so its kind of a blessing and a curse, but being grateful has made me appreciate life so much more
To be fair. Most of us don't really remember spending our first 10 years or so. You have made many of thousands of people smile and laugh. That's a lot more than most of us can say. If life has no purpose, you decide what the purpose is.
This really made me cry. I'm around the same age and I tend to forget how short life is. I think I'll start waking up early on my days off, trying new things and just enjoying the little moments.
I have too much existential dread for this. But I appreciate the deeper convo.
This was really great. Just had a talk about this with my son and I love how we have different ways of elaborating the same point. We all experience this life through our own eyes and follow our own path. It does end at some point but who knows whether we will have other chances to exist in another form. I think you did such a wonderful job at expressing your thoughts and I am absolutely blown away at how clear you made it sound while speaking into your hair dryer.
This is the realest video I think I've ever seen. Im 28 now, looking at 30. Just lost both of my grandparents. I wish I could freeze time at a point in the past constantly. It makes me sad too. Maybe we can just be sad as a group. Love everybody, make the most of every day. Thanks Goose. I'm gonna pray for you. Thanks for bringing me some laughs in some really difficult times.
Every action you do lives on forever in its effects. That is our immortality.
I feel it man. I'm 34 and have gone through these exact same thoughts and feeling of depression. This video made me tear up thinking how happy I am in my life and how it'll be over one day. It always feels like you have more time right until you don't. Like you said, all we can do is make the most of it.
Thanks for this, man! Constantly thinking about this. Struggling to grasp the idea of death. And just not exiting no longer being able to feel. And 160 is wild!!
Man suffers only because he takes seriously what the gods made for fun.
This is the real secret of life - to be completely engaged with what you are doing in the here and now. And, instead of calling it work, realize it is play.
- Alan Watts, British Zen Philosopher
Why quote a philosopher when the philosophy of that quote can have a different meaning. The curtain can be blue or may be representing more. It's just how we assume and think.
I love Allan Watts! That man has single handedly changed the way I look at life. I actually use a lot of his wisdom as the lyrics in my music I just reword it lol
I love the quote, but what if the job youre doing is damaging you physically everyday, calling it play can be dangerous
"When you're silent, it speaks." 😊💚🙏
@@silentfriend369 When ignorance rules, Silence is suffering.
thanks for opening up emotionally for us to hear, i agree man this world is so crazy and sometimes my adhd brain just freezes when i realize we are all going to die eventually. that and space are the only 2 things that really scare me anymore. hope you are loving life man for real !
Well, I watch this video when it first came out. I understood the fear because I’m 60 well, I had a heart attack one week ago so that was the biggest eye-opener in my life of how fragile we are. I have a second chance. I’m here to tell you how important you are and what you do. You brought a lot of joy into my life and laughter which I really need right now. Thank you so much.
Damn that hit me...
I'm sorry to read you had to say goodbye to your fur buddy this year ,that sucks 😢
It's insane I'm seeing this so early, this is something that very much consumes me everyday, in very unhealthy right now, I'm going through a lot of health struggles and I just turned 30 this year and every day I worry that I'm slowly riding out the end of my life, fearing I only have 5 maybe 10 years left if I'm extremely lucky.. this video has to be some sort of "sign" I suppose I'll say.. it's so hard for me where I'm at right now, to start fixing my life and getting to a point where I have a shot at another 25 years.. physically and mentally it is a boss battle it seems.. but this video means something to me, I've seen it, I've taken it in, and I've felt something from it, I needed to see this your title is correct, and I feel not so alone in this whole aging and fear of death thing.. I feel you when you get emotional at the end, I know what that's like Ive felt that fear, I've felt that sadness.. hopefully in another few years I can comment again and be in a better place and the only thing I'll have to worry about is living my life to the fullest and enjoying my next 25 years.. I appreciate you, thank you for sharing
I feel you. Just commented something like you as well. Wish you all the best!
