You seriously couldn’t have said it any better, I’m currently going through this in my life and it feels like I’m all alone since nobody understands your thoughts. It sometimes feels like you’re being cursed, I’m still recovering and hoping I’ll be able to overcome it one day or have much less thoughts.
So many direct parallels to your story. It's good to know that There are other people just as weird as us and there's beauty in that. When we notice we don't suffer alone. It allows us to use one another's experiences as stepping stones and ledges to climb up out of the abyss. It's not easy, but every day you make strides toward a healthier mind and a healthier you, you get a bit closer to the person you want to be.
I've struggle with it for a long long time, even in this moment I'm typing. However it's make me comfortable when came to think that it's not only me in the world who suffered in the same condition and many people try to help other with care and kindness. It's means so much for me. Thank you very much.
It’s so interesting to hear other experiences. I’ve had such weird compulsions that have nothing to do with anything, yet felt the need to. Putting socks on, shoes, boxers, putting soap on my hands in the shower, brushing my beard, opening a lock on a locker, turning an Xbox on etc. numbers, phrases, good words to counter bad words (think of life to counter death, healthy to counter unhealthy etc) we are fully aware of what it is and how it doesn’t correlate between reality…but anxiety comes in to smash your stomach and heart lmao I’ve been suffering from since I was able to remember, earliest memories. It’s gotten a lot. A LOT better these days, but sometimes it pops up. OCD and Anxiety helped a lot. Nathan is a saint. Anyways, hope you’re doing well❤️
Also, my childhood was absolutely insane. Truly, I’m not at all shocked my mental health was obliterated so young. However, sometimes we have the power to realize, living in fear isn’t living at all.
it helps knowing you're not alone. i've been dealing with ocd and anxiety for a while now, 2019 is when it took over my life. a saying i like to use a lot is (when it happens i'll deal with it) for many of these thoughts, this one alone has helped me through alot. relapses are a struggle for me and it always feels like i've lost all my progress when these happen. watching videos of other people's journey helps me feel not alone and gives me motivation to keep doing therapy when times are rough
Yeeeeeeeeeee my beautiful weirdo sister. This video is awesome. I'm so sorry you've had to navigate such distressing terrain within your mind. God damn our minds can get us into such tricky places... I hope your video helps people see that they're not alone and that they're not broken. As you said, just as our brains were wired through early experience to cope in ways that may distress us, so too can we guide our brains gradually to heal, to experience ourselves and the world in new ways over time. We can heal. There is hope. But it takes time, effort and a bit of courage. I hope your videos inspire even an ounce of self-compassion in those who see them. We're all struggling and we don't choose to suffer in the ways that we do. But we can choose to make small changes that move us towards a better place. Keep it up Alice
We have OCD, ASD, cPTSD, and D.I.D. Thank you for making this! We also have a specific cross walk compulsion (dancing the walk like an Egyptian dance move from the 80’s 😅) and also we compulsively pick up trash too! 😮💨
I can't really relate to OCD or Magical Thinking. However, I can feel you, as I am familiar with anxiety. Alice, I would like to speak to you directly: There is something comforting in your video, soothing almost. You share your vulnerability with many people including me. That means a lot to me. I am touched. Thank you.
Im sitting here with my partner, and i have debilitating magical thinking ocd, and we both were just wide eyed, you described everything i also do. Seeing you so open and your message actually made me tear up haha, i wish there was more i could possibly say to let you know how amazing and needed this was, but i dont feel alone. My psrtner has been such a rock for me, even with something as silly as my foot taps, checking and my constant anxiety caused by the compulsions. For whatever its worth, thank you. I really needed to hear this.