@@masby.gamingsame to you! Whatever it is you're going through I wish you the best.. I hope we all get to live long beautiful lives
I'm glad to see you post a video on this because I myself have had severe existential anxiety my whole life (I'm 19 not too old yet haha). I used to have my parents promise me every night that I wouldn't die in my sleep because the fear would consume me daily. I got really good at running away and surpressing the fear of dying, dissociating from it, but lately I've found that I should just maybe sit down and have a talk with death, not in a morbid sense or anything. It's just I realized that if I keep running away from that fear I'll never overcome it and there would come a day where it would be my time to pass and I would still be afraid, and I don't want to be afraid when I go, if I have to go I at least want to be at peace when I do. So now that you kind of have my backstory I wanted to share some thoughts that have kind of helped me with my constant struggle with this, I doubt this comment will be seen in the flood of 3,000+ comments but thats exactly why Im writing this whole essay. Even if it reaches one person, helps one person, thats enough, because I know how much it would mean to me if I heard this years ago. For one thing I think the very fact we even fear death to begin with speaks for itself in many ways, I've grown to think of it as beautiful. Most forms of life on earth just live and die and they never think twice of it, sure they might instinctually fear it and avoid it but they don't understand it like we do, we unfortunately have the privellege of being the only form of life capable of understanding a fraction of the mind boggling complexity that is life. I mean just think about how powerful that statement alone is, you are part of likely the only species in the universe that grasps the very concept of life itself. I think that alone gives me some hope of something after death, its just too odd to me that we alone perceive such utterly massive concepts even at a surface level. I think the fact that we fear and/or acknowledge death makes our lives so much more beautiful, they are not just a blip of light in eternal darkness, they are each their own spectacular fire that could set a forest ablaze. Even if there is no life after death we do create the future, even if your flame burns out, the forest continues to catch fire, you are not just an ember destined to flicker away, you are the spark that set YOUR world on fire. We burn as bright as we can because we fear the day we stop burning. I kinda went on a bit of an "inspirational rant" there but I want to touch base to what my original thoughts were, I mean just really let it sink in that no other lifeform in the perceivable universe can think like we do, I mean even if we we're just a product of some explosion in space it's still so spectacular that life capable of understanding so much around it would ever be developed from such events. Life typically just exists you know, it just follows the normal timeline but a little bit differently, it is created/formed, sustains that form, then passes away, they don't question things, they just DO. It's natural, what isn't natural is how much we truly understand, saying its mind-blowing is an understatement. A being that came from seemingly nothing concious AT ALL that has the potential to understand IT ALL. Even the concepts we can't understand are acheivements, try to imagine a new color, a completley new color, not a mixture of other colors, a completley new color, you can't, its impossible, we can only understand what we perceive, yet we perceive what we cant understand, the very fact that we perceive the concept itself is insane. All of these thoughts and no other lifeform even reaches a fraction of our level of intellectual capability, it's just simply so incredibly bizarre, no human can wrap their head around it logically, human intelligence is such an anomaly, it is either the single greatest miracle to ever happen, or there is something beyond this life. Anyways those are just my thoughts about this so far. I still fear death every day of my life but I've found it better to find my own understanding of it rather than be consumed by it my entire life. I don't want to feel this fear forever. [Edit] - I mean even think about identity, the fact we attach an identity to ourselves is crazy itself not even animals really do that, I mean look at dogs/cats seeing their own reflection, they get shocked because they don't have a real concept of themselves, they just experience. But humans don't just experience, it's so hard to put into words my ambitions exceed my mental capacity, but humans don't just experience life its almost as if we exist beyond it. Again its so hard to express what I mean by that, but just the very fact that we have our own identity, we say "I am me", we can't even perceive a world where you don't have a concept of your own identity, thats how ingrained it is into you. You can't perceive a world where you don't acknowledge YOURSELF, and yet again the very fact that we can point out the absurdity of our own concept of identity just continues to prove my point here, we are spectacular, inconceivable beings regardless of if death is permanent. So don't let fear consume you, understand it, it's what we're best at.
yeah I've been thinking the same. we need to really go down with a bang, so that we don't regret our time we have now
The older you get the faster time goes. Which is why its important for everyone to take breaks from time to time
I love you Goose!!
I'm going through it too man. I'm currently 33. I'll be 34 in August. I understand how it feels. This thought has been plaguing me the last couple of years.
Hey, at least you get to be here to make this video. You get to watch your daughter grow up and make her smile. You get to experience life. That's the miracle and the win!!
Keep your head up and keep smiling and making your family happy.
Always looking into the future, the past can never keep you from achieving your future, and likewise, our future is only partially influenced by our past. Much more powerful than your past is your attitude and faith in oneself.
Everything comes to an end. And yes, while a little depressing, i find it absolutely beautiful.
You’re not over half way done man, the body is amazing at recovering and medical science only gets better.
We’re born to expire, it’s about the little one you leave behind.
I find solace in my children and their children and their children’s children.
Through your dying, you create so much life for generations to come
If you would be not sad, you could not even appreciate how precious your life really is. You don`t want to be immortal. Beauty in fragility.
I feel like that's just us coping. The universe is immortal, and it's the most beautiful and precious thing in existence.
@@Naptosis Even Black Holes die at some point, there is nothing like immortality in the Universe. Galaxy's die for new born Stars there is a circle of life and our part is to witness it and maybe give birth to the next step of evolution.
Nah. I want to be immortal. I at least want to live as long as a greenland shark.
@@junfaa they don`t have sex before a century^^ it all comes with a cost^^ you might think twice here^^
Give us a couple of thousand years at least.