Wow! Thank you so much for sharing and for your feedback. I am so glad that you feel less alone, as you are certainly not alone! I am also glad that your partner is there for you and seems to be supportive. 👍🏼 I read a book recently which was an amazing read in my opinion and really helped me understand OCD again for the first time in years from some with lived experience that wrote it (which is nice) and has deeper knowledge upon diving deeper into the misunderstood nature of OCD and also how to truly learn to overcome it. It is called “The Joy Thief by Penny Moodie”. I think it will help you to feel understood and less alone in your struggles as well. 😊 Feel free to reach out if needed and i wish you all the best! 👊🏼
@@alicemoyle yes! Having support is huge but also can be tricky as the person not suffering doesn't always know what to say lol. I guess what I mean is they can almost be reassuring you in a negative way as far as revovery but not intentional. Thanks for the reply! I'll definitely pick up that book! It's definitely a hobby of mine to collect them haha! I have been working pretty steady this week on no compulsions, some days are easier then others but it really is a game of re wiring the brain. Yes for sure! Would love to chat whenever you want! It means alot to have like minded ppl on this ride aha! I hope your well! Wishing you the best!
The worst is when there’s a ‘false correlation’ when you’re doing exposure therapy. Happened to me this week and one of the bad things I feared would happen happened. Destabilized me/all the progress I was making :/
OCD is not fun at all. The only thing that really helped keep it in check is to just accept that it might happen. It's not fun to leave the house and just have to accept that I might come back to find my house has burned down because I forgot to turn off the stove or that I'll be burglarized because I forgot to lock the door. I'll kind of operate switches as slowly as possible in order to give ti time to register that I've turned off the switch. It definitely isn't easy, but it beats having it spiral out of control the way that it otherwise does.
I’m sorry that you experience OCD as well. It can certainly be rough and difficult to manage. Some days are easier than others. I hope you are doing okay!
@@alicemoyle It definitely is hard. I'm somewhat lucky in that my ADHD and autism seem to sort of keep it at bay, but it is unfortunate that every time the ritual is repeated, it just makes it that much harder to not do the next time.
I wish my now separated wife after 25yrs could have challenged herself and reflected to know she couldn’t keep living life this way and have a healthy relationship because she always trying covertly control me and the marriage to ease her threat system. I never tried to shame her and am highly empathetic but does not give reason to stand in the way of what is best for the family. I live in full reality the goods and the bads and it is too much for any of my family except for my sons. They seem to appreciate it or at least respect it or me for it. Lot of hurt in life. You can’t have your cake and eat it too. Have to pick one. I believe if you learn how to make a cake, eat it and you can bake another one……..life was meant to be lived. All of your thoughts are not you, just the ones you act upon. It’s what you do with your thoughts that creates actions and reactions. In the middle instead of extremes one side or the other or running back and forth from both ends. I have my own struggles even trying to be balanced in the middle before you might think I believe I’m some know it all. Just have been observing people from all walks of life since very young trying to figure out the truths of a well lived life so that I can die at peace with the journey I’ve finished. See many beautiful people ensnared in this fear and anxiety and trauma building their own little prison one brick in a wall at a time. The deceiver is real and there is a war to keep us from shining a light thru this fallen world. Sending my love to those challenged by this that you may have the courage to face it and believe it can be healed until can form healthy relationships with people who are healthy. We have to be able to come back together as communities around wholesome things that produce fruit for all . Not winners and losers. See the extremes.
Of course! It is really helpful to get support and speak about it with others. It makes it less intense and scary to deal with it on your own. I wish you all the best!
Hi Alice, I can relate to this video and it does help me. The thing that would help me get over this is what I need to figure out. What if the thing actually happened ? Like I said if I don’t do this my parents horse would get hurt. When something actually happens it makes ocd even worse. Any advice ?
Can you please tell the name of the background music....it was really calming listing to the music while i was having a really bad ocd impulsive thought and was feeling like anxious.
If I'm watching a movie, that I've seen before, I sometimes feel like I need to pause the movie once and unpause before a certain scene comes up. Or if it's on tv and I can't pause, I feel like I have to touch my toe to the throw rug before it comes on... OR if I see a piece of paper on the ground outside, and I see it has text on in, I feel compelled to read the text
@@thefreedomofspeechpodcast i’m sorry that you have been feeling low. Thank you for your comments about my channel, it is so nice to hear and i am very glad! 😊
Ok, here goes. Weird story and it has absolutely nothing to do with the video. I was driving around town when the song "The Lotto" by one Ingrid Michaelson came on. Where I am from, Ingrid Michaelson is not well known but I remembered that I definitely heard the name somewhere. So after a few hours of work I got home and researched. When "The way I am" came up I suddenly remembered your name. Weirdest thing.... I actually watched your covers, I think, more than a decade ago thinking that what you are doing would be pretty cool for my daughter to do (she is 14 now). I might have actually commented on one or two of them with some encouraging words. Well, since I actually remembered your full name I was gonna watch those videos again. They are not there anymore but I found your new ones. Seems like you went through some stuff and I hope you are well. You and your covers appearantly stayed with me for over ten years and I hope it doesn't embarass you that I brought them up. Stay positive and, sincerely, have a nice life.
Hey Bosko, wow! Thats pretty amazing. All of my covers still exist on my old channel, they are just listed privately now. I knew i wanted to make a different type of youtube channel and so i didn’t want the two channels to make it confusing. I will likely upload some singing to this channel too. Thank you so much for your kind words and remembering me! I hope you are well too 🙂
Thank you for your story. I have this. Would you be able to have a conversation? I'm not sure how to message on here. But would love a conversation. Thank you
im having ocd😢😢. im afraid if it effect my marietal relationship. so im afraid to get married. 😪😪. im 32 year old male suffering from harm ocd.,hit and run ocd, checking ocd
I’m so sorry to hear about your struggles. You can get through this and find ways to overcome the intensities of OCD. It is possible, it just takes time and effort and you can have a loving marriage one day too ❤️
I am sorry to hear about your struggles with tinnitus. It can be so tiring and trust me I have been there. I thought that it would never be possible to enjoy my life again and I had no hope for my future. It took a lot of sleepless nights and breakdowns before I started to see progress, but over time you will be able to get better and find ways to cope and heal. Many people have overcome tinnitus and found ways to not let it take over their life even if they hear it 10% of the time. You've got this!
I read a book recently called The Joy Thief by Penny Moodie and I would 100% recommend reading it! She has OCD and talks about her experience and how misunderstood it is, as well as why Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP) Therapy tends to be the best option for people!
Thankyouu im wholeheartedly grateful😭🤍 nowadays im even scared to laugh out load, live my life because i feel like something bad is gonna happen or i'll cry if i enjoy too much. I donno what to do😭😭
You seriously couldn’t have said it any better, I’m currently going through this in my life and it feels like I’m all alone since nobody understands your thoughts. It sometimes feels like you’re being cursed, I’m still recovering and hoping I’ll be able to overcome it one day or have much less thoughts.
Thank you for sharing! I’m so sorry that you also experience the difficulties of OCD. You are definitely not alone ❤️
@@alicemoyle Thank you so much it means a lot
I'm in the same boat!
The issue is you see signs everyday it's a hell on earth
Thank you for everything u r saying to help with this tinnitus, l will start trying to help myself instead of everybody else!
Thats great!
34 years and diagnosed as a child. Thank you for sharing ❤
Same here. 34 years old, ocd since I could remember.
So many direct parallels to your story. It's good to know that There are other people just as weird as us and there's beauty in that. When we notice we don't suffer alone. It allows us to use one another's experiences as stepping stones and ledges to climb up out of the abyss. It's not easy, but every day you make strides toward a healthier mind and a healthier you, you get a bit closer to the person you want to be.
Definitely! Go us weirdos! ☺️🫶🏼
I've struggle with it for a long long time, even in this moment I'm typing. However it's make me comfortable when came to think that it's not only me in the world who suffered in the same condition and many people try to help other with care and kindness. It's means so much for me. Thank you very much.