I so feel this video. I am 39 and I have a 2 and 8 year old. I have been struggling with my health the last year and it is believed now after many test I have Sjögren’s syndrome. I have been suffering from gastritis which is my main complaint, it causes me great pain everyday and I am afraid of it turning into cancer. Or all the other complications this autoimmune disease can cause. I was healthy and vibrate just a year ago. Now I struggle all day and cry so much. I always thought I would be somewhat healthy until I was at least 50 but, I didn’t even make it to 40 before my health started suffering. I fear dying so much. I want to play with my babies, I want to be there for their activities, play with them at the playground, go to Disney, share food, be there for their first love, first heartbreak, prom, college. I want so badly to go back to being healthy but, I can’t so now even though it depresses me, I try to just make it to tomorrow. I try so hard all day to be thankful to be able to care for them. To see them smile and laugh and cry. To kiss them and hug them, to smell their hair when they want to comforted. Or to hold my son longer after I rocked him to sleep. I try to always kiss my husband goodnight or goodbye, to let him know I love him so much because this experience has made me realize life is so fickle and you never know what tomorrow could bring or take away.
Thank you for this video. I have been really struggling with these thoughts this year and it got me so low I was in a pretty dark place just a couple of months ago, but you're right, with time, I have learned to find some acceptance. I'm trying to LIVE more and be present. Go outside and listen to the birds, hug the people you love, do your best for yourself every day. You deserve it.
Havent even watched the video yet but here to say WE LOVE YOU MAN ❤
Love u 2 bro 👁️👄👁️
The early comment gets the worm 🐛
Life is short and meaningless, so dont worry about too much and focus on having fun , making memories, and living in the moment ❤
Wow, love seeing him be real for a video. I love all his videos but this was the first real one I've seen, and boy did it hit hard. I'm 35 with a 2 year old, looks like I gotta stop sleeping in and pick up a few extra hours to save for Disney.
Love this Goose, Thank you!
Im an atheist and it actually makes me appreciate this rare opportunity to exist even more. I feel so grateful just to exist
Belief has nothing to do with seeing the beauty in the short life we live.
(I assume using the word "atheist" brings bots)
Google this -
Full text of "The Revelations of an Elite Family Insider (2005)"
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Then thank the creator of the heavens and Earth who gave you life and placed you here for this moment
Nature and the universe are truly beautiful, the way patterns of stars map out the night sky and fractal patterns exist in things like grass, leaves, bark, the branches of trees. I used to be atheist too until I experienced ego death on LSD. I saw myself die or what I thought was me dying, hearing a flatling noise and be introduced into this other dimension full of beings made of energy, but they were stuck in place because all they ever knew was all what they fed themselves which was negative energy.
It was just a reflection on myself, but after yelling in a hotel at midnight, being taken home in the back of a car as it morphed into a chariot being pulled by horses, cobblestone houses emerging from both sides of the road like the medieval ages while a massive holographic castle emerged from the ground ahead of the chariot as the driver "kingdom visor" as I saw them, asked me where I wanted to have my kingdom built.
I was having auditory hallucinations tripping absolute sack, and at the end when they dropped me off my friend looked at me. I was forced to look in this direction, I still wasn't me, or in control of me, and telepathically I heard "since you can't create anything, you are nothing" before the trip starting mellowing out and reality snapped back into place; as they vanished out of the doorway and even moments later after going outside to check to see if their car was still at my house it wasn't, it didn't even feel like but a minute.
It felt like god or an advanced species was talking to me, I had goosebumps/chills all down my skin afterwards and it felt like I was reborn, a kid again, opening my mind to the questions of what more there really can be that we don't know about.
Psychologists call this phenomenon the "reminiscence bump", and it helps explain why our earlier years seem so much more memorable than life after 30.
im 26 and I have that lol
Everyday routines is also what makes time seem to go faster. Until your 20s you have SO much new experiences, which decline later in life. Especially when you work 5-6 days a week, doing the same stuff over and over again. So the key is to try new stuff, make as much new experiences as possible...that can make it feel a little bit "slower".
But in the end death gets us all anyways.
@@reuterss306 The key isn't just about trying new things in a corporate environment. It's about choosing how you live your life and deciding the kind of life you want to lead, whether it's one filled with discontent or one where you're always content, no matter what happens. It's all about our perspective on life. Many people take it for granted, but some make the most of it and find joy in the small things.
i’m 22, still don’t know how I teleported from 20-22 in a blink, maybe i’m delusional lol
Thanks for this video man. I could listen to you talk about this kind of stuff all day. Much respect for talking on some real s***. Its very refreshing hearing you talk like this. It's as if the vale is being lifted, and I feel your audience will appreciate you even more for showing this side of you.