You are not alone and you are very welcome! I am glad that the video has provided some comfort for you. You've got this :)
It’s so interesting to hear other experiences. I’ve had such weird compulsions that have nothing to do with anything, yet felt the need to. Putting socks on, shoes, boxers, putting soap on my hands in the shower, brushing my beard, opening a lock on a locker, turning an Xbox on etc. numbers, phrases, good words to counter bad words (think of life to counter death, healthy to counter unhealthy etc) we are fully aware of what it is and how it doesn’t correlate between reality…but anxiety comes in to smash your stomach and heart lmao
I’ve been suffering from since I was able to remember, earliest memories. It’s gotten a lot. A LOT better these days, but sometimes it pops up. OCD and Anxiety helped a lot. Nathan is a saint. Anyways, hope you’re doing well❤️
Also, my childhood was absolutely insane. Truly, I’m not at all shocked my mental health was obliterated so young. However, sometimes we have the power to realize, living in fear isn’t living at all.
it helps knowing you're not alone. i've been dealing with ocd and anxiety for a while now, 2019 is when it took over my life.
a saying i like to use a lot is (when it happens i'll deal with it) for many of these thoughts, this one alone has helped me through alot.
relapses are a struggle for me and it always feels like i've lost all my progress when these happen.
watching videos of other people's journey helps me feel not alone and gives me motivation to keep doing therapy when times are rough
Yeeeeeeeeeee my beautiful weirdo sister. This video is awesome.
I'm so sorry you've had to navigate such distressing terrain within your mind. God damn our minds can get us into such tricky places...
I hope your video helps people see that they're not alone and that they're not broken. As you said, just as our brains were wired through early experience to cope in ways that may distress us, so too can we guide our brains gradually to heal, to experience ourselves and the world in new ways over time. We can heal. There is hope. But it takes time, effort and a bit of courage.
I hope your videos inspire even an ounce of self-compassion in those who see them. We're all struggling and we don't choose to suffer in the ways that we do. But we can choose to make small changes that move us towards a better place.
Keep it up Alice
We have OCD, ASD, cPTSD, and D.I.D. Thank you for making this! We also have a specific cross walk compulsion (dancing the walk like an Egyptian dance move from the 80’s 😅) and also we compulsively pick up trash too! 😮💨
I can't really relate to OCD or Magical Thinking. However, I can feel you, as I am familiar with anxiety. Alice, I would like to speak to you directly: There is something comforting in your video, soothing almost. You share your vulnerability with many people including me. That means a lot to me. I am touched. Thank you.
Thank you for your kind comment and for sharing :) You can send me an email at moyle.alice@proton.me if you like! Wishing you all the best.
And schizophrenia thought disorder, no but I am subject to the idealism I don't like it... that's old. You probably are too.
Thank you for posting
Im sitting here with my partner, and i have debilitating magical thinking ocd, and we both were just wide eyed, you described everything i also do. Seeing you so open and your message actually made me tear up haha, i wish there was more i could possibly say to let you know how amazing and needed this was, but i dont feel alone. My psrtner has been such a rock for me, even with something as silly as my foot taps, checking and my constant anxiety caused by the compulsions.
For whatever its worth, thank you. I really needed to hear this.
Wow! Thank you so much for sharing and for your feedback. I am so glad that you feel less alone, as you are certainly not alone! I am also glad that your partner is there for you and seems to be supportive. 👍🏼
I read a book recently which was an amazing read in my opinion and really helped me understand OCD again for the first time in years from some with lived experience that wrote it (which is nice) and has deeper knowledge upon diving deeper into the misunderstood nature of OCD and also how to truly learn to overcome it.
It is called “The Joy Thief by Penny Moodie”.
I think it will help you to feel understood and less alone in your struggles as well. 😊
Feel free to reach out if needed and i wish you all the best! 👊🏼
@@alicemoyle yes! Having support is huge but also can be tricky as the person not suffering doesn't always know what to say lol. I guess what I mean is they can almost be reassuring you in a negative way as far as revovery but not intentional. Thanks for the reply! I'll definitely pick up that book! It's definitely a hobby of mine to collect them haha! I have been working pretty steady this week on no compulsions, some days are easier then others but it really is a game of re wiring the brain. Yes for sure! Would love to chat whenever you want! It means alot to have like minded ppl on this ride aha!
I hope your well! Wishing you the best!
Great content and well spoken. You are brave.
So inspirational to be able to hear your experiences, best wishes.
Thank you! Best wishes to you 🙂
@@alicemoyle when I wrote 'best wishes', I had to think "am I doing magical thinking?"
So glad I found your channel today! All the best 😊
The worst is when there’s a ‘false correlation’ when you’re doing exposure therapy. Happened to me this week and one of the bad things I feared would happen happened. Destabilized me/all the progress I was making :/
I am sorry to hear that. I wish you all the best and even though you have had a setback, its possible to continue healing and seeing progress again.
I can so relate! It’s a bit of a rollercoaster and you shouldn’t be hard on yourself when you go south. It just makes it more difficult!
OCD is not fun at all. The only thing that really helped keep it in check is to just accept that it might happen. It's not fun to leave the house and just have to accept that I might come back to find my house has burned down because I forgot to turn off the stove or that I'll be burglarized because I forgot to lock the door.
I'll kind of operate switches as slowly as possible in order to give ti time to register that I've turned off the switch.
It definitely isn't easy, but it beats having it spiral out of control the way that it otherwise does.
I’m sorry that you experience OCD as well. It can certainly be rough and difficult to manage. Some days are easier than others. I hope you are doing okay!
@@alicemoyle It definitely is hard. I'm somewhat lucky in that my ADHD and autism seem to sort of keep it at bay, but it is unfortunate that every time the ritual is repeated, it just makes it that much harder to not do the next time.
@@SmallSpoonBrigade Yeah, i totally know what you mean. It can be really hard to break certain rituals.
you should make another video talking about your experience with ocd
I will definitely do this!
I wish my now separated wife after 25yrs could have challenged herself and reflected to know she couldn’t keep living life this way and have a healthy relationship because she always trying covertly control me and the marriage to ease her threat system. I never tried to shame her and am highly empathetic but does not give reason to stand in the way of what is best for the family. I live in full reality the goods and the bads and it is too much for any of my family except for my sons. They seem to appreciate it or at least respect it or me for it. Lot of hurt in life. You can’t have your cake and eat it too. Have to pick one. I believe if you learn how to make a cake, eat it and you can bake another one……..life was meant to be lived. All of your thoughts are not you, just the ones you act upon. It’s what you do with your thoughts that creates actions and reactions. In the middle instead of extremes one side or the other or running back and forth from both ends. I have my own struggles even trying to be balanced in the middle before you might think I believe I’m some know it all. Just have been observing people from all walks of life since very young trying to figure out the truths of a well lived life so that I can die at peace with the journey I’ve finished. See many beautiful people ensnared in this fear and anxiety and trauma building their own little prison one brick in a wall at a time. The deceiver is real and there is a war to keep us from shining a light thru this fallen world. Sending my love to those challenged by this that you may have the courage to face it and believe it can be healed until can form healthy relationships with people who are healthy. We have to be able to come back together as communities around wholesome things that produce fruit for all . Not winners and losers. See the extremes.
I noticed though, when i acknowledge it by speaking about it, describing it or talking about it, it somehow helps.
Of course! It is really helpful to get support and speak about it with others. It makes it less intense and scary to deal with it on your own. I wish you all the best!
I have the feeling that if I drop my protection of someone they will r😢un in bad luck
I feel I can make street light turn off or flicker.
Hi Alice, I can relate to this video and it does help me. The thing that would help me get over this is what I need to figure out. What if the thing actually happened ? Like I said if I don’t do this my parents horse would get hurt. When something actually happens it makes ocd even worse. Any advice ?
Hey there, could you elaborate more as to what you mean or what happens for you? I hope you are doing okay! Sorry for my delayed response.
Thanks for sharing this
You’re welcome 😊
Can you please tell the name of the background music....it was really calming listing to the music while i was having a really bad ocd impulsive thought and was feeling like anxious.
If I'm watching a movie, that I've seen before, I sometimes feel like I need to pause the movie once and unpause before a certain scene comes up. Or if it's on tv and I can't pause, I feel like I have to touch my toe to the throw rug before it comes on... OR if I see a piece of paper on the ground outside, and I see it has text on in, I feel compelled to read the text
It’s interesting how our OCD shows up with different compulsions. It’s a bizarre and often tiring journey isn’t it! Wishing you all the best.
Great vid
Thank you!
@@alicemoyle Was feeling low today and your vids really helped so you made a good choice starting your youtube channel.
@@thefreedomofspeechpodcast i’m sorry that you have been feeling low.
Thank you for your comments about my channel, it is so nice to hear and i am very glad! 😊
Ok, here goes. Weird story and it has absolutely nothing to do with the video. I was driving around town when the song "The Lotto" by one Ingrid Michaelson came on. Where I am from, Ingrid Michaelson is not well known but I remembered that I definitely heard the name somewhere. So after a few hours of work I got home and researched. When "The way I am" came up I suddenly remembered your name. Weirdest thing.... I actually watched your covers, I think, more than a decade ago thinking that what you are doing would be pretty cool for my daughter to do (she is 14 now). I might have actually commented on one or two of them with some encouraging words. Well, since I actually remembered your full name I was gonna watch those videos again. They are not there anymore but I found your new ones. Seems like you went through some stuff and I hope you are well. You and your covers appearantly stayed with me for over ten years and I hope it doesn't embarass you that I brought them up. Stay positive and, sincerely, have a nice life.
Hey Bosko, wow! Thats pretty amazing. All of my covers still exist on my old channel, they are just listed privately now. I knew i wanted to make a different type of youtube channel and so i didn’t want the two channels to make it confusing. I will likely upload some singing to this channel too. Thank you so much for your kind words and remembering me! I hope you are well too 🙂
I've got intrusive thoughts that I've already done something which is unbearable.
Sorry for the late response. What do you mean by this? I am sorry that you experience intrusive thoughts. I get this as well. You've got this.
Thank you for your story. I have this. Would you be able to have a conversation? I'm not sure how to message on here. But would love a conversation. Thank you
You can email me! The email is on my youtube home page. 🙂
im having ocd😢😢. im afraid if it effect my marietal relationship. so im afraid to get married. 😪😪. im 32 year old male suffering from harm ocd.,hit and run ocd, checking ocd
I’m so sorry to hear about your struggles. You can get through this and find ways to overcome the intensities of OCD. It is possible, it just takes time and effort and you can have a loving marriage one day too ❤️
I have been suffering from this from a long time, I'm just clueless and helpless how can i overcome from this.. or is it even possible
I am sorry to hear about your struggles with tinnitus. It can be so tiring and trust me I have been there. I thought that it would never be possible to enjoy my life again and I had no hope for my future. It took a lot of sleepless nights and breakdowns before I started to see progress, but over time you will be able to get better and find ways to cope and heal. Many people have overcome tinnitus and found ways to not let it take over their life even if they hear it 10% of the time. You've got this!
Have you found a cure for it or treatment that works? How do you manage through with it?
I read a book recently called The Joy Thief by Penny Moodie and I would 100% recommend reading it! She has OCD and talks about her experience and how misunderstood it is, as well as why Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP) Therapy tends to be the best option for people!
I used to repeat everything I did in four sets of four
Same here. Why does it have to be 4?
Damn... same thing. You are not the only one. Same crap. It seems like something spiritual or evil. Its weird.
Thankyouu im wholeheartedly grateful😭🤍 nowadays im even scared to laugh out load, live my life because i feel like something bad is gonna happen or i'll cry if i enjoy too much. I donno what to do😭😭